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I don't want to spam the blog abt it but is anyone interested in a tomolife screenshot or two š
#speak ez#lots of folks have been playing lately i kinda wanna show what ive been up to#but also i worry itll be Annoying TM#maybe i could just post on my main and rb here?#delete later
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William Miller AU when /silly /nf (not forcing)
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Just miss the silly lil purple goober and his boyfriend (/j)
Auuughhh I feel guilty (kinda???) about this a lot.
I will EVENTUALLY continue it. I have idea for the story and I want to get them out.
the main reason I stopped as A. Iām no longer in the fandom, and itās hard writing for something you donāt care about as much. Maybe Iāll get back into it who knows, but my fixations now donāt quite line up and now itās really hard to work on it. B. comics are so demotivating. They take SUPER long, and are a little painful to try to get out in a timely fashion. Iām trying, I swear, but I get anxious trying to work on the comic now out of guilt i promised more , and the fact I havenāt put out ANYTHING for MONTHS.
this entire project is being done my me, alone, by myself. And while Iād LOVE to have help with it, I am a HIGHSCHOOLER who has NO IDEA how to conduct a team of people working on it.
knowing people are still interested is SO MOTIVATING let me tell you, and decently close to finishing the current part. The biggest issue I find is that good freaking lord. It takes too long. And this is the longest part, by far, so taken a long time. the future of this project will probably come in mixed media. I think that by limiting myself to the comic format has made it very VERY difficult to enjoy working on it. My plans are art, short comics, mayyybbbeeeee an animatic here or there, but I feel there are two options that are the most idea. - primarily writing, fanfiction Iāll post on AO3, wonāt be as visual but dw Iāll make it work somehow Iām a GOOD??? writer allegedly so eh. - comic, but different. I was thinking that if I do a looser/simpler style, that it could make life easier. Again, Iām the one doing EVERYTHING and Iām not even in the fandom anymore so this would make it a lot easier. It would be a bit of an Artstyle change, but if people care about my WM AU enough Iāll post concepts for different art styles I could opt for to make life easier
I will finish part 5. (Is that the next part?) over break, maybe, Iāll see if I can get it out. SEE. If I can.
also if any moots i know pretty well is willing to go though spoilers PLEASE dm if you wanna help me figure about wtf act 3/4 will be, I have 1,2,ā¦,5 and I REALLY need help šššš /nf at all though
so yeah Iād be happy to know how people actually feel about that, and if fanfic/comic but different?? is the way to go please show your support. I want to get this out, itās just harder than expected.
Guys if comic wins I can do the concepts and if fanfic wins uhhh start writing??? This is a fan project so ANY and all support (rb rb rb rb rb rb) on the content is AMAZING and giving me feedback makes me very very happy and good so PLEASE it helps so much (I UNDERSTAND HOW IT FEELS TO BE A YOUTUBER NOW YES I AM BEGGING FOR RB /silly)
#This was a RAMBLE SORRRRYYYY. I haven t touched these guys in months apologies#I try I swear#william miller au#dsaf#dayshift at freddy's#Uhhh what other tags I forgor#Thatās good enough
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Hi! Just thought I'd make a post going over a few things:
First things first! This is very much a (SFW) vore (for lack of remembering what the other descriptor is) account. If ya dont like- dont follow, lol.
I am a strictly SFW blog, meaning I dont, won't, and haven't posted anything NSFW. I sometimes post digestion, but it's ALWAYS with reformation or NON FATAL.
I normally draw g/t vore, but I will draw the occasional same/similar/half/quarter vore drawing.
I love asks, so long as they are SFW.
If you want to ask my OC's questions, go to my other blog here, which is just for that!
I only have a few DNI's:
Main DNI:
Pedos (of any name), zoophiles, harassment/callout blogs, homo/transphobic, racist (this includes towards asians and Middle easterns too, I aint tolerating any of that hateful shit)
For personal reasons, please either DNI or do not talk to me about:
Drugs (excluding medical ones), s3xual stuff (s3x repulsed ace here), and pr3gnancy (this is borderline phobia for me, ok? Maybe even worse than that)
If you have uncontrolled temperamental issues, please keep your distance or try not to become too close of friends with me (I have trauma related to this, and I am still recovering).
New book I'm working on:
Gluttony, Gods, and that one dude over there
More info under cut:
These are the fandoms I know! Please try not to spam my ask box with fandoms that I dont know! An ask here and there abt one I dont know is ok, but not constantly please!
My Sona's:
This is my voresona!
This is my persona! (Who can also be used in vore lol)
Do I Role Play?
Short answer: no
Long answer: kind of? I do often use RP like language (such as the use of ** and refering to myself as my online persona, who is still technically me but in a universe where vore exists). But I dont like to directly RP with people in dm or anything else for the most part. There are few exceptions, but those who know, know.
I never thought I would have to add this, but please dont drag me into any drama or personal situations that don't involve me. I made this blog for me to have a place away from real life, not to have to stress over.
Repeating this again: One boundary I would like to put up is to try and keep drug mentions to as minimal as possible (outside of obv medications and stuff). I dont hate anyone who does do drugs, but it does make me very uncomfortable. I wish I could explain why, but unfortunately, I can not since I myself dont even know why.
NSFW and KINK blogs PLEASE READ:
NSFW:
I dont mind nsfw blogs following me or liking my posts, but please dont interact outside of that. Sometimes, I may block nsfw accounts out of the blue, but its normally because they either dont censor things or I see them too much on my tags that im following.
KINK:
I dont mind if kink blogs follow me or like my posts. You can reblog my posts. Just make sure that if you end up rebloging my posts, dont add tags that are related to a kink. I may block kink accounts out of the blue, but its normally because I see them too much on my tags that im following, and its something Im uncomfortable with seeing that often.
For BOTH NSWF and KINK blogs!! If you are an irl edit blog (aka you take real pictures and edit them), if I dont see you, you're fine. But as soon as I see any of that anywhere, whether it's going through who liked/rebloged my post or ending up on my fyp, I will block no hesitation. Irl photo edits make me extremely uncomfortable, and this is one of the few big boundaries I have and will not hesitate to enforce.
Other than that- dont be an asshole and were chill.
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Why I, Tumblr User Completely-Real-And-Normal-Human, Am a Monsterfucker: A Non-Exhaustive Manifesto
Iām not even sorry.
First of all: Micheal Distortion, from TMA. Fuck-Hands Mc Mike. Mikey-What-Those-Fingers-Do. He of the gaping corridors, and hopefully gaping holes. What on earth is he doing behind all those closed doors? Or, as the case may be, who is he doing?
the answer is me itās me heās fucking me
(Art by CountSlimula on Twitter)
I donāt really think I need to explain myself here. But in case I do, there are two main things I find remarkably attractive about Micheal (that I can adequately articulate): its voice and its hands.
Letās start with his voice. Michealās voice is static-y and warping and always slightly amused. Now THAT is the kind of voice Iād want whispering sweet nothings in my ear. And thatās without even mentioning his laugh ā god, can you even IMAGINE what his moans would sound like? Perfection.
Then thereās his hands. You canāt really see it in the first picture, so hereās another one.
(Art by Creativelea2 on Twitter)
He has fingers. I have holes. Enough said, I think.
Next, also a character from TMA, we have one Jared Hopworth. The Bone-Turner. Maker of Menacingly Meaty Murmurs. A man who owns, in all likelihood, a briefcase of carefully selected cocks.
(Art by @neonjawbone)
Iām sure it comes as a surprise to no one that I thoroughly enjoy a good pair of pecs. Jared probably has more than one pair, actually, so thatās several plus points right there. Here, finally, is a man who does body-building right.
As with Micheal, there is also the question of his voice. Itās deep, rumbling, gravellyā¦ the kind of thing I want to hear when heās busy splitting me in half, you know?
Finally, thereās the multiple limbs. Heād know what to do with all those hands, Iām sure. Theyād hardly be lying idle.
Onwards! This time itās Yaretzi, from Hello From The Hallowoods. Starwolf. Covenant of Tolshetol Who Guards A Thousand Suns. Loving coparent of a large metal son.
(Art by @cotton-glass)
Sheās a werewolf, which maybe puts her more into āfurryā territory rather than āmonsterfuckerā, but we ball.
Firstly, while Yaretzi is an undeniably sweet person, sheās also fairly terrifying. And āwomen who could kill meā are fairly high on my list of attractions. Secondly, her voice (again, I know, but most of the media I consume are podcasts so deal, I guess). Itās just the right shade of deep and soft. Amazing.
Also I want her to bite me.
There are more examples, but weāll be here forever if I try listing them, so Iāll leave it there. I could go into detail about the deeper meaning behind my attraction to these beautiful beasties, but Iām going to see how the masses respond to this first. Besides, this has been in my drafts for entirely too long and I just want to post it at this stage.
(Shoutout to @zombieesc. Thanks for the monsterfucker hype, my friend.)
Edit: Iām a minor, so feel free to rb this post talking about how much you like any of the characters Iāve mentioned, but keep it reasonably PG.
#micheal distortion#micheal shelley#tma#jared hopworth#hfth yaretzi#hfth#monster fucker#here it is my lovelies#enjoy#aubrey says stuff
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hello!
i decided to ask for some advice, if you don't really know, you can encourage ppl to answer in replies/rbs, that's totally fine.
the question of disability has long since been on my mind, and for a while now, i've considered myself disabled. physically i'm not the worst, but my mental problems often render me unable to do anything at all, from taking care of myself and my living space, to doing any activities (especially if it's some kind of job), to even thinking straight - i think my headmates try to get through to me in those moments, but it usually doesn't reach me when it's really bad, so it falls onto my own shoulders to keep myself from harming the body. my first ask for advice is with this. what are some tips for surviving those pretty frequent moments, or maybe lessening their intensity or frequency? maybe some internal/external system communication tips?
that's not the only thing, though. since i'm unemployed, i have to depend on my parents for money - my mother neglected me for the better part of my life, and my father abused me. it's a whole can of worms, but the most important issue is that disability payments in my country aren't really enough to pay for everything, and so i somehow have to convince my mother that i am, in fact, disabled and unable to get a job, and manage to keep her financial support, as that's unfortunately my only option seemingly. if you or anyone can give some advice on that, i'd be really grateful.
apologies for such a long one. try to stay safe and take some care of yourself!
Oh wow you're asking for dissociative disorder advice, something I'm very not qualified to give! I do fully believe that mental problems sabotaging you from being able to take care of yourself, and struggling to just not harm the body, count as a disability, and you deserve and should be given help, you do not deserve to have to fight so badly just to get to survive, and it should be society's responsibility to help you be safe and sound (not that I know how to get this from society, it's a tough issue).
I know all common information on osdd suggests improving communication and getting to know your headmates better, but I can imagine this is tougher to say than to do, and I haven't managed it either, it's a big mess in here too, but I still don't experience what you do ā not being able to think, wanting to do harm to yourself, I am somehow protected from this, so I don't know what would help such extreme situations, but it sounds extremely serious and I hope you can find a way to resolve it, I am sure it's not something that cannot be resolved. This should be able to get better.
I'm so sorry that you have to depend on your parents due to disability and a dissociative disorder that they likely caused; it's unfair and messed up. And that the disability payments are not enough to give you safety, that is extremely unfair and unkind. I'm not sure how you'd be able to convince a neglectful parent that you're disabled, it's difficult to convince neglectful parents of anything since their main feature is not caring about how you're doing and just expecting things out of you endlessly. I feel like maybe if she got information about the dissociative disorder, not from you, but from people she respects and wants to impress, that this might sway her, but it's impossible to tell because it might also not work.
Yeah I'm really sorry that all I can do is confirm that your situation is difficult and one that nobody would want to be in, and you're asking some real serious and tough questions here. I can say you're asking the good and right questions though! I can tell that you're looking very seriously to resolve this and you're trying to find any way to freedom and protection from abuse, and I love that, I'm sure you'll eventually get there, because you are looking in a good direction.
If anyone else could give advice to anon, please respond to this post!
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Reaction Post to Skittle Steve's Creation And First Time Meeting People
https://youtu.be/TmHD-GkKUpA?si=uUs6Dkb8nAl0Ph84
https://youtu.be/bdGhIEXW03E?si=U9IXw3PMlbmH0cuK (I know the whole story of The Steve Saga, but haven't even gotten close to seeing all of Origins, so I'm gonna watch this in timeline order.)
This reaction post format is inspired by @illusion-reality-steve, go read Stress's posts if you like The Steve Saga.
Hm, so Rainbow Steve is basically a last resort. Maybe even an act of desperation. Interesting.
So, Rainbow was created in this place, I don't see any hoppers or anything. Doesn't really look like a machine.
This part looks like a meeting room, and for some reason Rainbow Steve's "storage tank" leads right into it? Odd.
He apparently doesn't know what a table is? I mean I guess he has an excuse, having just obtained consciousness, but he knows what paintings are though?
He really does not like thunder, to be fair though, it is an indication of power here, so I guess that makes sense.
"Wait a second, who am I?", wasn't expecting that, he must have so many questions. "Why don't I remember anything? [...] I don't even know my name." Yep, here comes the emotional damage.
Interesting that Rainbow Steve expects someone else to be there, perhaps this ties into memories of the Elders that created him. Could he hold their memories, deep, deep down?
So, like, do steves... bleed or is this redstone? We see so little of this place it's hard to tell.
Rainbow Steve is out here avoiding that hallway and his problems like Neo from The Matrix. Also, yep, no redstone up here, how in the world did the Elders create this steve?
Not even RBS knows what the stuff on the floor is.
Okay, no, seriously, what is is this place? It's just on the side of a mountain.
Welp, guess he's RIPbow Steve now. (Also, he had so much time to avoid that.)
Wow, sure is convenient that Green was casually strolling through the area.
Rainbow Steve just casually starts catastrophizing, lol.
Ha, he tries to be intimidating, scares Green and immediately goes back on that idea. He's too nice /pos.
Rainbow seemed to have forgotten that he's only been one other place when he said he didn't recognize Green's house.
Nature rectangle man lives in a big ol' tree. That's genuinely pretty cool.
Ah, a Tree of Life, just like the Rainbow Tree of Life, but seemingly much smaller and made of actual wood. Wonder if we'll learn more about these.
That moment when Rainbow Steve is born knowing what chimneys are, but not tables.
Is "The Steve Realm" implying there's realms for other beings or is it just the overworld and then places like the Spirit Realm are the only others? I mean Sabre went through multiple servers before reaching the main one with Rainbow Steve.
And Rainbow Steve gets his name, ironically with the same thought process Sabre went through.
Rainbow Steve listed a bunch of possible steves, let's see what he got right:
Red Steve, yep
Blue Steve, yep, both part of the big 3.
Brown Steve, nope, would've been cool though.
Yellow Steve, yep
Purple Steve, yep
Orange Steve, not until the reboot buddy.
Red Steves just out here getting casually generalized as being aggressive.
The immediate realization Rainbow Steve has when saying Green can be a tree person is glorious.
He is here, if I hadn't already seen the first 4 episodes of this, I'd guess who "he" was (maybe I'd even think he was Reverse or Shadow), but since I have seen these first 4, I'll conclude the post here.
Have a nice day!
#steve saga#rainbow steve#the steve saga#favremysabre#Sso#steve saga origins#tss!rainbow steve#Tss!Green Steve#green steve#Sso!green steve#Sso!rainbow steve
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What is blocking reconciliation?
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Some of the main blockages for this reconciliation are indecision and a whole lot of lack of clarity, accompanied by feelings of isolation, of not being supported and needing to deal with everything on your own because emotionally and mentally you know you canāt depend on the other person for help. This knowing doesnāt necessarily have to be true though because in the past either you or your person, or both of you even, have dealt with experiences that were sort of unpleasant and your minds have stored those unpleasant experiences to a point in which it makes it really easy for you to categorize, label and compartmentalize all these other experiences that happened after those moments. There are associations of new experiences with memories of similar past experiences that have really made it hard for the both of you to actually believe that youāre there for each other and that you want to offer and show support, but due to what you have gone through in the past, it was really hard to believe at the time, maybe itās hard to believe now as well. Itās very easy for human being to just assume what the other person is feeling or thinking about us, itās easy to feel like you rightfully know everything about them and about what is going on within them and thatās what gives it some form of realism, it seems like thatās actually what is happening, when in reality the other person could feel completely different than what we are assuming, but instead of asking or clarifying, we continue on believing the story that our minds have painted based on their behavior and comparing it to past experiences that go way deeper than romantic love or friends, down to the relationship we had with our caregivers and what we have seen around us along with what beliefs have been passed onto us. There couldāve been moments in which the support wasnāt there, where it was actually how the other person showed up, but it wasnāt all the time either; that lack of clarity has truly made you both go to really difficult mental and emotional places when it came to each other and your relationship and it has caused a whole lot of baggage; this is the root issue that ā
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Pile 2
The main root blockages for this reconciliation are definitely well represented by either you, your person or both of you just effortlessly wallowing in such an unhealthy self-pity, refusing and clinging to move on from the past and just letting go of what has happened which results in you both beating yourselves up over past mistakes that you have made and taking those on as your full identity. Not only this but also not taking on a whole lot of accountability within the connection which has made it very easy for the both of you to simply allow this fear of failing each other to just limit the effort that you have been putting into this relationship when you were together. This is how the dissolution of the relationship started and how itās been for a whole lot of time, until one of you actually started to see things for what they are and actually put some of that mindset behind, trying to guide the other towards doing the same thing in attempt to save this relationship but it just was too late. The two of you just couldnāt move on from that fear of disappointing the other, maybe it was warranted to be afraid of that due to some criticism or an issue in communication that has caused the both of you to take things personally, to feel like you were being blamed for everything that was going wrong in the relationship almost like you were passing blame from one to the other back and forth, but itās also been something that you have heavily experienced before in other relationships too. There mightāve been small mistakes that lead to bigger problems or even past criticism, small experiences that have had such a big impact on the both of you and made you believe that itās so easy to disappoint another, that if you canāt meet their expectations, then you are just doomed because you messed up so badly to a point in which you lost value, the other person might not want anything to do with you anymore. Thereās a sense of catastrophizing everything, but it doesnāt seem to be directed at each other or when the other messed up, it wasnāt such a big deal compared to when you both individually messed up and the other would speak up for themselves, in however way they knew best at the time. If you messed up, it was like it was the end of this relationship and those mistakes kept daunting you both until ā
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Ā· Hii Ā·
I'm a 29 y.o. transfem enby boy, sometimes girl, always confused (any pronouns). Iām very subby, and bi/pan, but with a preference for dommes. Sadly I donāt have any sexual experience irl though.
This is my blog for exploring dark and/or taboo fantasies. You are not welcome here if you donāt accept that all real interactions must be between consenting adults. Under the cut you can find a list of some of the specific kinks youāll find here. I donāt tag things, so please look out for yourself and donāt follow if anything here might upset you!
Youāre welcome to ask about my kinks or anything else. You can dm me too, butā¦ Iām extremely shy and not very good at talking. I also donāt want to sext, Iād much rather you just kidnap me instead <3
DNI: Minors, pedophiles, bigots, genocide deniers, etc. I will block you if you donāt indicate that you are an adult.
Spam liking/rb is okay with me <3
I follow from @sleepylostboy (softer main blog but still nsfw)
Some kinks you might see here:
Ā· General BDSM (bondage, pain, degradation, humiliation) Ā· CNC (kidnapping, stalking, somno, intox, rape word, etc.) Ā· Petplay Ā· Incest/Fauxcest Ā· Emotional manipulation, gaslighting, brainwashing, etc. Ā· Yandere Ā· (Forced) feminization (not in a misogynistic way) Ā· Forced body alteration Ā· 24/7 dynamics Ā· Ageplay (mostly cg and dd/md stuff, maybe abdl) Ā· (Light) cucking Ā· Rimming, piss
Itās not an exhaustive list, but Iāve tried to mention most of the kinks that could trigger or upset people. And of course youāre welcome to ask about anything I didnāt mention as well.
I may also occasionally mention depression, self-harm, suicide, and other mental health related issues.
Please donāt judge me for what I post here. I struggle to cope withā¦ everything. Really Iām just a softie who wants to be loved and adored š„ŗ
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didnt realize the shiver beak post would actually get notes, ill comment more of my thoughts + more findings
the "one on top in the middle, one on the bottom in the middle" formation is most commonly used for talking so its probably just a stylistic choice. a really weird one at that, especially now that its being treated as the main teeth position outside of talking, so im not even sure.
for the tableturf card art, someone in the rbs brought up that it could be accidental worldbuilding on how the company producing them doesnt understand octolings and i believe theyre correct. theres a similar beak difference on the big bubbler card:
so maybe they think shiver's an inkling for whatever reason? unsure.
the teeth position where theyre still in the middle, but the top one is slightly off to the left, appears to happen when shiver goes to close her mouth with the middle teeth positions. its kind of odd because this doesnt happen with pearl and marina (who have the same beak shape) so? not sure what the intention is here. it looks odd in my opinion
that isnt even consistent, theres images where they just close their mouth with the middle beak shape normally:
also, looking at images, the beak placement for one of this pose is just... wrong?? is upper right tooth and lower left tooth a new variation now?
ive looked at shiver for too long i think
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Happy american thanksgiving everyone
Ill go first from my pov
Im thankful for cheeseburgers and smth ultimately basic but true: my friends. Gwbiubely my friends are some of the greatest people in the world and i adore them. I wish i had the ability to doodle us all hanging out from scratch and it not look like a weird blob with limbs from my pov but i dont so i'll find a 4 person friend base image later and rb with it
Of course my friend group isnt just 4 people their essentially 5 main online peoples, including myself (on discord anyway. Archaic isnr on here all that much. And he sort of doesmt count. Ill explain in a sec, but i'll still add him to the post)
@gunterdon
@definesanity
@archaicanathema
@infer8
And myself. Or i could cheat and say @mx-kamisato
Okay so here's the whole mess with archie.
He soley to me technically doesnt count because me and him are boyfriends
...whydoesthatfeelsogiddytosayijustgotafloatyfeeling-
Ahem! Anyway
Yes we're boyfriends.
And its great hes a wonderful lad
I wish i could label all the things i love about this man but then we'll be here all day. I'll simplify it and say that he's incredibly funny (me and him share a sense of humor, thank fuck), he's always extremely kind, when he talks about his favorite things it always brings me so much joy because its just so fun to listen to, i love watching him play warframe even if i cant play it myself, i adore seeing him interact in our friend group and have fun. He brings me a lot of happiness everyday. Its not a "oh rarely i get a high from dating someone" its...every day. Every single day he makes me so thankful and happy he asked me out. He's wonderful and I couldn't ask for soneone better to be my boyfriend.
Okay thats enough being sappy from me!
Yeah i'm thabkfully to venti too but hes not counting since this is a post about /actual friends/ not fictional chars who i (half?) jokingly my husband.
Ahem. So yeah! I'm thankful to those people! Huge shoutout to them! The sillies who are in my life everyday.
Also shoutout to my mutuals in a more general sense!
@unkownknowledge , @pale-value , @avenrose , mf halve person i forgot their user. They liked and rbed s lot of my posts awhile back and j got excjted about them. I may have forgotten their user but i remember you!!
And the rest of the 20 people im mutuals with. My mutual list aint small but its too big for me to remember everyone.
Special shoutput to bones tho. Best comrade. No one forgets @nicebonescomrades i love them. Idk jf theyre pronouns are still she/her but yed. THEM
I hope they come on again someday soon. 100% thanks for existing and being my friend as long as gunter and ryuusei who have been my longest stanring friends on tumblr - actually, no, their just the most iconic. The longest standing froend on tumblr is wisti (if we count her) or artem! I met artem back on my old account and when they still were a big account under thinknoodled i think. They wrote a lot of sagau and when i still was scared shitless of them. Ah, the good old days.
Dont get me wrong they are still terrifying but in a they'd probably bite my ankles off way.
So glad i met everyone here and you all such great, wonderful people. Thank you so much for being in my life. And for the picture i promised, i'll be drawing the main 4 of agar. Soley because i dont knoe how i'd doodle infer. They're great too but i dont know if i would doodle more of their irl self or try to draw their scaley persona thing. Maybe their avatar??? I have no idea. The others i have a general idea.
Alright bye i'll see you guys later. I spent 30 minutes writing this post. Sigh.
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Hello, loyal reader of your work here, I've been quiet for too long probably, considering how I eat up your carlando fics, too many thoughts and I'm shy, oops.
You sometimes invite to vent, so here I am, because of the last two chapters mostly. My brain of an artist just couldn't shut up at Carlos. If you like his art and you know he struggles financially, just commission him, commission him, commiss- argh. Commission him like Michelangelo was commissioned to do Sistine Chapel or whatever. And then there's story of my friend, that I can't stop thinking of while reading this, who dated a sex worker, and despite of not that high income as the certain character here, was ready to provide for their partner, so they wouldn't have to sell their body (said partner did not want to give it up though, so they broke up). Like!!! Commission him for stupid high price and you have a good excuse to make his life easier and maybe being able to drop sex work for survival thing! Like I get it, after the whole 'I pay you for the OF stuff' part, paying might feel icky, Lando's pride could make him refuse (he did not have this problem selling his ass to the other guy in ch 1 though and here it's about his supposedly dream work...), but- you already wanted to buy finished painting, so... goddamit, I'm getting too invested and solution oriented, adhd things ig, sorry for yelling š
And then there's the racing part, that I'm probably thinking too much about as well. That is for the past chapters, you made Carlos be Ferrari driver anyway, but if it's fanfiction, why not let imagination wander a bit more? Before his team affilation was mentioned and only that he's reigning wdc, I hoped that maybe in this fantasy reality he remained with RB (Merc taking Max in 2015 or 2017, so he was never in RB, CS eventually becoming their main guy after beating DR when it mattered or whatever - there's also this rally driver!Carlos thing that I can't stop thinking about, but that's waaay off topic). Not that it matters, it's just that I can't imagine Ferrari doing things right even in fanfiction, lol. I'm trying not to get too much into how you imagined Carlos getting that concussion with all the HANS, roll hops and halos, because I guess it's my problem being overly attached to details in story that is basically porn with plot and feelings, so bit of drama is a must have, especially considering how amazing your writing for that part is. I hope you don't think I'm taking away anything from where you're going with the story, just some of my own thoughts and your works give me a lot of those, in a positive way.
Okay, I think I vented all I wanted? There are some older fics of yours that I probably should have written similiar wall of text about, but that's it for now š
Hi anon! First, thanks for writing out your thoughts - second, happy to touch on some of these:
I totally understand the want for Carlos to commission Lando's work, and I think Carlos actually shares your exact frustration - he has the means to provide for Lando, it would be so easy. But like you said, it's a transaction-based power dynamic that neither of them want in their romantic relationship. He offered by buying the painting, in a way, and Lando's hesitance told him all he needed to know about whether he wanted his financial help.
In regards to Carlos' team, I actually never said he was a Ferrari driver! I didn't name his team at all in this fic ā I didn't think it was important to the story, and allows the fic to be kind of timeless in a way.
For the concussion, there are loads of ways to get concussed, from whiplash to flying debris - the Halo's just make it more likely to be just a concussion and not d*ath. As you said, though, i'ts fiction and we love a bit of drama ;)
I try and make things as realistic as possible in my fics, bc glaring plot holes drive me up the wall - so I feel ya. I should have the next chapter posted soon, I hope you're enjoying it!
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Iām EarlGoupil, but call me Earl or Goupil. This is my terror sideblog where Iāll rb a lot and post about my ideas. I could write here all my fav characters but sadly I love them all <\3
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hi! i read the Azul Ashengrotto Thoughts rb and it made me remember smth i thought about last night. i think your idea about "if azul is stronger/better at magic (than jade) then he can bypass the 'once per person' limitation" is more likely than what i thought but
on the contrary if he might not have been good enough to bypass the limitation, do you think jade's uhhh-- history (? im sorry i dont know the right word!!) would apply to him? like lets say jade successfully uses it on octa mob A then transfers it to azul. would azul still be able to use it on octa mob A or not bc it was "already used once on someone"
(this made me wonder something else about whether jade has used his UM on floyd yet. idk if it would have even been successful if he tried but if he did, could he have like. tested it out on him for fun or learned he got his UM unknowingly by accidentally using it on floyd? or would he have avoided trying to use it on floyd when he realized what his UM was because maybe "it could be useful in the future" or "i dont have a need or want to use this on my brother". this is just a baseless idea i thought of jshdjashjaj)
this is one more random question if you don't mind but!! if u haven't answered this before, do u have a favourite twisted tsumtsum? :D
thank you for listening to my ask lajdkhds !!!! have a wonderful day!
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you know, anon..............
THOSE ARE SUCH GOOD QUESTIONS
WTFFFFF I NEVER THOUGHT OF THOSE, AND I CAN'T BELIEVE I'D ACTUALLY GET TO READ THIS THREE YEARS AFTER I MADE THE POST SOBSOBSOBSOB
do you think jade's uhhh-- history (? im sorry i dont know the right word!!) would apply to him? like lets say jade successfully uses it on octa mob A then transfers it to azul. would azul still be able to use it on octa mob A or not bc it was "already used once on someone"
Man, this .. this is so interesting, I never even considered that the history of one's magic can be a possible factor. To this, I think that Azul steals the ability but the "history" is not applied. Probably because what Azul gets is really just the ability and not anything about its history. Like, for example, someone had to develop their abilities of course. Azul would probably not "feel" that history in the sense that he wouldn't really "feel" the difficulties or other things that the original user went through to polish their ability to what it is. He just has their ability now. So maybe theoretically, with Jade's UM, he can use the UM on Octa mob A if Jade used it on him again. And also, it's Azul's magic, not Jade's. So maybe the person will block out Jade's magic, but it does not recognize Azul's magic.
But if assuming that he can't bypass the limitation, then yea I don't think that he'd be able to use it on Octa mob A twice.
(this made me wonder something else about whether jade has used his UM on floyd yet. idk if it would have even been successful if he tried but if he did, could he have like. tested it out on him for fun or learned he got his UM unknowingly by accidentally using it on floyd? or would he have avoided trying to use it on floyd when he realized what his UM was because maybe "it could be useful in the future" or "i dont have a need or want to use this on my brother". this is just a baseless idea i thought of jshdjashjaj)
!! It's always been an hc of mine that Jade used his UM on Floyd at some point! And that's how he even found out about his limitations. Not sure what moment exactly would have gotten him to unlock that kind of ability, because from what we see in main story, UMs just suddenly kinda appear when someone is in a particularly stressful moment (like Deuce with the thugs in chapter 5 and Epel with the rogue Charons in chapter 6). Either way, unless they really fought a lot as kids, I don't think his first target was Floyd. But definitely Floyd witnessed him forming the UM, and then volunteered himself to be a practice dummy for Jade. And then they just learned from there.
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hi! im so incredibly sorry to bother you but i think you may have blocked one of my other blogs and i was wondering if i could ask why?
please donāt feel pressured to answer whatsoever and definitely feel free to ignore this, i really donāt want to trouble you in any way. i just wanted to know if i did anything wrong or something to offend you?
i really try my hardest to stay neutral and friendly as well as respecting and following everyone elseās blog rules so iād really appreciate any feedback or insight if youāre happy to give it. whatever i did, once again, im so incredibly sorry to bother you, i donāt mean any harm at all, ever. if i did something to offend you, it was never intentional, all i really try to do on tumblr is rb pictures of cats most of the time anyways.
please donāt take this the wrong way, it just makes me super anxious that i mightāve done something to someone that may have hurt them or made them uncomfortable. i really loved your writing and your blog and i canāt apologise enough if i messed up or anything. of course, i totally understand that sometimes people just choose to block people for their own reasons and i respect that no matter what. iām incredibly sorry if i encroached on your boundaries in any way, i just really held your writing close to my heart and it saddens me that i canāt view it anymore. but that isnāt your fault whatsoever. i respect you so much as a writer and a person and i just wanted to say that iām really sorry if i did anything. iām sorry tee.
okay bestie i canāt rly tell unless u share ur url tho š but honestly sometimes ppl leave comments or tags that make me feel weird / annoy me ā iām human and sometimes i block over petty reasons (iām working on it fjsjfj) but overall i like to think i block with decent cause so unless ur ageless, youāve probably said something to slightly (or perhaps highly) irritate me or you may have spam liked ?? idrk unless i see ur url tbh. i mean if u send me ur url i wonāt post it and if i canāt recall why ur blocked i might as well unblock (as long as ur age is present)
anyway if i block u iām not saying everyone should come swarm me with ācan i ask whyā bc that would be annoying but sometimes writers are human and sometimes we block for dumb reasons and if you think perhaps you havenāt rly done anything worth blocking besides maybe me taking out a bad mood on a slightly accidentally annoying thing u did, i might just unblock if ur url doesnāt ring a bell in my mind for something memorably obnoxious. especially if u think itās bc u didnāt have an age in ur bio beforeāsome of u donāt know to do that till after and i get that !!āim happy to unblock if youāve since then added an age. but again this isnāt an open invitation for all blocked blogs (id assume ur lurking if ur blocked and reading this LMAO) to come ask me why or for an unblock but sometimes if u rly believe youāve been blocked by mistake or for a petty reason iām willing to check is all iāll say
anyway yeah if u see this send ur urlābe mindful of any comments or tags u leave, sometimes u might be unintentionally a bit rude and that could be a big reason why !! also donāt spam like i rly rly hate that
edit: i appreciate the kind comments about my writing NFJSJF i thought iād add that in bc ofc sharing writing is the main reason im here and hearing u enjoy it and such is nice to know. thank u for reading and thinking highly of it thatās rly sweet <3
#asks!#i havenāt rly blocked anyone lately unless theyāre ageless or minors recently#other than that#i think thereās been like 2 ?? ppl in the last few days and it was over slightly rude comments under the posts / tags#if youāve left any comments / tags that u recall#it may have been over those#in that case i am willing to lyk why i didnāt appreciate them and unblock#just bc idk i think iāve been a bit pissy the last few days LMAO
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so real trans women and transmasc dykes my beloveds ššš AND SOO TRUE when i see fanart of dethklok and the post says theyre women but theyre barely any different. i start doing backflips. i am honestly not the biggest fan of super feminine ladyklok but i Am a lesbian so ill let it slide. all women will be appreciated even if i would love more butch appreciation
also ill send a different ask with my mains url, id prefer its not posted but maybe ill come off anon someday when i have the confidence to be perceived by other people. i wish you could just send asks with sideblogs grr. but idc about my mtl blog being public so ill put it in this ask, its yuriklok! if anyone wants to go follow me there then feel free :3 like i said i dont post anything (yet) but i rb a lot of cool fanart and have a ladyklok tag - š¶
i like a good bit of super feminine ladyklok, but let's be realistic hereātoki would be the most fem out of them all, and that would be just wearing a skirt. she probably wouldn't even shave her kitty whiskers <3
you can do whatever makes you comfortable darling! but YURIKLOK. that is BRILLIANT. i've had the url dykeklok saved for months idk if i'm ever gna do anything with it, but i have it!
#ask.mj#beloved anon#š¶ anon#i can also start tagging these asks with 'yuriklok' if you'd like! or i could just keep up with š¶ anonāwhichever you prefer <3
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i got carried away while replying to @aliasl comment :D
yes, I didn't write it in my first post so you're right in pointing it out, but in my rb I clarified the jack/nick parallel(and this is another reason why I think Nick's definitely an interesting narrative choice but I personally don't agree with the way it's used or, at least, with my interpretation of it, ofc ).I'm not so sure about Sam, I think he's the one who says Nick deserves a second chance.Iirc he's the most understanding about Nick's situation untill he's not anymore.And he's not anymore because the narrative frames Nick as evil-evil because of Lucifer.And here's my problem.
The "all roads lead back to Lucifer" could be a "all roads lead back to Nick's abuser". And Nick's abuser could've been a random demon or angel and he could've ended up the same.Random demon or archangel doesn't matter because what matters is the abuse. So the focus, to me at least, is not so much where on the Evil Scale the "colonizer" is. When Nick calls Cas out and says he's a bodysnatcher just like Lucifer I think he has a point. But the show pounds on the fact that Lucifer is super evil.
In s14 Lucifer is the Supreme Evil but they don't show any alternative. As you've said: is there even an alternative when we find out that God is the Supreme Evil himself?So what about Lucifer now? He's his son. And what about Jack? He's his grandson.They're all still all related, you know, the apple and the tree (and I'm going with S14 theme of "nurture vs nature" here).
The feeling I personally get from S14 is a weird manichean view of the world where the "good" side is only supposed to be there, somewhere, go and find it yourself while the "evil" side is sure and they've got receipts to prove it. And I think it's extremely unfair??? Unfair even for the evil side, lol.
Previously Jack's "problem" was that he was a Nephilim, that was his nature and what people were scared of. Now it's not only that but, more importantly, he's Lucifer's son. At the beginning of the season he doesn't have his grace anymore and this is a problem because grace is necessary to balance his duality: both human and angel.
This is important because in s12 Sam and Dean wanted to extract Jack's grace so that he could be "just" human. We know now that it wouldn't have worked anyway but "Byzantium" rinforces the idea that, with or without grace, Jack's half (arch)angel. So much so The Empty wants to take him as he dies because he belongs there.
Therefore, the issue is no longer his power, S12- maybe 13's main concern about Jack (without his grace he doesn't have any, i.e. here's the narrative shift from Nephlim to Lucifer's son) but his being half archangel, half Lucifer. He still has a "bad" gene inside himself and this "bad" gene is mirrored in Nick's story. The show starts framing Jack as evil because he's the son of Evil Lucifer via Nick (while I think it'd be way cooler if they explored the "nature vs nurture" without any moral lenses, aka Jack's half angel and angels are crazy lol). The "good" side is supposedly his soul connected to his human side and when he starts losing it people are extremely concerned, which fair, but ultimately why? They seem to reason in terms of "either/or" and think that his soul acts as a dam without which evilness will erupt. Where do they think this evilness come from? From his angel side, perhaps?
I'm gonna call it like it is, the guy had issues even when he had his soul. Not blaming him but they were scared of him even with his soul. Mind you that by now Jack doesn't even have his original paternal grace but Michael's. He's without his OG grace and without (most of) his soul. By mid-season the situation is reversed but nothing has really changed. So what I get from the show is that the problem is not about his grace or his being or not being a Nephilim anymore, or even having or not having a soul: it's about Jack having a je ne sais quoi of evil inside himself, that angel side of him that's not dependent on anything but his genealogy.
Nick's story is used to suggest (or even endorse tbh) the idea that there's something left in Jack (re Lucifer) that's just pure evil. If, hypothetically, Michael had decided to have himself a nephilim baby instead of creating monsters(a perversion of his symbolic repressed sexual desires) would this nephilim be considered evil too or not? S12 seemed to suggest yes because the issue back then was the power of a Nephilim's grace but S14 is very much focused on Lucifer as the Evilest of Evils so much so that it doesn't matter if Jack's got grace or not, or whose grace he's got, the problem is that he has a dual nature: angel and human. It's not about the power of grace+soul or soul-grace anymore.
Jack kills Nick and symbolically kills his supposedly evil, angel side, the one connected to Lucifer and it's still not enough. Because he's still God's grandson as he says in "Jack in the box".(Dumah manipulating Jack sort of proves the original point of my post, aka that Jack's "otherness" would have been waaay more interesting if it were explored in terms of "all angels are deranged" rather than the morally boring "lucifer's evil" angle but this is just my wishful thinking).
So we're back to square one. Ofc, we know that in S15 Jack will symbolically embrace his paternal lineage (no mention is made of his maternal lineage in s15 or maybe I just don't remember what happened to his maternal grandparents) by incorporating Chuck, his grandfather inside himself (rather than killing him, i.e. rejecting it). In a way, his journey is complete. But is it really? Because Jack's inclination to self-sacrifice is very very concerning to me (and very angel-like). The show sees Jack's nature as "either/or" to the point that Jack's not allowed to just be himself, just be both angel and human, eventually he even must become God if he wants to prove that he's good. That's like...a lot.
So ultimately, and to wrap this up, Nick's story doesn't captivate me precisely because he's ad hoc used to prove the "Jack's got something evil inside himself" point in a narrative that sees good and evil as sealed off compartments and where the "good" compartment is totally absent from the board. In other words, the game's rigged: Jack's left with literally no choice, whatever he does is wrong (because, the narrative implies, he's inherently wrong), so he dangerously tends towards (self-)destructive solutions that deny him the possibility of being both/and.
I don't know if I made myself clear but I swear I've tried. I'm a person with a very convoluted mind :D
One of the reasons why Nick's story in s14 doesn't work form me is because of the show's insistence to pigeonhole Lucifer as "the supreme agent of evil". Of course, this is considered true in our real world (lol), specifically Christian world, but in-universe it just... doesn't work? If we want to go full-on dichotomy (and S14 very much goes there) if Lucifer's evil, who's the primary agent of good? No one, exactly. Definitely not Heaven.
Because there are, like, TEN seasons of angels going total batshit crazy, I mean we know that angels=good isn't a view the show supports since Cas appears in "Lazarus Rising". And we know that ALL angels downright lie, manipulate and coerce humans to get their "consent". We also know that the main issue with "the devil's spawn" in s12 was not so much "the devil" but the fact that "a Nephilim came into being".
The problem is NOT that who'll later be Jack is Lucifer's son, the problem is that he's a Nephilim. Lucifer has weight in the discourse merely because he's an archangel, NOT because he's the primary agent of evil. The issue is that "grace+soul"=a fucking lot of power. And a fucking lot of power means a fucking lot of problems.
We also know that humans get severely depressed after a possession, they have to face many struggles and sometimes society alienates them (see: "Repo Man"). So the argument that Nick's psyche is damaged because Lucifer's so evil his influence's still there even after he's departed is just... weak? A random demon can possess a random Jeffrey and the damages on the human psyche are still IMMENSE. From the human perspective random demon or most powerful archangel in the world are the same thing: they can carry out the same violence, abuse and trauma.
I might be wrong but what I get from the season is that the "primary agent of good" is the soul. And this is ALSO not true? Because shit gets real when Jack starts losing it, sort of implying that without the soul, his luciferian grace will make him become evil or will make him do evil things ("the devil made me do it" mentality). But we literally have a character such as Castiel, Angel of the Lord and Maker of Huge Mistakes but also Not in Possess of a Human Soul who actively strives to do good things (and he fails miserably so maybe he's not a good example but HE IS JACK'S CHOSEN FATHER, it MUST mean something ffs).
I think, maybe, I don't find the shift from "Nephilim" to "Lucifer's son" compelling because Jack's real "problem" (if we want to call it so) is that he's half (arch)angel and half human. Like, being an angel is a fucking issue in this show because these creatures are a bit deranged okay? LOL. On the other hand, being human is ALSO a fucking issue because it 100% doesn't warrant inherent goodness. Humans can be deranged creatures, too, okay? :D Both species can definitely just make mistakes, do bad things wanting to do bad things or ending up doing bad things without intention to do so. Ultimately, Jack's dilemma is being Other, just like his chosen father and just like Kripke-era Sam.
I still stand by my idea that all angels are a little bit like Lucifer. And there are episodes such as "Of Gods and Monsters" that sort of confirm it. When Nick calls Cas out and tells him "Castiel, youāre just a stone cold body snatcher. Youāre no different than Lucifer" he's exactly pointing out the hypocrisy. Hell, the whole episode seems to question the season's main theme because Michael is literally possessing Dean, he conned him, he tells him that he owns him, he's creating an army of monsters as they speak, he's brutally torturing them but the primary agent of evil is still little ol' Lucifer.
Although, truth be told, I didn't particularly feel the need to learn more about Nick (sorry Nick, I know you're there so that Mark Pellegrimo could stay on payroll, I don't hold it against you), I can't deny that it had great potential as a narrative choice (let's not even go into the Sam/Nick parallels). But, to me, it didn't deliver because the show's murky on where it stands: on paper it wants to show the fallacies of "black and white" thinking but it effectively supports the same "black and white" view of the world that it seeks to question.
#jack kline#lucifer spn#nick spn#spn#supernatural#spn s14#i had to add something more hahah i could honestly talk about it forever#jack the puer#b/w spn#spn angels
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