#my first stuckony fic yay!

[soliloquent-stark]

🎶 you are the sweetest melody i never sung by soliloquent

5,6k words // pairing: bucky barnes & tony stark & steve rogers

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“A soft tune cuts through his thoughts and seeps right in between the cracks of his broken mind. It sounds like a slow, gentle piano song, and it soothes his senses, numbs his tension, and lulls him to the smooth edge of sleep.”

or: Bucky struggles with insomnia, Tony plays the piano, and Steve just wants the two most important men in his life to get along.

written for @sunnysideprincess as part of the @stuckonyvalentinecards 2024 event

[kandisheek]

FIC REC WEEK 40 – JEALOUSY

out of my mind by xWinterDreamsx

Pairing: Steve/Tony Rating: T Words: 1,329 Tags: Movie Night, Pining, First Kiss

Summary: It's movie night and all the Avengers are there. Well. Everyone but Tony.

Reasons why I love it: Yay for Steve being brave and making the first move! I love their dialogue here, it fits their characters so well. And the resolution is super sweet. Definitely check this one out if you haven't, it's amazing.

Like a Hurricane by resurrectedhippo

Pairing: Steve/Tony, Tony/Rumiko Rating: E Words: 6,897 Tags: Pining, Blindfolds, Identity Porn

Summary: Hope burgeons in his breastbone, but it's short lived. There was once a time Steve told the world to stay loyal to the dream. Now, he knows that on the other side of that dream is disappointment. It’s true. Tony’s the best of them. The best at breaking Steve’s heart, too. -- I’d happily share him for the night, Captain! But just the night!

Reasons why I love it: Holy fuck. I always knew that hippo is an angst master, but this fic just fucking broke me, it hurts so good. The smut is perfect, and Steve's inner turmoil is so raw that it gets right under my skin. I loved every second of it, and I hope you go and experience it for yourself.

thread the needle by meidui

Pairing: Steve/Bucky, Steve/Tony, Steve/Bucky/Tony Rating: E Words: 3,133 Tags: Partner Sharing, Spitroasting, Workshop Sex

Summary: It’s bad that Tony is alone in his workshop when he should be turning in for the night because he can’t stop thinking about Steve Rogers. It’s bad because that boy isn’t his, not even if his breath caught and his cheeks turned red whenever he came in for a uniform fitting and Tony’s hands grazed his bare skin. From the first time they met, Tony has known who Steve belonged to, and it’s that beautiful dark haired young man who’s always at his back. James fucking Barnes.

Reasons why I love it: Oooh, I sense some Stuckony romance in the very near future! The smut is fantastic - I always love a submissive Steve, and Bucky and Tony having a dick measuring contest over him makes it even better. Definitely check this one out, it's wonderful.

Spring Child by maddy_does (favefangirl)

Pairing: Steve/Tony Rating: M Words: 5,460 Tags: Age Difference, Period-Typical Homophobia, Hopeful Ending

Summary: Tony knows he’s been second best to Howard since the day they pulled Steve fucking Rogers out of the Arctic. America’s wartime hero, Howard’s greatest creation, the man, the myth, the legend. It’s bad enough playing second best to your parents if you’re just an average guy, but when you’ve achieved two masters in engineering by the time you’re 19, and you still don’t make the grade? That’s shitty. The year is 1991. Steve Rogers has been out of the ice for two years. Tony can't decide if he loves or hates him more.

Reasons why I love it: Holy hell, I just want to grab Howard and shake him until he realizes what he has in Tony. The inner conflict that both Tony and Steve struggle with is fantastic, and I absolutely love the ending. I hope you give this one a shot, because I bet you'll love it just as much as I do!

Get Tsum One New by nightwalker

Pairing: Steve/Tony Rating: M Words: 3,910 Tags: Domestic Fluff, Misunderstandings, Tsum Tsums

Summary: aka: Steve's Rival

Reasons why I love it: Aw, poor Cap, I totally get why he's upset. Thankfully Tony gives him the hug he so desperately needs at the end. This fic is everything – angsty, sweet and funny in turns – and I really hope you check it out for yourself if you haven't, because it's amazing.

[festiveferret]

Wipdate!

Wow, okay apparently it’s been a REALLY long time since I’ve done one of these, so here we go! (Sorry there are so many!!)

Posted:

Modern Art - Steve overhears Tony talking about feelings Blue Tide, Graveside - WI, mermaid!Tony, comic collab with @vindemiatrix-moonpies You’re Home - H/C time travelling Steve comic collab with @hundredthousands Hollow - post!Benetar Tony recovering with Steve’s help That Twin Thing - Greg ponders Tony’s growing relationship with Steve (Ults). Collab for STG with @sirsapling and @hundredthousands Double Whammy - Double truth spell for STG with hollyandvice Fallen Angel - Remix for an STG remix chain! Wingfic :D Of Strippers and Snow Shovels by betheflame - podfic! Hold Out Your Delicate Hands by Kiyaar - live podfic performed with @kiyaar! Fuddy Duddy - College AU - Steve might not be the fuddy duddy he seems at first glance Saffron - Stripper Tony and Ults!Steve Best Fansite Ever!! - Tony made a Cap fansite in the 90s... someone finds it White Lies [The True Things Remix] - Remix for STG, Ults! Steve Tony Games Fills - All my fills for STG 2021 Citation Needed - Collab with @elwenyere - Prof!Tony with bonus art! The Journey - Hooker!Steve loses his job Flea’s Company - Stuckony: Steve has a secret... No. - Tony Stark tweets a picture of Steve Blockbuster - WI, gloryhole porn/meetcute Speakeasy; Love Hard - 1920s prohibition AU collab feat. forbidden gay love! Poker! Drinking! BEAUTIFUL ART FROM @thirstinart Beyond Form - Winteriron, vet!Tony & werewolf!Bucky Key Holder - Steve’s cock cage gets stuck on Cows - Meet cute with Farmer Tony and Cap Steve All Day - Stucky porn, FWB turned....?? Peanuts 2 - Sequel to soulmates ficlet ‘Peanuts’ Surprise - Steve hooked up with Tony Stark a few weeks ago and now he has something he has to tell him... Booty Call - Steve doesn’t understand the different between a butt dial and a booty call A Classic - Stuckony - stuck in a safehouse sex is a classic... Snickerdoodles and Cinnamon Buns - WI, bakery, ABO meetcute A Tended Garden - Sequel to Love Match, regency ABO love fluff Gimmie Something Sweet - Sugar Baby Tony Spark(y)s Fly - Dog trainer Steve, single dad and puppy owner Tony

Updating:

A Good Thing - Comic collab with Askafroa - Alpha!Tony and Omega!Therapist!Steve Yet I Will Try the Last - Truck Stop Hooker AU with hooker!Steve and flashy billionaire, Tony Stark. Up to chapter four! Held Remix - A rewrite of Held with Tony as the sub and Steve as the Dom. Up to chapter twenty-nine. (Planning to dive in again in the new year!)

Beta Queue: 

Comfortable - A  little Stony ficlet post-WS Doorway Omega - ABO Stony AU Abusive Brock - Steve is Tony’s PA. He’s also in a shitty relationship with Brock Do Not Reply - Y’all... I started this fic in 2017 and somehow this month I just opened it and... finished it?? WTF. It’s been sitting at 23k for literal years without a word on it, and now it’s 31k and finished im

Wips:

1) For MTH, I still have 2020′s Band AU to start posting. I have about 1200 words left to write on it, so it should start posting ANY MINUTE!! I also have a Winteriron mechnic!Bucky AU for @rise-up-ting-ting-like-glitter that’s about halfway done!

2) I’m working on an Arranged Marriage ABO Stony fic for my darling @betheflame which is also about halfway done :D

3) Venom 2 has got me in a Venom mood again and I’m trying to finish my Symbrock fic I started to write minutes after seeing the first movie, oh so many moons ago. I still love this fic, but damn, it’s like... too similar to the second movie in some ways, loooool (it’s basically a love letter to @willidothefandango)

4) I have a Twilight AU that’s a fucking BLAST to write, and I’m looking forward to getting some other things out of the way so I can work on it more.

5) Working on some old WIPS, some more stuff for Bday Bingo 2020. Trying to clean up the old hutch before the New Year.

6) Working on a secret sexy collab!

I did Nano this year and won (yay!) so Nov has mostly been writing and not much editing, but Dec will be about editing and getting things posted. I’m hoping to start 2022 with my obligations/promised stuff done or mostly done so I can fly with a little more freeform next year! Thanks for reading <3

[tales-and-thoughts]

TAG GAME: AO3 #001

I got tagged by my love @alistrawrites on my main blog and this is actually a tagging game I haven't done before! Yay!

1. How many works do you have on Ao3?

20

2. What is your total Ao3 word count?

192,915

3. How many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

On AO3 there is only Marvel (and probably will be for a long time). If you count my fics before that I have to add Harry Potter, Twilight, The Hunger Games, various YouTubers, Criminal Minds, Navy CIS and The Mentalist.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

When It Rains, It Purrs (Winteriron, 18k, T) After Bucky has freed himself from Hydra, he lives a modest life in a little suburb in Indiana where he makes a living by helping people to start over. His job is unconventional, dangerous and not always legal but he is glad to be doing some good in his own way.

When an injured stray cat finds him one night he can't help but bring the helpless animal to the closest veterinarian.

Dr Tony Stark patches her up but Bucky had not expected to become a pet owner just like that. He is not enthusiastic, not prepared and definitely not suited for a pet. Or a boyfriend.

Fortunately, neither the cat nor Tony do care at all, leading Bucky down a road that holds lots of treats, fur everywhere and a handsome vet. Or: Two men and a cat and everyone catch feelings.

A Shoulder To Lean On (Stony, 5k, E) Steve's Valentine's Day ends in a disappointment.

Tony's Valentine's Day ends in a break-up.

When the two friends meet that night they both have nothing left to lose and decide to give this cursed day a Happy End.

Private Audience (Stony, 3.5k, E)

Professor Rogers is the most coveted professor in the entire university and it is no secret that the majority would love to spend a night with him. When he summons his student Tony to his office, the latter decides to seize the opportunity and turn his daydreams into reality.

Cuddles and Lullabies (Stuckony, 1.5k, G) It's not unusual that Steve has nightmares. Even when he shares a bed with his boyfriends Tony and Bucky, the bad dreams haunt him from time to time. But this particular night Tony can't pull him out of them like he usually can, so he goes to great lengths to provide some comfort.

Flipping the Pages (Stony, 5k, T)

When Steve has to leave his flat, he rushes to move in with his new boyfriend Tony. While unpacking his things, a photo album falls into his hands and he curiously flips through it, not knowing that by doing so he is putting Tony in an unpleasant situation.

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"This is private" he hissed, crossing his arms over the book as he pressed it tightly against his chest. Steve felt guilty right away.

5. Do you respond to comments, why or why not?

Yes. Sometimes it takes me a few days or weeks, but I always want to let people know I appreciate their comments.

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

Definitely One Out Of Six (Stucky, 7.5k, E). My first (and so far only) dark fic with not only a lot of angst but also evil!Tony and some very nasty torturing...

7. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve ever written?

None (yet). Is it a crossover if the AU is clearly inspired by some other media? Because if, I have a few planned... somewhere in my humongous pile of wips.

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Thankfully not.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I do. Sometimes. And it's gay.

But I always write plot in my porn.

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I don't think so... or at least it was never brought to my attention.

11. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nope. Only co-developed. But I did all the actual writing.

12. What’s your all time favourite ship?

I am a proud multishipper and all my ships have my heart forever. But I keep gravitating towards Stony for several reasons. They have been my first, biggest Marvel ship and will stay my comfort ship.

13. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Harry Potter... just like probably everyone else around.

14. What’s your favourite fic you’ve written?

I can't possibly pick just one. I can't.

When It Rains, It Purrs (Winteriron, 18k, T) is definitely up there because Alpine. My completely self-indulgent figure skating AU Dancing On The Edge (Stony, 24k, G, tbc) has to be in the list as well, and I loved the world I built for Until Sunrise (Stucky, 2.5k, G) But I could list a couple more because generally speaking, I like every fic I've published.

I tag @dephinecormier , @pumpkinnubbin and @gottalovev to do this, as well as everyone else who wants to give it a go.

[stuckyflangst]

My first fanfic

I was never into fanfic in the early days of the internet (which I was around for). While I can now mourn the delights I could have found in X-Files fanfic, or Buffy fanfic in my teens and early twenties, I was too into serious literature back then. (Also not serious literature, but definitely the kind that was in books with covers and copyright and stuff).

Last year I went to see Avengers: Endgame, after low key shipping Stucky since Captain America: TFA. And man was I disappointed by Endgame. So I’m complaining to my partner, and then I was like - don’t people on the interwebs fix the endings of things they don’t like.

And thus began a yearlong obsession with reading a LOT of Stucky fics. Also occasionally branching into Sam/Steve/Bucky, WinterFalcon, even Stuckony a few times, and a few memorable Barbershop Quartet fics with Steve/Bucky/Sam/Natasha. Some have been truly great works, some have been good, some have been terrible.

And wow, I had a lot of fun, even if no one in my life shared my hobby. To be fair most of my friends indulged me, and thought it was kind of endearing, rather than socially shaming me.

And then I finally though - why don’t I just write one? I’ve had a poetry book published, and a couple of short stories, but I’ve never committed to “being a writer”. I’ve also had pretty terrible writers block and haven’t written anything much for two years.

Then I sat down to write my Stucky story and I have just pumped out nearly 20,000 words in three weeks. It was amazing how letting go of feeling like I should write something ‘great’ and ‘worthy’ just freed me up. Instead I just wrote something that I wanted to, that I liked (mostly). And it felt so nice that other people were reading it, having fun.

So yay for AO3, yay for discovering awesome nerdy pursuits in your 30s.

[tehroserose]

Author game

  My first time being tagged for anything! Yay!                                          

Tagged by: @juuls

Author Name: RoseRose

Fandoms You Write For: MCU, though I have one fic that’s a Mercy Thompson/Highlander crossover

Where You Post: AO3

Most Popular One-Shot: By hits, Compatible, which is a BDSM story with Tiny Dom Steve and Sub!Tony (the beginning of a series), and by kudos, Who’s a Good Tiger? which is Stuckony fluff and crack through Sam Wilson’s eyes

Most Popular Multi-Chapter Story: What’s That Sound?, a Stuckony porn with plot, involving laundry

Favourite Story You Wrote: Honestly, I’m not sure. Maybe my short, introspective Bucky piece that has almost no kudos, was incredibly painful to write, but absolutely necessary? It was probably the most cathartic piece of writing. Ware the warnings. It is ANGSTY, but it’s here: Paschal Lamb

Story You Were Nervous to Post:

Sometimes Safety Comes From an Unexpected Place. That fic has all sorts of uncomfortable themes... I wrote it, but I was very nervous that I hadn’t handled all the issues in the fic properly. If you read it, watch the tags.

How Do You Choose Your Titles: I sit there and hope something comes to me. If it doesn’t, I go through song lyrics in my head. If that doesn’t work, I string words together and go “Fuck it.”

Do You Outline: Only in my head.

Complete: 23

In-Progress: Since the World’s Been Turning: A Stony slow build where Tony is catching Steve up to the present- set in a 2012 world where Steve came back from his road trip early and ended up in the tower. Currently haven’t been working on it, but it is not abandoned, just waiting for inspiration. A new, untitled Tiny Dom Steve: Shibari with flowers!

An untitled Hallmark event fic (currently in beta): Sam/Bucky no powers AU where they are stuck sharing a rental car!

My MRBB: It’s a secret until posting My IMBB: Barely started, but counts as in-progress, right?

Coming Soon/Not Yet Started: Unknown MTH fic, and two unknown MTH poems. Another Tiny Dom Steve (the in-progress one ended up with sequel bait)

Do You Accept Prompts: Haven’t ever tried? I’m busy now,

Upcoming Story You Are Most Excited to Write: Not sure, I tend to circle through with being excited with one, then the next

Tagging:

@gabby227 @orbingarrow @rebelmeg @the-kitteh @anyone else who wants to

[cap-sweet-and-salty-sadness]

Hee hee, question #1: favorite fic and why?

Hey um...

So I can’t give you one (1) favourite fic, but I can share a few who definitely had an impact on me.

Nothing’s ever broken (They’re just pieces on the ground) is my first Cullrian contribution to the fandom and will always be close to my heart because a lot of Cullen’s anxiety symptoms were symptoms I was experimenting at the time. I was nowhere near as aware of myself as an individual and writing has always been a form of therapy for me, so there’s a lot of my own insecurities projected in that story.

Moonlit is a Fenris/Dorian story in which Fenris deals with the recent death of his husband Hawke, his mourning and slow recovery towards the blossom of a new, fragile love. There’s lots of angst and bittersweet memories and Fenris is demisexual, so yay representation! It’s just a beautiful memory when I remember having written it.

Teardrops Burn is a Stuckony story I recently finished, you probably heard me rant about it on the Discord. It’s focused on Bucky’s self-recovery after he escapes Hydra, and he decides to use his skills to take down as many bad people as he can and destroy Hydra bases with the help of an anonymous tip (youknowhoiam@gmail.com). Mental disorders are something I’m always interesting in exploring, and this story tackles PTSD, depression and anxiety. Again, some of Bucky’s symptoms are reflections of my own, like hypnogogia and insomnia and thoughts pattern and how he’s trying to recover on his own by his own terms. Also I love me some action scenes and doing research on lots of stuff. I don’t have my notebook with me, but I think Bucky explores about 15 to 20 countries and speaks a dozen languages? So needless to say Google thinks I’m really interesting in going on a trip.

10 Questions Every Fic Writer Secretly Wants to be Asked

[breyito]

Interruptions

Summary:  When Tony suddenly finds a coffee and a note waiting for him one morning, he thinks it's cute. When it starts happening every morning, he gets curious. And JARVIS won't help him, so... What is an Omega to do, except hire a former assasin/spy to help him out?

Pairing: James ‘Bucky’ Barnes/Tony Stark

Tags: Alpha/Beta/Omega dynamics. Alpha Bucky. Omega Tony. Team as Family. First Kiss. 

Notes: Well. This is my first time writing/posting something not Stony/Stuckony. I am one step closer to becoming a Tony multishipper! Yay. Anyways, assignment for Winteriron Spring Fling (go check it out, the works are out!) for Iron Eyes over at A03, you can read it there if you want. First time writing A/B/O too, actually. This is the prompts I filled: 3. Tony has a secret admirer. He knows the person must live in the tower, because every morning there is a cute note on his favorite coffee mug. But even Jarvis doesn't want to help him out. Tony hires Bucky to catch the person sending him cute notes. Unaware that his secret admirer is Bucky. and 1. First kiss (Avengers Academy, MCU)

Without further due, the fic!

It was a depressing morning in New York. Rain was just pouring down the sky, and Tony would have seriously asked Thor if he had been dumped, had the god been in the Tower.  The engineer had wanted to sleep in, for once (he had even left the lab when JARVIS told him a rainstorm was approaching, because there’s nothing more soothing than sleeping with the sound of raindrops on your windows), but of course he couldn’t. He had a meeting with a company from Japan, which was interested in clean energy. Pepper had made sure his schedule was clear for it, and the Beta would kill him if he missed such an important meeting.

Hence the depressing morning: rain was to be enjoyed from the comfort of one’s bed, not stuck in traffic or listening to people talk about numbers for five hours straight.

Anyway, Tony was walking towards the kitchen, because he needed a double dose of caffeine, since no doubt the Alphas of the Japanese company would try his patience. It wasn’t his fault people still thought Omegas weren’t apt for business. Tony hated the archaic views some people still deferred to, when dealing with Omegas. Traditionalism was all well and good when it came to respecting one’s parents and respecting the origins of your culture and your religions and such; but when Alphas used it as an excuse to cut off a sector of the population from improving themselves? Yeah, that was a hard pass. And he just knew he would have to listen to at least one quip about his second-gender, no matter how many times he had proved his intelligence, power or ruthlessness. All Alphas were like that.

He stopped cold when he saw his favorite travel mug (aka the biggest one he owed and that was really big, because he had it custom made) filled to the brim with his favorite coffee combination, and a little sticky note on the cap besides the mug.

“Don’t let those assholes bother you. Enjoy the rain!”

Tony was puzzled, because while everyone in the team always knew when he was going to be unavailable (security protocols and all that), most of them didn’t care to learn about who he was meeting with (unless it was Stone or Bain or some mayor pest like those, because the Avengers Pack was very protective of their Omega with people that had harmed him before); because they knew he could handle almost everything by himself. He had done so for years, hell decades, before they showed up. But still, it was nice to know someone cared. He lifted the paper to his nose and inhaled. The note still had the faint traces of Alpha scent, fading as he smelled it.

Okay, maybe not all Alphas are like that, Tony thought, smiling a bit.

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If it had been a one-off, Tony would have forgotten about it pretty quickly. But it kept happening. The notes were showing up every day (or at least every morning he went up to the communal kitchen and didn’t stay cooped up in the lab), each along with his favorite coffee already prepared,  just when he was going to enter the room. It was always boiling hot (like he liked it), which meant that this mystery coffee giver was aware of his movements. If the Omega didn’t feel so secure in his Tower, he would have been worried. But he knew that the access to the last ten floors of the building was restricted, which meant that the person doing this (and it was only ever one person, the scent hadn’t changed: Alpha, probably male) worked at the Tower, and JARVIS was extremely protective and made sure that the employees of SI were loyal, so it also meant that this person didn’t mean him harm.

The Alpha was probably trying to care for him, court him, perhaps? That was a bit ridiculous, to be honest. He was Tony Stark, he didn’t need to be courted or cared for. It also meant that his coffee-giver was old fashioned. But Tony was…intrigued, to say the least. It had been such a long time since he had encountered a mystery that didn’t come from science. And the fact that JARVIS kept num about this made it all the more enticing. If this Alpha had gained his AI’s approval, the Omega in him was definitely interested.

{---{---{---}---}---}

Tony had now bought a little wooden box to keep the notes in, because when he was in a bad mood and his children couldn’t cheer him up, the notes did. The first was probably still his favorite, but there were others that didn’t fail to make him laugh:

“Have fun revolutionizing the world today!”  There were several versions of this on the box.

A simple “You got this��� the morning he had to present the new gear to the Armed Forces instead of the weapons they wanted.

“I’m sorry the world doesn’t remember your mother more, she must have been amazing. She raised you, after all. ” When the news started counting Howard’s greatest moments on his birthday, and marrying Maria wasn’t even mentioned.

“You are unique; don’t let anyone make you doubt that” After an article that made it look like his spot on the Avengers was due to his money and his ‘services as an Omega’ aka his ass.

“You can do everything they do, only ten times better” When the Japanese company decided to go on their own for the clean energy project.

“You looked lovely at the gala yesterday.” The morning after a fundraiser.

“Tony Stark is my favorite superhero.” When the profile Natasha had made in behalf of SHIELD became a topic of interest in many magazines, talk shows and social media. That day Tony had left the lab only for the note, not for the coffee.

“I admire that you don’t hide your scars. You shouldn’t, they show how strong you are.”

“I could listen to you talk about science all day, even if I don’t understand a lot about it.”

“I love the energy you pour into everything you do, but you are adorable when you are asleep.”

“I hope Dum-E doesn’t spray you with foam today.”

It was those last four that made him think. They were a lot more… personal, than the others.  The Alpha that was leaving these notes and preparing him coffee was obviously close to him, or at least to one of the Pack, or maybe even a part of his staff’s families. But just how close?

He wasn’t one to talk about his children so freely. Tony loved them, no matter what, but the adventures of Dum-E and the fire extinguisher was one he only ever shared with friends. It is possible they might have heard that story second handed, of course, but he didn’t think so.  

And JARVIS had protocols in place for when he fell asleep in Common areas (which was a semi-regular occurrence, because the scent of his Pack were familiar and made him feel safe and he could sleep easier); so not anyone could just walk in and see him in such a vulnerable moment (this protocol was also for the other residents, because you didn’t want to walk in and surprise a sleepy spy or a sleep-deprived Dr. Banner).

The Alpha attending the fundraiser meant that they were important, enough to warrant an invitation to the event. So it couldn’t be any of the cleaning staff, but the security, science and financial staff was still in. But the bit about ‘don’t understand a lot about it’ took the science staff off the table.  And that still didn’t account for any of the Avengers and their close ones. And JARVIS still wasn’t helping!

It was time to call in the big guns.

{---{---{---}---}---}

“You want me to what?” asked James, with a weird expression on his face.

“I want you to find the person that is making me coffee and leaving me notes.” Tony said again, crossing his arms. Being in the presence of the Alpha always made him nervous, because the other brunette was a fine specimen and Tony was only an Omega, damn it. He was sure that Natasha and Bruce (Rhodey did not count, because his honey-bear had know him for forever and that would be unfair) already knew about his crush on the other man. That’s why they always ended up together in galas and such, and why Steve mysteriously lost bets that meant he had to massage Sam or Natasha’s feet on movie nights (therefore forcing him to seat with them and only leaving the couch for Bucky and Tony’s to sit on).

“Why?” he asks “did this person send you rude notes?”

“What? No! This Alpha is really nice, actually. Their notes always made me smile.”

“Did he try to poison your coffee?”

“Of course not!! JARVIS would have had them arrested the first time if that was the case.”

“Then what’s the problem?”

“There’s no problem!”

“So why do you want him-them, found?”

“Because I want to know who they are, that’s why!”

“But why ruin a good thing, if this is a good thing?”

“It is, it is a good thing. But I want to know who is doing all of this for me. If they are trying to woo me or if they are just nice or what do they want.” The brunette said, fuming.

“But-”

“Oh my god, Barnes. Will you help me out or not!?” Tony exploded. He felt embarrassed enough; he didn’t need this gorgeous Alpha to make him feel silly too, thank you very much. “I could ask Nat-”

“No! I mean, yes; yes, I will help you. Don’t get your panties in a twist, jeez.” The Alpha said, rolling his eyes. Still he seemed sketchy, somehow.

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In reality, James was sweating. Only his training prevented him from falling to his knees and begging for forgiveness right there in front of the Omega. He hadn’t thought his behavior was so…stalker-y.

Oh, god. Fucking hell. You are so busted, he thought. Tony is going to kick you out of the Tower when he finds out. Because when he didn’t bring him results, the genius was going to go to Natasha; and she wasn’t going to take long to find out it was him. If she didn’t know already.

James was aware that he was fidgeting, for God’s sake, and the Omega was giving him an speculative look. But then he shrugged and left the room.

The Alpha crumbled onto the floor, shaking.

What was he going to do now?

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It seems that Tony’s plan had backfired on him, badly. It had been days and there hadn’t been any more coffe or notes or anything waiting for him in the kitchen. If it wasn’t for the notes on his wooden box, the Omega would have thought he had imagined the whole thing in a coffe-induced dream.

Still, he needed proof, so he went and searched for the footage. And while there wasn’t video evidence of who was leaving the coffe (JARVIS had obviously granted the person a few minutes every morning), he could see himself grab the mug and read the note over and over. That only made his resolve stronger. If this Alpha had managed to convince J of erasing the footage or disconecting the cameras, he needed to know who it was.

It was time for a visit to certain sniper. He wanted results. That’s what he was paying the man for (well, he hadn’t actually payed him, but whatever).

---{}---

“Red October! Where are you!?” the engineer yelled as soon as he got to the Alpha’s floor. He wasn’t on the living room or in the kitchen, so Tony started walking towards the hallway that led to the bedrooms. He found the soldier’s with the door open and walked right in.

“James Buchanan Barnes, you owe me some results-” he started, before stopping mid-sentence. The bedroom was empty. Tony turned and looked around to see if the man was maybe hiding behind something, but nop, nothing. So he sat on the bed and pulled out his StarkPhone and started checking his emails.

---{}---

Thirty minutes later, the Omega heard steps on the hallway, so he set aside his phone. When James entered the room he was surprised as hell, and that left Tony the opening he needed.

“Could you tell me what the what the fuck is happening? My coffee-gifter suddenly stops out of nowhere, right after I ask you to find out who they are and-” the brunette’s rant was cut short when James lowered his shoulders and looked down at the floor.

“It was me.” The Alpha interrumpted, voice low.

“What!?” Tony yelled, furious. James flinched. “What did you do to make them stop!? Threathen them? Beat them up? What-” the soldier suddenly looked up and interrupted again.

“No, nothing like that. I didn’t beat up anybody.”

“Then what-?”

“I was the one leaving the coffee. I was the one writing those notes. I was the one that asked JARVIS to tell me whenever you were going to the kitchen in the mornings. I-” James’ voice was filled with bitterness. The Omega’s eyes grew larger and larger with every sentence, until Tony could no longer keep himself from talking.

“Then why did you stop? Did you not…mean it?” he asked, confused. The Alpha looked so mad and laughed scornfully, looking down again.

“Because I didn’t realise I was being such a creep that you’d hire someone to find out who I was. I wanted to court you, to give you something that you needed and wanted, but apart from coffee I didn’t know what that was, so I tried to find a way. Look how that turned out.” he spat bitterly. “I swear I was just trying to provide for you, not making you feel insecure or stalked or-”

“I kinda liked the attention, to be honest.” Tony said, suddenly right in front of James. The Alpha startled and looked up, but then the Omega grabbed his jacket and pulled him down, smashing their mouths together. James had his eyes wide open for a few seconds, shocked. But then he let the tension drain out of his body and returned the kiss, grabbing Tony’s waist and pulling himcloser.

When the kiss ended and James opened his eyelids again, he found big brown eyes staring right into his own.  He cleared his troath, and smiled at the engineer.

“Does this mean…?” he asked, leaving the question open.

“This means I expect my coffee and my notes every morning.” Answered the Omega, then added “After I wake up with you by my side.” The Alpha laughed and winked, kissing the genius again.

[avengersnewb]

1 for the meme!

oh lis, I have a million current projects 🙃

Right now, my main goal is writing my Marvel Trumps Hate 2019 fic for my awesome winner who's been super patient with me. I don't know what that fic will be yet, but I'm very excited for it!

I also have a stevetony video to make for MTH 2019, for my other beautiful winner who's also been super patient 🙈

I have 4 published WIPS that I really want to update as well, hoping to finish 3 before the end of 2021. (yeah sure Ven, sure you will :D )

*abused omega Tony getting saved by Steve *Tony going through a reality shift after Civil War and end up in a suburban house with smol Steve and kid!Peter and kid!Wanda *sub Tony doing his first scene with dom Steve *a stuckony texting fic, wrong number AU

Sooo a million current projects, yay!!!

Thank you for the ask <333

[festiveferret]

WIPDATEEE

1) I posted all of Noises (Deafening Quiet, Silent Roar), as well as SadSteve/The Conductor (Dreams of the Future, Memories of the Past) and Smoking (Nicotine Hit). This is making me realize how silly my working titles are.

2) Held is omg so totally planned out it’s wild. You can expect about 1 Held per week for the next couple months.

3) Brooklyn is still in a sit-stay. Good girl, Brooklyn.

4) Ok wow. So Plrz Grb (twenty points to anyone who gets the reference) is DONEZOOO. It is 15 chapters and will post once a week, on a schedule, once I get a bit of a beta-buffer going. It has a real title now, Lost Together (Blue Rodeo anyone??) and features soulmates, dimensional travel, H/C, and a goat. I hope to see you there!

5) Winterhawk has a title - Draw, Breathe, Fire - and is in beta. Hope to post soon. It’s a 15k one shot.

6) I submitted my BB draft!! Eeeeep! Matches happen this weekend and I’m excited and terrified at the same time. I still have some work to do on that, lots of polishing, a little stretching, some sections of absolute crap to re-write. But we’ll get there!

7) New baby bunny and all I’m going to say about that is that it’s 10k already and “Hooker AU”. Working (or final?) title is How We Met. Expecting it to be about 30-40k and will probably absorb much of my focus after Plrz is done.

Yay! Why do these lists never get any shorter? And even after saying that, I have the urge to be like, “Hey, send me bunnies!” What is my problem??

Well it’s been some indeterminate amount of time so here’s another wipdate!

1) I have started posting Lost Together! Chapter 2 goes up today and I’ll continue updating it every Friday until it’s done, or the heat death of the universe, whichever comes first. I also posted Draw, Breathe, Fire, my first foray into Winterhawk.

2) Come check out Held, it’s awesome. We’re posting one a week for the foreseeable future.

3) Good girl Brooklyn, have a biscuit.

4) I’ve got a match for BB! It’s awesome and we’re having so much fun already, but I don’t know what I’m allowed to talk about so I won’t.

5) The baby bunny grew up fast and become How We Met, a 40k hooker!Tony AU. It’s in beta, but behind Lost Together so it might be a little bit before I can get it out. (Unless you’re interested in paying my beta, @ashes0909 a living wage to sit at your feet and look pretty, whilst editing my fics. She’s really good at it, and I guarantee she’d be open to that arrangement).

6) I’m working on a super fun new collab with none other than the amazing @sirsapling. Not sure how it’s going to shake out yet, but I’m thinking it’ll be 50-70k and features skinnySteve and omg so much porn. So yeah, good times.

Oh wow it actually is shorter this time! Oh no wait I forgot two things. Dammit. One is a secret, so I won’t say anything about it, and also will likely take a long time to write. The other is an outline for a very porny stuckony fic that hasn’t quite reached wip status as I got derailed by other things so I dunno if that counts as one or not. You be the judge whether my list is getting shorter, longer, or in a constant state of fluctuating stress and procrastination! Fun for the whole family.

[juuls]

Pinned: Writing Updates

Hiya folks! ^_^ With this new pinned post feature, I figured it would be a good spot to put updates on how my writing is going (or not). As most of you know, mental and physical illness and recovery keep me from writing either quickly or easily, and I know that bothers or puts off some of you. Believe me, I feel guilty a lot of the time I’m not writing, but I know that nobody wants me to feel like this is a job, that I should enjoy what I do, and I try my best to just relax and let the writing come to me. It has always been a grueling task for me, and my words fight me, but I choose to see this as a labour of love. Thank you, everyone, for your support (and for holding up my fragile, rebuilding, self-confidence/ego :P). Managing chronic pain and illnesses along with fairly rapid-cycling Bipolar II makes things a bit messy, but I keep pushing because writing (and you amazing readers) means so much to me. 💜

UPDATE September 4th: see below “Read More”

Previous update, August 21st: Still only about 2400 words into chapter 28 of Cross, and I deleted Hurricane due to reasons but will be working on it bit by bit to instead post it as a single-chapter fic later on when people aren’t so busy anymore. Means I can focus on Cross though, which is all people want from me anyway. S’all good! Looking forward to moving that story along anyway.

Still have @grlie-girl’s Mansom fic, which is an MTH-adjacent fic. But then that’s it! Then I’ll start back up on Deliverance, my Stuckony kidfic, and keep moving Cross along. :) I’ve also been doing quite a lot of brainstorming for my original fiction series, which will be a combo SciFi-Fantasy series with magic and tech both, along with an eventual triad relationship! I’m really excited for it, even if it takes me decades more to write. xD

Works in Progress:

Hanging From a Cross of Iron: Fem!Tony Stuckony, time travel and soulmate AU. Just posted chapter 27 on July 19th! Yay! I’m about 2400 words into chapter 28 and I’m forging ahead as mental and physical health allows. But I think... maybe before the end of August? Thank you, everyone, for your kindness and patience!

Stony MTH fic for @ishipallthings: Fem!Tony Stony, Pacific Rim AU. Natasha Stark/Steve Rogers (Earth-3490) Get Together fic. @sparkly-angell is awesome and helping me by being a soundboard and beta. 5-15k. Will post it all together at a later date instead of chapter by chapter.

Deliverance: Stuckony kid fic, post-Avengers but in the alternate timeline that occurs after Avengers: Endgame. Have not forgotten about this, but it dropped in priority once I sorta over-committed myself to MTH, whoops. I’ll be back to this, though. :)

Gift fic for @grlie-girl, Mansom: (Marta/Ransom) from Knives Out. Dirty, filthy, femme!Domme Sugar Mama post-canon oneshot. I may need a second account to post this pile of filthy hot lava. ;)

Recently Finished Works:

Thread Work: Stuckony wingfic featuring Tony’s sister Darcy, written for MTH.

Ten Days: PepperStuckony bodyguard AU written for MTH for @tehroserose and @astudyinsolitude-writes.

Bad: a ShockStuckony get-together, meddling matchmaker Darcy fic, written for MTH.

I will try to keep this up to date but sometimes I’ll forget. Check back occasionally to see if I’m any closer to updating! I love all of my readers and commenters, and am so blessed to have you choose to read my work. Thank you so much. So so much. I’m sorry for the wait, but I’m a comeback kid, I promise. Sending love, and be safe and healthy and good to those around you.

Love, <3 Juulna

UPDATE September 4th: I’m going to put up a separate post, probably, but what’s going on is this... I obviously have Bipolar II and have learned to ride the ups and downs pretty well in recent years, even if some things still surprise me on occasion. But what I’ve never been able to properly treat or learn to deal with is anxiety. I’ve always had GAD (general anxiety) but it’s been untreated since I had so much other shitty health to focus on. Prioritization, right? And I needed all my faculties to not end up dead at the hands or by the gun of my ex. Then, after I left, I was making strides in recovering from the severe abuse and trauma at my ex-husband’s hands, sharp tongue, and actions from July 2017 until... well, it’s still an ongoing process, but this whole year, part of 2019 too, has been a lot better on the healing front. The strides I was making helped me focus on things other than my anxiety, but after dealing with those things, the anxiety started crawling insistently in.

Didn’t help that I finally felt up to checking out what was going on in the world more often. And it’s been good for me, it has... in that I’ve become better educated in the awfulness of the world, which has allowed me to call out racists, ‘Truthers’, and other asshole bigots who remind me of my ex. The downside of all that is that I am way over-empathetic and am appalled at the absolute.... *makes incoherent helpless noises*... just, appalled at EVERYTHING. And I am afraid. And worried. And angry. And a slew of other words that I’m sure every one of you get. You’re all intelligent; you know what’s going on in the world.

And sometimes I devolve into apathy, sometimes sleepless nights (I get about 16-20 hours of sleep a WEEK right now, which should be in the 40-60 hour range, frankly), increased pain on top of the fuckton I’m already in, worsening migraines, dizziness, and the intrusive thoughts of my bipolar depression keep telling me there’s an easy way out of this all. That’s when I knew I needed to do something. So sitting down with my loving father and my caring psychotherapist, I put together a list of my symptoms, what I wanted to tackle most, what I was willing to let go, how all of it interacted (cocktail medications, which I’m already on, can be dangerous and deadly), and then put together a proposal for my doctor, who’s been my family practitioner for two decades.

When you hit the point of panic attacks weekly, and not being able to sleep, even with a double dose of your sleep medication... when you don’t want to watch the things that bring you some modicum of joy for fear of aspects reminding you about the real world... when you wish you simply didn’t exist anymore... you need help. I needed help, and I won’t shy away from discussing that in a public setting, for the simple fact that someone who reads this might need to hear that it’s not the end all be all, not the end of the line, not the end of your life. So with the support of my father and my therapist, who I spoke to last night and this morning, respectively, in advance of my doctor’s appoint this afternoon... My doctor listened attentively to me and gave me permission to go on benzodiazepines again. I will be taking one daily, the one that doesn’t have nearly as great a spike of effect, but lasts longer and steadier, and will also be taking the other, spikier one, as the equivalent of a rescue inhaler for the next panic attack.

I’m not trying to hide from what’s going on in the world. But there is a line I need to learn to respect in how much news I look for, how I consume it, and how I let myself run away with myself at any injustice I see. And fuck, there is a lot. I will still be keeping abreast of the news, still educating myself, still engaging in discussions with people I trust to be kind to my mental state as best they can in the situation, and other things. This will simply make it so I don’t devolve into an incoherent mess of a breakdown/panic attack, and most importantly it will keep me from suicide. It’s never been much of a threat for me, but lately...? Let’s just say I am a bit more concerned than usual.

Gotta love brains, eh? Mental illness sucks. But this is one way I can take control. Other ways include the Nutrisystem diet I recently started, going for regular walks with my pupper and dad, reading 42 Sci-Fi/Fantasy books and counting in 2020, breathing exercises, removing harmful elements from my life even if that pains me in the moment... I’m making progress in other areas.

But what does this mean for my writing? Well. Good question. The last few times I took the stronger of these two medications (on a more daily, vs rescue, basis), well, I didn’t write hardly at all. I have hopes for being able to write during this, with the more steady medication, but I also have to feel happy to write, and the state of the world isn’t going to give me much opportunity to feel that for months yet, if not years (go and goddamn vote)... so yeah. But I realized that I don’t put myself first in big ways like this. And this time I need to. If the writing happens, that’s wonderful. If it doesn’t? Well, I’ll settle for less anxiety and not being dead, and I hope that that’s okay with y’all. I know it’s frustrating when a favourite author takes ages to update, and I’ve always been fairly guilty of that... but you all know that I ALWAYS come back. That’s what I do. I love this community, this fandom, my beta, my readers... you make it all worth coming back to.

So please, all I ask is that you be patient with me. I’m experiencing a pretty severe mental health crisis and not holding on too solidly. But I’m thinking of you. Thinking of all of you, and just how much I appreciate you.

With love,

Juulna / Meg

[polizwrites]

WIP  Update - 13 September

Tony Stark Bingo 2018 Challenge: My fifteenth fill was a fancraft project - I designed and sewed a stuffed Mark I Iron Man Armor figure. It's almost a foot tall, made of grey fleece with dark grey accents and a white and blue arc reactor. This was a fill for  A2 -  a movie still of the Mark I armor at the mouth of the Afghanistan cave.  This fill also gave me my third bingo - Column A.  (Yay!)  This week's fill (#16)  -- my first foray into wingfic -- was posted yesterday:  Take What Was Wrong (And Make It Right)�� [2283 words].  Afghanistan took more from Tony Stark than most people understand; the surgery in the cave stealing his ability to fly. But in the wake of the Battle of New York, Tony discovers an unexpected sympathizer. However, the revelation of the Winter Soldier’s identity and his recovery spurs Tony to reach for the skies once again.  This is slated to be a multi-chapter fic with eventual WinterIron or Stark Spangled Winter/Stuckony... I'm still puzzling out the rest of the story.

This means I have two published WIPs going for this challenge - and my upcoming fills are likely to be multichapter works as well:   My K2 - Coffee Shop fill, is currently sitting at 1688  words. It’s  a prequel/Tony POV remix ofWait and See (if it’s the best you ever had) and will probably end up as a 2-3 chapter fic and around 5k.   I've been listening to an audiobook version of  the original Frankenstein novel and started a fic inspired by that with  monster!Bucky and  kid!Tony - it's a fill for   T2  - questionable decision-making process  and is up to  1100 words already and will probably be another  5-7k piece.  I’m looking for a beta with familiarity with the Frankenstein mythos/original novel - HMU if you’re interested.  I'm still sitting at just over 200  words on T3 (Natasha Romanov) and thanks to marsmaywander over on the WinterIron Discord, I have an idea for S4 - Steampunk AU, which I'd been struggling with.  That leaves me with three squares I have no idea what to do with at the moment:  (Tony/Bruce,  nerds,  and 'all's well that ends well').  If anyone wants to throw plot bunnies my way,  go for it.     The Tony Stark Bingo collection is up to 156 works – go check the collection  out for some amazing fics and arts !!!  @tisfan did an awesome job of putting this project together  and deserves tons of kudos!     

WinterIron Bingo Adventure 2018:   I've completed two fills:  I1 - Unmixy Things: Weird Crossovers and B3 - Imprisonment, but  don't have anything in particular in the works for this - tho a future chapter of the wingfic and/or the Frankenstein-inspired fic will probably be double fills for TSB and this bingo. The following WIPs have gotten pushed to the back of the desk, but are still on the list.  HINT: if any of these pique your fancy, let me know and maybe they’ll move up the list a bit…. Carry On, Wayward Sons:  Holding on the draft of Chapter 3 until I get some more work done.  The intent is still to match it up with the other StarkQuill/StarkLord piece I threw together awhile ago. I’m eventually going to wrap this up so I can write a sequel for the Tony Stark Bingo.  

The Rumlow POV remix of By Their Bootstraps  (my de-aged Avengers fic) is still a semi-active project, tho I need to figure out how much detail I want to go into to get it caught up to cover the same events. It is still sitting at 4980 words and I may try to squeeze it into the Tony Stark bingo as well.

The Shield Split Asunder (sequel for To Shield from the Storm ) I’m not sure when this will first see the light at the moment, TBH. The fic will be Steve POV and stick as close to canon as I can make it.  I have the first two scenes roughly sketched out and I was hoping the interlude I posted would give me a nudge, but the other projects are currently sucking all my writing time/energy. 

The Subtle Briar –  Still nothing new - other projects are demanding my attention.

I did a quick skim thru the @imaginetonyandbucky prompts a while  ago  - there were a couple that mildly piqued my interest - I ought to go back  and see if any of them really grab me  and/or  can be matched up with a WinterIron Bingo Adventure prompt.  

As always, any words of encouragement on these projects would be greatly appreciated!