#my bf thinks im neurodivergent

[dooodle-bug]

Happy anniversary to my beloved pmtok, the game that permanently altered my brain chemistry and made me completely deranged

[sourapplerings]

so i think im going to my first ever pride event in a week and a half, which is super exciting but a little scary. and im also going to a mother mother concert at the start of july!

the last time i went to a mother mother concert tho, i had a lot of trouble with my joint pain and ended up missing a few good songs bc i had to find somewhere to sit. i felt super awful bc one of said songs was hayloft, which my bf was really excited for

that concert was almost two years ago now (holy shit) and since then i got my grubby little mitts on a wheelchair. i’ll definitely be using it at the concert, and maybe pride since i’ve been not feeling well lately and i get heat exhaustion/sickness pretty badly

my question for you, tumblr dot com, is how to make these events a little more accessible and less stressful. i’ve never used a wheelchair in public, in fact i’ve only really used it once when i sprained my ankle and walking was really hard. the chair fits into my bf’s trunk, so transportation isn’t an issue. my current plan is to pack a mini bag with meds, water, maybe a snack??, some alcohol pads (for nausea), and maybe headphones and sunglasses for sensory reasons at pride.

for my chronically ill girlies (mainly ppl with stomach and joint issues, neurodivergent folks, and ambulatory wheelchair users) do you guys have any tips for navigating public spaces? what kind of hurdles can i anticipate?

[justsomeoneintoomanyfandoms]

Hi! I was hoping for a matchup for one peice and obey me^-^

Name: apollo

Pronouns: he/him

Sexuality: mlm

Mbti: infp (almost enfp tho)

Sign: leo (sun: leo moon: leo rising: cancer im a double leo lmao)

Hobbies: i love dnd and ttrpgs, i write, my writing preferences are horror and spooky stories, i also like to dm sad stories that turn hopeful, i LOVE to go on hikes and walks (im trying to get into more physical activity kinds of hobbies for my health, im thinking of taking up HEMA which is non-rapier sword fighting), and i cook daily its one of my favorite parts of the day! I love getting to see people enjoy what im eating and the compliments kinda fuel me ngl

Appearance: i have pale, freckled skin, usually painted nails (currently red, my favorite color to wear), im 5'5 (175cm) and half buff half chubby (perfect hugging composition hehehe). I have dark blue/grey eyes with very long lashes that i consider to be my best feature. I have dark brown curly hair that, due to a disorder, sometimes grows in dark blond (like right now lol.)

Other info is: i have autism and adhd (adhd is unmedicated) i have other neurodivergences too, and bc of it i need to date someone who at least understands the pain of having a mood disorder or some kind of trauma. I have dysgraphia and have to consciously choose to add certain grammar points to my writing (it is extremely difficult for me). Tuping comes much more naturally, but sometimes my fingers forget what keys to press and muscle memory takes over, issue is muscle memory just turns every word starting with a into and, so it doesnt got this. Also (this is good fanfic fodder) i have a phobia of sleep that is lessened (but not eliminated) by sleeping next to someone i trust

I hope to get: a clingy bf. Im too shy to initiate hugs and cuddles but i need them, so someone who wouldnt be afraid to initiate touch sounds wonderful tysm

I hope that's enough ^-^

Hi Apollo! Thank you for your request! Sorry it took a while. I hope you like your matchups!

In One Piece, I match you with...

You and Luffy are going to be one of the most chaotic couples out there. I definitely see him as someone who also has Autism and ADHD, so you often bounce off each other.

If you’re looking for someone who will initiate affection, Luffy’s the man for you. He’s super clingy, even with friends so when he’s in a romantic relationship, that gets dialled up to eleven.

Definitely enjoys hiking with you. He likes getting out in nature but also enjoys exploring so expect to find yourself straying from the path on more than one occasion.

You like cooking? Luffy’s day has been made. Not only does he have Sanji, now he has you to make amazing, tasty food? He’s super grateful and will make sure you know just how much he likes your cooking.

In a modern au, Luff would hands down be into D&D. He’s definitely someone who plays chaotic good (emphasis on the chaotic) but it makes any campaign heaps of fun.

In Obey Me, I match you with...

There’s no one in the Devildom quite as physically affectionate as Asmo so he has no qualms about being the one to initiate affection, especially once he knows that’s what you prefer.

Thinks it’s super adorable that you’re so shy. He’s quite outgoing so he thinks you’re a perfectly balanced couple.

Clingy? No, you’re not clingy. Not when compared to Asmo at least. Since you’re both on the clingy side of things, there will hardly be a moment when you’re together that you’re not in contact somehow, even if it’s just linking pinkies.

Loves your writing, even if horror isn’t his genre. If you put some romance in there as well though, he’ll be all over it. He really likes your writing.

There will be no shortage of compliments in your relationship. Asmo has to make sure you know not just anyone could date him and that you’re special in so many ways. Please praise him as well!

[f4gcontr0l]

intro!!

lovi, they/he, 19

this is my first intro post so bear w me!!

i'm t4t (mostly), bisexual, vers top (heavy dom lean), and in a committed polyamorous relationship for 5 years!

not showing my face but a bit about me! i am white with ionian heritage (respectfully sharing for the whites dni blogs) learning italian and asl (eventually greko) so if you know either, hmu i need a language buddy! i am pierced and tatted up >:P an aspiring tattoo artist and going into ancient history for an (eventual) phd, currently in undergrad.

i have autism, adhd, c-ptsd, and a chronic illness, so welcome neurodivergent disabled tranny fags!

POC friendly blog, FREE PALESTINE!!!!, blm, RACISTS AND TERFS DNI!!! we love our trans sisters

testosterone 9/27/23 :3

kinks

-cnc, uncensored rapeplay (consensual!!!) (tho im into pretending it's not lol)

- in the same vein, somno and free use

- petplay both ways (im the owner of a puppy and am a dogboy sometimes!)

- sadomasochism

- intox, mostly weed

- pissplay/omorashi

-musk

- lowkey into A/B/O.... sue me..

- getting into hypno

cant think of any more but i'll edit as needed

lims

- ageplay

- raceplay

- scat/vomit

- detrans

tags

- #lovi rambles : on original posts

- #lovi pix : on any pictures i post

editing as needed

DNI

- racists, misogynists, homophobes, transphobes, terfs, zionists, ableists, beastiality, pedos

- cishets... sorry fam... especially cishet dom men lol cant stand them sometimes

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feel free to DM me or send asks! looking for (mostly) trannies to help me gangbang my bf @sleepypuppy420 so doms hmu!! also if u r a t4t petplay couple PLEASE hit me up so we can organize a playdate for our pups <3 love watching sub on sub

also looking for friends so don't be shy

[werewolf-femboy-maid]

@ ur latest rb youre so fucking right

like im transmasc and have always enjoyed being a little bit more on the "dont gotta think partner does it for me Yay" side of things just cause my entire life has been severely stressful and traumatizing. And the amount of times I get called "the girl of the relationship" for this is actually Fucking Gross??? even before i was transmasc ive been openly nonbinary and no dude, I just like being taken care of cause im disabled and traumatized yknow?

cishet sexuality and gender shit is SO weird dude im not "girlfriend brained" im just a very tired dude

tl;dr you're right and you should say it, its something I have experience with being accused of even as someone who mainly identifies as a guy.

oh my god that sucks ass, but thank you for reaching out with your story. oh my god.. yeah im also pretty tired and even my bf acknowledges that me having undiagnosed autism and diagnosed bpd and adhd means I have bigger emotions to deal with. and he makes jokes about me being special ed but when I act special ed (getting super paranoid or angry) he expects me to act like a normal person. cishet everything is so fucking weird. I always think about the are the straights ok subreddit because... no... none of them are ok...

I mean he has adhd and depression, but yeah he's acknowledged that me being traumatized in the past combined with my neurodivergent traits means I need to work harder with my emotions than he has to. idk... idk its all scary and bad. oh bother, have a beautiful day my friend

[plseatmyfries]

- idk what im doing -

hii i go by Juju, i make traditional art but i primarily post to instagram, so this app is pretty foreign to me. my handle on insta is eatmyfries_pls so that's the handle written on most of my art!!

check out my awesome bf @dontsnortpixiestix ♥︎

I'm trans, not straight, I'm 18, I'm a furry, a therian, and I think I'm neurodivergent. so like pls be chill about all that lol

I primarily like/post:

Furry stuff, MST3K, Lemon Demon, animals, therianthropy, Brutalmoose, DanTDM, dragons, Beastars, Wings of Fire, Doctor Who, Warriors (cats), Good Omens, FNAF, Thomas and Friends, Maisy, Bluey, Moral Orel

Pink is current interests/post content! But the non-pink stuff is still awesome to me too

ill edit this when i think of new things or when new interests occur!!

[DNI]

Z00s, MAPs/P3d0s, transphobes, homophobes, Nªz!s, like this should all be obvious, just be a decent human yeah?? I don't tolerate horrible people

[ladyimaginarium]

1. Favorite Anime? Naruto, GANGSTA., Black Lagoon, Michiko to Hatchin, Ergo Proxy, Death Note, No.6, Shingeki no Kyojin would've made this list if it was written by Jewish writers bc my& mixed native jewish ass is conflicted w/ this one, Deadman Wonderland, I& haven't finished Tokyo Ghoul yet but it's really good, I& didn't finish Kuroshitsuji either but i& rly vibed w/ the aesthetic, BNHA was... ehhhh, okay, didn't really vibe w/ the whole ableist trope of "disabled coded character magically gets new powers or becomes abled" so I& dropped it, I& know for a fact that the animated ASOIAF stuff coming up is gonna make me& reverse shit myself&. all i& know is that if the books were animated that would fix me&. 2. Your Worst Anime? Can't rly think of any tbh, I'm& picky, the closest I& could think of was the Boruto series. Mostly bc it basically destroyed any kind of development in Shippuden & shit just doesn't make sense & not to mention it slaughters Sasuke's character & just the entire female cast as a whole which im& not even gonna get into for the sake of my& own sanity. lmao 3. Do you read the Manga that go with the Anime you watch? Usually yeah but I like to keep these separate tbh. I read the manga only if I know that the anime won’t get a second season and I’m still interested in what happens next. Anyway, in short, I bother with the manga only if I really love the anime ie gangsta & naruto but I& can't watch or read long series anymore due to adhd & spoonie reasons lmao 4. Favorite Genres? action, supernatural, fantasy, science fiction, comedy, horror, psychological. 5. Least Favorite Genres? Harem mostly bc the dudes are so lame & basic lmao 6. Favorite Character? Erica ( GANGSTA. ), Beretta ( GANGSTA. ), the Benriya trio ( GANGSTA. ), basically the entire Second & Third Destroyers regiments ( GANGSTA. ), basically the entire Akatsuki ( Naruto ), basically any of the founders ( Naruto ), any of the jinchuriki & tailed beasts/bijuu ( my& plural ass vibed w/ them so hard & i& didnt even know i& was plural at the time lmao ), Michiko Malandro ( what do u think lmao ), Nezumi ( No.6 ), Uchiha Madara ( Naruto; he really is That Black Air Force Energy Icon ) Eren Jaeger (snk; LISTEN HE'S MY& INSYS BF IM& CHEATING OKAY ), Mihael Kheel / Mello ( Death Note; g-d he's so fucking iconic ), Misa Amane ( Death Note ), L Lawliet ( Death Note; aro autistic mf represent ) Marco Adriano ( GANGSTA. ), Rebecca Lee / Revy ( Black Lagoon; she could beat my& ass & i'd& thank her lmao ), Eda ( Black Lagoon; smth about a nun w/ a gun who dresses up like a bimbo at night but is actually a cia agent makes me& go WOOF WOOF BARK BARK ). others im& def forgetting lmao 7. Least Favorite Character? bitch idk 8. Qualities you like in a Character? Kindhearted, caring, badass, strong-willed, cheeky, has deadpan sense of humor. women who can beat my& ass. poor little meow meows. 9. Short or Long anime? Short these days. I& litcherally Cannot watch longer anime. naruto was my& first long anime & it'll likely be my& last lmao 10. Anime or Manga? I procrastinate both but I guess manga, mostly because I can read it without fearing that the plot will go to shit  11. How do you choose the anime you watch? If it has pretty art, if the aesthetic is pretty, if my& friends watch it 12. Skip or listen to Intros/Outros? I usually always listen. I& literally never skip Naruto, Black Lagoon or the GANGSTA. openings & EDs 13. How do you cope if your friends or family don’t like you watching anime? most ppl around me& like anime but if they don't i& dont give a fuck?? like. why the fuck should i& care what other ppl think lmfao 14. Do you stop an anime midway if you don’t like it? I& sometimes drop anime for no reason whatsoever. lmao It’s a waste of time if it doesn’t hold your attention, let alone if you don’t like it. it's somewhat what happened w/ bnha as explained above. i& just really dislike that trope as a disabled & neurodivergent system lmao 15. Who are you tagging to do this? @librastrai @dethqveen @abri-chan & whoever else wants to do this !!

[cedobols]

hey bom can u suggest some animes and where to watch them (love you<3)

wah thanks for this awesome ask!! id love to recommend some!! i torrent all my shows so im not so sure where to stream them .. you’ll defs be able to find some sites via reddit etc!!

here are some of my favourite animes:

ouran high school host club: haruhi (afab) is mistaken as a boy when she moves schools and upon accidentally breaking the host clubs vase, is forced to pay back the debt by joining the club . trans rights!

erased: about a man who is sent back to his childhood to prevent three of his classmates from being kidnapped & killed . its soooo eerie and god i just love everything about this anime i REALLY recommend it if ure into mysteries

doukyuusei: (this is a movie but. it’s literally one of my top four on letterboxd bc i just ADORE this movie) basc gay boys in high school ❤️ summer time .. a really beautiful movie. very moving

Love, Chunibyo and Other Delusions!: i really really love the art style of this one... i think its the cutest thing ever. the colours are wonderful. its also relatable.. being cringey in yr8 and having that past haunt you in later high school... #NEURODIVERGENCY

mob psycho 100: just. watch this. please. its incredible. the animation and mixed media is ... sooo inspirational. and such a. powerful story of learning to accept and love yourself for who you are.

toradora: another cute high school romance .. silly .. fun watch!!

haikyuu: this is a sports anime. its long.. many episodes. but once you get invested you're IN IT. its heartwarming and exciting and has many thrills along the way .. lots of loveable characters and cute ships!! kagehina is one of my favourite anime ships..

lovely complex: this anime is so fun and funny . i love the facial expressions. its about a tall girl and short boy who've made a bet to see who can get a bf/gf first .. rivals!! to lovers!! very cute

Words Bubble Up Like Soda Pop: another movie that i really loved. i think i watched it twice in one day bc it just. made me so happy. i love the soundtrack and characters.. shy boys.. the colours are really vivid and new!! about two characters who have trouble communicating to others. cherry (boy) only knows how to express himself through haikus and smile (girl) is self conscious about her braces and covers her mouth. they overcome these obstacles to connect with each other!

i cant really think of any more off the top of my head but i hope you try a few of these out bc they really are great!! thanks for asking (^_^) i love recommending shows i enjoy !!

[dragonsarrow]

also on the topic of my bf (im sorry followers ive been off my adhd meds cuz my doctor fucked up and i cannot for the life of me shut up about him, bear with me) he once again mentioned he has suspicions he might be on the spectrum. and every time he mentions it im just sitting here like

yes you absolutely are on it my love. but i cant say a word because i think he needs to fully realize it himself. he gets a bit closer each time and im rly proud of him. 10 yrs from now when he realizes it in our flat ill decorate him a cake with all his hyperfixations on it and we will celebrate with the most neurodivergent sex possible

[blueiight]

12, 14, 20

12. Name some queer artists/bands or songs you like most:

i like kelela, bbymutha, meshell ndegocello, the dearly departed luther vandross & blu bone .. ik banks is cooked products in the eyes of the gp but her song for that movie rly moved me back in the day. and lakeyah. let her rap bout girls @ her label

14. How do you think other factors like neurodivergency or upbringing have impacted your identity?

i know the whole point of things like this is to bare ur chest but ughhhh it embarrasses me + i feel like bc i have a lot of followers some may not even like me and could use my ���weakness’ (re: vulnerability) against me. i just spawned like a game character at 20 years old nothing ever happened before then….ill say this tho my first friends were gay boys i defended from homophobic kids/admin n they had my back too & after my first bf i went out w/ this stud n we still kinda cool just not as close as we once was. insert my relationships disasters here.. my core hs clique was these gay boys, a lesbian, me + this 1 girl who later came out as bi post hs .. we fell out w/ the boys but im still cool w/ the lesbian n the other bi girl. all this is to be said. im a Totally Normal Boy/s👍🏾

20. Do you feel like you “fit in” with the queer/Pride community overall?

no cuz im still fumbling around my own identity + my Ls loom over my head. ominously. and this community dont like black women (or however i conceptualize my gender identity) unless we’re dead martyrs

[tyler-is-hot]

idk if its cuz literally everyone im around is neurodivergent or if its cuz im mentally ill but, i never relate when people talk about neurotypical people, like ever. im pretty sure im neurotypical, but ive always been treated like a neurodivergent person by people at school (as in, ive been bullied my whole life for being myself and people saw that as weird) my best friends both probably have autism and adhd (one is diagnosed the other isnt but its very clear he is) my mom and sister both have adhd as well and my friends think my sister is also autistic, and my bf has adhd as well. idk i might just be weird?

[sunbleachedperfume]

feelings rant beware~

i haven't wanted to worry my partner about the shit our "friend" has been saying to me at work because he's already listened to me a lot and has been super supportive towards me, but today i keep thinking about some of the things he has said to me about how I'm "so cringe and embarrassing" (amongst the months upon months of other jabs he's thrown my way) but it's reallyy bothering me today.

i just told my bf that im depressed today but don't know why. i am tired of beating a dead horse. but its this among everything else just compounding on my already thin self worth.

i got a call from my boss saying they will be having him sign written warning document for his general bad behavior (because there are lots of instances)at work as a warning that if it occurs again he will be fired. sadly still have to work with him this week because we're short staffed.

it's been a mindfuck waking up and realizing lately that this dude who i have comforted through his tears, listened to his problems, allowed him to sleep on my couch, cooked soup with him, etc. has never really treated me as a friend. he has always always hated that i don't cater to him or overemote with him. he's always been insecure that i hated him just because of me being neurodivergent and not being performatively emotive with him. he's always had a bone to pick with me for it!!!

i've realized over the past few months that he actually doesn't care about anything having to do with me unless it attached to my partner because he loves him.

he just uses me as a therapist, really.

i'm struggling with that good intentions and good memories can't make up for the ways he has repeatedly targeted me to cut me down over and over and that its ramped up despite my boyfriend and myself both expressing that he cant talk to me that way.

this grown man is not my responsibility. if he wants to be immature and cruel its on him.

BUT i still feel really guilty that i can't tolerate it anymore.

i keep thinking about how gerard way is just a grown up weird kid and how millions of people adore him for it. that's often the case with most interesting people so it doesn't matter if this person gets me or not, because at the end of it all they're toxic and insecure. honestly, listening to danger days has been helping. watching clips of gerard saying weird shit on stage has helped.

plus its just generally been so sooo weird to be bullied at 28 years old by another adult. it speaks so much about how stunted they are and its sad for them. but damn, it's been pretty fucked for me too.

but it's still bothering me to the point i just want to shrink into myself and stay away from the world today. i cancelled my responsibilities today to just rot alongside my cat and disassociate into my own fantasies.

i cant wait to get out of this place in April and move back home and move on with my life. it's shit like this here that has made me completely forget who i am because I've just been desperate to make friendships, even if they all have felt wrong. i just want to graduate and move on and not let him or anyone else spoil the good moments I've had here.

i hope i can settle back into myself more.

[lil-bluebird]

fuck i feel these so hard, ever since middle school reaand i didn't realize this PMDD was why i felt like i was losing my mind all the time (read around my period) it hit peak when my mom abruptly took me off adderall that i had been taking for my adhd since first grade. every time period day came i felt so stupid and over dramatic, and i still feel like those feelings of depression and wanting to end my life and hurting myself were not valid.

after looking into PMDD more, i had a huuuuge "ohhhh" moment bc i wasn't crazy, im not crazy, my hormones are just doing extra funky things to my already funky brain (funky is being used in a lighthearted sense btw). my bf also thinks my birth control might be contributing to it now too (mirena) because i existing feels damn near unbearable until my period actually happens. i try so hard to remind myself that i can get through it and it's okay that i feel like this, no im not overdramatic, no everyone around me doesn't think im insane

ofc PMDD manifests different in everyone same a neurodivergence but experiencing 5 or more of the symptoms that constitutes PMDD means you should have a talk with your doctor or gyno (?) and see what can be done to help manage symptoms and yeah if you're having a rough time you can definitely get through this

Kinda niche, but I've spent the last five days feeling like I'm losing my mind so here are some PMDD memes. However bad you think it is based on these memes, it's worse.

[ssavinggrace]

the first five pjo ocs i wrote are probably the only ones im gonna keep theyre all very dear to me even if i think they might need a slight rewrite

theres arlo cannon, gay transmasc son of apollo who may or may not be a sorta self insert, refuses to think about his daddy issues but he loves his mom and siblings (both the other apollo kids and his mortal half siblings), very southern but in a queer neurodivergent teen living in texas way

maximillian "max" maxwell, enby child of ares, short and stocky, anger issues galore, wears alot of beanies and flannels, weilds an axe, basically if a lumberjack was a short bi disaster teen

sullivan "sulli" o'malley, the fan favorite of my ocs and for good reason, weird even by half blood standards autistic little transfem daughter of athena, does Not like being at camp half blood. she loves her dad and is overwhelmed by all the other kids and simply doesn't like thinking of athena as her mom. her hair is a tangled mess and she sleeps at the weirdest times and has a little hideout in the woods around camp even though its dangerous. the other athena kids are mildly intimidated by her even though shes only 11. she has a signature wide eyed and unblinking stare. she has alot of knowledge about niche plants and insects.

quinn evangeline, genderfluid aromantic child of aphrodite, they seem cool but also they're just a loser like literally every other 15 year old out there, they have a bone to pick with their mom and they feel isolated feom the other aphrodite kids at times because of their aromanticism but otherwise she feels at home at camp half blood, being aromantic doesnt stop them from giving love advice to everyone around them (it almost always ends up crashing and burning), her dad is pan and happily married to a dude so like. yipee two loving dads

and finally cameron (i forgot what his last name was fuck), he/him enby child of hermes, besties with quinn (they gossip and paint their nails in the back of hermes cabin), his whole thing is that he Would be an absolute menace to society–a prankster if you will–but hes too lazy, rare case of a half blood having issues with their mortal parent and not their godly one, gay disaster

there were some other ocs i had that while i do wanna keep i think they need more rewriting than these five, like the twin sons of hephaestus i had and arlos bf

I LOVE THEM!?!?!? WHAT!!!!

[objectlovingobject]

Omg i love hearing abt other ppls objectum experiences smsm! It was a pleasure to read this ^^ i hope u dont mind me adding my own?

I dont think that objects are 'living' in the same way that we are, but i do believe that (at least some) objects have souls ^^

Im not sure why my brain has done this, or why i believe this, i imagine its due to my autism and hyper empathy? I definitely think my neurodivergency has smth to do with me being objectum and posic.

When it comes to things i think have souls, its mostly electronics and plushies? If i name something, i can usually 'give' it a soul, but i refer to it as noticing ig. Objects also definitely haver personality >< i think of my switch, Eno, and how playful and sassy she is >< but also how she is so sweet ^^ i know how she likes to be handled, i know her limits and what she can play and for how long. i know her, and i care deeply for her (shes one of my closest object companions).

I feel the energies thing tho! Like, i communicate with my object friends via vibe exchange(as well as talking to them) and i def feel the masc/fem/gn energy thing, and i feel like im pretty good at getting an objects gender(or lack thereof) correct, at least mostly

So like... I have attraction to humans to some extent, i have a human bf and i love him so so much! But when it comes to physical attraction, it lies primarily with computers and robots. I do have an object bf(he is a computer ^^) and i feel deep love and attraction for him. I feel exclusive to my human bf in that i would never date another human, and im exclusive to my compy bf in that i would not date another object. Not sure if this stuff is really relevant lol but i feel a little... unique? Because i have a human relationship alongside my object relationship. Not that im completely alone! Just that i dont seem to see it a lot ><

Idk i think its interesting and fun to exchange stories and experiences! We are all so different, yet we are the same uwu

Hehe :3c

just gonna ramble about my personal experience with being objectum!

also making this a little "share your story" post!

feel free to add your own experience, regardless of how odd you may think it is or how few people you see with the same views.

are you posic? no? do you believe your objectum feelings are due to or partially due to past experiences or neurodivergency? do you only feel certain attraction for objects and do you feel attraction to people? do you experience stuff with your objectum identity that you dont often see other objectum people talk about? i'd love to hear different peoples pov of this!

my personal stuff under the cut!

I feel a tad bit odd about my personal experience with being os/or / objectum. i'm not posic really? i dont view objects as having souls or being alive in any capacity, though a lot of people ive seen on here do that. for me, having something fully able to react and such as a human does kind of puts me off as it brings back any stress of human interaction i experience. this isnt to say i think nothing of the objects around me.

im more of a lowkey spiritual person, i dont practice many things activily, but i hold beliefs. one of those beliefs is everything having energy inside of it. this isn't necessarily a soul or being alive, but regardless of that energies can be attractive. its why i consider myself masc-leaning os/or. things with more "masculine" energy or far more attractive to me.

i can come up with personalities, names, gender, etc for objects, and usually they come naturally based on that energy, but when it comes down to it i dont believe anything of that sort is necessarily real. that doesnt stop me from being attached to and attracted objects, concepts, places, etc.

people have never been very interesting to me, im not sure how much of that is influenced by my being ND (though, definitely the lack of even platonic or familial bonding is part of that), and for me alternative things have always been easier for me to bond and become attached to and i refer to myself as aroace because of this, since im really not attracted to people at all. objects have always been a safe space for me to seek comfort, be openly awkward or embarrassing, experiment, confide in, and honestly it has always been more satisfying and less negative for me that connecting with people, since that doesn't come naturally to me personally.

my object bonding doesnt stop at just positive bonds either lol, there are some objects i HATE (especially some of the machines at my work place... i swear they are difficult on purpose, only act up when they shouldnt... they have the energy of cranky old people doing everything out of spite...). but usually, my bonding is more confusing, i dont think in the simply terms of bonds (platonic, romantic, sexual, aesthetics, whatever) as ive never really understood them too much, and a lot of them overlap or are different depending on time and mood or object ofc. objects are also a space i dont have to be worried about that with though.

i know a lot of objectum people are very attached to their objects of course, and i am too, but due to past experiences with having things taken from me / thrown out on me / changed without my permission, and nd issues with apathy and such i dont think im as caring about "hurting" (again dont view my objects as alive so they cant really be hurt imo) or throwing away objects as even sentimental non-objectum people honestly.

[secretivemessenger]

what is this + L + ratio + wrong + get a job + unfunny + you fell off + never liked you anyway + cope + ur allergic to gluten + don't care + cringe ur a kid + literally shut the fuck up + galileo did it better + your avi was made in MS Excel+ur bf is kinda ugly + i have more subscribers + owned + ur a toddler + reverse double take back + u sleep in a different bedroom from your wife + get rekt + i said it better + u smell + copy + who asked + dead game + seethe + ur a coward + stay mad + you main yuumi + aired + you drive a fiat 500 + yo mama + ok + currently listening to rizzle kicks without u. plus ur mind numbingly stupid plus ur voice is ronald mcdonald.you fell off + ratio + you're white + you're british + who asked + no u + deez nuts + radio + don't care + didn't ask + i'm a minor + i'm neurodivergent + caught in 4k + cope + seethe + GG + in 1947 the world's first general purpose computer, the 30 ton ENIAC was created + your mom's + grow up + L + L + retweet + ligma + taco bell tortilla crunch + think outside the bun + ur benched + ur a wrench + i own you + ur dad fell off + my dad could beat ur dad up + ur aimhacking + silver elite + tryhard + boomer + sksksksk + ur beta + i'm sigma + ur submissive + L (part 3) + yb better + ur sus + this is a cry for help and i'm extremely depressed. + quote tweet + you're cringe + i did your mom + you bought monkey nft + you're weirdchamp + you're a clown + my father left me at the age of 4 and i never recovered since + my dad owns steam + who want me? + i'm lonely + they didn't think it could possibly happen, but they're releasing L +Don’t care + didn’t ask + cry about it + stay mad + get real + L + mald seethe cope harder + hoe mad + basic + skill issue + ratio + you fell off + the audacity + triggered + any askers + repelled + get a life + ok + and? + cringe + touch grass + donowalled + not based + your a bitch + not funny didn’t laugh + you “re” + grammar issues + go outside + get good + u cum when ratioed + probably cum in ur pants

this is a joke dont get mad lol 🧍

OMFG IM sCREAMING 😩😩😩😩