#maybe its crying at night

[frilledskirts]

william doesn't actually gaf about any of his kids he just likes lizzy a bit more in my head 😇

[milesofstars]

more kaimon doodles alert because I genuinely cant get them out of my head

might be slight spoilers for chapter 1?? Not really.. tags have vague spoilers tho

[ophii]

the trio ever

[qoldenskies]

Thinking the awful thought of how much worse the curse could have potentially gotten if April and Splinter had been affected somehow.....or even just. If Donnie had decided to stay at April's for a while out of the belief that maybe if he was out of the lair things would calm down. Like, would they have eventually gone looking for him because the "dying" part of the curse wasn't fulfilled yet? Would they have eventually been willing to put APRIL in harm's way because the curse made them think she was trying to protect him or something? Like the fact that this could have easily been made EVEN WORSE by just a few small things is what's gonna keep me up at night OP (pos) (Also I'm so so curious to know what the trigger to the curse starting even was, if it was a spell that was cast or something that was a small detail in the fic that nobody's picked up on yet, and if Raph Leo and Mikey even noticed anything was off or not until it was far too late. I am connecting dots that haven't even been fully connected)

dude dude dude i think about it a lot. how if donnie had stayed with april, it would have been worse (and there's a very good chance they could've lost april in the line of fire, too, if he was safe with her for a long while. the curse doesn't change their feelings on each other, it'd just have to get bad to a point where they would GENUINELY put their murderous hatred for someone above her life). how if he'd actually gotten out instead of running for his dad, it would have been worse. the curse would get worse and worse and worse until he died, and the longer it was held off, the more aggressive the treatment. the exact situation he was in saved his fucking life. raph putting his hands around his throat saved his life. that was the best possible outcome short of him being consciously aware of there BEING a curse, and he was too far gone for that to happen.

its sososososo tragic. like they're more grateful than ANYTHING with april doing what she could while they couldn't, even if she was stumbling in the dark, but that had the potential to have been dangerous and i dont even think they'll ever realize that.

[hammill-goes-fogwalking]

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[soupmanspeaks]

Silly salvaged au and it's Greg exploiting on CC's ever-present tears by having him guilt trip staff members to get him stuff like

"No, what--I'm not doing that trick again"

"Cmon Ev please, I need a snack and you know I can't get one in opening hours"

"....FIIINE-"

Cc, walking to a staff member:"E-excuse me, I think i'm lost...could you..help me find my family?"

Staff: "oH-yeah--Yes, of course."

Cc: "Thank you...i-its just so scary..being here alone" -starts tearing up-

Staff: "Hey, Hey, don't cry...uh--oh--here! Take this, having a snack while I cry always helps!"

Cc: "...Thanks."

Staff, on walkie: "yeah, so we've got a little boy and he's wearing a striped sh-....where'd he go."

G: "WOOOO, thanks man :3"

Cc: "next time you ask, I'm not doing it again >:("

And then the next time he asked, he did it again

[faaun]

procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally

[djsangos]

you guys just dont understand how good you have it you can just walk outside and see a cat and maybe get to pet it if its friendly but i have to go seek out one of the judds if i just wanna SEE a cat and chances are if i try to pet them theyll just bite me its so unfair

ill even try to give them fish but theyll just take it and say they dont do bribes but thanks for the fish and walk away with it

I WASNT TRYING TO BRIBE YOU FOR TURF WAR I JUST WANTED TO PET YOU COD DAMN CUT A SQUID SOME SLACK

[pmpwbrrs]

I'm pretty much in love with your off string au could you ramble more abt it .,. I'd be extremely happy to read it

Im glad you like it and thank you for reminding me that I wrote this, and giving a reason to ramble <3!! Sadly i don't have anything to really add? But I'll say what i kept to myself i guess!

I keep remembering about one of the things ghostlycoze said.

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I actually REALLY like this idea. I don't think ALL iterators are gonna have this problem, because not all iterators, i like to think, associate themselves with their puppet? And they are all different. But i love thinking about how some of them look up at the sky, and see endless heavy clouds produced by their still giant, powerful colleagues(family? friends?), while they are here, small, and so vulnerable. I like to think that that the longer they stare at the bottomless, grey sky, the more they can't tear the eyes away. How they feel their new heart beating faster now, and it makes them nauseated and more stuck in this moment – because this heart is beating like a mouse's. So fast, they can feel it, they can hear it, in their neck, in their chest. And it's foreign. The sky is foreign. The choking dampness of the air is foreign, the wet cold soil is foreign. THEY are foreign. Can they be even considered an iterator? How? They are not even the same person, how can they still call themselves an iterator?

What have they done to themselves?

I don't think some iterators even manage to handle this. I think some of them, with no way of returning to a previous live, take an easy way out. Or at least risk it – after all, they don't know what the Cycle thinks of not only iterators, but of an abomination like them.

For some of them this is not freedom. For some of them, freedom is impossible to obtain, even when they have risked it all and threw away everything that made them who they were.

Or maybe, for some of them, at some point – standing in the cold, wet soil, becomes a sort of relieve. Perhaps, for some of them, the damp air and the now rumbling, endless sky, become more welcome. Maybe it's better for them, than what they were before. Maybe they'll get used to this, even if it's so hard it makes their head heavy, and their breath quickened, and even when they are not what they were, and never will be. Maybe as they breath in, they'll be reminded that they are no longer stuck because they've been given no other choice, but they are stuck on their own accord. Maybe that makes them ecstatic. Or, yet again, scared, or regretful. Or guilty. It depends on an individual. But overall, it's hard for all of them. And not all of them can or wants to deal with this.

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I also remember I was thinking about «what if Pebbles is saved only in Saint's era?». But the more I thought about it, the more sad and existential I became, and I never got around to drawing anything, because the idea of slowly losing yourself and all your memories terrifies me.

I think, if Pebbles is saved in Saint's time, there is no way to bring him the way as he once was. It's just NO WAY, i can't believe it. His whole body had fucking giant TEARS in it, there wasn't a single place left of him, his neurons are now squashed by 574020 kms of rot, 30942 kms of metal and dead organic and his flesh, and 2933892 kms of snow, he's a home for fauna and flora now. He will never come back. MAYBE some neurons will help?? But i don't think they will, or that they should help as much as they helped Moon.

Pebbles cannot recover fully. Of course, care and patience and not being in his corpse will help, slowly, but still not a whole lot.

I wonder how Moon would feel about him. How everyone would feel. And mainly, how Pebbles would feel.

I already somewhat explored the idea of Pebbles losing his memories. It was an animatic about his life flashing before his eyes, but wrong and twisted, and he can't remember the names of the people he cared about, but he feels guilt and shame, and in the end he gets ascended (right now animatic is abandoned).

But... If he's off string....

Imagine how painful it is to look in the eyes of a person and know that you did something horrible to them, but you can't remember what it was, and you can barely even remember who this person is. All you know is that you love them, and that you have hurt them. How would their forgiveness feel? Would Pebbles feel weird relief? Confusion? Grief? Will it even help?

Will he feel anger and an inexplicable sting of pain when they look at him with pity? How would he feel if he saw people's hope when they think he might remember something, but he just can't?

I already said that "iterator off string is not even the same person", but in the case of Five Pebbles in Saint's time, I think it applies to him even more. He's not the same person even before he gets out.

How would he feel being so small and fragile, but being aware of it, now? How aware is he, really? Has he even agreed to go off string? Could he agree? How would HE feel about the stuff I said earlier? The sky, the snow under his feet, the freezing, biting wind?

I don't like making things all dark and gloomy and no hope FOREVER only SUFFERING though. I think there are ways to help Pebbles and to heal. For all of them, really. Sure, as I said, I like to think there's not much you can do to help FP, but there are ways. And in the end, even though he doesn't have his memories, and he's scared and confused, and he's weak and small, and he's in pain, and he feels cold – he's with people he loves, and who love him. I think it's beautiful. And I think it's an improvement on rotting away in the snow and listening to the same tune until the end of time. And now he gets warm much more often.

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That's pretty much it? I didn't think about off string that much. I GUESS there are also some fanfiction i wrote, but ehh + I'm shy about my writing + it's russian and needs translation + it doesn't focus the on a dread of being off-string and all that, so I'm not gonna show that.

A lot of people left really interesting thoughts in tags on this post with nsh though, so I recommend you to check them out, they are lovely <3

[arcanemadman]

Netflixvania fans will hate Mariacard because one's 16 and the other's an adult after shipping and continuing to ship Trephacard, which has a teenager shipped with two adults

EDIT: Okay I know this isn't obvious but it needs to be said, Netflix Maria uses the design of 12 year old Maria, but she's actually 16. SOTN Maria is 17, which makes her a year older than Netflix Maria. If there was a 5 year time skip in the show, that would make Maria 21.

[the-kipsabian]

its 1.15am, im having coffee and im emotional about chrissy b and the hope he gives me about being able to be me and survive this life

gonna be a long one tonight fellas

[emicat1159]

I thoroughly belive spiders shouldn't exist

[rapidhighway]

every time I come back home I experience new mental illnesses -_-

[sophiethewitch1]

me and what we want are going through a lovers spat rn because i desperately want to write more for it but i constantly feel like shit so its really getting in the way of our relationship. also if youve sent me any asks that i havent responded to i am geniunely so sorry about it i am in the trenches right now

[soupmanspeaks]

you ever wonder if the Glamrocks's face tracking acts up when they look at Glamrock-Freddy, like they'll look at his face, and the recognition will register as Freddy, but their systems for whatever reason or another think that there is a face overlapped on Freddy's do you think they see two small squares next to him, at his side, roughly child sized, but no one is physically there.... right...?

[stripesysheaven]

started crying last night in bed but for once it was in a good way and not a bad way. things might be looking up for me