#maybe someday it will be coherent

[automatayaoi]

*throws a dozen dress up clowns at your head* Character design!!! murder puppet apologism!!! chemicals turning frogs gay!!! its kero kero time!!!! i dont know how to type up a real bio so im just throwing tidbits fullspeed at your window and also partially me spitballing speghetti against the wall

✨ their name is kero pierrot ofc, and they are a funny little frog clown married to arlequino hehe. keeping with the theme of commedia dell'arte their name is based off the character of the pierrot (and it's also a pun on keroppi since theyre my favorite sanrio character waha)

✨ the Pierrot was a tragic and lovesick figure, portrayed as naïve but endearing, often hiding their true feelings behind their jokes, and was a popular choice for romantic artists

✨ kero is a widdle bit fucked up in the brain zone but its FIIINE just slap a coat of face paint on there and ur good 8) Do not perceive the crushing mental illness behind the curtain

✨ grew up in america ofc, came to japan for reasons that turned out to be highly fallible (they maybe trust people a little too easily), refuses 2 talk abt this, they are however lacking in places to stay and money to spend so start of everything theyre Struggling A Little

✨ at this point they arent even kero really just Person...pathetic sopping wet frog you find under a rock. they had a special interest in clownery but always sort of put those kinds of thoughts to the side as more of a silly daydream than a goal they could achieve

✨ a clown without its nose have you ever seen anything so sad

✨ they first see masaru and the rest of the nakamichi circus when they saw them perform their street show (starting here), they just happened to be in the park at the time, and it's honestly the first time kero has felt happy since they Arrived in japan

✨ magic of the circus

✨ they spend the next few weeks going to the park and sorta following the nakamichi circus around to see more of their street shows, they don't really have much else to do anyway, they might as well spend some time having fun watching a circus act

✨ they attend so many that they actually start getting recognized by some of the circus members, especially masaru and shirogane since theyre very Perceptive. not a lot of details on those thoughts currently but masaru probably does his Main Protag/Therapist thing and gets to know kero

✨ BUT the way they actually join the nakamichi circus is during the performers meetup (starting here), kero goes to see their show again, but then things start Going Very Wrong and masaru's left by himself with no one to perform with. Little guy problems

✨ they've seen how much masaru and the others have been working and struggling in the past weeks, improving their street show, their cooperation with each other, and even if masaru hadn't talked to them they couldn't stand seeing something that made them so happy go down in flames like this

✨ SO! they hop in with vilma naota and mitsuushi to save the act! they don't have circus training like them so they can't do any fancy acts, but kero knows how to improv and roll with the punches, so they play off of the others as second zanni to liven up the show

✨ after that, i think they'd try to slip away quietly (kind of cant believe they did that) but masaru goes after them and asks them to join the circus!

✨ he knows that they wanted to be a clown, and even without formal training, he thinks having a western style clown will help the nakamichi circus stand out from the crowd! (also a call back to this moment in the manga when they went to see the straw circus)

✨ this is when they actually introduce themselves as Kero Pierrot to the others. there is no other name only Clown

✨ this has been a lot of masaru talk so far sorry he's my little buddy inflicted with main character disease. also i dont get a chance to meet my husband until like chapter 380 so i gotta be doin smth in the mean time

✨ from here on, kero sticks with the nakamichi circus as their new home :) they already knew a lot about clowning, but they really throw themselves into studying it as best they can (usually by spending hours at a library computer since most don't really have a textbook on clowns) and also training with the other members to sorta expand their repertoire. they get a lot better at the classic clown skills, your juggling, your balloon animals, what have you, BUT they also start to learn the cyr wheel!

✨ kero and masaru bond over doing circus training together. i give him a little noogie.

✨ they become pretty close with ryouko and lise too !! i jus love all my circus family i get them to play board games with me

✨ Peaceful Life (Until Its Not)

✨ this post as already gotten so long (and also i wanna reread some parts of the manga to refresh my mindself) so at some point i will expand on kero's feelings irt masaru running away and narumi joining nakamichi circus, but theres a couple other important points i want to make :V

✨ kero sorta takes a back seat with the rest of the nakamichi gang until they show up at kuroga village

✨ Specifically they join lise heima and ryouko in going to mont-saint-michel to follow masaru (they are NOT!!! letting these children go off on their own to fight!!!!)

💕 this is when they meet arlequino hehe 💕

✨ they stay by ryouko's side while they fucking Book It form the shirogane-o, and that's when they run into arle

💕 sorry ryouko but I'M the one who smiles at him 💕

✨ i should make a separate post of the manga panels i'm def in. and/or rewrite the scene as a fic which i might do at some point but just wait

💕 anyway this post is long enough so all you have to know is we get married and now hes my malewife Arlequino Pierrot 💕

💕 tagging my karakuri buddies @dissonantyote @lameassboyfriend (i hope dats oke)

[celluzu]

I said this way back when but I do genuinely think Badboyhalo is one of the most authentically funny Minecraft streamers out there. I think we all joke about him for being a bit ridiculous but I don't think I've ever found another streamer who is so endlessly amusing. He's endearing, he's a menace, everyone wants him, everyone hates him. He's just like... the perfect specimen of a character that can entertain absolutely anyone. What a guy.

[bitchslapblastoids]

been thinking about the line you wrote it in pen, i got the tattoo so much

not pencil, not sharpie. not permanent, but not erasable. just pen. it might fade, but it sure won't happen quickly.

all the comments and speculation, everything we ever said about them. yeah it's been online so technically it is going to last, but it was all written in such momentary fashion. the nature of online conversation is how it's always moving onto the next thing; we rattle off our reactions and theories as soon as they come to mind and then it's gone. but for them, for better and for worse, our comments rattled off in 'pen' became their tattoos. the retraumatization caused by speculation became imprinted on dan, the straightjacket of an audience's expectations of who you are and who you should be really burrowed its way into both of them, but then so did the understanding that we loved them and that they'd helped so many of us and that being queer was something to celebrate. that became a tattoo too!

And then everything that they have said and done over the years that they probably didn’t think much of; just quick jots, how they felt in any given moment. sketching out and then posting a self-contained video before just moving on to the next. rattling off a formspring reply, making an instagram caption, writing an early days dailybooth description, talking about your stupid sims.... we took all that language and that storytelling that they'd written 'in pen' and we made it permanent. we archived it and locked it into our collective memories and said the words again and again; have the courage to exist the most fun i've ever had it was more than just romantic hello from the editing zone fuckiiiiing meteors that was lion babe did you like it you loved it you want to do it more i want to be there so you don't have to be brave etc etc etc

And then obviously there are the meet and greets where people ask them to write something in pen that they will then put on their bodies forever. this fleeting moment of brief interaction is totally loaded with all the expectations and appreciation the fans are bringing to the m&g, and dan and phil speedily write what you ask them to write or draw their little doodle. for them it's one of thousands of similar interactions, but for you it's once in a lifetime. and now that moment and those pen marks are going to be permanently on your body. all they have to do is exist, and we mythologize it and turn the mundanity into something worthy of a lifetime on our bodies.

and yeah, for them that m&g moment was probably totally forgettable on its own, but we know that in aggregate, all the face-to-faces with their fans over the years has meant so much to them. seeing their fans irl has been its own tattoo for them of what matters in their careers.

And of course the cat whiskers. they may have started as markers on skin but now they come from within, and this shit's terminal !!! this thing we were all doing on here that may have always just felt sorta silly has instead become something enduring and lifelong in a way, both for them and for us.

[lagunapoint]

The lyrium dagger sliced through the veil, and the world shuddered. The air quivered like a taut string, and Lavellan’s chest tightened with the fear. Magic flared in her veins, and the hum in her ears swelled, drowning out everything. It seemed as if time itself was stirred, breaking under an invisible force. Lavellan fell to her knees, and a furious whirlwind spun around her, shredded by warped space. For a moment, her gaze drowned in the chaos surrounding her. 

Rook was screaming nearby, helplessly trying to bring Neve to her senses. Morrigan had vanished, as though she had never existed at all. Lavellan barely managed to lift her hand to her ear, trying to protect herself from the invisible pressure, but her fingers felt a sticky dampness. She looked at her palm: blood. At the very instant her mind began to yield to despair, everything around came to a halt. Space grew thick and viscous, like honey, and time froze, as if it decided to grant them one last chance. She raised her eyes. Solas stood before her, his back turned, yet even from a distance she could see how tense he was. His hand clenched the dagger still buried in the veil. Concentration and resolve were etched into his every movement, but he did not dare take the final step.

"Vhenan…" she whispered, yet her voice echoed through the distorted space. Solas froze, turning toward her. In his eyes burned a mixture of pain and desperate determination.

"I must do this," he said, not releasing the dagger’s hilt. "Even if it destroys your world."

Lavellan tried to stand, but the energy around twisted into dense vortices, as if thousands of invisible ribbons were binding her.

"My world is you, my love," she said, feeling the pressure grow, as if about to crush her. Solas closed his eyes, and his voice trembled.

"You are too close to the rift, vhenan. If I do it now, you can die."

"I always end up in the right place at the right time," she smiled through the pain. "One day my luck was bound to kill me, wasn’t it?" Solas hesitated, as though battling himself. 

"Is it you who’s distorting time?" she asked. 

"No," his voice became muffled. "It is the magic of spirits. They gave us this moment so that… we could say our goodbyes." 

"No matter how kind their intentions, and if this truly is our last chance…" her voice scorched the space like a blade. Despite the pressure around her, Lavellan forced herself to her feet and, moving through the whirling currents of time as if through thick fog, approached Solas. She stepped between him and the rift, feeling as if a million needles pierced her back with a new, frightening, unfamiliar magic.

"We will do this together," she said, reaching out her hand and touching his palm that gripped the dagger. "Take my magic. All of it, to the last drop. If this is a farewell, and if it will kill me, then you must know… I have never had a better life than the time I spent with you."

She reached for his lips, joining them in a kiss filled with tenderness and despair. Suddenly, Lavellan sensed someone’s presence nearby. She broke off the kiss and saw a small spirit appearing beside them, slowly taking on a shape resembling a human body.  "Save everyone you can," Solas said, granting hope where none remained. The final command was received, and the spirit dissipated. Lavellan felt Solas’s hand tense. He made a decisive pull, the dagger driving deeper into the veil, tearing it apart. Reality shattered into countless fragments, and everything around them went dark.

Thank you for feeling this with me xoxo

[sophsun1]

rip to the people who literally only just followed me this morning and then subsequently unfollowed me the very same day amidst my grief, honestly guys i don't even blame you 😂

[adhdtsukasa]

i wanted to ramble about how much i love fes emukasa (like the outfits) together but in the middle of it i realized how stupid it sounds so now it's probably going to rot in my drafts for the rest of my life rip

[paintingformike]

me trying to explain why i think mike is gay and is aware that he’s not in love with el cause he has feelings for someone else since atleast the end of season 3, but he also doesn’t know the feelings attached to the painting are will’s yet and he was consciously lying in the monologue by trying to follow what will told him in the van (giving el the courage to fight on by emphasizing her abilities as a superhero, something that makes her different and “better” apparently!) cause he thinks that’s the only way to save el...so the painting is a plot device for byler to get together (and mlvn bones cause it made mike misunderstand what el truly needed, leading to his words not being enough for el to win and save max in time) but not in the sense that mike fell in love with will’s feelings for him or the person behind the painting, just that it was used to show who’s always been the right person for mike based on compatibility and understanding and true unconditional love, and for him to realize that things aren’t hopeless and his feelings are requited once he finds out the full truth behind the painting cause without it he would’ve continued forcibly conforming due to societal expectations and pressure, and trapping himself in a loveless relationship because of his fear of losing el and hurting her

[proxythe]

Thoughts on chidori and strega in general?

like most ppl, i love chidori so much & definitely a lot more than the other two… BUT! for a while now, jin has been growing on me… as for takaya, i never disliked him really but i didn’t particularly care for him. However… the stage play changed me … i definitely still dont love takaya or anything & maybe it’s something to do with behind the scenes and his actor, but after watching the play i like him a bit too lmfaooo

i think it interests me the most to see mitsurus interactions with strega, since they’re obviously her enemies and yet her family/grandpa is the reason they even exist. especially seeing her interact with takaya. sorry to bring up the stage play again but it rly got me when mitsuru got down on her hands and knees to apologize to takaya and jin… hit me in the chest like a bullet…

i find myself sort of separating chidori from them often, but i enjoy how they’re found family in their own fucked up kind of way. i understand that they Need her (as she’s their “navigator”) but i’ve always thought they did care about her. to an extent obviously, since takaya is very ready to just write her off the moment he sees she cares about junpei. i know the game isnt about strega and all, but id have liked to see jin and chidori interact more even despite the fact they both believe they owe takaya everything

omg i should also mention that i love the weird mutual respect strega and shinji have with each other. like they dont really bother each other, dont like each other, but they obviously talk to each other

[prolibytherium]

Writing and suddenly realizing I have unwittingly established a coherent metaphor that ties several plotlines together thematically COMPLETELY by accident

[ghostzzy]

i want to write something about my feelings so badly but unfortunately i am completely creatively nonfunctional during periods of stress and i have to wait at least 6 months to process anything that's ever happened so. maybe by next fall i'll be able to turn this into a piece of art.

[dragons-and-magic]

The Dragons Of Sodor: Lore Drop

Recently got some more interest in this. So I'm dumping a bunch of lore notes here. Lol. @hkpika07, I got some Gordon Lore here if you look carefully. ;)

A couple quick things. 1) Diesel 10 is called Lord Draavil in this. And 2) The Diesels are called Clan Iron Hide. Also, the first lore drop is here, if you want to read.

Oh, and there's a lot of out of context stuff here, so if you have questions, feel free to ask. :)

[mothwingwritings]

What is your current brain rot? What is itching the back of your brain but you just can’t write it out?

I would like to give a shout out to the Baki men because ideas for them usually come to me pretty easily. Sometimes I get in ruts with my Baki stories, as is prone to happen, but those ruts usually resolve themselves pretty quickly and for that I am very thankful. ✧˚·.*˚✦

HOWEVER. THAT IS NOT THE CASE FOR EVERY FANDOM. ᗜ˰ᗜ

Ever since I started reading Vinland Saga my mind has been consumed with thoughts of writing a reader x Askeladd story. I have the plot and progression and all that shit up in my brain but when I go to write it, it's just... so overwhelming. I know I just gotta devote the time, but I think I am still worn out after writing two longer fics that my brain is still cringing at the thought of truly having at it. (￣ ￣|| )

Anyway, he vexes and mocks me and it pisses me off. >:(

And if any of the rest of you are struggling (you included, miss Momo) with any writing issue BS know you got this and you are wonderful and that shit is gonna get written and be amazing regardless of if it is fighting you the whole damn time or not!!!

─=≡Σ((( つ•̀ω•́)つ LET'S GO!

Here's a visual representation of me rooting for you all, btw:

(__/) (_(\ (>｡<)💦 ٩(•o• ) < you can do it! (ა🪨 ( )

[iconsumeheadcanons]

i headcanon donnie as being a late talker who became a person who almost never shuts up(affectionate)

i think he started being proficient maybe a year or 2 before meeting april. im certain he designed his own AAC app that uses his own voice for days when he cant talk. and the family absolutely also has TSL too!

but i made this post about that episode where he gets frustrated that his brothers dont understand things like he does (i think Mind Meld was the name) and he throws crayons at the table and starts yelling and then mumbling about his brothers being 'dumbs-dumbs'. that scene distinctly reminds me of throwing 'tantrums'(sorry dont know what to call them? fits maybe? i dont look positively at them) in middle school about my classmates 'being stupid and not following rules'.

i dont look negatively on the scene (its more of just personal bad experience lol. this is why im in therapy). i in fact adore the autism rep so much! even tho donnie is someone w low empathy and im too-high empathy, i feel like ive never seen a character who i understand so well. this scene reminds me SO much of being frustrated that other kids didnt think like me and didnt care about the same things and etc. i use to throw anything, i use to scream and yell, i use to cry and stomp. everyone told me i had anger issues and i didnt think so at the time and im still not certain if it was just struggling to regulate emotionally. i think it was so cool to see donnie do the same there. i love the scenes that show that he struggles w emotional regulation (prolly especially since he struggles to recognize the emotions as well)

ANYWAY what this headcanon post was supposed to be about was that i think some of donnies first words that he repeated like echolalia was 'dumbs-dumb'. the way he kept muttering it in that scene reminds me of being too mad to speak and getting stuck w easy/familiar words. i can easily see a little donnie in the middle of diy speech therapy w splinter walking around and calling everything dumbdumbs.

[mirrortouchedsea]

thinking about demon/angel crazy:b au. demon rinne, angel/fallen angel niki, ??? kohaku (demon hunter maybe??) and himeru is a demon pretending to be an angel (kaname is/was an angel)

[phoboobs]

I didn’t want to talk about the reboot, because I don’t wanna sound like a hater, but unfortunately I didn’t like it. It was a mess of a story that tried to do too much all at once.

[burinazar]

Keep having semi coherent thoughts on what a weird mix I have experienced in fandom spaces last year of

“sense of sadness over practical language barriers preventing in-depth communication between parties who feel deeply affected by one another’s art”

and

“sense of deep connectedness brought about by the fact our appreciation for same characters and the art we showed each other anyway can overcome those barriers and our feelings can reach each other to some extent”

and the fact the story and characters in question have an in-narrative theme of separation thru different practical causes (usually more dire than mere language barriers — physical confinement, time shifts, loss of humanity) and yet the bonds between them prevail even so……..

This is really incoherent but I hope I can find a less silly way to articulate how meaningful it all feels and the combination of sad and sweet….