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sotwk · 11 months ago

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Hi, Anon who asked about Celebrian here! Thank you for your great answer.

I just loved loved loved your HCs so much it made me sob, fr my 3-year-old sister offered me chocolate because she saw me crying (no I’m not that young we are just like elves: born one generation apart from each other).

Toddlers cuteness and generosity aside, I love that the two women have a sisterhood-type of friendship, me and my best friend are just the same, although not related at all but in Tolkien everyone is basically related to one another and we like it that way. (“Confusingly complex family tree” As you rightly said)

Also I do love your depiction of young!Legolas because he reminds me of my little sister and it’s such a joy to have her around and that is true for him too.

Not relevant to the topic discussed, the idea of Thranduil being jealous of poor Lindir is hilarious, and it absolutely MAKE SENSE. There is a reason he became a fan favorite over the years so I absolutely want to see how that will play out and maybe what his reaction to the knowledge that a prince, a Sindar of Doriath, thinks of him as competition. Hilarious but also true, i dare say.

One last thing: If I remember correctly, but feel free to correct me if I’m wrong, Maereth has/had a brother or a sister? Im not so sure of this, I think in The Crown you mention a nephew of the elvenqueen. But I didn’t see them mentioned when you posted about her genealogy. Im probably misremembering or it’s something I made up based on your HCs.

Now I stop ranting. Have a nice weekend! Byeee <3

my 3-year-old sister offered me chocolate because she saw me crying

I'm sorry for the tears, but I hope it was a cathartic cry! *hug* I'm glad the friendship between the two Elf-Queens (Celebrian is a Queen in my mind, titles be damned!) moved you so much.

Toddlers are so amazingly compassionate! My husband woke with lower back aches this morning and our 4-year-old seriously tried to give him a massage. XD You and your little sister sound very sweet!

the idea of Thranduil being jealous of poor Lindir is hilarious, and it absolutely MAKE SENSE.

I have such a soft spot for Lindir! He's just that shy, slightly awkward and nerdy guy who might get overlooked for being quiet, but he's actually a hottie who's unaware of his own sex-appeal. So yeah. Even though he and Maereth's friendship stays entirely platonic, stew on that for a while, Thranduil.

Maereth has/had a brother or a sister? Im not so sure of this, I think in The Crown you mention a nephew of the elvenqueen.

I'm gonna give you a virtual trophy for being the first one to notice this and bring it up with me! I've been dropping mentions of Maereth's nephew/the Thranduilions' cousin in multiple hc posts and fics now! Here are just a few of those sources:

The Crown

Greenleaf's Day Out, Chapter 5

Yuletide in the Elvenking's Realm, Day 5: Five Golden Rings

SotWK OC: Olondir, Master Craftsman of the Woodland Realm

Lord Olondir (oc) is the son and only child of Maereth's brother, Calinondo (oc). Although he died fighting in the War of the Last Alliance, Calinondo is a significant character in the SotWK AU because he became heir to the knowledge and craft of the great Celebrimbor, his uncle and mentor. (Remember that Maereth's grandfather is Maglor, which makes Maereth's mother and Celebrimbor first cousins--they were very close with each other.)

Calinondo passed on everything he knew to his son, so that by the Third Age, Olondir was named the Master Craftsman of the Woodland Realm. Apart from helping craft the Elvenking's famous crown, he was responsible for other creations such as the faemir/calarsil mentioned in "Greenleaf's Day Out". Most of the armour and weaponry used by Mirkwood's soldiers in the Third Age, as you see in BotFA, was also designed by him (alongside Mirion, who was a Master Bladesmith). These Noldorin craftsmen were responsible for upgrading the inferior armour and weapons that contributed to the Silvans' defeat at the War of the Last Alliance. In essence, the fact that Noldorin craftsmanship lived on in Thranduil's family helped Mirkwood survive Sauron's onslaughts.

Because I've been sharing fancasts right and left, here is my fancast for Olondir, nephew of the Elvenqueen: Jake Gyllenhaal.

Olondir is the the only Elf in the Woodland Realm who can grow a full beard in his Second Cycle. Remember whom else he descended directly from? Mahtan, the great smith of Valinor and father of Nerdanel! Olondir keeps his beard to honor that part of his heritage, which he is most proud of.

Side note: I have a creator's crush on Olondir. He's almost like a 6th Thranduilion Prince, and his character is quite sexy. He's got the Fëanorean edge to him. Although he's not super developed in my head yet, I would love to write more about him someday! XD

By the way, Maereth actually had three older brothers; her two eldest brothers were twins: Surlírë and Vëalírë, but they died in the War of Wrath alongside their father Eärondir, so sadly Maereth barely knew them. But boys and twins ran strong in their family, just as in Fëanor's.

Anywaaaaay, thank YOU for letting me ramble on this long again! XD I love you so much for geeking out about my OCs with me, Anon! I'm gonna have to write this down in a proper and more thorough post later on, but it felt really good to share this much!

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starcurtain · 3 months ago

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I do agree with all the stuff you said in your body language post about aventurine, but there was an instance in 2.3 where he was standing right next to boothill when you meet with him and boothill, and obviously boothill isn't close to aventurine at all. Do you think this is an exception just because they were in the same room together and devs had to make them stand together so trailblazer could converse w/ them both?

I think it's just because they're not actually in the same room together.

In 2.3, Aventurine showed up only as a hologram. He's probably in his own room alone, actually. And I'm not sure that he could walk away as hologram, even if he wanted to. 😂

That said, it isn't that he never has any up-close conversations; it's just that he has way less of them than other characters do.

As another aside, I also think that Boothill is the kind of person who would absolutely go "The heck you tryin' to talk to me from the other side of the room for?!" And he would just walk right up on Aventurine with zero hesitation.

The space bubble does not exist for him lolol.

#honkai star rail #aventurine #boothill #listen do I love Ratiorine with all my heart?#yes #but do I also have a secret desire to see Aventurine and Boothill #go full Bonnie and Cylde on Oswaldo Schneider?#also yes #Boothill strikes me as the kind of person #who always stands like one inch too close to people #it's not enough to motivate you to step away #but just enough for you to think #“Ugh my personal space!!”#lolol #also just as a heads up #I have a big backlog of inbox messages currently #working to answer a few each day #!!

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ahalliance · 1 month ago

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how do i turn qantoine’s spontaneous marriage proposal to qetoiles into evidence of his early-days fear of qfrench drifing away and keeping secrets from one another

#the conversation takes place in antoine’s vod: L’ANNIVERSAIRE DE TALLULAH at 41 mins ish #like . okay . its such a fucking crazy moment to me that still lives in my head bc it’s a a joke . but it’s also not #he asks etoiles directly after spiderbit wedding . ‘don’t you want to get married?’#after it gets mentioned*#etoiles turns him down bc he ‘doesn’t have time to fuck [he] needs to kill everyone’#and antoine says ‘well but— just a marriage’ like it’s the act itself that is the most important to him not anything that could come with it #the confirmation of partnership . of having someone to rely on . something that feels to him maybe more certain and solid than the #friendships antoine had at that point . like if he felt things were slipping and he was being left behind he wanted the certainty of #something like a marriage that is traditionally considered More important and certain .#and i think the end of their conversation is notable in how antoine brings up the notion of betrayal — he getting betrayed by others and how #he’s fed up with it . after etoiles says no to the marriage (though specifying that he’s gonna think about it) antoine brings the whole #betrayal thing up after a pause . he doesn’t necessarily consider etoiles as having betrayed him but it’s that lack of certainty #certainty that etoiles has refused to give him that makes him start to open up about how he’s tired of people promising him things (or #seeming to promise him things) only to leave him out and in the dark . and there’s an insecurity there that really shines if you take this #moment into consideration with the Larger Shifting his character is going through .#like tldr ; qantoine has begun to realise that his friends are starting to form deeper bonds with other people and thus keep secrets with #them which to him means leaving him behind . taking notice of this he brings this up to his friends in . not exactly direct ways . he #talks about how he doesn’t like secret keeping but doesn’t seem to push much further and he also tries to remedy the issue #of feeling left behind by doing shit as discussed above ^ however on account of the InHuman i’m not sure he understands what he’s doing very #well . and as we know antoine doesn’t make much progress and ends up retreating into himself and beginning to keep his own secrets . to do #his own shady shit . to work in the shadows and not be honest with any of his friends either . to hold them at arm’s length despite how much #he still cares . the only person he puts his full trust into anymore is pomme . not ayp who he deems too underhanded . not bagz who he sees #as having started the whole ‘secret keeping’ stuff in the first place . and not etoiles who’s actively going down a path with the codes and #resistance that he cannot follow #that was NOT a short tldr . why the fuck am i writing dissertation length tags about MINECRAFT BLOCKS #god whatever who cares i get joy out of this thats what matters #anw if you read this far holy shit ur insane . thank you #i am going to bed now godbless !#jay rambles #qfrench.posting

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lynxfrost13 · 3 months ago

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Do you guys think Holt and Storch Sieben ever hatefucked

#I think they have a complicated relationship I’ve been pondering it #bc Holt very much does hate her before the events of the Koliblunt force trauma incident #her initial dislike of Sieben comes from a bad first impression when Sieben was fresh meat on sierpinski (Holt is olddd)#she was petty about it but willing to deal with it to a certain point #but as her higher up sieben pushed her buttons one too many times early on #which is bad you WANT the senior medical EULR on your side in case of emergency!!!#i do think they’ve spent a lot of time together for work related reasons #they become not quite friends not quite enemies?? but a secret weird cold thing full of regret maybe #this partially has to do with how I characterize present day sieben bc yeah she’s a Storch and they are prone to temper tantrums especially #if not trained correctly #but Sieben’s basically one of the highest ranking units at sierpinski if I remember correctly #and you don’t get there without some degree of level headedness + when talking to her she’s not necessarily warm and fuzzy #but she also didn’t seem like a young volatile Storch to me #at least not anymore #I think about sieben a lot but anyways #roundabout way of saying that when Holt did fall ill with the infection it wasn’t ignored by sieben #Holt was visited by her once alone when her vision started fading and they had a moment.#a reconciliation? an attempt on sieben’s part to make things right before the inevitable?? or just wanting to check on her? who knows #I certainly don’t #holt #thanks for listening to the ramble I’m attempting to blorbo post more #and this has been rotating in my head for weeks #figured I’d get it out #blorbo tag

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minnaci · 3 months ago

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also i came here to say that. jy girlies n boys. i get it. i get it so much. the most recent animated short has me terribly fucking endeared. his lil sleepy groans??? sleeping in fetal position???? the lil kitty licking his face??????? the satisfied sigh after his dimsum breakfast???????????? oh my GOD

#thinkmin!#im not romantically or sexually attracted to him but a secret third thing (<- wants to cuddle with him just a little)#bashing my head against the wall. i talk big game abt liking evil morally corrupt characters #and then i get captivated by this fucking. 30sec clip of a guy doing domestic things. god.#grits my teeth. i guess. i GUESS. i get why ppl would wanna be his househusband. not me tho. i wouldn't want that. not at all...#OUGH #more importantly tho FEI.XIAO IS SO COOL SHE'S SO JIEJIE!!!!#im flirting with her by asking her to compare hand sizes and she's laughing at me full bellied and grabbing my hand #and telling me that if i wanted to hold her hand then i should just say so bc it's more efficient and she wants it too #hyv..... the one thing abt hyv is that they draw such beautiful women..... fei.xiao jiejie.... please.... let's get food together....

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rearranging-deck-chairs · 11 months ago

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the thing with doctor who i think is that it gets better the more you know. maybe this is true of all writing but i only know doctor who so we'll focus on that. but i think it gets better the more you know this is why my fic is not very good. i dont know many things. i think if you have a background in like, just any field you can use you can make your doctor who stories more interesting. like linguistics maths physics and music are things that come to mind for me that i would like to know to make my doctor who stories more interesting but i think it can work with, like, almost anything. biology stuff also works well adds a lot. sociology stuff history. if you know how to sew really well or youve worked in meat factories. just, if you have deep knowledge about something this will enrich your doctor who stories (again, might be true for literally every writing)

but also things you can know that are just lived and not books. like i said with that post about different countries' doctor whos, every country would bring its own history and values and perspective to the stories. but also like for example the class stuff or the queer stuff you see with rtds stories like anything a writer Knows will make their stories more interesting

and thats why doctor who could literally be so good If They Diversified Their Fucking Staff. in every sense of the word. you need disabled people, trans people, racialised people, people with different religions but you need people who know other things than writing too! which i get is difficult because theyre mostly working in their fields and not writing but like there are writers who are not or have not only ever just been writers. or just get writers with some weird fucking hobbies!

even in the most basic way even if you keep your entire show white christian able-bodied man, if you have more of those you will have better stories. it will still suck! but like, less than if you only have 1 guy writing right? thats not a novel concept artists know this writers know this thats why they work together. and i get that making tv is very complex and theres a lot of interests and a lot of choices being made that arent even to do with the stories but i find it so frustrating to think about how good doctor who could be if they let other people in to put their knowledge and their perspective in the stories

#and not just in the writing but in Every Department Obviously #i just dotn know how television is made so i dont know. like. what those are #the secret good disabled trans decolonialist doctor who that lives in my head man #like you know that feeling when an artist like...........Gets a certain theme or smth #like Knows what to do with it bc they have a certain own experience or knowledge #like when an artist truly fucking knows what theyre doing #you know that feeling? when youre like this SAYS something abt the theme/trope/idea/whatevs #you know?#doctor who is so full of unused potential #i feel like we're spinning our wheels a little bit #and maybe others feel that too bc showrunners keep being like WE NEED NEW SHOCK BIG NEW #but like. youre not gonna get that with the same old perspectives!#for truly new good refreshing you need some new good refreshing people on the mic #anyway. just. frustrates me #10 to the master but it's me to doctor who the show: you could be so much more!#like 13 and 15 are fun right? with the idk new outfit and the rwandan proverb on the sonic. fucks. but #to use rtds own words. ridiculous craven feeble gesture also a little bit. i want like. substantially good stories #i want to feel like the writer knows what theyre talking about you know?#you know that feeling #anyway #you get what im saying #the secret good doctor who that lives in my head man #except. it doesnt live in my head. bc it lives in many otherp eoples head. by definition #but sometimes i read like fic by friends who fucking Know things and im like damn #damn!!!!! doctor who could be so much better!!!!!!#i also think when youre a writer whos only a writer theres the risk of chasing your own tail a bit #in that th elonger youre a writer the more you only start writing about writing bc thats what you Know #i think thats a risk #also not a novel concept pretty sure professional writers are aware of that one gfhkjghgjg theyre not stupid

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happyk44 · 1 year ago

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Vampire Nico, werewolf Jason and selkie Percy.

#happy talks pjo #maybe i'll make this into a bigger thing w/ everybody else later #but i was thinking if nico is a vampire and jason is a werewolf what would percy be? a mermaid? but i didn't like #bc mermaid is too obvious (like jason being a werewolf isn't lmao) then selkie came to mind! and i like it #one of my favourite movies growing up was this irish film called roan inish (that might just be the shorthand i used). it was about a selki #oh just looked it up full name is: the secret of roan inish #cool i got it right considering i haven't watch it in over a decade but it was one of my fave movies #also made me speak in an irish accent in my head for hours after watch lmao #nico di angelo #percy jackson #jason grace

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midnightcaptions · 1 year ago

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BiG AU dumbassery on this fine morning

I need to remember how to draw people ahaahhaahhaa

#BiG AU is a secret young drakgo fanfic thats full of too much smut that lives in my head rent free #no i wont be posting it publicly ever #drakgo #fanart #....to be clear is a spin off of BiG but with a few changes (Shego isnt like 15 for starters)#i failed at the bulky goggles guh

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emdotcom · 3 months ago

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Tbh, can't believe I'm cutting ties with Fnaf before Batim.

#em.txt #negative #all thr fnaf stuff that's come outta my rbs since the anniversary have just been queued. my queue is huge it takes a bit #anyways #bendy has given me pounds of grief & a lot of it is my fault for like. falling in love with a proof lf concept #& not waiting for the game to come out in full & rushing in to each chapter looking for hints #to a conclusion i made up in my mind & was never ever coming. the ending to game one is quite trash #& while the sequel tries to make the ending in 1 worthwhile it's too little too late #because while a sequel can recontectualize its prequel it cannot erase how it was when it first was released #yeah so like. i figured between how shit the studio heads were & how I didn't like the first game ot the second game #or really the spinoff which i played i am like the only bendy fan i know that played that thing #& I'm not like. super stoked for any of the 3 games they teased in secrets of the machine #which i think is fine btw secrets of the machine is okay but i refuse to judge it as a game because it's an advertisement #i think some of the secrets in that game like the poster one are stupid but most of it is fine kinda cool. glad they got to reuse #all those assets from previous games & also cameo the car from the mobile game #ANYWAYS i figured all this would pile up to mean i would cut off batim. but I haven't. when the next games come out i will #probably at least check out a playthrough maybe play them myself if they seem interesting #meanwhile. like. the fnaf 10th anniversary happened #they dropped a sequel to help wanted. they dropped 2 more fnaf games. & I don't give a shiiiiittt #i woke up the day after the anniversary & realized like. I don't like the games. I don't give a fuck about the books.#the movie has practical effects & was cute but nothing i will think about deeply. the lore is a industrial sized dumpster fire #I don't like the community i only play ONE fan game & i just don't care about this series that used to eat my brain whole on the daily #so i gave it a month. maybe this was just a depressive spike. but no it seems like something shifted in my brain permanently #I don't like fnaf anymore which sucks #but what sucks more is i still like this other piece of shit that has easily given me worse times

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theinfinitedivides · 11 months ago

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whenever you tag a post with your 'secret project' tag it makes me smile! it's going to be a banger

ahhhhh, tysm!!!!! it's actually an anthology of things i've been working on seriously for close to four years (had the nebulous idea for an additional four years before that) that is (somehow) still in the plotting stage. the aesthetics are there the vibes are there the general direction is there but word count? nada i'm starting to think it should be a film/game project, asfjdgjnlifhfnlwwmpjfmq

#inbox #q: tsupertsundere #when this fits the vibe for the secret project that you're working on but don't want to talk about on tumblr.com #a prime example of having bitten off more than you can chew............. i have two works that have branched #off from the original anthology into their own full fledged WIPs with character names and settings and everything. again no word count #just the knowledge of it in my head rip #originally the reason i gave it that tag was bc it was fresh off of a very traumatizing experience in the writeblr side of this hellsite #and i did not want to talk about it to anyone. did not want them asking questions did not want them accusing me of sh*t #they didn't know about nothing. now it's snowballed and i'm more open to people who are curious but the tag stuck and i can't #get rid of it now it works too well #if you ask nicely i will post the Pinterest link. key word is nicely bc i still guard that sh*t over there with my life

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girlscience · 1 year ago

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girl help I am having ideas above my skill level again

#oh sure. this ttrpg idea I have in my head would SLAP #there is no way I am going to do it as amazing as I am thinking in my head though #yes yes brain. the full cinematic trailers are nice. that will not be how it plays out tho #also I gave myself a deadline of a month and I have approximately a billion other things I need to get done in that time too #what am I doing to myself lmao #IT COULD BE SO COOL THO #if you want details feel free to ask because I do want to talk about it #but I also know some the group this is for follow me 👀 and I am not going to give you my secrets yet

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hauntingblue · 11 months ago

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Fucking crocodile!!!!! YEAAAAHHHH!!!!

#fucking soru and the like. die #-luffy rn actually #hancock could just turn the admirals into stone and win. like she is that girl #in my head she is head full of thought of luffy and she just starts throwing hands (or legs) instinctively #well nvm maybe she couldnt because they resist her charms. whatever......#OMG A SECRET BOAT #but oars just sitting there... i would be smashing marines left and right.... but i guess im just built different #these bitches have been under the sea for like an hour #the aim on these cannons are abismal. like damn #well goodbye helmeppo goodbye koby they were in there right #ON HIS FACE???? OMG OARS #shirohige i need you to do quick work of the admirals and let luffy save ace letsgo come on #he doesnt look too good....#GARP DO NOT STEP IN #THERE IS A LINE AND ITS RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU. DO. NOT. TOUCH IT.#talking tag #watching one piece #episide 475

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qqchurch · 1 year ago

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pain

#the other secret panel is the realization that ive run out of time doing everything else #so now it just means 'ill do it tomorrow instead'#and restart the loop #qq posts #or my head is just too full of ideas with nothing actionable...

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avidlylivid · 1 year ago

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so many swag epic awesome tmnt iterations (/gen /pos) and then I realise I Have Not Solidified Mine

anyways need to actually make the au premise other than random fun facts about them and their dynamics then come up with a name and then :3 the guys !!!

#i rant about them often but only occasionally realise that Ah. no one can hear the thoughts. i gotta actually make them #theyre in my head interacting constantly why do i never tell anyone about them #anyways so little bit about the iteration (if anyone's interested)#love when the turtles can just do mystic stuff for whatever reason (big plot in rise but also in 12. heard that 03 has magic stuff too)#so there's some magic/potions/light witchcraft/alchemy #but also a lot of crappy old tech frankensteined together. because i couldnt decide on a specific time that it's set in #because i love 90s/00s/10s stuff (victim to nostalgia. i am not ashamed) and my don is messy as hell #some of tbe characters will focus on specific pop culture from certain eras (mondo the y2k king)#but mostly you just need to know that the iteration is messy as hell. and i love it for that :]]#i have a secret little thing that ive planned on using in like a game someday but will beta with this iteration #not in full though because you know. games are interactive and making the iteration interactive in the same would isnt possible #i guess i could make a small 'choose your own adventure' site but that may be too much #who knows. just need to make sure im not overzealous. again. cant have too many big undertakings or burnout for things i love will happen :[#viv.txt

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cuntycassandra · 1 year ago

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Already thinking about not having my older brother at my goodbye dinner

#thinking about last night how he made me cry over a piece of recycling #and how he outed me to my little brother with zero shame #and threaten to bash my head into the wall to his friend with me in earshot #and purposefully spilled other secrets to my little brother knowing full well my little brother idolises him and would ask how high #if he said jump #and how he’s insulting me because my mom is stressed about my university situation when he’s the whole reason she has to take sleep meds #because she’s up so late worrying about him and his blatant drug addiction #and he can talk to me normally. forgetting we had a huge fight at the beginning of the week. but when I try to he starts screaming at me #and yeah I’m no Angel and I said things too but I said things in retaliation #not just to instigate #oh and did I mention this was all this week #and yes this is the same older brother I used to be super close #with #it’s fun how people you’ve known your whole life. literally. can still horrifically surprise you

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crandberrysaucewithpulp · 16 days ago

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did he think we were all going to be okay after today or is he completely oblivious to what he’s done

#yea it’s him again #miles. MILES!! who else would do such a thing #out here being secretive abt merch #the flipping turtle on the head pic.. I SOBBED FOR TWENTY MONTHS.#criminal its criminal #i say it all the time but the hair .#i whispered it to him ‘keep the hair’ in a lucid vision and so he delivered #why is he so liquid when he’s performing #moving like a salted worm #and then like a flirty leaf #and the full body swing alongside the yank of the whammy..#and the setlist of my dreams #always delightfully fascinated by the wingspan #i’ve got too many thoughts #good luck coping

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