#my disability is unknown

[goblin-named-sam]

Journey to Dorito Body pt. 10

3/11/24

Soooooo, it's been a week but I have a good reason! I had a medical procedure that fucked up my energy levels and all my routines and I'm just on getting back to normal and that includes exercising again. And I'll be honest...it didn't go great.

It STARTED great cuz my arms are bigger! I noticed and was like "fuck yeah let's go make them BIGGER" but I made a few mistakes that made this workout not go well.

One, I had just had a big meal so I now feel like if I burp the wrong way I'll puke which just so nice /sarcasm.

Two, it was during the day so someone else came in in the middle of my workout so I finished early which never feels good.

Three, I hadn't worked out FOR A WEEK yet I didn't pace myself like I was coming back. I expected too much from myself. Again my weight didn't go down but my energy levels TANKED. I literally had a cataplexy episode the second I sat down.

Four I did squats to failure and yeah my knees had none of that. Multipe full buckles on both sides on my post gym walk. So maybe don't over work your weak joints, dumbass.

So yeah basically my disability and my own too high expectations made this workout not great but I still did it. I've restarted my routine and that's what's important.

Also fucking look!

Look! They're bigger!...not by a lot but bigger! I'm really happy! Not fucking bad for my disabled ass. Now imma pass out. I have no real choice in the matter. The rest of my day will have to wait.

[feelingthemode]

disability pride month userboxes part 5/5

posted these on insta throughout the month :3

[b-blushes]

thursday quest - no physical therapy today - make and eat lunch sooooo early but i can do it!!!!! - get ready for wedding - attend wedding! yay! (: - decompress well when i get home <3

[camille-lachenille]

Me: So, I have these dizzy spells that take me when I am walking and I almost fall bc of them. I also have trouble standing for any period of time because of my poor balance, which is made worse by the above mentioned dizzy spells.

My doctor: have you considered sitting down when this happens?

Me: Gee, thank you Sherlock! I really never thought that sitting down could solve my problem with standing up. But did you hear the part where I told you I kind of like walking and the point is for me to still be able to go out of the house for more than 1 hour at a time?

[fellow-queer-birdguy]

Walked just a little bit today and my hip started hurting like hell. I literally fell to the floor when standing up because my hip gave out. It feels like it's getting worse. It hurts really bad, probably can't walk to school tomorrow (yay, I hate school)

[loveyourhate]

clan snapshot--- THERE ARE SO MANY BABIES!!

[camellia-thea]

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[cookie-waffle]

I think something a lot of ppl who are anti self-diagnosis don’t realize is that:

1: it is EXTREMELY hard to get diagnosed with autism or a learning disability as an adult. And some insurances will flat out refuse to do it. If you were not diagnosed with autism as a child, you will most likely never get the opportunity to be tested as an adult. And even if you do get that opportunity, you still have to pray that the person doing your test doesn’t have a racial, age, or gender bias. Because that frequently causes autistic people to get misdiagnosed.

2: Saying you are not anti self-diagnosis doesn’t mean you support ALL self-DX. Things like anxiety and depression are pretty easy to figure out if you have or not, on your own. A lot of ND people have no choice but to self-DX. But that doesn’t mean people who have self-diagnosed think that EVERY condition can be. The vast majority of people are actually aware of how varied mental health conditions and disabilities are, and are not diagnosing themselves with every condition on the planet. Kids saying stupid shit on TikTok is not an accurate representation of how most people act in real life. I’m sorry to burst your bubble.

[lesbiansandco]

My doctors: Yknow, exercise can help lower your blood sugar!

Me, already physically disabled and unable to exercise “properly:” oh really? cool!

[goblin-named-sam]

Journey to Dorito Body pt 8

I may have went a bit too hard for the first time back in the gym in a bit so I took a few rest days but I'm back at it and....might have over done it again?

Okay hear me out. The weights just felt too light! So I upped my weight...and did more reps...and another set than usual. I have a too much gene! Leave me alone!

Should I pace myself better? Probably! Do I feel like a badass right now with all my sore muscles? Yes yes I do. Will future me hate past me for this? Yes yes he will but that's his problem to deal with!

Anyway I'm noticing improvements! Not visual yet but like I said my usual weight felt light....it. felt. LIGHT! I also did THREE good solid form hangs! Five seconds EACH! I could barely hold proper form for a second a week ago! AND my hands don't hurt as much while doing it! That's what I call PROGRESS, baby!

I am also doing more leg workouts aka cardio. I, Mr. I'd-sooner-die-than-do-cardio Sammy D'goblin, ran on a treadmill....for all of three minutes but fuck you that's a lot!

Why this sudden change of heart? Well, I've noticed that my elbows (once I stopped hyperextending them doing curls) have been doing a lot better. I have fewer days where they hurt, few days where I can't do dishes or fold laundry cuz my elbows hurt too much. My noodley joints are reacting well to strengthening the muscles around them so I want to do the same thing with my legs cuz my nlknees buckle a LOT. I already started doing squats and lunges but I think running and walking would do more for my legs. So yeah cardio is being a thing now and I loathe and despise it but I already noticed during my post gym walk that my knees didn't buckle so dammit if it doesn't work.

Anyway pictures!

You can actually SEE my muscles in these ones so yay! Also look!

My massive gallon bottle can fit in my coat pocket!

[crypticroyals]

Ok. This might sound controversial but I need to get this out there.

Some people (not a lot and definitely not everyone) are saying it's cultural appropriation to use their or native American folklores for things outside of the native's context.

Alright I guess Greek and Norse and Japanese mythology can't ever be used again anymore guys. Remove all the fiction we have ever made. Library of Alexandria style.

Like, yes, I get the concept of not bastardizing a folk myth in the sense of like, "oh here's a w*ndigo, they're a hero!" when the creature is an embodiment of evil and represents all the negative things racist people ever associated with native Americans. Yeah I get that, but that shouldn't mean someone can't take the story and use it in their own in the right context.

That's what native America groups have done in so many different tribes. There is like 5+ different versions of the myth that are all native culture (all are Algonquian in close region iirc but still they have different things) so why can't I keep the main features that all cultures explain, use it in the same context but the lore is changed slightly to fit the story I'm representing it in?

THAT IS WHAT FOLKLORE IS

Don't get me wrong, if someone took a creature/being from folklore and made it something completely different and than tried to use the name of it, that isn't the same myth anymore and should be given a different name, not the one they tried to say was their new depiction. But that still shouldn't mean I can't use a myth. The main reason Im upset about this is because you have a small amount of people saying it's bad and shouldn't be done even if used accurately even tho pretty much every other culture does.

Norse mythology? Look at Marvel with it's Odin, Thor, Hel and Loki. Greek mythology? That existed years ago and a few modern day pagan Greeks use it outside context and allow others to use it because it's ancient stories full of culture heritage. Same with Roman mythology which is basically Greek mythology but changed for a new context and many use that. Hell we have planets named after them!

I'm not saying "take a myth and make it something no longer that myth but claim it is" because that would be super rude as it ruins what the myth ment and stood for. But things change constantly. No two versions of a myth are exactly the same. Who's to say I can't represent it in my own way? I love learning about cultures and all sorts of myths and tales and cuisines and traditions. But if people can represent Zues or a Kirin and no one bats an eye than why do some people get mad when someone uses a native spirit of greed and winter hm? I know some people of native groups prefer to not speak certain terms as they see it as taboo. The W*nd*go for example. But some do. So why can't I represent cultures in a fantasy setting? Sure the myths aren't real life and consist from cultures all over with different contexts, but if we can't use windigos why can we use fairies and elves and gnomes? Is it because those are white myths? If so that seems very rude. But I'm not sure that's what it is because we have Asian myths and Greek myths in which are used. So I suppose it's because how people back than treated Africa and the Americas. That and how some "modern" takes resemble nothing of the cultures' actually things. Like in Africa Voodoo is now some "heebe jeebies murder witchcraft" and in Algonquian cultures the windigos are now for some reason weird deer minotaurs???? Like, why are they deer now? That's a new thing now, give it a new name please.

Anyways, I do not wish for people to believe this is some angry rant about how people should be allowed to steal and bastardize cultures. Because that isn't true. That's also something wrong people really shouldn't do. But what I guess I mean by all this, is that cultures spread and change over times everywhere and so many connect and change and show heritage and history. We should love each other and other's cultures no matter differences. In the end, we're all human. We shouldn't be fighting someone who wants to make a story about some sorcerers and rogues trying to hunt down a monstrous thing of evil that has been torturing a scared town that represents native cultures. We should be fighting the people who try to make a movie about a myth for the thrill factors that completely change the myth till nothing of the old tale remains and dare to call it the same.

I'm pretty sure this won't get a lot of representation besides hate from the few I spoke about but I felt the need to at least get this off my chest and I apologize if this offends anyone no matter how.

Hopefully one day humanity can get along better than it does. 🤞💕🤝

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[coulson-is-an-avenger]

the audacity of able bodied people is so wild it would be hilarious if it wasn't actively destroying lives across the nation

[fellow-queer-birdguy]

Having the worst vertigo, dizziness and brain fog rn. Feels like my head is internally vibrating and spinning. I can't get it away

[momentsofamber]

By the way, my main tumblr is a fandom blog so it has a personal sideblog and that side blog is also attached to this one here.

I'm not going to post the url publicly, because it has my actual name and other blogs linked on it, but if we're mutuals there's a chance that blog may show up in your notes / may already be in your notes.

If you're someone who is wary of unknown blogs in your notes you can dm me for that url and I'll give it to you there!

I just don't want to post the url publicly because unfortunately my main blogs have a stalker who has been harassing me since late last year ( this person won't go after the people I reblog from, they're only interested in me for defending a long-time friend of mine from them because they ran my friend off tumblr altogether with their nonsense ).

[tinybubblesyay]

How is it my family/friends, who dont mask, haven't gotten hit with the plague but me, who wears one everywhere they go, has gotten it 3 times! Fml.

Send soup. And notes if you're in my history class.