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'fun' childhood memory time again:
when I was a kid, maybe 6 or 7, my mother and I were out riding our bikes together (I think that was unusual in itself). we were outside our village where there were fields and nothing else. then the path in the direction we were going in was blocked by a 'private road' sign that said you weren't allowed to go that way.
my mother said we'll go anyway (which would absolutely be fine, everyone does that and no one would mind - which I know now). I said we can't because that's not allowed. she insisted we go anyway, and I broke down crying because I was so scared and horrified. I had no idea where we were exactly but I was so upset that I turned around and went home on my own when she refused to go another way.
that's still a funny story she likes to tell sometimes (about how I was such a little governess who wanted everyone to always follow her rules). because it's sooo normal for a small child to have a breakdown over that (I couldn't stop crying the rest of the day because it scared me so much). because if a child reacted that way in front of me I would not think 'oh you're so bossy, you always want to get your way', I would think 'this child is so anxious that she can't do something completely fine and normal because a fucking sign says it's not allowed'.
or the time she told me to go to the dentist with her instead of going to school and I cried for hours (I had to go with her, she said so. but that's not allowed and I will get in trouble and I will have to lie about it and lying makes you a bad person). or literally dozens of other examples like that. it's probably unfair but I really do resent my parents for never realising/caring that that is not normal, and getting me the help I clearly needed (because now I'm 32 and just figuring out that that's not how other people feel and getting help is hard and scary).
#like I really just thought. everyone always thinks about everything this way#and that they're just much better at hiding it#but apparently they're not!#and now I will do something fun and not let myself think about this anymore because that did not end well last time.#it fucking sucks that this topic is the hardest to think about. because how do I tackle any of this if just thinking about it makes me lose#my damn mind.#personal#(ugh. still thinking. like.. how could they not realise that it isn't normal for a 4/5 year old to have horrible nightmares about her#grandma's house exploding. every. night. and that it would be my fault. because we got those little doll thingies in kindergarten that we#were supposed to tell our worries to and then put them under our pillow. so I had to tell them that I was worried about that. but if I#thought I did it the wrong way that'd just make the nightmares worse because obviously then it would definitely happen and it'd be my fault#because I didn't do it right. like HOW could anyone think that's totally fine and normal if it doesn't go away ever???)
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Rowling isn't denying holocaust. She just pointed out that burning of transgender health books is a lie as that form of cosmetic surgery didn't exist. But of course you knew that already, didn't you?
I was thinking I'd probably see one of you! You're wrong :) Let's review the history a bit, shall we?
In this case, what we're talking about is the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft, or in English, The Institute of Sexology. This Institute was founded and headed by a gay Jewish sexologist named Magnus Hirschfeld. It was founded in July of 1919 as the first sexology research clinic in the world, and was run as a private, non-profit clinic. Hirschfeld and the researchers who worked there would give out consultations, medical advice, and even treatments for free to their poorer clientele, as well as give thousands of lectures and build a unique library full of books on gender, sexuality, and eroticism. Of course, being a gay man, Hirschfeld focused a lot on the gay community and proving that homosexuality was natural and could not be "cured".
Hirschfeld was unique in his time because he believed that nobody's gender was either one or the other. Rather, he contended that everyone is a mixture of both male and female, with every individual having their own unique mix of traits.
This leads into the Institute's work with transgender patients. Hirschfeld was actually the one to coin the term "transsexual" in 1923, though this word didn't become popular phrasing until 30 years later when Harry Benjamin began expanding his research (I'll just be shortening it to trans for this brief overview.) For the Institute, their revolutionary work with gay men eventually began to attract other members of the LGBTA+, including of course trans people.
Contrary to what Anon says, sex reassignment surgery was first tested in 1912. It'd already being used on humans throughout Europe during the 1920's by the time a doctor at the Institute named Ludwig Levy-Lenz began performing it on patients in 1931. Hirschfeld was at first opposed, but he came around quickly because it lowered the rate of suicide among their trans patients. Not only was reassignment performed at the Institute, but both facial feminization and facial masculization surgery were also done.
The Institute employed some of these patients, gave them therapy to help with other issues, even gave some of the mentioned surgeries for free to this who could not afford it! They spoke out on their behalf to the public, even getting Berlin police to help them create "transvestite passes" to allow people to dress however they wanted without the threat of being arrested. They worked together to fight the law, including trying to strike down Paragraph 175, which made it illegal to be homosexual. The picture below is from their holiday party, Magnus Hirschfeld being the gentleman on the right with the fabulous mustache. Many of the other people in this photo are transgender.
[Image ID: A black and white photo of a group of people. Some are smiling at the camera, others have serious expressions. Either way, they all seem to be happy. On the right side, an older gentleman in glasses- Magnus Hirschfeld- is sitting. He has short hair and a bushy mustache. He is resting one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of him. His other hand is being held by a person to his left. Another person to his right is holding his shoulder.]
There was always push back against the Institute, especially from conservatives who saw all of this as a bad thing. But conservatism can't stop progress without destroying it. They weren't willing to go that far for a good while. It all ended in March of 1933, when a new Chancellor was elected. The Nazis did not like homosexuals for several reasons. Chief among them, we break the boundaries of "normal" society. Shortly after the election, on May 6th, the book burnings began. The Jewish, gay, and obviously liberal Magnus Hirschfeld and his library of boundary-breaking literature was one of the very first targets. Thankfully, Hirschfeld was spared by virtue of being in Paris at the time (he would die in 1935, before the Nazis were able to invade France). His library wasn't so lucky.
This famous picture of the book burnings was taken after the Institute of Sexology had been raided. That's their books. Literature on so much about sexuality, eroticism, and gender, yes including their new work on trans people. This is the trans community's Alexandria. We're incredibly lucky that enough of it survived for Harry Benjamin and everyone who came after him was able to build on the Institute's work.
[Image ID: A black and white photo of the May Nazi book burning of the Institute of Sexology's library. A soldier, back facing the camera, is throwing a stack of books into the fire. In the background of the right side, a crowd is watching.]
As the Holocaust went on, the homosexuals of Germany became a targeted group. This did include transgender people, no matter what you say. To deny this reality is Holocaust denial. JK Rowling and everyone else who tries to pretend like this isn't reality is participating in that evil. You're agreeing with the Nazis.
But of course, you knew that already, didn't you?
Edit: Added image IDs. I apologize to those using screen readers for forgetting them. Please reblog this version instead.
#transgender#trans history#transsexual#transphobia#Magnus Hirschfeld#holocaust#holocaust denial#book burning#j.k. rowling#jk rowling#just in case you missed what i mean by all this: go fuck yourself anon :)#trans people have always existed#and we will always exist#if you really wanna pick a fight with me over well-documented history then you better bring in some sources to back your shit#queer history#queer#lgbt+#lgbta+#lgbt#lgbt history#edit: i finally got around to those damn image IDs. i am so very sorry for totally forgetting that's my bimbo moment of the month#also real quick i thought about adding an image of the actual building but the only one i can find has a Nazi parade in front of it#it was taken the day of the book burning raid and honestly if i were to include it then i'd add it to the first few paragraphs#and i think the story's better told when you uphold the hope Magnus Hirschfeld and all the researchers he worked with had#also keeps being brought up: yes Hirschfeld was a eugenicist. it was a popular belief set that was only discredited after WW2#Hirschfeld died in 1935. he literally didn't live long enough to see science turn against those beliefs and practices#considering how he changed his mind on transitions i like to think he would've changed his mind on eugenics too if he'd lived
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gideon & harrow OR rd and sf as cowboys please please please
It's the cowgirl necro and her gunslinger cav! Who is so damn extra she's got three guns: one left, one right, and one in pole position! (She swears the ladies love it!)
#You just KNOW gideons makes tons of these 'is that a gun or are you just happy to see me' jokes#She holds the third gun in her mouth#looking so damn stupid but grinning like shes the coolest lmao#how are you even going to shoot girl#also: the paint has to get onto the skin somehow#hmm. lot to think about...#that was such a fun prompt dear ! I ended up enjoying this waaaaay too much <3#gideon nav#harrowhark nonagesimus#I'm not gonna tag it griddlehark but in my mind this IS griddlehark - because this outfit would make Harrow go insane lmao#not that she'd ever let griddle take one step outside looking like that if we're talking serious#but it's a look - a look I LOVE#tlt#the locked tomb#my art#requests
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THE PARALLELS.
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preparations
based off this post by @letsplaythermalnuclearwar :)
#how to manage your captain: leash him like a damn dog#hope you dont mind the tag#if you end up seeing this. is your pfp a donnie themed vape#my twin is very interested in the rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#my artwork#art#sketch#i dont really like the art on here though#epic the musical#the odyssey#odysseus#eurylochus#epic the thunder saga#tagamemnon#greek mythology
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Ratio is the one who posted the photo, I know, believe me-
#doodles#my art#honkai star rail#aventurine#dr ratio#veritas ratio#damn I love cakecats sm omfg#for some reason I have the feeling that Aventurine snores when he sleeps and Ratio is always two steps away from getting him out of bed.#this is shitpost don't mind me#hsr#ratiorine#aventio
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The nightmares in FNAF 4 get crazy...
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#michael afton#nightmare bonnie#nightmare chica#nightmare foxy#nightmare blunt rotation#fnaf 4#fnaf fanart#THIS IS SO UNSERIOUS#GUYS LISTEN I got this idea right before I fell asleep one night#like my mind combined the pieces together#and I just knew I’d have to draw it out#LIKE NO MATTER how dumb this pun is I had to let everyone know it#THIS IS THE OFFICIAL nightmare blunt rotation#it literally doesn’t get more of a ‘nightmare’ than this#Michael’s dreams weird af guys#this is the REAL ‘nightmare gas’ William Afton used#TBH I love the nightmares especially in this art#I didn’t know the nightmares were chill like that.. damn..
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i think you’ve already lost, dear detective
#mizuan#mizuki akiyama#an shiraishi#project sekai#prsk#prsk fa#colorful stage#vivid bad squad#vbs#25ji#25 ji nightcord de#nightcord at 25:00#cat’s art#do i tag this as shuake??#shuake#p5#persona 5#they were the ref so. uh#every night i be like ‘damn i miss p5r’ and then i don’t start my ng+ file#p5r is still on that pedestal on that mind idk i just want to experience it over and over again because the first time was so good#just like when i read p4 for the first time like AOAOAOAOAOOAOAOAOAUGHGHH
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really specific hangups
[ids in alt]
#in stars and time#isat#poorly drawn isat#isat siffrin#isat mirabelle#isat bonnie#isat isabeau#isat odile#isat loop#odile saying 'sorry siffrin you showed vulnerability so we have to kill you now' arose in my mind unbidden#and this comic was the result.#ended up losing the third panel and had to redraw the whole damn thing.#i think the possibility of one of the characters just laying out a perfectly timed f-bomb is hilarious to me.#it doesnt matter which one. literally any of them would be funny.
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youve gotta be fucking kidding me RSL didnt know
[House M.D. S2 E7 - Hunting]
#the rewatch brain worm got me okay OKAY?#im not hallucinating the 'g-' watch for your damn selves im losing my fucking mind#id in alt#house md#m#hilson#💯#1k
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Dazai IS a fucking mood
#dazai is a mood#you can't change my mind#i know he was just pretending but damn#give this kid an oscar#drama queen dazai#chuuya is just there#cutely confused chuuya noises#look at him#hes so cute#they both are too cute in this manga#bsd#bungo stray dogs#dazai chuuya 15#dazai chuuya age fifteen#15 chuuya#15 dazai#15 skk#skk#soukoku#dazai osamu#chuuya nakahara#bsd fifteen
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wyll.y.am ravengard, I love you so
everyone loves to put him in gold (rightly so) but my personal style is lots of silver jewelry + heavy eyeliner so that's what I gave him. also roses because he's so damn venusian
#wyll#wyll ravengard#bg3 fanart#bg3#three color versions because I'm so damn indecisive. I'm experimenting with a more sketchy style and had a lot of fun with it#I have so many thoughts about wyll and his venusian qualities; how he embodies some of the truest and starkest aspects of venus#as well as its most painful and burdensome weaknesses#I could write an essay on it but I don't know how many people live in the intersection between bg3 and classical astrology. so I won't#also - I've had this sitting in my drafts for way too long and it was in danger of entering the ''I changed my mind I don't want this to#see the light of day'' phase so Im pressing the damn button#my art
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SEBASTIAN STAN
Monday (2020)
Dir. Argyris Papadimitropoulos
#sebastian stan#monday#sebstanedit#marvelcastedit#sebastiansource#gif#mcuchallenge#fyeahmovies#filmgifs#chewieblog#tvandfilm#dailyflicks#dailymenedit#dilfgifs#mancandykings#flawlessgentlemen#userstream#dilfsource#usersavana#usertammy#usersvenja#unearthlydust#userlaurianne#userchristineb#underbetelgeuse#gaybuckybarnes#userkk#i finally found the fucking remux version of this movie; there were only smaller files with lower quality ughdgf#oh mickey you're so fine you blow my mind#look at those damn arms
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o sleep
#hades#hades game#hades hypnos#hypnos hades#hades 2#hades II#melinoe#melinoë#mmarts#ghhkk damn i still have him on my mind ofc#i was gonna make her put flowers in his hair but maybe some other time#also i have somethin i wanna draw with zag and hypnos cause theyre my guys ever#rotating them in my mind like a gas station hotdog
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Being a batfam fan is funny because people will make a post like “here’s my headcanon-“ and it’s just something that’s directly canon to the story then post about major canon events and get everything wrong.
#this post was inspired by me remembering the experience of reading death in the family#after only knowing the fanbase version and realizing oh none of that shit happened okay#like girl you don’t understand it’s so bad#Jason wasn’t even fired as Robin#He’s not accused of murdering anyone by Bruce#He’s not trying to prove himself at all he’s just looking for his mom#The reason Bruce didn’t go after him right away is because he was tracking down a goddamn nuke the Joker stole#Then after he finds it and handles the problem he helps Jason track down moms 2 and 3#Also Jason died in like 20 minutes?? even less??#He died in less time than it took his mother to smoke a cigarette#Bruce literally went ‘wait here I’ll be right back’ and was gone for less time than a trip to the grocery store#and then you go into the Jason Todd tag and they act like Bruce pulled the damn trigger on him#Like besties I don’t know how to tell you this he basically did everything right he possibly could have#Even him benching Jason from Robin temporarily happens so that he can get Jason into therapy about his trauma#Like the whole point is that neither of them did anything wrong bad shit just sometimes happens#That’s the tragedy. The drama.#Bruce couldn’t have made better choices in the position he was in and Jason was never going to make different ones#It was inevitable#Anyway rant over please read death in the family before I lose my mind#batfam#batman#jason todd#tim drake#dick grayson#damian wayne#bruce wayne
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"Just let me comfort you, for once" is a beautiful sentiment executed gorgeously, but there is nothing more heartbreaking than Dorian following it up with, "Please." He is so desperate to be a comfort to Orym the same way Orym always has been for him, to the point that he begs the opportunity to hold him close and help him this time. That "please" is so incredibly poignant
#cr spoilers#dorym#bells hells#critical role#this scene is so crazy man every time i see a clip of it i lose my damn mind
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