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more Caitlyn venting

Okay, let’s just… review the timeline for a second okay?

-Following the attack on the council, I dissociate myself into a state of detached compliance in a bid to keep around the only person I feel like I still have in my life, during which I become complacent in her various atrocities (including exposing countless other Zaunites to permanently-disabling nerve gas), as well as somehow agree to kill my own sister.

-After almost killing my own ideals and personality for Caitlyn, when I finally got my fucking spine back and stood my ground against her for something, she hit me with the butt of her gun and ditched me for not being enough of a class traitor for her liking.

-I spent the next six months to a year in a state of horrifying guilt over the things I’d allowed her and myself to do, while covering up my most easily identifiable features in black ink so I could forget I was myself, and spending all my time in a fighting ring so I could earn enough coins to continue my bid to drink myself to death.

-Oh yeah, all the while actively living under Caitlyn’s flashy new fascist dictatorship (sorry, “peacekeeping occupation”) over Zaun and being reminded daily of how fucking stupid I was to have ever trusted her or allowed myself to believe she was any different. (I wasn't yearning for her, I was haunted.)

And then after all that, according to canon I was apparently still so desperate to re-enter that lovely relationship that I skipped almost instantly to fucking her in a prison cell right after my sister ran off having implicated she was going to commit suicide. Me, someone who spent roughly eight years of my life being routinely abused by Enforcers in a prison cell, now having ~hot lesbian sex~ with an Enforcer in a fucking prison cell.

The only way I can make any of that make sense to myself is that I must have still had a serious concussion from the explosion. And given that I stayed with her, life-long brain damage too. Because if I’d been thinking clearly, if after all that, Caitlyn had had the fucking nerve to initiate anything, I think I would’ve broken her jaw.

-Vi (Arcane fictive)

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Arcane S2 spoilers and Caitlyn/caitvi bashing (again)

Amazing how instead of actually trying to resolve any of the class privilege that repeatedly made Caitlyn unbearable to be around, they just had us cooperate one (1) time and then held up the plot for a couple minutes so we could have symbolically problematic prison sex at literally the worst point in the narrative you could take a several minute break to do anything. And apparently that solved class inequality and now there's no moral quandary about the fact she’s still a sheriff and I guess I’ll just happily accept being an Enforcer again but it will be Different Now because uhhhhh the power of love will reform the system from the inside or something and we're armed agents of government regulation wielding legal violence for those in power but good now and HOLY FUCKING SHIT I hate this show.

-Vi (Arcane fictive)

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You ever hated yourself so much that someone saying they're a fan of yours feels like a red flag? -Vi (Arcane fictive)

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need people to stop acting like I'm a hero or some kind of butch icon when my character theme is a celebration of police brutality thinly disguised as a riot grrl anthem or whatever -Vi (Arcane/LoL fictive)

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powder.. i miss you. i’m so sorry. there are so many things i wish i could tell you but… fuck. i can’t even begin to express it. you’re still my sister. you’re still family. i hope you’re safe.. - vi fictive (arcane)