#my hobby is doing ask games like surveys

[carnivoral]

angelic pretty asks by @.princess-peachie

Sugary Carnival: Have you ever been considered popular?

nope, never.

Milky Planet: Besides earth, what planet would you come from?

jupiter.

Rose Toilette: Your signature perfume?  

chanel no 5 or gucci flora gardenia

Whimsical Vanilla-chan: What pets do you have/want to have?

a brown tabby cat named sushi

2 rats named funnel cake and candy apple

Marine Kingdom: Favourite undersea creature?

lionfish

blue whale

anglerfish

gulper eel

Dreamy Dollhouse: Describe your room with just 5 words.

cluttered

lived-in

homey

aromatic

well-lit

Melty Chocolate: Favourite type of chocolate?

ghiradelli dark chocolate squares with raspberry jam

Sugar Dream Dome: What do you like most about Winter?

snowbright nights

no bugs

christmas and valentines day

coats and boots

Milky Berry: What do you like most about Summer?

my birthday <3

concert season

red bull flavors

Happy Garden: What types of things would you plant in a garden?

rosemary

wild lavender

patchouli

wild berries

Magical Étoile:  Favourite attraction at a carnival?

carnival games

petting pens

funhouses

Toy Parade: What toys did you play with as a child?

pokemon stuffed animals

bratz dolls

Holy Lantern: Describe the darker side to your personality.

possessive, easily jealous, spiteful

somewhat sadistic

Melody Doll: What types of music do you listen to?

pretty much everything

but my favorite artists right now are violent vira, chase petra, snow wife, ashnikko, motley crue, fall out boy, deftones, slipknot, chappell roan, ethel cain, and banshee

Wonder Party: Favourite type of tea?

peppermint herbal tea

irish breakfast

Glass Bottle of Tears: What, without fail, makes you cry?

frustration

being acknowledged

child abandonment or neglect

Cinema Doll: What makes a movie really enjoyable for you?

good well paced atmosphere

tasteful scares

unique ost

Memorial Cake: What is your ideal romantic experience?

cumming first

Star Night Theatre: If life was viewed as a theatre stage, what role would you play?

secondary protagonist/love interest

Cotton Candy Shop: If you had your own shop, what things would you sell?

psychic readings and divinings of the future

seasonal ingredients for spells

cat whiskers and shed teeth/claws

Decoration Dream: Favourite way to decorate a cake?

just icing and fun sprinkles hehe

Fancy Box: What gift(s) did you get for your birthday last year?

perfume

stuffed animals

Misty Sky: What is your favourite type of weather?

light rain or a calm thunder storm

chilly with a clear blue sky

flurries of snow

Dreamy Horoscope: What is your zodiac sign, and do you relate to it?

leo sun, taurus moon, cancer mercury

yes obviously

Symphonia of Birds: Favourite type of bird?

luzon bleeding heart

mute swan

carrion crow

Day Dream Carnival: What do you daydream about the most?  

being important

Royal Cards: Name a game you are really good at.

chess

Milky Cross: Are you a religious person?

yes.

i primarily follow hellenic traditional practices of faith.

Cream Cookie: What kinds of snacks do you munch on?

i have a snack mix i love thats cashews, dried pomegranate, dried apple, and vanilla.

Drained Cherry: What emotionally exhausts you?

circular arguments

boredom

Fancy Paper Dolls: What accessories would come with a doll version of you? 

a stuffed bunny

strawberry lipgloss

a knife

Holy Night Story: Favourite thing to do when it’s night time?

find a game to play with my partner

watch vlogs and drink tea

Candy Treat: Favourite type of candy?  

gummy bears :3

dark chocolate

Fantastic Dolly: What cosmetics do you use?

primarily too faced, colourpop, and elf

some nyx and anastasia beverly hills

i generally stick to powder, blush, mascara, and lipgloss

sometimes i do a nice eyeshadow look or a blotted lip

Drink Me: Favourite drink/beverage? 

a caramel macchiato

a matcha latte

lemon green tea

grape fruit sparkling water

diet coke

Merry Making Party: Describe the biggest party you’ve ever been to.

Country of Sweets: What countries would you like to visit? 

italy

japan

lithuania

germany

france

Fruits Parlour: Favourite fruit? 

pomegranate

Dream Sky: Have you ever seen a shooting star?

yes frequently

Soap Bubbles: How do you like to bathe/shower?

hair treatment. shampoo. shampoo again.

condition. exfoliate. wash with bar soap. wash with body wash.

rinse. wash face. get out. body oil.

leave in. hair oil. face mask. serum. toner.

moisturize. lotion. perfume. lip scrub. lip balm.

done.

Jewelry Jelly: Name 3 of your favourite jewellery pieces.

my engagement ring

my rosary

my necklaces given to me by my aunt and mother

Dream Fantasy: What is your wildest fantasy?  

having cat ears...

Milky-chan the Fawn: Favourite forest animal?

white tail deer

grizzly bear

coyote

Honey Cake: What do you normally eat for breakfast?

coffee

sometimes french toast

if im feeling up to it, omelettes are good

Dreamy Baby Room: The most childish part of your personality?

my fear of being alone

my princess complex

Chess Chocolate: What piece would you be on a chess board?

a pawn turned queen

French Cafe: Favourite thing to eat at a patisserie?

chocolate croissant

Sugar Hearts: How is your love life right now?    

im engaged

Wonder Story: What types of things do you like to read about?

horror. usually horror involving a realistic scenario. like people

or a fate/circumstance we couldn't have avoided if we tried

Twinkle Mermaid: Favourite type of fantasy creature?

pegasi

centaurs

kelpies

Gloria: Name a very rare item that you would love to own.

a piece of the wooden cross jesus was crucified on

[mysteryshoptls]

SSR Idia Shroud - Room Relaxation Vignette

"Happy Birthday"

[Mister S's Mystery Shop]

Idia: …Hrrm, I can't find the 15th Anniversary special Star Rogue diorama.

Idia: I told Sam-shi I'd look for it myself, so I wouldn't have to deal with him talking to me, but… There's way too much stuff here to look through!

Idia: And I came all this way 'cause I wasn't fast enough to get it online.

Idia: I can't go back empty-handed after telling Ortho that there's no way I wouldn't get my hands on one as a number one fanboy!

Idia: Oho? This shelf over here has a ton of specialty figures and other hobby stuff… EEHHHH!?

[products fall of shelf]

Idia: OUCH! OW OW OW!!

Jack: Woah!? That was close! Some of the falling goods almost scraped by my nose…

Idia: I-I-I didn't do anything! They just fell off on their own since they were thrown haphazardly onto the shelf!!

[Idia runs away]

Jack: Huh? No one said it was your fault or nothin'…

Jack: …What the, he's already gone! Idia-senpai… He looks slow and frail, but is he secretly actually pretty nimble?

Jack: Oh, man, and he just left everything on the ground. Ugh, I guess I'll have to…

Jack: …Hm? Isn't this box the one Ortho mentioned today…?

[Ignihyde Dorm – Idia's Room]

Idia: …Haah. And in the end, I just ran away… Without a Star Rogue diorama…

Idia: It's all because they sold it first-come-first-serve, instead of pre-order... Not my fault what happened earlier…

Idia: If I went back now, that terrifying beast of a man from Savanaclaw might still be there. I'll try again tomorrow…

Idia: K. Now that I've decide that, time to get all the annoying dorm work stuff done!

Idia: Uhhh, so, the notices I have to give the other dorm students are… Oh, right, the equipment replacement schedule, and the AC inspection time.

Idia: Just in case, I'll add "Important", "Good News", "Response Required", and "Read Immediately" to the subject… K, sent.

Idia: It sure is hard work bein' a Housewarden. Thought it's not that bad since I implemented a chat app once I became Housewarden.

Idia: Efficiency above all! No face-to-face meetings! Conserving my own energy is the best way to do things!

Idia: Finished all my Housewarden tasks, and even took a shower, as annoying as it is. I'm awesome. I'd give myself 100,000,000 points out of 100.

Idia: Nice, so… It's finally me time!

[Ignihyde Dorm – Idia's Room]

Idia: Ah, I got a message from Ortho… He's spending the night in the first year rooms, huh.

Idia: Then, I guess I can just game all night by myself! Fheeheehee!

 [beep, beep!]

Idia: Hm…? What's with this reminder…? Man, right when I was getting into things.

「Survey on Quality of Life Improvements for the Student Body」

Idia: Ugh.. Right, that was a thing. You don't really see paper surveys anymore. Let me think, it should be around… Yep, here it is.

Idia: Uhhh, so what, they want to know what I'd like improved? I mean, kinda late to ask a third-year, isn't it? I can't really think of anything.

Idia: Sides, there were stuff I used to not like about the dorm, but I already made upgrades to all that stuff.

Idia: We soundproofed the walls and floors, installed commercial-grade AC, and the dorm-wide servers are of my own technical specs.

Idia: To live the perfect shut-in life, we can't not have walls that can't take loud shouting, or ACs that can't keep overclocked PCs cool, so～

Idia: …Ah, wait a mo'. I just thought of one issue I got. "There's not enough electrical outlets"!!

Idia: This kinda stuff needed specialized qualifications to do, so it's not like I coulda bought the parts and DIY it.

Idia: I'm using a power strip for now 'cause I have to, but I hate how the wiring just looks like spaghetti. Even a master wiring tech like myself can't stand a sight like that!

Idia: Oh, I just thought of one more thing. "I want to have the low-capacity breaker replaced"!

Idia: It's so weak that the breaker flips just 'cause I try to have 4 computers, the server, a 3D printer, microwave, and electric kettle all plugged in at once!

Idia: I mean, I'd set up a UPS (uninterruptible power supply) system in case of emergencies, so my computers and server was fine, but...

Idia: Because of that, my plan to add an AC unit and a refrigerator in my room went out the window. That was a nightmare. Oh, and…

Idia: …Dyehehe. I said I couldn't really think of any, but it's hilarious how the ideas keep flowin' out.

Idia: I'll attach some of the numbers we have on the cost of estimated damages by having Ignihyde students continue to use those useless breakers.

Idia: The Headmage is pretty much influenced by profits, so. If I explain how it's necessary to get better equipment, then he might listen to improvement suggestions.

Idia: Nice, mission clear. Time to watch some new anime episodes while grinding levels in my gams.

Idia: See, nothing beats watching anime while mindlessly leveling… Ooh, I pulled a rare one!

Idia: I thought I'd be bored of this anime 3 episodes in, too, but it's actually starting to get interesting!

Idia: Well, now that the mood's getting good, I just gotta let loose! TIME FOR A SNACK PARTY!!

Idia: …Huh? I'm out of my favorite snack. Ugh, I completely forgot to re-order some more when I ate all of it last time.

Idia: If only the Mystery Shop had 24-hour delivery service… Maybe I should add that to the survey?

Idia: Nah, nevermind, I should just focus on the anime. NOTHING'S GONNA BRING ME DOWN!

Idia: Woah, the animation's clean…! They're all movin' so smoothly… Maybe the production team changed this week?

Idia: I'm getting pretty into the main theme song, too! Heehee, fheeheehee…!

[Ignihyde Dorm – Idia's Room]

Idia: Urrghnn… Aaarghh…

[～♪]

Idia: Gah! Urgh, what's that noise…? What time is it right now…?

Idia: Urk! Everything's so bright, I can't see anything… How's it morning already…? Wait, before that, where'd that noise come from…!?

Idia: Huh…? Ortho…? Weren't you spending the night with the other first years…? Oh wait, is this just a message…?

Idia: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY"…? Oh, right, today's my birthday! I completely forgot, since there wasn't anything to look forward to…

Idia: I'll just write back… Thanks, Ortho.

Idia: Urp…! But now I feel a bit sick…! And my whole body hurts…!

Idia: I fell asleep running my games, and I'm just stiff all over. Can't I just go move to my bed and go back to sleep?

Idia: Nah, if I end up crashing and forget to login and get all the birthday login voice lines, I'll never recover. Gotta wash my face or something…

Idia: Woah, I can see how crazy my bedhead is reflected in the monitor! I think this every time, but why does my hair end up this bad whenever I fall asleep at my desk?

Idia: Kinda looks punk, but that's totally a different vibe from my usual, lawl.

Idia: Meh, my hair can be whatever. Not like anyone looks at me, anyway.

Idia: It's a pain to go all the way to the washroom… I'll just use magic like I normally do. I'll chill the water, then.

[splash!]

Idia: WHEEEEW, THAT COLD WATER HITS JUST RIGHT!!

Idia: Normally, I'd just leave it here, but… My face feels so dry after pulling that all-nighter.

Idia: But I'm all good. I'm a functioning nerd, so I know how to fix it.

Idia: Ta-da～ I don't really get it, but here I go with the number one most popular all-in-one cream～

Idia: Putting on lotion and moisturizer one at a time is a waste of time. Just plap it on, and ta-da, done. Next is my clothes…

Idia: Nah, nevermind, I'm not gonna change. Now all I have to do is to jump into all my games and collect the birthday login voice lines. Fheeheehee.

Idia: Perf, I've gotten them all for now. …Huh? There's another message from Ortho…

Idia: …HUH!? HE GOT THE 15TH ANNIVERSARY SPECIAL STAR ROGUE DIORAMA!? SERIOUSLY!?

Idia: "I was planning on picking it up in the Mystery Shop after classes, but if you can't wait, you can go pick it up whenever"…?

Idia: Well, I gotta go right now, then! That means I have to finish getting ready.

Idia: I don't really wanna go outside, but… I can't keep my poor Star Rogue waiting! Hyah!

[Idia magics hair and clothes]

Idia: K, bedhead fixed. And now, onwards, to the Mystery Shop!!

[Main Street]

Idia: Fheeheehee…! Look at this craftsmanship…! It looks just like the scene I imagined as a kid!

Idia: Ortho… Did you look for this Star Rogue diorama because you knew I was sad I didn't get it?

Idia: Wheew～ The best thing in the world is a little brother who thinks the world of his older brother, and is really good at search functions～!

Jack: Hm? Is that… Idia-senpai? Good morning.

Idia: GYAAAAAA!? J-Jack-shi…? Why are we making contact two days in a row…?

Jack: I mean, it's not really anything, but… I heard from Ortho yesterday that today was your birthday, is all.

[Idia runs away]

Jack: Happy Birthday. So, uh, did you get what you were looking…

Jack: Huh, he's already gone! Ugh, I don't get him at all.

Requested by @farfalla049.

[marshmelman]

New Agere Website FAQ!

If you're looking at my profile, it's probably related to my website project, so here's a quick FAQ for your convenience.

- What is it?

The website I want to build is going to primarily be a social media platform, but it would also function as a resource directory (links to other helpful websites, info pages for fighting the stigma) and have some free activities (online games, coloring pages, a gear shop). I want it to be a one-stop-agere-shop as much as possible, so make sure to let me know what kinds of things you want to add to it!

- Who is it for?

It would be specifically for all age regressors/dreamers and cgs. Though I'm starting to loosen up a bit on things like pet regression since the community has been requesting it often and in general there seems to be a lot of overlapping needs between the communities. However it is not a fandom site, so hobbies and fandoms that are not regression or almost-regression (babyfur, kidcore, pooular cartoon fandoms) aren't being catered to and if you're a member of one of those communities without also being a regressor, then probably you won't be very comfortable on the site...

- Why is it being created?

The short version is that regression was incredibly lonely for me and all of the existing sites have issues that make them difficult to navigate as a regressor imo. The full story can be found here!

- When will it be done?

Not for awhile! At this stage the project is only a little bit more than an idea. With the survey results in, I'm putting all the results into cutesy graphs, writing out my rules and guidelines, and test driving some of the features that people wanted most on a staging site. You can check progress reports at ChuChuu.net, I'll be releasing the official survey results report soon!

-How can I help?

Please share the link to my interest community survey, tinyurl.com/marshmelman with anyone you know in the community that might be willing or able to share their input on whether they want me to continue with this project, and, if I do, what features they want me to work on building. If you use more image-based websites (pinterest, insta), there's also a handy flyer!

- I have another question!

The best way to ask me questions directly is to send me an ask right here on tumblr. Asks will be tagged as "*raises hand*", so you can see previously asked questions. Also see my long list of answers to someone's long list of good questions pinned to my reddit profile u/marshmelmann. there's an anonymous ask box on the dev log site, chuchuu.net as well!

[nameless-ken]

Silent Confessions, Loud Masks - Billy Hargrove x Reader Series

(Please reblog!!!) Happy reading! Comment below to be added to taglist.

Word Count: 4.6K

Warnings: bullying, fight scene, cursing, the usual angst and fluff

Introduction | Chapter one | Chapter two

Masterlist

(song for this chapter <3)

The neon lights of the state fair illuminate the warm August night. You and Robin weave through the crowd, laughing and chatting as you take in the sights and sounds. Cotton candy vendors, Ferris wheels, and carnival games fill the air with excitement.

“This is my favorite time.The end of summer. The amazing smell of funnel cakes in the air.” You sniff the air, stomach grumbling. 

“Oh, you know we're getting some of those. But first, let's check out the petting zoo!” Robin shouts, excitement dripping from her voice. 

As you make your way through the fairgrounds, Robin spots Steve, Nancy, and Jonathan by a photo booth. You approach the group, exchanging greetings and catching up. Jonathan and your eyes meet. You used to see him around school, a familiar camera always hanging around his neck but not much anymore since he graduated last year. 

“Hey, Y/N right?” Jonathan introduces, holding his hand out to you. 

“Yeah, nice to officially meet you Jonathan.” The warmth of his touch lingers in yours for a moment longer than necessary. You never noticed how cute and shy he was until now. 

“Nice camera.” You compliment, pointing to the camera resting against his chest. 

“Thanks. Are you into photography too?” He asks you, leaning against the photo booth that Robin, Steve and Nancy are in, arguing over what expressions to do. 

“Yeah, it's a hobby of mine. I love capturing moments.” 

“That's cool. What kind of camera do you use?”

“Oh, I have a Canon AE-1. It's my pride and joy. What about you?” Jonathan's eyes light up at the mention of the camera.

“No way, I have the same one! It's such a classic. There's just something special about shooting with film, you know?”

“Absolutely! The whole process of developing the film and seeing the prints come to life—it's magical.” You enjoy sharing a moment of understanding, how easily the conversation flows effortlessly.

“So, do you have a favorite subject to photograph?” He asks and you take a pause, surveying the crowded fairgrounds, deciding your answer. 

“Hmm, I love capturing candid moments of people, especially when they're lost in the moment and unaware of the camera. What about you?”

“I think I'm drawn to landscapes. There's something serene about capturing the beauty of nature. It's like freezing a moment in time.”

“It sounds like we have a lot in common when it comes to photography.” 

“Um, speaking of photography, there's this local art show happening on Saturday. I was wondering if you'd like to go with me?” You’re a little shocked at his forwardness and the invitation but smile in appreciation. “I mean, if you aren’t busy. I just thought you’d probably enjoy it and-”

“I’d love to!” You give his arm a squeeze in reassurance. Jonathan's shy smile widens at your enthusiastic response, a wave of relief washing over him.

“Great! It's at this small gallery downtown. I heard they have some amazing photography exhibits.”

“That sounds so cool. I’ve never been to one.” 

As the camera flashes inside the photo booth, capturing moments of laughter and silly poses, Robin, Steve, and Nancy emerge with wide smiles plastered on their faces.

“How many shots did that take to get one perfect pose?” Robin sighs and Steve chuckles, playfully nudging Robin as they join you and Jonathan.

“Hey, it's quality over quantity, Robin. Besides, we had to make sure we nailed the perfect expressions.”

“I don't know about perfect, but I'd say we definitely nailed the "awkwardly adorable" look.”  Nancy laughs along, her eyes twinkling with amusement.

As you all share a lighthearted moment, the atmosphere shifts abruptly as Billy and his group of lunatics make their presence known.

“Well, well, well, look what we have here. The freak show. Shouldn’t you guys be getting back to the circus?” Tommy, an old friend of Steve’s and Billy’s new sidekick blurts out with a laugh, nudging Billy in the side. 

You look at Billy, watching his body language and assessing what he’s going to do next after he “promised” you to be better. 

“Leave us alone. We don't want any trouble.” Jonathan surprisingly steps up first. But Billy and his friends show no signs of backing down, reveling in their torment.

“Aw, did I hurt little Jonathan's feelings? Maybe he should go cry to his mommy and freak of a brother.” Tommy responds tauntingly. 

Carol joins in, her laughter ringing out like a bell. “Or better yet, maybe he can take some pictures of his tears. I'm sure they'd make great art.”

Steve steps forward, his expression hardens with determination. “That's enough Tommy.”

You look over at Billy again to find his eyes already on you, looking down at your hand. You didn’t realize you grabbed onto Jonathan’s arm when he spoke up and haven’t let go since. You see Billy’s eyes narrow and jaw clench. 

Without warning, Billy shoves Steve, his jealousy boiling over into violence. Steve staggers back, caught off guard by the sudden attack.

Steve squares off against Billy, his muscles tense as he braces for the next move. Billy charges forward with a fierce yell, his fist aims straight for Steve's jaw.

Steve reacts quickly, dodging Billy's blow and retaliating with a powerful punch of his own. The impact sends Billy staggering backward, but he quickly regains his footing, his expression twisted with fury as a loud cackle escapes his mouth. 

In the midst of the chaos, you rush forward, attempting to intervene and pull Billy away from Steve. But Billy, blinded by his internal jealousy, lashes out wildly, narrowly missing you as he swings his fists in Steve’s direction again.

Nancy and Robin work together to pull Steve away. Steve's frustration mounts, his eyes burning with determination as he tries to break free and confront Billy once more.

“Billy, stop it! This is ridiculous.” You push at his chest as your friends take Steve away as Tommy and Carol run when you notice security getting closer. “Let’s go before you get us in real trouble.” 

Billy grabs your hand, leading the way to his car. “So now you don’t care if people see you with me? What was the problem back there? That was so uncalled for!” You exclaim, dragging your feet behind him as you make it to the empty field that’s been transformed into a parking lot. 

Billy drops your hand once you make it to his blue muscle car, lighting a cigarette and taking big puffs, blowing the smoke at thes sky. "How long have you and Jonathan been a thing?"

"What?" You stare at him in disbelief, crossing your arms in defense. "He's just a friend."

Billy scoffs, shaking his head, signature smirk gracing his roughed up face. "You're naive if you think he just wants to be your friend."

Your brow furrows as you struggle to comprehend Billy's accusations. "What are you talking about? Jonathan and I are just friends. Even if we weren’t, how is any of that your business?"

Billy's eyes narrow as he steps closer, his voice laced with jealousy. 

“Because... because I care about you, okay?” You take a step back from him, the intensity of his words catching you off guard. You know Billy enough to understand how he’s probably never said those words out loud to someone before. 

“Just forget it.” Billy runs a hand through his hair and opens his door, getting into his car and roars the engine.

“Billy-” He doesn’t give you a chance to respond, backing up quickly and speeds off, leaving you taken back by his admission. 

You stand in front of your mirror, fidgeting nervously with the hem of your dress. Robin flits around your room, pulling out various outfits and accessories.

“Okay, how about this one? It's cute and a little flirty, and perfect for a date at the art show.”

“It’s not a date, Robin.” You pout at yourself in the mirror, thoughts elsewhere as you try to shake off the lingering memories of Billy.

“Oh come on, the way you two were geeking out about cameras and shit. He’s so into you.” You force a laugh, but inside, your heart feels heavy with uncertainty. The moment of Billy's jealousy lingers, casting a shadow over your excitement for your evening with Jonathan.

‘Yeah, well, we're just friends. That's all.” Robin studies you for a moment, her expression filled with concern.

“Are you sure about that? Because it seems like there's something more there.” Robin asks softly, sitting on the edge of your bed with a pointed look. 

You shrug, trying to dismiss Robin's observation. “It doesn't matter anyway. Let's just focus on finding the perfect outfit, okay?”

Robin nods, sensing your reluctance to delve deeper into the topic. With a determined smile, she resumes her search for the ideal ensemble, hoping to lift your spirits and set the stage for an amazing night, regardless of what may or may not be brewing between you and Jonathan.

Jonathan's car pulls up outside your house, and you emerge, nervousness fluttering in your chest. Jonathan steps out of the car, a warm smile on his face as he approaches you.

“Hey, Y/N. You look amazing.” He opens the door for you.

You blush, grateful for his compliment as you climb into the passenger seat. “Thanks, Jonathan. You look nice too.”

As Jonathan starts the car and pulls away from the curb. You’re thankful for the conversation that comes easily between you as he drives towards the local art show, nerves slowly disappearing.

You both wander through the art gallery, admiring the various exhibits on display, pausing in front of a striking black-and-white photograph, lost in silent contemplation.

“This one is beautiful. The way the photographer captured the light... It's mesmerizing.”

“Yeah, I love how photography has the power to evoke such strong emotions. It's like a window into someone else's world.”

The silence between you feels nice, the shared appreciation for the art binding you together in a moment of quiet reflection. It’s refreshing to spend time with someone who shares the same interests. As you continue to explore the gallery, each new exhibit sparks conversation and sparks a deeper connection between you and Jonathan, solidifying this new bond formed through your shared love of photography.

As you both exit the art gallery, the crisp evening air greets you with the gentle hum of the bustling streets. You and Jonathan walk a block away to the local diner, one of your favorite spots in this sleepy town. 

As you and Jonathan walk inside, your eyes inadvertently drift to a corner booth where Billy and his friends are seated. You quickly avert your gaze, hoping to avoid any unnecessary confrontation. You both settle into a booth, hoping for once, Billy and his friends leave you alone. 

However, the air in the diner grows tense as Billy and his friends become increasingly boisterous, their voices rising above the ambient chatter. Your jaw clenches as you overhear some of their rude remarks, directed not just at you but also at Jonathan. You start to feel a surge of anger and frustration, but you try to maintain your composure for Jonathan's sake.

Jonathan notices the change in atmosphere and offers you a reassuring smile, silently urging you to ignore Billy and his friends. The tension in the air remains palpable, casting a shadow over the otherwise pleasant evening.

Jonathan tries to lighten up the mood and tells you the story of when Will got a lego stuck up his nose. You lean back in your seat, laughter bubbling up in response.

Billy's irritation mounts. He can't stand the way you look so carefree and happy in Jonathan's presence. With a determined stride, Billy stands up and walks over to your table, his smirk laced with malice as he takes a seat beside you, ignoring Jonathan's attempts to diffuse the situation.

"Billy, what are you doing?" Your voice is tinged with annoyance as you shoot him a warning glare, but Billy brushes off your protest with a dismissive wave of his hand.

"Just thought I'd join in on the fun," Billy retorts, his tone dripping with sarcasm.

Jonathan tries to intervene, his voice calm but firm as he urges Billy to leave you alone, but Billy refuses to listen. The tension in the air thickens as your anger reaches its boiling point.

"Billy, enough!" your voice cuts through the diner as you confront him head-on. "You always have to ruin everything, don't you? Can't you see that you're not wanted here?"

Billy's smirk falters, realizing how much he’s affecting you in the moment and stands up from the booth. “Fine but don't come crying to me when this little thing of yours falls apart.”

Your jaw clenches at his hurtful words, patience wearing thin as you rise from your seat, Jonathan following suit.

“We're leaving.” You respond icily, glaring at Billy and grabbing Jonthan’s hand, pulling him out of the diner and into the cool night air.

“Are you okay?” Jonathan wonders as you walk to his car. 

You nod, slight tears prickling at your eyes due to the frustration you feel with Billy. It’s becoming overwhelming the way he picks and chooses when he’s nice to you. 

“Yeah, I'll be fine. Let's just get out of here.”

As you settle into the car, the tension begins to dissipate, replaced by a sense of relief as Jonathan starts the engine and pulls away. The soft hum of the car fills the silence as you drive through the quiet streets, each of you lost in your own thoughts over the ruined evening.

“Thanks Jonathan. I’m sorry for how the evening ended but I had a nice time.” You give him a graceful smile as he drives up to your house. 

“Thanks for coming with me. We should do this again sometime, you know, without the rude interruptions.” 

“Definitely.” you laugh lightly, opening the door and stepping out of the car. “Thanks again.” 

“Goodnight Y/N.” Jonathan says softly as you wave goodbye and watch him drive away into the night.

"Goodnight, Jonathan," you murmur to yourself, feeling a sense of gratitude for his understanding and support amidst the chaos that is Billy Hargrove. With a sigh, you turn and head inside your house, hoping that the next time you and Jonathan spend time together, it will be free from any unwanted intrusions.

Your heart sinks to the floor immediately as you walk into school on Monday morning, spotting Billy at your locker. He’s never willingly appeared anywhere you are, especially at school where everyone watches his every movement. You are still upset about the way he treated you and your friends this weekend, it almost makes you sick thinking about it again. 

Without a second thought, you quickly turn, hoping to avoid any confrontation. But as you walk away, you can feel Billy's eyes burning into your back, and sure enough, you hear his footsteps quicken as he strides after you.

“Y/N, wait!” He catches some students' attention as he calls after you across the hallway. 

Your steps falter momentarily, but you quickly regain your composure and continue walking, determined to put as much distance between you and him as possible. But Billy is persistent, stepping in front of you and blocking your path.

“Y/N, please can we talk?” Your patience is already wearing thin as you push back.

“We have nothing to talk about, Billy. If this is about our book project, it can wait until after school.”

Billy refuses to back down, he grabs a hold of your wrist, pulling you through the hallways behind him. His grip tightening as he crosses the gym and pushes open the heavy doors leading to the small alleyway beside the gym. 

“Billy, let go of me! You’re hurting me.” You cry and Billy immediately lets go. 

“I’m sorry.” Billy spits out frantically, softly grazing your wrist with his thumb. “I didn’t mean to hurt you.” 

All you can hear is your heart pounding in your chest as Billy pulls out a cigarette, the smell of smoke filling the air as he lights it, his actions speaking louder than words. You watch him silently, waiting for him to explain himself, but he remains silent, his eyes clouded with a mixture of regret and need.

“Billy, what do you want?”

He doesn't answer, his gaze fixed on you with an intensity that sends a shiver down your spine. You take a step back feeling the cold brick beneath you, a surge of frustration and confusion welling up inside you.

“Why did you have to do what you did on Saturday? And to Steve? I was having a great time, and you just had to step in for no reason.”

Billy's expression softens slightly at your words. “Did you mean it when you said I ruin everything?”

Your brow furrows in confusion, your memory flashing back to the heat of the moment inside the diner. “... I don't remember saying that…” Billy interrupts you, his voice tinged with bitterness as he stomps out his cigarette with his boot.

“Well, maybe you should, because it's true. That's what my dad has been telling me since I was a kid—that I ruin everything. And maybe he's right.”

The pain in his voice makes your heart break all over again for him. You didn’t realize how hurtful that can be to someone in his position. Your frustration slowly melts away as you realize the depth of his inner turmoil. You reach out tentatively, hand hovering in the space between them.

“Billy, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it like that.” He scoffs at your apology, eyes flashing with self-loathing.

“You don't get it, do you? You don't understand what it's like to feel like you're constantly screwing everything up. And maybe I am jealous, okay? Maybe I'm jealous because I'm afraid of losing you.”

Your breath catches in your throat at his confession, your own emotions swirling as you struggle to process his words. You reach out to him, hand brushing against his arm in a gesture of comfort.

“Billy, you don't have to be afraid. I'm not going anywhere. I'll always be here for you.” He meets your gaze. “But it’s not an excuse for acting like an asshole. You said you’d try to be better and then you go and beat up Steve. When will things change?” 

“Fuck, I know, Y/N. And I'm sorry for what happened with Steve. I messed up.” You can see the pain etched into his features, the weight of his struggles bearing down on him like a heavy burden. He leans one arm beside your head against the brick, face closer than normal. 

“I understand what you’re dealing with, Billy. But you can't keep hurting people because you're hurting too. You have to find a way to deal with your anger and your pain without taking it out on others.” Billy's shoulders slump, his expression weary as he runs his other hand through his hair, breath fanning out in your face, hints of mint and tobacco filling your nose. 

“I know, Y/N. I'm trying, I really am. But sometimes it feels like I'm drowning, and you…you make everything feel lighter.” He whispers, eyes closing and softly bumps his forehead against yours. 

“Come over after school. I’m giving you one more chance, Billy.” You give him another opportunity to show you he’s willing to try and be different, not just say it but do it. 

“I promise I won’t screw this up again.” Billy’s eyes meet yours intensely. 

“4 pm. Don’t be late. I have work later tonight.” You command and he steps back to put distance between you. You find yourself missing the warmth his body radiates. 

“See you then, little mouse.” Billy offers you a small, almost shy smile before turning to leave, his footsteps echoing against the pavement as he disappears around the corner. 

As Billy disappears from view, you can't help but cling to a sense of hope that your words have resonated with him, sparking a genuine desire to change. Despite the weight of his past actions, you can't shake the empathy you feel for him and the turmoil he endures every day. You're determined to be a beacon of light in his darkness, to show him the beauty and gentleness that life has to offer when given a chance. You know it won't be easy, but you're committed to walking alongside him on his journey toward healing and redemption.

As the clock struck the agreed-upon time, there was a knock at your front door. Opening the door, you welcome Billy in with a smile.

“Welcome to my humble abode.” Billy steps inside, glancing around the modest entryway of your small two-bedroom house. You motion for him to follow as you lead the way into the living room.

"Come on in. I'll give you the grand tour," You say with a hint of amusement, knowing there wasn't much to show.

He follows you through the living room, which doubled as your dad's makeshift office space, cluttered with paperwork stacked high in a worn-out armchair. Billy’s eyes scan the room before following you down the narrow hallway to your room, which serves as a sanctuary of sorts amidst the messiness of our humble home. Pushing open the door, you usher him inside.

"Welcome to my domain," You declare proudly, gesturing around the small space.

Your room was certainly a reflection of your eclectic tastes and passions. Photographs adorned the walls, capturing moments from your life that held special significance. Stacks of vinyl records and cassette tapes sat beside an old record player. Film rolls were scattered across your desk, waiting to be developed into cherished memories. Cameras of varying sizes and ages rested on shelves, each one a tool for capturing the beauty of the world around.

Books lined the shelves, their worn spines bearing the marks of countless readings. Yarn and crochet hooks lay strewn about, evidence of your latest creative endeavors.

You can’t help but watch as Billy takes it all in, his eyes widening with curiosity and appreciation. There was a warmth in his gaze, a recognition of something familiar in the midst of the unfamiliar.

"You've got quite the setup here," he remarks, his voice full of genuine admiration.

You smile, feeling a sense of pride in sharing a special piece of yourself with him. In that moment, you realize that despite the modesty of your surroundings, there was beauty and richness to be found in the things that mattered most to you. And you couldn’t help but admit that Billy has become one of those things. 

"Thanks," You respond, settling onto your bed with a sense of contentment and Billy joins you. 

As you delve into the next chapter of the book report, the quietness of your room envelopes you both like a cozy blanket. Billy pauses for a moment, looking around with a contemplative expression.

"You must enjoy the quiet," he observes.

"Yeah, I do. It’s nice to be able to bask in peace."

Billy's gaze lingers on your for a moment before he speaks again. "But it must get lonely, being here all by yourself most of the time."

"Yeah, it can," you admit quietly, meeting his gaze. "That's why I like books so much. They give me comfort and escape, you know? It's like I can lose myself in the words on the pages and forget about everything else for a while."

Billy nods understandingly, "I get that," he says softly and retreats suddenly from your bed, his eyes drawn to a box of photographs sitting on your desk. Curiosity piqued, he begins rifling through them, his fingers delicately handling each image as if afraid to disturb the memories captured within.

You watch him from the bed, pen pausing mid-sentence. The photographs were a glimpse into your past, a collection of moments frozen in time that told the story of your family's journey. Among them were pictures of a woman who bore a striking resemblance to you, along with snapshots of your dad, sister, and you growing up.

"That's my mom," You break the silence that has settled in the air.

Billy looks up from the photographs, his expression softening with understanding. "She looks... she looks a lot like you.”

"Yeah, she did. I got my love for photography from her," A bittersweet smile playing at the corners of your lips. "She used to take me and my sister on all sorts of adventures, capturing moments with her camera."

There was a heaviness in your words, a weight of sorrow carried by the memories of a mother lost too soon. You could see a flicker of recognition in Billy's eyes, a shared understanding of the pain of losing a parent.

"I don't have many photos from my childhood," Billy confesses quietly, his mind drifting to the lone picture of his mother that he kept tucked away in his wallet. "Just one of my mom. She left when I was ten."

You felt a pang of empathy for him, a deep ache for the loss he had endured. "I'm sorry," You murmur. 

Billy's eyes meet yours, a silent understanding passing between you. In that moment, you were not just two teenagers working on a book report and figuring out what this truly was between you—you were kindred spirits bound together by the shared experience of loss and loneliness.

"It gets hard sometimes, doesn't it?" Billy asks softly, his voice barely above a whisper.

You nod, feeling the weight of his words resonate within. "Yeah, it does," The vulnerability of your shared pain forging a bond between you that feels both fragile and unbreakable.

And as you sat there, two souls united by grief and longing, you couldn't help but feel grateful for the unexpected connection that had blossomed amidst the quiet solitude of your room. In each other's company, the burden of loneliness felt a little lighter, replaced by the warmth of companionship.

"You're so polite with your sadness," he tells you, his voice gentle yet piercing. "It's like you don't want to ruin anything for anyone else."

His words struck a chord within you, stirring feelings of guilt and self-awareness that you had long tried to suppress. It was true—you had spent so much time trying to hide your pain, to shield others from the weight of your sorrow, that you had forgotten how to truly acknowledge it yourself.

"I don't feel the need to bother other people with my problems," You reply quietly. It was a defense mechanism, a way of protecting yourself from the vulnerability of opening up to others. But in doing so, you had inadvertently closed yourself off from the possibility of genuine connection and understanding.

Billy regards you with a mixture of empathy and concern, his eyes searching yours for any sign of need. In that moment, you felt a flicker of something stirring within—a longing for connection, a yearning to be seen and understood for who you truly are.

"You don't have to carry it all on your own, you know," His words are a gentle reminder of the strength that could be found in vulnerability. "Sometimes, it helps to share the burden with someone else." Billy sits back down beside you, thighs touching but you need more. You graze for his hand, softly running your fingers against the top of his hand and slowly turning it over. You trace his calloused palm, feeling him go tense, trying his hardest to not clench his fist together. You finally thread your fingers through his, squeezing a few times. You look up at him, his gaze locked on your hands, bound together and resting on his thigh. 

“You don’t have to carry everything on your own either, Billy.” Your whisper, and he repeats your words over and over in his head. 

And as you sit there, two souls united by grief and longing, you believe you both can find the courage to confront your pain and begin the journey toward healing together.

Taglist: @msbillyhargrove @uselessbutinteresting @milestellergfs @periwinkle-quill @ghostcastaway @iletmytittiestitty-russ @missingbillyhargrove @lotionlamp @billys-pretty-babe @isimpfortoomanypeople @rosey96

[ace-turned-confused]

get to know your moots

ty for tagging me @almostempty ilyyyy and i love doing these, they feel like doing surveys and if there's one thing my autistic ass loves, it's doing a survey

what's the origin of your blog title?: it's me being confused about my sexuality & identity

OTP(s) + shipname: okay my mom & i used to watch this show called major crimes, SHARON & ANDY FOR LIFE !!!!!! shandy stan until i die. i even had a fanpage for them on instagram.

favorite color: purpleeee

favorite game: rn it's INFINITY NIKKI !!! i am addicted. also replaying BOTW rn, valorant / fortnite with my cousin, oh and i'm basically becoming a professional phasmo player, also addicted to that.

song stuck in your head: baile inolvidable - bad bunny

weirdest habit/trait?: ummm i stick my tongue out when i'm concentrating? not all the way out like a weirdo, just a lil blep. i also brush my teeth in the shower.

hobbies: gamingggg, sewing, baking, vinyl records

if you work, what's your profession?: rn ya girl is unemployed :')

if you could have any job you wish what would it be?: trust fund baby. i wanted to do architecture but then discovered you have to submit a portfolio when you apply and i didn't do art for matric so. rip to that dream. also nearly went into microbiology.

something you're good at: sudoku.

something you're bad at: making conversation.

something you love: night drives with my bestie <3

something you could talk about for hours off the cuff: basically any game i play. you wanna know how to do a zero evidence run in phasmo? take a seat. valorant agent abilities? ask me. minecraft recipes? i got you. i often get asked "how do you remember that?" i'm autistic. i have autism.

something you hate: that i have to work to survive and pay for everything. going new places without knowing the parking situation. anything mint.

something you collect: trinkets. i love a trinket. i got a set of four tiny silver-plated brass chairs that are actually name place holders for my birthday that look amazing on my desk. i'd love to get more game merch etc but those kind of fun things don't exist much here in SA :( also lego, but i haven't got a new set in a good while now.

something you forget: to take my meds, names, events, happenings, etc etc.

what's your love language?: i yearn for physical touch but i'm touch averse :/ love some quality time.

favorite movie/show: love mamma mia that is peak cinema.

favorite food: i love pizza. i love lasagne. i love a good plate of chips.

favorite animal: I LOVE CAPYBARAS i love them so much. i have a capy plushie and he has a turtle backpack.

are you musical?: i played both violin and piano for like eight years? and i can sing if i try LOL

what were you like as a child?: anxious and shy. every teacher would love if i could participate more.

favorite subject at school?: biology & geography.

least favorite subject?: when i had to take it, history. that shit was boringgggg i'm so sorry. of the compulsory ones, probs english. i take everything at face value (autism) so hated poetry and having to analyse every fuckin sentence in a book.

what's your best character trait?: my honesty.

what's your worst character trait?: also my honesty.

if you could change any detail of your day right now what would it be?: idk make this shit more exciting probably. i'd put myself on a nice holiday.

if you could travel in time who would you like to meet?: a cowboy from the old west. and then he'd fall in love with me.

recommend one of your favorite fanfics (spread the love!): okay okay i LOVE seams by @fuckyeahdindjarin <3

npt: @burntheedges @milla-frenchy @evolnoomym @guiltyasdave @604to647

@sixhours @joelmillerisapunk @oonajaeadira @strang3lov3 @whocaresstillthelouvre

@mrsmando @mountainsandmayhem @sanarsi @mermaidgirl30 @sizzlingcloudmentality <3

[melishade]

It's fine, take all the time you need. Number 101?

This ask game

Let's wrap up the Autobot Anthology. Four Years after the War ended.

Titans and Energon

Holiday Celebration

Experiments

"Hey." Arcee snapped out of her daze when Wheeljack handed her some high grade energon. Arcee quietly took it before raising her servo in the air.

"Happy four year anniversary of the war being over," Wheeljack said.

"Four years, huh?" Arcee mused before taking a sip of her energon. She looked on to see the Survey Corps still training in the trees.

"You came all this way to give me energon?" Arcee asked him.

"And to keep you company," Wheeljack insisted, "Still working on contacting Cybertron."

"Not going as well as you'd hope?" Arcee asked.

"Could be better," Wheeljack proclaimed, "Still no sign of Eren?"

"Yeah, and everyone is feeling it," Arcee sighed, "...this sucks."

"Yeah it does." Wheeljack took a sip of his energon, "What do you think the 'Bots are doing right now?"

"Beats me," Arcee answered, "I bet they're having more fun than we are."

==

A million light years away

Bumblebee watched from the balcony as the Cybertronians celebrated the anniversary of the war being over. They drank Visco, they honored the fallen, the lights from the city shone brightly in the night sky, blocking out the stars. Bumblebee could see Predaking flying above with Darksteel and Skylynx, with the fourth predacon right behind them.

Bumblebee looked down at his reflection in the drink he held to see just how tired and sad he looked. He should be happy. Four years of little conflict, and Cybertron's reconstruction was going smoothly. They had just reopened Iacon in honor of Optimus Prime, but...he missed Optimus. He missed Arcee and Wheeljack. He knew that Arcee needed time away from the planet, but....he didn't expect her to be gone for so long. What was going on out there? Were they alright? Would they come back safely?

"Lieutenant Bumblebee, what are you doing up here all by yourself?" Bumblebee looked back to see a familiar slender psychiatrist with large glasses walk up to him with Visco in his servo.

"Sorry, Rung, I just needed...," Bumblebee trailed off when he noticed a straw with comical loops and twists in his drink, "Is that a swirly straw?"

"Oh, yes! I find them to be quite enjoyable! It makes drinking more fun!" Rung smiled with delight.

Bumblebee couldn't help but laugh. "I guess so. I didn't think you'd find something like a straw that fun."

"I have many interests and hobbies," Rung insisted, "But back to my question. What are you doing up here by yourself? You should be down there with your friends."

"...not all of my friends are here," Bumblebee mumbled before realizing what he just said, "Sorry, I shouldn't dump my problems on you like that."

"I'm a therapist," Rung reminded.

"Yeah, but...you're on break," Bumblebee retorted.

"I would still be more than willing to help out a friend." Rung placed a servo on his shoulder, "Now tell me: what troubles you?"

"...Arcee and Wheeljack aren't here," Bumblebee relented, "I miss them...and I thought they would be back by now, but...it's been three years."

Bumblebee leaned against the railing once again. "Seems selfish of me to complain, right? I haven't been that close to Wheeljack. Bulkhead knows him better. I know Arcee's been going through some hard times, I just...thought she would come back."

"Well, it's not wrong for us to be worried about friends and units we haven't seen in a long time," Rung began as he leaned against the railing too, drink in servo and hanging over the edge, "You don't know where they are and you're worried about their wellbeing. But...Arcee is just processing things at her own pace."

Bumblebee's mouth form a thin line. He wasn't a big fan of that answer.

Rung looked down at the crowd celebrating. "We all have our own problems and traumas, and we all process them differently. I've seen a variety of people come in through my door and not all methods I give will work the same for every single one of them. Arcee won't be able to process her traumas the same way that you have, and the two of you have been through tremendous hardships because of the war."

"...yeah." Bumblebee swallowed, remembering what he went through at Megatron's servo.

"But that doesn't mean you shouldn't fault Arcee for processing her trauma differently," Rung insisted.

"I'm not," Bumblebee grumbled, "I just..."

Rung waited, expecting an answer to come out, but Bumblebee sighed in defeat.

"I thought we finally achieved peace, real peace, on Cybertron, and I wanted Arcee and Wheeljack to be here with us. But...there's still problems and conflicts that I have to deal with and...it sucks. Like rogue Decepticons trying to rise up at overthrow the government or start terrorist attacks. I...just would have liked eternal peace, no matter how naive that seems." Bumblebee relented, "...I feel like I'm complaining."

Rung took a sip out of his drink through a straw. "Bumblebee, I'm going to let you in on a secret: eternal peace will never exist."

"Wow, that's blunt!" Bumblebee exclaimed in disbelief.

"It's the truth!" Rung declared, "All I have to do is gesture to Cybertron's history as proof. There's always conflict and problems that arise. Peace is achieved at the end of it, and there is a vow to not repeat those horrors, only for it to repeat a few million kilocycles later. As long as free will exists, then there will be no eternal peace. Maybe when we're dead, it will happen."

"...you're quite morbid, you know that?" Bumblebee was stunned while Rung laughed.

"I suppose so," Rung agreed, "But there's nothing wrong with striving for peace to last as long as possible. To help the next generation learn and not repeat the horrors of the past. One day it might happen, but it could be eons from now. We don't know."

Rung smiled. "And there is nothing wrong with trying to fight for peace and for a better world even when there are people who still resist. You are do a marvelous job, and I'm sure many are proud of you."

Rung placed a servo on Bumblebee's back. "You might not have everything you want right now, and I'm certain you want things to be easier, but...keep doing what you are doing. Things will work itself out in time. Peace might not be eternal, but I'm sure that it will continue to last your lifetime."

Bumblebee smiled a little before downing the rest of his Visco. "I guess that's the best that I can hope for."

Bumblebee stood up and patted Rung's shoulder. "Thanks, Rung."

"You're welcome," Rung said as Bumblebee walked away, "And hey!"

Bumblebee stopped in his step before turning to Rung.

"I bet that you will see Arcee sooner rather than later!" Rung predicted.

Bumblebee couldn't help but laugh. "Not a good idea to make false promises in your profession!"

"I swear on my spark!" Rung raised his drink into the air.

"Okay, Rung, I'll hold you to it!" Bumblebee waved goodbye, deciding to head down below and join the crowd. Meanwhile, Rung's smile disappeared as he lowered his drink. He looked up at the stars, hoping for a sign or even an answer to an unasked question, but nothing appeared.

Rung sighed as he leaned against the railing. He took a sip from his visco with a straw and mumbled to himself.

"...the beginning of the end..."

(Well, Autobot Anthology is over. So I will post the full list in a bit.)

[thedragonagebigbang]

Bang Creator Interview: Tumblr: @blarrghe  |  [AO3: blarghe

The Collaboration period has begun! In these quiet months before works are due, we want to foster a sense of excitement, camaraderie, and celebration among our participants. To that end, all participants were given the option of a formal interview by our mod, Dema, or an informal “ask-game” survey. We hope you enjoy getting to know our phenomenal creators as much as we have!

Tortured Man More Tortured by Having To Endure the Best Week of His Life

Blarghe and Dema talk art imitating life writing, romantic foils, and the Platonic Ideal Dorianmance 

Dema: I'd love to begin in OC land with you. As someone who is both an artist and a writer, do you find that making art of your OCs informs your process? Or are those pretty separate for you?

Blarghe: Hmm. That's a good question.

Dema: Why, thank you!

Blarghe: My feeling has always been that I'm a better writer than I am an artist, so maybe the writing informs the art, more. I am always getting very visual ideas, like maybe some comic-panel type storyboards in the brain, and I can't really illustrate that to the degree that I want, so it can be like it is in my head. But I can more easily make words do that.

I'd very much like to do some illustrations for my own stuff, and I love drawing my OC and some things have helped in the other way, like designing his vallaslin on paper did give me something better to describe from in writing. I'd really love to reach the point of being able to do a few comics. There are a few scenes I really see that way. I try to be quite visual in my writing in the meantime I guess, haha.

Dema: That makes sense! I have the same dream. Comics are very intimidating. So it sounds like you write your OCs before you draw them?

Blarghe: Yeah, generally. I think since we're going from a video game and I already have seen the characters that way, there's that. Though I have OCs I have not made in the character creator. I haven't invented a ton of non-canon side characters but there are a few. I think I can picture them pretty well. I wind up drawing them after falling in love with them through writing them, rather than like, designing a character visually/on paper/in the cc before putting them in a story. Honestly, I put down DA:I for a looong time while still writing da:i-inspired fic with my OC and other canon characters. So I guess I don't have to look at him that often.

Dema: I have asked several of our writers if they make all their OCs in the CC, and if that's step 1. I'm curious, too, at what point you knew you were going to make fan content of your OC and participate in fandom. Did you finish the game first? Did you come in with a foot already in the fandom?

Blarghe: Ok long answer: I was into the games first. I started playing in maybe 2015, shortly after Inquisition came out. My partner already liked the games and was excited to play it, so I wound up watching some of that and being intrigued. But I started with Origins, loved it, and wound up loving and playing all three, all of them with more than one OC, to varying degrees of completion. When it comes to writing fic, I had ideas, like, little comics and some additional fill-in-the-gaps scenes written into notebooks and stuff for all three games. Mostly expanding on the personal relationships and romances, as you do. I'd done that kind of thing for other media I liked, but never really been in "fandom" about it for anything. I've always done creative writing and original fiction as a hobby and it was just a way of getting back into that on a personal level. I wrote the most after finishing DA:I for the second time... I kind of did a playthrough I wasn't super happy with, then made a new character specifically for a romance (Dorian's) then... wasn't super happy with that character either, THEN made Taren who is my current OC obsession, and wrote like 30K words of canon-divergence fic with a whole other OC companion inserted and just had fun with it. I forgot about that until 2020, when I found it in my docs and re-read it and decided it was actually pretty good and that I could maybe try to post online, find community, etc. I've since completely scrapped and deleted that fic from AO3, but getting out there got me into doing writing prompts and writing other stories, and now here I am. (I still haven't actually finished my Taren playthrough. I will before Veilguard lol) I was definitely motivated by COVID, thought I might go insane without community, so I picked a couple things I was already into (writing and dragon age) and went looking.

Dema: I'm guessing most of the art and writing you've done for DA has been DA:I?

Blarghe: Most, yeah. If only because my long fic is a DA:I inspired modern-au. Honestly it's fairly divorced from canon lol. Most of my canon writing is for DA:O actually. And I'm obsessed with Taren, I've drawn him more than anyone ever. He is very pretty, you see.

Dema: He is very, very pretty. Is DA:O your favorite game in the franchise? Everyone hates this question but I GOTTA KNOW hahaha!

Blarghe: Yeah it is! I love them all for different aspects, but it's got that first-game start of the obsession nostalgia. I also love a finicky, strategy-heavy RPG so to me the usual combat complaints aren't really a thing. I like the pause-every-two-seconds combat hahaha. I do really love running around through the scenery in Inquisition though, and I like the characters, and the fun flashy rogue stabbing too. But I have a soft spot for Origins for really gripping you into that story and world. It's a great balance of silly and funny and dark and difficult choices.

Dema: I haven't asked anyone else this yet, but are you finding the Veilguard announcements and previews are refreshing the inspiration? Or are you avoiding all spoilers and pretending it does not exist until the release? Or some secret, third thing…

Blarghe: Somewhere in between. I've been here the whole time lol, I don't know that it hyped me up any more, but it's nice to finally have news. And I'm excited that it will mean new people in the fandom and a resurgence that way. I am not totally avoiding spoilers but still kinda keeping my distance for my own sanity. I'll definitely lock down the spoiler tags once it's actually out.

Dema: So valid. I am feeling very inspired, myself, but I think it may be more the energy of the fandom around me reaching such a fever pitch. We're like a flock of ducks getting a whole loaf of bread after years of crumbs. 

Blarghe: So true haha. I am really excited about how it looks. Can't wait to play it!

Dema: Same! Returning to Taren a bit because, well, he's pretty: you said you went through a few iterations of OCs for a Dorian romance before him, and then were hooked. What is it about Taren that makes him a favorite? Was there a particular inspiration for him?

Blarghe: Oh boy. Not a specific inspiration. I played DA:I three times, counting the Taren one that I'm not technically finished, and the first I completely missed any romance (thought I could get Harding until it was too late) but I loved Dorian's character and his personal arc hit so hard that I immediately made a new character just for him. He was like a sassy Trevelyan who didn't really wanna be there, trying to pull kind of a rogueish charming sarcastic irresponsible pretty boy to hang with Dorian but I really didn't like how that clicked. I know it's a pretty common character archetype esp in a Dorian romance to do sassy x sassy so no hate but I found the Inquisition storyline and dialogue options just wouldn't let me be that irresponsible and funny, which makes sense. I really liked the themes of how the game pushes you into this impossible role where the only thing you can do is become a big responsible hero figure. I'm sure there's a compelling story there for the kind of character I'm talking about, but since mine fell so flat to me I decided to lean the complete opposite way. And Dorian inspired it too. The more I played and considered it the more I felt like I wanted him to have kind of a counterweight romance, you know. Opposites attract kind of thing. So Taren started as this very responsible, serious character who has always been prepared for leadership, being a First, and takes all that really seriously. He's also very Dalish and has reason to distrust and argue with him, which is great for Drama, but very very sweet and genuine and wholesome, which is so fun to contrast with all Dorian's trust issues. Dorian's quite emotional and idealistic, really, so they match in that way and it's very romantic. Taren's also a bit aspirational. Part of why I like Dorian so much is that I relate to him a lot, and I was struggling with trying to become less arrogant and more genuine, so Taren embodies a lot of that for me. Part of what makes him my favourite is probably the blank-slate of it all, too. Not having the Origin and getting to make stuff up. The whole romance plot is really compelling. I stuck him in some AUs and got carried away by worldbuilding, too. And after so much time spent with him he's just the fave now. But yeah, he's not my usual archetype. I think I've made a lot more sarcastic rogues than genuine sweethearts. He has like, anxiety and trust issues and I keep throwing him in situations to give him Trauma, but that sort of, happy, sweet, genuine, and healer-class character was all new ground to me and I wound up just loving the different-ness and challenge of it.

Dema: I did want to tell you that your "This is a story about trauma and relationships and socioeconomics and questioning belief and searching for balance. It's also about finding your soulmate on grindr" summary absolutely sent me.

Blarghe: Thank you, I'm very proud of that.

Dema: Speaking of which, can you come up with a clickbait title for your bang fic?

Blarghe: Something like Tortured Man More Tortured by Having To Endure the Best Week of His Life [[REDACTED]] you can cut that last part because it does make it obvious.

Dema: A+. Thank you for the lovely interview, it's been a treat chatting!

Blarghe: Thanks! It was very fun.

[best--dress]

90s aol chain email survey a.k.a. get to know me tag game

Thanks for tagging me @mooncello and @monbons 🥰 (do you guys remember those email surveys?)

Favorite color: pink! I've also been a fan of lavender these days.

Last song: apparently it was this from my spotify daylist, "liminal dreamcore thursday night"

Currently reading: "The Language of the Night: Essays on Writing, Science Fiction, and Fantasy" by Ursula K. Le Guin. I want to underline every other sentence.

Currently watching: the last thing I watched was Labyrinth, for the first time ever, and I absolutely loved it and now I get @you-remind-me-of-the-babe's url. um also I watched it on pluto TV which I'm kind of obsessed with? They have so many good movies (and sailor moon!!) and hardly any ads and it's free. I'm like a watch-one-movie-every-other-month kind of girl, so it's my ideal streaming service.

Currently craving: more candy corn, but i'll restrain myself

Coffee or tea: neither. if I ask you to meet for coffee, what I mean is, I'm getting a pastry

Hobby to try: I've been doing more drawing lately (because I teach a drawing class LOL) and I want to learn more about using a crowquill pen and spend more time practicing! In my ample free time 🙃

Current AU: I like how all these questions were personal and then this is the only one that's fandom-related - kind of makes me question if I'm supposed to come up with an AU for my own life.

I am back to being deep in my fem!snowbaz AU, after not writing anything for a couple of weeks, and it's sooo joyful to be back in the flow and communing with the story and hearing what the characters have to say. Truly I never know what's going to happen until my pen touches the page.

Other AUs I can't stop thinking about, because why limit myself to my own: @blackberrysummerblog's Practical Magic AU, and @aristocratic-otter's Tiktok Dancer AU. And very much eyeing all the concepts for @carry-on-au-fest...

Tagging: @thewholelemon @iamamythologicalcreature @rimeswithpurple @arthurkko @roomwithanopenfire and, consider yourself tagged if i tagged you anywhere above! ❤️

[ask--eggman]

📩 Dr. Eggman Ask blog 🥚

Attention all!

It is I, Dr. Eggman, the greatest scientific genius and the brilliant, smart and handsome soon to be ruler of this world!

I know you all must be trembling with either excitement or fear, as you should be! An expected and understandable reaction to being undeservingly graced by my glorious presence. Especially because with this blog, you can finally be lucky enough to interact with me and ask me questions!

Ignore any rumors of this all being "propaganda" for the Eggman Empire. You don't need to be convinced to join. It's a no brainer, it doesn't take a genius mind like mine to know that you and the world will be much better under my rule! I simply state facts here. I promise.

Important things to know:

Blog is for adults 18+ only!

I'll treat you like the underlings you are, to teach you of your place beneath me in the future of my empire early. Some say that's rude. The nerve! They're simply the traits a real powerful and confident ruler should have! But of course I'm the only one cut out for it, so I shouldn't expect anyone to understand.

I'll be open about the glorious evil I get up to with my immaculate calculated schemes! Unless you ask for top secret information to use against me and try to stop me... You can't outsmart me, I can tell! And you will fail miserably!

Anyone with a distaste for my methods and hobbies - ignore anything evil you might've seen here. Pay no attention to any mentions of schemes and violence, only believe the posts about how totally brilliant, helpful and beneficial my rule and empire are.

You can expect violence of varying degrees. I'm sure you all know by now that I'm not above crushing my enemies and reveling in their defeat! What? They totally deserve it!

NSFT allowed. I know everyone wishes they could have a chance with me and must be very eager to hear all about it. ;)

All this to say that this blog is not suitable for small children - or big babies.

Feel free to fill out a brief survey after your visit. Your opinions matter to us! Unless you didn't have fun, then we don't care.

More extra notes from a silly little lackey of mine who serves as this blog's moderator below:

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Games canon source Eggman, every game mainline to spin off, no exclusions. There's a possibility for occasional divergence due to slight inspiration from other official media but with a clear heavy game focus.

He will be canon accurate and nasty, rude, arrogant, condescending, a big jerk and unpleasant reactions and behaviors will be portrayed in an often comedic way. Keep in mind, it doesn't reflect the feelings or beliefs of the author - no hard feelings!

There's a chance not all questions will be answered. It's okay to resend once or twice just in case it wasn't sent. But just because it might take a while to get a response, doesn't always mean we didn't get it or you're not getting one.

I'm an adult and open to NSFT and fet!sh asks, very lax and don't judge. Will be tagged to the best of my ability. Eggman may do a combination of teasing and entertaining, or just be oblivious towards why you're asking, depends. Just be 18+. No minors at all!

Feel free to ask to tag.

[talktomeinclexa]

15 questions for 15 friends!

tagged by @vmplvr1977 Thanks for the tag buddy :)

Were you named after anyone?

Nope. I'm a trans man so I picked my own name. I can't remember for the life of me where I heard it first because no one in my life at the time was called like that, but it stuck and that was how I called myself in my head for years until I realized what it meant and how I could transition.

When was the last time you cried?

Not sure. I cry extremely rarely (toxic masculinity is hard to shake off). At my grandma's funeral 10 years ago I think? Or does one tear escaping because my wife and I were considering adopting out our cat when we moved countries count? (we didn't, but the logistics to move him were hell)

Do you have kids?

Nope, nor do I want any. Cats and rats only.

What sports have you played/do you play?

I've tried many, but the ones I did for a few years were swimming and martial arts. I do nothing at the moment except for walking, and that's something that needs to change but I lack the motivation 😐

Do you use sarcasm?

A lot, yes. I even have a t-shirt or two about that 😛

First thing you notice about people?

Aside from their general appearance? Their openness or lack thereof. Since I can be closed off too, I guess I notice it quickly when someone seems reserved and try to adjust how I approach them and how many personal questions I ask.

What is your eye colour?

Chesnut brown according to the recent surveys we had on Tumblr.

Scary movies or happy endings?

Happy endings. I'm not a fan of scary movies usually.

Any talents?

Does procrastination count? I'm happy with how my writing has progressed so far. I'm pretty good at video games too (lots of practice hehe).

Where were you born?

Paris.

What are your hobbies?

Writing and video games.

Do you have any pets?

2 rats, and we're going to adopt a cat very soon 😃

How tall are you?

5' 5" (167 cm)

Favourite subject in school?

History.

Dream Job?

I don't really have one. Something that allows me to earn a lot while having little stress and lots of free time? 😅 "We work to live, not live to work" is my philosophy so I'm happy with my new job because it's interesting and still leaves me time to do other things. I'm not sure I would want to write or play/test videogames as a job, for example, because that would take the fun out of it and become more of a chore.

Tagging: @sassymajesty @dreamsaremywords @anonymous-red-506 @butmakeitgayblog @kpforpresident and @cascowriteswords

[carnivoral]

if you don't know me, i treat ask games like surveys because ask games as we know 'em are pretty much dead. here's the og

what are 3 things you’d say shaped you into who you are?

guitar hero 2, deviantart x reader fanfics, not being allowed to watch horror movies as a child

show us a picture of your handwriting?

3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?

i'm not a big movie person, but probably zero day, the original child's play, and crash

what’s an inside joke you have with your family or friends?

kitty synth, "wentzian", bathroom updates, pig as a slur

what made you start your blog?

old one got too much anon hate

what’s the best and worst part of being online/a creator?

there are so many images of pretty men to be found. some of them are dead.

what scares you the most and why?

probably the prospect of instability. i imagine its bc i moved a lot as a child

any reacquiring dreams?

in the case u meant reoccuring, not particularly. i have a bad memory.

tell a story about your childhood

oh, you dont want that.

would you say you’re an emotional person?

i learned apparently im more emotional than i even knew, recently.

what do you consider to be romance?

sensuality and the human connection.

what’s some good advice you want to share?

goal setting without clear vision is like building a couch with no instructions, just a picture of the end result.

what are you doing right now?

listening to pretty hate machine by nin and filling out this questionaire

what’s something you’ve always wanted to do but maybe been to scared to do?

learn to drive

what do you think of when you hear the word “home”?

my partner

if you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

my need to dig up the corpse to make sure it's really dead down there

name 3 things that make you happy

i. discovering new fetishes ii. my partner system iii. animals

do you believe in ghosts and/or aliens?

its a fool's errand to try and define our surroundings with our limited perception. radio exists. anything is possible.

favourite thing about the day?

the kids playing on the street loud enough to hear from inside.

favourite things about the night?

the quiet coolness.

are you a spiritual person?

that part of me ain't dead yet

say 3 things about someone you love

i. prevailing ii. patient iii. not appreciated enough

say 3 things about someone you hate

when will it ever be enough for you? nothing can learn you. nothing will.

what’s one thing you’re proud of yourself for?

trying again.

fave season and why?

autumn. bugs are going away, coats are coming out. halloween and thanksgiving. the bus is going by again.

fave colour and why?

pink, green, and black. they're just nice to look at.

any nicknames?

i get called lee more often than not.

do you collect anything?

records, tarot decks, stuffed animals.

what do you do when you’re sad?

attempt to logicize if i can help it.

what’s one thing that never fails to make you happy/happier?

a live set for my current favorite artist

are you messy or organised?

messily organized

how many tabs do you have open right now?

one pinned, three unpinned

any hobbies?

writing, art, producing music

any pet peeves?

sloppy eaters

do you trust easily?

i'm working on trying to. i can be paranoid, but i don't want to be

are you an open book or do you have walls up?

i think i have more walls up than i realize

share a secret

i'm currently organizing with a stranger to have her steal a dog being neglected by someone in my neighborhood

fave song at the moment?

the only time (nin)

youtuber you’ve been obsessed with and why?

dollar tree dinners. the sheer culinary efficiency and humble kindness...

any bad habits?

worthless martyrdom.

[pandakong]

Didn't feel like reblogging so copy and paste survey / ask game

Thanks @maxwellshimbo for the tag as always :)

Are you named after anyone: Honestly pop culture figure at the time...

When was the last time you cried: It's too sad, I was worried about Roxy again last Monday, she ended up being better than it first appeared

Do you have kids: Everyone younger than me or shorter than me is my child, that includes my dog.

What sports do you play/have you played: I'm not even sure I played a sport all the way through and kept with the rules. Except like bowling which

Do you use sarcasm? Less and less, but a lot more in-person since it was very of my time.

What is the first thing you notice about people? Their face?

What's your eye color? Guess.

Scary movies or happy endings? Bittersweet tbh. Realistic or evolving so you have to fill in the blanks.

Any talents? stubborn enough to doodle, sketch, and draw everyday for... more than 8 years. It's jut a slowly building skill tho.

Where were you born? I too thought like, this is a security question, sooooo. Let's just say, around.

What are your hobbies? Chatting with my friends, video games but mostly silly ones or adventure games, watching too much TV, sudoku, word games, and music to a lesser extent.

Do you have any pets? The aforementioned Roxy, old old girl.

How tall are you? Shorter than most people online think.

Favorite subject in school? Before it was science... I guess band/music

Dream job: 😬 (less stress, don't have to take home, decent wage, accepting, well-instructed, mostly independent, not Evil)

Tagging everyone spiritually

[alsjeblieft-zeg]

116 of 2024

Statistical Are We Alike Survey x]

Created by hxcsingingsk8r

Do we have the same favorite animals? Check all that apply. Polar bears Cats Dogs Hamsters Hedgehogs

Do we have the same favorite bands? The Used Eyes Set To Kill Flyleaf [old singer, new singer, or both] Escape The Fate Halestorm A Day To Remember The Animal In Me The Pretty Reckless Paramore Ghost Town Icon For Hire Evanescence New Years Day Panic! At The Disco Three Days Grace

Okay still going with music, do you like the same genres as me? Alternative Rock Metalcore EDM Hard Rock

Moving on, do you have the same favorite colors as me? Aqua/Teal Purple Black Red

Do we have the same favorite foods? Italian food Indian food Greek food Mexican food

Do we have the same favorite drinks? Coke Mountain Dew [regular and/or Code Red] Arizona Iced Tea Chocolate milk Cherry Pepsi Mango juice Mango boba [snow] Mango smoothies [can you tell I like mango?] Vanilla shakes Cotton candy fraps from Starbucks x]

Do we have the same hobbies? Singing Playing piano Drawing Playing Sims [any version] Instagram x]

Do we have the same favorite movies? The Mask Burlesque Hairspray TRON Coraline Ex Machina Avatar Jumanji She's The Man Mean Girls Donnie Darko Edward Scissorhands Crybaby Dark Shadows Black Swan

Do we like the same names? Kylena Jayde Aria Rose Zakk Ryan Jaykob Skylar Kyeron [I don't have a middle name for it] xD

Do we like the same desserts? Flan Pumpkin Pie Carrot Cake Donuts Cupcakes

Do we like the same TV shows? Dexter The Walking Dead American Horror Story The Vampire Diaries Pretty Little Liars New Girl Full House and/or Fuller House Revenge Skins Lost

Do we like the same videogames? The Sims 3 and/or 4 Mariokart Rock Band Kingdom Hearts Pokemon

Do we have obsessions with the same things? Makeup Music Sugar Alternative style Night time Love Instagram Your phone Soda Comfy things

Do we have the same views? You are Jewish You are for gay marriage You are pro-choice You hate Donald Trump You are a very open-minded individual

Do we like the same animes? Blood+ Death Note Kimi Ni Todoke Highschool of the Dead Pokemon [I don't care if you think this isn't a real anime]

Do we like the same phone apps? Instagram Snapchat Duolingo Cooking Fever [the game] YouCam Makeup

Do we have the same style? You love wearing black You love clothing with studs You love animal prints You love clothing with lace You love black leather

Do we shop at the same stores? Rue 21 Hot Topic Kohls Tillys Zumiez

Hmmm what else can I ask? OH! Do we like the same books? Harry Potter series Twilight series The Host Immortals series The Hunger Games series The Giver [which I also forgot to include in movies] East Alosha series House of Night series

Last but not least, do we have these things in common? You are female You are twenty-three years old [in my case, almost] You are named Serena You sing in a band You work at a restaurant

[survey--s]

582.

Do you ever eat when you’re not particularly hungry? Yeah, I'm definitely prone to mindless eating lol. Have you ever gone up a mountain on a train? Yes, plenty of times in Switzerland and Austria.

What is your favourite hot beverage? Coffee.

Do you have an alter ego? Describe them: No. What was your imaginary friend called when you were a child? Samantha and Rosie.

Can you see the stars at night where you live? Yeah, as long there isn't too much cloud coverage. Where do you live? England. Is there anyone you just can’t get out of your head? No, not really. I used to really struggle with obsessive thoughts but nowadays it's not so much of a problem. Do you prefer cats or dogs? Why? I love both and I'm happy to live with both. They're just different and require different levels of input and give you different things back too. One thing you’d like to achieve this year: There isn't anything specific. Food: Are you adventurous or do you stick to what you know? I'm adventurous in that I'll try new stuff but I also know for sure that I won't like (for example) spicy food. Are you a hoarder of useless items? No, I'm definitely more of a minimalist. What colour do you think suits you best? Is this your favourite colour? Red apparently and no. I don't dislike it but I prefer other colours. Is there anything (out of the obvious) that makes you feel really ill? Eggs. Do you know both of your biological parents? Which one do you prefer? Yes. I love them both but I'm much closer to my mum. If you could intern anywhere, where would you choose? A zoo, or somewhere else where I could work with exotic animals. When was the last time you wrote so much your finger ached? Years ago. Do you store a lot of pictures you’ve taken that no one else has seen? I have loads of random photos on my phone, yeah. Do you prefer film or digital pictures? Digital. When was the last time you felt inferior? I genuinely couldn't tell you. Do you bump into things often? Christ, every single day lol. I am ridiculously clumsy. When did you first start using the internet? We first got it at home when I was about 11 in 1999 but it was so painfully slow lol. I don't think we really had it at school before then either but maybe we did. Were you ever a member of the Scouts / Girl Guides / Something similar? Nope. Do you prefer camping or staying in hotels? Hotels. Do you have any family traditions for certain holidays? Which? When I was growing up we always went for a walk on Christmas Day. My mum would cook dinner and I would always watch Mary Poppins and Top of the Pops. We'd have roast dinner and then mince pies and brandy cream for dessert. Nowadays we walk the dog together on Christmas Day but that's about it lol. Do you prefer lip balm that tastes or smells of something? Or maybe neither? I like ones that taste of something. What is something you think about yourself that nobody agrees with? I have no idea. I don't really ask people stuff like that. What about something people think of you that you don’t agree with? I have no idea. Do you enjoy flying? What’s your (least) favourite part? Not really, it's just a means to an end for me really. If I could fly first class I'd probably feel different but economy is just cramped and unpleasant. What colour are your eyes? Do you like them? Brown, and they're okay? lol.

Have you ever had braces? No. Name one of your hobbies: Taking surveys. How minty is your toothpaste? Minty enough that it lasts a few hours but not so strong that it burns my mouth. What design is on your calendar this year? I don't have a calendar. Do you collect anything? What? Wax melts. Do you keep a diary? What sort of things do you write in it? Just this, and I answer the questions I'm asked lol. Are you prone to headaches? Not really. Do you enjoy clowns / street performers or are they creepy to you? They definitely creep me out. What is your favourite type of video game? I love the Merge games online lol. I don't really play video games. Do you believe everything you hear or do you take it with a pinch of salt? I think anyone who believes everything they hear is pretty fucking stupid, to be quite honest. What’s the weather like where you live? (All year round, not today) It's really varied so you honestly can't generalise. This summer has been horrendous but last year it was absolutely roasting hot. Have you ever had a teacher who would just babble about nothing? Yeah, my history teacher lol. Do you ever look at a word and think that it looks odd? Sure, especially when I have to use the same word over and over. Do you prefer getting news online, from a paper or from the TV? Online, just because it's more convenient. The shoes you wear most often: What do they look like? They're black slip-ons. When was the last time you climbed a tree? I can't remember. Did you enjoy playing Hop Scotch when you were younger? Yeah, all the time. Are you good at keeping your house clean? Yeah, I hate living in a mess and I always make sure my house is neat and well put together. Can you play any instruments? Yeah.

Do you prefer chocolate or fruity flavoured candy? It depends on my mood.

[elaichoi]

tw: bit of discussion on mental health [diagnoses]; talks of depression/major depressive disorder, [social] anxiety, panic disorder, mention of agoraphobia, god idek tbh im sorry

YES LOL THEY WERE ANNOYING TO DO BUT $5 GIFTCARDS N SHIT ^_^ nooo i almost never did the surveys cus i get random emails and thats annoying and they also take forever,, so i only did the ones where u have to download whatever app (usually a game) they tell u to, use it for x amt of seconds/minutes (i forget) and u go back to the app and it gives u points or whatever that u redeem for giftcards! that's how i got superimpose actually 😭 edit tutorial accs would promote their code for that app/site (i don't remember what its called im not gatekeeping i swear) bc using their code gives both u and them extra points,,, and i wanted superimpose so i gave it a try and well what do u know 🥰🥰

my mental health story is kind of long and redundant and not that exciting so i shall spare u,,, well actually i rewrote this 383299 times bc i ended up trauma dumping i think... so um basics i got depressed my freshman yr of highschool, time skip- got diagnosed w depression, generalized anxiety disorder & agoraphobia, which the agoraphobia turned to be a misdiagnosis and i went somewhere else and got rediagnosed w panic disorder. child of a generational trauma that my asian parents do not think exist🫶 i alr knew a lot (90%) of my anxiety was social anxiety but i did not receive that diagnosis until this year. i lost my panic disorder diagnosis yay! andddd also got a diagnosis for major depressive disorder which was kind of an 'ohhhh' moment for me bc a lot of times i felt like antidepressants made me a lot better i felt cured lmfao i was hardly ever depressed,, except i sometimes get depressive episodes and im still struggling w the symptoms of depression that is not depression itself...if that makes sense...those symptoms being memory issues!! quick act surprised!! focus issues, i procrastinate a lot now.... which is important bc before all of this i was a very.. is high-functioning the right term? i genuinely dk if that's a term im supposed to be using,, but basically i was like top of the class student, always on-time and organized, never procrastinated, always remembered everything, i guess kinda type A personality lmao,,,, and now i am not 😃

im probably forgetting some other key stuffs but its okie,,,,, probably irrelevant but ive always been a fairytale hopeless romantic except a dumb long-term relationship got thrown into the middle and peak of my mental health mess (who told me that was a good idea 👺) has made me v antiromantic if u will 💀💀 i girlbossed myself into thinking im wise emotionally but i honestly am v v naive and sensitive and i will be a crybaby if snri's allow me to at that moment 👍

i used to be v smart but im kinda v dumb now but im also kinda trying to get back up again bc i feel? like im slowly improving in general? idk tbh,,, idk what im doing 😁

erm im v sorry this was very mentally unseggsy of me 😗 can u tell i have no concept of oversharing im so sorry for clogging your feed, qiwis followers pls forgive 🙇‍♀️

wbu? same question u asked me on mental health n cognitive functions ^^ only if ur comfortable answering ofc!

i think u could do it if u rlly wanted to, again u talent/hobby vacuum 👺 /j maybe like for blog milestone or something would be an excuse for a one-time video edit then you wouldn't have to continue if u don't want to ? hmm

whenever i didn't have ideas i would like choose a specific edit i rlly liked and use the same audio and like ""recreate"" it (not to post, its just for me & practice purposes lol). like the editor wouldve already split the audio for transitions and stuff so you can split your audio according to the transitions in their edit and add ur own clips over top. u can try to imitate their transitions or do ur own or whatever. i like doing that to practice bc it gives me somewhere to start! idk that's what worked for me personally,, just an idea for if u ever feel up for it no pressure!!

i don't think i could get into the video editing scene again bc i would want to progress to be a good editor and be confident ab my edits but capcut makes me insecure lol bc if everybody can do it then why should i take the time to grow and progress 😗 (that makes me sound like a pick me but again.. its similar to like ai replacing real working humans yk..😭😭)

my relationship ramble thingy ^ means that i also i love angst and making myself cry 😍😍🫦🫰 crack anything is 1000% your brand ‼️

omg yea real life inspo for ur reincanation aus ☺️ ehehe BUT YAY I LOOK FORWARD TO UR REPLIES SM HAVE UR NOTIFS ON LOLL i love talking to u! <3 consentual kisses! ^_^

wait....did we get engaged and/or married here,,,,,,,, on ur nsfw acct FJDJSK😭💀

oh my god i never tried that but i think there were some apps fr that were like ah yes get this free version and then watch a few ads and get one or two watermark free edits per day. BROOO THSI BRINGS BACK SO SO SO MANY MEMORIES!! (i think i rarely did that bc i was one lazy mf also vindictive so i did what i could to work with free apps)

life really tossed you like a salad damn baby I'm sorry you had to go through all that LIKE YOU COULDN'T CATCH A BREAK oh my god bro it seems like you kinda burned out? if that makes sense? because im sure a lot of things were expected of you ( asian parents here too also BRO THEY DONT think trauma EXISTS!) im glad you're getting better bit by bit HERE'S TO GETTING EVEN BETTER IN THE UPCOMING DAYS!!! we will kick mental illness's ass together lmao!

tbh third world country so never really got diagnosed properly but like most of my time i was suffering from. depression i was gaslit into thinking I'm just being whiny and uts not depression and because of this i developed repressive emotions where NOW it's my own turn where i refuse to acknowledge any kind of shit that happened to me like theres a sense of embarrassment where i can't like outright say like yeah this, and this happened to me because I don't anyone's "pity" and some huge ass shit happened to my family which made me haha something i cant say on here but im like over that now ( lol i need to go therapist for this) but yeah OH and I get the depressive episodes because i get that too oh my god like for weeks but my best friend once gave me, like just feel the emotions and let it pass like sure it will feel like a tractor running u over but it will get over and then one day you will take that shower and brush ur hair and feel a lil better!!!!

ooh but LIKE TUMBLR video platform sucks ass but i really like the idea omg i will think it through!!!

BRO NO WAY CAUSE I DID THAT TOO BUT LIKE WITH edits lmao but you're so freaking TALENTED DO YOU KNOW THAT?! i will have to try it I think with all thr tiktok edit trends now it's become easier to do those things i actualky tried to do some of it for my friends bday and it's coming up again so ill have to try!!!

okay but even if capcut exists which I think in a way is kind of good for people who loved editing but couldn't edit bc they couldn't work with, or afford fancy softwares yk but you can't deny the polishness that alight motion or vs will give you. you can't outdo the doer 💅🏼💅🏼 so you really should give it a try!!

you're SO SWEET I LOOK FORWARD SM TO YOUR ANONS TOO LIKE I ONLY COME HERE TO CHECK FOR YOUR ANONS LMAO i love talking to you too 🤭🤭

we're already married,, yes on nsfw kinda on theme don't you think so??

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Let me tell you my story: I first found out about Avakin Life when a friend of mine told it was a good place to meet cool people that share my interests, do the same hobbies, and make the same stuff online. I was initially very skeptical, but after a little bit of convincing from my friend, I reluctantly installed the app on one of my first smartphones.

 I jumped into my first room, and noticed my whole look was very barebones and minimalistic. I stood out from the crowd, and not in a good way. It was why I was too shy to add any permanent contacts and get together with the people I liked. This made getting xp and leveling a sort of a catch 22 in that I couldn’t get the clothes that I wanted, and I couldn’t get the pets I wanted, and almost nobody wanted to add me. I asked my friend on what I should do, and he told me to add him as a friend, and we could grind out the xp to get avacoins together.

 I suspected that that was his reason for trying to convince me in the first place, but I went along with it and we started making some progress. I realized how fun the game could be and started interacting with more and more people, but having a limited wardrobe didn’t let me go to some particular events since I didn’t have a matching outfit. And speaking of limited, there were events that had unique clothes that I really wanted, but couldn’t get on time. This led me down a rabbit hole and I stared at YouTube videos for days on end trying to find an Avakin Life generator, regardless of whether it would be a mod or custom apk file. Unfortunately, the only things I was able to find were either scams that claimed to enable your Avakin Life account to receive unlimited avacoins, or just purely malicious programs.

 But, I was able to make a huge breakthrough recently and this is the reason why I decided to make this video and share it with you guys and gals. If you’re looking to how to hack Avakin Life and use the cheat to generate diamonds and all other resources you might want to get, you’ve come to the right place. I also did a bit of digging, and for this Avakin Life hack to work on either Android or iOS, you will not need to mod your apk file, since everything is done server-side.

 If you want to read on, I can explain the process to you. You first need to go onto the website that you can see being used in the video. After a simple read-through, you need to turn on the security encryption for your own sake. Personally, I haven’t tried to use the free avacoins tool without turning on the encryption, since it may jeopardize my account, so I don’t want to risk it one bit.

 After that, you only need to type in your info and login details and select the package that you want to get. I recommend starting out with a mid-size offer, but since I’ve already done it quite a few times, I will have chosen the biggest package just for comfort’s sake. Now, the thing to remember is that due to this being completed between the website’s and the game’s servers, it’s not a foolproof way of getting unlimited resources, and you might want to retry it a couple of times just to make sure. Also, remember that this sort of process also takes a bit of time, so if you do everything correctly, you might want to wait a couple of minutes until everything syncs up. These Avakin Life cheats for coins and diamonds are all a bunch of zeroes and ones on the servers, and they can be modified with a bit of digital sleight of hand.

 You also have to remember that sometimes, you will need to do some additional steps depending on your device, your ID and all of that, but that is mostly explained in the video. That’s the overall gist of it, but you should be able to go through the entire process without too much trouble.

 Lastly, remember that we’re all a community here, and we all want to push each other towards greater heights and climbs. So, if you do have any questions, share costume ideas, or need help getting this Avakin Life hack to work correctly, hit me with a comment down below and I will try to help you out as much as possible. If, for some reason, I’m not able to, try to discuss it between yourselves and I will jump in if I can when I get a spare moment.

 I know that the Halloween event just ended recently, so I want to hear your ideas on what you decided to wear for the event. And let’s not forget that we’ve also got Thanksgiving right around the corner, with Christmas just after it. I’m sure that there will be a lot of new trinkets, petkins, clothes, and accessories for you to get, and if you’re a completionist like me, you’re going to want to get them all, which is why this Avakin Life generator is a crucial tool for you to get.