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[destielfanfic]

Lost and Found, #3

Lost and Found, vol.3 (you can find previous posts here)

Long time since I posted the L&F post, here’s some of my favorite lost fic asks that I knew the answers to. Some asks may contain spoilers for the fic, proceed at your own risk!

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Lost and Found fic #1

I'm looking for a canonverse fic where Castiel took on Sam's hell madness, and he had to remove part of his grace to let it heal the madness on its own for a very very long time. So long that Sam and Dean died, and Cas was left alone on earth while he waited for his grace to recover. When it did, he became a full angel again and went to heaven where Dean and Sam (and Sam's TWO soulmates!) were waiting for him. Also Castiel's grace was stored in an ugly, diseased tree. Can you help me find it? 

The Answer: In the Shuffling Madness by araftatsea [T, 45,500, SU, angst] This poignant and poetic fic dives deep in season 7 mental hospital!Cas mind and brings closure to his story. It was a sad day when the author unexpectedly deleted all their fics from AO3. But you can find an ePub linked on our review. 

Lost and Found fic #2

Hi, I’m looking for a fic I read awhile ago on ao3. Dean and Cas go on a sort of couples cruise/couple therapy thing for a case. At one point the main “therapist” makes one of them stand on a diving board over the ocean while the other has a slight panic attack. If you know what fic this is that would be great. Thanks!

The Answer: any port in a storm by mishcollin microcomets [M, 52,700, SU, angst] A fandom classic really. Pretend relationship, true feelings in canon setting.

Lost and Found fic #3

Hi I'm looking for a specific fic it's a fallen cas fic except it wasn't really an angst fic more like just him pining and satisfied with it. Sam knows cas is pining in the fic and wants cas to leave the bunker because he thinks cas can do better if he stopped loving dean and Dean and Sam argue about whether cas should leave. Do you know what I'm talking about?

The Answer: This Isn’t Where We Intended To Be by porcupinegirl [NC-17, 14,000, SU, fluff] Lovely canon verse fic that looks at pining Cas in the bunker from a different, less angsty angle.

  Lost and Found fic, #4

Alright. I've been through what feels like a mountain of fic. I read this fic probably at least 10 years ago. Porn star AU. CAS was doing his first gay scene with Dean. Sam is also a porn star. There is a fever dream Wincest chapter which was... Whatever. Dean eventually reveals his big secret that he used to do BDSM stuff with Alastair but he one day went too far and hurt someone and now he doesn't do it. Help me Obi Wan Kenobi, you're my only hope.

The Answer: The Daily Grind by highermagic [NC-17, 87,200, AU, porn] Another fandom classic but for completely different reasons. Posted in 2010 this was the fic to read back in the day when pornstar AUs were all the rage. Warning about that fever dream wincest scene, it was just a weird dream Cas had, nothing more. (PDF link in case the one on the review is broken)

Lost and Found fic, #5

I'm looking for a fic (~10k words) I think was posted on LJ. It's an AU where Cas and Dean grew up as neighbors, Dean was getting into magician's magic (not real), and Cas becomes a cop and Dean's a wanted fugitive. It goes back and forth in time from kids to adults where Cas is searching for him, and Cas shoots Dean and appears to kill him, but Chuck(?) gives him a ring at a cafe, indicating Dean is alive and Cas chases after him and ends up back at the building they lived in as kids

The Answer: Sleight of Hand by melo [T, 14,700, AU, angst] A puzzle box of a fic wrapped up in secrets and lies. Read it. Cry your heart out. Read it again?

Lost and Found fic, #6

Hi, I was wondering if you can help me find a fic. Zachariah (I think) asks Cas to sleep with Dean to gain his trust, Cas does and then actually starts to fall for Dean, Dean thinks it's all consensual.

The Answer: Hesitation by apokteino [NC-17, 24,500, SU, angst, fluff, porn] A look at Cas and Dean relationship in season 4 through intimate relationship gaze. I’d say that apokteino is your author to go to when looking for fics exploring consent and non con, but alas. The author has deleted their AO3 profile, see this post about their deletion. Our review hosts an ePub link of the fic. 

Lost and Found, and Lost Forever

hey! i’ve literally searched everywhere and i think i’m either going crazy or it’s been deleted. sam, cas, and dean go to like a fisherman town where one guy was infected and shot somebody. and then there were these giant red balls on the beach they later find out are eggs from a creature cas killed? cas and dean were already in a relationship and cas touches the eggs and get infected and pours a bunch of fish in the sink lol. i swear i read it a few months ago but now it’s just gone? does anyone have this downloaded or a link?

hey! i'm in the process of adding old fics to my tbr and i came across a rec for "architecture of the minotaur's heart" from back in 2015. the fic has sadly been deleted on ao3 but the original rec of yours referenced a pdf. i was wondering if that was still available and if there's somewhere i can download it. thank you.

The Answer : Bring Up the Deep by beenghosting [NC-17, 22,700, SU] and Architecture of the Minotaur’s Heart by beenghosting [NC-17, 45,000, AU, angst] Unfortunately, destiel writer beenghosting deathbanjo has deleted their AO3 profile and has asked not to share their fics. See this post and relevant links about their deletion. 

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[sweetlittlevampire]

“Lan Zhan, this is like...a whole aesthetic.”

Happy Birthday, Wei Wuxian! 🎂🎉🧹

I almost didn’t get around to finshing this - I’m only a few hours late. I wanted to do something semi-spooky for his birthday while showing him being happy (because he deserves it).

I read if you go chasing rabbits by @mishcollin the other day - which is anabsolutely delightful witchy read - and couldn’t get witch familiar Lan Wangji as a white raven out of my head...so yeah. My hand might have slipped.

Wei Wuxian / Lan Wangji / The Untamed / Mo Dao Zu Shi © Mo Xiang Tong Xiu

[mdzs-fic]

Additional Tags: 

Bodyswap, Mutual Pining, Slow Burn, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, First Time, Getting Together, Confessions, Sharing a Bed, there actually IS some plot and lore wonder of wonders, lwj is a service top fight me, WangXian Week 2020, WangXian Week, Misunderstandings, and a little bit of hurt/comfort as a treat

Word count: 30k

Summary:

“Listen. Lan Zhan," Wei Ying says. "I know this whole thing, with — with the soul-switch, it’s upsetting. And believe me, I know my body is the last one on earth you’d want to be inside of.”

Lan Wangji chokes, then passes it off as a cough.

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On a night hunt, Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji get cursed and stuck in each other's bodies. As you would expect, shenanigans ensue.

[sircolinmorgan]

mishcollin replied to your post: i am glad new people are discovering merlin and...

new merlin fandom is absolutely the worst, it’s like borderline puritanical

it’s weird isn’t it? it’s like the worst part of 2012 fandom but..even worse than that lmao. it’s just very bizarre to see people telling everyone else what they should be doing when they’re clearly new to the scene. i don’t mean to be a fandom gatekeeper but i think the rules are different when a show has long been over. chances are if you have an issue with what fandom is doing it’s already been discussed five million times and dealt with a long, long time ago.

[slash-recs]

“I want you to remember something, when I’m gone,” Cas continues as though Dean hasn’t spoken, keeping his wet eyes fixed firmly on Dean’s. “I want you to always feel worthy of the way I love you because you deserve it. You deserve that with—with someone. Don’t settle for anything until you find it, because you deserve nothing less.”

a turn of the earth by mishcollin

Supernatural | Dean/Castiel | 90k+ | Time Travel, John Winchester’s A+ parenting, pre-canon

Dean’s your typical half-orphaned, monster-killing 22-year-old until a trenchcoated stranger crashes into his back windshield one September night, claiming he’s an angel that knows him from the future and that he’s on the run.

Frigging fantastic.

(Or, in which Castiel gets stuck in Dean’s timeline preseries and Dean kind of hates it—until he doesn’t.)

[lunarriviera]

what you need is a good coda

Yippie-kai-yai-yay motherfuckers, it’s post-10x14 coda roundup time. I hunted them down, I read them, and I did it, all of it, for you. (Also in order to bind up my own tattered betrayed bleeding heart—I survive the grave insults of television writing through the cool blue-white healing grace of such fix-its.) NB that per this post, most of them involve “Cas coming into Dean’s room and spooning him until Dean stops shaking and falls asleep”; but the better ones go beyond that. If there’s an awesome one I didn’t see, tell me!

(At some point I have to do a “Best of Season Pre(ten)d” collection, because y’all been tearing it up. Some of the most agonizingly gorgeous s9 codas’ writers, however, have gone darkside/AU/wildly divergent, presumably because there’s almost nothing left to fix: so instead you get new fic like apocalypse-patisserie & robotmango's magnificently soothing Pie Without Plot.)

1. “the worst of me,” casfallsinlove

“You’re not my mission,” Cas mutters softly. “You’re my best friend.” Fuck. “Yeah, well, friends don’t break promises.” To his surprise, Cas laughs. “Dean, if you think I’m capable of killing you then you clearly haven’t been paying much attention these last few years.”

Right? RIGHT?!? I MEAN CAN I GET AN AMEN HERE. Real talk, followed by fluff like you didn’t know you needed until that moment when Cas pulls a sheet set out of a bag and starts making the bed. In a lighthouse. Oh hell to the yes. Who are you, casfallsinlove, and why are you not in LA kicking writers around like footballs?

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2. “Canticle,” Amelia_Clark ( silibrumportes)

While you’re at it you should read every flipping thing by Amelia because she takes the top of my head off on the regular, &/or blasts a giant shotgun hole of woozy glorious joy through my chest, and if you’re in this fandom you’ll know those are really really good things (I’m still not over her frikkity-frakking Christmas armistice ficlet SWEET FANCY MOSES). So many of these codas end with Cas following Dean back to his room after the brotastic shoulder-clap, followed by some h/c Dean-as-little-spoon action; but this one is so well-written, and it, uh, yeah. You will read this one. Yes.

"Dean," Cas says back, or at least that’s the sound he makes. Dean’s pretty sure what he’s really saying, and he hates how much he wants to hear it, how much he can’t bring himself to ask. "Dean, you gave me the Blade." "Yeah," says Dean. He doesn’t say because you’ll need to kill me with it, someday soon, before you die. They never say these things; Dean doesn’t know whether it would change anything if they did. "Dean," Cas says again, "please," and he raises his hand to brush so gently over the cuts on Dean’s face. He doesn’t heal them—not enough mojo to spare—but there’s still a jolt to his touch, a white light sparking between them.

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3. “coup de foudre,” mishcollin

The author bills this one as a Valentine’s fic but I’m treating it like a coda because that makes me feel better. Actually just that this exists makes me feel better. Established not-quite-relationship-what-is-this-thing-we’re-doing-but-not-talking-about. Fluff like soft sterilized gauze applied to a wound. So good.

Dean realizes, way too late, that he never should’ve started this with Cas, who’s probably the only creature on earth with a stronger willpower than Dean’s, and probably the only creature on earth who can break Dean’s libido within a matter of seconds. When Sam looks away again, Dean makes a face at Cas and mouths, fiercely, Cut it out, to which Cas mouths back, eyebrows raised, You started this, which. Yeah. "So what do you think?" Sam asks, after a couple more minutes of white noise. "Worth checking out?" "Yeah, definitely," Dean says without knowing what he’s agreeing to, and that’s how it starts.

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4. “Swimming,” frozen_delight

Engrossing character sketch of everyone’s favorite not-so-righteous-lately Righteous Man, via unexpectedly affecting water metaphors. Author’s tagged it “pre-slash” but even if you don’t ship it, there’s lovely evocative ragged haunted descriptioning.

The lake is shallow enough that Dean can see right to the sandy bottom. The surrounding pine trees are reflected on the surface, affording shade and peace. Calmly, Dean does the crawl from one side of the lake to the other, thinking of nothing but his limbs moving in the water. He’s counting his strokes, one, two, three, four, five, when a movement to his right catches his attention. It’s Cas. “What are you doing here?” Dean asks….It’s been a while since Cas has visited one of his dreams.

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5. “At the Edge of a Blade,” relucant

Horrifying and totally show-like, in that you can absolutely picture this scene unfurling in pure Ladouceur verisimilitude. Only, you know, way better writing. Cough. For, as relucant notes, SPN doesn’t let us have nice things.

"Dean," he says. "Look at me." Reluctantly Dean drags his eyes to Castiel’s face. There are tears pooling in the shimmering blue, but a small smile curls on his lips. "I’ve made peace with how my story ends. I’m old, Dean. I’m very old. I’ve watched unimaginable beauty and unspeakable tragedy for millennia, without understanding what it meant. And you changed that." "Cas, don’t," Dean chokes, turning his head away, and Cas is silent for a moment. "My grace is fading, Dean," he finally says. "I don’t have long left."

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BONUS: “all that you need is in your soul,” xylodemon.

[deancasfix]

hummed low by mishcollin

Wordcount: 3250

Rating: G

Summary: Dean pulls the Impala over at a cider barn about thirty miles out; doesn't really think about it, just sees the hokey orange lettering off the roadside and lets his hands guide the Impala off the interstate with gravel spitting under the wheels.

I think we might stick with this fall theme for a few weeks, at least for our Monday posts. There are just so many wonderful fics that capture the magic of autumn and use it as a backdrop for a lovely story between Dean and Cas. This is one of my favourites, a soft and sweet (quite literally, at times) canon-ish look at how they might get together, told in gorgeously evocative language. Even though it’s brief, it calls to mind all the best things about fall, sunshine and fallen leaves and cider and pumpkins and Dean and Cas being in love. Well, that’s more of a year-round thing, but I digress. There’s also just enough snark and banter to leaven the sweetness, and one of my favourite last lines of dialogue in fic ever.

[artigas]

🌈~*~ (ily)

Claire!! ❤️ Goodness gracious, we go a ways back. The first thing that comes to mind is how incredibly talented you are as a writer. Back when I was into SPN, you were one of my biggest Writing Crushes- everything I read of yours felt so poetic, so beautifully and delicately crafted. I still admire your ability to write in such a gorgeous, artistic narrative voice in a way that is never really bogged down or pedantic. I admire your intelligence, your creativity, and also how absolutely beautiful you are! Your eyes are soooo gorgeous. You’re the absolute loveliest and I’m still floored we’re mutuals after all these years.

[mercysdva]

castiel in every episode — [4x18] The Monster at the End of This Book 

[some-stars]

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[wangxianficrecs]

come home to my heart by occultings (mishcollin)

come home to my heart

by occultings (mishcollin)

M, 30k, wangxian

Summary:  “Listen. Lan Zhan," Wei Ying says. "I know this whole thing, with — with the soul-switch, it’s upsetting. And believe me, I know my body is the last one on earth you’d want to be inside of.”

Lan Wangji chokes, then passes it off as a cough.

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On a night hunt, Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji get cursed and stuck in each other's bodies. As you would expect, shenanigans ensue.

Excerpt:  “A-Xian, I thought I’d find you here,” shijie says, turning back to Lan Wangji [in Wei Wuxian's body], who’s starting to look like ants are crawling up his spine. “The hunting party returned and they asked after you. They haven’t located the creature yet, but everyone said you did well today.”

“He did,” Wei Wuxian says, crossing his arms proudly, and Lan Wangji shoots him a Look.

“Ah…yes,” Lan Wangji says, and just the two words alone are enough to sound the alarm bells in Wei Wuxian’s head. He watches, with rising concern, as Lan Wangji attempts to make expressions with his face. “Yes, I performed…admirably. I am certain that several maidens would be impressed.”

Wei Wuxian covers his face with one hand.

Shijie stares at him, faltering more uncertainly by the moment. “A-Xian, are you feeling well? You look….” She, understandably, can’t seem to find a word to describe exactly how Lan Wangji looks, as Wei Wuxian doubts anyone would.

bodyswap, pining, slow burn, canon divergence, core reveal, angst, insecure wei wuxian, sharing a bed, golden core reveal, angst, pining, angry jiang cheng, misunderstandings, getting together, first kiss, first time, service top lan wangji, hurt/comfort, love confessions, happy ending, @mishcollin @wanlangji​

(You may wish to REBLOG as a signal boost for this author if you like – or think others might like – this story.)

[I switched their faces in the picture up there, can you tell?]

[merlinfanficquotes]

The creature’s six eyes alight on him, glowing. “It must be your magic, Emrys. It’s the only thing powerful enough to set me free.” Merlin feels the earth drop out from under his feet. Arthur. Arthur’s standing right there, hearing every word.There’s one, prolonged beat where time seems to freeze over, then Arthur speaks. “Merlin?” he says, arch with disbelief. “Merlin can’t help you—” Merlin opens his mouth, already reaching for ten different lies to spin the situation.“—his magic is rubbish!

in your heart shall burn by mishcollin

[mdzs-fic]

Additional Tags: 

Slow Burn, Mutual Pining, First Time, Getting Together, Confessions, Sharing a Bed, Hair Washing, Sentient Burial Mounds (Módáo Zǔshī), Case Fic, Post-Canon, CQL Compliant, Hurt/Comfort, Whump, Light Angst, Flashbacks, mild body horror, foot washing, Happy Ending, Non-Sexual Intimacy, ...then sexual intimacy, hence the rating, playing fast and loose with mdzs lore, wei ying learning to accept intimacy without deflection, occasional lan wangji humor agenda

Word count: 54.5k

Summary:

Wei Wuxian opens the letter and skims through, feeling his frown deepen with every line. “Oh. A request from Yiling. This man Tong Shen writes, 'I can’t explain what’s happening — you wouldn’t believe me if I tried. The hills are moving and they are hungry. Please send aid, Hanguang-jun, this humble one begs you.' Well, my curiosity is certainly piqued."

A few months after the events of Guanyin Temple, Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji take on a night hunt of an unusual sort: The Burial Mounds are spreading, quickly and with no apparent explanation. 

In Wei Wuxian, it brings old, long-buried things bubbling to the surface.

[lauraholliis]

hi!! can i ask where you found a stream for the newest ep of wynonna? thanks!

on rarbg!

[deancasotp]

jensen: hey mish hows it go– misha: in case you havent noticed, im weird. im a weirdo. have you ever seen me without these orange underwear on? thats weird.

[remmyme]

Fandom Fanfic Basics

Fandom: Supernatural (Dean/Castiel)

Favorite Canon fic:

Dream of Now by Sass_Master

Various moments in Cas and Dean's relationship.

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Sooooooo this series is pretty great. I’m an absolute sucker for slice-of-life SPN, and there are NO WORDS for how much I love this author’s Dean. Dean Winchester’s issues are many, but he’s working on it, okay?

Favorite AU:

Rvr Ro11435 by Ferritin4

In which Castiel is an operations analyst, Dean is a grease monkey, and even though it's set at NASA no one goes to space.

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OFFICE ROMANCE!! And, oh my Jesus, this fic is so, so immersive. I honestly…cannot believe how amazing this author is. This fic has humor, tension, oh-baby-please-give-Cas-some-cookies-and-cuddles angst. (Cas does, in fact, get both cookies and cuddles.) This story is so quintessentially Supernatural it’s insane, one-in-a-thousand, and it’s an AU!

Favorite Short fic:

And Then We Wait by anglophileprussian

Dean is a basket case of emotion and Charlie likes a challenge (and is kind of lonely).

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This is adorable and real and heartbreaking. My favorite Charlie of any fic ever, and I think we can all agree that Dean needs more friends.

Favorite Long fic:

Remaining Grace by todisturbtheuniverse

Sam's missing his soul, Castiel has a pissy archangelic nemesis, and Dean wonders if he'll be spending the rest of his life making sure the Apocalypse doesn't go ahead as scheduled. Still, though. He's happy to see Cas. Indiana wasn't really working out.

Alternate season 6, in a universe where Castiel made a different choice, and things snowball from that point forward.

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This fic is so good?? And apparently VASTLY underrated, because I’ve only just recently stumbled across it.  The characterizations are great, smart writing – it’s a really interesting read. Definitely a long fic that doesn’t drag like some do.

Favorite Angst:

unfinished duet by mishcollin

Sam watches Dean and Cas over the years and notices a few things. (Or, Dean and Cas unscripted.)

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My poor abused heart. A series of canon Dean/Cas moments – starting with 4.01, ending with 9.03 – and everything hurts.

Favorite Fluff:

Apple Pie by Anythingtoasted

“So, uh. What now?” He asked them both, and whereas Sam’s face was blank, and the word ��Amelia’ was clearly just behind his teeth, Castiel spoke up immediately.

“I think we should revisit your ‘Charming B&B’ idea.”

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IT'S SO!!!!!!!! FLUFFY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Favorite PWP:

Casturbatus Interruptus by smallhorizons

post-9.01, in a slight AU wherein Cas comes to live with the Winchesters at the Bunker.

Dean walks in on Cas masturbating. He’s doing it all wrong, but when you’re a bazillion-year-old virgin, that’s to be expected. Dean decides to lend him a hand in a totally platonic, non-romantic way. Things get a little out of control.

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Okay yes this is trope-y as fuck but I love it.

Favorite Fusion/Crossover:

Excerpts From Carver Edlund's Magnum Opus by twentysomething

on DW

"C'mon, Cas, it's like we're Mulder and Scully, this is totally X-Files," he says expansively, waving a hand around. It makes his tie flap and momentarily obscure the new and distracting belt buckle that just says "LUCKY" in huge, embarrassing reflective script in the early morning light. Castiel just stares blankly at him.

"I don't know what that means," Cas replies. Dean sighs and rubs the bridge of his nose under the bright yellow sunglasses.

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Bones fusion fic that really stuck with me! If you’ve never seen Bones then you can definitely still read (though some of the characterizations may seem weird if you haven’t.) Something about the (amazing) Dean and Cas voices and the story pacing begs for a podfic, but I don’t think one exists. (Yet!)

Favorite Fandom Trope:

Every Man's Got A Right by MollyC

Cas never expected to live through Dean's last plan. Now, he's not only alive, he's in the past—before Dean went to Hell, before he made the deal at all. Can a fallen angel and a couple of hunters change the future by altering the past?

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Trope: Time-Travel

*warnings: (2014!Cas) drug use, (canon-typical) violence, minor character death*

2014!Cas in S2 Supernatural. Ho boys. I will admit that I’m not typically the biggest fan of End!Verse, and I was a bit wary of a 2014!Cas, but this author changed my mind in the first 5k. And please don’t let the first-person POV scare you off. Seriously, this is…an amazing read.

Favorite Fandom Author:

xylodemon in Supernatural at AO3

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One of those special, special few where every fic is a great fic. And a currently-active writer, at that! Many many thanks  to you, xylodemon.

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(And because I’m unrepentant fandom trash)

Favorite RPF:

A Sort of Fairy Tale by misslucyjane

Misha loves Jensen. Jensen is … getting there.

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There’s something so muted and raw about this one. A very unique characterization of both Misha and Jensen that still holds true.