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ohsalome · 2 years ago

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I am very sorry you had to encounter Alina. I know of her, and I have personally blocked her on twitter ages ago because of how toxic she is. Please, on the behalf of my entire nation, let me bow thrice at your feet in apology that you had to experience her bigotry.

I am sorry we are not 100% free of alt-right figures. Yes, there are racists, bigots, xenophobes. This is exactly what am I talking about when I use the phrase “non-zero”. It is <5%, but in the country of 40 mil you definitely will find bigots with a platform. And, given the ��info-bubble” nature of the online spaces, they might even manage to convince themselves they have a wide societal support. Just like russians have convinced themselves that they would be met in Ukraine with flowers - and the support for open pro-russian parties has always been much higher in Ukraine than that for alt-right.

Being constantly flooded with accusations of nazism, I do sometimes get doubts - what if I ~am~ brainwashed by ukrainian propaganda? What if we ~are~ the nazi hunta eveybody accuses us as being? In those momentsI try to get a little reality check, and then remember that it isn’t ukrainian sinagogues who need police protection during every major holiday. I remember that, before the war, we managed to organise the biggest pride event in Eastern Europe, and it was safe. I contrast where we came from with where we are, I contrast Ukraine with other post-soviet contries, I contrast Ukraine with other non-post-soviet countries, and I come to the conclusion that we are not that horrible at all. And when I am placed in situations when I have to apologise on behalf of Ukraine before countries who face the same issues, but much worse (and I’m not only talking about you rn), I think “wait, something went wrong there”.

On some intellectual level I understand that for every person their own interests are the top priority. Which is why you are invested in analyzing the abstract situation of whether or not you would get hatecrimed in Ukraine - even though you do not live here, and I don’t know if you ever did or ever will. But at the same time, if every person has a right to put themselves first, the same must be true to us. It’s just like in the airplane safety instructions - in case of a crash, you need to put on an oxygen mask on yourself first, and on your neighbour next. So, sorry, in terms of priorities, everything related to war is more important that internal politics that require long and delicate reforms of institutions. Which is why we need to protect ourselves from external accusations that have already been used as an argument to cut us the weapon supplies, and will be used more in the future. And with every day, as the world gets bored of Ukraine and the empathy runs low, these arguments become more and more dangerous. Because we won’t survive without western weapons, and propaganda, dipolmacy, journalism are all connected to contracts and funds we get. So maybe you should ask youself - is it reasonable to expect ukrainians to single-handedly fight against the biggest fascist threat of the 21st century, simultaneously undergoing rapid institutional and social reformation, simultaneously trying to feed the world, simultaneously defending ourself on the informational battleground, simultaneously being the moral ideal for the rest of the world? And any wrong step left or right would, in the eyes of the inernational community, make our total extinction justified? And is there any other country in the world that has the same amount of expectations placed on them?

Because, in the end, there is time and context of conversation. If you feel like discussing the miniscule details and contexts of ukrainian nationalistic past; or appropriateness of internal response to right-wing ideas in the current online discourse is going to lead to any meaningful change, be my guest. I know I can’t express any of my genuine criticisms @ Ukraine on english-majority platforms because anything I say can and will be used against me as an excuse to justify my genocide. Just like radical militaristic islamism is a genuine danger, but I won’t be discussing it in the same space with islamophobes, because I know they are not interested in a honest conversation. Just like some trans people do commit rape, and it is a problem, but I won’t be discussing it in the same space with terfs because they are not interested in honest conversation.

I’m not going to tell you what to do, you are your own boss. Even though it looks like your heart is in right place, and I feel bad for being harsh on you, but you are still russian, even if an ethnic minority. And on this blog I ignore russians unless the context of conversation gives me an opportunity of making an educational content. Even though you had noble intentions, you did repeat the narrative used by anti-ukrainian pundits, and leaving this without response could be interpreted as me trying to hide the truth.

#I did try to edit out the hostility but if I failed it's because you simply can't hid the bitch

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kkaebsongtypo · 4 years ago

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why wont you love me // hrj [02]

pairing: renjun x reader

genre: friends to lovers, slow burn, fluff, slight angst

wanings/notes: alcohol consumption (all parties are of legal age, drink responsibly!), mentions/symptoms of anxiety, mentions/signs of abandonment issues, jealousy, inspired by the song Why Won't You Love Me by 5sos

(warnings/notes are subject to change and updates if needed.)

word count: 2.1k

Renjun and y/n are an inseparable pair; they know each other like the back of their own hands. For the most part. Renjun keeps his true feelings hidden; y/n refuses to acknowledge their own. Both hold the fear of losing each other. But will one night out and a little too much to drink change everything?

a/n: hello part two is f i n a l l y here- sorry for the super long wait ;-; lmk if you want to be in a taglist ^-^

A week without Renjun and the boys proved to be a lot more difficult than you expected. On any other day, a normal day, you would have Renjun or Jisung on video call to keep you company whilst doing your work, cleaning the house, or just any other task. On any other day, you’d have a few of the boys lounging around your apartment, studying, doing project work, playing video games, spending their time in the comfort of your tidy home if they needed to get away from their own. Most of the time, it didn’t even feel like you lived alone.

Needless to say, with your main group of friends away on their trip, you were bored. With the boys doing their own trip activities, it was hard to get a normal, lengthy video call in. Procrastination was one of your biggest enemies in the deafening silence of your empty apartment. Without the company of your friends occupying your phone, and your current lack of self control, you were sprawled out on your bed scrolling through Instagram, your essay long forgotten.

You sat up abruptly when you opened Renjun’s story and were greeted with a photo of him and a shorter girl wrapped in his arms. Your chest tightened and at their bright smiles. You chewed on your bottom lip as you stared at the photo, the strange sensation in your chest growing. After a few seconds, you decided to close the app, the feeling (which, you concluded to be anxiety) building inside of you became overwhelming very quickly. You placed your phone face down on your bed and slowly laid back against the covers. You stared blankly at your ceiling and drummed your fingers on your bedsheets and chest.

A ding sounded from your phone and your hand flew to grab it. You hesitated to look at the screen though, unsure if you were hoping it was from Renjun or not. Ten seconds passed, and after a deep breath, you look at the message. A sigh fell from your lips when you read the contact name. It was from Jisung. You couldn’t tell if you were relieved or disappointed that it wasn’t Renjun as the anxiety in your chest continued to swirl.

bby chick <3: Are you busy rn bby chick <3: Can u vc bby chick <3: I miss you :(

You felt a pang of guilt for feeling slightly disappointed as you read the younger boys messages. You truly did miss him as well. The situation prior to his messages simply threw you off and into a frenzy of other feelings. Your fingers typed a response quickly.

: I miss you too :( : and no I am not busy, call me <3

It took no longer than 5 seconds for a video call from Jisung to pop up. After a deep breath to push down the previous discomfort within you, you put on a small smile and answered the call. The sight of Jisung’s face lighting up instantly when you appeared on his screen made your smile become more real, the photo of Renjun and that girl being pushed aside for the time being.

“Hii y/n!!” Jisungs voice was lively and excited. The setting sun shone a warm glow on him and the hotel wall. He waved to you, and you waved back.

“Hey Sunggie, how are you doing?” You asked. He didn’t hesitate to respond.

“I’m good, the guys and I miss you tons though! How are you?” Your chest tightened when he returned the question. It always broke your facade at times like this.

“I’m- I’m uh… yeah, I’m good.” Your feeble attempt at seeming okay was unconvincing as hot tears rolled down your cheeks with each blink. The uncomfortable feeling in your chest returned and your breathing quickened. Though your vision was blurred, you noticed Jisung’s expression fall into one of shock and panic.

“Wha- what’s wrong? Are you okay? Why are you crying?” He stuttered, reaching towards the camera as if trying to reach directly to you. You wiped your cheeks frantically with your sleeves and sniffled, a pathetic laugh falling from your lips.

“Yeah, I’m fine! Nothing is wrong, Ji, don’t worry-” Jisung cut you off gently. Tears continued to fall from your eyes involuntarily.

“Y/n… please don’t lie to me… you’re clearly not fine…” Your chest tightened more at the sadness in his voice. He didn’t like seeing you upset, it made him sad seeing his friend in distress. You tried to dry your tears again, but it was no use. With a quiet sigh of frustration, you ran your hand through your hair. There was no use in trying to lie again, your feelings were impossible to hide at this point.

“I- ugh. Yeah, you’re right. I’m not really okay- I’m sorry.” You looked down at your lap, fiddling with your fingers. Jisung furrowed his eyebrows at your apology.

“No!! Don’t be sorry!” He exclaimed. You glanced up at him and slouched further into yourself. Silence filled both of your rooms. You didn’t know what to say. You were embarrassed; your fear of being abandoned was consuming every bit of you with each passing second the longer you stayed in your head. Abandonment issues weren’t something you’ve ever talked about with any of your friends, there was never a reason to. Not until you saw that photo of Renjun.

The silence stayed for what felt like an eternity of being stuck in your own thoughts on a loop. No matter how many times you tried to tell yourself that Renjun would never just drop you out of the blue, the anxiety just pushed back. Part of you says “he wouldn’t.” but the other part of you fights back with “but he could.” It was a never ending loop; spiraling into yourself with no end in sight. Jisung snapped you out of your thoughts with a question that caused your cheeks to burn with anxiety.

“Do you want to talk about it?” You chewed on your bottom lip and tried to sort your thoughts before speaking. Tears began forming in the corners of your eyes again and they fell down your still damp cheeks when you blinked.

“It’s- ahh. It’s just- that photo of Renjun and that girl. It’s like, stupid but I think it was just anxiety saying like ‘oh Renjun found someone new he doesn’t love me anymore’ kind of-” The string of words fell from you lips quickly and in a mess, your insecurities growing and getting the best of you. Your voice cracked and you sniffled before taking a shaky breath and rubbing your eyes, giving Jisung the opportunity to speak. He was hesitant at first, his voice wavering slightly; he wasn’t exactly sure what to do.

“Hey- um- breathe for a second. Can you, uhm, can you show me the photo?” You nodded and picked up your phone to open Instagram. A feeling of dread grew in your chest and stomach as your finger hovered over Renjun’s story. With a deep sigh, you opened the story, the photo popping up on your screen. You stared at Renjun’s smile for a second before tapping on the small paper airplane icon and sending it to Jisung. You waited quietly as Jisung opened Instagram to see the image. You laid on your back and positioned your phone next to you so the boy could still see you when he returned to the call.

While you were swimming in your own variety of conclusions, Jisung stared at the photo you had just sent, unsure of his next words. He ran his hands over his face and through his hair, knowing that he could potentially make you feel even worse in one way or another.

“Y/n- oh my goodness. Okay- that’s not- that’s like Renjun’s second cousin. We just met her today!” You stared at your ceiling as Jisung returned to the video call.

“I… are you serious? Oh my gosh.” You groaned, tears beginning to fall faster again. Jisung frowned and furrowed his eyebrows, still hating to see you so upset.

“Yeah! Please don’t cry.” Jisung tried to comfort you as best as he could through a tiny screen. You sniffled and whipped the tears from your face, only for more to fall. He sighed softly, feeling slightly helpless.

“Look, even if that wasn’t his relative, I can assure you that all of us love you and we would never just up and leave you for anyone else. Renjun especially. y/n he…” He paused for a second, trying to pick his words cautiously to avoid exposing any secrets that weren’t his.

“You’re his best friend. He, of all people, would never, ever do that to you.” Your tears began to slow as you listened to Jisung, taking in everything he said. The external rationalization was reassuring, but the ache from the idea of losing Renjun continued to loom deep in your chest.

“I know that your anxiety clouds your judgement sometimes but if I can do anything to help at any time, please let me know.” He paused for a second, quickly realizing that you were keeping quiet.

“But if you can’t talk to me for whatever reason, try to remember what I just said.” You sighed softly. Jisung was really trying, and even though your thoughts continued to run wild, you were grateful for his efforts.

“Thank you, Ji. I really appreciate it. I’m sorry for all that; it was just a huge scare about my best friend leaving me over what turned out to be nothing.” You rolled your eyes at yourself. You jumped to conclusions and got upset over a misunderstanding; you felt foolish. Jisung perked up and was quick to validate your feelings.

“Oh! No, please don’t feel like you need to say sorry for feeling.” He frowned at you and played with his fingers. You pursed your lips and looked down at your lap. Silence lingered for a couple seconds before Jisung spoke up again.

“Um, okay. I’m sorry of this is a dumb question, but like- are you sure that was the only reason for your reaction..?” The question made you tilt your head and bring your eyebrows together in slight confusion.

“Uh? Yes? What do you mean?” Jisung turned away and scratched the back of his neck.

“Ah like, I dunno. The use of best friend- I mean like, are you sure you aren’t like, jealous?” Jisung turned his head down slightly, looking up at you with a careful gaze, nibbling the inside of his lip. Your eyes widened and you blinked a few times. Your lips parted to speak and you raised your eyebrows, but the words got caught in your throat. Why is this so hard to answer? You furrowed your brows for a second, regaining your composure enough to form some sort of coherent sentence.

“Oh- well I mean I guess maybe?? But no. What?? He’s my best friend and he’ll always be my best friend.” You tripped over your words as they came out in a mess. Your heart sped up and your cheeks warmed slightly. What is happening?? Jisung furrowed his eyebrows and tugged at his fingers as words began falling from his lips.

“Right- I’m sorry-” He started to panic, but you cut him off softly before he could ramble an apology.

“It’s fine Jisung, don’t worry about it.” You sent him a small, half smile. He chewed on his bottom lip and averted his gaze. Without letting the guilt-filled silence linger, you sighed and clapped your hands together.

“Enough about this stuff. Tell me more about the trip, what have you been up to?” You smiled softly. Jisung looked at you hesitantly and you nodded; an attempt at reassuring him. He took a second and raised his eyebrows before breaking into a smile.

“Well, the day after we arrived we just sort of slept in, but in the afternoon we went into the city...” You smiled as enthusiasm filled his eyes again, but his voice became mere background noise as you got lost in your thoughts once more. Jisung’s previous question coming back and lingering in your mind; “are you sure that was the only reason for your reaction?”

Renjun is my best friend. I don’t want anything more.

You did your best to shake it from consuming you, wanting to focus on Jisung instead. But the tiniest voice in the back of your mind repeated in a loop, Renjun is my best friend. I don’t want anything more. Right?

Taglist: @lolibaaae @currentlyraisinghell

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disclaimer: updates will be stagnant. thank you for understanding :)

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dystopiandilfs · 4 years ago

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God not to be bitter as all hell, but I’m so glad that people are finally talking about ranboo. He’s always kind of pissed me off, and half the time I have no idea why. At the very best of times I think he can be funny and charming, and at the very worst, he is annoying, boring, and downright grating.

I can’t tell you how much I hate his style of roleplay. He relies ONLY on monologuing his thoughts, which would be fine, if he was good at it. But there is zero subtlety or nuance in any of his rping. Which, ok, not to be too harsh, I mean it is minecraft roleplay, no one is a master actor. But take Tommy’s exile arc for example, it still blows me away (imo) how well he handled his character’s response to the manipulation and abuse, not to mention the themes of suicide and ptsd, and just how the general pacing of the overall arc was so understandable and easily digestible to watch.

But ranboo is out here being praised for ‘the best acting on the smp’. No way. The absolute worst part to me is his dialogue. It’s not always horrible, but he has this crutch thing where I feel like he thinks he needs to constantly fill the silence with talking, but he doesn’t know what to say next, so he’ll just repeat everything he says multiple times. The worst offender I can think of rn is the panic room thing after lmanburg got blown up (Jan 5).

I just looked up a clip, and while I thought having Dream “be there” but not really be there was awesome, everything else was just an 18 min video of ranboo taking to himself. Which I get it, he was hysteric, he was trying to portray his hysteria. But that doesn’t change the fact that I feel like ranboo just talks in circles without actually going anywhere. I remember watching it live and clicking off bc I was so frustrated. And I felt the same about his latest big lore stream, especially with his convo with Sam outside the prison, just like ‘get to the point!!’ Lmao.

And I feel like that 100% bleeds over into his sense of humor. Like when he had hinted at traveling and then had his late night stream and chat was loosing their shit the whole time. Ranboo played along for fucking ever, I can’t tell you the amount of times he sarcastically went “nooo... of course I’m not in the UK, that would be ridiculous.” Like, shut up!! Talk about something else! It’s not funny anymore! Anyway, I guess my point is I think that ranboo’s sense of humor relies too heavily on either repeating the punchline, or just, not even having a punchline at all and instead over explaining the setup (or impersonating either technoblade or John mulaney’s speaking pattern—but that’s a whole different argument lol).

Ranboo does drag bits on for a fucking while. Like some are fine but others he isn't clear enough that it's a joke and some of his toxic fans obviously have a bad reaction (this is about his boring bit about not being in MCC) like by all means I don't care that he rattles on about the UK trip as long as you make it clear it's a joke not the whole "chat I'm joking" then immediately going "I'm not joking" like put a bit of text on the corner of the stream to clarify.

People who say Ranboo is the best actor very clearly only watch Ranboo and Techno. /j

The amount of clip channels I've seen condense down Ranboo's 3 hour lore streams into 15 minutes really shows how much he rambles. Like I understand rambling my ADHD makes it very hard to not repeat yourself however when it's lore the dramatic effect is really lost when you say "no oh no please not again" 8 times in one minute. Like have a notepad next to you with a rough script. Like I used to take theatre and my biggest issue was that if I didn't have a guide I would just go on repeating myself until someone stopped me.

#EvangelineNeg

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ash-etherwood · 4 years ago

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Top 5: writing memories, songs, characters that are not blank rune, runes, food

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Linda I love you but are you trying to kill me … that’s so many Top 5’s! But alright, I’ll do my best! (Answers will probably switch between German and English RIP to every non-German-speaker who follows me and wants to read this for some reason I swear I’m normal)

WRITING MEMORIES

5.) The entire time I spent finishing my first (second?) longer writing project It was the year 2012 and it was a cyberpunk story about my friends’ and my edgy self inserts riding dinosaurs, fighting aliens and being badass. The plot twist in the end was that my character was secretly evil and wanted to kill everyone. (Things to show your therapist) The final boss fight made zero sense and also everything was incredibly weird and stupid. But sometimes I still think about those times when I sat in my grandma’s living room at night, eating chips and listening to Vocaloid covers while thinking this story was the coolest shit ever. Truly simpler times.

4.) Researching something about universities in Texas for OvF on a rainy Saturday afternoon I have no idea why this memory is still sticking with me to this day (I think it was around 2016 or something?), but I remember that it was just a really nice day and I felt really at peace at that moment?

3.) The entire writing process of Bathroom Blues It was such a spontaneous project and I still have no idea how I managed to power though it in just a little under two months! Also it was just incredibly fun seeing you getting excited over new drafts and I loved coming up with new plot points and Halloween costumes for everyone with you. :-D Truly a summer worth remembering.

2.) FINALLY uploading the prologue and intro chapter of WWBL Not really a writing memory, but that moment was … so sexy and magical. Seriously, you have no idea how long I had been waiting to finally start that story, waiting for the Steckbriefe to roll in and see people react to the prologue and generally the idea … I even made one of those countdown graphic thingies for the designated upload date! 8D At that point I had planned that story for about six months and just … yeah, that felt powerful to me.

1.) Writing the prologue for WWBL When I first started the draft for that prologue I was sitting at the window in my favourite hotel in Winterberg, Sauerland, wore my dark green flannel, had the window wide open breathing in the cool mountain air and allowed myself to listen to my WWBL playlist for the very first time. God, that felt so amazing. I even have a photo of it (which somehow makes it look like I have the biggest football shoulders in the universe) my sister took that night. God I miss Sauerland. )’:

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SONGS

My apologies to every favourite song of mine that I forgot about, I have a whole playlist of them, but I think these are some of my oldest faves … (Honorable mentions for Don’t Mess With Me and Not That Big by Temposhark, Goodbye by Apparat, Me And The Devil by Soap&Skin, Heart Heart Head by Meg Myers, Pain and Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace, Beautiful Crime by Tamer, Gravity Of Love by Enigma, In Flames by Digital Daggers [thanks Phi u_u] and Murder Cries by Snow Ghosts AHHH FUCK IT I could’ve just made a playlist,,,)

5.) Vater Unser by E Nomine Starting off with some weird shit, won’t we? I’ve been in love with this song since fifth or sixth grade, when I was just starting to develop an actual music taste and although I have many favourite songs by E Nomine, this one has to be my absolute fave. Every time I can relate it to a character it makes me love said character even more. (Also I think about it every time my mom forces me to go to church for Christmas so … yay? I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t even be able to remember the Vater Unser if it wasn’t for this song. 8D)

4.) Wires by The Neighbourhood I think this is the newest all-time fave on this list, I found it in … 2015? Thank you, Youtube AMVs. Yeah man, this one is just … on so many playlists it’s not even funny anymore.

3.) Heathens by Twenty One Pilots An edgelord classic but like … it’s on EVERY playlist of mine. Every single one. It’s just so good. The first time I heard it was on the radio tho, when I was having breakfast with Jessie and I forced her to shazam it because it immediately stuck with me,,,

2.) Imaginary by Evanescence My first Evanescence song ever and the first step towards becoming who I am today I think. This song has like … such a big history for me, man. It single-handedly turned me goth in 2008 and I have never really thanked it for that.

1.) Eternal by Evanescence Might be my favourite song of all time. The number of dramatic RP scenes I have written with this in the background … man. Oh, also this song is the reason for one of my oldest internet nicknames, ‘eternala’, which subsequently shortened into Etschuh and then Tschuh, my main nickname until 2017, when I came out as trans and finally found an actual name for myself I was comfortable with!

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NON BLANK RUNE CHARACTERS

I know this was probably supposed to be about fandom characters but I can literally not come up with a single character right now that I love with a special burning passion and that is not my or one of my friends’ OCs so you’re getting OCs now. u_u And boy do I have a lot of those.

5.) Jackson Tracey from atroCITY (mine) This little piece of shit kept me company for a pretty long time and is still very close to my heart for some reason, although I haven’t drawn him or really thought about him in detail for a while now. My favourite thing is how I only realized what a horrible person he was after I stopped regularly working with him but honestly good for me. 8D His storyline and personality is kinda convoluted and tbh I’m not really sure how much of it is canon anyway (atrc was always a little weird about canon rip) but yeah. He’s an obsessive stalker piece of shit who pities himself way too much and he is also a semi-immortal demigod who likes knives. I hate him but he also helped me a lot with some gender and sexuality stuff so thanks I guess.

4.) Mayoko Imai from Century Riders DXPrototype (Maus’ and mine) Mayoko is a magical girl protagonist with a cool cyborg arm prosthetic and her main character trait was that she was basically a reverse weeaboo, a Japanese girl who was obsessed with American media, culture and comic book heroes! I actually love her concept a lot and she also had a pretty cool character arc in her story (which Maus and I wrote together and actually finished btw!), although it could use a lot more … polishing from today’s point of view. But I love her anyway. She always wanted to do the right thing and be a hero and got broken pretty cruelly and her ending is kinda bittersweet I guess? Ahh there’s just so much nuance to it … anyways, CR3 also stuck with me for a very long time and I enjoyed the time with her a lot. :3 (Her name had a cameo in Another Incident btw heehee)

3.) Tessa *insert extremely long chain of unnecessary first names here* von Lean from Nobody Is Perfect and Infernal Temptation (belongs to one of my old school friends) Tessa is just … a hand full. I love to hate her. She is badly written and developed and just OOZES mentally ill teenage girl’s idealized self-insert power fantasy, but she just … man, she was a big part of one of my most drama-filled high school friendships which I love looking back at so much. Tessa has fucked so many of my characters … good for her tbh! There are actually two versions of her, one is just a ‘normal’ teenage girl and one can shapeshift into a cheetah, but both of them are very close to my heart. I should really adopt and redesign her some day.

2.) Judy Khayat from Original vs. Final (mine) Look, I love all my OvF-characters and every single one of them is special to me in their own way, but Judy is just … the most complex of them all I think? Man, she went through so much … she is actually one of my oldest (semi)-active characters (I created her in 2009) and her latest version is from 2016 but I should really, REALLY revise her again tbh. She has a very complicated backstory that I didn’t handle as carefully as I should have, and anger issues and religious conflict and depression and PTSD and then Vance of all people becomes obsessed with her for no reason and decides to traumatize her even more … yeah. God I really love her but I seriously need to work on her. A LOT. I should also finally rename her tbh … let’s just see where she takes me next.

1.) Okami (I don’t even remember if she has a proper last name rn lol) from Split Realm (mine) Yeah, that bitch is just my favourite OC. She’s also very old, probably from around 2009, and initially was a magical girl with fire powers who I played in an RP with my friend Flauch but boy did she grow up! Holy fuck. Okami is a horrible person but I love her so much. She is so violent and full of anger and pain and sadness and treats everyone around her like shit and she is in love and she is a demon but also apparently the personification of the concept of Chaos but she just wants to be a teenager again and run away with the love of her life and ahhh it’s all so hopeless for her … also she turned out gnc af with time passing and pretty much went through a gender/sexuality crisis in real time with me, her creator, which is always fun. :^D I haven’t drawn her in a while tbh. Should really do that.

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RUNES IN BLANK RUNE

I’m just gonna go with the arcs here, okay? Also this entire answer might look completely different if you asked me again tomorrow, you know how indecisive I am with Blank Rune shit ahha,,,

5.) Jera Look. I know I’m boring and stupid. But I just love Tave and Liam having their disgusting little foreshadowing talk, okay? I can read it over and over. I just love my horrible little shit crime boys. Also Rhy and Phillip are there. (’:

4.) Isa This one is here because it was the first arc I witnessed in real time which gives it a very special place in my heart and it also … hit pretty hard at the time. But having read Fehu it’s become even better now! It’s just such a wonderful, tragic romance between two horrible, ruthless boys and I … I’m not immune to Rhy, sadly. :-/ Just like Phillip.

3.) Wunjo We still haven’t seen everything that leads up to Wunjo yet, but we DO know more than we did initially (wow shocker) and it’s just always a fucking blast. Also, it has the first mention of Ash’s real name … the first Rhy POV (which what the fuck!! I always feel like we had one before but we didn’t!! Wild) and it has crazy blood-soaked murder Tave, my beloved. :///3

2.) Eiwaz You guys have heard me fanboy about Eiwaz so many times already. Eiwaz-OT3 (and Kain) my beloved!!! It’s just SUCH an amazing starting point and there are so, so many things that tie back to it and every time we find out about a new one my heart makes a little jump … und es beginnt von Neuem indeed.

1.) Gebo One of the most painful but also the most beautiful arcs yet in my opinion. It’s been hyped up for so long and boy did it deliver. God, my heart still hurts when I think about that last scene. Also all the dialogue … the golden lines we got … and it’s an arc without Rhy! Crazy!! :-D I just love the relationship between Ash, Astrid and Jakob so much. God fuck I want what they have. Just maybe without the murder suicide,,,

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FOOD

5.) Diese Sonntagsbrötchen wo die Verpackung so plopp macht, wenn man die Folie abzieht Better than normale Brötchen for some reason. Most of the time. See 2.) Look man, I just really love a good breakfast …

4.) Chocolate cupcakes with cream cheese topping One of the first things from a certain baking book I tried when I was getting into baking back in 2019. God they are so tasty. I don’t make them often so I don’t get used to them too much and eating them still feels special but ahhhh I love them so much!

3.) Grünkohl mit Kartoffelbrei und Mettendchen One of my favourite things about autumn/winter and one of my biggest comfort foods. God I love this shit so much. I just put … mountains of Grünkohl and Kartoffelbrei on my plate every time and I will just warm it up for four days straight until there’s no more left. It turns me into a fucking caveman. I’m not even big on eating meat but … yeah. Everything is different when there’s Grünkohl.

2.) Normales Brötchen mit Butter und Scheibenkäse aber ich bin beim Frühstücksbuffet im Hotel Oddly specific but that’s just how it is. Sorry. Nichts geht über Brötchen mit Käse.

1.) Chilli-Knoblauch-Nudelauflauf My beloved. My comfort food. I eat it literally every second day. At least one hour in the kitchen every time. Fresh ingredients. My only vegetable intake. And I’ve been doing that for three years. I just love it so much, man. I cook it for everyone who visits me. Chilli-Knoblauch-Auflauf cured my depression.

#ask #crimsondaisy #2.4k works of me talking about myself under the cut rip #thank you tho!!!

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goshikitsutomusmommy · 4 years ago

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hi!! congrats for the milestone 🤍 can I maybe get a male matchup? (2 characters if that’s fine w you). my top 3 traits are being independent, perfectionist, and soft-hearted. some hobbies i enjoy are dancing, baking, origami, and listening to music. some things i like are kpop, rain/snow, shojou manga, green tea, cookies, and fashion. things I don’t like are crowded places, loud noises, and bugs. I think my biggest flaw is being too secretive if that makes sense? like I don’t overshare bc I feel like other ppl could use that info against me later or I feel annoying when I talk about my own feelings so I keep a lot of my thoughts to myself. ig trust issues is another way to put it. in my opinion, the biggest turn offs in a relationship are when they don’t know how to have fun, inability to communicate, and being close minded. hmm the only characters I don’t want to be matched with are daichi (I love him but he gives me big brother vibes), kindaichi, tanaka (I ship him with kiyoko), or just any random background characters bc i don’t rlly pay attention to them (pls i feel like i’m being picky rn). but other than that i’m fine with pretty much anyone. haha ty in advance!!

I Match You with Yamaguchi;—

At first I was planning on matching you with someone like Osamu but he was a bit loud at times and would probably forget to communicate in a relationship then I thought about it again... Yamaguchi!

Yamaguchi is seen is the guy who’s always following Tsukishima but he’s way more than that! He’s understanding, soft hearted, and strong willed. All of these traits would fit perfectly with yours.

He’ll join you in your random dancing breaks whilst making cookies together, rain pouring heavily outside but you don’t seem to mind. Just being there together is enough to distract you from everything else surrounding the two of you.

He’s also a bit closed off given that he doesn’t share much information about his personal life to his volleyball peers, so he would understand where you’re coming from by not sharing a lot of things at first. Slowly, the two of you will start opening up to each other and falling even deeper for one another that before.

As I mentioned before, people overlook how adventurous he is due to the fact he always sticks with Tsukki, but he seems to be the type to sneak out with you and sit by the swings at a nearby park.

Overall, you and Yamaguchi are a very soft and cute couple, that doesn’t mean he won’t beat someone’s ass if they date wrong you LMAOO.

I Match You with Semi;—

Here I’m going for more of an opposites attract type relationship as you can see😭😭. Semi’s personality is a bit contradicting to yours but I genuinely think your relationship would work!

You’re a soft hearted individual meanwhile he’s very hot headed and loses his stoic facade at times! I think he’ll toughen you up a bit and you’ll teach him how to handle his negative emotions in a better manner.

I headcanon Semi to be very into K-pop along with Tendou (they run a K-pop fan page... I just know it!), so you two will discuss your favorite artists and bands along with whose bias is better! He’s also cares about fashion even though his friends bash his sense of style quite frequently LMAOO (poor him </33).

Semi is not the brightest, per se... so you would have to inform him about your prior trust issues; he might think he did something wrong or it’s personal </33. But after you clear it up to him, he’ll be very determined to gain your trust!

Being bored is nothing you’ll have to worry about when you’re with someone like Semi, everyday with him is chaotic in the best way possible! He’s also very open with anything, you can tell him whatever’s on your mind without any fear of being judged whatsoever.

Overall, you and Semi are admired by your peers for your amazing connection together and communication skills. Not all couples have that chemistry so you two are very much special!

Author’s Note : Hi!! Thank youuuu <333 I hope you enjoy this and it was accurate LMAOO

#susss. events

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obx-direction-sos · 4 years ago

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Hey, so I'm bored, so I'm doing this don't know if I'm doing it correctly tho?

why I'm single: I have not met the one, and I am insecure

How's my relationship going: none existing except for the one in my dreams with Phillip Hamilton

What do you dream about at night: It depends. I have suffered in the past with nightmares every night that lasted for half a year, but that's gone🤞🤞

What are you afraid of?: girl too much, but biggest fears is throwing up that fills way too much

What's your favorite song?: My Shot from Hamilton

Tell me about the book your reading: I am currently reading Anne frank's diary, but I have reached the point where I get way too depressed after reading it.

A poem or lyrics that won't leave your head: literally all the songs from Hamilton

Tell me about your secret crush: I don't think I have one

Where would you go if money wasn't an issue: I would take like a long time going to Paris and London again, and then I would love to see New York and Italy

What's your deepest wish?: Becoming a successful actress.

Do you believe in magic: of course!

What's the weirdest thing that happened to you?: omg way too many things I can't even chose.

What do you need to get off your chest: I don't think the whole Tumblr should know😂

What are you mad about?: a specific person from my class

What are you excited about?: when the musical I'm in starts up again

Are you afraid of the future?:.......Yes

Sorry for that whole rant hope you're doing well, hun, always feel free to text me!❤️

omg hi hi!

i’m not sure if this is correct, BUTTTT i love this! ask me’s are chill, but i like joe you told me more about yourself! personally, i loved the way you did this :) i’m gonna “reply” to some stuff you said !!

why i’m single: there is definitely no reason to feel insecure about yourself! like, you don’t see your face when your favorite song comes on, and how it glows up every time your favorite scene comes on the screen! you are perfect in every single way, and i know, reading stuff like this is chill but it’s hard to take it to heart, give it time :) and you WILL find the one because you ARE gorgeous and i’m definitely sure you have an amazing personality :)

how’s my relationship going: and that is perfectly okay! mental relationships are honestly the best ones, you get to control everything🤠

what do you dream about at night: thank goodness they’re gone! i’m sure they made you an even stronger person to this day :)

what you’re afraid of: it’s a fact in my book. throwing up is indeed disgusting and every time i have a stomach ache i freak because i think i will. but anyways lol gang gang

what your favorite song is: my shot yessssss! i watched hamilton but i’m also not the most theatrical (i’ll watch it again since glee made me wanna try in chorus) but i can totally give it a shot!

tell me about the book you’re reading: ANNE FRANK’S DIARY IS SO SAD😭😭 well kinda i guess :( good book choice :)

a poem or lyric that won’t leave your head: hamilton yes slayyyy :)

tell me about your secret crush: it’s perfectly amazing that you do not have a secret crush !! without liking anyone rn, you should work on loving your insecurities :))))))) itll help for when you get into a relationship (at least that’s what my vsco says lmao)

where would you go if money wasn’t an issue: paris, london, italy!! oh man are we the same?!? they all sound lovely :) oh, i’m from new york! for some reason, i don’t get the huge rave about nyc even though i love it and taking pictures and the whole happy environment, but i go like 3 times a year lol maybe that’s why. BUTTTT it definitely is amazing!

what’s your deepest wish: you got this! i believe in you so much! hard work is the key to aNyThInG, even if you’re already the best of the best ;)

do you believe in magic: GANG GANG! my friends think i’m weird but i will never accept the fact that fracaso malfoy is a character. he’s not. he’s alive. what kind of magic do you believe in?

weirdest thing: life is weird bro, super weird😂😂

get off your chest: if you ever need to talk about it i’m here :)

what are you mad about: not just you, people do be annoying sometimes😂

what are you excited about: YES SLAY WHAT MUSICAL?!?

are you afraid of the future: it’s scary man. you never know what’s coming and what’s not. it’s sick.

I LOVED YOUR RANT SM✨✨✨

i hope you’re doing well too❤️

i’m always here if you need me :)

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ellie-sande · 5 years ago

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Euphoria- a dumb bitch’s HOT TAKE

Okay, so here’s the deal. I’m gonna do an analysis of the characters I think are the most interesting (read as fuck McKay, he boring as SHIIIITT), so this shit is gonna be looooong. Y’all better brace yourselves UwUUUU 🥺😝😩😈

The episode: I didn’t really feel a strong emotion towards it??? Like, it was definitely the sloppiest episode by far in terms of the way that everything was edited and the timeline of events. It was visually stimulating and literal poetic cinema, as always, but that’s nothing new with Euphoria. I think a lot of the jumps between characters and scenes were completely unnecessary and honestly kind of agitating?? Instead of leaving us with new unanswered questions, we have the same ones we’ve had the whole season? In my opinion, it would’ve been more effective for them to have fully closed some plot points or at least bring them to a point where I’m still interested (I’m looking at you, Nate and Jules plot). But like, overall it's still a pretty decent episode. I think the ending was messy because we don’t know how much of it was just a music video and how much was legit part of the storyline which is a BIG DEAL. It just came after one of the best in the season, which made it feel significantly weaker. but tHat’S jUsT my oPINION 🤷🏾‍♀️.

Jules:

I think Jules is the biggest wildcard of the season, and we know so little about her, so it’s kind of difficult to understand what her intention is. I think that’s absolutely intentional by the writers because they want the audience in Rue’s head, y’know??? That’s my way of warning y’all that this shit is LONG 🤷🏾‍♀️

When Jules came clean about everything, she was doing what she thought was best for the relationship, which is open communication. She could tell that her not telling Rue about Nate was ruining the relationship (she said so in ep. 7). There was never malicious intent in her telling Rue about her hookup and Nate. She was just doing what she thought was right, and tbh??? IM PROUD OF THAT DUMBASS. One of her biggest issues is definitely effective and open communication and this is definitely a step in the right direction, y’know??

THAT BEING SAID, when I first watched the episode, I thought that her and Anna still flirting or whatevah and being iN loVE was out of character and went against the arc that I was expecting from Jules. BUUUUUT, I thought about it and here’s my take: I think that Jules just wants to be free from the external pressures in east highland, y’know? This whole entire season, her character did not get a fucking BREAK so I totally understand. There’s so much responsibility and pressure for her to be perfect or act a certain way, and for her, running away was the easiest way for her to disassociate herself from that responsibility. No 17 yr old should feel like the weight of the world and the safety of the people that she loves are on her shoulders. My bby @lameparty made an amazing point in our chat about how all of her actions (being more “free” and open about her issues with rue) are futile attempts at replicating the liberation and nonchalant-ness she felt while she was away. It’s her way of desperately (and unhealthily) bringing home that atmosphere.

i’ve seen a lot of people assume that jules is fully aware of her power over rue and takes advantage of it, uses her, and leaves her before she needs her next fix of attention, but i totally don’t agree??? i think that for the most part, jules has been emotionally supportive of rue and has been there for her when she needed her. i mean she did that LITERALLY EVERY EPISODE EXCEPT FOR 6+7 (for good reason. the bitch was going through the mOST). she never wanted or intended for rue to form a dependency on her, she just wanted her best friend to be sober and thrive because her mom was an addict and that ruined her adolescence (for obvious reasons). so when the people around her kept pressuring her with the weight of rue’s sobriety, she freaked out a bit (and for good reason. no one should be anyone’s sole reason to do literally ANYTHING). she knew that regardless of the severity of her actions, rue’s relapse was inevitable if the relationship continued on like that (i mean, in ep. 5, the bitch said WHEN you hate me, not if because she knows that in rue’s current mental state, a relapse, miscommunication, or a wrong step on jules’s side is inevitable). PLUS, jules is an extremely volatile person. her first instinct is to physically and emotionally escape whenever the going gets tough, so i think she knew that this probably couldn’t work.

Moreover, the bitch is embracing her queerness and as much as I don’t really looooveeee how she’s doing it, it makes sense with her character. I think she uses sex as an escape and a form of validation, so of course this is how she’s going to explore her sexuality. She just wants to be free and have fun and be adventurous atm and the whole Nate thing + being in her first relationship is not IT for her rn and that’s totally fair. That being said, I think her arc is gonna be about her accepting that freedom isn’t just sex and drugs??? It’s way more than that and comes in different (and way healthier) ways, but that’s what growing is. It’s learning from mistakes and figuring out what you like, so I can’t really be mad at her.

BUUUUUTTTT, my bitch said/did some things that i can’t stand by. she said that she loved rue at the train station, knowing that rue is weak for her and would probably give in and come with her on this wild adventure. that is FUCKING PROBLEMATIC. and prior to that, the bitch said that she THOUGHT THAT RUE WOULD THRIVE IN THE ENVIRONMENT THAT SHE WAS IN. WHAT??? as much as i believe that she had good intentions and she really just wanted to explore the world with her girl, that doesn’t negate the fact that it’s still manipulative at worst, inconsiderate at best, and problematic considering the dynamic that the two of them have. i get that she genuinely wants rue to meet her new friends and anna, but all in all, it’s so reckless for her to even consider it. she’s aware that rue is a recovering addict and she was willing to put her in a toxic environment where she would be surrounded by drugs and alcohol, making a relapse literally SO EASY. and on top of that, jules knows that she’s probably going to hook up with anna and considering that rue is so in love with jules, that would’ve hurt her soooo much, enough for her to probably want to numb the pain, y’know??? but all in all, that’s what growing up is. it’s two steps forward and one step back, y’know? even though jules is starting to see the beauty in honest communication and queerness, she did try to manipulate rue, even if that wasn’t necessarily her intention.

I think that Anna replaces Jules’s older, non-committal man to pine over. She never really fixed her problem of trying to find validation from the wrong people, it’s just expressing itself in a different form. It’s obvious that Anna is significantly older than her (peep the message that Anna sent about being shocked that Jules is in high school) and I think that just like a lot of people her age, she feels special or validated when she’s liked by someone older and more experienced. The relationship is obviously supposed to be a type of foil to her previous relationship with cis white men. Add the fact that there are facets of Anna’s personality that remind Jules of Rue, the gal that Jules is falling for, which makes them the perfect person for Jules to pine over because the relationship is something that she’s used to (texting, non-committal, toxic).

In summary, I think she loves the idea of Anna (independent, older, experienced, free spirited, and fun) but loves rue regardless of the fact that she doesn’t/can’t provide those things for her. I think that jules also associates Anna with adventure and discovery and as the young ambitious bitch that she is, it obviously is an attractive idea for her y’know??? for her, i think rue is the stability, monogamy and commitment that she might not be ready for yet, even tho she loves rue and wants a future with her. Her relationship with Rue is hard work and maybe a bit heartbreaking, but overall, the connection is stronger and the passion and commitment that she’ll give and receive will make the relationship way more fulfilling than whatever half-assed thing she’ll have with Anna. Next season, she’ll probably come back either heartbroken, unfulfilled or still in love with Rue, but the question is should rue take her back or nah y’know?? She’ll definitely be pining for Rue when she gets back and rue may not be available or willing anymore. We’ll seeeeeeeee.

Rue:

My bitch is in PAIIINNN and I hate it. I think that her saying no to leaving with Jules even if a big part of her wanted to run away with her is amazing progress for her. She finally chose her family and herself first, not Jules, which will break her dependence on Jules. Like, I’m SOOOOO proud of her and she’s come so far as a character. I’m not sure as to where the music video starts and the season ends, but I have two theories. Either she: never actually snorted that line of coke and we’ll see her progress next season OR she overdosed and came back to life. The fact that the song ended so abruptly means that the season will probably start right where it left off. Unless told otherwise tho, the show ends with her crying and remembering her family and all the shit she’s put them through because that’s a waaayyy more interesting arc (EDIT: JACOB SAID THAT RUE’S DEFINITELY ALIVE!!! I KEEP WINNING FR!!! MY! MIND!) She’s no longer a selfish addict with no reason to live. She’s seeing that the people around her, even without Jules there, support her and have been by her side through the most and maybe that’s good enough atm.

Lexi:

against popular opinion, i don’t necessarily think that the big reveal of her sexuality is that she’s a lesbian. to ME, it seems like they’re setting up that she’s ace and probs bi or homo-romantic??? the average sexual person knows who they want to fuck or kiss, and the fact that she has to ask for advice from her sister I think is foreshadowing that she doesn’t know. Not because she’s shy or because she’s a lesbian, but because she truly just doesn’t want to fuck anyone. and if that’s the case i’m SO EXCITED TF??? i’ve never seen that type of character arc on mainstream media and it’s sooo necessary to show that story in a positive light. i think that the show is waaayyy too intentional and clever to not give proper hints at her liking rue. If they were setting up her and rue, they should’ve done more to portray the pining on Lexi’s side. they’ve set up more of a longing for friendship and comfort than anything else and tbh???? that’s wayyy more interesting and relatable for me??? but that’s my opinion 🤷🏾‍♀️

That being said, i could see her and rue together next season bc the foreshadowing is sooo vague that they can do whatever the fuck they want next season. maude and zendaya need to work on their chemistry then bc iTS NOT CLICKING. i definitely think that rue is going to use her tho, which isn’t fair to lexi. additionally, lexi is a bit too soft to stand her ground with rue, and if rue goes down the relapse route next season, their dynamic is going to be the same toxic dynamic they had up until episode 5. She’s an amazing person that deserves better than being an easy out or second best.

i think that because she was raised in her sister’s shadow with a shit ton less attention and love from literally everyone in her family, she has low self-image, so it would make sense that she wants the intimacy that comes from a relationship. maybe her addiction is just being there for others bc no one was there for her when she needed them??? @lameparty spilt the truth tea bc they said that “she exists for other people right now and she exists in the safe + limiting shadow of her sister,” and i think that rue represents a sort of freedom from that because rue is only hers and rue can’t see her as second best to her sister. as a fellow semi-abandoned child turned mom-friend, this makes total sense to me bc she wants to make sure that everyone around her never feels as neglected as she did her whole life.

Rue and Jules:

honestly, i’m tired of people blaming rue’s relapse on jules not being there. she literally has had MI since she was a kid. this shit ain’t new. and even if it was new, the fact that so many of the viewers were angry at jules for not being there during rue’s manic/depressive episode angers me for three reasons. a) JULES WAS DEPRESSED. she legit didn’t leave her bed for the whole week, to the point that her father was worried. b) just like jules, rue probably only told her that she was feeling under the weather and that she missed her. how is she supposed to magically put together that rue is going through a depressive/manic episode??? c) no person should be your sole reason to be happy. y’all want a CODEPENDENCY not a relationship, and like i totally understand wanting to protect rue. she’s the main character and we’re always in her head, but from episode three, it was pretty obvious that her definition of love is really skewed. she said that you know that you love someone when you can’t live without them, which is generally reaaaallly unhealthy.

these two are such an interesting dynamic, and tbh, i think they’re actually really good for each other (not rn, obviously). i think this is a case of right person, wrong time. they’re obviously soul mates/star crossed lovers, but the problem is that neither of them is mature enough to be in a serious relationship. rue is a recovering addict with a dependency issue and jules is an overly eager, ambitious person that’s never been in a loving relationship. one of the biggest issues in their relationship is the fact that these two have different wants and needs from the relationship. rue fell for jules almost immediately, has wanted to be with her ever since, and wants stability, comfort, and monogamy. on the other hand, jules wants adventure, excitement, and exploration. jules obviously pictures spending her life with rue, but the problem is that in the moment, she can’t be with rue without hurting her because she’s still exploring her queerness, which means that she’ll have one foot out the door until she’s gotten her fill.

because of that, i’m really proud of BOTH OF THEM for standing their ground and choosing themselves instead of each other. i have no doubt that both of them had a part of themselves that regretted leaving the other person, but at the end of the day, it was what was necessary.

even though rue was the person that suggested running away, she became hesitant because she finally thought about her FAMILY. y’all, that’s AMAZING character development because, at the beginning of the season, rue literally walked over every person that was in her life in order to get her fix. she stole from her mom, got lexi to pee for her, yelled at fez when he didn’t give her drugs, etc. up until episode 5 or so, rue was an extremely selfish character with one exception: jules. from the moment she met jules, her only goal was to make her as happy as jules makes her just by being there, and because of that, she has sacrificed her comfort in some situations. this is the exact opposite of her previous issue where instead not caring about anyone including herself, she only cares about one person an exceeding amount. both of these are problematic. more importantly, this allows her to finally break her dependency on jules. rue fell for jules and stayed sober for her because it felt like she was her flashlight in the dark cave that is her life, and now, she has to find that jules isn’t the only light. her family, lexi, fez, the rest of the girls are all there AND my hope is that she finds that she can be her own light and do this for herself. as much as her decision hurts both the audience and rue, this shows that she’s not just a stagnant character and that she’s learning and evolving into an amazing person. i’m proud of jules because she didn’t stay behind out of guilt or worry. that would’ve perpetuated rue’s dependency and overall, probably made jules resent rue.

i think that jules was being honest when she said that she was in love with rue, i really do. there was an earnest and almost shy look in her eyes, which was so cute??? but it’s honestly more than that. jules looks for rue no matter where she is. for her, rue is her home and something that she finds comfort in. it was obvious in episode 4 and 7. in episode 4, jules runs to rue because she finds comfort in her. whenever she’s in rue’s arms, she feels a warmth that i don’t think she’s ever felt with anyone else and when she finds that tyler isn’t real, her first thought is that rue has been there for her through thick and thin and is her safe place. it’s obvious why she gravitates towards anna. she sees rue in her, which immediately makes her feel at ease. add the fake deep convo, their sex appeal and the drugs, and you have a hella messy situation. and then there’s the fucking romeo and juliet passage that jules recites to rue that basically says that she’s in love with rue, but thinks everything is happening too fast and will come crashing down. she knows that given that they had more time/weren’t so eager to get together, the relationship would be beautiful and flourish, but they aren’t giving each other the space to grow, which was eventually the end of their relationship (at least for now).

Kat:

I’m proud of her. She did the damn thing. NEXT

Nate:

I think that Nate and McKay are not all that different. His breakdown this ep is more or less for the same reasons as McKay’s breakdown after those guys assaulted him in front of his girl which is that he felt emasculated by his dad overpowering him. In episode two, he did the same flexing thing after his workout. I think it’s his way of feeling powerful and masculine. All this just shows that he needs fucking therapy, but he’s not just some sociopath y’know? His character is deeper than that and can feel pain and anguish. I’m honestly so happy that they included that because it both shows the abuse in his relationship with his dad which obviously carries into his relationships with women and grounds him as a character. that being said, nate is an asshole and there’s no better ship on this show than nate + electric chair 🥺😝😩(but, i’ll settle for prison or whatevahhhhh)

all in all, I think that this show has two amazing themes in it which are: teens are waayyy more resilient than people think and addiction comes in different forms and each of them is problematic and selfish. i think that the show is amazing at getting people to empathize with rue, but i feel like people need to realize that in the grand scheme of things, all of these characters are HUMAN and make a lot of shitty mistakes. no character should be cancelled just because they make a mistake, especially when the characters are supposed to be literal hormonal teenagers????? every character on this show is deserving of the audience's understanding (except McKay. FUCK HIM)

#euphoria #rue x jules #jules x rue #lexi howard #nate jacobs #im spiraling can y'all tell??? akldjfl;asdfkadslkjf;asdkjf;#jules protection squad where y'all AT????

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dumbassbrigade · 5 years ago

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I was tagged by @sleepycarabou and I s2g kara I think this is the first time I’ve made a legit post so tyvm

Rules: answer the 10 questions, write your own 10 questions and tag 10 people

1. What are a few qualities that you admire about yourself?

I like to think that I’m very resilient, I’ve always been able to tackle problems when they appear and I’ve always picked myself up off the ground afterward. I also don’t really let things get to me, no matter how big or small the issue is I am usually able to keep a level head.

2. Do you think that your personality has changed since childhood? If not, can you identify a reason why?

It’s totally changed since childhood! I used to be a really quiet child, I had a hard time making friends and I was always super shy. Now I’m considered the resident crackhead of the gc I’m in and, while I still have some moments where I’m shy, they are few and far between and I’ve become a lot more social/outgoing. It’s really refreshing tbh, I just had to realize that it wasn’t worth trying to be someone I’m not and that I would eventually find people who I could vibe with, no matter how crazy I seem. And I had to learn how to not give a fuck if someone disliked me for a petty reason. Once you learn how to do that you start having a lot more fun in life.

3. Do you believe in karma? Why or why not?

You don’t know how badly I want to believe in karma but I don’t think I do. I’ve always said what goes around comes around and all that jazz but I don’t really believe in any higher powers (karma included) and I’m after seeing bad things happen to good people (and vice versa) and it just doesn’t seem like karma is a thing that exists.

4. What are you most grateful for?

This sounds cheesy but literally everything that has happened to me in the past. Like a lot of it fucking sucked and I wished I didn’t have to go through some of the things I went through but tbh it made me the person I am today. And I like to think that if I didn’t go through all this then I wouldn’t have met the friends that I have now. Also, who’s to say that I’d be better off if I didn’t have the same experiences or all that jazz

5. Do you have a milestone you’re working toward in your life right now? If so, what is it?

Ok, this is going to make me sound hella basic but it’s been my dream to travel the world. I want to visit every country, go to all the famous landmarks, take photos, etc and just experience life. In 2018 I (finally) got my passport and traveled to Florida and started (what will inevitably be a very long) journey to seeing everything the world has to offer. It’s super expensive though and I need to save up some serious cash to do this (and rn I’m only making min wage) so my dream is being put on the back burner. I’m currently going back to school in the fall in hopes of creating some contacts to land me a decent paying job so that I can literally fly anywhere I want, anytime I want.

6. What is the strangest place you’ve ever been/traveled to?

I’m very boring and have literally only traveled to Newfoundland (for university) and Florida (for Disney World). Both are strange in their own way, but I guess if you look at it at face value, Florida is more strange.

7. What decade do you think you belong in the most?

The one I was born into/the one I grew up in. aka 90′s/00′s. I’m too brash/outspoken to fit into any other previous decade (because let’s face it, @sleepycarabou @bigpokico can you really see me as some housewife and being ladylike???)

8. What’s one thing that could happen today to make it a really great day?

It depends on the day tbh. Some days will be great if I see a cute dog, others are great if I see some flowers I like, and some won’t be great unless I get some time to relax and unwind alone with reading/anime/video games.

9. What is your most used word?

Fuck, or some other iteration of it. It’s very versatile and I appreciate that about it.

10. What is the worst thing ever? (left up to interpretation)

It depends ig. Like you have your obvious answers like hunger, disease, racism, etc. But a lot of things are the worst thing ever. Like stubbing your toe or an unsupportive friend/parent or losing something important. It’s all relative and it’s all valid

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My questions

1. If you could change anything about yourself, what would you change? Why would you change it?

2. If you woke up tomorrow with $1,000,000,000, what would you do with it?

3. If you were given the ability to kill one person without any repercussions, would you do it? If so, who would you kill?

4. What was your biggest dream as a child? Has it changed since then?

5. What did you want to be when you were growing up? Have you changed your mind and decided on something else now that you’ve gotten older?

6. Do you have anything you regret doing/not doing?

7. What’s something that you recently started reading/watching and want other people to know about

8. If you could choose your ideal life, what would it look like?

9. What’s your favourite colour. Why is it your favourite?

10. What's your favourite time of day and why?

tagging: @miyulovestowrite @sleepycarabou @bigpokico @theshypsycho @kenmaksuwu @cutietobio @amarie78 @oktamaki @theotakumama @jojosmilktea (bc ur side blog wasn’t working for me)

#lmao as if i actually have 10 people to tag #kara enjoy getting tagged again #i'm also tagging people from the server i'm srry bb #i'm big dumb

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shadako · 6 years ago

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Hello my dudes! Sorry for the silence, I've had some more or less difficult things to deal with lately. Mostly shitty stuff, cause my life, aye! So, the important stuff: 3 COMMISSION SLOTS are now open! *** Here the boring stuff, aka me explaining whats up, feel free to skip: life is not fun for me rn, basically. I'm trying to get my last semester at university done, and I'm in a huge slump of depression and anxiety. Not helping too much there. I'm way behind on the biggest project and struggling to not fall behind on the group project, too. Also trying to get the hang of the official freelance work, which is a b*tch. Mostly huge issues with insurances and the like. Which is also why I'm forced to open comms again, even tho I should focus on university work and have barely any time... they require me to send in MORE proof of payments I get for my work. And NOW. So, yeah... funtimes there. That aside, personal life isnt going great either. Who's hanging around over at my discord might already know some of this stuff. The biggest events that have me in a slump are one of my beloved kitties dying. He was such a cute cuddlebug, and I was a sobbing mess when he had to be put down. Tried everything I could but the docs just couldnt help him. And let me tell you, I do NOT deal well with losing one of the only things I really love in my life. In addition, the whole ordeal cost me about 700 bucks, which I didnt really have. But hey, who needs food if there is a chance of possibly saving my cat. Didnt work out, sadly... Gosh, I miss him. :_( This month I also had the second operation on my jaw for implant stuff. Wasnt high on the fun-times list either. And its not healing like it should. Instead I'm still in lots of constant pain, have to take a ton of meds and antibiotics, because something is wrong. The docs cant tell for sure what, but its not good. So more worrying, more anxiety, more bills, and overall... I'm just very, very overwhelmed and kinda breaking down with it all. Having to go through it all completely alone also isnt helping (my own fault ofc, severe anxiety and depression dont make a good foundation to build any relationships). But, yeah, dealing with it all devoid of any form of real human contact (in a friendly manner) is probably not too healthy, and I'm feeling it. I might need some more therapy (of fkn course I do, lol...) but I'm done on the insurance paid sessions. And I cant afford a 50 bucks an hour appointment right now (thats the low price for students...). Heck, I can barely afford the rent for my 1 room flat in the shitty part of town right at the mainroad. If anybody ever tells you living on your own as a student might be a good idea, they are lying. Unless you have family to support you. (I have my mother, who wants me to support her instead). So, if I seem a little distant or dont reply as quick as usual, its not your fault by any means, I'm just struggling with being a functional part of society hard right now. Rant over! *** And as always, if you feel like talking or just joining a bunch of weirdos: Clicky for twitter ! Here is the discord! Come say hi if you want, show off some arts, talk or anything else!

#personal life #text post #me whining #personal stuff

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nagichi-boop · 6 years ago

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KH3 Review / Opinions

So some people wanted me to post my thoughts on KH3 and I'm super bored rn so I'm gonna try to do it.

Please keep in mind that this will have spoilers in it, so if you don't want that, don't keep reading this. Without further ado, here are my thoughts:

Pros:

The game included a lot of fun new mechanics, which made attack choices more varied. Some of these were awesome in my opinion - such as Anti Form, the different Keyblade forms and having more new team members in different worlds - and others were...not so great, but I'll get into that.

For the most part, the worlds were very fun to explore. Olympus, while not my favourite world, certainly did have one of the biggest areas to explore. This sometimes meant that I got lost, but it was nice to be able to roam freely without having to wait for sections of the map to load whenever I went into another area. The Kingdom of Corona was such a pretty place to explore and being alongside Rapunzel and Eugene was so fun.

The background music in this game was amazing. I don't tend to pay attention to background music and such, but I noticed that the music fit each area very well. For example, Toy Box had an instrumental version of "You've Got a Friend in Me", which was very fitting and Arendelle had a very upbeat and enchanting song, though hearing it over and over on things like the Kingdom Hearts trailers and adverts did kind of exhaust it for me.

The cutscenes. Oh boy, were there a lot of cutscenes. My dad even came in at one point and asked me why there was more cutscenes than gameplay, and I suppose some people may have found it annoying to beat one round of enemies and then have a 5 minute cutscene, but for someone like me who isn't necessarily the best at games and is more interested in the story, I quite enjoyed it. Plus, unlike other games, I didn't think any of the cutscenes were lazily animated. Each character had unique movements in each scene and it was very charming to see the characters interact with one another.

Being able to play as different characters was nice, even though it was only Aqua and Riku. I heard that they did have other characters sorted with move sets and stuff, so I'm low-key hoping that as a DLC, you'll be able to go back to the worlds and play as different characters. Like imagine Ventus visiting Corona and maybe having a small cutscene of him and Rapunzel being all soft and stuff, hhh.

Some of the characters were treated to some nice development this game. Sora still had his cheerful tone and determination to help his friends, but he was also given a few other traits that I liked. I loved how sarcastic he was at points such as in Arendelle when he falls down the mountain after X amount of falls, which perfectly reflected how I felt at that point in the world. He also showed that his reliance on friends cut into his own self worth a little, and so being alone trying to save everyone must have been confusing to him and certainly very difficult to find the resolve to keep fighting. Another character I thought was treated well was Roxas. I don't know what it was but he really stood out to me. He came at just the right moment to save his friends and had an assertiveness towards Xemnas that was much appreciated. He also ran towards Xion when she started crying, which was very cute. Ienzo was also really cute, my goodness. I didn't care about him when he was an Organisation member but he was such a sweetie in KH3.

The animation in major cutscenes was also gorgeous. The ending cutscene has such pretty animation and lighting, I loved it.

Although it's only a minor detail, I thought having NPCs talk their lines instead of having to read them yourself was a nice subtle touch that was much appreciated.

That Donald upgrade tho. He had a much more proactive role in this game which was awesome. I also felt like his and Sora's interactions and having them insulting each other were a very nice addition.

I don't know if I got lucky or if I'm secretly okay at video games, but I didn't find any bosses to be so difficult that I was stuck on them for hours. I think the most I died was the final fight, where I died 2 or 3 times? But even then, it didn't take me very long to defeat Xehanort and generally throughout the game, even bosses I thought I'd die to didn't kill me, or if they did, it wasn't more than once. Unlike in KH1 where I spent an hour the Wonderland candle thing and in KH2 where I spent two hours on the Demyx boss.

XION'S, LEA'S AND ISA'S OUTFITS AT THE END, OH MY DAYS!!

Don't hurt me but I ship Sora and Kairi and so having them be shown more as lovers than friends was just the fangirl fuel I needed.

Favourite world in Kingdom Hearts 3: probably the Kingdom of Corona for me. I love Tangled and being able to play through that world was amazing. The small interactions between Sora and Rapunzel were also super sweet and pure. I also liked San Fransokyo because it had an original story and I love that movie, too.

Cons:

As much as I loved most of the worlds, there were a few issues with some of them, one of which being some of the stories. Worlds like Arendelle really annoyed me as it didn't really feel like you were part of the story. You just went up and down the mountain observing Elsa. You also didn't get an ally until right at the end of the world's story which was a bit annoying. Arendelle wasn't the only one though. The Kingdom of Corona also felt like you were just a spectator to the story, though to me it didn't feel as intense because only certain cutscenes felt this way (such as the boat scene and the scene where Eugene "dies"). I wish each world had a unique story instead of focusing on the events of their respective movies.

Another issue with the worlds was the exploration. I'm not saying I didn't enjoy exploring, but some weren't as fun as others. I hated the boat mechanic of the Carribbean world and when looking for lucky emblems, I found myself trying to escape fights because I didn't want to go through with them. I didn't hate Monstropolis like a lot of people, but I do see why people would hate it as a lot of the rooms do kind of look the same. And as much as I enjoyed San Fransokyo, I do wish you could explore a bit more. The city was also quite hard to navigate as everything looked the same. Even just opening up the bridge would have given us a bit more to explore.

I literally forgot that the 100 Acre Wood existed until I looked up worlds just now for wiring this post, oof. I did go there but you literally did different versions of the same mini game for about 30 minutes and that's it. I did like the cutscene when he leaves the book though because it foreshadows later events. (He says something about not wanting to lose his friends, I don't remember the exact quote tho.)

While I appreciated having so many different ways to fight, I did find a few things quite annoying. Like I did have a few moments outside of battle where I just wanted to open a chest but I'd accidentally trigger an attraction or form change. Apparently, there was also a button to switch situation commands but I literally found out about that after someone read this review so that’s fun. I remember being so annoyed because I couldn’t use the command I wanted to use but apparently that was just me being stupid. Attractions also weren't always appropriate to the situation, which sometimes meant using an attraction and not really dealing a lot of damage or having difficulty trying to aim and attack enemies. Or maybe I just suck at video games, idk.

Because there were so many different mechanics, I never felt the need to be creative with my battle strategy. I never really went to cook with Remy because I didn't feel the need to and I also never really touched magic unless it was needed, either. I guess I just enjoyed being able to hit A and Y to get through the battles. Yes, I played the Xbox One version, don't kill me (A is X and Y is triangle to you PS4 people).

While a few of the characters were treated well, a lot of them were done pretty dirty in my opinion, probably because of having to bring together ALL of the characters. One of these is the infamous Kairi, who severely suffered from a lack of development, which caused a lot of people to hate her and also meant a lot of people hating the portrayal of Sora and Kairi's relationship (I still love her tho because of how people in the fandom characterise her). Another character is Naminé, and while she's not really my favourite, I can see why people were upset. If you missed a certain cutscene in the Final World, you would only get to see her in the end cutscene. The fact that you could miss a whole cutscene with her is kind of strange. I missed it when I played it. Also, I thought Lea sort of suffered a bit, too. He did have some scenes that showed him off nicely, but people forget that he was also quite weak like Kairi for some reason (but now isn't the time to go into that debate). He had his Keyblade destroyed very easily and struggled to protect Xion. I don't know if he just lost his other weapon but I would have thought he could have at least yeeted them at Xemnas, at the very least to distract him.

I thought the labyrinth section of the Keyblade Graveyard was very...strange. I did appreciate that the fights weren't particularly hard (because I'm not a particularly great gamer imo) but what I did find weird is how everyone except Vanitas was redeemed and how quickly everything happened. Like Luxord and Marluxia suddenly became super chill like "I know we tried to ruin your life, Sora, but you're actually pretty chill". Like...what?? (I know Marluxia is in Union X but I haven't gotten to that yet and in the main games, he wasn't a particularly interesting character to me, so I didn't really care that he became "good".) And while I do appreciate Xehanort getting some sort of redemption, it felt a bit off. He tries to destroy the universe and also murders a bunch of people, but then his bff comes along and says "yo, stop that" and suddenly he's good? Like he doesn't even apologise to everyone or help bring Kairi back or whatever, he just poofs away.

Speaking of things being rushed, I felt like I was getting whiplash nearer the end of the game. One second Aqua is bad, the next she is in the realm of light. Ventus is asleep, Sora suddenly gets the power to wake him up. Terra tries killing his friends and then he comes back. I love my children and I'm glad they're happy but it felt like a lot of it happened so quickly that I couldn't process what was happening.

I feel like the game would have benefitted from a bit more character interaction. I know that's asking a lot from a game with so many characters, but even small things would have helped. Like @chachacharlieco suggested in a recent post, even having the characters coming into Yen Sid's tower for a small interaction could have helped, like Kairi and Riku quickly talking about what had happened, then having Sora come in and complimenting them both on their clothes or whatever. Also, maybe having her give Sora her letters would have made their relationship a bit easier to swallow for people who don't ship them because it did feel somewhat underdeveloped at times.

Why was Kairi sitting alone in the end cutscene? Like I get that she was having a sentimental moment of reflection for what Sora had done and wanting him back, but I feel like even having Riku stand near her and share some understanding eye contact or him putting his hand on her shoulder would have been reassuring. It just felt weird for everyone to be having fun while she seemed to be the only one to remember Sora.

I thought the game would be a nice closing point but it wasn't. I would understand just having the cliffhanger of Sora being gone because not all stories have a happy ending and it still would have closed that chapter and we would assume maybe the next arc would be saving Sora. But also having the whole Luxu reveal and having there be uncertainty about that? If this is setting up the next arc, so be it, but it did feel a bit weird to have the end of a story line but still have so many loose ends and questions.

This isn't to do with the game in particular, but I feel like some things in the trailer should have been left out. Like showing Saïx meeting up with Lea, showing Scala Ad Caelum or showing Sora screaming and being mad in the Keyblade Graveyard. Could you imagine playing the game without knowing about Scala As Caelum and just seeing it for the first time? And could you imagine hearing Sora scream for the first time in game and feeling that raw emotion blind? Plus, I felt like the trailers built up that scene in particular a lot and I remember feeling underwhelmed in that scene because everyone just...died.

Least favourite world in Kingdom Hearts 3: The Carribbean. I wanted out. The pirate life ain't for me.

So I know I sound like I'm one of those people who hated the game, but I really didn't. I enjoyed the game quite a lot actually. I think I mostly enjoyed the cutscenes, which there was a lot of. Being able to see the characters interact with one another and having them be animated and not just standing still made the game feel a lot like a movie for me, which made the cutscenes more fun to watch and pay attention to. I do feel like the game could have done with just a couple extra cutscenes to address some character problems outside of a couple shots of chess and some paopu fruit but I understand that there was a lot to cram in and I'm sure this isn't the last game that we will see all these characters in. I didn't think that everyone would survive Kingdom Hearts and they didn't, but I thought we would lose more characters tbh. Plus this isn't the end - I'm sure Sora will come back.

I can't wait for the next Kingdom Hearts game and the start of a new chapter in the story!! Coming to store in 2158.

#kh3 spoilers #kh3 #kingdom hearts 3 #kingdom hearts

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killthekvng-blog · 6 years ago

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yo YO what is up my dudes!! name’s river, pronouns are she/her, and my timezone is est. here is my trash baby, hunter reeves aka the draco skeleton. he’s honestly a complete mess, just a smidge crazy but it’s all good ... right?? anywho here is a profile/basic info type thing and underneath is a lil’ summary about his life which tbh is just the bio part of the app ( bc lbr i’m not gonna get around to writing a full on bio ) and some wanted connects and yeah!! please like this post if u wanna plot bc i’m fucking READY. be warned his backstory is Dramatic asf bc i’m extra lmaoo

tw: murder, mentions of human trafficking, drugs, weapons, and abuse

was born and raised as a single child into a very very wealthy family. i’m talking “i’m kinda bored maybe i’ll buy an island??” type rich. family was did not come from old money but his father had built his empire with his own hands … or so he said.

his father was rarely ever there and the interactions he had with hunter when hewas home was never anything good. his mother on the other hand was a saint. she had multiple charity organizations she ran and they were not only for publicity. she genuinely cared about others and wanted to help any way she could. his father humored her since this kept her out of his way and in the dark about the multiple links to crime organizations he had. his hands were dirty with things from embezzlement, human trafficking, money laundering, murder, torture, drugs and weapons transport, and much MUCH more.

the type of person who voluntarily got involved in business like this was not good to his son. multiple scars that he sports now had come from his father. he had always had a temper and that was transferred onto hunter and even his wife if she chose to stand in the way of his hand and his child.

it wasn’t until hunter was eleven that a massive fight broke out between the two of them in the middle of the night. unable to sleep, he had wandered into the hallway in search of his mother and had instead stumbled into a heated argument between his parents. his mother had figured out what her husband did and how he had come to such power and had threatened to call the police.

it was then that right before his eyes, his father moved against her. hands against her throat and with the paperweight on his desk, he drained the life out of her. of course, he didn’t want to watch, but he stood frozen in his spot, unable to move and forced to watch his mother being murdered through the small gap in the door.

that night he got into bed, his sleeping problem worse than before, and trembling he stayed up all night. the police came the next day and within a week framed a low life thug. knowing what he knows now, hunter assumes it was the underground connections his father had that helped him cover up his crime. police never questioned rome which made him even more nervous. he was now a prisoner in his own home, with information he wasn’t supposed to know, and alone with the monster who had taken his mother away.

the day he lost his mother was the day he had devoted his life into bringing his father down, through any means necessary. anything his father was capable of doing wasn’t out of the question. to catch a monster, he became exactly what his father was. the whole reason for joining the sanctum was to bring down his father. that’s the sole purpose of everything he does.

right now, he’s seen in public as the wild card. he’s the drunk playboy son of a multibillionare. he’s basically bruce wayne when the way he’s seen in public. he’s incompetent, though charming, but clueless. this is exactly the facade he needs in order for his father not to suspect anything, and he plays it well. tbh he’s basically bruce wayne in public and batman when he’s alone which is his real self lmao.

he’s basically become everything he hated his father for being, but he extracts information from murderers and scum of the earth. he’s never laid a hand on innocent people and he believes that the end justifies the means. his father is one of the biggest criminals though nobody knows, and if he’s able to take him off the streets, it would be better for everyone.

WANTED PLOTS

best friend?? singular cause bitch has major trust issues esp with what he’s doing rn so he can’t really have anyone being too close to him but this his ride or die bitch like fr fr.

enemies. now this he can have tons of. to the public he’s kind of a spoiled drunk playboy type so he probs won’t get along with many people. bring me the enemies.

frequent hook ups. now ik he’s in that like rlly nice and wholesome rls with naila/cassiopea but lbr they cant fucking stand each other and my boy got needs. doesn’t have to be a huge deal obvi cause my boy ain’t emotionally available and this needs to be kept hush hush.

love interest. idk dude some like...super angsty shit LOL. probs was super in love but had to break it off. i have maybe an idea like idk he had to break up w her cause whatever he’s doing is bound to get him or people around him hurt or maybe it was something else lets plot it out man.

someone who knows who he truly is besides his best friend. behind the charming smiles and stupid act he pulls off in public, there’s some scary shit going on, and somehow, someway, this person found out about it. we can plot out the rest of it!!

someone hurt by his dad?? his dad probs hurt a bunch of people/ruined a bunch of peoples lives and idk maybe they want hunter to pay for it?

#{ *・ﾟ✧ out of control. › ooc }#untouchable:intro

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basketz · 6 years ago

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15. what color is most of your wardrobe?

Blue for sure. It’s my favorite color and I’m pretty sure most of my clothes are blue lol.

16. what do you like to do for fun?

Play video games, watch movies/shows lol. Concerts and parties are pretty cool,but those only really work if you know what you’re doing. Otherwise you’re kinda just like “yeah i’ll stand here awkwardly and hope no one notices” lmao.

17. what is your biggest fear?

Honestly, to be alone. I don’t mean like alone in a room, but like having no one to talk to about casual or serious stuff which is where I’m kinda on the brink of rn :/ Or just to fail. Like to never succeed at anything in life no matter what. That’s a big one too.

36. what is your body type?

Idk if this means like preferred body type or like what mine is. I guess I have a pretty average normal build for someone that’s my height, at least with clothes on lol. I think I’m kinda fat, but everything is self-conscious about their body so who knows. And I don’t really have a preferred body type for another person, I think.

38. favorite planet?

Either Saturn or like Neptune. Bc Saturn isn’t boring like the rest since it’s got rings and shit which is cool. And Neptune bc I like the name and also it’s cold as hell there which is also a plus since I like cold weather lol. That’s a lame reason but whatever

50. what is your instagram?

Uh, I’m working on Instagram stuff, but I can give my MAIN and my ART instas here.

66. who knows the most about you?

Honestly? No one. It sounds wack but it’s true. I’m really particular about who I tell things to and how much info I give. It’s like a trust issue thing lol. I can never give my full trust to someone. Also it’s kinda dangerous to give one person so much info about you. The only way I’d be able to really do something like that if it was with someone that I was dating for like 2 or more years lol. But my serious relationships these days barely last months :/

#grimxiu #asks

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witchxng · 7 years ago

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I’ve had a bunch of new followers lately, so I wanted to do a get to know the blogger tag!

1. What have you eaten today?

I had eggs and fruit for breakfast, and I’m making a salad for lunch rn

2. Who was your last kiss with? Was it pleasant?

It was with my ex, and it was delightful, but thinking about it makes me sad

3. What color shoes did you last wear?

Black, big surprise there

4. Who has made you laugh the hardest in the last week?

My best friend, Kaelyn!

5. What is your favorite scent?

Pine needles

6. What is your favorite season? Why?

Autumn, it is so beautiful

7. Can you do a handstand or cartwheel?

Neither, nope!

8. What color are your nails?

They are currently baby blue

9. If you had to get a tattoo on your face to save your life, what would it be?

I would get a crescent moon, I kind of want that anyway ha

10. What is something you find romantic?

Long walks at dusk

11. Are you happy?

I think so

12. Is there anything in particular making you happy or sad?

Adding to my crystal collection always makes me extra happy!

13. Dogs or Cats?

Cats!!!

15. Which do you prefer:a museum, a night club, the forest or a library?

The forest, I identify as a green witch!

15. What is your style?

Witchy :)

16. If you could be doing anything you like right now, what would it be?

I would be in a cottage in the woods, working on an altar

17. Are you in a relationship or single?

Single

18. What makes you attracted to the person you like right now?

He’s nice to me at work, but that’s about it. Super high standards, ha.

19. If you could replace your partner/best friend with a celebrity of your choice, would you? Who with?

Hell no

20. Are you holding on to something you need to let go of? If so then what?

I’m holding on to a lot of resentment and regret, I hope I can let it go soon

21. How did you celebrate last Halloween?

Did some tarot readings and handed out candy to the kids!

22. Have you recently made any big decisions?

Not really, life has been pretty mundane

23. Were you ever in a school play?

No, I was always too shy in school

24. What movie would you use to describe your life?

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

25. Is there something you have dreamed of doing for a long time? Why haven’t you done it?

I’ve dreamed of owning my own flower shop, but you know, money

26. Complete this sentence, “I wish I had someone with whom I could share…”

I wish I had someone with whom I could share my passions with

27. What are two things that irritate you about the same sex?

Girls can be very catty, and superficial

28. What are two things that irritate you about the opposite sex?

Boys can be very rude, and aggressive

29. What is the best thing that has happened to you this week?

My aunt found out she is pregnant!

30. What is something that makes you sad when you think about it?

Oh, there are a lot of things. Thinking about how I can barely afford rent is currently making me sad.

31. How long was your longest relationship?

A year and a half

32. Have you ever been in love?

Yes, I miss it

33. Are you currently in love?

I don’t think so

34. Why did your last relationship end?

A lot of reasons. He was mean to me, he found someone new, I didn’t make him happy. The list goes on. It was a mess.

35. What jewelry are you wearing right now, and where did you get it?

I’m wearing an amethyst pendant that I got off of etsy, and a couple rings I’ve gotten from different craft fairs!

36. When was the last time you cried and why?

Yesterday, because of Jacob ha

37. Name someone pretty.

I think Emma Watson is so pretty

38. What did you receive last Valentines Day?

Sunflowers and a very sweet note

39. Do you get jealous easily?

Unfortunately, yes

40. Have you ever been cheated on?

Again, unfortunately, yes 41. Do you trust your partner/best friend?

I don’t currently have a partner, but I trust my best friend with my life

42. Ever had detention?

I did fairly often in high school, I was a little shit

43. Would you rather live in the countryside or the city?

COUNTRYSIDE

44. What do people call you?

Hannah, Han, Anna, Hannah Banana, Han Solo

45. What was the last book you read?

The Book Thief! It was so good!

46. How big of a nerd/dork are you?

The biggest nerd

47. What kind of music do you listen to?

I like indie/acoustic music!!!

48. How tall are you?

5′3″, I’m a shrimp ha

49. Do you like kids?

I like babies, but kids stress me out

50. Favorite fruits?

All of the above, ha. My top favorite though is pineapple.

51. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

Black jeans :)

52. What’s your earliest memory?

Running around my grandma’s yard during the spring

53. Ever had a poem or song written about you or to you?

I wish! That would so romantic

54. Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

Behind it, I am so shy

55. Do you have a collection of anything?

I have too many collections! Crystals, tarot cards, shells, postcards, and pressed flowers are my biggest collections

56. Do you save money or spend it?

I try to save when I can, but I have so many expenses to keep up with

57. What would your dream house be like?

Tiny cottage in the woods, covered in ivy with a wildflower garden (I’m a basic witch, I know)

58. What top 5 things make you the angriest?

Animal abusers, people who litter, bigots, people with no respect, out of touch wealthy people

59. What top 5 things always brings a smile to your face? Witchcraft :), my best friend, cats, rainstorms, good movies

60. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

Save the dog, every time

61. 72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

I would tell only those closest to me, I would spend my remaining days do whatever I really wanted to do that day, and I wouldn’t be afraid at all.

62. Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

December 7th

63. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

I’m going to Salem!!!

64. Do you like the beach?

I do!

65. Ever sleep on the couch or a bed with someone special?

I used to all of the time. I miss it, I hate sleeping alone.

66. Do you have a middle name? If so what is it!

It is Amelia!

67. Do you talk to yourself?

All of the time, I probably look crazy

68. Describe your hair.

Shoulder length, fading from box dye blue to an ashy gray

69. What is the meaning of life.

The meaning of life is to live

70. What is your ideal partner like?

Kind, faithful, funny, passionate, and supportive.

71. Do you want to get married?

Maybe one day, if I can find the right person

72. Do you want to have kids?

I don’t think so

73. Like or dislike your family?

They try their best, but my family is dysfunctional and it can be hard to get along with them

74. Are you Chunky or Slim?

A lil chunky

75. Would you consider yourself smart?

I would say yes

76. What would you change about your life?

My financial situation, ha

77. Religious or Not?

I’m a practicing wiccan!

78. You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with?

My best friend, Kaelyn! She’s the outgoing/outspoken one between the two of us

79. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem?

It would be a HUGE problem, I don’t think Jacob and I can be in the same room anymore

80. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?

Kaelyn does :)

81. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?

We would be in his car, parked somewhere late at night, and just talking and laughing

82. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?

My better judgement would say no, but I know I would always let him in

83. Do you like when people play with your hair?

YES

84. Do you like bubble baths?

I do, but I like oil baths better!

85. Have you ever been pulled over by a cop?

Yes, I drive way too fast :X

86. Have you ever danced in the rain?

I try to whenever I can

87. Do you trust anyone with your life?

I trust Kaelyn with anything and everything

88. What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?

“I want to go back to bed”

89. If money wasn’t an issue, what top 10 places would you travel to? (You get to stay at each place for a week)

Salem, Paris, Dublin, Yosemite, Amsterdam, Brussels, Montreal, Sicily, Switzerland, London

90. How was your day today?

It’s been alright, just kind of boring to be honest

91. Play an instrument?

I used to play clarinet in school

92. Describe the what you think of the ocean.

It is breathtaking

93. Do you believe in aliens or ghosts?

Both!!!

94. Honestly, are things how you wanted them to be?

NOPE

95. Do you have a mean bitchy scary side?

No, I’m a big softie

96. When are you vulnerable?

Um all of the time ha

97. How much free time do you have?

I work two jobs, so not much

98. Do you like to go hiking?

Absolutely!

99. Odd or Even Numbers?

Odd 100. Would you ever go sky diving, bungee jumping , cliff diving, wing suit gliding, parasailing, snorkeling, or other extreme activities?

Yes to all of the above!

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all the moon related q's?? 🌜🌜🌜

Ask and ye shall receive, small warning I get pretty sappy.

Cosmos: What’s one thing you wish you could say to someone you are no longer friends with?

Hm, that’s a tough since I’m on good terms with the majority of people I’m not close with anymore so there isn’t much to say. Probably “I hope you are doing well, even if it’s without me.”

Galaxies: What Are Three Things You Want To Do Before You Die?

Take a month or so and just take pictures of places I mentally use as markers/associate strong memories with. Finish writing a novel-esk story for once. This is sappy but, have a small gay wedding.

Waxing: What Is Your Proudest Accomplishment?

Oh jeez, proudest? So far, becoming a better person and letting go of things that were keeping me from living my life.

Waning: What Is Your Biggest Regret?

Dating a guy honestly,,, If we are talking my whole life? Probably a mix between letting nostalgia keep me from progress/change and being an aggressive/hurtful person when I was a kid. It’s a wonder I had any friends back then really.

Full Moon: What Type Of Person Do You Hope To Be?

I’d like to be the type of person that someone can go to for comfort and vent, I’m already called the mom friend so I’m half way there.

Contemplation: If You Could Wake Up One Morning And Everything In Your Life Was Perfect, What Would That Look Like?

Most likely the same, except no one (Since the question is in my life, I guess this only really affects those who are in it) that I know would have monetary issues, health issues, and any thing they personally desire is available readily. In short, happier for others I suppose. I’m doing pretty okay rn so I’d look outwardly to make it perfect.

Night Light: Who/What Makes You Feel Safe?

Obvious answer is my girlfriend, she is someone I can always count on and can speak my mind to, we both have bad impulse control (I chugged a chocolate syrup bottle, she likes to go to abandoned buildings) but each others safety always comes first. A thing that makes me feel safe is fluffy blankets, the kind you would get as a kid with a pair of pajamas. I’m a very cuddly person and to have something warm surround me instantly helps me feel safe.

Ponder: What Do You Want To Do With The Rest Of Your Life?

I’m ( if I pass the test and such) going into the National Guard, so I imagine that will be a good chunk, afterwords my goal is to be a sort of therapist/counselor and then retire to become a gay hermit with a big dog in a small house/apartment.

Sunset: Who Is Someone You Thought Would Be In Your Life Forever, But You No Longer Talk To?

That’s a tough one, since I don’t think I’ve ever thought anyone would be in my life forever till within the recent years. I really can’t think of anyone, my grandfather when I was younger maybe?

Midnight: Are You A Different Person Late At Night Than In The Early Morning?

Somewhat, I’m more relaxed and thoughtful late at night but I tend to overthink things more, definitely more cuddly. Early morning I’m usually tired and have a short temper, not a good time for me.

Candle Light: Are You An Indecisive Person?

If this is any sort of insight, my girlfriend has dubbed me the indecisive one in the relationship (which is true). I tend to mull over life decisions for months at a time, years even, if I’m given the time to. I’m a good guesser so I am not stressed if I have to make a quick decisions but if it holds any sort of significant weight, I will probably take my time in choosing.

Reflection: Have You Ever Changed Something You Liked About Yourself To Satisfy Someone Else?

Not that I can remember. I’ve luckily always faked or had the confidence in myself to know that those I’d have to change my self for to make them happy are not people I care to be around. I like mostly everything about myself, and changing my entire self for someone isn’t something I’d consider an option, more likely to just not be around/with that person. Being a lone wolf in social situations can suck sometimes, but if I’m not comfortable with myself at the end of the day then I can’t be happy.

Sweet Dreams: Are You Happy?

Most of the time, yes. I have my ups and downs like everyone else but I’m a generally positive person. I’ve changed a lot of things about my self and the way I think/act, all of them have help me become a happier&better version of the person I used to be. Introspection, my dude, it’s hella helpful.

Nightmare: What Are You Most Afraid Of?

Being put somewhere high where I have no control or support, oddly specific, but that shit isn’t thrilling to me. Broadly, I fear for my loved ones safety, I am a very protective person towards the people I care about and wouldn’t hesitate to take a bullet for any of them. Them being put in any kind of dangerous peril instantly causes me to panic and have adrenaline flood my system.

Constellations: Who Is Someone You Could Talk To For Hours And Never Stop?

You probably already guessed it but, my girlfriend. Our dates are filled with us talking to one another and we have talked about everything from serious topics to me calling her a cryptid, I never get bored of our conversations.

Reminder: Who Is Someone You Will Never Forget?

Just one? I’ll dig real far back for this one then. There was this girl named Darya at my middle school in 6th grade that was a literal angel to me in a time where I had nearly zero friends (all my friends from elementary were in a separate part of the school). Darya had iron strained hair she put into ponytails, and warm brown eyes with dark skin (my memory isn’t too clear so I’m not sure exactly her appearance but I think this is right).

She was so kind to me and one day told me she had to leave to go to her father’s house, I was devastated to lose a friend like her. That day she gave me drawings she made that said “You Can Change The World” and coloring book pages she colored in, along with two art stickers she had been saving. She never returned to school after that day and I didn’t have a phone or number to try to contact her with. I still have all the items she gave to me, and I hope she is doing well.

11-11: What’s Something You Want, But Feel Like You Will Never Have?

Feel like I will never have? Probably complete serenity for life, I relax for a while but eventually I am anxious once again because of various things that I have to live with so, most likely I will never have it. It’s fine though, honestly. I’m quite happy the way I am.

Shooting Star: Who Is Someone You Trust To Help You Make The Right Decisions?

I’ll pick someone other then the people around me, since it’s multiple people I really trust to help me. Myself, or my gut feeling to be more specific. I don’t have an uncanny ability to choose the right path, but I would say I do better then just a blind guess. I have bad impulse control at moments, but I am indecisive with what matters and I give myself time to figure out what is best.

Earth: Where Do You Feel Most At Home?

My physical home is comforting, don’t get me wrong, but I feel most at home with her. Which is surprising to no one, considering how much I talk about my girlfriend. Being around her turns any place into somewhere I could call home, I was always homesick till I met her.

Soothe: What’s One Thing that Always Makes You Feel Better When You’re Upset?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9K-Ef-LCYv4

Harp version of Spirited Away’s One Summer Day, calms me down when I’’m feeling stressed, if I had to pick one.

Slumber: What’s One Thing That Helps You Fall Asleep When It Feels Impossible?

Well, that really depends on the reason. If its a bad thoughts type of sleep, I listen to MBMBAM or go through kind words my girlfriend sent me. If its I’m just too awake, I think of something to dream about (even though I don’t dream much anymore) and listen to peaceful music till I drift off to sleep.

#thank you for the ask!#askadork #anon #'hey look at me i did it way late #at least i finished all of them tho #now i shall eat then work #need to go run with my dog #i talked alot about my gf whoops #if that isnt me all the time tho #these were interesting to think about #anyeay #hope you all are having a good day #ill be on later probably

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