#my anxiety is through the roof though

[bunnymustdieagain]

can someone help me romanticise working in hospitality just in case my 40 other career plans fail and i am doomed to be a waitress or barista for the rest of my life

[beautiful-songbird]

I literally am crazy

I go from “I can never date this guy” to “screw it let me ask him out”

[sapphire-heart-tippy]

hey, regarding a post where you discussed how you wouldn't post wamuu in his pillar men attire, and would instead opt out for modern clothing, i feel like this isnt a good approach to the backlash and i understand if youre only doing this to satisfy others, but if that is really the case that is on them for being sensitive over cultural clothing.

i dont want to be overly rude but putting someone like wamuu in modern clothing is just so out of character for him, and if you want to mischaracterize him for the sake of others thats okay i guess, but i just purely believe this is not an appropriate way to execute this

instead just so others dont feel "uncomfortable" with skin which you literally see in the manga and anime, maybe you could add things like warnings, you continue drawing his cultural clothing and tell others to ignore it, or you could just simply post it somewhere else so they have an option to see it or not. not trying to be rude at all, just some criticism since putting wamuu in modern streetwear strips him of his culture which we see he is so prideful of in the anime/manga, and i feel you taking that off his character is a stupid decision all because some people are unhappy with the amount of skin we see in your drawings and both in the anime/manga

i dont mean to be hateful but the way you are handling this is so blatantly throwing wamuu's character away all over some discomfort which can easily be fixed by the viewer if they just looked at your other works and ignored things they find uncomfortable

please dont come after me either, im only half of your age (14)

You're fine, and you know what? You're right... I only did that because I noticed people were uncomfortable with the amount of skin showing on both my character and him. To be honest, I really didn't want to draw him in human clothing

I lost some followers and a mutual because of the outfits (which Wamuu and the other pillarmen canonically wear btw). Kars is almost naked for heavens sake, but it appeared that the only thing others had a problem with was my self insert being shirtless.

I don't want to cover up my self insert's top surgery scars, and I don't exactly want to draw Wamuu in the gym clothes that much anymore (unless he's in disguise, like how Kars was in the series)

But I think I could meet in the middle and just cover up my self insert's chest with a crop top, while at the same time being able to show faer scars (I may never be able to have top surgery in real life, so that's why I proudly display them in art)

I wasn't doing this because they were sensitive about Wamuu, it appeared that others really didn't like the fact my character in particular was showing so much skin (even though fae's showing less skin than Kars)

I'm not upset at all, in fact, I think I'm going to just throw out the "human clothes" thing anyway and just go ahead and put a crop top on my self insert. That way everyone's happy:

• Wamuu, thankfully, gets to stay in his pillarman clothes

• My self insert can still be an honorary pillarman and wear the pillarman clothes

• My self insert can wear a crop top and have faer scars showing at the same time

I won't rb the human clothing drawing anymore, instead I'll edit the other drawings so my character will have a crop top similar to Wamuu's. Plus, all drawings involving Wamuu can stay with him wearing his pillarman attire

I admit, I got a little sensitive because I'm a people pleaser. I guess it started when my drawings were getting reported for sexual content on Bluesky (thankfully not anymore)

I really want this to be the last of this issue because I'm an anxious person...

So to recap:

• Wamuu gets to stay in his pillarman clothes

• My s/i gets to still show his top surgery scars while at the same time wearing a crop top

• I'm not upset, however I will work on trying not to be so sensitive and simply rolling over to "make everything better", which in turn made things worse...

This kind of woke me up a bit... Plus I love drawing Wam-Wam in his pillarman clothes

[burgerspeople]

Threats were made against some of the schools in my district. It was apparently found to be a “joke” but I’m so sick of this happening all the time. There are never any true consequences given because the school board is too afraid of getting kids in trouble. Shit like this isn’t funny to me, especially considering the increase in shootings and the way I live in an area with lax gun laws. It’s one of my biggest worries in my job. 😩

[txmxkis]

just discovered it's supposed to start raining tonight and all day tomorrow immediately my monday is saved

[icicleteeth]

Sis said she can see definitely see people disliking me and Warmhoney purely on the way I draw him and it's. I mean I always kind of figured that but didn't want to be too paranoid yknow? Not mad at her for saying it, I appreciate the honesty but like. I also commed someone almost two months ago (which I haven't heard progress back from at all) who doesn't follow me (for a while I ONLY comm mutuals/people who follow me and/or know who Honey is and expressed liking him entirely for the fear mentioned above) and knowing other people agree that yeah, this probably does happen and could possibly be happening... I really gotta kick my shit in to not comm strangers anymore man :')

[teardropsonsmyguitar]

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[roboraindrop]

Hugs and kisses from Fenn always make me feel better 💕💕

[probayern]

man it's amazing how trauma works

[thequeenofcarvenstone]

list 5 things that make you happy then put this in the ask box of the last 10 people to reblog something from you - get to know your mutuals/followers better :)

This is so cute 🥹

1. My cat. I love him so much. Just hanging out with him and being around him is such a special experience.

2. Creating. I love being able to make stuff, to take raw materials and create with my bare hands

3. Our garden/flower garden. Being outside and working in the dirt fulfills something inside me.

4. My friends and family. I love having connections and feeling their love and getting to return my love to them.

5. My life. I really love my life, and yes there's things I would like to change, but it's things I have the power to change albeit slowly. But I'm happy, I have people who love me, and I'm romantisizing every day. (Even the days like this whole week where I have had crippling anxiety)

[crazywolf828]

Being demi is such a weird thing y'know? I feel like it ends up being even wilder when you're actually in a relationship. Like yes I want all of these things for sure, and yet the thought makes me a little nauseous, but like I still want it now.

[timaeusterrored]

Curious how Vax, Venus, and Kerry would entertain themselves if a thunderstorm at night made the power go out, and they had to resort to using candles and flashlights? {Double points if they make a blanket/pillow fort}💕

Babies💓💓

I really like these because when I’m in the mood to talk about them, but don’t know what, I can post these💗💞

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You’d think people as rich as Kerry and V would live in somewhere with backup generators. They do, but they also live near the ocean and the generator got knocked out as well. And now they were really fucked.

Kerry flinched at another clap of thunder, looking out the window of the villa as Venus lit candles behind him. The settling would be seen as romantic if it had been any other instance and their partner not being here. Vax had to work late and didn’t realize the storm was coming.

He felt a warm hand on his back, and a chin on his shoulder. Venus bumped his head against Kerry’s, looking out the window with him.

“He’s gonna be okay, Ker… I doubt a thunderstorm could take him out.”

“That’d be a fucker, wouldn’t it? A brain eating relic and several bullets to the chest barely make him flinch, but god forbid a fucking thunderstorm hits and he’s done for.” Venus flicked him, glaring. Kerry mumbled an apology and let Venus pull him away.

He was brought up to the bedroom when he suddenly laughed and Venus grinned at him. “You were being worried so I made this.”

“Oh my bad for being worried for my husband and your partner mind you.”

Venus had made a blanket fort facing away from the window. He was dragged forward and into it, and Kerry almost felt as if they couldn’t really… do anything in something so innocent. Venus got comfortable next to him and tucked into his chest, wrapping a free blanket over them.

They did keep track of the time, and the doors opened about an hour later. Both rushed out of the fort to find a very soaked, and very agitated Vax peeling off his soaked clothes by the main door.

“Holy shit you scared me.” Soaked clothes be damned, Kerry had kissed him covered in worse. He was shivering all over and his agitation shifted to apologetic when Kerry bumped their foreheads together.

“I am so sorry, I’ve been fighting traffic and mercs and gangs and it’s like God has it out for me today.” He said, pulling Venus in for a kiss as well.

“You’re home, and that’s all I give a shit about.” Kerry helped him underdress, frowning at how cold he was. Venus took the hint to go get him some warm and comfy clothes as he dried off.

“Power out?” He asked, towel drying his hair.

“No Venus and I decided we wanted to sit in the dark for the last two hours with nothing but enough candles that could set the place on fire.” Kerry stated sarcastically, Venus giggling as he walked in with warm clothes.

“Haha, must be bad if it’s knocked out the generator.” Vax mumbled, getting dressed right in front of them.

He shivered when he was done and Venus took his hands, pressing them between his own. “You both are so fucking warm.” He mumbled, as if he wanted to steal their warmth. But Venus had a better idea.

Vax smiled when he saw the makeshift blanket fort and crawled in with them, the two sandwiching him and covering him with blankets. It was always easier to relax when both mercs were in his eyesight.

Vax fell asleep first, sleeping soundly between them. Kerry listened to his breathing, appreciating it, savoring it. Vax breathing was the best gift of all.

Venus took his hand over their partner, gently squeezing. He gave him a look that told him Vax was safe and they could all sleep. Kerry had been pacing since the storm started and even more so when the power went out. He also wasn’t the biggest fan of thunderstorms like his husband was. Maybe that was a big reason why Vax was out so quickly.

Venus fell asleep next, the warmth and safety enough to calm him down. Kerry couldn’t sleep but watching his partners do so was enough to at least keep him calm. He gently ran his fingers through Vax’s hair and sighed. He’d fall asleep eventually.

[kkujo]

and everything has consistently sucked since we got back from that trip.. not a week after that i got covid and was really sick the beginning of august was truly the last time i felt properly happy. word

[popia-copia]

I’m going to a festival alone tomorrow. Wish me luck :’((

[thequietguynextdoor]

Worst fear confirmed, I’m expected to speak at the town council meeting regarding my mentally unwell neighbor.

[problematicfavecompetition]

Not to get too deep about a silly tumblr poll, but I did want to genuinely say thank you to each and every one of y'all that have voted in this tournament! This was my very first time doing this and I was very nervous about how it would turn out, but I have had an absolute blast hosting this and getting to see you guys get passionate and excited about your faves. I know from my own experience that loving--and having to defend--a character that the fandom hates can be exhausting so being able to put on this poll--filled with 64 controversial characters--and getting to read why people have latched onto them and not having to deal with one single message or notification from someone hating on a character has been a delight for me!

Anyway, sorry for rambling, just wanted to say y'all rock and I had so much fun, enough that I'm not even salty about my own faves getting demolished before they got anywhere close to the finals lol