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Apollo/Arrow of Dodona (Polldona) VS Apollo/Hyacinthus (Hyapollo
Propaganda
Apollo/Arrow of Dodona (Polldona) - The crack ship of the ages. These two losers deserve the W! - They have a genuinely great relationship and the best dynamic. It started off rocky but it blossomed into a wonderful friendship. The Arrow also died for Apollo.
Apollo/Hyacinthus (Hyapollo) - Idk i like them
#me watching the fandom blow up#this is going to be so fun#toa apollo#pjo apollo#heroes of olympus#trials of apollo#percy jackon and the olympians#pjo apollo ships tournament#poll tournament#not tagging the ships sorry
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YuuriVoice Characters Accidently Walking In On You Changing:
Notes: SURPRISE! First time writing these characters! Sorry these are so short. I’m currently short on time so I’ve been real busy and only getting busier. I haven’t watched the Lucien, Faust and Charlie videos in a while so excuse any messed up personalities. Enjoy!
Alphonse🍬:
He walks into the room, not looking up. “Hey Boo, have you seen my keys? I need to head to the shop to grab some toilet paper–OH SHIT! Damn Boo!” You pick up a slipper and throw it at him, red in the face.
“Alright! Alright! I’m leaving! I’m leaving!” he repeats, backing out, his voice echoing through the hall. “You look good though!”
Seth🐺:
Seth walks in the room, looking down at his phone. “Hey Sugar, have you seen my helmet? I’m just gonna go get–daaaamn Sugar!” he says, stretching the second to last word. “Not lying’ Sugar, you look good–”
You turn red in the face, attempting to speak, but only stuttering comes out. You shriek in embarrassment, shooing him out.
He turns around, exiting the room while walking down the hall. “I’m leavin’! See you later, Sugar–I’ll get you some chocolate for your sweetness–!”
Auron🩸:
“Rook, have you seen the new microtech law contract? Trish reminded me that I’d given it to you last–oh, oh dear.” Auron’s eyes conveyed the same message as his curved lips. “My sincerest apologies, Rook.” His smile disappeared for a brief moment, before returning, far more mischievous than before. “I’ll leave–but I’d like to see you–in my office later.”
Faust🥏:
“Have you seen my good streaming headphones? I’ve been looking for them–oh,” Faust starts, walking into the room, only looking down at his phone at first until he looks up at you.
He pauses, looking at you and then to the outfits you have laid out on your bed. “Wear the purple plaid short skirt with that top, it matches your eyes–” he says, rolling his own. “I’ll be looking for my headphones if you need me,” he continues, walking out of the room and closing the door slowly, before turning back one final time, looking you straight in the eyes.
“If it’s any consolation, you look great,” he finished, before closing the door completely and walking off to continue finding his headphones, leaving you red-faced.
Charlie🍕:
Charlie walks into the room, eyes focused on a texting thread on his phone before looking up. “Hey Casp, have you seen my ID–wha-AHH!” He screeches, backing up and covering his eyes.
“Sorry! Sorry! So sorry!” He spouts, back-running out of the room and slamming the door behind him.
Lucien😈:
He strolled into the room like he owned the place, his voice loud. “Angel–you’re out of eggs and–oh? Aren’t you good looking?” He says, that is, before you throw a slipper at him, shouting at him with a red face to get out.
He laughs, throwing his head back and running his hands through his hair. He turns, grinning and exhaling with a chuckle. “Once you’re not in your birthday suit, get some eggs, Angel.”
Finn🌻:
“Hey, are you ready to go–oh my gosh I am so sorry!” he started, stuttering when his eyes reached you. He covered his eyes, blushing out of embarrassment. “I am so, so sorry!”
He continued to spout the apologies as you turned red with embarrassment.
“Do you want me to go?” he asked, his eyes still covered. “I should go–” he took his hands off his eyes, blushing. “I’m gonna go–sorry! You look great though! Wait no–” he continues, already out the door, starting to spout apologies again.
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#yuurivoice bittersweet#yuurivoice alphonse#yuurivoice headcanons#yuurivoice#yuurivoice faust#yuurivoice lucien#yuurivoice seth#yuurivoice charlie#yuurivoice auron#fanfic#yuurivoice fanfic#yuurivoice fandom#yuurivoice finn#watch my notifs blow up#I’m gonna write more anyway but let me know if you have any requests!#yuurivoice listener#x reader
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WILLIAM MAGNUSSON ☆ 10 JANUAR, 1997
#Skam#Skam Edit#Skam OG#William Magnusson#I refuse to believe my son is 28 today#but yeah I had to make this messy set just to wish him happy birthday#it looks terrible because I didn’t have time before so I made these in a day 😭#the astrological takes are from a few websites: the imum coeli and astro library#most of them are from astro cafe astrology—the website where I made this particular birth chart#it’s obv not the first time I’ve done his birth chart tho lmao#the only info I didn’t have was his time of birth aka what defines his rising so I did what I had done for my other baby blorbos#used the time of the clip from his POV aka 14:07#it’s a sweet coincidence that his clip aired on the first day of ♋️ and his rising ended up being ♋️ as well!!!#generally I make fun of the h@te people spread towards him back in the day#but remembering some stuff this week made me really sad actually#it just blows my mind that a fandom who claimed to be all about love#would spend so much of their time vilifying and trashing a character ‘just because’#ANYWAY William will always be one of my favorites#I loved watching him grow and become a better & happier person#more than anything I loved watching him find love#it's what he deserved: to love and be loved#Julie Andem thank you so much for loving him too#and for—you know— WRITING him in the first place#:’)#s2#s4
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I think on this fine Saturday afternoon it's a good opportunity to take a breather and remember that there are really no ethical paparazzi pictures. Every single one is inherently exploitative.
Just because photos were taken on a movie set, when someone is 'working,' does not make the practice any less invasive and creepy. Imagine just going about your day, doing your job and having some weirdo snapping pictures of you to sell without your consent for others to endlessly repost online.
There are thousands of pictures of your favourite actor online already. Plenty taken with his knowledge and consent. I'd really like to see more of them on my dash, rather than the creeper shots.
And don't get me started how disseminating these pictures directly leads to people going to said sets. What starts off as admiring how good someone looks has real world implications.
No, hanging around a movie set and disrupting people doing their jobs is not harmless fun or a way to show your appreciation.
If you hang around a movie set, you are a stalker.
Don't tell me that it's okay to take your online admiration for someone offline. You may admire him but he does not, and will never, personally know you. He will never be your friend/boyfriend/daddy. He is a stranger.
The only way meeting your favourite actor is going to happen is at a convention or maaaaaybe a movie premiere if you're incredibly fortunate. You know, places they appear specifically to meet fans (or not in the case of premieres, where the purpose is to promote a movie. Which is also completely understandable if actors don't stop. You are not owed an interaction).
Of course, you cannot help it if you randomly run into someone you admire in the wild. Even then, consider that they probably won't be all too thrilled to be approached in public by a complete stranger. It's up to you to gauge the situation, but remember there is a person at the heart of all of this.
Boundaries and respect are a kindness which deserves to be extended to each and every human being regardless of their looks/talent/fame/wealth.
Fandoms blur those lines a little too often for my liking and I think just scrutinising what you're interacting with, or what behaviour you could be possibly falling down that slippery slope towards is nice to do every once in a while.
I mean no malice with this post and it is not directed at anyone in particular. It's something I cannot help but feel strongly about because I've seen this destructive cycle time and again in fandoms over the years. It's not healthy and it makes us all a little bit more disconnected from our humanity for it...
#not naming names but....... screw it#pedro pascal#pedro pascal fandom#accepting you will never interact with or meet this man will set you free from misery and jealousy i promise#he's great! if you think he's great watch another movie! write about a character! edit some photos of him! make gifs!#there are many MANY ways to engage with his work which don't include reposting creepy invasive photos taken without his consent#it's bs that this is just 'part of the job' because WHY... why should it be any different than any other job??#i know we always venerate talent and put people on pedestals.... that's a tale as old as time#but seeing him blow up last year was wild to witness and some of the behaviour from newer fans is very disheartening to see#he's just a human who poops and farts and is a dick sometimes like the rest of us. let's not treat him like a god thanks#spud rants#a lot LOL#i've bottled this up for a bit because the way this developed in real time to people actually going to the set is. what#and don't 'if pedro was in your city' because NO??? i wouldn't STALK SOMEONE? there's 0 justification for it#i have far better things to do than stalk people#i may be an autistic flop but i'm not a CREEPY STALKER autistic flop thanks x#anyway like i said this is truly not @ anyone in particular and i don't think you are a terrible person if you interacted with the photos#but please just remember there is a person at the heart of all this#a very talented and attractive person yes... but a person all the same#i would truly hate to be famous it gives me so much anxiety just the thought of the constant scrutiny#good thing i never will be LOL#fandom wank#discourse
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i’ve already seen the bodily autonomy discourse coming back with g13. are we not tired?
#especially after all the rat grinders stuff last season#i think the d20 fandom already reached our yearly quota for pointless arguing#honestly there’s a little more ground to stand on with skip bc that was planned before the season even started#but with rekha she just thought it would be a fun and interesting character choice (and it IS) and went for it in the moment#like sorry she didn’t carefully consider all the implications of a split second role play decision??#it just brings me back to what a lot of ppl were saying last season#if you can’t deal with things not always being 100% thought out#don’t watch an improv show.#nsbu#never stop blowing up#dimension 20#d20#lee says things
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And now!
A week after the event has (officially) ended, most works have likely been submitted - which means it's time for some light stats =D
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The 17 wonderful podficcers who participated have made 66 works in exactly 66 fandoms! A special shout out goes to @kbirbpods this year, who made 21 pods all by faerself. And then one more in collaboration!
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45 of those 66 fandoms were unique*, making this the most varied Poly Podweek yet! But this year wasn't just a celebration of podfic and polyamorous relationships, but apparently also crossovers - that 1:1 ratio was only possible because of 14 crossover works!
As always, unique fandoms in this context means that different versions of the same franchise were considered separate, however, different adaptations and parent tags were not. Eg. ‘Wiedźmin | The Witcher - All Media Types’ and 'Wiedźmin | The Witcher (Video Game)’ would be considered as one fandom, whereas 'Star Wars Prequel Trilogy’ and 'Star Wars: The Bad Batch’ would be two.
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Continuing the trend of spreading love amongst more fandoms than ever - sometimes at the same time! - this is the first year a single fandom wasn't far more represented than any other. In fact, multiple DC properties were vying for the top spot, so it only seemed fair to give it to DCU as a whole, with 17 pods!
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Together all the works amounted to 19 hours and 27 minutes worth of podfic - the perfect amount for the next little while!
And there you have it, everybody, another Poly Podweek in numbers. Once again, thank you everybody who participated for making this event what it is!
You can find both 2025 collections right here: SFW | NSFW
#polypodweek#polypodweek2025#polyamory#podfic#funfact: each year we've had One more person participating!#hooray!#thank you everybody for keeping me on my toes these last few days#watching if we'll actually end up with the same amount of works and fandoms =DD#sooooo satisfying that we actually did it!#while on that#GOOD JOB EVERYBODY!! every year y'all blow me away with your passion and dedication and and#now shoo shoo it's time to rest and listen to all these wonderful pods#oh one more thing#i dearly hope there's actually 17 DCU pods#that's what AO3 tells me#because i've given up on trying to figure out what is and isn't a separate franchise there whoops#DC fans forgive me my ignorance 🙏#anyway#see you all next year!!#ta ta for now!
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Ladies and gentlemen, THE pick me. Should I explain or is it obvious? But I actually had sm fun hating on her with the all the girls. This girl is a bitch.
#coquette#girlblogging#lana del rey#lana del ray aka lizzy grant#dollette#tumblr girls#drama quotes#total drama#drama#period drama#2020s#netflix#what to watch#drama queen#pick me behavior#pick me ass bitch#pick me girl#pick me up#pick me choose me love me#sad bitch hours#bitchys#battle#argument#ahs fandom#ahs murder house#tate and violet#evan peters#make this blow up#girls just want to have fun#girl interrupted
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There's a toxic person who genuinely emotionally tortured me for a couple weeks that I strongly, strongly dislike who draws super peak dialtown fanart as well as dsaf fanart, and has a parody account on twt, which is how he met me. I'm worried now that we dont talk he'll move onto somebody else and do the same. I genuinely live in fear of this happening. This person also has over 8k subs on Youtube because of fucking course things couldn't be easy lmao.
I would so totally out who this person is but considering he threatened to kill himself multiple times and outright had attempts a few times whilst in contact with me, I literally can't. It sucks but like. Yeah.
Just... Know that one day you'll come across a really, really good Randy x Gingi fanart, and you'll never even know it was made by somebody who ruined my emotional state to the point I honestly don't think I'll be able to recover 💀
.... Ugh. Damn it. He's popular and well liked and I'm a complete nobody so regardless of the fact I screenshotted literally everything, it... kinda just doesn't matter, does it. Idk. The only reason I'm hesitating until I know for sure people care is bc I don't wanna do this unless I know for certain it'll have SOME effect other than just making him emotionally destroy me again/possibly harm himself. I want to be heard and I don't think him having an audience is safe in the slightest considering he severely emotionally abused a pretty badly disabled person (me) to the point I had seizures and almost ended myself too, but... like... it's not worth me dying over it if nobody will even hear me.
#vent#tw abuse#toxic people#dont meet your idols#dialtown#dialtown fandom#yes he is mentally ill but some things cant be excused at all and he was horrible to me#he became utterly obsessed with me within mere weeks and forced me into a situation where i had to pretend to like him so he wouldnt die#when i tried to remove myself from the situation he made one of his friends contact me to beg me to unblock#hed get so passive aggressive out of nowhere bc my friends disliked him. they recognised that he was abusive and so they openly hated him#he was so salty#they were having to watch me have these horrific panic attacks every time he spoke to me and so obvs they hated him but he was so so angry#he would draw such gorey vent art of himself right after our one sided fights id try so hard to avoid#then he made a vent twt and i had to watch him blow up every time i didnt wanna open up to him abt my personal issues#hed accuse me of pushing him away but i just didnt wanna be close to him in the first place but i was scared hed die if i left#i wanna say who this person is but im scared ppl will blame me bc i did kind of lead him on on accident#but i was just doing it bc my girlfriend DIED TO HERSELF in front of me... he knew this... i was so scared hed do it too#i told him multiple times and its like it just made him threaten himself even more. like it was on purpose#idk man im pretty badly disabled and i cant even tell if he meant to hurt me anymore. i really dont know#if people genuinely wanna know who it is i might tell bc i wanna open up about it but idk if ppl will care lmao#im not saying who it is unless ppl genuinely wanna know#dsaf#dsaf fandom
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Damn it, Good Omens. I'm really not a fan of flies, but now I feel bad being mean to thrm, because I know that would make Beelzebub upset, and I'd hate to upset her. :(
#diary pages#good omens#good omens fandom#good omens beelzebub#like what if being mean to flies blows my chance XD#there's a huge fly near me and i feel like bee's watching me 😬#sorry for being horrible to you in fics sometimes? 😅 at least i set you up with the hot enemy commander
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One of my all time favorite manga is getting a Netflix anime adaptation...
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#happy for the mangaka and all#but this is one of those series thats like ~special to me~ that i selfishly dont want to see a big fandom for#meanwhile theres other stuff id LOVE to see blow up more and get a big fandom#but not this one 😭#the comics got official EN releases starting about a year ago too so i guess this was inevitable#but like#man...#anyway everyone go watch the youhaji anime thats airing this season instead#and read deep sea aquarium magmel (and pray maybe we can get official EN releases/an anime of that)#and leave [redacted] alone to me and my brainworms#slutprince.info
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tonight I go to bed grateful not to be in my bnha phase right now
#pickle pontificates#oh boy. i see stuff starting to blow up over there right now#i have many feelings and thoughts about that series and the amount of good it did for me cannot be underestimated#but i was starting to get a bit frustrated with it around when the war arc started#and i sort of fizzled out in interest#and i stopped keeping up with the manga around the traitor reveal i think#it's bittersweet because on the one hand i cannot say enough about the good it did me#it influenced my real life and studies and hobbies in kind of a big way#but on the other hand i don't feel great about the direction it went#and I'm glad I didn't have to be disillusioned while i was in the middle of fangirling and fixating and whatever else#I'd also rather not be involved in whatever discourse I keep catching whiffs of#seeing that was always the most exhausting part of trying to scavenge the fandom and i am too tired for that#yeah. i guess I'm just glad i got to spend time with it when i did and also that I'm doing other stuff now#watch me talk about media like it's my ex rofl#not entirely wrong though... pretty sure I have seriously and directly compared reading dungeon meshi to falling in love on here#and that's been the case with other things. i fall fast and i fall hard and then we have a passionate affair for a few months to a year#and then we amicably agree to be friends with benefits forever and I move on to the next one#(at least with stuff I really like)#bnha is more of an ex that I had a great time with who taught me a lot but I'm kinda only stalking them on social media once in a while#and they're sorta expressing some mildly concerning political opinions that I probably should've seen coming#but they really weren't that much of a problem back then so it's not like i could've really done anything about it#(this is totally different from the way i do relationships irl which is that i don't and haven't ever)
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So I've been staring at Renegade Nell for like a week now thinking to myself "See, this **should** be the sort of thing I'm into" except it's Disney so I'm inherently suspicious.
Well
I'm five and a half minutes in, and so far it's exceeding expectations
So I guess I'm looking forward to finding out how it holds up by the end?
#watch this is how i get sucked into new fandoms#i have like two people to talk fan shit with this is the worst#there isn't enough time for me to be a hopeless fucking dyke about YET ANOTHER show#there are so many beautiful women on camera these days but god do i love someone with that uhhhhhhh#devilish ambiguity and penchant for blowing up peoples whole spot#i am extremely lucky that wifey is the woman she is and has historically been very protective of me#because i have TRULY toxic taste in women 90% of the time for exactly this reason#anyway#hashtag do i want to be her or fuck her (the answer will *not* surprise you)
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About to be a little #fandom critical while I’m still mildly delirious
One of my biggest pet peeves is people who draw/write cquackity and cpurpled as friends or even just like on good terms that aren’t forced
you can’t look me in the eyes and tell me that alex “no one will remember you” quackity and purpled “I don’t think there will ever be a point in time where I respect you as a person” bedwars are friends
#About to rant in the tags#Like#i understand if they have a mildly positive relationship due to just living and working in the same place#And because purpled was faking friendliness to make himself less suspicious#But they do not like each other. They are not friends. Let alone found family#mcyt#dsmp#dream smp#purpled#quackity#c!purpled#c!quackity#fandom critical#las nevadas#Like I’m all about dynamics that don’t exist have you seen my golden duo posts but this one always bugs me#purpled did not say “I’m going to fucking kill you” and kill Quackitys best friend and team up with stage duo to blow up las nevadas#For you to tell me “yeah they’re friends :)” “they have a family dynamic :):)”#There’s no genuine heat behind this I’m just tired#Also Quackity did not blow up purpleds house and watch him murder slime and CHEER AND CLAP WHEN HE DIED for you to tell me he cares about#him#like. they fucking hate each other. they’re mean little assholes who do not get along#this being said I have read fics and things where they have a friendlier dynamic but those were NOT canon compliant#If you made it down here thank you for coming to my ted talk#10piecetalks
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ok looking at the views on these kind of puts god-ish’s insane popularity into perspective. jesus
#god-ish blowing up like that is so crazy to me as someone who's been keeping up with pino-p new releases since kick ass literally#and watched that song drop like oh another pino-p song. oh it's good. thank you pino-p#and a year later whenever i poke my head into vocaloid fandom that song is Everywhere and the main thing he's known for
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I have a fic idea and I dont know if I want to write it or not send help
#like I absolutely love the concept of it and I have yet to see anything similar in this fandom#which. I mean a lot of works are either incomplete since a month after the game came out#or theyre 400 word long oneshots. which is fine no hate towards those but my adhd cant handle reading anything shorter than 15k#but on the other hand like. the amount of research I put into my canon divergence/slight au fics#where I keep like 80% of canon the same but one thing is different? I do those a lot lately#which. might have to do with the things Im into being heavy on the “doomed by the narrative” type of narrative yknow#but ghhhh I dont wanna research this game its so bad#like unironically I cant stand to watch a singular playthrough and considering how many moving pieces there are in the game like#like ok Im doing canon divergence in like. 2 months before That night. bc I dont buy that the camp is haunted and my psychic misses it#(the plot btw is that. because canon Has ghost. the Guy can now see ghosts. enter magic world building and interpersonal history#between a character I know next to nothing about. and an OC I know actually nothing about. despite me making that OC up)#and also the game takes place in america?? I havent been in america in over a decade I can name 5 states on a good day#hhghhhhh#sooo much research. so much. and for what. for a fanfic about dylan lenivy talking to ghosts#no actual plot yet either. except that I personally decided silas is like 12 and therefore dylan adopts him like immediately#...which. happens in several fic ideas I have in brain actually. none of the others are gonna be written bc theyre spinoffs on existing fic#but like. all I know abt the psychic au is that the crew arrive in their van first day of camp#dylan immediately clocks a ghost in his general vicinity and does a spit take so hard he chokes and immediately blows his own cover#then goes “there were NO ghosts when I went to camp here wtf??” and talks to the ghost of one eliza vorez#she does the whole vengence etc etc thing obvs but then apparently. she and dylans grandma knew each other#yknow psychic moms gotta have a Network. so the vorez family does Moon Magicks of the future and die young always as is their burden#and the lenivy family does Sun Magicks of the past and live long fulfilling lives that are dedicated to others#so naturally dylan pulls whatever his grandma told him out of brain and goes “hey dont u have a kid. he ok?” and proceeds to commit adoptio#some more stuff abt the missing hikers and my headcanon that dylan straight up does not live in that state anymore ensue#and uh. idk. he helps eliza and the other ghosts fulfill unfinished business. then punches chris hackett in the face#and rescues max and laura well before anything bad happens to them bc its been like 2 days at most#and the ghosts haunt the hacketts collectively so they absolutely go “oh btw u should probably know ur boss also kidnaps ppl”#(dylan has. a Time. but thats true for every fic I write for this godawful game with terrible writing and great actors </3)
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On being an older fangirl
I was probably 10 years old when I first conceived of what was, looking back, fanfiction. Me and my best friend would lie in bed together on sleepovers and I'd make up stories about what happened after the end of our favorite book, "The Westing Game." She'd ask me for more stories, and I'd tell her more, inventing them as I went along. "Then what?" she'd say.
I was 14 when I went to my first convention. I had discovered Star Trek: The Next Generation. It was 1987, and my youth pastor was a huge Trekkie. He took me to a one-day crappy Creation con, but it was amazing to me. I met Nichelle Nichols. My dad showed me the Trek movies. He and I watched TNG together.
When I went to college in 1991, my dad used to videotape TNG episodes onto VHS tapes and mail them to me, so I could keep watching (I didn't have TV in my dorm room).
By the time I was a senior, we had Trek watching parties in the dorm lounge, where the TV had cable. Star Trek: Voyager had started up, and I wrote a column about it for the college newspaper. I joined a mailing list about it, with people in it that I still know today.
I got my first computer that could go online in 1995. I was on newsgroups. I discovered Doctor Who. I went to Trek conventions where we still passed around fanzines containing fic and art and smutty K/S fan creations.
Then it was Harry Potter. Then there were websites. Then there was Geocities, where we could all make our own little spots. We organized them into webrings. We talked on newsgroups and mailing lists. There were fanfic archives. Then there was fanfiction.net.
Then...there was LiveJournal. And we could interact in entirely new ways. We could form communities, and debate things, and fight over canon, and get into ship wars. On LiveJournal, I met my best friend of 22 years. I was in her wedding. She's my sister of the heart (which is what she calls me).
Then there was Tumblr. And Twitter. And now there's Discord. But it's all the same.
I am the same.
I am still that little girl who made up fanfiction in her head to entertain her best friend. I am still the one who was amazed to find communities on the internet - which was so new, so raw, so uncommodified - where others like me could meet. I found there people to meet in real life.
I am still that twentysomething going to her first major convention, being told that someone loved my fic, being asked about my writing process.
I am still that thirtysomething watching something I wrote blow up. Seeing friends from other fandoms find me in new ones, finding them there, too. Forgetting which fandom I know someone from, because I've known them for twenty years.
I still know some of the people who created those early websites, those mailing lists, those archives. I still meet people in new fandoms who say "Oh, I read your fic in [fandom] fifteen years ago!" There's no feeling quite like having someone remember something you wrote for that long. Or meeting someone whose fic meant a lot to YOU, or who you talked with on rec.arts.drwho.creative in 1997.
Aging in fandom is a gift. Being middle-aged in fandom is a joy. Having people who still read what I write and ask "Then what?" is a blessing.
It breaks my heart that so many people see it as something to be ashamed of, when it is one of my life's greatest gifts.
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