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meanderfall · 2 years

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every year, i get smacked hard with seasonal allergies, and every year, i forget how bad it gets

#ngl it feels. esp bad this year #it's usually just a stuffy and runny nose with MAYBE a mild fever and a little headache here and there #now i wake up with a horrible sinus headache and just feel absolutely miserable for the first half of the day #i've reached the point of trying otc allergy and pain relievers bc i truly feel awful #and istg my sinus headache started back up at around 5 pm and it has not gone away in the past six hours #PAIN. MISERY. I HATE HEADACHES #i dont even have a runny or stuffed nose to go along with it :/#my body is just being mean now

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puppetmaster13u · 4 months

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Prompt 325

Danny, tiny from being physically de-aged more towards his ghost-age for his health, and slightly influenced by the fact that he currently has a tiny concussion, practically beaming at his current sort-of caretaker from the couch-bed: :D (They sort of got a choice in it, and they offered their home for the last few nights anyway!)

Charles “Chuck” Brown, freaking out more than a little bit after he woke up feeling like his back was being melted and decided to take a hot shower: Heey kid, is there a reason I am suddenly sprouting wings?!

#DCxDP #DPxDC #Prompts #Ghosts have Wings #Gotham is ecto-contaminated #Kiteman is now Liminal from being in extended close proximity with tiny Halfa #Who is giving off lots of ectoplasm without meaning to thx to tiny child body #The difference between ecto contaminated & Liminal is the formation of a Core #Space Core Danny #Sky Core Chuck #Danny has magpie-esque wings with the black being space-patterned & white aurora patterned #Kite has Argentavis-eque wings with ghost-zone sky patterns on underside & sunset-night-sky topside #Both are also slightly eldritch & might be animated & MIGHT have an extra pair of eyes or seven #Liminals can’t hide their wings because they’re flesh & bone instead of ectoplasm #Danny (Tiny & Concussed): Oh don’t worry ur just getting your wings :)#Kiteman (Himbo Villain who wasn’t going to leave small tiny child out in Gotham alone): My WhAt-

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canonkiller · 8 months

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do you consider your self made?

#my art #self portrait of sorts #been musing a lot on disability recently and how being relatively freshly unable to do Most Things has changed my perspective on things #for a long time growing up i was fixated on the idea of being An Impact On The World yknow? mainly the next Big Writer #(and that it would be sooo impressive that everyone would make my books bestsellers when i was only 12 because it was That Good)#and i mean. obviously that didnt work out as originally planned because i was 12 and learning. but I've felt a lot like #I've kind of built my sense of self on those big achievements. even if they were only big to me. and a lot of them #are now out of reach or very difficult to reach. and it's been a lot to. recontextualize #to take what ive been told my whole life and ignore it in favor of just being being enough.#things will happen as they happen. i havent earned anything by suffering but it hasnt ended the world either #im here doing what i Can do for as long as I'm able to do it. and thats all i need to be for now #just making sure that i Do do the things i can do rather than assume i can do them later #anyways. love you #cw:#top nudity #artistic nudity #the dreaded ambiguously presenting nipple #if you put any pro weight loss eating disorder shit on here ill kill you btw #my body is sexy because im in it and im still alive. not because its struggling to stay that way #lindwormposting

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bacchuschucklefuck · 25 days

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official finish-this-sketch-how-you-want post idk what to call thisSAMPLE TEXT

hi! I miss drawing with people in a café and some folks mentioned they'd like to mess with my sketches themselves and that sounds cool so this is now a thing. if u play gartic phone this is basically the complement mode! but without the fucking ring noise that freaks you out right when you're getting into the flow of it

few things are 1/there's no hard deadline! take this at ur own pace if u do, but 2/I'll also be finishing this sketch and I estimate it to take around uhh 3 to 4 days? from the time this is posted. so if that's a structure u like then let's aim for something done in that timespan as well! and 3/if u finish ur piece and post it and want me to see it the best way to do that is to @ this blog! above all we go into this one determined to have fun and enjoy. I already bought u a matcha latte with oat milk sorry if u don't want that

here I got u today a sketch that's supposed to be Riz Gukgak (SY) (grey bg version and transparent version for ur ease of peruse)

remember to have fun & be urself & finish ur drink & see u in 4 or 5

#not art #technically #idk what to tag this... I was thinking sketchboom bc its like one sketch many outcomes yknow. but turns out thats already #a company or something like that. and then I thought something riffing on the complement game mode but I cant think of anything for that #can we call it Fuck With This Sketch. pros: it would be funny. cons: cant think of even a single one #sooomewhat in the realm of dtiys. more in the realm of process swap or whatever the drawing meme was that used to be a thing #where like u and two friends swap pieces inbetween every step #(which is somewhat assumptive of what the process is to be fair. I know people who run directly into a piece blocking out poses in colors #as their sketch. and then just render right on top of it. as an ink-for-lifer their process is alien to me and we are like different specie #I want this to be real freeform u can do anything to this sketch. its decently readable for being made by me I think #if there are more than one character it gets worse. or if its full body or a first sketch for a design. uve seen that basrar piece's sketch #and when I say u can do anything to this sketch I mean it. if ur thinking ''oh they didn't mention a bg or painting idk if I should--''#Stop. You Can Do What You Want Forever. seek ur truth seize ur pleasure and call me a bitch to my face #sky's the ceiling and the depths of hell is the bar. draw with me. that is what this is for #ok Im done lets go. hope u have fun with the sketch! yay! yayaya #edit: well now Ive commited to a stupid tag this is called #Fuck With My Sketch

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layalu · 4 months

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so i uhhhh. started PoE

#wanted to try making a custom portrait for my guy!#tbh design wise im not a fan bc it doesnt *quite* fit his vibe & there is too much going on with too little variation #& his face is too generic & id like more glowy bits & also i kind of really wanna incorporate mushrooms smh #<- result of this being supposed to be a sketch/concept but i just Kept Going dhkgdjf #BUT! painting/style wise this is turning out way better than expected so i'm keeping it :]#at least for now #anyways. woe dwarven nature godlike be upon ye!#he lowkey (highkey) hates being a godlike rip </3 #cant admit that to himself tho cus surely that would be ungrateful to the god who blessed him and/or make that god angry right?#so instead he escapes his body with spiritshifting~#-- i mean of course he does it for his love and connection with nature. obviously. haha.#my art #my ocs #oc: alder #poe

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jasontoddenthusiastt · 1 year

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Batman Annual #25

Before Talia took him in, before he was dunked in the pit to have his memories restored, even when operating purely on survival instinct, he always split a meal with the other homeless people. It may not have been essential to his survival, but caring about and helping other people when he couldn’t even help himself was just always such an intrinsic part of Jason’s core.

#so much so that it prevailed over basic self-preservation #my guy lost 90% of his cognitive function and he’s still out here helping people in any way he can #my post #new headcanon: that’s why he stole all 4 tires. because he wasn’t just feeding himself in crime alley.#or at least he was planning to expand his work now that he had more confidence in his ability to feed and care for himself #I mean he also isn’t the type to brag about his good deeds yk? we all know he was putting up a tough guy façade when Bruce found him #a mutual asked abt Jason’s white streak so I directed them to hush which ofc reminded me of this book #rather than it being exclusively a pit thing imo it makes more sense for it to be a combination of actual health related issues #like the chronic prolonged mental and physical stress he had to endure coupled with the fact that superboy’s punch kickstarted his body #in ways that are unknown to modern science #and then the pit also had a hand in it (probably??)#(imo). like Talia doesn’t have it. neither do Damian or Ra’s or anyone else who’s been in the pit.#jason todd #dc #batman annual 25 #comic panels

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waterdeepthroat · 1 year

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I am actually having so many thoughts about bg3 characters when it comes to body image bc themes of bodily autonomy are just so present in this game

#like. astarion and halsin are the obvious ones for this bc astarion doesn’t even know what he looks like and halsin is halsin #but the others?? karlach literally having her body taken apart and put back together by zariel?? wyll forcibly being changed by mizora??#the very common headcanon that gale’s abs are an illusion?? shadowheart’s overall trans vibes? lae’zel whose body has been seen as a weapon #jaheira and her whole anti-ageing scroll can be taken in a different direction too. hell even minthara’s torture by orin #the emperor and what it means to have been a man and now something Else? i could even see it with the selûnites bc of their circumstances #there’s just SO SO MUCH to explore here and I’m gonna do it as soon as my computer finishes its download #bg3 #ALSO. raphael. bc haarlep is an idealised version of himself lbr. and my last tav (denandras) definitely has some complex feelings about it

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sciderman · 6 months

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I swear I have read your big post regarding Peter Parker's neurodivergence and why it is best to avoid labelling him, but he definitely has a weird brain

Can't find it and feel kinda sad about it cuz I deeply related to it

i know exactly which post you're talking about and i can't find it either! i've raked through my archive, and it's just - nowhere to be seen. i think tumblr eated it (it happens.)

really, tumblr's search functionality is so so useless, i don't know what to tell you. there are plenty of keywords i can search to find it that post, but the search functionality actually just does not work!

undiagnosed audhd-addled peter parker, my darling, my light, my life, my everything.

i think peter parker's such an interesting creature to write, because a lot of people will point to a certain behaviour about him and say "this is an autistic thing, right?" but a lot of those behaviours are actually, in my head, tied to certain traumas in peter's life too.

people say "oh, the food thing, peter's a picky eater because he's autistic" and yes, absolutely. but also it's tied to his trauma with his parents.

peter gets overstimulated, and yes, it's an autism thing, but also he was bitten by a radioactive spider and his senses are dialled to 11.

it's a similar case i've found for myself, too – where a lot of friends i have kind of diagnose me because i have autistic traits, but actually - i'm hesitant to claim the label or pursue diagnosis because, actually, i know where these certain behaviours come from, and they come from certain traumas. there are events i can pinpoint in my life and say "yep. that's where this behaviour comes from."

so - i think there's a lot of overlap between trauma and autistic traits. the brain is very complex! i think the reason for that overlap is maybe as simple as the fact that people with autism and people with trauma are both doing the same thing - developing behaviours to protect themselves or soothe themselves. so - i think it's nice to be able to see a character like peter parker, who may or may not be autistic, but recognise behaviours in him and see yourself in him.

people who go undiagnosed for whatever reason - people who are really good at masking - so good, in fact, that they have no idea they might be on the spectrum - everyone and anyone at all can look at peter parker and recognise themselves. because i think we discredit the thought that every single brain does the same thing! develops certain behaviours in order to survive. every brain has that same software - we've just all been faced with different hardships that we need to overcome, and that's were all the differences come in.

autism is a spectrum, i guess - everyone falls into it to some degree. and i think events in your life probably push you along on it. but i don't know, i didn't study brain science. probably what i'm saying is very stupid and uninformed. of course there's brain chemistry involved. but i know people in my life living with autism and certain events in their life have exacerbated certain behaviours or made coping with it a lot more difficult. so maybe trauma is a catalyst.

#a lot of my traits have been exacerbated lately and i remember it was much easier for me before #and some of my friends have said “oh it's because you've been masking too long and now you're facing autistic burnout.”#and that made sense to me i think.#but then i found out about the stress thing. me overproducing stress hormone. and that's a very physical thing.#and that explains why i've been overstimulated more than usual lately. and why everything feels like too much.#and i wonder how many of these traits of mine are going to subside once i have lamar removed #and it makes me wonder a lot of things. and it's so weird how much your brain is tied to your biology.#i wonder how much i'll change. i wonder how i'll feel. i wonder if i'll still feel like me. i wonder how much me is me right now.#and how much of me is being altered by weird freaky hormones. who am i?? who will i be??#i'm almost looking at this as like. a superhero origin story of some sort. like this is my spider-bite moment. maybe.#will i be different? will i cope with things differently?? now that my body isn't fighting something anymore??#maybe i'll be normal. i don't know. i don't know.#i don't know what it'll mean for me.#but all of these things mean i relate to peter parker in a certain kind of way #i don't think you have to be diagnosed with autism to recognise and empathise with those traits i think #i think everyone can see themselves in peter. and i think that's the benefit of having characters that aren't diagnosed.#because there's so much overlap in the human experience. and certain feelings aren't exclusive to just one group of people.#peter has such a rich identity actually. it's an autistic thing. it's a queer thing. it's a jewish thing. it's a trauma thing.#there are so many overlapping parts of peter's identity that inform who he is and how he behaves and it's never just one thing.#it's a product of all of his things.#just like me! just like everyone.#so me? i guess i can be a million things. you can explain what i am in a million different ways.#a hundred different psychologists can all come up with different ways to explain why i be the way i be.#i don't think it's something that can be simplified.#sorry wow. i'm really going off here in the tags.#i hope people don't think i'm stupid. i don't know brain science. i'm just philosophising as usual.#sci speaks

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moeblob · 5 months

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You know, when I kept getting asked "so you didn't ever have severe pains before now?" in the hospital and I kept replying "I have a high pain tolerance" I meant it. However, there is only so much pain my tiny 4'9" body can hold... (aka I am sweating and in agony bc I'm getting told to use LESS severe pain meds so I don't rely on them too much and it is AWFUL)

#moe talks a lot #i was shaking earlier and despite the fact i sound like im gonna cry #and the fact that my mom can pick out im about to cry from pain bc im trying to take less pain meds #LIKE MY MOM IS INSTRUCTING ME TO DO #shes like well why arent you taking any pain meds #BECAUSE THERE ARE TWO AVAILABLE OPTIONS AND ON A SIX HOUR TIMER #i cant take both at once or else what happens to me if i hurt before the six hours is up #i have to manage them in a way that allows me to benefit from both and being told im doing it wrong #after being told well its your fault it got so bad because you never complained about pain before #YEAH NO JOKE? REALLY? I NEVER DID? because everyone acts like im too young to feel that kinda pain #oh youre hurting? just wait until youre older #and its currently agony to breathe again but that i guess is also my fault bc im trying to use pain meds #holy moly i just want to not get dizzy standing up cause wow dang #sure would be nice if the multiple incisions in my stomach didnt THROB every time i sneezed or coughed or cleared my throat #but since i didnt use much pain meds before because i would be mocked for being too much of a baby its like #welp damn now i could really use some and im being called out for being too reliant #anyway time to sleep more because that means im not noticing my pain #im literally smaller than most children and so i do understand my body size makes people worried about the medication intake #but can i please just go a day without being asked how much im taking or when i last took it or if im gonna cry #anyway sorry for the excessive rant today never really had surgery or anything so this is brand spankin new suffering

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vaciena · 2 months

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I think it just hit me that I’m actually getting better

#like it feels silly to happen now bc I’ve been on my new meds for months but I was getting worse for so long #and like my physical health is still very two steps forward one and a half back but #this week I’ve been doing things my brain wouldn’t have let me do at all a few months ago because the risk of being sick and making a mess #was too high according to my risk assessment #and I just casually did them multiple times this week without realizing it until after #I walked around in just my underwear. I left the bathroom to grab a towel and dry off #I got changed in my room #I haven’t trusted my body enough to do those since like at latest February 2023 #probably a lot earlier #I ate beans yesterday #I didn’t get scared about not being sick today #normally I get very scared if I’m not because it’s interrupting the routine and what if it means I’m sick at a less manageable time #I just. like I think I’m actually getting better

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teakoodrawz · 4 months

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" I'm a Psycho, loving it~ "

#[album]#ask to tag #cw #Music Shot #S-2 #also i just wanna mess with its expressions and poses cuz it's fun #he can turn the black face into a screenface. changing any shapes and expressions as it pleases #horror. realistic eyes. tv static. etc but he prefers the original triangle smiles more #also i'm planning to redesign S-2 right now #S-2 focuses only on killing / violence to gain LV and he's stuck that way and called it a purpose to wipe out population #He got so focus on gaining LV because it made him feel so powerful and wanted more feeling like it's the only thing that made him feel aliv #i'm okay to spoil his story and all. He's made out of human determination in Mark's body and became a split personality to him #that's why S-2 and Mark are both corrupted because they're still not compatible to each other in one body #instead of being unstable in physical form. his mind is. because Gaster used a different formula but failed again #Gaster was trying to cure Mark because he was really ill and about to die #I only took the references/theories from the original undertale amalgamation obviously #S-2 was formed from Mark's own negative emotions and personalities then it became its own character #which causes the two (or Mark or S-2 themselves) to self-loathe with each other #it's literally like looking in a window as a mirror talking shit to each other #The real good Mark in this au is Mark himself. he just needs to be set free from this misery (and need to get rid of S-2 if possible)#that's why in my old Mark death posts. S-2 was gone from self-forgiveness meaning Mark forgives himself and deserves to be happy #(because everyone don't deserve to hate themselves)#i'm gonna keep the left eye joke not being available when doing the horror screenface cuz still wanna make it a Mark thing to him #cw horror #cw eye contact

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stardestroyer81 · 3 months

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With the recently announced Shovel Knight: Shovel of Hope DX, I figured there's no time like the present to bring an old favorite back into the spotlight... hey, Yacht Club Games! How about another character to play through the first campaign as? I have just the girl for the job...

Making her first appearance on this blog since 2020, witness the return of the Fated Acolyte, now sporting a brand-new look! 💜🖤💜🖤💜

#⭐ Star's Art ⭐#Star's OCs #Shovel Knight #The Fated Acolyte #Shovel Knight OC #Self-Insert #S/I #Aseprite #Sprite Art #Pixel Art #Coolness #B e h o l d . . . THE FATED ACOLYTE IS BACK!!! 💜🖤💜🖤💜#And now... she's a girl!#It was only right to redesign the Fated Acolyte to better represent who I am as a person now contrary to four years ago #But y'know what the best part about being a transgender Shovel Knight fan is?#It means that I can use the Fated Acolyte's previous design as her Body Swap design!#With a new design comes a new sprite and that meant getting to flex my spriting prowess #I think I've come quite a long way in the four years since her last visual appearance on this blog!#At some point I would very much love to attempt the Pocket Dungeon style and draw a portrait of her in its style #As well as a chibi overworld sprite. It'd take many references but I'm wholly certain I can pull it off #And lastly... with the Fated Acolyte's new female identity... this means that her relationship with The Enchantress is now yuri #And honestly? It just feels so right 🏳️‍⚧️✨

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iliveinprocrasti-nationn · 1 year

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fauci saying “vulnerable people will fall by the wayside” and that some will die but that’s ok because we’re not going to see the “tsunami of cases” we’ve seen before is so dehumanising. so babies with no immune system, elderly people, disabled people, and people without adequate access to healthcare can all die of covid. but it’s ok guys because actually they’re just falling to the wayside and everyone else will go back to normal and be fine (sarcasm).

my death or the deaths of my family or friends wouldn’t be us “falling by the wayside”, it would be us being failed by our government, healthcare systems, and communities who have refused to take coronavirus seriously despite mounting anecdotal and scientific evidence of the harm this virus does. fact that people can accept the deaths of vulnerable groups just because they want to eat in a restaurant or don’t want to wear a mask is horrifying