#my bABY IM SO GLAD MY CHILD IS ALIVE

[reckless-rider]

what if i exploded into a million pieces over this god damn book?? huh what then???

[jinwoosbabyboo]

Don't Panic

The lads men finding you asleep with your child in your arm while you were trying to feed them. You're a first time mom you're not going to be perfect. A/N: This is a mommy mc if you're uncomfortable with the idea of mommy mc this is your warning [Requested by: who-mentioned-rhys-larsen]

Summary: You were a first time mom and motherhood was the hardest hood you’ve ever lived in. Even with your husband doing his fatherly duties you were still exhausted. You checked the time on your watch and noticed it was feeding time. You hoisted your baby into your arms and sat down on the bed to breast-feed. You blinked rapidly trying to keep yourself awake “I’ll nap when you’re done eating” You said more so to yourself rather than the baby when suddenly …. you woke up. When did you doze off? The sun was up last time you checked now it's dark out. Where’s the baby? Oh shit where’s the baby!?

Zayne

Zayne came home to find you curled up with your child who was snoring quietly while you held them snuggly in your arms. He picked your babygirl up careful not to wake you and moved her to the adjoining nursery. She squirmed a little at the loss of warmth, but calmed down once Zayne swaddled her.

A few hours later…

MC: ZAYNE!

Zayne: Darling stop yelling before you wake the baby

MC: Where is she?? I fell asleep while feeding her oh fuck im a terrible mom

Zayne grabs you by the shoulders

Zayne: Breathe my love she’s fine I put her in her bed

MC: *teary-eyed* did I hurt her?

You dropped your gaze feeling your heart shatter at the thought of hurting your child

Zayne: You had her held safely in your arms she’s fine go look

You rushed to the nursery to find your babygirl in a peaceful slumber. A wave of relief washed through you causing you to fall to your knees.

MC: I won't let that happen again

Zayne: Go get some sleep my love you’ve earned it I'll take care of the baby

MC: but-

Zayne: You’ll be no good sleep-deprived go rest

Rafayel

MC: WHERE ARE THEY?

You rush out into the living room after tearing your room apart looking for your babies

Rafayel: Quiet down. Why are you yelling?

MC: I CANT FIND THE TWINS

Rafayel: You lost our kids?

MC: I-I accidentally fell asleep and and and when I woke up they were gone I-I-I omg im the worst mom alive

Rafayel: Are these two not ours?

You walk around the couch to find them each fast asleep, one laying in his lap and the other sprawled out next to him on a blanket.

MC: I should punch you in the jaw fuck I think I just had a heart attack thats not funny

Rafayel: I found you asleep in the bedroom with your titty out

MC: Well thats embarrassing

Rafayel: It was a nice surprise … This baby shark was trying to climb on you when I came in

Rafayel said pointing to your baby boy who was drooling all over his lap

Rafayel: and this little sea snail was curled up next to you

Rafayel placed his hand on the tummy of your babygirl

MC: I’m glad they're safe

You sighed, relieved that your babies were fine

Rafayel: You should probably go do that pumping thing you always do …. you’re leaking

MC: Shit!

Rafayel: My little leaky faucet

MC: Please put your top and bottom lip together

Xavier

You sat up quickly almost head butting Xavier who was standing over you

Xavier: Whoa you should change your shirt you have spit up on this one

MC: Where's the baby!?

Xavier: I just put him in his crib

MC: Is he okay? I didn’t roll over on him did I? Was he breathing?

Xavier: Yes. No. and Yes.

Xavier began removing your shirt

MC: Wait wait I need to see our son

Xavier: Okay but lets change your shirt first

MC: No—I need—-Xav move

You end up wrestling Xavier who’s just trying to get you out of your soiled shirt. He manages to slip it off and you dart out of the room with no shirt. You quietly make your way in the nursery and see your baby boy sleeping soundly. Man he looks so much like his dad it’s crazy.

Xavier: Here. *pulls a shirt over your head*

MC: Thanks Xav Im sorry I was just so scared

Xavier: I understand ... now according to Jenna since the baby is down you should get some rest too let’s go

MC: Are you going to nap with me?

Xavier: Jeremiah was in the living room when you ran through to get to our son

MC: Did he see.....?

Xavier: He won't remember even if he did

MC: JEREMIAH IM SORRY

Sylus

MC: WHERE IS SHE??

Kieran: Calm down

Luke: You’ll wa—

MC: DON’T TELL ME TO CALM DOWN

Sylus: She’s right here

You turn to see Sylus holding your baby girl in his arms. She's playfully tugging on his necklace while he continuously moves her little hand away.

MC: Mommy is so sorry baby …. did I hurt her? I didn’t mean to fall asleep

Sylus: You’re going to make yourself sick with all this worrying

MC: I just fell asleep with our child in my arms that seems like grounds to worry Sylus

Sylus: She was fast asleep on your chest and you had your arm wrapped around her

MC: It’s still dangerous

Sylus: and yet she’s fine live and learn sweetie everything will be fine

MC: It’s like my third day out here okay im still learning this mom shit

Sylus: Rule number 1 don’t cuss in front of the baby

MC: Oh shut up

Sylus: Rule number 2 don’t be rude to her dad

MC: Anything else?

Sylus: Rule number 3 dont forget to pump

You look down and realize you have two wet patches on your shirt

MC: Shit!

Sylus: Rule number 1—

MC: Shut it!

[nicherayyy]

Niche!! Im glad to see u back!! How are you doing?

I had this scenario in my mind about La Squadra x child reader and im sorry if my asks are too much but I love the way you write this entire concept so much, i rlly hope you don’t mind if I share some of my scenarios and thoughts.

There was this video , the closest I could find to the original (besides that annoying robotic voiceover, I apologise )

I thought it was so cute because I can only imagine this w Pros. Imagine receiving a crumb of this mans affection😭 Like ofc he tries to look professional, even at home, but for his kid?? I think he would appreciate it, especially if reader is not really the cuddly type as they get older. Maybe there will be a pat on the back or head, or a genuine smile, letting you know that even if you get older he will still love you the same. He will still fight for you, protect you and root for you- because you are his child. I like to imagine Ghiaccio too- he would try to ask what you are doing as you simply settle against him, just wanting to show some affection. he won’t complain once he realized what you were trying to do- on the inside he is like 🥺. You are his kid and he will not deny your hugs, wrapping his arms around you and leaving the laptop he previously worked on aside- even if Formaggio or Illuso come barging in, teasing him and all, he will make a note to beat them up later-but for now he will enjoy this moment between you two (Cue these two idiots wanting hugs too, but you will never catch Illuso alive saying that)

Hiii! I’m doing great, thanks for asking <3

And no, I absolutely love this type of requests, so don’t worry abt it!!

Okay so here’s the hcs

Teenage Reader hugging their Father Figure from La Squadra

Oh yes, Risotto Nero. Stoic leader of the most feared assassin group

And a loving father

Just imagine this tall, intimidating man cuddling his child😭💔

And of course, as reader was younger, they used to cuddle all the time

Reader returned from school? Cuddles

Reader is getting ready for bed? Yeah, could someone (*cough cough* Risotto) give them a cuddle?

So yeah, reader is basically a cuddle bug

But after some years of course, cuddles became a rare occurrence

(Which Risotto was very sad about)

But he understood, maybe reader just didn’t want to, or think that cuddles are for children

So when teenage reader just crawled into Risotto’s arms just like in old times..

The man literally melted

Immediately hugged reader back

He didn’t even realise how much he missed this😭

“If I’m too heavy I can stand up”

“Please don’t”

Literally so happy

With Prosciutto it’s a bit different

Of course, even after reader got older he still gives them some pats on a head and words of encouragement

I mean, it’s his child, he loves them to death

But still, he wasn’t an affectionate type of parent

And when reader crawled into his lap he immediately got still

For a few seconds he didn’t know what to do

“Is it okay? If you don’t want to cuddle—“

“I do want to cuddle”, he hugged reader back

Okay let me tell you Pesci is so sad when reader stop wanting to cuddle

Like.. why don’t they want to cuddle?

Did he do something and now reader hates them?

Where’s his cuddly baby?😭

But he made peace with it after some time

I mean, reader is a teenager now

And I guess it’s not so cool for teenagers to hug with their dad

So when reader just randomly hugged him..

He cried

And of course hugged reader back

“Wha- why are you crying?”

“I’m just *sob* so happy”

Melone is a cuddle bug himself

Like he LOVES to cuddle

It’s his favourite way to show people that he cares for them

So when his child got older and stopped to cuddle he was really sad

He knew it was normal, reader got older and maybe they just stopped liking this type of affection

And of course he didn’t expect to get a hug from them when he was working on his laptop

The speed with which he put aside all of his tasks😭

Mf was over the moon with happiness

“You have no idea how happy I am right now”

Okay I believe Ghiaccio won’t tolerate any cuddles

Unless those cuddles are from reader

I mean they’re his child, why wouldn’t he want cuddles from them?

But of course he won’t show it

Imagine reader crawling into his arms and he’s like:

“What are you doing?”

“Cuddling”

“Okay”

HE LOVES IT

Even is he’s just sitting on the couch with poker face, he still will hug reader back

And if someone (*cough* Formaggio *cough* Illuso) tries to tease him about it.. well Ghiaccio would handle it later

Let’s just hope this someone has enough time to stay frozen

Speaking about Illuso

I think he like cuddles

But he rarely initiates them

Of course he loves giving his child affection, only he prefers to show his love with words or gift giving

But still he would appreciate the hug from reader

“Oh so you still love your old man? How sweet of you”

The same as Melone, Formaggio is a cuddle bug

But let’s be fr, he loves all types of affections

Pats on the back, words of encouragement, you name it

He always initiates cuddles with reader

And he’s got kinda used to the fact that only he initiates them

So when reader initiated hugs first—

“OH MY GOD FINALLY”

He immediately hugged reader back

And I mean this tight bear hug

Definitely won’t let reader go for a few minutes

[0viraptoraskblog]

omgomgomg i have idea in my head! Just imagine that after the ending Fox took you, he immediately called the medics. MC was examined by doctors, they stitched her up, treated her and then while she was still unconscious, they tell Fox that she was pregnant, but the baby died because she cut herself. Yes, it may be a little illogical that MC got pregnant so quickly, but Fox has a knot that helps the male fertilize the female with the greatest probability. That's not the point. How would he react to this? If you remember that his mother killed all his brothers and sisters, that he again essentially lost the one who could have been his family ( IM SORRY IF I SOUND RIDICOLOUS )

It’s not ridiculous! We can suspend some disbelief for the sake of answering asks ^^

Let’s say somehow you were pregnant. The baby must not have been far along at all, as neither of you knew.

I strongly believe that Fox has an aversion to harming children/babies due to what happened to his siblings (I think people leave out his childhood trauma a lot, but it definitely affected him). However, Fox wasn’t intent to become a father with you. Originally, you were supposed to die on live, he only just decided to keep you. He hasn’t had time to build any relationship/connection to the point he might even want to have a child; anything that happened leading up to this was an accident.

Because the baby was a surprise and also so underdeveloped, I don’t think Fox would have much attachment to it. He might be shocked it happened, or at most a little saddened, but not on a personal level. I think if he was at all shaken, which is still iffy (he’s gutted people before, so I don’t think he’d be super bothered by a very small fetus, you know?), he’d recover quickly. He’s more focused on you, after all. He’s glad you’re alive.

That’s just my opinion, but of course anything can happen in fiction.

[liamket]

THERE WAS AN UPDATE YOU KNOW THE DRILL SLEEPING BE DAMMED

theres so much going on jokes that i will deffinetly take advantage of theories of the meaning of things the goddamn art everything

first of all apparently Malo Mart turned to a mega corporation???? well sorry twi no 60% of discount for you that sucks

thats rough buddy

i cant take it seriously poor Four, look at that face

thats the face of someone who will be grounded for some time after all this madness and is totally not happy about this

Sky was waiting letters from Sun, maybe she couldn't write something for him? either way poor guy look at his sad face :( the heart makes it better

baby? baby??? smol???? smol hylian???? tiny cute litol hylian????child????

ahhh Time dont just say yes and left it like that! i need to know!!!

Twilight my man at this point you will be grounded dont test the old man's patience

Time knows the dangers of excesive courage, yes it can keep you going and maybe make you win the battle, but can also kill you if youre not careful. This is what almost happened with Twilight, this almost might have happened to Time too

He's scared that for this reckless courage he might loose his descendant, the one who brought hope to him and his wife to form a family and live happy

(also he saying this makes me think more about the posibility of Malon being pregnant, too much mistery please old man just tell me i will not say anithing ur secret is safe plweas)

HERO'S SHADE HERO'S SHADE

not much to say here, it might be a wrong translation that im doing but hey! it reminds me that Twi already knows that Time is the Hero's shade but like. with flesh and eyes. alive.

OKAY HERE I HAVE THINGS TO SAY

When Wild asks Twilight's face changes inmediately, he doesn't want to look down, he still feels the need to be strong in front of the younger heroes, worrying them is the last of his desires

Four is not stupid, he notices the actual mood of Twi and ask again, but with different words. It looks like it really made Twi reconsider things

doesn't exactly talks what was having him a little down moments ago, but at least it seems to calm them, again, they shouldn't be worried after what happened

Twi for hylia who were you thinking he was talking about????

no really i have that question who was he thinking that was asking for him?????

"who kicked the fuck out of that bad lizard??? who did that???? yes you did!! you did it amazing!!! im so proud my beautiful exterminator of dumb lizards!!!"

HE JUST

FUCKING ROLLS

YEAHHH WIND FLIP

Hyrule 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰💛💛💛💛💛✨✨✨✨✨✨✨

hes so badass jumping off heck yeah stairs are dumb

also Wind thats a cool move you too legend jumping and rolling are so cool love you guys

Wars dont ruin the fun nono guys keep doing it i'll even give you chips if you do that

oh they really think that Wars is broke and has no money alright

im glad that this bit kept going i love the boys teasing each other (Lege and Wars specially)

hey listen

listen

i dont want to ruin it

but

it would be funny

just

just listen

would be very funny that

it just

breaks

hey it would be funny cmon

andddd theyre off!

Hyrule learns from watching, from the actions and movements that he sees in the enemy, and uses it to make a plan to attack, learn patterns and be ready for anything

yep hes gonna play an important role in the next arc i have a feeling

now buildings art aprecciation cuz holy shit theyre so pretty

gorgeous

fantastic work i feel blessed

(all art credits obv goes to @linkeduniverse ! )

[littlestarbigsky]

I have a really, really sad request... my grandfather passed away a few months ago. He was the youngest of three boys. His older brother passed away a couple of years ago. Leaving behind only the middle child.

And all I keep thinking of is Soda being the last one alive after Darry and Pony die and it's making me so sad. I want to write it myself, but can't bring myself to. But it's just so heartbreaking.

first of all, i’m so sorry to hear about your grandfather anon, i hope you’re doing alright and that you have the love and support you need🫶🏻

so here’s the thing, i wasn’t sure how i wanted to approach this one, but then one of my coworkers lost her husband on christmas and the memory of grief came so easily.. not gonna lie this one did a number on me but im so glad that you trusted me with this anon❤️‍🩹

it’s not very long but i hope this is okay🩷

when they lost pony, soda didn’t truly internalize the loss until a few weeks after the funeral. darry had been a wreck, catatonic, unable to get out of bed, much less get himself out of the house for anything other than the funeral. soda held it together reasonably well, planning a small funeral for their baby brother and using the money they had stashed away to send him to college to pay their bills for a few weeks while they tried to move through the loss.

it didn’t really hit him until soda was back at work and some kid, probably close to pony’s age, from the high school came in and bought a pepsi. steve came in to the shop half an hour later to find soda on the floor in behind the counter, shaking and sobbing because god damn it his baby brother was gone. steve held him as he cried until he couldn’t breathe, holding him like a lifeline until darry could get there from work to take him home.

“it’s okay, honey, we’re gonna be okay,” darry had said, hugging soda to him in the back seat of the truck while his little brother sobbed.

soda had screamed at him, “nothing’s okay, darry! pony’s gone!”

still, they found a way to keep going. darry slept in soda’s room more often than not. they both had trouble sleeping after losing their brother, and soda needed someone to be near him and darry needed to know that soda was okay.

none of that felt like it mattered anymore, because when it was darry’s turn to go, soda couldn’t take it. he couldn’t leave the house. he couldn’t eat or drink. the grief was all consuming and snapped him clean in two.

darry probably wouldn’t have even had a funeral if it hadn’t been for two-bit and steve, who were maybe two of the worst people in the world to plan something like that, but they knew what had to be done. they had unfortunately helped out with a few too many curtis family funerals over the years that they knew who to invite, where to hold it, to keep the casket closed.

they had to drag soda there on the day, and he stayed attached to steve the entire time. he sobbed all the way through the service, and he couldn’t stop himself from falling to his damn knees when they lowered his big brother into the ground, right next to pony, right next to their parents. it was all wrong, their parents should still have been alive, not buried with two of their sons right next to them.

he wouldn’t leave his room, but he wouldn’t let himself rest. steve had to stay with soda overnight and hold him close just to make sure he slept at all. two-bit heated up the food people had brought and sat with him while he ate just to be sure that it happened. they knew they weren’t his brothers, but they did what they could.

despite how long it took him to pull himself together again, he finally managed to make it back to work. he liked being at work, being around other people, not having to sit and wallow in how deep the wounds felt. it was almost like he could pretend that they were all still there, that he would go home and see his parents and brothers, not a hauntingly empty house.

eventually steve and two-bit moved in with him, they adopted a dog, they found a new normal. it still crushed soda’s soul to have to keep living and hit milestones that his family never would, but he made his peace with it. it was his job to make them proud. and that was worth it.

he was their last hope.

[potatoesnottomatoes8]

I saw some other people do this soooo hears my thoughts and notices spoilers obviously

- i don’t why but i love how Diana takes a bite out of an apple and just hands it to Natalie in just another day

- the little dance number in my psychopharmacologist and i after they go down the stairs

- when diana pushes the cake in the sink in i am the one like ok show us your rage

- the way Gabe enters in i am the one is sooooo cool

- the new parts in im alive when Gabe sings “if you climb on my back then we both can fly” and how Diana is behind him with like there arms up in the air is really neat

- in make up your mind / catch me i’m falling how Diana doesn’t just turn around like she did at the Donmar she’s falls like back in the chair like going back into reality

- How Gabe plays with the music box in I dreamed a dance

- OMG this is the one i care about the most so it’s gonna be long but the way Gabe touches Diana’s hand in there’s a world and then Diana starts to kinda walk away like saying no to Gabe but then how Gabe kind of forcefully hugs her and she’s like uncomfortable at first and then eases into it like she accepted trying to kill herself, idk something about it like it’s such an incredible change that wasn’t at the Donmar which i feel like makes this scene so much better

- I absolutely loved the Wish I Were Here number i like how the dialogue part was towards the audience and how when Diana and Natalie passed each other it’s like they were going to go towards each other the then would move away at the last second which i though was cool rather then them holding hands like they did before

- How Dan actually shows a picture of a baby girl holding up her middle finger in better then before

- How Diana looks up at the top of the stairs when she finds the bag with the music box to make sure Dan isn’t watching

- obviously the silhouette scene is like ahhhhh so cool

- The way Diana looks at Dan after he throws the music box 😭😭 she’s like whyyyyyy

- When Gabe literally lays across the table after I’m Alive reprise like he knows he ate that up

- at the Donmar i hated the jacket or coat caissie wore during Maybe so I’m glad they gave her a new because idk something about just made it look ugly to me (i still think she wears it during Song of Forgetting if I’m not mistaken)

- ok this is another thing during hey #3 i never noticed how when Natalie’s rambling about what happens if she does this or that like stuff Diana did that she say “bleeding out in the …’ like omg idk how i never realized but like 😭

- literally how Gabe is like a scared child after Dan finally sees him like he look soooo terrified

- someone mentioned this earlier about how Natalie kind of notices when Gabe touches her hand like theldntnekakdnsbs wtf

- i like how Diana sits at the edge of the stage during Light like imagine sitting right there i would dieeee

also don’t even get me started on the Diana/Dan Natalie/Henry parallels because they make me cry.

[cromakas]

tails is so cute Mmmmy sweet sweet dear darling daughter. ,,,,i am sick. no one will ever understand tails the way i do. the world may see past her neglected-by-adults-former-homeless-orphan-bullied-and-beaten-for-deformity-forced-to-grow-up-too-fast-only-sees-herself-as-a-burden bpd autistic charm but i Do not. i see it. I was her once .😢 aBut forreal eeeeu tails is so well written and makes me so sad i love him more than anything she’s so important to me . augh………. i’m always 4ever thinking about every single line from tails in sonic frontiers. about feeling useless and a burden who only drags down sonics good name. how he is so scared all the time of everything and can’t handle it well. how he feels so useless when he shuts down whenever bad things happen and can’t help. and how he hates needing help from sonic all the time. and when sonic reassures him that he’s done and helped with so much her response is that she’s “wildly inconsistent!” baby you are 8 Years old!! ☹️☹️ sonic fans always shit on tails for being scared and not doing anything in more recent games especially in forces….. And how frontiers quote unquote fixed his character…. but i think Uuuuu people forget that tails is a CHILD!! who is gonna have child like aspects. SHE DESERVES to have Child like aspects. he knows literally everything there is to know about the world EXCEPT being a child. and forces Was SCARY, there was a war going on. sonic was universally presumed dead. tails was all alone and defenseless again. sonic was the one who showed him that he Can be strong, but sonic being gone is going to be insanely traumatic Man idk what to tell you…. that’s his big brother and literal care taker and like his reason for being alive ! i’m glad that they wrote tails like that in forces even if it Was ‘inconsistent’ to his character,,, tails is inconsistent! he is messy! because he is a KID! the fact he willingly wants to go off on his own in frontiers is so so big for his character and it makes me so emotional. he’s CHOOSSSSINNGGGG to branch out from sonic, hes doing it for himself. which is something she never/rarely does. she puts everyone first, tails does not care about himself in the slightest. every time he says something worrying n Almost opens up in frontiers he IMMEDIATELY shuts himself down. because Sonic is in danger and needs help. he’s being a burden. stop It. and sonic is So worried about his baby brother. and even says so and Again and again tails says it doesn’t matter right now😢 that they’ll talk later 😢 andhow can he be useful right now!! but she’s hurting So bad and more than anything just wants to be someone reliable enough to not be abandoned by sonic, The first person who has ever been kind to him 😭him wanting to leave n work on himself , BY himself Is so. important. to me. bc for the first time he sees himself as SOMEONE. instead of just sonics partner… and sonics Response. oh Im getting nauseous typing this out thinking about it. GODDDD. “you’re free to go your own way. i guess you just grew up on me a little faster than i expected.” AANYONE else hear that ominous bell tolling???😂😂😂 boats & birds by gregory and the hawk js sonic and tails’ song God i am seriously going to HUR.TMYSELF Bad auaueueggGGEGRBRBRB AND . and you are my baby by kimya dawson. heh iWas😅 really into both of those songs when frontiers came out and the damage it did to my psyche has Never left me! hwoooo boy let Me tell you… i am Also always thinking about the fact tails was literally homeless all by herself living outside before sonic found her☹️that’s the reason she is so afraid of thunder and lightning,,, bcuz she was always outside 😢 and now she is extra jumpy and sensitive 😭😭😢tails is my absolute favorite (and the most personal) character of All Time. i don’t think there’ll ever come a time when that changes. i don’t even see him as a Character he is really like family to me…. or a little extension of my soul that i’ve grown up alongside with

STORY TIME this is kind of funny to think about in retrospect Something was wrong with me. but before i got my tails plushie as a kid at Likeee… i couldnt have been older than or 3 or 4? i was already very obsessed with tails! i wasn’t old enough to play or Understand how to play sonic games(i watched my dad for hours while he’d play the games for me & i also was really into the 90s cartoons) but i was IMMEDIATELY so So incredibly attached to tails. he was my little buddy! i was him for halloween once , i had this pair of white shoes that i Never took off because they made me feel like tails and i remember when my mother had to throw them out bc they were Raggedy and falling apartBC I NEVER TOOK THEM OFF ohhh. Man i cried. mom was really controlling about my clothes and outfits and would pick out everything i wore and forced me to wear make up and do my hair all crazy it was An overstimulating nightmare for a toddler anyway she coordinated all my clothes and would get reallllly mad CUZ ALL I WANTED TO WEAR WERE THOSE GROSS SHOES 😭 then when i was at the age when kids had “imaginary friends” my undiagnosed UNCREATIVE little autistic ass was like Hmmm.. I think i’m going to make myself hallucinate tails to fit in with other Children of society! and so she was my… not so imaginary friend for a little while 😊 AND THEN! One fateful day i got my little tails plushie.. and she’s never been more than a room away from me ever since. i carry him absolutely everywhere he is probably Soaked in almost my whole life’s worth of tears and drool,,, i’ve had him through All of it. everything that happened 2 me he went through it all by my side. he took care of me when my parents wouldn’t and i know how Silly and delusional that may sound.. but i’ve truly personified him my whole entire life and he is my family and my best friend!!!! i was a very lonely Only child and i wanted a sibling or just Normal parents ssoooo bad😢 he’s always been that role to me. ive also always related to tails’ character so much too and he was the exact role model + just. the Representation of how i was feeling that i needed so So bad as a kid. little basil watching the episode from taosth that was about tails never having parents and Wanting them so bad, n sonic kept searching and searching to find him a home (even tho it made him So sad.) to no avail til Eventually tails gets tricked by eggman into finally thinking he had found his REAL home with his BIOLOGICAL PARENTS who Loved him and Wanted him. but they were evil frrrreeaakinf ant robots AND JESUS CHRIST THAT TRAUMATIZED ME AS A KID the Ants Did. and after sonic saves him the Cutest interaction i think tails and sonic have EVER had in the Entire franchise. was from the 1993 cartoon. sonic apologizing saying hes just so sorry for all the trouble he caused , that all he wanted was to find tails a ‘real’ family N tails just goes “i’ve already GOT a real family! i’ve got the best! a family is just people who care about each other more than anyone else, right? you’re it!! you’re my mom, you’re my dad, and you’re my picket fence” 😊😊 and sonic goes “woah, You’re not gonna use the L word are ya? then i will!! cuz it’s a great word! i love you little bro!” then he noogies him and the episode ends with tails sayinf its Great to be home. guys. guys. Can anyone hear me i’m SEIZING IM SSIITNG HERE BAWLINF MY EYES OUT CYZ I JUST HAD TO REWATCH THAT CLIP TO QUOTE IT Oh my gooddddddddddddd

sorry vince if U read all of this.sitting here on a nice friday night cry typing about sonic the hedgehog autism is Truly a super power 🌈♾️

[solarstranger]

oh im so glad OL received such a stellar review! it really is a game i hold near and dear to my heart (and also currently the only game i have ever put 100 hours into on steam which, considering its a visual novel, should tell you a lot about me 💀). its by far the best of the games i rec'd you but i hope you have a good time with the others as well!

i would be more than happy to answer your questions :D

1. how did i find the game?

im going to be so honest...i don't remember 😭 i think i saw it on someone else's recommendation list and decided to give it a shot. this was years and years ago (as in the demo for step 2 was freshly released) but i really liked what existed so far. i kinda let it drop from my consciousness for a while but then one of my twitter mutuals ended up talking to me about it and how step 4 had just come out and i raced to pick it back up. playing it from start to end was almost a religious experience im telling you. i immediately bought the step dlcs with no regrets and oh my goodness. eeya. when i tell you the dlc is so worth it. there's one particular step 3 dlc memory that i wont spoil but it made me cry like a baby and launched my love for cliff to new heights. naturally when the wedding and baxter dlcs came out i picked those up too, as well as the artbook. i think the only dlc i don't own is the derek one, just because i don't really care for him romantically enough to buy it. i also backed the sequel game Our Life Now and Forever on kickstarter so. yk. i like the series a normal amount.

2. what are my favorite bits?

god how to choose. i'd have to say the opening sequence for step 3 is genuinely one of the most moving scenes in all of fiction. seeing cove on the windowsill with that soft smile framed by the sunset...bags still in the driveway but he got into town and HAD to see me...there was no chance for me after that i had to propose to him at the first opportunity what the hell. perfect man.

i also really like the tone of the game if that makes sense? like most otomes/dating sims have some overarching plot that brings the characters together or grand ending that ties everything up but our life is so true to its name. its your life you just gotta live it. what that means and looks like is entirely up to you. the only stakes are the ones you create yourself. god im getting emotional again.

(also what other game lets you have an internal crisis about how your friend's/crush's parents are both hot. peak writing)

also like you mentioned the customization is insane. not only getting to shape your character but cove's as well? mind blowing. cove still existing as his own person with agency within the game and not just being a paper doll designed to love you. doubly mind blowing.

the characterization...you summed it up beautifully i think there's not much else i can add but everyone just feels so. alive. real. i think the moment that really cemented this game as one of my favorites was when liz found out the truth about her parents and got upset, and the game never framed it as "she's so ungrateful what's wrong with her" or "your parents are monsters how could they" it was just presented as a neutral situation. liz was entirely justified to her feelings even if there was nothing that could actually be done to change the situation, and your moms didn't suddenly get reframed as baby snatchers 😭 the game even held space for your own feelings about your bio family and adoption, and any reaction YOU had was also valid! easy game of the decade right there.

also lee is just such a shining star of a character. best cousin ever i love her so much.

and also kyra and cliff! just a fantastic view on what a healthy co parenting situation can look like. they were young and stupid and not entirely ready for a child but cove is sooo loved. kyra was never painted as a villain for giving cliff custody and continuing on with her life, and though step 1 cove obviously has a lot of big feelings about his parent's separation he's never painted as childish or immature for them! AHHHH i could ramble about this game all day good lord.

i cant even get into cove himself too much because we really will be here all day. that green haired man and his funky eyebrows has bewitched me body and soul.

3. did i play the dlcs?

i basically already answered this one in the first question but yes! i own every dlc except derek's and have played through all of them except baxter's. i really enjoy baxter's character he's the bisexual boyfail all media needs with an absolutely legendary character intro. i mean the man saw mc and cove and the first word out of his mouth was hallelujah. does it get any better than that. he was funny and flirty but not overly pushy even if it was obvious he was itching to ask if we needed a third lmao. that said his dlc is kinda slow and wordy and i did get bored 😭 also i missed cove too much but maybe I'll pick it up again one of these days.

wedding dlc moved me so badly especially since cove and i basically got engaged on that hill 😭 5 year engagement but we made it baby...the speeches really did move me to tears (also fun tip from me to you: if you never ever spill about the 20 dollars and then play the wedding dlcs you get one of the funniest scenes in the whole game)

4. what was my playthrough like?

like i mentioned before ive put about a 100 hours into this game so i've done about 3 or 4 different playthroughs but the one i consider most canon is my very first one. my mc's name was connie and i miss her sooo much (i usually play dating sims using my own name but i really wanted to take advantage of the voiced name list 😭)

immediately started at fond bc i was going for a bubbly and outgoing sort of character and it was so rewarding watching her slowly coax cove out of his broody little shell. basically speedran the relationship: stage 2 at crush level, invited him to share the bunk on the roadtrip (even if it ended disastrously), kissed him at the end of the stage, started wearing anklets at the FIRST opportunity, happily dating by stage 3, engaged with a flower ring at the end of the stage shocking absolutely nobody 😅 conniecove is so special to me but i lost the save file when i switched laptops and i mourn her daily 😞

wow this got really long whoops. anyway, as you can see our life means a whole lot to me and im so so so glad you enjoyed it!!

crying because thank you so much for indulging me what the heck!!!!! was smiling ear to ear reading all this and i can really tell how much the game means to you and i’m so so happy that you have something special in the form of this very lovely game. even more thankful that you were kind enough to share this personal game to me and let me experience the beauty of it. 🥹

and noted on all the tips!!!! reading your inputs made me realize how there are so many more possibilities and there’s so much more to this game. i’ll probably take just a short break before diving into it again with the dlcs that i want, just to forget about it for a bit before obsessing again lmfaooo but i’ll be sure to let you know once i pick it up.

thank you so much daisy!!!!! and for introducing me to this very wonderful game. 🥺 i’m once again reminded of how much i love art and people who create art with all their being.

[violentvioletviolin]

SQUID GAME SEASON 3

Okay okay genuinely forgot to update here. I finished it hours ago AND as I was binging, I forgot to take any screen shots. Like ?? No screen shot from 13 eps haw haye.

ANYWAYS, I loved it. I've seen ppl hating and complaining and calling it over rated. Well I do not care.

It was GOOD. Honestly yes. I like the ending. Ofcourse nothing was going to chnage and yes the poor stay poor and rich stay filthy.

IM SIWAN. the guy u are. I hate 333 but I love Im Siwan for doing justice to it. ( he looked lovely , reminded me of dokja, ahn hyoseop can never look that good in blood and has he ever played a cunning character??)

But when 120 baaji died. I WAS SO UPSET. I shed 2 tears. Only 2 bcz no time to cry , we move. Oh and I loved how gi hun was MAD and after Dae ho , and aaahh yes.

That old guy ? I'm glad he didn't change once ONCE. he was selfish through and through.

When daadi suicided. No NO. 222 cannot lose the TWO ppl she had back to back. ( felt a liiiiiitle weird that her labour was so quick but it kind of makes sense too bcz of how much she had been moving , must've been delayed quiet alot )

HEY SO I GATE HOW MYUNGI DIDNT ONCE HOLD HIS DAUGHTER WJTH MOVE. I PNICKED BAD WHNE HE PUT THE CHILD WITHOUT ANY CARE ON THE GRIUND. I THOUGHT HWR HEAD WOULD BURST OPEN.

Fazool Jahil Janwar

I hate and love how humans are.

THE NORTH KOREAN BAAJI SLAYED

Slaaayyyyyeeed

Um um what else I wanted to say

That part when front man showed his face to gi hun. Haaaaaayyeeeeeeeeee. Oh oh the guy , the junkie, and the other kid. So the jump rope game when he lured the guy with the cross necklace.

Okay I personally do not like how much trauma min su had been holding and I mena he was straight up hallucinating se mi. That felt a little too much. Okay idk.

222 DIDNT EVEN TRY 😣😣 why are humans so. AND GO TO HELL MYUNGI. Why was he like that. WHEN HE THREATENED TO THROW THE KID. HIS OWN DAUGHTER MIND YOU. But yeah why would he care. He wanted her to abort the baby anyways ( I think )

I have headache

I read the 120 died in a body she hated. I'll throw up.

But hey ? The other kid is healthy and happy with her dad. 246 is alive ( he doesn't know everyone died ? Maybe ? Idk but haw 120 would've loved to meet his duaghter , I believe the 3 women had their dinner, somewhere )

But oooo Jun ho got rich. I hope he doesn't give the kid away in an orphanage and keep the money. But I don't even want him to put up with a kid he doesn't even know a thing about. ( DID FRONT MAN EVEN GIVE HER A NAME ??? JUN HEE DIDNT NAME HER OH MY GOD HAWWWW , I'll believe front man did give her a name , he lost a kid and wife too )

Yaaaarr the more I think the more I worry

[ask-postcrash-curly]

you’re damned right i’d find anything cute! god, sorry i appreciate little human things that i find sweet. didn’t know you were such a hater. and im sorry im happy that temperature matters again. GOD Curly, have a little optimism. i remember how motherfucking HOT it got on the Tulpar post-crash. yuck. shit smelled too.

…

ohhhhhhh. yeah i didn’t know who that kid was. i was just sort of scared of most things. i figured out later he was running because he stole grain from a market. man, after that, i ran so sporadically i fell into a river. embarrassing. it was winter too, i had just turned seven i think.

my mom had to wrap me in just about every linen we had in the house i was so cold. i remember that well. i was sitting on my mom’s lap by the fire, and we almost never had the fire going, my mom was always sensitive about what happened to her dad. she was sewing a tapestry, she had just became with child, my father was tending to said fire, my older brother was still alive, he was preparing dinner, my little brother was helping, and my baby sister was sleeping. she’s the one who died because of a finger prick. and this was right after the church tried to get me hanged for being a little freak. that was less good. but, y’know, i “outlived” all of them, so i guess i win. i remember those days fondly, despite everything.

i miss domesticity.

🖤

As if you weren't human once. What? Am not. Yeah, well— Okay. That's fair. I have optimism! I know things are looking up. Just being realistic about it, yeah? ...Mm.

...

Ah. So I was the grain thief, then. Hah. Into the river in winter? Ah, jeez, glad you pulled through. Hanging a damn seven-year-old... At least you've got a good memory of it, somehow.

[whumpbug]

Hi Bug, same anon who asked the horse questions --- first of all, thank you so much for the answers and I'm so glad I was able to inspire you!! I don't think you've talked about this yet but I was curious: What was Gene's mom like? I know she was killed by criminals and that event led to him becoming such an intensely strict deputy, so either she meant a whole lot to him or her death was just that traumatic. --- QUESTIONS - Well, first of all, what's her name? - What lasting affect did she have on Gene when she was alive? Did she teach him anything fundamental about life or morality that he still believes? Did she introduce him to anything that he's still passionate about? - Is there anything specific that Gene does in her memory and if so, when? On the anniversary of her death? Whenever it's her favorite weather? Every other day? Every morning? - Who, specifically, killed her (if you know)? - How old was Gene when she was killed and did he witness it himself? If so, does he remember it?

HI ANON IM SO EXCITED TO SEE YOU IN MY ASK BOX AGAIN!!!!! and once again you come with such amazing questions i am being so spoiled right now.

the short answer is that she meant a whole lot to him AND her death was that traumatic. but who's here for the short answer anyways

long post incoming. as always. I HOPE U ENJOY!

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what's her name?

gene's mother's maiden name was Sylvia Mae LeBlanc.

she was a small, feisty woman from the deep south (louisiana) and you could tell right away from her accent. she was blonde, blue-eyed, and gorgeous. a real southern belle.

she met gene's father (who's name is clint) when she was just 17, and the two hit it off. they got married, and of course, she became sylvia delaney, and soon baby gene was born. the trouble was that sylvia's father did not like clint. clint was a rancher, and her father thought lowly of the profession. he refused to support them finacially. she ran away with clint and they struggled for quite a while, but they were determined. clint truly did love sylvia, but i don't think he was ever going to be ready to be a father. sylvia loved being a mother, but fatherhood scared clint. he never had a great relationship with gene to start, and it only got worse when sylvia died.

looks wise, gene got his bone structure from his father, but everything else is from his mama. he has her eyes, her hair, her mouth, even her nose. he was VERY blonde as a child.

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what lasting affect did she have on gene when she was alive?

oh this is a loaded question and i LOVE it.

when he was little, he spent most of his time with his mom. being a rancher was a busy job, and clint didn't particularly care enough to make an effort to spend time with his kid, so gene and sylvia were very very close.

she taught him a lot about how to conduct himself. she was a southern girl, manners were VERY important to her. she'd be damned if gene didn't address everyone he met as sir or ma'am. she also was a big reader, and taught gene to read and write from just age 3. she read anything under the sun to him, and its part of the reason why he's generally considered very articulate. he still loves reading and it's one of his favorite pastimes.

she was also extremely progressive for her time. she taught him so much about how to respect people as a whole, no matter their race or gender or social class or anything. she just taught him empathy. it was a big help that gene was naturally just a sweet kid.

unfortunately for little gene, clint Did Not like this. he was obsessed with what it meant to "Be A Man" and didn't take kindly to seeing his son do things like carrying the paralyzed lamb to and from the water tin or crying after accidentally stepping on a butterfly. he saw gene as too soft from the get-go, and he made his disdain for it known.

it was a recurring argument for sylvia and clint.

still, sylvia wouldn't back down. when gene would sob after getting yelled at by clint or, worse, after being forced to go hunting at the age of 7, sylvia would hold him and rock with him and sing to him until he calmed down and tell him that its okay to cry. being gentle takes strength. the world needs more kindness like yours.

gene thinks about it very often.

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is there anything specific that gene does in her memory and if so, when?

so, for starters, he visits her grave every year on the anniversary of her death. she was buried in louisiana-- she loved her home town and state. so every year, gene takes a train (haha. sorry gene.) down to visit his grandparents and aunts and cousins, but ultimately he leaves the family house to go to the cemetery and spends the day sitting by her grave and just. he just talks to her.

he talks to her like she's right there. he tells her about work, about the town shenanigans, more recently about cassidy (he talks a lot about cassidy. sylvia is looking down at him with an Eyebrow Raise.), really anything that comes to his mind. he sometimes falls asleep, head resting against her headstone, and wakes up to the sun settling below the horizon.

in terms of little practices he does, he makes his coffee a very specific way because of how she used to make it. he wears one of her rings on a chain around his neck. he has her accent, sometimes, when he's not thinking about it. he still has all his southern manners, he is respectful and kind, just like she wanted him to be, but sometimes it's drowned out by his father.

he also kept a bottle of her perfume. it smells of peach and vanilla and orange blossom. he sprays it on his pillow sometimes, when he really really misses her. those nights are always hard on him.

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who, specifically, killed her (if you know)?

see this is where i have entertained different ideas. as of now, its just a random outlaw. just a random train robber that had no personal connection to gene.

however.

i have thought it could be interesting if the man was montana or someone associated with him. the timelines would (maybe) make sense, but i feel like it might also just complicate things too much. IDK. its just a little idea but for now, i'll say it was just an unspecific outlaw.

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how old was gene when she was killed and did he witness it himself? if so, does he remember it?

oh boy.

cw: blood mention. slightly graphic description of death.

gene wishes he didn't remember. he really does.

she was killed on their way to visit louisiana. clint never went with them when they traveled because, again, being a rancher is a demanding profession and sylvia's family didn't take too kindly to him visiting anyways.

gene was 11 at the time. he was sitting in the train car with his mother, head resting on her shoulder, when he heard commotion coming from a few cars down.

then, the group of robbers breached their own car.

gene was petrified. he clung to his mama like a little boy, visibly shaking when they started making their way down the aisle. she whispered reassurances to him, that they would be okay, that they weren't going to give the bad men anything, that the sherriff would be there any minute.

when one of the men approached sylvia and gene, sylvia physically put herself between the man and her son. she was fesity. she wasn't going down without a fight, and she sure as hell wasn't going to give this man anything.

when she refused the first time, the man didn't shoot her. he simply murmured something to his the other outlaw beside him and turned back to sylvia, giving her a chance to reconsider. she didn't.

and then the gunshot rang out.

she got her right in the chest. it was a miracle that gene wasn't somehow hit too, as close as he was.

that was the moment the outlaws heard the shout of the lawmen, and turned tail on the job. but the damage had been done.

gene held his mama as she took her last breath. she didn't stand a chance. the bullet fired point blank into her left lung. she hardly lasted a few minutes. still, gene screamed. there was blood everywhere. on his face, on his clothes, on his hands.

he cried, he begged, he pleaded for someone, anyone to help him. to save his mama. but she didn't stand a chance.

i'd like to say that she had last words, some profound thing to say that gene could hold dear to him for the rest of his life, but she didn't she just gasped for air until she couldn't anymore.

gene remembers that day in vicious detail. he remembers what he was wearing, what she was wearing, what the man's eye color was. his memory goes fuzzy from the moment she died, though. he vaguely remembers being taken to a sherriffs office and being cleaned up with a handkerchief and being wrapped in a scratchy blanket. he remembers his father arriving, and it might have been the only time his father hugged him. it was certainly the only time he ever saw him cry.

his memory of the entire year after she died is choppy at best, nonexistent at worst. he began helping his father more at the farm, not because he wanted to spend more time with him, but because it gave him something to do. if he didn't have anything to do, he might've gone crazy.

unfortunately, and much to sylvia's dismay i'm sure, the experience hardened him. especially since he was around his father so much, he didn't allow himself to be seen as soft or gentle anymore. he got tougher, meaner, and more like his father.

its, in part, because he wonders if he had been just a little stronger on that day in the train, if he could have saved his mama. maybe if he had been quicker or more intimidating, he could have protected her like a "Real Man" should. but he'll never know. and that thought kills him.

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GOD that got sad really fast. im sorry for the trauma gene. and i'm sorry for giving you another reason to hate trains cough cough @sethlost cough cough

JOKES ASIDE thank you so much for this question anon. i think by writing this all out, i have a much better grasp of gene as a person and the actual impact his mother had on him. this was such an important question and also SO fun to answer so thank you so much!!!!!

[daphnebowen]

percy jackson episode five thoughts

I skipped a couple episodes where I wrote down my thoughts, but I'm about to rewatch and write don't worry! warning: lots of screaming, fangirling, heart attacks, and nonsense below :))

also these are all just copied straight from the notebook I use when I'm writing down my thoughts and I barely proofread them :)

Annabeths trust in Percy being alive is literally just like her belief that Luke is alive later on and even though it's kinda sorta different (or at least people are gonna treat it that way) I'm all here for it

WHY WERE THE FATES SO CREEPY HELLO

AAAAAHHHH THE PERCABETH HUGGGG I IGNORED SO MANY SPOILERS AND IM SO GLAD 2 minutes in and I'm already fangirling so hard haha

is Grover blushing at them??

"surprise" omg Walker 😭🥹

the droplet of water clinging to walkers chin is so distracting

"I'm the last person to realize this aren't I?" It's okay Percy

his eyes are SO FREAKING BLUE it's giving zac efron from hsm2

"it doesn't have to be a thing, yk. That you hugged me." OHKAY HES NOT ENTIRE CLULESS THIS IS FAN SERVICE RIGHT HERE WE KNOW THAT IT MOST ABSOLUTELY WILL BE A THING LMAO and annabeths "oh boy" and Grover's clear exasperation HAHAH

where the heck did the motorcycle go lol we know it's ares but like it doesn't take that long to drive

"we're all gonna die... eventually" wise words Percy wise words

ugh the fact that it's Luke's string 💔

Ares ‼️‼️‼️

Ok but why is ares literally EXACTLY how I thought he would be?!?!

"that's my cousin? what kind of family is this?" A dysfunctional one for sure, sorry Percy you're in for a rough ride

ares starting a fight on twitter is ABSOLUTELY CRAZY and yet so in character lmao

"I'm gonna kill him" same Percy SAME I will gladly help you - although all things considered I am glad they decided to keep delinquent percy in the show

they keep bringing up the "push someone down a flight of stairs" thing! There's no way this is just a coincidence anymore, what with chalice of the gods and earlier on with Annabeth and like... they're obviously doing it on purpose. is that gonna be the shows new thing?? trusting someone enough so that if they can push you down the stairs they're the one? idk man, love the metaphor tho

PLS LET THERE BE THE ZOO TRUCK SCENE OH MY PLS

leah's eyebrow quirk is 💋

WATERLAND IS PERFECT OMG

walker portrayed Percy's anxiety and nervousness and scaredness (is that a word?) perfectly

Can't tell if Grover is actually a history buff or playing Ares so he will talk but that scene was actually cool, I like the change they made to have Grover stay behind (this was what I wrote originally, but now after seeing peoples interpretations and opinions and things I know he was playing ares and I think it's BRILLIANT how smartly he played the god of war. Good for you buddy!)

"I didn't say anything" "I can feel you thinking it" OHKAY THEN

thrill ride of love = flawless. No words. I am speechless.

"I hate kids" relatable

ARES IS ACTUALLY BEING SMART AND MAKING SENSE FOR ONCE not to mention he's so funny and so relatable!

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH SEAWEED BRAIN ALERT 🚨 SEAWEED BRAIN ALERT 🚨 SHE CALLED HIM SEAWEED BRAIN AND I LOVED IT never mind the actual SCREAM i let out lmao

is Annabeth about to cry?!?!

yeah she's definitely about to cry

why am I so scared. This cannot be happening. What?? What??? he's the main character. main characters don't die. well except for Magnus chase BUT THOSE ARE DIFFERENT GODS AND DIFFERENT RULES NO WALKER

why am I actually so scared about this chair thing omg

(I would just like to say that I was so speechless and in shock throughout the whole chair thing, so I didn't write down a single quote but I loved them all I just was in too much shock to pause the show lol)

um.

WHAT. JUST. HAPPENED.

WHY IS MY BABY GOLD

WHY IS MY CHILD GOLDDDD

I AM SO CONFUSED RIGHT NOW THIS DEFINITELY DIDNT HAPPEN IN THE BOOKS MY BRAIN IS TOO SLOW FOR THIS 😭😭😭

oh my gosh ITS HEPHEASTUS

dude the way that door suddenly opened scared the crap out of me

leah is absolutely shining as Annabeth, her monologue was so profound and heartfelt, love that addition 💗

THAT CLIFFHANGER GOES CRAZYYYY

okay of course those of us who read the books know who really stole the lightning bolt and stuff but the clueless fools just watching the show are gonna be like OMG WHO WHO and even if they piece it together technically they'll only be half right. and their confusion and confidence in what they think they know is going to be SO entertaining in the coming weeks hehehehe and even throughout the whole series if we continue to get green lights for the series

but yes that episode was utter perfection! Now for the teaser...

WHO DID PERCY JUST TACKLE EXCUSE ME

duuuuude. The lotus casino is MASSIVE and actually super pretty I cannot wait for the episode tomorrow!

WHY IS PERCY DRIVING OMG THIS IS NOT LEGAL although tell me why he is literally better at driving than I am HAHAHAHAHAH

ugh and that is it! Those are all my random thoughts from the episode! thanks for reading :))

[iwillseeyouinanother-life]

Mocking Jay stream of consciousness

Howdy bitches (in a loving tone)

I want to apologize about the harsh and wrong things I said about Gale in a deleted post. I called him cold and aggressive which was out of complete ignorance because I was separating him from the context of his situation. I really am sorry. Gale is a character I do not understand well and that’s on me. It’s fun to dunk on characters you don’t like but not when it’s causing harm and I was causing harm and I do apologize for that. I didn’t want to talk about the books I’m reading without holding myself to better standards and addressing that first.

Now then— onto the fried eggs for brains thoughts about mockingjay (I’m in chapter 9)

- I cannot remember their username but someone brought of the fact that Gale is getting groomed by Coin which hit me in the face like a baseball bat because fucking duh— it’s right in your face and it went over my head. While I was reading I was like “GALE NO— YOU ASS KISSER”— nah girl he is a victim and you missed the point.

- Coin you can rot in hell— you are grooming a literal child (I think he is like 18 but I don’t care he is a child). You are taking advantage of an 18 year old who watched his home burn to the ground. YUCK!

- fuck you snow you ugly bitch— when I catch you it’s on sight you sad sack of garbage. All I gotta do is wack those old ass knees of yours and down goes you and your fuck ass empire.

- Peeta blink twice if you need help sweetheart

- Peeta baby I am so sorry. We are gonna bring you home sweetheart.

- I am not handling peeta’s interview well :) I’m gonna need 10 business days to process.

- top 3 characters— Haymitch, Finnick, Peeta

- I liked Peeta in the movies and the first book— I really LOVED Peeta in Catching Fire— I did not want to care about him because I know how all this ends and caring hurts my feelings but Peeta wormed his way into my heart in Catching Fire.

- not haymitch threatening to staple a helmet to katniss and then eating her lunch.

- FINNICK YOU POOR BABY I AM SO SORRY. Y’all he scrambled to Katniss because he was distraught that they wouldn’t let him go to district 8. He was down so bad that even Katniss thought it was a bad idea. He is SO not okay without his wife and it makes me cry every time. It’s okay princess we will get your wife back— TRUST and believe— Annie baby we are gonna get you :’)

- Finnick coming through for Katniss after peeta’s second interview— YUUUUUUP YUUUUUUUUUHP

- one thing about Finnick is he will snap out of it to protect someone else. Finnick will come through in a pinch.

- Finnick and Katniss are the best friends ever

- mutually assured destruction to mutual understanding that they are both drowning and their is nothing that they can do for each other except drown together— Finnick and Katniss’ friendship progression from Catching Fire to Mockingjay

- BEETEE!! STILL KICKING!! IM SO GLAD YOU’RE OKAY!!

- Gale annoys me a lot throughout this book— I do not see the point to his character outside of pissing katniss off or getting her to participate when she is uncooperative.

- Coin I’m still on your ass— I hate you

- District 8 😢 I lost my marbles— I was freaking out the whole time. Snow I hope you break your foot.

- 🧍‍♀️me hoping the Haymitch father figure scenes aren’t only in the movies

- “if you knew what Finnick has been through you would know how remarkable it’s that he is still with us” OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY IM OKAY THAT DIDN’T HURT MY SOUL AT ALL 🤧

- wishing haymitch was in this book more— where are you friend

- Gale putting two and two together that Peeta is trying to keep Katniss alive still— I clapped. I cheered. Gale annoys the fuck out of me but this was the one scene I was rooting for him.

- Gale and Katniss being mad at each other off and on throughout this book is getting old. JUST TALK TO EACH OTHER FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THINGS THAT KEEP ME SANE HOLY FUCK.

- Buttercup making it into the deal is funny— buttercup getting regulated is so fucking funny to me.

- the trauma aging Prim made me wanna throw myself to the floor and scream— it’s so unfair— relatable because girl same— but WHYYYYYYYY

- when Finnick and Annie reunify I’m gonna run through the parking lot and cheer like a crazy person. I just want them to be happy.

- so far Catchig Fire is my favorite book

- I know a lot of people like to forget that Finnick and Annie are careers from district 4 because we love them and Finnick teamed up with Katniss— I do think their stories are more powerful knowing that they are career tributes. They are a testimony to haymitch’s statement about the games— there are no winners. Only survivors.

- Finnick and Annie’s purpose in the story are more than just being allies or foils to Katniss. They are reminders that careers are also victims. D1, D2, and D4 are all under the thumb of the capital despite the food on their plates and the quality of their lives. Finnick and Annie are both deeply traumatized people who can’t function without one another. Finnick was exploited in the most unethical ways and Annie watched someone get decapitated. All of this happened before the age of 20.

- it was so easy to hate Kato and Clove because they treated THG like a fun and fair competition and it shows how well propaganda works. They became human to the audience (through Katniss’ pov) just as they were coming upon their deaths. Finnick and Annie are reminders that careers are also victims and that no matter how much pride they carry or how big their ego is— they will never sleep through the night peacefully again. There are no winners.

Sorry for the yapping 🤠

[snowviolettwhite]

Seven Several Sentence Sunday

Tagged by the lovelies @im-overstimulated-and-im-sad and @anewkindofme

Glad to be writing again and having energy back. I have been sick the past few weeks and still recovering. I am feel a lot better. I love how we as a fandom have agreed that Enzo is played by Stanley Tucci. If you can not tell my mother instilled the fear of kidnapping and human-trafficking in me, convinced her anxiety made mine worse.

Here is some of the upcoming chapter twelve of "little boy don't you cry, cause the child in you is still alive"

Chapter Twelve:

Tk is laying the hospital bed and feeling sleepy, he wants to fall asleep. Owen looks very sad. He is being a worried and protective dad, sitting in a chair and providing comfort to his kid by holding his hand.

Gwyn and Enzo rush through the door. Mom looks like she is in a panic and sees her Tk, she knees down peppering and smothering his face with kisses and crushing him into a hug. “Oh, my little bear, my baby. Owen, what happened?”

“Mom, mom. I’m okay.”

His parents all gave him looks of upset and disbelief.

“No, you are not. Owen what is going on?”

Owen is letting go and standing up and walking towards the door, “Gwyn let’s talk before the doctor gets here.”

They are leaving and closing the door. Tk and Enzo are now alone. Tk leaning his head against Enzo’s chest and Enzo wrapped his arms around him and swaying him slightly. “You have had quite a day, kiddo. You had us beside ourselves with worry.”

“Yeah. Sorry, about that. Mom thought I was killed or kidnapped and shipped out somewhere didn’t she.”

Ruffling his hair and kissing the top is his head. “Well, you know your mother. She always thinks about worst case scenario and reads too much of the news. It is her job as a mother to worry about you. She and your father are feeling a lot better seeing you, so don’t stress much about it. The most important thing is that you are safe.”

Tagging But No Pressure @the-flaming-nightmare. @lochnesswriter @missmagooglie @aroeddiediaz

[tiny-sassy-aggressive]

9-1-1 WATCH AND REACTION

S2 ep11-18

Hell yeah Maddie ! New beginnings!!!! Punch buck!! Woooo!!!

CHIMNEY PLEASE STOP HANGING OUT WOTH DOUG IM CRYIKNG

the shark storyline seemed so unnecessary?? I loved it?? Go sharky go!!!

I LOVED Athena’s entire story this episode and I’m glad it didn’t end with a resolution. Some things just can’t be resolved so easily. There is some deep rooted. Issues. And it can’t be solved with one conversation.

WGT WOHLD MADDIE LEAVE THE SOOR OPEN NO NO JO CHIN EG NOOOOOO HEA DOWN NOOOOO MADDIE NOOOOO MADDIE NOOOO

Ep12:

Oh shoot oh chimney. I’m actually in tears this entire episode. CAN I JUST SAY SCREW GERRARD EHAR THE HECK FOR BOTH HIM AND HEN GEEZ. Tommy. Oh Tommy Tommy. I see you.

KEVIN KEBIN NO OH SHOOT AND THE CHILD IS NOW ADAM KEVIN IM GONNA LOSE IT

this is a fantastic origin story. And such a sweet family with the lees. Non blood families are still families

Ep 13

I can’t believe buck found chimney oh my damn goodness. Why did he think he could steal the phone. Oh that little interaction between Eddie and buck was everything- buck will do anything for Maddie. I’m crying

MADDIE. Maddie. Is so damn strong and resilient it’s. Terrifying bc it. It’s a reality. This is real. Everything with Doug and her pain is so. Real. Jennifer is truly an amazing actress. I was so scared the entire episode. Everything she lived through and the flashbacks to her life with Doug.

Wait- Christopher’s first instinct at the hospital was to abandon his parents and go sit in the chair next to chims bed???? He is the sweetest child I am dead

When Chim and Maddie realized they were both Alive oh my heart

Ep 14

Is it bad I started every episode with “oh great who’s gonna die today”

Bobby having Buddie be his glamorous assistants I cried? Buck loves KIDS OH MY GOSH. And and the little baby bringing his mom back to life? Speaking of amazing actors Hen??? Her collapsing got me hard. Amazing vs miracle damn straight

the gas line explosions were so scary!! Nobody looked concerned either buck hanging from the ladder I screamed but OKAY SPIDER EDDIE??

TOMMYS BACK??????

so glad Bobby and Michael were able to talk!!!! Their fight left me worried for a second!

And okay okay Maddie and chimney just need a minute! JUDT a minute. Makes sense! They need it

Speed running Ep 15-ep 17

I LOVE A GOOD HEIST. I was raised on Brooklyn 99 baby heist season was the best. This was executed so well I loved every bit. The questioning scene was executed so well I swear this show has the best interactions(?) the way conversations flow easily between different characters but is creating a cohesive line? Does that make sense they do it all the time

What are the chances Maddie texts buck about money RIGHT at that moment lmao they look guilty as hell

Okay well now I wanna watch Chris surf??? Bet?? Sounds fun?? How DOES Eddie have all this money to afford all this? I’m with Shannon tbh I’d worry too

Oh and LOVE the Marty reveal scene at the 118- man are they intimidating

Ep 16

Anything to do with Bobby’s storyline I am OBSESSED WITH. Every church scene is perfection. I’m Catholic so those scenes hit DIFFERENT AND are also very appropriate and real! Whoever workshopped that scene actually understands Catholicism which you don’t see that often!

I also really liked the cinematography floating in the smoke and the flashes- very similar to chimneys which I loved.

I didn’t. I didn’t loovveee the ep ending on a happy note bc we know from the season prior that Bobby was still intending on. Harming himself. Once the book was complete so that felt weird. But overall great episode and insight

Also I like Tommy. He started iffy but grew to like him especially that chicken scene lmao

Ep 17

CAPTAIN HANNNN love to see it :)

So so cute that chimney called cap- he IS a chef it was a good all for a unique rescue.

Ohh nooo she wants a divorce from Eddieeeee

Maddie is SUCH. A great dispatcher calm quick and resourceful - that scene was a little kitschy but cute ! I’m glad she’ll stay in dispatch

OH SHES DEAD IH JO SHES DEAD NO NO NO DHANNON WAIT I THOUGHR WE HAD MORE TIME WITH YOU NOOOOOO

Ep18:

If I thought Gerard was gonna have to catch these hands OHHHHHH the Diaz parents?????? Shannon’s body is still warm and you’re insulting her and telling Eddie to move back home?? Absolutely not. Absolutely NOT. How dare you.

BUCK LOFT YAYYYYYYYYY

Ms becca this was hilarious #ThoseTwoFirefighters I needed this. Also what was with the comment saying buck/eddie should be a couple?? Such a random thing to drop. Again like the elf, scene was complete with out that addition imo??

Bomb at Athena’s house was terrifying I was screaming at Harry to stop

OH IRS RBE BOY ITS A CALLBACK FO TBE ADSON CASE NO NONKO

oh buck

Okay so the 118 witnessed Shannon’s death and then buck being crushed can they catch a break????? One after the other??? Sobbing at how the community came together to rescue him i cried. The music didn’t help.

Lowkey happy it was Carla whom buck saw when he woke up! But. Idk. Nde. Nobody from the 118 was there for that Scene. Felt weird tbh given other hospital trips.

Concerned with bucks immediate fear driven anger about returning to work. I know what’s coming so I’m going to be careful to document each perspective I see!

Eddies a firefighter!!!! OH A BATHENA WEDDING HELLO???? MADNEY?????????, HENREN CHILD HELLO!?!! We are TYING KNOTS PEOPLE