Tw: stabbing mentions, infections, ramcoa stuff.
So I have a question. As a kid (about 3-4 ish) I had this...thing I would do which is I would stab my biological father repeatedly multiple times. This became a problem. Then I moved on to the dog. Other than this I was actually pretty meek an shy to other adults. It was only to my father an dog. I avoided adult males but was OK other than that. I was very "protective" of younger kids when put in observation (mental ward for toddlers an kids). I found this in an old document about my health (which my mom hid for awhile an even denied when i brought it up an got mad). Why??? We what does this mean?
Did something happen to me???
I was sick a lot w/ immune problems as a kid, hives, sicknesses, seizures, some head trauma.
Is this ramcoa from an early age? I don't want to use a label that isn't for me but.
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You are not your mind, you are not your thoughts, you are the observer.
You are the awareness, you are consciousness.
Whatever you choose to place your awareness on is what you “manifest”
Choose what identity you what to be by selecting to only focus on the thoughts that agree with the identity you want to experience= embodying the version of you who has whatever you want/ wish fulfilled
The same way you can mute/ block or unfollow anything you do not want to see on any social media algorithm, you can choose to do the same with the thoughts in your mind that are not agreeing with your new identity/story.
It’s as simple as picking out the character you want to be for your movie. Get in character and don’t go off the script !! Have fun creating your story & getting into character because this is your life now!
Let me remind you to not let any one tell you what you can or can’t do, you are limitless being!!!
Don’t let the physical reality or the doubtful voices tell you otherwise, because you are the commander. Don’t be a prisoner or victim to your own mind. You take charge and decide to be who you say you are by selecting and reminding yourself of who you are and what you have.
Trust yourself, trust your power , the power that created all creation is within you, so trust and surrender to the fact that it is law & its happening for you. Whatever your inner man sees/hears and assumes to be your story will materialize. When you hear people say your thoughts are what manifest, it’s true but only the thoughts you place your awareness on= dominant thoughts. This is why it’s your “job” to put attention on the thoughts that support your new identity/story. = MENTAL DISCIPLINE
If you really want something you don’t stop until you get it, now I don’t mean to try and get it or work hard for it. Instead BE IT !!! What I mean is to continue to embody and think & trust in your favor!!!! continue to think in your favor no matter what the outside shows you & no matter what other thoughts you may hear, eventually by ignoring and saying “no, that’s not true” to opposing thoughts you will find it easier to think in your favor and do it naturally. Wake up every day and decide that it’s already yours, it’s already done, and be that person who has it already by focusing only on thoughts that remind you it’s already yours.✨
-xoxo, the cosmic angel ⭐️🪽
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i may or may not have made full designs for mercs in an rp i'm doing...
rb > likes or smth
misc + og designs under cut :thumbs up:
here's them before i started colouring
most of these are pretty gimmicky on purpose, also i changed a cuple of stuff here and there
for the sake of the rp i designed these kill feeds (more or less inspired by those chat devices someone made for dsmp that one time) (it's a little primitive, but it only has to be functional)
there is a v.2 which has the form of a watch (you can see it on sniper, spy and engie) (it also has a mode where instead of sending notifications it vibrates, thought it would be fun for sneaking) (maybe it even has a walke talkie function, yk, for team comms) (i didn't draw but it's all fictional anyway)
i kept some on my hcs in these ddesigns too, like engi's and Pyro's special goggles and tails and
i also removed Medic's lab coat because... well... he doesn't have it on...
i removed Sniper's facial hair too because i ended up hating it hfsgfe
there's also this uh,, thing i made
(yes, i made spy look and pose like that on prpose lmao)
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