#me: *feels like shit* 'why must this happen'

[baileyyplaysthesims]

I think this post was one of the reasons I was like maaaybe we might ditch some of the Sims 2 lore in my Lore Legacy save. I was debating on doing the Burb family from Unleashed. I liked playing them same with the Hicks, Roomies, and the Charmings. I decided not to for the three of them.

For one we already have the Roomies? If we don't I could do that; but I remember not playing them that much. I must of have ignored them like the Pleasant family. I never really read the little family stories when I was playing. I just jumped right into the household.

Only reason I did the Newbies and the Bachelor household again--because I feel like those households deserve redemption of some kind. I also, am in a bit of denial because whenever I played Bob and Betty always had a boy first in my games, then a girl. I never really had a chance to get Michael a family, because he was always a Bachelor in my game.

I feel like Sim 1 lore is something for us long time players had made up on our own. Then Sims 2 came out--with different lore, and Bella Goth missing from the Goth house. I think that is why I never played the Goth house at all in Sims 2.

With time gone on and me finding out more about the lore of Sims 2 and Bella Goth gone missing/murdered and whatever happened to Michael too. Is surprising to me. I mean it will depending how far I get into the research about it--will freak the fucking shit out of me. (In a good way, because I am aware of it; early on it gave me nightmares.)

Playing Sims 4 I fallen in love with the Landgraabs--and having them kicking out Johnny because he wanted to focus on his comedy. I found that out; word of mouth. I need to read what it says for lore for their information in Oasis Springs or ask them more and read what the pop up says. That is what Sims 4 is lacking lore.

I that is one of the main reason why I started up my Baileyy Lore Legacy save. To mix and match some of Sims 1, Sims 2, and Sims 4 lore together. Well, also my lore I remember creating as a kid to playing Sims 1 because it was basically your game--no one played it the same way. We had all our little various sims we created ourselves in there too.

As a Sims 2 player one of the most eerie things about playing the original game isn't necessarily the creepy/more liminal aesthetic or the repetitively endless gameplay, but the fact that almost all the pre-made Sims from the original game are inexorably doomed by the narrative.

There's something odd about Pleasantview specifically, where the majority of the returning Sim families live (save for Tara Kat, who seems... relatively fine). Like, the concept of the game is that twenty-five years have passed, and all of the returning characters are pre-baked into character arcs that communicate an unavoidable truth: You, the player, failed.

Bella Goth will disappear. Her brother (though in the original Sims we aren't aware that Michael Bachelor is her brother) will die, possibly murdered. Mortimer will be lost and alone. Cassandra will be stuck in an unloving engagement. The Newbie's daughter will be impoverished, a single mother whose husband died young, with two boys and another on the way. Daniel Pleasant will grow up to be a cheater. Jennifer Pleasant will never be an athlete like she wanted (her brother will). And though poor Johnny Burb never mentions Tucker anymore, you know that old dog died years ago. The Roomies, the Mashugas, the Hicks, the Charmings - all leave town... or worse, die out.

I think about Jeff Pleasant's bio in the first game: "Jeff and his family are new to the neighborhood. Can you help Jeff provide for his family and fulfill his lifelong goal of being the first man to walk on Mars?" And how it contrasts to Daniel's in the second: "Since his father Jeff died without achieving his dream of going to Mars, Daniel has felt an overwhelming guilt."

And sure, you can save the families of Pleasantview. You can choose for Mary-Sue to not go to work that day, or maybe Daniel never pursues Kaylynn Langerak again. You can give Cassandra a happy marriage, tame Don Lothario's womanizer ways. You can financially save Brandi Broke. You can get John Burb another dog. You can get Jennifer the career she always wanted. You can defy the scripted in-game prompts and say "No. I don't want to play like this." You can break the cycle, every time you play.

And yet, at the end of the day, no matter what you do... uninstalling the game and reinstalling it, maybe just deleting that Neighborhood folder, they are reset back to exactly where they were again. They're doomed to repeat it forever.

The game makes it clear that there are some things you aren't meant to change. A genie lamp or a Resurrect-O-Nomitron can bring back sims like Michael Bachelor, but you will pay for it in your neighborhood deteriorating to corruption. And no matter what you do, no force in the universe can bring Bella Goth back. The one in Strangetown isn't even really her, after all. And maybe she isn't. They say they deleted her in development, replaced her with a clone. Maybe that's what Bella Goth in Strangetown is. A clone. Maybe we were wrong, after all. Maybe she was never abducted by aliens. Maybe Don Lothario killed her. Maybe Dina Caliente killed her. Maybe Mortimer did. But you can't bring her back, no matter what you do. Recreate the original Bella, pixel by pixel, extract her data, make your zombie Bella. Build your own monster. Create a sim. But she will never recognize her family. Never see them as her own.

And she was never meant to.

[bullet-prooflove]

maybe 50)  I don’t start shit, but I can tell you how it ends

for Danny Williams? We gotta know if the bad feeling in his gut is valid since he hasn’t heard from her in 96 hours….

Tagging: @kmc1989 @football1921 @fangirling-alert @lovebookheart @navs-bhat @star017

Summary: Danny's fears are validated when he stops by your home.

Companion piece to:

One Night - Danny realises he’s made a mistake after the first night you’ve spent together.

The Backseat (NSFW) - Danny’s attempt to discuss the night before goes awry.

Distraction - Danny finds you to be a welcome distraction.

96 Hours - Danny worries after he doesn't hear from you.

Sometimes Danny gets a feeling. It’s a horrible twist in the pit of his stomach, a metallic taste in the back of his throat. It means that something bads about to happen, something really fucking bad.

He has that feeling now as he walks up the path to your home. With every step the apprehension builds because Danny, he’s running all the facts through his head, wondering why he didn’t come sooner.

“I need some space to process what you’ve just told me.” You’d said as the two of you sat on the porch swing. The sun had been starting to set in the distance, the orange light playing over the quiet street.

He’d told you about Charlie that evening, the son he didn’t realise was his, about the bone marrow transplant he needs. This thing between you is new and Danny, he comes with complications, he always has, always will.

He manages to keep his distance for two days before he breaks the stalemate asking to talk. You don’t text back, he assumes  you’re still trying to work through things. By the third day he thinks you must be ghosting him so he heads to your office.

“She’s taken some personal time.” They tell him at reception and that’s when that feeling starts, because you’re a workaholic, you haven’t taken a single day off in all the time he’s known you.

The door is ajar when he reaches it, closed over but not entirely. His hand goes to his hip, his thumb clicking open the button on his holster as his palm grasps the grip of his Glock. He hears the car door open behind him, Steve’s footsteps. The other man’s hand comes to rest upon his shoulder, squeezing lightly as he pushes the door open slowly.

It’s the writing on the wall that he sees first, not the ransacked living room, the remnants of the fight for your life but those four numbers glaring back at him. They’re written in dried blood, he can tell because he can still taste the copper in the air as he studies them intensely, his heart pounding against his ribcage.

“What is it?” Steve asks as Danny holsters his weapon, his palms coming to rest on the back of his head as stares at the digits.

“It’s my badge number.” He whispers his voice barely more than an gravelly rasp. “From back in New Jersey.”

“OK…” Steve drawls out the word. “So what does that mean?”

“It means he’s taken her.” Danny says, his palm rubbing across his mouth as his world starts to fall apart. “My ex-partner Peterson, he’s taken Nik.”

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[vaguely-concerned]

it's so interesting that gideon opens his heart so quickly and completely and irrevocably to twig, while regarding mishka -- a parallel little sister/kid figure with some worrying hag magic attached, who also is in a situation similar to and has overlapping trauma with his own; they both have the scars of manacles around their wrists and are exploited for some inborn capacity other people want to make use of -- with such measured distanced distrust. and any reason you want to imagine there makes so much sense! it could be it's just too much like his own situation and he can't go there without getting into contact with things in himself he'd rather not feel or remember. might be instinctive flinch-away from still dealing with what happened to twig (and then jabberwock party wipe horror on top of that as a further attachment anxiety booster -- he didn't see kremy die since he's the first to go, but he sure gets to hear the story afterwards), and not wanting to risk that pain again so soon. twig meeting him at a moment where he was ready to let someone into his fiercely guarded in-group, and mishka didn't? just plain differences in personal chemistry (again... mishka is a lot like him in a lot of ways. perhaps. too much for comfort from some angles)?

if his trauma brain has decided that NO I've got kremy under one wing and twigsy under the other and sorry kid I only have two fucking wings, nothing is ever going to take this from me again while I'm alive to fight for it (the way they took my dad and my home and all those years of my life)... biggest FAIR ENOUGH GID! AS YOU WERE GID YOU DO YOU GID!! in history honestly even if it is a bit unfair to mishka

[quietwingsinthesky]

on the one hand, syndicate’s resolution of jacob & evie’s overarching fight feels sort of rushed and unearned, but on the other hand, if i was in an argument with my sister and then some fucking guy tried to kill her in front of me, yeah, that might not solve all the reasons behind the argument but it would make me go ‘oh! right! i never want to live in a world without you!’ and stop us from fighting. so that bit’s actually quite realistic.

[watermelinoe]

why does every medical practitioner think they know more than you

[ducktollers]

me on that next episode button when season 8 episode 16 ‘secrets and lies’ queues up

[cosmicterrorthe8th]

Another Grant headcanon:

I think he wrote love notes when in relationships, and he went all out with like making the paper scented and stuff. But like he had no good perfume so he ended up using his horrible body spray. So like the lucky boyfriend would like find a paper reeking of the body spray like every once in a while.

Also I think he was someone who fell deep into romance because having a crush and feeling butterflies in his stomach was better than numbness. So he would pursue every crush even if he knew it would not end well because of the thrill of it. I think this sucked but I think he atleast felt like this is a normal way for life to suck.

[camgirlkaminari]

i just caught up with the latest chapters and like. those dudes definitely made out right? like that's not even subtext? like horikoshi fully said one and two absolutely went hog wild upon each other like. in the text, right??????? I have other, more cool and normal thoughts, but what is really important to me right now is that. those dudes definitely canonically got nasty. right???????????????????

[deerest-deer]

thinking really hard about logging into my old tumblr acc after being gone for like a year and a half cause i stumbled upon a post that led me to my old mutuals and i teared up a lil </3 but also i feel so ashamed i left without saying a word to anyone aaaa

[iceeericeee]

I wonder how many tags i can add on to this

[hershelwidget]

i think it would be funny if for the theatre reveal it’s just an ABSURDLY long bit where a small rock containing theatre’s “true name” is rolling around on the ship and everyone is failing miserably to catch it. nobody ever fucking grabs the rock but to save them some time i do allow for the players to See what is written on it but as soon as its said whats written on it i disband the party and this all happens on april fools so nobody believes me

[wild-at-mind]

Being in a long distance relationship long term is so fucked up. For context for people in bigger countries I'm not talking flying distance from each other, I'm talking about 3 hrs apart on the train, so not that far arguably. But still far enough that our lives are almost completely separate in the practical sense, no matter how much we talk on the phone or meet halfway. When one of us stays over at the other's place we are still guests in each other's homes. I still don't know what cohabiting would be like and what a comfortable normalicy of being in each other's lives in person every day would be like. We're coming up to our 11th anniversary. I don't want to break up with him!!!! I love him deeply and I've never met someone I'm as compatible with as him. I've never been in love like this and I'm not easy to know, and yet he does know me and likes what he sees. I just feel I am stuck and I am frustrated that my sex life is like once every 3 months. I still don't even know how often we would have sex if we lived together, we haven't had the chance to find that rhythm. When we see each other there's no time to do any more involved stuff it's just getting off. Basically everytthing we've talked about has to stay in the realm of fantasy because there's never any fucking time.

I am trying I said to him- you need to do covering letters and things, you can't just send your CV that has never worked. He's the one who wants out of his current job, and out of his town, but applying for jobs is so fucking hard when you're working full time and trying to do things you love to not get fucking depressed. See I understand those things because I would feel the same way. If he moved here we could find a place together and I could find it out if I actually can live with someone else and stay mentally well. I'm getting too dependent on living alone in order to stay mentally well and it worries me.

Sorry to vent. I'm not looking for advice it's just venting.

[balconyswirls]

dragon republic is making me want to pull my hair out

[alopecoiddaydream]

The reason I, like, never post my DaveKat art aside from that one post is bc I am TERRIFIED of mischaracterizing them. I hope this helps.

[icomehereforthefics]

It’s so hard to watch a show when you can’t stand the other lead… nothing against that actor but her face just annoys me lol

Also, the plot’s good and intriguing but I cannot with the romance plot. I really don’t like romance in movies or tv shows, it usually just bores me to death. I never get excited when they have a scene where it’s deliberately meant to be romantic and whatnot… this is especially true when the leads just don’t have chemistry so no matter how much they try to build the tension, I just don’t see it

If they had just stuck to the historical drama/political intrigue route I would’ve watched this in one sitting and actually paid attention. I clocked out the moment they played up the romantic scenes. Honestly, you can take out the romance b-plot and it still would’ve been so good! Like, the cinematography alone is worth it and also like the other side plots going on were actually intriguing…