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tsunami-of-tears · 7 months ago

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The Wolf and the Fox

Tamcien (Alpha Tamlin x Omega Lucien)

Summary: Tamlin is having a rut at the most inconvenient time. Lucien is a cocky shit and not helping the issue.

A/N: My first omegaverse fic!! I’m surprised by how quickly this one came to me, I think this may be the thing that gets me out of my writing slump. Inspired by the prompt “You get a little stupid when you have your rut, it’s cute.” and this request.

Wordcount: 1.3K

Warnings: 18+, smut, omegaverse - A/B/O dynamic, Lucien is a total brat, it's the omegaverse so Lucien has a cunt, PIV, biting, idk it's filthy tell me if I missed anything x

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Tamlin

Today of all days. The ruts always come at the worst time

Tamin has too much to do, too many meetings. Surely the other Alphas will understand if he has to postpone. Maybe he can hold out until after? Then he can find some meek little Omega to bury his knot in.

He needs to stay focused. Limit his distractions. A quick order to his sentinel had the Omegas removed from the manor for the day - to limit the effect of their scents on him.

Working away at his desk, attempting to prep for his meetings, Tamlin is too consumed trying to concentrate that he doesn’t notice the door opening or the male that steps inside the room.

A honeyed scent envelopes Tamlin, the familiar sweetness making him groan and thrust in his seat, the friction of his trousers doing little to sate his needs.

A sharp cough has Tamlin growling deep and low, and raising his gaze to the male standing before him. Tamlin’s bright green eyes meet deep russet.

Lucien. Fuck.

Lucien wasn’t like the other Omegas. It was easy to forget his true nature with his cocky attitude. Tamlin even considered the male a friend and trusted him completely.

Tamlin whined as Lucien’s scent thickened - the natural response to Tamlin’s rut.

“Alpha,” Lucien says hesitantly, “Why did you have the Omegas removed if you’re in a rut?”

The question only earned another low growl from Tamlin as he unbuttoned his trousers, allowing his throbbing cock to spring free from the confines. He starts fisting himself, hard and rough, but still nothing compares to the wet slick of an Omega. Tamlin hopes his hand will be enough to take the edge off, to get him through the day before he can bury himself in some Omega’s warm cunt, before he can pump their belly full of his seed.

Please let this be enough.

Tamlin whines again, his palm only makes him more desperate for release and his cock starts to ache.

Lucien steps closer to the desk as Tamlin’s fist picks up speed.

Smirking, Lucien says, “You get a little stupid when you have your rut, it’s cute”.

“I just have to get through today, you wouldn’t understand.” Tamlin snarls.

“You’re right, I don’t understand. But I can help, since you’ve dismissed all the other Omegas for the day, you’re stuck with me,” Lucien drawls, watching the motions of Tamlin’s hand jerking up and down.

Tamlin growls again. “No, not you.”

“I’m offended, Alpha,” Lucien scoffs, stalking closer. “You know, all cunts feel the same when you’re knotting them. You can even take me from behind, then you can pretend I'm any Omega.”

Tamlin’s fist stops, and he looks up at the male in front of him, the male sporting his famous lazy smile.

“I’ve already had today’s business postponed so we won’t be interrupted. You’re free to pump me full of your seed all day long. Or you can keep trying to impregnate your hand. Doesn’t make much difference to me,” Lucien shrugs. “You must have skipped that sex-ed class though, because I’m afraid that’s not how breeding works. I’d be happy to show you how, Alpha.”

Tamlin closes his eyes, inhaling slowly through his nose. His nostrils flare from Lucien’s rich scent.

“Come. Here.” Tamlin grunts.

Lucien doesn’t move, he only inspects his sharp nails, appearing bored with the interaction. “You should ask me nicely, I am the one doing you a favour.” He looks back at Tamlin with a cunning smirk.

No. He’s not like the other Omegas at all.

“Please,” Tamlin whines. “I can’t take it.”

“Please what?” Lucien asks.

“I need to knot you.”

“Okay,” he says, taking the final step towards Tamlin. “Show me how a pack leader fucks.”

The request has Tamlin unleashing, tearing that final shred of self-control. He stands up, ripping his remaining clothes from his toned body. His cock springs up, the tip is swollen and red, and dripping with arousal. He stalks around the desk, moving closer to Lucien, who’s own scent has deepened, betraying his sinful thoughts.

“Well, are you going to fuck me or what?” Lucien asks.

Tamlin snarls again, lurching for the male, grabbing him by the scruff of his neck and forcing him to brace his hands on the thick oak desk.

“I’m going to ravage you so completely, all other Alphas will be ruined for you,” Tamlin growls, moving his hand to grip Lucien’s long red locks. Tamlin tugs firmly, forcing Lucien’s head back.

Lucien whimpers softly as Tamlin turns his clothing to ribbons with a quick flick of claws.

“That was a nice shirt.”

“I’ll buy you another.” Tamlin snarls, rubbing his cock through Lucien’s pooling slick. “You are like the other Omegas it seems,” Tamlin says, “At least in the ways that matter.” Tamlin finally pushes into Lucien’s cunt. He moans loudly, relishing in the warmth and wetness of the Omega, finally feeding the beast that is his rut.

Tamlin keeps one hand in Lucien’s hair, the other firmly gripping his hip, stabilising the male as Tamlin thrusts into him.

‘Yes, you are just another needy little Omega. Perfectly breedable. I’d like to watch your belly swell with my litter,” Tamlin growls between thrusts.

Lucien moaned again, enjoying the force his Alpha was using on him. He was fulfilling his most primal purpose and he loved it.

“You know I can take it harder than this?” Lucien grunts, his nails digging into the table at every slam of Tamlin’s cock, leaving indents in the wood.

“Be careful, Omega,” Tamlin tuts, picking up his pace as he gets closer and closer to knotting.

Tamlin drops Lucien’s hair and pulls out of Lucien abruptly. Lucien whines at the sudden lack of friction, and the loss of pleasure so close to that edge. “Flip over,” Tamlin orders. “I want to see your face as you take my knot. I want to see the moment you lose yourself to it.”

Lucien turns over, well and truly fucked in submission by Tamlin. He sits on the edge of the desk with his bare legs spread wide. His thighs shine from the mess made by his slick dripping out of his cunt.

Tamlin cocks his head as he asks smugly, “Finally learnt your place?”

Lucien swallows, his throat bobbing before he nods in answer.

“Good.” Tamlin purrs, lifting Lucien’s legs and wrapping them around his waist. He once again sheaths his cock inside Lucien, earning a moan from the Omega.

Tamlin grips Lucien’s neck, angling his gaze to where the two were joined. “Look,” Tamlin orders, “I want you to watch as I rut into your tight hole, watch as my knot fills you and I pump you full of my seed.” Lucien whimpers again, the sight of their bodies merging only causing more slick to run down Lucien’s thighs. “Look at you taking me, like the good Omega you know you are.” Lucien nods, his approaching climax not allowing words to form in his mouth.

Tamlin continues to fuck into Lucien, his knot forming at the base of his cock.

The scent, the heat, Lucien’s golden skin and his face contorted in pleasure, it all had Tamlin unravelling. The urge to mark Lucien, to claim him, comes on strong.

Tamlin tries to fight it but loses the battle. His teeth sink into the flesh where Lucien’s neck meets his shoulder. Claiming Lucien as his, and his alone. The act holds Lucien in place as they both reach their completion. Tamlin’s sharp canines draw blood as his cock spurts his cum deep into Lucien’s cunt.

Lucien moans as Tamlin withdraws his teeth and flicks his tongue over the open wounds. Both climaxes still subsiding, the haze of pleasure slowly fading away.

As Tamlin pulls out, Lucien’s hand rises to his neck and rubs over the tender flesh. “You bit me?” He asks incredulously.

Guilt settles over Tamlin, but he doubles down on his actions. “How could I not?” he exclaims. “You’re mine, and I want all the other Alphas to know it”

Lucien huffs as Tamlin leans forward, holding Lucien's face gently in his hand. The first hint of softness from the male since he started his rut. Lucien leans into the warm touch, sighing softly as Tamlin presses his lips to Lucien’s. “All mine,” Tamlin whispers.

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inconsistent-kuroshitsuji-blog · 9 months ago

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Can I request Sebastian with a gender neutral s/o (or master) who had a mental breakdown bcs of math and acted like nothing happened infront of him? (I'm gonna lose my mind over math)

My dearie, of course. I know, it has been a while, but now I am here. (That sounded like I'm some sort god-figure.) I'm about 90% sure that I have completely lost my mind over math and have no way of getting it back.

Sebastian comforting you after you lose your mind over your math homework

When the fuck did math get letters? Why does math need letters? Why must it make a problem out of everything? Who cares at what degree a certain angle of a roof of a weird art exhibition is. Why should you care at what height a discoball is located if a laser hits it at a certain angle? And who even thinks of such ridiculous problems?

Advanced education? More like an advanced headache. You've sat here at your desk for about three hours, longer than you planned to. You were just trying to do your homework, but nothing was working out. The numbers didn't add up, you don't even know where to start at. It is all too much, too much at once, you just can't handle it anymore.

Throwing away your pencil, you start sobbing over that darned piece of paper. What is this supposed to teach you? Well, nothing that matters to you, of course, yet you're still forced to keep up with algebra and geometry and analysis, totally useless in your daily life. If only these problems were solvable with tears. The only thing they do for you right now is smudge your already hastily written tasks and solutions. Oh, how you hate this. You can only hate this. How could you ever do anything else-?

Your door opens. What now? Who has come to bother you at your lowest point of the day?

"Is everything alright, my dear?", you hear, yet you don't look up. You don't have to do so to know who is there. You'd recognise his gentle voice in a crowded room full of people who don't know how to properly adjust their voice volume. You also want to save yourself from the embarrassment of him seeing your puffy red eyes. So you only mumble something into your arm, something along the lines of "Maybe, I don't know, leave me alone.".

But he didn't. Of course he didn't leave, he never really does what you tell him to. Just like his beloved cats, Sebastian does what he feels like doing at any given point. So if he wants to physically see your tears for his amusement, he will watch them slowly run down your cheeks. You hear how he places something infront of you.

"If everything truly was alright, you'd show me your beautifull face. So, look up for me.". That snarky bastard. You'd hate him for that if you didn't love him more. So you slowly look up to him, eyes all puffy and swollen. "See? I'm fine.". You finally realised he placed a batch of biscuits infront of you, freshly made of course. Sebastian looks down at you with that smirk he always seems to have on his face. "Well, I don't believe you. You're a bad liar, kitten. What is troubling you?". He doesn't even wait for your answer, he just looks down and responds with a little "Ah.". He saw everything he needed to see.

"Is your scholarship too hard on you again? Or is it you being too hard on yourself?", he asked while sitting down next to you. He seemingly tries to make out what you wrote, but it is simply incomprehensible thanks to your tears. "I told you already, it's nothing. Just some stupid problems. As if I would've brought them to class anyway..."

"Frustrated, are we?". "Shut it...", you deliberately look away, yet he pulls you into his arms and starts to stroke your head. "Now, no need to cry over silly made up numbers and problems. Rest your head for now.". Sebastian slightly nudges your head onto his chest. Maybe he's right. You should take a little break, just for now.

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Phew, finally something fresh on my paige. As you can guess, I'm well and alive, more alive than well but alive nonetheless. I'll see how I can get back on track. But until then, I will fulfill the meaning of my name by disappearing suddenly and reappearing again. Like a little ghost.

Until then~

Your Inconsistent Kuroshitsuji Blog~

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xxsabitoxx · 2 years ago

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The Pillars and their Wolf Ranking

Warning: Alpha / Beta / Omega type shit. I… yeah. No m!preg or slick tho lmfao just a causal… post hmm

A/N: this is fully meant to be a crack head canon post. The idea came to me while I was delirious at 4am… honestly I should have taken it as a bad omen but here we are. Fun fact I used to strictly write A/B/O fics for a very different fandom LMFAO 🫣

I genuinely could not take this seriously the whole mother fucking time so PAH-LEASE don’t come for me for the cringe… or maybe you like this idk I don’t judge

Tomioka Giyu

Alpha

Against his will tbh, he was hoping to be a beta

He’s more withdrawn and “timid�� for lack of better words

A particular someone was enraged when Giyu turned out to be an alpha and not him

His only plus is he doesn’t have to deal with omega heats… the idea makes him a bit uncomfortable

Kocho Shinobu

Beta

She’s relieved, though she wouldn’t have minded being an alpha

Had she gotten the title of omega nobody would have ever heard from her ever again

Mama ain’t raise no bitch… cause mama didn’t raise her but anyways… she’d sooner jump off a cliff head first into a rocky ravine before letting some alpha mate her

She can go about her life as normal

Rengoku Kyojuro

Alpha

He’s not ashamed of it, he rather likes the role

He loves to take care of people, he can command without coming off like a douche bag and people are more than happy to oblige

Plus he wants a big family so being an alpha makes it easier for him I guess

Omegas in heat do have to stay away from him though… he can’t help it… the issue being they practically throw themselves at him

Uzui Tengen

Alpha with three mated wives looking for a fourth

You’re on something if you don’t think this man is an alpha in every sense

Alpha Tengen is horny so don’t be shocked that he already has like five kids with more on the way LMFAO

That being said, Hina, Makio and Suma are obviously omegas

He’s a charmer, so along side Rengoku, people like to go to him for help and such

Kanroji Mitsuri

Alpha female

You thought I was gonna say omega, didn’t you?

Naw my girl is too damn strong (albeit emotional) to be classed as omega

Hell she was pretty shocked by it, so was everyone else. She’s so emotional they for sure thought she’d be an omega. Then again her appetite…

Luckily though the man she had her eyes on happens to be an omega

Iguro Obanai

Omega who genuinely would have offed himself if Mitsuri didn’t turn out to be an alpha

I don’t care what anyone says I totally see this man being an omega and completely and utterly embarrassed because of it

His only saving grace was Mitsuri being an alpha and tbh he finds it so unbelievably hot

While he is an omega he definitely isn’t a shrimpy little bitch and can fully handle himself

When it comes to Mitsuri though he’ll absolutely let her baby the fuck out of him and call him cute

Shinazugawa Sanemi

Omega bitch boy LMFAO

Stfu rn cause baby girl is 100% an omega and I have proof… sorta

My proof being that Gyomei said Sanemi was shy in the little “what the pillars think of each other” thingy

He’s the one that’s enraged about Giyu being an alpha, not even Obanai is that mad lmfao

Tbh it was too cliche to say he’s an alpha and honestly he just doesn’t feel like one to me

Himejima Gyomei

Beta surprisingly

He’s a gentle soul so it makes more sense that he’s a beta and not an alpha

He’s a beta that people still look towards for advice and protection

Similar to Shinobu, he’s chill with this cause he can go about living his life and not having to worry about ruts or heat lmfao

He’s not an overly horny man so…

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changingplumbob · 4 months ago

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Foster Household: Chapter 9, part 14

CW: Mental Health Struggles - Guide to content warnings

Friday. It should be the best day of the week with school winding down but instead someone decided to make Fridays exam days. First up was the exam for English class, testing reading comprehension and writing skills.

Darwin: Why didn’t you guys tell me it was exam day

Carson, William, Onyx: EVERY Friday is exam day

Darwin: Yeesh, calm down. You’d think I asked who killed Father Winter

Mrs T: 10 minutes to go!

Carson panicked. He still had another paragraph he wanted to do, could he fit it in and triple check his multi question answers? Pushing his doubts aside he began a breathing exercise and started on the paragraph. He needn’t have worried. He managed to do it and recheck the first two pages before Mrs T announced it was time for pencils down. As she collected the papers he rhythmically tapped his foot to make sure she wouldn't laugh at his first paper.

Onyx: I feel like I did okay, how about you?

Carson: I probably failed but if I didn’t maybe a solid B+

Onyx: You’ll be fine. All your family head home then?

Carson: Yeah they’ll be off by now. I didn’t kill Reece so I suppose it went well

Onyx: He might have killed you with a slow acting poison in your breakfast

Carson: Oh my- Nyx could you not!

Onyx: Right, anxiety, sorry, bad joke. I’m just trying to improve my comedy

When they got to the cafeteria they split with Onyx heading for food and Carson looking for Ariadne.

Ariadne: Hey! I didn’t think I’d get to see you at lunch

Carson: I’m going to go study in a minute but I wanted to check you’re still okay with me getting you home?

Ariadne: I’d love some company on the trains

Carson: Good. Well, see ya

He turned to go but hesitated. The hug had been good, maybe... Carson turned back to face Ariadne, leaned down and kissed her on the cheek and sped off to the sounds of her friends oh’s and ah’s. Well that hadn’t been bad. He still didn’t feel an urge to woohoo but it felt comforting to be close to her, that he was letting her know how he felt. Seeing her smile after, knowing he’d made her smile like that, it felt satisfying enough for him.

The after exams were the STEM subjects. Carson felt reasonably confident about his knowledge. He may have been distracted thinking of Ariadne but he’d completed all his homework, and done the extra study. He finished double checking everything five minutes early and started thinking about after school. It was just one question he was worried about. Flirting was one thing but would she actually want to be his girlfriend?

The train ride was easier than he thought. Carson and Ariadne talked about the various things they could spot out the windows and were together when their exam results came through. They’d both done pretty well and Carson was happy with getting the top score in the art section of the exam. When they got to Ariadne’s house she didn’t want to go right in, preferring to sit outside and admire the lake for a bit.

Ariadne: It’s so beautiful when it’s all covered in a blanket of white

Carson: Well you’re beautiful full stop

Ariadne: *smiling* Thank you

Ariadne: Thanks for bringing me home, it was fun. I should probably get inside before I turn into ice. Unless... you want to come in?

Carson: Oh no that’s okay, I do have to get back to Sulani. I’ve got planning to do before scouts tomorrow. But um... I’ve really liked hanging out with you more

Ariadne: *smiling* Me to

Carson: So I wanted to ask, and you can totally say no, if you would maybe... be my girlfriend?

Ariadne: You want me to be your girlfriend?

Carson: Yes. I... I would like if you’d consider it

Ariadne: So you’d be my boyfriend?

Carson: Yeah that’s... that’s kind of how it works

Ariadne: If I say yes do you promise to take me to our next prom?

Carson: *laughs* Of course I’d take you to prom

Ariadne: Yes. Yes!

Carson: Are you sure? I mean I like how I look but I worry you’d be embarrassed to be dating a four eyed overweight guy. I don't want you to die of embarrassment

Ariadne: *sighs* You worry a lot huh

Carson: Yeah. I ah.... I have OCD actually

Ariadne: Listen Carson, I like you. I think your glasses are cute. Anyone makes fun of you for being overweight and I’ll show them you have a girlfriend that’s not to be messed with

Carson: *laughs* You’re like ant height

Ariadne: But you like me regardless, and I like you regardless

Carson: I do

Ariadne: Can you wait five minutes before heading off? I just want to grab something for you

Carson: Okay. If you come back and I’m not here tell them to dredge the lake

Ariadne: *laughs* I’ll just be a minute, no one’s going to murder you in a minute

She races inside and Carson can’t stop himself grinning. He’s glad for the falling snow to cool the blush in his cheeks. It’s longer than a minute but Ariadne comes back outside with a rose.

Carson: What’s this

Ariadne: My dads got me some pots and seeds and not much has grown yet but this rose bloomed a few days ago and it just made me think of you

Carson: Watcher you’re so cute

That’s the Foster’s for now! Harvey is still chomping at the bit for grandkids while Kayleigh is making a habit of painting masterpieces. Carson may have a lot going on in his head but hopefully making his relationship official will take care of some of his worries.

Rotation Wrap Up will be out tomorrow morning.

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kolbisneat · 1 month ago

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MONTHLY MEDIA: December 2024

I'm not one to rank stuff at the end of the year cause I'm easily swayed by recency bias. Anyway here's how I spent this final month of the year two thousand and twenty-four.

……….FILM……….

Josie and the Pussycats (2001) Some of my favourite art is both joyful and scathing. It's such a fine line to walk and a miracle when it works. Having never seen this before, it took me about three scenes saturated with product placements to realize that Josie and the Pussycats walks that line perfectly. Instant top film for me.

The Holiday (2006) This is a movie that I enjoy every time I watch it, but for different reasons. Sometimes I love how unique it was to cast Jack Black in this role, and sometimes I feel like he sticks out like a sore thumb. This time what really stood out was FedEx's sponsorship.

Santa Claus is Comin' to Town (1970) There's something really zen about defeating the villain by outliving them. No better way to succeed than by continuing to live your best life.

Akira (1988) Got to see this in the theatre for the first time and it was such a wildly different experience. The surround sound was cranked, the imagery filled my entire field of vision, and the audience was dialed in. It was incredible.

Die Hard (1988) I know it's cliché but this is a holiday staple. Every year I think about why the scene of Sergeant Al shooting Karl sits wrong. I know it completes his arch and maybe saving John and Holly redeems him, but is it necessary? It's the ONE scene that keeps this from being a perfect movie in my books. Anyway I love it.

Midsommar (2019) Still isn't the movie for me. I know horror, by default, tends to be mean-spirited, but I still don't get why the London couple was murdered. They seemed pretty chill and nice and had a natural response to the cliff-jumping. Glad Dani found a family though!

……….TELEVISION……….

Skeleton Crew (Episode 1.01 to 1.04) Slow to check this out simply because the recent Star Wars shows haven't really inspired much hope. Happy to be proven wrong as the show, so far, is a delight! My only fear is that it'll all tie into some legacy character in the last episode. Please I just want a show that exists in this world but does its own thing.

Columbo (Episode 2.01 to 2.05) Consistently fun and I always appreciate how the crimes allow a little more of Columbo's character/personality to be revealed (the London episode's final particularly stands out).

Arcane (Episode 2.04 to 2.09) Continuously stunning but ultimately not where I thought it was heading. Season one spent so much time on the class disparity but that's mostly ignored in the second season in favour of a big battle that ultimately wasn't impacted by the majority of the main characters.

Dan Da Dan (Episode 1.10 to 1.12) I didn't realize the season ended at 12 episodes (and at such a strange point, narratively) but I'm really enjoying this world and its weird cast of characters. Again: if you check it out and find the alien probing scene of the first episode to be too much, know that I felt the same way and feel like the series hasn't hit that same low point in the remaining 11 episodes.

A Nonsense Christmas With Sabrina Carpenter Of the current era's popstars, I know the least about Carpenter and her music. The writing was sharper than I was expecting but the audience insert shots reminded me more of a modern comedy special than a classic variety show. Just give me some low wide shots of the audience watching the show, otherwise I assume the B roll is staged. Merry Christmas!

The Chair (Episode 1.01 to 1.06) A great lil series of television. Loved the setting and characters, but admit I found the ending to be a mixed bag (some threads were tied up in a really smart way while others seemed to be totally forgotten) but overall satisfying. It looks at these complex issues complexly and I respect that.

……….YOUTUBE……….

Why every restaurant has the same desserts by Vox I love dessert but this explains why I almost never order it when I'm out for dinner. VIDEO

Josie and the Pussycats is the Greatest Film Ever Made | Essay on Film | Amber Flannery Field by Amber Flannery Field Essays A concise expression of why Josie and the Pussycats is so great. VIDEO

……….READING……….

The Adventure of the Christmas Pudding by Agatha Christie (Complete) Perfect holiday read though I didn't realize it was a collection of short stories. Some were more fun to read than others, but that's on me as I have trouble keeping characters straight if they aren't given much more than a name and description.

The Sailor on the Seas of Fate by Michael Moorcock (Complete) These old pulp fantasy novels are always an interesting read. The characters are little more than names and descriptions, and the plots feel familiar (probably because of how influential they were on what came after) but what I enjoy most Moorcock's breakneck pace. Some of the books from this era are one concept stretched out beyond its limits, but this is full of concepts that could fill out an entire book yet get a couple of chapters before moving onto the next cool thing.

Hawkeye by Matt Fraction, David Aja, and many more (Complete) I frequently choose to reread this around the holidays. Even before the loosely-adapted show stuck with the Christmas timing, it's just felt like a winter read. Can't recommend this enough for really highlighting what comics can be.

Reckless by Ed Brubaker and Sean Phillips (Complete) The art is great but after reading a couple of Brubaker books, I now realize I do not like his writing style. I wish Brubaker would let some of the storytelling happen through the visuals but that's not his approach and honestly I think I'd prefer reading his work if it was strictly a novella or full length book.

……….AUDIO……….

Brat by Charli XCX (2024) Hey have you heard of this album? Pretty good.

……….GAMING……….

Spot it! (Blue Orange Games) I won't be swayed on the fact that this is one of the best party games. Good for most ages and player count, easy to drop in and out of the game, and (most importantly) very quick to explain and easy to grasp the premise. Every card has 8 symbols on it. Every card matches with every other card via 1 symbol. The matching symbol is different on each card. There are different games to play based on this fact but most tend to involve finding the matching symbols first to get rid of your cards. It's frantic and fun and rounds take just a few minutes. Super fun.

And that's it. See you in 2025!

#Monthly Media #Kolbisneat #Andrew Kolb

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tgrailwar-zero · 2 months ago

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Servant Matrix: SUZUKA GOZEN

Class: Assassin True Name: Suzuka Gozen

Gender: Female

Alignment: Neutral-Evil

Height/Weight: 164cm (including the fox ears) / 51kg

Source: Suzuka-no-Soushi, Tamura Sandai-ki, and others

Region: Japan

ENDURANCE GAUGE: [X/X/X/X]

MANA CHARGES: [ X / X / X / X / X / X ]

COMMAND SPELLS: [ ------ ]

A heavenly demon that begets evil unto evil.

Legend says that she's the daughter of the Demon King of the Fourth Heaven, sent unto humanity in order to spread chaos, corrupt mankind, and turn Japan into a country of evil. For whatever reason, she didn't drive Japan into evil as her father ordered and instead romped around the country appealing to her own desires.

A thief. An oni. A celestial maiden.

The legendary bandit chief and warrior of the Suzuka Mountains, Tate Eboshi. The legendary demon sent to ravage Japan, Suzuka Gongen. The legendary celestial maiden and slayer of great demons, Suzuka Gozen. Someone who has worn many names and faces as time has passed on and her name was passed through the lips of the people.

While not a Saber, she still has her swords-- the Sanmyou-no-Ken (Daitouren, Shoutouren, and Kenmyouren). Some say that these blades were hers to begin with, others claim that she stole them from her (false) husband Otakemaru in order to weaken him so that her partner Sakanoue-no-Tamuramaro could slay him, though some also say that she slew Otakemaru herself. A woman of conflicting legends, who has experienced her own share of trage--

"But like, that's totally not important! I'm a JK now! And a super cute one at that! Hey, Master, do you have LINE? Omigosh, you should totally add me~!"

…She says these things with a very convincing smile, though the earnestness behind them is very difficult to ascertain. Apparently, she's just your average girl that you'd see and meet anywhere. Bubbly, stunning, and always sporting a smile that could melt even the coldest of hearts.

Still, it's best to remember that she's a brutal, demon-blooded, thievi--

"Oh, and aren't these fox ears, like, super adorbs? And my tail is so fluffy! I wear it much better than a certain jackal-faced courtesan, don't I? Come on, give them a feel! Ahaha, are you blushing~?"

…Right. 'Super adorbs'. And that's that. Would one even dare to ask what she's even doing on and around the Solar Cell?

"I mean, that's not like, important or anything? So, nope~♡"

Alright then.

Strength: D

Endurance: D

Agility: A

Mana: A

Luck: B

NP: EX

SKILLS:

Presence Concealment (JK) (A+) - The skill was originally 'Presence Concealment (Bride)', but was changed to match her current sensibilities. Hides one's presence as a Servant. Suitable for spying. It is possible to disappear completely and become almost impossible to be detected, even against a Servant's perception. However, efficiency will decrease once preparations to attack are taken.

A skill made devastating with her Mystic Eyes. A unique variation where even if she isn't actively hiding, her nature as a killer is difficult to discern. One could see her sharpening her sword, ask her outright 'are you planning to kill me?', and she'd reply 'Omigosh, do I look like someone who kills people?' with a look of deep offense. After all, JK's aren't usually killers.

...By the time you reached the conclusion of 'I guess not…' your head would already be effortlessly removed from your body.

Magic Resistance (C) - Cancel spells with a chant below three verses. Even if targeted by greater magecraft and Greater Rituals, it is difficult for them to be affected.

Riding (B) - Talent for riding. Can ride most vehicles, but not Phantasmal Species.

Mystic Eyes (Papiyas) (B→A+) - Charm males through eye contact, making them madly in love with Suzuka Gozen. While common legend asserts her as the daughter of the Demon King of the Fourth Heaven, a lack of information on said Demon King and her original legend being heavily based in oral tradition has led some to believe that she was the daughter of the Demon King of the Sixth Heaven, and it simply got corrupted over time. While Suzuka insists her father is the Demon King of the Fourth Heaven, some aspects of the latter have mixed in, giving her traits related to the Demon King of Desire- Mara.

Her Mystic Eyes are supercharged. While it can be somewhat avoided with Magic Resistance, since its usage is limited to charm, it can’t be help that one will find her lovely. Suzuka usually keeps the glamour of her mystic eyes turned down, so when she uses them at full power its rank is increased to A+. Even when turned down, one can't help but find her immensely charming.

Divinity (A-A+) - Determines the divinity attribute of that body. As the daughter of the Demon King of the Fourth Heaven, Suzuka Gozen has high Divine Spirit aptitude. Furthermore, with the use of certain skills, rank can gain a +.

Divine Power (B Rank) - A fragment of a god’s power. She can freely move objects around at will. However due to manifesting as Servant, it suffered a Rank down and she can only move items that belong to her, most notably her swords.

NOBLE PHANTASM: Otakemaru's Bane

A Noble Phantasm centered around deception and betrayal. Her core as an Assassin.

A Noble Phantasm innocuously presented as a near undetectable passive ability. Subtle magic energy emanating as a 'weakening aura'. Rather than directly facing an opponent, Suzuka Gozen puts herself in a situation where she's considered an ally. The longer she is in the presence of the target of the Noble Phantasm, things such as conceptual defenses begin to weaken in effectiveness, and weaknesses are gradually revealed to her until she finds the right time to strike.

And like Otakemaru, they always fall.

NOBLE PHANTASM: Love Blast - Demonic Sun-Shower

The Noble Phantasm derived of the blade 'Daitouren' (Greater Communion). Daitouren is the blade that she most often uses, and tends to favor on most occasions.

With the proper preparations and chants, Suzuka can unleash a shower of blades, up to 250 swords. The accuracy is not always the most precise, but she possesses skills and Noble Phantasms that can turn an aimless barrage of blades into a deadly rain of mystical steel.

NOBLE PHANTASM: Blessing of Wisdom

The Noble Phantasm derived of the blade 'Shoutouren' (Lesser Communion'). The blade forged by the Bodhisattva Manjushri, when drawn, grants the user immense wisdom. Strikes become more precise, battlefield awareness increases,

While Suzuka Gozen is an adept fighter, the Blessing of Wisdom drastically increases her intelligence regarding all things… including the way she conducts herself. As thus, she is very insistent about not using this Noble Phantasm.

"Like, it's just not the sort of thing a JK should be using, y'know?"

She says casually, without elaborating further.

NOBLE PHANTASM: Trichiliocosm

Sanzendaisensekai.

The Noble Phantasm derived of the blade 'Kenmyouren' (Divine Manifestation).

The details of this Noble Phantasm are sealed. However, this Noble Phantasm is why Tamamo-no-Mae considered her as the potential 'backup brain of the Solar Cell', allowing Suzuka Gozen a level of processing power that eclipses anything Tamamo could even dream of using.

However, the great power promised with it can come with a heavy price, Suzuka Gozen seals this Noble Phantasm, and most likely would have to be forced to use it with a Command Spell.

#servant matrix

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sondheim-girly · 4 months ago

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alright chat, time to yap about Paul’s very comphet crush he developed on marcia!

warning: this is all based on things that the actors in the musical have said are canon about their characters, im just filling everything in with my headcanons. If anyone’s curious about what parts came from the actors just send me an ask!

-ok so first off, we’re just gonna ignore Darry’s canon age for the sake of these headcanons cuz it’s SO inconsistent in the musical and confuses me endlessly

-Paul, bob, trip and Darry are all in the same grade

-Marcia, Bev, cherry, brill, and Chet are in the grade after them

-and then two grades below them are Melvin and Sergei, but they’re irrelevant to all this (if u ever want me to talk about them tho I have so many thoughts dw)

-ok so it all starts when Paul’s in 8th grade

-even tho they’re all so young the guys are already starting that toxic masculinity thing in how they talk about girls

-and bob already had the biggest crush on cherry (he legit has liked her since forever)

-and b&b already know that they’re gonna get married and have planned out their entire future 🤦

-so there’s this whole expectation that Paul also likes a girl

-and he can’t figure out why he’s never felt that way before

-so one day they’re all in a pe class that mixes the grades

-and they’re all talking about girls and blah blah and someone asks Paul what girl he likes

-and Paul looks over and pretty much randomly picks Marcia

-and so it begins!

-they all make it this whole big thing about how he likes her, and when Bev finds out it’s basically over

-Bev thinks that Marcia is just too weird and needs someone like Paul to make her… more soc and make her mind her own business ya know?

-Marcia’s always been the kind of person to always speak up when she shouldn’t, and she’s too loud, and so she also feels this pressure to try and fit in

-so with some pressuring from Bev, she’s like ‘ok sure I like Paul and I’d go out with him’

-and also girly wants the validation of someone liking her cuz she’s insecure as hell

-so they start dating, and it is SO AWKWARD

-not only are they in middle school, which is always the recipe for awkward dating, but neither of them actually like each other as more than friends

-neither of them even like them very much as friends!

-they go to the movies once, and Paul decides to hold Marcia’s hand because he knows that’s what he’s supposed to do

-and Marcia spends the entire movie like🧍‍♀️I hate this

-after they date awkwardly for a while, Paul decides he should kiss her, cuz like… isn’t that what he’s supposed to want?

-anyways Marcia immediately cringes away from him and is like “sorry I can’t do this anymore! I’m breaking up with you!”

-poor girl was dating the gayest boy in town

-anyways he’s kinda relieved for a while

-but when he goes into freshman year he has this epiphany that he likes darry in the way he was supposed to like marcia

-and he doesn’t fully understand, but he freaks the fuck out and can’t look Darry in the eye for weeks

-so he completely gaslights himself into thinking that actually Marcia broke his heart and he still likes her

-and he keeps this up for a while, but it gets harder and harder to ignore what he’s feeling for darry

-so he kinda forgets about Marcia but keeps her as the default answer whenever the guys are talking about girls and being gross in the locker room

-but while doing that he’s totally messing around with Darry

-they both have so much crazy internalized homophobia but they’re also both so madly in love with each other

-they’ve definitely drunkenly made out on multiple occasions

-and sometimes when they were completely sober

-but they don’t talk about that!!

-anyways right around when Darry and Paul ‘break up’ is when Marcia and trip get together

-which is perfect timing for Paul because he just throws himself in to being ‘heartbroken’ over that instead of being heartbroken over his boyfriend dumping him

-and he’s just so freaked out about the way he felt about Darry that the he just forces himself into liking Marcia more and more

-and then we’re all caught up to canon!

#Sorry this was longer than I intended #I’ve never made headcanons like this #Which is kinda scary #But I hope y’all like these!#jean has thoughts #the outsiders musical #the outsiders broadway #the outsiders #paul holden #peril #parry #marcia the outsiders #the outsiders headcanons

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sunnywalnut · 10 months ago

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I miss when autistic rep was on accident. I feel like every time a neurotypical/allistic person tries to write somebody with autism on purpose, it just comes off as "he's a total jerk, but he's REALLY GOOD at what he does" instead of "this guy's facial expression doesn't change very much, but I promise you he's absolutely happy to help. Also talk to him about birds. He fucking loves birds."

And I don't mean "he loves birds" as in "this guy wears bird shirts 24/7 and corrects you if you accidentally call a pigeon a dove." No. I mean "he loves birds" as in "he's able to name the sound of the bird just by it's song and point to it and it's just sitting on the rooftop next to you" and if you ask questions he gets this little smile to his face and answers them all and even tells you about some drama about two researchers who were unsure of they could call two birds different species since they were so similar and then gives you the answer of they can, because their beaks are different and that means their diet is different or whatever.

Not every autistic dude in media has to be "UwU save me from the world and take care of me bc I'm just a smol beannn✨"

Sometimes they're just Chad from maintenance who seems to love his job a bit more than he should, but it's all good bc everything that's fixed works even better than it was before it was broken. He's not creepy or anything. But he WILL call you over if he sees you walk past in order to show off his latest repair and talk to you about what he did. Everyone loves Chad. They're happy that he's as dedicated to his job as he is. Plus it makes the office a lot more bearable to have him around because he always seems to wear this gigantic grin and talk with his hands.

You're absolutely able to have "cute" autistic characters. I have cute autistic characters.

I have a little elf girl that counts each individual strand of her hair when she's nervous and climbs trees. She loves baking, so much so that she will make everything gluten free, kosher, dairy free, vegan, whatever you need in order to make sure you're included. As soon as she steps into a garden, she's completely covered in dirt. And yes, she's extremely friendly and doesn't understand social cues. And sure. She has her boyfriend take care of things for her, like keeping her safe from creeps when she's in public, and shutting down scammers before she can pay them, but it's not because she's dumb. It's because he elected himself into that space. And he knows full well that if she decides to scurry off to whatever wonderful thing that has caught her eye, that she'll wander back to him when she's ready. She knows how to defend herself. And he trusts her. And she does things for him as well. Which is something I don't see in autistic/allistic relationships in media at all.

Like do y'all really think our partners are just our glorified babysitters???

We're not just there to sit still and look pretty.

We're there to be your emotional rock. We tend to have high empathy. We can listen to your problems and validate your emotions. And sure, we might give you some advice that seems a bit wonky at best, but anyone can do that. Not just autistic people.

Sometimes we take over financial decisions, for one reason or another. I had a partner that would always come to me for financial advice despite living on their own and having more than enough money to do what they wanted with, but they knew that I could budget better. I'm good at math. And no, not a "math wiz" all A's kind of good. But a "I can do big number addition/subtraction and sometimes multiplication within seconds in my head" which was also really helpful in my culinary class when my teacher would put me in charge of making sure we were on target with how many servings of food we had. Not every autistic person has to be leagues above the rest academic to be autistic. My allistic brother had straight A's for YEARS. Much longer than I did. I had A's and B's.

You can come to us if you need a hug. Or to cuddle. Or to body double. Or just to hang out. Some autistic people like touch. We crave it. I can guarantee you that if we were friends and you climbed up on the couch next to me and laid your head in my lap, I would let you. No questions asked. I'd even pet your hair. And I'd ask you about your day. I can't count how many times high fives have turned to hand holding with my friends because they needed a loving talking to about how great they are. Or a back rub when they're crying. Not all of us are going to stand there, staring down at you while you're curled up on the floor and be like "STATISTICALLY SPEAKING-" yeah no. And the people who DO that likely are trying to relay information that they know that they think will help you feel better. We're odd, but we're not heartless. Let me get down on your level. Sit with you. And then I'll talk to you about how tears are actually really healthy and it's good that you're able to cry. And also I'm proud of you and let's get you some water, okay?

We can take care of you too!!

I give all my friends hair care advice bc I've spent too much time watching hair stylist videos. I tell them to make sure they lotion after every shower when they complain about dry skin or body acne. I tell them to drink water after they cry. Or wash their face. Or alternate ways they can get around invisible barriers and still get what they need done. You know how many times I've had to sit down problem solve with my loved ones for over an HOUR bc their ADHD decided not to let them brush their teeth or take a shower? I have a whole ARSENAL of advice to give you. And yeah. If you're close enough where I can head over to your place, I WILL do your dishes(bc somehow they're less gross than mine). I WILL wash your hair for you, or fold your clothes or clear the counters of trash. Not because I think you're lazy or nothing. But because I see something that needs to be done, and I do it. Because I love you, it's simple, and hey, I'm here anyways, right?

Like shit. Every night I have a sleepover with my best friend, I do the dishes that were in her sink before I even came over while she starts on dinner. Because I love her. And that's my way of paying her back for picking me up. I clear all our trash, and the scraps of tea bags that she missed in the mornings. Because I love her. And it's simple enough I can do it myself. I chop the garlic as we cook together because we're working as a team. And yeah. After it's all over. We sit on the couch like a bunch of lazy dogs and watch TV and chat and do whatever. And sometimes. We don't do anything but just enjoy each other's company. Because as adults, we don't get a lot of time to just relax.

We all have our own strengths and weaknesses. And sure. Being friends with an autistic person isn't always sunshine and rainbows. Sometimes our behaviors or our tenancies can be stressful. Like sensory meltdowns, or our bluntness(which is honestly usually just us saying exactly what is true without sugar coating it. Like if you said the sky was purple I'd be like "nah it's blue rn" and people find that blunt and rude. But to me, that's just a fact. I'm not saying you're dumb. I'm just saying it's blue right now.) or sometimes, even when we get super hyper about our interests. I would know. I'm autistic myself. And I irritate myself.

But it seems like in media, the irritation is all people can see. Even in "supportive" families that I see in shows and such, everyone's always stressed all the time.

You're telling me ONE LITTLE CHILD is tearing this entire family apart? (*COUGH COUGH Young Sheldon COUGH*) Not only is that stupid, that's just inaccurate.

If you wanna be accurate, maybe don't have every autistic person you write be a "high functioning" male in a doctor's coat who's transphobic as fuck and his excuse being he's autistic.

If you know the bitch is outwardly transphobic, don't fucking put him in the room with trans people.

And also?

Autistic people are allowed to learn the difference between sex and gender. We're ALLOWED to learn about queer identities. And we're ALLOWED to be queer ourselves without being labeled as idiots who don't know any better.

I've YET to see a show about an outwardly queer autistic girl who is able to make awesome friends and overcome her challenges WITHOUT succumbing to being an asshole on purpose.

Except for The Owl House. And Luz isn't even canonically autistic. It's just speculated.

THAT is good autistic representation.

Not whatever the fuck "The Good Doctor" is supposed to be.

My Personal List Of Good Autism Rep Recs(non canon, sadly):

-Good Omens(not explicitly canon, but multiple characters behave in a way that could be labeled as autistic. Plus Neil Geiman, the writer himself is autistic)

-The Owl House(again. Not explicitly canon. But great. The whole show is about accepting yourself as you are and is kinda along the lines of Gravity Falls. In fact, she was in a relationship with Alex Hirsh, creator of Gravity Falls. And also she's bisexual with a CANONICALLY BISEXUAL LEAD!! Also is lovely for mental health allegories too)

-Gravity Falls (the whole Pines family just REEKS autism to me. Noncannon.)

-How To Train Your Dragon(Hiccup is autistic as hell and you can't convince me otherwise. Non canon)

-Adventure Time (some of the humor is dated, but enjoyable. Also Princess Bubblegum. Need I say more?)

-We Bare Bears (slice of lifey. Sometimes childish. Sweet as hell though. Grizz feels very autistic to me, but that could also be because I enjoy how huggable and easily excitable he is. Everyone loves him. He's loud, he can absolutely be obnoxious, but he loves his bros and tries his best to give everyone the benefit of the doubt. He also does his best to fix any problems he makes. Which in my book, makes him a good guy. Some people also claim Ice Bear is autistic. But personally, I feel like he just doesn't talk much. What do you guys think?)

#actually autistic #autism #autistic #autism representation

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hi! i saw your post on ocd and it home bc for a few months now i've been asking myself if i have it. i definitely have intrusive thoughts, maybe compulsions, i think all closer to moral ocd? however i absolutely don't have the means and time to seek a diagnosis or therapy rn so i was wondering: do you have tips or like, little things that make dealing with intrusive thoughts a bit easier?

hiya!

that's totally understandable, sometimes it simply isn't possible to go through all that - i didn't start getting treated until i was in my late 20s, so i spent a lot of time just trying to navigate life without therapy or meds.

recognizing i'm dealing with an intrusive thought and that it isn't a "regular" thought helps me still, because some of mine sneak up on me, or i'll think they're justified, or i'll think they're related to something else, like my mood disorder. even when i'm going through a period where i'm having a lot of intrusive thoughts, i can recognize that the thought itself is an outlier (and should not be counted). this makes dealing with it easier for me.

the actual factual real advice i get in therapy for dealing with intrusive thoughts is called radical acceptance, and with that comes acknowledging what you are experiencing, acknowledging your lack of control, and accepting it. it also means not fighting your intrusive thoughts, but sitting with them. allowing them to happen. and then moving on. tbh, it can be really difficult to do this, and really frightening when you first start out. it feels natural to flinch. but i think that even practicing it out on intrusive thoughts that don't feel as bad or as big to you can help.

something i did for a long while was writing down my intrusive thoughts on a slip of paper, and then shredding the paper as a way of getting the thought out and then letting go of it

ymmv on how workable this is, but keeping (reasonably!!!) busy can help. i tried to do way too much in college (do not take 8+ classes a semester that is wayyyyy overdoing it and you will burn yourself out) but it was also probably the most sociable i've ever been. which hopefully leads to more support when it's especially bad.

if there's anyone you feel safe enough to talk about it to, that can also really help. espeically if they a) have it themselves, or b) know about it/are willing to learn. it's good if there's someone irl, but even having someone online who can... help ground you, if that makes sense. my buddy elie will sometimes say "bro that is your ocd talking", and that can calm the righteous fury/crushing anxiety/whatever it is today by realizing that it is 1) not that serious and/or 2) incredibly unlikely to happen. (i find this works best w my moral ocd symptoms & my 'what-ifs')

my last big one was just Getting Silly With It. for a long while i was responding to my intrusive thoughts by treating them like a lucid dream and changing the situation to something completely absurd. sometimes i'd respond to it by thinking 'and thats my pitch for a horror novel!' at the end of the thought. then for a while i'd say 'okay gideon' bc giving it a name and a face made it easier to see it as like. a problem i could at least look at. i can't say these are necessarily the best coping skills, i've never really told my therapist abt these methods, but i still do them on reflex sometimes when i think 'i dont have time to sit here and deal with this thought'.

journaling in general also helps esp if you can identify stressors in your life that might be making it worse.

wishin you luck!

#squid pro quo #anxious-andconfused #icarus.txt

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paralyze-fic · 6 months ago

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Paralyze.

Chapter 89

After our battle ended, Yaomomo and Tokoyami were taken by robots to Recovery Girl, while class B decided to stay as they mentioned they were okay and mostly unharmed, so we walked back to the platform in complete silence. I could feel my throat kinda scratchy, so I wasn't feeling like talking, knowing it would get worse.

As soon as we made our appearance, we were surrounded by the majority of both classes. Some of my classmates praised me for my quick thinking and strategy and I sheepishly scratched the back of my head, slightly embarrassed at the sudden attention.

"Going after Fukidashi when he used his quirk was good thinking, (M/n)-kun," Izuku spoke as he looked down at his notebook, "Keeping an advantage point high off the ground was on point as well, I think this was the best outcome for Class A, honestly..." He began mumbling, not really talking to me anymore.

"Playing unconscious was clever, you totally caught us, (L/n)," Kendo-chan's voice caught my attention, and I shrugged with a grimace.

"Still feel like I should've tried winning more fairly, to be honest," the rest of Kendo's team walked behind her and looked at me.

"It was fair. I controlled Dark Shadow, and you tricked us back," Kuroiro spoke, arms crossed, and Komori nodded next to him, staring up at me, her hair moving slightly to show her left eye.

"We had no idea just how powerful your quirk was, (L/n)-kun, you deserved to win," she smiled at me and I looked over at Fukidashi.

"Also uh..." He turned toward me, "Sorry about the kick, I didn't mean to hit you so hard," he shook his head and stepped closer.

"As students from the hero course, getting hurt is part of the training! Don't sweat it!" I chuckled and put my hands in the pockets of my jacket, staring at them, replaying the battle in my mind.

I took a deep breath, smiled at them and nodded goodbye before I began turning around to head over to Katsuki, "Let's fight again soon," the four of them smiled -or I assumed Fukidashi did at least- and nodded, determined.

On my way to my boyfriend, class B would compliment me, making me feel extremely embarrassed.

Thankfully, Vlad King had called an interval due to the destruction of the field that had to be moved yet again, and we were having a small break, so maybe I could-

"You've gotten really strong since the Sports Festival, haven't you, (M/n)?" I turned around at the sound of Shi-chan's voice.

For a moment, I thought he was mad at me, but I noticed the corner of his lips moving up, a gesture he did whenever he was proud of me. Right, this was the Shi-chan who protected me from bullies before my quirk manifested; he told me he would always feel proud of me and of the quirk I have.

I crossed my arms and walked closer to him, leaning against the railing like he was, "That would be thanks to Kat-... Bakugou for training and sparring with me whenever we have a chance, and now Iz- Midoriya has joined us in our training, so..." I glanced at the blue sky while letting out a sigh, "It's thanks to them. I discovered a lot of things my quirk can do but I still have a lot to learn..."

"It's such a shame you weren't transferred to class B, (M/n)-kun!" Monoma came out of nowhere, forcing me to lean down so he could wrap his arm around my shoulder, I silently stared at the blond as he kept talking, "We would've been a powerful duo!" He exclaimed dramatically, like he always seemed to do, his hand on his forehead looking eccentric.

Even more than he usually does.

I sweatdropped at his behaviour but I wasn't quite sure how to free myself from this random situation, "I'm sure we would have, Monoma..." Before any of us could say something else, Katsuki approached us with heavy steps and held my hand, forcefully pulling me away from the blond without saying a word.

I looked over my shoulder as he dragged me away somewhere else. Where? I had no idea.

"Talk to you later, Shi-chan!" He nodded and Monoma instantly turned to talk to him instead, so I focused on Katsuki and what he was doing, where he was taking me...

We were walking straight to All Might and Izuku, huddled up in a faraway corner while the rest of the students were focused on their battle strategies.

"Be careful, in the fifth battle..." I heard All Might as he talked to Izuku, glancing over to the side, where Shinso was, "Young Shinso, who triggered the vestiges of One for All, will be there."

"Yes, I'll be careful," Katsuki stopped behind Izuku and I wondered how All Might hadn't noticed us, or well, if he did, he didn't rat us out to Izuku.

"Oi," Katsuki's gruff voice caught their attention, effectively startling the greenette.

"Waa...cchan! You startled me!" I held back a smiled at how Izuku reacted.

Katsuki took in a breath and took a step forward, slightly ahead of me, "Don't ask us to keep the secret if you're just constantly gonna be chatting up secretly in public, you'll be found out!" He was definitely pissed off, although I didn't really mind it, they had been doing this practically since they met, as far as All Might told me.

Both of their reactions to Katsuki's complaint were to stand there looking at the ground, ashamed and gulping loudly in unison.

"Don't you gulp at me!" After aggressively expressing himself to them, he calmed down a bit, "Did something happen? With One for All?"

Izuku seemed guilty as he glanced over at me, and I leaned closer, could it be...? "T-the truth is..." He looked down at the ground and lifted his right hand, staring at it, "Something happened in the middle of the night while I was asleep... My quirk had a spontaneous discharge," that means...

"So that was the glass breaking? A spontaneous discharge?" Izuku nodded and I frowned, trying to understand why it happened. There was more to it and Izuku wasn't telling us. Why? No fucking clue.

"Ha! I don't even know if you're getting better or worse anymore," seeing as this had turned into a conversation between Katsuki and Izuku, I moved over closer to the railing, hoping on it and sitting on top, leaning forward and placing my elbows on my thighs.

"Neither do I."

For a moment it almost felt like Katsuki was encouraging Izuku on, telling him to get stronger so they could have their battle rematch. I could see All Might thinking so as well. Of course, that changed immediately after, and I couldn't hold back a laugh as I watched All Might's face fall, any trace of a smile completely gone, and he now seemed deep in thought as he looked at the sky.

"The next stage will take place two blocks east from the previous ones," Vlad King caught everyone's attention, and I hopped off the railing, making my way over to Shi-chan.

However, Katsuki had different plans for me. He stood somewhere near his previous spot and pointed at the floor between his feet, "I wanna talk to Shi-chan, Katsuki," he reached me with his free hand and pointed at the ground again.

"Sit," I grinned at him and sat in between his legs. The next battle was Katsuki's team, so I was gonna use that time to be with Shi-chan; after all, I didn't mind being in this spot.

I watched the screens as each team reached their starting zones. It was Shouto, Iida, Shoji and Ojiro going up against Tetsutetsu, Kaibara, Honenuki and Pony. I won't lie, seeing Tetsutetsu destroying the whole scenario, even after receiving orders from Vlad Kindg to keep the damage to a minimum, was hilarious.

"There'll be no tricks, we'll fight face-to-face!"

I glanced over the various cams, and I caught sight of Shouto right as he sneezed. I wasn't crazy, quite a few squeals were going around at that.

Well, I decided to continue paying attention to the battle. Class A separated and Shouto used his ice attack.

I frowned as I watched and couldn't help but think that was a mistake, "Shouto shouldn't have done that," I mumbled to myself, not really realizing I had caught the attention of some of my classmates and some from class B.

"What do you mean, (L/n)?" I looked over at Mineta as I heard my name and I turned back to the screens.

"Honenuki's quirk has a wide range, covering the affected ground with ice will only give him the chance to soften it as well, however, with fire..." I trailed on as I watched Iida sink inside the ice, confirming my theory.

"Using ice was the cheap option; if you had attacked with ice, we couldn't have done anything," Honenuki's voice filled our ears, making everyone focus back on the screens as he said the exact thing I was thinking.

I remember being really careful about his quirk during the Calvary battle at the Sports Festival. Well, for now, it seemed class B had the advantage, with Pony's sneak attack against Shoji and bringing support to Tetsutetsu, having him fight one-on-one against Shouto, the battle was turning out quite interesting.

It just got better when Iida managed to free himself from the ice. He moved so fast that it was almost impossible to see him through the screen. Honenuki realized the risk of going alone against Iida and softened the ice, sinking into it.

Changing my focus, I watched as Ojiro struggled to fight off Kaibara. His quirk really made me wonder if I could stop him with mine...

Iida came by and took Kaibara with him to the prison, successfully capturing one.

"When he's turned into steel, he can move even when he's frozen," Sato's comment made me look back at the cam showing Shouto against Tetsutetsu, and I could see how the bi-coloured haired male struggled to fight against Tetsutetsu's quirk.

"Only an idiot would attack with so much ice when it doesn't do anything to him," I glanced up at Katsuki, and while I could half agree, Tetsutetsu could turn into metal, which was able to withstand equally low and high temperatures. I didn't know if he had a limit, and if he did, it was gonna be hard to know what it was.

Shouto was having trouble going up against him, that much was obvious with a simple glance.

"It burns!" Tetsutetsu backed away from Shouto, and the camera stopped functioning; thankfully, there was another one at a safe distance that turned toward him.

His left side reminded me of Endeavour; seeing him up in flames brought me back to Kyushu for a moment.

A lot of things happened that I hadn't been paying attention to. Ojiro was captured, Shouto was semi-conscious in Iida's arms as he escaped, Tetsutetsu and Honenuki were both lying on the ground, the former crawling over to the quirk-affected water tank, and Honenuki yelling at his teammate to hit it.

Iida ended up caught under it, unable to move, leaving Shoji against Pony, as everyone else was knocked out.

She elevated herself and her teammates with her with Shouto in her arms, far enough away to prevent Shoji from catching her, "Tsk, she ran away," I tapped Katsuk's boot with my knuckles a couple of times and looked up at him.

"Retreating and waiting for backup is also something Heroes do, Katsuki," he looked down at me, he knew I was right and couldn't think of anything to say back to me. I sighed and stood up, looking at him with a small smile, "You're going up now, love, shows us your strength."

I noticed the tip of his ears turning pink and he huffed, reaching for my hand and squeezing it for a short moment before walking over to his team.

"There's no way we can win anymore, but we can still tie," I looked over after catching Monoma's voice, hearing his laugh and watching him do his Dio pose again. Kaminari stood close, completely unphased, "I anxiously awaited this battle, because we have Tokage in it... You'll see, Bakugou-kun," I sweatdropped at him.

This definitely had something to do with the Sports Festival, didn't it? I do faintly remember them going up against each other during the Calvary battle...

Sighing, I made my way over to stand next to Shi-chan.

"(M/n)," I hummed as I watched the screens, seeing both teams getting ready, "Can I ask you something?"

"Shoot," I mumbled while keeping a close eye on Katsuki. Hearing their strategy made me smile, it was hard to listen because of the all the noise going on around, but I managed. With that, there was no way in hell they were gonna lose.

"Are you and Bakugou a thing?" With wide eyes, I looked over at Shi-chan, who wasn't looking at me. I stayed silent, getting his attention, "Are you?" His purple eyes seemed to be piercing into my soul, and I found it impossible to lie or hide anything from my best friend.

"Y... Yeah, we are dating... We've been for a while," I whispered as I played with my fingers, feeling a little embarrassed about getting caught. I wanted to tell Shi-chan about it; I just wasn't sure how or when, and I had to ask Katsuki. But now I was kinda panicking, if Shi-chan was able to tell, then maybe the rest of the class had already caught on that we're dating-.

"Hey, don't stress," his voice brought me back, the heavy and warm feeling on his hand through my clothes helped to ground me, "You've always had this look in your eyes whenever you're in love, I've known you for twelve years, you're not exactly hard to read, (M/n)," I blinked a few times at this new information dropped on me like a bucket full of ice water.

I stared into Shi-chan's purple eyes, looking back into mine with an empty stare, and I noticed the smallest glint of it. "So... You knew..."

"That you had a crush on me in middle school? Yep," well, I was sure my head would go right through the platform if I decided to bury my head in embarrassment, "Don't worry about it, I thought it was cute."

My hands went up to cover my face, feeling as if I was gonna spontaneously combust with how heated up I felt.

"Still, it must have been awkward for you, Shi-chan..." He simply made a 'dunno' humming sound and I peeked through my fingers at him.

"I thought I had a crush on you when we were kids, but... You're not my type," he mumbled with a shy grin as he looked off into the distance.

Following his line of sight, it landed on... Monoma, or was it Kaminari? They were standing right next to each other, so it was hard to know for sure.

I couldn't help but chuckle, my arm dropping around Shi-chan's shoulders and pulling him close to me, he grunted but didn't push me away and instead leaned closer, "Loudsy blonds, eh? We're not that different after all."

"Well, we've been attached at the hip our whole life, kinda expected it," we looked at each other and immediately started laughing.

Before any of us could say another word, Vlad King announced the beginning of the fourth battle, so we turned to watch the screens. Sero was preparing a trap with his tape while Jiro-chan was busy tracking the sounds and movements of class B's team. They were going against Bondo, Awase, Tokage and Kamakiri, whom, a while back, I had come to realize had a similar personality to Katsuki

"Two wins for class A, and a draw for both classes! Class A seems to be holding their own!" Vlad King spoke loudly into the mic, and I sighed, already anticipating what he was gonna say next, "However, class A owns their first victory to Shinso," the next screeching scream he let out made me flinch, "Can we even count it as such?"

"That's unfair, Vlad-sensei!" Eijiro and Kaminari began complaining, only to be stopped by Aizawa. And well... Monoma made his appearance, mocking them only to have Kendo-chan hit him like she always did to handle him.

Hearing the sound of Katsuki's explosions I looked back at the screens, "You're too slow!" He yelled looking back at them. The only one able to sort of keep up with his speed was Sero, and even if they were "slow", Jiro-chan and Sato were putting in the effort to stay close behind him. "Shut up and follow me!"

Katsuki took the lead, keeping an eye out for anyone getting close. He seemed to have seen someone, as he stopped himself with an explosion and landed on a pipe underneath him.

"There's someone! Ears!" I shook my head at how he refused to call our classmates by their names. He knew them, he just didn't think it was that important, "They're all together, find them!"

Jiro-chan used her quirk and tried to find them, taking longer than usual. She was quick when it came to scouting, so I glanced over at other cams, seeing small pieces covered in purple fabric bouncing and tapping metal surfaces, then I saw Tokage floating in the air. Right, I forgot about how her quirk worked.

"It's a trap!" She exclaimed and the whole team tensed up. I remained calm while I continued watching.

Katsuki was exceptionally good at quick decision-making under pressure, I know damn well how strong and fast he is. Class B thought of a good plan, however...

Jiro and Sato had run back to the trap Sero had created, calling out for Katsuki, which let class B know their position, and Bondo used his quirk, using Sero's tape to their advantage as he covered it with his glue.

"Too slow!" Kamakiri came down from his hiding spot and sliced up the pipes in different places and various sizes, all of which started to collapse and gravity did its thing, taking it all down and getting dangerously close to the rest of class A's team.

Even though it seemed like class B had taken the advantage, I spotted the random black and orange blur as Katsuki zoomed toward the rest of the team, using a wide explosion to get rid of everything and saving the three of them in an instant.

"We're gonna win! I'm taking Jiro first!" Kamakiri did the same as before, coming in through the dust and smoke clouds toward who he considered the easiest target out of the four.

But Katsuki was already there to save her.

Even if he kicked her out of the way, although it was a rather nice and gentle kick, almost like a nudge, giving Jiro time to rebalance herself and regroup with Sero and Sato.

He did tell them he would save them if they were in trouble, and if he was in trouble, they would save him. Katsuki had changed so much since our first fight, and how much he had grown and matured in these past months was gonna show one way or another.

He blew Kamakiri away, who somehow managed to cover himself with his blades, "You blocked it? Insects have good reflexes!" Katsuki sent him flying once more, further away this time and I chuckled as I watched him give out orders to Jiro.

Something I had definitely noticed when I joined class A was one thing. The class was divided into two, but they still worked together just fine. They either followed Izuku's drive to become a hero, saving people to win, or Katsuki's, whose drive was to become a hero, defeating villains to win.

I was somewhere in between, as a few of my classmates were as well.

"It doesn't matter if it's training or not, I decided..." Katsuki had a wild look on his face, a determined fire in his eyes, "I will dominate every battle and come out on top. Four to zero, no wounded," I could see their stance change along with their demeanour, "That is... How those who are actually strong win."

I smiled as I heard his growly voice say, a superior grin on his face.

"You're saying he did a complete change?!" The screeching noise coming from our right made us jump, we looked over and realized it was Monoma, definitely overreacting just a little bit too much.

Thankfully, he shut up quite quickly after his initial shock.

Turning back to the screens, class B appeared to be retreating, most likely because they didn't want to fight Katsuki straight on, who was the main threat of class A.

Realizing this, Katsuki propelled himself forward chasing after them, trying to find a stray class b member, and Bondo squealed in fear as the spiky blond flew past him, giving his position away. He got chased and he crawled on all fours, reaching a corner where Awase had apparently been hiding for a while.

"Oh, so Bondo was the bait..." I mumbled to myself, moving to stand slightly behind Shi-chan and resting my chin on top of his head, "Separating Katsuki from the others would've been the best plan, but his combat style changed and shifted into a team player rather than a solo, so... I doubt it'll work."

Shi-chan shifted in place and I glanced down at him, "Why? Class B's plan seems solid to me."

"Well, Katsuki and Sero work well together and are friends," I used my hand to begin giving out my points, "Jiro spent a long time working with the band, so all of them have good teamwork when together, and Sato has always been quick to help and bring support when needed," I kinda hesitated before continuing, "...And Katsuki loves his baking so they spend time together in the kitchen most days."

"So Bakugou has a sweet tooth... Who would've thought?" Shi-chan mumbled watching the screen with a slightly different expression on his face. I almost laughed, remembering he also loved sweets.

Yep, who would've?

Focusing back on the battle happening, I watched as Sato managed to free Katsuki, sacrificing his gauntlets, though he didn't seem pissed at all. He smirked, and I smiled, too.

He's about to destroy class B.

Sero and Jiro teamed up right behind Katsuki as they chased after Awase, who unfortunately played into their faint attack and got taken out by Jiro's attack, while Katsuki went on ahead, searching for the remaining two threats, completely ignoring Tokage above him.

Sato ran behind him, staying somehow far away to not be spotted by something other than the cameras, and Bondo turned around, using his quirk to try and stop Katsuki.

"Winter is not the best season for me!" So he says as he practically hits Bondo everywhere with his explosions, leaving him stunned for a moment, "I finally warmed up!" As Katsuki continued ahead, Sato captured and incapacitated Bondo.

"What a great coordination! They captured two of my lovely students!" I briefly glanced over at Vlad King, and he seemed distressed about the situation.

Jiro guided Katsuki to where Sero was fighting Kamakiri, reaching him in time and holding onto one of his sharp bent fangs, spinning in the air. That was the Howitzer Impact move...

However, seeing him throwing Kamakiri straight into a wall made me guess it was the Excatapult he had told me about once.

Sero captured him with his tape, and I watched him as he wrapped around different pieces of Tokage's body, preventing them from moving and going back to their original body.

"Wow, that's genius," as Tokage was busy trying to find where class A was, she wouldn't have noticed until it was too close to her or was too late. Sero tapped the hand grenade Katsuki gave to them onto a piece of her body.

The explosion gave away her position, and I saw Katsuki changing direction as he heard it, too, coming up behind her and igniting his hands right in her face.

"You... How have you changed this much?!" She exclaimed as his quirk blinded her with the bright light before Katsuki grabbed her face and propelled himself with an explosion directly to the ground.

"I didn't change; my objective remained the same," despite knowing she wasn't fully cognitive, he still answered her question, "Surpass All Might and be the number one hero."

What followed was the slow part, all of them picked up a student from class B and made their way back to the prison.

"Only... Only..." They closed the door and began walking away, "In only five minutes, with excellent teamwork, class A won four to zero!" Jiro and Sato high-fived while Sero took off his helmet and Katsuki fixed the collar of his shirt, making their way to the stairs and back on the platform.

Aizawa praised their teamwork, and I saw Katsuki walking to stand in front of All Might and Midnight. I couldn't really see them from my spot, but it was definitely something good as Katsuki's body language said he appreciated the meaning behind All Might's words.

"Kacchan!"

"Out of my way!" Oh, that scene kind of reminded me of my first hero training with class A. I chuckled and released Shi-chan, as his last battle would begin soon.

"Good luck, Shi-chan," he looked at me and showed me a small smile. I raised my fist, and he bumped it lightly before heading over to his team. I watched as Katsuki walked toward me, his team and Kaminari following behind him.

"This will be the fifth battle, the last one of the day. Is everyone ready?" Vlad King called out for the teams to prepare and they left to their designated zones.

"Katsuki being the MVP, but... That is nothing new, is it?" He tsked and reached for my hand, wrapping it around his shoulders and leaning his back on me, making me lean against the railing. "Izuku is going up now. What do you think, Katsuki?"

He groaned and glanced at me for a moment. "Raccoon Eyes has a ranged move, she could stop size's attack melting them," 'Kodai-chan,' I whispered in his ear her name but he ignored me, "Round Face can go up against poltergeist," 'Reiko', I did it again, "The little midget's quirk can stop twin impact by trapping his attacks," 'Nigerenki', completely ignored, "And Deku..."

He stopped and frowned, crossing his arms over his chest.

"That damn nerd can do all three against that copying bastard, they just have to not respond to the purple dude's words and they will win," I was kinda surprised about his analysis of the fifth battle, but well, Katsuki was constantly competing against Izuku and he wanted the greenette to become stronger, to be able to keep competing.

He will never admit how much he enjoys having someone that rivals his power and intelligence. Makes him want to be better.

I sighed and leaned my cheek on his soft spiky hair.

"However, Deku will definitely fuck up, he can't control his emotions well," now he had a sort of sadistic look on his face, as if hoping Izuku would make a mistake and lose.

"That's a way to prove you're better, I guess...?" I trailed on kind of unsure of what I should say, however, before our little chat could continue on Vlad King announced the official start of the battle, so we kept quiet and focused on the screens.

I was really hoping Izuku's quirk was fine after that "spontaneous discharge" he had. He said it happened in his sleep, so I wondered what could've triggered his quirk. Did he feel in danger? Was he overwhelmed by emotions? I really wish I would've asked, although... He might've kept quiet about it.

The battle started with Izuku taking the lead and moving ahead of the rest. They were working on a strategy with him as the lead, and probably the bait, which I understood.

They communicated silently, with only motions and signs, unable to speak to each other to not expose their positions and prevent Shi-chan's brainwashing.

Uraraka, Mina and Mineta began working on their plan, a trap to be able to track and find class B, but a moment after Mina used her quirk against overgrown bolts, I glanced over at the screen where Izuku was as he made his way up the pipes as I had done.

Soon enough, a barrel surrounded by a purple mist flew toward him and Izuku managed to hit it back. His attention deviated toward Monoma and he focused on the eccentric blond from class B. They appeared to be having a conversation, well, a one-sided one, as Izuku was being careful of Monoma's copy quirk.

On the screen beside it, I could see the rest of the team struggling against the coordinated attacks of class B.

I had no idea how this fight would turn out in the end.

I watched attentively at Izuku and Monoma, and something felt off when I saw the greenette's expression. He seemed to be in sudden pain.

Then it happened.

Katsuki tensed in my arms and my breath hitched when I saw those black tendrils spurting out of his arm. That seemed like a complete independent quirk from One For All...

"One for All... Its a quirk passed down from user to user through generations, accumulating power and getting stronger to save people from danger, is a quirk made to stop All For One, young (L/n); One For All connects all of us and responds to the calls of help."

All Might's words echoed in my head, and my mind started working, fast.

If One for All is a quirk passed down through generations, a quirk that gets stronger with each new user and as time goes on, could it be possible that it retains something from each predecessor? Wasn't there a study, about blood cells containing memories? Quirk factors are part of the DNA structure, so it's not entirely impossible, is it?

Have all the One For All users been quirkless before? Like All Might and Deku?

Because if they weren't, then that means...

My train of thought stopped when I caught movement out of the corner of my eye, and I saw All Might rushing over to Aizawa and Vlad King. He seemed tense and anxious as if he knew something was wrong with Izuku. And he probably knew, he knew more than any of us. More than Izuku himself even.

Izuku had said his quirk felt fine, even after what happened at midnight, but those black tendrils said otherwise. What changed?

Just what fuck is One for All, exactly?

My hand reached down to hold Katsuki's forearm, pulling him closer to me, tightening my grip as I watched the screens, worried and honestly, a bit scared.

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In case y'all don't know, one of the love interest I had planned for Paralyze before picking Bakubabe, was Monoma lol.

#paralyze fic #bakugou katsuki fanfic #bakugou x male #bakugou x male reader #male reader #reader insert #x reader

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ning2lilac · 1 year ago

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Take My Breath - Jaemin

Christmas Melodies - 01

series masterlist

pairing: jaemin x fem!reader

tags: fluff, christmas themed (yeah, this late), high school

words: around 7.3k words

note: Christmas was ages ago and this is just the first story, so let's just pretend it was always supposed to be "winter" melodies ig...

I walk this cold street with you, as if we were lovers . Yeah, what should I do? I’m awkwardly frozen. My checks turn red, ayy

YN and Jaemin hated each other, or that’s what YN though. Somehow, both ended up sharing the same groups of friends. When all planned to spend their last Christmas holidays together before university, things didn’t turn out how YN expected. Yeah, YN was forced to get along with Jaemin during all the holidays— or was she really forced?

Chapter 0: It's severe when I stand in front of you.

15th of December

“Forget about it, I won’t go,” YN replied while drinking her strawberry juice and shaking her head. Both Yunjin and her were sitting in the school’s cafeteria on the 15th of December, the last day of classes before going on Holidays.

“You can’t say no; you are our friend, and you are coming; that’s it!” Yunjin replied while stabbing her dessert. “Also, this is Yizhuo’s first Christmas since she moved here, so you should try.” Yizhuo moved from China just a couple of months ago with her family due to her father’s new job, and Yunjin always tried to use it as an excuse to drag YN everywhere. All this discussion started when her friend told her excitedly about all the plans they could do together and that their other group of friends, a couple of guys from the boys’ school in their same town, would tag along. YN was fine with it, and she almost agreed, until Yizhuo mistakenly told her which guys they were (Yunjin tried to keep it a secret from her).

“All I’m saying is, why do we have to spend almost all of our time with them?” Yunjin and Yizhuo were more than enough, she didn’t need to spend the Christmas Holidays with a random group of guys (although they weren’t exactly “random” if YN was being honest with herself). “I thought we were better alone, Yunjin, or that’s exactly what you said last year when I asked you if Lee Yewon from class B could come with us to the Christmas Market”.

“That was different, Yewon is a total bitch!” Yunjin screamed while getting the attention of some people in the cafeteria. “And by the way, your problem is not with them, it is only with one of them. And you will have to deal with that”.

And to be honest, Yunjin was completely right; YN didn’t really hate them; in fact, almost all of them were nice to her, and all of them were their age. Renjun was a nice guy who also moved from China (the only thing is he did it when he was only five years old), and they often talked about TV shows together and even discussed the episodes of Single’s Inferno. Haechan was hilarious, YN at first thought he was going to be the worst one, and bonus points, he would always get on Yunjin’s nerves (she definitely has a crush on him but will always deny it), which was really fun to watch. Jeno was surprisingly nice, he looked a bit tough the first time she met him but turned out to be a total cutie pie. And then there was…him…

“Excuse me, but Jaemin hates me as much as I hate him,” YN answered, trying to defend herself. “It is a mutual relationship of pure hatred. It’s not my fault he acts like a total angel with all of you, he is the devil.”

“Yeah, sure, but I don’t care”, Yunjin replied while both started picking up their trays since the school’s bell signalling the start of the second period just rang. “I love you with all my heart, YN. But I would really like us to do all these things together. It’s our last Christmas before graduation, so we should have fun”. YN was about to defend herself when Yunjin threw her a glance. “And I don’t want to hear anything from you again”.

“What’s the point of going to an all-girls’ school if I will end up hanging out with men? Geez”, YN whispered to herself while taking her backpack and following Yunjin to the corridors.

“Girls!” They both turned their heads to meet Yizhuo, who was running excitedly towards them. “Look what I saw! The boys’ school is organising a mini-Christmas market this afternoon, and everyone is invited! Isn’t this great?” The nightmare was starting sooner than YN expected, but with Yizhuo looking at her with those big doe eyes and pure happiness, she couldn’t tell her no, so she simply nodded. Yunjin smiled after seeing YN’s compliance and took Yizhuo’s arm, not after giving YN a last glance.

“Maybe this is the year in which you finally give each other a chance,” and after saying that, the three of them parted ways.

“Of course that bitch, Lee Yewon, came,” Yunjin huffed after noticing the girl. “I never saw such a pick me girl”. She said this while putting on her gloves and grabbing YN’s arm in case she thought about running away. She was exactly thinking about doing that.

“What happened to defending women’s rights and wrongs?” YN answered while brushing her hair with her fingers, they couldn’t even go home to change after class, so they had to go with their uniforms and backpacks. Which also meant YN couldn’t fix her bangs at home, she hated to have messy ones.

“The exception is that girl, I’m sorry” The taller one, YN was definitely the smallest one out of the three, replied after throwing one last glance to the girl she hated so much. “Did Renjun tell you where they were?” Yunjin asked Yizhuo who was checking her phone.

“Yes! He just replied, they are next to the stairs”. The market turned out to be a small one, only a couple of booths with food and others with games so students could compete to get prizes, nothing too special, but Yizhuo was excited since it was her first year. YN could differentiate the four guys sitting on the stairs of their school’s main door.

There were lots of things YN hated about Jaemin. In fact, one day she made a whole list, the same one she was repeating at that moment in her head.

1. He hated strawberries. YN loved them, not only the fruit, but all types of desserts with strawberry flavour or even decorations (her favourite jacket was one with strawberries).

2. He was irresponsible, to the point where it looked impossible. Out of all the years she has known him, she has never seeing him turn up on time or be organised, something she detested.

3. He got along with everyone (except her), why was he so “nice” with everyone? His behaviour always ended up annoying her, it looked so easy for him to befriend people, while she sometimes struggled. She considers herself to be friends with everyone, or at least she tries. The problem is that he doesn’t need to try, and she hates that.

4. His brother was friends with her brother, the main reason she knows him. Her younger brother and his both play football on the kid’s team from their town.

5. His smile

6. The fact that she couldn’t deny he was handsome, and she will always hate herself for this. But it was a fact, he was attractive.

7. He hated her, and YN hates not liking people. He was never nice to her.

And she also hated how good he looked that day. YN never got to see him in his uniform before. She reminded herself to add that to her list, is not like she has it written on her diary…well, perhaps she does. It’s okay, she thought, she just had to ignore him for the whole season. No one was going to ruin her last winter in high school, not even Na Jaemin.

“Hi girls, I’m so glad you came. Renjun started talking about some stupid TV show, and I was close to killing myself,” Haechan exclaimed as soon as the girls got close enough. Soon, the seven of them started walking through the booths, although no one paid attention to that.

“It’s not a stupid TV show, it’s literally the best sitcom known to earth. How come you don’t know The Office?” Renjun defended himself after greeting everyone with a big smile. “YN tell him how great it is.”

“I actually never watched it.” She smiled shyly and quickly started excusing herself as soon as she saw the disappointment in his eyes. “But I definitely will start it as soon as I get home, don’t worry.” It’s not her fault, she couldn’t dare to make anyone feel a bit bad; she hated to disappoint people, especially if they were as adorable as Renjun.

“Of course,” Jaemin replied with a mocking smile. That stupid smile. What does he even mean by that? But she decided to just ignore him and try to focus on staying warm.

“Did you forget your gloves again?” Yizhuo asked after noticing how the shortest one was trying to warm her hands, putting them in her pockets. YN felt a bit shy when everyone diverted their attention to her. She just nodded. “You always do, I will have to glue them to your hands at one point.”

“Hey, maybe over there is not as cold,” Haechan joked, referring to her height, fist bumping with Jeno, who found it funny.

“Come here, I suddenly feel the urge to touch your ugly face with my freezing hands.” She joked while trying to get closer to him. She almost tripped on the slippery floor, but one hand kept her still, Jaemin.

“Sorry, sorry, I will never do it again, ma’am. Forgive me.” Haechan jokingly begged when he saw her trying to approach. He furrowed his brows when he noticed a light blush on her face. “YN, are you red?”

“It’s because of the cold!” she tried to explain herself when she noticed Yunjin’s suspicious glance. She would never admit it, but it was definitely not because of the cold.

The group of teenagers continued engaging in some small talk and sharing everything that happened in their last weeks of classes. YN was having more fun than expected, although she couldn’t completely ignore his presence, which sometimes threw glances at her.

“By the way!” Yunjin screamed after noticing how everyone went quiet on the way home. They spent around two hours at the school until they decided it was time for them to go home and have dinner. “I heard someone in class talking about it, and I thought it could be a great idea to go to the city for two days or so!”

“It will be Yizhuo’s first Christmas here, so we have to celebrate it.” Haechan mimicked her before she even got time to repeat that same phrase. “Yeah, we know.”

“That would be a great idea, I saw that this year’s Christmas market is much better,” Renjun replied, ignoring the bickering between the two of them. All of them nodded, including YN.

“My brother lives there, and he just came back for Christmas. Maybe I can ask him if we can spend the night there,” Jeno suggested.

“Jeno, you know I love you, right?” Haechan answered after sending him a kiss. “Would everyone’s family be okay with that, though?”

“The hardest one might be YN’s mom, but we will figure it out, right YN?” Yunjin replied while looking at YN, who just raised her shoulders dubiously.

“I’m not sure about that, I still have to study.”

“Common, you will have enough time.”

“It’s not because of that; it’s because she hates the idea of being near me for more than two hours.” Jaemin suddenly spoke after being quiet for almost all the journey home. He was talking with Jeno before the topic came up.

“That’s not true, don’t say that.” Renjun tried to excuse YN before she even had time, since she was just looking at Jaemin getting pissed off. Her bad temper got worse when she saw how the corners of his mouth turned up.

“Well, maybe if you weren’t that annoying, I wouldn’t mind spending time with you.”

“I never did anything, although…” He hesitated now, smiling, knowing that he had succeeded in getting her mad. “Perhaps it is because I don’t immediately adore you like you want everyone to do?”

The group stayed silent, watching the two of them bicker, throwing glances at each other, and trying to decide if they should stop both of them. YN was about to reply until Yizhuo noticed. They had to split up.

“Well…this is where we part ways.” Each one went their own way except for Renjun, Jaemin and YN. Sadly, their houses were in the same part of the town, so the three of them were forced to stay together.

The way home wasn’t as bad as expected. Renjun and Jaemin were talking about some essays they had to do for their literature class, so YN could spend some time thinking about the things she had to do the next day. Soon, Renjun said bye since they had arrived at his house, which was on the way. As soon as both of them saw him enter his house, Jaemin looked at her with his lips pressed together.

“You never notice, right?” And then he left her there, speechless. She thought about replying and asking him what he meant, but when she woke up from the surprise, he was already changing streets.

Chapter 1: When I see your black eyes looking at me, I freeze all over

16th of December

“Good morning!” She greeted her mother and her younger brother, who were in the kitchen having breakfast. It was a Saturday morning at nine o'clock, but she wanted to use the day to get organised and study. She wanted to enter university and study medicine, and for that, she needed to try hard to get high marks.

Her brother smiled sweetly after she ruffled his hair. He just turned nine and was the cutest fluffy ball she ever knew. Her brother had always been super affectionate, partly something she and he had inherited from their parents. One day, she would be as affectionate with her partner as her parents were with each other. But her smile faded away after his brother started talking.

“Tomorrow morning, I will go with Jaesung to play football in the park, Jaemin will take us.” He spoke excitedly to her sister; YN knew he loved to tell her everything. “YN, did you know that he is super good at playing football? He's also going to take us out for hot dogs if we're good.” YN just nodded her head while she prepared a glass of strawberry milk for breakfast, trying not to show she was affected by hearing his name.

“Don't you think it's great that he is going to take the kids to do things, even on holidays? He's a wonderful kid.” Her mother told her, and she just nodded. “I am not surprised that his mother is delighted with him, maybe you can join them. This way, you spend time with your brother.”

“No, I can’t, I should study for the exams.”

“Jaemin must have to study too, just go and distract yourself for a little. You also need to enjoy your last days in high school.”

“Jaemin this, Jaemin that, why is everyone talking about him these days?” She murmured before drinking milk. “But I really can’t, maybe some other day.” She spoke louder. “By the way! My friends are talking about going to spend a couple of days in the city to see all the Christmas decorations and all. Yunjin told me that I absolutely have to go.”

“I’m not sure about that, honey.” Her mother replied, a bit worried. YN smiled internally; it was just what she wanted to hear.

“It would be the girls and a couple of guys.” Her mother was definitely not going to allow her to go, the best thing ever for her.

“Which guys?”

“Oh, some guys from the boys’ school, you know, Jeno, Haechan and Renjun.”

“Oh, so Jaemin is going too?” Her mother asked, stopping doing what she was doing.

“I suppose”

“Well, you can go, don’t worry.” YN furrowed her brows, confused.

“How come you are immediately convinced because of that? It makes no sense. “You should tell me I can’t go, mom.”

“It would be great if both of you got along.” That’s all she said for her reasoning, and she just continued with her morning routine, leaving YN more confused.

Yn: my mom said yes to the trip

Yunjin: yay, I know you are not excited

Yunjin: but we will have soo much funnn

Yunjin: and who knows

Yunjin: maybe you find your soulmate there, there’s nothing as romantic as Christmas

Yn: sure…

Yunjin: btw wanna come have lunch with me? Haechan and I are going to the place close to my house

Yn: no! have fun on your little date. I will spend the day studying for our first exam.

Yunjin: not a date lmao

Yn: yeah stay delusional

Yunjin: you are the delusional one when you say you don’t want your lips and his lips to meet

Yn: I don’t, I literally hate him

Yunjin: sure

“Sure?” She scoffed while reading the last message, what does she even mean by that. Yunjin was the delusional one. She turned off her phone and tried focusing on the notes she had in front of her, but she couldn’t help but go back to the same conversation.

17th of December

Yizhuo added you to a group chat called “It’s Christmas”

Yizhuo: we are going ice skating at 5pm! We are meeting next to the flower shop.

Haechan: I got the tickets, so everyone has no other choice but to come. Also pay me please

Haechan: my mom got mad at me for using her credit card

Yn: do any of us even know how to skate?

Jeno: Jaemin only I think, he used to take lessons

Yn: great

Jaemin: :)

“I’ll be going ice skating later at 5pm with my friends,” YN said while she was with her family eating. Her mother nodded, not surprised by the new information.

“Yeah, Jaemin told us when he came to drop your brother off,” her mother smiled. “They had so much fun, perhaps next week you can go.”

“Such a nice kid,” her father intervened. “Are you sure you aren’t interested in him?”

“Oh, not again.” YN sighed, knowing where it was going to lead. The good thing is that her mother never complained when it came to him. “What happened to not be able to get a boyfriend until I graduate from university?”

“I mean, if is Jaemin I wouldn’t mind.” She scoffed, what was with everyone these days.

“You look beautiful, but what’s with that face?” Yizhuo asked her when YN got out of her house. She went to pick her up, in fear that YN might decide not to go in the end.

“You don’t want to know,” she replied while putting on her scarf, she noticed she had forgotten her gloves again, but was too lazy to go back to pick them up. After seeing Yizhuo’s worry gaze, she immediately started talking again. “My family is acting a bit weird, but everything is okay.”

“How’s the studying going? You really shouldn’t stress too much,” Yizhuo answered, a bit worried, knowing her friend.

“I’m honestly quite okay, perhaps more okay than I should,” she honestly replied. Maybe she had been spending a lot of her time complaining that she wasn’t paying enough attention to the important things, but who knows. Both spend the ten minutes’ walk talking about some gossips they heard in class and about their plans after graduation.

“How’s Christmas at the moment?” YN asked when both of them arrived at the meeting point, they were the first ones.

“It just started, so who knows, but I’m quite excited.” She answered, smiling again and picking up her phone to message the other guys. “By the way,” while putting her phone back in her purse. “I hope you are really okay with all we are doing, seeing Jaemin all days, I mean.”

“I’ll be okay, don’t worry.”

“I never understood what you two have going on to be honest, for a long time I thought it was just you two denying what you feel for each other, but maybe I was wrong.” She said while saying hi with her hand to Renjun, Haechan and Yunjin who were just arriving.

“Jeno and Jaemin will meet us at the ice ring, Jaemin had to stop to buy something.” Yizhuo nodded, but YN was too preoccupied thinking about what Yizhuo had just said.

“Have you ever tried ice skating?” Renjun asked YN while everyone was putting on their ice skates.

“No, I never tried it,” she replied with a smile that soon faded away when Jaemin scoffed because of her answer.

“That’s a lie” Jaemin intervened, still not looking up and still focusing on tying up his skates. YN furrowed her brows. Renjun was smiling, a bit amused by the conversation taking place.

“Yeah, and how do you know?” Jaemin finally raised his head to look at her with a teasing smile.

“Your brother told me you once took him two years ago, and you did terrible,” he said, which made YN’s smile fade, why did he have to tell him? “If I don’t remember wrongly, he also said something about having to go to the hospital.” He wasn’t wrong though, she fell so terribly that she and her family had to rush to the hospital to get stitches at the back of her right ear, if you looked carefully, you could still see the mark.

“Oh, true, I sometimes forget you know each other for a long time.” Renjun joked, ignoring the side eye from YN. “Well, leave this fight for the rink, you lovers.” He replied while getting up and leaving her dumbfounded next to Jaemin.

“Common guys! You will miss Haechan falling all the time,” Yunjin screamed, catching their attention and making them enter the ice rink.

“You’ll see, I’m the best one out of all of you.” And, as soon as he said that, he fell down.

Luckily, Haechan was as bad as her, so she didn’t look that dumb. Both spent most of the time together, looking jealousy at the others, specially at Jaemin. Jeno didn’t lie, he was indeed good, YN couldn’t take her eyes away from him, enjoying it.

“C’mon YN, it is time to be brave together,” Haechan talked after an eternity of them trying to remain by their feet and YN trying to warm her hands since she forgot her gloves. He took her arm and tried to skate, dragging her, resulting in both of them falling.

Yunjin hurriedly went to pick her up, but not before slapping Haechan’s arm affectionately. After the fall, she couldn’t feel her hands any more due to the cold.

“Here,” Jaemin appeared next to her out of nowhere while handing her some gloves he had on his pocket. She looked at him confused until he furrowed his eyebrows and showed her the gloves again, making her understand what he meant.

“Oh, it’s okay,” she replied with a lower tone than she had intended to, did he notice it all the time? She felt a little embarrassed, “You can use them instead.”

“Can’t you see I have my gloves on already? Don’t be dumb and take them.” He said again while taking her hand and forcing her to grab them.

“Thank you,” she replied, trying to hide her blush. But the cute moment finished sooner than expected, Haechan showed up pushing her back to the ground, again.

That night, YN couldn’t sleep again while looking at the gloves. She tried to give them back to him after ice skating on the way home, but he just shrugged his shoulders and ignored her. It was that night when she realised something, something she would hate herself so much for. She realised that she might have been developing feelings for Jaemin for a long time. Maybe her mother was right, once again.

Chapter 2: I walk this cold street with you, as if we were lovers.

19th of December

Her worst nightmare was about to become real; it was the day of their short trip to the city. They lived in a small town of around 800 inhabitants, so, as expected, they didn’t have many things to do in there. A lot of weekends, YN and her family would go to the city closest to their home and go buy groceries or clothes.

She would never admit it, specially to Yunjin (she would spend five minutes laughing at her and saying “I told you”), but that day she tried to make herself look better. She even put on her favourite jumper with strawberries embroidered, just so Jaemin would notice. Furthermore, she was finishing brushing her hair and putting on her jacket when her mom screamed her name, asking her to go down.

“YN! Come down, a gentleman is waiting for you!” Huh? She thought, a gentleman? Renjun? But Renjun told her he was going with Yizhuo and meeting her at the train station.

“Jaemin? What are you doing here?” She asked confused when she saw him at her door with his backpack on and a big big smile.

“We are going to the city, remember?” He replied as if it was the most normal thing for him to pick her up.

“Yeah, I meant on my door, actually.” Her mother was behind, trying to spy on their conversation.

“To pick you up, c’mon,” he simply answered while maintaining his smile, probably because her mom was still looking.

“Oh Jaemin! You came to pick her up? That’s so nice of you, you’re such a gentleman.” Her mother said, interrupting both of them. Jaemin smiled even more, what a beautiful smile he had, she thought.

“Yes, I’ll get her back safe again, don’t worry,” he replied while taking her hand and getting her out of her house, her heart started beating like crazy, did it ever happen to her? Perhaps it is because she now knows what she really feels about him.

“Have fun, bye.”

YN couldn’t help but look at him confused on the way to the station. Jaemin kept quiet the whole journey, not speaking as soon as her mom closed the door, which made her feel a bit sad. But honestly, she couldn’t blame him, she kept giving him the cold shoulder for years. Wait, was she defending him?

“Did you pick me up for my mom to like you? I don’t know what type of spell you have on my family, but it worked so well.” She asked, genuinely confused, although starting to understand now what her family saw in him. “They can’t stop talking about you somehow.”

“So, you think about me all days?” Her mouth quickly fell open, wishing he didn’t notice how she was blushing.

“I never said that.” She quickly answered, flustered, making him cackle with laughter.

“But you didn’t deny it.” He answered.

“Can’t you stop fighting for five minutes?” YN asked a bit annoyed seeing how Haechan and Yunjin were bickering quite loud on the seats next to her. “I’m trying to study.”

“Why did you even bring that? This is a trip, you also have to enjoy the train ride,” Yunjin asked her while trying to suppress her smile, acting like she didn’t notice how YN acted when they had to choose seats. “Why don’t you talk with your seatmate?” Perhaps Yunjin was the one forcing Jaemin and YN to sit together, who knows.

“Why don’t you tell Haechan that thing you told me yesterday while crying?” She replied, making Yunjin lose her smile. “Something about liking…”

“Huh? Tell me what?”

“Okay, you win,” Yunjin screamed, flustered, “for now only.”

After leaving their things on the flat, it was already night, so all of them decided to go to the big Christmas market. For which, as YN could tell, Yizhuo was so excited, is not like she spent the whole journey talking about that… Which also made her studying impossible at one point.

“Omg did you see how beautiful the lights are?” Renjun asked, mesmerized by the sight, while picking up his phone to take a photo. Jeno chuckled, finding him cute.

“Yeah, we saw when you told us five minutes before,” he replied. Both of them and YN were behind the rest of the group, going more slowly since Renjun was busy appreciating the lights. “But let’s all be a bit careful, there’s a lot of people. Let’s not get lost.” YN nodded with her head while taking out the gloves she saved on her pocket and putting them on. Soon Jeno noticed surprised.

“Oh, those are the gloves Jaemin picked up for you,” he said. “I’m glad you liked them.” He replied while smiling. YN blushed, trying to hide it with her scarf.

“Gloves? YN not forgetting her gloves? And the gloves are from Jaemin,” Renjun said, forgetting about the lights when he noticed what was happening and smiling widely. “Wow, you must really like them then,” he paused while looking at Jeno with a smile, “or perhaps the person who gave them to you,” he suggested. What could YN do in this situation? Become defensive.

“What?” she screamed, getting the attention of the other group of friends and some families that were around them. After noticing, she blushed. “I don’t know what you mean,” she replied, whispering that part after, not without getting a questioning look from Jaemin and Yunjin.

The rest of the night went quite well, everyone had fun, specially Yunjin and Haechan, who kept flirting and giggling like kids (YN will tease her that night). It was when they finished eating some pancakes on one stand when she noticed they started acting weirdly, all of them.

“By the way, YN,” Jaemin suddenly appeared next to her with a teasing grin, she nodded letting him know that she was listening. “I couldn’t help but see how you are wearing gloves today,” he replied, completely grinning with a teasing smile.

“Oh, do you want them back?” she asked, totally oblivious of what he was trying to say, too busy looking at the floor (trying not to blush). “Huh?” YN said after looking around her trying to find her friends, “Jaemin, where is everyone?” Jaemin looked around, noticing that everyone suddenly disappeared, being just as confused as she was.

“No idea, they were next to me one second ago, there’s a lot of people now though.”

“Do you see them?” YN asked trying to find them between the crowd, but as he said, it was the busiest just at that time, 9pm.

“No,” he replied after he scanned the place, since he was taller than her, YN furrowed her brows confused.

“One moment they were here and suddenly all of them disappeared,” she mumbled to herself, trying to stay as close as possible to Jaemin to not get lost too. “What should we do? Yizhuo has my phone, she asked for it a moment ago.”

“Oh, I forgot my phone at the flat, so,” he said, “yeah, I guess we are alone then.” Great, she thought.

“It’s okay, let’s just finish the market and get out, maybe they are outside waiting for us,” she nodded.

“Do you want that teddy bear?” Jaemin asked teasingly while checking how YN was looking at the stand. She quickly denied it with her head. “It’s okay, I will get it for you.”

“No! Why would you?” she asked in a rush moving her hands trying to let him know that she didn’t need it, “you also gave me your gloves the other day, is okay.”

“And? I’m acting good for once” YN tried to stop him, but it was too late. “It’s okay,” but it wasn’t okay for her heart.

“It was not that bad,” she mumbled while walking to the exit holding the big teddy bear. Jaemin, who was in front of her, turned dramatically to look at her.

“Oh, am I hearing right? Is YN saying it wasn’t bad to spend time with me?” he replied while exaggerating his moves. “Who would have thought that? Crazy.”

“Hey, you are the one being annoying, it is not my fault,” she defended herself.

“Well, let’s get back home, I’ll put the GPS,” he answered while taking out his phone.

“I thought you left it at the flat?” she asked, confused.

“I didn’t? When did I say that?”

“This feels like you are trying to gaslight me, but I’ll let it pass ‘cause you bought me the teddy bear,” she answered, not completely sure and proceeding to follow him until her flat. When they arrived, all of their friends were already there, and, as soon as they saw them, they faked to be worried. One can tell because they don’t know how to act. But YN just let it pass.

20th of December

“Oh, wait, I’ll go check that part, I’m looking for my mom’s present,” YN said after all of them stopped on one shop on the way back to the station to go back home, they spent the whole morning sightseeing, and after having food, they went back to pick up their things and go pick up the train. The rest nodded, going back to look for things they needed to buy.

She stopped on the jewellery section since they had some discounts, so she could afford something for her mother. She picked up one, she found one bracelet on the silver section and was looking at it when she heard a scoff.

“You really chose the ugliest one, YN.” He kept shaking his head, disapprovingly with what she had chosen. YN rolled her eyes.

“I didn’t ask for your opinion,” Jaemin smiled, finding her bickering cute. She went back to look at the others, putting it back. “Would this one be better?” She genuinely asked picking up another one.

“I’m more of a gold person, and I like necklaces more” he said while looking at the other things.

“Well, is for my mother, not you,” she replied while looking at other options, “she does like bracelets more, I do prefer necklaces too, to be honest.”

“This one,” he said while picking one up, one that had tiny stars and moons hanging from the bracelet, YN smiled please, her mom would like that.

“Oh, you liked it, I can tell,” he teased when he noticed how she was trying to suppress her smile. “I’ll buy you one necklace if you recognise it,” he teased again. YN shook her head, running away and going to pay, leaving Jaemin behind.

“I have a big problem,” YN announced as soon as she sat down next to the girls on the train station, the boys were busy buying some food. “I think, well, no, I’m sure I like Jaemin.”

“Yn, you have been liking him for years, do not laugh at our faces.” Yunjin said while braiding Yizhuo’s hair.

“You think so?” she genuinely asked, looking with big doe eyes at the two of them, who looked at each other and busted out laughing.

“Everyone knew, except for the two of you. At least you finally do.” Yizhuo replied with a big teasing smile. “When are you confessing, then?”

“I could ask the same about you and Haechan,” YN replied, trying to forget for a moment about what was she feeling. Yunjin busted out laughing again.

“YN, we have been dating for three days already,” she replied, YN gasped surprised.

“And why didn’t you tell me?” she asked, a bit offended; they always tell each other everything.

“I was going to, but then I decided it would be more fun to check how long it will take you to notice,” she replied, finishing Yizhuo’s hair at the same time, who just smiled at their interaction. “But turns out you were too busy ogling about Jaemin.”

“So, when’s the wedding?” Yizhuo asked.

24th of December

She spent the last four days on her room, studying and thinking. Not thinking about the exams, but about Jaemin. She was in her room getting ready for dinner. Her family always had dinner together with some of her parent’s friends on their living room, and that year wasn’t an exception. She picked up a box she had saved in her drawer and looked at it for the ninth time that day, but she put it back again where she saved it.

That night not only was her grandma going to her house, but Jaemin and his parents were also coming, her mother insisted on inviting them, and obviously they accepted. Leaving YN with no other choice but to confront her fears: Jaemin. After giving it another thought and looking at her drawer, she thought, fuck it, and took the box out, putting it on the pocket of her dress.

“YN come down! They arrived.” YN quickly went down the stairs, politely greeting everyone, trying not to fixate her sight on Jaemin, who was smiling. As soon as they arrived, everyone sat down on the table, not without getting a big hug from her grandma, literally everyone got the hug. Her brother and Jaemin’s sat down together, and YN had no other choice than to sit between Jaemin and her grandma.

“I remember when YN was a tiny girl,” her grandma started telling him, they were already almost done with dinner and Jaemin ended up becoming friends with her. “She was such a sweet girl, always wearing those big ribbons on her head.”

“She’s tiny now too,” Jaemin joked, making her grandma laugh and YN roll her eyes, but not in an annoying way.

“She is, that’s true.”

“Grandma!” she said, a bit embarrassed.

The rest of the dinner went incredibly well, and YN couldn’t help but picture Jaemin as her boyfriend, coming to spend time with her family. She was crazy, wasn’t she? She thought while mindlessly touching the pocket in her dress.

“Jaemin?” YN said when she saw Jaemin knocking on her room’s door.

“Your mother told me to come and say bye before I go, I hope I’m not intruding,” he said while looking at her room, he never got to go upstairs her house. YN shook her head.

“No, it is okay, you can come in,” YN smiled while he entered and sat next to her on her bed.

“I had fun,” he admitted with a smile, “isn’t it nice when we aren’t fighting each other? Also, your grandma is lovely, so nice.”

“Yeah, I guess,” she replied while touching again her pocket thinking whether she should do it or not, “and, yeah, she is super nice, although she enjoys teasing me I guess.”

“You’re so fun to tease, I get her,” he replied after emitting a chuckle. “I’ll go, I guess they are finishing saying bye to each other.”

“Wait, I want to give you something before you go,” she shyly said after getting a bit of courage. “It is not something too special though, but I got you something,” she added after seeing how Jaemin’s eyes lighted.

“A present?” he asked intriguing while getting closer to her and looking at the tiny box. “Oh, YN, but I didn’t get you anything,” he replied, feeling truly sorry, specially after seeing how excited she looked to open it.

“It’s okay, really,” YN was crying on the inside when Jaemin opened it, but, gladly, he immediately smiled, looking touched by the present.

“Oh, is a necklace,” he replied smiling and giving her a hug happily, YN blushed by the action.

“I know, it isn’t that crazy to be honest,” she said rambling, “and don’t think it was too expensive, believe me.”

“Don’t lie, this is actually a big present, I told you I liked them,” he answered, still looking at the necklace with a smile. “I should have bought you something, it was dumb of me.”

“No, no, Jaemin, it’s okay.”

“Maybe I can make it up to you with a date,” he suggested, smiling, YN almost died from a heart attack.

“Huh?”

“Jaemin, we are going home!” his mom screamed from downstairs.

“I gotta go, but I’ll text you,” Jaemin rambled, not before giving her a last smile and taking his necklace. Another day without sleeping, she thought to herself.

Chapter 3: I can't say anything except that I like you.

26th December

She spent all her 18th’s Christmas day thinking about Jaemin and waiting for his text. That morning she called Yunjin and Yizhuo to tell them everything about what happened, and all of them, and Haechan (who was next to Yunjin and overheard everything), started screaming. However, his message didn’t arrive until 7pm.

JM: Ynnnnn, I’m so sorryyyyy, my phone died forever

JM: had to search for my mom’s old one

JM: I’m picking you up tomorrow at 5pm ;)

“Again? Did you bring me here to laugh at me?” YN said when he smilingly gave her ice skaters. “I think everyone already saw how bad I am,” she said while putting them on without complaining.

“It’s okay,” Jaemin replied with a big smile, helping her put on her skaters. “We couldn’t do it properly last time,” he explained while helping her get up and guide her to the rink. “Also, I will teach you and I won’t leave your side.”

“I hope you won’t push me like Hyuck did,” she mindlessly joked while grabbing the rail when entering.

“Hyuck? Since when did you talk with nicknames, YN?” He asked, changing his smile for a pout, “and nothing for me.”

“Haechan uses nicknames with everyone,” she excused herself quickly.

“But you don’t,” he answered sulky, so cute, she thought. “Not that sure I want to help you now,” he replied while acting like he was leaving her alone, making her laugh.

“Jaemin, he’s dating my friend, remember?”

“Wait, they are dating?” Jaemin stopped skating and turned back to look at her.

“Oh, you didn’t notice too? I’m glad to know I wasn’t the only one,” at that moment YN thought about what Yunjin told her. “Jaem, please,” she said, trying to get him to get close and take his arm. Jaemin approached her again to take her hand with a big smile.

“That’s what I wanted to hear, my Ynnie.”

27th of December

“I’ve been thinking about making a nickname for you,” he said the next day while both were sitting on the small park next to his house eating the ice cream his mom bought for the two of them. When both of their moms discovered they went on a date, both went crazy and almost hugged each other happily. “YN is too basic; I have to use one only I can use.” YN smiled at him with curiosity while stroking his hand.

“You could be my kitty,” YN almost chocked with her ice cream when hearing his words.

“I’m leaving you here alone if you say that again,” she replied while giving him a side eye.

“Hey, I love kittens,” he excused himself while grinning. “Don’t worry, you would be my favourite kitty.”

“That’s it, have fun,”

“Sorry! Forgive me.”

1st of January

“You will do great, YN; I really think so,” he said the first day of the year when he was walking her home. Both came from meeting their friends to celebrate the new year. YN smiled brightly at him. “You’ll get the highest grades, and I will brag to the guys about my girl.”

“Your girl?” She jokingly asked, stopping in her tracks to look at him, who was smiling back.

“But isn’t that great? We complement each other better,” she said, speaking from her heart.

“I really want to kiss your pouty lips.”

“That’s-That’s really bold to say.”

“Aw, you never went speechless when we fought, I like this side more,” he said after getting her close to him and giving her a big peck on her lips.

In the middle of winter, so the hasty spring comes just for the two of us. I'll stand by your side.

#nct dream #nct dream imagines #jaemin x reader #na jaemin #jaemin #nct #christmas #au

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