#maybe i could just post on my main and rb here?

[thishappenedinsmt]

I don't want to spam the blog abt it but is anyone interested in a tomolife screenshot or two 😅

[jgracie]

TLDR: BLOG CLOSED INDEFINITELY, follow @gentlehue if you wanna see more of me in general & @cynarchives for an archive of all my works in case i ever delete this blog

ok so i think we all saw this coming LMAO tbh i kept trying to write stuff on here every once in a while but it feels like SUCH a chore every time i write 😭 this blog got me thru exam szn and so i am a little attached but we outgrow things all the time and i do think ive outgrown it now LOL the only reason i really kept at it was because i love u guys so so much and i felt so bad leaving u w nothing especially after getting me to 770 ?!?!? followers in only FOUR months 😣 i am so so grateful for you all u literally mean the world and more to me and im so so sorry i lost all motivation to post here ☹️

as of when im posting this (22 july 2023) i am keeping this blog up in case the motivation ever comes back but i highly doubt it will LOL... i will however forever love writing so maybe you'll see me writing for a diff fandom soon and then we can all reunite and scream ab whoever my new fave is 😚

i cant guarantee this blog staying up tho cz im incredibly impulsive when it comes to things like this and i hate how its connected to my main cz now i just feel bad whenever i get notifs n stuff from it LOL 😭 so just in case i ever do delete it i've reblogged all my writings (+ graceland and sparky and sunshine stuff) onto @cynarchives so u can all go back & reread to ur hearts pleasures ☺️ (if theres anything specific u liked from this blog that i've missed feel free to lmk and i'll rb it there for u!)

i feel so sad as im typing this omg jgracie means the WORLD to me :( ive met so many lovely people on here & made the majority of my current bffs thanks to this blog. thank u all so much for literally everything. i feel like no matter how many times i say thank u it'll never be enough 😭 i love u from the moon and to saturn and the rest of the solar system my angels 😣

since this blog is now closed, i wont be answering any asks or tags or comments or anything i get from here !!! so if you'd like to talk to me ab jason or literally ANYTHING or just enjoy my presence on ur dash (which??? so cute of u i love u) pls pls follow/send asks to my main, @gentlehue :)

with so much love, cynthia 🤍

ps. if people could rb this so everyone can see id appreciate it !!!! i'll be checking this blog's notifs for maybe a week or 2 then i'll completely ignore it LOL

[completely-real-and-normal-human]

Why I, Tumblr User Completely-Real-And-Normal-Human, Am a Monsterfucker: A Non-Exhaustive Manifesto

I’m not even sorry.

First of all: Micheal Distortion, from TMA. Fuck-Hands Mc Mike. Mikey-What-Those-Fingers-Do. He of the gaping corridors, and hopefully gaping holes. What on earth is he doing behind all those closed doors? Or, as the case may be, who is he doing?

the answer is me it’s me he’s fucking me

(Art by CountSlimula on Twitter)

I don’t really think I need to explain myself here. But in case I do, there are two main things I find remarkably attractive about Micheal (that I can adequately articulate): its voice and its hands.

Let’s start with his voice. Micheal’s voice is static-y and warping and always slightly amused. Now THAT is the kind of voice I’d want whispering sweet nothings in my ear. And that’s without even mentioning his laugh — god, can you even IMAGINE what his moans would sound like? Perfection.

Then there’s his hands. You can’t really see it in the first picture, so here’s another one.

(Art by Creativelea2 on Twitter)

He has fingers. I have holes. Enough said, I think.

Next, also a character from TMA, we have one Jared Hopworth. The Bone-Turner. Maker of Menacingly Meaty Murmurs. A man who owns, in all likelihood, a briefcase of carefully selected cocks.

(Art by @neonjawbone)

I’m sure it comes as a surprise to no one that I thoroughly enjoy a good pair of pecs. Jared probably has more than one pair, actually, so that’s several plus points right there. Here, finally, is a man who does body-building right.

As with Micheal, there is also the question of his voice. It’s deep, rumbling, gravelly… the kind of thing I want to hear when he’s busy splitting me in half, you know?

Finally, there’s the multiple limbs. He’d know what to do with all those hands, I’m sure. They’d hardly be lying idle.

Onwards! This time it’s Yaretzi, from Hello From The Hallowoods. Starwolf. Covenant of Tolshetol Who Guards A Thousand Suns. Loving coparent of a large metal son.

(Art by @cotton-glass)

She’s a werewolf, which maybe puts her more into ‘furry’ territory rather than ‘monsterfucker’, but we ball.

Firstly, while Yaretzi is an undeniably sweet person, she’s also fairly terrifying. And ‘women who could kill me’ are fairly high on my list of attractions. Secondly, her voice (again, I know, but most of the media I consume are podcasts so deal, I guess). It’s just the right shade of deep and soft. Amazing.

Also I want her to bite me.

There are more examples, but we’ll be here forever if I try listing them, so I’ll leave it there. I could go into detail about the deeper meaning behind my attraction to these beautiful beasties, but I’m going to see how the masses respond to this first. Besides, this has been in my drafts for entirely too long and I just want to post it at this stage.

(Shoutout to @zombieesc. Thanks for the monsterfucker hype, my friend.)

Edit: I’m a minor, so feel free to rb this post talking about how much you like any of the characters I’ve mentioned, but keep it reasonably PG.

[an-unconscious-effort-comic]

Hello and welcome to An Unconscious Effort!

What is An Unconscious Effort?

At its heart, AUE is a story I wrote to one day be a webcomic about 4 kids being forced to navigate through the depths of the dream world, who all have their own attempts and ideas on how to establish a balance between their dreams and the real world, all while learning how to rely on others and be kinder to themselves.

The story follows 4 different POV’s.

The first quarter of the story will follow Abigail, a 14 year old girl who’s better at talking to plants than she is to people, and trying to figure out this whole ‘growing into the adult she wants to be’ thing, or whatever her mom says. Less and less people in the world have been able to report having dreams as of late, with many speculating if this could mean the start of something much bigger than themselves. So, when a mysterious entity from the dream world offers the opportunity of a lifetime for Abigail to help in reestablishing a balance between the dream world and the waking world and being apart of something that could change the lives of billions for the better, how could Abi even reject this offer?

Current status?

At the moment, the outline for this story is still being workshopped. I have 1/2 of the outline written, but still would like to go over it again once I reach the ending to probably rearrange and tweak some things before properly and officially starting to post the comic for-realsies.

There is already some beta chapters I posted to webtoon and tapas that I made while trying to get a feel for making webcomics in the first place, and while I am still proud of having made those, their quality and story is not representative of what I will be trying to create when I officially start the comic again. They were mainly made to be a learning experience at the time and I guess I did learn a lot.

Main Characters?

I’m glad you asked!! (you didn’t).

Abigail (Abi) - 14 y/o, she/her - Friendly neighborhood girlfailure who takes care of the plants.

(For anyone who remembers my utdr fanart, she was the oc I turned into patience)

Prawn - 15 y/o, he/him - If he sees you sitting on a bench all alone he will sit down next to you and strike up a conversation. This is not a possibility, it is a threat. He knows your location.

(Oc turned into kindness)

Marzipan (Marzi) - 16 y/o, she/her - Girlbossing her way through life, but at what cost.

(Oc i hid under the cut that I had turned into justice)

Meadow - 13-15 y/o?, she/they - What a cute little deer guy! Sure hope they’re not hiding any horrors in them!

(Oc that I turned into perserverance)

Whats this blog for?

Fuck if i know im bored lmao. I doubt this blog or comic will even be seen by anybody but I still sorta want to post some oc work on here and just…have some fun? Maybe organize some stuff about the comic here and post about characters sometimes. Idk I’ll figure it out I suppose

And if you’d rather see my art blog where I usually just post utdr fanart and be cringe then its @squidpedia while @squidpedias-reblogs is my rb account

If you read this far, you have bad taste but thank you

[notmyprey]

Hi! Just thought I'd make a post going over a few things:

First things first! This is very much a (SFW) vore (for lack of remembering what the other descriptor is) account. If ya dont like- dont follow, lol.

I am a strictly SFW blog, meaning I dont, won't, and haven't posted anything NSFW. I sometimes post digestion, but it's ALWAYS with reformation or NON FATAL.

I normally draw g/t, but I will draw the occasional same/similar/half/quarter vore drawing.

I love asks, so long as they are SFW.

If you want to ask my OC's questions, go to my other blog here, which is just for that!

I only have a few DNI's:

Main DNI:

Pedos (of any name), zoophiles, harassment/callout blogs, homo/transphobic, racist (this includes towards asians and Middle easterns too, I aint tolerating any of that hateful shit)

For personal reasons, please either DNI or do not talk to me about:

Drugs (excluding medical ones), s3xual stuff (s3x repulsed ace here), and pr3gnancy (this is borderline phobia for me, ok? Maybe even worse than that)

If you have uncontrolled temperamental issues, please keep your distance or try not to become too close of friends with me (I have trauma related to this, and I am still recovering).

More info under cut:

These are the fandoms I know! Please try not to spam my ask box with fandoms that I dont know! An ask here and there abt one I dont know is ok, but not constantly please!

My Sona's:

This is my voresona!

This is my persona! (Who can also be used in vore lol)

Do I Role Play?

Short answer: no

Long answer: kind of? I do often use RP like language (such as the use of ** and refering to myself as my online persona, who is still technically me but in a universe where vore exists). But I dont like to directly RP with people in dm or anything else for the most part. There are few exceptions, but those who know, know.

I never thought I would have to add this, but please dont drag me into any drama or personal situations that don't involve me. I made this blog for me to have a place away from real life, not to have to stress over.

Repeating this again: One boundary I would like to put up is to try and keep drug mentions to as minimal as possible (outside of obv medications and stuff). I dont hate anyone who does do drugs, but it does make me very uncomfortable. I wish I could explain why, but unfortunately, I can not since I myself dont even know why.

NSFW and KINK blogs PLEASE READ:

NSFW:

I dont mind nsfw blogs following me or liking my posts, but please dont interact outside of that. Sometimes, I may block nsfw accounts out of the blue, but its normally because they either dont censor things or I see them too much on my tags that im following.

KINK:

I dont mind if kink blogs follow me or like my posts. You can reblog my posts. Just make sure that if you end up rebloging my posts, dont add tags that are related to a kink. I may block kink accounts out of the blue, but its normally because I see them too much on my tags that im following, and its something Im uncomfortable with seeing that often.

For BOTH NSWF and KINK blogs!! If you are an irl edit blog (aka you take real pictures and edit them), if I dont see you, you're fine. But as soon as I see any of that anywhere, whether it's going through who liked/rebloged my post or ending up on my fyp, I will block no hesitation. Irl photo edits make me extremely uncomfortable, and this is one of the few big boundaries I have and will not hesitate to enforce.

Other than that- dont be an asshole and were chill.

Master Lists:

Writing Master List

Prompts Master List

Rants Master List

Characters Master List

On going ask/rb games:

'Reblog or send an ask, and I'll tell ya what you/a character of your choice would taste like' post

Ask game! (Aka send me emojis to answer questions)

[furiousgoldfish]

hello!

i decided to ask for some advice, if you don't really know, you can encourage ppl to answer in replies/rbs, that's totally fine.

the question of disability has long since been on my mind, and for a while now, i've considered myself disabled. physically i'm not the worst, but my mental problems often render me unable to do anything at all, from taking care of myself and my living space, to doing any activities (especially if it's some kind of job), to even thinking straight - i think my headmates try to get through to me in those moments, but it usually doesn't reach me when it's really bad, so it falls onto my own shoulders to keep myself from harming the body. my first ask for advice is with this. what are some tips for surviving those pretty frequent moments, or maybe lessening their intensity or frequency? maybe some internal/external system communication tips?

that's not the only thing, though. since i'm unemployed, i have to depend on my parents for money - my mother neglected me for the better part of my life, and my father abused me. it's a whole can of worms, but the most important issue is that disability payments in my country aren't really enough to pay for everything, and so i somehow have to convince my mother that i am, in fact, disabled and unable to get a job, and manage to keep her financial support, as that's unfortunately my only option seemingly. if you or anyone can give some advice on that, i'd be really grateful.

apologies for such a long one. try to stay safe and take some care of yourself!

Oh wow you're asking for dissociative disorder advice, something I'm very not qualified to give! I do fully believe that mental problems sabotaging you from being able to take care of yourself, and struggling to just not harm the body, count as a disability, and you deserve and should be given help, you do not deserve to have to fight so badly just to get to survive, and it should be society's responsibility to help you be safe and sound (not that I know how to get this from society, it's a tough issue).

I know all common information on osdd suggests improving communication and getting to know your headmates better, but I can imagine this is tougher to say than to do, and I haven't managed it either, it's a big mess in here too, but I still don't experience what you do – not being able to think, wanting to do harm to yourself, I am somehow protected from this, so I don't know what would help such extreme situations, but it sounds extremely serious and I hope you can find a way to resolve it, I am sure it's not something that cannot be resolved. This should be able to get better.

I'm so sorry that you have to depend on your parents due to disability and a dissociative disorder that they likely caused; it's unfair and messed up. And that the disability payments are not enough to give you safety, that is extremely unfair and unkind. I'm not sure how you'd be able to convince a neglectful parent that you're disabled, it's difficult to convince neglectful parents of anything since their main feature is not caring about how you're doing and just expecting things out of you endlessly. I feel like maybe if she got information about the dissociative disorder, not from you, but from people she respects and wants to impress, that this might sway her, but it's impossible to tell because it might also not work.

Yeah I'm really sorry that all I can do is confirm that your situation is difficult and one that nobody would want to be in, and you're asking some real serious and tough questions here. I can say you're asking the good and right questions though! I can tell that you're looking very seriously to resolve this and you're trying to find any way to freedom and protection from abuse, and I love that, I'm sure you'll eventually get there, because you are looking in a good direction.

If anyone else could give advice to anon, please respond to this post!

[blueorange123]

Reaction Post to Skittle Steve's Creation And First Time Meeting People

https://youtu.be/TmHD-GkKUpA?si=uUs6Dkb8nAl0Ph84

https://youtu.be/bdGhIEXW03E?si=U9IXw3PMlbmH0cuK (I know the whole story of The Steve Saga, but haven't even gotten close to seeing all of Origins, so I'm gonna watch this in timeline order.)

This reaction post format is inspired by @illusion-reality-steve, go read Stress's posts if you like The Steve Saga.

Hm, so Rainbow Steve is basically a last resort. Maybe even an act of desperation. Interesting.

So, Rainbow was created in this place, I don't see any hoppers or anything. Doesn't really look like a machine.

This part looks like a meeting room, and for some reason Rainbow Steve's "storage tank" leads right into it? Odd.

He apparently doesn't know what a table is? I mean I guess he has an excuse, having just obtained consciousness, but he knows what paintings are though?

He really does not like thunder, to be fair though, it is an indication of power here, so I guess that makes sense.

"Wait a second, who am I?", wasn't expecting that, he must have so many questions. "Why don't I remember anything? [...] I don't even know my name." Yep, here comes the emotional damage.

Interesting that Rainbow Steve expects someone else to be there, perhaps this ties into memories of the Elders that created him. Could he hold their memories, deep, deep down?

So, like, do steves... bleed or is this redstone? We see so little of this place it's hard to tell.

Rainbow Steve is out here avoiding that hallway and his problems like Neo from The Matrix. Also, yep, no redstone up here, how in the world did the Elders create this steve?

Not even RBS knows what the stuff on the floor is.

Okay, no, seriously, what is is this place? It's just on the side of a mountain.

Welp, guess he's RIPbow Steve now. (Also, he had so much time to avoid that.)

Wow, sure is convenient that Green was casually strolling through the area.

Rainbow Steve just casually starts catastrophizing, lol.

Ha, he tries to be intimidating, scares Green and immediately goes back on that idea. He's too nice /pos.

Rainbow seemed to have forgotten that he's only been one other place when he said he didn't recognize Green's house.

Nature rectangle man lives in a big ol' tree. That's genuinely pretty cool.

Ah, a Tree of Life, just like the Rainbow Tree of Life, but seemingly much smaller and made of actual wood. Wonder if we'll learn more about these.

That moment when Rainbow Steve is born knowing what chimneys are, but not tables.

Is "The Steve Realm" implying there's realms for other beings or is it just the overworld and then places like the Spirit Realm are the only others? I mean Sabre went through multiple servers before reaching the main one with Rainbow Steve.

And Rainbow Steve gets his name, ironically with the same thought process Sabre went through.

Rainbow Steve listed a bunch of possible steves, let's see what he got right:

Red Steve, yep

Blue Steve, yep, both part of the big 3.

Brown Steve, nope, would've been cool though.

Yellow Steve, yep

Purple Steve, yep

Orange Steve, not until the reboot buddy.

Red Steves just out here getting casually generalized as being aggressive.

The immediate realization Rainbow Steve has when saying Green can be a tree person is glorious.

He is here, if I hadn't already seen the first 4 episodes of this, I'd guess who "he" was (maybe I'd even think he was Reverse or Shadow), but since I have seen these first 4, I'll conclude the post here.

Have a nice day!

[tarotofzhivamoon]

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What is blocking reconciliation?

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Pile 1

Some of the main blockages for this reconciliation are indecision and a whole lot of lack of clarity, accompanied by feelings of isolation, of not being supported and needing to deal with everything on your own because emotionally and mentally you know you can’t depend on the other person for help. This knowing doesn’t necessarily have to be true though because in the past either you or your person, or both of you even, have dealt with experiences that were sort of unpleasant and your minds have stored those unpleasant experiences to a point in which it makes it really easy for you to categorize, label and compartmentalize all these other experiences that happened after those moments. There are associations of new experiences with memories of similar past experiences that have really made it hard for the both of you to actually believe that you’re there for each other and that you want to offer and show support, but due to what you have gone through in the past, it was really hard to believe at the time, maybe it’s hard to believe now as well. It’s very easy for human being to just assume what the other person is feeling or thinking about us, it’s easy to feel like you rightfully know everything about them and about what is going on within them and that’s what gives it some form of realism, it seems like that’s actually what is happening, when in reality the other person could feel completely different than what we are assuming, but instead of asking or clarifying, we continue on believing the story that our minds have painted based on their behavior and comparing it to past experiences that go way deeper than romantic love or friends, down to the relationship we had with our caregivers and what we have seen around us along with what beliefs have been passed onto us. There could’ve been moments in which the support wasn’t there, where it was actually how the other person showed up, but it wasn’t all the time either; that lack of clarity has truly made you both go to really difficult mental and emotional places when it came to each other and your relationship and it has caused a whole lot of baggage; this is the root issue that —

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Pile 2

The main root blockages for this reconciliation are definitely well represented by either you, your person or both of you just effortlessly wallowing in such an unhealthy self-pity, refusing and clinging to move on from the past and just letting go of what has happened which results in you both beating yourselves up over past mistakes that you have made and taking those on as your full identity. Not only this but also not taking on a whole lot of accountability within the connection which has made it very easy for the both of you to simply allow this fear of failing each other to just limit the effort that you have been putting into this relationship when you were together. This is how the dissolution of the relationship started and how it’s been for a whole lot of time, until one of you actually started to see things for what they are and actually put some of that mindset behind, trying to guide the other towards doing the same thing in attempt to save this relationship but it just was too late. The two of you just couldn’t move on from that fear of disappointing the other, maybe it was warranted to be afraid of that due to some criticism or an issue in communication that has caused the both of you to take things personally, to feel like you were being blamed for everything that was going wrong in the relationship almost like you were passing blame from one to the other back and forth, but it’s also been something that you have heavily experienced before in other relationships too. There might’ve been small mistakes that lead to bigger problems or even past criticism, small experiences that have had such a big impact on the both of you and made you believe that it’s so easy to disappoint another, that if you can’t meet their expectations, then you are just doomed because you messed up so badly to a point in which you lost value, the other person might not want anything to do with you anymore. There’s a sense of catastrophizing everything, but it doesn’t seem to be directed at each other or when the other messed up, it wasn’t such a big deal compared to when you both individually messed up and the other would speak up for themselves, in however way they knew best at the time. If you messed up, it was like it was the end of this relationship and those mistakes kept daunting you both until —

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[innocentlittlepet]

· Hii ·

I'm a 29 y.o. boygirl enby (any pronouns). I’m very subby, and bi/pan, but with a preference for dommes. Sadly I don’t have any sexual experience irl though.

This is my blog for exploring dark and/or taboo fantasies. You are not welcome here if you don’t accept that all real interactions must be between consenting adults. Under the cut you can find a list of some of the specific kinks you’ll find here. I don’t tag things, so please look out for yourself and don’t follow if anything here might upset you!

You’re welcome to ask about my kinks or anything else. You can dm me too, but… I’m extremely shy and not very good at talking. I also don’t want to sext, I’d much rather you just kidnap me instead <3

DNI: Minors, pedophiles, bigots, genocide deniers, etc. I will block you if you don’t indicate that you are an adult.

Spam liking/rb is okay with me <3

I follow from @sleepylostboy (softer main blog but still nsfw)

Some kinks you might see here:

· General BDSM (bondage, pain, degradation, humiliation) · CNC (kidnapping, stalking, somno, intox, rape word, etc.) · Petplay · Fauxcest · Emotional manipulation, gaslighting, brainwashing, etc. · Yandere · (Forced) feminization (not in a misogynistic way) · Forced body alteration · 24/7 dynamics · Ageplay (mostly cg and dd/md stuff, maybe abdl) · (Light) cucking · Rimming, piss

It’s not an exhaustive list, but I’ve tried to mention most of the kinks that could trigger or upset people. And of course you’re welcome to ask about anything I didn’t mention as well.

I may also occasionally mention depression, self-harm, suicide, and other mental health related issues.

Please don’t judge me for what I post here. I struggle to cope with… everything. Really I’m just a softie who wants to be loved and adored 🥺

[hiroshotreplica]

didnt realize the shiver beak post would actually get notes, ill comment more of my thoughts + more findings

the "one on top in the middle, one on the bottom in the middle" formation is most commonly used for talking so its probably just a stylistic choice. a really weird one at that, especially now that its being treated as the main teeth position outside of talking, so im not even sure.

for the tableturf card art, someone in the rbs brought up that it could be accidental worldbuilding on how the company producing them doesnt understand octolings and i believe theyre correct. theres a similar beak difference on the big bubbler card:

so maybe they think shiver's an inkling for whatever reason? unsure.

the teeth position where theyre still in the middle, but the top one is slightly off to the left, appears to happen when shiver goes to close her mouth with the middle teeth positions. its kind of odd because this doesnt happen with pearl and marina (who have the same beak shape) so? not sure what the intention is here. it looks odd in my opinion

that isnt even consistent, theres images where they just close their mouth with the middle beak shape normally:

also, looking at images, the beak placement for one of this pose is just... wrong?? is upper right tooth and lower left tooth a new variation now?

ive looked at shiver for too long i think

[clownmeatpizza]

I'm too nervous to talk about this on main and it mostly pertains to stuff I only reblogged and talked about here on this blog and I don't wanna drag the people who've been only following me for my art into this, so I'm just gonna talk about it here.

What partially sparked this post is that I noticed a notification that one of my mutuals started following me today, and it could be nothing it could just be that it unfollowed me by accident because the tumblr app can be finicky sometimes and I could be reading waaayy too much into this. But just in case it's because anyone was upset or scared or pissed off by something I reblogged or said I wanna give people a chance to talk to me about it if they want to or tell me if they want me to apologize for anything.

This is about me having initially agreed with that post Patricia Taxxon made earlier before I had read some other people's criticisms of that post or about the way it was worded and it's also about me being confused about and asking questions about the discourse surrounding the term "transandrophobia" from a couple days ago.

I think I did lose one mutual for the latter thing a couple days ago and it has kind of stung but I completely understand why some people would keep a trigger finger on the block button like that because you can never tell who can simply just be educated and who is looking to start a harassment campaign. I'm somebody who rarely blocks people because I myself am always scared that I'm gonna fuck up or say something that's hurtful or offends someone and I wanna extend some grace to other people in case they're just like me, but I think my hesitance to block people because of this is also to my detriment because I am exposing myself to more things that upset me than I otherwise would be so maybe I myself should be less afraid to block people.

Anyway I know I am not immune to falling for harmful ideologies or spreading harmful rhetoric or getting brain fungus so if you think that i'm starting to get brain fungus please let me know and tell me how i can fix it

I'm probably gonna delete this post later so i'm disabling rbs

[phebess]

Hello, loyal reader of your work here, I've been quiet for too long probably, considering how I eat up your carlando fics, too many thoughts and I'm shy, oops.

You sometimes invite to vent, so here I am, because of the last two chapters mostly. My brain of an artist just couldn't shut up at Carlos. If you like his art and you know he struggles financially, just commission him, commission him, commiss- argh. Commission him like Michelangelo was commissioned to do Sistine Chapel or whatever. And then there's story of my friend, that I can't stop thinking of while reading this, who dated a sex worker, and despite of not that high income as the certain character here, was ready to provide for their partner, so they wouldn't have to sell their body (said partner did not want to give it up though, so they broke up). Like!!! Commission him for stupid high price and you have a good excuse to make his life easier and maybe being able to drop sex work for survival thing! Like I get it, after the whole 'I pay you for the OF stuff' part, paying might feel icky, Lando's pride could make him refuse (he did not have this problem selling his ass to the other guy in ch 1 though and here it's about his supposedly dream work...), but- you already wanted to buy finished painting, so... goddamit, I'm getting too invested and solution oriented, adhd things ig, sorry for yelling 😅

And then there's the racing part, that I'm probably thinking too much about as well. That is for the past chapters, you made Carlos be Ferrari driver anyway, but if it's fanfiction, why not let imagination wander a bit more? Before his team affilation was mentioned and only that he's reigning wdc, I hoped that maybe in this fantasy reality he remained with RB (Merc taking Max in 2015 or 2017, so he was never in RB, CS eventually becoming their main guy after beating DR when it mattered or whatever - there's also this rally driver!Carlos thing that I can't stop thinking about, but that's waaay off topic). Not that it matters, it's just that I can't imagine Ferrari doing things right even in fanfiction, lol. I'm trying not to get too much into how you imagined Carlos getting that concussion with all the HANS, roll hops and halos, because I guess it's my problem being overly attached to details in story that is basically porn with plot and feelings, so bit of drama is a must have, especially considering how amazing your writing for that part is. I hope you don't think I'm taking away anything from where you're going with the story, just some of my own thoughts and your works give me a lot of those, in a positive way.

Okay, I think I vented all I wanted? There are some older fics of yours that I probably should have written similiar wall of text about, but that's it for now 😅

Hi anon! First, thanks for writing out your thoughts - second, happy to touch on some of these:

I totally understand the want for Carlos to commission Lando's work, and I think Carlos actually shares your exact frustration - he has the means to provide for Lando, it would be so easy. But like you said, it's a transaction-based power dynamic that neither of them want in their romantic relationship. He offered by buying the painting, in a way, and Lando's hesitance told him all he needed to know about whether he wanted his financial help.

In regards to Carlos' team, I actually never said he was a Ferrari driver! I didn't name his team at all in this fic – I didn't think it was important to the story, and allows the fic to be kind of timeless in a way.

For the concussion, there are loads of ways to get concussed, from whiplash to flying debris - the Halo's just make it more likely to be just a concussion and not d*ath. As you said, though, i'ts fiction and we love a bit of drama ;)

I try and make things as realistic as possible in my fics, bc glaring plot holes drive me up the wall - so I feel ya. I should have the next chapter posted soon, I hope you're enjoying it!

[pianostarinwonderland]

hi! i read the Azul Ashengrotto Thoughts rb and it made me remember smth i thought about last night. i think your idea about "if azul is stronger/better at magic (than jade) then he can bypass the 'once per person' limitation" is more likely than what i thought but

on the contrary if he might not have been good enough to bypass the limitation, do you think jade's uhhh-- history (? im sorry i dont know the right word!!) would apply to him? like lets say jade successfully uses it on octa mob A then transfers it to azul. would azul still be able to use it on octa mob A or not bc it was "already used once on someone"

(this made me wonder something else about whether jade has used his UM on floyd yet. idk if it would have even been successful if he tried but if he did, could he have like. tested it out on him for fun or learned he got his UM unknowingly by accidentally using it on floyd? or would he have avoided trying to use it on floyd when he realized what his UM was because maybe "it could be useful in the future" or "i dont have a need or want to use this on my brother". this is just a baseless idea i thought of jshdjashjaj)

this is one more random question if you don't mind but!! if u haven't answered this before, do u have a favourite twisted tsumtsum? :D

thank you for listening to my ask lajdkhds !!!! have a wonderful day!

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you know, anon..............

THOSE ARE SUCH GOOD QUESTIONS

WTFFFFF I NEVER THOUGHT OF THOSE, AND I CAN'T BELIEVE I'D ACTUALLY GET TO READ THIS THREE YEARS AFTER I MADE THE POST SOBSOBSOBSOB

do you think jade's uhhh-- history (? im sorry i dont know the right word!!) would apply to him? like lets say jade successfully uses it on octa mob A then transfers it to azul. would azul still be able to use it on octa mob A or not bc it was "already used once on someone"

Man, this .. this is so interesting, I never even considered that the history of one's magic can be a possible factor. To this, I think that Azul steals the ability but the "history" is not applied. Probably because what Azul gets is really just the ability and not anything about its history. Like, for example, someone had to develop their abilities of course. Azul would probably not "feel" that history in the sense that he wouldn't really "feel" the difficulties or other things that the original user went through to polish their ability to what it is. He just has their ability now. So maybe theoretically, with Jade's UM, he can use the UM on Octa mob A if Jade used it on him again. And also, it's Azul's magic, not Jade's. So maybe the person will block out Jade's magic, but it does not recognize Azul's magic.

But if assuming that he can't bypass the limitation, then yea I don't think that he'd be able to use it on Octa mob A twice.

(this made me wonder something else about whether jade has used his UM on floyd yet. idk if it would have even been successful if he tried but if he did, could he have like. tested it out on him for fun or learned he got his UM unknowingly by accidentally using it on floyd? or would he have avoided trying to use it on floyd when he realized what his UM was because maybe "it could be useful in the future" or "i dont have a need or want to use this on my brother". this is just a baseless idea i thought of jshdjashjaj)

!! It's always been an hc of mine that Jade used his UM on Floyd at some point! And that's how he even found out about his limitations. Not sure what moment exactly would have gotten him to unlock that kind of ability, because from what we see in main story, UMs just suddenly kinda appear when someone is in a particularly stressful moment (like Deuce with the thugs in chapter 5 and Epel with the rogue Charons in chapter 6). Either way, unless they really fought a lot as kids, I don't think his first target was Floyd. But definitely Floyd witnessed him forming the UM, and then volunteered himself to be a practice dummy for Jade. And then they just learned from there.

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Writing Masterpost

Hi! Welcome to my writing dedicated side blog. My main is @made-with-magic and that's definitely where I talk and rb stuff the most but I wanted to make something dedicated specifically to just my writing, which is mostly fan fiction posted on ao3. Right now I write for the Valorant, Spider-Man, and CODMW fandoms, but I will most certainly be branching out to other fandoms at some point bc I'm a multi-fandom mess.

Anyway here's all my work so far:

Valorant

Floating - Short angst one-shot, Established Cypher/Sova/Omen

Summary: Water was the vast ocean, an unknown. The ocean had always made Sova uncomfortable, not quite scared per se, but just left him with a sense of unease. To not know what was under the dark depths, no real way of fighting it if it decided to take you. He had known people who had died from walking on the wrong part of ice, just because the water underneath their feet decided to end them.

Published: 2022-07-11 Words: 2101 Chapters: 1/1

Its the Holiday Season (and everything that comes with it) - established Cypher/Sova/Omen fluff chapter, Cypher/Omen focused first kiss.

Summary: Apparently, the ‘no fraternization’ rule that most people usually softly ignored was even more disregarded during the holidays. Omen could see the couples forming across the room, caught up in the buzzing energy.

Even Brimstone, who was supposed to be the one enforcing the 'no fraternization' rule, was standing on Kay/o's bent arms like a ladder to hang mistletoe in one area of the room's ceiling. A mistletoe. They were a secret government shadow organization and there was a mistletoe in their common room. - - - AKA. my friend suggested i write "soft cyphmen (or cysomen) where omens never celebrated christmas before cause he had no one to celebrate it with but now he does and cypher goes all out to make it extra special for omen djfhjfjfhdjfhfjr

Published: 2022-08-24 Words: 5045 Chapters: 1/1

Policy 9.13: No Fratenization - Established Chamber/Breach, angst with an open/unfinished ending, written for a friend

Summary: Every agent in the Valorant protocol got hurt. It was part of the job. A bullet wound, a broken ankle from jumping off of something they shouldn't have, hell, even death wasn't that uncommon for the agents. They all had experienced many wounds and the pain that came with it, until Skye’s warm herbal-smelling patch-ups or the cool feeling of Sage’s healing or resurrection got rid of it, and they were good to go back into the field. Good to go back to risking their lives for the Protocol, good to go back to fighting gods.

Breach had been in his fair share of fights, seen his fair share of blood and injured teammates. He always got over it. They all had chosen this line of work, and knew what could happen at any moment in it.

So why did seeing Chamber covered in more blood than he had ever seen scare him so much?

Published: 2022-10-28 Words: 10162 Chapters: 1/?

Golden Eyed - short oneshot with romantic tension between Chamber/Breach, written for ChambreachWeek2022

Summary: Maybe the reason he hadn't noticed was because it was very subtle, at first glance or with the normal lighting Chamber's eyes just looked like they were a simple brown color. But up close, with the right shine, there was a gold hue. It fit the Frenchman's theme and personality perfectly; the man's eyes were a piercing and beautiful golden.

They stuck in Breach’s mind like someone had personally painted them in his head.

Published: 2022-12-10 Words: 1856 Chapters: 1/1

Call of Duty: Modern Warfare

I used to. - short angst with ghost and his family, based off a tiktok, kind of established Soap/Ghost but not really?

Summary: "Wow. Wasn't expecting you to be good with kids Ghost,” he said back, smiling at the man's awkwardness. He could be the best sniper in the world, but he was still just a human.

Ghost shrugged. “Yeah. Used to watch my little brother all the time and would watch my Nephew every time I went on leave,” he said a little offhandedly.

“You have a brother? And a nephew?” Soap asked, surprised over the fact Ghost had shared the fact evident in his tone.

“Yeah, I used to.” ------- aka short drabble inspired by a tiktok in which soap is surprised ghost is good with kid

Published: 2022-11-26 Words: 1480 Chapters: 1/1

MCU

'hey are u like, ok?' - ongoing multi-chapter Peter Parker angst fic, slow burn and I do mean slow, updates Mondays

Summary: His neck hairs stood on end as he quietly walked away, praying that his footsteps were not loud enough to be heard. It was raining even heavier now, but it didn't mask the prickling feeling of wrongness that overtook him. He wanted– no, needed to find Ben and May.

He suddenly felt very small. No longer the brave kid that had offered to go on his own, but a small, scared child wanting his parents.

As he continued walking slowly away, he caught sight of whom the mugging victim was, at the same time they– both of the victims– spoke. His heart plummeted to his stomach, seemingly taking all his blood with it as he suddenly became lightheaded, Peter thought he might pass out. --------- When on one summer day a random mugger killed both Uncle Ben and Aunt May, Peter is left to the will of the world. This story follows his struggles through the foster care system, getting superpowers, and his maybe eventual romance with the person he last expected.

(stats are at time of making this list, assume it has been updated since) Published: 2022-11-22 Updated: 2022-12-13 Words: 15951 Chapters: 4/?

[saetoru]

hi! im so incredibly sorry to bother you but i think you may have blocked one of my other blogs and i was wondering if i could ask why?

please don’t feel pressured to answer whatsoever and definitely feel free to ignore this, i really don’t want to trouble you in any way. i just wanted to know if i did anything wrong or something to offend you?

i really try my hardest to stay neutral and friendly as well as respecting and following everyone else’s blog rules so i’d really appreciate any feedback or insight if you’re happy to give it. whatever i did, once again, im so incredibly sorry to bother you, i don’t mean any harm at all, ever. if i did something to offend you, it was never intentional, all i really try to do on tumblr is rb pictures of cats most of the time anyways.

please don’t take this the wrong way, it just makes me super anxious that i might’ve done something to someone that may have hurt them or made them uncomfortable. i really loved your writing and your blog and i can’t apologise enough if i messed up or anything. of course, i totally understand that sometimes people just choose to block people for their own reasons and i respect that no matter what. i’m incredibly sorry if i encroached on your boundaries in any way, i just really held your writing close to my heart and it saddens me that i can’t view it anymore. but that isn’t your fault whatsoever. i respect you so much as a writer and a person and i just wanted to say that i’m really sorry if i did anything. i’m sorry tee.

okay bestie i can’t rly tell unless u share ur url tho 😭 but honestly sometimes ppl leave comments or tags that make me feel weird / annoy me — i’m human and sometimes i block over petty reasons (i’m working on it fjsjfj) but overall i like to think i block with decent cause so unless ur ageless, you’ve probably said something to slightly (or perhaps highly) irritate me or you may have spam liked ?? idrk unless i see ur url tbh. i mean if u send me ur url i won’t post it and if i can’t recall why ur blocked i might as well unblock (as long as ur age is present)

anyway if i block u i’m not saying everyone should come swarm me with “can i ask why” bc that would be annoying but sometimes writers are human and sometimes we block for dumb reasons and if you think perhaps you haven’t rly done anything worth blocking besides maybe me taking out a bad mood on a slightly accidentally annoying thing u did, i might just unblock if ur url doesn’t ring a bell in my mind for something memorably obnoxious. especially if u think it’s bc u didn’t have an age in ur bio before—some of u don’t know to do that till after and i get that !!—im happy to unblock if you’ve since then added an age. but again this isn’t an open invitation for all blocked blogs (id assume ur lurking if ur blocked and reading this LMAO) to come ask me why or for an unblock but sometimes if u rly believe you’ve been blocked by mistake or for a petty reason i’m willing to check is all i’ll say

anyway yeah if u see this send ur url—be mindful of any comments or tags u leave, sometimes u might be unintentionally a bit rude and that could be a big reason why !! also don’t spam like i rly rly hate that

edit: i appreciate the kind comments about my writing NFJSJF i thought i’d add that in bc ofc sharing writing is the main reason im here and hearing u enjoy it and such is nice to know. thank u for reading and thinking highly of it that’s rly sweet <3

[karmahasagun]

Hi! If you’ve managed to find this blog, I hope you know what you’ve signed up for!! I’m so sorry!!!

About

I’m Toni, age 22, any/all pronouns, and this is my blog entirely dedicated to my OCs (and possibly some of my friends’ OCs :p). I’ll post art and lore here, answer questions, maybe even do a little bit of rp ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ who knows :3.

Feel free to send asks for doodle requests and questions about/directed at my characters :]

Check below the cut for rules, a complete character list, my tag system, and my other socials ✨

General Rules

Sending asks is HIGHLY ENCOURAGED!!! PLEASE LET ME TALK ABOUT MY CHARACTERS

Art of my OCs is ALLOWED and ENCOURAGED! Though I would appreciate a tag if you draw them, I wanna see :3

That being said, ABSOLUTELY NO AI OR NFTS. GET OUT. FUCK OFF.

Taking inspiration from my characters for your own is okay as long as it’s not a direct rip. And no taking my art and using it without permission. I will hunt you down.

I am an adult, and am okay with suggestive content as long as the character in question is an adult, but outright nsfw and smut is Not Okay, especially if I don’t know you. You will be blocked.

This is my blog that I’m running for fun. I can and will block anyone for any reason. You’re not fun and quirky for breaking my rules and/or being weird. I don’t have time to deal with that.

Ask Box Rules

Keep everything related to my OCs!

Doodle requests are welcome, though they might not get done immediately bc my art motivation is fickle

You can ask questions about my characters, but I may not be able to answer due to spoilers. Many of these characters are ttrpg characters, and certain information might be something I can’t talk about yet.

You can ask questions directed AT a character as well, which I will answer in-character! When it comes to ttrpg characters, I’ll answer based on how they’d respond at the current point in the story, so the same question might have different answers if asked a few months apart as my groups play more sessions :]

As stated in general, I am okay with flirty/suggestive content, but outright nsfw is not permitted.

Character List

All characters will have a very brief summary. For more information on the characters, search for their tags and read through my posts about them!

Active TTRPG Characters

(aka, ttrpg characters whose stories are still ongoing. I may exclude information about them or avoid certain questions directed at them due to spoilers.)

Cypress

Spunky half-humanoid half-snow leopard barbarian with wicked amnesia. Age 13-ish, he/they.

Eries

Mom-friend aasimar paladin keeping the whole party on child leashes. Age 20, she/they. (Want to know more about the campaign Eries is from? My lovely DM, Cove set up a special blog just for Winds & Waves!)

Glory-of-the-Snow

Emotionally unintelligent mohsnian ranger with a cold lizard pet. Age 124, they/it.

Kasper

Rat bastard tabaxi sorcerer/artificer with every mental issue you could ever want. Age 27-ish, he/him.

Miscellaneous

(characters I've made but don't really have a use for yet. Still love em and am willing to talk about em :] )

Darcy

Cottagecore lemur anthro who loves baking and gardening. Age ~25, they/she.

Lilac

Pastel goth lop bunny anthro who loves witchy stuff like crystals and zodiacs. Will do a tarot reading on you unprompted. Age ~24, she/her.

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Toyhouse

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