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He paid attention to it once and now all he could hear was that ticking of that big old clock in the dining room. This house had a heartbeat, this house was the only living being around.
He was trying to be quiet so as not to bother anyone, although he knew that the building was empty. It looked even older and more abandoned than it was. The stairs were creaking as he was making his way upstairs as if they were asking: "Why? Why? Why?"
When he came to the door of Nigel's room he felt his own heartbeat and it was faster and louder than the house's.
Alex touched the smooth cold wooden handle and it seemed to him that he heard someone gasp. He wasn't sure if he was able to proceed, however this time he had made progress.
He came back three days later early in the morning when the earliest of the birds were just starting to warm up. The silence inside was eloquent. He could hear neither the clock nor the stairs - not even his own heartbeat anymore. Everything around was frozen in anticipation. He pressed the handle and pushed the door. The air in the room was cooler than it was in the hall.
Nigel was sitting on the bed drawing a portrait with a piece of coal. He must have been failing to draw it the way he wanted because many unfinished portraits of the same person were scattered around the room. He looked at Alex with a calm smile.
- I'm so happy you've made it. I almost forgot how you look. I was trying to remember as you might have noticed.
- I wanted to come earlier.
It was all Alex could say. He sat on the bed beside Nigel and repeated:
- I wanted to come earlier. I should have protected you.
- I'm quite satisfied with the way the things are now. Just look.
Alex noticed that it was raining or… it had been raining for some time. The sound of the rain made the room feel cozy and safe - he could be sure that all predators were in their holes. The room itself wasn't Nigel's room anymore - it was much bigger and lighter. They could watch the rain comе back into the ocean. The silver skies, the air, the sound of waves, the smells and sounds - all of that had a kind of prehistoric character. In this place there was no such a thing as time anymore. They were home.
- Alright, - says a black-haired pretty young god placing his head comfortably on the chest of his freckled friend. - This one was tough. Do you still doubt my love for you? I manage to find you and win you every time no matter how hard you try to hide and make it impossible for me.
His voice sounds tired and his eyelids are so heavy he can't keep his silver eyes open anymore so he stops struggling.
- Let's try again a bit later, - answers the freckled god caressing the brunette's face. - There are some new stories in my mind I'd like to share with you.
- But there is always a chance we forget who we are if we stay there for too long, - the brunette protested quietly. - You were late this time. Late and confused. And you want to take this risk again just because you want me to prove something to you?
- I've never doubted you, love. We both know we're fated to be together, - answered the ginger haired god serenely kissing the other one on the lips. - You are so beautiful. I just enjoy it so much when they look at us.
#well#maybe I shouldn't share this#it's my first attempt#don't judge pls#i actually wrote this to deal with my anxiety#but if someone likes it then I'm happy#this is just a sketch#like minds#like minds 2006#nigel colbie#alex forbes#murderous intent#Youtube
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NOTHING could have prepared me for the reality of letting a cat into my house
#bucky barnes#marvel#alpine#my art#digital art#recovery#for bucky#there is something about having 10+ claws in your leg that keeps you from deep dissociation#i really hated the last piece i posted#i need to stop fighting my art style#i understand experimentation is growth#but maybe i shouldn't always feel like i need validation for it#and should keep it to myself#but i will share my beloved sketchy style
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reposting some PH favorites
#the thing with pandora fanart#as a 12 years old i shared some on the internet and was explicitly told that it sucks and i shouldn't share it until i learned how to draw#there was also a discussion in the comments on whether people without talent should even try#it's a little thing but it bugs me full 14 years later!#maybe because i was an “art kid” in my circles and i never previously encountered hostility towards my work#but yeah whatever they said i'm still here sharing my pandora art thank you#pandora hearts#art tag
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Oooo starstruck dee has little stars at the bottom of her feet! Are they just aesthetic or would they make imprints into the ground? (like pawprints)
exactly like that! though she's not the only one...
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edit: might need to add some additional dialogue to this to make it more clear, but a clarification in the interim; he knows about his own footprints. he's just surprised to see something similar already there when he knows he's only just landed. he lifts his own shoe to confirm that they're not identical (and also to reveal this to the viewer). seems his stoicism beat off the clarity in this one, sorry 😭
#meta knight#starstruck dee#gravitational collapse#have had this one sitting around for *months* while i bit my nails on posting it#and then i thought maybe i *shouldn't* during the shipaganza bc it's not a direct prompt; though i do think you can read it that way#and for ~Reasons~ i needed to post this one sooner rather than later so i had to bite the bullet.#though meta knight has understandably been the second most prompted. they do indeed have the Funnest Possible Dynamic for it#stoic guy and the bug eyed little Creature he doesn't really trust as far as he could throw her (long long way)#so just to clarify this one is NOT for the shipaganza but you can read it that way if you want to#this is just a canon scene between them from her storyline. this is just something they canonically share. starry eyed idiots.#also fwiw i think i probably picked up the shoe-patterns for the knights from postitnotes7#been a headcanon in the back of my mind for a long while but i'm pretty sure i osmosis'd it from their work#especially after drawing post's designs so much for the hnkss. i temporarily forgot how i used to draw their armour ngl#and also btw starstruck deetectives psspsps#i'm planning a much better post about this later (probably in march) but i'm going to start using this tag for Important Posts for y'all#🎀🔍#<- for the starstruck deetectives when there's something significant in the post.#i worry about making it 'too easy' but also want stuff to be accessible. it's just for fun? the OC lore game! ARG but it's just my oc.#that would be fun right? maybe? is that too indulgent? i could probably pull it off if folks were actually interested enough to participate#anyway!! go to bed starflung#also if you read this far: anon is open again! still open for shipaganza prompts but i'm not gonna be finished them in february 😂
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Shoutout to the massive overlap between Otto Octavius fans and fans of Stan & Ford Pines
#sexualizing thick old men (of science) together#pleasantly surprised by the number of Twitter accounts and tumblr blogs that share these two niche interests of mine#maybe I shouldn't be so surprised#doc ock#otto octavius#stan pines#stanford pines#stanley pines#ford pines#personal
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buck realising his feelings à la the new girl 'its nick' scene because this man will not question the platonic nature of his undying love unless someone points it out to him
#'it shouldn't be this hard right? to find someone to have? to share my life with?'#'it shouldnt. and it isnt'#'just tell me- what did i do? how can i be better for someone to stay?'#'you already have someone who stayed buck'#*evan buckley style stammer yap*#'dont you get it? it isnt hard for you to find someone becauae you already have'#'what?'#'its eddie'#but with so many pauses and maybe the love interest being reluctant to say anything#buddie#buck x eddie#evan buckley#eddie diaz#911 abc#911
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#Trigun#Trigun Stampede#Tristamp#Maybe this is only hilarious to be because I have a splitting migraine#And tbh shouldn't be online because of that#But I needed a distraction and saw this and had to share#Reddit link in the comments
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From 'Dream of a woman' By Cacey Plett.
This sums up exactly how I feel about most transition timelines. As much as they reflect people's experiences, they are also a narrative. And the narratives that get shared the most tell a lot about what our values are. The timelines that get the most attention are the ones where people go from sad, loser, nothing boys into beautiful women.
But if you go to /r/transitiontimelines or a similar place, and sort by controversial or look at what has the least likes, its people who made timelines when they still don't 'pass' yet. Even if they're happy as can be, that's not what people are looking for.
I think it says a lot about what people expect from trans women, that they only want to see us be beautiful. In some cases, that they want to believe they can be beautiful. So there is no value in trans life if you're not beautiful.
#i dont know if this is exactly what the narrative was trying to convey here but it is something i felt while reading it#and i hope thats meaningful to others when shared#i know he's kind of a chucklefuck but i so think 'the queer art of failure' by J. Halberstam has a lot to say about the impetus to he happy#and its conditions#a lot of the time i feel like i have to perform positivity as a trans woman because its whats expected both from women#and from people lucky enough to transition#while at the same time social conditions are worsening and even personally#there arent solutions to much of my dysphoria#regardless of all that you're expected to just be happy even though the conditions for that don't exist#i think being honest about those things#that negativity#can bring its own happiness#and i think thats also valuable#i guess what im trying to say is that i think ugly trannies can be happy and should be valued#i think sad trannies are wonderful and ought to be cherished#and i think people shouldnt have to pretend to be happy in the same way a woman shouldn't have to pretend to be a man#maybe that doesnt make full sense and i need to think harder to communicate my feelings#but thats the vibe rn#anyways#i really like this book and yall should check it out#dream of a woman#cacey plett#trans women#transgender#trans#transmisogyny#transition timeline#i dont mean this post to denigrate timelines btw#just the way that we give certain ones attention and the teleology of transition that follows#books
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HC idea, Macaque is sort of out of shape upon integrating with human society. (But is still way stronger cus he's not a normal monke)
This hc only makes sense if u search up fur-less monkies. (They're buff)
DF RAMBLE AHEAD (I got carried away)
I did on fact, search up hairless monkies for this. For those of you who see this and are also curious, here is a picture:
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Those are really buff monkies, and they lowkey unsettle me a little lmao (to think Macaque and Wukong could, or once, or are built like this terrifying but also really funny).
Now, I really like this HC idea (because there is no way Macaque is in the same state as he was hundreds upon thousands of years ago, regardless of his "death"), but the reason he is out of shape might be worth discussion.
I think it might be because of the food he'd be eating, not lack of exercise, nor merely time and humans changing him.
Think about it. For centuries, generations, human society has cultivated food, invented recipes, and used selective breeding and genetic modification over the course of millenias to achieve the state of fruit and vegetables that we have today.
Like, watermelons:
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I want to really lean into how humans have cultivated fruits and vegetables for this ramble though because, that's probably what Macaque has always mostly eaten and will continue to eat most of the time (well, kind of, we'll add to that later).
Fruit has gotten sweeter over the years. Too sweet. And there have actually been articles written about how it's gotten so sweet to a point that animals in zoos literally cannot eat them because of their high sugar content.
What point am I making? I think Macaque has teeth problems lmao (someone please get this monkey to a dentist). Solely because of this.
But that's a little off topic 💀. Because back to the point I said earlier, Macaque probably eats more than fruit and vegetables now. But not any good stuff. He probably eats a lot of stuff that is high on sodium like, I don't know, cup noodles or, screw it, an entire jar of pickles. He uses the juice to brew his afternoon tea.
Side note: In contrast to Wukong's peach chips, I think it would be fun if Macaque really liked dried mangos or something. Or prunes. Raisins even. Dried banana crisps too. Guys do we think he would steal invest in a fruit dehydrator? I think he would.
Add all of this up together, and no matter how much training Macaque does, he won't get back to his prime with his modern diet, haha. For Wukong on the other hand (who shouldn't have been a part of this discussion in the first place but I do want to mention him again), he lives on Flower Fruit Mountain so, I'll give the place the benefit of the doubt that the fruits there aren't that cultivated to the point of over sweetness and, I'm sure there's only so much junk food Wukong could haul over to his mountain or, his shame temple.
But it's alright, we had to nerf Macaque somehow/j.
#ask#I'd thought about this ask for a while before finally replying#Wukong might have gained (or has he always had it?) a dad bod over his 500 absence but Macaque has type two diabetes and high blood pressure#clearly only one of the two integrated into society well- actually- Wukong didn't even integrate himself into society#maybe Macaque shouldn't have joined the city life to begin with smh#i stand by my headcon that despite knowing full well how to cook Macaque has bad eating habits#thanks for sharing your idea anon :)))) it was interesting to think about- I hope more people think about this too
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Why did it take my landlords' young kid pulling a prank on me to realize I do in fact have unprocessed ptsd
#it shouldn't have upset me this bad and yet here i am trying to stop crying on my way to pick tiny up from kindergarten#our apartment shares a door with our landlords'. and they have a 5~7 yo#who thought it would be very funny haha to randomly try and force our door open at odd hours#now mind you we don't have a shelter room of our own. we usually run to theirs so the door is unlocked most of the time#but after a few of those surprise privacy breaches and after calling out to the kid and asking them politely to stop-#which of course caused them to run away giggling and doing it again after a couple minutes-#we locked the door. only for things to escalate#they had friends over and together started rattling the handle and trying to force the door open#and them pressed their face to it and started mimicking sirens#which takes like one second to realize it's not an actual alert but still gives the initial pang of panic and stomach drop#not to mention made tiny very anxious and confused as well#welp. i thought it was over but today they were at it again#and i finally managed to catch the parents on the phone and very politely and strenly asked them to have a talk with their kid#only to realize by the time i hung up that i was crying#welp#i dunno why i'm writing this here. probably because it's the only place i can vent about it without actually involving anyone#or maybe as a semi formal recognition that i'm not in fact okay- to remember nobody is completely unscathed#anyway rant over. over and out#shompsays
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16 for the wip ask game 👉👈
omg hi there!!!!
sorry it took me a hot minute to get back to you, but uhhh i'm lowkey moving in silence with this fic that i'm working on and just started the other night. it's a link click shiguang fic!!! something that i've been interested in exploring for a while, and with the yingdu arc dropping and learning more about the characters' pasts, i just had to write this.
essentially, it follows the canon story, sort of, but it branches off into its own timeline. if you know anything about link click, then you know that the canon story follows one of the many timelines that exist in the canonverse.
this is going to be a very sad, angsty fic that i want to use to explore lu guang's and cheng xiaoshi's relationship. it has a... bittersweet ending.
here's a sneak peek for it, if you're interested:
i also have an itfs childhood friends to lovers story that is fully outlined and waiting to be written; however, i am slowly falling into the link click hole. DON'T WORRY THOUGH. itafushi still my number 1 fr. my old reliables, i cannot wait to post more <33
#thanks so much for the ask!!#i know it's not itafushi but this is still something i'm really excited to share#would love for this to catapult me into the link click fandom fr#though maybe my debut shouldn't be an angst fest??#oh well#sorry#tess yaps#link click#shiguang#ao3
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one time in my hometown a kangaroo somehow got up on the roof on one of the shops on the main street. causes quite a spectacle. anyways I think sonic would do the same, especially in places like spagonia (spell check) where he already runs around on the rooftops a lot. its such a nice warm day, and the awnings over the shops are so nice and warm.... how could he resist laying down and taking a nap??
the locals are used to it at this point and most of them are happy to let him sleep on the top of their shops - helps with business! other owners arent as happy, but its always a hit with tourists
#egg.txt#sonic#i found a photo of it but i don't want to dox myself even though i dont live there anymore#anyways. shouldn't be here but j wanted to share my thoughts#maybe I'll draw over the photo lmao#sonicposting
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Sometimes I feel like I don't care what other people think and other times. Sigh
#here's the thing#i love my mom but alas! we don't have the same taste in everything#and i've accepted that! i just watch the stuff she wouldn't like on my own!#except. now i don't know how to tell what she would like that i find fun#and i just assume she wouldn't like anything i like#and just. ugh#i both want to introduce her to the stuff i love#and am scared that she'll hate it so i shouldn't even try#but i think she might like it! but what if she DOESN'T ya know?#then i'll just be devastated forever and ever#not really but i feel bad about wasting her time and/or boring her#and it's just FRUSTRATING#cause my mom is honestly one of my best friends#and i love sharing my favorite things with my favorite people#but for some reason i'm very scared she will not share my love for this stuff#(not much in specific btw. just stuff in general)#it's weird because i don't get that sad when my friends don't share the same love for stuff as i do#(a little sad but it's not the end of the world)#but i do not enjoy introducing my mom to stuff and having her not like it#OH maybe it's recommending something to someone and that person watches it on their own#versus watching something with someone side by side and having to suffer through their reactions or non reactions#it's just something i gotta get over#but it's HARD
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I don't like when people use the supernatural meme to annouce a death. There are better ways to do it.
#i just saw the liam post and i would had been heartbroken if that was the way i found out about liam#is just so cruel and raw to put a death in a meme#is just not the way they are better ways just share an article or something#have some consideration to the fans#destiel meme#the fans shouldn't have find out about a death that someone they love with a meme#they deserved better#and liam's death is something very painful and tragic to be minimize to a meme annoucement#idk why i been so emotional over this maybe i'm very sensitive but#liam payne#thoughts about liam
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I hate when something looks like it would be RIGHT up your alley and the cast is pretty stacked, but there's one person in said cast who is just. Genuinely a horrible human being.
#and then for the sake of. not giving that one person my time or attention or anything. I see no way beyond just not watching the thing#OBVIOUSLY the focus should be the people who were hurt by said horrible human being#that IS in fact the important consideration here#I guess this is more...really just the fact that it happens so often?#because there are COUNTLESS examples to draw from of this particular type of Horrible Behavior and similar variations of it#like the entertainment industry is just. SO bad.#and that makes it unsafe for the people WHO ARE LITERALLY JUST TRYING TO MAKE ART#(and tangentially makes it harder for other people to engage with that art or acknowledge the work those other Not-Horrible people#put in. like congratulations you did direct and lasting harm to others. which in and of itself is a point of condemnation--the MOST#IMPORTANT point of condemnation. and then ON TOP OF that. extraneously. to add insult to injury. you secondhand-ruined#the experience of other people partaking in the sharing of and engagement with art.)#'well mc13 you could just watch it anyway it doesn't have to be done through streaming'#maybe other people could do that but I personally cannot handle engaging with this at all. it would stress me out and sicken me to#the point where there wouldn't be anything good to come out of watching it. I PERSONALLY cannot make peace with that.#I have...a LOT of thoughts on the idea of 'separating art from artist' and maybe I'll scream about them someday. but I do recognize that#there IS some nuance to the discussion when it comes to like...idk. people who have been kicked out of a project and then replaced once#their behavior came to light. or artists who are dead and cannot gain any kind of benefit from people engaging with their work anymore.#and looking at things considering the severity of the behavior in question and whether it seems like reformative justice is possible#like I do think there are things to be talked about. I agree there can't be One Magic Answer For All Cases Ever.#but the fact of the matter is...the hard line for what's actually unacceptable is...virtually nonexistent. and that shouldn't be the case.#this is past MY hard line. which yes does make it inconvenient in the sense of 'I cannot engage with a thing that sounds interesting' but#mostly I am just reminded over and over again of how insidious this industry is and how easily people get fucked up by it and it just...#it's so bleak. I don't want people to suffer when they're trying to make art. I don't want people to be unsafe. I remember when *I* was#experiencing those things and everyone around me was experiencing those things. I do not want ANYONE else to have to#go through that. EVER.#(<-this isn't like. COMPLETELY related to my previous post. I'm trying to organize my watchlist and I'm gonna. have to make some changes.)
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i think employers who dock your wages for sick leave shouldn't be allowed to hound you for repeat absences like obviously if im willing to lose a whole day's pay it's serious leave me alone
#like it creates such a toxic workplace environment for anyone with sny kind of disability to be basically accused of being a liar#and it's so invasive like maybe i dont want to share my whole medical history w you we're not that close baby#i actually think employers shouldn't be allowed to dock wages for sick leave but that's beside the point#anyway guess who's sick at work again because i dont want to get s discipliiiiinaaary#i wish i was at the beach again
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