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Yall
My Nana just walking in my room, said "I've been asking around to figure out what LGBTQ stands for"
she looks me dead in the eyes with the most childish grin ever and says:
"so far I haven't gotten a straight answer"
B O I
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i love normal guys doomed by the narrative
#either that or hilariously dysfunctional or both#tf one#orion pax#d 16#megop#megatron#optimus prime#my art#saw one post pointing out in the trailer that a like5 frame shot of megatrons cannon that was snuck between their mahoushoujo type transfor#mations and like.messed up deeply messed up u see how goofy best friends orion and megsy are theyre just silly guys but in every telling of#their story they always end up enemies ok like in a meta multiverse hopping way think about it.like oh my god prewar tfp megop was already j#juicy and earthspark divorced-remarried megop is like.RGHFH tf one is going to destroy me bc this is what they had Before do u get me#before the war before they fell apart before friends became enemies and hands were stained before the beginning of the end im so so normal#like ok.this silly tight goofy buddy dynamic thats shown in tf one so far is.is what they had before. its what they could have kept if only#if only things turned out differently. but in every world optimus prime and megatron end up leading opposite sides of the bloodiest war ever#ok.its a universal fact and everyone who knows any transformers knows this BUT THE CHARACTERS DONT THEYRE POWERLESS TO PREVENT IT#ill clean up these tags in the morning but like im so.so normal about fictional robot guys#anyway i was intending to draw a background for this but i got lazy and also spent too long on the hands!!!!so whatever
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4 gays walk into a brunch or something
#you guys get the refrance right#i lost motivation so have this crusty bare ass image#i might be motivated to finish it at some point#my eyes are tweaking why is it so blurry#anyway#theyre arguing about something idk what it is but there sure is a debate#idk dawg im tired#my art#homestuck#beta kids#rose lalonde#john egbert#j egbert#dave strider#jade harley#i love them guys
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YOUR DOODLES ARE SO SILLY GOOFY CUTIE
Anon this ask fueled me to knock out a whole page of doodles, here's the result with closeups
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#maccadam#transformers#tfa#wayward sparks#beast wars#megatron#bumblebee#optimus prime#shockwave#optimus primal#rattrap#dinobot#ratchet#roller#hes small but hes there#flashbang#oc#lugnut#a couple unnamed ocs#at this point i just like drawing random cybertronians#i now understand why mr derrick j wyatt just kept cranking out enough of these guys to fill two allspark almanac volumes#theyre just really fun to slap together#idk if ive ever showed wayward sparks rolled before now actually. hes there and hes basically op's dog lmao#unsure if im gonna do anything Evil and Heartbreaking with him yet. he'll probably be fine.#art tag#this is what happens when yall are niceys to me. the pictures form in my mindhole and they done start spillin out my arm
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I FINISHED THE GUY!!!!!!
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He’s perfect and I love him
But Echo! some of you might ask, isn’t the body supposed to be red like his bones? To that I say! 1: I’m impressed you saw it under the layers of clothes! /silly and 2!
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BAH BAM
Embroidery!!!!! (I’m so proud of this hehe it turned out way better than I expected. Also faceless doll jumpscare>:3)
And of course, credit must be given to my amazing little sibling whose immediate reaction to seeing my doll was “ooo he’s spooky! He needs a top hat!!!!”
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(She proceeded to make not one but two top hats hehe)
#I’m so so happy by this guy hehe#it’s so silly#thank you sk much for the pattern ghost!!!#my art!#I speak!#don’t mind the odd locations of some of the pics haha#I forgot to take a pic of the embroidery after making his clothes and I made the sweater slightly too tight to take off easily#not pictured in the first image#my sister literally on the floor laughing from how large his head is#none of my family members understand what he’s from and all have been trying to guess what inspired me to make him XD#honorary mention of my moms reaction: oh he’s such a handsome guy!#the top hat truly makes it thank you sibling 😁#I’m kinda tempted to make a couple drawings/comic of the adventures he’s had since being created lol#especially since some people (stares at siblings) /silly#seem to find him the hottest thing since sliced bread (that’s how the saying goes I think?)#to the point where youngest sibling has shown him to the other children of the neighborhood#who were equally fascinated XD their reactions have been great for my crocheting ego /j#every time I make an original post I ramble for longer and longer in the tags lol#congrats to those who stuck through and read them all! I commend you! have a cookie here at the light at the end of the tunnel#undertale au#utmv#error sans
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Your bubble propoganda came in the form of putting him in a letter with cute decor, glitter, stickers, stamps, and cursive, and slipping him under my door.
I grieve the timeline where you never drew Carnival Bubble. I would be absolutely DEVASTATED if he never made it in the au... IM SO SORRY IVE COME TO LOVE HIM SO MUCH... CAINE WOULD N O T BE THE FUCKING SAME IN HIS WRITING WITH OUT HIM.
Wehehe 💖💖 I gave you an offer you couldn't refuse >:3
It always makes me happy seeing people in the comments going "BUBBLE IS SO CUTE!!" Everytime I see a drawing of Carnival Bubble I kick my feet and giggle and point and go "Ahaha! I did that!" It always brightens my day UwU
I have partly to thank my sibling who encouraged me to DIY my own Carnival Bubble after I was in shambles to see my favorite little guy missing from the line up
Anyway enough rambling I'M EXCITED TO SEE WHAT YOU DO WITH THEM I KNOW YOU GOT SOMETHING PLANNED I KNOWWWW 🫵
BUBBLE LOVERS REJOICE!! WE'RE IN THE GOOD TIMELINE!! YIPPIE!!
#Listen I'm of the opinion that if your au doesn't have Bubble then WHAT'S 👏 THE 👏 POINT 👏/j#...or am I#I'm glad you came to love them as much as I do because tbh they were a very self indulgent design#listen it's my brand at this point. I see something that could use more pink and hearts and I do it!!#I'm such a lovecore ass bitch what can I say?#and again I'm always a sucker for a main character with a little buddy who's their best friend 💖#Caine deserves a little guy who follows him around and shows him funny cat videos on YouTube ok?#sits in his lap like a dog and talks about the history of cotton candy y'know?
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#never thought I'd post my rhythm doctor fanart BUT HERE WE ARE!!!#when I got the notif about the new bonus level I was SOOO OVERJOYED. JUMPING AND GIGGLING I had to give myself a sec to calm down so I could#actually play it lmao TwT I LOVE THIS LEVEL IT'S SO ADORABLE I enjoy official RD art so much they're just lil guys tm...#Hailey's costume choice is so funny bc you'd assume she'd pick something cu- no. death itself. /pos she takes the concept of a halloween#costume seriously “it has to be scary! it's the whole point to be spoooooky! :>”#cocole's definition of scary is world 11 /j SCREAMED WHEN I SAW THEM NGL. NERDS!!! I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE!!!#sorry there's no Logan doodle :[ drew him too but I didn't liiikeee ittt... Lil astronaut... </3#I always use cheap colour pencils to colour traditionally bc I am NOT buying BeTtEr ones just cause society wants me to!! 🙄#rhythm doctor#cole brew#nicole ting#hailey rhythm doctor#the Hailey doodl is a big rough but I hope she's still appreciated#she's holding the... the pumpkin... candy-carrier??? I donno I'm not american I donno how IT'S CALLED /j /lh
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oh im obsessed with this actually… who ever wrote this one i am kissing u on the forehead and hugging you real tight… inigo is such a loverboy im kkkhhhhhhijnsdnfng
#ann plays awakening#EDITING TO SAY I STARTED TAG VENTING HIT READMORE AT YOUR OWN RISK#anyways#LAST LINE IS A KILLERRRR WOW#‘ann werent you just pairing olivia with thar—‘ OLIVIA IS A BUSY WOMAN OKAY#but also i just had this old save file from when i wanted to see pink inigo and decided to get some more supports#im obsessed actually like#ok tag venting time maybe this should be its own post but u guys know who i am#not only does this support in my very educated opinion do a good job at emulating inigo’s way of speaking#but i think theres also a very underrated characteristic he has that not a lot of people talk about and its that hes honestly quite morbid#him spending hours talking to and dancing with his mother’s grave is very beautiful and moving but it is also not a normal way to grieve#which makes sense because duh nothing about his life is normal but its j like. you know#if robin is his father (and maybe j the normal convo i dont remember) in the hot springs scramble he’ll insist upon bringing—#severed risen limbs home as a way to remember the peacefulness (lol) of the springs#and he thinks absolutely nothing of it!!#i think he gets attached to things just a little too intensely and because his life is surrounded by death how he expresses that can be#very interesting. and he talks about death all time more than the other kids#bc while a lot of their coping mechanisms are based in fear and the need to instill confidence in themselves (think cyn or gerome or owain#or sev or yarne or noire)#and how their SCARED of death and of loss and adapt different behaviors to act like theyre not (to varying degrees of success)#i think inigo is much more accepting of the fact that death follows him and has made it a normal presence in his life#which is not a good thing it means that he hasnt let himself grieve. he lets death hang over him and follow him instead of pushing back#also guess which one of the awakening trio in fates has the canonical story death. just by the way lmao#anyways bc im writing this in the tags on my phone i cant actually see what the hell ive been saying im j stream of consciousnessing this#but my point is that inigo has a weird fixation on death and dying that stems from his inability to make peace with death and grieve#and i think him idolizing death in this support (this BRILLIANT fan support that made me ill) is so in character and so lovely#i miss him so bad (hes literally in the photos im posting) grghhhrgah#i wuv him :(
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i love u nekoma & karasuno i love you SO MUCH
#can you tell i just watched the dumpster battle movie#[deep breath] AHHHHHHGGGGHHFHFHFJJFJGKG#ALL THE INTERACTIONS WERE SO FUCKING CUTE 😭😭😭😭#baby kuroo… i forgot how much i adored kuroo oh my god. TEARS IN MY EYES#HES SO FUCKING LAME#he was an emotional wreck this movie. had me giggling#his ass wld NOT leave tsukki alone HELP#omg and bokuto yachi interaction <3#HINATA AND INUOKA I LOVE U SO MUCH#kenma…. this truly was the kenhina movie nobody talk to me#and the mini scene of kuroo and daichi pointing at each other. I DIED!! I DIED!!!!#ourghhhhhh I LOVE THEM ALL SO DEARLY#also the detail of nishinoya moving out of the way when he saved the ball was great. loved that#SUGA 😭😭 HE WAS GOING INSANE LMAO I LOVE HIM SO DEARLY#okay tbh i didnt expect the match to end like that but it’s fine. i was immediately distracted by the FEELS#ALSO OMG. GOSHIKI AND TENDOU WERE SO FUNNY LOL#AND AND NEKOMA THIRD YEARS 😭😭😭 KUROO AND YAKU TEARING UP 😭😭 THEM HUGGING EACH OTHER#IM SOOOO ILL IM SO FUCKING ILL#also the kurodai hug and the kuroo thanking tsukki I FEAR I KEEP WINNING#did i mention the kuroken flashbacks. oh my god. they were so CUTE#BABY KUROO TALKING TO KENMA’S DAD AND HE WAS JUST SO SMALL AND ENTHUSIASTIC UGH 🥹😭#wow. i need to die#wait also. giggles. the kenhina knife scene. 10/10 gayest shit in hq#ahhhh i LOVE THEM#NEKOMA SECOND YEARS TOO. FUKUNAGA U WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS TO ME#anyway u guys shouldve seen me. i was going insane. i was losing it every scene#OH AND THE CREDITS?? kuroshou I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE#‘gotta take a pic to show mika’ this too is kuromikashou or whatever their ship name is#this was the kenhina movie first and the kuroo ship galore movie second /j#anyway i need to go lie down now goodbye
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Imagine this scenario: you casually check tumblr and your silly show you loved for the sad angel dynamics is trending yet again and this time it’s for “no subtext” what would you do chat I know what I’m doing
#I’m crying guys that’s what I’m doing#spn#supernatural#destiel#my angel dynamics will never be mentioned again but this stupid ship will /j#I’ve hit my breaking point
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I will never ever forget what my dad said to me years ago in middle school when I was sad that my irl friend at the time wasn't playing wizard101 with me and he immediately said "well that's probably because she has a life." God still hasn't lifted me back up from that
#this isnt a vent btw this was just smth extremely funny i just remembered LMFAOOO#my dad was IRRITATED with my wizard101 hyperfixation he HATED that shit. he was literally waiting my entire life to say that#THERE WAS NO HESITATION. HIS GRIN WAS DOWN RIGHT VENOMOUS#“well thats because she has a life... 😈HONEY😈🖕🏾”#and years later where am i now....... hundreds of dollars broker because of that damned game......... /lh#guys what if i showed my dad a picture of gf spider and dasein and told him i wanted to fuck those two guys#he probably wouldn't even be surprised at this point IDLAJQOQHSUSOSH#moral of this story is Stay Autism Ladies ✌🏾✨ if our dads wont support our neurodivergent habits who will /j#wizard101#w101#wiz101#text posts
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just saw someone saying that jared's acting in spn was bad... gonna commit heinous crimes
#they said i can't believe we suffered through such bad acting for the sake of dean and cas's storyline only for destiel to not be full canon#WHAT THE FUCK ????????#WHAT THE- WHAT THE FUCK#and then they tagged it 'j*red badalecki' OH MY FUCKING GOD#THAT'S SO STUPID AND IMMATURE FIRST OF ALL#jared is 100% one of the best actors on the show#no doubt#i genuinely... oh my god#destiel fans will be so fucked to the point that they'll use it as a reason to hate on not only sam but also jared ???#i'm sorry i hate supernatural fans so much wow#love you guys in our normal fun little corner of this website!!#. >> mari says shit !#and i'm not saying that jared is like my fav person and that you can't be critical of him or his acting#i just hate the way they went about it#it was very very stupid and unnecessarily#i don't care if you don't like him i just think y'all could come up with better constructive criticism <3#also there are bound to be bad acting moments#there's fifteen seasons of it straight like... it happens#can we just not be fuck ass bitches about it???#like... felicia day's acting was not great#do i still love charlie so much?? yes !#i do!#do i care?#no! i do not!#because i know how to be normal about things#:D anywayssss#this is like one of the least important horrible things about the spn fandom but i'm just getting increasingly bothered by this fandom
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DF RANT ALERT (plus minor implications/spoilers for the future of Blue and Violet)
Sometimes I realise Blue and Violet's Colours was literally peak angst and storytelling for my level of writing skills. And no matter how hard I try, I probably can't top it in WMSN. I mean, Colours was basically the pinnacle of everything written before it in the series (TQFTSK, Interlude, CWNB) and, WMSN is just... everything after it (it's giving she's Barbie and he's just Ken vibes to be honest). The remaining loose ends are being addressed and tied up. All while being puffed out with some silly one shots and domestic shenanigans in between. WMSN literally the 'happily ever after' of the main storyline, but I'm a little worried that's all it is gonna be...?
That isn't to say WMSN won't have its serious moments and character development/arcs that have been building up in the background of the series. I'm writing them right now (attempting to more like), and I'm just worried about Blue and Violet falling victim to the 'first movie/book was amazing and the sequel was mid' tragedy of modern day stories.
#blue and violet#hghhhhh I'm over thinking it aren't I lmao#guys idk what I'm doing at this point#I guess I must remember that Toby Fox was also worried about being unable to make a better game than Undertale-#-and then he proceeded to create the absolute goldpot that was Deltarune#writer stuggles am I right#still I strive to do my best and try to make this series a story worth telling#The next ten chapters of WMSN... god... its just like chapter 3 of CWNB- Escalation Speed At 100%#Gonna make the whiplash as severe as I possibly can 💪it will hurt/j
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#yall ths art block is so bad its actually making me so stressed out😭😭😭#its been awful plenty of times before BUT THISSS???IT FEELS NEVER ENDINGGG#so fucking frustrating-__- and i was finally working on smth i had started to like yday#but i hit this mid point where i didnt know How 2 break thru from like .. rough > finished#and im like T__T . brah . head in my hands#IDK WHAT TO DOOOOOOO . < lamenting . < woe is me .#sry i luv talking abt it . its therapeutic tbh . what do u guys do when u are in this position#i also try to go back to basics and j do gesture studies until i feel more capable#but im like shakig the bars of my cage . let me do smt fun again. please ❤️ PLEASEE ❤️#i think part of it is also imposter syndrome whre like .. u see so many people u look up to doing so many cool things w their art#and its like . falling back into the trap of comparison and feeling like nothing u make can replicate the feeling of seeing those other#things ykwim🤔#sick in da head . i think its also a twt issue#like ever since i started posting on there ive been feeling like i have 2 make . quote unquote good things which . obviously dookie sentimen#bc any art is objectively good art there isnt like . U CANT BE BAD YKWIM HELP#but when i j posted to tumblr it was like . u send it off like slapping a horse on the ass and u see it ride away and its so lowkey#and fun.. the community here is so muchc fun .. j dont feel pressured here#smiles sweetly#<gi influence#maybe ill delete the app 4 a while until i feel normal again#guys we need to kill all social media#guys we need to go back to drawing sheep on rocks (<giotto ref(#if i had 2 elaborate ig it feels like . i am following the path of most resistance -__- like wading hesdstrong in2 waves that keep pushing#me back . theres so much i want to do Wish i could do but its like damn i can barely draw like two complete things over the course of 2-3 mo#from how HARD IT ISSS🚶and my aphantasia compounds it . fumbling arnd in a dark room hoping smth sticks#graa.. i think its the realization that i couldnt ever do art professionally bc im such an obstinate artist T_T#tbh saying all this now its like looking up in2 the eyes of all my art insecurities looming over me#CASTING 100 FT SHADOWWWW🧍#whteve . check back on me in 2 months hopefully i feel normal ab it then
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hey, do you think the inquisition could maybe cut me some slack on pulling perfect 10s in their leadership? recompense even, maybe? /lh
#dav#datv#dav screenshots#inquisitor lavellan#inquisitor trevelyan#ch: hallaren lavellan#i actually need to finish gaius's inquisition run tbh. idr where i left him#i just know i was Bad at warrior in inquisition /lh#my muts who might be thinking hey there's a resemblance there... don't /j /lh#let me have this lmao#anyway i'm at the point of my dav love where i say what if all my little guys in the same room#so. gaius tag in case i figure out how to pull that all off /lh#ch: gaius trevelyan
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My 3 little cousins were baptized today. "Triggered" is kind of a strong word but being in a catholic church again... I'm a little fragile rn ngl.
#butch speaks#it was hard not to shake as i held J over the basin to have the water poured on his head#when he was cleansed of sin. as if a little kid could ever knowly or intentionally offend a so-called loving god#the words came naturally to me#but they meant nothing#i remember when they used to mean something. when i begged gods forgiveness for my sin (being a lesbian) and tried to pray the gay away#i remember how much i wanted to die bc i could never truly embrace the sacred#i STILL deal with the complex of catholic guilt. its a very real thing. its hard to shake#i cant help but wonder if the catholicism ingrained in my brain is why i have a hard time with casual dating n sex#fun fact: there was a point when i was a teen that i got REALLY catholic#i prayed everyday. i talked to my patrin saint (st agnes) every day. i wantsd to become a nun#the thought of marrying a man mad me more sad than feeling like an alien did. so id marry the church as a nun.#not the way to hide being a dyke when ur fam is catholic btw LMAO#the first priest i knew was father joe. i loved that guy. he was so kind. friendly. briming with love.#he was one of my biggest references for what a good person was like#he talked about gods love a lot. how its for everyone. no one is exluded. ever.#he used to look right at me when he said stuff like that. a few other kids too. all of whom grew up to be queer#then father joe passed away. our church merged with another church. father jeff was the priest there.#he was kind but not as kind. he talked about hell and sin more. he looked at the same kids father joe did.#but the kindness in his eyes wasnt there.#that wasnt for us.#my family wasnt even THAT catholic#i went to church every sunday i did vacation bible school and catechism classes and youth group#i was an altar servant and in the choir#i even used to speak/understand a little latin#imagine how much worse id have been if my mom could have afforded catholic school lmao#grateful to have grown up poor in that regard#hm. actually... reading my own tags. mayne we were pretty catholic actually.#fucking hell.#i need to have lesbian sex in a church before god and everyone. mayeb that would fix me.
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