#maybe degrade me

[tsoachilles-nsfw]

my asks and dms are open :3

[allamaiqbaloo]

the untamed (2019) // sophocles, jean anouilh, trans. lewis galantiére: antigone

[borderlinereminders]

I actually really want an outside point of view. But also to share my side.

There’s a user posting a lot of bad stuff about me. Like a lot. I try and let this stuff go and not engage on this platform. I’m not posting their username publicly because I am still trying to respect their privacy but if anyone does see the posts, I want my side to be out there.

I run a trauma survivors discord server. In the server, I try and manage everyone’s comfort as best as I can.

I had more than one person approach me about feeling uncomfortable at the frequency this user tried to get other members to DM and how pushy it came across as.

Me and the other mods understood that this likely didn’t come from a bad place but from being lonely so we weren’t mad. Genuinely. But if I have multiple people feeling uncomfortable, I feel I need to act on it. No one approached me publicly in the server so no one knew someone else had approached me. The people approaching me didn’t know anyone else had approached me so this wasn’t a thing where people just started agreeing and piling on.

So, I sent this message (privately through a ticket system)

The things being said because of this message have me second guessing myself. And I’m just tired.

I understand that they are feeling attacked and I so remember how it felt when I was in a really bad place and I would have felt really upset about getting this message too. But I still don’t think the amount of harassing is justified by them or the things they are saying about me are okay.

I really don’t usually post about drama but my other urge was to delete my blogs because I am just so tired. And I realized that urge was coming because I felt like I couldn’t defend myself. Like I had to be the “bigger” person and that’s something I struggled with a lot growing up. Being quiet to protect other people.

So, here’s my side of the story.

Edit: the user has now taken down the posts about me and apologized. I am leaving this up though because it does not identify them at all and I don’t trust stuff not to get out of hand again. It feels like it protects me a bit.

[luvxsabrina]

Something that annoys you about other kink blogs?

That other blogs can post pics and vids, but as sooonn as I do, my blog gets flagged and deleted :((

Thats why so far my pics have been very family friendly ♡

[catnip-n-catboys]

I think telling people who'd jerk off to all my trauma how bad my mom used to beat me would probably fix me

[666bedbugs]

I personally think everyone who has the mindset of “I can’t have nasty sex with you because I love you/care about you but I do it with other people because I don’t respect them like that” should be skinned alive and bathed in rubbing alcohol

[melit0n]

Everything is changing and my face doesn't look like my own anymore and there are strangers in my blood and bones but, no matter what, the sun will rise and we will have breakfast as usual. The birds are out and everything is singing.

[milkweedman]

Hi, you said in your bio that you're chronically ill. I was wondering if you had any tips for knitting with chronic pain (assuming that's your flavour of chronic illness)? Or do you know anyone who could give me advice?knitting/sewing is my sanity-saver.

I use compression gloves, only knit with specific weights of yarn (the ones that are the least painful for me), and try to take frequent breaks, which for me looks like switching hobbies every 30 minutes or so (knitting to spinning to knitting, etc). I also do my best to be very gentle on my joints when i can, altho i honestly rarely have the choice at work.

Personally i have joint problems and migraines, so thats what im correcting for/trying not to make worse. Helpful advice probably varies depending on what youre trying to correct for. Really my only general advice is "when it starts to hurt, try to stop" and "if possible, save the painfully difficult stuff for when youre doing well, and make the easier stuff your usual work"

If anyone who sees this has got other tips please feel free to comment them

[silli-bunni]

you know your problem is actually getting bad when you start to crave notifs and stuff on tumblr 👀

[obae-me]

Really tempted to just make my own Obey Me bots on Character AI because I haven't found any that truly click with me. Where's my tired old man Luci bot? Where's my golden retriever boyfriend Dia? Why does Mammon resort to violence 50% of the time?

If I can't have them, I'll do it myself.

[evilbutnotinasexyway]

Mentions of monsters in worm that i find very interesting

[viperwhispered]

Okay but... Why is it so hot to think of Jamil calling himself your slut 🙈😳

[grimmweepers]

so funny how i mostly write about my faves and then there’s… dottore

[chheese-mmmhh]

i’m actually being so genuine here but why are people upset with how tommy left the show? i thought it was a great send off and let him leave with grace…much better than how past love interests have left at the VERY least (taylor with everyone hating her and natalia having one sentence saying she’s gone in 7x01)

[cuteniaarts]

Digitalised + coloured + redesigned version of my Suiren and Vaatu sketch from two days ago, as promised!!

Coming up with Suiren’s design was a very long process of trying and failing because after you’ve drawn 9+ different versions of one character, the creativity starts to run a little dry, but I’m actually really proud of this one, she looks absolutely adorable <3

(Also yeah I did mostly just scribble Vaatu’s pattern because who has the energy to draw the all out accurately. Not me, that’s who, I’m chronically tired. People who draw him on the regular have my utmost respect. He’s still a funky little guy though :D)

Bonus, Raava incessantly screaming inside Suiren (and being completely ignored because Suiren is tired of her) while all this is happening: