#maybe it's the social awkwardness but idk
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bro, as someone who has nightmares regularly, the idea of, accidentally yelling something out in your sleep, yelling loud enough that someone else hears and has to wake you up.... it's such an terrifyingly embarrassing concept. Like... girl you heard me sobbing in my sleep? No you didn't. You heard me yell out in absolute anguish? You must be mistaken, I would never.
#i was reading#the heartbreak prince#and I just thought...#maybe it's the social awkwardness but idk#tobi post
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thinking about touch starved touch sensitive gojo again. Absolutely desperate for even the most grazing touches from getou and yet overwhelmed by it all.
#anyway irl i think i just went on the most awkward coworker not date but a little too sus to just be a casual dinner#what made it sus i think was one the deliberate choice to not invite any other coworkers#and two the fact the conversation had a direct flight to our dating histories#but also im insane maybe this is Normal dinner coworker conversation IDK#IDK ANYTHING ABOUT SOCIAL INTERACTION#HE WAS MAKING AGGRESSIVE EYE CONTACT AND I WAS LIKE BRO CAN U STOP THATS A LITTLE TOO INTIMATE MAYBE WE CAN JUST LIKE STARE AT EACH OTHERS#EARS OR SMTH PLEASE?#me starring at my cat all the time until he comes over or meows#me whenever someone else stares at me: u gotta stop that i have anxiety#anyway i just crave the SOCIAL interaction of ppl who are not clinically online like i am#i wanna speak to ppl who see the sun#in hopes i may glean just a bit of normalcy from them#im gonna go read copious amounts of fanfic
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newt scamander is autistic send post
#queued for autism awareness month#like idk maybe it’s just because i’m autistic#but i really see it in him??#awkwardness around people but good with animals#not great with social cues#special interest is DEFINITELY magical creatures#i just care him so much#fantastic beasts#newt scamander
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chat how do we feel about toshiro/rin also. yay or nay. theyre slowly becoming more and more appealing to me especially on reread and i remember that they fell into the dungeon together (along w flamela)
#chattering#dunmeshi#they are both socially awkward introverts#who have crushes on unattainable members of their party#who knows! maybe they can get over them together!!!! idk
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it's my fault for starting it where it was but it should be noted that tweosdrien suffers from a sort of light yagami effect where his usual behavior in-story is actually a massive departure from the norm. this guy was an honors student ok. he's getting in fights and drinking now but like 5 months prior he was doing his 30 step mandated skincare routine at 8:00pm on the dot every night. quitting his job genuinely fucked his life up man
#moral of the story is departure from The Narrative may be gratifying but it will never be painless#idk maybe I'll make a little pre-tweos thing where he's still normal and at worst a little isolated from his peers and socially awkward#show off the 'core four' of that group i suppose
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Sometimes i make fanart and think ‘wow, this one specific person would love it!’ And its happened multiple times with many people and i still don’t understand why i feel disappointed when Ive barely shared two words with these people when they don’t see it at all.
#lego ninjago#im tagging ninjago because eveything i posy is ninjago related#especially this post#i need to draw Lloyd agin#soon#like properly#i also need to draw bonzle shes pretty#and i want to draw forvidden jay#three things#gotts do em#i also have this one art idea for wu#oh god they keep piling up i do NOT hav the skills nor motivation for tjis#OMG I HAVE AN IDEA FOR HARUMI AND MORRO TOO HOW DID I FORGEY#aghsegu#i dony wanna#but im gonna#eventually#fanart#artists on tumblr#idk man#im doing smth#no literally i barely interact with people on here because im way too socially awkward#but i still think they would love it#i think you guys should know that if ive seem you at elast twice in my notifs i have thoroughly stalked your profile#and only some of you will know this because i KNOW barely any of you read this far into my tags unless prompted#wait#okay maybe more of you would read this this time#ignore that#i never said that#i swear
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really though as a generally really quiet kind of person who struggles expressing themselves a lot of the time i relate to jan wayyy too much
#there's the lanuage barrier for him too which must be extra difficult#but whenever it looks like he's almost zoning out in group interviews or he takes a little while to answer questions i'm like. girl me too#also it's nice when interviewers let him have that time to find his words without making it awkward or rushed <3#idk it's nice seeing someone you relate to with something like this still have a group of people who love him so much#if he's not broken maybe i'm not either yknow#social anxiety go brrr haha 😎
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i can feel myself drifting from the TTCC community .. like i still love the characters and their dynamics, but ive been thinking less about toontown as a whole and just some of the characters are lingering . this usually happens towards the end of my obsessions
plus i just dont feel in touch with the community LOL i just kinda stick to my own stuff and sometimes like the art and stories ppl make .. but im in this awkward spot right now where im MENTALLY not engaging as much. idk if this is anything
#i dont think anything specific is causing it. im just not super deep in my toontown phase like i was in the beginning#i like the characters . but have been thinking less abt the actual toontown story#and i think im starting to dislike some things abt the canon to the point i resent it slightly#it feels like theres soo much missed potential in some parts and ik i have to just be patient but . bc of that my obsession is fading i fea#and theres a lot of messy lore and its become disengaging to follow#they say theyre fixing it but continue to indulge in these non-canon social media posts that i rlly like but. theyre not canon theyre just#kinda made for fun it seems . like maybe filler content in the meantime for big canon stuff idk#ive just become less invested in the whole toontown story recently ! still love it :] but#im in that awkward end of an era phase#the phase is lingering#many of the characters are floating around my brain and i adore them very much#just not thinking abt them in the context of the toontown story as much#and i feel more disconnected from fandom lately which isnt helping . theres a lack of connection on my part#im still gonna post art and reblog toontown stuff btw. nothings really gonna change#just felt like rambling?? im not even gonna properly tag this LMAO#any of yall have this kinda lingering feeling at the end of ur phases? cuz i do
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Guys. I did not know before now that writing could be painfully millennial in a full prose book but the pho*nix ke*per has proven me wrong and I have to complain about it in the tags
#k talks#weird astrix is because I don't want this showing up in the tag just in case#but I NEED To complain about this book real quick. I love a magical zoo that part was fun but good lord the main character....#I get what the author was trying to do with her arc and I will say the second half of the book is better than the first but Jesus christ#I hated the main character at the start she is SO annoying. not to be mean I know the whole point is her overcoming her anxiety#but like. I swear to God every two pages was just oooh I'm so awkward I'm such an introvert I'm such an awkward scrawny turtle!!!!#like CONSTANT. even worse though she's mean about it. for like half the book she's just so incredibly judgy at her public outreach job#she literally works at a zoo and has to learn hmmm... zoos need money??? zoos are also about... educating the public??? WHATT????#also it just felt so weird because she is constantly talking about how pale and skinny and pasty and scrawny and white she is#like constantly. and her best friend is a black trans woman who CONSTANTLY coddles and supports the mc in a very maternal way#and her love interest is latina-coded I'm pretty sure and is much more confident and opinionated and is literally described as fiery once#so like. hm! Okay! interesting! Interesting stereotypes going on tbh!!!#the mc learns some lessons and gets slightly less insufferable but like. also it was SO predictable I always knew what was gonna happen nex#and the writing style... like I said above it is MILLENNIAL and not in a fun way. the word boop is used several times. the humor is awful#the main character has multiple conversations about being so uwu bottom even though there's no sex in this book??? why??#and every single character description is repeated OVER and OVER with the same two details. SO much telling basically no showing#the writing was just so... quirky. ooooh look at me I'm awkward I trip over things I can't do make-up I love sitting on the couch!!!!#like. idk. obviously a lot of people really liked this book and I SHOULD have been one of them. Sapphic romance at a magic zoo....#but the execution was just so incredibly not my thing it actively pissed me off even if I can see what the author was trying to achieve#maybe I just don't like cozy fantasy. man. there was a bit where a guy should've gotten eaten by a kelpie but didn't. so maybe too cozy#for my tastes actually. which is weird I feel like I should enjoy cozy fantasy! especially about animals!!! but maybe this was just a fluke#anyways. to be clear I am not trying to make fun of the MC for having anxiety. just the overall way her social awkwardness was WRITTEN abou#really bothered me. idk man I'm a neurotic freak as well but I try to be NICE about it. and I have the correct zoo opinions. so.
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homie you are like the Opposite of annoying Please Talk More I love seeing your opiniones
thank you cookie it means alot 😭🙏
#social media is scary i am always so scared of coming off as like the most annoying or awkward person of all time#the scarederrrrr#but i will say tho im atleast more comfortable talking here than on twitter#ill try to post more ramblings maybe ☝️ idk i like talking alot
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Lol you guys! I’m starting to think we as Bill fans love him and think he’s gorgeous, but I’m getting the feeling that the general public finds him creepy and off putting. Lol I watched that fun little quiz that was posted today and the camera always cuts away from him fast whereas it lingered on everyone else. At first I thought it was cuz Bill is too tall and in the middle but Nick is like his same height?? Lol idk, I wonder if like marketing for his films and such are like, “he didn’t test well with audiences, let’s show him as little as possible”. Idk idk, I’m just guessing🤣
Well he’s been getting praised for his role so I don’t think it’s that. I think it’s because he wasn’t saying much. I don’t think he even read a question.
As far as the general public goes, I don’t know 🤷♀️ I don’t read too many comments. Some people think he’s creepy others think he’s sexy...
Although it was nice to see the cast do something like that. This is the stuff that I was mainly looking forward to. 😁
#i think sometimes he comes across as socially awkward#but maybe that’s just nerves getting to him idk
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suddenly super self conscious and hyper aware of the fact I use The Exact Same Script for Every Single Customer and I fear it's very awkward and stilted and robotic, esp. if it's a larger group of people all ordering separately but going into one movie together oops
like all my coworkers can do lighthearted and off the cuff banter no problem and mix up their scripts to keep it fresh and authentic, but I am just stuck with My One Script and cannot deviate from that lest I mess up the order and get tongue-tied 😭
how do they do it?????
#another clue i might be either simply socially awkward as hell or autistic or#some other form of neurodivergent that makes it difficult to be social and communicate The Right Way#the past couple days have been a bit rough in that regard at work orz#i'm always so WHU-?!!! when customers try to make small talk aughhh never know what to say#because it's not in my script!!!!!??? help????#on the other hand i can communicate with my coworkers just fine... 🤔#maybe that's just the usual when working a food service adjacent costumer facing job? idk? this is literally my first real job#and i have no idea what i'm doing. just winging it 100% orz
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Recent things.. mostly just writing screenshots lol
#There's a water problem in the apartment so thats been taking most of my attention lol.. the way maintenance happens here is just#this big long vague wait with no clear communication. You just send in a request to the apartment building and then you might hear from the#any weekday from 8am - 4pm any time after that. Sometimes it's quick but sometimes its like days before you hear anything. So then#you just have to be operating under the assumption that at any time during working hours you might get a call or a knock at the door#Like if you were expecting company at any time for a week straight ghjhj.. ANYWAY.. I've been working on making a little discord#server thing for the game maybe for playtesters to communicate in initially i guess but then also after it's out or... something like that.#no idea how all of that works. but you hear about people doing it. or something... Still not entirely sold on the idea since I'm not really#a big user of discord format speaking (like little chats and stuff) but.. again idk.. seems like.. common.. for things...(< socially odd#hermit fumbling through trying to imitate what '''normal''' people do/enjoy/desire lol..). Since I think my biggest issue is I am very bad#at socializing and thus marketing since a lot of that is social. The type to just google ''what do people do about games once they've#made them'' and just go after whatever the top 10 things apparently are hjbjhbjh... But like I said. still unsure it will be utilized. it#all feels very awkward to me. then again most things do. But that's what the ''overall progress'' screenshot is from. the little channel#where I've been posting updates to myself lol. Also ''coding'' in that being used very lightly consdering it's ren'py and I'm only using#the very bare bones most basic functionality of it lol. Extremely intense highly daunting master level coding such as ''if x then y''. gbjh#slacked on writing a lot due to the evil maintenance and such things... and just general... appointments... events... aughhhhhh#I think it's Goose Time here or something because nearly every day I hear big V shaped rows of geese flying by like multiple#times a day and they're so pretty and neat to watch. They've really inspired me somehow. Today it was rainy and gray skied and high winds#and cold (some of my favorite most beautiful weather) and I went out to check the mail and like 6 or 7 rows of geese fluttered#by in the air. I felt like that meme image of that guy that looks kind of weird (william dafoe??) and its like black and white and#he's looking up at something almost teary eyed wide eyed in awe.. The goose... those are my goose.. the universe sent those gooses just#for me and the high speed winds blowing my coat open and chilling my face... a tender platonic kiss from the world is often delivered#by way of chilly weather and bird formations.. peace and love on planet earth truly..#OH and of course.. boy with boy!!!! shout out to those little mcdonalds toy animal plushies from like 2006 or something. I found the#gray cat one and was like.. hrmm.. I have one of those as well (a real life gray cat). surely they're friends now.
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It's kinda frustrating that people are brushing off valid criticism of the current pacing for the Fish Man Island Remaster as "Oh I can't believe people are complaining about One Piece being too fast!!" Because some of the changes made and panels cut out are just bad. They're bad decisions!
I can live with them cutting out the slow open of Luffy on Ruskaina. I can (unfortunately) live with them cutting out a huge chunk of Luffy and Hancock's conversation on the Kuja Pirates ship.
But the fact that they cut out the scene where Fake!Nami goes up to Real!Nami, only to keep her next to Real!Nami in the next shot...... That's just bad directing. She pops out of nowhere! Where did she come from? If you hadn't read the manga or watched the anime you'd be so confused as to where she came from!
I'm not brushing off the entire remaster as a whole, but I do think that people shouldn't be so quick to brush off any criticism of the pacing. You can both really enjoy the remaster and also be critical of it!
#i didnt want to make this too long but also they cut out the awkward pause between robin and franky when like ???#that is a specific choice made to be humorous????#idk maybe ppl will change their tune when they inevitably cut out the awkward pause between franky and luffy later on#it just sucks to see ppl brush off criticisms when the criticisms are from a place of love#and also tbh the whole fake!nami and real!nami scene?? if this was any other anime ppl would be roasting it on social media and YT for that#they'd be thinking it's an animation error or something. it's BAD and SLOPPY and it's okay to say that!!!#this is just the tip of the iceberg for things unnecessarily cut out too#tbh when i learned they were making it 20 episodes instead of 24-28 my heart dropped#and it looks like i was right to be nervous#im still gonna watch it and enjoy it but i feel like its well deserved to call it out#anyways.#one piece#one piece spoilers#op spoilers#fandom critical#critical
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haha god listening to music and having scenarios in your head is so fun, yes the scenarios are about a hypothetical good relationship with my parents why do you ask
#vent#idk i feel like i have no one to turn to#like my parents are there but relying on them feels like walking on eggshells and hiding the effects of my transition#also one of them is just a plain Disney movie antagonist to be honest#hi also i am not depressed i swear! just very sad for some reason#im content with my life#in a sense i dont want to have to see anyone ever again#just rot away in my flat forever and ever and not have to worry about conflict or agression from the people in my life#maybe im selfish idk#the earth is the home of everybody on earth#not just me#also human connections? so hard!!!#i think i may be on the spectrum but im still waiting for the official diagnosis next month#but its like im always uncomfortable around people? like im some sort of strange social parasite who does everything ever wrong and is reall#y awkward and nobody liked me ever but also when someone says they do#there's simply nothing? as if they were inly words to me#and it's not only that i dont believe it possible#but also that i just dont know the feeling#it just makes me uncomfortable to hear that despite my friends possibly believing it#it's not their fault#but i just feel like there's a barrier between me and everyone#or maybe that I'm like just some minor occurance in all these wonderful people and i disappear from their lives as quickly as i arrived?#i dont know how to feel content truthfully#walking znd listening to music can only keep me pensive for so long#i just want to be comfortable sometimes#spend a few minutes not worrying#actually accepting care and love#being deadweight if only for one short while#and not hating myself for days afterwards
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Jorge is talking, hardly stopping for breath. 'Valentino arrived on the scene and revolutionised everything,' he says. 'He brought radical change. I remember that at school, on the day after a race, everybody would be talking about the battle between Doohan and Crivillé... and then about Valentino Rossi! It wasn't normal for us to be interested in the winner of the 125cc race! But he did things differently, he started to improvise. There was a group of us who used to get together to watch the race at my father's track at the water park. There was my dad, his assistant Toni, my friend Rubén... we used to watch the races and then exchange opinions. Everybody said Rossi was a clown... Rubén and I were Max Biaggi fans... we used to criticise Rossi because we liked Biaggi and I suppose it was jealousy. If you don't like somebody you find it hard to admit when they do something well. It's human nature, especially when you're a kid. But we had to admit that this guy was totally original. He did things that nobody had ever done before. He was different from everything and everybody, he worked really hard and he was really fun.' This youthful, envious disapproval aside, Jorge has always enjoyed Valentino Rossi's celebrations, who why not give them a try himself? Once again it's that same old story, the desire to be genuinely original. In fact, his favourite phrase is, 'You have to be different.' He wanted to celebrate his victories, he didn't want to let his fans and his critics down - or himself - but clearly Valentino had been there first. 'When Jorge was little I used to think that Rossi was a bit of a clown too,' María suddenly interjects. 'It wasn't until I became involved in this business that I realised how wrong I was.' With that, she snapped us both out of our trance. We had been at their London flat for several hours, working on this book, and Jorge quickly picked up on what an interesting comment his mother had just made. Everything looks different from the inside. 'The thing is that Rossi has the ideal character to do what he does,' Jorge concludes. 'Ever since he was little, whenever he finished on the podium, Jorge would celebrate differently from everybody else. He jumped differently,' says María. Jorge looks at her, surprised. 'I used to jump on the podium?' 'You would shout, "Bieeeen!" and jump in the air,' she replies. 'I watch you at races now and it's exactly the same. You have the same face, the same expression. You are euphoric. You look exactly the same as when you were little.' 'I have always been very expressive, in victory and defeat. I used to go crazy when I lost...' 'And when you won!' María interjects. Now she looks at me. 'I remember being at a circuit once, at one of the first races he did. In fact I think it was his first race, in San Juan. He was only three years old and it was raining. He kept having to stop and poke the mud off his rear wheel with a stick. And because he couldn't see anybody, because the race was over, he looked at his dad and said, "Have I won? Have I won?" The race had finished! The poor little beggar - everyone was laughing at him and he just kept riding.' 'I got lapped two or three times,' remembers Jorge. 'I was racing against much older kids - 10 and 15 years old. There was so much mud that the rear wheel kept locking up against the mudguard. But what's that got to do with my celebrations, Mum?' 'Because, Jorge, ever since the beginning, all you ever thought about was winning. It was all about winning, winning and winning. Celebrating it, sharing it, have developed naturally.'
Strangely enough, Jorge's first notable celebration didn't come in a motorcycle race but during a school football match in the playground of Milagrosa when he was ten years old. 'I don't know if you remember when Valentino Rossi won at Jerez and packed the bike up before running into one of those portable toilets they have at the Grands Prix. I can honestly say that I can't remember if I did it first or if I'd seen Valentino do it... I think I did first,' he says, gazing into the distance. 'Anyway, the fact is that I'd planned it. I decided that if I scored a penalty I would run off and lock myself inside the school toilets. Sure enough, I scored and off I ran. My friends fell around laughing. I've always been a terrible footballer, but I enjoyed that!' His first celebration of note at a racetrack came in the 50cc Copa Aprilia at Montmeló in 1998. 'I won, stood up on the bike and raised my hand, then raised one finger. It seems such a normal thing to do nowadays, but people didn't tend to do it back then.' It also became normal to see Jorge on the podium sucking on a Chupa Chups, the famous brand of Spanish lollipops that have been long-term sponsors of Dani Amatriaín's teams and riders. 'It wasn't long after the time when Johan Cruyff used to do something similar [on the bench, as manager of F.C. Barcelona].' In Brazil, when Jorge won his first Grand Prix, back in 2003, he mimed the action of firing a gun. Then, in 2004, he pretended to play the guitar after beating Dovizioso at Brno. 'In the end it looked like it was supposed to be a Spanish guitar but I'd wanted it to be an electric one!' All these early celebrations were merely a hint of what was to come. Over the years they have made plenty of people smile, but perhaps none more so than Juan Llansá. 'I find them really funny,' he smiles. 'Even though I am almost 50 years old now, I enjoy them as much as if I were 20! I get involved whenever I can. At the British GP in 2006 I wore a Dutch hat and glasses. I really like the fact Jorge does these things, because they're intended as a present to his fans. That gets me going, it gives me energy, because if you switch off you may as well not bother. You have to enjoy life. The day I stop enjoying being with Jorge, it's time to pack up and go home!'
December 2007: Interview with Jorge Lorenzo taken from Riveras Tobia's Jorge Lorenzo: My Story So Far
#bit of a longer chunk of text today. can't really be broken up though so here we are#okay so one of my oldest and longest standing motogp conspiracy theories i have been holding onto for YEARS -#- is that a big reason why marc never imitated valentino's style of celebrating more is that he saw jorge do it and Did Not Like It#zero evidence!! idk but can't you picture it in your head? young dani fan who looks at jorge copying valentino and going... ugh. gross#brr brr#//#wall tag#something nebulously sad about how jorge was seen as dour and humourless for years and years#like man he was cringe but he was free... okay he was a cocky little shit and maybe didn't always get the Tone right but let him be!!#they don't let socially awkward boys with an ego the size of jupiter do cringe celebrations any more... they don't let them have fun... :/
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