#medical abuse tw//

[snkts]

“Okay… so. I have to be more strategic?” Josh had said one late summer afternoon, squinting down at his failed tactics paper. As it turns out, “throw a wolverine at it” isn’t the solution for all x-men problems. “I mean, what am I gonna do? Heal the robots to death? How is this not a Wolverine problem.”

He sighs and flips the paper over, face pillowed in his hand as he rereads the parameters of the mission again. This time ever so slightly more focused.

“… okay. So what if… half of the team distracts them, and then the other half takes out the repair bots. No repair, no second health bar, no exhausted X-Men. We should always take out the healer. Right?”

He’d looked up then, beaming in the way only a sixteen year old without the weight of the world on his shoulders can. Easy and carefree

It’s hard to believe how different he looks now. His eyes oh so wide and full of fear as the lesson is turned against him.

They take out the healer.

the killing blow happens quick. it always does, slow enough to see but not enough to stop. in seconds Josh’s fate is sealed, his golden skin washing pale as the mutant cure finds its mark. he’s glad it’s him, he thinks. him and not laura, or rahne, or that little girl from that distant future.

but the dying is slow.

fighting tooth and nail to combat this invader, the boy persists through the fight. and onward, collapsing against proudstar’s chest and spitting blood. he lives long enough to get home, to the infirmary, yet he is dying all the same.

And even in this the focus is on his use to them — a case study on how this this so-called cure takes hold.

it’s slow.

but there’s one figure at his side. perhaps if he were of sharper mind he’d ask himself why, why he was quarantined and dying far from home, if his friends knew, if he’s contagious or a risk and if it was even safe for Logan to be this close - but in the moment all he can think is he’s glad he’s not alone.

he’s hazy most days. unable to speak in the worst of it. his unique physiology is in a stalemate, holding fast. an iron wall meeting and immovable object.

his hazy eyes meet his teacher’s. dry lips parting in a aching question.

“h-how much longer?”

@ncrosha

It was a funny paper. Not a correct one, but it was funny. He'd gotten a good chuckle out of it. Kinda flattering, too - so he'd taken a moment to enjoy that. And then he'd called Josh in to discuss it.

"Thanks, kid." He'd grinned, sitting back in his seat. "I'm flattered. And I'm not saying I couldn't handle it," he sets the papers down and taps them with his fingers. "But I'm not always gonna be around. I might be on another mission, or dealin' with another problem. You gotta think of what you'd do without me." And then he'd sat back and listened. Watched as Josh put the pieces together, and grinned and nodded at the response.

"Now you're gettin' it." He said, folding his arms on the desk as he sat forward again. "Next thing is to think about who you're gonna send on what team. So, looking at the outline again..." And they'd talked, and worked through it, and planned, until Josh had put together a good strategy. The kid had smiled so big when he'd gotten his updated grade. He'd been so proud of himself. He'd worked so hard.

And now he was here. Lying in a bed, wasting away. And all Logan can think is 'no'.

No.

No, not Elixir. Not Josh. Not like this. He'd told them not to send the kids out. He'd told them. He'd told them to keep the kids back, they're too young, they're not combat ready, send him, he'll deal with it, but not the goddamn kids-!

Because this was going to happen. He'd known this was a possibility, and he hadn't done enough to stop it. And now Josh was dying.

No, it was worse than that. He was stuck. Trapped in bed, trapped in the room, trapped in a body that was failing him, but could never let go completely. Suffering without end. A cyclical torture.

He was just a kid.

Logan sat looking at Josh again, but there was no funny essay this time. No lesson to teach, no fixing the mistake. Just a dying young man in an infirmary. The body in the bed almost didn't look like him. The gold of his skin is washed out and pale, his eyes are glazed and unfocused, his hair is limp and dry. Barely more than a corpse. His heartbeat flutters, his lungs rattle, and his voice rasps barely over a whisper. On the cusp of eternity, but his powers, his body, his 'gift' won't let him die.

...

But Logan can help him.

There's only so much Josh's gift can fight off, apparently, and Logan can help him. Josh is in agony, endless agony, and Logan can help him. Josh can't die and Logan can help him.

He's in pain, and Logan can make it stop.

"Not much, kid." He says, standing and smoothing Josh's hair back. There's a sick feeling in his gut as he makes his decision - but it's what's best for the kid. It's what will make Josh's pain end.

He turns and strides out of the room, fists clenched to gather his resolve. He can do this. He has to.

"Get me an IV." He says to whoever's in the room. They all look at him with owlish eyes.

"What?" Someone says, and he thinks it might be Hank, but his pulse is already pounding in his ears in anticipation of the NO STOP WHAT ARE YOU DOING that adrenaline is preparing for him.

Needles piercing flesh. Drills, saws.

"My blood." Logan repeats, waving his hand in a circular motion to show he's looking for an explanation. "It gives people my factor, right? Temporarily?"

Sensors embedded deep.

"Well, yes, but-"

The lingering taste of stasis fluid on his tongue, coating his throat.

"And it adapts. And I already had that shit." He points back to the door he'd just come out of. "So you're gonna get me an IV, and we're gonna pump that kid full of it 'til he's back on his feet."

Give me the readings, Doctor-

Weapon X functioning at full capacity, sir.

"And you're gonna do it right fucking now."

Good. Begin injection process.

... If it's for the kid, he can handle it.

[compassionatereminders]

The worst thing is that there is so much potential for exploring the horror of psych wards from the angle of medical abuse, ableism, forced treatment/drugging, loss of autonomy, power imbalance, demonization, dehumanization, etc, and YET the horror genre keeps defaulting to "insane asylums and psych wards are scary because there are mentally ill people in there"

[genderkoolaid]

medical literature about intersex people be like "there are problems that can be caused by forcing surgery on babies. luckily we are solving this by forcing surgery on even younger babies. it is vital that this baby CANNOT be left alone to develop normally. here is our 36 step guide on which surgeries you should force on which babies. also some people have said that forcing surgeries on babies might be "harmful" so consider that too I guess"

[schizopositivity]

It's so frustrating that I'm only seeing more and more lobotomy jokes. Especially "live, laugh, lobotomy" merch.

You are making fun of the torture of disabled people. People with intellectual disability and severe mental illness brutally had parts of their brain severed or killed. Many people died from this. We can never know the true impact because the people who endured this were not the same after.

We shouldn't be bringing this up in any lighthearted way. This was a tragedy, and we should be showing basic human respect to the victims. I don't think anyone can "reclaim" it and no one should want to. Please treat it with the severity and respect you would to any other mass tragedy from history.

[bunnieswithknives]

I love pain and agony

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[dewthorne]

Rutledge Asylum Alice: Madness Returns (2011) dev. Spicy Horse

[teaboot]

How do Canadian schools teach about indigenous Canadian history and culture? -a curious USAmerican

In my experience we learned about colonization at the same time as we learned about the formation of Canada. At first it was "European settlers came and pushed out the indigenous population", then in the higher grades we learned more about the how and the why.

For example, how carts full of men with rifles would ride around shooting Buffalo, then leaving the meat on the ground to rot, because "a dead Buffalo is a dead indian", which was so fanatical it almost wiped out wild Buffalo entirely

Also how Canadian settlers were lured in with beautiful hand-painted advertisements for cheap, beautiful, fertile land that was unpopulated and perfect, if only you'd sail over with your entire family and a pocket full of seeds- only to be met with scared, confused, and angry lawful inhabitants already run out of ten other places, and frigid winters, and rocky, forested, undeveloped dirt.

also, smallpox blankets, where "gifts" of blankets infected with smallpox were intentionally given out

And treaty violations- Either ignoring written agreements entirely, or buying them out at insanely low prices and lying about the value, or trading for farming equipment that they couldn't use because they weren't farmers.

Then in the first world war, where they told indigenous peoples here that they'd be granted Canadian citizenship if they enlisted

To Residential schools, which was straight up stealing kids for slavery, indoctrination, and medical experiments

But we also covered the building of the Canadian Railway in which Chinese immigrants were lowered into ravines with dynamite to blow out paths through the mountain for pennies on the dollar

And the Alberta Sterilization Act, where it was lawful and routine procedure to sterilize women of colour and neurodivergent people without their awareness or consent after giving birth or undergoing unrelated surgeries

But I'm rambling.

We kind of learned Aboriginal history at the same time as everything else? Like. This is when Canada was made, and this is how it was done. Now we'll read a book about someone who lived through it, and we'll write a book report. And now a documentary, and now a paper about the documentary. Onto the next unit.

And starting I think in grade 10 our English track was split between English and Aboriginals English, where you could choose to do the standard curriculum or do the same basic knowledge stuff with a focus on Aboriginal perspectives and literature. (I did that one, we read Three Day's Road and Diary Of A Part-Time Indian, and a few other titles I don't remember.)

There was also a lunch room for the Aboriginal Culture Studies where Aboriginal kids could hang out at lunch time if they wanted, full of art and projects and stuff. They'd play music or videos sometimes, that was cool

And one elective I took (not mandatory cirriculum) was a Kwakiutl course for basic Kwakwakaʼwakw language. Greetings, counting to a hundred, learning the modified alphabet, animals, etc. Still comes in handy sometimes at large gatherings cause they usually start with a land recognition thanking whoever's land we're on, with a few thanks and welcomes in their language.

And like- when I was in the US it was so weird, cause here we have Totem poles and longhouses and murals all over and yall... don't? Like there is a very distinct lack of Aboriginal art in your public spaces, at least in the areas I've been

My ex-stepfather, who was American, brought his son out once, and he was so excited to "see real indians" and was legitimately shocked to learn that there weren't many teepees to be found on the northwest coast, and was even *more* shocked when we told him that you have Aboriginal people back home too, bud. Your Aboriginal people are also named "Mike" snd "Vicky" and work as assistant manager at best buy.

If you'd ask me, I'd say that the primary difference is that USAmerica (from what I've seen, and ALSO in entirely too much of Canada) treats our European and Aboriginal conflicts as history, something that's tragic but over, like the extinction of the mammoths, instead of like. An ongoing thing involving people who are alive and numerous and right fucking here

But at the end of the day, I'm white, and there are plenty of actual Aboriginal people who are speaking out and saying much more meaningful things than I can

So I'm just gonna pass on a quote from my Stepmum, who's Cree, that's stuck with me since she said it:

"You see how they treat Mexicans in America? That's how they treat us here. Indians are the Mexicans of Canada."

[auschizm]

I'm sorry, but I just don't think jokes about lobotomies are funny. I don't think the deliberate physical destruction of millions of mentally ill and mentally disabled people's brains, often without consent, frequently just to make them easier to manhandle, is a laughing matter. I think it's a humanitarian tragedy

[angelyuji]

LADS yandere headcanons

sorry that some of them weren’t long, i didn’t want to make the post too long :( but hey!!! caleb day!!!! guess who got to welcome caleb home after 200 pulls!!!! (imcryingrealtearsrn) tbf i have almost all of his 5 stars and a couple 4 stars now :) all of my saving up helped thankfully

i didn’t write any nsfw but i have some ideas for the characters…. so lemme know if u want it :)

tw // yandere, kidnapping, violence (physical, emotional, mental abuse), manipulation, fauxcest, implied noncon and more, just general freaky nasty stuff

zayne:

zayneer;speojfso;ias doctorrrr doctorrr i think i sprained my ankleee gimme a full body checkup pleaseee ;)))))

he’s very cold to you, but like its just cuz he loves you so much he doesn’t want to scare you away with his actual feelings (thinkkk tsundere)

soooo overprotective over your health and safety

he wants you to quit being a hunter and stay at home, safe from danger

he’ll eventually convince you too, he’s so manipulative, using your heart condition against you

he wants to take care of you until he dies, a giverrrr in more ways than one *wink wink*

he wouldn’t kidnap you, but will convince you to move in with him (probably by saying smth about how it’ll be easier to keep track of your heart and care for you)

you trust zayne a lot easier than xav, raf, and sy becuz he’s your doctor and also your childhood friend (similar to your relationship with caleb) and he’ll use that to his advantage

now lets talk about doctor zayne’s behavior hehehe

in reality, yes everything about your relationship is against doctor-patient rules and all that but like who gives af yk

doctor zayne is the type to prefer doing your weekly check-ups at home in private

and by weekly check-ups i mean not just a regular physical, but a full body check-up

he’s sooo anxious about your health that even if violates your boundaries, he’ll strap you to the bed and snap some gloves on to feel every part of you

(for your health of course, def not cause he wanted to feel your warm skin without you struggling)

rafayel:

THIS MOTHERFUCKERRRR BRO

hes the clingiest person ever, he quite literally never gives you a moment of peace

constantly calling you, never leaving you alone.

he’s very bright and cheery whenever he sees you

but he’s very cold and mean to people he doesn’t care about, he’s very manipulative in that sense

raf is def, in my eyes, kinda the spoiled brat type

he hates when you say no to him so he pretends like you didn’t

if he asks you out and you tell him you can’t cause you’re busy, he’ll make up some excuse to get you to him

whether it’s calling your work and saying he has an emergency or calling you and guilt tripping you, he’s going to get his way no matter what

rafayel would most definitely kidnap you if he feels like you’re not giving him enough attention

like too many dates canceled, too many friends keeping you busy

he’s OVERRR ITT. you’re his inspiration, his muse, his very reason to live so he wants to keep you as close to him as possible

if that means keeping you chained up in his bedroom… then yeah he’s keeping you chained up babes

he’s very hot and cold with you as well

if he’s happy with you, he’s showering you with affection and love. being a silly goofy goober as they say

but if he’s mad at you, he’s cold to you and cruel

raf can be really fucking mean to you but the moment you retaliate, he’s shocked and like “why would you say that :((((“

raf is similar to xavier that he’s clingy, but raf is more confrontational with you. he will accuse you of cheating and force you onto your knees to show him how sorry you are. (he’ll also go and make sure that whoever it was that was taking your time and attention, never gets to talk to you again)

very much a pathological liarr

as much as he is annoying (i say affectionately), he’s constantly looking for your praise

wants you to compliment him and be comforting him at all times

and he’ll force it out of you if he has to.

xavier:

i feel like xavier is the most yandere of all of them like even in canon (this was written before i caleb’s trailer lmao. he’s 2nd most yandere now lolol)

he’s constantly stalking you. finding out who your friends are, what your daily schedule is, what shampoos and soaps you use

you’ll constantly feel like you’ve seen him at the store, but when you go and look, he’s not there (he’s done that before in game lmao he’s so cute)

xavier to me is also a typical yandere but more self-sacrificing. (i saw a tweet about xav and caleb where someone said they’re both yandere lovers but xavier is selfless and caleb is selfish and that perfectly encapsulates what im thinking)

very sneaky sneaky guy

he would kidnap you but that’s a last resort

he mostly just wants your attention and praise so only if he feels that you’re in danger, he would kidnap you

he’s very sadistic when it comes to people that try to take your attention away from him (will torture/kill a guy if they try anything with you)

he’s a jealous and petty i fear

if he feels like you’re talking to some rando too much, he’s immediately at your side, arm around your waist and glaring at them

my little star my cutie pie it’s hard to not fall for his innocent words/behavior becuz he speaks with such an airy voice and cute face

does unhinged shit with a cute smile and you’re usually blissfully unaware (or at least pretending to be), believing xavier def didn’t kill that guy you always say hello too on the way to work

it only gets worse from there once he realizes you’re letting his crazy slide

sylus:

sylus is very gentle and teasing in game and i feel like that also transfers to his yandere version.

contrary to his looks, sylus is not a violent yandere. because of the nature of his work, he doesn't want for you to be involved or see that violent side of him ever.

he's most def a sugar daddy type, very possessive. he wants to know where you are and who you're with at all times.

but he’s not like scary macho man about it, he’s informed you of how dangerous the N109 zone is so you know that his possessiveness is out of fear for your safety

he has most def put a tracker on all your clothes and electronics

if you are and want to continue being a hunter, sylus will support you

the only reason sylus would try to stop you is if you get mortally wounded, then he’s like “yeah no, kitten. you’re staying here with me where it is safe :)”

i feel like sylus would only kidnap you if the situation is that dire for him

like he’s fighting for his life for your attention and you’re giving nothing. he’s gonna be like “omg kitten, why are you not getting the hint :(“

alsooo he’s such a tease like theres nothing he loves more than constantly teasing you about everything

when he leaves for gang leader stuff, he gives you free reign on his black card as well as the house

he does not gaf if the whole house is pink when he comes back as long as you’re home

loves loves loves dressing you tho like he loves buying you clothes and dressing you up like his personal doll

my cute little sugar daddy

caleb:

i’ll be following the canon story for caleb’s headcanons

you guys grew up together, keeping each other safe and being each other’s best friend

and caleb had been in love with you since the moment you guys met

he def toed the line a lot when you guys were kids: making you promise to marry him and telling you that he’ll never leave you and that he would hurt himself if you left him

which at the time, didn’t worry grandma. I mean, you were all he had and vice versa so its not surprising that you’re both so attached

but as you guys grew up, his obsession with you worsens

he sabotages your relationships, keeps a tracker on you at all times, and have crossed a lot of your boundaries

but then caleb “died” and you lost your best friend.

caleb, i feel, is a very core yandere. like if you search up yandere in the dictionary, his picture shows up

he is obsessed with you to the point that it’s unhealthy for the both of you

some of his lines remind of jumin han’s bad ending 2 (from mystic messenger)

like this mf wants to collar you and keep you in a cage so you could never leave his sight. he wants you to be safe and there with him at all times

he would def kidnap you to do exactly this

he most def stalked you btw after he came back from the “dead”

he watched and stewed in jealousy as you interacted with the other LI’s. (yes i know that all the love interests stories are happening in different universes simultaneously but just for this… for the angst)

he hated when you went on dates when you were young, so seeing you again after so long just made his obsession and his hatred worse

he would try to threaten and kill anyone that stood in his way to have you

(also the ARM???? OKAY WINTER SOLDIER!!!) (im hoping the arm is a permanent feature but i wont get my hopes up)

when you guys were younger, caleb def snuck into your room to steal your clothes or anything that had your smell and he most DEFINITELY still does that

i honestly wouldn’t be surprised if he had a full-on shrine for you that kept him going until he could see you again

anyway the lines are kinda blurred on the familial relation, cause in the game, he talks about how although you guys were technically siblings, neither one of you considered each other as siblings

but i’ll leave it here with this, you guys lived together in your formative years so you most definitely experienced and learned (wink wink) a lot with caleb before anyyyyy of the other love interests

[giritina]

(Edit: just to be clear I don't mean to emphasize this girl with the tattoo as the primary perpetrator if this stuff. Idk her story, it's in kind of bad taste but there's more to this than a tattoo)

I saw this great video discussing a critique of "lobotomycore"/"lobotomy chic" and the erasure of the racist history of lobotomies.

I can't add further on the subject of race, but as a person with schizotypal I did connect it with this image

(Source, though I have not verified it by sifting through the archive)

"Lobotomy chic" and the humor surrounding it is used so often by people who I've seen have zero empathy for schizophrenic people. For disables people generally.

Even just looking at how they treat an actual lobotomy victim, Rosemary Kennedy, even when she's that archetypical 40s white woman. Her disability is erased.

Here's a popular tiktok about her. No context, just images of her younger self and her older self. Simply "she was normal, glamorous, and then she became strange, disabled." Oftentimes, her intellectual disability is treated more as a conspiracy theory than a fact of her not receiving enough oxygen at birth. People are happy to relate to her as a ~poorly behaved woman~, but not as an intellectually disabled one.

It just reminds me how this has become a sort of coquetteish phrase and a universal joke that erases everything except the low support needs disabled white woman's experience. The idea that for your eccentricities, you'd be at risk. That you might be the only one at risk, so there's no need for solidarity with the intellectually disabled, the schizophrenic and psychotic, anyone with profound or uncomfortable disabilities. Times ten thousand if those disabled people are black. And god forbid they are disabled, black, AND homeless.

[a-frog-in-a-bog]

one of the things that pisses me off so much about taylor swift's romanticizing of the abuse that happens in psych hospitals is how far back she had to go in history to find a decade in which there was even a slim chance she would've been institutionalized for being a wealthy white woman with opinions. THAT'S the real reason she picks the 1800s to sing about, not because the poetry was better or whatever.

she either thinks horrific medical abuse is a thing of the past, or she knows that there are people who are being forced to undergo electroshock therapy, chained to beds, restrained, strip-searched, assaulted, beaten, and neglected RIGHT NOW but she is far too privileged to ever be subjected to that today. so she has to pick a different time period to stage her ✨ insanity era ✨, knowingly utilizing triggering imagery and minimizing medical abuse as a metaphor for having emotions. i wouldn't doubt either possibility tbh

[compassionatereminders]

Hey did y'all ever think about that if doctors blame all fat people's medical issues on them being too fat without proper investigation and then feel justified in neglecting their medical concerns, then statistically more fat people WILL develop and potentially die from serious health issues and it might not actually be because of the fat when everything comes down to it

[spoonie-on-wheels86]

[another-whump-sideblog]

I'm getting whumperflies from my textbook's chapter on behaviorism. The cold, calculated way it talks about behaviors completely separate from the person doing them and the emphasis on reinforcement and punishment are just so very whumpy. Generally it uses attention as an example of reinforcement, which leads to stuff like "it's effective to avoid eye contact and conversation while restraining a patient so that misbehaving isn't unintentionally reinforced through attention." Like that's one of the whumpiest things I've ever read and it's in a psychology textbook. Imagine a whumper just completely ceasing any eye contact or conversation while Whumpee is being punished because attention is a reinforcer

Behaviorism is so fucked up

[kookygobbledygook]

This one is probably going to stay in the drafts but

If you are angry with Curly for not doing more to protect Anya from Jimmy...

Then why aren't you more angry with Anya for not doing more to protect Curly from Jimmy post-crash.

I'm serious.

Anya is scared of Jimmy. Terrified to the point of hiding the gun so he can't get it. That suggests she literally fears for her life. She knows he's a threat and capable of doing terrible things. She's been the victim of Jimmy's and has bore the brunt of his anger and distain .

And yet she repeatedly asks Jimmy to administer Curly's medicine and then leaves him alone with Jimmy. At this point she thinks Curly caused the crash and Jimmy is furious with Curly for trying to kill them all (not true but she doesn't know that). But Anya asks Jimmy to give the meds again and again, even though she knows Jimmy's volatile, Curly is defenceless and Jimmy lashes out when angry.

"But it made her feel nauseous because of her trauma/pregnancy" - She could have asks Daisuke or Swansea to administer the meds. She could have approached one of the people on board she didn't have definitive proof wasn't abusive and dangerous. She didn't have to put Curly in the hands of her own abuser over and over.

"Curly was the Captain, he had a duty to protect his crew members" - Anya was the nurse. She had a duty of care to protect her patient.

"Anya is scared of Jimmy and doesn't want to put herself in harms way by getting on his bad side" - this would make sense if Jimmy was demanding to be the one to give the meds to Curly. But it's the opposite. He always gets angry and derisive whenever she asks. Once again, why not ask Daisuke to do it?

Maybe this passes people's notice because they haven't worked in an environment where you have to watch for medical abuse or neglect. Maybe SA is - tragically- something more people have experience with, so it resonates with them more. And this is not me trying to tear apart the only female character in this game for not being perfect and for not prioritising a man over herself. Anya's position throughout the game is harrowing and she doesn't deserve her fate.

But I think it's an important parallel to recognise that before the crash Anya was powerless against Jimmy and Curly's inaction caused her harm. After the crash their situations have been reversed; Curly is now at Jimmy's mercy and Anya does nothing to intervene.

[peepoo79]

More hospital AU content 👀

((TW: Once again, Bateman being himself. Misogyny, medical malpractice, blood, medical abuse, his colleagues being creeps low key))