#my dsmp thoughts

[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

Nonononono you don’t. you don’t get it. Hear. Listen to me. Please. Just listen to me please.

Tommy never had a sheep before Ghostbur, he has never owned a sheep on DSMP. And Ghostbur had a sheep, he had a Very Good sheep named Friend, and Ghostbur loved Friend so very much, and he took care of Friend and when he died, Tommy tried to take care of Friend, and it didn’t work and Friend died, and then later Friend died again because he was sent to be with Ghostbur.

And now Tommy has a sheep all his own. and I’m just. I am just. Thinks about love & thinks about grief & thinks about aching & thinks about missing someone & thinks about sheep & thinks about love & thinks about friendship & thinks about brotherhood. Tommy has a sheep now, and he gets to take care of this sheep and love her, and Ghostbur isn’t coming back and Friend isn’t coming back and the grief will not go away, but hey. Tommy gets to love this sheep. He gets to love her and care for her and keep her safe. And I don’t know. Thinks about grief. Thinks about healing. Thinks about love.

[saint-hymn]

mercy, mèrci

[linktoo-doodles]

clingyduo lore swap okay sorry

[sorayep]

i will die your daughter

i will, i will die your daughter

[pawsomeraccoon]

extremely rare to see ctommy angst from me ik… can u believe it? wowie zowie.

[infizero-draws]

guess who had a dsmp relapse again

[pigeonstab]

Target audience: me

most threatening blob this side of the smp

[the-blaze-empress]

does anyone remember my steven universe au? because boy oh boy i sure do. have a technoblade. yes his sword is colour picked from a nether star

[eggsplice]

whyd you have to do all that man

[stemms]

I believe that c!Tommy’s kleptomania is one of the most fascinating and heartbreaking parts of his personality, as it adds layers to his character, and explains certain parts of the lore that some people seem to consider a simple bad habit and display of his childishness. I would like to elaborate on that further and explore the way it changed in the exile arc.

To begin with, c!Tommy has been suffering from kleptomania ever since s1, but contrary to popular belief, he had no malicious intentions. From the very beginning of the server, he was already severely traumatised to the point of having PTSD and lacked self-worth. So, understandably enough, he was craving something to make up for his self-hatred, and robbery became that thing. c!Tommy would mostly steal insignificant things because what truly mattered was the amount of things he possessed, not their value or rarity. After all, if he had a large number of objects in his possession, it meant that he was worthy, and nothing else truly mattered.

Since the very beginning of exile, despite his need to acquire items to stabilise his extreme self-hatred, c!Tommy adamantly refused to accept anything from his visitors because he couldn’t help but assume that the gifts in question were “pity items”, and being pitied was one of the things he hated the most. As his exile went on, the belief that no one cared enough to offer him a gift out of genuine care, only grew stronger due to c!Dream’s manipulation, c!Tommy’s severe loneliness, and the heartbreak of the Beach Party. However, with time, the blond has grown to trust someone other than c!Dream — c!Ranboo. Eventually, he allowed the enderman hybrid to offer him things, as long as he promised that his gifts came from the heart. As much as c!Tommy attempted to hide his true feelings, he cherished every single object received from c!Ranboo. These weren’t just objects, like the ones he’d often steal from people to feel worthy — these served as a reminder that there was something to live for, and at least, someone other than c!Dream genuinely cared about him.

Considering that c!Dream has been obsessed with c!Tommy ever since s1 (which included living in his walls and stalking him) and used his kleptomania and “destructive nature” as an argument to get him exiled from L’Manberg, he certainly was aware of the boy’s insecurity, and was looking forward to exploiting it to the fullest to break- no, shatter him :)

The daily routine of discarding his objects hurt c!Tommy far more than we could’ve imagined, because if we keep his deep self-hatred in mind, he didn’t simply find it upsetting due to being stuck in the cycle of obtaining and destroying his items — it was something more than that. Every lost item equaled a tiny shard of c!Tommy’s self-worth, and soon enough, there was almost Nothing left; he was nothing but an empty shell.

Understandably enough, with time, the teenager has grown to believe that he wasn’t worthy to possess anything valuable of his own — he was meant to earn every little thing, and his best friend tormentor couldn’t be more pleased :) :) :)

[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

Really underrated moment of DSMP is when Tommy tells the story of L’manburg + Pogtopia to Ghostbur.

It was the day before Tommy was exiled, and Tommy—nervous about what could happen and desperate to win Tubbo over—roped together a small group of people to help him craft a Drug to give to Tubbo, as a gift. Ghostbur was one of those people, and as Tommy rowed the two of them in a boat over to where they needed to be, Tommy told Ghostbur a story. Tommy made it sound almost fairytale-ish; he knew Ghostbur struggled to hold onto information, so he made the story sound fanciful and almost childish, because he wanted Ghostbur to take it in. Tommy didn’t even use the words “L’manburg” “Tommy” “Wilbur” or anything else that would give away Exactly What Story He Was Telling; instead he was making it sound like just a story. Not history, necessarily, but a story. That’s what Tommy thought would help Ghostbur understand better.

Minutes go by, and as soon as Tommy finally finishes his story, Ghostbur immediately says, “that sounds like the story of L’manburg.”

And Tommy stops, and says, “oh” because he hadn’t expected that, had he? He thought that Ghostbur couldn’t understand things like that. He even started to say as much, before Ghostbur interrupted him, saying, “I’m not stupid.”

Ghostbur then further explained exactly what he struggled to remember (bad things) but that he remembers and can understand other things extremely well, and is in fact familiar with a large portion of L’manburg’s story.

I find this moment very interesting for a lot of reasons. It’s insightful to hear Tommy tell the story, and hear how he himself views a lot of the events in the server’s history, and it’s incredibly fascinating to listen to his & Ghostbur’s exchange once the story is finished. Tommy told the story because he misunderstood Ghostbur’s memory issues/ability to understand & process information, and it ended up making Ghostbur feel like Tommy was speaking down to him, or treating him as if he was dumb or stupid. Tommy wasn’t trying to be mean, he wasn’t trying to make Ghostbur feel bad, but that’s what ended up happening. And instead of getting angry about this, Ghostbur instead helped Tommy understand that he can hold onto memories, he can hold onto information, he can learn and he can take things in and he can remember. He’s not stupid.

I think this is one of my favorite interactions between Ghostbur & Tommy. The communication and care they have for each other is insane, and honestly rare in media. Their friendship is in my opinion one of the best friendships in the whole series, and it’s a shame that it’s not talked about super often.

[jubmato]

i cannot stop drawing ctommy girl HELP

based on

[spoopdeedoop]

getting bacckk into the swing of things hopefully. little cran animation test

[linktoo-doodles]

running a nation at 17 is crippling and you were never ready for it but there's another federal meeting in 5 minutes and now's not the time to show any weakness

[nomsfaultau]

I just had a nightmare as Techno facing down the butcher army but instead there was like thirty people. Obviously as Techno I had a million preparations and contingencies, but each one unraveled and gave way. And yet the light panic only fully turned to fear when Tommy revealed how much Carl meant, since the butcher army wouldn’t have known otherwise. That stabbing betrayal and terror as Carl thrashed in fear but was brought to heel. They killed Philza right in front of me.

So, I think I just got one of ctechno’s ptsd nightmares???

[diooni]

Curious about what kind of hybrid your cDream is because he looks really cool and I was curious about what he is :3

Ooh! Nice question! I was actually recently working that out more. And i have this whole story in my head which i can’t get down fully coherently but—

I’d say my c!dream is a close to a shapeshifter demon (Dreamon as i like to call it sometimes).

But he has a curse on him by the revival book where he gets more and more corrupted the more he uses it. Also causing him to have some unbalanced control over his looks.