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-fluiere
A suffix that indicates that an identity is fluid, fluctuating, changing in essence, and vast.
This suffix is different from -fluid and describes more complex shifting labels. Instead of fluidity, the quality of -fluiere orientations is fluienity. (Pronounced flee-N-it-ee or flew-N-it-ee)
It was originally designed for orientations but someone could also be genderfluiere, label/pronounfluiere, etc.
These identities may seem to ebb and flow like bodies of water, and feel like they're almost constantly changing (quickly or slowly). The base identity remains the same while everything about it shifts and moves. These orientations work like lava lamps in that they are moving and changing colors (feelings) while still having the same container (label). They are impossibly large but also small.
These identities may feel difficult to describe using traditional concepts and may rely on metaphors or hyper-specific scenarios instead: they are like a planet in the vastness of space, constantly moving and spinning while staying in the same orbit. They are a moth's wings fluttering, the colors and patterns of a kaleidoscope shifting, plasma moving, a flower growing and blooming, everything and nothing at once, the cycle of the tides and the phases of the moon, a 3d shape rotating, etc.
(Sorry for getting so metaphorical. But I guess it kind of shows what I mean about this being hard to describe)
Some people may feel that they’ve given up on describing themself because every time they find a label their identity seems to slightly change again. I’m not forcing anyone to identify as -fluiere but I think this term may be helpful for people with similar struggles!
Flag IDs in alt text. I also made flags for bi, pan, poly, nonbinary, trans, agender, catgender, genderfluid, spiritine/kenochoric, androgyne, demigender, aro, ace, aroace, polyam, and pronoun- fluiere and hopefully I'll get around to posting them!
#mourn's labels#fluiere#genderfluiere#pronounfluiere#bifluiere#gender suffix#orientation suffix#mogai term#mogai coining#liom#mogai#liom coining#liomogai
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The problem with canon CaitVi isn't that it's 'toxic'. Plenty of the relationships in Arcane are unhealthy and yet remain compelling. Silco and Jinx undoubtedly have an unhealthy parent/child relationship but it's still interesting. JayVik and Timebomb have unhealthy aspects to some degree. (Most relationships in the show are lime this, lbr.)
The problem is that the way CaitVi is unhealthy comes off as either clunky or unintentional. Like, the dirt under your nails line could be interesting as a line halfway through the series to show Vi's codependence and attachment toward Caitlyn to the point where she undervalues herself, but instead it comes at the end, and it feels like the vibe is supposed to be romantic, but instead it comes across as self-demeaning, and as the final conclusion of their relationship... a little unsatisfying.
That, and I ship Vi and Jinx in a very platonic sense; all of season one was the tale of two sisters, and I think Jinx was more important to Vi than Caitlyn ever was, and the fact that she now thinks Jinx is dead... The last scene should be her mourning with Ekko, the only other person who might understand what Jinx meant to her.
You might say this would make her 'bad rep' or something because the lesbian ship doesn't become endgame or whatever, but the thing is: representation isn't necessarily about ships. Vi would still be a lesbian or bisexual if her and Caitlyn broke up forever (and so would Caitlyn). They've already very firmly established that throughout the series.
Keep in mind I'm not anti-CaitVi at all and I still think they could have become endgame, but like... As it is in the show, they haven't really convinced me it's a viable long-term relationship and I can see them easily breaking up at some point after the credits roll, and the most important thing to note is that if that was intentional I don't think it would be as bad, but I don't think it WAS intentional.
Essentially, what this reads to me is the writers attempting to tell a certain type of story in which Vi and Caitlyn getting together is positive for the series, the sweet in the bittersweet ending of Arcane and Vi's arc, and failing to communicate that effectively.
#The arcane s2 spoilers#Caitvi#Vi's arc just feels all bitter to me#Like. She thinks Jinx is dead. She's going to be mourning that for a long time. You don't get over that easily.#Is caitlyn at the end of arcane s2 someone I can see empathising wihh Vi's mourning? Someone who she could talk to about Jinx#Even knowing Jinx is the one who killed her mother?#Yeah she let go of her hate toward Jinx at the end but like. That's just the first step. She's never really going to be able to understand#What Vi even misses about Jinx. Because at the end of the series she never knew Jinx at all. She was a terrorist and a mother-killer#And a kidnapper and a dangerous threat to her loved ones (see her shooting Silco). And those labels aren't wrong. But they also mean#She's not ever going to be able to understand what Vi has lost.#Even from the perspective of someone who's lost her own mother#I don't know if caitlyn would necessarily connect those two forms of grief#Because I don't think she views her mother as problematically as she views jinx. Even though as someone with privilege she undoubtedly has#Blood on her hands in more abstract ways
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mourningggggggggggggggg, are there any plans for a chapter in a Sun or Moon perspective? 🫣 👉👈
also dont be shy, drop more writing commentary from past chapters pretty please? (i had such a joyous time reading them^^ "fuck OFF micheal" "sun is not broken, just desperate" "you have no qualms about this, sun does tho" " got another section but where does she GO-")
Hiiiii pip 👋👋
To answer your first question:
:D
To your second, I will never deny you all the right to look at my incomprehensible BS <3 Here's a few more from mainly Arcs 1 & 2 in no particular order, hope you enjoy:
**Small heads up, I swear A LOT in my notes to myself, if that makes people uncomfortable lmk and I can reupload with some edits
I have Lockdown, S&S, and MFA all in one mega chapter in my editor bc I needed a bridge between lockdown and the party chapters so that's why they're all together lol
I have more as well, these are just what I had on hand, and i stg chekhov's gun when I find you, WHEN I FIND YOU I STG-
Sigh,
It's absolutely lost in the Dialogue Dump, but that's a problem for another time. Anywho,
Thank you for the ask!!
#I would have labeled them but was feeling lazy lol#think you can tell what goes where tho#man i call myself babygirl a lot don't i#confused spirit#fnaf dca#fnaf daycare attendant#fnaf moon#fnaf sun#dca fandom#dca fic#x reader#mourning murmurs
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tbh the thing abt coming into myself vis a vis gender is that there is the realization that, at least for the foreseeable future, there is a very tangible (and already very present) “limit” to how far i can take. any kind of transitioning.
#and rn that current limit is ‘i genuinely do not know if i even want to breach this subject with my family’#like etc etc dont need family approval for everything. however.#i cannot/will not cut them off cold turkey#and anything else will be just as hard to explain#and also ngl coming out as a lesbian felt like emotional and psychological warfare with just my mom#while knowing that a few other family members were talking shit behind the scenes#idk if i can handle the emotional/mental/psychological turmoil of being trans in my family lmao#i have in mind like. 1-3 cousins who might be chill.#but it is outweighed by the near perfect confidence i have in my family to mourn the girl lmao#which like. brings on some weird retroactive guilt for ‘not knowing’ earlier#(better terminology for me personally is actually changing/coming into this person but. semantics)#just bc not that it would be any easier at any other age#but like. not easier later either!#anyways like. if i specifically renege on lesbian too than i am also setting myself up for some fuckery#bc i had to fight years ago to prove i was a lesbian#and now tbh i really don’t identify with that label anymore. it’s kinda just easy for strangers.#anyways idk what any potential transitioning looks like i just want to be different ASKDJFJSJFJD#i have been feeling vaguely dysphoric sad lately which also brings on like. a billion other sad/guilty emotions.#but alas! i am also just sad posting bc it’s been a hard week lmao
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I love 😍😘😆 being dead 🪦🥀 named 🏷 by my mother 👩🍼👩🍼👩👦👩👦in front of ‼️‼️ people 🧍🏻♂️🧍🏻♂️who previously only knew my chosen name 😍😍🥳🥳😆😆🤩🤩😝😝🤗🤗
#my quote on quote self labeled “”“”“”supportive“”“”“” mother who has had YEARS to get used to my name#this woman has not shown a shread of supprot literally ever she just doesnt want to be labelled as transphobic or homophobic#both of which she is ☝🏻 but claims shes allowed to be because im ruining the plan she had for my life 🥺🥺#shes in mourning (direct quote) dont you know#I CAME OUT MULTIPLE YEARS AGO BITCH PLEASE#YOU JUST WANT ME TO TAKE IT BACK#lmaaoo she doesnt know im starting hormones soon 🤭🤭#gonna get myself disowned at this rate#she literally stormed out the house when i first came out and then cried about how hard this was on her#and then got mad when my friends asked if she was supportive and i didnt reply with a resounding yes 💀#she wants points for not kicking me out 👍🏻 i mean im obviously glad she didnt kick me out but uh#doesnt mean youre being supportive babe#she loves to yell my deadname and she pronouns at me when shes mad at me 🥰🥰 and thinks shes justified in it#and i dont mean just yelling and she deadnames me while yelling#i mean shell literally be standing there say something and repeat 'she' over and over again#like if my brothers there or something she'll talk to them and refer to me like “she - SHE SHHEE said blah blah!” or smin like that lmaaoo#so super duper fun#transgender#not to be dramatic and trauma-y on main im sorry guys 💀#im just back home with my mother and that always causes suffering
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the silliest part of my job rn: somewhere at my company, some team has an API that provides.. uh... let's pretend it's bird species names. like, it's data that doesn't change often, but sometimes it does, so you're not gonna just publish a static table on your website, you make a webservice that lets you request this data for a specific bird instead
this API has auth requirements which make it annoying to hit it with your browser. so every few days I just get messages from our beloved design guy like can you please use your specialized developer tools (postman) to look up the species name of MODO? thanks !
#except more accurately hes sending me mourning dove and im going god dammit now i have to go google the code for mourning dove.#and then im sending it back labeled MODO and hes going dammit now i have to look up what bird that is.#neither of us know bird codes in this metaphor.#well anyway it's nice to feel useful.#ceruleanrambling
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#i really hate seeing cripple punk discourse#who can use cripple punk? physically disabled people and those with neurological disorders that cause physical effects#i know this cause my friend coined the term to mean just that#neuropunk or madpunk are the terms for nd punks who want a label and community#said friend is dead now and i miss them a lot and this discourse makes me mourn them every time i see it#if me saying this upsets you then please dm but i mean this with all the love in my heart; the term/community was exclusionary at the start#and there are reasons for that
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i love new york so much. separated by hundreds and hundreds of miles, no matter where i go, i can always be guaranteed to see a random "I ❤️ NY" decal on the side of a major highway
#brot posts#made the trek back to the island today after spending most of the week upstate with my grandparents#several hundred miles between their house and mine and i saw no fewer than 3 'I ❤️ NY' decals#and i know of a few on long island itself as well#and you know what? they're right. i do love new york#i feel zero patriotism for the United States as the nation i live in but by god am i such a rabid New Yorker#especially long islander#the pure relief i felt . several hours into my trip back home. going through the outskirts of nyc#and about merge onto the long island expressway. seeing the road sign with the giant arrow labeled 'LONG ISLAND' was so like#so utterly relieving i was just like :DDD LONG ISLAND !!! MY HOMMEEEE#i hate this place but also i love it . i cant ever leave. i most likely will have to bc its so fucking expensive but like#i will forever mourn leaving and a part of me will always belong here#i enjoyed the trip upstate and it definitely endeared me even more to ny state as a whole; but like#the pure relief of going to scattered suburbs around tiny 'cities'#suburbs that looked almost like those from home.. except for the fact they puttered out to pure rural communities within like 5 miles#going from THAT to the nyc area... having a /real/ city in the distance.. and having the surrounding suburbs stretch#for as wide as you could see... horizon to horizon.... and knowing the entire island is just one giant suburb#like yknow its annoying and kinda terrible that this place is so homogenous#but also . its relieving. like its my home. i live here. its what im used to#having a normal suburb that disappears to a void with population 5 within a 3 minute drive is so frightening. where is everyone....#and how do you call this thing a 'city' if there's only like five buildings with more than seven stories..........#sorry . im so nyc metro area pilled. i cant consider anything a city unless its steel skyscrapers with 100+ stories and busy traffic#and thousands of pedestrians rushing about at any given time#and how do you call this thing a suburb if there's only ten houses on a single street. why are your yards so big. where are the fences
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dreams that never come true - pettiot - Peaky Blinders (TV) [Archive of Our Own]
At some point during the S6-E1 four year timeskip, a small slice of life.
Ada Thorne Presents: the Suppressed Desire Ball.
(Tommy might've preferred to be abroad, too. In the absence of drink, the thought of navigating the far-reaching territories of those taffeta skirts might get him through.)
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Tommy Shelby/Lizzie Stark, Ruby Shelby, Charles Shelby, Various Shelby Household Maids | Fluff (or the Appearance of Fluff), Fancy Dress Party, Family Dynamics, Family Bonding, Domesticity, Foreshadowing, Gendered Dynamics, Class Issues, References to Sigmund Freud, Bittersweet, 1500 Word Flash Fiction
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#my writing#peaky blinders#tommy x lizzie#ruby shelby#charles shelby#i adore that AO3 has a 'references to sigmund freud' tag#i have mournful headcanons for lizzie and travel#based on lizzie's wistful 'we could be in america' to tommy#his absolutely entrenched englishman-ism#and on diana's mockery of lizzie's stereotypical paris honeymoon comment#also there is a Thing about architects and costume parties#all our balls were costume parties#this was a party theme i found for a 1933 Architectural Association ball#not gonna even pretend i'm not delighted about the number of layers in reading tommy's “suppressed desire” outfit tho#the non-canonic reading: wife's an oceanic metaphor then the husband can be a boatman navigating to foreign or familiar shores; however!#vigorously ignore the canon trauma door of giant solid steel labelled 'do not repeat do not fucking open'#but as tommy says to ada later that night at the party#sometimes an outfit's just a fucking outfit ada
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went to salem yesterday and we were dicking around in the witch shops and while I don’t believe that witchcraft is actually real or anything they sell actually does anything I discovered that none of the crystals they sell have negative results. they’re all supposed to improve lives. there are no revenge crystals. but any crystal is a revenge crystal if you throw it hard enough so I should’ve bought some clear communication ones to chuck at that boy
#isabel talks#this is a joke regular rocks would also do#and they’re free#also there was a dumbass voodoo doll. literally the label was dumb ass#if I hit it do you think this boy would feel it all the way in california#sorry lol it’s easier to be angry at him rather than lay in bed mourning the friendship lololol
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(a lot of tmi in the tags, just saying)
#a little vent (that i hope i can phrase well)#idk how to cope with being bi#for most of my life i supposed i like guys bc that was the default but i never had any interest in persuing anyone#letterally my hobbies where the most important thing ever and i didn't need a bf or a gf#then i found out i liked girls and i liked the label lesbian and i didn't havw many problems with it but it was also v lonely#in january of this year i get a crush on a guy and basically many things change and this aforementioned guy disappeared in march and#i'm still heartbroken (i'm basically mourning a relationship that wasn't meant to be in the first place bc of power dynamics)#and now i have a lot of men hitting on me and i hate it (not bc their men but bc of the way they approach) and i'm sex repulsed which is new#and i'm not used to it bc in hs none was interested in me#i just lost weight and now i like doing my hair and makeup#but i'm still the same weird and offputting girl that happens to be also v funny and now pretty#but men don't care about me being funny or other things bc they think with their d*ck (not all men but the men that hit on me)#and in all of this i'm still obsessed with my crush and it's been 8 months and it's probably unhealthy#and i have a lot of other problems not related to sexuality or love life in top of that and they make socializing difficult bc i feel lesser#bc i don't have a degree#what do i do?#emma and her stupid vent
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When you ride the dick, Imma choke you out Hit it from the back, blow the vocals out That's the type of shit we on - Vic Menca - Eastside Girl
#::: { musings } who mourns us; huh?#::: { lt ghxst } possessed and protected; it's the only way we know how to love#::: { thesilverandthejetsystem } lost souls on a one way track; this is sweet surrender#::: { manufactoredxbyxdesign } running to your heart when you're thinking of#::: { misfittcd /saem } love is bloody; ours especially#::: { wardogsong } thin red line between love and hate#::: { Traumamade } A Label Is Just Another Word For Mine#im not even freaking sorry#this is just who i am now#i can't be bothered to care
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im thinking about yuu from stars align again
#I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. literally one of the only explicitly nonbinary anime characters ive seen in anything#like they literally say...... the label that fits them most is x-gender CAN WE GET MORE OF THAT PLEASE#OF CHARACTERS JUST EXPLICITLY SAYING THEYRE QUEER. IT WOULD BE SO AWESOME..... IT WOULD BE SO COOL.......#anyways i love yu more than life itself and everyday i mourn that stars align never got a continuation ToT#serena.txt
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i wish i had the expendable money to just completely re-swagify my wardrobe man liekk i just want to get some colorful skirts + tripp pants complete w accessories n shit but somehow ive never been able to get to a place where that would be feasible despite cycling thru the same 3 outfits for like 10 years
#also still in mourning for all the well-loved old band shirts my parents forced me to throw out. hellish fuckin world#idek whay label my quote unquote style woukd be. in an ideak scenario ig itd be less edgy egirl swag#80s slash 90s renaissance shit ykwim. mayve i should make a fashion inspo blawg#and just use that as ref for if i ever get the opportunity to be happy w my image lol
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i love that somebody tagged this as "#ulster #i presume" to aid me in my missed connections situation. alas. new blog, still in england. will happily meet trans northern irish tumblr-using cyclists though 👍
yesterday i was cycling home from dunelm with pillows badly strapped to the back of my bike and a cyclist pulled up next to me at the traffic lights who was wearing trans pride shoelaces. "i like your shoelaces," i said. "in an actual way not in a tumblr way although, yunno, also that."
"either will do," said the cyclist, and then the lights went green and we were off
hello trans cyclist if you are reading this, which you are probably not
#pearsanta#one of these days i should put in my bio that i live in england lol#it's just that looks like i'm proud of it#i'm not. i'm also not NOT proud of it. it's just like a neutral fact#actually one of the worst things about being english is the fact that i like england#i do! i like the landscapes i like the weather i like the allergen labelling systems i like the nhs#i might not like the government or the racists but they are not everything that this country is!#weird queertrans irish-speaking disabled people have a right to this country too!#had a whole moment earlier this year where i realised i don't Want to leave this country#and fear ending up in a position where i have to#and mourn that certain opportunities don't exist for me here#anyway. for missed connections purposes it's east of england
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Headcanon that Tim introduces Cass to reddit and helps her make an account. But she mostly uses it to ask questions and user batgirlfan99 accidentally becomes a meme and an urban legend. Half her posts are AITA situations listing either horrible trauma done to her which she doesn't acknowledge as trauma or moments where she was most definitely the asshole but seems massively confused as to why. To make things more baffling the other half of her posts are questions to various subreddits like "Why does food have out of date labels when it tastes fine?" or "How many bones can I break when I'm fighting someone before it becomes cruel and not OK?" and "How can I get a real passport if I don't technically exist?"
She's so completely serious about all of this people aren't sure if it's an elaborate bit, shitposts like dril, or if someone should call a hospital and get her help. Tim's having too much fun watching it all happen so he strikes a deal with Babs to make sure Bruce never finds out and shuts it down. Babs agrees because it's nice to see Cass interacting with civilians even if it's anonymous and online.
Unfortunately Cass goes a little too locally viral on a discussion thread about Gotham water, insisting that she drank it for two years both during and after No Man's Land and she's fine, so people are clearly exaggerating about the chemicals. Bruce gets wind of it and starts making plans in case the account is run by a new Gotham joker variant but the more he looks at it the more these questions seem familiar...
The next time they're having a family dinner he mutters to Cass: "I still don't think I was the asshole during the Soul fight. You didn't give the full context ."
After this reveal, the rest of the dinner is spent with both of them arguing their case and everyone voting on if Bruce was NTA. Dick, Tim, Duke and Damian vote YTA. Cass and Bruce vote NTA. Dick says Cass was also the asshole for punching him in the face which sets off a whole new round of discourse.
batgirlfan99 deletes her account the following morning, leading to widespread mourning across her frequent subreddits. Cass still thinks it was worth it. She knows the difference between laundry detergent, fabric softener, and fabric conditioner now.
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