#my hallucinations are getting worse 😵‍💫

[lansolot]

ough. rough night

[wintersera]

Can you make a fic about vampire!karina? Her fangs in supernova mv got me dizzy😵‍💫

not so much of a fic but maybe a short little imagine/drabble thingy? cause yk yuh eslayyy

tw: blood 😰

anyways she looks like a little brat here it’s actually driving me a little insane CAUSE HOW DOES SHE LOOK SO CUTE WHEN SHES WREAKING HAVOC IN THE STREETS (and in the sheets ifykwim)😭

the typa vampire girlie to be so desperate to feed on reader bc shes so pretty and shes so so hungry ;;

lets say one day you woke up in the middle of the damn night, had a singular thought- the thought being explore the forest, at what? 2am. what a great idea 😭

so you prepared essentials in a backpack; some food, water bottle, a torch, lighter, batteries and thats about it.

you weren’t too big of a believer in the supernatural, you thought the concept of it was cool yk, warewolves and vampires- all that interesting stuff that you’d see in movies and books. obviously all that stuff was fake, so really, coming across a vampire wasn’t on your list of ‘what to do and encounter at a forest’. and now you’re aimlessly wondering around in the butt fuck of nowhere ignoring the obvious signs as to why your ass should NAWT be in the fucksss forest at this ungodly hour. you could’ve chosen any other time but naaurrr,,,

anyways, as you were strolling around without a care in the world, you heard the snap of a twig and something rustling around in the bushes. it could be a bear, or a man… the idea of that was worse by tenfold.

was the right option run back home and go back to sleep, yes! did you do it? NO, you know what you did? move towards the bushes… any reasoning? “what if its a cat? the cat distribution system could be in my favour today” :]

WRONG.

out from the bushes came a pretty tall girl. she bared her teeth at you, a clear warning so you could back up before anything bad happened. yet you stood there observing her instead. ngl you were pretty terrified none the less, pretty girl with sharp fangs that could rip through your skin. you were convinced she wasn’t real, maybe she was a hallucination??? idk bro maybe you were on shrooms or something.

“what are you doing here all alone in the woods pretty girl?”

tbh you were pretty shocked to the point of not being able to talk, so you stood there.

“aww too scared to speak? that’s okay, come with me” she grabbed your hand, grip pretty tight since she didn’t know how strong she really was. now all of a sudden you’re in an empty cabin log “dont be alarmed but… im hungry- can i get a bite? just a little. i promise i’ll only drink a little” you thought this was a big ass lie but let her bite you :( she’s so hungry.

her sharp fangs pierce into your neck, moaning at how good you taste. she couldn’t help but to embrace you as she was savouring your blood. the pain only lasted for a mere second before your body was engulfed in warmth, you thought that maybe you were gonna pass out but you were fine. i guess she figured out how nervous you were, your body tense and everything?!?2)2! she pulled back “i’m sorry did it hurt too much? it’s okay i can make it feel better” kissing your neck and whispering how happy you made her “i’ll return the favour” trailing bloody kisses from your neck down, to your collarbone and further down. ngl you thought it was pretty hot at how messy and how inexperienced she was at this. her hands would be all over you at first, on your tits mostly playing with them through you clothes “feel any good…? c-can i still taste you?” you nod hesitantly, but it did feel good though!

maybe because you were her first victim, she didn’t know what in the hells she was doing :,( obviously as a new vampire spawn she was trying her very best to make you feel good after she fed off of you. ripping your clothes off with ease, she wasted no time :] she made sure that every inch or your body felt good— leaving bloody stains wherver she kissed you, yes shes a messy eater 😭 the blood is all over her mouth leave her be-

after a long time of being kissed and having your boobs played with, she finally takes off your panties- soaked ofc! and blushes at you, looking up with her darkened puppy eyes,, awww how cute ;; you give her a slow nod and she just goes for it. so desperate and needy to make you feel good, she wouldn’t be lying if biting you made her so turned on. she fr eats you out like you were her last ever meal on earth 😊 like she gets so pussy drunk, lapping up all your juices, sucking and licking your clit so harshly earning a whimper from you.

she just thinks you taste so good,, your blood, your pussy? her heads spinning from your scent,, ouh girl she’s feeling dizzy, but that only drives her more insane. gripping onto your thighs, digging her nails into them. she wants more- moaning loudly as she continues to eat you out vigorously, her tongue circling around your clit so fast that it brings you to tears- are you sure she’s inexperienced bc this feels way too good “mmmhf is.. is this good? does your pussy feel good pretty girl?” that sentence alone brings you towards your climax- thighs squeezing together, essentially trapping her inbetween your legs 🫣🫣

so know if you’re ever feeling bored, you’d know where to go to find a certain specific desperate vampire waiting for you in the log cabins at 3am 🤩

IGNORE IF I MADE ANY MISTAKES PLEEKKKK 🙏🙏🙏🙏

[ikamigami]

The episode where lunar is sick is definitely a joke episode, and I try not to make joke episodes about angst, but doesn’t it seem like sun can barely tolerate much stress anymore? Like that whole situation only lasted for a short amount of time, but he immediately sounded exhausted and walked away to take a break after that situation that wasn’t even that high stakes, he didn’t even stay to finish cleaning he tried to get lunar to do it

Well.. that's what depression does to a person.. 😕

I know that I constantly repeat that.. but I'm worried about Sun.. the state he's in rn honestly reminds me of my own mental state from not so long ago..

Being in very depressed state but still functioning just well enough so others don't seem to notice what's happening with you.. and also like I said before Sun probably is experiencing hallucinations and he mentioned something about paranoia.. he's in low mood almost all the time and he's more irritated.. but also he has moments when he's more agitated.. and I bet that some things that New Moon told him definitely triggered Sun's delusions..

Though Sun is in worse state than me cause he already experienced a severe psychotic episode.. so I fear that it'll be worse especially considering that no one realize that Sun still is struggling mentally including Sun himself..

I feel like I'm watching someone who slowly approaches the edge of cliff and is in constant motion so they won't stop and the fall is inevitable bdjdjdbkdkdndjdjjd 😵‍💫

This is how I feel watching Sun in each of these episodes..

[rgr-pop]

the edibles i take for sleep (last choice sleeping pill desperate times) have been going crazy on me out of nowhere - i feel like i am getting worse at math or they’re lying to me. you may know this about me but i really prefer the weed that everybody hates, scary weed, head weed. i’m really big on finding negative mental experiences to be fun and engaging (compared to normal situations or being alive). if you’re a pure of heart (crazy) you can hallucinate a little on weed whenever but really as you may have heard they’re trying to repress the schizophrenic weed culturally and most weed is oh i want to be relaxed but not paranoid and seeing things. like that’s okay for you i guess.. but anyway these allegedly sleep edible skittles have been going so crazy lately and i’m obsessed.

so what happened is last night - took edibles early because i knew i had to get up at 6 - at 10:30 i start feeling them just enough to decide i want dinner after all and i start some mac and cheese - belly full of dinner i’ll be so sleepy. well then all these cop cars descended onto my street. i’m sitting there eating mac and cheese watching this go down from the window - just cops walking around and approaching this house, in the dark, just the siren lights. and my edible hits and i’m just watching this for like an hour, getting more disoriented, hallucinating more cops in the shadows. i can just remember seeing the silhouette of this ominous cross in the window the whole time.. (i think it was the same house they did this for last summer when they had a DRONE peeking in my WINDOW, i dunno what’s going on with it, ongoing domestic situation i think.)

so i’m totally fucked up by this point. like, i can’t get my brain to tell my legs to move, basically nonverbal, whole thing. then one of my favorite mutuals sent me this dm asking me to help him PARSE A TWITTER INTERACTION he had. like yes i should have pretended to be asleep because i was not at all in control lol. but you have to understand i like him a lot and he’s kind of elusive so this dm felt like a wildly important friendship escalation. like the most important thing in the world at that moment. i HAD to try. but it was the most hilarious and impossible task for me in this state: read screenshotted exchange of tweets. interpret the tone and meaning of comments. put into sentences, using fingers to type… i did my best but i was like 😵‍💫 i failed you

i woke up and i was like “ok sorry about that. i think this guy is implying you’re autistic”

[acefaun]

COME BACKKKK! * sobs *

You gotta excuse me this time. 🥺 I started my new job and they gave me full time instead of part time so I'm struggling to cope. It's not bad, just not what I came here expecting nor asked for. But it's the holidays, so I've been trying to put up witb it to help out. And my chronic pain refuses to cooperate with me. My joints have been inflamed for a week now. My body refuses to do what my mind logically understands someone at my age should be physically capable of(ex. standing for 9 hours straight).

So I finally accepted my doctor's offer of medicine to control the pain.

But. The side effect is hallucination. And I was like "The chances are so slim that I'll be one of the few actually affected." I WAS WRONG. Today was my first day on the new medicine and the doctor said "Take one pill to start, not all three, so you can slowly introduce the medicine to your body so you don't have a harsh reaction."

So I took one.

BUT I HALLUCINATED.

I woke up in a cold sweat dude. It was scary. But I gotta tell you the whole story about why I was scared shitless.

So in this hallucination, I was pulling on something very harshly. To me? I was pulling a LONG bag of potatoes. Very long. But it was stuck on something and it wasn't letting me pull it.

Then, I looked at the guy who brough the potatoes, getting nervous because he was watching me and waiting for his total to check out.

Problem was, I couldn't get the potatoes unstuck, THEN I realized the potatoes were missing!!! I couldn't sell this dude an empty bag! So I started tussling with the bag, searching helplessly for this man's potatoes. AND THEN I realized I lost the receipt! And it was stuck to the bag for the potatoes, so I was scratching to get it off while fumbling around for a potato.

I was getting so scared that I wouldn't be able to give this guy the reciept for the lost potatoes that he bought, that I was sweating panicked.

But when I sort of "woke up" from the hallucination , I was just sitting up in my bed and I asked out loud "Where'd the potatoes go...?" Then I had the bright idea to turn my lamp on so I could see the potatoes better.

Only to realize... There were no potatoes. There was no bag. And there was no man. I had only been pulling on my blanket the entire time... And the reason the "bag of potatoes" was "stuck" is because my blanket is tucked between my mattress and the wall... And thus the impatient sir's potatoes wouldn't come undone.

So, please excuse me. New job and new medicine and I'm apparently stressed about potatoes and missing reciepts. 😭

I'm kind of scared to go back to sleep because I don't want to fight with more potatoes. 😵‍💫 or worse. It's almost 2 in the morning and I'm distressed at the moment. And hungry. I'm hungry. But not for potatoes. 😰

I hope that... explains how life is going for the moment. 😅 I haven't been writing or drawing much, but you can feel free to ask whatever and I might get to answer. Maybe if I keep doing what I'm doing, I'll slowly but surely have something more interesting and fandom related than a medical hallucination to post. 😚