#most people didn't even know it was me I don't think ... but that's okay /lh

[throughpatchesofviolet]

Oh, yeah ... I wanted to try and make a cute Valentine's theme, this year. I have a Heathcliff ID in mind for it, too ~

[aihaloos]

So T3 huh.

Okay okay just some thoughts bc I'm not good at analyzing + theorizing. The indented ones are the more unserious ones to cope

(I think it's obvious I have a favourite (Muu))

The static prisoners are definitely static and dead, unfortunately. Mahiru has a black veil over her head, a usual piece in a deathbed for women.

WE DON'T GET A NEW HARUKA SONG NOOOO my baby boy I'm gonna miss you 💔

I'm not sure about why Yuno cut her hair, but it might be for mourning. Some people do that. (Yuno and Mahiru could be considered friends, couldn't they?)

One thing's for sure, she looks great with short hair, even if I'll miss that pretty ponytail of hers.

Fuuta is definitely recruited into the cult. It's screaming in your face. There's a really good post by @/snakes-and-fluff about how he needs a purpose, and Amane clearly, with her cultish and extremely strong beliefs, managed to rope Fuuta in it.

He looks silly but I love that for him lol. Also yes Amane my daughter go manipulate your big brother into joining your very toxic belief system!! I love you so much/plat (/nsrs)

Speaking of Fuuta, he definitely was the one to directly kill Shidou. There's no way Amane could've done it by herself, but Fuuta definitely could. Shidou wouldn't have fought back since duh, he's suicidal + has a soft spot for children. He still sees Fuuta as someone to look after, and knowing Amane is the one behind this, he wouldn't fight back past some instinctual need to live.

RIP DILF (D stands for both Doctor and Dad) I'm gonna miss you and your beautiful wife

With Shidou gone, obviously Mahiru would lose medical care and die. Haruka also wouldn't have any obstructions, the system doesn't protect him from himself unfortunately, and Shidou can't give medical care.

Looks like the guilty prisoners this time around get a headpiece. Muu seems to be wearing a beekeeper's veil with brambles, which is interesting.

She def got the most drip other than Yuno, keep slaying queens <3 I love you/plat

I think the veil ties into her queen bee symbolism. A queen bee who's obstructed from her subjects. She has no influence and no external protection. It basically removes her power as a queen bee.

The brambles I'm less sure, but it *might* be a reference to Jesus' crown of thorns. The "king/queen" being sent to the crucifix. (Not sure abt this bc I'm not familliar with much literature. This is probably a huge stretch.)

And just like Jesus she did nothing wrong 💔 Just a bit of compliance with an already corrupt system yk.... free my girl Muu she doesn't deserve this 💔💔💔 (Yes I'm a Muu apologist now shhhh)

I don't have much to say about Kazui and Mikoto. All I know is that they look depressed.(/lh)

I sure hope we get Midokoto this trial though. Since John's confirmed to be a new alter I need to know who the first alter is. I don't think John is gone but I just. Yk. Wanna know.

Also guys see this is why you don't smoke. You either end up depressed or dead. Give up smoking now !!!111!1!!!11!!!! (And join our very cute cult by my very cute very sweet very darling cult leader daughter Amane) (Please come join us we have a magical girl anime featuring her)

Also LMAOAOAOAO KOTOKO FR GOT MUZZLED.... The wolf symbolism didn't fail us guys 💯💯💯 (This one is more obvious than Muu's idk what you want me to say)

I think it's interesting both alive guilty prisoners got a headpiece as a restrainer. I wonder how the two sleep with those on...

[ryo-apologist]

Shiggy's Slutty Lil' Waist

Shigaraki Tomura x Reader

CW: Smut, Minors DNI, I will block your ass, talk about crop tops on men and gray sweatpants. Don't like? Bully me it'll be foreplay <3 /j

AN: I saw a picture of Johnny Depp in a crop top. We all know the one. And yk what? Shiggy has the same slutty lil waist. And so far all three of my posts have been about Shiggy. Will that change? Idk ask me next week. It's my comfort character and I can seek toxic comfort WHEN I WANT-

~Darling XOXO

☾ Shigaraki Tomura has the sluttiest fucking waist.

☾ That's it. That's the post.

☾ No, I'm kidding. I'll elaborate for thirsty whores like me. And Barbie. Shout out to them.

☾ Shigaraki obviously has the fits going for him. Name one outfit he wore that didn't slap. Exactly. You can't. So contrary to what people think, I think Shigaraki takes a bit (Not a lot, do not get me wrong) of care in how he looks. He has an image to maintain after all. How can he be expected to be the big, bad leader of the LOV if he doesn't look like it.

☾ That being said, I think at some point it just comes naturally to him to dress in ways that suit his body.

☾ And we all know he has the body to do so. After he left that big ol' test tube? Did y'all SEE his arch? Fuck man I couldn't arch better if I TRIED. Like,-

☾ Okay before this post turns into a tiktok comment section on the thirstiest of Gojo Edits, let me continue.

☾ My point here, is he probably doesn't dress like we see in the anime all the time. That would get tiring. Drain his mana level if you would. And he needs time to recharge.

☾ So, In this essay post, I'm here to argue that Shigaraki Tomura wears crop tops that barely brush past his nipples to show off his slutty little waist.

☾ You know, the shirts that had a hole in the front? Instead of sewing them like a reasonable man, he rips them from that hole all the way around. Which means his crop tops vary in length. Every single one of them.

☾ And that leaves perfect access for you to wrap your hands around his waist and just hold him like that. He hates it. No, he doesn't.

☾ In all truth, Shigaraki loves the feelings of your hands on his midsection because it's such an intimate place to him. He loves feeling you touch him with no fear, even though he knows the second he's done with you, he's taking those hands and dusting you.

☾ Y'all didn't think I was about to turn my greatest number one villain into a *gasp* nice person, did you? /lh

☾ Sorry, not here. Shigaraki does not do love. Only with me, dw guys I'll treat him right :). He's a man with needs that get in the way of his bigger plans. Sorry, not sorry.

☾ Anyway, trail your hands up his ribs and play with his nipples. Pinch them and roll them between your thumb and forefinger. It buys you another day. Additionally, you get to play with his fat tits.

☾ He has one shirt that he outgrew after his transformation that absolutely hugs his double dee, mommy milking, calcium cannon, honga-bazongas, dippin dots, whatyoudoingouthere withallthattiddies, boinga boinga, bouncing bangers.

☾ This one magically turned into a crop top. It was crazy. Shoutout to whoever put it in the wash to shrink it. They a real one.

☾ It was me.

☾ And it's like that one meme of the guy looking at something with his pecs right there and the lady is just O-O at them. Which...Yeah me too.

☾ Anyway, he wears it all the time because he's convinced it still fits.

☾ Play with his...pecs... through the shirt. He has the most sensitive nipples and it just brushes against them just right and...He likes it is all I'm gonna say.

☾ Now, I know what we're all thinking, 'Darling, what about the pants?' And Darling's got you, baby cakes.

☾ I only tease in the bedroom :)

☾ Grey sweatpants season is EVERY season for this man. He's got like three pairs he cycles through. Kurogiri HATES them. He tries to throw them out and replace them with sensible jeans or slacks.

☾ Never works. He's like a raccoon with stocks of them EVERYWHERE.

☾ Anyway, so he's got his gray sweats and his slutty little crop tops. Let me paint this picture for Y'all.

☾ Shigaraki Tomura wearing a tight white t-shirt that's shrunk into a crop top, clinging to his chest as he stretches his arms above his head, biceps straining against the fabric. His toned abdomen is constricting with his every breath of his, on full display along with the angles of his slutty lil' waist. Your eyes follow down to his belly button and following the trail of white hairs that lead to his v-line, the waistband of his pants just barely clinging to his hips but hugging the delicious outline of his cock, which, while even flaccid, is enough to make anyone drool.

☾ Y'all seeing the vision now? Because I do.

☾ I'm seeing the vision. I'm salivating over the vision. I'm ready to turn into a Gojo fan girl at this point. Like I'm drooling. No lube. No protection. No-

☾ And if you start playing with his tits like this? In this outfit?

☾ He's trying to swat you away, you're getting in the way of his game, but your hands are feeling too good. He's only half paying attention to the pixels anyway, but it's about the principle of letting you get your way.

☾ But you can see you're winning with the way his cock twitches in his pants, throbbing in plain sight.

☾ Your lips trace along his neck and suddenly the pause screen pops up. There's a dark patch already soaking through his pants and they're lose enough your fingers can dip right past the band and trace along his shaft.

☾ He's already groaning, debating if this is worth his time. Worth the distraction.

☾ When your pretty little fingers wrap around his cock and give it a firm tug, he decides it is.

☾ Do not think he rolls over and let's you do as you please however.

☾ No, no, no. He's pulling you over the couch and pinning you as he gets rid of the bigger distractions stopping from doing exactly what he wants.

☾ If he leaves you a dripping, drooling mess on the couch, that's your own fault really.

☾ But who really cares at that point, because in the end, you won anyway <3

☾ But FUCK does Shiggy have a slutty lil' waist.

[mrabubu]

MORE QUESTIONS (since i got you, i won't let you go/hj/lh).

- If Ana went to the prom night (the episode where it's leo & raph duo) What was Ana wearing? And if she went there and Leo saw her what was his reaction to her outfit/dress?

- If Ana & Leo go on adventures (or Leo dragging her in) what could their duo name be? Now that we're on this topic what could be kraang ana & f!Leo's duo name be?

- Was there anything Casey Jr taught Ana from the future? Like self-defense moves? Or something Ana taught casey jr like new food or some type of fashion?

- Was there a strong moment between Ana & Leo happened when they were teen and Leo thought "Wow! She's so cool!" Or ".. Am i... In love?"

- Did kraangfied Ana once got rid of traitors in the resistance? Like i can imagine her going surveillance mode and if anybody tried to hurt the hamatos or just betray the resistance she would go and hurt them or just... Take care of them quickly.

- What was Ana's reaction from Splinter? Like was she afraid from rats in general? Or was she okay with it? And did she envy the turtles's bond with splinter? You know comparing it with her parents?

- Is Ana the type to get bullied? If so, what would the turtles do to her bullies since she look like she won't tell anybody (from the previous answers i think she would keep it a secret).

- had Ana ever explod on Leo because of his stupidity? Like he said something that touched something sensitive in Ana and she just screamed at him with hurtful words?

- I laughed at the thought of Ana just begin invisible to Draxum as he would turn around and sees her before getting a heart attack xD

Oh boy. here we go~

For the prom night, I had an idea she would wear something white. She usually wears more dark outfits and a kepi she usually uses to hide her eyes. For the prom she would wear either a long white blouse or a short dress with shorts, and, of course, without a kepi. This would be the most "open" she ever was in front of Leo, and he would be stunned, maybe even saying that being like this suits her more.

MAN, I WOULD LOVE TO GIVE THEM LIKE A DUO NAME, BUT MY HEAD IS EMPTY((( I'll think about it, but also maybe you people have some ideas? I was given an idea of Magnetic duo, but then was told it's the name of Raph and Leo duo. Idk, maybe call Ana and Leo duo after some dish... Maybe like sugar and spice??? But tho it sounds a bit cringe.

Casey was a kid when Cassandra died, so it's more likely that Ana taught him something. I think those were more basic things, and if Imagine their relationships, I think Casey would even trying to take care of Ana in some ways, like making sure she eats and all, because Casey rarely saw Ana eating actual food because she needs blood. I just had this idea that Kraang zombies called zombies, so how can you not add the most zombie thing? Only I decided that instead of flesh she just drinks blood. Leo's blood, to be more precise.

I think this goes to this comic I made not long ago. Basically, he slowly grew to liking her because not only she was actually interesting to listen to and spend time with, she was also someone he was comfortable with. She didn't mock him or didn't have faith in him. He slowly felt more and more comfortable with her until a moment like in the comic when she would drag him into a Butterfly garden and he would be fascinated by something so simple and insignificant, and then realized that butterflies aren't the only thing that he found fascinating.

I never had an idea like this, but I can totally imagine it with how much more brutal she became after being kraangified. Basically, her more animal like instincts would be taking over her in moments like this.

She would be needing to have some time to process Splinter's existence. I don't see her as a person who would freak out from seeing a rat, more like "they're okay as long as they don't touch me", but Splinter is different, he's not entirely a rat so she would mostly be fine. I totally had thoughts that Ana would envy turtles, thinking how they don't even have a full family, no mother, no other family members, and they're happy while she has a full family, but it's like if she didn't have them not much would've changed for her. But at some point I can imagine that maybe Splinter would replace a father figure to her in the late episodes of the second season or even after it.

I think Ana would hide the fact that someone's bullying her until it gets physical, like, someone would punch her or push her and it would leave a bruise. April would be the first to notice this and then she would tell the turtles. Leo would be the first who would want to deal with those who bully Ana. Right now I had an idea that him and April (and perhaps all the other turtles) would try to make up a plan to make those bullies actually afraid of Ana, to make it look like she's as not as soft as people think she is. Maybe something like, whenever those bullies try to bully Ana again, things would go the way so in the end they would end up beaten up (not literally). And the important thing is to keep Ana oblivious. So one day she would go into school, and those who bullied her would actually apologize and look scared and Ana would just go "???".

No, not really. I don't see her as a person who would scream at anyone, at least before kraangification. Crying, avoiding, yes, but not yelling. So even if Leo would say something hurtful without even noticing, she would just close in herself. After kraangification, yeah, she could actually snap out and yell and maybe even threaten him, like pinning Leo down on the floor, baring her teeth and all.

Draxum and Ana literally be like:

[rebo-chan]

A small confession:

I think Luce is not the greatest person to admire in KHR. I really mean it in a way that I noticed something in the manga. I mean she knew the future and didn't go against it and let it happen to the people who trusted her so much. I had this small headcanon or maybe a fanon that Reborn actually made someone erase most of his memories to start anew and move-on from Luce's betrayal.

If there is someone I would sympathize a bit, it would be Kawahira aka Checkerface. He's mean, but someone with that kind of millennia old wisdom will forever be kind. He was only mean because he was the overseer of the trinisette. He needed to appease it to keep the balance of the world. He must have at least hoped for the cycle to break at one point, and maybe hoped a little that Luce could do it. She's said to be Sephira's descendant. She could do lots of things. But she didn't, and passed on the curse to the next generation until Tsuna had to do it because he could and his intuition helped him break it as he wanted it because that's the right thing to do. Heck, if he had that kind of clairvoyance, he would have done all he could do to break the cycle that very moment.

That's all. I'm sorry, but reaaalllyyy not sorry a tiny bit.

First of all, no need to apologize (Even if you're not really sorry/lh). This is the confessional booth, all are welcome, no opinion is too controversial in the eyes of Godborn.

BUT this is an interesting take. The hc that Reborn made himself forget most of his memories of Luce is so tragic UGH. I do love me some Reborn/Luce... To respond to whether or not, she can be admired. I don't know, really. I think she's kindhearted and had a good heart, that much is true. But, I think she felt trapped a lot by her fate. As there's a few scenes in the anime canon to imply that she felt there was no getting out of this. Rather than me admiring her, I sort of.. pity her circumstances? Sympathize? It's the same for me with all the sky arco. It's all just tragic. We don't know the extent her visions gave her, all that she felt trapped by them. Reborn states she knew this was going to happen, but how much? Could she have seen the weight of trinisette but not so far into the future to see that her descendants would break the cycle? She's a descendant of an earthling, so she had some sort of connection to Trinisette. To me, there's so much to scratch at. For whatever reason, she felt like she had no out. Maybe her actions weren't the best, but who's to say the other arcobaleno would have believed her? Reborn even joked with her in those scenes that he didn't really believe in her visions or fate. Super complicated situation and I love to bite into it.

The other arcobaleno might feel betrayed if they knew that she had an inkling, and I think that's interesting. They just have such fond memories of her. Ugh, very delicious.

As for checkerface, I honestly do sympathize with him. His entire race is down to just him and Yuni. He's been doing this for so long, so many generations, trying to protect the thing all of his people gave up their lives for. He's always come across to me as a lone God in charge of the balance of the world. Cruel, unrelenting, and out of love and warmth. But lonely. In a way, having Tsuna break the cycle for him was the most relief he'd had in a long time now, knowing that if he does die now; it'll be knowing everything is okay. And that's an interesting character to me, and we deserved more of him!!!

Thank you for confessing!

[kingly-court]

Fun fact: while I can't deny the comedic potential it implies and some ships that derive from this are very fun, I hate hate hate the implications that Gideon's parents don't love each other/one or both of them are unfaithful. Therefore, while nobody asked me to, mostly to comfort myself, I present

Stupid Bud Gleeful x Mrs Gleeful headcanons!

I like to think that her name is Clara because of that one commercial, but I'll use Karen because you seem to like that variant more.

We shall begin.

They actually talk a lot between each other, we just never get to see it on-screen because their usual convos are not relevant to the plot.

Karen was never really talkative actually, but Bud just tries to get her to chat sometimes because he thinks it might prevent amnesia from progressing. (It is heavily implied that the poor lady is Like That because she got her memory erased many times before)

Post-canon he actually got her to a neurologist and she's getting treatment. Recovery for the win.

Karen steals blankets. Bud kicks in his sleep. No matter where, when, or how, every morning Bud wakes up without a blanket and Karen wakes up on the floor. They're okay with it though.

Bud: "do u like stars"? Karen: "ya, theyre cool" (/ref)

Bud can actually scoop her up like a kitten because she's shorter and he does it whenever he can. She unironically likes being held, so she doesn't mind.

When Karen can't fix her emotional turmoil by vacuuming, she tries to fix it by Sleeping For Way Too Many Hours For A Human. When she does that, Bud doesn't interfere, but tries to get her something nice or write her a comforting message he leaves on the nightstand.

Bud cooks because he doesn't trust Karen with sharp objects. There is thankfully no experience to connect with that, he just doesn't think a person who is not completely mentally okay should be allowed near them. Gideon isn't allowed to have anything sharp either for the same reason.

Karen can randomly remember some fact about Bud that he mentioned literal years ago. It creeps him out /not neg.

Bud likes to play with her hair. Sometimes he braids it to calm down, which works well for both of them.

Literally incapable of sleeping apart.

Bud's parents weren't very fond of Karen but he Literally Did Not Care about their opinion. Still doesn't.

Bud has been looking for her during Weirdmageddon. Almost got caught multiple times because he kept trying to find her. Tried to find Gideon too, but after failing assumed that he stayed somewhere in the prison for safety (he didn't believe it one bit but tried to convince himself of that to stay calm)

Bud literally just kept Karen in a less than 3 ft distance after Weirdmageddon for at least a week because he was pretty terrified of losing her. Sometimes just walked through the house holding Gideon with one arm with Karen over his other shoulder. (Gideon's aversion to touch softened a bit for the first 2 days after weirdmageddon or so due to shock, then he came back to hissing if Bud tried that /lh)

They literally just cried in each other's arms the night after weirdmageddon ended. Grown people. /aff

Really lovey dovey post canon. Gideon pretends that he thinks it's cringe but actually he's really relieved and thankful for it because he has some deep seated paranoia that his mental issues Fucked Up The Relationship Between His Parents and knowing that they love each other still helps him sleep at night.

There was definitely something else but I forgot.

I hope you enjoy these!

“I hope you enjoy these!” Anon casually says, sliding the most personally made post to make me unbelievably happy waking up in the morning, including the fact they even switched around a non-canon character name to a personal HC (oh my god??)

-NO BUT FOR REAL OH MY GOD, I do enjoy this so much, because we’re on the same page. I really do think Bud and his wife just don’t have enough screentime to explore what a complicated relationship that whole household experience must’ve turned it into.

(I too am drawn the ships going the opposite way could produce, but also I’m polyam and 90% of the fandom jokes about polycules so I do a lot of my stuff in that sorta context anyways. I have the weirdest Vee/V polyam setup in the past with some of my other, less canon focused Gleeful work that I even have a playlist on spotify for akdbkdnfd.)

BUT YES YES ALL OF THIS YES. I’m gonna hit some of these beat for beat under the cut because I’m fucking obsessed. BE WARY OF ANY MISTAKES/TYPOS, I’m mobile-bound and typing this out like that.

(The two do talk quite a lot.) YES. We’re not gonna see 100% of their dynamic, with the Gleefuls being such minor supporting characters and Gideon still just being a minor antagonist. (They’re basically narratively treated like Gideon’s little henchmen.) They talk all the time behind the scenes.

(Karen has always been a bit quiet.) “Bookish” is always a word I sorta mentally described Karen with. Always the sort of quiet wallflower types. But that’s not bad!! She’s sorta the polar opposite and balancing force the more social, chatter-box, quick-talking used car salesman Buddy Gleeful.

(Above, cont. The Amnesia) And oh god, the amnesia… I can see him doing so much to try and keep it from progressing to badly or to far. And sitting down and trying to chat with her, good god my HEART.

(Post canon) POST CANON RECOVERY. OUGH. It’s always so important to me that he gets her some sort of help. She’s clearly been suffering. I always personally think her and Bud are co-tandem using the memory gun on themselves, though Bud less so, and seeing her take the downturn she did was heart breaking. He helps her get help in a few different ways, both medical and social support.

(Blankets and Kicking) OH YOU KNOW YOU’RE IN IT WHEN YOU GET TO THIS SORTA HC /SUPER POSITIVE. I love this sorta dynamic as someone who’s had a couple different pretty similar setups kahdksbd. I like to think Bud is pretty cuddly, and goodness is this appreciated any time except for late spring and all through summer.

(Bud likes to pick her up). YES. YESSSS. You can’t hear me cackling but I am, I LIVE to play with Bud’s height. My man is a literal Giant. I know heights in the show are inconsistent but he is so consistently Massive it’s so fun. Hold your wife soft and gentle like a cat 🥹

(Sleeping to cope) Oh as someone with Chronic Fatigue and other issues that cause coma-like sleep patterns, Buddy is the goal sort of guy. I imagine in this sorta case it’s suggestible to also probably leaves things like bottles of water and easy to digest snacks to get her sugar back normalized, because god waking up after that sorta sleep makes you feel like a zombie.

(Cooking, sharps) HE JUST CARES ABOUT THEM I’M GONNA LOSE MY MIND. It makes sense to try and lee them away from unnecessary threats like that, no matter the history of anything they’re both in pretty fragile or volatile states and need that extra boundary.

(Randomly remember fact) Oh that sort of stuff is so sweet I’m?? Especially considering her state with the memory gun involved it’s bound to be such a sweet thing to hear.

(Hair, Have to be in the same bed) NO BUT YOU GET IT. The physical closeness is necessary. It’s probably so grounding for both of them to be around the other, and doing things like that just makes it better. The hair braiding is so sweet oh my lord… And you know these two have to have one of those like big-and-tall California King beds, with how big Bud is aksbjbd

(Bud’s Parents) The vibe here is so good I’m,, The sheer love of one’s wife transcends all sometimes, legitimately and completely.

(Looking for them, weirdmagedon) I’M WASTING AWAY /POSITIVE. Losing them during the literal apocalypse must’ve been so damn stressful. And almost getting caught several times looking for his wife I’m actually sobbing. They’re his whole life and he has no idea if they’re safe at all, and with the state his wife is in and how unstable Gideon is it’s bound to be so terrifying… The sense of loss there is so sad, man D:

(Holding onto them, Crying,Post-Weirdmagedon) YES YES YES YESSSS. Has to keep them close, has to express how hard it was and just sit and cry and hold his wife - just because this was so stressful on all of them. And I don’t doubt that neither of them is complaining. BUT ALSO GODS THE DETAIL WITH GIDEON, I’M SHATTERED. That boy deserves to recover and get hugs and cuddles from his pa again :(

(Lovey-dovey, Post-Canon) Unironically, kids pretending to be grossed out and cringing at their parents but are secretly so glad they’re doing Good is my fucking favorite. You don’t see it much but when you do it hits so damn well. And here it hits especially hard. The kid probably blames himself for so much, and this is a huge weight off his lil ol’ shoulders - even if it shouldn’t be there in the first place. It’s comforting,,

[bubacorn]

✨2024 fic overview✨ (this is mostly for myself and is just me rambling about my writing this year)

okay, so i hesitated making this post. i decided i would, then that i wouldn't. i was convinced i wouldn't because there's no point, really. but here i am because acknowledging accomplishments is something i feel like i should do. this year has been- something, for sure. it's been bad and difficult for the most part and obviously all that won't be over after midnight but i figured i could use some 'celebration', even while i'm struggling

i managed a word count of 172,325 this year which both feels like a lot and very little. i posted 34 works. among them are the longest ones i've written yet, ones that came very easily, ones that mean a lot. i had a lot of fun writing this year but at the same time, it hurt a lot, too, which sounds silly but it really did. i'm not entirely sure how i ended up here but i'm grateful that i did. there's a lot that i can't reread without cringing, a lot that i would rewrite if i had the energy and time but they all mark a moment where i was at that point in time and i think that's okay, in a way

so, as a sort of tradition (can it be a tradition if it's only the second year i do this and i almost didn't?), some of my favorites from this year:

Waiting for the One (The Day That Never Comes)

i really loved the style of this one when i wrote the first chapter, and wasn't planning on expanding upon it but then i spoke it out loud and my brain was like '👀 what if-?' and then it was a lost cause and i suddenly had a few thousands words extra. i still like the style, i think, and some of the choices about the story

Show Me Love

this is one of those that i cringe at, although i hold a lot of love for the whole series and was (am?) thinking about reworking it sometime. i know it meant a lot when i was conceptualizing and writing it, it houses a lot of pain, even though it came out mostly fluffy in the end. i suppose it helped cement me in relation to fluff, and soup as the genesis of everything (/j /lh)

Burn to Get You Out of Me

oh, this one. the concept is painful but i might also cringe at it a bit, i'm not sure why. i think i still like it a lot, it just feels clumsy for some reason. maybe because it feels like long ago, i can't pinpoint it. the feels are something for sure, though

To Safety

this one has a doc with bits and pieces and ideas to expand it into a series, i'm not sure if i'll actually get around to it or not. i know i liked writing it but i have mixed feelings about it now. i also didn't plan on writing more chapters after the first but it still happened. based on 'popularity', i suspect people like it because it's soft and has a certain vulnerability. it's also kind of special to me because it led to me receiving an ask i still remember being very :)) about we'll see what happens with that wip next year

Show Me That Your Arms Can Hold Me

i remember this one. this started as ~1k words written in bed on my phone because i was feeling particularly sad and the words just flowed. i can't recall which part i wrote then, i know it grew quite a lot (i expected it to be a max. 2k oneshot). i still like it but i'm surprised that there was a 'fan favorite' sentence in it, although i have to say, i do like it, too, it's a nice sentence ("Vessel let himself be eased from the tense position he instinctively assumed, knees slipping away from his chest, torso turning towards II’s like his heart was the head of a sunflower seeking the Sun."). i also feel like the style and the metaphors/imagery i used are kinda nice, too, which makes me happy because fairly early on, i knew i wanted to gift it, so i'm glad it 'holds up'

I Will Be Here When You're Ready to Wake Up

oof. this one. i loved it and i kinda don't like it anymore. i know. i fought with it, i planned so much for it, i struggled and i did enjoy it. i didn't expect it to be this long, either. i guess lessons learnt? i don't hate it but it also makes me cringe a bit because i know at one point, i was annoyed, like 'how many sentences can i possibly write that go 'he [did] [something]. [name] [did] [something]'?' and it felt like the answer was 'all of them'. you know what? i do kinda like it. it has details that i like (love?) and it's not half bad. remind me to remember this when i next catch myself hating it (/lh). i also hold it close to my heart because it's the first time my fic inspired art and it's gorgeous

For a While, You and I

this one was so much fun. the idea and the imagery. listening to the songs on loop. loving Vessel for his thing for niche details in his covers that actually carry meaning (or not) but they're still fun. yeah, i like it a lot. i meant to write it with no hope left for them to ever meet because to me, that feels more realistic. stardust doesn't care about love and by that point, does it really matter? really "And they say that nothing is forever // Then what makes love the exception?". i guess it's romantic and comforting to think they might meet and that their particles will collide and fuse for eternity. i think i wanted it to be more like 'if i have to live without you, i'd rather choose not living without you because then we both just don't exist and then we can't be together but we're not apart either'. it's humanly tragic if they're just gone because that's how things go. it's horrifying but it's life. yeah, anyway

Something to Confide In

i didn't plan on writing this. i know that the grocery store conversation was written fairly early on, and some of the later pieces of dialogue. then i was very busy and stressed and sat on the train, and was suddenly at 11k. i finished it all before posting because it was an already anxiety-filled and overwhelming period, so i just put it in my drafts and posted it quickly because i was excited about it. then, i think, after like the first chapter out, i started to dislike it. that's just how things go sometimes. i have a continuation in the works for this, we'll see what happens to it

i have really complicated feelings about my writing and am in a bit of a slump (in general, too, but it extends to creating because of course, it does) but i'm still amazed at how i ended up here in the first place. it feels like i didn't write 'enough' this year and i have my insecurities and little (well. not so little) annoyances. i'm grateful to everyone who reads my works, leaves kudos and comments or shares them when i post their links here. thank you, i appreciate you a lot, you and your feedback help keep me going

at the same time, i have to say that i do often go 'maybe i should just stop', probably more often than it comes across from my words and frequency of posting, which is, oh, well. i'm still going. writing kind of happens at this point, i can't exactly stop my brain from doing it and i do enjoy it, it means a lot, it's an outlet. it is also a weird source of validation but i try not to let that get to me when i can (and fail at it quite often). i've rambled so much, i think i should wrap it up. thank you, i'm still here, this year happened and the next one will, too. take care of yourselves, if you can 💜

[aroacewxs]

Idk if this has been asked before but Im curious to know how you think wxs all found out about their aroace identities? Personally I think Nene was the one to introduce the label to everyone else during like a group discussion where everyone is like 'yeah I just don't get the hype around romance' and nenes just like 'um. Guys are you all aromantic too?' followed by confused looks from everyone else, cueing Nene to explain it

cue me dancing around: I LOVE THIS QUESTION. this is a sign for anybody else to ask me about aroace wxs hehehe they make me happy. and i will answer in depth

starting off with tsukasa: i mentioned this here before but tsukasa to me is so oblivious aroace with sex repulsion. he doesn't particularly understand the sentiment attached to sex or romantic dates and is even more confused about the norms surrounding these things

i also don't think tsukasa will actually take the time to research what he's feeling. too much theatre in that brain. he wouldn't even consider that this feeling, feeling detached from romantic and sexual attraction, was not something everybody else experienced. he just assumes that this is how everybody lives, there's no way people actually go on dates, smash lips and all that. that only happens in plays and movies!!!!!! and then his world slightly falls apart/lh when he finds out all this is real

emu would just be like "okay!!!!!!!" and move on with her day i think. i like your thought about how nene would introduce the term to them first and everyone would be like "oh. OH" LMAO i think emu would accept it the quickest. look into it a bit maybe, consider a few of the experiences she's had regarding her lack of romantic and sexual attraction and go "ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" as a lightbulb flickers above her. and then she kisses her friends because she likes to do that

nene and rui would think about it the most. before knowing what the term aroace meant, they definitely thought they were broken, that they were falling behind. for rui, it went hand in hand with the alienation he experienced from his peers, and for nene, she believed that she just didn't have these feelings because she was embarrassed to make friends in the first place. forget romantic lovers. but it would catch up to her as she enters high school because she believed that by now, she should have some sort of desire to pursue a romantic relationship like how everyone else around her did.

they would both go on thorough internet deep dives, watching different videos about attraction, browsing the aroace subreddit, etc. this is a little silly but i think nene stumbled across jaiden animations' aroace video and had her life permanently changed by it (me). i like to imagine nene and rui walking home together one day and then nene suddenly saying "i think i'm aroace," to which a wide-eyed rui replies with "same. what the freak" and they'd quietly share their findings as the sun sets behind them.

tldr: nene and rui think about it the most -> emu and tsukasa remain oblivious -> nene and rui come out to each other -> they bond over their shared experiences -> nene comes out to wxs first -> introduces the term -> tsukasa and emu's lives are changed -> they move on. show must go on

thanks for the ask :D

[trixten01]

hey dudes you can't just trace tontos art, even if they're a bad person that's still stealing art/nm /gen

Quick summary of the below:

We've cleared this issue up with the help of 2 staff in enchanted carnival who pointed it out to us

We DID trace to get the PLACEMENT of things correct, and where actively trying to replicate tonto's the best we could (personal issue that we've now fixed)

Any being uploaded are less of that trace the placement and more so just HEAVILY referenced

Our server is way ahead of time and has already moved on and I have moved on from trying to replicate Tonto to the 100% to only using the concepts (works a lot better for us now)

Thank you enchanted carnival staff

I hope everything said helps clear up any concerns!!

Heyy!! We actually cleared this issue up in enchanted carnival but didn't know if the ones that we thought where okay would still have this issue so lemme clear it up real quick

I will admit we did trace to get the position of the emotes, however we took those ones down from our Tumblr upload schedule (since all our posts are scheduled) as well ass off of our discord emojis thingy, we left the ones that people didn't point out/seem to have an issue with since we thought they where alright, we do understand though that the ones still up are heavily referenced because we where trying to replicate to the 100% (which, to any creators new or old, don't do that /lh /advice), I think the ones uploaded now should be the last heavily copied ones, though I'm not 100% sure

Our discord is way ahead of time when it comes to uploads since its off schedule so most people, who only have our tumblr, won't know that we've managed to move on and return to our own style and only use the concepts of tonto's to create our own (which helps a lot)

We actually thank the enchanted carnival staff for this a lot, they where patient with us, didn't come at us or overwhelm us, just notified us of the concerns and we talked about it and sorted things out from there, so thank you to the 2 folks that talked to me about it

[kald-dal-art]

It is my duty to submit wiress for the ask thing lolll

doing both of these on the same post

Wiress

First impression

That she seemed very sweet.

Impression now

I love her so much, I wish we knew more about her and how she won her games.

Favorite moment

Figuring out the arena gimmick in the 75th game.

Idea for a story

Basically her games I guess and a proper backstory. I'm kind of surprised how little we know about her in cannon.

Unpopular opinion

I don't think i have any tbh. Think most of my opinions about her is in the mainstream.

Favorite relationship

Her and Beetee. Why couldn't she have lived so they could be war criminals together in 13 /lh

Favorite headcanon

I saw one fic having her have cats so I just stole that for myself. Also that some of her strategy in her games were similar to Beetee.

The Morphlings

First impression

I probarbly didn't react too much on them on my first read tbh lol. On my reread though I appreciated their artistic traits. Loved that they were just fascinated by the Everlark costumes in the parade.

Impression now

My favorite minor characters. i don't know why my brain decided these two were the ones it decided to go crazy over. But here we are.

Favorite moment

The F. Morphlings sacrifice. Her painting a flower on Peeta's cheek makes me so emotional, had me sobbing on reread.

Idea for a story

Well...kind of just writing it myself...sooo that story akdjslsadj

Unpopular opinion

I don't know why so many fics insist on making them a romantic couple, but it's not an interpretation I care for. They are platonic besties they personally told me that okay 💔 Also whoever put on their Wiki that they are in their 60s which has led so many people to believe it's cannon...we are fighting behind a dumpster one day (It's not that it can't be cannon...but it's just we don't know how old they are so it's annoying that people act like it is cannon and the movies are "inaccurate" because they "changed" their ages when we literally don't know if they even did)

Favorite relationship

Well each other. Also their little bond with Peeta is sweet. Even if I have chosen to ignore the fact that Peeta calls them the Morphlings...like dude never got their names? You expect me to believe that? Really.

Favorite headcanon

That the F. Morphling is the older one of the pair. Idk why I usually prefer that interpretation of them in fics, I guess it's because it's how the movie potrays them.

[thousand-winters]

Darius for the ask thing.

Hey there!!! 💖

How I feel about this character

I LOVE HIM SO DAMN MUCH. HE'S THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND THE LIGHT OF MY DAYS. HE SINGLE HANDEDLY HEALED MY DEPRESSION AND-

Okay, that's not it but I truly get such fuzzy feelings whenever I see art of him, I adore him.

He's SUCH a good character with SO much potential and I think it's a huge shame that most of that was left implied and couldn't be explored in the show itself. On the other hand, the fact they actually implied it and we're left with a lot of implications about who he is and his past makes him particularly interesting and fun to delve into because while part of it has to be speculation, there IS basis for it! Which is my favorite way to speculate, when I have basis for it, and as such, Darius is a gold mine.

His design is 10/10, he was catching eyes as soon as he appeared and I love that for him. His voice? Excellent, I love how he's lowkey bitchy half the time, he's everything in this world. And gods, he truly is such a "wants to pretend he doesn't give a damn but unfortunately for him, he gives so many damns" kind of character, they made him in a lab for people with good taste to obsess over /lh

I feel like I could talk hours about him.

All the people I ship romantically with this character

I don't really ship him with anybody, honestly. I tend to find some posts with him and Alador sort of funny but I think the situation there with their strained and broken friendship is far more complicated than people give it credit for, plus a lot of people just treat Darius in that ship as the arm candy Alador gains by realizing his mistakes which is... oof.

I don't actively ship it but I think Dariraine and Dariraeda is quite sweet. I find too that people who ship those tend to care more about Darius as a character and not as just a trophy so I like those far more. Darimila is similarly cute, though since that one is a lot of the time motivated by the idea of making Luz and Hunter siblings, I'm more meh about it.

One thing about me is I'm not immune to cute fanart but I don't necessarily ship the stuff in question akshfjkdsg

My non-romantic OTP for this character

Oh, this one is hard because I like his dynamic with SO many characters. The familiar relationship with Hunter is great and at this point it's probably too obvious what my stance is on that. Now... HE'S SO FUN WITH RAINE. And there's SO much in his dynamic with Eberwolf as well.

But then we can start tapping into other potential dynamics and... Eda? They're both cut from the same cloth, they're so interesting together. Lilith! Now that one is more complicated since they evidently weren't close at all through all of those coven years but I like to think about them. Favorite bias.

I think to give a non too vague answer, I would go with the Rebel Trio because they're so good. Post HM fics were peak with the three of them + Hunter, SO much fun.

My unpopular opinion about this character

Technically not unpopular around the circles that actually care about him as a character instead of talking shit about him because it's easy, but since the hate for him hasn't stopped even now...

I think one of his main character traits is that he's caring. You can see how driven by emotions he is; I'll never tire of pointing out how he loses it when he thinks Eberwolf and Hunter are in danger, and those are two separate scenes despite how little screentime he gets. He cares SO much and it can momentarily put his logic out of commission. He's not cold or abusive or mean for no reason. He picks up Luz nonchalantly and makes a little snippy comment but he doesn't throw her around or anything, he sets her down gently. He rescues the Emerald Entrails when he doesn't even know them and could perfectly turn a blind eye to that. He's a rebel, for gods' sake. He wouldn't be if he didn't care about others, and it's not only his loved ones.

This is a terribly kind man. That he's not super open and claiming out loud how much he cares doesn't mean he isn't, it just means people have failed at media literacy.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.

Oh, my gods. So. Much.

I wish he had more screentime, for one. I wish we'd had his relationship with Hunter develop onscreen rather than through little hints, because while that work, so many people like to pretend that didn't happen. I WISH we'd had more Rebel Trio screentime because that would have been so fun. I wish we had seen more about his grief about his mentor, because Any Sport in a Storm alone shows you just how much he hasn't gotten over that and it's been more than 10 years since his death??? My man is Not Looking at his grief. He's not acknowledging it. Darius, please...

In general, more screentime would have been so good for people to stop misunderstanding him so badly, or at the very least it would make easier to say to prove them wrong without them being "well, the characters didn't look at the screen and spelled it out for me, so it didn't happen 🙄"

From this ask game

[kaidothelaurant]

I have a confession idk if im just crazy but i find a lot of the sound horizon fanbase alienating, so much of the conversation around new releases feels like jokes im not privy to, i don't understand what people are talking about, plus all the fomo about events i cannot attend and that do not get recorded/released etc. I kind of resent revo a little for cultivating this thing of making sh like a private privileged club where you gotta be rich and a little insane to keep up

I completely get that and it's valid to think that.

The fomo you're feeling isn't just you, most international Laurants feel this sense that they're not privy to an upper-level of understanding.

I think a lot of this has to do with how we receive our news. Social media and discord are the only real methods of getting news and discussing things, and besides that it's all just private group chats and things like that.

I try to release translations of everything publicly available on either my blog or YouTube channel, but even I have some considerations.

Idk what the solution is, I try my best to make people aware of what's going on, but so much of it is just how many Japanese artists must function to survive.

Especially with Revo's positioning as an artist. He *just now* warmed up to the idea of releasing songs on streaming platforms. Revo has always run by the mindset of "once it's physically released/performed, the content is for the fans from that time." For example, when he left kingrecords and they released Chronology and rereleased Elysion's concert, Revo wrote a letter saying he was frustrated and didn't authorize these releases. He wants the fans who buy it/attend the concerts during that time to enjoy it as an experience.

To me, the mode of surviving as a big artist (who still releases CDs, who insists on creating complex narratives not appealing to a large audience) is to rely on whales. It sucks, but it's true that Revo has a smaller fanbase who has an ever smaller section that can afford to buy $800 dressers and attend every single fan event. Thankfully we've been able to buy things internationally through CDJapan and now officially through ponycanyon, but there's the thing. buy.

Not everyone can afford the big-ticket items. Ema ni is impossible to release on Spotify and it makes sense, it's intended to be a Blu-ray, and who even has a blu-ray player?!

The accessibility issue of Revo's music isn't a new issue. It's gotten a bit better, but we only convinced ponycanyon to release SH/LH albums internationally through "voting with our wallet."

In terms of the story/releases and the unknowns around it, I'm always available to clear up any info that isn't readily accessible. People used to run news twitters and discord servers just for SH fans, but it's increasingly becoming a non-viable option for many fans to keep in touch and truly "enjoy" SH.

BUT I will end it off with this. A few (is 5-7 a few???) years back I was struggling with calling myself a Laurant. I really enjoyed SH but there was so much I wasn't privy to. It was like "I've cleared the first room, but I can't get to the second because I haven't lvl'd up yet."

I think that (especially w/ Revo) it's okay and honestly healthy to not "know" everything. Revo's music is super complex, and I feel the death of theorizing we're experiencing (where no one posts theories) is a result of the fandom bottle-necking in on itself because a select few know all there is to know about every pore on Revo's face while the peasants sit around trying to understand what the hell happened in Ema ni still.

Be the end of it, theorize and post SH and create community! On the Sound Horizon tag here it's just me and people posting fan art! I wanna see theories again! So what you don't get what the hell Halloween to Asa no Monogatari is?! So what you don't know every reference! We That's the fun of SH, 《The Gods of Fantasy》 know nothing!!

I've been here for about 10 (we'll say about 10 so I don't date myself) years and have been translating Revo for most of them. I have a lot of knowledge about Revo, but I don't know anything!!!

I'm very sorry that your experience with SH has been very polarizing, but I do hope you could maybe elaborate in DMs specifically what could help? Obviously we can't just change how Revo distributes things aside from a massive protest demanding for a live blu-ray release, but what can "we" (we meaning Laurants "already established" in "the fandom") do to prevent FOMO in our discussions/postings?

Sorry for the long rambling response, I'll also repost this on Twitter so others can engage with this discussion. If you're not comfy with that please feel free to reach out.

[mrpenguinpants]

YOU POSTED A THING! Ignore how long it took me to write this up, I've been,,, honestly? I've not been doing things, I've also not been doing this, but-

So the two plots stolen from Genshin is the Chenyu Vale story quest, and I've forgotten the second one, oops- I thiiiink it's kinda like the Mondstadt festival (the one where u have to pick that fuckin flower and it didn't matter abracafuckyou /lh)

LOOKING AT MY THINGS THERE WERE MORE okay hold on-

So the concept of the campaign is every character is a fallen god who's forgotten their divine life, and they regain a shred of their memory and now must find a way to ascend due to the fact that only Whole Mortals can reincarnate/be reborn, but if you die as a mortal-body divine-soul That's It (yadda yadda, non-dnd approved type shit; there are actually multiple ways they could go about it but I have no idea what they'll do beyond revive the sun) - One player didn't do that, but it's fine, he is instead POSESSED by a goddess, it's chill, and I adore his backstory and he's the only one with a backstory tightly interwoven with the world's lore and local area the campaign takes place in he is THE ONLY MAN WHO MATTERS T O M E (/j)

The Genshin Quests that I have plots for bc I stole them are as follows; Natzissenkreuz Ordo, Chenyu Vale, and the Windblume Festival. I won't get into it rn so you don't have to tag this ask as spoilers (unless... thinking emoji) BUT oooOOOOooOoOOo you wanna hear abt my dnd So Bad sdfsdfsdfg (I just wanna talk abt it SO BAD bc we're on a month hiatus bc one player's in the middle of bumfuck nowhere for a while)

I ALSO HAVE A ONESHOT PLANNED FOLLOWING/INSPIRED BY THIS YEAR'S SUMMER EVENT IN GENSHIN! I'm planning on running it at two tables (different groups) and potentially even a third when I get to sorting it out, ASK ME ABOUT IT PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE asdfgh

DND ASIDE- I recently found out one of my irls plays Genshin and I've been talking to him about it and honestly??? very nice, very fun (very demure /j) asdfgh I got into genshin to play w/ some other irls but now I am the last,,, genshin player standing,,,, and we're gonna help eachother farm when Natlan comes out bc I love running domains >:3 I'm a lil domain fiend

-Lucky

Ignore the fact that I'm responding backwards. But the pressure did work 👀 now I just need it to happen again because I blinked, and a month rolled around. I thought it was at most a week but no, my sense of time is fucked.

I'm so bad at names, and I barely do the story in any game I play unless I'm forced to (I missed an event in ZZZ because I wasn't on the third chapter yet ;-;). So I don't remember if I've done, seen, or even heard of the Chenyu Vale story, but I do know Mondstadt, at least.

I love it when my friends actually get invested enough with my imagination/ideas that they actually tie things into the ever-working narrative ;u; sometimes I feel like people don't do it because (they don't fucking care lol) they don't want to overstep on something that's made up by you. I understand, but man, it feels so uplifting when it happens. Keep that man alive. Are you planning on revealing parts of their divine life as the campaign goes on? I remember watching this youtube short about DND where they basically say that each player is given a blank sheet, and as they progress through the story they learn more things about their characters based on outside reactions.

I only know Windblume Festival but if it's a required quest/event quest, then I've most likely played the others. But yess, feel absolutely free to dump all your DND lore since I know you can't say it to your players unless you reveal too much. I'll tag spoilers in case you want to get more specific with the genshin quests because I do not remember any of them.

Here is your spotlight Lucky, lay it on me. What is this summer event-inspired oneshot?

I was talking to an old anon on another blog and it kinda makes me sad how the genshin community died out. Not in the sense that there's no fandom there, but that old players have either quit or lost interest. It makes me wonder if I even like genshin or if I write it because it's what I've been doing for so long.

[princessofmerc]

With each passing race I become more and more bitter.

I love Lewis for what he has achieved in the sport, but my goodness his fans put me off. Why do they always have to hate on George for no reason? It’s disturbing and cult like, people can beat your driver.

When he first joined the team I was so excited to see how the move benefited his career, but it’s come to the point where I want him out of it. Time and time again his teammate, team principle and members of the team throw him under the bus time and time again. I hate seeing people who rated him in Williams turn against him.

Mercedes won’t win championships any time soon and I want George to have the opportunity to do so. I can’t remember the last time I watched a race live. You know RB are gonna win the rest. Maybe next year will be better.

Lewis is a great driver. But he needs to realise that he's not going to lose by losing out against George. George was better all weekend the result may not show this in points but anyone who really watches knows. He may even be a great person. I'm personally getting the ick from the people he surrounds himselves with but let's be honest. They're all privileged and rich. Even Lewis as the only black driver. As the most succesful driver.

His fans are an abusive bunch of shit. And I mean that. With Max I didn't say a lot because I personally didn't see a lot of abuse that wasn't a direct reply to racism. And both sides were wrong. With Nicky it was unwarranted. The FIA and Red Bull are so much more to blame and for Nicky to hire security to protect his girlfriend (because he was scared of something happening to Sandy more than himself). They're visibly sending out "kill yourselves" to people. To minors. And no their excuses mean nothing. Not if we're already back to part two of the vicious cycle of dealing with team Lh. Tomorrow they'll pretend nothing ever happened.

Honestly Lewis, as long as he continues glorifying his fans the way he does and giving people the reason to believe they are right and they have nothing to fear. I'm through with him. I'm not claiming there aren't assholes along the George Russell fans. Even Alex Albon fans can get it wrong sometimes. Being a Lewis fan doesn't make you an asshole. As much as being a George fan doesn't make you a racist or fatphobic and stuff. And I'm aware that just because there are black sheep in every section of driver fans and it's generalising to claim there'S an issue with Lewis fans that I amd oing what I'm condoning.

Maybe it's being friends with someone who claimed "yeah okay that's bad but I got one hate anon by a George fan so both sides are bad". But I'm bitter. In 2021 y'all wanted him what are you so afraid of?

George showed a lot more this weekend than any driver did the whole year. He can drive on the same level as the world champions on the grid. He is the driver to look out for. He makes these mistakes and never makes them again. He takes responsibility (other than others who blame their team, the wind, George Russell, Oscar Piastri, the sun, the moon and the stars). The pace he's been showing. He's going to be a problem to so many drivers in the future. And I guess that's the issue

As for the team. I feel like something shifted today. It's small. It's maybe just a different twitter admin. Who knows. (But for Shov to not even mention Lewis). Maybe I'm delulu. But at the end of the day I don't think George should go elsewhere. Not because he couldn't outdrive any driver in their current team, which I believe firmly he could. But because I'm not sure if the teams that could help him succeed would let him. Other than maybe Williams, who after the European stretch is over are probably going to go back to the back of the midfield because that's what happened 2020,2021 and 2022. No other team would let him grow as much as Mercedes. What use is a Red Bull seat if you aren't allowed to beat Max Verstappen?

So yeah. I feel like a lot of the leading engineering voices in the team are more neutral than, say Toto. Which makes sense. Lewis had a massive impact on the success of Mercedes. But let's not forget that without a team like Mercedes Lewis wouldn't have had the success he had as well. Mercedes is one of the best teams on the grid as much as we sometimes hate it. They can win championships in the future and I feel like the people who matter know they can do it with both Lewis and George. And that George is their future.

Mercedes can be a shit place but unless Williams turns it around for the 2024 season it is the best place for George to be.

[yaoitrio]

hannigram x eijouji au

okay back onto eijouji-hannigram dynamics i think the main difficulty here in describing their relationship would be the fact that they have completely different themes and relationship. hannibal and will corrupted each other in a way that was completely hedonistic, and for hannibal he was selfish, and completely changed each other. tdlr: unhealthy. it was understanding each other like nobody else could because their relationship was an almalgamation of each other: they melded into one another. they couldn't remain individuals - in a way they become one. very much so. especially with will already having problems with hyperempathy, and hannibal purposefully triggering those issues, it was purposeful in trying to bond to each other in any way possible. kind of like desperation - or i guess in my mind, more akin to a test. he was testing will. but either way it wasn't normal, it wasn't natural, and it wasn't .. right. it was artificial. more akin to putting superglue on your hand and then holding someone elses hand and it's like Well at least i didn't turn us into human centipede 3. basically it was forced. whereas eijouij Well they still have issues. i don't think i really know their characters too well just for the sake of not necessarily knowing them too well but i think one of their main conflicts is the fact that they both avoid Well. They both avoid conflict /lh very much so. they are very avoidant in my head. they're kind of doomed yaoi in my head but not in a tragic way kind of like self-imposed. so kind of tragicbut like not narratively in my mind because the narratives that they're gay as hell but rather by themselves. basically, go to couples therapy. No. anyway but i think a lot of it comes out of

obviously, insecurity.

a sense of fear (ie., i am going to hurt this person if i interact with them/they will hurt me if i talk to them)

and 3. their own instinct to, seemingly, avoid their own desires.

i think eiji puts up a front of being more selfish than they really are? i think a lot of it is just a facade. genuinely. because when given an actual, true wish - whether it be companionship, a queerplatonic relationship, etc. - they don't take it. they don't. they push it away. they try to find some sort of reason to push it away or find an excuse to not take the opportunity. HERE'S THE THING THOUGH. i think people tend to conflate this behaviour with self-sacrifice or it being self-sacrificial, and in a way that it is, but i think the motive behind eiji doing this isn't particularly... that. i think it's fear. i think it is very much avoidance of hurt. 

eiji's main thing to me is that they are Where was i going with this. OH. and this isn't necessarily cowardice either i think it is genuinely just eiji's way of protecting themselves. eiji is ... in my mind he can be a bit haughty in a way. they prance, they hold themselves tall, and most importantly they are constantly, constantly bluffing. eiji puts on a show, not because he likes to entertain (even if that may be a reason) or because they like the attention (even if that is a component), but because he is afraid if he doesn't they will pierce through that thinly spread out veil that hides him from scrutiny. this 'mask' is easily shattered, it hides him from the criticism he receives. it's not truly him, it's an act. it's not truly him that they talk about, because that's not him. they don't know him - not *really.*

though the issue with this here is that i think that you've mentioned components of eiji that haven't exactly come to light juuust yet as the rpg hasn't started + the main interactions so far have just been variations of yaoi trio (i think?) which are just people that eiji likes. so those more .. not necessarily 'baser' but more 'guttural' reactions have yet to come out. i don't think eiji is the type of person that bites the hand that feeds. kind to him, kind to you. well maybe not always but their actions are not necessarily malicious to people who he's emotionally attached to? i think? >/? ? ?? ? ? ? ??

whereas with jouji Actually i haven't tohught that much about jouji. jouji who is in my brain. actually i can do something with this. 

jouji is a bit of a blank slate in my mind. a bit of an impenetrable wall. can't get in, can't get out. they're a bit ... emotionally repressed i think. /lh they got issues, man! i don't think that they're a misanthropist, even if they hold some distaste to their peers? if that's what it is. i'm not really sure i don't think i have too good of a grasp on jouji, so i can't necessarily tell if what they feel is dislike, disconnection, or genuine annoyance and irritation towards the people around them. or if it's apathy. i think it's a bit more disconnection/apathy for them though.

and i think this kind of comes with their job - i think to work with the dead is a sensitive issue, it has to come with respect - it *has* to, but i also think that you have to compartmentalize a lot to do maintain graves, to maintain the dead. i think they care .. even if it isn't that much, or if they even can. in my head jouji has some empathy issues (autism). and it also doesn't help that (I'M NOT sure if this was on sydney's end as well or if the creation of angelics was directly tied to my own interpretation) that they're an angelic. there is a standard set in stone for them, as angelics as a while, it is directly tied to their being. there are rules, unspoken rules, that you do not harm your neighbour; you don't kill, you don't harm, you don't hurt. you must be moral, because that is your being. if you don't, you ruin who you are. you ruin your 'purity,' and it's shown to the world. actually the idea of angelics is actually kind of interesting with presentation and how society approaches the 'sins' of angelics - if they really are *sins.* i'll talk about this later because i think the way society interprets this group of people is fun & how people interpret other groups of people, and how they classify them, and blah blah blah sociology is interesting to me. this is kind of getting irrelevant to jouji character study. 

*buuut,* to me jouji has firm rules and guidelines set in place for them. they have a moral code. they kind of fit into this ideal of an angelic because when you break it down, what angelics do and what their fundamentals are seen in their society, is that they are supposed to be harbingers of morality. that's why they are 'punished' by broken halos, black wings. it is a sign that they have hurt, and it is kind of punishment in a way - it permanently alters them. it changes them as a person, fundamentally. they lose a sense of autonomy in that regard? they don't *get* a choice as to whether or not their crimes are shown to world. whereas every other species has the choice of wearing it on their sleeves, angelics *don't.* i think there is some symbolism here that i can touch on but that is a little unimportant. especially with the idea of being 'broken,' being 'blackened' – it can be seen as 'going against their nature,' being punished for it. i think i already kind of touched on that aspect though. This is so interesting ik i said i was going to make a different thing for this but i'm so curious what the societal image and reputation of angelic sinners are. it's so so cool to me.. ANYEWAY BACK ONTO JOUJI.

jouji focuses very heavily on this creed that they've made up. i think it was done as a joke a few times but * BEAMS * i am the crazy bitch that reads into every last detail i don't care that it isn't relevant to the story **ITS FORESHADOWING TO ME.** jouij focuses heavily on their creed, their rules, their code of conduct. when something doesn't fit into those predetermined rules, they don't .. exactly know how to respond. they are incredibly, incredibly avoidant to acting on 'sin'  or what they consider sin to the point of ruminating on it a lot. that trifecta of going by the book, avoidance of the unknown, and a fear of sin is what i think leads them to their isolationist behaviour. 

 which also leads into their job as a sexton. you don't really have to interact with people and when you do,. Well. They're in a coffin. and with a job kind of steeped in grief (and depending on how the person died, steeped in sin) there is bound to be some stigma with the job because who would *willingly* do this? why would you *want* to surround your suffering? i think it depends on the viewpoint but considering we live in a medieval, japanese-inspired (and therefore) fantasy world i think it would make sense that considering jouji Would be a part of the untouchable class (i think?) there's going to be a correlation with their role in sending people to the afterlife and people finding being hostile towards jouji, even if it isn't necessarily reciprocated. especially since it's easy to get upset with people when there's grief. it's the easiest thing *to* do. i'm not sure if this is what you were going for this is just in my * raps on my skull * up in me noggin.

and also on a more meta level: *jouji is more isolated from society than most other characters* whereas a lot of the ocs in ukishima have some form, or relation to people, their bond to the rest of society only comes after you're dead. like their role in your life comes after you've croaked. they are intrinsically tied to the dead. 

and then going back to my original point of eijouji: these twos relationship with each other is bound to be strained just because of how each of them views the world & how they go about living in the world. as a tdlr for both of these two, both of them are avoidant in their own ways. 

jouji is more apathetic, dismissive, and generally *retreats* from society.

eiji is more cynical (in my mind, they can be cruel and mean - i think you've said this IF YOU RETCONNED THIS IGNORE ME. but with taunting and the like i think), haughty and where jouji steps backwards, they push *forward.* they will be forceful to put himself in a position where *he will not be hurt.*

every time eiji takes a step forward, jouji walks backwards. it's like they are constantly walking towards the end of the line, or rather, they're treading it. then, i think, when jouji finally makes an effort to begin walking towards eiji it's like he can sense that dynamic shift and that *fear* of getting hurt, that fear of the unknown variables, and eiji doesn't just start walking back he runs away. he flees. i think. in my head * raps on my knoggin and does a jig *

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5, 30, and 42 for the book ask game? :)

Hello, Quill! Apologies for the delay, for some reason the numbers were not showing on my tumblr page on desktop and I was too lazy to go and find it on my phone again. (Also I got distracted by my tumblr homepage but that's a whole different story.)

5. what book do you think everyone should read?

Hm, this is a tricky one. I don't usually like saying books people should read, due to me disliking most of the books people say I should read (like Pride and Prejudice and Absolutely True Diary Of Part Time Indian). So like there's books I would like people to read because they mean a lot to me, but not something everyone should read you know?

But if I had to pick a book, it would have to be "The Giver". I know some people hate this book, but I adore it so much. It's like, the whole idea of our whole world is treated the exact same way with such detachment is so fascinating to me. I could go on about this book so much, I love it.

(Also, I have read the whole quartet, but I personally still love the Giver the best.

30. is there a book that changed your life?

Someone is going to make fun of me for this, but either Harry Potter or Carry On by Rainbow Rowell. I have a thing for books about a chosen one at magical bordering school, okay?

But Harry Potter was my first obsession with something others knew about. It was what brought me to fanfic. It was how I made my best friend. I still have Narcissa's Malfoy's wand, although broken, in my toy area. I may not interact with it, but it definitely changed my life.

Carry On, on the other hand, was the first book that i read with an explicitly queer couple. I probably had read books before with queer themes, but not any that had so proudly said it as Carry On. Yes, it has issues but I remember hiding the fact that I read it, because I wasn't supposed to read it. I remember thinking "there are people like me who date someone as the same gender as them?" It was a very eye opening book to me. I still reread it from time to time, and it's one of my favorite books.

42. do you buy new or secondhand books?

I don't actually buy a lot of books, due to me not having a good place to keep them nowadays. But I have a mixture of new and old books. The last few books I have bought were new, due to either being work books or because I couldn't find an copy of the book I needed (it was All The Bright Places, and for some reason the local used book store didn't have it and I didn't feel like trusting Amazon). So I try to buy used books, but it's not always a guarantee.

Anyway, apologies for the ramble, and the delay. Please go follow Quil, everyone, Quil is such a fun guy (even if you like wearing toe socks /lh.)