#maybe it’s the ex-catholic in me

[winged-thinged]

Life gets so much lighter when you are just allowed to exist. When there's no god in your head listening in on everything you think. When the trees outside are not a sign of anybody's presence, but just beautiful. I think the world, fundamentally, belongs to itself. And we are a part of it. That's all.

[trickstersaint]

transubstantiation // august 2 2023

[anotherqueersnailowner]

My catholic parents: we're going to mass tonight, be good

Me: fine >:(

Also me, 55 minutes into the service: The Church is but a Butcher in Shepherd's clothing, luring gullible sheep to Slaughter with Hollow Promises of Green Pastures and a Warm Place to Lay. It is Hateful Actions justified by claims of Love and Righteousness and Virtuosity. It is a Wolf in Sheep's clothing which has Infiltrated the flock, Feeding upon the most Vulnerable among us while our backs are turned. It is

[0-k-4]

JEAN MOREEAU REAL NAME IS JEAN-YVES. I KNWOW THIS SOUNDS VERY NORMALY FRENCH TO NON FRENCH READER BUT. IT HITS DIFFERENTLY FOR FRENCH PPL

[youwillfindilluminating]

surprise jewish sway! 💕

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

”I don’t want to give Jehovah’s organization a black eye so I have to suffer in silence. Oh the pain! The pain!”

Mhm. Have you ever considered that Jehovah’s organization has given you not one, but two proverbial black eyes, broken ribs, and a concussion over the years; and maybe you should expose them for the abusers they are, if only enough to get yourself help to heal from the abuse you’ve experienced? You’ve got Stockholm syndrome bad, and you’re making it everyone else’s problem. You cared about your abusers so much that you abused me in their name, just because I wanted no part of their organization. Even if I didn’t seek out apostate resources, I wouldn’t have needed them to make my decision to leave because of how much you vented about them to me since I was about five years old. Did you just expect me to stay here and take the abuse like you did? I’m better than that; I’m better than you.

[mqfx]

I need to be crazier. imps what else can we put in the soup

[lucian-evander]

I never thought i'd say that but i think i'm starting to loose my faith (very positive) ?!

[spiritofthespork]

Note: I'm more awake now so hopefully this is more comprehensible

Maybe this is just me looking through my gay goggles, but I feel like the real reason Cullen couldn’t be bi in inquisition is cause it would lead to a major shift in his world view that the games don't neccesarily want to commit to. Like sure, homosexuality is accepted in Thedas (Tevinter is the exception), but like, outside your party it still seems more like an anomaly than the norm, and the game still uses a Very heterosexual worldview. Combine that with how directly they pull from the medieval papacy for the Chantry (creed, aesthetics, templars, and geopolitics) and like all of the anti-magic views of the Chantry is giving 'love the sinner but not the sin' vibes.

But if you’ve ever done the Cullen romance straight or with the bi mod, you know that while the lyrium stuff gets addressed once or twice, him changing and actually accepting mages isn’t ever addressed? It's implied and he never acts anti-mage really past act 1, but we don’t dive into that. And I enjoy this romance but I'm adding in these changes and story moments in my head, which is what makes it work for me. (Part of that is that I played DAI first so I didn't have Cullen from the previous games to compare to) But I feel like to write a satisfying character arc with a male partner especially either mage and/or non-human, they would Have to include him coming to terms with the fact that the problem IS the Chantry and the Templars, its not just Meredith or a few people or something fixable.

BUT we did not get that, because the games tend to try to 'both-sides' all of the social issues outside of Tevinter. They start it a bit and as I said, they imply it in DaI with him going off of lyrium and not technically being a Templar and all that stuff but like don’t really actually deal with the emotions and ramifications that would come with that for him. Just imagine though how funny it would be though, like this dickhead mage comes in, tells you your plan is dumb, but his ass is so fine that it completely resets your worldview. I just find it alot more compelling than cis, straight white boy religious cop gets a girlfriend and lives out their traditional life dreams, the end.

tldr: Cullen coming to terms with being queer would also require him to reevaluate his entire Chantry/Templar worldview further than he does in DAI, we can't have nice things so he remains cannonically straight and boring. But, if you are willing to do the mental writing for a queer romance, its a neat story

[zebracakesarecopingmechanisms]

i am forever grateful that my parents’ faith was starting to weaken at the same time as mine.

I’m so so lucky that they were supportive of my leaving the church, because my mom used to be a LOT more lost in the Jesus sauce

it also helps that she was a world religions professor at the time; she brought me to a synagogue and taught me about Hinduism and various other religions to see if they felt more comfortable (still took me a few years to settle on greek polytheism but that’s ok I got there in the end)

[skid-the-mighty-poet]

[desolationlesbian]

Being raised by areligious jews with 0 exposure to christianity outside pop culture is so fun. One time I asked my ex-catholic friend why a picture of jesus had a bristle crown and she looked at me like I was insane. One time I heard someone mention the "lance of longinus" and responded, word for word, "Like from Evangelion?" One time during a history lesson my professor described an important monk and scholar as "Dominican" and I spent the rest of class super confused and hung up on it because I was very sure that the Dominican Republic didn't meaningfully exist as an entity back then, maybe she meant he was a native Taino or something but that's a weird way to say that and I'm pretty sure this was pre- European contact? Really fucks people up when they realize I genuinely have no idea.

[thefandomlesbian]

I'm thinking about undertaking a challenge to read every book on my bookshelf.

This would probably take the better part of two years, as I have around 200 books. This challenge would include books I have already read and ones I've not touched before. It would include nonfiction books, academic works, poetry books, and novels.

I would probably start a side blog to review each book, the date I started and the date I finished it, and my general thoughts and interactions with the text.

I'm trying to figure out if this is a sustainable goal or if I should stick to my old habits of fanfic writing, haha. Wondering if anyone else has attempted this and how successful they were!

[maraskywalkers]

I don't know why I, a former protestant, have such a soft spot for characters who are ex-catholic but I do.

[lucian-evander]

OK so now apparently i'm trans because satan (in person) influenced me... my mom is honest enough to not be able to blame it on the lobby ™️ since well i knew it since i was a kid and was raised in a strictly catholic environment so yeah satan made me trans (probably by using the 5g waves, wait no it didn't exist back then whoops ).....

[phagodyke]

my brother is always SO vague abt his personal life w me I need to sit him down and grill him if I see him next month in person 😡