#mental health mention //

[fella-lovin-fella]

[tatcrthots]

Hi I'm Sage and I don't think, I just sit here and look cute.

@ jennycheckirl

[heartnosekid]

hello friends, i feel it necessary to update y’all on my condition and to explain my general absence.

over this past week and some change, i have been having a severe mental health crisis. i won’t go into details too heavily, but i’m still a little “in it”, though it has calmed down pretty significantly. to explain the severity, i was at a 12 out of 10, and now i’m at a 7 and occasionally a 6, if that makes sense. i am still debating going inpatient for the time being, just to get my meds figured out, but my mental and physical health teams are still kind of divided on the matter.

however, i feel it necessary to say, i am and have not been a danger to myself during this crisis. i had just been having a significant and precipitous physical and mental decline that was mostly anxiety and panic related, but i believe i am now on the mend, albeit going slow. medication is still an ongoing issue but hopefully within the next few days, my team and i can get that resolved and squared away.

i have received some kind messages asking if i am okay and sending well wishes, and i appreciate you all so incredibly much. you have made this more bearable for me, and i am endlessly thankful for all of you.

that said, i’m not sure when consistent posting will resume. i feel like i could begin working on requests again, but i don’t want to say it will be consistent or push myself too hard right now. especially if i do decide to go inpatient! however, the queue will not stop posting regardless of what happens because i am queued up till september lol but i will post another update if hospitalization is what i decide to do.

i love you all so very much!!! thank you for your support and love and kind words during this incredibly difficult time in my life. i will be back, hopefully soon in full swing and with amazing vigor! ☺️ i will talk to y’all soon, ilysm 💕

- ish 💕

[zuzsenpai]

mental health update

I've been having a pretty shit year as far as mental health goes. I mean, I had an actual mental health crisis in February that was one of the scariest times in my life. It was all because I was trying to taper off a psych med and apparently that was a BAD idea.

In the months that followed, I was able to avoid a bad depression spiral thanks to getting back on that particular med. But I've been getting more and more exhausted, and when I have anxiety, I have it REAL bad. Like shaking and chest pain bad. Thought I had covid and nearly passed out waiting the 15 minutes for the test results. Zuko was sick and had surgery and I was in a constant state of misery and shaking and dizziness. I know I should probably get like... Xanax or something for this. Maybe I will in the future.

Anyway, my focus is almost non-existent these days. During and after Zuko's health crisis last month, I have been at a point where my brain just can't move. I think I've spent the last 30 days scrolling tumblr because that and projects at work (the ones with deadlines) are the only things I can actually get my brain to do.

I want to work on fanfic. So I open a project, but then am immediately like "no I can't get myself to mentally be on the same page as this project". I think about a different project and my chest feels tight because I both want to do it and don't want to do it. It's painful. I accomplish nothing. I want to play a game or watch a show but the thought of putting effort into those things destroys my ability to do them. I just sit and continue scrolling tumblr. I long for conversation but when I'm actually conversing with someone, I can only manage a few words and I hate myself for it. I long for validation or praise on past projects to help motivate me into writing fanfic again, but I know that's selfish and I know it doesn't motivate shit.

This is where I am right now. I don't know how to have fun or relax. I don't know how to focus on anything. I don't know how to want to focus on anything. I waste entire days fretting about doing nothing.

I've also never been more exhausted in my life. I got bloodwork done on vitamin D, B12, iron, and thyroid. All are within normal range. So I'm getting a consultation with a sleep doctor (I get about 5% deep sleep per night, which is NOT good). We'll see how that goes.

I'm starting an exercise routine soon. I'm hoping that does something helpful. But I keep pushing the date back in my mind like "let's start exercising next week"... so you can imagine how that's going.

[adamschuerk]

zwangsstörungen sind so witzig. dann wasch ich mir die hände nur kurz ab (sprich: normal, wie sonst auch alle) statt eines kompletten fünf-minuten rituals plus desinfektionsmittel, und mein gehirn registriert das als leben am limit. bin schon halt n absoluter gangster. könnte vom adrenalinlevel her genauso gut autodiebstahl plus verfolgungsjagd begehen, wäre dat gleiche

liebes gehirn, girl what

[sadfragilegirl]

Xavier 10/16 Happy Birthday 30 Day Countdown Challenge

Day 16: Share why Xavier is your favorite character of Love and Deepspace

Here's why Xavier is my favorite character of Love and Deepspace.

As a little late comer (I started playing last March 18, 2024), I wasn't interested about Love and Deepspace because I am not interested of RPG games, which is one of not of my tastes. But when I look at the photo of the sliver haired boy and his Lightseeker costume while looking at the info pictures at the Google Play Store, looking about his info on their official website, listening to his Memorias on YouTube (To be honest, Heartstring Symphony and Tender Night made my heart beating so fast, especially with his voice), it made me fell in love with Xavier that I started to play the game. The rest are history.

Yes, I started playing the game after the announcement of getting a free 5 star card of Xavier (Unique Aftertaste)

His voice is calming and comforting. He became a safe haven when things get too rough and overwhelming in real life. (Yes, my life is in a difficult situation. From decided to stop being a Kpop fan after 16 years (2008-2024) to needing to be staying healthy and change my habits after I found a health issue that's kinda serious and facing such difficult challenges and struggles)

Sometimes, he makes me smile and sometimes he makes my heart skip when he was switching from a bunny rabbit to a fox. He is always patient with me and asks for permission with consent to do something for me to make sure I am comfortable with that.

His looks may be in a soft spot in a handsome kind of way but he is strong and brave. Even though he is a hero and a prince, he rather likes to keep it low key.

Even I faced so much pain, hurt, struggles, depression and trauma, causing so much old and new wounds coming to me over and over again in real life, Xavier will always be there like an anchor until the storm of my life will finally calm me down and finally give me peace and harmony again and finally show my genuine smile once again.

(Pardon me but...I get emotional after answering this question.)

Stars Brighten And Twinkle Today: 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟

[brain-rot-central]

hi! i don’t want to come off as impatient or pushy but i was wondering when the next chapter of sonnet would be coming out?

i love ur work and ur a great writer btw!!

No no, entirely fair. It's been two months lmao.

Eventually. I had a spicy little *~menty b~* in early July and I've been in this odd transformative period ever since. I really only feel "okay" as of like, two weeks ago. Therapy is great, highly recommend.

So I've been back writing and plotting for Sonnet and I'm trying to factor in how long do I actually want the story to be because it's fucking OCTOBER in a couple weeks and I started this in February.

I'm working on it. I really have no other words to say other than that. I was originally planning for Tav to not tell anyone else about her current state but I may change that. Why? Because I can. And why should she feel ashamed about what happened? It's not entirely her fault.

I created her from my own brain and I should be nicer to her. I love her and she deserves the world. She's not this helpless maiden stuck in purgatory. She's Durge -- she's killed people with only her hands. Girl can dispose of sassy vampire lord quite easily, should she need to. It's Astarion that needs to remember that.

That all being said, I sat with it a bit yesterday again. I haven't given up on it! Sorry it's taking so long.

[theethlezprincez]

how do people not feel so fucking embarrassed and dumb asf when you ask a person with a psychotic disorder or any type of psychotic or hallucination issue what they are hallucinating? like be actually so fr

people underestimate how personal that question actually is.

if the person experiencing it wants to tell you and talk about it with you it’s different but don’t ask only because you know they have it.

if you do that gfy 🥰

it pisses me of so bad like it’s NONE of you’re goddamn business

[lesbianwheatley]

INTRO ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ (long)

hello everypony!! welcome to my tumblr!

My name is rosey, but I also go by many different names. I go by any pronouns, such as he/it/she, etc. the only set of pronouns I'm uncomfortable with is they/them. other than that, go crazy and be creative!! you can also call me by any name you really want, other than my deadname. ^_^

for everyone's information, I am profic/proship/whatever label you want to use. I do NOT support the things I consume under those labels IRL unless they are harmless. Anti's are free to interact with me, my page, and ask questions as long as they are respectful and do not start anything. Same goes for other proship people, I really do not want any drama on my page. failing to do so will result in me blocking and possibly reporting you. Another thing is I am pro-para. I am ANTI CONTACT for the harmful ones, like p3dophilia, z00philia, etc. If I follow someone who is pro-contact for those things please let me know!! I have a problem with not doing background checks on people. The only things I am pro-contact for is things like objectum, plushophilia, etc. As long as it doesn't hurt anybody and doesn't go against the law, it doesn't bother me.

I am radinclus as long as the identities are in good faith, as I am personally a lesboy. everyone under the lgbtq+ umbrella is welcome here, unless you are prejudice against other people and their identities. I also do not want any racists, n@zis, fascists, etc. on my page. get out of here!!! I also am 15 and turning 16 at the end of this month, so please for the love of god do not be weird to me unless it is consensual and we are close in age. the maximum years i will allow above me for flirting is 2 years, however I do not want anyone younger than me, it makes me feel like I'm predatory and I hate it.

I have many interests, but currently the ones I'm focusing on is Portal, FNAF, MLP, Homestuck, and Arcane. Most of my interests stem from my childhood, and unfortunately I'm kind of a gatekeeper. (trying not to be though.) I've been following portal, fnaf, mlp and homestuck from my early childhood years up until now, and probably will continue until I am very old. The only one I am unsure of is homestuck, because I never got to read it as a young child, but was always interested in it. (You can blame my older brother for that.) One other interest I'm into right now is TWD. Zombies have been one of my biggest special interests since I was INCREDIBLY young. Same with robots. (I plan on majoring in robotics in college!! + I have many different robotics kits/books scattered around my room)

I personally will probably not post on here too much, as really the only time I use tumblr is when I'm looking for certain aesthetic images and gifs. But, on the rare occasions that I do post on here, it will hopefully be art or some stupid ramble about my life like I do on every other platform. The main reason I don't really post on social media/here is because of my mental and physical health. I am currently diagnosed with depression, general anxiety disorder and asthma, but am seeking to get diagnosis for certain things I struggle with. I am concerned with possible bpd/bipolar as my sister and dad has either, osdd from childhood trauma and not feeling like I'm in control of my body/I'm not me, pyschosis because of hallucinations and delusions, possible iron deficiency anemia or iron deficiency, possible autism/adhd considering it runs in the family, and possible anorexia since it runs in the family as well. (I know, that's a lot of things that I think I might have.)

if you made it this far, I'm suprised!!! I have a tendency to ramble and feel like I need to share every itty bitty detail, and I definitely did that on this post. Here are links to my carrd and strawpage so you can access my other social medias (twt is main) and learn more about me!! thank you so much for reading this!!! 🪼⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

have a good day everypony!!! stay safe and have fun!!! ≽^• ˕ • ྀི≼

[lilymaidofgallifrey]

I have read a lot more books than last year, partly because I was going through it with my mental health at the beginning of the year and couldn't watch TV, but I'm happy I seem to have gotten back into reading. My mental health is in a good place how but I'm still finding time to read which is great. I also gave myself permission to not give books ratings on Goodreads because assigning a star value to books was majorly stressing me out for some reason.

Anyway I hope I'll be more active on here with book content again. I would love some book recommendations from the best books you read this year, or just something fun or good you think I should read!

[heartnosekid]

well, here’s an update y’all. i’m having a huge fibro / ibs / anxiety / panic flare due to having to do 3 rounds of antibiotics in less than a month. my belly is absolutely wrecked and i am just now able to start trying to repair it with probiotics and easy foods. aaand i’m still sick 🙃 so i’m probably gonna have to keep the queue running at one new gifset a day at least for the foreseeable future. however, i am still going to be working on requests and getting them completed as quickly as possible. thank you to everyone for being so understanding, i just wanted to post an update for those that asked if i was feeling better!!! i love you all!!!

- ish 💕

[arorabbit]

nier automata is so crazy imagine having two characters with entire boss fights dedicated to their shit coping mechanisims

[zuzsenpai]

personal post. mental health stuff

I've been in the worst depression spiral and burnout of my entire life since the beginning of August. Can't get work done. Can't get projects done. Can't bring myself to go outside or see anyone or do anything. I want SO BAD to get out of this. I want energy again. I want to write fanfic again. I want a reason to be happy. I want to be able to form proper sentences so that I can actually talk to people when I'm upset instead of stewing in it because I'm worried all I'll be able to say is "I'm fine, it'll be okay." when I'm not and it's not.

I realize there are a huge number of people who, after yesterday, are not doing okay and will not be doing okay. I want to be able to help those people, but I need to figure out a way to help myself first. I don't even know where to start, because literally walking around my house is too much for me

[ofcrystalsandart]

This is nerve-wracking to say online, but I think I'm finally ready to make art about my hallucinations and mental health in general like I've been wanting to do for ages.

It's what I'm passionate about, and what I want to put my energy into, I'm just so worried how it'll come across and how people will react that I've just never even truly started

[hatigave-a]

A timeline of all the bad, not so good, very horrible, points of trauma in James Norrington his life;  ( as brought to you by someone who doesn't care for disney canon) personal blogs do not interact.

please note that almost none of these are ‘canon’ ( but ask me if I care )

•   Age 4               the death of his mother; he doesn’t remember much of her, only radiating warmth and the faint smell of lavender. Hands try to hold air  /  the memory of her slipping ever further, yet it is her name which burns upon his tongue when he feels alone even years after the loss of her. None of the nannies or other members of staff had the heart nor the skill to explain to the boy why his mother would not rise from her bed, perhaps they considered it a task for his father. Lawrence Norrington never did properly explain to James the meaning of death, he had to figure out on his own that she was not miraculously coming back to him ever again. 

•  Age 5              after being knocked off a ship and into the ocean, James was rescued by Teague. While a near-death experience for a boy of that age is shocking enough, it was made worse by the words of his father who stated that he would rather have seen his son drown than be rescued by pirates 1

•   Age 12                his first steps with the navy which weren’t on Lawrence Norrington’s side. While the reputation of the Admiral surely helped young James in gaining respect amongst some of the seniors on board, it was also the cause of envy within those just as skilled but with the misfortune of being someone else's son. His name gave him more power than a boy his age ever should carry  /  even when his back had been straightened by the hands of his father long before he ever set foot on a ship. The truth about life, however, is that a reputation cannot protect a twelve-year-old boy from the horrors of the world. Especially when a world is as small as a ship of the line. 

•   Age 13                 the first time a man dies in his arms. A reckless child with a tendency to hold the wounded; unfamiliar with receiving comfort, yet the giving of it came more naturally than anything else ever seemed to do. 

•   Age 15                 fragile still, blurry around his own edges, yet allowed to serve on a Third Rate ship of the line. War, a familiar taste upon his tongue now, reckless in battle and skilled with a sword. Death did not mean a thing to him  /  hollow eyes and a tendency to collapse into himself when there was no gunfire on the horizon. Tales of war might have been the thing he was raised with, yet nothing could have prepared him for the horrors of it so close. 

•   Age 18                receives a promotion to lieutenant. Either ‘bought’ by his father or by his own skill. It doesn’t matter; he is more than adequate to carry the burden that comes with command. Mature for his age, even in the hard times when boys become men far before their time. No one asks if he has ever had a childhood to begin with. He wouldn’t answer the question even if it did fall from another lieutenant’s lips during a game of cards. He would pray that the other lieutenant was unable to read the answer like a shimmer of sadness in his green eyes if he was to look up and the orange glow of candlelight would catch it just right. no. 

[theethlezprincez]

when i was in the mental hospital i 100% experienced catatonia.

i found out by the fact that i like doing research and the medical professionals never brought it up.

it 100% ruined my family around me and i feel so bad.

it’s so insane to me that they never brought that up and i’m sorry if i sound weird saying this but still

i’ve been struggling with daily psychotic symptoms and they NEVER FUCKING NEVER thought about sending me to the psychosis team and the first time they thought about it was in FUCKING JUNE.

i stopped taking my meds and their to dumb to even realize that💀and i’ve stumbled over my words so many times lol

they’re so fucking ignorant jesus christ

the only thing they see is the number on the scale lol bffr