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2 months of improvement dude. Thatâs fucking insane Iâm so proud
#you can tell I got better at like. understanding how to use my own features to draw Spamtonâs onto my face#simultaneously utilizing my own face and also making it an entirely different one#facepaint has frustrated me for so long itâs such a difficult art but Iâm finally finding footing#Walt talks#Walt cosplays#part of whatâs infuriating about facepaint too is that each individual character you have to practice with#and spamton was an INFURIATINGLY difficult makeup project#so the fact that Iâm tackling it relentlessly#going to conventions even when Iâm not 100% happy and learning something everytime I try again is a huge step for me#giving up is easy#stickin w it isnât#but the improvement is showing and thatâs so tasty#also something you canât tell from photos but I know personally: the paint is also less flaky and more durable now#my first attempt only lasted 2 hours before it started just crumbling off my face#now itâs hard to get off even after 16 hours
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NONE OF THIS WAS MEANT TO HAPPEN- PART 2
NATASHA ROMANOFF x BLACKWIDOW!READER
SUMMARY; After being apprehended by the Avengers and growing closer to Natasha, you let slip a secret she didn't know you knew. What happens when she realises you know the truth?
WARNINGS; mentions of abuse, swearing, previous suicide attempt, self harm, self doubt, mental health, smoking, drinking. sad natasha.
-PLEASE READ WITH CAUTION-
WORD COUNT; 4.5K
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âSo youâre telling me Yelena lied?â
Natasha didnât expect this. She hadn't heard that name for a while now, not since destroying the Red Room herself with the help from her but since then nothing but radio silence. She thought Yelena was too busy still trying to free other widows but she knew from finding you and helping you Yelena hadn't finished her mission yet. But she was confused at how you knew Yelena and still had her in your mind even through the torture of the mind control and manipulating you had experienced. She continued staring at you, she didn't know what to do or say to you.
âSo was she lying or not Natasha?â your voice came through her ears making her refocus. Your voice sounded desperate to know the truth, you needed to know the truth.
âI don't know what youâre talking about y/n.â Nat knew she should tell the truth, why was she still hiding this part of her past from you, no one knew about the help she had received when destroying the red room but no one knew her as well as you. Only knowing each other for this short amount of time you both opened up in different ways, it was freeing for Natasha to see someone who went through the same pain as she did and it helped guide her in helping you. Knowing if she could help you itâd help herself, she still saw all the red in her ledger but she was determined to wipe it in hopes she could help you wipe yours. She knew how you felt about the terrible things you did under control and for all the years up until now. She knew you shared the same pain. Apart from you only had Natasha. Slowly growing more open with the team but Natasha had you AND the team, the team she had grown so close with over the years to now finally call her family. But still the lie fell from her lips like it was a simple song.
âYouâre lying, I know you're lying and I don't understand why it's me Natasha!â your voice only grew louder the more frustrated you got.
âI still remember holding Yelena the day you managed to escape the Red Room, I remember her crying and having to keep her quiet at night so no one saw her and thought she was weak! She constantly fell asleep holding the only memory she had left of you. But it all stopped months after I was taken from her in my sleep being transferred to a new location! I remember mouthing to her âitâll be ok, we will find eachother againâ but after that nothing. I cannot even remember how long ago that was now Natasha, the years after being put through the mind control barely anything feels real. It was all confusing at the time trying to work out who this girl was that I kept seeing in my dreams and anytime I asked them it would only end in a beating. I knew not to ask anymore. But I remember being sent on this mission to kill you Natasha! I remember after I finally woke up again and saw your face that this person in front of me will help because my friend never gave up hope in you! It was like all I could see was Yelena and this random blue haired girl!â
âI'm not lying. I don't know who or what you're talking about!â another lie, slipping past her lips like it was nothing. Her lies only fueled you with more anger and frustration. Her face just stayed staring at you like she was trying to burn the lie into your head. You thought you knew her, but the person who was standing in front of you now lying was most definitely not the same person you shared a kiss with only moments ago.
âYou said I could trust you Natasha. You might be able to get away with lying to the team but you're forgetting we were taught to lie by the same people. I can see straight through you.â your voice hit back at her laced with venom, she could see the disappointment in your eyes. You slowly turned to leave, you couldn't stand here with her right now knowing she was lying. How could she lie to you after everything she has helped you with over the last few months. You thought you loved her, you thought she might have loved you. You got off the bed and walked towards the door, you couldn't be here right now.
âY/n/n wait.â she grabbed your wrist, stopping you from reaching the door, the same wrist that was littered in a big scar from the time you woke up. Her touch burnt, all she received from you was a flinch and you pulling your wrist from her touch.
âDon't you dare fucking touch me Natalia! Only moments ago I thought I finally had someone I could trust, someone who would keep me safe. But now all I see is the Black fucking Widow stood infront of me. So no Natalia, I won't wait. I won't stand here while you lie to me straight through your teeth. I wont stand here while you tell me you don't know who or what iâm talking about when I held that some person for months through her fucking tears because her so called sister left without her! I picked up the pieces you fucking ruined and now you expect me to stand here and think that you're telling me the truth and Yelena lied all those years? You expect me to think the voice in my head the day I woke up after I slit my wrist wide open telling me to trust you is fucking lying? Because if it was lying I wish, I fucking wish I let myself bleed out right then and there.â You knew you hit her then, like your voice was so loud filling the room like it was pounding in her ears. She knew you were right that it wasnât her standing in front of you but was the Black Widow trying to manipulate her targets for information. Before she could even reply, the sound of the door slamming brought her back to focus. She quickly wiped her cheek as she felt the tears slowly falling from her eyes, not even remembering when she had started crying. Why did she lie? Why did she ruin the chances of you? Ruining your trust like it didn't take so much time to try and gain it? What had she done? Her and Yelena were ok now, they had worked on their differences and she had apologised for what had happened all the years ago but why wouldn't she tell you that? She knew Yelena held a grudge and hated her for leaving without her when they finally saw each other again but that wasn't the case now. Everything was different now and the main difference was Natasha finally realising that maybe she was falling for you and she had ruined all her chances in that becoming a reality. She needed to give you space, she knew that if she was to chase you now it would only make you more angry, she knew she needed to figure out how to talk to you and explain why she had done what she had done, until then she couldn't risk seeing you.
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It had been a week since your argument with Natasha. Nothing made sense to you. It was driving you crazy at how she lied to you like you were nothing to her, like you weren't the person she had spent nights laughing with over stupid movies and also crying too when talking about each other's pasts. You had only slept once since then, a few hours after your argument, you had finally made your way back to your room knowing she would have left. You felt exhausted, only moments before your argument you had woken up from a terrible nightmare to then being in the comfort of her arms, to then kissing her to then shouting. It was like the only thing your body wanted to do was sleep right then and there. When you woke up hours later looking at your clock did you see the time read 4am, you had slept for 12 hours and by that point you understood why.
-flashback-
You steadily got out of your bed still feeling disgusted from being in your gym clothes from the day before everything happened, you made your way to the shower knowing you needed to rid all this grime off of yourself. You stood still in the shower letting the water fall off your shoulders like it was the first time you had ever seen water before it felt relaxing. Letting yourself get lost in the feeling of it but still your mind grew to the thought of what it would be like if Natasha was standing behind you right now washing your hair, touching you so delicately like you could break from any sudden movement. It felt too overwhelming. You crumbled to your knees like your body could no longer hold your weight anymore, your tears getting lost within the water that was over your face. It felt like you couldn't breathe, you were trapped in a place with nobody you could trust. Your mind grew dark so quickly, like the only way to get out of this place was to reopen that wrist but she still lingered in your mind, the thought of her finding you on this shower floor was breaking you even more. Why were you still feeling this sympathy for her after everything that had happened. You couldn't do this you needed to get rid of this feeling inside, it felt like your body was on fire, you felt scared and it was something you hadn't felt for a few months now, you had felt safe in her presence to now feeling as if you would leave this room and pass out, you needed it gone. You scrambled up from your feet in a hurry trying to find anything in your bathroom for a release, you remembered Natasha had made sure anything you could hurt yourself with had been removed from your pending room after your incident. There was nothing in here you could even butter bread with, it only made you feel more anger towards her. You stopped looking, taking a deep breath and staring at yourself in the mirror, wiping your hand over the mirror to see yourself clearer due to the fog clinging to it. And that's when you realised this would do. Bringing your clenched fist up to pound into the mirror sending shards flying everywhere, thank god for your enhancements you thought, that brought a light chuckle out of you. Frantically picking a big enough shard off the floor and moving yourself to sit on the toilet you knew this would help. Blood came seeping out of each cut, dripping down your leg and running onto the floor, you knew you'd done enough. The pain you felt inside had felt like it had disappeared more and more after every cut. You moved back into the shower preparing yourself for the sharp stings of pain that would soon follow, washing yourself quickly and exiting your bathroom, closing the door and leaving it shut. You knew youâd had to clean up later but for now you dragged yourself back to your bed in hopes to sleep more even though you knew you wouldnât.
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You sat on the balcony of the compound still trying to work out how and why this had happened, you hadn't seen her for a week, you knew people had grown suspicious as to why you weren't joint at her hip and instead was constantly wrapped in a blanket on the balcony. The only person to come over and talk to you was Wanda, you would never say much. Only asking her if she could get you some cigarettes from the shop and some vodka, you knew if she said no you could always just ask FRIDAY to get some delivered, but she always came back hours later with the two things you'd asked her for, you always sent her the softest smile with a quiet thank you and she would leave after that. You wondered if she knew she was feeding into your new addictions and a way to stop the pain coming forward. You wondered if you were taking advantage of her but still you never wondered to ask.
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You brought the cigarette up to your lips lighting it quickly, the feeling burning your throat and lungs as you slowly inhale the toxic chemicals it gives out, you had never smoked before this whole thing with Natasha, it wasn't until you had seen someone smoking in a movie did you grow curious of whole thing but now look, it was like you was a natural. Cigarette in one hand, half a bottle of vodka in the other, that is all you've done all week. You only moved from this spot to go to the toilet, not even bothering with food. It wasn't healthy and you knew that, you also knew this was a pathetic way of coping from everything with Natasha but it was helping.
A small cough is what brought you out of your train of thoughts, you looked up towards the door seeing her standing there. You hated how the first thing you thought was how beautiful she looked with the moonlight shining in just the right way. It made her eyes even more beautiful than they already were, you threw your head back to look at the trees across from you, no you needed to be angry at her.
âSmoking isnât good for you, you know.â you wanted to chuckle at her but the hurt seeping through your veins was too much to deal with, gulping down the growing lump in your throat you continued smoking while staring. She sighed moving to sit opposite you so she constricted your view. You now sit facing her staring into her beautiful emerald orbs hoping the tears don't start to fall.
âIâm sorryâ watching her slowly lowering her head after her words, her hands running through her hair, you're sure you heard a slight sniffle but you continued to stare, not caring to reply.
âPlease say something, anythingâ she sounded so vulnerable, so small but you needed an explanation not just an apology. You go to speak but your tears are already threatening to fall so you turn your head to the side gulping down some vodka to ignore the pain.
âI'm not good at apologising, I'm even worse at talking about my past. I did lie. But I shouldn't have. I lied because I didn't want to remember what I did to her back then, the things I did in general back then.â you finally turned to look at her again slowly nodding for her to continue.
âMe and Yelena, weâŠerrrr...we had a mission when we were young. Acting as sisters with two other agents as our parents. It was nice, you know, acting normal. I went from being in the Red Room, to a normal life. To then just be taken back away again. But it was different for her, I tried to not let them take her, she was too young, but like they said, I was youngerâŠâ she stayed staring down at her feet, you could tell it was a lot for her to be doing this, you were thankful she was opening up telling you the truth but you could see her discomfort seeping through. Holding out the bottle of vodka for her to take she brought her head up slowly looking at you and then to the bottle. She let out a light chuckle moving to accept the bottle from you and taking a drink. She gave it back, wiping the few tears that had escaped, you thought she was done talking until she sighed and carried on.
âI held her as they took us to the Red Room again, well me again, not her. It was terrifying. I just held her trying to shield her from seeing anything and everything, she just clung to me, sobbing. We were so young and I knew what was going to happen to her and there was nothing more I could do. I knew as soon as we were there she'd be taken from me and I'd never see her again. But I did see her, of course you know I did. It was quick stares walking past each other or it was me looking for her subtly when we would be eating, I couldn't protect her anymore. We could only protect ourselves. Any signs of love, affection or even friendship were frowned upon. How could I comfort her or look after her when everything I wanted to do I would have been punished for? That would have scared her even more. So I kept to myself.â
You didn't know how to react or what to do, the woman who was so continuously strong no matter what was thrown at her was sitting in front of you sobbing, it broke your heart and you knew it was breaking hers.
âTasha, it's ok. Please.â you couldn't watch her cry anymore but you knew there was so much more she needed to say.
âNo, y/n I...I need to do this.â you gave her a small nod, urging her to continue as you swallowed your own tears.
âShe got out about 7 months ago too. Things happened and well me, her and our parents, Alexei and Melina. We took down Dreykov, we took down the main Red Room. I found out about all of these other widows that were placed all around the world being controlled. Yelena had this antidote that managed to break widows out of mind control, she found out the hard way what it was but we managed to save the widows that were at that Red Room. We only had one dose left, so with the help from Melina and Alexei they created more so they could go and save all the girls that were left. When you showed up I knew that clearly she hadn't finished the whole mission yet but I knew that 4 months wasn't a lot of time to do that hence why she hadn't reached you yet. I hadn't been in contact with any of them since then, I tried to get in touch but I never received anything back even up until two weeks ago.â she had stopped crying now, she looked more comfortable talking, it released this ache in your heart knowing she was becoming ok. You just wanted to hug her, so you did. You moved quickly, cigarettes and bottle of vodka long forgotten about and settled on her lap. She tensed slightly when you first sat down but soon enough you felt her relax, you just couldn't stop looking at her. Her eyes glassy from the tears she had shed, the light smell of the vodka she had drunk coming out from her lips as she breathed slowly. You just forgot everything that had happened in the past week. You cupped her face making sure all of her attention was on you, leaning in slowly to finally connect your lips in a gentle kiss. You finally moved away when you felt tears dripping down your cheeks, not evening knowing if they were yours or hers. Her hand came to settle on your cheek wiping away the tears that had fallen, the smallest of a smile on her face.
âI went to find them this week.â her words shocking you, making you shake your head confused. She laughed lightly at your reaction.
âArguing with you just made me realise that I had no clue what was going on, I just left them with this information and took off, so I went to Melinas where I knew one of them would be and saw them there. That's why I had been gone all week.â
You felt relief when something rolled through you, although all this week you had been trying to avoid her, every time you moved from the balcony to the toilets you hoped she would pop out of nowhere. It wasn't until the third day you thought she was actively trying to avoid you too, it's what made you grow more angry. Thinking she just upped and left without a word but you now knew she didn't and suddenly all this anger and pain you felt towards her through the week was gone off your shoulders, but you now hated yourself for the way you reacted, the way you screamed and shouted at her for lying when now you understood why she done what she done out of fear of remembering. You hated yourself for the way you threw yourself into hurting yourself along with smoking and drinking. The guilt settled in your chest, it felt like it was too much to handle once again and you couldn't stop the tears from crashing down, a painful sob falling out of you as you suddenly felt like you could feel your thighs starting to tear and bleed again, like you could feel your throat burning from the bottles of vodka you had consumed and your lungs feeling as if they were suffocating from all the cigarettes you managed to smoke in such a short time.
Natasha reacted quickly, holding you tighter as you tucked yourself into the crook of her neck, a death grip on the back of her shirt as if, if you were to let go, this would all be a dream and she would disappear.
âHey, hey, hey. Shhh it's ok, you're ok, Iâm ok. We are ok. I'm here. I'm sorry for what happened and I'm sorry for leaving without explaining. I'm just so sorry.â her words were meant to be comforting but it only made you sob more.
âThe things I did when you were gone Tasha, I overreacted. I'm sorry for everything I said that day of our argument. I understand everything now I do and I'm so grateful for you telling me and I'm so happy Yelena is safe. I'm so sorry. Iâm so, so, so sorry.â your voice muffled as you sobbed into her neck only made her grow nervous. No one had said anything about you all week when she called to check in on everyone.
ây/n, what happened?â She spoke so softly, one hand stroking small circles at the bottom of your back and the other hand moving to the side of your hair to move your head up so you were looking at her. It made the words you were trying to say even harder seeing how much her eyes showed her concern and worry.
âM...my...my bathroom, I...I...I ruined it, haven't been in my room since you left. I've stayed out here just smoking and drinking Tasha. I felt so angry and hurt and I hate what I did because now I understand why and what happened and I just overreacted so much and all I've done is cause myself pain and I know you don't want to know or even think that but I have. I hurt myself Tasha, I broke my mirror to do it, gosh thats so fucking stupid and it was only the one time and that doesn't make that ok I know that but it hurts so much. I feel like I'm suffocating, this guilt is too much. You've come back to explain and now here I sit crying and making it sound like everything I did this week was your fault but it wasn't. I'm sorry.â you rambled on continuing to sob, her eyes now just looked so sad, it broke you but you couldn't stop the âIâm sorrysâ from falling off your lips but she still stayed stroking your back, leaning your foreheads together telling you over and over that it was ok and she forgave you.
Your sobs finally slowly subsided, the exhaustion finally settling in after the week that had gone by so slowly, it consumed you. But Natasha never let up her continuous flow of âits oksâ and never failed to tell you âIâm hereâ until you finally settled in silence. The silence felt comfortable between you, even though the past hour or maybe even longer held so much pain for the both of you. Your grib finally loosens on her t-shirt, moving to sit up straight to look at her.
âĐŻ Đ»ŃĐ±Đ»Ń ĐČĐ°Ńâ she blurts out in a hurry, you stayed staring at her in shock. You made no move to reply or even hug her or kiss her, it made her grow nervous. You felt her tense underneath you straight after it came flying out of her mouth.
âIt's fine, you donât need to...umpthâ you cut her off short pulling her into an intense kiss, moving to straddle her lap, she moaned softly into you, making you melt. Even through the gentleness it still felt so rough and aggressive, neither of you pulling away until air became a problem.
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The night seemed to flow so much more calmly after your late night confessions. You both moved to Natashas suite in hopes of getting some more privacy. Your night consisted of movies playing in the background as you both consumed each other with so much love and affection. You knew for sure that no one could ever love you or care for you the way this woman could. It overfilled your heart with so much joy, that even after these years where she was in pain and she blamed herself and the word for everything that had happened to her, that she could still love and feel so deeply. How she could still love you with so much passion in such a short amount of time, when you both grew up being told that it would make you vulnerable and that it was for children.
You knew the way you grew up was terrible and traumatic but in this moment, laying in Natashas arms sharing the smallest of kisses, giggles erupting from both of you, kind words whispered as if anything louder would ruin the moment, you were somewhat grateful that somehow no matter where this life was suppose to take you or what was meant to happen with you, you had never been so happy to have failed your mission against Natasha Romanoff, because right now who knows where you would be or what you was doing. You managed to be so lucky that this woman still accepted you with open arms and made herself vulnerable and somewhere fall in love with you that nothing from your past mattered in this moment. All that mattered was the love you were sharing and the love you can only hope to continue to share into the future.
Maybe âNone Of This Was Meant To Happenâ but god was you so incredibly happy that it did.
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Kiss Me
Kung Lao x Fem!Reader
AN: Kung Lao, my beloved. Wrote this while listening to Kiss Me More by Doja Cat ft. SZA, banger song. Not proof read yetâŒïž
Summary: Who doesnât like when a little friendly rivalry turns into something more?
âYou ready to meet your match this time?â Kung Lao chuckled, adjusting his footing and placing a hand on the tip of his hat.
âCourseâ I am Lao,â (Y/n) huffed, getting into position, âWhen they get here make sure to let me know, yeah?â
This had become a daily occurrence. After dinner time, when lessons and training were done for the evening, the three of them would return to the court and cash in on a little sparring. It was their odd way of spending time together outside of missions, plus with the grand tournament coming up, they could use the extra practice.
Usually they had a rotation system that went Liu versus (Y/n), then (Y/n) versus Lao, then Liu versus Lao. They would rest a little after each match, then continue on per usual. However todayâs session was going a little different.
Yesterday, (Y/n) had won against Lao and was so proud of her achievement she couldnât help but rub it in, and Lao, being the prideful young man he was, demanded a rematch. He claimed the mission heâd gone on earlier that day had screwed him over physically. (Y/n) agreed to it, and now here they were.
â3...2...1... fight!â Liu Kang called out from the top on the stairs leading into the main hallway. As the pair lunged at each other, causing reddish brown puffs of dirt to fly off of the ground, he calmly sat and observed.
Minutes passed, and neither party seemed to have even made a scratch on the other. However, an impressive amount of blocking was being done by Kung Lao currently, so Liu assumed the victory would go to (Y/n). The girl had a giddy smile plastered across her face, and it seemed like she, too, expected the victory to be hers.
Liu turned to the side and reached for his water, but noticed he hadnât brought any with him. He sighed and stood up.
âIâm going to fetch some water from the kitchen. Continue on, but please donât wreck anything or kill each other. Master will have a fit and then Iâll receive part of the blame for not monitoring you two properly.â Liu said.
âExpect to come back to myâ,â (Y/n) began before dodging a kick, âAnother one of my victories!â
âFat chance!â
Previous to all of this, the two friends already had some sort of tension between them. It started off as a friendly rivalry, competing for trifling things such as the last egg roll or using the bathroom first in the morning. But as the years passed, the competitons began to become more... personal. And so did the bickering. Somehow (Y/n) and Lao shifted from âif you donât shut up Iâm gonna kick your assâ to âif you donât shut up, Iâm gonna make you.â
Nevertheless, the three of them quite enjoyed their dynamic (despite Liu Kang shooting knowing looks at the two individually).
Now (Y/n) had Kung Lao backed into a corner with her (weapon/power) held against his neck. Lao strained his neck upwards, his left arm holding his hat behind his back.
âThat was the saddest block Iâve seen all day, Lao. Do you yield yet?â (Y/n) smirked triumphantly.
He glanced down at her and huffed. âWatch your tongue, (Y/n).â
He swiftly slid his foot under her, knocking her off her feet, and brought his hat back up to his head before disappearing into the ground. He reappeared behind her and attempted to pin her to the ground, but she jumped up and tackled the boy, landing with her legs straddling Laoâs right one and her hand on his chest.
âYouâre so predictable these days,â (Y/n) laughed.
Lao propped himself up on his elbows, âYouâre only saying that because youâve gotten used to my moves.â
âMaybe you should take some time away from me,â (Y/n) jeered, âYâknow, and learn some better ones.â
Lao furrowed his eyebrows, âGod, if you donât stop flapping your mouthâ,â
âYouâre trapped under me, what are you gonna do? Kiss me?â She laughed.
Lao brought his leg up and forcefully kicked her off, sending her tumbling across the court. (Y/n) jumped onto her feet, narrowly avoiding hitting the wall.
âIf you keep that up I just might.â Lao teased.
âYou wouldnât have the nerve,â (Y/n) lunged at him again.
Lao used his hat to block her attack and landed a solid kick to her side. âIs that a challenge?â
God, every word that came out of the girlâs mouth was beginning to get him fired up. He could feel his chest begin to tingle with a mix of excitement and anxiety. What if (Y/n) genuinely wanted to kiss him? If he tried, would she pull away? Kung Lao had always been the bolder of the two, but still.
Kung Lao charged at her and grabbing her hands, holding them behind her back with one hand before she could fully regain her footing. With his other hand he grasped the collar of her top and pulling her closer to his body. (Y/n) was paralyzed by this sudden action and her breath hitched. She looked up at Lao with uncertainty, the color of her cheeks turning redder than the fabric Liu Kang tied around his head.
Laoâs hand trailed up to her face, holding the side of her jaw with his pointer and middle finger while his thumb traced circles over her lower lip. Lao was looking directly into her eyes now.
âJust say the word and I will, (Y/n).â His tone was quieter and more serious than ever before.
(Y/n)âs mouth quivered. It felt like her brain had entirely blanked and she couldnât find anything clever to respond with.
âIâ I... I yield!â She cried, quickly pulling away in embarrassment.
(Y/n) ran up the stairs just as Liu Kang returned. She nodded to him in acknowledgment, but continued to rush off to her room.
Liu stopped and glanced from her retreating figure to his cousin who stood along in the court.
âSo... who won?â He cocked an eyebrow in confusion. Kung Lao buried his face in his hands.
âââ
The next couple of days seemed incredibly off to everyone. (Y/n) went out of her way to avoid interacting with Kung Lao, and vice versa. Laoâs thoughts were just too jumbled for him to approach her, no matter how much he wanted a confirmation on whether she felt the same or not, and (Y/n) was having a difficult time making sense of Laoâs actions.
What would happen if they did like each other? Although at this point, neither of them were sure if âlikeâ was the correct term to use. (Y/n) was certain up until then that Kung Lao had meant everything was a joke and simply took this one a little too far. The insults, the flirting, all of it had been a joke, right? That was their silent agreement. Lao would never do anything with the intention of... well... getting to (Y/n), per say. Their intentions with eachother had always been purely platonic.
But was that really the truth in (Y/n)âs case? Or had she been ignorant to her own feelings towards the boy all along? Is that why she couldnât stand to look him in the eye now? What if she really was inâ
â(Y/n)! Master wants me to accompany him somewhere, so I canât make it tonight.â Liu called out as he jogged to catch up with the girl.
She blinked, âOh, itâs alright Liu, we can reschedule for another night then.â
He stretched his arms over his head. âWhy donât you use the time to catch up with Kung Lao? It seems like you two hardly got to spend time together this week.â
(Y/n) blushed and began to shift her feet uncomformably, âLao and Iâ weâre- I havenât...â She sighed, âIâm not exactly in the mood to talk to him any time soon.â
Liu frowned, âIt isnât my place to speak in the matter, and Iâm not sure what went down between you two, but If Lao said something Iâm sure he didnât mean it.â
The girl groaned and leaned her head back. âThatâs what Iâm afraid of...â She mumbled.
Liu placed a hand on her head and ruffled her hair, then placed both of his hands on her shoulders.
âYouâre a smart girl, Iâm sure you two will be back on track eventually. Remember: a little communication goes a long way.â
She nodded, âYouâre right, I know. Iâll try to sort it out.â
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Now, Kung Lao was completely crumbling over why (Y/n) had pushed him away. He believed that (Y/n) felt something for him, he was sure of it, and heâd been searching for an opportunity to pursue her for months. So when she jokingly asked if he would kiss her, how could he have resisted?
It was an impulsive decision, he admitted, but he was so sure she felt the same that he thought it didnât matter. Maybe he should have been more forward and confessed his feelings for her in a different setting.
Buuuuut it was too late now. He blew it. And now she was avoiding him. He was a fool to assume such things about her.
Lao signed and threw himself done on his bed, sprawling his arms and legs out dramatically.
âCousin? Iâm heading out soon, I came to say goodbyeâ,â Liuâs voice faltered when he saw the state of his friend. He stifled a laugh. âYâknow, if you if this is effecting you so badly, why not just apologize and talk to her?â
Laoâs head shot up in alarm. âOh no, how much did she tell you!?â
Liu laughed, âLittle to nothing, but that doesnât mean I havenât noticed the strange energy between you two lately.â
Lao groaned and sat up.
âHeed my advice, and stop moping around, Lao.â Liu patted the other young manâs shoulder before setting off to find their master.
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A few hours passed and Kung Lao finally felt like he had the right words to explain how he felt to (Y/n). Yes, heâd spent hours cooped up in his room, scribbling his thoughts down on paper until he ultimately decided it was best to be direct. The poor girl was probably confused enough as it was.
It was settled then. Heâd talk to her tomorrow after training and lessons, but right now it was probably best to focus on dinner.
He silently walked down the main hall and towards the kitchen. He was sheet he staff had already cleaned up dinner, and seeing as he wasnât present to eat with the others, it was likely they didnât bother to prepare him a plate.
Lao opened the door but froze in his tracks at the sight of (Y/n) standing in front of the counter, her shirt stained with the remnants of assorted ingredients. She staggered back at the sight of him in the door way. Laoâs eyes strayed to a small tray of egg rolls and a few other dishes.
âKung Lao,â She breathed out.
He cleared his throat. âThat seems a little excessive for a late night snack.â
âOh thisâ,â (Y/n) glanced to the tray and back at him, âYou werenât at dinner, and I didnât expect you to come to the kitchen... it was supposed to be a secret.â
âI see.â Kung Lao was silent for a moment. âOh. OHâ this is,â He gestured to the tray awkwardly, âfor me...â
(Y/n) pursed her lips and nodded, glancing down at the floor. The two of them stood without a word for a moment, anxiety building up in their stomachs. Neither of them wanted to be the first to break the silence, and yet both of them had so much to say.
âIâm sorry.â (Y/n) mumbled at last. âI took our usual teasing too far last time, and I shouldnât have avoided youâ,â
âI wanted to kiss you.â Kung Lao blurted out. âI still do. And wanted you to want me to kiss you.âïżŒ
âKung Lao, the jokes we made were fun and allâ,â
âWell, Iâm not playing around anymore, (Y/n). This time it isnât a joke.â The serious look he had on the other day had returned.
âSo...,â (Y/n) began, barely a whisper, âwhat are you saying?â
Kung Lao exhaled heavily and furrowed his brows. âHow can I be any more transparent right now!?â He growled, âIâm in love with you, (Y/n).â
It was as if a heavy weight had been lifted off of both of their chests in that moment.
(Y/n) smiled and wasted no time to wrap her arms around Kung Laoâs neck and press her lips against his. He kissed back without hesitation and wrapped his arms around her body shamelessly. Kung Lao deepened the kiss, and their lips moved together feverently, as if this was something theyâd both been yearing for for a while.
When they finally separated, (Y/n) rested her head in the crook of Laoâs neck, sighing happily.
âYou know what? I think I just might be in love with you too, Lao.â
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moving out, moving on (mitch rapp x fem reader)
genre: fluff
summary: mitch and reader are taking another step towards mitch moving on, and itâs bittersweet.
words: 2.2k
warnings: drinking wine, kinda suggestive at times, talks abt katrina, mitch being emotional, my writing being melodramatic LOL
a/n: so. this was written during an all nighter that went to 7 am where i was listening to nicki minaj and eminem (???) for a good duration of it so. iâm very sorry if this is wonky at times! i hope u enjoy either way! mwahÂ
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The early morning rays streamed through thin fabric, draped above the assassin's window. Dust particles floated about, becoming visible within the section of light cast from the sun. The birds perched outside the small apartment tweeted happily from their branch, their songs beautiful.Â
Though, they were quite pesterous to the pair that lay together, wrapped in gray sheets. They reveled in the heat provided by the soft blanket, but even more so by the warmth from their joint bodies.
A mop of dark brown hair stirred, bringing one hand up to softly rub his eyes with his knuckle, the other hand snaking around the waist of the woman peacefully sleeping beside him. He watched with fond eyes as she lightly groaned, rolling to face away from the invasion of bright, turning towards her love.Â
Mitch smiled down at her sleepy behavior, reaching out and brushing stray hairs from her forehead. He reluctantly retracted it only moments later, forcing himself out of bed to go and prepare the two of them for their big day as best he knew how: Coffee.
His sock clad feet dragged across the hardwood as he went, his sweatpants hanging low on his hips and groggy-ness (a word Y/n had donned as her own, and Mitch had caught on to)Â still very prevalent in his entire system.Â
The Rhode Island air was frigid this time of year, Mitch allowing a grin to break out on his face upon remembrance of two nights previous, just how cold Y/n had been in the arena of the Providence Bruins hockey team. Nose pink, donned in a beanie proudly showing the team's logo, well, he had found himself a new lockscreen.
He shook his head in an attempt to rid himself of said groggy-ness, his body on autopilot as it made the beverages. He picked out her favorite mug from the cupboard (AKA a souvenir from Dubai he had picked up long ago) that she had adopted as her own, drinking out of it every time she would spend the night, almost like clockwork. He waited for his coffee beans to brew, scratching his stubble along his jaw. He flinched, though, when he felt two arms wrap around his middle. He quickly relaxed into the embrace upon realization of who the supposed assailant was, her head finding its way to rest on his bare shoulder.
âYou scared me, there.â Mitch muttered, his larger hand inching towards herâs on his waist. He closed his eyes in content and she hummed in acknowledgment. Mitch allowed her to turn his figure to face her, still residing in her arms, seeing a bright smile plastered across her face.
âOnly for a minute though, right?â
She laughed to which he chuckled in response, nodding in false surrender. âYouâve got me there, Y/n/n.â He mused, his eyes lighting up at the sound of the coffee machine beeping. He looked back to her, shrugging.
âI made you coffee, was gonna bring it to you in bed but, yâknow.â He gestured to where she had now climbed up to sit on top of his counter, his sweatshirt around her that read âBrown Universityâ across the front in large lettering pooling around her thighs.
âItâs alright, I need to get a move on anyway.â She smiled, hopping down to retrieve the mug, taking the warm ceramic from Mitchâs hands and sighing at the wondrous feeling that had spread through her whole body. She lifted it to her lips and drank, not surprised that her boyfriend had made it just the way she liked, to perfection.Â
âThank you, baby.â She commented, reaching up to plant a chaste kiss on his lips. Her lip curled as she pulled away, Mitch already knowing what she was going to say, a laugh bubbling up in his throat.
âMitch! Go brush your teeth, for the love of God!â She whined, watching as he scampered off towards the bathroom, snickering all the way. She rolled her eyes, downing the rest of her beverage before following where Mitch had gone.
Once in the bathroom after rinsing her and Mitchâs mugs, she tied her hair up, undressing and turning on the water (practically scalding hot, of course). Mitch had no objections to the temperature, though, seeing as it was his last time showering with her in that apartment, and in that apartment, period.Â
The whole thing felt very symbolic to Y/n, at least, seeing it as washing themselves clean for the next phase of their lives together, a sort of preparation. (Maybe not so much for Mitch, who really was just pleased for any excuse to see his girlfriend naked.)
They used generous amounts of soap, as not only were most of them nearly empty (in fact, a few were and if it werenât for Y/n, they probably all would be), but also that they had decided to simply just buy new toiletries as a whole for their new place.
They giggled at the sight of each other, all lathered in bubbles and suds. Mitch reached a finger forward, wiping it from above her eyebrows and preventing it from falling into her eyes. Y/n brought her arms around his neck, her lips connecting with his. âMuch better.â She regarded with a smirk, before leaning back in.
Nearly 40 minutes later, they both emerged from the shower, fresh faced and ready for the day ahead. He didnât have a lot that needed to be packed up, given that his place came fully furnished, so it took all but 2 hours and 5 boxes to pack up Mitch Rappâs life. It honestly might have taken even longer than originally would have been needed, as Y/n would stop every time she found something interesting, allowing Mitch to tell her all about whatever stories had been connected to the item.
It had started with the ridiculous bird lamp that sat on his bedside table, once belonging to Mr. Nazir, and ended with his lacrosse stick. (And, a promise that one day, heâd show her how to play. He swore heâd never seen her smile that big.)
They also threw away and donated a lot, some of Katâs old stuff bringing a pained smile to his face as he would place it in a box simply labeled âKatâ in messy, thick letters. He wasnât sure if the box would end up in his new closet, covered in dust and unopened, or back with her family. But either way, he wasnât quite ready to say goodbye to her completely, which Y/n was able to understand.
âMitch? Did you pack away your coats already?â Y/n called out, opening up the closet near the front door. Her breath slightly hitched in her throat upon seeing all of the photos of Mansur, still pasted to the painted wood, the edges curling up.Â
âNah, not yet, I was gonna handle that while you worked on the cupboardsâ He responded, busying himself with a text from Irene on his phone wishing him good luck. He looked up and saw what she had been asking about, his phone quickly sliding into his pocket as he made his way over to where she stood, visibly distressed.Â
âHow long have these been here?â She questioned, feeling Mitchâs arms wrap around her shoulders. She brought her hands up to grasp onto his wrists, leaning backwards into him and biting into her lip.
âSince the beach, when I decided to go after Mansur. When everything happened with the CIA, it was kind of a whirlwind, I didnât really have enough time to even think about taking it down when I was only even here for hours at a time.â He lightly chuckled, watching as she stepped forward and began to take the pictures down, crumbling them up in her hands.Â
She ran her fingertips over the indents left in the door, feeling the splinters against them. She turned back to Mitch, quipping how âMr. Nazir wonât be too pleased about that.âÂ
He smiled, joining her in taking all of the images down, ripping them or balling them up in his fists. All of them ended up in one of the old Target bags they had been using for trash, filling up an entire bag (minus a few Dunkin cups sitting at the bottom).
Mitch trailed a few tender kisses down the left side of her next, and though it sounds cheesy, a feeling of hopefulness flooded himself out of most of the bitterness that had been stuck inside for so long.Â
She turned her head to catch his lips with her own, and smiled into the kiss, her hand finding the back of his head. She lightly tugged on the chocolate colored strands and he groaned in content, to which her grin only widened. She pulled back, ruffling the top of his head before beginning to pack away the remnants of what was left in the closet. He rolled his eyes, following suit.
They had piled all of the boxes into the back of Mitchâs old decommissioned CIA vehicle (which was obvious that is was such, given that the side was littered with bullet holes and metallic scratches), returned the key to Mr. Nazir (who was glad to see Mitch go), and with that, they were off.
The new place wasnât too far away, the pair taking a page out of Stanâs book and opting for a wonderful sense of privacy. It was nestled in a rural corner of Massachusetts, where Mitch would be able to come home to a sense of serenity. Y/n had already moved in her possessions, Mitchâs items being the last step. Theyâd also furnished the cozy cabin, trips to IKEA and Urban Outfitters (along with several other over-priced boutiques) making the place feel like a perfect fit for the couple.
Mitchâs strange and varied knick knacks made the house feel like a home, his lacrosse stick finding a new home by the front door, right under a hanging potted plant that Y/n and Mitch had decided to affectionately name âCharlesâ after a drunken night watching the X-Men movies. The house was littered in plants such as Charles, in fact, with Mitchâs first response to seeing all of them being âWow, looks like a greenhouse in here.â
(Still, heâd grown to love the plant babies. Trust me.)
Two tired smiles made their ways to their faces as they both sat on their new sofa, admiring a job well done. Though several boxes still lay on the hardwood, unopened, they felt accomplished enough to pull out a bottle of wine that they had been saving for the occasion. It was an early housewarming gift from Stan, to which they were unprepared to take advantage of, it seemed.
âBaby, did we unpack the wine glasses earlier?â Mitch questioned, his mind slightly foggy of the day's events and early start.
âNo, I think theyâre still packed up.â She replied, to which Mitchâs eyes lit up, an idea forming and an imaginary lightbulb popping up over his head. He got up from his seat, a wide smile spreading across his face. Her expression mirrored his own, with an added quirked brow at his antics.
âIâve got a solution, wait here.â Mitch responded, padding over to where he had remembered the new home of the mugs to be. Upon realization of what he was doing, Y/n smiled, rolling her eyes and bringing a hand up to run through her roots.
He shuffled back over moments later, his girlfriend recognizing one of the mugs in his hands as her favorite. He sat down next to her, with the bare skin of her thighs touching his own, jean clad. He bumped his knee to hers with a giggle, pouring out the Pinot Grigio into the mugs.Â
She gratefully accepted it as it was handed to her, smiling as she took a sip. Mitch did the same, the two of them leaning back into the soft sofa. Y/n brought her legs up, cuddling into his side and absorbing his warmth. He brought his free hand to her side, a strong hold giving them both a strong sense of comfort as she lay her head on his shoulder.
The box labeled âKatâ remained unpacked along with the others on the floor, dust already beginning to gather. Mitch had come across it a few times that day, each time more thoughtful than the last as he struggled to decide what it was exactly he was feeling towards the objects; or perhaps towards the memory of Katrina.
He had come to realize that it was acceptance he felt, deep in his stomach, settling down. It had been brought upon him in totality over time, todayâs events being the final step. A soft smile spread across Mitchâs face, a single tear falling from his eye. Y/n looked up, eyebrows furrowed with worry.
âMitch, are you alright?â
He leaned down, connecting their lips in a watery yet nectarous kiss, his hand beginning to rub small circles on her shoulder.Â
âYeah, Y/n/n.âÂ
The fire they had built earlier was roaring, now, casting a warm glow across the pairâs features. The damp trail down his cheek was highlighted, nearly glistening on his skin like an amber.Â
âIâm doinâ just fine.â
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ok btw ik that wine in mugs would be a horrible idea but this is fiction so SHUSH
anyway i hope yall enjoyed! i love writing for mitch and i have lots of future fics for him, so if u liked this, please reblog and follow if ya wanna. mwah, go drink water and have some protein <333
 xx hj
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Hayloft (p.2)
Pairing: Arvin Russell x F!Reader
Summary: Your dad brings home his new coworker, Arvin Russell, telling you that heâll be living with the two of you for a while. While attempting to keep Arvin from seeing the disfunction of your relationship with your father, the two of you grow closer than you thought. (Inspired by âHayloftâ by Mother Mother, though thatâll really only be one chapter later on so I donât know if it really countsâŠ)
Warnings: Abuse, drunkenness, misogyny, readerâs mother is dead, decapitating a chicken, reader is kind of emotional in this chapter
Word Count: 4.2k
A/N: My first slow(er) burn fic! Let me know what you think!
Part 1Â
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Work had passed fairly quickly as it always did when you had the opening shift. It sure sucked having to arrive at five oâclock in the morning but at least you got off earlier and you knew that that way you could grab groceries before your father got home and could yell at you about an empty kitchen again. By two oâclock in the afternoon, you were home again, hopping out of your truck and grabbing as many bags as you could in one go.Â
The loud sound of metal slamming against metal shook you and you flinched, looking between your door and the frame to see Arvin walking out towards you. It hadnât occurred to you that his car was even in your driveway. After so many years of having busted broken down old cars sitting there that your dad had been swearing heâd fix for almost ten years, cars in the driveway seemed normal. âLet me give you a hand,â he offered as he got closer, lifting the canvas bags from your hands before you could object.Â
âOh!â You exclaimed as you felt the weight suddenly taken off your own arms, âThank you.â You dove back into the truck to grab the last two bags before slamming it shut with your hips. The two of you began your stroll towards the front door, the dirt driveway kicking up around your feet. âYouâre back early.â You noted, looking over at Arvin.Â
He shrugged, âYeah, uh, Wallace had me on the early shift today.âÂ
You fumbled with the bags as you tried to unlock the door, kicking it open with your toes when it finally gave in. You walked into your home and Arvin followed, closing the door behind him. âBeen here long? I didnât see you in the driveway.âÂ
âNot too long. I just didnât want to let myself into your home without nobody there.â Arvin set the bags on the counter next to where you set yours.Â
You began to unpack the bags and put the groceries in the respective places. Arvin watched off to the side, unsure of how your kitchen was organized so he was worried heâd do more than good if he stepped in. âMy daddy got the late shift?âÂ
Arvin shook his head, noticing that his beat up old hat was still on his head despite being indoors and took it off immediately, his tousled brown curls parting messily down the middle. âNo, we went in at the same time. He ân some buddies said they was goinâ to some bar in town.âÂ
He watched your shoulders fall a little and you sighed, âFiguresâŠ. You didnât go?âÂ
Again, Arvin shook his head, âNo. No offense to your daddy but I donât like to drink the way I get the feelinâ he does.âÂ
You snorted, turning to him with a knowing chuckle, âLetâs just say that Iâm sorry in advance for whatever he says or does when he gets home, if he gets home. Sheriff Pike might end up callinâ in the morninâ tellinâ us to pick him up.â Though it was stated as a joke, Arvin could hear the tragic reality behind your words.Â
Arvin then noticed the pack of beer bottles that you were pulling out of the bag. As if you could feel his eyes looking at you with worried curiosity, you glanced over at him, noticing the way his eyes flicked between you and the beer in your hands. You offered a sad shrug, âI know what youâre thinkinâ but trust me. Sometimes itâs better to have him drunk and possibly content than sober and angry thereâs nothing to drink. Besides, the beer is better than the hard stuff with âim.âÂ
ââM sorry. I didnât mean to be makinâ faces. Your business is your business,â Arvin backpedalled, giving you an apologetic nod.Â
You shook your head, âDonât worry. I know how it looks. Iâm sorry you gotta see all of it. I been tryinâ to keep to keep him calm but if you end up stayinâ a while, Iâm sure youâll get to see him at his worse times.âÂ
Arvin chewed his lip as he contemplated whether or not to bring up what had been going through his mind but he had to make sure you were alright. âI-I heard you ân your dad talkinâ last night⊠right after you left my room.âÂ
Your face fell as you realized what he was talking about, âYou werenât sâposed to hear that. Iâm sorry.â Shit, this was what you were hoping to avoid.Â
âAre you alright?âÂ
Gentle. Caring. His tone was something that had been long lost to you in this house and it took the words out of your mouth for a moment. It was embarrassing, the way your heart welled up with⊠well love wasnât quite the right word but the warmth of being cared about. Not since after your mother had passed had you heard somebody actually care about how you felt.Â
You just nodded and gave a forced smile that you could tell was easy to see through but it was the best you could muster. For someone who was able to take so much shit from their father and was able to look the man who would throw things at you and grab you by the hair dead in the eye with nothing but contempt, it was compassion that made you crumble. It had been so unexpected, especially from Arvin, the stranger living in your house.Â
âShit, âm sorry! I didnât mean to - I didnât mean to overstep. I onlyâŠâ He stammered over his words and at first you were confused until you felt the single hot tear tracing its way down your cheek.Â
You were quick to wipe it away, shocked at your own uncharacteristic show of vulnerability. You hadnât realized until now that you had zoned out on the ground while Arvinâs words repeated in your head but now a flash of embarrassment ran through you. âNo, no, no. Iâm sorry. I donât know whatâs wrong with me.â You sniffled once before giving a small laugh of disbelief. âItâs just⊠Itâs been a long time since anybody asked that.âÂ
You straightened up and ran your hands through your hair, eyes closed as you thought of what else you needed to do. Thankfully, if your dad was at the bar, you had at least another four hours to just you and Arvin, all night if you were lucky, though you seldom were. That was when the feeling of dread set in. Your dad had requested chicken roast for dinner tonight and whether he came home early and only a few beers in or you had to drive him home hungover in the morning, the man would be furious if there werenât at least reheated leftovers for him. You had to kill Patty and prep her for dinner.Â
âYou okay?â Arvin asked again, though this time it was in reference to the way a heavy look fell over your features. It wasnât a profound deep question like it was earlier.Â
Your head wavered from side to side and your lips twisted, âMy daddy asked for chicken roast tonight. I gotta go out and fix Patty up.â You tried to put it lightly though it felt anything but. âIâll be out in the coop. Youâre more than welcome to clean up in the shower or do whatever youâd like âround the house. The radio is in the livinâ room if you wanna tune into somethinâ.âÂ
You pushed yourself off the counter and walked to the door in your kitchen that led out to the backyard but Arvin made a few steps to follow, âIs it alright if I keep you company? It donât feel right beinâ in your house without you or your daddy here.âÂ
You smiled at the thought of him staying with you and you nodded, continuing out the door, âSure, câmon.âÂ
The hen house wasnât very far from the back door. From there, you could see the several acres of land that your father was wasting. Your grandparents had bought this land in the late 1910âs and had started up a little farm of their own to sell locally, though your father had abandoned the farming portion after they died. It was where your daddy had grown up and then where you had as well. God, how you missed your grandparents. Your grandmotherâs soft words of love and kindness but sternness and willingness to swat your butt with a wooden spoon if you got an attitude (though she would yell at your father if he ever tried to discipline you - âNow you leave that poor baby alone!â). Your grandfather had looked like a rough and angry old man from years of hard work but he had the softest heart of anyone youâd ever met. How the two of them had raised your father was beyond you.Â
When you approached the wired fence and jiggled the lock open, the chickens inside stood surprisingly still. They trusted you. You could see it in their little brown eyes. You were safe and warm and didnât want to harm them. You came in for the unfertilized eggs they laid and left, oftentimes with some seed and a soft pat or two on the head. Patty, a fat white hen with black specks, walked comfortably around your feet, nuzzling her head against your leg. She was the nicest hen youâd ever had. She trusted you.Â
God, you were about to cry again. You bent down to pick her up and you held her against your chest, trying to look her in the eye, though it was difficult when she kept jerking it in different directions. âI canât tell you how sorry I am,â you murmured low. Usually it was your father that would slaughter the hens if he really wanted the meat that badly. You had never done it yourself but heâd made you watch every time so that you knew how if the time ever came. Each time it made you sick to your stomach.Â
Already, you felt green. The unassuming hen that you had been friendly enough to for her not flip out when you held her was none the wiser that her life was about to end by your hand. You glanced over to the large wood round just ahead and the axe that was leaned up against it.Â
Your face contorted as you realized how much you disliked the placement. The way your father would slaughter chickens right in front of their friends made your heart break. It was barbaric.Â
You walked over to Arvin and held Patty out towards him, âWould you mind holdinâ onto her for a second?âÂ
Though visibly confused, he took the chicken from your hands, drawing back when her wings fluttered out at the contact with the new strange man. Arvin watched as you walked towards the large round and tried to push it with all your might. âWhatâre you doinâ?âÂ
âIâm-â you grunted, feeling it slide slowly, inch by inch, âtrying to move it where the other chickens canât see.â You took another moment to use all your force against it before standing up straight and breathing heavily, âI know it sounds dumb cause theyâre only chickens but it feels cruel to make âem watch, yâknow?â You went back to pushing the round and Arvin approached behind you.Â
From here he could see the blood stains in the wood. It looked as if the blood had been washed off but the wood had been stained crimson regardless. There was also a divot where an axe had clearly been driven down many times over the years, chipping away at the wood.Â
Arvinâs heart actually warmed a little at your attempt to show mercy and your willingness to go out of your way to spare some chickensâ feelings. It wasnât something he was sure heâd do himself but when he heard you say it, he realized you had a point. It was cruel to imprison a bunch of animals and then lead them out one by one to be slaughtered in front of everyone, each animal waiting their turn. âHere, take âer back. Let me.â Arvin stepped in, handing Patty back over to you and bending down to lift the round onto its side with much effort. The wood had to weigh at least a hundred pounds and had long since settled into the ground where it had been placed when you were a child.
Your eyes widened as you watched his biceps bulge, straining the material of his blue t-shirt. Youâd never seen a man with muscles like that before and you found your eyes trailing along his arms, following every popping vein from the tops of his hands, up his forearms, and onto his biceps until they disappeared beneath his shirt. It was something you hadnât expected to see in him. Arvin looked like a quiet, polite, hardworking young man but you never would have imagined the immaculate muscles he possessed. You found your mind wandering to what other surprises laid in store beneath all those layers he wo-Â
You needed to calm yourself down. If only he could hear your thoughts, he surely would be furious and disgusted with you. You hadnât had such impure thoughts since that one time you had been messing around with Jimmy Bates in the backseat of his old car back in your senior year of high school. The two of you didnât even go all the way but you went far enough and the guilt ate you alive since the two of you were never officially together anyways. He was just the cute boy from high school that you had pined over years that had finally given you the chance right before he shipped off to join the war.Â
âThis alright?â Arvin asked, shaking you from your fantasy, and you snapped back into reality to realize he had rolled the wood round around the side of the coop behind the wooden wall, outside of the other chickensâ views.Â
You nodded and walked over to him, âThatâs perfect. Thank you so much for doinâ that. I know itâs sorta stupid.âÂ
Arvin shook his head, putting his hands on his hips, âIf it means somethinâ to you, it ainât stupid at all. Besides, now that you pointed it out, it was a little barbaric.âÂ
You smiled up at him, one which he returned. How was this boy so damn nice? Was this some cosmic way of the universe finally giving you something good in your life? Youâd become so calloused to your fatherâs harsh words and barked commands that you had forgotten how nice it was to feel cared about and validated. And you barely knew him.Â
ââM glad you think so.â You looked down at Patty in your arms and any good feelings youâd had melted to sadness and fear. âYou been a good girl, Patty. I know you struggled with layinâ eggs for a while but you were always a good girl. Never bit me once unlike some of them other hens.â You werenât often very soft and vulnerable but you were about to take somethingâs life for the first time and you couldnât help but feel the weight of that on your heart. If this were a life or death situation, you would feel better about it, but it wasnât. The only reason Patty had to die was because your father would throw a fit if she didnât.Â
You carried her to the log and gave her a little kiss on the top of the head, âPlease donât hate me but I understand if you do. Say hi to my momma for me, will you? Tell her I love and miss her.â You set her down and got her in the position you always saw your dad put the other chickens in before he chopped their heads off. Arvin handed you the axe with uncertainty but watched on as you struggled to bring yourself to finish the deed.Â
You held her down and you could tell by the way she was flailing that she was panicking now. Patty was well aware of what was happening. âIâm sorry!â You choked, tears welling up in your eyes as her panic began to turn into your own panic. How did people do this? Why was this so freaking difficult?Â
Tossing the axe slightly in your hand, you readjusted the handle and just as you went to swing, Arvin piped up, âI can do it.âÂ
You looked over at him, the afternoon sun reflecting the tears in your eyes and making the color of your irises stand out in tragic beauty. âI-I- Would you really not mind?â You breathed out in relief.Â
Arvin stepped forward and you handed the axe out to him, âI donât mind.â You held onto Patty until Arvin could position her just right as well. He had no idea what he was doing - heâd never had to slaughter a chicken before. He had heard that all you had to do was cut their head off though and then heâd heard the rumors of them running around like crazy even after their head hit the ground. How hard could it be?Â
Once he had the hen pinned down where he wanted her, he looked up to see you chewing on your thumb, brows knitted in discomfort. It wasnât the first chicken youâd watched get slaughtered but it was far from something you enjoyed observing. Arvin signaled to you with a nod before raising the axe above his head and you shut your eyes tight, flinching at the sound of the old metal head thudding into the old wood.Â
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You had the carcass sitting in the sink while you pulled off the blood soaked feathers, depositing them into the trash bin by the handful. This part was easier for you, something youâd done many times in the past. âThank you for doinâ that. Iâm sorry Iâm such a baby.âÂ
Arvin sat at the kitchen table behind you, âYou ainât a baby just cause you donât like to kill things. Iâd say itâs probably rather normal.âÂ
The time was inching closer to four oâclock now and the sun was beginning to hang ever so slightly lower in the sky, the precursor to sunset. It was warm outside and a cool spring breeze blew in through the open window above the sink. You snickered as you pulled another handful of feathers out, âYeah? That mean you ainât normal?â You looked over at him with a playful glint in your eye but your smile fell when you saw an uncomfortable look cross his face, almost like heâd seen a ghost.Â
âI ainât never said I liked killinâ either.â Arvin attempted to match your joking tone but it was pretty evident there was a weight behind his words.Â
âHey, Iâm sorry. I was only jokinâ.â A pang of guilt washed over you but it was only that. A joke. You hadnât imagined teasing him over something like killing a chicken would set him off, especially since he volunteered to do it for you, but apparently you were wrong.Â
Arvin sniffed and scratched his nose, âI know.â After a moment of awkward silence, he stood, âLet me give you a hand. What do you need done?âÂ
You scanned his face once more to make sure he was really okay but you decided to drop it when you saw his insistent look. You shook your head, âI got it. It ainât much after I get this all gutted and cleaned.â You picked up the mostly featherless carcass by the wings and plopped it back down into the sink.Â
âWell âm sure thereâs vegetables or somethinâ else that goes with it, right? Let me start cuttinâ those up.â His persistence was adorable, making your heart flutter in the most wonderful way. The idea of a man actually being helpful was unknown to you before Arvin. Your life had been filled with your dadâs drunken bossings since you were twelve years old. You couldnât remember the last time a genuinely kind voice offered you anything more than a smile on the street, not that you took that for granted. Arvin was just different though. Noble and helpful and kind.Â
âYou really donât have to-âÂ
âYeah, you keep sayinâ that but I really do want to help. So what can I do to make things easier on you?â He took a few steps closer to you until you felt the beginning of what could have been sparks if he stepped any nearer, like when you hold two magnets a few inches apart and you can feel the energy between them, that hint of attraction, but itâs not quite close enough to pull them together.Â
The blush in your cheeks at his simple gesture made you break the eye contact with a nervous laugh of retreat, âOkay, fine. If youâre gonna be so insistent,â you drew out with a teasing drawl, âyou can cut up veggies. Thereâs potatoes over there and carrots and zucchini in the fridge.âÂ
Arvinâs lips turned up in a small smile when you finally resigned your stubborn ways and he went off to find the vegetables where you had directed him.Â
Needless to say, when your father came home from the bar to find you and Arvin talking over a song by the Platters playing on the radio with Arvin cleaning up the dishes while you tossed together the vegetables and the seasoning, he was less than pleased.Â
âWhat the hell is going on here?â His slurred speech made your eyes widen in fear. He was supposed to get home later like he always did. But then you found yourself chiding your irresponsibility. Why the hell would you take that chance? You knew better than to let Arvin help out and now you were gonna pay.Â
Arvin sensed the way you tensed up beside him and watched as you spun around to face your father with haste, âJust finishinâ up dinner now. Should be ready by six so you got more than enough time to take a sho-âÂ
âWhy the fuck is he doinâ the dishes?â You father was leaning against the wall, clearly relying on the structure for support. This wasnât the time to test him, not with Arvin here. It was times like this when heâd start throwing stuff at you.Â
Before you could say anything, Arvin piped up firmly but respectfully, âI offered, sir. Itâs no problem at all.âÂ
Your dad pointed at Arvin, âA man ainât got no place with his hands in a sink of dishes. You leave that shit to her and sheâll just grab you a beer.â He stumbled over his own feet before catching himself ungracefully.Â
Arvinâs jaw set tightly and you gripped the countertop with white knuckles behind you. Times like this, you werenât even sure what to say anymore. No amount of standing up for yourself got you anywhere with him. You never made any headway with your dadâs sexist views on gender roles. It was pointless. The only thing to do was try and work your way to supporting yourself so you could get the hell out of dodge and never look back.Â
Arvinâs voice surprised you, âA manâs place is helpinâ out the women in his life when they need, not leavinâ âem to do all the housework themselves.â You nearly choked on your own tongue at his words. It was a bold statement for a man to make, especially to the head of the house that was being so gracious as to host him free of charge, but he didnât back down. It appeared like the jab was lost on your drunken father but Arvin continued with a slightly less accusatory comment to diffuse the situation regardless, âI grew up helpinâ my grandma with all the house chores so I really donât mind at all.âÂ
You watched the way your dad eyed Arvin and then you before scoffing and grumbling incoherently as he shuffled his way into the living room. You let out a breath you hadnât realized youâd been holding. âI donât want you gettinâ kicked out âcause of me. You didnât have to say nothinâ.âÂ
Arvin glared at where your father had disappeared and nodded, âYeah, I did. You donât deserve all the shit he gives you.âÂ
You suddenly found yourself avoiding his eyes and twisting your lips. He was right and you were well aware of that fact. The abuse your dad put you through was uncalled for at best. The fact that Arvin had actually taken the time to not only notice the same fact but acknowledge it and stand up for you was something you never thought youâd hear someone do. It made you uncomfortable. Youâd been fighting this battle by yourself for so long that letting somebody even know it was being waged was enough to make you want to sink away. Even so, a part of you wanted to let Arvin keep standing up for you. It made you feel weak after having to stand up for yourself for so long but also validated.Â
Your eyes flicked up to meet his for only a moment before turning back towards dinner that sat in a roasting pan on the stove, âThank you.âÂ
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time makes the heart grow fonder
Hey, so I'm back after a little break I had from writing, hope you like this one.
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Bucky x fem!reader
Summary: Bucky wants to finish his list of amends. The problem? The last name on the list belongs to a woman whit whom he had a more romantic relationship during his time in Hydra.
Warnings: little sad, attempted murder, bad writing, doesn't follow the events of movies or series whatsoever,
Word count: 3,3k
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âJust wanted to let you know that Iâm not the winter soldier anymore, my name is James, and I have to make amends,â Bucky told to the terrified man in front of him, in a monotone voice. The man didnât say anything; he only squished his back closer to the wall behind him.
âSo, I didnât want to kill your family, I was just a puppet to Hydra. They made me do it.â He said the words, which he told many times. He squatted in front of the man and he closed his eyes in fear. Bucky sighed and moved his hand towards his pocket. The man in front of him flinched and whimpered in fear.
âJust my note book, donât worry,â Bucky mumbled and pulled it out of his pocket, opened it, and crossed over the manâs name. He looked over the page for a few moments, when his eyes landed the last uncrossed name, (Y/L/N). He shook his head and nodded his head towards the man.
âGood talk, man thanks for listening.â He slapped the manâs shoulder and he squeaked quietly. âWould talk more but I have to get to therapy,â Bucky said, stood up, and left the abandoned warehouse, where he cornered the poor scared man. As he walked away, the only thing he could hear were the fast footsteps of the man and his labored breathing.
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âSo, you crossed another name off your list, thatâs great.â His therapist said in a monotone voice and Bucky nodded awkwardly. The room went silent and she started to write something in her little notepad, which he hated so much.
âOkay, I donât have much to tell you. You have been making progress.â She looked back down to her notepad.
âNo nightmares?â she asked and Bucky shook his head.
âNo, only some flashbacks but Iâve been sleeping peacefully for the last 3 weeks.â He answered truthfully. The doctor only nodded and continued writing in her notepad.
âI want you to finish the list of amends by the time of our next session.â The doctor announced and Buckyâs heart skipped a beat.
âThen we can move on to other stuff.â She continued and Bucky shook his head quickly.
âNo, I canât do it that quickly, give me some time before I can face her family.â He pleaded and she looked up at him surprised.
âSo, you had some connection with the victim? Other than yourâŠâ she stopped to think âunfortunate encounter?â she questioned and Bucky looked to the floor in shame.
âI managed to escape in 2009.â He whispered quietly and the doctor furrowed her eyebrows. âPardon?â
âWhen I was with Hydra. I managed to escape and hide for about 3 years. The woman I killed, she helped me hide.â He confessed and her eyebrows shot up in surprise.
âThis wasnât in the files, I wouldâve known.â She mumbled to herself as she shuffled through her notes and files.
âIt isnât,â Bucky said and ended her useless search. âNobody knows about it. Except you.â He confessed and she calmed down.
âAlright, tell me what happened James.â She said and got her stupid notebook ready. Bucky took a few deep breathes to calm himself down and wiped his sweaty hands on his jeans.
âSo, a few years back, the winter soldier was sent on a mission to the outskirts of San Francisco. It was supposed to be easy, just a takedown of some S.H.I.E.L.D. officials who were visiting one of the newer bases in the area. But then I realized it was a trap. Long story short, I got shot into the stomach, and left shoulder.â He started explaining.
He didnât remember many injuries from his time as the winter soldier, but he could remember this one very clearly. The pain, the metallic taste of his own blood. His head started spinning just thinking about that and he decided to move on.
âI got away, but the bullet damaged the chip I had in my left shoulder and it got disconnected from Hydraâs systems. I ran a few blocks before collapsed from exhaustion in an ally way behind some bar.â He stopped to wait so the doctor could finish her writing and then continued.
âI think I laid there for about 3 hours before she came out of the bar. She worked her part-time job there because she was in college. She studied psychology.â Buckyâs voice cracked a bit and he took a deep breath because he could feel tears stinging his eyes.
âTake your time James.â She reminded and handed him a paper tissue. He thanked her and dabbed his eyes with it a few times.
âShe wanted to take me to the hospital but I told her she canât. I was so out of it because of the pain but I knew that this was maybe the only chance I would get at escaping Hydra. So she drove me to her dorm room about 20 minutes away from the bar.â He paused to collect his thoughts before he continued.
âShe then took care of my injuries, made me some food, and let me sleep in her bed. My wounds wouldnât heal for a long time so she decided to take me to a house she got from her grandparents. She even apologized for getting me out of the dorm room so quickly, but she explained that her roommate would come soon and she didnât want to be questioned.â He chuckled as he felt the hot tears tumble down his cheeks.
âShe drove me there and spent the whole weekend with me. In the meantime, I snapped out of my winter soldier mindset. So I explained everything to her and she wasnât scared of me. Can you believe that?â he smiled fondly at the memory. The doctor only nodded at him with a smile on her face. It was unusual to see her smile.
âShe then had to go back to her dorm on Sunday, but she left me with a lot of food, books, and clothes, so I would be okay. She visited every weekend and sometimes even throughout the week. And after a few months, we fell in love. When her semester finished, we stayed in the house together. It was like this for about three years, before Hydra found out where I was hiding.â He shivered at the memory and continued.
âThen, they made me kill her. And you know the rest.â He finished quickly and wiped his tears with the backs of his hands. The tissue that the doctor gave him laying on the table crumbled into a little ball.
âI miss her you know,â he sniffled and the doctor nodded with sympathy in her eyes.
âOnly thing I got left is a photo I managed to hide in my boot.â He laughed and took out the polaroid to look at her. The doctor put out her hand.
âCan I see?â she asked softly and Bucky put the photo in her hand hesitantly. She thanked him quietly and turned the photo to look at it properly.
Her eyes first landed on Buckyâs smiling face. She could see he was holding the camera with one hand, and his other hand was wrapped around the shoulders of the girl on his left. She was squishing her cheek to Buckyâs and laughed into the camera, with her arms wrapped loosely around Buckyâs neck. Just from the first look, you could see that they were happy.
âWhat was her name? If you donât mind me asking.â The doctor asked cautiously and Bucky smiled softly.
âHer name was (Y/N).â
âThank you for sharing with me James, this was progress as well, you opening up.â She explained to him and he nodded his head, still looking to the ground.
âBut you are taking a very long time with the list of amends so I canât give you more time. You have time until the end of the month, which is 2 weeks. Not more.â She announced and he gulped loudly.
âI understand, why you were pushing this away, and I think you know you canât do that any longer. This is the way to forgive yourself.â She explained.
âYou can go, we are finished for today.â She dismissed him and he shook his head.
âThe problem is doctor; I donât think I can forgive myself,â Bucky answered and left the room.
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A week later, tired-looking Bucky stumbled into his apartment. It was around 3 a.m. and he couldnât sleep. Ever since he opened up to his therapist about his years on the run, he didnât get much sleep. His nightmares were plagued with the images of his lover laying lifelessly on the floor under the bridge.
His sleep was haunted with the flashbacks of the horrible actions he had done, while under the influence of Hydra. Every time he closed his eyes, he could see her. He tried every single nightmare exercise the doctor taught him. Nothing helped. So he tried the second option. Get drunk and pass out from exhaustion.
But even that was hard. With the serum running through his veins, his alcohol tolerance was very high and getting drunk was nearly impossible. But after nearly 7 hours of constant drinking, he was plastered.
He drunkenly stumbled into his apartment, threw his keys and jacket on the floor, and took off his gloves and shoes. After nearly falling over the table, he finally got into his bedroom. He stripped down, put on his pajamas, and moved into the bathroom to do his nighttime routine.
He fell into the bed about 10 minutes later and fell asleep immediately. He just hoped no nightmares would haunt him this night.
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âCome on Bucky, you know me, please!â The woman in front of him begged as she backed away from him slowly.
âWho is Bucky?â He asked confused and she shook her head.
âItâs you, you are Bucky, My Bucky. You donât have to go back. I know itâs very hard to resist but you have to try, then you can be free.â She tried to get into his head with her words but he only mumbled.
âYou are my mission, I have to kill you.â He said in a monotone voice and she knew Hydra finally got into his head and she couldnât do anything anymore. So she ran. She pushed a table in front of him to gain some time and ran out of the house, towards her car. She quickly sat inside and put the keys into the ignition.
âCome on, come on,â she mumbled as she tried to put the keys inside with her shaky hands.
âYou canât run from meeee.â The winter soldier shouted and (Y/N) whimpered in fear. The car finally started and she stepped on the gas and drove away.
She knew he would probably catch up to her, but trying wouldnât hurt. Honestly, she didnât have anything to lose and at this point, she was just stalling her own death.
She got into the city and slowed down a bit. There were quite a lot of cars and she didnât want to cause an accident. But just a few minutes later, a car rammed into the passengerâs side of her car. Her head hit her steering wheel and her ears started ringing.
She looked to see the car that rammed into her, and she could see the winter soldier sitting in the driverâs seat. She saw her chance to flee when he couldnât open his door and struggled with it for a few moments.
âNot today, bitch.â She mumbled and quickly opened her door and ran in a random direction as fast as she could. She later regretted that decision, because she got lost.
She ended up hiding under some random bridge. She sat down behind some concrete cubes and finally breathed for a bit. She couldnât run anymore, her legs were burning and she couldnât breathe anymore. She was also quite sure she had a concussion.
She just stared off into the distance and she could feel the tears running down her cheeks. (Y/N) missed her Bucky so much. She missed his pretty laugh and his unfunny jokes.
She shivered as she felt the cold January air seep into her bones. She didnât even have a jacket.
âNow, as much as I love a good chase, this is where we end it.â She heard a cold voice behind her and she froze up. This was the end.
She got ready to run when he grabbed her by the neck and pushed her against a pillar behind him. The woman tried to fight him and get out of his grasp, but it didnât do anything. He pressed against her windpipe and she whimpered.
âPlease no,â she whispered as she tried to breathe. She sniffled softly and touched his wrist lightly. She knew she was going to die. She decided to let Bucky know she didnât hate him. She knew he would blame himself when he snapped out of it.
âI love you.â She whispered and he cocked an eyebrow. âI just want you to know that I donât hate you now, and I never will.â She could feel her eyes closing and she stretched her hand towards his face. But it didnât get there. Her hand fell limp on his shoulder and he breathed out.
âAt least your beautiful face is the last thing I get to see before I die.â She chuckled before her eyes closed and her body went limp.
The winter soldier then let go of her neck and her body tumbled towards the ground. He looked around and saw a van parked just 0.2 miles away from them. He looked at the girl one last time before moving towards the van. He opened the back door and slid in.
âMission report?â
âGoneâ
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Bucky woke up with a gasp and tears running down his cheek. He looked at his alarm clock. It was 6 a.m. which meant, he only slept for about 3 hours, which was better than every single night prior.
He breathed in and out slowly before he stood up and moved towards his closet. He pulled out 2 pillows and a blanket. He tied the pillows together with the blanket and created something like a pillow snake.
âOkay, letâs try this.â He mumbled to himself as he got back into the bed. He put the pillow snake on the empty side of the bed and hesitantly cuddled up to it, seeking just a tiny bit of comfort. He wrapped his arms around it and pushed his face into it, and fell asleep slowly. He slept until 9 a.m.
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âSo the nightmares are back.â The doctor asked and Bucky nodded looking very tired.
âAnd you still havenât finished your amends.â She said, sounding a bit disappointed. He only shook his head as he yawned.
âI think it would put your mind at ease you know,â she started slowly and Bucky shook his head again.
âIâm guessing you didnât meet her family when you were together.â
âNo, I met her friend Eliot by mistake but other than that, no.â The doctor nodded slowly and scribbled something into her notepad.
âI really think you should go and see her family. The sooner, the better.â She stated firmly and Bucky nodded.
âYou are right.â He mumbled and looked at her.
âWe can end the session sooner and you can go and catch a flight. You can see them the first thing in the morning.â She proposed and Bucky sighed sadly.
âOkay, thanks.â He mumbled, stood up, and left the room.
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He got a hotel room in San Francisco later that night. He was quite tired from the flight and prayed, the nightmares would leave him alone.
He walked into his hotel room, checked if everything was as it should be, and flopped onto the bed. He put out a photo of (Y/N) and stroked it slowly.
âI hope your family understands, and they donât hate me. Hope they are just as kind as you are.â He whispered and smiled sadly.
âI miss you so much my love, so so much.â He kissed the photo softly, put it inside of his bedside table, and rolled onto his left side. He fell asleep quite quickly that night.
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He has been standing in front of the house for the last 40 minutes. He just couldnât bring himself to ring the bell.
âOkay Barnes, you got this.â He whispered to himself as he walked towards the front door through the front garden. He wiped his sweaty hands in his jeans and rang the doorbell with a shaky finger.
It was quiet for a bit before the door rattled and an elderly woman opened the door.
âHello, can I help you?â she asked happily and Bucky nodded.
âI wanted to talk about your daughter (Y/N),â he said slowly and the woman only laughed.
âWhat did the girl get herself into again?â the woman laughed and Bucky looked at her with wide eyes.
âShe is alive?â he gasped and the woman nodded.
âOf course, nearly died in 2012, and disappeared during the blip, but yeah. She is.â Whoâs asking?
âMy name is James, Iâm an old friend.â He stuttered out and the woman narrowed her eyes.
âYou want her address?â she asked and Bucky quickly nodded his head.
âGive me the note book, Iâll give it to you.â She motioned towards his little book and he handed it to her.
âItâs not that far, you can walk there actually.â She informed and Bucky thanked her.
âThank you so much, I have to go and see her, see you later.â He shouted as he ran away from the door.
âThis should be it.â He mumbled to himself as he walked around the neighborhood. He stopped in front of a big house, with a beautiful front garden. It looked like the house, they talked about when they were together.
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âAnd it should have a big front garden, so our dogs can run in itâ she imagined and Bucky nodded.
âYeah, and a big pool so we donât have to go swimming in a lake.â He proposed and she laughed.
âYeahâ she trailed off and the smile on her face fell slowly.
âHey, whatâs wrong dove?â Bucky asked seriously and she only shook her head.
âJust hope weâll get what we want.â She said sadly and Bucky took her face in his hands.
âHey, we just have to believe, one day, Iâll be free and weâll travel the world together okay?â he reassured her and she smiled up at him.
She kissed him slowly in agreement and he hummed into the kiss.
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He got back into reality when he stopped in front of the front door. He didnât want to wait any longer. He pressed it and stepped away from the door. The door rattled and she opened it up.
âBucky?â she asked softly and he nodded with his eyes full of tears.
âItâs me dove.â He said tearfully and she moved towards him. She quickly wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him into a hug. He only wrapped his arms around her waist and put his face into her neck, to breathe in her wonderful smell.
âI missed you so much,â she sobbed out and tightened her arms around him.
âI didnât think I would ever see you again.â He mumbled and she shook her head.
âI made it out with a mild concussion.â She snorted and he looked at her with wide eyes.
âItâs funny to you?â he asked baffled and she nodded.
âNo one gets away from the winter soldier and I did it.â She laughed and his smile fell.
âIf you are wondering, Iâm no longer him, I got rid of him.â He clarified and (Y/N) shushed him.
âLetâs talk about this later, just kiss me now.â He begged and Bucky nodded. He quickly put his lips on hers and she pulled him even closer by his neck.
âI love youâ she mumbled.
âI love you too, Iâm never letting you go ever again.â
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Ice Dreams - Chapter 1
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Lukanette Figure Skating AU? Lukanette Figure Skating AU.
Iâve been planning this for more than one year already ( @mamanabeilleâ knows ) but Freyaâs recent art for me fueled me to finish the first 2 chapters (out of more than 60...)
Header art is traditional art drawn by me about one year ago - Full pic HERE.
Summary
Despite being very talented and loving to skate, Marinette is determined to quit Figure Skating after the lack of decent results and the great amount of stress and pressure on her shoulders.
On the other hand, Juleka and Luka are average skaters in pairs category who, after years of hard work, have finally started showing some good results. But suddenly, Juleka is forced to retire, leaving Luka at the verge of retirement because of his need for a partner.
Can Juleka convince Luka and Marinette to give figure skating a second chance? Can they form a bond strong enough to reach the top and accomplish their dreams? Could something more than partnership spark between them?
AO3
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CHAPTER 1: Marinette
Figure skating can appeal to people for many reasons: the competitive part, the artistry, the music arrangements, the performancesâŠ
For Marinette figure skating was everything- her whole life.
When she was happy, she would love to skate. When she was sad, skating never failed to cheer her up. She was athletic, flexible and talented, gifted by both technique and artistry, as well as tenacity to work hard and never give up. Skating was an irreplaceable part of her life.
WAS.
In past tense.
Because even when itâs pleasant to watch the beautiful programs the skaters have to offer, thereâs something that never changes during competitions: the scores are what really matter. Fail one element and you're screwed. Keep the program perfect but with minimum difficulty, you're off the podium. Do perfect in practice but fail in front of the judges: it's over.
This was Marinette's case.
Recently, consistency always failed her in competitions, and it had been a letdown to see how the past seasons had been going blank for her, without any outstanding accomplishment, despite her being on top almost all of her childhood. Her effort, and full potential didnât show off on her competition results.
Marinette's parents and her coach, Miss Bustier, associated her disappointing results to her mentorâs and grandmotherâs passing. But Marinette was well aware that the main reason behind her failures wasn't only how much she missed her granny; the real cause had a girlâs name: Lila Rossi.
It had already been 2 years since Lila joined her training classes under Miss Bustier's teachings. And everything had gone downhill after that.
It's not that she hadn't already been enduring bullying from Chloe Bourgeois, but Lila's bullying was at a whole different level.
The pressure, the expectations, the stress, the bullying, the injuries and damaged property, the struggle her parents went through to pay for her classes and competitions, how she had to sew her own dresses because she didnât have the money to buy them, how she almost had no friends left... Everything piled up for years and made her finally crumble. Her skating consistency was affected and led only to constant failure.
In the end, she was exhausted, and no matter how much she loved ice skating, she reached her limit. She surpassed her limit.
Lila Rossi had won.
For two weeks now, since her last failure at a National Competition, Marinette had been skipping her skating classes. Coach Bustier was always exceptionally kind to her, and had been considerate (in her own way) this time as well, suggesting she take a few days to rest and get back again when she felt confident again.
But Marinette didn't intend to return under her coaching. Instead, she had set her mind to resign from her classes and, probably, even quit figure skating too.
She couldnât take it anymore.
The most talented skater of the decade was seriously considering quitting skating for good. And it made her sad, but she couldnât see any other way out of the spiral of failures she was caught in. No one was there to get her out of the dark hole she was buried in.
She certainly didnât expect a second chance in figure skating.
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During the days she didn't go to her classes, Marinette always spent her time at the Miraculous Ice Skate Rink, where her 'grandfather', Master Wang Fu worked as a manager, taking care of the installation and the opening and shutting down hours, along with the material to rent and the tickets for open to public times. Being her motherâs uncle, she had been babysat by him and his wife since she was a little kid. It was, in fact, Marianne Lenoir, was the one who taught Marinette the skating basics and the one who made her start practicing and love figure skating since she was 3 years old.
Marinette loved her grandparents a lot, and the passing of Miss Lenoir still pained her everyday. After her tragic loss, they became even closer, especially when Master Fu gave Marinette his late wife's earrings as a memento - he knew she would have given them to her at some point, since she loved the dark-haired girl a lot. And with no children on their own, Marinette was the closest they had to a daughter or granddaughter. Marinette had promised to treasure the earrings. They had a ladybugâs design engraved on them, only visible when light illuminated themfrom a certain angle. They were very mysterious and unique, and Marinette had loved them since her eyes had fallen on them. After becoming their owner, not even once she took them off. She felt the luck on her side as long as she wore them.
Except, that wasnât the case anymore.
Marinette had her own theory of how Lila might have corrupted them when she touched them once, since all her luck was now gone from her side from that moment onwards.
On the ice, Marinette skated a little. But when she attempted to jump, a memory of her last competition crossed her mind and she fell down. Instead of standing up like always, she stayed seated on the floor, tears falling down her cheeks.
"Marinette! Are you ok? Did you get hurt?" asked Fu, worried. Rushing (as much as his old legs allowed him to) to aid her.
"Master-! I- I-... I can't skate anymore!" She broke down to cry even harder.
"That's not true, Marinette. You're just feeling discouraged now because of your recent results in competition. It's normal to feel like that. It will be ok"
"No Master⊠ It's not just competitions⊠It's everything⊠Lila, Chloe, my coach, my parents, my friendsâŠand I miss Granny Marianne so much... I'll never be able to follow her steps now⊠I should just be realistic and give up..."
"Don't say that, dear. You have luck on your side. Like a ladybug. Lady Chance. You are talented enough to overcome this. Iâm sure Marianne would be proud of you, even if you don't follow her steps. And you know? There's no need to compete if you don't feel like doing it. Many people just skate for fun or minor competitions. Iâm sure the future has good things prepared for you. You just need to keep moving and youâll find the right path to follow. And whatever you choose to do, we'll be proud of you. The doors to this ice rink are open for you to come whenever you want to"
That's right. She could skate without competitions. She could focus on something else and have skating as a hobby. Maybe she could make a living out of a figure skating outfit designerâŠ
It was settled. She was quitting. And she was telling her parents tonight.
"Thank you, Master. I know what I want to do now" she answered, giving him a heartfelt hug. Fu smiled at her and patted her back a little, happy to see her smile was back on her face and how his granddaughter's tears had finally stopped.
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Marinette was very nervous when she arrived home. She tried to sneak to her room without being noticed, but her mother had been waiting for her, with a deeply worried expression on her face. Marinette gulped. 'She has probably found out I've been skipping my classes' she thought, but her mother's mind was focused on something else- more serious. Something the girl didnât expect or could have imagined.
âMarinette. Calm down and listen to me. Are you still friends with Juleka?â
Marinette blinked: that was not the question she expected. She sighed before answering, confused about her motherâs unusual distress.
âYes, mom. Itâs been a long while since weâve last seen or talked to each other, but she is my friendâ. She paused for a second. âWhy do you ask? Youâre scaring me...â
Sabine Cheng took a deep breath before answering âMarinette⊠Juleka is at the hospitalâ.
Marinetteâs motherâs grip on her shoulders wasnât strong enough to keep the girl from jumping in shock, neither stopped her from panicking a second later.
âWhat!? What happened to her!? Is she ok!?â
âCalm down, Marinette. Sheâs ok. She just fainted. SheâŠâ Sabine paused, hesitating, before continuing with the explanation. âSheâs been diagnosed with an eating disorderâ
Marinette felt a rush of mixed feelings forming inside of her: but between sadness and worrisome, anger was the first emotion to come out of her body.
âNoâŠ! No way! Iâm sure itâs all ChloĂ©âs fault! She used to make mean comments about her body since we were little. Her ideas must have grown bigger in Julekaâs mind! Just because she was taller and larger than many of usâŠ! And now Juleka isâŠ! Juleka isâŠ!â
The spiral of emotions she was feeling ended up falling in the form of tears, again, in a crying whimper. Sabine, worried for her daughter, cupped her cheek and let her cry until she calmed down a little. It was not easy for her to wait patiently to ask her what she had really wanted to know after she had heard about Julekaâs condition, but she knew the girl needed to let it out, even if it hurt her to see her daughter crying like that. It almost felt like there was something more behind the salty water spilling from her eyes, but she remained silent until her sobbing sounds ended, being engulfed by the silence of the living room. When the wait finally was over, Sabine Cheng spoke again, looking straight to her eyes.
âMarinette, I need to ask you something. And please, be honest with me" Marinette gulped and nervously nodded. "Are you eating properly? Youâre not throwing it out, arenât you? I know youâve always been thin, but I canât help it but worry about you⊠You know how common eating disorders are in figure skating⊠And with what happened to Juleka and how discouraged you look recentlyâŠâ
Marinette tensed at her motherâs question, more offended than shocked. âOf course not, maman! Iâm properly eating what you put on my plate! I would never waste what it takes you so much work. Iâm grateful I always have freshly baked bread on my plateâ
Marinetteâs mother relaxed at her daughter's answer, hugging her.
âGood. Thatâs good. Iâm so glad. So relieved. Thank you, Marinetteâ. She spoke again after breaking the hug. âI think you should pay Juleka a visit. Hereâs the room number and the hospital address. You should be there for herâ
âThank you for telling me, maman. Iâll visit her tomorrow morningâ, the girl said, grabbing the paper with Julekaâs hospital contact from her motherâs hand.
âGood girl. Iâm proud of youâ
âThank you, mamanâŠâ the twin-tailed girl managed to answer, feeling both happy and nauseous for the trust in her motherâs eyes. The thought of seeing disappointment on her parents' face terrified her.
âNo⊠I definitely canât tell my parents yetâŠâ she thought.
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When Marinette arrived at Juleka's hospital room, she wasn't alone. The door was partially opened and she saw a blue-haired boy standing beside her. As soon as she knocked on the door, the boy noticed her and approached, with an interrogative and sad expression on his face. He was handsome despite his sad expression, Marinette thought, distracted for a second.
"I- I'm- Juleka...?" She managed to say, and the boy just nodded.
âJuleka, you have a visitor. Iâll let you two talk privately" he said, turning his head to the girl in the bed. "Thank you for coming,â he solemnly told Marinette before leaving the room.
âThank youâ she said when getting inside, without looking at him.
It had been a while since Marinette had talked to Juleka. It had been more difficult to keep in touch after she switched to pairs skating some years ago, even if they still exchanged messages and hung out together sometimes.
âJuleka, how are you? I heard you fainted andâŠâ Her feet moved slowly towards her friend as she greeted her, but she gasped when she saw her figure: she couldn't be healthy looking the way she did.
âMarinette. Thanks for comingâ Juleka weakly smiled.
âJuleka, look at you! You look so skinny! You have to eat! You shouldnât listen to what people or magazines say, itâs dangerous! You need to be healthy.â
âI am healthy" she assured her, but Marinette's worried eyes made her admit her problem. "But⊠youâre right. Thereâs no need for me to keep throwing out my food. Iâm retiring from figure skatingâ
"What?" Marinette gasped, and Juleka reaffirmed her words with a nod. âOh no, Juleka! I know you loved it⊠Iâm so sorry for youâŠâ The baker's daughter sympathized.
âItâs Ok, Marinette. Thank you⊠Iâm actually more worried about my brother. We were a team and now his dream is crushed because of me⊠He canât compete without a partner and⊠Iâve wasted everythingâŠâ
âOh, JulekaâŠâ, she warmly hugged her friend.
Not wanting to talk more about her eating disorder, Juleka asked Marinette a question.
âWhat about you, Marinette? How are things going? Are you getting closer to your dream? You were always first place no matter what! I bet youâve been improving and setting even higher scores by now. I wouldnât be surprised if you could even land a triple axel!â
âI can land it, actually! Itâs just⊠for some reason I canât seem to land any of my jumps lately during competitions⊠I keep failing over and over⊠and then thereâs ChloĂ© and Lila⊠You know⊠Iâm thinking of quittingâŠâ she said in a sigh.
âOh no, Marinette! You canât quit! You are the most skilled and talented skater Iâve ever seen. Your scores as a child were in another league! You are bound to make history in figure skating, I know you do. You canât quit!â
âItâs not a matter of skill anymore, Juleka⊠Itâs a matter of results and wasted effort. I just⊠I canât do it anymore. I canât keep my parents overworking to pay for my skating classes with me failing every single jump in competition. I canât look at their disappointed looks every time I fail their expectations. And Lilaâs bullying only keeps escalating while my coach never believes anything I say⊠Iâm not motivated anymore. I donât have the strength to keep trying...â
Marinette looked devastated as she spoke. Quitting figure skating couldn't make her happy. Juleka knew she would be feeling even worse than herself. She didn't like to see her friend like that.
âAre you sure, Marinette? Because I think itâs a waste. You could win an Olympic gold medal if you aimed for it. Itâs just⊠so frustratingâŠâ
âJulekaâŠâ
After a long silence, Juleka set her determination and faced a surprised Marinette with a serious look on her eyes.
âNo. Marinette, I canât let you quit like that! Look at me. Iâve been forced to quit because of my condition. I wanted to keep skating! I didnât want to stop! And yet⊠you say you want to quit. My brother says he wants to quit. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!? You have no consideration for me or for yourselves!" She yelled and then paused to take a deep breath. "Marinette, look at my face and tell me again you want to quit! Can you do it?â
âI-... I want to⊠" Marinette paused, unable to lie. "I want to keep skating!" She finally admitted. "But I canât anymore, Juleka! Iâve tried to endure it, Iâve tried so hard! And yet⊠Nothing! Itâs just useless. Whatâs the point when Iâm starting to feel that skating is not fun anymore?â
âOh no, Marinette, you canât say that! You canât give up your dream so easily. Who was that skater you admired? Your grandmother? Miss Lenoir? You dreamed of being like her someday! Graceful, elegant yet strong; sliding on the ice like if you were an angel coming from heaven, announcing salvation to all the graceful public crying tears of joy at your beautiful movements. I know you can do it, Marinette. You just need something or someone toâŠ" Juleka paused for a moment. "Wait, I⊠I have an idea. Why donât you try pairs skating for a while?â
Marinette was taken aback at her friend's suggestion.
âWhat? What are you talking about? I told you I want to⊠to quitâŠâ
âNo. Listen to me. You just need to try it out. You try, and I wonât oppose you quitting if you decide to do so after youâve tried it out.â
âWhatâs the dealâŠ?â, Marinette said, unconvinced.
âI want you to take my place. I want you and my brother to help each other recover your motivation, your goals, your dreams. We just got a decent score for international competitions and I⊠I messed up. He did his best and improved a lot. He could score high, to the top maybe, with the right partner⊠and I think youâre a better fit partner than I could ever beâ she said in a weak sigh.
âBut- I donât even know your brother. And Iâve never done pair skating before! And most importantly- thereâs no way I could fill in your place! Nobody can! I'm sure youâre important for your brother, and he doesnât even know me! He wonât want me to pair with him anywayâ Marinette protested.
âThatâs my part. Iâll convince him to give you a chance. So I need you to give pairs skating a chance, too. You both still have a second chance in figure skating. And I bet you can reach the top in a few years'', Juleka smiled. Her eyes showed conviction in her words, but Marinette had doubts.
âAre you sure he-?â she started, but Juleka cut her, knowing how the question ended.
âIâm sure. Just give it a try. For me. For our friendship. I want you to skate on my behalf. Please... Iâm begging you, Marinette. Just one week. One more chance. Iâm sure you wonât regret it. No, I promise you wonâtâ
âOk, Juleka⊠Iâll do it. Just one try. No more. Iâm quitting if I canât keep it up. Or if your brother doesnât like meâŠâ
âHeâll like you. He just needs to meet you.â she smiled in reassurance and Marinette hugged her.
Marinette, noticing the time, broke the hug and spoke again. "I have to go now, but Iâll come again next week. Get well soon, pleaseâ
âThank you, Marinette. For coming and for accepting my selfish request. Iâll send you a message later.â
âOf course, you are still my dear friend, Juleka. Get well soon, ok?â
âIâll try⊠Thank you for comingâ, she answered, waving her goodbye. âNow I need to convince LukaâŠ' she thought, eyeing her friend crossing through the door.
#my fic#fic: ice dreams#lukanette figure skating AU#airip4#lukanette fic#endgame lukanette#my art#I can't believe I'm already posting this#it's been sooo long#Blame Freya for rushing me XD#lukanette#Pro LukaMari
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Hold Me Together, Break Me Apart
Pairing | Haechan x gn!Reader
Genre | fluff, angst, roommate au, college au
Warning(s) | bad language, cursing, slamming doors, broken door knobs, broken hearts, reader is mean to Jeno (for a kinda reason)
Synopsis | Your roommate is never far from your mind, especially when you need him to hold you together as you break from the stress of college life. But what happens when you break him by accident.
Authorâs Notes | Thank you sweet anon for your request! I had so much fun writing this! I really hope you like it! I may also be posting a part 2, I haven't decided yet. What do you guys think?
Work Count | 2.9K
Tagging | @treasurehobi
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Exhaustion swept across your shoulders as you shoved your key in the tattered lock of your apartment door, wincing when the gears crunched as you turned the key. When the lock clicked, you moved the key back to its resting place before pulling back on it, attempting to free it from the snug hug of the gears. However, it seemed far too content buried deep in the edges of the lock.
With a groan, you turned the jiggly handle and pushed the door open, immediately being bombarded by the sounds of four yelling boys sitting on your couch with remote controls in hand. You had forgotten your roommate was inviting his friends over.
âDonghyuck,â you called, closing the door and walking deeper into the apartment.
You kicked your shoes off at the door and slung your bag into a chair.
Your roommate didnât answer for a long moment, but when he did, he was distracted, not even sparing you a glance.
âYeah?â
âMy key got stuck again.â
Three times your key had managed to get stuck in the lock. All three times, Donghyuck had been the one to free it.
The male in question sighed as his fingers sped over the keys of the metallic control in his hand.
âIâll get it out in a minute,â he said.
With a nod, you made your way to your room, seeking escape from the loud yelling of the boys in the next room.
As soon as the door was shut, you let yourself succumb to the emotions attempting to swallow you up. Your knees hit the floor, face buried in your hands as tears wet your fingers. Your shoulders shook slightly as silent sobs wracked through your body.
University was hard enough without the added stress of working, gnawing at your body and soul, pulling you apart piece by piece until your tender bits were exposed for the world to abuse.
College was meant to be fun. A time for parties and drinking. A time of self discovery while also learning more about whatever subject interested you the most. These days, your life was limited to taking four classes throughout the morning, taking an hour for lunch, before reporting to the restaurant across the street where you worked as a wait staff, taking orders and receiving too few tips to add onto your already poor paycheck.
The restaurant had been the only job hiring at the time, and you desperately needed the money. Your family had been supporting you, but when your younger brother dropped out of high school, they began spending too much money taking care of the son theyâd ruined by spoiling. Your father could no longer afford paying your half of the apartment rent and, while Donghyuck hadnât outright said anything of his displeasure, covering both halves of rent for two months, you knew the boy also didnât make enough to pay the full cost and still be able to go out with his friends. You couldnât do that to him. So youâd taken the first job that landed in your lap, and here you were, crying on your bedroom floor at 11pm, pondering the idea of dropping out of college all together and moving back home.
A knock on your door startled you out of your thoughts.
â(Y/N), can I come in?â
You quickly ran your fingers under your eyes, wiping away the dampness the tears had left, hoping your eyes were puffy enough to be noticeable. You pulled yourself up off the floor and grabbed your door handle, twisting it and opening the door.
âYes?â
âI have your key- hey whatâs wrong?â
He presented your key between his thumb and index finger, but as soon as his eyes caught sight of your face, he paused.
You felt tears prick to your eyes, but you fought to hold them back. You hated when people asked you questions like that when you were upset. It made holding back the dam of tears that much more difficult.
âNothing.â
That should have been the end of it, but your voice cracked, and Donghyuck was stepping into your room, wrapping his arms around your middle, and pulling you against his chest. As your face connected with the soft material covering his shoulders, you felt the dam finally give way, a loud sob leaving your mouth as your own ars wound around him, nails digging into the fabric of his shirt as you bellowed against him.
His arms tightened around you, almost as though he were a bungee strap wrapped tightly around a crumbling box, there to hold it together.
âIâm so tired!â you sobbed, shoulders shaking hard. âI have three papers due by tomorrow night that I havenât even started because Iâve had to work and when I get home Iâm exhausted and I keep pushing it off and now Iâm going to fail three classes and-â
You were cut off by his soothing voice, shushing you softly as his hand stroked your back the way he knew you liked.
âItâs going to be ok baby,â he whispered softly.
Your roommate somehow had a weird effect on you. Just by speaking in a certain tone, he could rile you up, make you sleepy, or completely put all your fears and nerves to rest. As you melted against him, allowing him to take the majority of your weight, you didnât stop to ponder the nickname.
âWhat classes are your papers due in?â he asked.
His arms around your waist loosened, but neither of you let go.
âLiterature with Dr. Wong, Grammar with Dr. Jeon, and History with Dr. Lee.â
âCome with me.â
With that, he pulled away from your hug, leaving you about to whine when he grabbed your hand and pulled you from the room.
âDoes anyone have Dr. Lee, Dr. Jeon, or Dr. Wong?â he asked.
âIâve got Wong,â the tallest of Donghyuckâs friends, you believed his name was Jeno, said.
âHave you finished your paper for his class?â
Jeno nodded.
âWill you come over tomorrow and help (Y/N) write hers?â Donghyuck asked.
âSure!â Jeno said, giving you a reassuring smile.
âI have Dr. Jeon, but Iâm not finished with my paper yet. I asked for an extension though and she gave me until Monday. Maybe ask for one too and then we can work on them together,â Donghyuckâs friend with dyed blue hair offered.
âThank you,â you said quietly, nodding.
âThank you Jaemin,â Donghyuck beamed.
âI have Dr. Lee, but you know he doesnât read our papers right? As long as you have the buzz words heâs looking for, heâll give you a good grade. I can email you my paper and you can just rewrite a few sentences so it isnât total plagiarism,â the other, tiny friend answered.
Renjun actually happened to be in your class with Dr. Lee. You didnât know why you hadnât realized before.
âNow see! All you have to do is ask for help when you need it,â Donghyuck said, squeezing your hand softly before letting it go.
âNow, I have to get back to beating these losersâ asses, but thereâs pizza in the fridge if you're hungry!â
Donghyuck leapt onto the couch, settling himself between Jeno and Renjun, retrieving his controller. Then they all were gone once again, back in their own world of screaming obscenities at one another as they fought whatever the zombie alien things on the screen were.
With a smile, you felt your body relaxed, muscles now not as tense as you as you made your way into the kitchen to retrieve the pizza he had mentioned.
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When the next morning rolled around, you were hauling yourself out of bed to attend your morning classes, but today, you didnât feel horrible, like you wanted to crawl back under the blankets and sleep your life away. Perhaps it was the fact that you had the day off. Or maybe it was because your roommate had somehow taken all your worries and frustrations and made them easier to handle.
Like he always did.
Donghyuck was nothing if not reliable. He was always there when you needed him, whether it was getting your key out of an old lock or gluing you back together as you fell apart in his arms. He was always there to ground you. Maybe he could be annoying sometimes, especially when it was three in the morning and he was crawling in bed with you after having a nightmare, or when heâd beg you to make him hot chocolate every day in the winter because he always scorched the milk when he tried. Lee Donghyuck was the perfect person to share your home with. You just wished you could share the rest of your life with him too.
As your last class ended, you pulled your phone from your bookbag to find a notification to join a group chat from Donghyuck. Raising your eyebrow, you accepted, seconds later directed to a chatroom full of memes and video game references.
FullSun00: Finally sheâs joined!
JenoJams: Cut her some slack, sheâs been in class!
Jaemberry: She should just text in class like we do!
You: Texting in class prohibits learning!
ArtJun: I like this girl!
FullSun00: (Y/N)!! Meet us in the cafeteria!! Weâre sitting in one of the back booths!!
You: Uh⊠Ok? Iâll be there in five.
Donghyuck was always adamant about keeping you away from his friends group chats despite the amount of times Jeno and Jaemin had tried to convince him to add you. Being invited now was a little odd, but odd didnât fight the smile on your face as you shoved your notebooks into your bookbag and took off for the cafeteria.
When you got there, the cafeteria was full, as it usually was, but you managed to wind yourself around the heaps of students waiting in lines or moving toward their tables. You walked toward the back of the cafeteria where the most popular seats were, cushioned booths that were alway crowded.You scanned the area looking for Donghyuck, but in the end, it was Jaeminâs blueberry hair that led you to them.
âHow did you guys manage to get a booth?â you asked, taking off your backpack.
The booths had long seats large enough to fit three or four people on either side, tables stretching long enough to encompass everyone's plates with plenty of room to spare. Itâs part of what made them so popular.
Jeno took your backpack from you, passing it across the table to Jaemin who slid it under the booth where it joined the pile pressed against the wall.
âWe got here an hour ago. We tend to spend a few hours here. Easier to eat our fill that way,â Jaemin said.
Renjun snorted.
âJeno and Jaemin are like human vacuum cleaners. It takes many servings before theyâre satisfied,â he laughed.
You shook your head, eyes scanning over the table before realizing that someone was missing.
âWhereâs Donghyuck?â
âMiss me already?â your roommate's annoying voice spoke from behind you.
You whirled around to find the man in question standing there juggling two cups of soda and two plates filled with food from the pasta bar, which happened to be the most popular bar and incidentally, your favorite.
âI figured youâd be hungry and I know you love your pasta,â he said.
He moved around you, placing both plates and drinks on opposite sides of the tables before sliding in next to Jeno. It was only then that you realized the second plate was for you.
âDonghyuck⊠you didnât have to-â
âHush and sit,â the male said, looking down at his plate.
If you hadnât known any better, you would have thought the man was blushing. But this was Donghyuck you were talking about, and Donghyuck didnât get embarrassed or blush.
You sat yourself down by Renjun and lifted your soda to your lips. As soon as it hit your taste buds, you sighed happily. Donghyuck knew you so well. He knew exactly what youâd want to eat and drink. He was perfect. Heâd make the perfect boyfriendâŠ
âHey (Y/N), after lunch, you want to head back to your place to work on that paper? Iâm done for the day,â Jeno asked.
You swallowed the noodles youâd just shoveled into your mouth.
âSure! Iâm done too! And the apartment will be quiet because Hyuck has class!â you shot a teasing smirk in Donghyuckâs direction, earning yourself a glare.
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Lunch seemed to fly by and before you knew it, Jaemin was handing you your bookbag as you all grabbed up your plates, ready to relinquish your booth to someone else.
You bid goodbye to Jaemin, Renjun, and Donghyuck, all who were heading to various classes while you and Jeno made your way across the street to your apartment complex.
Stepping inside, your key thankfully didnât get stuck this time. You tossed your bookbag onto the couch before flopping beside it. You grabbed your laptop off the side table. Jeno took a seat beside you, opening his own laptop.
As soon as the screen to your laptop turned on, you let out a loud yelp as one of your many images of you and Donghyuck together met your eyes, Donghyuckâs sun-kissed face grinning at you through the screen. You typed your password in hastily, but it was too late. Jenoâs face blossomed into a teasing, shit-eating grin that you wanted to slap away.
âSo⊠Donghyuck huh?â
âI donât know what you're talking about!â
Embarrassment made your stomach churn.
âHow long?â
There was no hiding it. Jeno had seen your computer screen. While most university girls had images of baby animals or their favorite band as their lock screens, you had your favorite person to stare back at you.
âSince I moved inâŠâ you mumbled.
His eyes widened.
âAnd you havenât told him yet?!â he gaped.
âI havenât told anyone.â
âYou told me!!â
âNo, you found out, thereâs a big difference,â you corrected.
âWell are you going to tell him?â Jeno asked.
âOf course not! Why would I tell my roommate that Iâve got a big fat crush on him?!â you exclaimed.
âMaybe because he could like you too?â
âPsh, yeah right. Come on, letâs get to work.â
â(Y/N)-â
âNo Jeno. I may practically be in love with the man, but why would he ever like me?! He is everything and Iâm nothing. Heâs the full package with so much to offer some lucky person who steals his heart. I have nothing to offer him but stress and insecurities. So can we please just get to work on this paper and forget about him?!â
You didnât realize you had tears rolling down your cheeks until Jeno brought his hand up to cup your face, gently running his thumb under your eyes to wipe away the tears softly.
âYouâre not nothing. Youâre everything,â he whispered.
There was something in his voice. Something that had you drawing closer to him. His eyes flicked down to your lips and back up to your eyes. Your head buzzed with want, blissfully unaware to the emotions of your heart as Jenoâs lips met yours.
His lips were rough, chapped. They pricked yours almost uncomfortably, but they were warm and moist. It had been so long since youâd had such a moment with anyone. So long since youâd last been kissed that perhaps your judgment was impaired as your lips moved against his.
But all too soon, reality was coming to slap you in the ass. This time, in the form of the apartment door opening and Donghyuck stepping through, a gasp leaving his lips as he caught his best friend and the girl heâd fallen in love with locking lips on his couch.
Your lips quickly separated from Jenoâs at the sound of someone intruding. Your eyes became as wide as saucers when you noticed Donghyuck standing in the threshold of your home.
You shot up from the couch, nearly knocking your computer to the floor.
âHyuck! I can explain! We-â
âDonât bother.â His tone was so icy it tore right through your heart.
He slammed the door and stormed off to his room. You jumped as his bedroom door slammed shut with a hard wham that made the walls rattle.
âI-... IâŠâ
More tears pooled in your eyes as your hands began to shake.
âNoâŠâ you whispered.
Jeno stood up from the couch and made a move to wrap his arms around you, to comfort you, but you lurched away from him.
âNo!â you screamed! âLeave me the fuck alone!â
Your breathing was heavy. Anger ripped through your veins. You knew it wasnât entirely Jenoâs fault, and it wasnât fair of you to scream at him like it were, but you couldnât help it. Standing in the wake of a big mistake, you had no other option but to be angry, because how would your roommate ever like you now if he thought you were dating his best friend.
â(Y/N) please-â Jeno began, but you cut him off.
âWas this your plan?! Get me to fall apart so you could put me back together when he walked in?! Do you realize how fucking messed up that is?! I confided in you! I told you how I felt! And you kiss me?! Then he walks in and you try to hug me?! I donât like you Jeno! Not like I love him! You are not, nor will you ever be, Lee Donghyuck! So just get out!â
You werenât typically a rude or mean person, but as Jeno looked down before packing up his laptop and scurrying from the room like a puppy with his tail between his legs, you couldnât help feeling like youâd just lost two great friends.
Maybe today wasnât a good day after all.
#nct one shot#haechan x reader#ficscafe#lsn.works#nct haechan#haechan x you#haechan x y/n#gender neutral reader#stress#roommate au#college au#broken hearts#nct dream#slight jeno x reader#swearing#hurtful words
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I'm a twitter girl but your tumblr page makes me so happy I almost forget just how much of a big mess everything in world is right now (cries in brazilian) cause even if I'm feeling incredibly frustrated I just know that I can re-read your posts and that is âš casual magic âš
With that being said, I would really love if you could write something like kathony making up after a fight (yikes, angst trope), they're so adorable that even angst from these two peanuts makes me go đ„°đđ„ș
Hiiiii!Â
Iâm very glad to have lured you over from twitter, even if just for a little while! But ⚠casual magic âšis not necessarily a phrase I would use to describe my writing process. I am most often found crafting these posts on an upturned bucket sandwiched between the cupboard where we keep the surgical instruments and the stock cupboard in the sterilisation room at work, tapping away on my iPad. That being said Iâm very glad that you find this blog a soothing (maybe?), entertaining place to hang out! And I always love reading your comments!Â
Okay! Kathony fights seems to be a very popular prompt at the moment so Iâm gonna let a few people piggyback on your post! Sorry! I know Iâm the worst!Â
Anon Asked:Â Hi! Thank you so much for your entire Bridgerton and Sons AU universe!! Your updates make my day :) I am a sucker for angst and then make up sessions and was wondering if we could see more of Anthony and Kate's fights (and make-ups), maybe when they first started dating? Hello and I can take no credit for making your day! Anthony and Kate are fully formed people at this point and write themselves at this point. I just post it!Â
Anon Asked: Hi.I love Bridgertons and Sons so much.I would really like to see Kathony fighting ( cause I live for the angst ), could do maybe there first serious fight as a couple? Hello! Iâm so glad youâre loving Bridgerton and Sons! Iâm ridiculously proud of this scrappy little universe that I keep determinedly crowbarring into the world so THANK YOU!
Kate Sheffieldâs first fight with Anthony Bridgerton as a couple happened when theyâd been together for about 2 months and honestly, in hindsight, it was a little surprising it had taken them so long. Especially given their track record. Kate could admit, it had been her fault really. She had been feeling ridiculously tense all day, and she had really no idea why. Sheâd woken up and her teeth had been on edge. Sheâd sat in traffic, irritated, as the minutes ticked by. Sheâd been running late, walking quickly through the lobby and someone had walked right into her, hot coffee soaking into her blouse. âMaâam Iâm so sorry!â The young man had said apologetically, attempting to dab at her with a napkin. âItâs fine!â Kate had snapped, swatting the manâs hand away from her chest and moving towards the elevator. âFor Fuckâs sake!â She cursed, leaning against the wall of the elevator looking down at the large stain now splattered across the cream silk. Well that was never coming out. Still Kate told herself, not the end of the world, some of her dry cleaning should be in her office, Lucy usually collected it on Friday mornings. Kate sighed as she stepped off the elevator, barely looking up as she stepped out
âI know, I know Iâm late Luce. I have been having the most fucking irritating morning.â Kate said irritatedly tapping away at her phone screen. And a decidedly more masculine voice than Lucyâs hummed âIâm very sorry to hear it, Kate. Anything I can do to help you relax?â Kate stopped, her head swivelling upwards. Anthony was leaning against the reception desk, his hands in his pockets, his hair falling over his forehead, a lopsided grin on his face. And Kateâs stomach clenched a little at the sight of him. She forced her eyes to roll, forced herself to turn and walk away. âNo, Thank you. And surely, a man as busy and important as yourself as something better to do than convince your girlfriend to let you undress her in her office.â Kate quipped, Anthonyâs laugh rang out and she heard his footsteps following her. Lucy looked up, her eyes wide as Kate breezed past her into her office with a âIâll just be a moment, Lucy.â shutting the door in Anthonyâs smug face.
By the end of the day, Kate was really truly ready to scream. She had three of her most annoying clients, and a settlement she had been managing for months had gone to fucking hell. Kate sighed putting her head in her hands, as a knock sounded at the door. Kate didnât look up, Lucy had gone home an hour ago. she knew exactly who it would be and honestly, she didnât want to be around Anthonyâs calm patience when she was this irritated. She knew sheâd snap at him and he didnât deserve it.Â
âKate Sheffield and the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day would be quite the film donât you think?â Anthonyâs voice sing-songed across the room to her and Kate felt irritation flare in her chest again. âAnthony, can you not, please?â Kate said irritatedly, still not looking up from the desk. Anthony clucked his tongue, and she heard his footsteps approaching then felt his firm grip on her forearms, dragging her to face him. An irritating smirk on his face. âWhatâs up Katie Cat?â He said lightly, tapping her on the end of the nose. Kate scoffed irritatedly shrugging his hands off her arms as she stood. Snatching her bag from under the desk and marching past him towards the door. Frustration welling in her chest. She knew it wasnât fair of her, knew that he was only trying to make her feel better, but because she was Kate Sheffield, she apparently couldnât let him. She grabbed her coat and marched out of the office. Anthony calling out bewilderedly âKate, did I do something?â âNo.â Kate said unable to keep her tone from coming out clipped.
âThen why are you practically sprinting away from me?â He said, and the last shred of her patience floated away. âBecause I just want to be alone!â She practically yelled, turning around hating herself as Anthonyâs face fell, flinching away from her a little. His voice was a little stilted when he responded âKate what are we doing in a relationship if you donât want to be around me? If youâre done just say so.â Ad she felt tears prick in her eyes at the despondent tone in his voice, the way he couldnât even look her in the eye. And she crumbled. She dropped her bag and stepped towards him, wrapping her arms tightly around his waist.Â
âI love you.â Kate murmured against his neck, and She felt Anthony relax into hr embrace. âIâm so sorry, I donât know whatâs wrong with me today. Iâm just tired and stressed and I donât know you were just trying to help. Iâm so sorry.â Anthony was silent for several seconds before he said
âI love you too you know. And I know that I can be-â Anthony started a little hesitantly. âNo, Anthony.â Kate cut him off, the hesitant expression in his eyes nearly more than she could stand âYou were just trying to help and I snapped at you. You have nothing to be sorry for okay?â Anthony stared into her eyes for several seconds as if to check if she was telling the truth before nodding, letting out a relived sigh.
âI just want to help you, when you feel like this Katie. Weâre a team now, remember?â And his voice was so soft and he was looking at her with something like love in his eyes and she couldnât help herself from standing on toes slightly to kiss him soundly. When they broke apart, Anthonyâs lopsided grin had returned and Kate finally felt her irritation ebb away. She tugged on his handÂ
âYouâre coming home with me, Mr Bridgerton. We just had our first little tiff and I know something else we can do as a team.â Kate said, the corners of her lips tugging up into a smirk as Anthony jostled into her in his hurry to follow her. âAnd just by the way, Iâm not sure Iâll ever be done with you.âÂ
Iâm sorry! This was...bad  Â
#bridgerton and sons au#kathony#anthony x kate#anthony bridgerton#kate sheffield#kathony fighting#kind of#there was an unkind word I suppose#molly's asks and answers
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All That Matters
Characters/pairings :Â Ethan Ramsey & Olivia Valentine
Words/Genre :Â Â 2.8 K / Angst , Romance
Warnings : mentions of death,injuries
Summary : Olivia gets seriously injured. How does Ethan react?
A/N : Hello again! This fic was written per @groovypalacehorseloverâ âs request. This is the first time Iâm attempting to write angst , so I hope this comes out good enough. A big THANK YOU to @romewritingshopâ for her help in editing this. Moodboard inspired by @potionsprefect 's ones.
Disclaimer : all characters and pictures belong to the rightful owners
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Enjoy!
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Ethan was frantically rushing through the hospital corridors. Dread and anxiety flooded his mind that he could barely breathe. There was no way he would allow it to stall him. Pushing himself to go as fast as he could to get to the farthest wing of the hospital, he slammed the double doors ahead open.A group of interns were nattering amongst themselves,oblivious to the frantic attending approaching them. A thundering voice broke them out of their trance.Â
"OUT OF MY WAY!", he boomed at them, as he was approaching closer.Â
The interns, startled by him, broke apart allowing him to pass through them. What made them wonder though, was the clear, unadulterated emotion in his eyes. He looked as though his world was slowly crumbling around him. And they weren't wrong.Â
2 Hours Earlier
Olivia was finishing up her rounds for the day. In a few hours sheâd be home, snuggled with her favorite throw blanket, watching a movie on Netflix while Ethan would complain incessantly about her taste in movies. She had to visit her last patient, a sweet seven year old boy named Nathan.Â
His diagnosis was a difficult case to solve and this made young Nathan restless. His mom came to stay with him in the evening but she had to go to work early in the morning. The poor boy was often bored out of his mind, taking adventurous strolls through the hospital, without telling anyone. There were several instances that she and a few nurses had to track him down, but still Nathan continued doing that. She couldnât really blame the poor kid. Today was just one of those days.Â
Olivia walked to the nurses' desk, to ask about Nathan.Â
"Hello Sarah, did you happen to see Nathan? I think he snuck out of his room again."Â
"Dr Valentine! No, I haven't. Maybe you should ask Mary. She might have an idea where Nathan is.", The nurse replied with a soft smile.Â
"Okay, thank you!"
She left the reception in search of Mary. Before long, she found her in one of the halls.Â
"Hi Mary, I was wondering if you've seen Nathan?", She inquired politely.Â
"Dr Valentine! I was just looking for you. I think I saw the kid heading towards the halls leading to the new wing."Â
"The new wing? Isn't that under construction?", Olivia asked, an audible tremor in her voice.Â
"Yes?"Â
"Oh God! Come on! We need to find him now!", she said, a feeling of worry and dread filling her. The new wing Bloom designed was essentially a plan to enlarge the facilities available for research. From what she heard, it wasn't safe to roam around the place without any safety gear. It was too dangerous to go there, especially for a young boy like Nathan, but she wonât let him fall to harm.Â
After a few minutes of darting around and asking everyone they encountered, Mary and Olivia got the same response. They saw a kid among these halls at some point. By the time they reached the site, Olivia and Mary began calling for him.Â
"Nathan? Are you here?"Â
"Nathan? Nathan come here, it's me, Dr Olivia"Â
No answer. Either he wasn't here or he just couldn't hear them clearly. The two women began to slow down their pacing steps as they carefully tread through the congested building site, all while calling for the young boy.Â
"Dr Oliv?", They heard a small shaky voice calling.Â
Olivia knew it was him and rushed towards the direction of the voice. Mary, hot on her heels, noticed him first.Â
"He's there!", She exclaimed, running to his side and checking over him for any injuries.Â
Olivia began walking towards them, relieved that Nathan was okay,when she heard a cracking noise. She quickly realized that the wall, they were close to, was about to collapse! With a sudden burst of adrenaline, she rushed towards them and pushed them away from the wall. She smiled softly at them before she heard a bigger *crack* and everything went black.Â
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MEANWHILE
Ethan was sitting at his computer, in his office, looking through files and updating the information onto his computer. Truth be told though, he was too distracted by a certain resident to concentrate on his current task.Â
Him and Olivia have been together for a little more than three months and he was happier than he had been in a long time. She really had the power to turn the worst of days better with just a smile.Â
She started coming to his house after work, in fact itâs almost like she had permanent residence in his heart and place. She spent most of the time there with him, just being together. Cooking, watching tv, playing ridiculous board games she always won. It was all very domestic and Ethan always felt his heart swell with love for her, at how at ease she felt being with him, in the place he now considered a home.Â
Glancing at the clock, he realised their shifts would end soon but he was too impatient. With a soft sigh, he turned off his computer and walked out of his office ,towards the front desk.Â
"Good afternoon, have you seen Dr. Valentine?", he asked a nurse he knew she frequently talked to.Â
"Dr. Ramsey! Yes, she was here a little while ago, she was looking for her young patient, Nathan. He has a habit of sneaking out of his room, you see - Wait a minute please!", she paused to answer the phone.Â
"Bloom Edenbrook Hospital how can I help you? Mary? What?! Iâm sending the team right away!"Â
The woman, Sarah, turned to Ethan with a flurry of panic coursing in her eyes.Â
"Dr Ramsey, it was the nurse who was with Dr Valentine. They found the boy at the construction site! When they reached for him⊠a nearby wall collapsed on them!"Â
"What!? Oh my⊠No no no⊠Wh-What else did she tell you? Tell me!", he demanded, his eyes glossed with panic, the usual pink hue of his face drained as he turned as white as a sheet, his breathing in short stuttered gasps.Â
"Olivia ... was hit worst." Sarah whispered on the verge of tears.Â
"Page Mirani, Delarosa and the best nurses this damn hospital has! Understood! I'm going there now!"
Before she had a chance to reply, he was already off in search of his Olivia.Â
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PRESENT TIME
Ethan continued running through the maze of corridors, his eyes full of unshed tears.Â
"Not her, please not her! Don't take her from me! Please!", Ethan wasn't by any means a religious man, but the fear of losing the woman he loved made him pray to whoever could hear his agonized thoughts. The one person on this earth for whom he would give anything for, was again in grave danger. Memories from the last time she was at the brink of death flooded his mind, knocking the breath out of his lungs. How fragile she looked and to know he couldn't do anything to save her, other than watch her become progressively weaker and her radiant smile, the one that could lighten up a whole room, fade away. "No, don't do this right now Ethan. Focus on her. Only her.", he thought, nodding to himself while pushing the last hurdle of doors open. His eyes quickly scanned the room, trying to locate her.Â
He finally saw her.Â
She was lying on the floor pieces of rubble around her. She was unconscious, her eyes closed, her golden hair around her face. As he rushed to her side, whilst avoiding the scattered materials, he saw a small patch of blood on the side of her head.Â
He knelt beside her, being careful not to move her, in fear of causing more damage to her body. He took her small, still warm, hand in his and softly began to stroke her cheek and hair.Â
"Darling? Olivia? It's me, Ethan. Please Olivia, can you hear me?", his voice wavered at the sight of her blood on his fingers from stroking her hair and a few tears were finally breaking through.Â
Her eyes fluttered as a soft little gasp left her lips.Â
"E-Ethan?", she whispered, her voice hoarse and barely audible.Â
"Yes, Love it's me."
"I⊠it hurts.. I can'tâŠ", she croaked but it was too difficult for her to breathe properly, the dust hovering in the air wasn'tmaking this any easier. Ethan noticed this and pushed her head slightly back, to allow her to breathe better.Â
"Shh darling I know⊠I'm here love, I'm not going anywhere...Please sweetheart don't give up on me⊠pleaseâŠI can't lose you", Ethan whispered, stroking her cheek softly, trying to be strong for her.Â
Olivia fell unconscious once again, her chest taking short ragged breaths. He pried his eyes away from her to look around the room. A woman was in the corner with a crying child in her arms, trying to comfort him.Â
" Hi⊠Are you okay? Did you get hurt?" he asked them as he approached them.Â
"Nothing too bad. Might just be a sprained wrist and a couple of scratches. Nathanâs fine too, just shocked. Dr. ValentineâŠ. she ⊠she got the worst of it.", she replied with tears in her eyes.Â
Ethan didn't have a chance to reply as the team arrived. They immediately got down to work, not even hesitating to lose a minute, paying Ethan no attention.Â
"Get her on the gurney carefully! One mistake and you're fired!" Zaid commanded, with a fiery stern voice at the team of nurses.Â
"Zaid, she's got a cut on the side of her head and she's bleeding. I don't see anything too serious but we should order a scan. Shortness of breath indicates one or two fractured ribs and her left ulna and radius might be broken, given the swelling.", Ines said with evident concern and fear thick in her voice.Â
"Let's get some scans and see exactly what's going on", Zaid replied, trying to be as calm as possible, in this case. Olivia was his colleague,but more importantly she was his friend and he wouldn't allow anything to happen to her. Not on his watch.Â
"I'm coming with you!", Ethan interrupted their conversation.Â
"You're not in the right state of mind to help her now!"Â
"Zaidâs right about this. She needs you to be calm and focused when she wakes up.", Ines told him resting a comforting hand on his shoulder.Â
Ethan had no choice but to reluctantly agree.Â
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Several hours later, Ethan was pacing anxiously in front of the room Olivia was checked into. The night doctors were there checking on her. As soon as they heard what happened, her friends joined Ethan in the waiting room, to hear news about her condition. Sienna when she saw her best friend in that state, immediately broke down, Aurora and Elijah trying to comfort her. Bryce, Rafael and Jackie, were mostly silent, their minds running through endless scenarios of what could happen to the most courageous woman they knew.Â
She had a broken hand, three broken ribs; one of which was pressing too close to her lung; causing her difficulty in breathing smoothly. This required a minor surgery, which was conducted by Harper herself. She wouldn't let anyone else touch the woman she had come to consider a friend. Her head injury, thankfully, wasn't too bad, but there was a possibility of a mild concussion. The whole hospital was there to help Olivia in whatever way she needed. From nurses to interns to anyone she had always been kind to.Â
Now, Ethan was waiting outside of her room alone, because her friends left a few minutes ago. She wouldn't wake up for a few hours and they made sure she would be completely okay before they left. Besides, they knew that Ethan wouldn't leave her side. That is, once he got to finally see her.Â
Thirty agonizing minutes later, he was finally allowed to go into her room. His eyes glided across her small form on the hospital bed. The side of her head was wrapped in white gauze, because of the injury there. Her left arm was in a cast and placed on a pillow to make her more comfortable. She was hooked to an IV, her body seeming too delicate on the hospital bed. Her face was in a serene slumber, her body was still under the influence of the drugs she was given during and after her surgery.Â
Ethan took her soft hand in his, kissing her knuckles and looking tearfully at her.Â
"My love⊠You scared me so so much⊠When that nurse told me you were hurt⊠I thought I was going to lose you. Again.", He started talking to her, even though she couldn't hear him, he was baring his heart to her. Letting the tears he was holding on to fall.Â
"Finding you there, lying unconscious⊠was unbearable. Knowing that you may be gone forever, never being able to touch you, or see your beautiful smile, hear your awful jokes again⊠Iâve never believed in a higher power, but if there is a being that saved you, then I am grateful. Because, without you, none of this matters. You're my whole world Oliv. And this world means nothing to me if youâre not here darling", he finished , laying a soft kiss on her lips.Â
He stayed with her for a few hours, having no intention of leaving her, but Naveen forced him to go get a coffee and something to eat. Of course, Naveen promised he would stay there with her while Ethan was away.Â
On his way back to her room, he encountered Leland Bloom. "Great, just who I wanted to see", Ethan thought, resisting the urge to roll his eyes.Â
"Ah Dr. Ramsey. I was just coming to find you. How is Dr. Valentine?", he asked with a facade of interest.Â
"Sheâs in her room resting. Still unconscious though, because of the anesthesia from her surgery. Now if you'll excuse me", Ethan curtly replied, walking past Leland, anxious to return to her room.Â
"I was hoping to come with you, actually. I wanted to ask you, will she make a full recovery?"
"Not that it's any of your business, but yes, in a couple months she will probably be alright.", Ethan gritted his teeth, retraining his seething anger at how intrusive this man could be.Â
"Probably? You're not certain? If her recovery takes so long, then she will be left behind in the hospital's advances. Pity⊠she was actually going to be one of the key assets to the progression of the hospital's success.", Leland said, not having noticed or probably caring about Ethan's expression.Â
Ethan couldn't believe what he was hearing. The way he spoke of Olivia. His Olivia. A human being, as though she was nothing but a tool to be used. He clenched his fists, blood coursing through his veins, ears ringing, face and neck flushed red with anger, trying to resist the immense urge to punch him square in his arrogant face.Â
"How DARE you talk that way about a human being who was seriously hurt? She could have been fucking killed and all you have to say is that she would be an asset to the success of the hospital? What kind of person are you, really? Do you see anything beyond your own selfish, moronic advancements?", Ethan turned to him abruptly, almost roaring, all the pent up emotions escaping him in this outburst towards this man.Â
Leland was stunned at his outburst, mouth gaping open for a second before he recollected himself. The two of them had become the center of attention as the nurses and doctors were forming a small circle, staring at the two men.Â
"I would best advise you against speaking to me like that Dr. Ramsey. I'm the one who is in charge here and I expect you to treat me with respect. Now, I understand you are under pressure right now since your partner was hurt, so I'm willing to look past this little tantrum. See you soon, Dr Ramsey." he replied, walking away from Ethan, who was stalking his way down the corridor to Oliviaâs room, unbothered by Bloomâs words.Â
The only person in this world whose words mattered, laid in a hospital bed right now, and he vowed he would not spend any more precious time away from her. Because despite what life throws at them, all that matters is that his Rookie ... his Olivia ... his true love will be alright. They will be alright. Together.
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Thank you for reading !!!
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Forget Me Not (Part 12/15)
Pairing: Keanu Reeves x Reader
Summary: After you wake up from a coma and realize that your memories from the last five years have been erased, Keanu works to bring back what you have lost.
Words: 4.7k
Warnings: Angst, language
A/N: Kinda nervous posting again since itâs been a while, but weâre winding down to the end of this story with only three more parts to go (2 chapters + an epilogue). As always, feedback is appreciated. Thanks for sticking around, and I hope you enjoy!
Part 11
Home.
You are home. Itâs supposed to be home.
But it wasnât. To you, it couldnât be.Â
This place feels too far from home, too foreign. You had no memories of it, no recollection of the safety and security it offers. Not even the faintest remembrance of the laughter, smiles, and tears; the fondness and the sadness these four walls have witnessed over the years.Â
You canât call it home. You donât know where home is, and youâre not sure you have one anymore.Â
Not after leaving him behind.
Itâs cold and dark when you first wake, sleep weighing heavily in your eyes. A pair of curtains block out the sun from filtering into the room, leaving you to wonder if you had slept through half the day. With a yawn, you stretch, the bed underneath creaking as your body fully rouses from yet another night of fitful slumber. Almost a month back in New York, and it doesnât make sense to keep blaming your lack of energy on the time difference.
The ache is still ever-present. The pain caused by the void in your heart remains, sharply throbbing in your chest with its refusal to go away. Two heartbreaks, two betrayals, occurring five years apart, but it feels as though not much time has passed in-between.Â
It hurts to ponder about it, that evening when your seemingly perfect little world came crashing down. Hiding behind rose-tinted glasses, you were unknowingly tricked, fully caught up in a well-crafted illusion. His illusion. Love has blinded you to the sad reality, and in the end, it left you a shattered mess, a hollow shell of your former self.
You doubt youâll ever be whole again.
Forcing yourself out from under the covers, you reach for your phone on the nightstand to check the time before scrolling through your notifications. Nothing was of interest to you, fortunately; you didnât have the energy to respond to those you suddenly abandoned. Friends who cared about you but realized you were never close to them. Not in the way it used to be.
As you skimmed over the new texts and emails, you then came across his now unsaved number. The moment you stepped on the plane, you deleted his contact from your phone and blocked him. Yet the last messages he sent to you were still there and havenât been read since, though you already knew what they could entailâ
Iâm sorry.
It was never my intention to hurt you.
Please give me another chance.
Let me fix this.
Just come back, Y/N. Come back home.
Home. There was that damn word again. You were beginning to loathe it, even more so knowing that whenever you think of home, you wind up thinking of him.
The last time you saw him was the morning after the storm. Booking a one-way ticket back to the east coast, you then spent the early hours packing as many clothes that would fit in a single suitcase. Tears had long since dried up, having none left as you headed down the stairs, ignoring the look he gave you from afar.
He was dressed in the outfit he had on the night prior; his hair disheveled, eyes bloodshot, and it was quite obvious he endured no sleep. Your resolve nearly crumbles as your gazes connect, bodies close enough that he could reach out the slightest bit, and heâd be holding your hand in the palm of his.Â
Fighting the urge, you didnât cave in. You couldnât allow yourself to fall for itâfor him.Â
No, never again.
As expected, he followed you out of the house, remaining quiet as he watched the cab driver load your luggage in the trunk. You paid him no attention when he approached the vehicle once you climbed in, wanting nothing more than to escape this nightmare. With nowhere else to go and no one to turn to, you decided it was best to leave California, not that you belonged there anyway.
It played out like a scene from a movieâthe taxi pulling out of the driveway slowly as the raindrops started to fall. Hearing him call out your name, his voice cracking with each syllable, made you hesitate for a beat. Perhaps you could forgive him, you had thought in that split-second. Forgive and forget; let what happened in the past stay in the past.Â
But even if you did, the painâs still there, and it was overpowering. This pain resulting from his deception had been too consuming, too unbearable to move on.
You told the driver to hurry as you couldnât afford to miss your flight.
The atmosphere in the car was fraught with grim silence. As the house sequestered in the hills vanishes in the rearview mirror, you knew you were running away from it all. You couldnât stand being here in LA, where every turn, every corner, and every street reminds you of a life that wasnât truly yours.Â
As idyllic it once was, you wanted no part of it anymore. Instead, you sought for familiarity, the life you used to have, the one you could only remember.Â
What you thought was your real home.
Unable to hold it in any longer, you had broken down in the backseat, never feeling more alone than you did at that moment.
You wish you could forget, but itâs not that easy. Itâs never easy. Memories of him linger in your mind, still tragically fresh as they haunt you day in and day out. Closing your eyes, you could see him wearing this smile that used to make your stomach flutter. You came to love his smile the same way you had loved him wholly.Â
Now? Seeing it was a stab to the heartâa reminder of how he took advantage of your condition, your vulnerability. Of every lie you were fed. That smile, the one you previously hoped to wake up to for the rest of your life, had been an act, a facade.Â
Everything had been a facade.
A sudden knock on the door startles you, and you clicked off the phone screen before announcing to whoever that they could come in. Your mother Nancy enters soon after, her face displaying concern when she realizes you had just woken up. Sheâs silent as she walks towards the window and then pushes the curtains aside, the sunlight outside immediately washing over the room.Â
Briefly, you squint to adjust to the brightness, a confirmation that it was past noon alreadyâanother wasted day.
âHey, darling,â she speaks softly as she moves to sit on the mattress beside you. âHow are you doing?â
Thereâs no point in lying, but as much as you greatly appreciated her caringness, you didnât want to burden her with your problems. They were yours to deal with and yours alone.Â
âBetter.â And that, you were. Just a week ago, you finally stopped crying yourself to sleep. âI might even go out tomorrow and look for a job. Canât keep freeloading under your roof, right?â
You release a half-chuckle, a small attempt to lighten up the mood. It was comforting when your mother cracks a smile in response.
âOh, hush. Youâre always welcome to stay as long as you need to,â she assures, a loving warmth radiating from her tone.Â
Lips pressing together, you sense that she has another thing to address. âWhatâs wrong?â
Nancy pauses to take a breath, shoulders rising and falling. For some reason, youâre on edge, finding yourself bracing for what was to come.
âHave you spoken to Keanu lately?â
Upon hearing his name, you swallowed away the lump in your throat. After telling your parents what had transpired, it stirred up various emotionsâmainly anger from your father, sorrow from your mom. Their hearts sank as you recounted the story, tears blurring your eyes that you couldnât see their faces. It was a good thing, however; you probably wouldnât have reached the end.
Since then, theyâve refrained from speaking of him and to him. Heâs called the house on a few occasions but could never get past the automated answering machine. Pictures of the two of you hanging on the walls were taken down shortly after the revelation, and you were unsure of who had done it.Â
Your parents still couldnât believe he was capable of such a thing. He had played them the same way you were, twisting the truth and omitting facts. Painting himself in a way that made them think allowing you to stay with him was the best decision when just months before he treated you as if you didnât matter.Â
As if he didnât love you.
âNo.â Curt, you had nothing else to say.Â
âHeâs a persistent one, Iâll tell you that. Left another message last night,â Nancy comments, feeling her stare as you fiddled with the hands in your lap. The next time she speaks, itâs slow and controlled. Sheâs careful with her words, wary of how you would react to what she has to say. âHon, the last time you were here, you told me something. Something that I probably should have mentioned the day you woke up in the hospital.â
You tense, eyes flickering up to hers. âWhat is it?â
She sighs deeply, her smile fleeting and replaced by a taut frown. âI knew you and Keanu were having⊠problems. Not the full story, but enough that told me youâve been unhappy for a while.â
âW-Why didnât you bring this up then?â
âBecause the second I saw him in your hospital room, I could see how much he loves you. How scared he was at the thought of nearly losing youââ
âPfft, sure he was,â you scoff at the statement in disbelief. âWhat he didâyou donât do that to someone you love. You donât lie to them, betray them. Hell, if you had given me a heads up earlier, then it would have saved me all this trouble.â
âY/Nââ
âDonât you get it? Heâs an actor. Of course, heâs good at playing pretend. Got us all believing that things were all sunshine and rainbows. He fucked up and fucked up even more by lying. Iâve always had a bad track record in relationships, so I shouldnât have been too surprised.â
Tension hangs thickly in the air, an apology murmured at the end of a passing second. You didnât mean to snap at your mother, to let the anger and betrayal consume you that you began taking it out on others although unwillingly.Â
But you were just too goddamn hurt. Every day, the memories are suffocating you despite constantly wishing and pleading for them to disappear. That life, the one you had with Keanu, no longer exists, and yet you were still holding onto the frayed remains of it, not ready to move onâto let go.Â
You grieve. You grieve and mourn for the recent past, the happiness and love you experienced in the time you were left unaware. Never have you felt so complete, so content, and much at ease. You had turned a blind eye to the signs, to the small inklings of doubt brewing inside because you thought that there was no way you could get something else as close to this.
Perhaps you were both to blame after all.
âI thought he was different,â you whisper, sorrow flowing from your words. âI thought he was the one. The man Iâd settle down with, marry, and then maybe someday, be the father of my kids. Weâd build an entire life together, a family, a future. The kind of life where I could look back on it fifty years from now when weâre old and gray and not regret a single thing.â
Feeling your motherâs hand come on top of yours with a light squeeze, you fought off the tears forcing their way from your eyes. You swore you would never shed a tear for Keanu ever again, but you are crumbling from within. The weak walls you put up are now tumbling down, leaving you even more vulnerable than before.Â
âI want to hate him. I want him to feel my pain and suffer through it, knowing that heâs the reason why. But I canât. Somehow, I just canât.â
âItâs because you still love him. No matter how much it hurts, youâre still in love with him,â Nancy adds solemnly, and you nod shakily. âYouâre healing, dear. So far, all youâve done is put on a bandaid, but it doesnât mean the wound closes up immediately. Itâll burn, itâll bleed, and itâll ache, and right now, thatâs what youâre feeling; the pain of a fresh open wound.â
âMake the pain stop,â you mumbled incoherently as you lean against your momâs side, wet cheeks pressed to her shoulder. âIt has to stop.â
âAnd it will,â she promises, listening to your soft and tired cries. âItâll take time for the wound to heal, but eventually, it will. Until then, life continues, and you would have to as well. You donât have to go all-in right away, but donât let this heartbreak hinder you from living, sweetie. Youâre strong, and I believe you will feel that same happiness again, in one form or another. But you wonât find it unless you go out and look for it.â
For the first time in what seemed like a while, you felt something other than loss and despair. It creeps into you slowly, half-expecting a cold, crushing weight to fall heavily on your chest rather than the warmth and light it is. But as quickly as it came, the sensation subsides, a wave of loneliness, emptiness filling the vacant space surrounding your heart.
A shuddering breath released, you then reflect upon what your mother said about time and how time heals all wounds. You wonder how much time is needed until you can finally break free from the remnants of the past and breathe again. Could be days, weeks, or even months more, but itâs right there, waiting for you on the horizon.Â
You may not have a place to call home, but what you do have is time.
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Seconds turn into minutes; minutes turn into hours. The sun sets, the moon rises; bright, blues skies bleed into a fiery red before dimming to an inky darkness. The world spins on its axis as people wake, move, then sleep, and the cycle begins all over again.
Two weeks have come and gone, and life pushes onward. You could tell by the scenery outside where the season of fall has taken charge of the Northeast. Days are shorter, with nights stretching out longer as the year fades into winter. Time was flying by at a brisk pace. Very soon, a blanket of snow will cover the ground you walk on, reminding you to take a step back and admire the natural beauty of mid-November.
The crispness of the late afternoon air is refreshing as it fills your lungs, a welcome change from the hazy summer heat. Leaves that were once lively shades of green are now painted in deep hues of amber and burgundy, and they crunch beneath your boots with each leisure step down the earthy path. The nearby lake is as pristine as ever, sparkling freely underneath the rays of the ochre sun as it waits for the impending frost.
Wandering about outdoors for hours now, you were lost in your stream of thoughts. You honestly felt better, not entirely mended, but just enough that you can step out of the house and explore the quaint little town. A picturesque place, it was a perfect settlement for your retired parents where everyone knew everybody; their faces, names, the street they lived on. Boilding down to more personal details such as knowing the pets they owned, which book club theyâre a part of, and any recent travels.Â
When the townsfolk saw you, you sensed the feeling of familiarity. Those you passed by in the streets waved at you, and though you couldnât exactly recall your relationship with them, it made you smile. Recently, old friends and family in the area had begun reaching out after hearing you were back. You never gave them the full explanation, only revealing that things in California did not work out, and you figured it was best to leave.Â
Was it a permanent decision? Most likely. Life here is simpler, quieter. You enjoyed the peacefulness, favoring the calm atmosphere of this town much over the hustle and bustle of Los Angeles. It gave you space to think, to focus, to breathe. To reacquaint with yourself, rebuild who you are as a person by taking this journey of self-discovery.Â
Itâs the brand new start you desperately wanted, needed. An opportunity to find your place in this world without the past holding you back. Without the shadow of the woman you once were looming over you. And if your memories donât ever return, which deep down, you hope they never would, you would be fine with it.Â
You were tired of being stuck searching pieces of the past. You had to live.
Trekking up the gravel road leading to your parentsâ home, a black car sits on top of the hill, one that you did not recognize. Perplexed, you approached the house with hesitant steps, dragging your feet through the pile of dead and dry leaves. There was a moment of panic when you noticed a man sitting on the front porch steps, hands clasped on his knees as he hung his head low, a curtain of dark hair masking his identity.
But you donât need to think twice, for you already know who it is.
âKeanu?â
His name slipping out of your mouth feels different now. Gone is the affectionate tone that it was usually spoken in. It held no meaning, void of any warmth or tenderness. Keanu, the name is bitter on your tongue, a poison that could cause you to spiral down yet again, and saying it out loud brought upon a rage that swirls through your veins.
How dare he show up here unannounced?
As you take your breaths, one⊠two⊠three... and out, Keanu straightens his posture and meets your stern glare. Slowly, he gets up, the expression on his face hard to read. But aside from that, he looked worse for wear. The bags underneath his eyes were dark and prominent, the beard on his chin was unruly and untamed. He appears gaunt and exhausted, as if he hasnât slept a wink ever since you walked out of the door and out of his life.
âWhat the hell are you doing here?â Youâre the first to break the thick silence, a testament of your bravery and strength of some sort. Brows furrowing and teeth gritting in anger, it contrasts with Keanuâs lax demeanor as he steps closer. âNo, stay back. You have no right to be here right now.â
âY/N, please...â He speaks calmly, each and every one of his movements measured. âIâm not here to fightââ
âI have nothing to say to you,â you seethed, shaking your head as you stormed past him and towards the door. Tears brew in your cloudy eyes, a sign of how much he still affected you. Seeing him again after all this time only proved that the wound he had inflicted bleeds to this day.
âYou donât have to say anything,â Keanu quickly trails from behind, his voice dripping with utter desperation. âPlease, just⊠give me a chance to talk. All you have to do is listen, and I promise you wonât ever have to see me again.â
The seriousness in his timbre causes you to halt in your tracks. Swallowing dryly, you turn around, sad, tired eyes reaching his guilt-filled ones. Keanu stands before you with a face written in despair, making him barely recognizable. The way heâs staring at you as if heâs hopeless and in pure anguish is unsettling, and you almost pitied him for it.Â
âY/NâŠâ He pleads softly, defeatedly. âHear me out, please.â
You wrestled between your options, half apathetic, half curious of what Keanu had to say. Unspoken words on the tip of his tongue, he mutely begs for you to relent, and if this is all it takes for him to leave you alone, leave you for good, then so be it.
âTen minutes,â you muttered, low enough that he barely catches it at first. Crossing your arms against your chest, the gentle autumn wind rustling through the trees pierces the silent air as you observe Keanu staggering forward, a hand rubbing at the nape of his neck.Â
âIâm sorry,â he begins, gazing at you with his searching brown eyes. âI-I know saying it a thousand times wonât make a difference, but I really am sorry. What I did before and after the accident was inexcusable and selfish. I hurt you, and I will never forgive myself that. Donât expect you to do so, either. You probably hate my guts right now, and flying out here might be a mistake, but I needed to talk to you in person. To say goodbye one last time.â
Brushing his hair back, Keanu then pads over to the trunk of the car, and all you can do is wait for him to come back. It doesnât take long, but he makes two trips to unload two boxes, setting each of them down in the space separating you two. He instantly notices the confusion etched across your features, burying his hands in his coat pocket with an exhale.
âAre thoseââ
âAll the things you left behind,â Keanu finishes feebly. âThought you would want them back.â
Stunned, a mirthless chuckle escapes your throat. âYou didnât have to do this. Those arenât my things anyway.â
âBut they areââ
âTheyâre not mine,â you cut him off with a weary gaze. âKeanu, Iâve said this before; Iâm not the woman you fell in love with. Not anymore. Look, throughout those months we spent together, I tried to fit into this life everyone told me I had. A life thatâs far from what I was used to. God, it feels like a dream being her. So confident, happy, and successful. Waking up from the coma, of course, I would want that. I had just gotten out of a terrible relationship which left me broken and unworthy of anything and anyone. Then you showed me the love I thought I didnât deserve, and it kept me from realizing that it was all too good to be true.â
Eyes faltering to the ground, your fingers fumbled with the hem of your sweater, ultimately distracting yourself from the tears threatening to fall. âThe truth is, I didnât know you. You were, are, a stranger to me. You had done things behind my back, hid details that would have been a deal-breaker, but you didnât care. Iâve thought about it a lot lately; would I have stayed if you told me from the very beginning. I wasnât sure if I was madder at you kissing someone else, knowing how much it would hurt me, or the fact that you lied to fix thisâus.â
There is a moment of silence that weighs over everything. The wind stops blowing; the leaves are motionless. Time seems to slow around you and Keanu as he waits for your next words. Words that you are still searching for since you hadnât prepared to voice those thoughts out loud. They all came rushing, flooding like a broken dam, too overwhelming to keep at bay.Â
âWhich one is it?â Keanu probes delicately, equally afraid of which answer youâre going to give.
âNeither,â you revealed, surprisingly. âIâm angrier at myself for falling too fast; for being the naive little girl who let herself be fooled, who refused to listen to her instincts even though she knew they were usually right.â
You see Keanu open his mouth to speak, but you werenât done. âI always believed this accident was a curse. It erased years worth of memories that, at this point, Iâll never get back. But now, I see the good that came out of it. Our fights, our arguments, they were all signs that our relationship was falling apart, but I couldnât let go of itâof you. I held onto us thinking the bad will just phase out eventually when in reality, I couldnât bear giving up on you and this life we shared.â
Another pause. âHuh, funny. Looking at it, the same thing happened all over again.â
With that said, you felt relieved, somewhat lighter. Despite previous inclinations, you didnât shout or yell at Keanu. Nor did you discuss to the fullest extent of the suffering youâve endured. Strangely, it was nearly therapeutic admitting all of that to him, to yourself. For months, you had been unable to let go and accept the truth, allowing fear and doubt to control your actions.Â
But that was then, and this is now.Â
And now, it was time for you to be free.
âGuess this is it,â Keanu sighs dejectedly. He didnât come here to win you back, knowing thereâs nothing that he could do or say to repair the damage. Like you, heâs letting go, letting this be the closure he needs, and you need as well. âI guess this is goodbye.â
âYeah,â you agreed quietly, âGuess this is goodbye.â
Before you could leave his sight to spare Keanu the awkwardness, he holds up a finger, signaling you to wait a second. Swiftly, he goes to retrieve something thatâs lying on the front seat, something that youâve spent countless hours flipping through. He then reluctantly passes it over to you, and youâre unsure what to do with it.
âYour pictures,â he points out, though you were already aware. âIâm not trying to be an asshole or anything by giving this, but this book is yours. Keep it, burn it, do whatever seems right to you. But I want you to know, to remember, that I did love you. I still do, and these photos are proof of it, even if you canât bring yourself to believe that Iâm telling the truth. You deserve love and to be loved, Y/N. More than anything in the universe. I fucked up my chance to be the one to tell you that every day, but it doesnât mean the next person you fall for will.â
âKeâŠâ your voice suddenly breaks with emotion, uncertain of what to add after his statement. Itâs because you still love him. No matter how much it hurts, youâre still in love with him, your motherâs earlier words echo in your mind, ringing true in your heart. Even after everything, a piece of you still loved Keanu, and saying goodbye to him more painful than you anticipated.
As you stand frozen, Keanu inches nearer until heâs by your feet, the palm of his hand coming to rest on your cheek. He strokes your face with a tender caress before tilting your chin upwards to meet his gaze, brushing his thumb along your lower lip gently. You allow him to have this moment, to hold you and study you for a final time, commit you to memory as this would be the last.Â
Eyes fluttering shut, you feel him press a soft kiss on your forehead, the warmth of it immediately spreading throughout your body before he slowly pulls away.
âTake care of yourself, Y/N,â Keanu says, opening the driverâs side door of his rental. You look at each other once more and see the subtle, hopeful smile he shoots your way. âAnd donât be afraid to love again.â
You watch as he starts driving away, opting to wait until the car is finally out of view before releasing the breath you didnât know you were holding.Â
In your hands is a keepsake of your memories. A collection of captured moments that you had cherished so dearly. But things are different now; mistakes were made, words were said, people have grown apart. You found no reason to linger in the past when thereâs nothing left to salvage.Â
Nothing left to do but heal.
The warmth of Keanuâs kiss eventually disappears, the world around you unpausing, continuing as it was before. You stay standing in place, glancing back and forth between the book you clutched on tightly and the boxes laying on the ground.Â
Yet in the quietude, the wind still blows. The leaves still fall, and the earth still spins.
Time resumes, bit by bit; passing for life to move forwardâÂ
For you to move on.
Part 13
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A lit torch to the woodpile high (part 3)
A Paz VIzsla Bartender!AU
Rating: M (this one gets spicy folks)
Pairing: Paz Vizsla x F!Reader
Warnings: Alcohol (they work in a bar), pining, death/grief mention, masturbation, fantasies of p in v sex, Paz puts himself in horny jail, light smutÂ
Word count: 3.1k
Description: This one is purely self-indulgent. You decide to up the ante and make Pazâs life (and other parts of him) hard. Harlow is a lil shit, but we love for for it.
Authorâs note: Iâm still not completely satisfied with this chapter, but Iâve been working on it for far too long. Lightly edited, unbetaâd. Please go here to be added to the taglist! This one goes out to my pal May. Missing you on my dash. Hope you see this update and enjoy it đ„°
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He couldnât get you out of his head. It was maddening.
It had been a long time since anyone had stirred these kinds of feelings up for him, and he doesnât recall it ever hitting him like a freight train.
He used to think of life in two absolutes: Before he lost everything and After, when he had to pick up the pieces. Now he was starting to think there was more to it, that those absolutes were just parts of him.
If only he wasnât such a miserable bastard. You were the light in a dark sky. Not just for him, for everyone. He saw the delighted smile that was plastered on Rickâs face after you walked in every day and asked him how his grandchildren were doing, if his wifeâs knee was feeling any better.
Paz noticed the change in Harlowâs demeanor now that she had a friend who could build her up when she talked about her dreams. Hell, Madge snuck you food every chance she got, and she only ever did that for him.
He found himself lying awake in bed tonight, as usual, trying to calm the stream of thought that entered his head. Before you, he only could ever think about the ghosts of his past. People he had loved and lost.
But now? Now as he closed his eyes, he saw your eyes, sparkling with delight. Your lips, in a pout, then stretched over a brilliant smile.
The delicate curve of your neck and shoulder. Your ass. He groaned out loud. God, your ass was out of this world. The way it moved when you bent over to grab a dish towel from the bottom shelf. He always had to look away before his thoughts got away from him, or else his mind would wander and he would imagine snaking his arms over yours and caging you to the bar, rolling his hips into yours. You would wiggle your ass against him and throw your head back to see his reaction.
Fuck. Now he was hard. Every time this happened, he would either watch some porn or force himself to think of a woman he didnât know, someone who he dreamed up in his head.
But no faceless stranger or actress could quite do it for him like you would. He could feel his self control crumbling as he reached into his boxer briefs and fisted his aching cock, taking it out and letting it sit heavy against his stomach, straining with need.
He ran a finger up the underside, imagining it was you teasing him, getting acquainted with how hot and hard he was for you. He let himself picture you, naked and in between his legs, stroking him gently, watching him come apart underneath you. Ideally, heâd flip you over and dive face first into your cunt, lapping wide stripes at your slick folds with his tongue, then sucking your clit into his mouth. He would wait until youâre mewling under him, then heâd plunge a finger into you, stretching you around his finger and adding another. Heâd wait until you came in his mouth at least twice before he fucked you. Heâd have you begging for his cock, so slick with need it dripped down your thighs.
In this part of the fantasy, youâre so feral for him, your eyes bright and wide looking up at him with hunger, that he acquiesces, and you climb onto his lap and bounce up and down on his cock.
He was stroking himself faster now, feeling so close to the edge. He grit his teeth, growling your name as he came all over his fist, spurts reaching up his stomach, almost all the way to his chest.
As soon as he came to his senses, he sighed, feeling disgusted with himself.
There was a moment in the bed of his truck that night, where you had stared at him, your gaze flickering down to his mouth as you licked your bottom lip. It was just a small flash of your tongueâ but it gave him hope for a moment. He had hope that someone as beautiful and kind as you could see through the darkness within him, see the guy he used to be before he lost everything.
But that part of Paz died, along with the family he cared so deeply for. The remaining ones scattered to the wind, unable to carry on pretending like everything hadnât changed.
He sighed deeply, getting up to wash the shame off himself. At least heâd sleep soundly tonight and dream of a reality where he could hold you in his arms.
Paz seemed to be in higher spirits lately, following your chat in his office. It wasnât like he skipped into the room and had birds fluttering around his head, like a Disney princess, but he didnât snap at anyone who made eye contact with him, so it was a noticeable difference.
That was the hot topic conversation of the day, especially for Harlow. She couldnât get over the 360 change that seemingly happened overnight.
âSo, did you doink the grumpy out of him or what?â Harlow asked. She was leaning over the bar, looking at you expectantly with her hands under her chin.
âOf course not!â You said, a little too loudly. âThere has not, and will not be any doinking, ever.â
âThis sounds like work appropriate conversation,â a deep voice drawled.Â
You both spun around, not expecting to see him standing in the doorway, his eyebrow arched. He was clearly unimpressed.
âIâm going to go clean the bathrooms,â Harlow said, dashing out back. Fucking traitor.
You prayed to the almighty maker that the floor would open up and swallow you whole, but there was no such luck in store for you today.
âHey Paz,â you said, trying to sound casual, as if Harlow hadnât been talking about your non-existent sex life.
âHey you,â he said, mimicking your tone. âI actually came out here to ask you if you could swap a shift with Harlow next Friday. I fucked up and scheduled her on a day she requested off. Youâd get Sunday off in return.â
âSure,â you agreed, nodding. âI donât have any plans.â
âYou donât have any plans to âdoinkâ anyone that night?â He teased.
You could feel your face heating up in embarrassment.
âNot unless you know any willing volunteers.âÂ
Paz barked out a laugh.
âI might know a guy,â he said, a smirk etched on his handsome face.
You both cursed and thanked the powers above that a customer decided to walk in right at that moment. Of course it was Bob. He usually was the first to come in and one of the last to leave.
Not wanting to lose whatever contest was going on (real or perceived), you gave Paz a coy smile and leaned over the bar to take Bobâs order, making sure you poked your ass out further than necessary.
You couldnât see Pazâs reaction, but when he exited without so much of a goodbye, you gave yourself an internal fist pump.
In hindsight, maybe it wasnât the best idea to (potentially) break a dress code at work, but in your defense it was hotter than the surface of the sun, and internal temperature of the bar only seemed to get higher as the night went on.
Also, maybe it would be an added bonus if you got to torture a giant, brooding bartender in the process.
You felt pretty proud of your decision to wear your thinnest bralette, squeeze into your smallest pair of shorts, paired with a t-shirt that was just a little too small.
Of course your car decided to stall 3 times on the way to work, and your AC was busted so you walked in 15 minutes late, already feeling like a frizzy, sweaty mess. Your entrance wasnât as grand as you were hoping, feeling like your half-assed attempt at makeup had already melted off your face, and the black v-neck you wore was clinging to you in all the wrong places, mainly your sweaty back and right under your bra.
In your rush to clock in before the 20-minute mark, you crashed right into Paz, almost falling and landing on your ass. Paz, of course, barely moved a centimeter. His hand shot out, grabbing you by the shoulder to hold you steady.
âWoah there, small fry, be careful,â he murmured. His hand was large and warm. You had to take a deep breath to get a hold of yourself.
âPaz, Iâm so sorry Iâm late. My fucking car stalled out on the way andââ you started babbling, pushing your sweaty mane back, praying he couldnât see the sweat stains on your shirt.
âItâs okay, shit happens. You need someone to look at your car? I know a guy.â He was leaning forwards to get a better look at you, looking concerned. You had trouble controlling how fast your heart was beating and your lungs felt like they couldnât get enough air. It was plain bizarre, the affect this man had on you with a simple gesture.
I know a guy. Your cheeks felt warm remembering the last time he uttered that sentence.
You had expected him to get angry with you for being late. Hell, you remember the gruff tone he gave you on your first day when he said to show up on time.
âI- I um,â you were having a hard time coming up with words, too distracted by the sensation of Pazâs thumb rubbing soothing circles on your shoulder, brushing against your collar bone. Despite the heat, you felt goosebumps rise on your flesh and your nipples instantly pebbled. You stole a quick glance down to make sure it wasnât obvious. Shit, it totally was.
âIâm fine, thank you.â
âLet me know if you change your mind,â he replied. Had his voice dropped a few octaves or were you just imagining it? He removed his hand from your shoulder, much to your chagrin, and backed up a little, giving you a once-over.
âGo ahead and clock in and give yourself a couple minutes to get settled. It should be slow today,â he gave you a soft smile.
âOkay, thanks,â you said, giving him a shy smile in return.
It was about 3 hours into your 8 hour shift and it was dead. There wasnât a single customer in sight. It wasnât that surprising, given it was a Tuesday, but God were you bored. It was just you and Paz tonight, with Paz sending Madge home (with pay) and no one else being scheduled.
You didnât really mind, though, figuring it was a good time to get to know Paz better. He was wiping the already clean bar down for the fifth time that night, really driving the bartender stereotype home.
âYouâre going to start wearing the varnish down at this rate,â you laughed, gesturing at the rag in his hand.
He looked down, shaking his head in a playfully exasperated way and let out an embarrassed huff of laughter.
âAlright, how do you suggest we pass the time?â
âHow about 20 questions?â
Paz immediately groaned in protest.
âOh shut up, you big baby, Iâll answer first. Go ahead,â you cocked your chin at him. âGot any questions youâre dying to ask me?â
âWhy did you apply for a job here?â
Your first instinct was to deflect, but you did suggest this game, and figured you just had to bite the bullet and answer honestly.
âTo be honest, I still havenât figured out what I want to do,â you explained. âI know, kind of pathetic for someone my age. I took a bartending class at the local adult learning center, got a certificate and just kind of walked in here and asked for an application on a whim.â
Paz could sense your discomfort, how you were ashamed that you hadnât found your way yet. It was something he could identify with, in a way.
âThatâs not pathetic at all,â he said, crossing his arms. âPlenty of people donât know what they want to do at your age.â
You shrugged, not wanting to continue the subject.
âBoxers or briefs?â
Paz arched an eyebrow, his ever-present sign of judgement coming through.
âThatâs what youâre dying to ask me?â
âNo, but I figured Iâd warm you up first,â you said, giving him a cheeky smile.
âBoxer briefs. Favorite color?â
âBlue. Where did you grow up?â
Pazâs casual expression faltered at the question.Â
âFar away. Iâd rather not get into it today, if you donât mind.â The easy smile vanished from your face, replacing it with a nod of understanding.
âThatâs totally fine, Paz. Iâm sorry if I overstepped,â you sat down at a table, and gestured at the chair across from you, signaling him to sit down. You wanted him to feel at ease around you.
âYou and your apologies,â Paz said, a look of fond disbelief on his face. âYou have nothing to apologize for, meshâla.â
A beat of silence passed, waiting for Paz to think of a question. You wanted to ask him what that word he had called you meant, but you had a feeling he would dodge the question.
âWho were you and Harlow talking about yesterday?â Paz rested his chin in his hand, giving you a shit-eating grin. He must have known the answer already, given the smug look on his face.
You felt the color drain out of your face.Â
âWhy do you want to know so badly?â You countered. In the back of your mind, you thought you probably shouldnât have talked back to your boss, but his smile didnât waver. In fact, it only got wider.
âThat doesnât answer my question, sweetheart,â he drawled, stretching his legs and crossing one over the other.
âHarlow,â you thought of a way to word this without incriminating yourself or your friend. But screw it, she had opened her big mouth in the first place. âHarlow thinks thereâs something going on between you and me.â
You briefly wondered if his facial muscles were used to this kind of workout, with the grin that refused to let up.
âAnd your answer was basically, âew noâ, ouch,â he chuckled.
âItâs not likeâ ugh. Fuck you.â You hid your face in your hands. He laughed harder. You had to do something to flip this around, gain back a little power over the situation.
Oh. An evil thought entered your brain. You removed your hands from your face and smirked. Paz was still grinning, but you saw a hint of fear in his eyes.
âPray tell, what would you have preferred I said?â
Paz leaned back in his chair and regarded you for a moment. It seemed you had thrown him through a loop. You couldnât help but feel pleased with yourself.
But then he leaned forward, placing both of his large hands on the table, a hungry look in his eyes.
âYou can say whatever you want to Harlow,â he said, his voice even but significantly huskier than usual. âBut Iâd prefer it if you didnât lie to yourself.â
It felt like your heart was going to beat out of your chest any second now. You werenât sure if he was being serious and it was making your head spin.
A sound came from the kitchen, snapping you both out of the moment. You sprung apart, despite having a table between your bodies.
âOkay lovebirds, Iâm heading home.â It was Madge, standing by the kitchen doors, snickering at your antics.
âNight, Madge,â Paz called.Â
You waved feebly and offered a weak âgoodnightâ at her retreating figure.
It had been too quiet since she had left. Paz seemed unwilling to continue the conversation, opting to brood silently. You muttered something about getting a head start on inventory and retreated into the dusty storage closet to pretend you were counting inventory. Though, you didnât bring a pen and paper with you, so really you just went out back to stare at a bunch of kegs and liquor bottles, hoping they would miraculously answer all of the questions that were whirring through your brain.
You must have been staring at a bottle of Hennessy for at least a full 5 minutes when the door opened. Paz looked absolutely wrecked. His hair was mussed up, as if he had been running his fingers through it. His chest was heaving as if he had just sprinted a mile.
âPaz.â His name came out of your mouth like a prayer. You werenât sure what you were asking of him, but you knew you needed him to act.
He stepped closer, slowly, as if he was afraid the floor would open up from under his feet.
âTell me to stop.â Paz was just inches away now, caging you into the shelves behind you with his arms.
âWhat if I donât want you to stop?â You asked, tipping your chin up to look at him.
He growled and tangled his fingers in your hair, kissing you with fervor.
Despite the ferocity of his kiss, his lips were so soft, so pliant. You moaned and licked into his mouth needing to taste him. Paz moaned, pushing you into the shelves further.Â
âYou drive me crazy,â he panted, pressing his forehead to yours. You responded by capturing his bottom lip between your teeth, pulling him back to your mouth. You were rewarded with a low groan and a push of his hips.
He was hard. That knowledge sent you into a haze. You needed him closer. Your arms went around his shoulders, kneading and pulling him in. He broke the kiss and peppered smaller kisses on your jaw, then down your neck.
âYou wear these tiny little shorts and tight shirt to torture me?â He asked, already knowing the answer. He nibbled at your collar bone, hitting a spot that had you throwing your head back against the shelves.
âYes,â you chuckled breathlessly.
âMmm, knew it,â he answered, running his hands down your back, down to your ass, giving it a generous squeeze that had you mewling.
âIâve been hard all fucking day, seeing you waltz around in those shorts, with your nipples hard, begging to be sucked.â
He rubbed his thumb over one of your nipples, causing it to pebble. Paz swallowed your gasp with his mouth, giving you another searing kiss.
Reality came rearing its ugly head in the form of the front door opening. Paz huffed and pressed his forehead to yours, hands coming around your hips to help you off the shelf.
âDuty calls,â he sighed, reaching his hand down into his jeans to adjust himself. Your mouth watered at the sight.
Paz exited the closet, strolling out and greeting the customer as if nothing had just happened, while you stole a few moments to yourself to get your bearings.
It was going to be a long night.
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Masterlist - Murphy day - Part 2
Before I introduce you to my story, please note that Fors is an Original planet. I do not give permission to people to use it for their own fics, the planet, the animals, the Nightmares, the lore or anything related to Fors. Thank you.
Pairing: Bad Batch x Reader
Words: 3661 words
Warnings: Hurting animals (predators, donât worry).
A/N: This is going to be insane. Itâll get gory (not in this chap, but weâll get there).Â
Taglist: @haloangel391â (still want to be tagged?) + Tag list open
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"This," Tech paused to find the right words to not insult you once more. "went rather good considering it's your first time." He met your gaze, clearly concentrating on your body language to see if you were insulted or not.
You stared back at him blankly, eyebrow raised, hands joined on your lap. You turned your chair to face him completely and moved forward to get your elbows on your knees, never breaking the eye contact.Â
"Cut the crap. Say what you wanted to say."Â
"Two things." He immediately followed like the words were dying to leave his lips. "One, this should have been a lot more chaotic. Two, there was no way you actually never flew a ship before." His eyes squinted like this would press the info out of you.
"You accusing me of lying?" You remained stoic, not letting him know yet about your little secret and actually making him squirm in his seat.Â
"No!" He straightened in his seat, frowning in confusion as if you'd just slapped him. In the background, you could hear footsteps getting closer to the cockpit door.Â
"Are you?" He continued, uncertain.
"No."Â
"For a second I doubted it was you piloting." Hunter entered, followed by Wrecker who stood right behind him. "Very good for a first flight."Â
"Yeah! We could tell it wasn't Tech because of the landing! It was too smooth." Wrecker chimed in to his smaller brother's dismay.Â
"Thanks." You answered with a nod at the same time Tech yelled his indignation.Â
"She cheated!"Â
"And how can you cheat at piloting a ship?" Crosshair snickered at the apparent attempt to keep his reputation of best pilot of the Marauder. Apparently you were promising enough to be a threat. This was interesting.Â
"Tech. She doesn't have a droid. She couldn't cheat." Hunter pointed out, confused.Â
"She said she didn't fly a ship before! It clearly isn't the case!" His hands moved around to prove his point, almost causing you to burst out laughing.Â
"Again with accusing me of lying?" You inquired innocently.Â
"No! I'm not-"Â
"You just did." The sniper smirked, enjoying the show.Â
Shiny decided to join the troop at this moment, passing its head under Wrecker's big hand for some pat. Your heart squeezed at the prospect that the tiny baby wouldn't be around anymore. He was so sweet.Â
"But you can't learn that from the books!"
"I didn't lie." You chuckled, your attention back to the discussion. One of your hands found the engineer's pauldron to calm him down. "I never flew a ship before. Hell, I've never used a blaster before! This planet is still using bows and arrows."Â Â
You heard a snort on your right, clearly coming from the grey-haired trooper, but your eyes were fixed to Tech's who was still trying to get how the hell you managed to get the hang of flying a ship so quickly. You were sure it took hours of training to be able to fly to the GAR standards and you knew you didn't reach these standards. Yet. But it didn't stop your first performance to be quite good, or so it seemed.Â
"You're right. I read all the books and they couldn't have prepared me enough." He nodded, already knowing that he was right, waiting for you to continue with barely contained impatience.Â
"Remember the trooper who shared my room for a while? Blast?" You didn't wait for him to answer your question before getting to the part of his interest. "He's a gunship pilot. He taught me what to be aware of, what to look for, how to react in what situation, and other stuff."Â
You smiled sweetly at his goggled eyes, batting your eyelashes innocently.Â
"See? Not a liar. Just resourceful."Â
His eyes grew wide in panic, almost making you panic.Â
"You blew your cover of being a trained pilot!" Oh. You rolled your eyes in all playfulness, noticing how the rest of the team tensed at his words.Â
" 'm not that dumb Techie." You resisted the urge to boop his nose in front of everyone. "Told him I was used to starfighters and not gunships. Wasn't used to the big extra weight behind my ass. He bought it and helped me 'adjust'." You finished by making quotation marks in the air, happy to see his face crumble in relief.Â
"It's okay Tech. You're still the best pilot between the two of us." You patted his shoulder and got to your feet, a new energy in your steps as you made your way to the back of the ship.Â
You looked around for your knife, going to the last place you remember seeing it; the barracks. Only, you found the beds to be totally empty and your knife was unexpectedly nowhere to be seen in the living area too. Maybe one of the boys had it, you thought. Before you went to ask them, it flashed into your mind. You remembered sliding it into the slot at the side of your boot. You lightly hit your forehead with your palm. Oops. You could keep that to yourself.
You heard the boys argue for a bit, Wrecker laughing at the whole exchange, your lips stretching at his contagious joy. They finally settled, the silence making it obvious that their small discussion was over, so you made your way to the door of the ship.Â
"All ready to go drop off our lil' friend." You announced as they joined you, pressing the button to open the door.Â
Tech handed you a small device with a flashing round circle as soon as he was within arms reach.Â
"What's that?" You took the device, turning it around to inspect it.Â
"An improved comm link. If by some bad luck we get separated, we'll still be able to reach you. It is set to our team frequency. Press this button to talk." He pointed at the no-longer-flashing circular button.Â
"So I can't dirty talk Hunter." You said in the device, and you could hear your voice echoing from all their helmets under their arms.Â
"Definitely not." He deadpanned, disgusted. Wrecker laughed whole-heartedly, one of his hands slapping the back of your right shoulder that moved forward under his strength, Hunter smirked in your direction with a delicious glint in his eyes while Crosshair rolled his eyes and put his helmet on.Â
"Fiiiine." You fake whined, eyes and head rolling like a kid before inviting them to get off the ship with a movement of your hands presenting them the outside world. "After you, gentlemen."Â
Scoffing, Hunter pulled his helmet on and walked down the steps, followed by the rest of the batch.Â
"Good job Y/N!" Wrecker eagerly presented you his fist, to which you keenly answered with a hit of your smaller fist. He descended the stairs to regroup with his team.Â
Smiling, you noted that they were fully armored, armed and alert, surely not trusting the fauna around to stay at bay. You found that deep inside, it made you feel safer to have them by your side.Â
You pocketed the comm link in one of your deepest pockets before following suit, arms wide at your side to bathe in the warmth of the slowly retiring sun while you could. Space, you'd realized, was terribly cold.Â
Tall trees reached high in the blue sky, the green grass grew as far as you could see, a warm breeze stroked your face and all in all, you found yourself not relaxing like you expected. You thought that you'd feel better to be in known-ish territory as opposed to a cold military base, but your mind couldn't find ease. Not even slightly. Maybe it was PTSD following your last experience on Murphy Day. You deeply hoped this was the explanation.Â
You made sure that you landed the ship far enough from the Forsian hunting territories and the Waytree, the prospect of meeting one of your peers wasn't very tempting and if you could avoid meeting another Basilisk, you'd definitely take it. The Marauder was now in wild territory, far enough that even you hadn't ventured that far in your exploratory trips, about a couple of hours of walk away from your native village, just enough to stay undetected.
You joined the group, smiling at seeing Shiny running into the greenery, glad that at least one of you was happy to be back.Â
Wrecker and Crosshair went ahead, closer to the line of trees to search for predators of some sort, their movements frightening small sunbathing Jerboas that fled back into the jungle.Â
"We'll have to do it quick. Can't be here when the sun's down." You informed the sergeant who nodded in understanding.Â
Or at least, some understanding. Like everyone else, he must have deduced that this planet was even more dangerous at night. If only he knew to what extends. Or maybe it was best for him not to know.Â
"Clear." Came Crosshair's voice from your pocket.Â
"All cl-" Wrecker started before his sentence finished in a yelp of surprise.Â
All at once, four heads turned towards his position, quick enough to see his torso and helmet disappear into the ground.Â
'Wrecker!" You yelled along with Tech, running to where you last saw him, the remaining commandos barely outrunning you.Â
"Stop!" Hunter barked, arms extended at his sides to prevent you all to fall off the cliff, cutting your breath for a second when the blaster in his hand hit your chest full force.Â
The ground was crumbling under your combined weights, hurrying you to step back from the edge. You dropped on your stomach to redistribute your weight and peer at the open space below. Making sure this time that only your head poked over the edge and nothing else. A hand gripped the back of your shirt in haste, like you would ever decide to throw yourself off a precipice. Again.Â
Wrecker sat there on his ass surrounded by trees, passing a hand over his helmet in confusion. You finally took a deep breath in when you registered that he was moving.Â
"You okay there?" You yelled with your hands around your mouth, the others replicating your position at your sides to look down, the hand on your back still closed around the fabric.Â
"All good." He looked up, flashing you a thumbs up.Â
Bending your head to look under you, your blood ran cold as you took in the really thin plate of ground kept together by roots and nothing else. There were only a very few inches of dirt supporting your bodies, creating a gap between the part of the cliff Wrecker could climb and the edge where you all laid on.Â
"He can't climb up." You rotated your head to the side at Crosshair's comment and saw the ground disappearing two clicks further down. You landed on a weird ravine top of some sort.Â
Your breathing picked up in pace as the image of the sun licking the top of the trees reached your brain, pushing back to the front of your mind all your survival instinct adapted to the hard life on your planet.Â
"We have to get him. Quick." Your eyes were fixed to the sun, muscles tensed.Â
How long before the last rays warmed the ground? How long until you weren't protected anymore? 45 minutes? A bit less?Â
"What's wrong?" Hunter questioned, bringing you back to the land of the living. He looked worried, maybe it was caused by the panic in your voice. Or the fact that your skin paled significantly in a matter of seconds. Or maybe it was both.Â
You got on your knees before bolting toward the line of trees, evading the hand clutched around your shirt to look for a spot where the cliff met your own ground. Yells of your name were muffled by your loud frenetic thoughts, warnings to not stay outside at dusk, stories of what roamed the darkness on the other side of the gigantic fence protecting the village, drawings of terrifying creatures that haunted your nights for years. Â
You jumped at the something closing on your shoulder, instinct kicking in to lift your hand to threaten the intruder. You were as surprised at Tech when you saw the hunting knife in your hand, the blade almost pressed against his neck.Â
"Calm down!" A sharp order reached your ears as a hand pulled your wrist away from the tender skin.Â
"S-sorry Tech." Your voice shook as much as your hand, your grip tightening around the handle of the blade. Â
"What's wrong? Talk to us!" Hunter ordered again, invading your line of sight.Â
"We have to be gone before dusk. We can't survive a night outside." You rushed, eyes lifting to the darkening sky between the leaves.Â
"Why?" He pressed, tension building.Â
"We are losing time! We have 20 minutes tops to find him and all get our way back to the ship." You turned around to continue your search of a way to get to your teammate.Â
"What happens at dusk?" Tech inquired, joining your sides and matching your quick pace.Â
"They come out, Tech." You whispered, almost scared to say it out loud in fear that they would appear at their mention.Â
"What's 'they'?" Crosshair grumbled, completely done with your nonsense. He seemed unbothered, but you knew your stress was affecting him too, his gun at the ready was secured in a tight grip while his helmet scanned the trees meticulously.Â
"Apex predators." You shuddered, the drawing of an Algax invading your mind.Â
You noticed Shiny wandering a bit farther ahead, his horns illuminating a couple of Furants watching the group closely. The feline-like owls were perched on low branches, the green light reflecting over their dark feathers and four legs armed with sharp talons. Their ears and eyes followed your movements, their tail intertwined to keep the other close.Â
They flew away in silence when Wrecker's voice boomed from your comm link.Â
"I hear weird laughs all around." He sounded worried, some of said laughs could be heard in the background.Â
As if this situation wasn't already bad! You definitely could have done without Wrecker being surrounded by a pack of vicious opportunist predators.
"Shoot 'em! Check in the trees!" You rushed out. "They'll try to surround you, you can't let them. Run if need be, they're not that fast." You glanced down the edge and huffed in annoyance when it still wasn't close enough to let you jump down to help him.Â
"We have to get to him!" You heard the first blaster bolts just below to your right, meaning that Wrecker foolishly ventured the jungle alone on his side when the others started running after you. Â
"Wrecker. Continue running North. We'll meet at some point." Hunter ordered.Â
"Got that!"Â
You jumped over dead trunks, roots and dense patches of tall grass, slalomed between the trees disturbing the small animals tending to their daily routine of surviving the harsh environment and ignored the yelps of Tech tripping over something.Â
"Don't shoot that!" You yelled, pointing to the big moss-covered lizard currently digging the ground before you, rushing past it without a care. He barely acknowledged your passage, staying focussed on his task.Â
You passed too much time running to your liking, but it all paid off when a very tall tree almost reached your ground level. It was a couple of feet too short, but it definitely was enough for you to jump down to the thick branches below. The top ones weren't strong enough, breaking beneath your feet and scratching your arms slightly. Soon, you reached the level where the wood became thick enough to sustain your weight. You plunged your knife into the trunk to slow down your fall to allow you to grab a branch without dislocating your shoulder and quickly made your way down.Â
You heard your name from above, but ignored it. They could make it on their own. Or at least you hoped.Â
You heard Wrecker before you saw him, the high pitch snickers and whoops following him closely. He shot some bolts behind him but continued running forward like Hunter ordered him to. He passed below you, not seeing you in the tree but stopped when he heard something fall on the ground behind him.Â
You had plunged your knife into one of the Rideat following the clone, stabbing him near the neck as soon as he jumped on your branch to continue its course. It lost balance at the pain, propelling the both of you to the ground.Â
You jumped to your feet in milli-seconds, already expertly jumping away from its long clawed prehensile fingers to stab it in the neck. It screeched in pain, jerking it's dangerously powerful back legs forward to push you away and claw at your flesh in the same movement.Â
You jumped back and Wrecker used the moment to shoot at the agonizing beast. Groans and grunts resonated all around, brown flashes moving from trees to trees. With your back to Wrecker's, you analyzed their pattern, lifted your hand and threw your knife to where you were sure the brown Rideat would jump next. Its body hit the ground, stunning it long enough for the trooper to shoot it down.Â
With snarls, the others retreated, leaving the scene as swiftly as they came.Â
"Those things are ugly!" Wrecker let out when you pulled your knife out of the canine-bat's shoulder.Â
"They are."Â
You pushed the body with your foot, cautious of any movement on its end, they were known to fake dead after all. Its long front legs were motionless just like its smaller back legs.Â
When it's large sensitive protrusions on its scapulas didn't move, you allowed yourself to breathe.Â
"You okay?" You turned to Wrecker who lifted its helmet to wear it as a hat.Â
"Yes! Thanks to you, cabur'ika!"Â
You frowned at the new nickname. You opened your mouth to ask what it meant when troopers rained from above, landing on their feet like the perfect elite commandos that they were. You were actually surprised that they didn't fall all the way down with their armor.Â
"They're gone." You informed them, almost snorting at their weapons moving along the trees.Â
"You sure?" Hunter stayed focused on his surroundings.Â
"100%. They're opportunist cowards. Always flee when they realize the prey is too strong." You pushed Wrecker's arm playfully at your last word.Â
"What's that?" Tech asked, crouched next to one of the bodies.Â
"A Rideat." You looked above, trying to discern the sky above the clouds of leaves but failing miserably as this part of the jungle was way too dense. "I'll describe later. We should get back up and leave."Â
Unfortunately, the tree was too short for you all to get back up there, so you had to walk further into the jungle to find a way up. This ravine must have a climbable spot somewhere. It had to.Â
Each passing second put you more and more on edge, sharpening your senses and reflexes. You heard the pounding of several Jerboas running to safety around you, a young single Loth wolf passed right next to your group, running towards its den.Â
You'd spent too much time walking, running and fighting. You were late. Too late. The sun was down and the diurnal animals fled to their secure home to pass the night. Preys and predators alike.Â
"We have to follow it!" You yelled, sprinting after the Loth wolf. Maybe it would lead you to a suitable shelter. Please, please, please.
Desperately, you tried to keep sight of it. Running at your fastest, you took every turn it did, jumped every mud puddle it did, but in the end, its four legs were too fast for the two of yours.Â
You lost him for a second. It was a second too much. Your blood ran cold when you lost sight it, but you soon spotted the small crack in the rock where it sneaked in to find shelter.Â
"No. Nononononono." You shook your head, eyes widening as fear traveled through your body like fire.Â
The fissure was too small for anyone to slip in. You were stuck out past daylight. Too far from the ship and too far from the nearest village.
"Stop running off." Hunter grumbled, joining your side.Â
You were on the verge of hyperventilating, too much blood was flooding your head, pins poked your fingers, the quick beating in your skull almost made you dizzy.Â
"Can't be out at night. Can't." You whispered, reciting the fundamentals of your previous years of survival. "Never leave the village alone. Don't forget your weapon. Return home before dusk."
You had failed. You'd die. You'd die like everyone else that ventured the night. You'd given yourself a death sentence without even returning to the village. How dumb-
"Y/N!" You were shook back and forth for a moment, trying to get you to focus.Â
"Calm your breathing. Now!" You heard the order, it was distant and muffled, but you heard it. It was only then that you regained feelings of your own body and forced your erratic lungs to slower their pace.Â
Your vision cleared, the sounds in your head vanished, the ringing in your ears faded, your fingers flexed to regain full feeling in them. You were alive. Still alive. Not for lo-
"Good." You blinked at Crosshair, his worried gaze moving over your face like you'd scared him. As if.Â
"We have to find shelter." You told them, coming back from your panic attack. Body leaning on the sniper's hand on your shoulder for stability.Â
"Remember I told you guys that Fors feeds on beliefs and basically make them real?â You didnât wait for an answer. âNow what are common beliefs at night?"Â
"Monsters." Crosshair deadpanned, eyes reduced to slit. He must think you went downright crazy.
"Blood-thirsty man-eating monsters." You specified to their horror.Â
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River lead me home | 07
Characters: Kim Seokjin x reader
Word count: 7.3k
Synopsis: Â Ever since coming to the human realm when you were child, nothing seems to fit, and this was just supposed to be a simple roadtrip to help you find yourself.
Is that too much to ask for?
Spin-off to A long journey home
Rating: Teens
Genre: Adventure, fluff, angst
Notes: Hey all! Long time no see! Iâm not really sure why I took so long to post... I just felt like I put so much work into this fic that I didnât want it to be over so easily, and I was like âafter this thereâs only one more chapter!!â AND THEN! I went into my WIPs folder and made a discovery! THereâs 9 parts to this fic!! So now I feel a little better.
ANyway, PLEASE let me know if you like this chapter because I definitely feel like itâs the emotional climax of the whole story. ALl the stuff that happens from this point on is just... like a really long epilogue.Â
Tags: @blue1928â @veeparkersstuff @nello-rie (soz it wonât tag you!) â
Masterlist
1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 FINAL
You may be a guardian, but even you have your limits. Despite your best attempts to move quickly, the pain in your shoulder rapidly becomes overwhelming.Â
Jin, frustratingly, picks up on it far sooner than you would prefer.Â
âI think we need to stop for a break.â He comments. The three of you have barely been walking for an hour and at any moment the Saishtaâs could be upon you, ready to take you to their queen.Â
Jungkook looks like he wants to protest.Â
âWeâre so close though! Itâs only a little while longer!â He points out, glancing nervously across the expansive plains. The benefit of them is that youâd spot any Saishtas from miles away, given the hulking, monstrous beasts they tend to use as their mounts.
Jungkook folds his arms. âI think itâs a bad idea to stop now. We need to get to the river and weâre sitting ducks out on the plains like this.â
Jin shoots Jungkook a withering look- this is nothing new, but the venom in Jinâs eyes surprises you. As much as he pretends to hate the tiny pixie, he doesnât actually mean it.Â
Jungkook shrivels a bit but doesnât back down. Luckily (or rather, unluckily), their stand-off is halted by your legs deciding they are no longer strong enough to hold your body up. Blood loss and extreme pain will do that, apparently.Â
Jin catches you as you crumble, smoothly scooping an arm around your waist and gently tugging you towards him until your weight is supported by his frame. The entire time, he does not tear his gaze from his stare-off with Jungkook. And apparently your weakness is the convincing Jungkook needs to show itâs time for a break. He glares at Jin for another couple of moments before releasing an annoyed huff.Â
âIâll cast a disguising spell on you two and scout out the area for any of those annoying reptiles. Donât move from this spot or the spell will become ineffective.â He announces through grit teeth before zooming off like an angry mosquito.Â
When heâs out of earshot, Jin turns his gaze to you and gently lowers you to the ground until you are seated amongst the stiff golden stems. He doesnât release you from his carefully hold, however. Instead, he shifts until he is sitting almost nose-to-nose with you.Â
âThat was strange of Jungkook.â You observe, in an attempt to cover your discomfort at his proximity. You wonder if Jin knows how powerful his good looks are up close. He probably does- heâs never pretended to be anything other than devastatingly handsome.Â
âHeâs scared.â Jin answers with pursed lips. His gaze isnât on your face, however. Itâs fixed on your injured shoulder. Slowly, he raises a hand and gently rests his palm against the front of your shoulder. âYou would be too if you could see how terrible you look right now.â
If you are surprised by the single tear that rolls down your face in response, it is nothing compared to Jinâs horrified reaction as he realises what he has done. Apparently, this whole being in love thing sucks.Â
âW-wait!â Jin protests, absolutely horrified. âI-I didnât mean it like that-â
You quickly scrub at your face with your uninjured arm. You know, in theory, that Jin didnât mean that you looked terrible as in that he thought you were ugly. And you know in theory that it is therefore stupid to cry over it. But for some reason, thatâs where your mind had gone- reminding you like an ever present shadow just how misplaced you look next to him, how thereâs nothing you can give him that he canât find in a million other girls, and just how little he thinks of you.Â
Youâre surprised when his hand replaces yours, far gentler than you had been as he wipes the tears from your face with a careful swipe of his thumb.Â
âHey,â he calls, grabbing your chin in his hand and angling your face until youâre forced to meet his gaze. âIâm sorry. I didnât mean it like that. I just mean that you... that you...â he voice cracks and he hangs his head, dropping his hands so he can clench his fists in his lap. âItâs not fun being reminded of how close we came to losing you.â Jin finally says. He drops his hand and his shoulders slump like he carries the weight of the world on his shoulders.
You donât know this Jin. This terrified, uncertain man. Heâs never once, in the entire time youâve known him, shown this vulnerable, fragile side of himself. But you know youâre in trouble because you love this side of him too. The part of him that gets scared, that shows weakness, that can break. As much as you hate the fact that it is you who has made him like this, you are grateful that he trusts you enough to show himself, warts and all, and you feel something molten in your chest as you silently promise yourself that youâll protect him. No matter what, youâll keep him safe. Even if youâre not particularly smart or pretty or charming. Youâre not the model-like, glamourous, genius girls he normally dates, and you never will be. Youâre unemployed and clumsy and socially awkward and youâre selfish and childish on top of all that. But this is what you can offer him: your heart, as pathetic as she is, and the promise to protect him, no matter where he goes or ends up in life.Â
âI know you didnât mean it like that. I... just... Itâs stupid.â You sigh at yourself before lifting your gaze to watch him. âAre you scared?â You finally question, changing the subject as the last of your tears dry. Jin frowns, nodding slightly.Â
âA little.â He admits, his tone a bit dry like heâs severely understating his feelings on the matter. And you donât know why, but something prompts you to reach forward and wrap your hand around his. Perhaps it is the slight shake he tried to hide by gripping the material of his pants so hard his knuckles go white. His hand is surprisingly much bigger than yours- you donât know why that surprises you, but it does.Â
âDonât worry.â You reassure him. âIâll protect you.â
The corner of his lip quirks and he shoots you an oddly fond look. Itâs one youâve seen before, although not directed at you. Youâve seen him look that way when he speaks about a particularly endearing coworker, or he recalls something silly that Namjoon has done. This is the first time youâve been on the receiving end.
âIn that state?â He questions with a raised brow. You feel yourself bristle a little defensively at the slightly patronising way he is coming across.
âAre you laughing?â You press, slightly offended. âYou donât think I can?â
âNo.â Jin answers, turning to you with an odd sort of expression to his face. âI know you will. Thatâs the problem.â And then, in spite of himself, he offers you a full-blown smile, cheerful and happy like youâve never really seen before. You are momentarily struck speechless, mesmerised by the sight before you. âBut thank you. Iâm glad, that I can count on you.âÂ
Something warm and eager blooms in your chest at his words. You cup your hands around his face and you admire the openness of his smile. How great would it be, if you could capture that smile in a picture and keep it forever? If you could preserve the way heâs looking at you right now, so that you always remember with clarity that even if he doesnât love you, Jin can look at you like this. Like you are something precious and adored. This is the man you get to love. Even if he doesnât feel the same way, youâre still happy. You feel like this love is a happy thing.Â
âIâm starting to think you only wanted to rest to pull the moves on her.â Jungkook announces his presence, seeming thoroughly unimpressed. He folds his arms as the air shimmers around him, signalling the dispersion of his illusory magic. ââLetâs go see the river, Jungkook. Itâll be fun. Iâll get over my trauma.â If youâd told me being a third wheel was in the job description, I never would have come.â Jungkook grumbles as Jin quickly pulls away. You donât quite catch the way his ears go red and his face seems to burn where your hands had gently cradled him, but Jungkook does, and he merely rolls his eyes at the sight. âItâs time to go.â He urges.Â
Jin clears his throat awkwardly, scrabbling to his feet and dusting off his trousers before extending his hand out to you.Â
âCâmon.â He urges, though his tone seems gruffer than before. âJungkookâs right. The Saishtas will find us at this rate.â
You hesitate, just a moment, before gratefully accepting his hand as he tugs you to your feet.Â
Oddly, though you expect him to release your hand once you are standing, he does no such thing. Instead, he wraps his hand around yours and uses it to tug you along as the three of you once again set off.Â
âItâll be easier for you to keep up.â Is all Jin offers as explanation for why he continues to grip onto your hand as though youâre planning to flee from him the second that he releases you. You stare in confusion for a moment, trying to puzzle out Jinâs behaviour, but he provides no further insight.Â
The three of you set a much more rapid pace this time, and after your brief rest, you cope much better. Jin eventually releases your hand when it becomes clear youâre gradually regaining your strength as your enhanced healing kicks in. The sun begins to draw close to the horizon and the brilliant blue above begins to deepen into a soft pink. But you realise something, as you continue your advance.Â
Thereâs no sound of a river. Over the expansive plains, the river song should carry easily on the warm, sweet breeze. And it should be in view by now, but itâs not. Instead, what you see is a dark, jagged line slicing through the plains like a gaping wound. Itâs the edge of a ravine- thereâs no river in sight.Â
âSomethingâs not right- â you breathe, only for the breath to be knocked clean from your lungs as Jin throws his full body weight at you, unprompted. You roll a few times from the force of his tackle, before finally landing with his body crouched over you protectively. Your eyes widen in shock, glancing over to where you had stood moment before, only to see the end of an arrow lodged in the ground.
âSee!â Jin croaks, hovering over you. âHow hard was that? Tackle, donât push, (Y/N)! If youâre gonna be saving people at least take that on board.â He scolds, in what is clearly the beginning of a Jant. (Jin rant)
âNowâs not the time, Jin!â Jungkook screeches.Â
âIâm just saying,â Jin cries, as he scrambles off you and yanks you to your feet by your good arm. âHow hard would it have been to tackle me instead of taking an arrow to the shoulder?âÂ
His Jant is interrupted by the dreadful sound of the Saishta hunting horn erupting from behind you. Only, this time, there is nowhere to run. Yes, you could easily outrun them, but to where? You have long left the safety of the forest where there are endless places to safely conceal yourself once youâve outrun them. But here is only open plains, followed by a sheer cliff face. There is a bridge across the river, in the maps youâve seen, but those maps have also told you thereâs a river where thereâs nothing but a deathly ravine. Still, the bridge is supposedly about a kilometre south of where you now stand, and itâs your only hope. But will you be able to run that far in this state?
The ravine hovers on the edge of your vision, out towards the west, and you can now make out the hulking forms of the Saishta mounts, as their hunting party makes its slow, arrogant prowl towards you. The mounts of Saishtas do not run- they believe that persistence will allow them to eventually capture any prey. Eventually, all targets must tire, or reach the end, and that is when the Saishta can make the kill. They seem confident that thatâs the situation the three of you are in now. You could flee, but if you give away that your destination is the river (or ravine?), youâll never be able to safely see it, for they will guard it until the end of time.
âSssurrender!â They call, now barely a hundred metres away.
âWeâll have to fight.â You announce to your companions, who both whip their heads around to glare at you with incredulity.Â
âAre you crazy?â Jungkook cries.Â
You clench your teeth as you slip into a familiar stance, holding up your arms as you prepare to fight.Â
âItâs our only option.â You point out, wincing as your shoulder protests at the stance you are currently in.
Jin takes one look at you and the advancing Saishtas and then he does possibly the most unexpected thing he could have done.Â
He throws you over his shoulder like you are a sack of potatoes and legs it.Â
âThis way!â Jungkook encourages, zooming southwards towards where you know the bridge is.
âJin!â You cry in protest, but he doesnât respond. âJin, stop! I was going to fight them!â
âNo!â Jin snaps. âYou were going to die. Or at least, you were going to try to and this time Iâm not letting you.â
You stop struggling, slumping against his back.Â
âNot again.â Jin promises. âYou wonât get hurt again. âI wonât stop and think while youâre in danger.ââ He tells you, echoing your earlier words to him. For some reason, it leaves you unable to retort. âNow if I set you down, will you run with me, or will you do something stupid?âÂ
You purse your lips in annoyance, trying to hold yourself stable as you flop around on Jinâs shoulder. You can see the Saishta making their slow, confident prowl behind you. They wonât shoot any more arrows at this proximity- after all, their aim is to capture you, not kill.Â
âIâll run.â You silently agree. Jin gives you absolutely no warning as he practically flings you back onto the ground, grabbing your hand as he tugs you on in a full-on sprint.Â
âWeâre almost there!â Jungkook cries, zooming slightly ahead of the two of you. Ahead, the great stone structure that comprises the great bridge that can carry you to safety on the other side of the ravine. You swallow your desperate, heaving breaths, ignoring the way your weakened body protests at the exertion. If you can just get to the bridge, thereâs a forest on the other side of the river. The three of you can easily conceal yourselves there, and then come back under the cover of night and investigate why thereâs a ravine here instead of a river.Â
The ground firms beneath you as it transitions from soft, loamy soil to a firm, well cut stone path. An arrow whizzes just past your ear and bounces off the stone path- a warning shot from the pursuing hunting party.Â
You squeeze your eyes shut as the three of you reach the edge of the bridge. The ravine is huge, and the bridge stretches ahead of you.Â
And then it sounds. Another hunting horn, a sound that will probably haunt you for the remainder of your days. But this one is from the opposite side of the bridge, where you are fleeing to.Â
Jinâs footsteps slow alongside yours, and Jungkookâs frantic buzzing becomes a slow, confused flutter as the three of you gradually draw the same conclusion.Â
Youâre trapped. There are Saishtas awaiting you on either side of the bridge. No matter which way you try to break through, you will have to fight through them. No wonder they were so confident they could catch you.
âWeâll have to fight.â You breathe, trying to slow your exhausted, rapid breathing. Jin is soaked with sweat and even Jungkook seems flushed with the exertion of your desperate sprint.Â
âWe canât.â Jin reminds you, out of breath and still gripping onto your hand so hard it hurts. âYouâll die.â
âWeâll die if they capture us too!â You point out. You can now see the Saishtas on both ends of the bridge, closing in on the three of you like a pack of hunting dogs. âIâm so sorry Jin- this is all my fault! Itâs not even a river- itâs some kind of ravine! I dragged us all the way here for nothing.â
âJin!â Jungkook calls, but you ignore him, too caught up in the realisation of what youâve done.Â
âHe told me nature doesnât change but that was stupid! Of course it changes- itâs been 1000 years and I just believed like an idiot that the river would still be here.â You cry, tears flowing down your face.Â
âJin!â Jungkook calls, and this time, Jin claps free his hand over your mouth to stop your desperate monologuing.Â
âWhat now?â Jin demands of the small pixie. The pixie in question bites his lip and looks from side to side at the Saishtas who watch you almost lazily across the length of the bridge. They have all the time in the world, after all- where can the three of you go except over the edge of the bridge, where you will surely meet your demise?
ââThe river loves those who take the plunge.ââ Jungkook recites, gesturing out to the endless, gaping ravine behind you.Â
You stare in confusion, but understanding dawns in Jinâs eyes as he leans over the low stone wall and stares down at the bottomless pit. He goes white and his hand tightens on your own to the point you are wincing with pain.Â
â(Y/N),â Jin calls, not lifting his gaze from the ravine. âDo you trust me?âÂ
You blink, glancing over at the Saishtas who draw closer and closer with each moment. Youâre not sure why heâs asking this now of all times, but your answer still comes easily.Â
âWith my life.â You answers solemnly. He glances at you, surprised by your words, before his gaze softens and he smiles weakly at you. Then, he releases your hand and slowly he lifts himself up onto the stone wall.Â
âThen take the plunge.â He tells you, holding his hand out to you.Â
Your eyes widen as you realise what heâs trying to do. You glance at Jungkook, who merely nods at you, and then at the Saishtas who chatter in confusion at Jinâs actions.Â
And finally, you look up at Jin, into the eyes of the man you love, and you know that even if itâs crazy, you really do trust him with your life.Â
He tugs you up onto the wall and pulls you close, cradling your head in the palm of one hand and wrapping his other arm around your waist to hold you close. It reminds you of when you had arrived in this realm. Heâs always held you like this, you realise. Like you are something precious to him, something he could never bear to lose.Â
You lift your gaze to him and meet his eyes, filled with fear, and he smiles. The Saishtas realise what is happening right as Jin takes a step backwards, off the edge of the bridge.Â
You squeeze your eyes shut as the two of you plummet down into the ravine below, Jungkook in close pursuit.Â
The last thing you hear before the darkness swallows you up is the desperate, furious roars of the Saishtas, thwarted once more.
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When you come to, it is on a slightly damp, sandy surface. Jin is still unconscious next to you, with an arm thrown protectively over your waist. As you sit up, his arm slides off you, and you move away, taking in your surroundings.
Youâre on a sandy riverbank- dark, inky waves lap at the surface in what is largely a calm, but dark river.Â
Overhead, you can see the clear, starry sky peeking at you through the jagged crack exposed by the top of the ravine. The river before you catches small flashes of starlight, but otherwise the area is largely dark.Â
That is, until a torch beam lands on you and you are nearly blinded by the sudden, intense light.Â
âOw!â You cry out, unable to see who is on the other side of the beam.Â
âSorry!â Jungkook hastily apologises, struggling to hold up the weight of your pompompurin torch. âI was looking for something.â
You rub at your eyes, which are now streaming with tears.Â
âLooking for what?â You ask, when your vision is finally cleared enough to make out Jungkookâs outline in the meagre lighting. Jungkook is silent for a moment, before hoisting the torch up even though itâs larger than him and directing it at the wall.Â
âThis.â He says, and then he turns the light on.
You donât know what you were expecting with Jungkookâs actions, but what you find is dozens of inscriptions along the cliff wall. Some are deeply engraved, and some are mere scratches, but they all seem to have different messages.Â
âWhat... what is all this?â You question in wonder.Â
âMessages.â Jungkook answers. He turns to look at you, dropping the torch into your hand so that you can freely exam the numerous inscriptions. âThatâs what people come to the river of stars to do. To leave a message that will last through all of time.â
You blink and turn to look at the river behind you. It just looks like a normal river, albeit at the bottom of a ravine. But thereâs no glowing plants, and if you hadnât just plummeted off the edge of a bridge, you wouldnât even know there was a river.Â
âThis... isnât what I expected, when I pictured this place.â You finally say. âHow did we survive that fall, Jungkook?âÂ
When you turn to look at Jungkook, he is gazing out across the river with an almost forlorn look upon his face.Â
âWell, youâve probably guessed this isnât a normal river.â Jungkook says. âItâs actually got special magical properties- thatâs how those glowing plants are able to grow here. And how you were able to survive the fall- this place is so filled with magic that amazing things can happen, like people plummeting hundreds of feet and surviving the fall, or beautiful, rare plants growing. Or rare mythical creatures being born.â
Jungkook turns to you and fans his arms out on either side of him, gesturing at the space around him.Â
âIâve wanted to tell you this for a long time. This river has another name, (Y/N).â He tells you. âItâs known as Gebulfen, the birthplace of the pixie. This is where I was born.âÂ
âWhere you were born?â Jin groans, sitting up and rubbing at his forehead. Jungkookâs eyes flicker over to the guardian in question.Â
âIs there an echo here? Why are you repeating what I just said?â He pouts. But he zooms over to Jin and lands on his outstretched knee. âGood work though. I wasnât sure youâd work out what I meant when I told you that old saying, but you did!â
âYou could have just said it outright.â Jin grumbles, hoisting himself to his feet. His gaze briefly flickers over you, assessing for injuries.Â
âThen the Saishtas would have worked out we were planning to jump.â Jungkook shrugged. âThe only reason we had as much time as we did was because they thought we had nowhere to go.â
âI guess I canât argue with that.â Jin grumbles, lifting his gaze to where you can just make out the outline of the great stone bridge you had plummeted from. âI guess they probably think we are dead now. Maybe itâll be easier to get home.â
Home... thatâs the next step of the journey for you. Jinâs words trigger the revelation for you- youâve reached the end of your journey. Youâve finally made it to the River of Stars, like youâve dreamed about for so many years. You stare in bewilderment across the smooth, dark surface of the river, taking in the soft sounds of the rushing water.Â
Gebulfen... the pixie birthplace. You had never heard that name before, nor had Jungkook ever chosen to share any information with you about his life in this realm.Â
âAre you disappointed?â The pixie in question asks, hovering close to your ear so that the rush of air from his wings tickles your ear. He flutters around to face you, before leaning in close and smiling. He hovers in the space between your eyes so that you have to go cross-eyed to focus on him. âThat thereâs no lights?â
âAyla said there wouldnât be.â Jin says, coming up to stand level with you. âI didnât want to believe her, but it looks like-â
âNot so fast,â Jungkook hastily corrects Jin, fluttering forward to hold his tiny hands over Jinâs mouth so that he canât talk anymore. âAyla was incorrect. I canât blame her, because itâs been over a thousand years since anyone has remembered the truth of this river. The lights do exist. But the plants only light up in response to a special kind of magic.âÂ
âWhat magic?â You ask, unable to hold back your curiosity. You had come all this way to see the river lights, after all. Jungkook smiles, releasing Jin so that he can flutter up to you.Â
âIâve always known you didnât listen in your tutoring classes as a child because you didnât know how I was born.â He tells you, instead of telling you what magic needs to be performed to see the lights. âPixies are born of wishes, and they come to life at this very river. And our purpose... is to see the wish that birthed us come through.âÂ
âWhat does that have to do with the river ligh-â you protest but Jungkook cuts you off.Â
âHush. Iâm getting there. Thatâs what the plants respond to. Pixie magic.â He finishes his explanation. âNot my silly illusory spells, but real, ancient, powerful pixie magic.â
âSo, to see the lights, and for (Y/N) to be able to go home, we... we have to grant whatever wish you were born to fulfill?â Jin asks, having always been a bit quicker than you to put things together. Jungkook nods, shooting two finger guns at the two of you playfully.Â
âBingo!â Jungkook cries cheerfully. âYouâre smarter than you look! Perhaps thereâs use for you yet.â
An odd feeling fills you at Jungkookâs words, however. Youâve known the pixie for a long time. Despite his best efforts to appear constantly unbothered and joking, thereâs a lot that Jungkook hides behind a smile. Like his longing to be human... his loneliness... the fact that there are hopes and dreams heâs always longed to fulfil but knows he never can. Jungkook has always hidden behind a smile and right now heâs hiding again.Â
âWhat... what are you hiding?â You ask. Jungkook looks taken aback, his eyes widening momentarily before he quickly conceals the expression.Â
âShouldnât you ask me what wish I need to grant? So that you can see the lights?â He points out. You shake your head, stepping in close, but Jungkook moves backwards, out of reach. His posture is now defensive, and you know, more certainly than ever, that Jungkook is hiding something. Why else would he not have mentioned the wish he was born to fulfil, in thirteen years of knowing you? Why is he only telling you the truth of Gebulfen now, after an entire journey travelling to see it?Â
âJungkook...â you say softly, your voice barely audible above the rush of the river. He deflates at the soft, concerned tone of your voice. You hold your hands out to them, and he lands in them.Â
âIâve always been really happy being with you, (Y/N).â Jungkook says, as you raise him so that he is eye level with you. He stretches out a hand and rests it against the tip of your nose. âWith you, Taehyung... with your mother... even with that big oaf and his family over there. Itâs been really fun. Even if I had to live in the human realm, Iâve always had friends. And I know you guys care a lot about me. So... I was never brave enough to bring up my wish. I wanted to stay with you guys, and to keep having fun. To keep learning to dance off YouTube, and to keep bringing your houseplants to life when they died... I liked stealing the cookies from your upstairs neighbour when she left the room and I liked swapping Jinâs shoes around before he left for work in the morning-â
âI knew that was you, you little twerp-â Jin cries in outrage, but you silence him with a glare before turning your attention back to Jungkook. For some reason, he suddenly seems small and fragile in your hands in a way he never really has before.Â
âI knew... a part of me was always afraid that when I granted my wish, it would be goodbye.â He confesses, and for the first time in his entire life, a tear trickles down Jungkookâs face. You can only stare in bewilderment, barely processing his words.Â
âGoodbye?â You echo. Jungkook nods, with a teary smile.Â
âI donât know what happens, to a pixie who has granted a wish. Iâve tried to research it- Iâve had Taehyung bring me back books from this realm, and Iâve studied the history. But in the entire history of this realm, of my race... thereâs no mention of what happens to us after. Thereâs no pixie settlements or communities. Thereâs no monuments to our names... thereâs nothing. Itâs like we... itâs like we vanish.â He confesses, and the tears are coming full force. âIâm so sorry, (Y/N). I should have granted this wish years ago but I was scared that I-â
âYou might die?â You fill in for him. Jungkook hesitates for a moment before nodding.Â
âI donât know.â He says. âThereâs no pixie manual. I just know that I have to grant the wish and then-â
âScrew the wish!â You cry, cutting him off. Jungkookâs eyes widen.Â
âWhat?â He asks. You release him, stepping back and gazing around the ravine.Â
âScrew the wish.â You repeat, now searching for an echo. âWhy risk your life? Why would I want you to risk your life? If you donât know what happens if you grant the wish, then weâll just never grant the wish and youâll be fine-â
â(Y/N),â Jungkook calls sternly, zooming so that heâs in front of you. âI have to grant the wish.âÂ
âWhy?â You cry, and you realise there are tears sliding down your face. Jin watches the whole exchange in silence. âWhy do you have to grant the risk? Why do we have to risk you vanishing? Why would you go that far over a stupid river?âÂ
Jungkook smiles gently, reaching up one arm to wipe away the fat tears that spill down your face- it soaks the entire arm of his jacket.Â
âIt was your fatherâs wish.â He tells you gently, still smiling the whole time.Â
You feel like the world around you freezes. Like for a moment, you heart stops beating and the world stops turning. You stare, frozen in shock, as Jungkook continues.Â
âHe came here when you were first born. Itâs a tradition for the Quâvar to journey to this river when they want to leave a message that will withstand the test of time. The river, and the unique magic that flows here, will protect it. But anyone who comes here has the river magic in them. And when those people make an earnest wish, from the bottom of their heart, then a pixie is born in this river. And your father, in his dying moments, many, many years after coming here, wished with all his heart that he could have shown you this place. That he could have shown you the message he wrote to his baby daughter. And thatâs how I was born.âÂ
âItâs not fair.â You sob, crying in full now. Jin is silent- he chooses not to step in. This isnât about him, after all. âWhy did he have to do that? Why could he have just lived and shown me himself? Why do I have to lose you too? Why canât we just never see the message and then you can stay?â
âBecause of the spell.â Jungkook reminds you. âYou canât go home until you see the dancing lights because of the charm I put on you. Do you remember?â
More tears spill down your face as you remember the spell in question. You had thought at the time, that it was Jungkook just trying to force you to get over yourself. You had believed him when he said heâd cast it so that you couldnât chicken out of something you wanted to do. But you realise now why he cast that spell- it was so that he couldnât chicken out. So that, no matter what, heâd grant his wish and get you to see that message.Â
âWeâll stay here. Jin can tell my mum what happened, and we can live out the rest of our days here!â You plead, desperate. âThen you donât have to-âÂ
â(Y/N).â Jungkook comes in close and presses on your cheek, until you are facing the cliff wall with all the inscriptions on it. Then he flutters over to the discarded torch, heaving it up in his arms with a huff, and holding it out to you. âItâs ok. Itâs really ok. I want this. Iâve had my fun with you guys, but itâs not like Iâve really been living a proper life like this. The only people I can talk to are guardians, and theyâre so scattered across the human realm. I spend my days watching YouTube videos and talking to moths and waiting for you guys to come home from work. Iâve lived this life as much as I can, but now itâs your turn. I want you to live a full and happy life, and for you to have a family and grow old in the human realm. I donât want you to be trapped here with me so that I can live half a life for the rest of your days.â
âBut,â you protest tearily. âYouâre my best friend.âÂ
âAnd youâre mine.â Jungkook says with a beam. âBut now itâs time.âÂ
And then he pushes your arm until the torch lands on an inscription with handwriting you thought youâd never see again.Â
Your father, even back then, even on stone, has always had beautiful writing, like he could have been a calligrapher if he had the time or resources. Perhaps thatâs why he wanted to leave you a written message. You step forward in disbelief until you can read the inscription, the words of the man youâve missed so much.Â
(Y/N),Â
My precious, beautiful daughter.Â
Your mother didnât want me to make this journey, but she eventually gave in because she knew how important it was to me.Â
I wonder what kind of situation weâll read these words together in? What kind of woman will you grow up to be? Will you be married with children when I finally take you here? That little Seokjin is only a toddler but heâs already charming all the ladies in the village- maybe youâll marry him! Or I hear Jihye is pregnant. Perhaps her child?Â
But the reason I wrote this is because I want you to know that no matter what happens, or what roads we walk down in the future, that I will love you and protect you with all of my heart. You are the most beautiful and precious thing I have ever laid my eyes on, and I hope you will always know that.Â
I love you. I hope that one day, even if itâs without me, that you get to see these words and know, that from before you were born, I have loved you.Â
Please, please, whatever situation you read these words in, please be happy.
From your father.Â
The inscription is rough beneath your fingers as you smooth your fingers over it. It hurts to see those words, to know the moments you can never have with your father because heâs gone. And youâll never get him back. Thereâs no magic spells or special river or pixie magic that can bring him back to you.Â
But, for the first time, you find yourself smiling. Those memories donât have to be painful. Because you fulfilled his wish- youâre happy. As you read these words, despite everything, you are happy. You have friends and family who love you and who you treasure beyond belief. And it took you a long time to realise it, but youâre so grateful. Youâll never get your father back, and youâll never fill the hole that he left, but you can be happy. You can move forward with a smile on your face because thatâs what he wanted.
Strong fingers wrap around your outstretched hand, and you turn to find Jin reading the words alongside you.Â
âHe was a good man.â Jin tells you softly, and you smile at him. Jin looks like he has more to say, but he is interrupted by the brilliant glow coming from behind you.Â
You turn around and find Jungkook hovering before you. He glows brightly amidst the darkness of the ravine, almost as brightly as the stars overhead. And slowly, the river reacts too. One by one, bursts of light in different, brilliant colours appear and race down the length of the river, like bright, shooting stars. âThe dancing riverâ, one of its many names, suddenly makes sense, as the lights zip and glide along the surface of the water.Â
âYou did it!â Jungkook cries, and his smile is brighter than anything youâve ever seen. You scramble forward, but the glow intensifies, and a brilliant light wall springs up between you and Jungkook.Â
âNo!â You cry. âPlease! Donât go, Jungkook. We still have so much to do together! Please!â
âBe happy, (Y/N).â He calls and then the light brightens until you can see nothing but pure white.Â
And then it goes dark. In the absence of light, you canât see anything before you. Jungkook is gone- heâs gone. Your best friend, your constant, pesky companion, is gone.Â
You fall to your knees, sinking into the soft, damp sand, sobbing hysterically.Â
âJungkook.â You cry, your eyes squeezed shut. âJungkook!â
Your friendship with Jungkook has always been a funny one. You first met him in the dingy room of a motel your mother had managed to book into, those first few nights in the human realm. You hadnât been able to sleep- the air was uncomfortable and dry and felt leeched of the warm, buzzing magic that had been your constant companion.
Youâd snuck out of the room that night and wondered onto the rooftop. Even the stars are dull, in the human realm, and for some reason it had hurt to see that. Youâd gazed up into the sky, tear streaming down your face when a voice had sounded beside you.
âWhat are you looking at?â The little voice had asked.
The rest is history. Youâd attempt to swat Jungkook, thinking him to be a mosquito hybrid, one of the weird creatures of this new realm. But he hadnât been. He was a pixie. And from there, Jungkook had never really left your side. At night, he would sleep on your pillow beside you. When youâd gotten your own room, youâd made a little doll house for him to sleep in, but heâd always slept by your side. He would come with you to school, nestled in your pocket. Some days heâd take some space, but it had reached the point where you can barely remember spending time without him.
And now⊠could he really be gone? How can he? What does life even look like without him? You canât fathom it.
You donât know how long you sit there crying hysterically for, but eventually you feel warm, strong arms wrap around you. It must be Jin, comforting you through the pain of losing your best friend. You bring your fingers up to grip at the material of his shirt.
â(Y/N)!â Jin cries in alarm. But itâs not coming from the proximity youâd expect, considering that heâs currently holding you. No, his voice is coming from somewhere behind you.Â
Slowly, you blink your eyes open, and the sleeves of the jacket are not the sleeves of Jinâs jacket. Nor do the arms holding you belong to him. Slowly, you trace the arms up to the shoulders, and then you meet the face of the person holding you.Â
Itâs Jungkook. But at the same time... itâs not Jungkook. Jungkook was a tiny pixie, with iridescent wings like a dragonfly. With a tiny, round face. He was the size of your hand.Â
But the person who holds you is human. There are no pixie wings in sight, and heâs the same size as you- no, heâs even bigger. He rivals Jinâs size.Â
But the face is unmistakeably Jungkook. Youâd know those round, doe eyes anywhere.Â
âJ-Jungkook?â You question softly. He pulls away and nods, staring at his palms in confusion like heâs never seen them before. âW-what happened?âÂ
âI... I donât know.â He answers, running his hands over himself. Heâs wearing the same clothes as before, and he looks exactly the same as he always has, just... human sized.Â
âI... Iâm human?âÂ
âIt must be the effect of granting the spell.â Jin calls, edging closer so that he can examine Jungkook with wonder. âMaybe... maybe the reason thereâs no record of any pixies after they grant the wishes... is because they stop being pixies?â
Jungkook can only stare in confusion.Â
âIsnât your dearest wish to be human? To be able to talk to people and make friends and form human bonds?â Jin continues to reflect. âMaybe... maybe the outcome of a pixie granting a wish... is that they get their deepest wish granted?â
Jungkook just stares with a bewildered expression, glancing over his shoulders for wings that arenât there. He then scrambles over to the edge of the river, staring in wonder at the human reflection that stares back, from the normal, rounded ear tips to the lack of wings.Â
âIâm human?â He questions. Tears fill your eyes as you realise that what Jin is saying is true.Â
âYouâre human!â You agree. âJungkook! Youâre human!âÂ
His whole face lights up in excitement.Â
âIâm human! Oh my goodness! Iâm human! I can go to dance classes! I can study in college! I can get a job! I can... I can...â his expression darkens with mischief and thatâs the only warning you get before he hooks an arm around your neck and gives you the most painful noogie of your life. âI can get my revenge.â
Needless to say, the aftermath of such a transformation is absolutely chaotic, but somehow, you canât bring yourself to be mad. Jungkook goes after Jin next, and as Jin flees for his life, you find yourself smiling, despite everything.Â
Please be happy, is what your father had pleaded, in the magic of this mystical river.Â
I am, dad. Is what you answer from the bottom of your heart in the magic of the river.Â
Because you are.Â
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Change of Plans - A Yancy x Neutral! Reader
†REBLOGS WOULD BE APPRECIATED â€
Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 MASTERLIST
Where we left off:
So much for a lie in. You slowly rose from the cocoon of warmth you had made for yourself and you felt your toes wriggle up the bed and hiss at the exposed coldness of the room. Dragging yourself out of subconsciousness, your eyes finally decided to greet the grey interior and the black-barred window that perched just out of your arms reach. Why would they put such a tiny window if they didnât want anyone to look out of it? Pretty pathetic actually. The Penitentiary really needed to repaint the bars, some of the black paint had flaked onto your pillow whilst you were sleeping.
You sat up, a little too quickly, and a cold, hard sensation hit the top of your body. Well good morning to you too World.
The unbearable ringing continued as you brought your arm down onto the squawking alarm clock. The room fell into a comfortable silence once more. 7:30am, not too bad, yet it could have been a little longer. Yet it was as if someone decided to balance a massive book on âhow to not have a headacheâ on your already sore head. Youâd ask Boggs for some paracetamol, or maybe some Ibuprofen as you tried to ponder on what did you do to deserve this...
~ Chapter 5 ~
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"I'm here to speak to Officer Boggs." You timidly spoke, playing with the hem of your shirt. The man that towered in the small door frame in front of you was the most intimidating of all: Officer Rexx.
There were rumours about him that were too obscure and dangerous to mention twice, You only happen to hear about them when you overheard a couple of prisoners talking about "the anniversary" of how he lost his previous job, whatever that meant. To be frank, you didn't want to know about whatever hell hole he wriggled out of and treaded on eggshells around him, even if you weren't speaking to him. Something about that man caused you to feel insecure about something that you couldn't point your finger at, but there was no doubt that it was there.
"Yeah, he's in here." He paused for a moment. "You're one of the newer ones around here, aren't you? I've seen you around but never had the pleasure to meet."
He stuck out his grubby hand, his sausage fingers extended shortly at you, waiting for you to touch them. You grimaced before wiping that expression off your face. Rule 1: Never acknowledge the fingers.
You stuck out your hand bravely and shook his greasy one. His strong grip tightened around your knuckles as he shook hard, almost breaking your frail fingers.
"Well, I'll just go get him. Stay there." He spat. The door firmly closed behind him, the staff room's view blocked once again. You peeped through the mesh windows and managed to decipher the blurred silhouette of the sofa and coffee counter. You backed away as the door swung open again to the familiar face of Officer Boggs, his much shorter height made you relax second by the second.
"Oh hi Y/N, shouldn't you be outside?" He asked before shutting the door behind him, leaving the both of you outside in the wide hallway.
"Well I am, but I forgot to give you this from last night." You replied, planting your hand into your pocket before pulling out the owners key. Boggs let out a chuckle as his rosy cheeks grew even merrier.
"I forgot I gave you this! I'm glad that at least someone doesn't take my naivety for granted" He continued. "I respect that about you."
He unhooked the jingling keys from his beltline and clipped the Cafertiera key on the chain. He had a proud collection of keys to his name - being a veteran member of the Prison, it did have its perks.
"Well thank you, I really appreciate that Boggs. You know, sometimes I don't feel like I fit in here myself." Sounded cliche, you internally facepalmed yourself. Normally you wouldn't be telling this to anyone, but Boggs had been there since forever so it was nice to tell at least someone your true thoughts about staying here.
"Oh now don't think like that, every prisoner when they first come in her feels like that, but don't worry, I'm sure that the others will welcome you soon. Have you tried talking to them? I know you're not the socially inclined person but give it a shot. Who knows? You might actually enjoy their company" He concluded.
When Boggs gave advice, it could go two ways: either it was incredibly awful which ended in bad decisions being drawn from it, or it could be genuinely heartwarming and sincere words of wisdom. Thankfully, this was one of those pieces.
You allowed yourself to run over the speech the superior had just given and smiled. You could spark up a conversation with Yancy, you could ask him about what that poem meant! Maybe that could be the starting point of breaking out of your introverted shell.
"Thanks Boggs, I really do appreciate you." You said, before heading off outside.
"Have fun! But not too much fun, I don't want for you to get hurt!" His yells sounded down the empty corridor.
The mid-day sun blazed down on the steaming concrete, the prisoners having that work-out glow. Yancy had rolled his short sleeves even shorter, exposing his lesser-known tattoos, and his private box was stuffed in his trouser leg conveniently, away from the guard's view. If anyone found out what was in this box..well, it would ruin him.
Racing became tiresome after a couple of hours so the prisoners resorted to lazily running laps around the small quarter, this included the songbird himself.
"I tell's ya T, you wanna stop off for a few minutes? this box is gettin' uncomfortable." He protested, shifting his weight from one foot to another, finding a comfortable spot in his trouser leg.
"Why, you chickening out? Scared that someone will beat your record?" T retorted.
The prisoners slowed to a stop. Yancy regrettably paused his track game and attempted to get his ragged breath back.
"No ya dingus, it's 'cause dis box is scratchin' my skin off! I swear I's bleedin' down my shin by now."
Tiny's retort turned into concern as they pulled over to the side of the quarter. Once out of sight, Yancy slowly rolled his trouser leg up to his shin and took out the small, worn-out box from the bottom of his leg.
"Your leg hasn't been sawed off Yance, but you sure you need to keep it there? You could hurt yourself."
Yancy chortled shortly, not willing to admit that his friend was right. After what happened last time, he was going to learn from his mistakes. He rubbed his fading ankle bruise as he remembered the time he stayed in the medical ward. But the question was: where was he going put the little thing?
His eyes scanned the usual nooks and crannies that he had hid stuff in before, but word somehow got out and now everyone was using them for their secret stashes. Great - so much for having the upper hand.
His eyes continued to look for somewhere to stuff the thing until his ears pricked up on the outside door swinging open. His frustrated face broke into a smile as he saw you walk out timidly, and perching on a weight bench.
"Here, can youse hang on to it for a hot minute, just don't open it alight," He said, his curious eyes never leaving your sight.
Tiny was startled. The Boss never let them hold anything of his, let alone the one thing he persistently never left out of his sight. Tiny slipped the matchbox into their shoe before taking a squat down the brick wall as they watched their mate stride over to the newbie, but chose not to follow suit.
You picked at the seat cushion like it was the most interesting thing ever to you, whilst plucking up the courage to go and talk to the most confident person out here. Your eyes managed to look up. partially blinded from the sun but saw the small huddles of prisoners near the water pitches, walking around, or down by the blind spot. Guards stood at every entrance broadly, letting people in and out of the area, their moist uniforms made you wonder how the hell they managed to keep composure in this heat.
Your moment abruptly came as you saw the man of the hour coming towards you, his wide shoulders fully exposed to the heats rays. You knew he worked but w-w-wow.
"Finally decided to join in the fun eh?" He sprung up the conversation.
Chuckling, you look down, embarrassed and in amusement "And I'm guessing that this is the newest trouser look. Is this asymmetric chic? or is this just you trying to use illusion to become taller?" You threw a double whammy at him.
Yancy's shocked eyes bored into your own mischievous ones for a brisk moment. Suddenly, he exaggeratedly placed a hand on his chest before crumbling to the grass floor. "Oh de pain! I can't bear it anymore! Not another short joke!"
Other people around the quarter edge were starting to laugh along with his flailing and happily applauded when he finished his piece. The cheering and jeering died down as the conversation drifted back to normal, as Yancy dragged his trouser leg down and sidled up next to you and he bumped his hard shoulder next to yours.
"What a Drama Queen." You continued, letting out a small smile.
"What can I's say, I got's to get ma training in somewhere." He replied "So how's it been with you? Finish dat book yet?"
It was as if he read your mind! The topic of the poetry book caught your attention as you chipped away at your social shell. "Uh, not yet, but I did want to ask you a couple of questions about poem 19. You know, the one you recommended I read?"
The prisoner stretched his arms and placed them behind himself. "Oh yeah! It's one of ma favourites! I personally thinks its about de good and bad sides to love and once you've actually caught feelings for someone, it pains you to do things dat even surprise yaself. Youse got me?"
You would have never known that Yancy had a passion for literature, just listening to him made you even more dedicated to spending time with him. Boggs was right with his advice, it didn't bruise your ego that bad to socialise with new people, as it made you question what other things the man had up it sleeve - or trouser leg.
You rephrased yourself, "Ok then Yance, do you read poems often then?" your feet started to dance around the grassy floor, flattening pieces of green.
"So do you analyse poems often then Yancy?"
The man interrupted you "Oh please, call me Yance, only the big dog calls me Yancy."
"I used to when I was a youngin', my family hads a nice library ya see. Dey's had Shakespeare, Jane Austen, and some oder authors I can't remember but when youse a fabulous actor like myself, you gotta keep up ya noggin' in check." He smiled and looked out onto the busy area, almost reminiscing about his past life.
He never liked to bring up the subject of his past but when Yacny was with you, it felt- right. To finally talk about childhood memories and just laugh about them, instead of it always being dragged back to the soul reason why he was locked up at Happy Trails in the first place.
His strong arm planted on the side of your small shoulder as he gave you a tight squeeze. "How about youse? Do you read?"
"I-Uh... I"
Words formed in your mouth, yet your tongue was on holiday, not responding to any sentence your brain was throwing at you. Butterflies were born in your stomach as your face started to feel warm, too warm for your liking. What was happening? Were you having sunstroke!?
"Youse ok? Ya looking a little warm d'ere" Yancy said, dropping his arm from your side. "Youse want me to go grab you some water?"
This signalled your tongue to finally come back to work. "Oh. No, I'm fine thanks and yeah, I read, that's what I was going to ask about you actually." You said, forcing confidence.
"No way! Heh, I guess great minds think alike huh?" He replied, grinning his addicting smile. He looked over to where he left Tiny and an idea sprung in his scheming mind. "Hey, youse wanna come over to the wall, I got's a friend who you could meet. I mean, only if you wanna?" Yancy laughed, trying to sweetly coax you deeper into socialisation.
You hesitated. This man sure was alluring, but risking another episode like that caused you to reconsider. You bit your bottom lip, slightly, your eyebrows became sewn together as you weighted up your options. Either go over and run your social battery out completely, or decline and recover from this moment.
"Thanks Yance, but I think I'm done for the day." You responded. "All this talking and warm heat" and maybe some other things "has made my head spin a little."
"Ok, well if youse's sure." Yancy stood up once more and punched your shoulder "See you around Keys!"
You saw him walk back to his mate and sit down together under the shade of the building. You blissfully made your way back inside of Happy Trails, back with you and your own thoughts.
Its blasting air conditioner made your arms tingle as you pulled out a chair in the Cafeteria and went to reach for the poetry book. The silence hung much thicker in the air as you sat uncomfortably. Is this what withdrawal felt like? To be isolated not a minute after being surrounded by people. You kind of missed the feeling of having someone to talk to, but everyone had their boundaries - even you. You tried not to linger on the thought of feeling like you let Yancy down. He gave you the opportunity to help you overcome your fears but you didn't take it. Maybe next time you would take it, but for now, you did something new today: You should be proud of yourself.
You scanned around at the empty chairs and tables, the occasional guard whistling by the Cafeteria's door frame before you brought your head to the window. Your eyes soon spotted Yancy sashaying around with his friend. They must have said something funny because he soon showed his pearly whites, his chest rising and falling as his strong hand clutched his chest. Your eyes couldn't tear themselves away from this scene. The jailbird was the only person who actually tried with you. Smiling to yourself, you looked back up and your breath hitched. He was looking directly back at you and giving you a small wave. His smaller companion followed suit, shooting their hand straight up, frantically joining in. You sheepishly waved back before opening the book from you left off.
"Missed me Y/N?"
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Is this really better?
A/N: After many requests for a part 2, here it is! Iâm sorry I made you all wait so long for more heartbreak but gotta keep yâall on ya toes ;) Before you kill me, take comfort in knowing the final part is in the works. I like sad endings, but I wonât do that to yâall...this time.Â
Also, the class 1-A girls really rep the âchicks before dicksâ motto (as all women should). I remember I had to tell my friends to chill when I told them an ex of mine cheated on me. We made up half the class and I wasnât trying to see anyone cry. It was deep, but it wasnât that deepđ So that part is a bit of an anecdote.Â
As always, enjoy sugar plums đ€
Paring: Sero X Fem!Reader
Warning: cursing, angstÂ
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3
Is this really better?
The second you stepped out of Seroâs room, there was this relentless buzzing in your ears, filling your head with noise that made your head pound. You could tell someoneâmaybe Kaminari? Or was that Ojiro? You couldnât fucking seeâwas trying to ask you what happened, your tears were thick. Forget hearing him.
All that you could do was walk. Your body had gone into autopilot, itâs only mission to get you out of his proximity, without raising alarm, as quick as humanly possible.
You didnât know how or when, but soon enough, you threw open the door to the girlsâ dorms. It was only 8:00pm, just before Aizawa would preform room checks, so the common room had been cleared to give him the impression everyone was tucked away in bed. It was a blessing. You bolted towards your room, desperate to shove your head under the covers and cry until you couldnât.
Nearly five sprints down the hallway, you ran into Momo and Mina. The two had just come back from their shower and were talking about the movie the some of the girls were supposed to have later that night. However, they were startled when they saw you stumble back, tears drowning your cheeks.
âY/N! Girl, whatâs wrong!?â Mina asked, quick to hold your arm.
You shook your head, attempting an embarrassingly pathetic smile. âN-nothing. Iâm good. Iâm justââ
âYouâre obviously not,â Momo interrupted, brows furrowing in worry. She took your hand from your eyes, so you had no choice but to leave your face bare. âDidnât you have a date with Sero? Did something happen?â
The trembling of your lips told them everything they needed to know.
âSeroâSero and Iâ"
The mere mention of his name threw you back to the past hour. Now that the buzzing had stopped, you were forced to think of everything that transpired.
Being excited about your date with Sero. Getting ready for your date with Sero. Waiting for Sero. Sero not showing up. Going to Seroâs room. Fighting with Sero. Breaking up with Sero. Sero. Sero. Sero.
Everything that had been built up came crashing down.
Your friends immediately took you into their arms when you crumbled, sobbing into their embrace as your feelings poured out. For a while, you had been so scared that he was losing interestâthat school and life had increased his disinterest with you. And when he so quickly, so confidentially, agreed to break up with you, you felt your worst fears come to life. It hurt too much to think about it, so you let your heartbreak fill the air as you wept.
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For the weekend, you kept to yourself. You only came out when needed. News of the root of your recent behavior got around to the all the 1-A girls and they were determined to keep you as healthy and supported as possible while respecting your wish for space. You were very thankful for them. You didnât know what you would have done without their friendship. Â
When Monday came around, the girls were hyping you up. It would be the first time seeing Sero since the breakup. You knew you looked horrible. Your eyes were swollen, your hair was barely put together, and you looked like you rolled out bed. Because you did. But you appreciated their efforts. Nevertheless, there was something you needed to address before class started. Â
âThanks everyone. But, could I ask yâall a favor?â
âSure!â
âWhatever you need!â
You scratch the back of your neck. âI donât want to start anything. I just wanna get through the day. So, maybe just act normal when he comes around, yeah?â
Everyone looked at Mina. She felt cornered.
âWhat!? It was one death threat!â
The stares get judgmental and she rolls her eyes.
âFine, ugh. Iâll beâŠcivil,â she sighs.
âThank you,â you said, giving a small smile. You really did have the best friends.
Not too long after, you heard Seroâs laugh before you saw him. You quickly looked away from the entrance. Luckily, Ochaco was there with a distracting conversion. Â
Sero walked in with Kirishima and Kaminari beside him. The trio giggled at whatever dumb joke the blonde cracked. However, he was brought out of his laughter when he saw you. Thinking about the guilt in his chest coupled with the agony of seeing you soâŠmiserable made his heart flare. And not in a good way.
He tried to smile at you, holding onto the tiny ray of hope that maybe you didnât completely hate his guts, but it was cut off as Jirou conveniently stepped in his line of sight, blocking you from his vision.
He wilted, blinking back the sting in his eyes.
Kirishima patted his back in comfort. âItâs okay, man. Weâve got you.â
âIf it helps, I think theyâre mad at all of us. On Sunday, Bakugo tried to ask Mina for his water bottle back and she made Ochako text Midoriya to give it to him. Midoriya bro,â Kaminari said. âHe was pissed.â
Sero frowned. âDidnât think it was possible, but now I feel worse.â
Kirishima punched the blondeâs shoulder.
That was how the day went.
You and Sero ignored each other. Your friends would keep you too distracted. It was hard to deal with and there was awkward tension during homeroom. It was like everyone was walking on eggshells with one another. It didnât help that Todorokiâas dense as he wasâasked Momo why you two had been avoiding each other. To make matters worse, you two were within earshot.
It was the first time Momo ever scolded him. He decided to mind his business after that. He didnât like feeling like an asshole. Midoriya told him it a good lesson into recognizing social cues.
There was also that one time Bakugo confronted you in the hallway and went on a rant about how you and âsoy sauceâsâ misery was âfucking distracting.â You were so caught off guard that you didnât have time to defend yourself before an angry cloud of pink got in his face.
Minaâs speech started with, âHow dare youââ and ended with, âYou insensitive son of a bitch.â
It was also Bakugoâs first in feeling like an asshole. He made the intelligent decision to walk away.
That happened on Tuesday. It was only Wednesday, when you and Sero unintentionally and unanimously exchanged quick, close-lipped, smiles just so your classmates didnât kill each other. It was uncomfortable and painful, but it was more of a relief to feel the tension in the room subsideâif only a little bit.
For the rest of the week, you two tried to be civil. You were to your own devices. Sero thought you looked well on your way to moving on. If he didnât know any better, you kind of looked happier. More than you had been in a while. A week passed and your eyes stopped swelling. You started putting make up on again and you laughed. You actually laughed.
Maybe Sero did feel hurt that you looked like you were moving on so quickly. And yes, maybe he spent some nights locking himself in his room so he could cry over how stupid he felt for ever letting himself hurt you. Had you always been miserable because of him? Of course, the constant weight in his chest was suffocating to the point that even looking at you made him feel like heâd pass out.
But damn it if your laugh wasnât the sweetest sound.
If it meant losing his smile, if meant feeling heartache, and if it meant dealing with the fact that heâd never get to kiss you again, then this was for the best
...
At least, thatâs what he thought until he came back from his internship to see you on the bench outside of the dorm building. It was late and dark, but the moon was bright enough to cover your skin in a soft creamy glow. It made his heart flutter.Â
It was also light enough for him to see the tears in your eyes.
The voice inside his head, his common sense, was telling him to haul his ass in the dorm and leave you alone. He was probably the last person you wanted to see, justifiably. However, itâd be the first time he left you alone to cry. And, that didnât sit well in his spirit.
Thatâs how he found himself by the bench, startling you with a soft, âHey.â
He watched a tear fall and chose to ignore it as you wiped it away.
âUh, hi?â you replied, voice stuffy with tears.
What are you doing? What are you doing? What are you doing?
Sero couldnât look away from you, no matter how bad the tension felt. Your hair texture, the richness of your skin, the unique curve of your lips, the laugh lines on your cheek, the shape of your eyes, the little scar by your templeâŠGod, have you always been this beautiful? Why did he let you go like that?
âI, um, just came back from my internship and umââ you just love sounding like a fucking idiot, donât you? ââyou looked cold. Here, take my jacket,â he whispered, like he was out of breath.
Thank God he was actually wearing one. Sero quickly took off his coat and was about to put it around your shouldersâlike he had always done.
But you held up a hand. âItâs okay. Iâm fine,â you said.
Of course, he could tell you were uncomfortable by the dip in your voice. Call it denial or plain stupidity, but Sero couldnât accept your words. He saw the goosebumps on your legs. Now, whether that was from the breeze or something else, he didnât know.
âDonât be silly,â his smile was disarming. âTake it. Itâs like 50-something degrees.â
âThank you, but Iâm okay.â
Just back away, Sero.
âYou know you can just give it to me tomorrowââ
âSero.â
What are you doing!?
âI really think you should take itââ
âI really donât think I shouldââ
Dude!
âIf youâre worried about returning itââ
âLike, I saidââ
âYou can just give it to Minaââ
âIââ
âAndââ
âHanta!!â
Suddenly, he resurfaced. Sero was back in reality, his jacket still in his arms. He blinked, finding the desperation in your watery eyes as you stared back.
What the hell are you doing?
âPlease, justâŠstop,â you whispered. You looked away in fear heâd see the tears falling down your face. âStop acting like you care.â
There was a pregnant pause before the black-haired hero took a step back, hair shadowing his gaze.
âIâm sorry,â he finally said. His voice was almost carried by the breeze because it was so soft. âI didnât mean to overstep my boundariesâ
You shook your head, still looking away. âItâs fine.â
You just wanted him to leave. So, thatâs what he did.
Sero, quietly led himself up the front steps. When his fingers touched the doorknob, he paused.
âY/N,â he said, one last time.
You looked back, frustrated over his persistence. âWhat?â you bit.
What you saw made your eyes widen. Sero let his own tears freely fall. But that wasnât what made your heart stop. No. It was the wide, triangular, smile that accompanied it. Despite the sorrow in his eyes, his smile shined bright and genuine beneath them.
âIt canât be an act if I never stopped.â
With that, he disappeared behind the door, leaving you with nothing but his words.
You buried your face in your hands and cried.
#sero hanta#sero x reader#sero hanta x reader#mha imagines#bnha imagines#mha x poc!reader#mha x reader#bnha x reader#bnha x poc!reader#honorable mentions:#momo#mina#bakugo#kaminari#ochaco#class 1-a is invested#they are quite sad to see their ship sink but#it is what it is#todoroki#i might have bullied todoroki and bakugo a little bit#but it was in good fun#i love them#i promise
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