#my digital footprint

[fenkizard]

My digital footprint…

For desperately needed context my friend sent me a meme about someone saying this and kept saying it until it was stuck in my head. I made this as a joke. I despise the origins of it in a very funny way. I say it when I want to annoy people.

[lonely-linn]

Why the fuck does this have 193 notes

"Don't Lose Ur Head" from SIX but it's odysseus in the manwhore au

[yappersparadise]

How a childhood movie ruined my relationship with the medical system

I've been rewatching a lot of childhood movies lately. I picked Return To Oz today. This movie was one of the things that contributed to my near delusional fear of mental health professionals. Like at the beginning of the movie Dorothy's primary caregivers abandon her at a grimy sanitarium with childist adults. After they're gone, multiple doctors pick her up, strap her to a table, and Dorothy narrowly avoids getting electrocuted Frankenstein's monster style. I am not kidding

This movie terrified me as a kid, it was my first ever experience with horror despite the producers apparently not intending for it to be a horror film. Rewatching it now I can understand that it really isn't as bad as I thought it was at the time. I guess even as a kid it didn't give me nightmares or make me cry, or anything. I never felt panicked while watching it, but it did instil me with a deep, deep sense of dread. There are other scenes in the movie that invoke the same feeling of powerful unease and discomfort, but what always stuck with me most was that particular scene where she's being belted down.

Dorothy escapes with a beautiful blonde girl. Her hair is light and feathery, and it catches the light in a way reminiscent of a halo. At one point she silently appears in Dorothy's room, already knowing Dorothy's name. There was no sound of the door opening, nothing to suggest she hadn't just appeared there. She felt completely otherworldly, and she moved with a wisdom and grace that ultimately led Dorothy to escape

At one point while they're desperately running through mud and bracken during a storm, thunder and lightning raging above them as the sanitarium workers tear after them, they have this interaction:

GIRL: Quick! We have to get you out of here. DOROTHY: What's that screaming? GIRL: Patients who have been damaged, locked in the cellar.

Whhhhhhhhhhhhhat the fuuuuck that line messed me up as a kid. The girl speaks with such confidence, she seems to be so trustworthy, and almost authoritative, that I couldn't help but believe her instantly. What did it mean to be "damaged" by electric shock therapy? Physically damaged? Mentally damaged? The screaming didn't sound right. I didn't know what lobotomies were as a kid but I got the gist of it.

I think what scared me most was how real it was to me. The exact same thing had happened to my grandad. My dad described the things the doctors did to him in detail, the way they had to put rubber in his mouth so he didn't bite his tongue off while they shocked him at a high voltage over and over, how they tortured him with ice baths and forced him on medication

It was not only something that the protagonist of the movie had narrowly avoided, but something that was a very real threat. A very real threat that could, as I realised then, even effect children like me. Medical abuse cases against autistic people are a dime a dozen. Now I'm older I know it's probably unlikely that it'll happen to me in the present day. But I can never be too sure, and even to this day I refuse to surrender myself to the potential danger of that kind of treatment

But anyway one of the other characters from Return To Oz is so babygirl

Never in my life have I wanted to call a character babygirl but this is the one. He's just so sweet and kind and silly. If you don't get it that's fine I just wanted to show you all that he exists

[batheart]

the creator of deadpool saw my comment thirsting over age of apocalypse wolverine okay

[solarwreathe]

happy 10th birthday to sock opera.

[renonv]

🅱️inktober days 1-3

[outthewazoo]

Doodle that I worked on during all the times I had to wait for the bus this week 👎

[fiyrball6063]

[ofthecaravel]

i looked this up and scrolled down and

IT IS SO FUCKING OVERRRR

The tinies have broken containment and been seen on Pinterest. It’s the first time I’ve seen them there!! I love your art so much

oh my GODDDD theyre travelling!!! thats wild, i remember somebody had some of my art in one of their boards for a bit and i was like MOM IM FAMOUS

also thank u what the freak

[menacewithawolfcut]

if this post reaches 500 notes, i will start a podcast where i will talk about my fictional crushes in a totally unhinged manner, like britanny broski talks about masked men, traumadump without anyone asking for it, and about various topics that make my serotonin levels go brrr (mostly about art, history/culture and queer stuff), video essay-ish-style, but executed in a worst way possible

[rottoons]

any occasional martini enjoyers in the chat

[officialspec]

wish that carrot cake with cream cheese icing was a person so i could eat him out sloppy style

[fushigurojpg]

The smirk??? The crazy eye wide??? I'm FERAL

[martyryo]

they beat the shit out of each other, nothing more nothing less yk haha they're just exhausted after a fight and ready to go take a shower with their silly soap and dirty water huhu.

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Good lil lieutenant - 🎣 👻

Admsksjrhfkakakss priceghost……. i abstain from making anymore comments for fear of my digital footprint

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[loseractivities]

Ok time to yap about Billy Loomis. What is bros sexuality?

Billy is 100% gay. I also think that he’s on the aromantic/asexual spectrum, with the best label fitting him being demiaroace. In simple terms, I think the only way he feels authentic romantic/sexual attraction is when he has a very deep emotional, (whether he likes to admit that or not), bond with someone.

People often like to bring up his romantic relationship with Sidney and his sexual affairs with other women, one of which we have proof of in the later movies. Because he was dating Sidney before his mom even left, and they were known to have started off “hot and heavy”, (as Billy likes to call it), he didn’t really have any reason to be doing that. Or did he?!

It goes without being said that Billy is a conventionally attractive white male in the ‘90s. In the movie, we already see Billy’s efforts to appear as normal as possible, wearing bland clothes with little room for interpretation and speaking very little to others. Which leads to why Billyboy was sleeping with girls when he was a big fat QUEER!! …

Billy loves control! He loves it, he loves planning everything out and acting it out like it’s a movie because of his dumb special interest. He loves predictability, he loves feeling normal, and he loves having control over people. What better way to feel in control, (perhaps of his own sexuality), than by sleeping with and casually dating girls!! It makes so much sense.

How does Stu play into this?

Well firstly Stu is Billy’s only real friend. Through subtext we can tell that Billy trusts Stu a lot, considering he trusted him to 1. Call Sidney while he was in jail. 2. Be ghostface with him and have him not tell anyone. 3. Literally fucking stab him… The list goes on. People like to say that Stu didn’t know Billy’s real motive too, which is fucking stupid because why wouldn’t Billy tell him this?? One entire year between murdering Sidney’s mother and then eventually attempting to murder her and all her friends, and you’re telling me Stu wouldn’t have suspected a thing? Just for fun?? Yeah right!

Also people try to say “okay, well then why did Billy stab him so much in the kitchen if he wasn’t trying to kill him”? Firstly it was always part of the plan for Stu and Billy to be the only survivors because only one survivor is extremely suspicious. Secondly you can tell he was just not thinking clearly, he acted on his anger and lost focus of his goal (KILLING SIDNEY??NOT HIS BF??) which is something he NEVER DOES!!

Man,, the whole final act is my favorite, because it really shows both Billy and Stu coming apart and quite literally COMING OUT as the killers. Come on guys. Media. Fucking. Literacy. They literally penetrate each other right in front of Billy’s girlfriend, and that shit was freaky as fuck.

ANYway I’m going off on a tangent. I do wanna talk about why Billy didn’t explicitly say anything about being gay when he so very obviously is. Billy, in all areas, is much less obvious than Stu.

He’s closed off, secretive, keeps up a pretty believable facade to everyone until the finally is able to drop the act. It makes sense he isn’t as physically or verbally affectionate with Stu, and for this reason people are more inclined to believe Stu is gay and in love with Billy more than Billy is gay and in love with him. Well, in order to get a good sense of Billy’s relationship with Stu, you have to look deeper. Let’s start with some things from the script, since there are very few scenes with the two interacting.

Stu and Billy, in the script, are best friends, have known each other since kindergarten, and are partners in crime. Billy obviously is capable of forming strong bonds and connections with very specific people. Even unhealthily so, and we see this in the relationship he has with his mother. He idolizes her, victimizes her, makes her more than she was as a coping mechanism and never officially comes to terms with the fact his mom probably wasn’t as great as he remembers. And when his mom leaves, he breaks, needs control (as stated previously) because his life is suddenly unstable and who does he turn to? Stu!

Also I just wanna say when Stu drapes over his back Billy leans into him okay thanks. Body language in this movie means SO FUCKING MUCH TO ME these actors did amazing. When Billy follows Sidney inside the look of CONTEMPT ON HIS FACE!! The way he looks through his eyelashes. The acting is impeccable Skeety, I love you!!!! 😐😐 Also the way Billy looks at Stu before stabbing himmm…He;s in love I promise. In whatever way he knows how

Lastly the boy has autism

Passionate interests, he loves horror movies and constantly references them throughout the film. Even at unconventional times, like when his girlfriend is venting about her dead mother. Eye contact and too much staring. Meltdowns when overstimulated. The whole last act was just him stimming and destroying shit because stuff didn’t go his way. Bad reactions when plans are interrupted. At the staircase when Sid runs away he punches himself in frustration. Talks with hands in Sidney’s room about The Exorcist. Favorite person/people (his mom and Stu). Extremely overdramatic. When he got fake stabbed. When he falls down the fucking stairs for no reason. Finally, just socially awkward. Any word out of his mouth makes people uneasy. Ez

…Finally for Billy I js wanna say he arches it a lot and I think only someone who takes it like a good boy wpu;ld do that Ok im done by.e

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