#mistreat your altar boys long enough and this is what you get

[john-gosh-darnielle]

some things you do

just to see

how bad they'll make you feel

[gimmeshelter]

[yardsards]

cry for judas by the mountain goats is SUCH a devo la main song

[alarici]

don’t cry for Judas!

[358-2-genders]

My dealer: Got some straight gas 🔥😛 this strain is called "Cry for Judas" 😳 you’ll be zonked out of your gourd 💯

Me: Yeah whatever. I don’t feel shit.

5 minutes later: Dude I swear some people crash two or three times and then learn from their mistakes, but we are the ones who don't slow down at all and there's nobody there to catch us when we fall.

My buddy John pacing: UNFURL THE BLACK VELVET ALTAR CLOTH! DRAW A WHITE CHALK BAPHOMET! MISTREAT YOUR ALTAR BOYS LONG ENOUGH AND THIS IS WHAT YOU GET!

[marley-manson]

cry for judas | the mountain goats

a bj hunnicutt character study vid

youtube link

Lyrics:

Some things you do just to see How bad they'll make you feel Sometimes you try to freeze time 'Til the slots are a blur of spinning wheels

But I am just a broken machine And I do things that I don't really mean

Long black night, morning frost I'm still here, but all is lost

Speed up to the precipice And then slam on the brakes Some people crash two or three times And then learn from their mistakes

But we are the ones who don't slow down at all And there's nobody there to catch us when we fall

Long black night, morning frost I'm still here, but all is lost

Feel the storm every night, hope it passes by Hallucinate a shady grove where Judas went to die

Unfurl the black velvet altar cloth Draw a white chalk Baphomet Mistreat your altar boys long enough And this is what you get

Sad and angry, can't learn how to behave Still won't know how in the darkness of the grave

Long black night, morning frost I'm still here, but all is lost

[ceruleanvulpine]

listening to faulkner's VA's playlist for him and 1) it's good 2) it is. so funny to put cry for judas on here. for the guy who went "if you're not getting specifically religious abuse in your current context, homemade (finding a god and picking up sticks to join his cult) is fine." like, I always read "mistreat your altar boys long enough/and this is what you get" as being about the kind of mistreatment you get when you're stuck in a powerful and high-control institution. but sure the mistreatment could also be not recognizing that you, faulkner, should be the river pope

[chaosmenu]

some things you do just to see how bad theyll make you feel sometimes you try to freeze time til the slots are a blur of spinning wheels but i am just a broken machine and i do things that i dont really mean long black night morning frost im still here but all is lost speed up to the precipice and then slam on the brakes some people crash two or three times and then learn from their mistakes but we are the ones who dont slow down at all and theres nobody there to catch us when we fall long black night morning frost im still here but all is lost feel the storm every night hope it passes by hallucinate a shady grove where judas went to die unfurl the black velvet altar cloth draw a white chalk baphomet mistreat your altar boys long enough and this is what you get sad and angry cant learn how to behave still wont know how in the darkness of the grave long black night morning frost im still here but all is lost

[sharkjumpers]

LONG BLACK NIGHT MORNING FROST I'M STILL HERE BUT ALL IS LOST FEEL THE STORM EVRRY NIGHT HOPE IT PASSES BY HALLUCINATE A SHADY GROVE WHERE JUDAS WENT TO DIE UNFURL THE BLACK VELVET ALTAR CLOTH DRAW WHITE CHALK BAPHOMET MISTREAT YOUR ALTAR BOYS LONG ENOUGH AND THIS IS WHAT YOU GET SAD AND ANGRY CAN'T LEARN HOW TO BEHAVE STILL WON'T KNOW HOW IN THE DARKNESS OF THE GRAVE

[malaisequotes]

“Unfurl the black velvet altar cloth, draw a white chalk Baphomet. Mistreat your altar boys long enough, and this is what you get.”

Cry for Judas by The Mountain Goats

[brigdh]

Okay, everyone knows Tallahassee by the Mountain Goats is the ultimate Ed/Izzy album, but why is no one talking about how Transcendental Youth is Ed/Jack???

I mean: 

Do every stupid thing that makes you feel alive Do every stupid thing to try to drive the dark away Let people call you crazy for the choices that you make Climb limits past the limits, jump in front of trains all day

Or:

Mistreat your altar boys long enough And this is what you get Sad and angry, can't learn how to behave Still won't know how in the darkness of the grave

Or:

Room full of ambitious young policemen Everybody trying to make his mark I was a red dot blinking on a screen up overhead. Live like an outlaw Clutching gold coins in his claw

Or:

Hear my rivals on the western wind Hard to know who might or might not be your friend Beam of the flash-light All night in the woods Hunt us like dogs And then string us up for good Lead us to the beach by our hands And bury us there in the sand Or:

So many so-called friends Working for the government (I MEAN. This song is even called ‘Counterfeit Florida Plates’!)

Or:

Something sacred, something blue Cannons in the harbor dawn I crawled down here to dig for bones One more season then I'm gone Black drapes over the crosses Call in a favor from an old friend

[shkspr]

for the ask meme if you haven't already done these: cry for judas, alpha rats nest, lovecraft in brooklyn, old college try? <3

cry for judas: truly cannot choose btwn “but i am just a broken machine / and i do things that i dont really mean” and “mistreat your altar boys long enough, and this is what your get”

alpha rats nest: “the night is lovely as a rose / if i see sunlight hit you, i am sure that we’ll both decompose”

lovecraft in brooklyn: “companionship is where you find it, so i take what i can get”

old college try: “in the way those eyes ive always loved illuminate this place / like a trashcan fire in a prison cell / like the searchlights in the parking lots of hell”

[library-seraph]

Higher than the Stars playlist

This is subject to be updated as I find new songs (It probably needs more metal)

Liner notes below the cut like it's 2013

Cobra Tattoo- The Mountain Goats (Where the title comes from)

Higher than the stars I will set my throne God does not need Abraham, God can raise children from stones

Dream at night Girl with the cobra tattoo And try to hear The garbled transmissions coming through

Isis Unveiled- And You Will Know Us By the Trail of Dead

I have made you in my likeness and I have made you The keeper of my garden world As you honor me in kind, I'll be grateful but be warned for

I am a jealous God Give me daughters, send me sons, I'll make them all chosen ones

I'll send them out to die To meet the angels of death With no fears, no regrets

Wayward Daughter- Brown Bird

Cast not your stone at the wayward daughter Lay down the gavel and the robe If not for the lure of darker water No salvation we would know

For every saint, a wild marauder And a beast in wait for heroes tall

America- Sufjan Stevens

I have loved you, I have grieved I'm ashamed to admit I no longer believe I have loved you, I received I have traded my life for a picture of the scenery

I have loved you like a dream I have kissed your lips like a Judas in heat I have worshipped, I believed I have broke your bread for a splendor of machinery

Woman King- Iron and Wine

Hundred years, hundred more Someday we may see a Woman king, sword in hand Swing at some evil and bleed

Hundred years, hundred more Someday we may see a Woman king, bloodshot eye Thumb down and starting to weep

Neighbourhood #2 (Laika)- Arcade Fire

Alexander, our older brother Set out for a great adventure He tore our images out of his pictures He scratched our names out of all his letters

Our mother should've just named you Laika…

It's for your own good It's for the neighborhood…

Cry for Judas - The Mountain Goats

Feel the storm every night, hope it passes by Hallucinate a shady grove where Judas went to die

Unfurl the black velvet altar cloth Draw a white chalk Baphomet Mistreat your altar boys long enough And this is what you get

Ancient Names (Part 1)- Lord Huron

Far out past the astral plane I cast you back from whence you came Cosmic cache and blackened brain And call you by your ancient names

I gotta get away from here I gotta get away from her

Sapokonikan - Joanna Newsom (Not on Spotify, fyi)

Interred with other daughters, in dirt in other potters' fields above them, parades mark the passing of days through parks where pale colonnades arch in marble and steel,

where all of the twenty-thousand attending your foot fall and the cause that they died for are lost in the idling bird calls, and the records they left are cryptic at best, lost in obsolescence. The text will not yield, nor x-ray reveal with any fluorescence where the hand of the master begins and ends.

The Garden of Earthly Delights- Apocalypse Orchestra

Brought to life, in the image of God In this holy place Settled among the creatures odd Eve, dear girl, avert thy gaze Claims to love them all Her world below Minding not their fall A mirthful show

Hey Ho- Tracy Grammar

TV's on, the favorite son Is watchin' how the West was won Daddy, please, a plastic gun Get brother one for twice the fun

Hey ho, so it goes The point of sale, the puppet show The merchant kings of war and woe Have turned their hands to labor Sound out the trumpet noise The cannons bark and jump for joy Someone's dread and darlin' boy Has fallen on his saber

Mama- My Chemical Romance

Mama, we're all full of lies Mama, we're meant for the flies And right now, they're building a coffin your size Mama, we're all full of lies

Well, mother, what the war did to my legs and to my tongue You should've raised a baby girl, I should've been a better son If you could coddle the infection, they can amputate at once You should've been, I could have been a better son

Rainbow Signs- mewithoutyou

Pale horse songs of a slow decline Side show words if our moms don't mind:

God gave Noah the rainbow sign No more water, is the H-Bomb next time?

With imperial crowns we were sent, Riding out conquest-bent Daylight is breaking Wielding the sanctified sword For the army of the Scarecrow Lord

Breath of Life- Florence+ the Machine

I was looking for a breath of life For little touch of heavenly light But all the choirs in my head sang, "No, oh no, oh!"

To get a dream of life again A little vision of the start and the end But all the choirs in my head sang, "No, oh no, oh!"

A Demon's Fate- Within Temptation

What have you done? Is this what you wanted? What have you become? Your soul's now forsaken You're walking alone From heaven into hell

Angels have faith I don't want to be a part of this sin I don't want to get lost in this world I'm not playing this game

The Black- Dynazty

Revelation, devastation Opened up eyes blinded from the start I was the child born in the dark of your heart

Instigator, manipulator You baptized my life through burning pain Now I can never feel again

Out of silence comes defiance Risen to deny all that you are I'm the man forged in the fires of your war

Vindicator, a liberator I have come to set you free through pain You will be forced to feel again

O Superman- Laurie Anderson

Hello? This is your mother, are you there? Are you coming home?

And I said: okay, who is this really? And the voice said: This is the hand, the hand that takes This is the hand, the hand that takes This is the hand, the hand that takes

'Cause when love is gone, there's always justice And when justice is gone, there's always force And when force is gone, there's always Mom. Hi Mom!

[lesbianmelkor]

THE WHORE SLEEPS BADLY: a playlist for Emilio Sandoz

notes on songs under the cut!! emilio art credit to @ferretteeth

Alone Together - Fall Out Boy

this is the road to ruin and we´re starting at the end!!! emilio deserves to have some angsty music and also. this song is about being alone without being alone and being trapped and being loved for the worst things about yourself. i don´t know where i´m going but i dont think i´m coming home!!

2. Be Afraid - Jason Isbell and the 400 Unit

this is a song about feeling like g-d is ignoring you and feeling like you´re not living up to your potential and also the lyric "we´ve been testing you and you failed to see how long that you could hold it in before you screamed, but you only exhaled" g-ddddddd.

3. Bite the Hand - Boygenius

another song about emilio´s relationship with g-d. "i can´t love you how you want me to"?? he comes home and he can´t do it anymore!! it´s gone!! he´ll bite the hand that feeds him!!! also. "i can´t hear you, you´re too far away" cause he left g-d behind him on rakhat.

4. Butchered Tongue - Hozier

This is actually a pre-priesthood linguistics song for emilio!! minority culture always having to speak in another language than your own, especially for taino emilio... and then speaking these languages that literally nobody else on the planet speaks!! crazy

5. Colorblind - Counting Crows

literally just listen to this song and tell me this isn´t how emilio feels. "i am covered in skin, no one gets to come in" and then the repetition of "i am ready i am fine"?? im pulling my hair out.

6. Cringe - Matt Maeson

so this is actually the stripped version which makes me crazy in its own right but. "oh i make you cringe now. don´t i make you cringe now?" matt said this song is about leading a lifestyle that the people around you don´t approve of and it just. this one. just trust me.

7. Cry for Judas - the Mountain Goats

you get it. you get it. "mistreat your altar boys long enough and this is what you get." "i´m still here but all is lost". it was ruined!! all was lost!! he thinks he is judas betraying g-d!!! you know what i mean.

8. Floating in the Forth - Frightened Rabbit

so the lead singer of frightened rabbit committed suicide by jumping off a bridge into the firth of forth and he wrote this song about doing that before he did that and it just. just. it´s so important also remember this it comes up three songs later.

9. Graceless - The National

"G-D LOVES EVERYBODY, DON´T REMIND ME". this is a song about being in the world without being fully present and it kills me.

10. Leave My Body - Florence + the Machine

from the first line: "i´m gonna be released from behind these lines, and i don´t care whether i live or die" to the last: "moving up to higher ground, your history keeps pulling me down", this is a song about emilio trying to move forward as everyone keeps forcing him to relive what happened over and over.

11. The Modern Leper - Julien Baker

hey remember when i said remember the frightened rabbit trivia! this is from the cover album they released after their lead singer killed himself and it is sooooooo. this is a song about being fundamentally broken and diseased and the rest of the world ignores it but you know you´re unlovable. "i am ill but im not dead and i don´t know which of those i´d prefer"!!!

12. Never Quite Free - the Mountain Goats

this is a song about knowing that the trauma still hangs over you and you´ll never be able to escape it and it makes me cry. anyway. "it gets okay to praise the day, believe in sheltering skies and stable earth, but hear his breath come through his teeth". emilio is trying so hard to build a better life and sometime it just won´t happen!!

13. Prayer in Open D - Emmylou Harris

again from the first lyric to the last, this is a song about emilio sandoz. "there´s a valley of sorrow in my soul, where every night i hear the thunder roll like the sound of a distant gun over all the damage i have done" and it Gets Worse From There!!

14. Relative Fiction - Julien Baker

"cause i don´t need a savior i need you to take me home"!!! the religious trauma HITS when you´re trying so hard to be good for a g-d you no longer believe in!!!

15. Spent Gladiator 2 - the Mountain Goats

"stay alive. maybe spit some blood at the camera. just stay alive" what if your life and your pain was a spectacle and you dont know how to escape and you don´t even know what escape would look like. anyway.

16. Sun Bleached Flies - Ethel Cain

hey girls. hey girls. did you know g-d loves you but not enough to save you!! anyway religious trauma and having fallen in the eyes of g-d and not being able to fix it and just wanting to be safe and go home. "if it´s meant to be then it will be. i forgive it all as it comes back to me"!!! praying to go back to a home you know you can never return to. i am unwell.

17. Televangelist - Julien Baker

i hear you saying "jordan this is the third julien baker song on here" and all i can say is gay ppl with religious trauma understand emilio sandoz better than anyone else. anyway. "am i a masochist screaming televangelist clutching my crucifix of white noise and static. all my prayers are just apologies." you know what i mean.

18. 24 Frames - Jason Isbell

this is once again a song about g-d abandoning you!! "you thought g-d was an architect now you know he´s something like a pipe bomb ready to blow". it´s soooo good.

in conclusion: i am mentally unwell please appreciate the fruits of my insanity.

[rillette]

Today's Tom song: Cry for Judas by the Mountain Goats.

Special note to the line "Mistreat your altar boys long enough and this is what you get"

ohhhhh this one is really fucking good. i can easily see this as both a tom or a hal song.

[through-fire-and-flame]

Unfurl the black velvet altar cloth Draw a white chalk baphomet Mistreat your altar boys long enough And this is what you get Sad and angry, can't learn how to behave Still won't know how in the darkness of the grave --"Cry For Judas," The Mountain Goats