#my adhd and talking post is like in the 2000s I think????

[what-shitfuckery-is-this-ew]

A Critique of Riordan's: Neurodivergency

tldr: Rick made ADHD and dyslexia superpowers in the books which fit the time he wrote the books, but it's not accepted now cause it diminishes neurodivergent struggle. At the same time he made autism coded characters the 'annoying' ones and had a very racist thing of having the only neurotypical be Frank.

He tried to fix it in the show. It worked for about 3 seconds.

TW: Ableism, Autism speaks mention, r slur, anti-schizo stuff.

This paragraph is useless so don't read if you don't want to: Sitting in my drafts are 3 different 'A critique of Riordan's' posts i made as i tried to redo my full critique of the Riordanverse with a little more positive feedback and a little less Rick Riordan is the devil spawn. I have decided to not do it in order because because i watched the show and i noticed some things which were iffy and others which were great. So yeah neurodivergency first. Enjoy and think Critically.

Books

Research and Diversity

The books were written in the early 2000s for Rick's son who has ADHD and dyslexia

As a result, it takes on a very "your ADHD and dyslexia is a superpower" message which were popular during the time, but we recognise now has delegitimised neurodivergent struggles

Also as a result, the books were very focused on his son's symptoms, and represented ADHD as a monolith which quickly turned into stereotypes (e.g jumpy, impatient and fast reflexes becoming the connecting feature of half-bloods)

It got so unresearched that at one point he said:

He also talks about coffee in a similar way, despite sugar and coffee not making us more hyperactive and instead making us sleepy. Unless all the scientists and people with ADHD are wrong i really don't know this works.

and also said this: "Leo was extremely ADHD even by demigod standards" Like what

But the worst part about the PJO books was that the neurodivergency was limited to the first book. Percy's ADHD and dyslexia magically vanish and honestly it's only really brought back up in HOO every now and then (not very well might i add)

Ways he could have improved:

He could have given other characters, like Annabeth, more diverse symptoms of ADHD. It wasn't that hard, For Annabeth recognise that she as a 'gifted kid' is more likely to have undiagnosed and so have to face the issues related to being undiagnosed and/or being both a gifted kid and having ADHD, and then also give her more symptoms common to girls like being really chatty or frequently daydreaming.

Continuing having ADHD (and dyslexia) as constant parts of the novels rather than throwaway lines. Build it into the characters actions and persona rather than add it on like an accessory

Research. Never stop researching. Always reach out to people with the disorders and ask them to help. Writing is nothing without research.

Get sensitivity readers

Grammar

This is really minor, but he keeps say ____ was ADHD, and like gramattically that's a no. I am not a disorder i am a person with a disorder . Note for autism, the prefered grammer is Autistic person (aka turn into adjective and describe, something we can't do with ADHD)

Nico and Leo

Making Leo and Nico the 2 characters who were annoying and unlikeable (to everyone else not to fans) was really weird cause these 2 characters were the autistic coded ones.

NOTE: I did see a post explaining it better in the past, and i will link it when/if i find it again.

Tyson and the R Slur

I genuinely think he tried to make the r-slur scene show that it was bad, but the way Percy reacted to it wasn't quite right. Especially for childrens books these things need to be really clear. So it was good to make a bad bully character who was hated say it, but he could have made it better by skipping Percy saying "He’s not r*tarded" and go straight to "I had to try really, really hard not to punch Sloan the face."

The scene was ok, it could have been better, but again these were written in the 2000s, we have to acknowledge that.

Percy and School

Now this is interesting because this is more recent. Percy tried really hard in school and was smart, it was part of his characterisation. But he never did well in school, because that's how his disability affected him (especially since it was the American school system which we all know is shit and even more shit for people with learning disabilities).

The problem stems from TSATS, where Percy is made out to skip school, and not try at all (feeds into people with ADHD do bad cause they don't try/are lazy)

credits to @aroaceleovaldez

Racism: Frank Zhang

Frank Zhang the only Asian member of the 7 has no form of neurodivergency, despite the rest of them all having. It must be a just coincidence that there's a stereotype that asians are really smart and good at maths and the fact that the rest of the Romans have dyscalculia/s.

It's not weird at all that the character instead has lactose intolerance, which is really common in East Asia unlike dyslexia, ADHD or dyscalculia, which has such a low rate of diagnosis because there is a large stigma behind the disorders and because white people don't think Asians can have learning disabilities/s. No not weird at all that the dude is described with symptoms of dyspraxia but Rick refuses to recognise he is not neurotypical/s

I'm stepping out of sarcasm speak to remind you that Asians with learning disabilities are significantly less likely to get diagnosed with anything because:

because their parents won't let them until they have no other choice (glares at my parents) because there's a massive stigma behind intellectual/learning/development disorders in these communities

When we do try to get diagnosed our claims are diminished because of racist stereotypes and the belief that booksmarts/giftedness = no learning disability. It means most psychologists and psychiatrists (who are usually white) think that all Asians are smart so they don't ever have any form of neurodivergency and we're left to struggle.

Schizo Rep

Octavian. Villain. Schizo. Again.

Do i even need to explain this?

Show

Not actually a specific disorder - Percy just has a learning disability

Interestly Percy's dyslexia is just never talked about, And even his ADHD is never mentioned by name. He's got a random learning disorder which isn't specified. At first i assumed it was still ADHD cause the books, but watching more, you realise they aren't actually focusing on what learning disorder he has and what he has to deal with as a result of that. It's just a generic learning disorder.

Which is weird because learning disorders are all different and we all face different things, even with the same disorder. So placing all learning disorders in the same group? not good. Don't know what i expected from disney, but it wasn't this.

Autism Speaks

So the show tried to acknowledge that Percy was constantly told he was special and heroic when he really wanted to have help for his issues and for people to recognise that he has problems and those are bad. It also represented less stereotypical adhd symptoms (though whether that's because the disorder is no longer adhd or whether they wanted more inattentive symptoms to be present, we'll never know)

but then it went ahead and used a broken puzzle metaphor for his neurodivergency?

Puzzle piece metaphors when talking about any form of neurodivergency are a no go because the creators of the metaphor literally want Autistic people dead.

I DON'T GIVE A SHIT THAT HE DOESN'T HAVE AUTISM, WE ARE NOT ALLIES TO THE AUTISM COMMUNITY IF WE USE THE LANGUAGE AUTISM SPEAKS CREATED

Not only that but a broken puzzle is not a good way to represent us anyways because NEURODIVERGENTS AREN'T BROKEN.

[fandomhype]

Plagiarism Somerton

I obviously didn't watch the new James Somerton apology video ON his channel because I did not want to give that man the views and you shouldn't either! It has been re-uploaded and summarised elsewhere so that he doesn't benefit if anyone wants to see it.

The original hbomberguy video was wild to me because of all the stealing, I found it highly entertaining, loved all the Memes and it honestly did my imposter syndrome wonders! but then I watched the Todd in the shadows video and it really upset me.

He didn't just steal from other LGBT creators he lied to his mostly young LGBT audiance who were looking to an elder gay for guidance and to learn about their history.

Todd's video starts with a clip of James lies being spread by another person on a podcast, there's clips of people discussing his made up gay nazi fanfic he has presented as hard facts. He actively harmed his own community for cash! There are young gay men bringing that subject up in conversation being laughed at for falling for it and that leaves a really bad taste in my mouth.

Now I'm not a part of that community but a lot of people I love are so that angered me a lot.

...and then he comes back with another apology video, conveniently within the three months he would have had to post something on his channel to retain his monetisation status weirdly?! In which he blames both a head injury and his ADHD for his theft - at no point does he address the lying in either apology video or any of the apology posts he made that I could find.

I have combined ADHD, when I was first diagnosed the NHS referred to it as ADD with Hyperactivity element but everyone seems to have gone back to calling it ADHD and that is the term used most commonly online so that is what I refer to it is as.

I am medicated but there has been a world wide shortage of my medication and I was without it for some time over winter, which was HELL! I got nothing done.

I am in no way a big creator, Youtube for me is a fun wee hobby that will hopefully grow and allow me to collaborate with other people with similar interests but ADHD is for sure a large part of my journey as a creator.

I've published like 7 videos and currently have around 10 being worked on because, you know... ADHD! *siren noises*

I know that I am forgetful sometimes, just for the record I also had several head injuries and concussions as a child because Lil undiagnosed at the time me truly had no fear of climbing or other dangerous activities so I have my script (because free talking a subject with this brain would be nearly impossible) open in one google doc and my research open in another. It's not hard.

That's the way it was at school, college and Uni too. James claims he went to Uni to do business. Every university uses anti-plagerism software for essays and has done since like the mid 2000's? so he knows not to copy pasta. He's straight up lying there.

Another thing he's lying about is his ADHD making him forget he copied things. Now if you tell me a joke that I like it'll stick in my head and I will straight up tell it as my own later, I've been called out for this many times! But entire articles? whole sections of other peoples videos? (he also flipped a fan Vid he had ripped off of another YouTube to avoid detection and tried to pass it off as his own) No that's not something you can accidentally do even with a swiss cheese brain like mine.

Weirdly all the the paragraphs James claims he accidentally copied were also edited to remove aspects of the Trans, Bi and Ace experiences that James markedly does not believe exist. Strange considering he accidentally copied them and assumed they were his own words? Imagine going back through a paragraph you think you wrote yesterday in the edit the next day and finding swarths of things you don't agree with there?!

Why am I telling you all this? Well because I wanted to put my two cents in as a creator with this condition, partly because I felt it was somewhat of an attack on us!? He's put it out there that ADHD creators are liable to steal from others and that's not ok by me. Also I just really like the sound of my own typing!

TL;DR : James Sommerton is a suck ass liar and he doesn't get to use his disability as an excuse for what he did! and...

****** ADHD DOES NOT MAKE YOU STEAL SHIT!!! ******

Also watch Todd's Vid, everyone saw the Hbomberguy one but this one goes deeper:

[sleepyleftistdemon]

(CW: mental health issues, gender dysphoria, disassociation, suicidal thoughts (and actual suicides), and maybe more)

I've been thinking about putting up my story for Pride Month. I started typing in this whole thing in someone else's post, but I didn't want to hijack it. (Although it was talking about some of the stuff I am putting here.)

Some background:

I was a military brat growing up. That means that I moved around a lot. That means that I didn't have the same groups of people around me, except for my parents and sister. Therefore, nobody could recognize my issues since most people thought it was just the way I was.

I am on the autism spectrum. That means (for this stuff at least) that I don't really do self-reflection well. Add that to the above point and... yeah.

Because I wasn't diagnosed with autism, my parents thought I was weird, weak, and an idiot. Oh they didn't say anything like that, but you could tell that's what they thought. I heard "You're old enough to know better" so many times. But I never caused major issues, so they thought that I would always do what they said.

When I was in single digits (1970s), every time I took a bath I would spend time trying to shove my p*nis back into my body. It didn't belong. So I was already experiencing gender dysphoria even back then.

I was miserable and without a reason I could recognize (not having heard of trans people). "Fortunately" while still in single digits, I found a character on a TV show that knew how to handle negative emotions. The show was "Star Trek", the character was Mr. Spock, and the method was repression.

So I was okay for a while.

In 10th grade, repression turned into (undiagnosed) depression, something else that nobody (including me) recognized. I thought it was perfectly normal to think about suicide when I had homework to do.

(I even remember the assignment that was the last straw. It was to write a romantic scene for English class. I wrote a note on it, telling the teacher I never wanted to see it again. She thought it was about how bad it was. I didn't tell her that it triggered me.)

After high school, I joined the military. It wasn't because I wanted to or anything like that. My parents wanted me to join and, with my depression, I really didn't care what I did.

After serving 4 years, I went to college. I was struggling a bit, so I went to get tested for ADHD at the student health center. (I had read up on it, including how a lot of people with ADHD were mistakenly diagnosed with depression. Ironic, really, because...)

I was diagnosed with disthymia, a chronic, low-grade depression. I got medication (Zoloft) and tried therapy. Since I was repressing and didn't realize it, I got nothing out of therapy, but the Zoloft worked enough for me to function.

Imagine, if you will, a wooden boat with a figurehead (me) on the bow. (Is that the right word? If not, deal with it.) Before the Zoloft, the boat builders put the figurehead almost completely underwater. I would come up for air, but it was difficult. After the Zoloft, it was like the workers moved the figurehead right at the waterline. I would have good and bad times, but they were all still under a cloud of depression.

Speaking of imagining things, do you remember the tiny alien controlling/riding in the robot in the movie "Men In Black"? Another thing that I did (and since I don't know when I started, so I'm just gonna put it here) was I pictured something similar like that for me. Except instead of picturing myself as an alien, I pictured myself as a small piece of dimmed light "no bigger than a flake of dandruff". (And I put those words in quotes because that is the exact wording I used.)

That, BTW, is called disassociation.

I the 2000s I got married to a woman that my parents hated. My parents disowned me because I wouldn't divorce her, thinking it would shock me enough to do what they wanted. Instead I disowned them right back by changing my last name and didn't attempt to contact them again.

My dad died in 2010. I wasn't allowed to go to the funeral. It wasn't until years later that I found out that he probably killed himself due to having early onset dementia.

After that, my mom got into more regular contact with me. She lived until her suicide in 2016. (She had bipolar disorder and I learned later that she had attempted suicide earlier. And that both of my parents cheated on each other during their marriage.) My ex-wife (yes, we did divorce but not because of my parents; she was hooked on opiods and had Borderline Personality Disorder) died the same year.

(I tried to get her (ex-wife) help, but she didn't want to change. After being left at work since she had the car AND finding her passed out on the toilet with drugs she got less than 2 hours before she was supposed to come get me, I had had enough.)

Anyway, that gave me a date where I felt I could commit suicide. I would be able to live a day longer than either of my parents (who I said saw me as weak), thus proving that I am stronger than they were while still not having to deal with my depression forever.

You know what saved me? One of the posts I read here on Tumblr a while back. The original post said that like women who buy fake p*nises, men can buy fake breasts. A reply to that post said that many men who bought those turned out to be trans.

I really didn't think that I was trans. I ordered fake breasts from Amazon and tried them out. They seemed great, but they weren't an actual part of me.

I wrestled with the thought that I might be trans. I asked myself if I was a woman if I'd still want to die. (The answer, BTW, was no.)

It wasn't until 2 months later that I went to a nail salon and got my nails painted that I experienced gender euphoria. Using the figurehead imagery from above, it was like the figurehead was at the top of the bow, riding proudly on the ship. Instead of seeing myself as smaller than the flake of dandruff, I pictured myself as a gingerbread woman inside the shell of a gingerbread man (keep this in mind).

It also reminded me of the single digits me in the bathtub, miserable without the words to say why. Repression sucks.

Since I am a veteran (and since it's cheaper than health insurance), I get my healthcare from the VA. I talked it over with the psychologist (or psychiatrist - whichever one can prescribe medicine). It took a while (mainly to get me comfortable with it) to see an endocrinologist. (Well, first I had to see a therapist to answer questions to make sure I was a good fit. When I brought up the gingerbread visual, she said that many trans people use the gingerbread imagery to help describe what they're feeling.)

So in May of 2024 (last month from when I posted this), I finally started on HRT. And while my depression is starting to creep back in (HRT doesn't work overnight), I realize that I am finally on the right path for me and my happiness.

(Of course, with all of the new transphobic laws and such coming into effect, this is also a stressful path. But it's the only way for me to go.)

I do hope this helps people, whether to know they aren't alone (for people still in their egg) or to help the transphobic people out there to see that trans people are just people, trying their best to get through life as painlessly as possible.

[frankenmouse]

Just saw a post about the college graduation rate for folks with ADHD, with the % graduation rate estimated at 5% and a research article with the same figure linked. The post was focused on how that reflects a failure of institutions, not of individuals and I wasn't about to derail the conversation on that post because it is absolutely an accurate point.

However

I do think that statistics like that sometimes discourage disabled folks. People think, "Then why try if my chance of success is so low?"

So I wanted to provide some context for interpreting that number.

TL; DR - The 5% (8%) figure comes from studies that do not have a modern sample and whose participants were likely predominantly white, male, academically impaired, and untreated

This number is cited based on studies headed and/or compiled by the same first author. I believe the 5% figure comes from a study reported as a chapter in an edited book. Full disclosure: I was unable to read the full text of the book and can only evaluate it based on the selections of the text available through Google Books. However, that gave me enough information to immediately identify some things that folks should know about how/where that number was arrived at.

However, another article by the same author was also cited as containing the 5% figure. It does not. The figure that paper reports is 8% (and I'll be talking about that number as well). So we already have a misrepresentation of research going on here.

So the first piece of context you need? Is when the 5% figure came from. What I mean is, during what time period was the data that gives the 5%/8% graduation figures were collected

In the case of the book, it was published in 2016. HOWEVER, the studies reported are longitudinal studies. That means the original cohorts for the studies were recruited and followed for years if not decades. At least one study in the book is reporting on cohorts that were initially recruited as early as the fucking 1970s. As for the article, the latest possible date that the participants could have been recruited from is the year 2000, as the figures reported on come from a 16-year follow-up study (i.e., the participants were recruited in 2000, followed for 16 years, the data was collected and reported on in 2017) but likely several years earlier. Participants' age at recruitment was 12, meaning they would have been college freshmen around the year 2008.

Needless to say, the outcomes for people with ADHD who went through college over a decade ago are likely VERY different from the outcomes for people with ADHD going to college now. There are significantly more support systems, people are getting better treatment, etc.

Additionally, since the people in the studies were recruited as children, it means that 1) they had to be diagnosed as children and 2) their parents had to agree to involve their kids in a decades long research study. This means we have a pretty significant selection bias going on.

Again, remember when these kids were initially recruited. We know diagnosis rates for ADHD have substantially increased in recent years as screening has improved and we've gotten better at diagnosing ADHD in people who are 1) female, 2) non-white, and 3) are getting acceptable grades. And that means that the kids recruited for these studies are going to be predominantly male, white, and struggling academically. This is especially true for the earliest studies, but even for the article published in 2017. I find it very suspicious that the 2017 article doesn't report the sex or race/ethnicity of the participants.

This means that these figures were almost certainly based on white boys with significant academic (and possibly other behavioral) impairments.

We've also got some other "interesting" things going on with the 2017 article. The 8% figure comes from a subgroup of people whose ADHD symptoms "persisted," defined as people who continued having severe symptoms due to ADHD. Almost 50% of the people identified as having ADHD at the beginning of the study were later evaluated to have "symptom desistence," i.e., significantly reduced symptoms of ADHD, and were not included in the analyses that ended with the 8% figure. In fact, the statistics for the people whose symptoms desisted are pretty significantly different from those whose symptoms persisted. Among the ADHD desisters, 17.8% received a college degree, over double the rate of the ADHD persisters.

You know whose ADHD symptoms are significantly reduced? People who are treated. The 2017 article strongly implies that for people who received treatment (which was not measured) the graduation rate was 17.8% (which again has to be assessed in relation to the other contextual information of dates of college attendance and sample bias).

TL; DR - The 5% (8%) figures come from studies that do not have a modern sample and whose participants are likely predominantly white, male, academically impaired, and untreated.

So...not at all accurate for all or even most of the young people with ADHD who are exposed to this figure.

Statistics like this are very useful for giving us information on how (some) folks with ADHD did within historical structures and contexts. They are at least in part why people have gotten a lot louder about demanding accommodations and accommodations have become significantly more accessible and widespread (I teach in a college environment and at least a few of my students in every class have some kind of accommodation for testing). We still have a long way to go, but showing that there was a problem is what gets us policy to improve the future.

However, statistics MUST be reported with the correct context. It isn't good or helpful to shout at today's young people with ADHD that they only have a 5% chance of graduating college. First off it isn't accurate and secondly it may discourage people from trying to attend college or from seeking out accommodations that would support them in a college environment.

I would STRONGLY recommend that any young person with ADHD who thinks they would like to go to college get in contact with a college's current students, disability offices, and professors. That will give you a significantly more accurate understanding of what your experience at a given school will be like than a statistic.

With great affection,

An ADHD-er with a PhD and ADHD-er colleagues

Links to the books and articles referenced:

Hechtman, L. (Ed.). (2016). Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder: Adult outcome and its predictors. Oxford University Press

Hechtman, L., Swanson, J. M., Sibley, M. H., et al. (2016). Functional Adult Outcomes 16 Years After Childhood Diagnosis of Attention-Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder: MTA Results. Journal of the American Academy of Child and Adolescent Psychiatry, 55(11), 945–952.e2. https://doi.org/10.1016/j.jaac.2016.07.774 (Open Access)

[edwinspaynes]

Another post pointed out yesterday that the Clave was so progressive in the 1800s and (especially) 1900s while being incredibly regressive in the 2000s-2010s. This is inarguably true. It also inarguably is true to real life when it comes to views on homosexuality. While male homosexuality was illegal in the UK during the Victorian/Edwardian eras, many (though not all) people tended to turn a blind eye to it assuming that everyone involved minded their business. (Oscar Wilde, for a relevant example, was pretty widely known as being a man who loved other men. He probably would have been able to carry on as he was if not for suing a powerful and influential public figure. But I digress).

Also, it's important to note that, yeah, the TLH kids' parents were overall loving and accepting people. The one who was not such a person blessedly died before his son came out. On the other hand, Alec's parents were in a literal hate cult. But once again, digression.

Because what I really want to talk about are Shadowhunter's shifting attitudes to technology and innovation. I would like to posit that Christopher Lightwood's death was the beginning of the downfall of innovation in Shadowhunter society.

In TID, Henry contends with mockery and side glances because of his drive to invent and create. This makes sense in what his son will later describe as an "arid warrior culture." However, while generally labeled as an eccentric, the Clave - including the Consul and Inquisitor - generally leave him alone to tinker and build. No one stops him. And when he finally invents the Portal, no one shirks it. By the time TLH rolls around, it's a widely-used, widely-respected part of Shadowhunter society. It's ingrained in the fabric of their people just as steles and seraph blades are, and we still see them widely in use in the modern day.

Now, we get to Christopher, Henry's protigee.

It's important to acknowledge that Christopher may have been left alone in part because Henry's Portal was so successful. With him primarily hanging about in the Fairchild lab, nothing could go wrong. Additionally, Charlotte was Consul, and she knew how brilliant her husband was. This probably contributed to Christopher's success greatly.

Christopher grows up shrouded in this love. He is free to create and innovate as he pleases, and he comes up with the idea for fire-messaging. We see him successfully invent fire-messages by early 1904, at which point he is tragically killed by Belial.

Fire-messages are the final piece of technology that we see invented before the TMI era. All other technologies in the modern TSC canon exist in the historical stories. Thus, we can conclude that Christopher's fire-messages are one of the last creations of Shadowhunter society.

(ADHD side ramble: I'm interested to see what Grace manages to accomplish, but I cannot think of something in the modern TMIverse that she may have created. I imagine that her status as not only a woman but a widely-disliked social pariah held her back. Hate it, but my point stands. I hope she's at least given a small amount of credit for the final touches on the fire-messages.)

Anyway, fast forward to 2012. The TSCverse now has another brilliant neurodivergent mind in Tiberius Nero Blackthorn. Of course, he is extremely different from Henry and Christopher. He is more mentally present, serious-minded, and a lot less spacey. But he also views things in a significantly different way than other Shadowhunters do, finding himself drawn to technology like computers in a way that most Nephilim would shirk.

Ty and his family are forced to keep the fact that they have computers in the Institute a secret. This is likely in part because mundanes invented them, but it also feels inconsistent with previous generations. Shadowhunters of old appreciated art; Jem and Alastair were openly musicians, for example. Matthew is an obvious aesthete with a penchant for the theatre and artistic pursuits. Even when Alastair notes that they aren't supposed to like mundane things like moving pictures, he does not seem worried about facing repercussions for seeing one. Ty and the other Blackthorns seem to think that they will see legal ramifications for having a computer, and this is in a world where Jia Penhallow is Consul.

Could the Blackthorns be wrong? Sure. But it feels to me that the Shadowhunters of old would not shirk a useful technology, and the computer has limitless capacity to assist them in their demon-fighting endeavors.

The Clave closed itself off to progress shortly after TLH, and Christopher's death feels a likely catalyst for that.

[plasticbabyart]

THE SPYRO HCS..... hand them over

A SECOND ASK OH BOY blessed day

And YES, I have many !!! Too many..

Anyway, I mix Reignited Trilogy AND academy lore, its Essentially my own AU for CONTEXT !! I really love Reignited, and all those jammers who haven't played it ABSOLUTELY you should !! Anyway..

I think Spyros a musician! Coming from Artisans, hes always yearned to learn his craft without realising he has one already!

Because of this he started a small band with Elf (and sometimes Pop), which he performs at his parties!

He's actually a really great singer!

Everyone goes to Spyro for party planning, while its mostly his way if rebelling, he has a secret talent at throwing the best parties in all of Skylands!

He's overly secretive about his homelife, no one actually knows anything about his family because he doesn't talk about it

To add to that, Spyro is adopted, and is the biological son to Malefor (unknown to him), which is why he has such powerful dark magic, he just wasn't trained to discover it!

When everyone DOES meet his family at the Exam, Spyro is the future King of the Dragon Kingdom! Something that weighs on him

While at the Academy he was treated like "The son Eon never had"

He has a Celebrity Crush on Crash Bandicoot, a Romantic Crush on Elora back home, and a "You make me think of Elora" Crush on Elf (he is very confused)

Hes Bisexual Polyam !

I like to think Spyro would enjoy Indie music, specifically the album LDA by MGMT, but realistically hes a 2000s teenager cool kid

I like to HC they had a prom at the Academy, Spyro wore traditional Royal wear and took Elora as his date !

Dark Spyro appears in his reflection, especially in moments of doubt or high emotions, no one believes him when he says theres deep evil inside him

Spyro has ADHD, Anxiety and BPD

Spyro keeps a diary, and too keep Elf out, its enchanted

He HAS read Elfs diary, and he does it often

Hes a high tier gossiper, Artisan dragons LOVE to bitch, and he is one of them!

Spyro is an Insomniac, like Elf

Spyro often talks about Sparx, saying that if Eon let him at the Academy, he would be stronger and less likely to be hurt

Spyro is incredibly Smart, thanks to the fact he was raised by Artists and Scholars, and often understands Glumshanks literature references (and would LOVE to talk to him)

Spyro makes for a GREAT babysitter, thanks to the fact he babysits of the younger dragons back home (The ones he rescues in YotD, they are all like siblings to him!)

Spyro, is a massive Daddys Boy, much to the groups surprise

Aaaaaaaanndd thats as much as I can remember right now !! If I can remember anymore, I WILL post them !!

[gaphic]

I've been trying to expand the amount of queer YouTubers I watch (since right now it's mostly cishet white dudes playing games) and Jessie gender keeps coming up as a suggestion but I've never been sure about giving her a shot

Is she just like... Bad analysis like you were talking about in the HOTD post? (I haven't watched the show so I mostly skimmed lol)

Do you have queer YouTubers you'd recommend? Right now the only one I super trust is VerilyBitchie, but there are a few more I've started sipping into based on hbomberguy's recs at the end of the video

I cannot recommend Jessie Gender for even background noise. It's not just bad analysis, she also makes multiple objectively incorrect assertions in that video, and the way they're framed makes me suspect she's being intentionally misleading, not stupid. Worthless channel.

It's honestly hard for me to make recommendations here, because at this point I genuinely believe the 'queer/leftist video essayist' archetype is just poisoned. I'm off my ADHD meds rn so I'm struggling to articulate this properly but the field is fucking overrun with people whose approach to analysis is just a checklist of their own identities/political views and so many of them just run together. The media analysis channels I would most recommend are not Queer Youtubers TM but here's what I got

Pixielocks, fashion/magical girl content conure, political streamer Mike's Mic, Silly movie/tv content Lisa Fevral, fashion and pop culture Amanda the Jedi, fun movie commentary Haley Whipjack, I don't have proof she's queer but vibes. Nerdy media stuff Darling Dollz, doll content and related Girly Stuff like magical girls Jose, another one I don't have proof of being queer, but I'm confident. Media analysis NominalNaomi, political streamer CJ the X, I don't even know how to describe this. Recommended with slight reservation bc he often blurs the line between joking and serious in places where it would effect my opinion Orowen, REALLY good media analysis, deserves more subscribers

A COUPLE MISC RECOMMENDATIONS UNRELATED TO MY SUSPICIONS OF QUEERNESS I JUST THINK THEY'RE REALLY GOOD:

Li Speaks, girly content, mainly 2000's nostalgia related stuff, once in a generation GirlsGoGames expert Alexander the ok, engineering content, including THE definitive Oceangate video. Deserves 5 million subs

[c-a-cupid666]

pinned post my name is Valerie Valentine. plz do not call me Val it sounds like that p1mp from h@zb1n :/. pretty friendly I think :) . i like monster high, hello kitty, mlp, bright colors, mythology, FASHION AND BEAUTY!!!!, cats, Nintendo stuff, south park, art, sparkly stuff, flashing lights (obsessed with blinkers right now), and 2000s stuff. :D . actually npd and autistic and adhd and possible hpd. I collect blinkers :) tags on my blog #Valerie likes: Stuff I like :) - #valerie loves <3: pretty people... #pd stuff: pd stuff! - #moot: my Mutuals - #fandom: fandom stuff - #valerie has spoken - me talking i also have the standard tw tags and I have a lot of flashing lights on my blog so if ur photosensitive be careful. as well as I reblog sometimes stuff that could be suggestive but never full nsfw lol just pretty people.

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[indecisive-dizzy]

Do you have any more Eddie dear headcanons you wanna share?

Im sorry for being annoying about him, I don’t get to talk about welcome home a lot so when I do I get really excited :>

No you're so good! I will always take the opportunity to talk about my favorite goober :D

First, Eddie sews! Can't remember how canon this is, I could be tricking myself haha. But I think Eddie has so many little hobbies and sewing is one of them!

He makes all sorts of things: New ties, shirts, dresses, etc! For himself and for his friends!

He and Poppy make sweaters and scarves for everyone together during winter :)

I also like to think he's made Frank a bowtie and/or vest as a gift,, sigh what a loving husband

Speaking of Frank, Eddie uses so many pet names for his husband. Darling, love, sweetie/sweetheart, sugar, puddin', bug, honey/hun, pumpkin. just so many southern petnames

Another hobby of his is obviously crafts, but he really likes origami! It's fun/relaxing and keeps his hands busy when things are slow. Also he can make gifts! A win win!

cough is also helps with his fine motor skills, hand eye coordination struggle is real cough

This man is so autistic adhd to me. His forgetfulness and clumsiness is all part of it. As someone with audhd I can't walk anywhere without getting a bruise from running into things lol. So I'm projecting a bit haha

Mail is his hyperfixation. Eddie can tell you everything and anything about mail/postal history, including stamps. Point to a stamp in his collection he can tell you the year it was made, where, and who. Plus anything else he may know about it.

He loves thriller novels and dramas. And sappy romance novels. He's probably read Frankenstein and Dracula a bunch of times. And he would absolutely read Twilight. Dunno if he'd like it, but he would read it lol

my gen z youth is showing,, idk when vhs was the most common/around but Eddie would have a vhs collection. He'd have the og Frankenstein on vhs and would treasure it. Again, my time is off so just pretend

Also if it's not obvious, Frankenstein is his favorite classic monster story. He feels for the Monster bc Eddie thinks he's so misunderstood. Honestly he probably relates a bit. Also makes a banger costume lol

Eddie would do drag more if he had the time, I think. (Also if the times were more accepting cough-) He likes to feel pretty!

cough I have so many he/she Eddie thoughts but that's another post for another day

Very uncomfortable around bugs/insects but has come to terms with butterflies after spending so much time with Frank.

Similar note, Eddie would never hurt a bug (on purpose) he just calls Frank to safely relocate it. He may not like them, but he meant it when he said he'd never hurt a fly!

Oh I could keep going but I fear I'll dive into au territory lol. I have a habit of updating technology/times/etc with fandoms that take place before the 2000s yikes

[hollygl125]

On rabbit holes and fanfic (in my own life):

*This is a note I wrote for AO3/FFN, but I’ve been meaning for a while to write a post on how I—a member of the Oregon Trail generation—wound up signing up for Tumblr in January 2022, and this kind of hints at that, so I thought I might as well share it here, too.*

What follows is a TMI note on why I can’t make any promises on when the next chapter of this story will be up; please read or don’t, as pleases you.  I would like to state first, though, what I also state at the bottom of this note: thank you so, so, so very much for reading; your kind support means more than I can tell you.

So, I’m, ah… not very good at all this.

Two years ago now, as I was doing a “CSI as love story” rewatch and falling far, far, far down the GSR rabbit hole, I was also falling deep into ADHD burnout and overwhelming anxiety (without, at the time, realizing that I had either ADHD or a lifetime of anxiety).  By the time spring 2022 rolled around, I was lacking executive functioning abilities for even basic tasks, while my mind sought solace or dopamine or whatever it was with—you guessed it—these two lovely science nerds.

I read hundreds and hundreds of GSR fics, without managing to leave a single, solitary comment/review.  (I wanted to comment!  I couldn’t!  I’m not saying commenting would have killed me, but I just couldn’t do it; I wouldn’t have been able to continue reading if it were required, and obsessing over these two science nerds was basically all my mind could handle.  So when I tell you that I get that commenting can be too much sometimes, I get it.  I should also note my eternal gratitude to all the amazing GSR fic writers who—unknowingly—helped me during this time.)

I occasionally questioned whether I might try writing something about these science nerds, but I always dismissed that pretty quickly.  I’d never willingly undertaken a creative writing project in my life (unless you count my last dog’s Instagram).  For added context, until 2022, I had last (and first, for that matter) previously read fan fiction in the mid-2000s, when my favourites on The West Wing were taking their own sweet time.  So in January 2022, while desperate for more GSR content, I was like, “Is fanfic still a thing?  Is there GSR fanfic?”  I literally started by googling “GSR fan fiction.”  I’d never even heard of AO3 or FFN; I think the fic for The West Wing had been on Yahoo! Groups.

But I had all these romantic scenarios and headcanons and such constantly running through my head, and I was getting tired of having to recreate the dialogue for them every night as I fell asleep.  So eventually, in late June 2022, I thought maybe I should try writing something down—at some point in the future, once I’d had more time to prepare.  Naturally the next day my brain was like, no, now, now, we’re doing this now.  I had no conscious say in the matter.  I wasn’t sure whether I was going to post anything, but apparently I was going to write it.

I had a lot of fun writing out so many of my thoughts and feeling and hopes and dreams for our two lovely science nerds, and pretty soon I had a draft for this series of stories (although it was only a fraction of what I have now written).  I started posting the first story in September 2022.  Luckily I got to participate in a (also luckily, not very mentally taxing) overseas professional placement for several months at the end of 2022, and this was a welcome distraction from *everything else* about my life.

When I got home in winter 2023, the anxiety returned in full force.  I got an ADHD diagnosis, but neither that nor the anxiety are effectively managed yet.  And, truth be told, posting these stories gives me a lot of anxiety.  It’s sort of been a weekly cycle of posting, feeling very anxious about it for several days, talking myself back to a place of peace, getting ready to post again, posting again, rinse, repeat.  Sometimes I’ve found myself feeling too anxious to post, and the chapter/story in question has been pushed back by a week.

So I wasn’t exactly feeling great about the posting process, but I was still determined to proceed.  I had a posting schedule that would have seen me finish posting this story by the end of November (last month) then post the remaining four shorter stories over the next couple months.  (A few of them are synced to dates/times of year: the winter holidays and February, i.e., the anniversary of the AAFS conference.) But then, with the last chapter I posted, I was just too anxious/unhappy.  This may have been because I’d slightly accelerated my posting schedule and hadn’t left myself enough time to process everything; I’m not sure.  But I found myself looking at Tumblr gifs of our two lovely science nerds and feeling sad and resentful, not happy, and I realized that, if I continued on as I was doing at the time, I was going to destroy both my deep love of the characters and my own happy place.

So I told myself that I didn’t have to keep posting now—that, as much as I was determined to have the complete series of stories posted, I could do it in months or in a year or some other time when no one was left to read it; honestly, that thought made me feel a lot better.  But then I decided maybe I didn’t have to wait quite so long—that I could try posting once per month or something like that.  On the upside, I tell myself, this should also leave time for me to respond to comments more promptly and to go engage with other writers’ stories.  (I managed to go back and read and comment on a handful of stories this summer.  Commenting still gives me a lot of anxiety; at one point I felt like I almost gave myself a panic attack.  But I’m going to try to work at it.)  As of this morning, I have responded to all comments on these stories, including to comments by guests/people who aren’t logged in (unless I thought the comment was from a bot!).

I can’t promise when the next chapter will be posted.  My goal is for next month, but it really depends on how I feel after posting this one and how I feel next month.  I do hope you’ll come back to read it, though!

If you’ve read this far—both in this series and in this note—thank you so very much!  You certainly didn’t need to know all the information in this note, but I needed to share it, if you get what I mean.

Thank you so, so, so very much for reading and for your kind kudos, comments, follows, faves, and reviews.  Supportive comments/reviews always, always, always make my day.  Your support for this series of stories is truly what has allowed me to get even this far in posting these stories, and I appreciate it all more than I can tell you. 💛💛💛

[takaraphoenix]

What are your motivations to writing fanfictions? What made you start writing fanfictions? And why did you keep writing them and what motivates you then vs now? How do you find the motivation or reason to write a particular fanfic? I hope you don't mind me being curious

That's such an interesting ask to get, I totally don't mind!! I never mind asks ;)

Mh, my motivation when I first started writing fanfiction was... greed, I think? Like, when I was a kid and discovered fanfiction, that totally blew my mind. I could get more with the characters I love in the world I love? And then I realized that I could let things happen that I want to see with said characters in said world, things that canon wouldn't let happen, and that just unlocked something in me, I guess.

My first fandom was Beyblade and it was very... warm. The fandom, I mean. The German Beyblade fandom in the early 2000s was a real community, you met each other at cons, you had forums where you talked about your fics and organized events (bit like Discord does now, bless it). And that was what really made me keep writing, because I had all these friends, we supported each other and helped each other improve (plus, I was very young back then and the majority of the people in the circle were 20+, so there was a lot of mentoring and guidance and people teaching me how to behave in fandom spaces).

When the German Beyblade fandom started fizzing out and none of my friends wrote for it anymore, I... lost my motivation too. I felt like I was only writing for myself anymore, and it was also kind of... lonely? Since most of the friendships also faded out, with us moving into different fandoms.

I didn't really write, for a few years. Until I discovered FFNet and got good enough at English to actually read/write in it.

What got me back into it was actually Sky High - little fun fact here, part of my username today is still rooted in that; I used to go by Peace Phoenix back then, which was my headcanon for Warren Peace's hero name, but later on, when I got into PJO, I kind of merged my old Beyblade username (Firefox_Takara) with Peace Phoenix to create a new identity as a writer for myself that still tied to my Beyblade roots but also kept part of the username by which I had been writing my fics on FFNet at that point. So, that's why my username is Takara Phoenix.

Sky High got me back in the groove in the sense of me reading so many fics for it and trying to write one myself (I never posted that though), and though I didn't end up with this becoming like a fandom I'd really write for, that one fic reminded me just how much I love writing, and how much I love exploring worlds.

And that's when the Percy Jackson movie aired in cinemas and I got hooked on that. Loved that movie, bought the books, dove into fandom to read all I could get.

Which is where we'll get to the part to what motivates me now.

Still greed, in a way, but also... I don't know what to name that, but when you want something and you can't find it, it isn't there, so you make it yourself. That feeling.

The fandom was smaller back then, there wasn't all that much, especially not on the things I enjoyed, so I decided to make it myself.

Which is, in general, what motivates me to write specific fics. Because I want to see it. More of a specific ship, certain tropes or AUs for a particular ship, exploring a certain character, or a platonic dynamic. I want to see it, so I'll make it happen.

Also, the ADHD brain helps too, to be quite frank. When I hyperfixate on something, my brain won't let it go until it's done. Currently hyperfixating on Stiles Stilinski and fully sucked into Teen Wolf because of that and... there's a difference. Like, there really is a difference between just writing for something that I like and enjoy and genuinely hyperfixating on it because everything else around me just kinda fades and I can spend hours on it until it's done.

I hope this answered your questions? ^^

[maudlin-scribbler]

An introduction I guess

" They might try to tell you how you can live your life/But don't forget it's your right/To do whatever you like " - Spotlight (Oh Nostalgia), Patrick Stump

Hey, I'm Corin(or Cory or Cor), or XO, or maudlin scribbler or madulin or scribbler. Honestly I like being called either of those names, or nicknames or variations of them. Also call me Cory too, perhaps.

17 years old, and will be so for some months still. Born in november.

Any pronouns.

Queer, kinda transgender, my gender is also eather fluid as well.

I am also on the aroace spectrum, somewhere there haha. And I guess I am pansexual as well.

School wise, I suppose I could say that I am sort of studying the social sciences. I love anthropology, archaeology and history, they are quite some of the major loves of my life, along with mythology and folklore.

I do love astronomy and space in general, but I am not very knowledgable in these sort of things. Frankly, I am so fucking bad at science.

romanian! With greek and ukrainian roots. I speak romanian, english (hopefully), a tad bit of french and I am trying to learn greek.

Hope you don't mind the obnoxious amount of dividers!

Also check out my friend @mintmacaroonn !!!! They're a pretty cool dude, I'd say.

Also the tag #corin's lore is basically my talking tag. I tag my art under the tag #my art.

Hobestly, I have a lot of interests, some of which I'll list here and all of them will be listed in the tags(eventually). Some of them I don't think of very much, while some are currently consuming my mind haha. Frankly the best way to find out if I know something though is to ask me!

I love gothic literature, such as the Invisible Man by H. G. Wells(bold and in colour 'cause I love it so much despite not talking about it for a while haha. Don't remember that much of it tho, wanna reread it again someday). I have read some other books too. Yeah, I've read PJO (and a little bit of HOO). And Frankenstein(and Jekyll & Hyde). I love sitcoms, I've wached The Nanny and FRIENDS and some other 90s & 2000s sitcoms, I think. I like Superstore, and I have indeed watched 1670 (netflix) and loved it, and Rise of Empirea: Ottoman. And Seinfeld, yeah. Kinda like lore rekindled too, ngl.

Of course, as I have said before, I love history!

Love Ride The Cyclone!

I like cookie run (I mostly have played kingdom though) and have played a bit of reverse 1999

Yes, I do like hetalia (but I'll only really talk about it on my side blog, @estbela , for the forseeable future.). I'm critical of it, I guess.

Despite my love for music, I struggle with checking out artists and stuff, but I do love the Crane Wives and Fall Out Boy(albeit I've only recently started really listening to them, I haven't really listened to all their stuff or anything but they're cool)! And I do love Patrick Stump's solo stuff too haha, soul punk is awesome. Which might be obvious because of me putting a quote from one of the songs at the top of this post. I also love other music too!!!! :]

Hobestly i love a lot of other things too.

[ I do want to mention that I am critical of my interests and stuff, and don't blindly love stuff. If one of my interests contains 'problematic' things, it doesn't mean I condone it and sometimes I might not even know about it. ].

AO3 -> I.

Twitter -> II.

Sometimes I might talk about myself or my life, vent a little I guess haha. I really like complaining about stuff, it seems. I struggle with my mental health, but I try not to talk about it too much.

Dunno if I have dyslexia, but I do have some similar struggles with people who do have it. Including my struggle with spelling, but I do try my best. I...probably have ADHD? Maybe some other couple things, who knows.

have a lot of ideas for original stuff. Will perhaps try to talk about those ideas...eventually. Sometimes I also think I am funny.

Feel free to ask me stuff also!!!

Thanks for reading this whole thing! :]

...Will probably edit this if I can think of other stuff to mention, or when I feel like it.

-dividers by @/saradika-graphics -> x.

-my old pinned post -> x.

A hug for you! :D

Also a cool blinkie thing <3

[joasis-rp]

All posts and replies run on queue. Though sometimes i wont queue replies depending on my motivation but it will be rare for now. Queued replies tend to go up in the evening. There are six muse related posts daily. Be it memes, things my muses like or muse photos. Those go up all throughout the day and usually alternate content to keep the page from feeling spammy.

The ages can vary depending on the rp so just ask if you want to change the age, but by default, it tends to be around what it says on their bios.

Continue for muse info - All muses are 18+ - STARTER CALL - ASK MEMES - WANTED PLOTS - All Muses are Original Characters - Unless I'm sick I never go past 3 days without replying. - 3 girls and 4 boys.

Rio - 152cm - 2003 - Inugami (Dog demon) Black and white Akita- Autistic, chronically Ill, PTSD, and anxious. - part-time fashion model and part-time shop worker - Pansexual (no preference) - Has a teen verse for people who want to explore her traumatic past. She is around 16 in that verse.

Anxious autistic girl. Dealt with a lot of abuse in her youth and now struggles with the trauma. She relies heavily on her emotional support dog Akachan a lot. She doesn't talk to her parents anymore. Her parents disowned her for being disabled and her mother tried to kill her when she was young. She was homeless for many years and dealt with a lot of abuse during this time. She tends to avoid people as she is afraid of being hurt again. Though she keeps to herself deep down she is desperate for love and acceptance. She wishes to not be alone anymore but is scared to reach out to new people.

Cho Hye-Bin - 172cm - 1997 - Nickname Hayden - Tengu (Crow demon) - Autistic, PTSD, addictive personality and anger issues - Freelance writer - Bisexual (prefers females)

Autistic and a bit of a loner. Dealt with a lot of trauma from past relationships. She is a protective person who tends to avoid relationships but likes to fool around. She has a sister but isn't close with her. She also doesn't talk to her parents anymore. Her mother always hated her for not being straight. She is soft spoken and rather intimidating looking but she is actually rather protective and caring underneath her often angry looking expression. She has an addictive personality and is trying her best to avoid falling into old habits but even now she drinks to numb herself and quiet her mind.

Hikari Ogawa - 167cm - 1998 - Half human and half alien - ADHD and addictive personality - Nail artist and hairstylist - Bisexual (prefers males)

Autistic and a bit out there Hikari is a style conscious person. She loves partying and takes no shit from anyone. She has a terrible past that she loves to avoid talking about. She's prone to addiction but as an alien is harder to die from them. She is hot headed and outspoken but she will protect you with every fiber of her being and not ever question it.

Kyou Imai - 160cm - 2000 - Energy Vampire (feeds off attention and emotions) - Anemia and autism - Aspiring idol and secret cam boy - Bisexual (prefers males)

Though he's an energy vampire he can eat human food. But must consume energy too. Not just one or the other. Though he doesn't have to eat as much food as most.

He's a huge flirt and the type of muse you think is innocent but is the total opposite. He's also a virgin because he thinks no one is good enough for him. Also despite his perverted and lewd side, he's actually quiet and reserved. He's a cam boy because it was that or being homeless and when doing that he wears a cloth mask to hide part of his face. He can be confident because his identity is hidden. In real life, he has no confidence and struggles to maintain relationships. Because of this, he's a bit of a loner with only a few close friends. He has tattoos and smokes, he's not as innocent as he seems but that's what he likes, he enjoys surprising people when they get to know him.

Chaiyo Chaikham - 162cm - 1998 - Bakeneko (Cat demon) - Autistic and anemia- Aspiring idol and part-time shop worker - Gay

Chai is an aspiring idol. He's a bit clumsy and overly friendly. He's always smiling and overall is very happy. Though he's a bit awkward when it comes to meeting new people due to his autism he does pretty well with making and keeping friends, though he struggles romantically. He is a cat demon which is a yokai from Japanese lore. Though he is Thai his species can come from any country. He has a few siblings but isn't close with them. Overall he isn't very close with any of his family as they dislike the goals he's set for himself career wise.

Arun (Ah-roon) Siriwong - 182cm - Unknown Birthday - Nickname Sky - Vampire (friendly kind) - OCD, sensitive to the sun and overprotective - Gang leader and model - Pansexual (no preference)

Sky is a vampire. Known by most as the friendliest vampire. He's lived a long time and has since forgotten his exact age. He's over protective of his community as his mother died because of prejudice against his kind. He is a born vampire while hus mother was turned by his father. He's dated many during his long life but none ever wished to turn for him. He has avoided relationships for about a hundred years now and he's hesitant due to all the loss in his past. He is protective of his friends and anyone he let's into his life. Though he survives well on blood bags, he's prone to going too long without feeding which can be dangerous.

Mitsuki Iwata - 175cm - 2002 - Inugami (Dog demon) Black Shiba Inu - Autistic and asthmatic - part-time model and part-time shop worker - Pansexual (no preference)

Mitsuki is a model most of the time. He adores fashion and likes being creative. He's socially awkward and struggles to make and keep friends. Being autistic on top of being part alien he tends to keep to himself as he's afraid of being judged by others. He's very close with his family and once he feels he can trust you then he can become very attached. He's quiet and often soft-spoken spoken but he opens up once he knows the person well enough. He's afraid of being judged so keeping to himself helps him feel secure.

[edienotsedgwick]

Introduction again

It’s been a while since my last pinned post and a lot has changed. I deleted it cause I decided I wanted a new one.

The basics

My name is Edie

I’m from Aotearoa/New Zealand.

I’m 20

She/her

I’m autistic (likely autHD actually but the ADHD hasn’t been diagnosed yet)

I’m a lesbian

I’m an animation student on the weekdays, a musician and a essay writer on the weekends.

Aquarius sun, Capricorn moon, Aries rising

INFJ

A witch who’s extremely lazy with her craft.

I’ve been on Tumblr since 2014! You may have known me from…

Many cartoon fandoms. Too many to count. (Spanning from 2014-16)

Emo bandom tumblr circa 2017-18. Particularly the Fueled By Ramen/Decaydance bandom.

Early Scenecore tumblr in 2018. (I still have a few selfies and hit posts from then gaining notes).

Britpop/early alternative music bandom 2019-2021

And since then I’ve just kind of been doing my own thing and mainly using this blog as a personal moodboard and an outlet to post ideas I don’t want to share anywhere else. I do post about a lot of things I like, but I’m not tied heavily to fandoms anymore - I mostly just lurk. That being said though, don’t be afraid to talk if you share a particular interest with me. I always need to infodump!

What I post

Stuff I find pretty. This blog is mainly a moodboard. I keep wanting to expand out of it but I always give up at some point.

Stuff that makes my brain go brrrrr! Mainly bands + shows.

Music stuff! I mainly like to post lyrics from songs I’m writing that are a work in progress, and sloppy covers/demos that I feel aren’t polished enough for my other socials. I also do cheeky self promo of my songs that you can already listen to. You guys should stream my E.P ‘Thing Is Me’.

I’ve been aspiring to write long form essays about things I’ve been passionate about for ages. I don’t think I’ll directly post them here, but once I get my Substack up and running you’ll be able to see them getting crossposted here.

Stuff I like

Feel free to talk to me about any of these things cause they’re my main special interests!

Music history from the 60s-2000s. In terms of what specific period I’ve jumped to at the moment, I’m fixated on mid-late 2000s indie music, twee pop of any era (mid 80s-present tbh), + some of my old favourite scene bands lmao. I’ve been nostalgic for them lately.

Skins UK (yes I know how 2014 and sad of me). I’m a Cassie apologist so leave me alone if you think she sucks lmao. That’s my Blorbina and my adopted little sister who’s currently got a song + a Substack essay series being written about her. In all seriousness though, I find this show to be very misunderstood in general.

Sighthounds! I love all dogs in general but the pointy ones are my favourites. I have a Greyhound, he’s my best friend :,) When I move into my own home one day I want to have another Greyhound + a Borzoi!

This is a very casual one of mine but (in case you can’t tell from what I mostly reblog here) I love fashion! My fashion tastes span the same general group of decades that my music history knowledge does. Much like my current music fixations I’ve been inspired by the late 2000s, but what I actually wear on a day to day basis is never one particular style. I mix and match a lot.

bla bla bla DNI time

Don’t follow if…

You meet the typical DNI criteria (no ists or phobes of any kind please! Just basic bare minimum human decency)

No pro ana (one of my special interests being skins + me seeing myself in a disordered character you made the face of your little circle does not give you a pro ana free pass around me. I’m not disordered myself + I ask you don’t follow me because I don’t want to accidentally trigger anyone by letting people of your group in my space.)

Same goes for general S/H blogs!

That being said, if you are already vulnerable seeing me potentially reference any of these sensitive topics in anything I post/talk about don’t follow me for the sake of your own well-being if you know it will be triggering to you. Stay safe ILY. I do try and tag though and you can always ask me to do that if you wish.

No creeps of any kind! Please do not send me anything sexual, or talk to me about anything sexual unsolicited you will be blocked immediately.

Okay that’s everything! If you’re cool I hope you enjoy following me. Please listen to my music. ‘Edie VC’ on every platform if you want to. You’ll like it if you like twee/folk/dream pop Xx

All the tags below are for my interests, aesthetics that people could say match my vibe, as well as my face tag (if you want to know what I look like) and my text tag. Hopefully I can make some cool new mutuals.

[bnnuy-wabbit]

HAAIIIIII you can call me Lago, im 21 (i dont know how EITHER), im just some guy*. this is my main blog and where i throw funny things that makes my brain produce juices and also random ass personal poasts.

one of those he/shes they never warned you about (pathogenic variant they have yet to make any vaccines to protect you from)

my art tag is #feral art tag.

there will be adult things in this blog because im an adult. follow at your own risk etc. were horny in here towards men occasionaly.

I'm brazilian. From Brazil. As in born here, living here and stuck here for the foreseeable future. é nois 🤙

Everybody says I'm really nice! I am Unable to hit people up first though, but if you'd like to be friends, send me an ask and I'll give you my discord!!!!

i have many interests (mostly music and nerd shit) and funny things that I'll be putting under the read more lest this post get Unbearably Big. There are flashing blinkies down there by the way.

OK SO INTERESTS. I like MANY things! and i have favorite things! I think it's really cool of me to have favorites. i decided I'm going to wear them on my sleeve. anyways Here's some things i Like.

MUSIC!!! its one of my favorite things ever. I play the guitar and a bit of bass. heres stuff in no particular order of favoriteness. Just stuff i care enough right now to remember.

Linkin Park (meteora, hybrid theory <3)

My Chemical Romance

Red Hot Chili Peppers

Mindless Self Indulgence

scalene

Rammstein

Ft-rj (listen to it or i am going to chase you with a broom)

francisco el hombre (i recommend the rasgacabeza album)

danny bond

2000-10s pop!!! fuck it, lady gaga, britney spears, kesha, katy perry, black eyed peas, that sorta jazz.

Every single Homestuck song there is. i have listened to all of them multiple times. My favorite albums are colours and mayhem and also the beforus fan album.

Dad rock (acdc, queen, talking heads, nirvana, judas priest, Some pink floyd etc)

Industrial and Adjacent. I've been listening to code:redcore a lot and some grammostola actaeon lately. processor also fucks.

OTHER THINGS I ENJOY

Eragon (the books)

Disco elysium.

ADVENTURE TIME. I AM OBSESSED.

How to train your dragon (the books. specifically.)

Animated movies!!! Specially the hand drawn ones.

My horrible little OCs (@honsebeasts just go there but also Beware.)

Worldbuilding. I do aliens and monster speculative biology. Most of my thoughts on it are on the Above mentioned blog though.

Real life physiology and anatomy also

MEN (and like 3 fictional women.)

HORSES!!!!!!!!!!!

stranger things

Pokemen (i do not know a single thing after gen 6 though.)

Dungeons and dragons, sometimes

Traditional art like watercolors and oil pastels

Drawing my blorbos in the same side facing pose or just standing there.

Drawing in General actually! Designing characters is my passion

Fictional fathers

sewing and felting and sculpting and painting and singing and playing

COLORS. i love colors. i love looking at them. i love playing with them. i would like to eat them if i could. i love warm palettes.

Hiveswap (pissing screaming CRYING)

MONSTERS!!!!!! They're really cool and gay and hot.

Portal (the games. all of them. glafos........ kissing her)

Half Life.

y2k and 80s-90s vibes. i think its awesome.

I am afflicted by the human condition and also a few other funnier conditions. my brain and my body dont work right.

If you want to know the brunt of the brain ones: autism adhd avpd. they all impact heavily how i interact with people with people. Sorry in advance if i can't keep conversation going.

I'm some sort of queer thing. If we need to get really specific, id say "bisexual aromantic bigender femme", mostly into men and butches, but Queer will do just fine. I'm a self entitled part time pretty fag and ugly dyke in my free hours. Intersex it turns out.

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BY THE WAY CHATTERS

Here’s some stuff about me if you even care

My name is wav I have been going by that name for years ever since middle school and although I have tried many times to abandon it I have not been able to shake it off (Taylor swift reference).

I am a 19 year old boy if you couldn’t tell by the way I am and talk about things.. I am very autistic and have had adhd ever since I was a little little child. I got ostracized as a child for it because I was the only kid in normal non special ed class who had any kind of neurodivergence and so kids didn’t really like me x3

I am asexual I don’t like sex it’s kinda lame and stuff there’s a whole story to that but you guys will never know!!!! I want to eventually prolly fall in love but I’m not very sure about that right now because I’m scared of love and relationships and I have trust issues so I’m not willing to do that right now

I currently only really hangout with 2 people, both are women, both are 22, one is in love with me, one is lesbian. Let’s start with R (the one in love with me). Now R is like awesome because she cosplays and when I ask her to do a cosplay she says “okay!” And it’s pretty awesome if you ask me. She knows I don’t have any actual feelings for her we have had the big talk about that and she’s okay with it. R is very very very very very pretty and awesome and sweet and kind but I am unfit to be in a relationship and she’s old 🤢🤮. She likes a lot of the same music I do and the other day I was really craving to listen to hatsune miku and then I started playing some and she knew the songs and it was awesome I #love R she’s one of my besties for reals

Next is C. C is lesbian so she isn’t in love with me but she always calls me cute and a twink which I think is really funny. She also says I look really breedable sometimes and I don’t know to feel about it. C is like a mother to me because whenever I’m sad she lays me on her shoulder and pets my hair and then I fall asleep laying on her shoulder and then I have my legs on R then I end up staying the night at their house.

C & R both have a lot more money than me (I am poor) so they drive me around and give feed me almost everyday and it’s the best life I could ask for.

Back to ME tho

My entire life people have told me I’m like a dog and I’ve kinda just accepted it at this point but it still feels offensive but I think deep down I know it’s true.

Here are some bands and artist I like!!!

Sodaboy64

Pavement

Mike krol

The smiths

The strokes

Weatherday

Hallowed

Nick drake

Radiohead

Dinosaur jr

The unicorns

Plumtree

Pixies

My blood valentines

Glass beach

Swirlies

The microphones

The cure

Cap’n jazz

Weezer

I hate myself because

The Sundays

Stephen malkmus and the jicks

Mad planets

Sunny day real estate

Mineral

Yuck

Moses Campbell

Cafe tacvba

Caifanes

Birdbath

Unwound

Neutral milk hotel

Jeff mangum

Stephen malkmus

J mascis

Bôa

Crying

The breeders

Feeble little horse

Worst party ever

Hatsune miku

Myself

That’s just a couple of them mostly the ones I listen to more than other music I like.

Here’s where I post music sometimes if you even care

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Today I think everyone should listen to tuff ghost by the unicorns!

The unicorns are a Canadian indie rock back from the 2000s. I like to say they’re kinda like a mix of the microphones and jack stauber (if he made good music :3) but they are REALLY good!!! And not very talk about anywhere that I can see so make sure to share this song and band around with your friends!!

This is the end of the post thank you for reading my word vomit :3333