#more aroace angst

[hi-cassiel]

Their naked bodies have no affect

On my disease riddled head

In my mind I’ve fallen

Head over heels with boys

Who do not exist

In my mind

They kiss my neck

and I melt into wordless bliss

Oh it is heaven on earth

Atleast

That is what they say

To love, to be loved

It Is the only way to be sane

And I could

In theory

Somewhere in the back of my mind

With a boy

Who does not exist

Love and be loved

His hand in mine

I would smile and mutter words

Words that light up

His whole life

But he is buried

Somewhere

Deep in the depths of my mind,

If you try hard enough

Can you change

Your own mind?