#my dsmp thoughts

[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

Nonononono you don’t. you don’t get it. Hear. Listen to me. Please. Just listen to me please.

Tommy never had a sheep before Ghostbur, he has never owned a sheep on DSMP. And Ghostbur had a sheep, he had a Very Good sheep named Friend, and Ghostbur loved Friend so very much, and he took care of Friend and when he died, Tommy tried to take care of Friend, and it didn’t work and Friend died, and then later Friend died again because he was sent to be with Ghostbur.

And now Tommy has a sheep all his own. and I’m just. I am just. Thinks about love & thinks about grief & thinks about aching & thinks about missing someone & thinks about sheep & thinks about love & thinks about friendship & thinks about brotherhood. Tommy has a sheep now, and he gets to take care of this sheep and love her, and Ghostbur isn’t coming back and Friend isn’t coming back and the grief will not go away, but hey. Tommy gets to love this sheep. He gets to love her and care for her and keep her safe. And I don’t know. Thinks about grief. Thinks about healing. Thinks about love.

[ozymandian-hymn]

mercy, mèrci

[linktoo-doodles]

clingyduo lore swap okay sorry

[eggsplice]

whyd you have to do all that man

[jubmato]

i cannot stop drawing ctommy girl HELP

based on

[infizero-draws]

guess who had a dsmp relapse again

[diooni]

Curious about what kind of hybrid your cDream is because he looks really cool and I was curious about what he is :3

Ooh! Nice question! I was actually recently working that out more. And i have this whole story in my head which i can’t get down fully coherently but—

I’d say my c!dream is a close to a shapeshifter demon (Dreamon as i like to call it sometimes).

But he has a curse on him by the revival book where he gets more and more corrupted the more he uses it. Also causing him to have some unbalanced control over his looks.

[noxious-fennec]

Watch it man you got a kid on board

[beelittle]

Uhh wip I’ll probably never finish? +thumbnails

Might post full thing later, might try the sunset idea… who knows

[hitracks]

He deserved to be a lnv member …

[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

Really underrated moment of DSMP is when Tommy tells the story of L’manburg + Pogtopia to Ghostbur.

It was the day before Tommy was exiled, and Tommy—nervous about what could happen and desperate to win Tubbo over—roped together a small group of people to help him craft a Drug to give to Tubbo, as a gift. Ghostbur was one of those people, and as Tommy rowed the two of them in a boat over to where they needed to be, Tommy told Ghostbur a story. Tommy made it sound almost fairytale-ish; he knew Ghostbur struggled to hold onto information, so he made the story sound fanciful and almost childish, because he wanted Ghostbur to take it in. Tommy didn’t even use the words “L’manburg” “Tommy” “Wilbur” or anything else that would give away Exactly What Story He Was Telling; instead he was making it sound like just a story. Not history, necessarily, but a story. That’s what Tommy thought would help Ghostbur understand better.

Minutes go by, and as soon as Tommy finally finishes his story, Ghostbur immediately says, “that sounds like the story of L’manburg.”

And Tommy stops, and says, “oh” because he hadn’t expected that, had he? He thought that Ghostbur couldn’t understand things like that. He even started to say as much, before Ghostbur interrupted him, saying, “I’m not stupid.”

Ghostbur then further explained exactly what he struggled to remember (bad things) but that he remembers and can understand other things extremely well, and is in fact familiar with a large portion of L’manburg’s story.

I find this moment very interesting for a lot of reasons. It’s insightful to hear Tommy tell the story, and hear how he himself views a lot of the events in the server’s history, and it’s incredibly fascinating to listen to his & Ghostbur’s exchange once the story is finished. Tommy told the story because he misunderstood Ghostbur’s memory issues/ability to understand & process information, and it ended up making Ghostbur feel like Tommy was speaking down to him, or treating him as if he was dumb or stupid. Tommy wasn’t trying to be mean, he wasn’t trying to make Ghostbur feel bad, but that’s what ended up happening. And instead of getting angry about this, Ghostbur instead helped Tommy understand that he can hold onto memories, he can hold onto information, he can learn and he can take things in and he can remember. He’s not stupid.

I think this is one of my favorite interactions between Ghostbur & Tommy. The communication and care they have for each other is insane, and honestly rare in media. Their friendship is in my opinion one of the best friendships in the whole series, and it’s a shame that it’s not talked about super often.

[utahlive]

Have you cleaned your room yet? Shit looks nasty tbh.

Thank you for your question, viewer!

[transcript below]

Anonymous Caller:

Have you cleaned your room yet? Shit looks nasty tbh.

Wilbur Soot:

some of my posters had water damage so I took them down

[linktoo-doodles]

running a nation at 17 is crippling and you were never ready for it but there's another federal meeting in 5 minutes and now's not the time to show any weakness

[finalherrschers]

what if...what if the nuke went to the prison. what if tommy didnt die. what if it ended the way they wanted but they knew it wasnt right.

[hearts4lilith]

currently thinking about how tommy said that ctommy waking up underwater every day in exile was a metaphor for his mental health, and that the further and further out to sea he got and the further he was sinking the more deteriorated he became and eventually he would end up unable to resurface had they not done something about cdream.

currently thinking about how if ctommy couldn't resurface, he'd drown in his own thoughts, believing his friends and family all hated him. nobody would see the kid they once knew in him anymore. maybe he'd never be seen again at all.

currently thinking about how ctommy saw one anxious, forgetful enderman lad, roped him into a crime, and took 100% of the fall when they didn't get away with it. ctommy could have ignored the situation. he didnt have to go to ctubbo and say "it was just me, man". as cranboo said, he could have said it was all him. there was evidence it was him.

but i think that after everything, ctommy would still be unable to live with himself if it'd been cranboo in exile instead of him. on the surface, he's a child. a soldier and a veteran and a criminal, yes, but still a child.

but beneath that, he's learnt. he's decided he'd rather throw himself into trouble than let his friends go through any amount of suffering.

i think that if cranboo were to ask, "why did you do that?" ctommy would sigh, that familiar shaky sigh we all know, and he'd speak quietly in reply, "i know what some of those bastards are capable of. i'd rather go through all that than have you do it for me. plus, it wasn't your fault."

or maybe that's just me.

[charlybvnny]

Michael's final moment

A Michael_Beloved animatic about his final moments, because he is an underappreciated character, and has so much potential.

A ramble about him under cut.

TWs:

- bugs

- bones

- talk of death and decay

- I think there is a slight flash but I'm unsure? So flashing warning just in case

michael is an underated npc / character and people should utilise his dynamic more often. i will explain:

he's stuck, he has nothing to do, nothing he can do. because he's an npc, his life will never begin because he's not living. people overlook him and don't pay him mind, his own parents don't pay attention to him. it's not that they don't love him, they do, they just don't have the time nor ability to look after him, atleast not properly.

people treat him more like a glorified pet because he is still an npc, no one should, realistically, love him like a son, at most he is a pet. but he's one of, if not the only, npc on the dsmp that is canonically considered a son, not a pet. shroud is technically a pet, yoghurt is i think considered fundy's son? but if you check on the wiki, michael is the only one of actual listing and not just an addition of another. michael is his own person, and yet is still an npc. he can't do anything, and yet is his own someone. he is someone, not someone's addition. he's not tubbo's son, or ranboo's son, he is michael.

and yet he's still stuck in his room. still stuck having to go along with other people's wills. because he is code. he can't do anything but follow his code.

and so with the charactarization of michael, making him his own person, it allows him the ability to think, yet not do. "i think therefore i am" and yet he can't think. not actually. he still has to follow his code. if you hit him, he must attack back, its in the code. so you can characterize and personalise michael all you want, give him hopes, and dreams, give him depth, but in the end, he is an npc. he can't leave his room, he can't make friends, he can't go explore. he is stuck in his room. just like how rapunzel is stuck in the tower.

in this essay i will explain why michael's song is "when will my life begin"-

[shots fired i bleed out as someone drags my body away]

Ok but in actuality, the rotting aspect of Michael is so great for potential in fics;

michael can be used in fics and i'm heartbroken people don't. see, michael is a zombie piglin, he is quite literally rotting. he is a sick, dying child of neglect and no one uses this to their advantage. do no fic writers see the potential devestating catastrophe of michael? how angsty it could be if he's used right?

I like Michael, can you tell 🥺

And you don't even need him to be a piglin in fics either, he could be a dying plant, or an injured yet beloved pet. He has potential please people listen to me 😭🙏

You can make him disability rep, please I love disabled characters in fics (if done right) and there's so much potential here.

I was messaging my friends while making this too, and I was shattering their very souls with my angst, and the thing is, you can shatter your friend's souls with angst too! Please use Michael, even if he's just a side character in your fic, if you got Tubbo, or Ranboo, please include Michael in some form, like a melted candle, or a torn doodle.

Anyways continuing on with angst!

They say the eyes are the route to the soul, and I like to think piglins only die when their souls are damaged. Only when their light fades.

Michael's usually twinkling eyes, now dull and a sullen blue, holding nothing but pure sorrow, and childish hope now shattered. His parents aren't coming. No one is coming. He's going to die alone. He's going to die, without embracing his parents one last time.

His body so decayed and rotten his ribs are fully out, spiders finding a new home where his once beating heart of love was, and yet he allows them to stay, allowing the bugs to feast on his carcass, because it's something. It's another being simply touching him. And so he lets the bugs eat his dying self, because at least it's something, a distressing comfort to accompany his final moments.

He's not alone. Not yet. It's fine. He's not alone. He won't die alone.. he thinks with his last thoughts, salty tears prickling his eye as he tries to comfort himself, just as his parents would if they were here.

I hope you cry, I hope you sob, I hope those silvery drops of sorrow prick your eyes and roll down your cheeks. If you are angry at me, perhaps you should scream into the bottomless pit of my soul, maybe a shard of guilt might scream back one day. Today's not the day though.