#moving on to the more boring tags

[mylittleredgirl]

depression is genuinely so fucking stupid. at least being insane is interesting.

[soupmanspeaks]

the topic of Helpy makes me go insane /pos like I have this headcanon that William/Springtrap just, DESPISED Helpy because William took heaps of pride from the Funtime line of Animatronics, he saw it as his son's crude mocking of HIS creations, when in reality its just Michaelangelo S Afton trying to use humor to once again cope with the horrors™️ Like I've probably said this here before but I headcanon that Helpy found his way into the PizzaPlex's marketing is because after the FNAF6 fire he just was under the rubble remarkably preserved or something and instead of going into the RockStarRow Museum, the FazExecs had dollar signs in their eyes and were like "yeah, that one will make us bank, ong" Ive also probably said this (bad memory sozzz) but a headcanon to go in tandem with that headcanon, is that Glamfreddy sighs in resignation whenever he passes by one of those Helpy monitors (he wasn't paid royaltys <//3 ) AND LIKE I GOTTA KNOW WHAT (glam)MIKE WOULD THINK OF THE ENTITY THAT IS SATAN DISGUISING HIMSELF AS AN AGENT OF LIGHT (Helpi) WOULD HE FEEL SAD? ANGRY? AT THE MIMIC? THE COMPANY?! please the topic of helpy is so interesting PLEAs-

[elliebell77]

sorry i havent been posting i think im burnt out rn

[2hoothoots]

i was having a chuckle to myself last night about Gristol, and how his plans are basically:

Restore Ford Cruller's memory

Find Maligula

???

Profit

but then... of course they are, right? this is Gristol we're talking about. Fatherland Follies drives home again and again that he's still operating on a child's logic, a warped and reductive version of the world that he never bothered to grow out of. both of his memory vaults center on the images of his childhood, this idealized version of the past that he clings to no matter what. and that's still how he remembers Maligula, too - as this saviour figure, who rushes in to help him when he's in trouble.

[ID: Two slides from Gristol's memory vault, Glory to Grulovia! Left: Gristol clings to Maligula's back as she summons waves to sweep away his assailants. Right: Gristol and Maligula waving from a balcony as the people cheer. Gzar Theodore brandishes a dagger in the background.]

like so much else, Maligula represents a return to this idyllic childhood - to the peace and simplicity of his youth, when he was free from worries and responsibilities. in his mind, he doesn't need to make any further plans - once Maligula's back, everything will go back to normal. Maligula will make everything better.

...is what i thought, but then i remembered this line:

[Screenshot source. ID: Gristol, in Truman's body, bows on his hands and knees in front of the newly-awaked Maligula. The caption reads: "Yes, High Priestess! I am here to correct the mistakes made by my father!"]

and that's kind of interesting, right?

to be clear: this happens directly after Maligula sees Helmut-in-Gristol's-body, and recognises him. her line before this is:

"Little Gzesaravich! Have you come to pay for your father's sins?"

my first thought was that Gristol hadn't expected to still be in Truman's body by the time he managed to find Maligula, and this was him trying to placate her and buy some time until he could explain the situation. but watching the cutscene back, that's clearly not what's happening here. Gristol is answering as himself, and his response of throwing himself to his knees before her is, as far as i can tell, genuine.

so what is going on here?

in Fatherland Follies, there's this line in the ride narration that stuck out to me:

"Why didn't the Gzar help Maligula in her time of need? No one knows, but historians agree - it is Gzar Theodore's biggest failure."

other lines mention Gzar Theodore's "mistake", and it's wording Gristol himself echoes in the screencap above. evidently, he believes that his father abandoned Maligula, leaving her to her fate at the hands of the Psychonauts, and it was that mistake that lead to them being driven out of the country - that mistake which he seeks to correct. maybe he even feels like he has a debt to repay to her for his family turning their backs on her all those years ago.

the 'High Priestess' thing, though - that's kinda weird, and threw me for a loop the first time i played the game. it took me until my second playthrough to connect the dots, and remember how the room in the Lady Luctopus - Gristol's room - was full of Delugionist scribblings and symbols.

[Screenshot source. ID: left, the walls of the hidden backroom in Gristol's hotel suite, covered in scrawlings of eyeballs and Maligula's name. Right, the pinboard from the hidden backroom. On its surface are photographs and newspaper clippings connected by pieces of string.]

i mean, look at this stuff! he had a whole conspiracy board and everything!

we learn very little about the Delugionists and their beliefs as a whole during the game, but i think drawing the connection here suggests two important things. one: that Gristol was in deep with this stuff. i don't know how he linked up with them - maybe via old family connections, or just good old-fashioned digging (we know he's skilled at worming his way into peoples' good graces, after all) - but it seems likely that he's begun to internalise their ideas, maybe even warping his own memories of events. and two: the Delugionists themselves are, if you'll pardon the pun, pretty far off the deep end.

like... i understand why PN2 didn't go heavy on the "mass-murderer cult worship" aspect of things, in the end, but man this is such a tantalising glimpse into the wider mythos around Maligula. Gristol is proud and haughty and thinks himself above everyone else; the fact that his first reaction seeing Maligula is to throw himself to the ground at her feet says so much about the way he's come to see her. he's not just trying to bring back Maligula, his childhood bodyguard. he's trying to bring back Maligula, the High Priestess of the deluge, the semi-mythical figure whose supporters believe even death couldn't stop. he doesn't even flinch at the way she confronts him, and maybe it's because he's bought in so completely to this deified figurehead, this idea of Maligula; more a living force of nature than a person. and it all comes back to the same place: an abdication of responsibility, not just to the person who protected him when he was little but to this avatar of floods and destruction. Maligula will make everything better.

i'd write more about my thoughts on the Delugionists but that'd be taking a hard turn into speculation, and this is already kind of long and rambling so i'd better end it here. but what an unexpected and evocative line, right? it's some of the only stuff we have to go off of regarding the Delugionists as a whole, but i think it does such a good job of hinting at the wider story - at teasing another layer to the mythos surrounding Maligula, one whose ripples we see throughout the game but which never quite breaches the surface.

[garlicbrede]

drops this shitty drawing and runs

was this also an excuse to use a new brush I found on ibis? maybe

[sp-kvt]

Thank you for 100 followers! Sorry I haven't drawn much recently, I'm getting a grind on crk for the stupid new beast cookie😓😓💔

Love and appreciate you all ^^💗💗

[myreia]

✦ B L A C K M A G E

Black magic. The tempest of fire and ice and thunder that has been with her for as long as she can remember. Her control over it made her a force to be reckoned as a youth, the key to the specialized unit her parents staked their lives on. It has been many years since then. She has lost her strength and her focus to an enemy, clawed it back and reclaimed it in the aftermath, continued to grow with every step of the journey.   Though she has moved on in many ways, she will always return to her roots. —level 90 compendium

[batw1nggg]

nothingggg more annoying than the chapter in a kmhn slowburn where chiaki and hajime are platonically doing something together as buddies and theres a misunderstanding and komaeda thinks theyre on a date and that hajime doesnt reciprocate his feelings . Get A New Jealousy Sub Plot. Please

[suppenzeit]

guy who collects public transit schedules and thinks that b- blood is the yummiest. like a normal person.

[sophfandoms53]

The reactions to this flip and shot taken to dismantle the power structure that’s been controlling the house since week one draws the line between who watches the feeds, reads updates, & watches the episodes and who reads updates & watches the episodes bc these are very different groups of people and it’s interesting asf how split everyone is

[rosenbraut]

Every week they put new ugly men on my dash.

[enden-k]

refraining from drawing now to force myself to play through the genshin event until im done, so i can freely browse through my dashboard/tl/ao3/tumblr inbox/my fridge again without untagged spoilers

[aniposting]

getting high and experiencing emotions make me realize how i can and have altered my own experience in life. it makes me realize i have an arsenal of coping mechanisms for when i feel bad and that i can effectively execute them.

it makes me realize how i’m doing so much better than i was, that i can sense when i feel bad and i can correct my course, that even when i’m experiencing anxiety from smoking weed, i can still stabilize and calm myself.

i feel myself getting amped up, and anxious about the way my body is feeling (it gives me some kind of hypersensitivity to my body like breathing) and accurately help myself calm down. i’ve only experienced one panic attack while high and i have been experiencing a bit of anxiety since then (only when i’m not with friends who keep me busy), but each time now i’m able to calm myself down.

i don’t really smoke often anymore, but i’ve been able to realize my own emotions, listen to my body and accordingly respond based on my needs since beginning to smoke about 2 years ago.

i feel i don’t need to anymore. but this helped because at least i now know where my progress has (partially) come from.

[joeeatsdvds]

they’re talking about the finale for this coming series being “huge” and “devastating” which i hope that means ruby gets killed

i love ruby sunday i really do but we’re long overdue a companion suffering a devastating fate again

[wettestwraith]

just a reminder that boycotts are a political move and a form of protest against companies and should be treated as such and less like a box you need to check off to be considered an upstanding moral person

[itspileofgoodthings]

teaching is truly so good for my ego because yes i tell all my cute little stories on here and they do exist and yes there are students who think I am so Cool and probably want to be my friend and hear all my stories but that’s only, like, 10% of them which is about 3 kids per class of 30 and that’s being generous and it’s not like the other 90% all hate you because they’re little gremlin rats who hate everything and all authority, that’s only 5% of them. the other 85% just look to you to do your job in all their variety of moods and are frustrated when you don’t do it well and give you accurate feedback about how you’re doing not even through what they say about you but in how they’re succeeding and if they’re moving forward. and they don’t particularly care any more than they care about any person who’s in their life without their choice. and it is just a humbling and a leveling thing because it provides this constant opportunity for me, the performer, the people-pleased, the charmer, to check in with myself and see if I’m actually doing my job.