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[fiendishartist2]

ignore what i just posted its time to think about astroboy

[umbillicalnoose]

i think that you would think im pretty and would like my poetry and i want to share it with you. im shy.

to be honest, im very apathetic these days. im not the nice “cutesy baby flower petal boy” i used to be. a lot has happened & im bitter & sullen & all in all, a pretty shitty friend/person to know. i used to possess some redeeming qualities, believe it or not, even if they were construed by the subconscious in an attempt to be likeable - a facade, even tho its only a facade, is still tangible, still there, is still something, even if not authentic. is poorer character forgivable in the name of presenting more authentically? but nah. that makes it sound like im putting effort into being a better person, which im not. im just sort of fried & done. its been a very long time since i played the role i built for myself on here of the “small fawn boy who wants to help girls” lmaooo. how embarrassing. altho, i was just a kid, & i guess, if you had a tumblr as a teenager, you went thru some cringe (i know the use of that word has fallen in on itself & adopted its own definition but for lack of a better one) ass phases, whether it was kinning or malingering mental illness or oh fucking christ, all that gender bullshit, etc etc. from what ive observed, tho, loosely following kids im still casually friends with that i met on here, i think we’ve all managed to Grow The Fuck Up, at least a little. most of us have jobs or r in school or have partners - growing up & moving on is a very surreal experience to watch/go thru. im moving at my own pace & ive accepted that - im still currently using & starving myself & concocting a suicide plan every day but at least i use clean needles as much as possible, i actively & honestly do strive for the bare minimum calorically, & um able to work with the mentality of “well ill have this when i need it but todays not that day” a lot more readily, in relation to suicide shit. ive finally found a therapist who Really Gets It, is a frontrunner internationally on ritual & extreme abuse & mind control. its pretty incredible what a few years with a good therapist can do. anyways. im sorry, i know you didnt ask for all this & im not even sure why i divulged. i guess, what tipped me off, was your attempt at sounsing “cute” - dude, cut that shit out, i promise youll be a lot better off. & i know everyone interchanges aspects of their personality based on who theyre talking to/who they percieve themselves to be talking to, but i feel like not a lot of people give enough credence to the internet & its hand in shaping/molding young people, kids, vulnerable dumbasses, especially tumblr (tho, i get that its a relatively new phenomenon) - u get a bunch of the “weird”, “alternative”, ““ostracized” kids together on a website, of course its gonna nurture a culture of hypervalidatoon & pretending to be sick in order to fit in to the point that its not an act anymore & exacerbation of symptoms & basically, just sucking each others dicks, sitting in ur own shit, & never ending coddling. & then, you have the older group of kids, who have played this game before but instead of helping or ignoring the Dumbshit kids, they indulge their own normally-buried-but-unleashed-by-internet-anonymity sadism/human instinct to just be fucking dicks & so now you have this vicious cycle of anger & hatred & fucking melodrama up the urethra. im sorry, i know im comig off as/am being harsh but god fuckin dammit yknow? also, this isnt directed at you, specifically, more of a generalized thing, @ myself included. so uh. i mean, if u still wanna share it with me after reading all this, id be happy to read ur poetry. i used to be over the top nice & then reverted to Major Asshole & am now trying to find that sweet middle spot - honoring & allowing myself to share my pain without putting it on others. which is really hard!! cuz becoming a Dick was difficult in that it forced me to be more honest with my true self & as such, more vulnerable - now in trying to become Kinda Nice again because despite being a pulsating scrotom, ive had the intense desire for friendship & human interaction, while simultaneously doing things that i was consciously aware was pushing others away - but then, if i pretend to be nice, where does that authenticity i worked for & was so scared of go? & i dont mean telling someone their new haircut looks nice even when it doesnt - thats just not being a dick. but i guess, those r the normal trials & tribulations of any relationship & adolescent developing identity. which is weird too - dealing with “normal” issues, i mean. whats the point if your life/limbs/breaking point arent at risk? whats the point when your best friends already dead. im sick of people calling "survivors” (despise that word, so fucking female-originated & overdramatic) “brave” & “strong” - surviving is not brave or strong. its just survival. you wouldnt call an animal brave for running for its life from a predator but you would call a dog courageous for going into a burning building to save its owner. premeditated action on the notion that you are probably going to be hurt is brave. being subjected to pain with no choice is not. theres no “silver lining” or anything “good” to be drawn from it either - sure it may have made x a more compassionate person or made y more introspective & gentle but you know what would have been even fucking better??? if the shit hadnt happened in the first place! let x be an asshole & y be self absorbed - the “benefits”, so to speak, do not outweigh the cost, not by a long fucking shot. its not only patronizing to hear garbage like that, but a slap in the face to know that anyone could possibly see anything good coming from that nightmare & that the characteristics, good or bad, you developed either in response to or as a result of, are worth praise. dont tell me im strong for doing what i had to to escape a torture chamber - tell me im perseverant for studying my ass off & passing that test last week. in the words of one of my dearest & most fucking brilliant friends, “pain doesnt owe me/you purpose - the need to intellectualize & assign meaning to pain & death is not only futile, but harmful.” & honestly, i think that it stems from weakness (in most cases - i realize theres a plethora of other reasons such as those who r just desperate for something to hold on to or r hyperintellectual & analytical or who have been pressured by external “support” systems to find the “good” etc etc) - while the majority of people view the person who “can find the good in everything” (strictly speaking only in relation to trauma/tragedy here & more in denunciation of those that celebrate this trait as opposed to vilifying “survivors” who respond this way, though in my experience, its very very very rarely the “survivor” that perpetrates this ideology ) as strong, i sort of see it as a weakness - their inability to sit with & absorb their own pain or that of others is so strong that not only do they have to frantically pull rainbows out of the teeth of a meat cleaver, they also have to exist within this strange (tho, not malicious - more subconscious) superiority complex. like, nah, dude, some times shit is just awful. you cant tell me anything fucking good came out of a four year old girl being kidnapped, gangraped, & tortured for two years, before being impaled & left to die on a stake. her mom opened a non profit organization? oh well thank fucking god for that!!! those that believe the latter to be more “enlightened” or whatever the fuck r the same people who say shit like “dying is easy - living is harder” & i get that that its supposed to be interpreted metaphorically for the most part - giving up is easy, trying isnt (which also.....isnt true??? admitting defeat & fully accepting the fact that ur fucking helpless is beyond hard lmao???) - but pretend youre somewhere, anywhere outside ur sunny little fucking yoga studio full of white women whos biggest issues r the pta & johnny whos failing math, & lets say your life is in real, imminent danger, a gun is to your head & i want you to not scream or cry or beg for ur life since dying is “easier”. if dying is so easy, why do the majority of ppl cling to it with such desperation - why is suicide illegal? why do some ppl go thru 100s of chemo treatments even tho the doctors say theyre just prolonging the inevitable, ppl who cut off a diseased arm so it wont spread, those who walk dozens of miles every day for food & water, etc? & i know & understand the survival instinct better than anyone, even when i wanted to die more than anything, my natural instincts would kick in with no conscious neural input & id do what i had to do. im not condemning those who cling to life (ok - a little. ur wasting resources out of ur own fear. but i also realize thats just me being a Fucking Asshole As Always cuz technically, im doing the same thing tho its more due to lack of opportunity rather than fear. i just think, societally, death should be more normalized, discussed, & not made out to be so unknown & scary), instead just reprimanding those who say shit like that (inspirational facebook quotes). especially cuz most of the ppl who do spew that shit have never gone thru anything even remotely difficult - their worst nightmare is a Big Scary Black Man grabbing them on the street, mugging them, & touching their tits. & i also know that these stupid ass sayings are to be applied to bullshit like exercise & fitness (“no pain no gain” is another one of my Favorites) & not fucking torture or even just ur run of the mill rape, even that would probably smash the rose tinted banana republic shades off their beverly hills tanned faces. but ive heard the no pain no gain one a handful of times in the last few weeks, specifically from doctors performing procedures in preparation for my bottom surgery. & i know its supposed to be encouraging & they have no way of knowing, but its just like, buddy, u have no idea who youre fucking talking to. & im starting to understand what THEY mean when they say it - pain with a reward is infinitely more tolerable than pain just for the sake of pain; like, a tattoo, it hurts, but u know, when its done, its gonna be sick as fuck. when u r able to fall back on the idea that its for something u rlly want, its A Lot easier to handle as opposed to pain thats Just Pain - theres no reward for it except, i guess, that the more u experience it, the closer u r to the end of it lmao. i mean, i still hate when ppl say it cuz for most of my life, pain was just pain, & the “reward” was the opportunity to go home at the end & so whenever ppl say that, my mind just immediately resorts back to that & im just like haha fuck u. but im trying to remember my experiences r definitely not universal & im starting to sorta understand what they mean i think. but, flipping gears here, & going back to the sentiment of “everything happens for a reason”, the base philosophy of psuedo deep Fuckwads - a girls dad didnt fuck her “for a reason”, everything doesnt happen “for a reason”. like ok, hypothetically, the kid he impregnated her with & that she was forced to have at 12 may surpass all odds & not become a homeless junkie & instead become a world renowned doctor who finds the cure for cancer. but she wasnt raped repeatedly from the age of six for that “reason”, no matter what anyone says & honestly, the liberation of the masses does not justify the suffering of one, especially a child. in my eyes at least. but again, im a bitter asshole. sorry i just Went The Fuck Off here oh my god.....if u read all this, thanks, pal. if not, thats cool too. but yea, send me ur stuff, id totally be down to read it. as for me potentially thinking ur cute, i have to look at my disgusting shitstain of a “face” every goddamn day so everyone else to me is fuckin aphrodite. but im also tryin to not put so much worth into physical appearance- its not something that should be complimented cuz its just smth a person was born with which is the same reason it shouldnt be insulted. this is gonna sound gay & stupid but i personally find that a persons essence & personality really permeates. you can meet someone who, objectively, isnt all that great looking, but once u get to know them, u really see their beauty - how the sun catches in their hair, their dilated pupils looking up at u from under long eyelashes in the dark, the birthmark on their right shoulder that they despise but that is so Them, the gap in their teeth, etc. & idk how to phrase this without it sounding like “well ur ugly but at least ur a good person”, cuz that only reiterates the societally indoctrinated emphasis on appearance & my kneejerk reaction to assure the person in question that thats not what im saying is only another result of that!!! its inescapable!!! but no, really, its not just a matter of “its on the inside that counts” - physically, they change or maybe, actually this is more likely, when i first meet them, my “default” eyes r just looking for features that i know im immediately attracted to (tall, blonde, sickly as in sunken eyes sticklike pale but still looks like she could & will beat the shit out of me) but as i fall in love or get to know them better, my eyes adjust & i notice & adore the beauty that was there all along. so uh. idk if ill think ur “cute”. but probably, yes, ill think ur an angel.

[lanamemories]

hLO itsa me nai-io!!!!! (read shrieked in a high voice like mario if he buckled his dungarees too tight around the crotch)...... im sad i missed opening bt i had a pretty busy past 2 days so i didn’t hav any chance at all to b online bc i ws staying at a friends bt. anyway. excited to b here nw regardless of my Fashionably Late entrance. i’m 22 n live in manchester (the u freakin k Bay Bee) n cackle a little too mch like a witch fr supernatural suspicions nt to arise. thts all u rly need to kno. like this or hmu fr plots!! 

p.s. this is her pinterest for those of u tht like tht kind of thing

「 bridget satterlee. cis-female. 」have you seen lana jameson around yet? i hear SHE decided to be in ALPHA NU for their JUNIOR year as a DANCE major. the 21 year old SHEEP is known to be vivacious, alluring, childish and impulsive. ➨ the muse is written by nai. she is 22, in the gmt.

some random aesthetics: a red water pistol topped up with caribbean rum and covered in stickers of cartoon pin up girls, a vinyl record whirring silently because you got too distracted by a stranger’s hands to reach over and flip sides, giant inflatable flamingos floating in the aftermath of a pool party, smudgy lipstick kisses left like an autograph on someone else’s mirror, seventies platforms covered in bowie inspired lightening stripes, fanning the flush in your cheeks with a bright red flamenco fan in the back of a crowded lecture hall, michelangelo reminiscent statures clasping at their stone in suggestive places, bopping stranger’s on the forehead with heart shaped lollipops, a bumper sticker on the back of a convertible cadillac that says ‘SCRAPPY DOO IS A FILTHY SLUT’, lighting a paper lantern and saying “aw, how pretty,” only for the whole party to shriek as it crashes into a children’s tent in the next garden over, a ball point pen that turns a woman naked when you click up the nib, cackling so ferociously that you almost throw up and your ribs ache.

ok im a Lay Zee gorl n dnt wna waste any mre time redoin lana’s intro so im pastin in her old one so i cn hop right to interactions. the only thing i can think tht needs to b added is the stuff abt danny nielsen (an evil npc of mine bc im a sadist) who recently beat up zeke van doren (full name this is Official feel like im writin a journalist article) bc he found out him n lana slept tgether n her n danny were kind of dating if....u can call his idea of romance tht. danny is in custody nw bt its a whole Thing like.... is prob... known around lockwood bc it ws a pretty intense..... thing tht happened n danny ws quite a popular senior

grew up in a big house in albany, NY, bt also spent time all over the place n was in the city a lot

okay so her mum is an old money socialite / three time campaign model way back when n her dad is a big record label mogul. he owns a label called jameson records n they repped a few big rock bands back in the eighties, altho they’re mostly known for ‘poppy injects’ whose lead singer had a big heroin scandal tht brought down his career. lana p much grew up around musicians snorting lines instead of spooning down cereal fr breakfast n her parents were v much absent her whole life

they’re pretty well off obviously n bc of her relation to such a big music industry figure she’s hung out w a fair few relatively high rep ppl thru her teens. she amassed kind of an instagram following mainly fr her style (v penny lane-esque in some aspects aka lots of fur cuff trimmed jackets bt then also jst…. a wild combination of everything honestly. pastel faux fur coats, seventies style platforms, flame red cowboy boots, pink fishnet tights n glitter used like highlight Everywhere) n bc she’s undeniably very pretty

her parents always kind of jst… didn’t like her. it was v clear that she was an accident after her older brother caleb n that even when they just had him alone they weren’t cut out for parenthood. they always kind of jst… ignored her n hoped she’d go away. she had to mke herself microwave meals when she ws only like 12 bc they’d forget to get her anything. once she went like 6 days without her mum even looking her in the eyes once

despite this tho!!! she’s always been insanely close w her brother caleb. he’s her whole world. thts why when he decided to sign up to the army she ws understandably scared bt supported him after initially bein mad tht he ws leavin her all alone. bt then he wound up getting discharged under grounds of severe ptsd when he witnessed his best friend die in an explosion tht took place in a shock raid. caleb returned home n he was never the same n lana kind of felt like he’d died out there too. he’s in n out of hospital a lot n it’s rly hard on her bt she doesn’t tlk abt it to anyone rly

growing up lana was always a huge social butterfly. jst literally…. knew everyone n everyone definitely knew her. she ws one of those girls tht ws kind of impossible to ignore or forget. very animated, always made u feel like u were the centre of the universe whenever she spoke to u, always made it feel like u were best friends even if ud only spoken to her once. she has this magnetic way abt her tht is kind of hard to find in real life. it’s something ud only rly expect out of a movie character n she like. deliberately puts tht on sort of. kind of.... is always playing A Role of the person tht she wants to b seen as

she’s always been insatiably spontaneous n adventurous. always doing something weird n wild every weekend. she has ten thousand stories tht always earn a laugh or a gasp over how ridiculously absurd they r

anyway so after caleb got back he was rly withdrawn n depressed. he shut lana out n was kind of harsh to her a lot of the time, always telling her to leave him alone or pushing her away. it didnt help either tht lana had a rly traumatic experience w some of her dad’s colleagues at the label when she ws 16 n he was away n she cldnt even tell him abt it once he was bk bc of his own traumas. she kind of jst shut it all in n kept it to herself

this obviously?? made her spiral a lot. she was already a girl tht loved sex (she’d only rly done foreplay before tho) but since her trauma it got…. completely out of hand. it got to a point where she couldnt rly go 2 days without it, probably not even 1. her lowest point has probably been scrolling thru craiglist for anonymous encounters n meeting up w strangers on there fr a quick fuck jst for the thrill even tho it’s insanely dangerous n she cld wind up getting herself killed. it’s v clear at this point tht she has a sex addiction whether she’s ever admitted it or not

she also currently? is working as a cam girl. she found this website bc she trawls… porn stuff a lot n she wound up applying to work as one bc she thought it’d b fun n wld earn her some disposal income (even tho she frankly doesn’t need it bc she’s already well off). the guy tht manages all of the girls on the site is kind of suspect n it’s a whole plot i’m gna unravel where it’s actually like the front for a cult or something wild so. stay posted ig. kgjdkgjh

personality/some fun facts: uncontrollably flirty. boundlessly confident. cld make a joke out a paper bag n her comedy is sometimes surreal / absurd. she tends to laugh when she feels like crying n has a smile brighter than a ray of texas sunshine. always dapples her fingers thru the breeze when she’s driving in a car w the window down. her fav book as a child used to b alice in wonderland n she’d fantasise abt having her own little wonderland too where everyone knew her name n asked her things n took her on adventures. at the time it didn’t rly strike her how evident it was tht that was bc she was so lonely. she almost always has some sort of sweet on her, whether it’s strawberry laces or gummy bears or cherry lollipops. she adores david bowie n prince n madonna n anyone tht’s a vintage style icon w little care fr what ppl think. wildflowers r her favourites bc they’re the brightest and u can’t buy them. she’s had like 8472493874 ‘relationships’ n none of them hav lasted beyond a month / hav been terrible / hav seen her being treated badly / she’s cheated on them. i dnt think she’s actually been w anyone she hasn’t cheated on in some form or another

plot ideas: exes tht lana’s fucked over hideously. she’d probably cheat a lot and it’d be a whole…mess. mayb someone tht flipped the switch and cheated on her? a cousin plot cld b fun too. a friend tht lana fel out w bc she slept w their significant other. someone tht’s getting lana into drugs?? she’s kind of impressionable/down for anything so tht’s a likely scenario she’d get into tbh. an unrequited crush!! (either way is cool). someone tht is just hanging out w her/using her bc she has a lot of instagram followers or they want to b signed to her dad’s label. someone in a band!! she’d probably make like penny lane n b their groupie/sleep w them all fgjkshgkh. umm a good influence too mayb? oh and a past summer romance/fling tht cld either have meant a lot or not have meant anything at all. bonus points if both of them hav a diff viewpoint on it. honestly?? anything is fine i cld ramble for days

[lanasaved]

cue me, clanking noisily at a nearby manhole as i attempt to scrabble my way bk out of the sewer like the stinky little rat tht i am. enchanté, ghouls! some of u might remember me (nai/from manchester so i pronounce things like a gallagher brother n i’m profusely sry abt it) bt if nt i hd to drop off the face of the Earth rp wise fr a hot minute there bt now im bk n i couldn’t resist reviving lana so???? here we r. u kno the drill more abt her under the cut!!

( cis-female ) haven’t seen LANA JAMESON around in a while. the KRISTINE FROSETH lookalike has been known to be (+) VIVACIOUS & (+) ALLURING, but SHE can also be (-) UNRELIABLE & (-) CARELESS. The 22 year old is a SOPHOMORE majoring in BALLET. I believe they’re living in AUDAX but I popped by earlier and no one answered the door. ( nai. 22. gmt. she/ha/the beast from split. )

some random aesthetics: a red water pistol topped up with caribbean rum and covered in stickers of cartoon pin up girls, a vinyl record whirring silently because you got too distracted by a stranger’s hands to reach over and flip sides, giant inflatable flamingos floating in the aftermath of a pool party, smudgy lipstick kisses left like an autograph on someone else’s mirror

SO i think in terms of explainin where she’s been fr the past month i’m gna say tht she didn’t rly.... tell a lot of ppl??? probably only a select few bt to others im guessin she was pretty vague bc she hates discussin anythin serious/personal. anyway essentially she’s been back @ home helpin her brother out n i won’t elaborate much more bc im a thot

frm this point on ive jst pasted her old intro bc im the laziest woman alive n that’s jst life Babey

she’s local to the ny area i jst havent decided where exactly she grew up tbh. probably somewhere upstate

okay so her mum is an old money socialite / three time campaign model way back when n her dad is a big record label mogul. he owns a label called jameson records n they repped a few rly big rock bands back in the eighties, altho they’re mostly known for ‘poppy injects’ whose lead singer had a big heroin scandal tht brought down his career. lana p much grew up around musicians snorting lines instead of spooning down cereal fr breakfast n her parents were v much absent her whole life

they’re pretty well off obviously n bc of her relation to such a big music industry figure she’s hung out w a fair few relatively high rep ppl thru her teens. she amassed kind of an instagram following mainly fr her style (v penny lane-esque in some aspects aka lots of fur cuff trimmed jackets bt then also jst.... a wild combination of everything honestly. pastel faux fur coats, seventies style platforms, flame red cowboy boots, pastel coloured fishnet tights n glitter used like highlight Everywhere) n bc she’s undeniably very pretty

her parents always kind of jst… didn’t like her. it was v clear that she was an accident after her older brother caleb n that even when they just had him alone they weren’t cut out for parenthood. they always kind of jst… ignored her n hoped she’d go away. she had to mke herself microwave meals when she ws only like 12 bc they’d forget to get her anything. once she went like 6 days without her mum even looking her in the eyes once

despite this tho!!! she’s always been insanely close w her brother caleb. he’s her whole world. thts why when he decided to sign up to the army she ws understandably scared bt supported him regardless. bt then he wound up getting discharged under grounds of severe ptsd when he witnessed his best friend die in an explosion tht took place in a shock raid. caleb returned home n he was never the same n lana kind of felt like he’d died out there too. he’s in n out of hospital a lot n it’s rly hard on her bt she doesn’t tlk abt it to anyone rly

growing up lana was always a huge social butterfly. jst literally…. knew everyone n everyone definitely knew her. she ws one of those girls tht ws kind of impossible to ignore or forget. very animated, always made u feel like u were the centre of the universe whenever she spoke to u, always made it feel like u were best friends even if ud only spoken to her once. she has this magnetic way abt her tht is kind of hard to find in real life. it’s something ud only rly expect out of a movie character

she’s always been insatiably spontaneous n adventurous. always doing something weird n wild every weekend. she has ten thousand stories tht always earn a laugh or a gasp over how ridiculously absurd they r

anyway so after caleb got back he was rly withdrawn n depressed. he shut lana out n was kind of harsh to her a lot of the time, always telling her to leave him alone or pushing her away. it didnt help either tht lana had a rly traumatic experience w some of her dad’s colleagues at the label when she ws 16 n he was away n she cldnt even tell him abt it once he was bk bc of his own traumas. she kind of jst shut it all in n kept it to herself

this obviously?? made her spiral a lot. she was already a girl tht loved sex (she’d only rly done foreplay before tho) but since her trauma it got…. completely out of hand. it got to a point where she couldnt rly go 2 days without it, probably not even 1. her lowest point has probably been scrolling thru craiglist for anonymous encounters n meeting up w strangers on there fr a quick fuck jst for the thrill even tho it’s insanely dangerous n she cld wind up getting herself killed. it’s v clear at this point tht she has a sex addiction whether she’s ever admitted it or not. in fact she’s so… shameless in her endeavours tht she’s actually currently having an affair w her ballet instructor tanya who’s engaged to b married

she also currently? is working as a cam girl. she found this website bc she trawls… porn stuff a lot n she wound up applying to work as one bc she thought it’d b fun n wld earn her some disposal income (even tho she frankly doesn’t need it bc she’s already well off). the guy tht manages all of the girls on the site is kind of suspect n it’s a whole plot i’m gna unravel where it’s actually like the front for a cult or something wild so. stay posted ig. kgjdkgjh

new development!!!!!!!! cue me trottin around doin jazz hands. she’s actually been cut off by her dad so she’s….. living off the money she has left n has to look to find a job which is jst. a nightmare fr someone like lana bc she’s insatiably irresponsible n destined to be fired from anything she tries to hold down bt. it’ll be interesting bc this means she genuinely has to keep on camming even tho she’s starting not to want to any more bc of other circumstances i won’t elaborate on jst yet winks

personality/some fun facts: uncontrollably flirty. boundlessly confident. cld make a joke out a paper bag n her comedy is sometimes surreal / absurd. she tends to laugh when she feels like crying n has a smile brighter than a ray of texas sunshine. always dapples her fingers thru the breeze when she’s driving in a car w the window down. her fav book as a child used to b alice in wonderland n she’d fantasise abt having her own little wonderland too where everyone knew her name n asked her things n took her on adventures. at the time it didn’t rly strike her how evident it was tht that was bc she was so lonely. she almost always has some sort of sweet on her, whether it’s strawberry laces or gummy bears or cherry lollipops. she adores david bowie n prince n madonna n anyone tht’s a vintage style icon w little care fr what ppl think. wildflowers r her favourites bc they’re the brightest and u can’t buy them. she’s had like 8472493874 ‘relationships’ n none of them hav lasted beyond a month / hav been terrible / hav seen her being treated badly / she’s cheated on them. i dnt think she’s actually been w anyone she hasn’t cheated on in some form or another

plot ideas: exes tht lana’s fucked over hideously. she’d probably cheat a lot and it’d be a whole…mess. mayb someone tht flipped the switch and cheated on her? a cousin plot cld b fun too. a friend tht lana fel out w bc she slept w their significant other. someone tht’s getting lana into drugs?? she’s kind of impressionable/down for anything so tht’s a likely scenario she’d get into tbh. an unrequited crush!! (either way is cool). someone tht is just hanging out w her/using her bc she has a lot of instagram followers or they want to b signed to her dad’s label. someone in a band!! she’d probably make like penny lane n b their groupie/sleep w them all fgjkshgkh. umm a good influence too mayb? oh and a past summer romance/fling tht cld either have meant a lot or not have meant anything at all. bonus points if both of them hav a diff viewpoint on it. honestly?? anything is fine i cld ramble for days. let’s get wildt!

[lilnasxvevo]

TFw my probable hypochondria spreads to concerns about MY CAT and the fact that I saw him chew on a day lily 10 hours ago has me crying at 3 am even though the websites I found said that symptoms set in within 0-12 hours and it’s been 10.5 hours so he probably would have had symptoms by now and besides usually when he eats things his tummy doesn’t like he throws them up pretty quick (sometimes we let him go outside for supervised trips and he eats grass and pukes it up between 1-6 hours later—today he got out by accident and I turned my back for 2 seconds and he was suddenly near the daylilies that the previous owners planted in the house we’ve lived in for less than a month).

I’m just really really scared because my anxiety in the past few months has had me really scared about my loved ones dying and that very much includes this cat, who is 12 years old and has already outlived his littermate Shadow by 3 years and she was considered healthier than him so what is he still doing here???

Some of the websites I read said if you see a cat NEAR a lily plant, you should take it to the vet straight away. My parents discouraged this even hours later when I found information that said NOT EVEN INGESTING the plant, just chewing on it, can fuck up a cat real good.

I just don’t want to find his cold little body in the morning because I didn’t do enough. You know I talk all the time about how he’s the sweetest nicest cat in the world and I don’t want to lose him. I’ve already had a cat die from kidney damage (under very different circumstances) and it fucking sucked.

Like, as you can see, he’s literally fine right now—he doesn’t have any of the listlessness, drooling, or vomiting that are listed as the symptoms of lily poisoning.

But the websites also say that the prognosis is best for cats that receive treatment within 18 hours. And that’s 11 am. And if they ARE sick and you don’t get them in within that time the prognosis is very very very grim.

Sorry. I just had to get this out somewhere because my parents keep putting me down for being concerned about this (they’re probably right but they’re also like being condescending about it like jddjkssk I KNOW IM NUTS BUT I STILL DONT LIKE IT WHEN MY FEELINGS ARE INVALIDATED) and I don’t want to burden any of my friends with this because a lot of my closest friends have met this sweet boy on multiple occasions and they love him too and also I just don’t want to make anyone deal with how unreasonable I’m probably being.

I had to put this somewhere. Because my anxiety levels are about 3% away from stress puking. I don’t know if this has necessarily made my anxiety levels any lower. But.

Idk. My mom and my sister have both pulled all-nighters to be with animals that were sick or scared or uncomfortable. So I feel like they can’t really fault me if/when they found out I have stayed up until 3:36 am at this point (it will probably be much longer) just monitoring him for symptoms. Like I said, I don’t want to have not done enough.

The thing is, though, I slept very poorly last night, and now I have not slept at all tonight. So 1) that is not doing great things for my stress/anxiety levels and I understand that I probably wouldn’t be crying if I was better rested and 2) my body being what it is, staying up with him is going to make me really sick.

Worth it, though.

Ok, he wandered off somewhere while I was writing this so I’m being a bad cat dad so off I go

[batslime]

taggt ( by @wesminator )

Last:

Drink- im schlurpin mtn dew rn

Phone call- my mom to make sure she knew we needed cat food

Text- showing this awful thing to @succubus

Song- ddu-du ddu-du by black pink ( that doesnt even sound the way its spelled and i had to look at it again bc of that )

Time you cried- i dont remember probably while i was watching a movie or smt

Ever:

Been depressed- b o y

Gotten drunk and thrown up- i dont go to parties because i live in the middle of nowhere and ive never been drunk i dont like alcohol enough to get to that point

In the last year have you:

Made new friends- ya

Fallen outta love- YA

Laughed until you cried- no

Found out someone was talking about you- just today my manager told me one of the part time mans texts him to say ive been “acting up” ( i said something to her she didnt get so i told her not to try so hard bc i could smell the smoke coming from her ears ) and he straight up tells her shes stupid fgvhjb

Met someone who changed you- for the worse yes lmao

Found out who your friends are- I’ve found out who my friends aren’t!

Kissed someone on your Facebook friends list- Maybe???? ive remade it so many times/ never go on i dont remember if i have any exes besides @succubus

General:

Fave color- im always a slut for pink but i also love rich greens and lavender

How many Facebook friends do you know IRL - why is a tumblr meme probably aged at like teenage-twenty year olds even asking about facebook

Any pets - rn i have three cats

Do you wanna change your name - legally ya

What did you do for your last birthday - I dont remember i was probably still at home jobless and sad

What were you doing last night at midnight - working on miniatures

What is something you can’t wait for - @succubus is coming over next month, next paycheck, to get the energy to work on all my projects again, genji nendroid

What are you listening to - i just left blackpink playing after i had to look that title up

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom - idk

Something that gets on your nerves - god everything lately im like a time bomb

Most visited website - Tumblr and Youtube

Hair colour - Black/ dark brown

Hair length - i cut it asymmetrically l recently and shaved it back in march on the sides so its. all over the place

Do you have crush on someone - i have a crush on being a better and more productive and happier and richer person

What do you like about yourself - lets not start this lol

Want any piercing - not rn im too depressed to take care of my body on a regular basis

Blood type-  b+

Nicknames- 

Zodiac - capricorn

Pronouns - She/Her or They/Them is fine.

Fave TV show - I dont watch tv occasionally tho ill go into netflix and play whatevers nice to listen to while i work, like forensic files or movies im really familiar with 

Tattoos - i dont rly like the way they look i think n when i do see designs i like i like seeing them on other ppl, im too fickle for them myself. i used to do designs for ppl tho

Right or left handed - Right-handed

Ever had surgery - to have my teeth removed and tbh id be terrified and i think id really rather just die if i ever needed under-anesthetic under-the-knife surgery for multiple reasons 

Sports - no

Vacation - i like vegas, theres lots of countries id love to see but ive never been out of the states. im too poor and scared to do that rn esp alone

More general:

Eating - i love squishy foods but ive been craving crunchy stuff a lot lately too. ive been getting bowls of ice to take to my room while i work

Drinking- i drink like three things and that mtn dew, water w crystal lite, and match fraps

About to watch- i dont watch stuff much i just play whatever i can presently stand hearing while i work

Waiting to-

Get married - god no i literally just wanna live alone i dont wanna have to see people in my house while im trying to force myself to work or walking around naked i dont wanna be responsible for another person

Which is better:

Hugs or kisses - i dont like to be tocuhed

Lips or eyes - 

Shorter or taller -  

Nice arms or stomach -  these are like. really obscure selections 

Troublemaker or hesitant -  

Have you ever:

Kissed a stranger - no

Drunk hard liquor - no

Lost glasses - yeah i just toss em at the end of my bed at night

Turned someone down - um i work retail and look like a teenager i can hardly fucking go in public without some random ugly ass dude thinking he can talk to me lol 

Been arrested - no

Cried when someone died - i dont think so just animals as far as i can recall, i havent lost anyone close.

Fallen for a friend - ya

Do you believe in:

Yourself - Yeh boi!

st sight - for like animals or shows or smt. if youre talking about another person. thats called attraction and calling it love is creepy and unhealthy and an obsolete concept that we need to nip in the ass tbh. i hear a disproportionate amnt of guys to girls say this and its like always someone they meet in public or whatever. im sure if i were desperate and self hating enough to humor any of the losers who try me theyd say it like five years down the line too. you dont know who tf somebody really is til youve known them for years and gone though real shit and seen how they respond. ive always found “love at first sight” creepy 

Kiss on the first date - idk

Angels - maybe

Others:

Best friend’s name - i call her a disgrace and the cause of my death but other ppl call her franky/ alexa 

Eye colour - Brown

Fave movie - 

Fave actors -

franky ive already tagged you like eight times. also im done working for the day. if you wanna be tagged reblog it and tag yourself im not doing anything else for any more people today 

[stereocyon]

ok im done fighting the urge to fill out 20 abt the blogger things in a row. let me have this

i found one from when i was 15 and im gonna do it again to compare bc im uhhh bored

LAYER ONE: THE OUTSIDE

Name: drew! tho im considering some other shit in addition

Eye color: blue... shit doesnt change :/

Hair style/color: its short and still red and frankly its a bit weird rn 

Height: 165 centimeters (5′4).......... @ my past self. you fucking wish you were me

Clothing style: androgynous slutty goth vacation dad is the IDEAL. but thats not always attainable 

Best physical feature: im just cute. :/

LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE

Your fears: pregnancy. gröss

Your guilty pleasure: really shitty music and like sexy designed evil ladies. but thats valid because im gay. also reading awful discourse and getting mad on purpose

Ambitions for the future: i want to be this guy

LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS

Your first thoughts waking up: i immediately got shanghai alice of meiji 17 stuck in my head. there was something vaguely music related before that but i forget 

What you think about most: whatever i happen to be hyperfixated on :/

What you think about before bed: gay thoughts 💖

LAYER FOUR: WHAT’S BETTER?

Single or group dates: single is classic but i support going out and being gay with your friends who are also gay 

To be loved or respected: LOVED...

Beauty or brains: pardonnez-moi... im a homo-morosexual

Dogs or cats: cats!!

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU.

Lie: nngfkjdh when im scared. i dont lie to my friends

Believe in yourself: yes and simultaneously well Not Really!

Believe in love: its one of the only things thats real actually.

Want someone: god you fucking KNOW it

LAYER SIX: EVER?

Been on stage: yea a few times but nothing like, huge

Done drugs: no but its because im pussy. also i have no friends whom drugs. and i also dont wanna get deported lol

Changed who you were to fit in: i tend to compromise myself a lot so people like me but ive been way better about not doing that lately

LAYER SEVEN: FAVORITES

Favorite color: red rn... changes a lot but its usually red/green

Favorite animal: cats... 

Favorite movie: alien but really theres not much competition 

Favorite show: jojo bizarreadventure. hyperfix aside i luv cowboy beboy

Favorite book: i can NOT read

LAYER EIGHT: AGE

Day your next birthday will be: feb 28th

How old will you be: 20 😰

Does age matter: yeah.

oh heres another one from when i was 15. frankly i am unstoppable now

Name: drew

Age: 19

Height: 165cm. etc

Relationship status: gays... i am in love

Birthday: feb 28

Favorite color: see above -__-

Favorite bands: THE MARS VOLTA if i go into lesser faves ill be here for an hour but im feeling rheostatics a lot this week i guess

Last song listened: studio killers - jenny 

Last movie watched: oceans thirteen 😊

# of pets: THREE cats

Best school subject: it was always english but i loved bio also

Cell phone type: samsung a5... old bitch

Current shirt color: gray with nasa logo :]

Gamer? i mean. i certainly have played a couple of video james in my time

Day or night? im a dawn/dusk lesbian

Summer or winter? uhhhh summer

Most-visited website? STILL tumblr. tragic

Celebrity crush(s): still none... i do not give a fuck 

Biggest turn on: epic cringe of me to answer this with aph norway like 4 years ago. anyways chaotic nature + boldness is really hot not to be rowdy and sort of a bottom

ANYWAYS the moral of the story? character development. other moral is that i need more hobbies im so fucking bored rn

[lynxandbadger]

Rules: Answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people

I was tagged by one of the best people ever @cosmicdnp !!!!

— What was your last…

1. Drink: Water

2. Phone call: My roommate’s sister bc I needed directions to somewhere

3. Message sent: “Yes! And it’s right across the street from where I already live so that’s nice!”

4. Song you listened to: Man On The Moon -- REM

5. Time you cried: Can’t remember but like last week or something or maybe yesterday idk

— Have you ever…

6. Dated someone twice: lmao i’ve never dated anyone

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: No

8. Been cheated on: No

9. Lost someone special: Yes

10. Been depressed: Yes

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: No

— Fave colours

12. Dark blue

13. Purple

14. Dark red

— In the last year have you…

15. Made new friends: Yes

16. Fallen out of love: Romantic love no, but a different love yes

17. Laughed until you cried: Yes

18. Found out someone was talking about you: No

19. Met someone who changed you: No

20. Found out who your friends are: ??? mate idk i know who my friends aren’t but idk who my friends are 

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook friends list: No

— General

22. How many your Facebook friends do you know irl: I don’t have Facebook

23. Do you have any pets: Yes, cats

24. Do you want to change your name: Not anymore

25. What did you do for your last birthday: ??? I don’t remember i went to class and probably procrastinated homework? It was just a regular college day but I opened a box from my mom

26. What time did you wake up today: 10 am

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Watching Friends

28. What is something you can’t wait for: Short term I’m getting my hair cut Saturday and I’m pretty zazzed for that

29. What is your favourite animal: Cats (but if that’s boring I really like red foxes and stingrays)

30. What are you listening to right now: Where The Wild Things Are (Monsters) -- Anarbor

31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: lmao for super personal reasons this question is a bitchy fuck but anyway yeah

32. Something that’s getting on your nerves: Tons of deep annoying shit but to be light and chill, I’ve almost finished all my Easter candy and I want more lol

33. Most visited website: Tumblr (unfortunately)

34. Hair colour: Naturally black but I dye it

35. Long or short hair: Short

36. Do you have a crush on someone: No thank god

37. What do you like about yourself: ??? i’m trying so hard to think of something lmao um...... i like that despite shit tearing me down im still doing stuff? idk man this is hard

38. Want any piercings: Part of me wants a tongue piercing but i could never pull it off lmao

39. Blood type: I dont think i’ve ever known my blood type tbh

40. Nicknames: I don’t have any Edit: according to Naomi my nickname is janice 😩

41. Relationship status: Single

42. Sign: Scorpio

43. Pronouns: she/her

44. Fave tv show: Friends

45. Tattoos: None

46. Right or left handed: Right handed

47. Ever had surgery: Yes

48. Piercings: Just my earlobes

49. Sport: Haha as if i had any athletic talent lmao

50. Vacation: ??? idk but i really wanna go to europe

51. Trainers: idk is this about shoes because i only own converse

— More General

52. Eating: The last of my Easter candy lol

53. Drinking: Water

54. I’m about watch: More Friends

55. Waiting for: My hair appointment on Saturday lmao

56. Want: To be happy

57. Get married: ??? idk maybe someday but im not that zazzed about the commitment you know? like id love to think id find someone i’d truly love to spend my life with but how would i know? even if i love them then, people change, things happen, and you can never know what the future will hold so like??? idk man im just so scared of commitment also the social construct of marriage annoys me and i dont really wanna have a wedding or anything and like phil said in that one sims video marriage is just a piece of paper and like??? it’s too hard to decide beforehand what ill have for lunch like i cant be thinking about marriage lol also ??? it reminds me of other things id rather not talk about and it kind of ruins it so yeah basically idk why i made this so long but marriage is a no for me lol

58. Career: ??? fuck i dont even know if im studying the right major dont ask me what i wanna be for the rest of my fucking life thats too hard fuck

— Which is better

59. Hugs or kisses: Hugs

60. Lips or eyes: Eyes

61. Taller or shorter: I mean i’m short so like anyone shorter than me would be really short so taller i guess

62. Older or younger: Older

63. Nice arms or stomach: ??? i always hate these like romantic partner preference questions bc i dont even care

64. Hookups or relationships: Relationships

65. Troublemaker or hesitant: Yo fuckin idk man

— Have you ever

66. Kissed a stranger: No

67. Drank hard liquor: No

68. Turned someone down: No

69. Sex on first date: No

70. Broken someone’s heart: No

71. Had your heart broken: No

72. Been arrested: No

73. Cried when someone died: Yes

74. Fallen for a friend: Well like a naive little crush yeah

— Do you believe in

75. Yourself: i mean it depends but usually no

76. Miracles: No

77. Love at first sight: No

78. Santa Claus: No

79. Angels: No

— Misc

80. Eye colour: Dark brown

81. Best friend’s name: i dont heckin have a best friend my dudes !!! :(

82. Favourite movie: I haven’t watched a lot of movies but i like Heathers, The Perks of Being a Wallflower, and V For Vendetta (lol that’s quite a variety i didnt realize lmao)

83. Favourite actor: idk i dont watch enough movies to know good actors but like everyone in Harry Potter is pretty great

84. Favourite cartoon: i haven’t watched any cartoons for years so idk

85. Favourite teacher’s name: Tom (first name but i only ever call him by his last name lol but that’s generic enough for tumblr haha)

I don’t tag anyone because idk who likes doing these but if you want to do it, pretend I tagged you!

[jazzbambi]

I was tagged by the wonderful @dragonjedihobbit! Thank you dear :* 

rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people 

— what was your last…

1. drink: Coke 2. phone call: my mother 3. text message: my sister 4. song you listened to: Havana by Camila Cabello 5. time you cried: yesterday watching an heartwarming video lmao

— have you ever…

6. dated someone twice: no 7. kissed someone and regretted it: no 8. been cheated on: no again  9. lost someone special: yes 10. been depressed: yes 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: the one time I got drunk I only talked about Shrek and laughed/cried about it

— fave colours

12. purple 13. black 14. pastel blue

— in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: yes 16. fallen out of love: nope 17. laughed until you cried: yeah 18. found out someone was talking about you: yes, usually bad things LMAO 19. met someone who changed you: nope 20. found out who your friends are: more or less, I hope 21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list: does the guy I was with when I was 5 count? lmao

— general

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: almost all of them 23. do you have any pets: two cats and a dog 24. do you want to change your name: yep, maybe one day when I’m away from here 25. what did you do for your last birthday: nothing special, just like it was any other day of the year 26. what time did you wake up today: 12:30 am 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: watching videos 28. what is something you can’t wait for: going to London this summer to finally watch Bianca Del Rio perform! 30. what are you listening to right now: my dog snoring lol 31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: nope, we don’t have any in Italy lol 32. something that’s getting on your nerves: laziness getting the best out of me + incapability of saying no 33. most visited website: tumblr  34. hair colour: dark brown 35. long or short hair: on me long hair, definitely! I’m going full Rapunzel now lol 36. do you have a crush on someone: nope 37. what do you like about yourself: eh, nothing very much. Probably my sense of humor, even if people find it rude sometimes 38. want any piercings: I want an entire ear pierced, it’d look so cool 39. blood type: dunno 40. nicknames: “anni” from my surname and nothing else I think 41. relationship status: single and on my way to be bitter cat lady 42. sign: capricorn 43. pronouns: she/her 44. fave tv show: game of thrones, stranger things, izombie 45. tattoos: so far none, but I have a couple already planned  46. right or left handed: right-handed 47: ever had surgery: nope 48. piercings: none

49. sport: I used to take dance classes when I was younger, but right now I’m not doing anything

50. vacation: London in july! 51. trainers: nike

— more general

52. eating: I’m like a pregnant woman, I crave different things all the time 53. drinking: mostly coke and coffee when I feel very sleepy  54. i’m about to watch: nothing probably, I have things to do 55. waiting for: my stupid ass to stop thinking I’m always wrong in any situation 56. want: money and the ability to say “Fuck you” more easily 57. get married: I don’t think it will happen lol

58. career: I hope in something related to makeup or books or animals

— which is better

59. hugs or kisses: hugs  60. lips or eyes: lips 61. shorter or taller: taller 62. older or younger: I don’t really care, even if I feel bad crushing on someone younger lol 63. nice arms or stomach: both 64. hookup or relationships: relationships  65. troublemaker or hesitant: probably hesitant at least at the start of the relationship. I’m hella shy and I can get easily scared ahah

— have you ever

66. kissed a stranger: nope 67. drank hard liquor: yes 68. turned someone down: yes 69. sex on first date: nope 70: broken someone’s heart: i hope not 71. had your heart broken: yes 72. been arrested: nope 73. cried when someone died: yes 74. fallen for a friend: nope

— do you believe in

75. yourself: I wish lol 76. miracles: nope 77. love at first sight: no 78. santa claus: mom made it very clear he didn’t exist when I was like 10 years old lmao 79. angels: nope

— misc

80. eye colour: dark brown 81. best friend’s name: I dunno if she’s okay with me putting it out there, so let’s just say S 82. favourite movie: there are a lot, usually anything from Disney 83. favourite actor: I don’t think I have one 84. favourite cartoon: Teen Titans 85. favourite teacher’s name: Ilaria

I tag just few people ‘cause I don’t know that many on this website lmao @theuselessprince @meiko333

[psychoticstarlight]

Since my lovely brother @kneatknacks tagged me

What was your last…

1. drink; A pop 2. phone call; my mom  3. message sent; "Can you believe my mom hurt me like this? How dare she remind me of that Panarin trade?” 4. song you listened to; It ends tonight by All American Rejects 5. time you cried; Last night because I was THAT tired 

Have you ever…

6. dated someone twice; no 7. kissed someone and regretted it; yes 8. been cheated on; no 9. lost someone special; A month ago to the day  10. been depressed; I never will answer yes because a self diagnosis is rude  11. gotten drunk and thrown up; Been drunk but I did not throw up

Favourite colours…

12. Royal Blue 13. Black 14. Silver

In the last year have you…

15. made new friends; Yes 16. fallen out of love; No 17. laughed until you cried; Last night after I cried because of something I don't even remember 18. found out someone was talking about you; Yes 19. met someone who changed you; No.  20. found out who your friends are; Yes 21. kissed someone on your Facebook friends list; No

General

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know irl; Just about all of them. Most of them are people I went to grammar and high school with. There are maybe 8 people I don't actually know. 23. do you have any pets; a dog, 3 cats, and 2 fish 24. do you want to change your name; I do want to change my last name  25. what did you do for your last birthday; I think I went for pizza in Wicker Park and all of my friends bailed on me.  26. what time did you wake up today; 9am but didnt get out of bed until 10 27. what were you doing at midnight last night; making memes 28. what’s something you can’t wait for; To meet my lovely brother who tagged me in this in July. 29. what’s your favourite animal; Dragons.   30. what are you listening to rn; I sadly forgot my headphones at home so I'm listening to the screams of the people in the Student Center. 31. have you ever talked to a person named Tom; Yes. Yesterday. 32. something that’s getting on your nerves; everything.  33. most visited website; Youtube 34. hair colour; Brown 35. long or short; Long 36. do you have a crush on someone; Does a Russian Hockey Player count? 37. what do you like about yourself; That I am not becoming my mother 38. want any piercings; Yes even though I am scared to death of needles and high allergic to nickel  39. blood type; I think its B+. Im really sure its B 40. nicknames; Emme, Neff, Em 41. relationship status; Single because fuck the human race 42. Sign; Cancer 43. pronouns; Her/She 44. fave tv show; Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood, the Office, or Buffy the Vampire Slayer 45. tattoos; Not for a while 46. right or left handed; Right  47. ever had surgery; Yes 48. piercings; No 49. sport; I wish I played Hockey but I used to play softball. 50. vacation: Sadly not this year. Im staying in Chicago all summer and working. 51. trainers; Is this talking about shoes? I only wear vans and I wear them until they have holes in them.  52. eating; I just ate a rice Krispy Treat and I'm going to my favorite local restaurant in an hour. 53. drinking; I am addicted to pop and I hate every second of it. 54. about to watch; My GPA drop  55. waiting for; Tomorrow since it the Blackhawks last home game of the season and I have tickets.  56. want; To have more reliable school friends. 57. get married; Couldn't pay me money to have me get married. 58. career; Studio engineer or a house engineer. (audio engineer)

Which is better…

59. hugs or kisses; hugs 60. lips or eyes; Eyes 61. taller or shorter; I prefer taller but Im not against shorter  62. older or younger; Im into guys older than me but within limit because I'm not dating someone 20 years older than me 63. nice arms or stomach; arms. 64. hookups or relationships; Relationships. 65. troublemaker or hesitant; Im here to make trouble and cause shit. 66. kissed a stranger; Sadly. 67. drank hard liquor; Tuesday night in the library here at school. 68. turned someone down; No 69. sex on first date; Probably not. 70. broken someone’s heart; Not to my knowledge 71. had your heart broken; No 72. been arrested; Not yet but almost. 73. cried when someone died; Yes. Part of why I cried last night. 74. fallen for a friend; No.

Do you believe in…

75. yourself; No 76. miracles; No 77. love at first sight; No 78. Santa Claus; No 79. angels; you can take the Catholic out of the church but you can't take the church out of the Catholic. I have been programmed to believe and sadly I do.

Misc…

80. eye colour; Brown  81. best friends name; Devlin (you can meet me in a parking lot and fight me), Meghan 82. favourite movie; Wayne’s World (I can quote the entire movie) 83. favourite actor; Sebastian Stan 84. favourite cartoon; Teen Titans (the original) or Avatar: The last Airbender.

Thanks for tagging me brother. If you want to go this, go ahead and do it and I will say I tagged you

[mychildgon]

I got tagged again

Once more by @shimmy-sham-with-the-fam so let's get started

rules: answer these 92 statements and tag people

THE LAST:

1. Drink: this weird carbonated fruit drink at my school

2. Phone call: my best friend (lets call them them E) on Skype!

3. Text: E again but on tumblr

4. Song you listened to: Misunfortunate (Let's Talk) by Get Scared

5. Time you cried: like a couple hours ago

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: yea actually. We're actually still really great friends (cough I'm talking about E cough)

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: yup

8. Been cheated on: not that I know of

9. Lost someone special: not in a they died sort of way but yea

10. Been depressed: yup

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: nah

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14: Black, Green, and Blue

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yea, I made one on here

16. Fallen out of love: kinda sorta no yes idk

17. Laughed until you cried: of course I have

18. Found out someone was talking about you: in a gossip way yes, in a false rumors way yes as well

19. Met somebody who changed you: of course. Doesn't every one change you even if only slightly?

20. Found out who your friends are: In a found out who my true friends were then yea multiple times

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: I don't have facebook

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: I don't got a facebook My guy

23. Do you have any pets: yea, my family really likes animals so there's a lot

24. Do you want to change your name: I did. Not legally but still happened.

25: What did you do for your last birthday: I went to universal with my other best friend we're gonna call N

26. What time did you wake up: 7:45 thanks to my alarm

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: reading fan fiction tbh

28. Name something you cant wait for: I'm so hyped I can barely contain it during winter break im going to see E in person for the first time and!! I'm!!!!!! So!!!!!!!!! Excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: idk 8, 7 hours ago?

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: have my Ma not be stubborn and actually leave when someone kicks her out of their house

31: What are you listening to right now: myself chewing gum. Idk why I really like how it sounds

32. Have you ever talked to a person named tom: nope

33. some thing that is getting on your nerves: my Ma

34:most visited website: tie between ao3 and tumblr

35. mole/s: does this mean if I have any moles??? If so idk

36: mark/s: I have a birthmark on the back of my neck

37: Childhood dream: Astronaut. I still really love space but I'd more so wanna be an Astrophysicist.

38: Hair color: I have an undercut so the shaved parts are black and the long top part is dark green

39: long or short hair: Short, literally over half is shaved

40: Do u have a crush on anyone: I don't developed crushes unless I know a person first, I guess demisexual explains that if it makes sense?? But yeah no I can't just look at an aesthetically pleasing person and like them. That being said there's this really pretty girl I wanna get to know better in two of my classes.

41: What do you like about yourself?: I'm good at math..??? I like that that I'm naturally good at it and love to do it (except geometry. Fuck geometry)

42. Piercings: yea my ears and hoping for a lot more soon

43. Blood type: idk

44. Nickname: my names already hella short ad it is so no real need and idk how you'd make a nickname out of Sage.

45. Relationship status: single and really wanting some Pringles right about now

46. Zodiac: Aries

47. Pronouns: They/Them, He/Him, She/Her I don't really care

48: Favorite tv shows: Hunter x Hunter for sure

50. Right or left hand: right hand

51. Surgery: nah

52. Hair dyed in a different color: Nope. Not at all. Not a single strand. (I'm being sarcastic if ya can't tell )

53: Sport: nah, I can't run that well without hurting myself on solid ground and I have breathing problems so

55. Vacation: I wanna see a lot of Asian countries, how incredibly different they are to America is just so cool and fascinating

56: Pair of trainers: does... Does this mean shoes????? Help???? I wear black vans???????

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: currently I'm chewing gum

58. Drinking: nothing rn

59. I’m about to: sleep I got school and it's 12 am hah whoops

61: Waiting for: winter break so I can see E

62: Want: to go to see E cause my god man three years of being friends and like a year of that having been spent dating really makes ya hyped when you get an opportunity to see a person.

63. Get married: idk. If my partner wants to yea and if they're just like whatever than I'd like to cause it carries a lot of meaning to me but if they don't then I really don't care

64. Career: Astrophysicist or a programmer. I wanna make video games.

WHICH IS BETTER:

65. Hugs or kisses: tbh hugs cause they're so nice and make ya feel so warm and safe ah I love them

66. Lips or eyes: eyes. They're always so different and beautiful and you can see so much through them I love

67. Shorter or taller:????? I don't really care about height??

68. Older or younger: again I don't really care but not a large age difference

70. nice arms or nice stomach: I don't really care about this either??

71: sensitive or loud: depends on the situation

72. Hook up or relationship: I don't understand Hook ups so definitely relationships

73. troublemaker or hesitant: depends

HAVE YOU EVER:

74: Kissed a stranger: nah

75. Lost glasses/ contact lens: temporarily yes

76. Turned someone down: yea

78. Sex on the first date: hah that's funny

79. Had your heart broken: never romantically

80. Broken someone’s heart: I don't think so, I might have but that was a couple years ago and regarding that they're fine now

81. Been arrested: no

82. Cried when someone died: no one close to me has died, like I've had family close to me by blood die but I wasn't close to any of them so no

83. fallen for a friend: legit I can't if they aren't on already so yea

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. yourself: nah lol

85. Miracles: kinds

86. Love at first sight: nope. Gotta get to know a person before you can truly love them

87. Santa Claus: nah

OTHER:

90. current best friend name: E and N

91. Eye color: it changes between grey, blue, and green

92. favorite movie: LILO AND STICH OMG and mulan but LILO AND STICH

Wow that took forever and idk who's been tagged and who hasn't so just do this if ya want I guess

[trampstampmorgan]

Tagged by @doggofromchapter24  Thank you so much I feel great honor! Rules: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people THE LAST 1. drink: Ice tea 2. phone call: I called my older sister 3. text message: My older sister once again 4. song you listened to: Ah fuck I don’t remember, I’ve been listening to The Adventure Zone podcast lately so I can’t recall what songs I last listened to. 5. time you cried: Last Friday in class, those damn Thailand life insurance commercials really rip your heart out, or just any Asian commercials tbh.  A Chinese cellphone commercial made me cry.    7. kissed someone and regretted it: Can’t say I have 8. been cheated on:....I can’t say yes for sure, but I had a strong hunch. 9. lost someone special: My high school art teacher 10. been depressed: Yep, but I’m working on it the best I can. 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: I don’t throw up ever thank god. 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS 12. Wine red 13. Black

14. Emerald green 

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU 15. made new friends: yes 16. fallen out of love: nope 17. laughed until you cried: yes 18. found out someone was talking about you: Mhhmm 19. met someone who changed you: not that I know off 20. found out who your friends are: Yes 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: yes  GENERAL 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: I want to say all of them 23. do you have any pets: Two dogs 24. do you want to change your name: nope, even though it gets butchered a lot 25. what did you do for your last birthday: Went to TGIF with a few friends, I think we went bowling after too?? then we went to get boba after 26. what time did you wake up: 7 30 am 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: coming back from Norms 28. name something you can’t wait for: Hmmm...I guess to finally graduate with a BFA next spring  29. when was the last time you saw your mom: She is within my sight - wtf happened to number 30 lmao - 31. what are you listening to right now: I can hear my sister watching the Emmy’s 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: My sister has a friend named Tom, I’ve said hi a few times 33. something that is getting on your nerves: University parking, my parents and sister treating me like a child, petty people, like I’m petty, but I’m not petty towards people I know and care about? Like if you need to jab at your friend for something they didn’t do, you need to reevaluate your priorities. 34. most visited website: Tumblr, youtube, the CSUF page 35. hair colour: dark brown 36. long or short hair: short, slightly passed the ears 37. do you have a crush on someone: Nope 38. what do you like about yourself: ahh.. let me try to make my self loathing disappear for this minute, my lips, eyelashes, hands, and my capability of being able to get along with people. 39. want any piercings: I have a pair of earlobe piercings and a ear cartilage piercings.  I want a belly button piercing though   40. blood type: Like the most common one...I think it was b positive??? 41. nickname: I don’t go by nicknames. When I RPed as Okuyasu on tumblr, some people called me Oku 42. relationship status: single 43. zodiac: hardheaded Capricorn  44. pronouns: She/her 45. favourite tv show: Bungou Stray Dogs 46. tattoos: not yet 47. right or left handed: lefty 48. surgery: I had eye surgery once. Nothing too severe that I needed anesthesia  49. piercing: answered  in question 39 50. sport: I use to be in cross country. 51. vacation: - I want to go anywhere. I love to travel but I would really like to go to Guanajuato, Mexico again. 52. pair of trainers: likes running shoes? one? MORE GENERAL 53. eating: nothing 54. drinking: nothing 55. im about to: work on homework probably, or listen to TAZ 56. waiting for: nothing in particular 57. want: Peace of mind 58. get married: ahha, not really, marriage kind of scares me. 59. career: Animation, storyboard in general 60. hugs or kisses: I prefer hugs 61. lips or eyes: eyes 62. shorter or taller: taller 63. older or younger: i think I would prefer older, but I don’t really care either way 64. nice arms or nice stomach: uhh stomach I guess? 65. hook up or relationship: ....i’mma go with relationship 66. troublemaker or hesitant: leaning more towards hesitant HAVE YOU EVER 67. kissed a stranger: nope 68. drank hard liquor: yes 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: yes but my ass has great luck and i find them 70. turned someone down: yes, but not assertive enough. 71. sex on the first date: nope 72. broken someone’s heart: doubt it 73. had your heart broken: nope 74. been arrested: nope 75. cried when someone died: yes 76. fallen for a friend: i don’t recall DO YOU BELIEVE IN 77. yourself: Not always, but I’m trying my best 78. miracles: not in the religious way 79. love at first sight: only with dogs 80. santa claus: nope 81. kiss on the first date: yeah man do it if you want to and with consent 82. angels: no OTHER 83. current best friends’ names: Sandra, Damien, Alex (if he ever decides to call me again!)

84. eye colour: dark brown 85. favorite movie: How to Train your Dragon and Neighbors

And now to tag some peeps, since I was tagged by someone from the BSD fandom, I’m gonna try to tag people from there as well.  But feel free to participate as well

@pandarino90 @owlgirl1998 @little-axel @fy-soukoku @sh10ra

@thefandomtrashneko @fkoff18 @chuuyabelongswithhappiness @elincia

[nakayutah-archive]

get to know me tag

i was tagged by @bonbunkookie a few days ago.. im sorry im only doing this now :////

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

THE LAST… 1.Drink: chocolate milk 2.Phone call: my sister 3.Text message: “aksoakdkz he’s so cute” talking about yoongi..... bye :/// 4.Song you listened to: whalien 52 5.Time you cried: when i watched ano hana TT__TT

HAVE YOU EVER… 6.Dated someone twice: nope 7.Been cheated on: nope 8.Kissed someone and regretted it: nope 9.Lost someone special: no 10.Been depressed: yes 11.Gotten drunk and thrown up: nope i don’t drink

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: - bue - purple  - green

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… 15.Made new friends: yes 16.Fallen out of love: nope 17.Laughed until you cried: i never cry even when i laugh really really hard, but i did laugh uncontrollably 18.Found out someone was talking about you: no cause no one knows i exist :) 19.Met someone who changed you: nope 20.Found out who your true friends are: i know who they are for a long time now 21.Kissed someone on your Facebook list: nope

GENERAL… 22.How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them  23.Do you have any pets: no 24.Do you want to change your name: no 25.What did you do for your last birthday: absolutely nothin like every year 26.What time did you wake up: around noon i think 27.What were you doing at midnight last night: probably lying down listening to either kpop or french rap 28.Name something you cannot wait for: have a stable life :/ know what to do for a living and be done with uni  29.When was the last time you saw your mother: 0.1 seconds ago 30.What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: id change myself and my dad ://///// 31.What are you listening to right now: Happily ever after by red velvet!!!!!!!! 32.Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes 33.Something that is getting on your nerves: the paper that i still have to do for school so that i can fully graduate ( i didn’t change this one cause SAAAAME it’s making me mad lmaoo) 34.Most visited website: anime sites, tumblr and youtube 35.Elementary:  ✔ 36. High School: ✔ 37.College/university: almost for the first course,, still don’t know if i’ll get to do a master’s :/// 38.Hair color: dark brown (i wanna dye them these days... )  39.Long or short hair: to my shoulders when it’s curly  40.Do you have a crush on someone: nope 41.What do you like about yourself: my eyes 42.Piercings: ears and im planning to add 5 very soon   43.Blood type: A+ 44.Nickname: dima (only my mom tho) 45.Relationship status: single  46.Zodiac sign: taurus 47.Pronouns: She/her 48.Favorite tv show: GAME OF THRONES! and Hawaii 5-0 49.Tattoos: nope 50.Right or left hand: right

FIRST…

51.Surgery: never had one 52.Piercing: ears but cant remember when i was smol 54.Sport: played: none   Watched: football!!! my one and only love 55.Vacation: senegal 57.Eating: nothing 58.Drinking: nothing 59.I’m about to: die cause it’s el puto clasico tonight im not fuckin ready byeee 60.Listening to: Tu rêves _ Deen Burbigo  61.Waiting for: my fave club’s president to fuck off cause he’s killing us bye i hate him  62.Want: to drop my studies and stay home forever :// 63.Get married: idk 64.Career: I also don’t know

WHICH IS BETTER… (im guessing in a partner??) 65.Hugs or kisses: hugs 66.Lips or eyes: Eyes 67.Shorter or taller: taller 68.Older or younger: idk around my age 70.Nice arms or nice stomach: doesn’t matter 71.Sensitive or loud: sensitive 72.Hook up or relationship: relationship 73.Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER… 74.Kissed a stranger?: nope 75.Drank hard liquor?: nope 76.Lost glasses contact/lenses?: nope 77.Turned someone down?: nope 78.Sex on first date?: nope 79.Broken someone’s heart?: nope i don’t think so 80.Had your heart broken?: nope 81.Been arrested?: nope 82.Cried when someone died?: yes 83.Fallen for a friend?: nope

DO YOU BELIEVE IN… 84.Yourself?: ......................... 85.Miracles?: yes 86.Love at first sight?: no 87.Santa Claus?: nope 88.Kiss on the first date?: idk?? 89.Angels?: yes

OTHER… 90.Current best friend’s name: Gülay 91.Eye color: dark brown 92.Favorite movie: inception

i tag: @lqsoftie @suitupjonghyun @missminkim @yoonjinotp (4 people is enough lmaoo im too scared to tag 20 bye)

[adsuro]

92 truths

Tagged by @hiimcaroline

1. Drink: Water

2. Phone Call: Dad

3. Text: “Take hold for me” to @ninjawithbunnies and we were talking about CD… smth like this

4. Song you listened to: The Theory of Everything - Soundtrack ending scene (The Cinematic Orchestra - Arrival of the birds || B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L

5. Time you cried: I don’t remember and I don’t want to remember it.

HAVE YOU EVER…

6. Dated someone twice: Mhm.

7. Been cheated on: Yep.

8. Kissed someone and regretted it: Mhm.

9. Lost someone special: Yep.

10. Been depressed: Nope.

11. Gotten drunk and threw up: ONLY ONCE, OKAY? AND IT WAS BECAUSE STAIRS. I HATE STAIRS. I SWEAR. Fuckin’ third floor…

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 

Dark blue (like night sky) 

Red (like rose)

Green (like grass)

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

15. Made new friends: Yep. (and she knows it HI THEEREEEE)

16. Fallen out of love: YES. Damn Park Jimin. Nope.

17. Laughed until you cried: A LOT.

18. Found out someone was talking about you: I don’t know. Maybe?

19. Met someone who changed you: Hm… I don’t think so? Im very werid person. @likebreakofdawn have you changed me?

20. Found out who your true friends are: I think so

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: NO LOLOLOLOLO XD

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in really life?: Yyy… a lot of, but not everyone. And I’m hungry…

23. Do you have any pets: Yep! Dog - German Shepard - Luna & Rabbit - Pituś a.k.a Killer

24. Do you want to change your name?: Nope. I like my name.

25. What did you do for your last birthday?: …itwasmybestbirthdayever… … I mean… yeah, it was my best birthday. And Fal came to me ; _ ;

26. What time did you wake up?: 7:30, mostly.

27: What were you doing at midnight last night: Thinking about being hungy. I was sleeping.

28. Name something you cannot wait for: I want to meet Fal again… & and I want food. (still hungry)

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: A few seconds ago.

30. What is one thing you wish you can change about your life: I want food. Oh wait. Not that question. Wait… WHERE IS MY FOOD? ; _; I’m hungry.

31. What are you listening to right now:  The Theory of Everything - Soundtrack ending scene (The Cinematic Orchestra - Arrival of the birds) - yep, still listening to it

32. Have you talked to a person named Tom: yyy… yep! To Tomasz, not Tom.

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: studies.

34. Most visited website: Facebook & tumblr

35. Elementary: Done

36: High School: Done

37: College: still doing it.

38. Hair color: Brown or dark blonde. Idk.

39. Long or short hair: Short - bitch please.

40. Do you have a crush on someone: Park Jimin.

41. What do you like about yourself: Eyes and hands.

42. Piercings: Have.

43. Blood type: A RH+

44. Nickname: Adsuro, Adsu, Big Bro, Bro, Waifu, Husbando, Chi- I mean… it’s realy weird nickname so I don’t say it loud.

45. Relationship Status: Single. Mentally taken lol XDDD

46. Zodiac sign: Capricorn

47. Pronouns: You  - ???

48. Favorite tv show: Food… Y… I don’t watch tv, but only anime online! THEN KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN. 

49. Tattoos: FUCKING NOPE.

50. Right or left hand: Right. But left is good too.

FIRST…

51. Surgery: nope

52. Piercing: ears

53. Word: hungry

54. Sport: basketball

55. Vacation: Tunisia if we are talking about vacation abroad.

56. Pair of trainers: addidas

RECENTLY…

57. Eating: spagetti bolognese

58. Drinking: water

59. I’m about to: complete this tag

60. Listening to:   Skylar Grey - I Know You

61. Waiting for: DINNER

62. Want:  FOOD FOR THE FUCK SAKE XD 

DO YOU WANT TO…

63. Get married: Yeah! I really want to!

64. Have a career and if so what: Being a writer or screenwriter. Or both. Both is good.

WHICH IS BETTER…

65. Hugs or kisses: Hugs. And kisses. BOTH.

66. Lips or eyes: Eyes.

67. Shorter or taller: Taller but not too much. I’m short and… I’m a bit scared of tall people.

68. Older or younger: Older.

69. Spontaneous or romantic:  Spontaneous

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: arms… and stomach… I mean… idk….

71. Sensitive or loud: yy… WHY NOT BOTH? Loud?

72. Hook up or relationship: Dunno. Both?

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Troublemaker?

HAVE YOU EVER…

74. Kissed a stranger: Nope

75. Drank hard liquor: Oh yas xD Vodka!

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: Nope

77. Turned someone down: dunno

78. Sex on first date: Nope XD

79. Broken someone’s heart: Yes. I’m sorry…

80. Had your heart broken: Mhm.

81. Been arrested: Nope.

82. Cried when someone died: Nope.

83. Fallen for a friend: Yeah..

DO YOU BELIEVE…

84. In Yourself: NO XDDDD IT’S ENOUGH IF MY FRIENDS BELIVE IN ME.

85. Miracles: Hm… maybe!

86. Love at first sight: Nope.

87. Santa Claus: YAS.

88. Kiss on the first date: No.

89. Angels: Yas.

OTHER…

90. Current best friend: @likebreakofdawn @mikux3 @gejoong

91. Eye color: Blue/green, because heterochromia is good thing.

92. Favorite movie: Food Pirates of the Caribbean

I’m tagging: @likebreakofdawn @yukizus @ninjawithbunnies @gejoong HI THEEEEREEEEE.

[radiohorizon]

38 years later

200 things you can put in my ask 200: My crush’s name is: Lacey😛😍
199: I was born in: 1999
198: I am really: short, tired, sarcastic, idk??
197: My cellphone company is: verizon
196: My eye color is: blue/grey
195: My shoe size is: 3 in kids, 5 in womens
194: My ring size is: i have no idea, probably small but not too small cause i got far fingers
193: My height is: 5'1
192: I am allergic to: sulfa drugs and grass
191: My 1st car was: dont have one
190: My 1st job was: waitress at a local restaurant 
189: Last book you read: King Lear in school but Clockwork Princess for fun
188: My bed is: my favorite and super comfy and my best friend literally comes over just to nap in it
187: My pet: 2 cats, 1 dog
186: My best friend: Andrew, Elizabeth, Abby, Katie, Kristy, Annabelle, Kyle, Hailey, Stevie, Bea
185: My favorite shampoo is: Suave Ocean
184: Xbox or ps3: xbox
183: Piggy banks are: idrc about them??
182: In my pockets: dont have pockeys rn
181: On my calendar: nothings
180: Marriage is: in my future
179: Spongebob can: idrc cause idc
178: My mom: is my favorite person
177: The last three songs I bought were? Wasted youth by fletcher In too deep by the sweeplings Is there somewhere by halsey 176: Last YouTube video watched: “50 things about me” by Nina Jablonska
175: How many cousins do you have? A shit ton
174: Do you have any siblings? 1 sister and 1 brother that ive never met
173: Are your parents divorced? No and i never see them getting divorced. Theyre honestly the only reason i still believe in love
172: Are you taller than your mom? We’re the same height actually
171: Do you play an instrument? Nope
170: What did you do yesterday? Went to school, studied, talked to Lacey, went to sleep

[ I Believe In ]
169: Love at first sight: i dunno
168: Luck: yes
167: Fate: yes
166: Yourself: lmao no
165: Aliens: yes
164: Heaven: i think
163: Hell: yes
162: God: i believe in something
161: Horoscopes: im not sure
160: Soul mates: yes
159: Ghosts: yes
158: Gay Marriage: duh
157: War: i dont really know
156: Orbs: yes
155: Magic: yes

[ This or That ]
154: Hugs or Kisses: hugs
153: Drunk or High: high
152: Phone or Online: depends
151: Red heads or Black haired: dont care
150: Blondes or Brunettes: dont care
149: Hot or cold: cold
148: Summer or winter: summer
147: Autumn or Spring: autumn
146: Chocolate or vanilla: depends because i love chocolate but it gives me headaches
145: Night or Day: night
144: Oranges or Apples: oranges
143: Curly or Straight hair: honestly dont care
142: McDonalds or Burger King: burger king for burgers, mcdonalds for snack wrap
141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: milk chocolate
140: Mac or PC: PC
139: Flip flops or high heals: depends
138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: sweet and poor
137: Coke or Pepsi: coke
136: Hillary or Obama: OBAMA OBAMA OBAMA OBAMA OBAMA OBAMA 
135: Burried or cremated: buried in the cemetery up the road from where i live
134: Singing or Dancing: dancing
133: Coach or Chanel: dont care
132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: who are they?
131: Small town or Big city: small town
130: Wal-Mart or Target: how bout kohls
129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: adam Sandler
128: Manicure or Pedicure: manicure because im reallllly ticklish on my feet and i end up flinching the whole time
127: East Coast or West Coast: only ever been on the east coast so idrk
126: Your Birthday or Christmas: christmas
125: Chocolate or Flowers: chocolate
124: Disney or Six Flags: disney!!!
123: Yankees or Red Sox: how bout Orioles

[ Here’s What I Think About ]
122: War: i respect the people fighting for our country and for others, but i wish everyone could just stop killing eachother
121: George Bush: gross
120: Gay Marriage: Gaaaaayyyyyy
119: The presidential election: grosser
118: Abortion: no judgement on whether or not someone decides to get one. Personally i dont think i could, but will always vote pro choice
117: MySpace: never had one so idk
116: Reality TV: can be entertaining but usually really dumb
115: Parents: i love them more than anything
114: Back stabbers: fuck you
113: Ebay: sketchy
112: Facebook: people are annoying and i hate that i live in hick central
111: Work: dont have ajob but am trying to get one
110: My Neighbors: since 3 of my best friends are my neighbors, i guess theyre alright
109: Gas Prices: way too fucking high
108: Designer Clothes: dont care about them UNLESS its converse because thats my shit right there
107: College: start it in 5 months :(
106: Sports: love em but suck at em
105: My family: my rock and support, but they piss me off a lot
104: The future: scares the fuck out of me

[ Last time I ]
103: Hugged someone: a few ninutes ago
102: Last time you ate: few hours ago
101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: about 2-3 weeks ago at the gym
100: Cried in front of someone: a few weeks ago i cried in front of abby because i found out kelsey has a girlfriend
99: Went to a movie theater: two weekends ago and saw Get Out and holy shit its good
98: Took a vacation: 2-3 years ago
97: Swam in a pool: 2 years ago i think
96: Changed a diaper: never
95: Got my nails done: little over a month ago
94: Went to a wedding: last summer
93: Broke a bone: never
92: Got a peircing: last spring
91: Broke the law: never i think?
90: Texted: about 2 seconds ago i texted Lacey

[ MISC ]
89: Who makes you laugh the most: My lunch table
88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my cats and my moms hugs
87: The last movie I saw: i saw get out in theaters but watched thunderbirds for the millionth time in art so im a happy camper
86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: getting the fuck away from this place and these memories
85: The thing im not looking forward to: graduating, starting college, moving away, leaving my friends, leaving my animals, growing up, the list could go on forever
84: People call me: elizabeth, beth, bethany, lizzy, liz, bethyboo, bethers, bethy,
83: The most difficult thing to do is: move on and let go
82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: nope
81: My zodiac sign is: pisces
80: The first person i talked to today was: lacey or bea idrk
79: First time you had a crush: kindergarten
78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: no one, im pretty good with keeping a good face on
77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: i have no idea
76: Right now I am talking to: Lace💜👑
75: What are you going to do when you grow up: homicide detective or BAU
74: I have/will get a job: soon hopefully
73: Tomorrow: school, test, paint, facetime this beautiful girl, sleep
72: Today: school, test, painted, studied
71: Next Summer: senior weeek🤙🏻 and hopefully just simple hangouts with friends
70: Next Weekend: Stevenson university visit
69: I have these pets: 2 cats (sadie and ziva) and 1 dog (westen oliver)
68: The worst sound in the world: hearing people chew or breathe hard
67: The person that makes me cry the most is: my ex
66: People that make you happy: my friends and parents
65: Last time I cried: last night
64: My friends are: the only reason im alive
63: My computer is: a Windows something
62: My School: sucks
61: My Car: doesnt exist
60: I lose all respect for people who: judge others with no reason and refuse to be nice
59: The movie I cried at was: if I stay and hunger games trilogy
58: Your hair color is: dirty blonde/ light brown
57: TV shows you watch: criminal minds, shameless, the 100, friends, the fosters, lie to me, NCIS, scooby doo
56: Favorite web site: tumblr 
55: Your dream vacation: a lake house
54: The worst pain I was ever in was: recovery after my heart surgery and when they had to take out my chest tubes
53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium
52: My room is: messy but my favorite place
51: My favorite celebrity is: jennifer lawrence or ryan Reynolds or josh hucherson or Noel Fisher
50: Where would you like to be: childhood
49: Do you want children: yes
48: Ever been in love: ye
47: Who’s your best friend: the twins, fergs, abby, rat pack, stevie, hailey, bea
46: More guy friends or girl friends: girl friends
45: One thing that makes you feel great is: gaining more flexibility
44: One person that you wish you could see right now: jarred
43: Do you have a 5 year plan: not really
42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: sorta
41: Have you pre-named your children: yepp. Daesin, Fiona, tegan and ryan
40: Last person I got mad at: my dad
39: I would like to move to: maryland or deleware
38: I wish I was a professional: dancer

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37: Candy: gummy bears and kit kats or smarties
36: Vehicle: jeep Cherokee 
35: President: OBAMA
34: State visited: Florida
33: Cellphone provider: dunno
32: Athlete: Misty Copeland
31: Actor: Ryan Reynolds and Noel Fisher
30: Actress: Jennifer Lawrence
29: Singer: Amy Lee
28: Band: Evanescence
27: Clothing store: KOHLS
26: Grocery store: giant
25: TV show: shameless
24: Movie: thunderbirds or chitty chitty bang bang
23: Website: tumblr
22: Animal: monkey
21: Theme park: disney
20: Holiday: halloween
19: Sport to watch: allstar cheerleading or soccer
18: Sport to play: soccer
17: Magazine: dont have one but if i did i guess people?
16: Book: WAYYY too many
15: Day of the week: wednesday
14: Beach: bethany beach
13: Concert attended: evanescence even tho i couldnt see shit
12: Thing to cook: grilled cheese
11: Food: cheeseburger
10: Restaurant: green turtle
9: Radio station: 106.5
8: Yankee candle scent: i dunno
7: Perfume: hollister or ed hardy
6: Flower: rose
5: Color: purple
4: Talk show host: my girl ellen
3: Comedian: john Maloney, kevin heart, illiza shelshinger 
2: Dog breed: golden retriever 
1: Did you answer all these truthfully? Yeppers

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So I was tagged by @just-plain-aiden to do a tag thingy!!! I don't really care about the rules but I love these things so I'mma do it anyway

LAST:

[1] drink: water, bc I'm basic like that

2] phone call: like, one I answered? shit man, idk. The most recent call to my phone was for a bill tho

[3] text message: My Tumblr auth code

[4] song you listened to: "Tous les Memes" by Stromae (the last English song I listened to was "Guillotine"...)

[5] time you cried: not recently enough my friend

HAVE YOU EVER…

[6] dated someone twice: yes, bad idea, 0/10 would not recommend

[7] been cheated on: .... no?

[8] kissed someone and regretted it:  yeah x.x

[9] lost someone special: yeah, my grandmother

[10] been depressed: it's p much a constant thing now???

11] gotten drunk and thrown up: it is not fun

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS:

[12] blue!!!!!!

[13] purple

[14] mint! (that weird green/blue bullshit color)

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

[15] made new friends:  oui

[16] fallen out of love: DAMN RIGHT, FUCKIN FREEEEEEE

[17] laughed until you cried: yes. actually I think that has happened more recently than actual crying

[18] found out someone was talking about you: idk???

[19] met someone who changed you: I don't think so?

20] found out who your true friends are: already knew, bruh

[21] kissed someone on your facebook list: yes, actually

[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: like... all of them? I think that maybe 2% of my friends I don't actually know

[23] do you have any pets: three dogs, Charlie, Taz, and Flea Biscuit; three cats, Ivory, Tubbs, and Spooky

[24] do you want to change your name: nah. I use Crys online, that's good enough for me. although I went through a phase where I REALLY wanted to change my last name bc it's gross 

[25] what did you do for your last birthday: GOT TURNT and by turnt I mean I had a single drink at dinner and that's about it OH I WENT ICE SKATING

[26] what time did you wake up: WHOO BOY I have not slept since I woke up at 7AM Friday morning (it is currently 12:29AM Sunday...)

[27] what were you doing at midnight last night: I was at work!

[28] name something you cannot wait for: part of me wants to say the Sweet Embrace of Death but I'm really just ready to go to medical school like fuck this

[29] when was the last time you saw your mother: Thursday??? I think???

[30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: my propensity for procrastination

[31] what are you listening to right now: the various beeps of a hospital (Guillotine is stuck in my head on repeat)

[32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: ... I don't think I have

[33] something that is getting on your nerves: my roots showing through the hair dye

[34] most visited website: this hellhole of a website (I use Instagram a lot more now???)

[35] elementary: I am unsure of the question??? Did I go to elementary school, is that the question? I assume so. Yes, I did. I loved it.

[36] high school: literally fuck high school

[37] college: GRADUATING THIS YEAR BRUH

[38] hair color: dark brown with red, but right now it's bright ass pink

[39] long or short hair: I got short hair bruh, easier to deal with

[40] do you have a crush on someone: nah, relationships scare me rn

[41] what do you like about yourself?: my eye color??? my ear for tone???

[42] piercings: I have two holes in each ear lobe and one in my cartilage

[43] blood type: A positive!

[44] nickname: Crys on here, but irl it's Brie like the goddamn cheese

[45] relationship status: single Pringle

[46] zodiac sign: Aquarius~

[47] pronouns: she/her

[48] fav tv show: this is not a fair question bc it changes; I am currently in Voltron hell, but FMA: B will always be my Number One anime

[49] tattoos: lmao I have five; one that is half of the phrase "Together forever, never apart; maybe in distance, but never in heart" (my sister has the first half, I have the second); the second is a watercolor style pink ribbon; the third is a Celtic knot for sisterhood; the fourth is a tree of life with a DNA trunk and birds in it; the fifth is a line from "Iridescent" by Linkin Park. I also have a teeny star on the inside of my wrist

oh lol and I have a plan to get two more in April at least

[50] right or left handed: right handed, but I play saxophone and am learning to play guitar and that's basically like being ambidextrous right

FIRST…

[51] surgery: wisdom teeth removal!

[52] piercing: my ears when I was like 7

[53] best friend : a girl in 1st grade that I don't talk to anymore

[54] sport: marching band bro. fight me

[55] vacation: Florida for family visits; my first out of country visit was Mexico

[56] pair of trainers: ... like, sneakers? shit man idk that was so long ago

RIGHT NOW…

[57] eating: nothing, unfortunately. might heat up some pizza.

[58] drinking: water

[59] i’m about to: actually focus on my job 

60] listening to: nothing

[61] waiting for: a chance to sleep properly, I am so tired 

[62] want: sleep for a week and binge watch anime

[63] get married: I am nowhere near ready for that. maybe???

64] career: Im gonna be some sort of surgeon. thinking orthopedic.

WHICH IS BETTER…

[65] hugs or kisses: hugs. give me all the cuddles.

[66] lips or eyes: eyes.

[67] shorter or taller: I prefer taller

[68] older or younger: I don't really care???

[69] romantic or spontaneous: romantic. I need structure in my life

[70] nice arms or nice stomach: arms, I think.

[71] sensitive or loud: ???? I have no clue

[72] hook up or relationship: at this point, neither. but if I had to choose, hookup. relationships are scary

73] troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant. think that shit through

HAVE YOU EVER…

[74] kissed a stranger? nah

[75] drank hard liquor? lmao its pretty much all I drink

[76] lost glasses/contact lenses? so many contacts have been lost to the Void

[77] turned someone down: yup

[78] sex on first date? definitely not for me

[79] broken someone’s heart? depends on who you ask

[80] had your own heart broken? yeah, wont make that mistake again

81] been arrested? no but I have had a parking ticket, I'm so awful I know

[82] cried when someone died? yup

[83] fallen for a friend: yeah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

[84] yourself? I WILL BECOME HOKAGE (genuinely idk)

[85] miracles? okay the fact that we exist at all and can mount an immune response to literally any organic molecule is a miracle and I will fight anyone who says otherwise

[86] love at first sight? nah

[87] santa claus? hes clearly real 

[88] kiss on the first date? if you like em, why not???

[89] angels? .... meeehhh TECHNICALLY yes bc im hard polytheist....

OTHER…

[90] current best friend’s name: Mikaela and Erin <3

[91] eye colour: grey!!! fuck u theyre not blue or green

[92] favourite movie: Spirited Away probably

wow this took longer than expected

anyway now you know how lame I am even tho only ONE of you asked <3

if you do this, send me a link bc I'm nosy