#more so just emo though

[shipsgaysfordays]

remus listening to sugar we’re goin down in the early 2000s and relating way too hard to

“i’m just a notch in your bedpost but you’re just a line in a song”

[hinamie]

I'll give them shelter like you've done for me

[arthursfuckinghat]

"I was gonna say you're like a son to me.. but you're more than that."

"It ain't that complicated!"

How quickly that shoulder pat of comfort turned into a condescending one.

[noecoded]

i like it better when u cant keep warm

[0m3n-0f-d3ath]

Ottto

[apuff]

thinking about love in danger days

this is part of my conspiracy theory that that album is aroallo, but i've always gotten the sense that romance and romantic attatchment is much less important to danger days than any other mcr record. with bullets&revenge it's quite obvious as the demolition lovers take up like, everything, and the black parade has a heavy focus on a romantic relationship as well. 

while i do think there are lines in it that are romantically coded, there is a definitive lack of emphasis on it- like it's nowhere in the plot at all. 

i do think danger days represents a very familial type of love though. while other albums visit a sense of "i want you, i need you, i miss you, i hate you,", this is more like…"i love you, i want to protect you, i'm sorry"

i find this especially strongly in s/c/a/r/e/c/r/o/w:

"Nevermind about the shape i'm in, I'll keep you safe tonight"

"love, love, love won't stop this bomb"

"run, run, bunny, run"

and other songs: 

"i'll find you when the sun goes black"

"just save yourself and i'll hold them back tonight"

"how long until we find our way in the dark and out of harm"

relevant things i can't cover with just quotes are planetary go, oft-theorized to be about party poison and kobra kid, as brothers, leaving battery city together; sing, about the killjoys' last message to the girl while saving her; goodnite dr. death, phrased as him saying goodnight to children; and summertime, which i can't discern the meaning of but seems more like a family type of love. 

i think it makes sense that danger days is like this, seeing as it features main characters that take care of a child main character as opposed to main characters that love other main characters of the same age/ability. 

another thing i noticed while re-listening to the more sentimental songs for this essay is that there's just a distinctly different vibe to it. So much of it is focused around wanting to protect people, keep them safe and out of danger (<- ha that's the name of the album) and loved. i think this also makes sense, because the killjoys live a very, well, dangerous life without much security, and they'd want to provide what they lack the most. another semi-related thing i noticed is just how much of an emphasis there is on childhood in this album. i feel like there's a vibe of youth or teen-hood throughout the earlier ones, but this is just VERY strongly about kids. again this makes sense cause not only are the killjoys teenagers (a type of kid!) they also have a proper little kid to watch. 

also, i wonder how much of this stuff was due to gerard becoming a parent. just something to think about 

[crystalline-sanders]

i hate this stupid stupid outfit but boy is it fun to render WHYYYY IS the SQUIP wardrobe Like That

[dinglefu]

MORE BALD MEN ANGST!!!!!

Even though 096 has more to himself than how 106 perceives him, it's hard to actually express all of the pain and suffering he went through; he thought that he deserved to be a monster because he was killing people for practically "no reason."

However, he eventually realizes the pain he went through was but the product of his overwhelming fear: the fear that his recognition would cost him his life.

And despite desperately trying not to die, he couldn't find a way they could kill him; It became so prevailing that he couldn't shake the anger and horror of being seen.

It became his calling card against his will. It brought the threat to him. It brought his misfortune and rage on a rusted platter and force fed it to him.

Now he just wants to finally escape and find his home in the mountains where nobody would find him ever again.

It was unfair for a monster like 106 to perceive him as a monster too, as he believes he had a plausible reason and 106 didn't.

He decides to call the old man out for the bullshit, knowing that this close stranger had offered nothing but torture and pain, and never a single tear for the innocent who suffered.

That couldn't stop the attachment formed from this interaction, as not only was 096 emotionaly raw and vulnerable, seething with anger and grief of all of those who mistreated him, reaching to prove 106 wrong; but 106 learned not to bring something so burdening and claim that they both wanted to handle it.

Lessons were learned during that unfaithful breach.

(Oh and also the attachment would probably distress 096 even more because even though he doesn't have the innate murderous response to 106, he associated eye contact with something horrible happening a long time ago.)

[aroaceleovaldez]

doodle page from a couple months ago of Nico having way too many immortal friends

also yes i did just use Nyx’s Hades design. it’s a good design.

[3v1l-0m3n-0f-d3ath]

Forgot about my epic fish character

He’s in the coolest band btw

[blusilurus]

Speedy lil updated mini ref for my Fursona!! You may recall me mentioning I was slightly tweaking things but it's more or less the same in the end (The biggest change is that the 'main' color is more blue then blurple now) I tossed this together with a mix of old and new doodles quick! Mostly just bc I'd ideally like to adjust my 'main' ref but idk if/when I'll get to it so somehow this was easier?? LMAO Btw I'm pretty mellow if theres some variations when drawing her (Ex. Being more blue or the og blurple, drawing the eyeliner marking more like eyeshadow, the optional parts like wings). I doodle it variously depending on the vibe at times but gen this is the look! YEE! Anyway I'll update the main ref,,eventually,,maybe,,

[darcyolsson]

lestat being absolutely miserable and wailing to his mom about it maybe I get him after all

[icewindandboringhorror]

reminders of the passage of time moodeboard

[kennyomegasweave]

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This is MY favorite emo Pennsylvanian that sounds like a hockey player with that Pennsylvanian accent. I CANNOT handle it at the present.

[orcelito]

Ok....... I actually love Utakata, and I am SO SAD we only get him for like 8 episodes

[pigeonsareevil]

Man, i dont know wether everyone noticed this and im just dumb and oblivious or if im being completely delusional but i think im realising why Dutch trusted Micah so much even when Hosea and Arthur complained about it.

I think what he thought, was that this is going to be a similar scenario to many other gang members in the past when they first joined.

Im not sure but thinking about it, there are many people in the gang that i feel like when they joined, Hosea and Arthur weren't happy about, but they proved themselves to the gang and changed for the better so the older members accepted them.

Hell, this could have been the case with Arthur too. Hosea mentions he was a wild delinquent when they took him in but he changed and that makes me think that Hosea originally didnt want Arthur to join them, but Dutch saw something in this feral orphan, took him in and soon enough, even Hosea grew fond of him. Even came to love him as a son.

I feel like it took a lot of convincing from Dutch to let Arthur stay but when he did, and he saw the man Arthur became, Dutch probably started believing that there is good in everyone and everyone is capable of changing for the better if they are given the chance, that is of course, if he didnt already believe in that.

That is probably how we ended up with many of the gang members who cause a bit of trouble or aren't really contributing to the gang or just the ones Hosea and Arthur arent really fond of. Specific names that come to mind are Bill, Sean and Swanson. Now im definetely not saying i dislike these characters. Nor am i saying that Sean or Bill dont contribute or that Arthur and Hosea dislike Swanson or Sean or anything like that but you get the idea.

Dutch, to me, seems way more open to strangers and troubled people, good example of this is Sadie, he didn't even hesitate about taking her in, she was in trouble and needed help, he didn't care that he didn't know her and she could potentially figure out who they are and tell the law about them (she wouldn't do that of course but someone else could have been in her place, you know) or Maybe even Kieran, who used to be member of their a rival gang but people told Dutch he saved Arthurs life so he let him stay with them. Of course they didnt trust Kieran as much but just the fact that he let him live after, even more, he let him live AND stay with them when he clearly didnt't have to shows that he is way more trusting of strangers whereas Hosea and Arthur are way more protective of the people already in the gang, protecting them from these strangers.

Seems to me like Dutch saw Micah, says the man saved his life? I think? And thought: "there is some goodness inside this person, he just needs an opportunity and a place to change for the better, even if Arthur and Hosea dont agree and say i should cut him loose, what kind of person would i be, preaching about giving people who were wronged by their life and this country a second chance yet throwing this person away after messing up a few times. It took other people in this gang months, even years to change and they did change, Hosea and Arthur used to complain but now those people are a part of their family so why shouldn't i give this person a chance?"

This of course, could have been the case had Micah actually wanted to change from his habbits and break away from his past but i think it is clear that from his dialougue he is happy being just the way he is. He just kept telling Dutch he wants to change so Dutch would let him stay and and Dutch, believing him, dragged the whole gang to destruction because of this, because he put so much time and effort into trying to help, change and save someone who didn't need it