#my issue is that i dislike writing unhealthy relationships for the most part
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like have you ever wanted to take your SI/OC and just. play with them and non-FO characters like dolls a little bit.
#my issue is that i dislike writing unhealthy relationships for the most part#and i feel like Rosario/Norton wouldn't jive for the same reason i stopped shipping Luchino/Norton#because Norton WAS being written in canon as an abusive entitled person who would leech onto a compassionate person#and just drain them of everything and demand more while giving nothing in return#HOWEVER#netease having retconned his backstory into someone who's never had a break his entire life and is fed the fuck up?#and responds positively to being treated with basic decency?#THAT i can get behind again#but i would still want to do it in the context#of Rosario as an OC and not as a SI if that makes a lick of sense#i feel like it's less weird to 'play' with OCs than with SIs#like why do i wanna put 'myself' in an unhealthy relationship (presumably with a plot of working towards being healthy)#but a genuine enemies-to-lovers arc is something i've wanted to try properly for a WHILE#and i just think it could be super interesting to write Norton taking advantage of Rosario at first but then growing more genuine#like for the first time in his life he's being cared for and it frees him up a bit to be able to actually feel emotions#and it would absolutely be unhealthy for Rosario at first because initially he is taking advantage of them but at the same time#they 'need' to be needed and to provide care and comfort#and eventually they get to the point where Norton isn't using them anymore because he actually cares about them too#so it becomes mutual and evens out#idk is it fucked up that i want to mess with this?#river babbles
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Celebrity Birth Chart Analysis: Matty Healy
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I found him to be very interesting recently, especially after the amount of female celebrities singing about him that has flooded my reels. I thought, why him? So here we are:
Please note that I am unfamiliar with him & The 1975 outside of the realisation that many songs I liked were actually written about him & shallow research i.e a couple Google searches. I will be using a lot of may & could be(s) to describe him.
Planetary placements:
12th House stellium
I'm presented with the answer immediately. So Matty has a very confusing, soft & almost unreachable aura. He himself is a very spiritual person, or at least he finds himself reflective of the more transcendental part of life. He may be living in a constant state of enlightenment, fear, & isolation. His life may be surrounded with a lot of illusions and mysticism. He is also extremely prone to struggle with a lot of substance abuse i.e alcoholism, drug abuse.
ex: I've started listening to some of The 1975s' songs and they have this theme of being dreamy, hazy & slightly out of touch with reality. There is also a slightly depressing undertone in their songs. He himself has had an unhealthy streak with mental illness & drug abuse until entering rehab in 2017. He has since been abstinent of drug use but still drinks & smokes.
Sun (18° virgo) in Aries 12th house
He is someone very talented in the realms of artistry & music. He may have gone through multiple periods of isolation or dark periods of depression & pessimism. He may have attachment issues. He uses his music as an outlet to vent the feelings he feels strongly & those he can't contain/control (aries). He may have issues with boundaries too i.e people invading his privacy. He may dislike feeling like a separate entity from his lovers. He wants to be fully a part of their being.
Venus (19°libra) in Aries 12th house
He could have very idealistic views on love and romance especially with the libra degree & 12th house placement. He may have an unhealthy expectation of how love, s*x (aries) and intimacy is supposed to be like. He is forever searching for something unattainable. Forever running through his own fantasies, hoping to indulge in his idea of true love.
Mercury (22° capricorn) in Aries 12th house
He works with his voice, and his career involves a lot of thinking, writing, creativity, romance & fast-paced movement i.e moving from city to city & town to town. Long distance travel (12th house) is a part of his career. He is never in one place for that long to sing or write.
Lust (6° virgo) in Taurus 12th house
He could be very s*xualised throughout his career (virgo/6th house). People may fantasize about him endlessly, his s*x appeal is very intriguing to women, and they may use him as a s*x symbol. People may have their assumptions on his s*xuality & s*xual nature in general.
Moon (18° virgo) in Taurus 12th house
He feels very deeply, and I think deeply is an understatement. He is able to feel every layer of himself, others and the universe. He is very empathetic, pessimistic and may have abandonment issues. His mother may have been absent in his life, or he has always felt very distant from her. The way he channels his emotions is through work. He will bury himself in work, or his writing to cope with any overwhelming feelings he may have. Taurus adds a lot of attachment and stubbornness. Most of his troubles or his feelings will relate to other people & his close/romantic relationships. He may vent about all his frustration through writing (virgo, hands) or music (12th house).
AC (20° scorpio)
He has a very s*xual, and intense image or something about him is considered very s*xually appealing. People may have trouble parting with him. People could be easily obsessed with him.
Jupiter (4° cancer) in 1st house
He could attract a LOT of women into his life. He may be seen as very attractive to women. He has a soft, romantic & approachable appearance. People will feel immediately comfortable when they are around him.
ex: Taylor Swift & Halsey both reference him as a soft boy, a tattooed golden retriever if you will.
Mars (17° leo) in Gemini 2nd house
He will attract a lot of lovers through his work (mars). Many women (2nd house) will see him as a s*x symbol or at least very s*xually appealing. He could go through a lot of romantic relationships pretty quickly. A lot of his early romances may be quite short lived because of his work or his drive/ambition.
Boda (17° leo) in Gemini 2nd house
He may attract a lot of marriage potential partners. He may attract a lot of admirers, idealising marriage or a commitment relationship with him. He may marry twice or have more than one marriage or engagement. His is very much in love with love. Romance is a big part of his life & he is very loyal to any lover he currently has.
Part of fortune (19° libra) in Gemini 2nd house
He is very lucky with romance, money & relationships. He attracts a lot of female admirers & love interest through his work or through making money. He is able to live in luxury, or at least attain a lot of money in this life.
Chiron (2° taurus) in Cancer 2nd house
He heals through his voice, people may think he has a very soft, & emotionally healing voice. People can connect with his emotions through his voice. He may have trauma surrounding women, food, his voice , money or his mother.
Eros (11° aquarius) in Cancer 3rd house
Women (cancer) on the internet (11°) may find him very s*xual, very hot & may find it easy to fantasize about him in an almost maternal or clingy intimate way. He also may be an avid adult video enjoyer. He could like to have unprotected s*x or emotionally driven s*x. Might have a mommy kink.
note: I won't go any deeper than that here.
Cancer 4th house, moon in 12th house
Again, he may feel very detached from his mother. His mother may have been very dismissive of him, or he may feel unimportant & even invisible to her.
Union (18° virgo) in Leo 5th house
He may meet his future spouse/romantic relationships through his career or while working in the entertainment industry. She (future spouse) may also work in this industry, although she doesn't seem to be a singer.
Alma (19° libra) in Leo 5th house
His soul is a lover. Longing for a romance with full devotion & one that never ages. His soul is also very artistic, music, art & entertainment is a part of his life purpose & journey. His art may be his true love as well.
Juno retrograde (25° aries) in Leo 5th house
It may be a while till he finds his true love. He may have a lot of lessons or karmic debt surrounding love & romance especially under the age of 20-25 that he must overcome before being able to be truly in love & united with his spouse. His early 20s and teenage years were probably filled with a longing for true love that he searched for in many women.
6th house virgo
His career involves writing and singing. It could also involve a lot of planning & organising. He's a singer, having to organise songs & tour dates so that checks out lol.
Vertex (19° libra) in Libra 6th house
Romantic relationships could play a role in his career. Perhaps he is very affectionate or romantic in his work/day to day life. He may show a lot of affection to his coworkers, bandmates & his partners.
ex: he writes a lot of love songs, dates a lot of other artists & is known to be very generous with his kisses lol.
Groom retrograde (0° ) in Scorpio 6th house
He may have the thought of being a husband in the back of his mind often. At the end of the day, he'll think about how his life could change if he were ever to settle down and find that true love of his. He could also sing about being an intense lover often. He might be a very obsessive/possessive spouse.
Pluto retrograde (14° taurus) in Scorpio 6th house
He could attract a lot of toxic or intense relationships through his work. They may be very attached to him & feel very connected to his darkness. He may incorporate very dark or deep issues & themes in his work i.e his songs (taurus). A lot of these themes play out through energy and thought rather than physically.
Great Attractor (14° taurus) in Sagittarius 7th house
He may attract a lot of diverse lovers. He may date a lot of people from a different country. He could sign a very big contract with a foreign (sagittarius) or local (taurus) company for his voice or his writing & may work with/attract a lot of international people (as fans). He attracts a lot of romantic interests.
ex: His record company, Dirty Hit is a local (to him) label based in London with a very diverse genre of music production. A lot of his exes were from another country or state. He has no particular preference for race either. If he loves them, he loves them.
Fama(22° capricorn) in Sagittarius 8th house
He may be known internally for his work & his 'wild' lifestyle. People may be very critical of his love life or his ill life choices. They may think he is too hedonistic and that 'ruins' him. People could be reminded of other celebrities that share his lifestyle and think 'he's doomed'.
ex: In the song 'Colours' Halsey sings the line " I love you make it till you're 28 years old". Perhaps referencing the 27 club (celebrities that died at 27) i.e Kurt Cobain, Jim Morrison & Amy Winehouse.
9th house stellium
He could have a very open mindset. He is very accepting and understanding of people from different walks of life. He may be very philosophical & street smart/witty. He could be very introspective & intuitive as well.
Uranus (5° leo) in Capricorn 9th house
He travels a lot to perform in different countries. Many countries may have very different beliefs from him however, perhaps a lot of them will be quite traditional & strict. Most of the times he may add a lot of change or eccentricity in his art & add excitement wherever he travels. However, his eccentric nature could also cause trouble for him & the people around him.
ex: In July 2023, he kissed a male bandmate while performing in Malaysia as a protest against anti-LGBTQ laws. It caused the music festival to be shut down & the band was briefly imprisoned.
Neptune (12° pisces) in Capricorn 9th house
Similar placements to what I've written before; working with illusion, dreamy & obfuscating presences. He could have been absent from school life or he was never keen on pursuing higher education. He could also have very differing views on religion or spirituality i.e not be raised in a religious household (capricorn). His relationship with the religious world could be very complicated. Could be very introspective about it too or have reservations on the topic.
Vesta (6° virgo) in capricorn 9th house
He may have very conservative friends, people who aren't relatively religious per say. His friends are usually people that he works with. He could relate to a lot of his friends through their shared philosophies or views on religion/god.
Saturn (13° aries) in Capricorn 9th house
Same as Neptune in 9th house. He may have very strict feelings regarding religion or God when he was younger (aries).
ex: In an interview, he mentions he was once an ATHEIST *angry face*, now he's just mildly so and open to the idea of a god or higher power i.e source of salvation.
MC (22° capricorn) & Capricorn 10th house
He is very career driven & may be known for what he does i.e highly valued in his industry/career.
Aquarius 11th house
He has a very clear humanitarian drive. He could be very protective & invested in the underdogs of society. The outscasts. He may have very unique friends or attracts a lot of different people from different communities into his friend groups. He is very genuine with his approach to communication & community.
ex: He has always been outwardly supportive of the LGBTQ+ community.
North node (4° cancer) in Pisces 11th house
He is very community driven i.e very close to his community & his fans. His focus in this life is to enter a state of enlightenment, and total understanding of life (at least the spiritual & karmic side of it). He may have accumulated heavy karmic energy that he must learn to let go. His life will be very intertwined with women & the feminine world.
Some Aspects:
Sun conjunct mercury
He has no issues verbalising his thoughts and opinion. The way he speaks is very genuine to how he feels & what he believes in.
Mercury conjunct venus
He definitely has a way with words. He can be very romantic with the way he conveys his emotions. He seems like the type who has no problems converting his feelings into poems or melodies.
Venus square saturn
He may have trouble getting into a long-term relationship. Most of his relationships may be short-lived i.e less than 5 years. His career may prove quite problematic for his love life as well.
Mars conjunct Part of fortune
His s*x drive, passion, and energy will bring him a lot of luck & opportunities.
Neptune square venus
He idealises love, and devotion. His lovers will also be very attracted to his dark, emotional & dreamy personality. His unhealthy habits may make them feel slightly responsible for him or attached to his tortured artist soul. He has a way of making his lovers feel like they are specially connected to him.
Neptune conjunct MC
He is idealised throughout his career. People may have mixed views over his career or they may have assumptions about him in general.
His birth chart:
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Ok Andy this had been on my mind for a while now and I really want to hear your thoughts on this!
So we all know that Shouto is pure husband material, the kinda guy you'd be proud to introduce to your parents! But yk all those years of abuse and trauma (our poor bby ;-;) would definitely take a big toll on anyone, right?! So I was reminiscing about the earlier episodes where he is all closed off and cold to everyone, and that really got me thinking... what would dating Shouto REALLY be like.
How much of his behavior in a relationship really be affected by his past? Obviously nobody is perfect and even though our princess man comes close what do you think his shortcomings are as a person/partner? What do you think his toxic traits would be? What could be some of his bad habits? How would he react during an argument? I used to hc that he would be really calm and passive but then I remembered this scene
Ofc us being his partner would change things, but he DOES lash out at times. The police officer hadn't yelled at them, he was just explaining what they did was wrong according to the law (which could be unfair but thats his job) and he straight up called him a slur đ (well yk in this society where so many ppl have animal related quirks it probably is a slur? Idk tho). He was sorry later but still. I was so shocked when I internalized the fact that Shouto does infact have quite a temper, even when he's not rude/ aggressive about it. It doesn't make him bad or anything because 9/10 times it's well warranted and I am just a pussy who doesn't handle other's anger well but yk...
WHO WOULD EXPECT A TEMPER FROM THIS LIL FACE?!
I am really wanna take his character and study him under a microscope and I am really interested to see your pov on this. Also don't feel inclined to agree with anything I said if you dont, I asked you precisely cuz I wanted a different way of looking at him from mine.
Btw none of this is to paint him as a bad person or partner because of a few shortcomings or his trauma. We all know he's too precious for that and that would be hypocritical of me especially since I have many of my habits and unhealthy ways of dealing with stuff that I dislike, but I also feel like he has so much angst potential in issues that aren't necessarily rooted in his family but moreso his own personality. Healing is often a "one step forward and three step back journey" and while I hate to watch him struggle, his perseverance gives me a lot of strength. Also obviously people change over the course of time and character development and all that, but we see even after the MASSIVE amounts of character development Bakugo has he still retains a lot of his previous qualities and obviously still struggles with a few things. I wonder if it's similar for Shouto. I wonder what he struggles with đ€ (idk why I am scared but I don't want ppl to take these dumb sleepy thoughts of mine the wrong way yk lol)
I support my mans rights, his wrongs and everything in between :>
(p.s. I am so sleepy rn I don't even know if any of this is coherent cuz the points are flying all over the place but I hope you get a gist of what I am trying to ask. I love myself some sweet angst when it comes to all my blorbos but when I think of Shouto nothing obvious comes to mind. Also whenever I write even an ask or question like this my respect for writers keeps increasing tenfold! How do you guys write fics at like 4 am and it's still a masterpiece and I can barely string my thoughts together... )
Yes!!! I have so many thoughts about this, particularly as someone who also has daddy issues and a hot temper but actively works to be better as well lol.
I do think for the most part we've really seen Shouto move past who he was in those earlier episodes. That is not to say he still doesn't have those feelings, but he arguably manages them in a more regulated way. He has the temper but now he also has the tools and the perspective to better articulate himself.
I think generally Shouto would work hard to be calm and patient during an argument, but as with any human being, mistakes will be made and tempers will spike. I think during particularly bad arguments he'd get more closed off, like in those earlier episodes, would try to go off by himself so that he doesn't explode with that white-hot rage.
I do think, thankfully, that Shouto's ability to show empathy and compassion even in the middle of what we know are the most emotionally trying times of his life (the fights with Dabi), bodes well for his future ability to communicate and regulate himself on the whole. I do not see him as the kind of man who would yell or break things; I see him as the kind of man who now does everything in his power not to be like that.
And also with a face like that, would we not just let him win any argument anyway?? LOL
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1 Martha, 22 Capsize, y 21 Redbeard!
1) Martha - Why do you like or dislike this character?
Ooooo, so I think with Martha I quite like the air of superiority hiding a lot of insecurities thing she has going on, and in writing I like using her an a foil/obstacles for Sonja. But heres the thing, Martha is meant to be a helpful character on the good side which really didn't work with characters who believe they know best. She's an obstacle despite how she should be the most helpful NPC as she is kind of meant to be the guide to the main story.
Also, I personally quite dislike the way treats poly relationships. It feels very unhealthy, borderline cheating with poly as an excuse, and it bums me out quite a bit.
22) Capsize - If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to this character? Something you don't like?
I quite like getting to see Capsize get some cool down time. She goes through so much shit that it's like nice to see her in situations where she can just relax for a bit with people she likes. Or Capsize getting to be a badass in a fight. Just put her in situations, there's so much she can do!!
I really dislike any fanfiction where Capsize is made into a bitch, particularly if she is made so in a way to make Jordan either look better or like a completely innocent character without faults. This kinda doesn't happen in the fandom much anymore but I was about during peak time and god Capsize got the women in fandom(tm) treatment way too much. (Also I just really personally think that portraying Jordan as either not the instigator or in the right with the him vs Capsize situation makes him duller as a character, but that's not really important rn). A LOT of my favourite characters in have been the women that are treated like absolute bitches for either doing one minor bad thing or merely existing near a man when he's part of the fandoms main ship so I'll be honest, one sided assholeness betrayals are a real pet peeves. (Full real villain aus are mega fun though, I would love to see those).
21) Redbeard - If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favourite thing to do when you're writing this character? Something you don't like?
Much like many characters I like, I like making Redbeard suffer in various ways / joking but I mean not really.
To be more serious, I like exploring Redbeard's... depression? Self-loathing? I'm not a psychologist, I can't real say exactly what the definition would be, but like, I really like exploring Redbeard's self-image and particularly self-worth issues and how that all ties in with his relationship with Capsize.
There's not really too much I don't like writing with him. I'm sure I'll stumble onto it eventually, but I mostly just like to make sure he exists. I got kinda sad when, despite surviving season 1, Redbeard was forgotten in canon and I think I really wanted to make up for that by putting him in like all my fics. Like in most of my oldest fics he is the main or one of the main characters. I just like him being there ^-^
#ask#ask game#licantropa#i genuinely thought for so long about things i wouldn't want to write for redbeard#but I've put that man into so many situations#like i was gonna put him being directly opposed to Capsize but that's what is gonna be true in the YTTD au#and I'm looking so much forward to Red as Alice#thanks so much got the ask!!!! ^-^
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what yandere tropes that you hate?personally i hate the "willing darling" trope more than anything,it just whenever i see it i can't help but roll my eyes
This is an interesting one, I wouldnât really say there are many tropes I hate at all, there are a couple that Iâm really not as into myself, but am still willing to write/read, willing darling being one of them. Donât get me wrong, I get why people love it, but for me the unhealthy aspects driving to yandere to commit immoral acts is one of the best things about yanderes, so a willing darling with a pretty normal relationship doesnât scratch the itch the same way unwilling darlings getting taken and nonconned does.
Yanderes with multiple darlings. This one...I donât get. For me, my love of yanderes in their loyalty to a singular induividual (read as my oc), so having to then share that yandere love? No thank you. Granted, thereâs a few small exceptions, mainly with my friend groupâs oc because Iâm a slut for them and ship all of them with each other and all the characters of all their franchises, donât @ me, but for the most part with writing outside of that group, itâs a one darling and one darling only deal. Hypocritical since I like darlings having yandere harems and reverse harems in general? Yes. Am I going to stop? No. Itâs fictional, so Iâm allowed to be a selfish hoe.
Yanderes who replace dead darlings with a lookalike, specifically from the POV of the replacement. This one is really specific and I know that, from the yandere POV or the dead darlingâs POV I donât mind this trope because it fits the loyalty I love, but from the replacementâs POV, I dislike it because the whole point of having a yandere is being loved for who you are...which you inheritently arenât as a replacement. Itâs a bit of an odd one, but it still finds a place on the list!
Going nuts out of absolutely nowhere. People just donât do that generally, thereâs always a trigger. This trigger doesnât have to be big, but someone going from âgood morning best friend :D!â To âIâve murdered your whole family for no reason.â Just...doesnât work for me.
But I think my biggest gripe is yangires whoâre mislabelled as yanderes. This is more of a one shot issue, and I understand how itâs a mistake that can be made, but yanderes literally have âdereâ in their characterisation title. They need love, they need to love someone or else they arenât a yandere! Someone beating the shit out of someone doesnât make them a yandere, someone trying to kill someone doesnât make them a yandere! Sadistics arenât my favourite yandere types anyway, at least not to read, but Iâve seen so many people write a straight up yangire, whoâs essentially just a sadistic abuser who tortured someone, and call them a yandere and that just isnât it.
Iâm sure there are others since these are off the top of my head, and if youâre one of the people who likes one of the tropes on this list, thatâs totally fine! Having slightly different tastes doesnât mean weâre mortal enemies or anything!
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About the cupid scene, Nico was forced to come out, but its also made very clear that Cupid is the bad guy. So is Aphrodite to an extent. They have a twisted and fundamental misunderstanding of love and how it works for mortals. I get that people could be mad about how Nico was forced to come out and putting him through more emotional trauma, but I also think its very realistic in showing how callous and cruel the gods understanding of love is.
I am reminded of the quote by Madeline Miller, "There is no law that gods must be fair..."
I also understand why the scene might be traumatic for other young LGBTQ+ readers, I've seen a lot of people talk about the fear of being outed in regards to them reading that scene as a kid. I completely respect their feelings on that, and I understand that as well. However, as someone who had been forcibly outed once before reading that scene, that scene really helped heal me. I don't think the Cupid scene is inherently homophobic, and I'm often bothered by the lack of nuance regarding around how it's handled.
I recognize it's a very emotional scene, and that people may have a hard time fully separating their emotions from that scene, but at the same time if there's a group of people saying "hey I understand why you disliked this scene but it was really helpful to me as a child because of the different experiences I had" maybe slow the breaks and hear what others also in the community have to say before determining if the scene is homophobic. You don't have to like the scene, and yeah maybe the scene did hurt you but that doesn't make it homophobic.
I want to specify on my word choice there a little closer, because of course outing someone is an act of homophobia, and the scene is homophobic in that sense. However often times the conversation about homophobia in this scene goes to "Rick was homophobic for writing this" where personally I would say this scene toes the line at being too far without ever crossing it. Some people may think this depiction crosses the line into "Rick was homophobic for writing this" which is fine, but just because something depicted homophobia and hurt you doesn't mean it was homophobic. Something doesn't have to out rightly be stated to be bad, in order to be read as bad*, and the Cupid scene does a wonderful job of depicting this.
I talk here about how Nico is shown what love is, and how love is treated by Nico, and how it affects his character. I think it's important to note that Nico's entire storyline can essentially be encompassed in an Orpheus-like or Odyssey-like tale. Nico's undergone this huge emotional and physical labor all in the name of having some form of unconditional love. I think that post is a really important read in the context of this one because I very carefully outline how love shapes Nico and how Nico shape and chooses his own definition of love, but I want to specifically dig into the Cupid scene on this post.
The big criticism often seen is "it's homophobic" which I covered above, and I want to clarify I'm not upset with or mad at or trying to tell anyone they can't dislike it or even say you can't say it's homophobic (my words on my one post are a bit off I'll admit) but the problem I have is when people believe they hold a moral high ground for thinking it's homophobic, or they remove all nuance from the discussion with "it's homophobic". Which is frustrating and annoying because it's a very complex scene, and it really changes Nico's arc and personality and it does help characterize him.
The big reason it shapes him so much is because of the other largest reason the scene is criticized, Cupid's behavior. What often fails to be recognized in those scenes is that Cupid is intentionally painted as the villain, this is very important to the scene.
In the context of this scene Nico makes an unspoken choice, a choice of "what is love to me?". I talk about how Nico claims his narrative in BoTL when he overcomes Minos, and he partially peaks that arc by convincing Gods to join the final battle of TLO. Following that arc however, Nico falls into his second arc, his crush on Percy was important in PJO, but not as important as it is in HoO.
By HoO Nico's entire character revolves around Percy, how to help Percy, how to aid Percy, etc. All of this has to do with Nico's crush on Percy, but also as an act of repayment because Nico hurt Percy- Nico lied to him about knowing him at New Rome in SoN, and he goes to Tartarus shortly after... This mirrors what Percy did after Hades tricked Nico... Percy choked Nico because he was upset with him, so Nico tried to win back Percy's affection by bathing him in the river.
The Cupid Scene is the resolution of Nico's arc, he is essentially given a choice- Cupid or Jason?
For this reason, we do see Nico recognize love for what it has been vs how it could be.
Cupid is there to represent what love is, to Nico love is brutal, and painful, and a lot of hard work... Nico has made himself utilitarian in love simply because it is the only way he can find any affection. Love to Nico is about flaying yourself for the benefit of others, to trample any and all parts of yourself simply to appease those you care for, because you want them to love you so much as you love them. The parallels I could draw between Nico and Orpheus, or Nico and Odysseus... I'd be here a long while...
In that scene Jason represents the alternative form of love which Nico chooses after his interaction with Cupid.
Jason says during the scene that he "preferred Piper's idea of love" which has to do with kindness and caring, etc, and then Jason becomes the embodiment of that idea during the scene- which showcases the alternative of what love can be, thus making Jason a personification of love in the context of that scene.
Jason looks to Nico, he doesn't ask for more, he simply looks to Nico with understanding and acknowledges him for who he is, and he does the exact opposite of what Nico expects:
Jason loves Nico where he is, without conditions, without forcing Nico to become something more. Jason didnât force Nico to say more than what was necessary for him to understand, Jason looked at Nico and he called Nico brave.
Cupid is a more volatile form of love than Aphrodite, Cupid shoots arrows that makes people animals, that can make a god grow insane, but Aphrodite's form of love is about acceptance and humanity (think to how she picked Ares over Hephaestus even if it was perhaps "wrong")- both are about truth but one is about force and the other about acceptance.
When Nico walks out of there, he makes his choice- he is forced to come out yes, Cupid is wrong for doing this, but Jason again stays a figure of love in Nico's life. Jason basically says, "Good job, I know that was hard, thank you for sharing and let me know if you need anything, people will care about you and understand you," again and again and again to Nico, he doesn't tell Nico he has to come out, and he agrees to keep it between them for now. Jason is love as acceptance, Jason is the first person who unconditionally loves Nico, and that's the choice.
Will Nico accept unconditional love? If the answer is no, then Cupid wins and Nico is denying himself. If the answer is yes, then Jason and Nico win, and Nico no longer needs to make himself utilitarian in love in order to be loved.
The choice is made with Reyna and Hedge, most specifically Reyna.
When he accidentally comes out to them, and they accept him without making a big deal of it, without show, just that acknowledgement and "thank you for sharing" and Nico accepts their words and friendship still- Nico made his choice then to accept the love he was being freely given.
âHe carried so much sadness and loneliness, so much heartache. Yet he put his mission first. He persevered. Reyna respected that. She understood that. She'd never been a touchy-feely person, but she had the strangest desire to drape her cloak over Nico's shoulders and tuck him in. She mentally chided herself. He was a comrade, not her little brother. He wouldn't appreciate the gesture.â
This is where we see the slow and steady, and healthy, end to Nico's arc in regards to love really grow into itself, and he begins to heal. He no longer sees such an intense need to make himself utilitarian for love, and he begins to heal from his internalized homophobia too.
(Internalized homophobia discussions with Nico also bother me too often times, people too often assume you can't date while struggling with internalized homophobia or at least very heavy handedly imply that which is just not true... You may have some issues in your relationship, but you can work through the internalized homophobia while building a new relationship and be just fine. Also to assume someone has an unhealthy relationship because of internalized homophobia is weird and lowkey reinforces the idea that "broken" people don't need love, but also does a huge disservice to so many LGBTQ+ people who are happily married/themselves but still struggle with these feelings, and to see a healthy relationship depiction despite someone in that relationship struggling with internalized homophobia is fine and good actually. As long as the individual can recognize what they're dealing with, and work through it in a healthy and constructive manner, then there's nothing wrong there...)
When I started this post to be honest I thought I would have a lot more to say, it's a scene that touched and changed me so deeply as a person, and beyond that in a more objective experience it completely changes Nico's character, by turning his arc around and beginning his healing process. To be honest, there probably is more to be said on it, I just haven't found the words yet... I know parts of this post are clunky and in a year I'm going to read this and see all the places it could be better but for now I'm content with it.
Whether or not someone considers the scene homophobic is a subjective experience, but I think this is a very well written scene purely for the characterization and symbolism, intentional or otherwise. I don't really care that much to debate if it's truly a homophobic scene or not, I can see both why people say it is and why people say it isn't and that can be culminated into "people have different needs" and "minorities aren't a monolith". Personally my much larger complaint is the complete lack of nuance and insight scenes like this are handled with, not the matter of personal opinion an individual reaches on the scene.
*the post uses the word "adult audience" and yes, fair point, children should not be able to decipher symbolism to the extent adults can. But older children and young teens, which the RRverse series are sold for, is when critical thinking skills and media analysis do begin to become parts of classroom curriculum. The scene does an excellent job of not outright stating Cupid is evil, but of depicting that in a very clear cut way.
#nevermind i lied here you go#nico di angelo#meta#long post#anon#ask#internalized homophobia#fandom homophobia
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I really, really dislike the narrative that surrounds romantic relationships that if you donât want to spend 100% of your time together, youâre not in a healthy relationship. And I donât mean âugh I canât stand them right nowâ or the whole âwimmin, amirite? Canât live with âem, but still expect them to clean up after meâ heteronormative, hateful bullshit. I mean the fact that romantic ideals have been elevated to such unhealthy peaks of unrealisticness, that even wanting time and space to yourself is considered abnormal.Â
Like some of the things people are describing when it comes to their âidealâ relationship? Honestly just reminds me of the codependency worksheet my therapist made me fill out, and I ought to know because Iâm extremely dependant on my partner to stay alive. Granted, my situation is a little different from people who arenât disabled or chronically ill. But this still doesnât change who we are as people, even if it has changed the dynamics of our relationship.
But weâre still emotionally very independent people, and like doing things on our own. We always have, even before my health issues, we had our own friends. We loved wandering off and doing stuff on our own pre-Corona. And even now we still like having some downtime apart, even if it just means heâs watching TV in the other room, and Iâm on the computer talking to all yâall. That downtime doesnât mean weâre dysfunctional or dealing with unresolved resentment with each other, it just means we donât feel the need for constant physical proximity to feel close. Weâre still getting our needs met, weâre still happy. And yet some people would say that because we donât feel the need to do everything together at every minute of the day, we must secretly be unhappy. Why? Why are some of you so dysfunctional you canât spend any time apart? (See how not nice it is for someone to say something like that?)
And also, while Iâm at it, erase the idea that youâre so in love with someone you will never be mad at them because thatâs also not healthy or realistic. There will be times your partner will irk you. There may even be times that they outright piss you off or vice versa. What matters is how you handle those moments and work through them together. And if youâre continually framing your relationship in terms of âweâre so in love weâll never be angry at each other, so I donât even have to think about it,â youâre not preparing yourself to deal with real and very valid emotions that are part of the human social experience. You can be the most in love, most in tune, best-matched couple ever, and still find yourself annoyed by something. And itâs the people who break up who either donât know how to deal with this, or just plain wonât because it breaks their internal narrative of True Love(TM) overcoming all, not realizing that love is both a feeling and a choice, and sometimes you gotta choose to work at it.
 And this applies to queer relationships as well. All too often, I see people saying, âweâre queer, so this will never be an issueâ when what you really mean to say is, âweâre queer, so these particular problems that are prevalent in heteronormative relationships will not affect us in that way.â
But that does not mean you will never come across a problem that does put a strain on your relationship. Like, say, a fucking global pandemic that locks most people in their homes for a fourth, fifth month in a row with no other means of socialization or stimulation.
Or one of you getting sick and suddenly requiring constant care...Â
And that shit ainât easy regardless of who you love. Being a caretaker is emotionally and physically draining, and I could write for hours about why there need to be better support systems in place for the caretaker spouses of chronically and terminally ill/disabled partners and how they often become chronically ill themselves. (I was a caretaker myself from the age of 9 onwards. I know this shit isnât easy. Itâs why I made ETD go to therapy when we realized I would need him to take care of me if we wanted to keep me alive.) But thatâs another topic for another post.Â
Like, honestly, maybe itâs me. Perhaps itâs my experiences and how I view love and relationships, but the whole idea of âI donât need to take time for myself Iâm in a loving relationship!â is just... not good. Everyone needs their own space sometimes and demonizing that as unhealthy is, well, not healthy.
Humans are human, weâre social creatures for the most part. But sometimes you just gotta go off by yourself into the metaphorical woods of the psyche and spend some time being comfortable with yourself. And if you canât do that without feeling like your relationship is in trouble, well, maybe you ought to evaluate why.Â
#long post#listen#when a romance author is calling you out#you might want to think about your expectations#this shit is my bread and butter#and even I know some of you want a therapist instead of an SO#and that's not healthy
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âit all comes down to the soul(s) in the endâ: or, characters make the story work, and not the other way around
outing myself yet again as a dabb era critical blog here but. i just think the difference between carver era and dabb era is that carver era was character-arc driven while dabb era was overarching-main-plot driven with some good character moments thrown in (which may be to do with the fact that - iirc - during carver era for a while they didnât know if theyâd get renewed so they couldnât plan too far ahead and just progressed the story by increments, as opposed to dabb era knowing they had a longer time frame to work with and deciding the plot beforehand).Â
the thing is, i think most of us can agree that after the kripke era - which, for all its flaws and setbacks (hello writersâ strike), had a self-contained myth arc involving both an internally coherent narrative and certain well-defined character beats - and going into the gamble âhot girl summer but make it angstâ era, the appeal of supernatural relies largely on the characters. it has to, because for a show to keep running after 6-7 seasons, you have to be invested not just in the story/stories being told, but in the people driving the story forward. it simply wonât work otherwise.
and - to my perception at least - the carver era (perhaps largely due to ben edlundâs imprint in s8, lbr) knew that. some examples of what i mean:
it gave dean an arc about dealing with the toxicity of his upbringing and his unhealthy attachment to sam, as well as starting to explore other meaningful relationships for himself (benny, charlie, and of course him continuously reaching out to cas) - essentially it allowed dean to confront that he wanted things.Â
it gave sam an arc about dealing with his trauma re: demon blood, and having to confront what it means to be good, how he always felt impure through no fault of his own - and it shifted him over into accepting that his calling in life is as a keeper of lore and mentor to other people, by contrasting the failure of the sam/amelia relationship with him finding the bunker and discovering a different part of the hunting world
it forced cas to confront what he wants for himself, by making him deal with his own changing nature (being human, then an angel again, and the whole arc about living on borrowed grace), and with the other angels falling and what that meant for him; he got the chance to be on his own and be with the winchesters, to both make mistakes and be a leader to other angels - and then give up that leadership by choice because he prioritised his human family to his reputation in heaven (which should have been a clear indication of endgame human cas but i digress)
it brought in compelling new characters - primarily charlie and kevin, though they were both horrendously mistreated by bucklemming writing them off - claire novak as an angry teenager, aaron and his golem, metatron as a fascinatingly meta (ha) antagonist, rowena as a frenemy, and gave old characters compelling story beats (crowley and his âhumanity addictionâ). also, it had writers like robbie thompson who were attuned to the fan community in an unprecedented way.
with the dabb era, i feel like because theyâd set their mind on where the story was going (e.g.: killing dean, having a new and âbetterâ god in place, giving sam a white picket fence ending) they didnât really care if they had to break the protagonistsâ characterisation to get us there. we still had moments of great characterisation - steve yockey episodes first and foremost, and of course robert berens carrying the dean/castiel beats - but mostly, characterisation came second to what the story would need. this is how we get dean winchester, friend and protector to kids everywhere, being A-Okay with sacrificing a kid he supposedly cares about, not once but several times over, because the plot needed Emotional Stakesâąïž.
(and this, by and large, is my issue with jack as a character too, because he spends so much of his time on the show so clearly being a plot device - a literal deus ex machina - that he ends up being not very compelling to me. âbut baby jack!â i hear you say. and yes, yes, heâs cute and i like him, but listen -- his characterisation reads as a blank slate because ultimately thatâs what the narrative needs from him - and thereâs a whole separate post i could make on that, really).Â
but i think the main problem is that the endgame the dabb era had in mind conflicted openly with the stakes they had set up in the carver era - and that the most attuned writers kept up with even in seasons 12-15, which is why the finale felt as stridently wrong as it did (other than being ridiculously badly written). by which i mean:
dean was set up as wanting something more for himself, more than hunting and violence, and we see that in moments - but itâs not what he ends up getting. additionally, he spends so much of seasons 8-10 breaking down his toxic traits, and then bam - suddenly, heâs turned into john 2.0, because the story demands it.Â
sam was set up to become a new kind of hunter, one with a men of letters background, and find happiness in the life - so you get a side plot where he successfully organises and leads a group of hunters - but ultimately he leaves all that behind and abandons the bunker (and eileen, his natural companion going forward).Â
cas was set up as choosing humanity over heaven because thatâs where he wants to be, and choosing to become a hunter because he wants to be useful and do good - but that gets boiled down to âcas is still an angel but now heâs Also A Dad and thatâs his one purpose in life nowâ (iâm sorry, i am not here for the hot take of âjack is good for cas because he canât just revolve around deanâ. first of all, thatâs a disservice to casâs character over the seasons, and second of all-- oh but itâs ok for cas to just revolve around jack? it donât make no cents luv!)
i donât think story-driven eras are inherently bad. i enjoyed seasons 1-5, but they take place when weâre still getting to know the characters; and there is a certain evolution for them there that you may like or dislike, but it makes narrative sense for them. but if you decide to go forward into a new era with well-established and beloved characters, you have to know who the characters are and what they want or your story will always ring hollow. the main problem i have with the dabb era is that it decided the story it wanted to tell - and didnât stop to consider whether the characters living it out would actually organically fit into it. and isnât that chuckâs whole mistake?
#spn#meta#spn meta#supernatural#dabb critical#team free will#my meta#mp#ambra.txt#in short: carver era my beloved. you committed some atrocities but i forgive you#big BIG thanks to tierney for watching me work out a shorter version of this in real time#tier i'm tagging you just in case you want to see me ramble even HARDER about this#katebushstandean#will i get cancelled for being critical of jack? stay tuned to find out#long post#long post for ts
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The sad Jason art you reblogged, the original artist is a rampant JayTim shipper fyi đ€ą
Okay, listen. I cannot figure out why you would send this. What purpose is this supposed to serve? Who are you helping? What is the desired result?
Like, sure I donât enjoy that ship and I really wish it were less prominent, because it makes so many potentially interesting fics unreadable for me, but itâs far and away the most innocuous of the intra-family ships.
(Followed by either of them with Cass ig since Steph doesnât strictly count. Or Duke, but like DC deeply failed to integrate him into the family network. Actually is anyone writing Duke/Tim, thereâs space to do some fun work there with the idealization-of-and-identification-with-Robin-as-wearable-identity.)
Itâs not like anyone is being depicted Committing Sex Crime here, or like thereâs an existing familial dynamic to be getting corrupted. Or even a firmly ingrained power dynamic. Theyâre about three years apart in age and didnât even meet until their late teens? I donât like the adopted sibling incest angle even in that context, but I canât pretend that part is actually inherently hurting either of them, except by complicating things with their support systems and intensifying the baggage.
The reason I find the ship so intolerable is they have so much baggage between them, adopted family very much included, even before you start on shit theyâve actually done to each other, that to jump straight into the premise you have to go either wildly AU or wildly ooc (very frequently both) to sell them having a remotely sane or healthy romance, let alone at all a normal one.
The AU version tends to make them hopelessly boring by flattening every existing element of complexity to avoid Problems and the ooc option both boring and vaguely revolting to my personal sensibilities, because I have issues about peopleâs characters being warped around the demands of romantic relationships, and especially about the result being treated as positive. Those things on top of the sibling thing is a definite hard no.
...I feel like the only way to get me actually interested in a JayTim premise would actually be to lean in to all that shared baggage and dysfunction, and depict the relationship as a downhill tumble of mutual projection and trying to process their own Robin-related-identity-smear issues and overlapping parent issues using one another, âself-recognition through the other (derogatory)â angry makeouts, and all that unhealthy stuff, made even more fucked up by their canonical existing tangled respect for and resentment of one another.
All that, if well executed, could be really intriguing! And could even potentially sell me on the âship as ultimately positive in the end, because the narrative would at that point have put in the work to make the relationship a vehicle for character development.
As far as I know, though, that is not what the shipping community for these two is looking for at all, ever. And I'm not going to subject myself to a million versions because one of them might be tolerable.
So, I know this is something I dislike! On every level! I avoid it! I have, in fact, ended acquaintanceships with people because they could not consistently remember to respect clearly delineated boundaries about it, because theyâd internalized the ship as a baseline norm of batfam fandom. Donât like that.
But like. What possible purpose could it serve to warn me that someone whose reposted-and-reunited art I reblogged ships this thing? What is that adding to the world? Is this supposed to be helpful to me in some way?
Iâm not entering into a longterm or intimate relationship with this person whose name I donât recall. Iâm not interacting with them. I didnât even reblog a post original to them or directly from their blog. The JayTim ship is not relevant to the art in question, which was a depiction of Jason speaking to Bruce (not pictured).
Even if the artist were a JayBruce shipper and there was some relevance, Iâm not clear on what you think you would be accomplishing by informing me there might be secret bad subtext to an art I reblogged!
Like. State your goals here, donât just end your statement with a 'mouthful of vomit' emoji, which incidentally is somewhat more triggering for some issues Iâve been working on than the JayTim ship itself, because guess what people are complicated.
Is your goal to get me to comb through my blog to remove the post? To go memorize the url so I know to avoid this person in the future? To blacklist them???
What even is rampant in this context anyway. Just. Lacking in restraint? The boundary-disrespecting issue I mentioned before? Just...doing it a lot? Do you mean it in the heraldic sense of âstanding up on their hindquarters for dramatic effect?â
Be specific. Explain why you are inflicting this subject on me in the correct presumption itâs a subject I like to avoid. Why does that make sense?
Iâm not interested in being roped into whatever weird playground politics drama this is, okay? Jeez louise.
#emetephobia warning#anti shipping#fandom drama#robincest#jaytim#speaking of upsetting ships and steph not being a sib tho#for some reason i find jason/steph a wildly upsetting ship!#even though there's nothing 'objectively wrong' with it#it just makes me panicky for some reason#so i stopped trying to force myself to finish fics with this ship that inexplicably distressed me#i'm allowed to just not like it!#hoc est meum#ask#a nonny mouse#shipping#batfam#cannot imagine why anyone would ship two such extreme weirdos#with extreme circumstances#and then make them Be Normal but#they do
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Thank you for the ask, I will send a few songs that remind me of fruk, a whole playlist if you may, not only one song. I also touch a few of triggering topics as I explain the nations's personalities and relationships with one another so I apologize in advance if I upset/trigger someone and will put my trigger here - Warning - mentions of abuse, alcoholism, s*exual trauma. Under the explanation there is a playlist of songs that make me think of Ukfr/Fruk, so if anyone gets upset you can feel free to skip my general headcanons about fruk/ukfr relationship dynamics. There are too many songs that make me think of different characters or ships but I collected the ones that make me think the most of them.
I know the original song is by Lady gaga but this version is too sweet and cheesy for me so I chose the rock cover by the group Halestorm since I prefer it, it sounds more genuine and rough and kinda makes me think of the dynamic that ukfr/fruk has, that some people present is as just the enemies to lovers trope or them just fighting which is.....simply unhealthy????? Fruk is much more than that and I wish people would stop seeing it as a two dimensional thing, yeah they do argue on a lot of things and it is not the healthiest dynamic however it does work in my mind because they stick through thin and thick and that requires effort and true love since a lot of people nowdays do not take time to know the other person, they just jump into marriage and have a few divorces and just argue over everything and then separate, fruk is an off and on thing where they break and make. This kind of dedication is hard to find in today's couples. I know they're fictional characters and no one really cares but I practice my psychology skills and my knowledge of people around me, and I sometimes see people with similar or almost the same characters as fictional characters, they may not have all of their hobbies but they do act the same way. And certain pairs, no offence, just make me want to gag my self due to history with bad and toxic fans but if I look at it subjectivly and never encountered mean fans from a certain ship, I would say that they ship simply doesn't work. No ship bashing but as far as I know, people with this kind of personality from this ship that I dislike, and get upset when seeing fan art of, simply just do not get along and had a hard time divorcing, it is not only unhealthy and unbalanced, it is downright abusive because both partners seek control and to have the upper hand and this is not...what romance is about???? It is about two people taking care of each other, understanding personal space and boundaries, lifting each other up and yeah, they will argue a lot, sometimes for small things, sometimes for bigger things, but generally the point of romantic relationships is not someone using you, or abusing you financially and generally being better or bigger than you. This breeds insecurity and jealousy in the other partner and makes them feel inadequate. Usually such problems are not talked over and one of the partners acts passive agressive which is what ultimaltly leads to said divorce. So yeah, people can go away with their (BUT IT IS CUTE, IT IS SO FUCKING CUTE) pairing because real life pairings and how humans communicate and develop friendships and relationships isn't based on what your mind conciders and doesn't concider cute and there are lots of factors on whether relationship will ever happen like common interests, type personality, etc and just block me so I will never hear from them and their childish mindset ever again, which is why I blocked certain tumbrl fan art hetalia accounts who produce art of a pairing I (dislike) lowkey hate, for historical reasons, for manga reasons, for toxic fans who bullied me and made me go on 3 hiatuses reason and ultimatly in real life experience and psychology and how humans and the human mind works and what is healthy and unhealthy reason. Why should I support something where certain people have been hateful towards me and these same people that act like these characters and I know in my life are on bad terms in real life? Why shouldn't I just move on to something more realistic and more healthy, that I have seen that works with humans I know first hand? I am not a clinical psychologist and I have no power or saying in this but I had to write thesis and read books by psycholgists and analyze them in high school and my first year of Uni, in order to pass the year and I have also read reccomended books by a psychologist I went to because I wanted an advice on how to deal with my anxiety and talking to people, because my condition is extremely severe but I honestly feel stuck and try to improve but also feel confused, I sometimes feel like I am not doing enough to
self improve as a human. I sometimes come off as too cold or overly bitter and angry without intending to, and it sucks.
Francis is a really manipulative person and Matthew picked up that from him while part of Alfred's agression doesn't only come from confidence in his own abilities but the fact that England him self is an overly agressive person and is very dominant or at least used to be for a very long time, now he is more mild to keep his gentleman persona but he does suffer from severe anger issues which he hides while Alfred is prone to breaking things and screaming, Arthur is more prone to being rude, sarcastic and generally mean before he loses it. Matthew and Francis do not engage in fight if they can avoid it which is why sometimes people call them cowardly I think? And Matthew is a bit prone to being a codependent people pleaser as far as I see and he seems to have severe anxiety issues. Francis albeit charismatic and beautiful, is deep down in his core lonely.
I think that part of his pervertedness, shocking people with his s*xual humour and all of this sex obsession comes from trauma in his childhood and dressing like a girl. I wouldn't explain what the trauma in question was since it is not canon but I do headcanon that he had s*xual trauma and it is partly why Hungary dressed like a guy. I don't know if this is legit, it is bias from reading too much japanese fan comics relating to hetalia or just general history of humans and how they treated consent and what is moral today, wasn't amoral or against the law a few centuries ago, but I have seen artists touch on it. I think both Arthur and Francis suffer from neglect and they weren't particularly good fathers, in fact no country is, the whole FACE family is dysfunctional and while I love all of them, I kinda pity them. I think Rome was a bit discriminatory mostly towards France and never towards his other children while Arthur had to constantly prove him self and was bullied by his brothers. While other nations have suffered from trauma too (I headcanon that Prussia was burnt on stake and people threw rocks at him due to his albinism and being left handed) something similar happened to Arthur, who I headcanon that he was burnt for being a witch and Francis went a few times through the guillotine, or Arthur still having a bullet scar on his arm from the American revolution or Francis having nightmares from that day where Jeanne was burnt and waking up in his own sweat. Arthur also must suffer from workholism and alcoholism, judging by how much he works and goes to pubs to drink. Everyone chooses their own poison and how to cope with life and many use unhealthy coping mechanisms, hell, even I used unhealthy coping mechanisms a lot in the past and I am not proud of them, in fact, I try to improve.
I can talk about their history and how it relates to their mental health and what scars they have for hours but I would bore you. You came for a song and I am probably boring you so I apologize for writting a lot of words, in advance. I basically think that fruk/ukfr is the ultimate ship for many reasons because they click, I do ship spuk/engita/asakiku and many other things but fruk/ukfr is kinda like butter and bread, it is a great combination. I never said it is 100 percent healthy, however their relationship makes psychological sense and their personalities click. I know people like to present arthur as this dumb tsundere man that blushes and says baka, or he is this garbage rat dad that no one likes or francis is presented or at least used to be this perverted sex machine that touched other countries inappropriatly or at least the 2012-2015 fans saw him this way and while he still has the reputation of a pervert, what many young people in the fandom see as disgusting, I just see as an overly lonely man that just happens to have high libido and copes with it by having casual sex and just has a sex humour, the same way some people have fart jokes humour or darker, more cursed humour, I am really glad that fans mostly left off this whole - Francis is a r**ist and will grope you, in the past, because honestly r**e is not joke and as a character he clearly understands consent and boundaries and I don't think someone like him would do such a thing. Also Greece and Turkey have even higher libido than him and sleep around more, yet he is the ''pervert'', I don't get it??????????? but fruk is just so much more than opposites attract, they have a lot in common so I can't say they're full opposites, no one is truly. I have heard people ask why does anyone ship fruk when it is just opposites attract/enemies to lovers trope and I am honestly confused, because that is extremely rough generalization to say the least, it is like saying - All men/women are the same, it is simply wrong/uncorrect. I think they ''married'' five times - The Treaty of Paris (1657) formed an alliance against Spain. The Anglo-French Alliance (1716â31) formed another alliance against Spain. The Anglo-French blockade of the RĂo de la Plata (1845-1850). The Anglo-French joint invasion of Qing Dynasty (1856â1860). And the last one which is their official marriage The Entente Cordiale (1904) fought together in both World Wars. As far as I remember Francis tried to marry Arthur but he refused and why he refused is up for subjective opinion but I must write a whole thesis on why Fruk/ukfr works so well and people are not here for that, they're here for the music and I will provide. I also always saw Francis as the more gentle and more submissive partner, I just love to see him drawn in frilly beautiful dresses with bows and stuff and Arthur as the more dominant, I mean as a country he was a powerhouse during the 1600s-1800s and used to be a punkrocker, usually rockers are mentally tough and that man is extremely cunning and witty so...people drawing him as this useless baka uwu overly feminine anorexic boy that looks more like a tween rather than a 23 year old guy just assasinated his character in my opinion and it disturbs me but I am just some awkward human on the internet and no one values my opinion anyway because this is the internet and many people nowdays love to have hot takes and try to gain followers through clickbait stuff which sometimes goes out of control and everything just seems more fake and shallow to me, the more old I get.Okay that was my silly rant no one asked about but I feel really passionate about hetalia and Fruk/Ukfr. Anyway, I apologize again for my long rant and going all over the place, please enjoy this playlist
PLAYLIST WITH SONGS THAT REMIND ME OF FRUK/UKFR
1 - Halestorm - Bad romance - rock cover https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ll4NJs3NBIU
2 - Queen - Somebody to love - lyrics https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zj69iA_goIk
3 - ABBA - Voulez vous - (I know everyone chooses Waterloo and while waterloo is a fruk theme, I think Voulez vous works too) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fwcgMVXuBJc
4 - London beat - I've been thinking about you - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ixBryyQSrD8
5 - Santana - Smooth - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Whgn_iE5uc
6 - George Michael - Careless whisper - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=izGwDsrQ1eQ
7 - Robbie Williams - Feel - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iy4mXZN1Zzk
8 - Michael Buble - Feeling good - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Edwsf-8F3sI
9 - Edith Piaf - La vie en rose - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kFzViYkZAz4
10 - Chopin - Marriage d'amour (Spring waltz) - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EFJ7kDva7JE
11 - Vanessa Carlton - A thousand miles - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ERw2LuU6Jj8
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We need more anti C//A who are Adora stans (like you seem to be) so that people can understand that C///A is bad for Adora. Heck C//A is bad for Catra too, but the shippers don't seem to realize it. If Catra had been able to let Adora go maybe she could have healed instead of her festering and the abuse may have ended instead of escalated.
Hello Dear, welcome on my Blog and a big thank you for your message! Firstly I wanna apologize that this response is reaching you more than three full days, almost four later. Just real life getting into the way of my online presence (at least I got my A-Levels admission!) but I assure you that replying to you was on my To Do List the entire time. And while I could've typed something quick, I thought you deserved a full length response just as much as the person before you received. That goes for anyone really to ask/write me anything in the future.
Adora is a character that has flaws, her own interests, things she struggles with/is insecure about etc. but she also still works on being better (up to Season 5). This makes her relatable, fleshed out and overall three dimensional. Overall for me that makes Adora very likeable. Which is funny because when I first watched the show I thought of her as too goofy and felt like she as a character was overall just flat. Her character design did not speak to me either, the ponytail with the weird hair poof and these pointy shoulders of her jacket just really were not my taste. Isn't it amazing how perceptions can change?
As you can guess from that description I did not always stan Adora and she's probably still not my favorite character but over the almost two years I've been in this fandom I've grown rather fond of her. Other important characters to me are Kyle (a very relatable comfort character of mine, he learned to stand up for himself and others and I support that, f*ck Season 5 for barely acknowledging his existence), Lonnie (apart from treating Kyle badly (which I really do NOT support or excuse) I really love her, man, some women just do me like that, I mean she really stood up to Catra like that), Entrapta (I'm autistic too! It's great to have some representation, seeing the ableism/treatment she experiences in the show is not so much though), Seahawk (I don't even know why, I have some issues with his behavior towards Mermista at times but overall I love this dork), Scorpia (she reminds me of myself so much and I really wanna give her hugs, I'm so glad she chose to no longer let Catra treat her like that even though I will be forever salty she just immediately forgave her), Peekablue (I can explain this even less than Seahawk, especially since it was not even really him in the end but his existence somehow helped me cope with Season 5, without him I probably would've left this fandom ... and also my favorite color is blue) and Double Trouble (now there's enough people already critcizing how they're not exactly great Non-binary representation but this dramatic lizard will forever be in my heart, that reality check they gave Catra, basically slapping her in the face with facts was satisfying as h*ck, also I like lizards overall).
Now there's plenty of characters I like, dislike (or even hate) or am simply indifferent about but after all this is not a tier list but me talking about Adora, Catra and Catradora. Adora started off as this girl that was so sure what she was doing is right but once she was taught differently she was willing to leave everything she knew (except Catra, because she valued her despite everything) behind. And not only that, she broke out of the abuse cycle that Catra tried so hard to keep upright. And that is exactly what makes Adora such a good role model. She teaches children (or people) that:
Your past doesn't define what/who you are or what/who you can become
-> Adora used to be a Horde soldier and did not know where she came from, but nonetheless she found herself a family and became a hero that saved thousands of people
You can always change your mind and start a new life if you feel disappointed in what you are doing/who you are as a person
-> Basically the exact same point, Adora started a new life as she saw what the Horde really was and changed her mind about who to fight for
You deserve love too, be it platonic or romantic (or se*ual???) (If you're aro and/or ace just ignore the part that does not work for you)
-> While Adora for various reasons thought her only use was to please others and meet their needs and expectations (mostly due to Shadow Weaver and Catra) she learned to accept that she too deserves love and validation (if the love aspect would not have been focused on it being romantic love so she could smooch Catra in the finale this would've been a billion times better because she got love from her friends that showed her her real value)
You can walk away from something/someone, that does not make you egoistic/selfish
-> Adora walked away from the Horde, after Catra stubbornly refused to come with her despite many offers (basically Catra broke the promise, not Adora) from her too and that did not make her a "traitor" or "selfish", h*ck, Adora in the end did this for a bigger purpose too, even if part of it was her not wanting to live with such wrong morals
Your opinions, feelings etc. about a person/something can change and that is perfectly fine and valid, being able to change is part of what makes someone human
-> Adora's views on many things changed throughout the show: The Horde and the Rebellion, the First Ones, Catra, being She-Ra, herself, her priorities and so on ... she actually makes use of her brain, which is why Catra saying "Don't you ge it?" or calling her an idiot and dumb never sat right with me, she's a realistic character for shifting with her thoughts, feelings etc. and sometimes just does not fully think things through
You don't have to let other people treat you like sh*t (just because they have some issues they never worked through does not give them any right to let it out on you)
-> This point is obviously centered mostly around Catra and her abusing Adora almost every chance she gets, which is why Adora standing up for herself and not letting Catra blame her for her own decisions and mistakes is so important, "You made your choice, now live with it" is one of the most powerful lines throughout all the five Seasons
Now I'm sure there is still more to Adora's character than what I just listed and unfortunately almost all the points basically got pushed aside, well, Adora as a character got pushed aside in Season 5. All her growth, the things that made me love her, see her as great role model for so many people robbed of their value for the sake of making everything revolve around Catra. That brings me to her and how you are absolutely right that Catradora is harmful to both characters. Of course Adora is affected most by it in the end but Catra too is obviously suffering under the fandoms obsession and just the overall idea of them being romantically involved.
Just like with Adora the stans make almost everything about Catra over her relationship with Adora. She too can barely exist outside of it and if she wasn't the fan favorite she'd most likely would too be mostly in Fanarts that include Adora and not just her (if you google "Catra Fanart" most content is still Catra and Catra only but here and there Catradora still peaks through). But for whatever reason the fandom still views her more as her own person as the other ones? Catrouble and Scorptra Shippers might actually still get less hate than Glimmadora Shippers (I'm not denying they don't get any, they most certaintly do) which is just plain hypocricy and favorism. Kinda like the: A woman needs to be loyal to her husband and her husband only but if the husband wants to be active with other women that is perfectly fine because "that is just how men are" or how i like to call it ... sexism. Now in this case they are both women so it's not sexism but yo do get my point.
But much more importantly, Catra has an unhealthy obsession with Adora. Signs of that are for example:
Constantly talking about Adora, even when said person is not around (to Shadow Weaver, Scorpia etc.)
Obsessing over having control over Adora like in that one Episode "Are you kidding? I finally got control over Adora, I'm not giving that up!"
Building her entire character and her actions around Adora "We need to take Adora down", "Adora left me", "I'd rather see the whole world end than see you win!", also shown in Season 5 where she states she does save Glimmer only for Adora and not for Glimmer or to do the right thing
Getting aggressive or very emotional over Adora like clawing the wall, having nightmares etc. (destructive behavior towards herself and others)
Having no or barely any characteristics outside of her relationship with Adora like, we don't know her interests or likes and dislikes outside of being evil, obsessed with Adora, being abused by Shadow Weaver ...
Trying to force Adora to meet her needs and expectations regardless of Adora's owns
Sacrificing her oppurtunity to be happy in the Crimson Waste for the sake of her Adora obsession and being better than her at all costs
So yes, you were very right with saying that not putting Catra in a relationship with Adora would've benefited both characters. Catra could've learned to exist on her own, develop interests and a life outside of Adora. Learn to accept herself and eventually come to terms with her childhood abuse. She could've been free and not "the abusive cat girl that ended up with the person she unhealthily obsessed over to the point of no return" she kinda is now. Even if we ignore the whole "dating your long term abuser" part from Adora's side and "being rewarded" for horrible behavior, Catra alone is not giving a good example to people watching. As much as I dislike Catra, disdain her even, an ending where she is dependent on Adora, unable to stand on her own two legs after she led armies in war is not what I would wish for her, even with a decent redemption arc (that she did not get).
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authorâs note: remember when i said i wasnât going to write ever again? well, i lied. hereâs another long fic about remus and logan being personally attacked by the other sides, lmao. this is a somewhat sequel to my fic worthy and reading that would help me a lot because some stuff in this fic is only explainable if you read that one first. anyway, this fic is more romantic, softer, yet angsty all at once, and i hope you enjoy it. special thanks to the logang discord for your help again, especially to orb, aj, jem, remy, kei, el, anders, lo, rem, and raph! (to those i didnât mentioned, i still love u ok <3)
pairings: Remus/Logan (this time itâs more romantic)
warnings:Â remus typical stuff, swearing (remus says fuck a lot), religious talk (remus and logan do not have good experiences with thomas's catholic upbringing and i'm self projecting), morally gray light sides (they do not appear but logan and remus dislike them), light sides negativity (again, logan and remus hate them), self-esteem issues, and slightly nsfw comments coming from remus.
word count: 7242
summary:Â His relationship with Remus was difficult to describe, to say the least. Logan recognized that Remus was probably the closest thing he had to a genuine friend in this hell of a Mindscape, but at some point, there was a definite shift in their relationship, and Logan couldnât find a proper word to describe it.
But even if they were close friends, Logan wasnât sure if he was able to provide everything a stable friendship needed. He just wasnât used to it. Moreover, his inability to defend Remus during the argument earlier just proved that he wasâ dare he said itâ a worthless friend.
Logan picked up the pace of his mug-tapping as he buried his face further onto the table, his arm resting underneath his head.Â
Why did everything have to be so complicated?
or,
After an argument between Thomas and the "Light" Sides, Logan and Remus seek comfort in each other. Plate throwing and discussions of their relationship ensues.
(ao3 link)
Logan numbly prodded on the mug he borrowed that stood useless on the kitchenâs counter.Â
(He was literally able to prepare the hot chocolate with jittery palms, but how come every time he tried to take a sip, his glitches decided to betray him and let the hot liquid spill onto his shirt?)
Grumbling to himself, he clenched his hand as certain parts of his palm began to twitch and dematerialize, transforming into odd shapes of flashing colors. Logan knew digging his nails into his palm wouldnât have done anything to make the glitching vanish, but at this point, he was so frustrated in himself that he didnât really give a fuck.
He was just so foolish for believing in Thomas, so foolish for thinking that Thomas would have stopped ignoring him. Thomas has neglected him continuously for the past thirty years and Logan was just so tremendously stupid for thinking it would have all ceased now. Admittedly, Thomas was peer pressured into agreeing to the other sidesâ reasoning over Loganâs during the argument earlier, but Logan still felt immensely infuriated that Thomas didnât acknowledge his points despite being presented with multiple facts coming from Logan.
Logan should have just remained pessimistic from this point onwards. Thomasâs neglect for him has never changed and never will, and it would have endlessly persisted if Thomasâs unconscious bias for the other three âLightâ Sides remained.
With Thomasâs growing neglect, Loganâs dilemma would have only worsened further. Initially, Loganâs glitches would have only been triggered if he was in his room, but the situation has gotten so severe that Logan didnât even need to be in his room to experience them. Logan considered discussing the issue more prominently with Thomas, but there was a niggling feeling inside of him that made him hesitant to approach Thomas altogether. Logan abandoned the idea of discussing it thoroughly with the rest of his âFamILYâ as well, as they have openly shown their distaste towards him constantly. Logan even feared that the others wouldnât even be concerned about his wellbeing unless he has reached rock bottom, but he really didnât want to imagine a corrupted state of himself that was overridden with glitches and errors.
This left Logan in a figurative loop where he will constantly be disregarded which, in consequence, would have worsened his glitches, and that cycle wouldâve been repeated until he would be stripped of the âLightâ Side title. Logan from the past wouldâve been fearful of being pushed into the darkness, but as he lamented about his problems daily, he exasperatedly accepted his inevitable demise.
The âDarkâ Sides had a more stylish interior anyway, so maybe it wasnât all that bad. After all, he was currently staying in their kitchen to escape the chaotic, sporadic glitches that have invaded his own room.Â
(But he also was there for another reason, of course.)
But even if he had grown accustomed to the idea that he was becoming a âDarkâ Side, he was still uncertain if they were going to accept his presence with open arms. He and Orange still loathed one another to an unhealthy amount, while the friendship he shared with Janus was extremely⊠odd. They had moments where they were fond of each otherâs company (poor Janus has been living with lunatics for most of his life) but at times, Janus gave him the cold shoulder, and Logan was unsure if it was him simply joking around or being genuine.
And Remus.Â
Logan tapped nervously on the mug as he thought of the boisterous yet lovable maniac.
His relationship with Remus was difficult to describe, to say the least. Logan recognized that Remus was probably the closest thing he had to a genuine friend in this hell of a Mindscape, but at some point, there was a definite shift in their relationship, and Logan couldnât find a proper word to describe it.
But even if they were close friends, Logan wasnât sure if he was able to provide everything a stable friendship needed. He just wasnât used to it. Moreover, his inability to defend Remus during the argument earlier just proved that he wasâ dare he said itâ a worthless friend.
Logan picked up the pace of his mug-tapping as he buried his face further onto the table, his arm resting underneath his head.Â
Why did everything have to be so complicated?
âFuck,â he heard a voice coming from the staircase behind him, âHey asshat, sorry Iâm late!â the voice continued, sounding partly enthusiastic and partly exhausted as they hurriedly descended the flight of stairs.Â
âRemus, youâve dubbed these little meetings âLate Night Hangoutsââ theyâre supposed to be late.â
âHardy fuckinâ har,â Remus replied as he shoved his hands into his hoodieâs pockets while approaching the kitchen. Despite looking incredibly ragged (to be fair, when was he never?), he still managed to maintain his flamboyant saunter. âOkay but, seriously though. Orange was being such a fucking prick, and that argument earlier wasnât helping. I justâ Iâm just fuckingââ Remus inhaled sharply, âGod. Tonight was too fucking much.â
Loganâs eyebrows knitted together worriedly as he eyed the green-clad side, âI⊠apologize. I shouldâve been able to mitigate the situation earlier but I foolishly allowed my temper to cloud my thinking.â Logan said with a guilty expression as a constricting feeling wrapped around his throat. Remus responded with a confused look as one of the tentacles that protruded from his back began rummaging through the cupboards. Logan assumed he was getting a drink for himself as well.
âIronic how those bastards wanted you to show your emotions but when you finally get to do it, they get pissed.â Remus said exasperatedly as he took a seat on the kitchen table rather instead of grabbing a stool for himself, âItâs like that one episode with the puppets where they act like everything is your fault when you literally arenât one to blameââ
âBut Iââ
âââBut I handled the argument badly, yadda yadda,â. Yeah, no, Logan, this isnât your fault.â Remus said sympathetically as one of his tentacles rubbed Loganâs shoulder to provide comfort.Â
ââM still sorry,â Logan said faintly and Remusâs eyebrows knit together.
âHey, itâs alright, dork,â Remus said calmly, âI know you wonât stop apologizing, so Iâm gonna make this loud and clearâ I forgive you.â Remus said, enunciating the latter part of the statement dramatically, causing Logan to snort. Remus grinned at the logical side, proud at himself for being able to make Logan crack up. He then added, âItâs not all your fault anywayâ I shouldâve grabbed my morning star and popped in before Janus had the chance to pull me away. Fuckinâ Janus,âÂ
Logan chuckled before replying, âTo be fair, Janus was probably correct for restricting you from participating. Judging by your sullen cheeks and reddened eyes, I predict you wouldnât have lasted long arguing before you break down sobbing in front of the others.â
One of Remusâs other tentacles slammed a mug on his side while another started mixing in the instant hot chocolate powder and the hot water from the pitcher. Logan could only quirk an eyebrow at him, âHey, I thought you were here to be my source of comfort, you traitor.â Remus replied with a pout.
Logan let out a smirk, âI still am, and Iâm saying that you listening to Janusâs advice was a commendable move, so you're not the one to blame.â Logan said, earning a huff from Remus, âBut are you okay now?â asked Logan.
Remus pursed his lips before replying, âBetter now, but I donât think my state isnât as bad asâŠâ Remus gestured at the glitching particles surrounding Logan, â...that.â Remus continued, and this time, it was Logan who huffed.
âBelieve me when I say that Iâm completely fine,â
âYeah⊠no, you look terrible.â
âSame as you.â
âI aim to look like trash anyway, soâŠâ Remus retorted but Logan looked at him incredulously, âWhat, do you want me to vent?â
âI believe it was you who said, âVentingâs like blowjobs, Logan, it makes you feel good and have some sort of releaseâ.â Logan stated, giving a scarily accurate impersonation of Remus, which consequently made the impersonated side cackle loudly, âYou seemed to have encountered an issue with Orange right after your talk with Janus, so I am certain you still have some bottled up frustrations within you.âÂ
Remus took a sip of his hot chocolate and rolled his eyes, âFine, okay, youâre right. Frankly, I am still pissed at Sâ Orange,â Remus quickly corrected himself, âBut if I vent, do you promise on your dead body to open up to me as well?â
âI assure you Iâmââ
âLogan âLogicâ Sanders,â Remus said scoldingly, âYou act as if I totally did not hear your outbursts a while ago. Moreover, I thought we were over the whole âkeep secrets from one anotherâ thing? I admitted to you that the snake infestation in the Mindscape was entirely my fault and not Janusâs andâ and I also told you about that time I decided to be a bit cynical and bury my beating heart under the floorboards just to scare the shit out of Virgil and Roman, so itâs unfair if you keep any secrets from me when I could literally be arrested for confessing all of my crimes to you! If, yâknow, this was real life, but whatever, you still understand what Iâm saying here, right?â
Logan sighed tiredly, âI suppose youâve a point.â Logan said, and Remus looked pleased for a moment until Logan continued, âBut, while I still insist that I donât have much toâ er, âventâ about, I will only do it if and only if you go first.âÂ
Remus immediately looked annoyed by Loganâs offer but merely sighed in acceptance. Logan, on the other hand, smiled at him smugly. âFine, whale penis,â Remus said, taking a dramatically long sip of his beverage, âYou promise?â
Logan nodded, âWe arenât children, Remus, but yes, I promise.â
And with that, Remus set his mug aside next to Loganâs unused one and rested his hands on the table. He gazed upwards as he seemed to ponder where he was going to start as Logan merely stared at him intently. Eventually, after much pondering, Remus began, âYâknow, sometimes I wonder if Orange hates me.â
âWhat makes you think of that?â
âWell, we both know he represents Thomasâs beliefs, right? Superstitious, religious, supernatural, whatever, but letâs focus on the religious part of it.â Remus explained, âWhen Thomasâs Catholicism is ever discussed, he gets so weirdly aggressive and powerful and blunt about his feelings. Like, I love harsh honesty as much as the next person but he literally wonât shut the fuck up about how disgustingly âsinfulâ I am.â
âThatâs a bit⊠rude.â
âI know right! Beyond rude!â Remus exclaimed, âAnd most of the time, it doesnât bother me, but that mixed with Thomas and the other three White Sidesââ
âItâs âLightâ Sidesââ
âWhatever, white people suck and they suck too, so technically, Iâm not wrong.â Remus grumbled, earning an amused half-smile from Logan, âBut back to the pointâ I just donât understand why people like toâ uhâ like to paint me asââ Remus took a sharp yet shaky inhale, ââas a villain. I mean, yeah, I know Iâm gross and lewd and everything God would condemn, but it wasnâtâ it isnât my fault that Iâm like this. Do theyâŠâ Remus swallowed thickly, âDo they understand how cruel the first ten years of my life are? The hate they have for me does n-not compare to the hate I had for myself for most of my life. Even now, Iâ sometimes IââÂ
Remus wasnât able to finish his sentence as lip trembled harshly. With Remusâs eyes becoming glossier by the second, Logan decided to muster enough courage within him to raise his hand and put it atop Remusâs, thumbing soothing circles in the hopes that itâll provide him some comfort. Remus blinked twice before intertwining his fingers with Logan instead, holding it dearly as if it was a lifeline.
âWhy is it so hard for them to understand that while Thomasâs Catholic upbringing could be good, itâs also soâŠâ
âDetrimental? Harmful?â Logan offered.
âYeah, that, thanks.â Remus said, chuckling at Logan, âAnd even if they wanna defend it, why do they have to drag me into every damn conversation? Iâm not the side that represents sin, thank you very much. Sometimes they all just act like Karenâs to me. Whatâre they gonna do next, blame me for Thomas being vaccinated? I bet Patton is this close from forcing Thomas to drink some radioactive mushroom-citrus essential oil.â Remus joked with a broken smile, but with one stern look from Logan, he reverted back to what he was originally rambling about.
âSorry, I justâ do they not understand the fucking work I do so that Thomas wouldnât experience intrusive thoughts 24/7? Do they forget that without me, Virgil or Roman or, shit, even Patton could have their fair share of intrusive thoughts? Why do people think that all I do is fuck everything when Iâm so much more than filthy jokes and violence? I just wannaâ I just want to be viewed as their equal, is that too much to ask?â Remus finished his rant with an extremely peeved yet heartbroken expression, his lips forming a thin line as his nose crinkled sourly. Despite the tone of finality, Remusâs fingers still had not stopped fidgeting within Loganâs grasp.Â
Logan understood that Remus also had his fair share of troubles concerning intrusive thoughtsâ Logan even thought that Remusâs dilemma was vastly more horrendous than Thomasâs situation. One visit to Remusâs room was enough to convince Logan that Thomasâs situation was absolutely nothing compared to Remus.
Logan also understood that out of all the other sides, Remus was the most misunderstood; itâs something they both have in common. While Remus is described to be naturally uncaring and crass, he understood there was much more to him than what meets the eye. He was relentlessly vigorous, but he was also fragile and delicate. He was described as stupid and excessively foolish, but deep within, heâs brilliant and passionate, yet no one seems to credit him for that.Â
Lastly, Logan also understood that Remus was the only side that saw something in him. He had a genuine fondness and affection for Logan, and while they didnât like putting labels on what they had, Logan cherished it nonetheless.
(And Logan also knew that while he was content with where they were now, moments like this reminded him that he also feared about not being enough for Remus. But of course, he didnât want to say that.)
âRemus,â Logan said, âOne or two?â
Logan developed a helpful method to use whenever one of them is feeling low. It was simple: one meant youâd want the other party to say something to comfort you, and two meant you didnât need to be told anything and you just needed the otherâs presence to help you calm down.
âOne and a half.â Remus said unhelpfully.
âWhat?â Logan said, getting caught off-guard, âRounded off, that would be two.âÂ
Remus pouted, âNerd.â and Logan shrugged as if he was saying âand what?â. âWhat I mean is, Iâd prefer one, but like, a bit toned down? I donât need an entire powerpoint presentation like what you did last time.âÂ
âThen you shouldâve said zero point five, or simply referring to it as one-half would do as well.â
âIâm gay, Logan, I donât fuck with math!â
âWeâre both gay, Remus.â Logan retorted. âBut back to the topic at hand: youâre valid for who you are, Remus. What the others say about you doesnât matter at all when they literally donât have much evidence or experiences to backup their claims. You are generous, caring, and quite frankly, tremendously fun, and while I cannot specify every occasion to support this claim because you wanted me to be as concise as possible, you know you should believe me more than any other side in this Mindscape. Besides that point, words cannot describe how grateful I am for you. I wouldnât exchange who you are now for anything else.â
While desperately trying to compose his sudden quickened heartbeat, he chanced gazing at Remusâs direction. Remus appeared to be less crestfallen but the glossiness in his eyes returned for a different reason. The hand that was gripping Loganâs tightened as Remus raised one of his tentacles to wipe a tear that escaped his eyelids.
âRemus⊠are you alright?â Logan inquired, and Remus rapidly nodded his head with bubbled cheeks in an attempt to restrict more tears from falling.
âYes, one hundred percent, doing absolutely fine.â Remus replied, âYouâre such a fucking sap that I could literally eat you alive,â added Remus, gaining a bemused look from Logan.
âI am unsure of whether to be terrified or flattered but thank youâŠ?â Logan replied, âI wasnât aware I was being a sapâ I was simply being intellectually honest with you.â
Somehow, that made Remus even more emotional. Logan internally panicked, thinking he had done something incorrectly, but then, one of Remusâs tentacles wrapped around his neck, slowly pulling his head closer to Remusâs chest. As Loganâs forehead leaned against Remusâs hoodie, he smiled fondly at Remusâs sudden affection. Even Remusâs tentacles couldnât help themselves as they began combing and playing with Loganâs hair tenderly. âYouâre too precious, I canât believe you.â Remus said.
âWell, youâre quite welcome, Remus.â Logan replied, âIâm not quite sure what I said in particular that would elicit this sort of reaction from you. While I do know you are a touchy-feely kind of person, you do not typically get this affectionate with every conversationâŠâ Logan paused, âBut I do like it. Keep doing it.â
Remus laughed at Logan, somewhat impressed by his appreciation, âYou sound like youâve never been hugged before.âÂ
âWell⊠I receive them, but just rarelyâ Patton and Roman used to be my main sources, but theyâve barely given me any offers nowadays. On the rare occasion that they do, their offers would come off as disingenuous, so I usually decline them.â Logan explained, trying to disguise the hurt he was feeling. But somehow, Remus saw through it, just like he mysteriously, always does.
âSounds like you have something you want to talk about.â Remus said, slowly releasing Logan from his tight grasp. Despite the loosened grip, Logan still willed to remain physically close to the other side. Something about Remus provided him with an unfamiliar yet soothing feeling of warmth and ease. If Logan were to be âsappyâ like how Remus dubbed him to be, he would have described Remus as a figurative atom as Logan wouldâve been the electrons surrounding him. There was something so compelling about him, something so magnetic, and Logan couldnât help but be pulled closer to him, couldnât help but revolve his entire being around him.
(There was also a meddling feeling within him that nagged that this metaphor meant Logan was also someone who was ânegatively chargedâ, but in Loganâs defense, this was the first time he ever tried using a metaphorâ cut him some slack.)
âWell, sorta kinda,â Logan replied, not letting his thoughts distract him. He sighed before continuing, âI mean, mentally, I think Iâm utterly drained.â
âWe been knew, sis,â Remus replied.
âIs thatâ what does that mean?â Loganâs eyes narrowed.Â
âOh, uh, it just means like, âweâve known that for a long timeâ.â Remus explained, âI forget that youâre literally the most boomer person Iâve ever met, but nevermind that, just go on.âÂ
Logan sighed and continued, âItâs difficult for me to recognize if Iâm on the verge of a mental breakdown, mostly because I have not allowed myself to be thoroughly acquainted with my emotions, but ever since youâve assisted me in understanding how my feelings work, Iâve suddenly realized that I have⊠not been okay for most of my life. Despite having your support, I still feel deeply terrified because I am usually uncertain of how horrendous my problems have gotten.
âAnd the fact that the others dismiss me nonchalantly doesnât ease my troubling thoughts either. I donât know if Iâm overthinking, but Iïżœïżœve noticed that their interactions with me are borderline manipulative. At times, they like to coax me into thinking that they know whatâs best for me, or they accept me for who I am, but then a few moments later, I learn that theyâre only being courteous because they want to utilize me for a certain issue they want to resolve.â
While fiddling with his fingers in an attempt to alleviate the unsettling emotions that arose within him, Remus spoke up, âIs that what happened a while ago, and why you got all pissy at them?â
Logan nodded with a disheartened expression, âIt isnât the first time this happened, so of course Iâd be pushed towards my breaking point. I practically had to voice out my frustrations even if I know that they wonât listen to me anyway.â Logan stated, quite agitated, âIt also distresses me to no end that they frequently add Thomas into these conversations. I know Thomasâs intentions are pure but when being told something repetitively, Thomas would eventually believe in what they say over what I say.â
âBut doesnât that, yâknow, worsenâŠâ Remus gestured to the flickering polygons encircling Logan, âthis?â
Logan hummed, âWhile it doesnât bother me as much as it did the first time around, it unfortunately delays my work schedule. Moreover, the others are still oblivious to my dilemma, and Iâm⊠scared to confront them about the issue. Thereâs really no telling with them, especially if I confess that Iâm on the cusp of becoming a âDarkâ Side. Theyâre going to paint me as a villain, similar to what they did to you, and I donâtâ I donât think I can handle hearing all of that.â
âI already have⊠an abundant amount of insecurities that I cannot seem to rationalize and itâs only worsening for⊠obvious reasons. You already understand Iâm quite the perfectionist, so when someone informs me that Iâm âmistakenâ or decides to disregard my contributions entirely, I feelâ I feel likeââ Logan shakily inhaled before continuing, âI feel worthless. Pointless. No matter what I do, it will always be deemed as useless, and I canât help but hate myself for it.â
âHey Logan?â Remus said softly, raising one of his hands to cup his cheek. âBreathe for me.â
Logan didnât realize how quickened his breath had become until Remus pointed it out, and as he tried to ignore the suffocating feeling that was crushing his chest, he followed Remusâs instructions obediently. They breathed together silently, Logan attempting to not let himself cry embarrassingly in front of Remus once more.Â
âHatsune Geek-u,â Remus spoke, âone or two?â Remus asked, lowering his hand.
Logan averted his gaze from Remus, thinking before he shouldâve replied to his question. âUhm,â Logan said, âWhile Iâd like to say Iâm leaning more towards two, I still feel unexplainably frustrated for some absurd reason.â Logan said wearily.
âSo⊠a one and a half?â Remus replied comedically, and Logan failed to suppress a snort.
âDick.â Logan rebuts, causing Remus to gasp audibly.
âLogan, this is a Christian household, donât be a sinful little bitch,â Remus whined and Logan delightedly laughed at him.
âI didnât realize we were holding a âWho can impersonate Patton the best?â competition.â Logan joked, but then he returned to the main topic at hand, âIn all seriousness, I still cannot comprehend why I feel so aggravated. Venting usually uplifts me but I suppose everything, even certain coping mechanisms, will stop working after a certain point.â
âThere are other things we can try out.â Remus explained, âBefore we were friends, there were a lot of things I did in my room and in the Imagination that helped me calm down. Not every problem of mine could find a solution through venting so Janus recommended that I should channel my emotions into doing something physical.â
âThat actually⊠makes a lot of senseâ considering youâre a very active and energetic person and all.â Logan said, âBut Iâm vastly dissimilar from you in a physical sense, Remus. I can barely lift a single Encyclopedia book without toppling over.â
âGod you are a weakling, but that doesnât matter! Iâm not your gym instructor, dork, Iâm still your local rat bastard and I have some⊠fun plans up my sleeve.â
Loganâs eyes narrowed suspiciously, âWhat are you suggesting?â.
âOkay, hear me outââ
âOh God.â
âItâs going to sound a little weirdââ
âThat was to be expected.â
âBut hear me out.â
âIâm all ears.â
âPlate throwing.â Remus suggested, slightly starry eyed as if what he said was the most magnificent thing on earth. Logan, on the other hand, was quite the opposite. His eyebrows furrowed in confusion and concern as his lips thinned in disapproval. That didnât dissuade the more chaotic side from summoning multiple sets of plates on the table, all stacked neatly, ready to be used.
âRemus,â Logan spoke sternly. âItâs late.â
âAnd?â
âWe might disturb Janus and Orange.â Logan explained, âConsidering Orangeâs unhinged state and how exhausted Janus must be, I donât think it is the smartest idea to throw plates.â
âI promise you, the other two wonât care.â Remus told him, âOrange literally plays Catholic praise songs all the fucking timeâ he wonât notice anything thatâs going on outside of his room. And Janus? He soundproofed his room because⊠well, thereâs this one time I did an experiment with horny foxes and lemme tell yaâ he did not like that. After that, he literally wasnât bothered by anything else. I once decided to test how soundproof his room was by blasting Megalovania on ten thousand speakers but he didnât hear anything. Nothing at all. Zip. Zilch. Nadaââ
âOkay, okay, I understand.â Logan said, still quite reluctant to participate, âWhy do you even have these plates?â
âWell, remember the art project I was doing where I decided to make a replica of the town from that horror manga using weird materials?âÂ
Loganâs eyes lit up, âThe one of Junji Itoâs Uzumaki?â
Remus snapped his fingers with a grin, âBingo.â he affirmed, âIâm almost finished with the thing save for this entire area with like, bones and er, I canât really explain it well but imagine human bodies made out of concrete.â
âA very comforting image.â Logan remarked sarcastically.
âI know, right?â Remus replied jestingly, âI thought broken, ceramic plates would be a fun material to work withâ not because it seemed like an appropriate material for the rubble but I just thought breaking plates would be fun to do. I was going to do it on my own but it seems like youâre willing to break a few plates for yourself. Yâknow, as a release.â
Using one of his tentacles, Remus chucked a plate at Logan who caught it accurately. âRemus, you know I love you very much, and I do want to help contribute to your wonderful art project, but this is somewhat too childish forââ
Interrupting Loganâs spiel, Remus snapped his fingers loudly. Logan blinked twice in bewilderment, unsure of why Remus did that in the first place, but then, he noticed that something behind Remus had changed. The dark hardwood cupboards had some pinned banners on them with each depicting one of the three âLightâ Sides. What intrigued Logan the most were the giant red circles that surrounded their faces; Logan guessed that they were painted on by Remus. The circles that enveloped the sides made it seem like Logan was supposed to target them as if they wereâ
Oh.
Oh.
âRemus,â Logan spoke.
âYes?â Remus said chipperly.
âAm I supposed toâ?â
âGo for it.â Remus insisted, giving Logan a nod of encouragement.
Logan glanced at the plate he carried in his glitching palms, noticing how his fatigued expression was shining back at him due to how clean the plate was. Like always, his eyebags were incredibly pronounced, and it seemed like a new wrinkle had developed on his forehead. And⊠were those white strands of hair tucked behind his ear?
Logan grimacedâ how long has he been this tired?
He raised his head and looked at the three pictures of the other sides. All three pictures developed a sense of dread within him. Besides the fear that was eating him from the inside out, there were several other side effects like the sweatiness and unsteadiness of his palms, the dryness of his throat, and the sudden urge to rip the banners off the cupboards and tear them to shreds.Â
Logan bet Remus deliberately made each picture show the others at their highest, all of them smiling and laughing mockingly at Logan. At weak, frail, useless Logan.Â
Logan looked down at his plate again. The same weary expression stared back at him.
And when he looked back at the cupboards, each of the sides were still smiling in blissful ignorance. They fucking knew Logan was exhausted, they knew he was on the verge of a mental breakdown.
And yet, they laughed anyway.
Just like that, something buried deep within Logan cracked. Raising the arm that was handling the plate, he ferociously hurled it towards the cupboards. The suppressed wrath he has forcibly ignored for years seeped out all at once, and for the first time, Logan let it happen, he let himself be angry.Â
And honestly, with how many times they viewed Logan as a controllable utility, with how many times theyâve figuratively stabbed him in the back, with how many times theyâve dumped all the responsibilities on Logan without asking if he was alrightâ Logan deserved to get outraged.
An earsplitting, loud crack was heard, its sound reverberating across the âDarkâ Sidesâ living room and kitchen.Â
The plate precisely hit the cupboard with the picture of Patton, its pieces exploding right at the center. It was incredibly scary how Logan was able to execute a perfect and direct shot at Patton despite how his glitches made him constantly spasm.Â
âHolyââ Remus spoke as Logan withdrew his hand. Logan let out a breath he didnât know he was holding, quite astonished at his accuracy. âHoly shit.â Remus remarked proudly, the large grin on his face suggesting that he was extremely impressed by Logan.
âHoly shit indeed,â Logan murmured, similarly as stunned as Remus. âThat was⊠surprisingly exhilarating.â Logan stated, a smile creeping unto his face.Â
âFucking yes,â Remus grabbed two more plates from the stack, âI feel like a proud mother watching their child graduate,â Remus remarked, and before Logan could have commented on how strange Remusâs statement was, Remus aggressively chucked the two plates he carried towards the pictures of Roman and Virgil. His movements were so quick that Logan couldâve sworn he felt a cool breeze brush past him when Remus threw the plates.
âThatâs what you get for abandoning me, fuckinâ assholes!â Remus hollered, emitting an impressed laugh from Logan.Â
âI think the best word to describe what I feel is âMoodâ.â Logan responded, snatching a handful of plates for himself.Â
âGlad you understand, but if you really do relate, then you should keep throwing your plates, Invader Simp.â Remus stated, âAnd whatever you do, do not hold back.âÂ
Logan didnât need to be instructed twice before chucking his plates mercilessly, unleashing all the rage and energy he possessed within. Every time he heard a vicious crack or the sound of the ceramic pieces colliding with one another violently, an overwhelming, thrilling sensation washed through him. Remus wasnât exempted from this feeling either, his face expressing pure ecstasy and enjoyment, and that only increased how entertained Logan was.
Additionally, the countless insults and jabs they had for the other sides only enthralled Logan more, making this experience oddly therapeutic.
âQuite unfair of you, Virgil, that your asshole demeanor is always glossed over by Thomas and his fans when youâve threatened to cut my air supply on camera. Oh, but of course Patton insists youâre a sweet, harmless, angelicââ
Another crashing noise, âTo be fair, Pattonâs pretty fucking stupid.â Remus interrupted, throwing another plate at the worn out picture of Patton, âPlus he has ten Minion posters in his room.â
âEugh.â
âAt least he isnât like Roman. Stupid Roman who acts as if everything Thomas does is his doing.â Remus grabbed an excessive amount of plates, throwing at Romanâs photo, âLast time I checked, it was me who helped Thomas when he was cast in Heathersââ
âAnd it was me who helped Thomas schedule all his auditions.â Logan commented irritatedly, âThey act as if I didnât contribute anything to Thomasâs theatre career, act as if Iâm the villain, when it was me who had to adapt to a sudden change in Thomasâs career. They say they hate me for wanting a different future for Thomas when they were the first ones to change Thomasâs life plans without my permission!â
âSay it louder for the people in the back, sister!â
âWait, âpeople in the backâ...? Is someone watching uââ
âShit, wait, I forget you are a literal boomer, sorry,â Remus said, âWhat I mean is, youâre abso-fucking-lutely right.â he added, and while doing so, he decided to put some of his tentacles into good use. Picking up an entire stack of plates, he tossed them one by one at each picture. The table was getting emptier now, with only one stack of plates left, âAll of them are massive hypocrites and itâs starting to piss me off.âÂ
ïżœïżœïżœAgreed,â Logan affirmed. Slightly jealous Remus was hogging all the plates to himself, Logan challenged his physical strength by grabbing the entire last stack of plates for himself to throw. While this earned some concerned look from Remus, Remus didnât protest against Loganâs decision. This was enough encouragement for Logan to hurl the dishes relentlessly against the cupboards, creating a clamorous noise as every single plate shattered into uneven pieces.Â
âWoah,â Remus said in awe as he casually chucked the last plate he was holding, âI would like to see this feral side of you more, Logan.â
Logan cracked his knuckles, feeling oddly satisfied after that session of plate throwing, âThank you,â Logan told Remus, âIâm thinking youâll get to see it more when I have fully converted into becoming a âDarkâ Side.â
âOh, itâll match with the âDarkâ Side aesthetic we have, Iâm sure of it.â
âGood,â Logan said.
There was a comfortable silence exchanged between both sides as the adrenaline began to wear off. It was only at this moment they realized how much damage theyâve created outside the broken plates as the cupboards are now embellished with multiple scratches and chipped off wood. Additionally, some of the broken ceramics were scattered on the other countertops, and it seemed like some of the appliances nearby were also caught in the crossfire. Logan shouldâve known that once the banners have started ripping, they shouldâve halted their plate throwing to examine the safety of the other equipment in the kitchen.
Ah well. He still didnât regret participating in the activity anyway.
âThis should be enough.â Remus said, sweeping the plate remnants up with his tentacles. Each appendage was seen efficiently picking up the fragments, dusting off specks of dirt found on them, and delicately placing the pieces on the countertops. Logan doesnât understand why Remus decided to choose the countertops over the tables, but he doesnât make an effort to inquire about the matter.
âThat is⊠more than what I expected.â Logan mentioned, âI suppose we got too carried away with our endeavors.â
âDoesnât mean it was a bad thing,â Remus told him, and somehow, he was holding a nail filer. Logan assumed he was going to polish the shards using the filer to precisely imitate the sculptures and skulls from the book.
âWhile I did admit we were a bit overwhelmed by the thrill of the activity, I did not specify it being a horrible experience.â Logan corrected him, âIn fact, I actually⊠enjoyed it. And itâs rare for me to find physical activities like these exhilarating.âÂ
âSee? This is why you donât doubt The Duke,â Remus said, leaning against the table as he let his tentacles do all the cleanup work, âAnd youâre welcome, Elpha-bae Thropp,â added Remus, and somehow, that nickname made something in Loganâs heart swell. Swell in a positive or negative sense, he didnât know.
âThat is an upgrade from âSwell-phaba Throppâ.â Logan replied.
âUgh, donât even remind me of that atrocious nickname.â Remus said, nostrils slightly flared.
âI wonât, but the nickname has very close ties to some memories I hold dear, so pardon me if I ever bring it up again in the future.â Logan said, referencing the first time he and Remus had shared an intimate moment with one another. He was glad to see Remusâs expression soften as he seemed to have recalled it as well.
âAw, youâre being a sap again,â Remus commented, leaning his chin against his hands as his arms were propped atop of the table. He gazed at Logan dreamily, âThat suddenly made me hate the nickname less now.â
âI didnât say it was a good nickname,â Logan retorted with a smirk.
âYou hurt my pride, love, I am wounded,â Remus said, putting a hand dramatically on his chest.Â
Logan almost sputtered upon hearing the nickname but only managed to raise his eyebrows. Remus typically coated his nicknames with a joke, or some kind of atrocious pun but this was something different, and Logan couldnât have helped but feel flustered because of it. ââLoveâ?â Logan murmured, and immediately, he felt the atmosphere of the room shift.Â
Remus immediately looked apologetic, and Logan couldâve sworn one of his tentacles almost dropped one of the plate fragments it was holding, but Remus was quick to defend himself, âAh, my apologies, I know you donât want to rush things and Iâmâ well, I am Remus, so words just slip out of my mouth andââ
âNo itâsâ itâs quite alright.â Logan instantly corrected him, âI apologize too if I, uhm, swiftly dismiss your acts of affection. I know Iâm notââ Loganâs voice decided to betray him and crack involuntarily, âIâm just not well adjusted to, er, romance, and anything of the like. Itâsâ itâs not that I donât enjoy it, per se, I genuinely appreciate the relationship we have now, but I just⊠do not know if what Iâve been giving back to you is enough to satisfy you? I understand Iâm quite monotonous and stoic so Iâm not alwaysâ I cannot findâ Iâm trying toââ Logan sucked in a breath as he shut his eyes, âIâm just⊠very awful at this kind of stuff.â
Logan shouldâve known Remus was still going to be compassionate about his problems, wouldâve still been unexplainably considerate despite how Logan is the way he is, but a single pesky thought lingered in his head, whispering how Remus might decide to just end it, how Remus might just tell Logan to forget about everything theyâve ever done.Â
(Logan really had forgotten that his insecurities about being worthless to the other sides are different from the insecurities about not being enough for Remus, huh. Calming down those intrusive thoughts obviously paved the way for other ones to take over, and unfortunately, those ones all involve Remus in one way or another.)
There was a troubled expression on Remusâs face, and Logan was bracing himself for the absolute worst thing to come out of Remusâs mouth. But thenâ
âLogan, you know I love you, but what on earth are you talking about?â Logan stared at him blankly, thinking he misheard what Remus said, but Remus still appeared to be extremely baffled. âLogan, you do know that you canât measure affection, and even if you do, youâre damn good at providing it.â Remus stated, leaning closer to Logan with arms planted on the table, âMore than anything, I feel like Iâm the one doing something wrong here.â
And now it was Loganâs turn to look perplexed, âYou? Remus, youâre the more romantic and affectionate oneââ
âThat is exactly what I mean!â Remus exclaimed, making Logan appear to be even more confused. âWhat I mean is, I feel like Iâm taking things too fast when I know we promised to let this⊠thing we have to be more gradual. I know weâre allowed to be fond with one another, Iâm not that stupid, but Iâm kinda scared that Iâm being too gross or intrusive or quick orââ
âRemus.â Logan cut him off before he would inevitably begin to spiral downwards, âOut of everyone, you told me to love myself for who I am. And I admit, I do struggle a bit sometimes, but you need to take in your own advice as well.â Logan said while Remus gazed at the table, lips curved downwards, âYouâre not gross, nor are you someone whoâs âtoo muchâ. Youâre enough for me, Remus, and I admire all the efforts you make to show your fondness for me.â
Remus then began to look up, directly gazing at Logan, and his frown softened. Like the chaotic side he is, he jumped on the table quickly and pushed himself forward to move closer to Logan. They were then in the same position they were in the first time they met tonight, Remus sitting cross-legged on the table as he loomed above Logan who leaned close to him.
âThank you, dork,â Remus said, âI could also say the same for you, though. You canât say youâre doing âtoo littleâ when youâve literally done so much for me. Even small things like listening to me rant about my gory fantasies make me feel happy. Or loved. Or appreciated or wanted, but you get the point. Donât you ever think that youâre doing less than stellar when literally everything you do is enough for me. Youâre enough for me too, Logan.â
âRemus,â Logan gazed at him, and this time, it was him with the glossy eyes, âIâm getting too emotional and itâs almost 3AM,â Logan told him, âbut that⊠that means so much to me. Thank you so, so much.â
âYou sound like youâre on your deathbed.â Remus said, earning a chuckle from Logan. âBut youâre welcome, love.â
This time, the nickname made Logan flush crimson, and Logan didnât last long before he leaned his forehead against Remusâs chest once again, wrapping his arms around the green-clad side like the flustering idiot he is.
âAw,â Remus said, bringing his hand to pat the logical side, âYou actually like it when I call you love.â
âI hate you.â
âNo you donât.â
âI almost hate you.â
âAnd I love you too.â Remus replied, kissing the top of Loganâs hair lovingly.
And that sums up their relationship well, doesnât it? Their insecurities forgotten thanks to their fondness for one another. A weird yet lovely symbiotic relationship that made Logan feel genuinely happyâ something he hadnât experienced much since Thomasâs teenage years. Logan always thought he never deserved experiencing joy anywayâ but Remus showed him that he did, convinced him he was worthy enough. Logan wouldâve never thought this gore-obsessed, chaotic trash man made his heart swell the way it does now, wouldâve never thought this trash man would have helped Logan overcome his insecurities using the oddest of methodsâ
But Logan wouldnât have it any other way.
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Attacker Mains - Headcanons
I'm trying to get some motivation to write, so I decided to work out a few headcanons to share for my main attackers. ;u;
Maverick
- Asexual Maverick! Erik understood early on he didn't quite feel that spark. Tried it. Wasn't for him. While love scenes in movies and shows don't strictly bother him, he doesn't understand the appeal behind them.
- While sexual attraction isn't much of his thing, he does experience romantic attraction. His intelligence tends to scare off his dates; they find his ability to read people.. uncanny. This plays in part why Erik is awkward moreso when expressing feelings to a potential partner. He shows hope but steels himself for the worst.
- Nobody is without their demons. Erik is no exception. He didn't fit in with the other kids. He had the smarts but not the experience. Kabul was his safe haven. Despite all that happened there, despite the new horrors that followed him, he wouldn't give it up for the world.
- Erik is the king of bottled up emotions. Don't even try him.
- Hyperfixation on complex puzzles!! A new challenge to test his limits and expand his horizons is a gift. A curious mind and a stubborn will can occasionally lead to late-night adventures.Â
Jackal
- King of personal issues. Unresolved childhood trauma? Check. Unhealthy obsessions? Check. Deteriorating mental state as a result of trauma and unhealthy obsessions? Bingo.Â
- He's so, so desperate for closure. Deep down, he knows he'll never get it. His brother is gone and he'll never know why. It kills him. Obsessing with the past has cost him his chance at a normal life.
- Ryad's unhealthy tendency to fixate strains his relationships, romantic or otherwise. During operations, it can occasionally put him on the wrong side of his superiors. They call it a Hero Complex. Ryad argues it's conscience. Leave the heroics to Ace.
- Even if he were to discover his brother's killer, it wouldn't bring him any real joy. Without the hunt, he has nothing. He gave everything up chasing a shadow and all he had to show for it was a broken man.
Glaz
- Calm and level headed no matter the situation. Observes more than he talks. Though he may have had a softer childhood than most, he still learned valuable skills like patience, decision making, and focus. With a foundation already there, basic training only expanded off what he already had.Â
- Given his motives to join the military and by extension Rainbow, it's not hard to believe Timur may be a bit of an empath. The Beslan event beckoned his very soul.
- Likely has a habit of carrying around paper and a pencil during his free time. You never know when you might be struck with the sudden inspiration.
- Big gatherings are a big no-go. It doesn't take him long to feel drained. His ability to thrive in small groups, though, makes him an excellent listener. Cue Rainbow's personal personal-problem-solver.
Ace
- Ultimate hero complex? Check. Ultimately insecurity issues? Check check. A constant need for approval consumes HĂ„vard's every thought and drives every decision.Â
- Underneath the arrogance and narcissism is a man who's afraid of failure. Afraid of not being enough. Afraid that someday, the world will no longer have a use for him.
- He knows there are people among Rainbow who⊠dislike his proclivity for sharing his work on social media. The gratification he earns from his followers outweighs the disapproval.
- While he certainly has a penchant for validation over authenticity, HĂ„vard's knowledge and awareness are substantial. He wouldn't do anything to endanger his fellow operators or civilians, no matter how self-absorbed he seems.Â
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Tangled Salt Marathon - Rapunzel Day One
This is decent episode, and one of the few that isnât filler in season two, but because there are problems with the over all character acs, thereâs problems here with episode too.Â
Summary:Â Â Rapunzel and Cassandra come across an abandoned magic stall while searching for parts of their destroyed caravan. The stall contains a wand of forgetting. Cassandra impulsively wishes that Rapunzel would "just forget about everything" when she was tired of her trying to patch things up between them, which results in Rapunzel regressing to when she was still in her tower with Gothel.
The Episode Order is ConfusingÂ
So this and The Brothers Hook aired on the same day. Now in the production order listing, Rapunzel Day One is suppose to come before The Brothers Hook and thatâs how itâs ordered on Disney Plus. Which is where Iâm watching this marathon and getting all my screen caps.
However The Brothers Hook did air before this episode according to Wikipedia. Also Hook Foot is nowhere to be seen with nary a word. So placing The Brothers Hook before would indeed make more sense in that regard.Â
Yet Raps and Cass arenât fighting in The Brothers Hook, so I donât understand how this was supposed to originally work. Whatâs the correct viewing order here? Is Hook Foot just off screen with Fidella this episode, or is Cass and Raps ignoring their big fight in The Brotherâs Hook?Â
For Someone With a Disability Now, It Doesnât Seem To Affect Things
Ok, to be fair, they do show Cassandra practicing here and later in Mirror, Mirror trying to relearn how to use her hand, and indeed physical therapy for injuries is a thing. Yet, two scenes isnât enough to establish that. She regains usage of her hand really quickly and far too easily, given the type of injury it was.Â
Disabilities, even unseen ones, still impact your everyday life. Yes, they don't ruin your life; you can still do things. But they don't just go away and you have to deal with it.Â
Finding that balance between not making a character useless, while still recognizing that there are things that they struggle with when writing disabilities is a line that writers have trouble with. But if youâre not going to put in that effort needed to pull it off tastefully then don't introduce the concept.Â
One Step Forward; Two Steps Back
Rapunzel recognizing that there is a problem, and wanting to fix it before it gets worse, can be viewed as progress. After all, avoiding the issue is why things got so bad between her and Varian. But, sheâs still failing to see why Cassandra is upset and so goes about things the wrong way.Â
And keep in mind, Rapunzel does have every right to be mad at Cassandra, just the same that Cass has a right to be mad at Rapunzel. Both girls screwed up. Â
Yet, itâs only Rapunzelâs side of things that Rapunzel cares about, and therefore nothing actually gets resolved.Â
This could have been a decent conflict for season three, but thatâs not where the writers take things so weâre just spinning our wheels here.Â
Itâs also kind of shitty that Cass is the only person that Rapunzel is willing to put effort into righting things with. She still doesnât give a crap about Varian, nor any other villain in the show.Â
Well I Guess This Has to Come Before The Brothers Hook
They have the caravan in Brothers Hook, donât they? I mean how else did they meet up with Hook Hand? But if that is the case then where is Hook Foot now? I donât know. Â
Cassandraâs Hurt Hand Only Matters When It Concerns Her Relationship With Rapunzel and Not How It Affects Her Character as a WholeÂ
An extension of what I was saying before, but it shows the fundamental problem with the writing for Cassandra. The writers only think of her as a conflict for Rapunzel and not as a person with like her own life and shit.Â
Long Time, No See Owl
As soon as Hook Foot goes unceremoniously missing, then Owl shows up. I donât think heâs been seen since season one, yet they act like heâs always been here with the group.Â
Why is continuity and consistency so hard for this show?Â
The Saporians Are Indeed Homeless, But Don't Expect That to Ever Be Brought Up
So things to note.Â
This isnât a village. Itâs an encampment. What we see here are destroyed tents and caravans. The only permanent structure is a short stone wall.Â
Secondly, the magic book they find has the Saporian symbol on it, and indeed the Saporians use the wand of oblivium to take over Corona in S3. Â
What we can gather from this is that the Saporians were driven out of Corona after the first war. Theyâve been living as nomads for centuries without their homeland.Yet their most recent settlement was destroyed by the black rocks sometime before season one started, along with most of their possessions and means of living.Â
All of this would explain their motivations, goals, and why they picked now to try and take over and not just any other time. Â
But don't expect any of that to be brought up or remembered by anyone come season three. We canât have any po the bad guys, save for Cass, being sympathetic now can we.Â
Also, just a side note. Itâs funny how apothecary is treated as magic and alchemy as a science in this world, when in reality it should be the opposite way around.Â
This is Not an ApologyÂ
If you gotta throw a âbutâ in there, then you havenât really apologized.Â
Rapunzelâs not sorry for Cass getting hurt. She doesnât recognize nor understands why Cassandra feels the way she does, and sheâs even attempting to try to. All Rapunzel cares about is how Cass being upset makes herself feel. Sheâs putting in this effort to âtalk about itâ because Cass being outwardly angry at her is inconvenient to herself and nothing more.Â
Rapunzel Still Hasn't Learned BoundariesÂ
Didnât we already have this conversation back in season one?Â
And like, yes, itâs not good for Cassandra to ignore her feelings, but what Rapunzel does here by pushing isnât a good thing either.Â
What's most frustrating though is that neither learn anything from this. Just like they didnât learn anything in Under Raps or Goodbye and Goodwill.Â
Itâs aggravating to see the writers give us an actual conflict thatâs worth having the mains fight over, only to be undermined by previous episodes and then thrown away altogether.Â
So How Come the Wand Only Erases Part of Rapunzelâs Memory and Not All?
Like, this is suppose to be set for season three with Frederic and Arianna losing their memories. Yet despite Clementine using a similar wand, it doesnât have the same effect on them as it does on Rapunzel here. They lose all their memories and sense of identity, while Raps just forgets a few years.Â
Speaking Forgetting How Things WorkÂ
Where did this handy dandy book with the cure go when Frederic and Arinna lost their memories? Why didnât Raps go looking for it then, or force the Saparoians to give her the cure while they were in her custody?Â
So This Plot Point Kind of Back Fires, and Winds Up Undermining Everyoneâs Relationship with Rapunzel
First off, just repeating New Dream scenes from the movie, but with Cass in Eugeneâs place is ill advised given the direction that the show went in. Whether you ship Casspunzel or not, itâs important to recognize that âsistersâ is what they are intended to be in canon. Thatâs the direction that Chris went with them, whether we like it or not. So either no one on the show knows how to write platonic female relationships, or this is gay baiting. Take your pick.Â
Itâs also lazy.Â
But most damaging is that this only shows that Cassandra only liked Rapunzel when she was naive and stupid, and not the Rapunzel we have now. Tie in how her friendship with Rapunzel is based off of validation to begin with and we got a very unhealthy relationship, and not one that should be rooted for, despite the show wanting you to do just that. Â
They even go so far to repeat the lines from the flashback in the last episode, as if this was a positive thing in their dynamic, instead of recognizing it for the really mess up thing that it.Â
Then thereâs the Eugene side of things that this calls into question.Â
We know Eugene loves Rapunzel through thick and thin, but how much of their relationship is based off their first adventure together and not about how they work together in the here in now?Â
Did Rapunzel just simply latch on to Eugene because heâs the first person that she met who wasnât her mother and wound up being nice to her? If anyone else found her, would she be in a relationship with them instead? Is it healthy for her to never look for anything else? How much does Rapunzel actually like Eugene, for himself?Â
Then throw in Eugeneâs over idealization of Rapunzel in season three, theyâre lack of communication issues, and Rapunzelâs crippling need to always be right, and I canât say if New Dream should be what weâre rooting for either.Â
This isnât a Casspunzel vs New Dream thing, nor is it a personal dislike of Rapunzel herself. Rather, itâs a very serious question about the nature of Rapunzelâs interpersonal relationships vs her character development, and how that has to change things on some level, and if itâs still worth having those relationships now that she herself has changed so drastically.Â
Is everyone being fulfilled? Is everyone getting what they need still? No? Then, why are any of these people still together?Â
That needs to be addressed by the narrative now, and it never is.Â
So Why Would You Say That Cass?
Rapunzel doesnât know where she is and therefore has no idea what direction the tower lies in. If youâre heading south back to the camp then just say the tower is south. In fact it actually is south because youâve been traveling northeast to the Dark Kingdom for months now, according to the map in Rapunzelâs Return. So what was the point in lying about that?Â
In in effort make Rapunzel look smart, they had to make Cass look dumb and thatâs not good writing. If you needed Rapunzel to suddenly not trust Cass then there were other better ways. The drawing she placed in her pocket should be enough on its own to tip her off, and all she has to do is reach into her pocket to put like a rock she found in there and then find it that way.
 So When Did Rapunzel Have Time to Build This Elaborate Mousetrap?
This would have taken hours, itâs not even been minutes.Â
Thereâs making Raps competent and then thereâs turning her into an overpowered invincible heroine.Â
Now Pascal Is Missing
Oh is he with fucking Hook Foot now?Â
He was right on your shoulder Eugene.Â
If youâre going to have characters conveniently missing then establish that first, preferably in a visual way and not with exposition. Â
So Rapunzel is Treat As In the Right Even When Sheâs Not
So Cassandra opening up about her feelings is treated as the solution to the problem, but itâs really not, or it shouldnât be anyways. She can recognize she lied about the wand without having to doing something she finds uncomfortable, and itâs not like Rapunzel right now has any frame of reference for what Cass is talking about.Â
All this amounts to is giving Rapunzel a free pass on her earlier bullshit.
Also if Cass repeating a phrase Rapunzel said earlier was all that was needed to jog her memory enough to trust her, then why couldnât Eugene done the same? He was right there. Â
This Doesnât Resolve Anything
Ok first off thatâs not what friends do. Friends actually work through shit. Friends make sincere apologies. Friends forgive each when they do.Â
If youâre not doing that then youâre not friends and you should just leave.Â
No one, not Raps, not Cass, ever apologizes for what happened in the Great Tree. They never try to understand what either of them did wrong, nor do they put effort into fixing themselves or addressing their issues and flaws.Â
And you know what? That would be a valid reason for their falling out in season three. But itâs not used as such, so any resolution to their conflict there winds up feeling hollow.Â
Conclusion
This episode, like with the Great Tree, gave me hope that this was all leading somewhere. Now itâs just a bitter reminder of how screwed up the writersâ morals are in this show, and how poorly planned everything was.Â
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HEY, hi. I just read the rant about the eels. I love it! You're right when you say how the fanon twins are quite different from the canon and I have a point about it that kinda of just explains any OOC in any fandom? The big majority of the time when people write them (all of the characters to be honest) they usually write romance so it's kinda like "oh no they wouldn't do that to their s/o right?" so they kinda of need to put them in a OOC state i guess? (i'll continue).
So since weâre venturing past what we get in canon, pretty well anything I say is going to be just my preference or thoughts on the topic at all since weâll never actually get a confirmed romantic relationship in game to base things off of...So without further adoâŠ
 If an author is writing an AU and the characters are OOC, go hard, dude. Thatâs your world weâre just jumping in, but when the writer is trying to pull the âIâm trying to keep it close to canonâ then proceeds to ignore 90% of the characters personality to fit their story, itâs no longer âadhering to canonâ so just⊠be honest with what you want. If you want cute cuddly only murdery to other people eels (or anyone else, this really applies to everyone), just make it an AU and drop the âitâs close to canonâ shit all together. (Of course, this is my preference that if the story is taking place in the canon universe, the characters should remain in character as closely as possible)Â
So my biggest issue with âThey wouldnât do that/would be softer to their S/Oâ line of reasoning is that, of course theyâd act differentlyâŠ.but not so differently that theyâre completely different characters. That in itself is problematic enough on itâs own, a person should be able to be their authentic self in a relationship, rather than having to change who they are intrinsically to be able to work romantically with someone. And I understand that writing romance with typically non-romantic characters can be HARD (fuck, my TWST OC is shipped with Floyd so I FEEL you) but that doesnât excuse ignoring the parts about them you donât like or find hard to write simply to force your romance. You can still write the in character fluff you want, it just takes more work to try and keep things feeling authentic. Same with writing other peopleâs characters in general, which is why itâs nice that the translators have made it SO EASY to refer back to the stories so you can try and get a grasp of them.
Plus, relationships in general arenât centered around a single person, or rather, they shouldnât be (ever. In any situation, fictional or IRL). Both parties should have their likes/dislikes/hobbies separate from each other and if they cross over, cool, if not, cool! Ships that end up only being about the unit are so fucking strange to me, like, itâs not as if you get into a relationship and immediately go âokay now my personality is null and void I exist solely to please this personâ. Youâre still allowed to keep your personality when you get into a relationship, so i donât understand why shipping would be any different in that regard. Like, soulmates AU, childhood friends etc etc Iâd hope that both participants have their own hopes, dreams, and life outside of that other person, otherwise it feels really obsessive and unhealthy.Â
And not to be a complete dick, but the âtheyâre all villains will ill intentions so writing lovey dovey stuff would be hard to conveyâ is such a fucking cop out. If everyone is a villain, where do we draw the line for what is actually evil when the goalposts have already been moved so far back so villainy is the new norm? For example (not using Kalim cause we know that boy is sunshine embodied) Ruggie has done villainous things with his part in the magift sabotage in Chapter 2, but then we find in Chapter 4 he brings all the leftover food in the cafeteria home to feed to the people back home.. Not very villainous now is it? So really if anything, the shitty things the characters are doing gets more of a pass than it would in another setting cause the default baseline for morality is âeh, itâs thereâ.Â
Iâm not a super experienced writer myself, the TWST fandom is the first one Iâve ever really jumped into in this sort of capacity where Iâve made an OC and actually shared it and Iâm right there with everyone else wanting fluff with the boys every now and then, but it just takes me so far out of it when you have Jade and Floyd being like OH HONEY SWEETIE IâLL TAKE CARE OF YOU FOREVER AND NEVER LET YOU GO MY SWEET BABY NO ONE WILL EVER HURT YOU cause⊠love comes in more forms that straight up saying it, and personally I feel like itâs so lazy to just go âehh fuck if this sounds like something theyâd actually do, i like this itâs what i want so imma write itâ.(again, if thatâs how you want to write it, go hard, but donât act like itâs not OOC) Cause we HAVE seen how they act with people they care about in how they interact with each other and Azul. Obviously the romance parts aside, you get how they are with people they respect and care for, thereâs still the snark, still the sass, and still the occasional casual threat (that isnât taken seriously), so adding in a cute nickname or some fluff wonât erase the rest of who they are as characters.Â
I suspect Iâve already gone overboard with this answer, but in general, any sort of ship where a character canât actually be themselves or half their personality is missing seems so damn flat to me. I find it especially annoying when there's SO MUCH to refer back to while writing (for the most part, rip you guys out there writing pomefiore, ignihyde, and diasomnia stuff still waiting for chapters) and people justâŠ. Donât or donât care.
#octavinelle#floyd leech#jade leech#continuation of the eels rant#now in answer form#canon vs fanon#twisted wonderland#twst#to find later
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What was your opinion of the Clovis arc? People I know either love it or hate it, no in between. I generally liked it but found it waayyy ooc.
Hey anon, thanks for the ask!!!!
AHSJFLSLALK OK SO UH. Wow. Clovis arc. Yiiiiiiikes ok so. I totally agree with you on the fandom divide and I also totally agree that everyone involved in it is rather OOC for my taste. That being said, that case of OOC is exactly why I personally do not like the arc that much at all.
(Please note that my following words are MY PERSONAL OPINIONS, and that anyone is free to disagree, in fact I welcome the discussion, and even if this is your favorite arc, please consider yourself welcome on my blog I hold nothing against those who might like it)
Part of me was gonna make a short and sweet point about how I donât like that TCW has had both of its main female characters have unwanted kisses forced on them, and instead of teaching young girls watching to tell those kinds of people to fuck off and respect their bodies, we get: 1. Just let it happen, you both must kinda like each other anyway or 2. Stay still then sit back while your boyfriend beats him half to death
But actually turns out I wanted to spend all day writing an essay so now you get this. So far Iâm gonna hit four points:
the showâs constant need for Vader foreshadowing sometimes tending to completely override Anakinâs current mindset and personality he should have at this point in the timeline as well as his preestablished characterization
the way TCW gave Anakin a giant dosage of toxic masculinity to try and please the pissy movie critics who didnât like that he cried
the role of PadmĂ© and how TCW tries to portray her as a âstrong womanâ by just having her constantly be irritated by and sometimes even look like she actively dislikes her husband while simultaneously have her act OOC so they can blame HER and her actions for Anakinâs reactions and anger and overall Fall
How I think this arc is not irredeemable and that with some fixes it could be done decentlyâ decently, not well, because a lot of this arcâs problems are also due to preexisting writing choices throughout the show
(Ok whoops this turned into a half Clovis arc rant half entire TCW Anidala commentary)
So firstly I wanna start that yes, I am fully aware that TCW is meant to fill in the gaps between AOTC and ROTS and help explain why Anakinâs mindset in the final movie is what it is and justify his Fall. Of course we need to show some Vader foreshadowing throughout the series, and in some places it is executed very well, notably the Mortis arc, the Bad Batch arc, the Wrong Jedi arc, as well as others that I canât cite off the top of my head currently because I might have a mild touch of heat exhaustion wooo I need to get off the beach.
But it also has some rather hamfisted Vader foreshadowing stuff too. Like, yâall know the fandom joke where itâs like âAnakin: *Accidentally Leaves The Toilet Seat Up*. The Background Music: *BLASTS the Imperial March*â but like, they actually really do that. Like the time where they have Anakin take out a terrorist about to blow up an entire ship full of people and then play the Imperial March afterwards and imply heâs a âcold-blooded killerâ just to defend the moral purity of the two people who were gonna stand there and let the ship blow in the name of idealism.
Iâm getting off topic but yeah, sometimes the showâs Vader foreshadowing makes sense, sometimes itâs pretty forced, and the Clovis arc DEFINITELY leans towards the forced side, and when they try to force more of Darth Vader into Anakin at a point where he shouldnât quite be there yet, it screws with his entire character.
This is particularly shown in the majority of the showâs takes on Anakinâs relationship with PadmĂ©. Namely, they tend to forget nearly the entirety of AOTC with the exception of the Tusken murder scene, then forget even more of ROTS up until the point where Anakin strangles her on Mustafar. Basically, they take the truth that it was Anakinâs unhealthy attachment to PadmĂ© that sparked his Fall, but then they decide to run with it where almost every single interaction he has with her in the damn show is him being a toxic overbearing dick to her and her acting like she mildly tolerates him at most and definitely doesnt respect him as like, I guess a way of showing what happened on Mustafar is in character for them???? Ugh, Iâll explain further.
So with Anakinâs aggressive possessiveness towards her. We know Anakin has possession and attachment issues. We know heâs a clingy needy whiny anxious mess whoâs constantly afraid of losing or driving away the few people he has pinned his entire happiness on. We know he leans unhealthily on PadmĂ© to provide the majority of his emotional support. We know heâs convinced himself he canât live without her. But never, NEVER is it seen in the movies where his possessiveness turns into outward aggression towards her or this douchey pushiness. Never does he treat her like his property, like she belongs to him.
Not until Mustafar.
Not until heâs raving, half out of his mind with the warring emotions over the atrocities heâs just committed, until heâs begging her to understand where he was coming from, begging her and the child to stay with him and justify his decision, until he sees Obi Wan and sees her backing away from him, leaving him, and he PANICS because oh no no no you canât abandon me, I need you, doNâT YOU WALK AWAY FROM ME. And he lashes out and tries to force her to stay, punish her for leaving and doubting him, and he puts that hand around her throat.
And that is supposed to be when we know heâs crossed the line, when weâre supposed to be horrified, where we know heâs lost himself, because he has NEVER ACTED LIKE THAT BEFORE.
Now how does Anakin act before? In the movies? Heâs deferential to PadmĂ© in almost every other scene theyâre in together.
In AOTC, yeah he stares at her a bit creepily from a distance, he says awkward things and does goofy stuff to impress her, but he does Not get in her face. The few times he does invade her space, she flat out tells him: stand back. Donât look at me like that. Donât say that. Donât interrupt me. And Anakin always, always backs off, respects her wishes. He follows her lead and lets her call the shots both on Naboo when heâs supposed to be protecting her and when she organizes the Geonosis rescue and once they arrive where she flat out tells him âIâm a Senator, Iâll handle this, just back me upâ, and heâs all but just âok yes queenâ.
But they arenât married then. Fine, take ROTS. Itâs a movie all about Anakinâs issues but even then, when heâs worried about PadmĂ© dying, he tells her heâs worried and that he canât lose her, but he still keeps a distance. He doesnât constantly hover and loom over her. If anything, PadmĂ©, both in ROTS and AOTC is always the one to approach Anakin and close the distance when thereâs conflict. When Anakin is upset, he averts his eyes and distances himself, tries to draw in on himself and brood silently, and weâve seen it in Palpatine sometimes (of course with bad motives but he still does), but Obi Wan and PadmĂ© both especially needing to be the ones to come over, turn his face to them and be like âhey, look at me, I care about you, whatâs wrongâ. PadmĂ© SAYS in ROTS when heâs feeling specifically conflicted about losing PadmĂ©, âdonât shut me outâ and has to come over to him because heâs retreated into a corner of the room to scowl angstily out the window. Anakin does NOT get overbearing and possessive of her or get in her face, not once in the films.
In the fucking show? The Clovis arc, while perhaps the worst offender, isnât even close to being the first time Anakin has been overly pushy and aggressive with PadmĂ©, or acting like sheâs something he owns, From that time in the Senate Hostage ep where heâs bugging her about ditching work and all but acting like incels texting like âawww but babe my dick hurts :(â, from the FIRST Clovis disaster ep where heâs childishly trying to screw up PadmĂ©âs mission, to the Clovis arc in season 6
And this is where they just roll right in with their âoh so Anakinâs an overbearing, entitled doucheâ bit with the interaction he has with Pads and heâs trying to talk her out of taking the Clovis assignment and he says something along the lines of âas your husband, I demand you donât do thisâ.
Hwat. The Fuck.
What kind of caveman-esque, 1800âs-ass man of the house whom my wife must obediently serve kinda entitled-ass BULLSHIT?!?!?!?
Like, Iâm sorry, I really am, but that is just completely out of left field and not like Anakin at all. I mean to the point that when heâs an evil Sith Lord trying to talk her into taking over the galaxy with him, EVEN THEN he does not include âPadmĂ© you must join me because Iâm your husband and you do as I sayâ sort of domineering assholerly.
Anakin does not push PadmĂ© around. He does not TRY to assert authority over her or try and force her to do shit. Not only because she doesnât put up with that kinda shit for a second, but because Anakin respects PadmĂ©; he will treat her with respect. He always has, and sometimes like in this arc it really doesnât feel like he does.
Now of course PadmĂ©âs response to the âI own youâ declaration is âfuck you, asshole, I do what I wantâ and doubling down on her decision, and then decides to go even harder on the mission if only to spite her douche husband (and weâll get to PadmĂ©âs characterization in a bit) which is a very different kind of Anidala conversation we see in the show as opposed to the movies (also discussed later).
Now, the reason for Anakinâs overbearing douchery ties directly into an overarching problem in TCWâ honestly, one of the very few issues I have with this show, but the problem is that it touches nearly the entire thing âand that is they almost completely reworked Anakinâs personality to be more hyper-masculine alpha male.
This is a topic Iâve discussed on my blog before, but the gist is that in the movies, Anakin was not the typical male heroic protagonist and DEFINITELY not what people expected from Future Darth Vader The Masked Brutish Male Power Fantasy. He was awkward, he was shy, he was soft spoken, he was clumsy around the girl he liked, he was very openly romantic, he liked frolicking in fields and candlelit dinners and snuggling. Two of the most important people in his life were soft, feminine women and he openly loved them very dearly and very gentlyâ and he deferred to them when he felt it was right, as Iâve mentioned before. He CRIED when he was upset and was messy and emotional. And fanboys hated this with a burning passion. They couldnât project their power fantasy onto this!!!! The Anakin critics were a HUGE part of the mob who crucified the prequels to the point of chasing both Anakin actors practically out of the movie industry in general.
The Clone Wars writers were obviously petrified of this happening again. So their solution, as has always been Star Warsâs solution to hateful fans being upset about an innocent character, is to completely rework them, hide or retcon all the undesirable qualities, and act like everything was all fixed. Now donât get me wrong, there are aspects of TCW Anakin that I adore. As Iâve also mentioned before, they got his humor, his cleverness, his eagerness to do the right thing, to help people, his relationship with Obi Wan and Ahsoka and his men, they got that all perfectly. But the rest??? TCWâs solution to the criticism of Movie!Anakin was to turn him into an agressive, dominant, violent shadow of everything âsoftâ he was in the movie
Now, he speaks loudly and more deeply. Now, heâs cocky and overconfident and while yes he was arrogant in the movies, now itâs dialed up to like an 11. He never cries, never even THINKS to show a negative emotion thatâs not Manly Rage And Aggression(TM). And then thereâs the way he is around the women in his life. No more awkwardness or shyness, now he makes jokes about being a âladies manâ and does whatever the fuck flirting he does with Miraj Scintel even though the Anakin from the movies would have needed like every scrap of his self control just to look at her without insta-murdering her face. And then thereâs how he is with Ahsoka and PadmĂ©. He is muuuuch more of a loud brash dudebro around them who pushes his weight and is kind of controlling and their solution is just to have the both of them be Strong Women(TM) who Fight Back whenever he tries it too hard with them.
With Ahsoka, itâs not too bad because itâs a brand new dynamic and sheâs a rather agressive firecracker personality herself when we first meet her, so the constant Snips nâ Skyguy snipefest works for them. For PadmĂ©? It just means that in far too many episodes theyâre in thereâs a point where Anakin says something Eh and PadmĂ© gets mildly irritated to actually annoyed with him for it and sheâll talk down to him and then thereâs an argument between them because heâs bullheaded and sheâs a Strong Woman. Why do I consider these out of character?
In the movies, despite the flaws, Anidala is a couple who actually tries to communicate. Anakin feels open to speak about his troubles to PadmĂ© and her to him (for the most part, she definitely has a savior complex and a tendency to squash her own shit so she can help deal with both Anakinâs and the galaxyâs at large) when theyâre worried or concerned about something and they want to talk it out, so theyâll talk it out!
The problem with Anidala isnât that they donât communicate, itâs that they try but also only do it by halves because they hate fighting. Theyâll talk, Anakin will say something that PadmĂ© might disagree withâ the fascism discussion in the Naboo field in AOTC, the question of whether the Republic is just or not in TPM âand sheâll try and correct him if she feels heâll listen, but if he doubles down, sheâll go âok you know what, agree to disagree, letâs not fightâ and she subtly changes the subject because she hates fighting with him. If Pads says something Ani doesnât likeâ telling Obi Wan about them in ROTS, some emotional advice she tries to give in both movies âheâll flat out shut down and be like âI donât want to talk about this, letâs drop itâ and then seek out cuddles or affection as a distraction.
And that brings us back to the Clovis arc. The scene where the âas your husbandâ line occurs. Anakin is trying to talk PadmĂ© out of doing this not because heâs jealous. Maybe he was jealous the first time he met Clovis and saw PadmĂ© being all cute nâ fond with her old flame, but this time it seems almost entirely because last time ended in catastrophe and heâs genuinely worried for PadmĂ© and feels sheâs not thinking wisely, that sheâs putting herself in danger.
However, Anakin is deciding to voice these concerns in Possessive Dudebro Pushing because of the aforementioned misguided Vader Foreshadowing and Toxic Masculinity. PadmĂ©? Is not even CONSIDERING what he has to say, is just breezing on through and shutting him down at every turn and generally acting like heâs a dumbass who doesnât have a clue about anything.
Now, it is very in character for PadmĂ© Amidala to be all âIâm right, youâre wrong, fuck you donât get in my wayâ. HOWEVER, they arenât framing this as solely PadmĂ© having a goal and bulldozing her way through the situation. Thatâs not how they frame this.
They frame this as: PadmĂ© is embarrassed that she misjudged the situation wrong the last time and embarrassed even further that Anakin had to step in and get her out of troubleâ which he brings up âand probably remembers that he made fun of her while he did itâ
(Timing out to say that THAT scene was also OOC; they once more wanted a Vader parallel what with Anakinâs silhouette when he opens her cell door and the way PadmĂ©âs sleeping pose is identical to Leiaâs in ANH. But Anakin basically steps in and gives her this condescending-ass âawww the little wifeâs gotten in over her head like I SAID she would, good thing Iâm here to rescue her!â bit thatâs really just MEAN. Itâs not like him and Obi Wanâs/Ahsokaâs teasing snark whenever they have to pull each out of trouble, heâs just kicking her while sheâs already down. Really, Anakinâs reaction should have been a lot less humorous and a lot more pissy; she didnât listen to him, didnât trust him, and ended up in danger because of it. Itâd be a surly and upset âI told you soâ, not an amused one.)
âand now it seems much more like PadmĂ© is solely taking this assignment to spite Anakin for being a dick and to pettily prove that she knows what sheâs doing rather than any sense or urge to do the right thing. And....... childish pettiness????? Is not PadmĂ©. And yet, she has the entire immature âdonât tell me what to DO, Anakinâ attitude this whole arc that amounts to WAY more than just the normal response she would have to his overcontrolling dickishness
And once again, itâs because she, like everyone else in the episode, seems to think the problem Anakin has is that heâs jealous of Clovis. Heâs not, not really. Heâs insecure, yes, but he also knows Clovis is a bag of dicks as well, and trusts that PadmĂ© knows sheâs better than that. His problem isnât fears heâll lose PadmĂ©, it is entirely that PadmĂ© isnât listening to his concerns, doesnât trust him, is going into a situation they both know is unwise, and he is frustrated heâs not in a position where he can look out for her since he feels sheâs not looking out for herself. And, heâs not entirely wrong. PadmĂ© IS being reckless and kind of irrational solely to prove a point. He just goes about it pretty much entirely the wrong way, which is what you can really say is the cause and effect formula for any problem Anakin Skywalker encounters and subsequently makes worse.
And then thereâs That Scene. The one where Clovis tries to force a kiss on PadmĂ© and Anakin freaks and almost kills him for it. Iâll start off by quoting another Tumblr user on that very scene by saying in regards to Clovis: âthat bitch deserved thatâ. The almost murder? Maybe not that far, but the initial hitting for disrespecting someoneâs ânoâ? Yep, that was deserved.
My first criticism is that Anakin shouldnât have even had time to attack him because why the fuck wasnât PadmĂ© instantly kneeing him in the balls?!?! Like PadmĂ© is not prone to violence immediately, no, but she can will and does defend herself immediately when she needs toâ her right punch knocked someone tf out once when she was pissed âand she already gave him a warning that his advances were not welcomed.
Now, I am absolutely not victim blaming. I am NOT saying it is the fault of a woman (Iâd be a hypocrite if I did and thatâs all Iâll say on THAT), or of anyone when faced with sexual harassment, if they donât fight back for whatever reason, no matter how capable of doing so they may be. What Iâm saying is that considering her previous behavior and personality and the fact that the show NEVER goes deep enough into explaining heavy stuff like why victims might freeze or NOT fight back when faced with harassment, I feel like showing her not attempting to defend herself at all is kinda strange.
Now, PadmĂ©âs utter passiveness to the situation aside, weâre going back into toxic masculinity and misunderstood interpretations of how Anakin displays possession. While Iâll repeat that Clovis deserved consequences for the forced kiss, Anakin going full caveman defending his property jealous rage just. Doesnât feel right to me. Again, I think Anakin would probs hit him and put the fear of living god into him, maybe even Iâd buy the attempted murder if they framed it as Anakin doing it because he hates those who force their will on others and disrespect women, but the whole thatâs MY wife and youâre touching her shite just once more feels alpha male aggressive ridiculousness. Like again, I understand Anakin is possessive of PadmĂ©, but not like this. Iâm sorry, but I just cannot see that, him fighting over her like sheâs a scrap of meat.
Like, I completely think sheâs in the right tho to put them on a break after he does it though. Thatâs well within her right.
But then onto the FINAL part where after Clovis goofs and fucks them all over and then dies, she forgives him and blames herself for everything and apologizes. And like, that part I do see as in canon and character for her and for Anakin. He doesnât like to admit his mistakes, her mistakes weigh on her and when she fails to fix or save someone, she falls into depression and upset and self-blame.
But the fact that Clovis died because Anakin dropped him? Anakin Skywalker, who scaled an entire elevator shaft carrying two people over his back who combined probs weighed more than PadmĂ© and Clovis. Anakin Skywalker, whoâs used the Force to lift tons of debris, whoâs used it to hold back explosions, Anakin Skywalker, MOST POWERFUL FORCE USER IN HISTORY WHO TENDS TO RELY ON BRUTE STRENGTH FOR MOST SHIT ANYWAY. That Anakin couldnât pull two people over a ledge?!?!?!?!? This has always bothered me.
Like to be honest; I feel this entire episode could have been so fixable too. Like keep Anakinâs obsessive worry over PadmĂ© making a mistake, keep the best part of the arc which is his talk with Obi Wan where Obi Wan tries to connect with him and explain that heâs not alone, all Jedi have emotional struggles and have loved, if perhaps he wants to TALK to someone about it, Obi Wan is here for him, like that? Thatâs okay!
Just ugh ffs, get rid of the nasty Anakin treating PadmĂ© like a naughty dog who wonât obey him and the PadmĂ© purposely acting unwisely to spite Anakin plot. Have the entire conflict be both of them being upset that the other doesnât trust them, doesnât believe in their advice, keep PadmĂ©âs speech about how marriages NEED trust and compromise to survive, take all of Anakinâs aggression towards PadmĂ© and transfer it to aggression towards Clovis, like make the conflict him menacing the guy if he hurts PadmĂ© again just because heâs being overprotective and âif you wonât look out for yourself I willâ and Anakin getting constantly checked for not being able to control his emotions, PadmĂ© can tell him off for being overprotective instead of overaggressive and his possessiveness can instead show through him arguing that he needs to keep her safe at all costs. THAT can be the argument.
And if they want the Vader foreshadowing? Like real, in-character Vader foreshadowing??? Tbh, drop the Clovis beatdown, drop the machoness towards PadmĂ©, and just have Anakin blatantly DROP the douchebag at the end of the episode instead of his hand slipping. Make him choose to ACTIVELY kill Clovis. Like THAT, Anakin taking the law into his own hands and deciding that he knows best and this guy is dangerous and has fucked up one too many times, there being an opportunity where thereâs an chance to save Clovis when theyâre alone without Pads, âbe a Jedi, PadmĂ© wouldnât want this, do the right thingâ Clovis might say, and we can see Anakinâs face considering, and then he just âLong Live The Kingâs him and lets him fall and die, THAT is an in-character Vader foreshadowing.
Then at the end of the episode, we can have Anakin lie to her, say Clovis slipped, say it was too late, and PadmĂ© can believe him, thank him for trying. Then thereâs the same thing where PadmĂ© apologizes, and we can have a callback to the convo about trust and she adds that sheâs sorry that she didnât trust him, and when she says that, we zoom in on Anakinâs guilty face.
There. Thatâs how Iâd fix these episodes
And THERE, I think Iâve complained about everything, I am SO sorry for the gigantic ass post and response, Iâll add a read more once Iâm on my laptop and not on the beach on mobile.
But yeah anon, I hope that satisfies your question xD
Once again, I welcome discussion if yâall either agree with me or if you have any differing opinions, I know my takes are far from hot for several people and Iâm curious to see what others think!
#iâm SO sorry i got carried away but yeah this arc and one or two others (one in particular) are the only arcs that kiiinda set me off tbh#long post#ask#anon#one (1) hot mess#queen of my heart#star-crossed lovers#sw the clone wars#anidala#the clone wars
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