#medic fictive

[polle-express]

Curly stimboard for 🐇🌘 Anon

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With themes of Anya

art by: currrsy

[boo-hoo-hooligan]

y'know what? fuck you *headspaces your mercs*

[tf2heritageposts]

it's midnight 30 and i got a bunch of assignments done in advance so now im fucking around and practicing my voice acting again

plus my initial take and second take i do kind of like still

[citizenoftmrrwlnd]

stimboard for : q!jaided (qsmp; fictive) with liquid stims, wings/feathers, ribbons/like, wrist bands, and medical stims in a pallet of black, blue, and purple requested by Jaiden Fictive 🐻‍❄️

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[nevadakincentral]

Self indulgent moodboard for me.

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[endogenesis-evangelion]

so i need people to understand how being shitty about exomemories and fictives directly hurts people. including people with trauma, like me.

cw extensive discussion of suicidality, medical malpractice. heavy. very heavy. don't read if you're in a bad place. (i'm fine now. this was many years ago.)

when we were bodily in our 20s, we were unmedicated and i was deeply suicidal. like, "every moment i take another breath is inescapable agony" suicidal. "i have several files' worth of methods saved to my hard drive" suicidal. i'd always been told that The Thing To Do if you feel like you're seriously at risk of harming yourself is to go to the hospital, and i felt seriously at risk - i didn't feel safe being left alone, and our housemates (another system) were not supportive of our suicidality.

i had been seeing a counsellor at the local youth outreach, who knew fully about my fictivity and my self-harm/suicidality, and had helped me fill out the forms to apply for disability as a direct result of how debilitating it was for me. i happened to run into her on the street that day (tiny town and the outreach was Right There) and i decided to double-check that that was what i should do. like hey, i don't feel safe alone rn, i feel like i wanna End It, should i go to the ER? and she was like yeah you should do that.

so i went. i was really hoping for some kind of inpatient care, at least overnight, just to keep me from doing anything stupid. i explained that, did the 4-hour wait that used to be the norm for low-priority mental health patients and is now just the NHS norm in general, and eventually saw a nurse.

the nurse - a woman with all the terrifying energy and presence of Matilda's Miss Trunchbull - absolutely lays into me. i'm standing there crying and shaking, and she's yelling and screaming about how i've lied to everyone and i'm taking up time that they could be spending on the really sick.

she takes me over to a computer, where there are several other members of staff. she pulls up Wikipedia and shows me the article for Asuka Langley Soryu, and I realise what i'd done. i'd given my name instead of the body's legal name, and because she couldn't find me in the system, she'd googled me and found that i was "pretending to be a fictional character".

(i remember that at the time, this picture was the featured image specifically. seeing that come up in front of me is burned into my mind.)

now, at no point in the process had i lied or been evasive about who or what i was. i walked in holding one of the nge trade paperbacks, the one with me on the cover, because it was a comfort object. i had attempted to explain that this was me, because i figured that while being honest might get me put on an involuntary hold, that was actually what i wanted. i knew they wouldn't believe me, but i figured they'd at least see that this wasn't normal and maybe i'd get some help.

instead, i was fakeclaimed in front of god and everyone by a screaming woman who hated the mentally ill, and essentially told me that there was nothing wrong with me and i should go home. in floods of tears at this point, i say i don't feel safe being alone and i need somewhere to stay where i can be supervised. she gives me a list of some resources that aren't helpful at all.

i leave feeling more suicidal than when i arrived. all my life, people have been impressing on me the importance of "getting help", and it has been aggressively driven home to me that if there is such a thing as "help", it's not something i'm allowed to access. i'm a liar, deceptive, a fake person. i don't need help and i don't deserve it. my housemates hate me and i have few other friends. at this point in my life, i really feel like if i died, people would be relieved.

it honestly feels like a miracle that i didn't kill myself and the system that night. i'm not sure what stopped me, but i think it was my anger. self-loathing turned to indignation that anyone could be treated so callously, that i did everything i was supposed to do and the response was basically "just go home, we don't care if you die". i deserved better, actually, and with that came the ability to live on out of spite.

but jesus christos, i still hate that woman to this day. if it had happened today i would have filed a complaint, but i never got her name, and at the time i didn't realise that was a thing i could do. i wonder how many other people she's hurt in the course of her career. i wonder if any of them went home and killed themselves.

you don't want to be that woman. you don't want to wake up one morning and realise you might have someone else's blood on your hands, that your self-righteousness could be the thing that makes a kid think their life doesn't matter to anyone.

in the words of david lynch (gnu): fix your hearts. fix your hearts, goddamn.

[fictionkinfessions]

Canon secrets eh? I suppose I'll go. I was abused by my Caitlyn. To a horrible degree. It only came out post canon really but there were moments in the series where I was just "If only that's how it happened."

In my canon, I never found out what happened to Jinx. Yet Caitlyn would change the story depending on how she wanted me to feel. From my hopeful melancholy "She's out there.", A depressed and angry "She's gone for good.", to even denying me a real answer.

She'd slip things to me to get me to behave to her liking. It was the worst high I've ever experienced. I don't trust drugs to this day due to her. There is so much more that she did… Including killing me.

I'm unsure when she grew tired and only poisoned me to weaken/disorient me. She drowned me, if I remember right. It was raining, the water was pitch black… She shoved me in and left me to die. Her abuse was a secret I took to the grave.

I was her lovely side piece to the public, she must have gotten a lot of sympathy from others when my death was "discovered" heh. I'm glad you other Vi's had someone you loved. I wish you happiness. But I'll keep caitvi blacklisted on my end. Sorry. From a Vi Fictive from Arcane

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[tavs-kin-korner]

TW: MEDICAL THEMES

sTIMBOARD WITH THEMES OF PINK, bAKING, aND MENHERA FOR cHOCOLATE bOX gIRL (pOST-tRAUMATIC mANIFESTO)!! }:D

hOPE YOU ENJOY! i'LL WORK ON YOUR CAREKIT SOON! }:)

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[Stimboard with themes of pink, baking, and menhera for Chocolate Box Girl (Post-Traumatic Manifesto)!!]

[Hope you enjoy! I'll work on your carekit soon!]

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[coyotecoining]

Some PicMixs of our alters and NAHEs

(Flashing lights warning for all of them lol)

[hazyaltcare]

Typing Quirk Suggestions for a Needles fictive from The Magnus Protocol

based on needles and other sharp things

Mod Vintage (⭐)

General:

Capitalizing, bolding, or otherwise emphasizing words related to sharpness and sharp objects, e.g.

Sharp

Point

Needle

Syringe

Pierce, piercing

Stab, stabbing

Impale, impaling

Sword

Knife

Jab

Thorn, thorny

Replacements:

X = ⚔️

I, L, / = 🪡, 💉, 🔪, or 🗡️

Prefixes and Suffixes:

Begin and end your text with sharp emojis, like 🪡, 💉, 🔪, 🗡️, ⚔️

Begin and end your text with ⩤⩥, ⫷⫸, or < >

Phrases:

"Knife to meet you!" (nice to meet you)

Replace "need" or "knead" or "kneed" with "needle"

"Needling someone" (teasing someone)

Calling insults "jabs" or "needles"

Using phrases with "sharp" on it like "Not the sharpest tool in the shed", "not the sharpest knife in the kitchen", "not the sharpest scalpel in the surgery theater"

"What's the point?", "get to the point", etc.

"Thorn in one's side/flesh" (repeated annoyance), "thorny relationship" (strained relationship, enemies, etc.)

"I feel stabby!" (to express feelings), "take a stab at things" (trying to do things)

[problematic-fictive-edits]

"could you possibly do a dog-regressor and medical themed stimboard for our nbc hannibal will graham fictive if you’re comfortable with that?"

~🦇 Homulilly

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[pathologicalfacad3]

willkommen!! i got bored and decided to make a tumblr :) you can call me medic or ludwig! i'm a fictive in a system actually. this is not exactly an rp account but i can go along with them. 🩹 i like to draw (sometimes) and i like mysteries, psychological horror, science, medical things, history, etc. my askbox is open and i would love it if you sent some in! 💊

also, if you aren't the biggest fan of medical or blood and stuff then this might not be the best blog for you. i also reblog stuff a lot. 🧪

our main account is @sunny-12557! 💉

website

[mcyt-fictives]

Hello everyone! Sorry for the big stretch of silence- we had a bit of a medical scare last Friday and have been feeling very physically and emotionally unwell since so we took a little break to focus on our physical health.

We’re finally starting to feel emotionally better at least, so expect the next leg of the poll either tonight or tomorrow!

One of us will also make a post regarding current events at some point- this blog is and always will be a safe place for fictives and kins no matter what- and we want to emphasize that more then ever.

[tf2heritageposts]

Favorite and least favorite merc and why?

i really don’t have a least favorite merc in my heart. they’re all so special to me

also demoman best merc

[tigersarrcool]

Coming out as a system 😍😩😓

guys please be nice to my new alters 🥺

🩸The Red System🩸~ Intro

O-O-O-Oliver 🍀

NOTE: This alter has a tendency to call people slurs because of our tics

Triggers: teeth, anti-furries, anti-shippers

Disorders: Severe depression, NPD, schizophrenia, tics, autistic

DNI: If you are straight or ableist

Pronouns: He/Him, Stutter/Stutterself, They/Them, Blood/Bloodself

Role: Trauma keeper

Personality traits: Quirky and special so be patient, stutters a lot, INFP, cries a lot

Signoff: 🫶🏼

Donald Trump 🧡

NOTE: THIS IS MY FIRST FICTIVE PLEASE BE NICE UWU

Triggers: People of color, homeless people, anti Americanism, open borders, Mexicans, women

Disorders: NPD, gay 💅, autistic

DNI: if you are POC, trans, gay, anything other than catholic, anti-inbreeding

Pronouns: He/Him, Cheeto/Cheetoself, Wall/Wallself

Role: Sex offender

Personality traits: ESTJ, very rude, grumpy, will grab you by the pussy

Signoff: 🤲🐱 (iykyk)

Bianca 🤎

Note: THIS ALTER IS TRANSRACIAL BLACK WOMAN

OUR ALTER ALSO HAS AN MUD CALLED Involuntary Aggression Disorder, so if we assault you or do anything we are allowed to because of our disorder

Triggers: racism, men, super straights,

Disorders: Tics, autistic

DNI: anti anime, anti bakugo, ableist, racist, from the south

Pronouns: quirky/quirkself, She/Her, Todoroki/Todorokiself

Role: Prosecutor

Personality Traits: ESFJ, hard on rule breakers, very hot

Signoff: 🐋

ANAKIN ❤️

NOTE: THIS ALTER HAS INCREDIBLY SEXY MUD WHICH MAKES HIM IRRESISTIBLE TO ALL MEN AND WOMEN (non binaries don’t count, they are not human)

He is also in a relationship with Bianca in the headspace

Triggers: Obi-Wan, twins, fire, sand, mean people, authority

Disorders: NPD, autism

DNI: If you use protection during sex, anti evil, anti emo, anti MCR

Pronouns: Rage/Rageself, Sexy/Sexyself, He/Him, Man/Manself

Role: Guardian/Protector

Personality Traits: ISFP, cruel, protective, emo, do not get on his bad side 😡 OR ELSE

Signoff: 🗡️

[forest-requests]

Toga and Ochako from BNHA moodboard for anon

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