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I wonder sometimes if Luis giving himself the title Don Quixote was self-deprecating in some way. Like SURELY he knew that the book itself was a satire on the genre of knighthood and chivalry, SURELY he picked up on the fact that Alonso was ridiculed at best and his quests were seen as foolish and delusions of grandeur right?? Did he he use the title of Don Quixote as a form of self-mockery and as a way to shield his self-loathing and guilt from the world with the facade of a confident knight???? Or did he throw himself into the interpretation of the book he fell in love with as a little boy, and clung onto the hope that maybe, MAYBE, his time would be different, that this time his journey WOULDNâT end in him as the fool again, that his dreams of a better and kinder world werenât for nothing and that Don Quixote and Sancho Panza always made it out in the end??
Or did he know, regardless of his own feelings towards the character and the text, that itâd end in tragedy either way. Cuz surely, he knew he wasnât gonna make it out of Valdelobos alive, no matter how badly he wanted to, no matter how much he fought tooth and nail to get out and right his wrongs for a better world. Maybe he took solace in the tragedy that was Alonso Quixanaâs life and took on the role as a way of accepting his fate; that heâd meet an early death in the same village he grew up in, in the same place his Grandfather died in. Maybe thatâs why he was so adamant on calling Leon his âSanchoâ-
Cuz he knew Sancho would make it out alive, and Don Quixote wouldnât. Maybe thatâs why he was so adamant on having Leon be his Sancho. Cuz he knew, in the end, it was Sancho who saved Princess Dulcinea. It was Sancho who stayed by Alonsoâs side right to the very end, and got to live his own happily ever after. Or, maybe, Luis was just hoping that Leon would provide the same comfort and security that Sancho did for Alonso- seeing past his delusions and mistakes for the man he truly is deep down inside. Even if it meant dying for him.
#luisposting#luis serra#luis serra navarro#resident evil#serennedy#luis sera#luis sera navarro#leon kennedy#leon s kennedy#leon scott kennedy#resident evil 4#resident evil 4 remake#re4r#re4#re4 remake#luis sera resident evil#resident evil 4 luis#re4 luis#re4r luis#re luis#luis resident evil#resident evil luis#serrenedy#serrennedy#re4make#re4 separate ways#re4r separate ways#re separate ways#resident evil separate ways#resident evil analysis
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imma say it, one of my biggest pet peeves/unlikeable troupes in the fandom is the whole one person finding out their partner has the dark mark angst
it enrages me, i hate it,
#tw: opinions#i never liked the idea for some reason#maybe cuz it always feels out of character#especially w/ jegulus#i dont think james would suddenly hate regulus just like that#it feels like logically hed realize its smth to do with the fact regulus is STILL A PART OF THE BLACK FAMILY#its also just overused idk#marauders#marauders era#harry potter#hp#dead gay wizards#regulus black#james potter#me rambling#the reaction james has in jegulus fics would make more sense with darksun *drops mic*
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#Think I might have found out. Why the yearning has hit so hard#It's still been a rough day#And its like. Does stars even like me? Does he even love me?#And its STUPID cuz he's a fictional character. I can imagine him saying âyes I love youâ#But it still-! It still hurts. Especially being a non sharer. Like honey. I should be over this but I'm not#It's still hard to imagine sometimes#Like hello someone say wake up he's always loved you now focus on some irl stuff#You're a 22 year old woman you don't need to be thinking about stuff like this#I get the f/o letters and I get reassurances and it makes me happy and my brain is still demanding more like NO#IDK I just#I don't wanna sleep. Maybe I need to keep playing ut.y#Idk ignore this#I'll actually delete this later#I hate these stupid feelings#Vent
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Okay hereâs another controversial âGreen family takeâ tell me if Iâm wrong.
âPeople who hate Harumi and Lloyd family dynamic ignore that Lloyd and Morro also shouldnât have a family dynamic, when Morro did the exact same thingâ
Because besties I agree I honestly think green cousins doesnât make much sense either since yknow Morro and the whole possession thing, but at the same time if you look at canon, they just arenât the same thing and yknow I need people to actually stop looking at Harumi as the girl version of Morro and the only reason we hate her is because sheâs a girl.
Because sheâs not.
Like yes I agree thereâs definitely a lot of bias towards Morro, if he was woman he would be demonised to hell and back but since heâs man then he is adored, and vice versa with Harumi and sexism fucking sucks.
But Harumi and Morro are different guys. Harumi is portrayed as worse in canon in Lloydâs eyes. Yeah Lloyd got possessed by Morro and thatâs obviously bad tm but other than what people assume possession entails, Lloyd was never as shaken as he was with Harumi.
In s5, we never saw Lloyd be conflicted about the possession thing. He had no fear of Morro. We have no reason to believe that a ghost possession feels worse than being a sleep and maybe having a vague awareness of whatâs going on. He barely mentions Morro after s5. And I will say I think this is a writing flaw, obviously it wouldâve been cooler if Morro actually had some kind of impact on the ninja, but regardless this is the canon. Lloyd hates Morro but heâs not traumatised yknow. Itâs not to the point that Harumi got to.
I feel like getting possessed should be worse than getting lied to, but Harumi did on top of it, start a cult in his name, Kill actual Characters (the royal family and Hutchins) and then kidnap Lloyd and his mother and his uncle and then resurrect his father removing vital parts of his fatherâs mind/personality/emotional cognitive abilities etc. on top of that she also nearly killed the ninja and wu (which Lloyd believed she did).
Somehow she was much more dangerous than Morro was, she was a much more successful villain.
Additionally I would say Morro has more of an excuse to be seen as family, even if I Iâm less of a green cousins fan. Because Morro and Wu actually have a father son relationship, in which Wu was actually responsible over Morro. They had a normal albeit imperfect dynamic before Morro left. Regardless of Lloyd and Morroâs interactions, that dynamic was still present even in the very end.
It doesnât mean and Lloyd and Morro have to be buddies, just because thereâs a family connection doesnât mean shit (this is the show of found family have we learned nothing? Blood connections donât matter, only friendship).
But like in comparison to Harumi and Garmadonâs absolute parody of a relationship, where Harumi turns to the man who doesnât remember what love is and asks him to be her father (at this point neither of them know what âfatherâ even means), Morro does have a family dynamic and Harumi does not.
So in response to the original quote, Morro has a much more solid claim to any kind of family dynamic bc his relation to Wu is much more family esq, and also he was bad yeah, but the show portrays Harumi as worse especially in Lloydâs opinion.
I just donât like the argument that Morro and Harumi have done the same things, when the severity is definitely different imo and they arenât just copies of each other. Imo itâs an oversimplification to reduce their characters down to each other.
#u heard it here first#spicy is not the biggest fan of green cousins or Garmadon siblings#sorry#if ppl make good content for it then Iâll let it slide but generally not a fan#i feel bad for saying it but I guess I really just donât like Harumi as much#i feel like whenever people talk about Harumi itâs always âoh you hate her cuz ur sexistâ#no I hate her because I donât like how sheâs written or how her character is established#like Ik some people like her backstory but I just donât#it just feels like the writers went âletâs blame the characters for no reasonâ#and Iâm just so sick of the evil love interest trope I hate it so much and that is what Harumi is on s8#because itâs happened 3 times now#THREE#PIXAL SKYLOR HARUMI#Itâs that mindset of women are evil theyâll seduce you with their crimes against human nature#okay that tag is gonna sound very appealing to the gays on here but like in the context of the show itâs just demonising women#like take out the romance aspect and fix Harumiâs backstory and maybe Iâd like her more#i will say Morro is badly written also he does nothing interesting really other than his backstory#i like what he means about wu but like they do not even explore that dynamic much in the show#heâs like an unopened present#his set up is so good but they donât do shit with it#idk idk#obviously all my opinions#ninjago
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im so sosry for ranting abour this again but auhgufhgh im making a ref sheet of my ocs for myself beacse EVERYTIME I DRAW THEM THEY LOOK SOOOSK DIFFERENT os i thoguht maybe this can help me memorize their faces but EVEN THO IM USING GUIDELINES THE SAME CHARACTER LOOKS LIKE DIFFERENT PEOPLE ITS JUST A HEAD TURN AROUND I CANT DO THIS I FEEL SO VIOLENT WHY IS MY ART STYLE HAVING AN IDENTITY CRISIS HOWWWWWWW DO I FIX THIS
#everytime when im drawing any of my ocs and someone mixes them up with another oc my heart shatters to 7463874693 pieces#that either means everyone i draw looks the same or the same oc i draw looks so different every time#at that point they just went with whoever they think is the closest#im having the hardest time making my sentences right now what is going on my talkĹng abilites have went down to zero#no like also ive always struggled w same face syndrome without realising#all my art life i had ocs that looked exactly the same from an outsiders view but they looked sososooo different to me#like i just erased my ocs frrom existence when i was 12 cuz everyone mixed them up and it frustrated me so bad#and i look back at that era AND THEY REALLY ARE EXACTLY THE SAME I CANT TELL WHO IS WHO#AND THIS KEPT HAPPENING until i got into sims which pushed me to egt out of my comfort zone#this is why its very important to be obsessed with the ugliest character u can find ^_^(NERVOUS SUBJECT)#and now im scared i once again convinced myslef that my ocs look very different when they actually arent#ok maybe this is a transitional period from having a same face syndrome to being able depict different kinds of people#and im in between rn cuz since im nnot used to this i just cant draw the same face again#and everytime i draw it loks like a dfifferent stuyle whatfevrrrr whatevr#wow writing down your feelings really do work maybe i should get a journal#ramblings
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May or may not be doing a Pokemon X nuzlocke, may or may not be making said nuzlocke into a comic (that Iâll hopefully have the motivation to keep making once I start it)
Getting just a little bit silly with it, weâll see where this all goes
#larry talks#donât have anything to tag really#Iâve never been very good at making comics and shit#any stories really cuz I sometimes just lose interest halfway through#but I do wanna work on this cuz I like Pokemon and stuff#itâs always the autism that makes me commit to the bit#got back into reading this one omega ruby earthlocke comic and got inspired to make one of my own#and also since every time Iâve started a nuzlocke Iâve never finished the run#so it would be just a little bit funny to just finish an entire run because if this#wonât reveal or tag the name of the story yet#not until I draw out all of the current characters and shit#and maybe a little bit of legendary Pokemon toxic sibling moments#but yeah uh the Pokemon autism has taken me over and itâs working together with the Sally Face autism to fuck with me#and if youâre asking why Pokemon X and Y for the choice#black and white is too complicated to translate into every character being a pokemon#I didnât feel like doing alpha sapphire#And also X and Y holds a special place in my heart for being one of my first Pokemon games#I prommy Iâll try and post more but Iâve been in a chokehold from all of my interests spinning in my brain#and itâs cold so it makes shit harder to do for me lol
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How u feel about like. All the weird jokes they make in r&m?
umm what do you mean exactly by weird jokes?? if you mean the incest jokes then like no offense, how do you think i feel? if i constantly go around saying how i want nothing to do with rckrty shippers How do you think i feel, genuinely.
#asks#not to be mean but like come awn surely we can put 2 and 2 together#I DONT LIKE WHEN THEY MAKE INCEST JOKES#THEYRE ALWAYS PANDERING BUT ALSO CORNY AND OUT OF CHARACTER#it feels like either. trying to do shock humor and failing miserably (for mainstream audiences)#or blatantly appealing to the incest shipper audience but not daring to go the whole way for like plausible deniability or wtv#ugh its just annoying cuz like. its relatively easy to keep to yourself when confined to i guess a fandom space#like ill just block the ppl i dont wanna see and thats it. no further interaction needed#but well its maybe a little (very) frustrating when the source material starts just Doing shit
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Fu Hua and Senti are the only characters that should be allowed to interact with Kevin actually
#honkai impact#kevin kaslana#fu hua#herrscher of sentience#nah cuz theyâre the only ones that actually have a dynamic with Kevin#thereâs so much history and mutual understanding between Fu Hua and Kevin itâs tragic when they fight#and then theirs Senti who has all of Fu Huaâs memories#when Senti shit talks him itâs usually an intentional bluff or something thatâs actually true#so it feels like an actual character interaction instead of people just pulling comments about Kevin out of their asses#for an actual rewrite Iâd want Kevin to have an actual dynamic with the main trio#like maybe a sort of rivalry between Kevin and Bronya#where Bronya is frustrated with Kevin repeatedly undercutting her victories#and maybe have Bronya steal Kevinâs piece of Finality directly from him to obtain HoTr form#and maybe have Mei slowly realizing she and Kevin are incredibly similar- each giving up everything they are for a loved one- via ER/EE#and as she finds redemption for herself she decides itâs something she wants to extend to Kevin as well#though this storyline would rely on Mei actually doing something bad as part of World Serpent#for Kiana I think she shouldâve been the one to interact with Stigma space Kevin#giving her a direct image of the person he couldâve been if he was given the love and support he needs#idk why I always revert to Mei representing the past Bronya representing the present and Kiana representing the future in my rewrites#but ya- as things stand in canon- Fu Hua and Senti are the only two with any right to judge Kevin
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My dreams once again felt like I was in another dimension. And the funny thing here is that I woke up twice. Once when in my dream, I was playing gi and was thinking of making fan content for it and dream Aria was like: "Haha... I am not making fanart of that." Then I woke up and I was laughing cuz like: "Gurl didn't wanna make fanart of gi characters so badly she woke up." But then I was still sleepy so I went back to sleep again.
AND THEN! Normally I'd get a different dream but this time... it was continuation. My dream honestly felt like I was living the life of an Aria from a different world. It was just chill where I was hanging out with family and friends but bizarre enough where it doesn't feel too real (like, locations that doesn't exist in the real world).
And after I had fun in my dream, me and my family went back home, dream Aria went to watch an animated mhyk video featuring Cain and female Akira and she was like: "I should start watching yume stuff so I can just see Cain a lot" And then there was a part in the video where it was a mix between real life looking footages and animated as to like show that Akira went back to her own world and Cain was still in the other world. The funny thing bout that is when it focus on Cain sitting on the sofa all alone with a sad expression, he looked like Inuyasha. So dream Aria was like: "Bruh, that is not Cain that's Inuyasha."
And I woke up. And I'm completely awake now and this has got to be my favourite dream so far, it's both so funny and nice at the same time.
#aria rants#its so funny when i think about it. waking up the first time cuz i didnt want to draw gi characters in my dream#and then waking up the second and last time cuz my dream messed up on the mhyk video where instead of cain its inuyasha#also i think this is the first time a dream where it felt like i was living in another dimension had been so vivid#normally i couldnt remember much details of these type of dreams when i woke up but this one i can remember nearly all the details#maybe cuz i woke up differently in that dream aria just sends me back here instead of waking up naturally#cant also call this lucid dreaming cuz i didnt rlly get to freely walk around or anything. it was like-- rlly living in it#as if i was always a part of that world so i didnt feel out of place at all but dreams are dreams#so there was bound to be some bizarre stuff in it. like that mhyk video-- like cmon now inuyasha i wanted to watch cain not you
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I have this problem thatâs like the opposite of nostalgia or something where some things I remember liking a lot as a child I look back and only remember the bad times.
This is specifically about Animal Crossing, loved that game as a kid, but I have literally no idea why, cuz it was just pure hell for me from what I can remember.
#also blues clues but less severe. I like blues clues. but my only childhood memories are when I was scared of it#YES I WAS SCARED OF BLUES CLUES. I HAD A HUGE FEAR OF MYSTERIES. IDK HOW OR WHY. ALSO MY MEGALOPHOBIA DIDNT LIKE THE CLOSE UP PAWPRINTS#the Halloween episode also scared me on several occasions. yes I was a baby. still kind of am.#but like I still have positive feelings about blues clues but ANIMAL CROSSING. ohhh man.#first of all that megalophobia I mentioned uh yeah not a big fan of seeing those big fish.#I was terrified of the rumor that you could see a GINORMOUS fish in the ocean. and Iâve been hearing it was REAL? worst thing ever.#but like. I couldnât even take care of my irl self so you KNOW my village was totally trashed.#so I had to play while constantly getting told âeveryone HATES living in this townâ and trying my best to fix it but itâs out of control and#I canât bring myself to clean (I did it once. it was the happiest Iâd been finally getting told positive things.)#my house always full of roaches too lol foreshadowing my life as an adult#ALSO THOSE FREAKING DANGEROUS BUGS WOULD GET ME ALL THE TIME I was always playing at night and getting terrified#I never had a âfavorite villagerâ in the traditional sense cuz none of them ever stayed long. they hated my town.#my fave was actually stitches but I never saw him. maybe I saw him once and he IMMEDIATELY moved out. that was my life.#I canât name a single villager I ever had in my village cuz they always moved out. I learned not to form attachments even tho I wanted to.#and donât even get me STARTED on Resetti. if you are a Resetti lover then WE ARE NOT MEANT TO INTERACT đ#Iâm joking I wonât judge you as a person if you like him but at the same time I genuinely on god hate him#opening up the game was a nightmare cuz I knew without fail every time I would have to see him.#âjust saveâ? it wasnât ever ME that was doing it. it was my little siblings. and NO I couldnât stop them. they were like GODS at stealing#not to mention parents would always side with them and make us share the games. they liked to delete saves and were gods at that too#but anyways so I was always stuck with Resetti cuz my siblings couldnât leave my game alone and also couldnât bring themselves to save befor#stopping. so every day it would be Resetti. I dreaded it so much because he is like SUPER reminiscent of my abusive step father at the time.#I often cried while just desperately trying to get thru his lectures. they were SO. LONG. and OH MY GOD the time he made me repeat something#I legitimately donât know what it was but like I kept failing it. I know I was rlly bad with copying things as a kid#there was a time where I made the painful decision to quit in the middle of his rant. knowing that it would be worse next time but I was#simply unable to take it at that point in time. HOW EFFED UP IS THAT. THAT I JUST WANT TO PLAY A DAMN GAME BUT I CANT CUZ OF THE TRAUMA.#I hate Resetti I hate Resetti I hate him so much âoh heâs just a characterâ THATS WHY IM FREE TO HATE HIM BABY!!! IT MAKES IT WORSE THAT PPL#DELIBERATELY CREATED A CHARACTER LIKE THAT HONESTLY! WHY WOULD THEY DO THAT TO POOR INNOCENT ME!!!#anyways yeah literally everything about animal crossing is so distressing to me and yet I remember loving it. no idea why.#my memories of it have like a dramatic and eerie vignette#and that newer one that came out and everyone was so excited. I canât handle it cuz of the FISH AGAIN!!! MEGALOPHOBIA BE LIKE!!!!!!!
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there's an artist I rly like not naming names but one of their ocs looks EXACTLY like [redacted person ik irl] and it always makes me double take whenever they draw them bc for a second im always like ohhh.. that's them..... but they wouldn't do that... it makes me feel soo strange
#like its not just a 'huh they remind me a little of this person' its always 'wait why did someone draw them like that'#like the mannerisms and expressions they give the character are usually pretty spot on too... ah!!#but the characters backstory n setting are wildly different. very bizarre just saw a post of theirs again and it reminded me#anyway!! woke up a bit early feeling a little nauseous but i made myself eat and its started to pass#gonna let myself stay in bed 15 more minutes and then ill get dressed and put a folder of important docs together to take to the gp#cuz idk exactly what theyll need from me in order to register. im guessing photo id + proof of address at minimum#but i wont head out until maybe 9:30 bc they dont open until 8:30 but it might only be for calls not doors the first half hour or so#being very brave!!!!!#oh my prescribers just got back to me too phew. she said i can go back down which is good cuz ive already done that this morning LOL#she suggested i can try 40 again but take 20 in the morning and 20 at lunch since it seems to wear off after 6 hours-ish hmm#maybe ill consider testing that tomorrow. just worried itd fuck w my sleep ahh but worth a try..#i do get very sleepy after it wears off so it might work out we'll see#happy monday everyone muah. go listen to 23 by blonde redhead for me <3<3<3#.diaries
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just finished watching Blue Beetle & the dude who's lines were 90% "my name isn't Sanchez" is listed as "Sanchez" in the credits
#''you see she's racist because she calls him Sanchez even though that's not his name. anyways here's who played Sanchez''#oh also the dude who played him is Guillermo from What We Do In The Shadows#man idk maybe it's just cuz i watched Spiderverse again right before this#but i find superhero movies just don't do it for me anymore. not the modern ones anyway#like yeah it's fun for sure but also. it's 90% CGI & totally ignores the superpower aspect in favour of like. romance & explosions#like i wanna see him learn there's a fucking alien beetle speaking in his head rather than just ''yeah i can hear it. anyways''#i know i know we've seen origin stories a million times. but like. i LOVE origin stories. i'm sure other people do too#it's why i always rewatch the first movie in a series. i love the fucking around & finding out#also the amount of random flashing lights was kind of weird. made me realize how many climaxes just do that instead of actually like#making it visually appealing#man every time i watch a superhero movie that isn't Andrew or Toby's Spider-man or Spiderverse or RPat's Batman i get disappointed#the earlier Marvel & DC movies were alright. i think they still had the magic before Avengers went big#but like. dude. most of them just don't do it for me. there's something fundamental about heroes that they're missing#i think it's the like. actually wanting to help people just because they want to#a lot of them only help because they get the money & tech to do so#i think it worked with Tony because that's his whole character. he's an asshole billionaire who makes weapons#his (& Batman's) character development surrounds the tech & the money#but for friendly neighbourhood Spider-man for example it doesn't. that guy is poor. he defends the people#& they can't really do that when they've got a billionaire who works with the government breathing down their neck can they#idk i feel like a lot of this ''i'm just the little guy look at me i'm just a lil dude with a family who likes helping'' doesn't really wor#when the only reason they're helping at all is because a billionaire showed up & gave them a million dollars like#''i'm doing this out of the goodness of my heart <3 billionaires are people too''#sorry but billionaires need to die if you wanna actually help people. actually i take back that sorry. i'm not sorry#i did get some ideas for DIM though so i guess there's that#anyway yeah Blue Beetle is good as entertainment. i just feel like it could've been more Real ya know?#like. Spiderverse felt Real. New York & Miles's family felt so natural & seamless#''Batman's a fascist'' just didnt really do it for me
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reevaluating my entire thing again
#do things look normal up there no not really. hate how my body looks again#speak iza#i might still be bigender though i cant be sure#im not. maybe im just gnc#cuz likeeee im bi right i love girls but im not sure im attracted to them#as like. a girl right? i dont feel wlw#it just doesnt sound right if im called an honest to god girl i feel strange about that still#like oh look at that you can still misgender irene#so..... idk#..!#i dont feel entirely boy either if that makes sense. i dont really care to figure out what demiboy is either#I'll just call myself transmasc thats the best description to be honestly#transmasc gay guy gay gay gay bi guy wants#big fan of when boys have traditionally feminine names which make me giggle since i came up with iza first#before isaiah. and yk izas now gonna be short for that#im also irene and kay which was a real fucking character in the original arthurian tales i think#not even short for anything..... damn.#maybe irene can be my drag name... ive ALWAYS wanted to do drag yk#well not always. just now. i wanna see a performance here i like watch some recorded from bars#i want that even if make-ups uncomfortable!! the exagerration the performance the style of it all
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I have a request for how the Arcane characters (Viktor, Jayce, Jinx, Vi, Heimerdinger, Ekko) look so that the reader can access their cuteness. Maybe they are doing or saying something to the reader and the reader suddenly starts hugging and petting them, calling them cute. How would they react to this?
Note: So... I'm the only one who thinks Heimerdinger is really cute. Why aren't there fanfics with him? Mysteries of life..
Arcane characters being called cute by their s/o while they're working
Writer's note: Thanks for requesting! It took longer than I expected because I kept deleting some of the dialogue from how cheesy and cringe it sounded lmao. Heimerdinger is not on my list of characters I write for, but I figured I'll write him this one time. I hope you don't mind that I also added Mylo, cuz why not?
Request/s: Open!
Warning/s: Get a dentist. This is some tooth-rotting fluff. Not proofread and english isn't my native language.
Character/s: Viktor, Jayce, Jinx, Vi, Ekko, Heimerdinger and Mylo
â Viktor tends to get lost in his work, mumbling equations or sketching out blueprints for his projects. You find this incredibly endearing, but not when he gets so absorbed that he forgets to eat or sleep.
â If you suddenly hug him or call him cute, heâll freeze in shock at first. He blinks up at you as if you just said something in a language he doesnât understand. Then, his cheeks will flush a light pink, and heâll chuckles softly. âCute is... not a term I hear often. But thank you."
â Over time, he grows more comfortable and secretly enjoys the affection. He may even lean into it, but heâll never outright admit it. Instead, he might deflect with a shy smile and, âYou should focus on more important matters."
â Yeah no, that's a sign for you to keep doing it.
â Jayce is the golden boyâconfident, charming, and ridiculously handsome. He likes to appear professional and put-together, but you know him well enough to see through that exterior to the dorky, hardworking man beneath.
â When you hug him out of nowhere while he cooks and call him cute, he blinks for a second but chuckles as he turns to look at you. âCute? Babe, Iâm going for ruggedly handsome and sweet here. But I'll take it."
â Still, he's flattered and loves the affection you give him. And unlike Viktor, he's not afraid or shy to show you he wants more of it. He might pull you closer and say, "You're one to talk." He's a romantic and albeit cheesy guy.
â Now, you probably might be thinking about why and how is he cooking, but that's for another headcanon! (I just realized how I'm not even sure whose side am I on. Can he cook?? Cuz I feel like he can. But I also see him burning food-)
â Jinx, as we all know, is pure chaos, always working on something explosive or messing around. She has a habit of humming and singing off-key to herself while she works, which makes you think sheâs oddly cute in her own... quirky way. To be honest, itâs hard not to find her enthusiasm contagious, even if itâs a little dangerous.
â One day, you catch her doing exactly that while painting her trademark designs on one of her grenades. The sight just makes you smile as you walk up and wrap your arms around her, telling her, âYouâre so cute when youâre focused like this,â or something of the sort.
â Sheâll throw her hands up and turn to look at you, trying to play off your compliment as a joke. âWoah, you might be crazier than me!" She grins and laughs softly, before making her voice sound more gruff, "Ya buttering up the author nightmares with your mooshy stuff!â
â But after her initial over-the-top reaction, sheâll soften. âFine, soak it all in.â She shrugs and continues working. But deep down, she really loves the affection and she's getting more and more attached to you. You're giving her the kind of love that she thinks she never deserved in her life, so she really appreciates these little things you do. She might even snuggle up to you later, claiming itâs to âsoak in all this âcuteâ energy.â
â Oh, by the way, she'll make this happen a lot more often. By how, you ask? Well, by doing the same thing to you, of course! It becomes a little challenge betweem the two of you who calls the other one cute first and catching them off guard with it.
â Vi is all tough love and sass, but thereâs a soft side she shows only to the people she really cares about. You notice this when sheâs being protective or just in those peaceful moments when you're both alone together.
â If you call her cute, sheâll raise an eyebrow and smirk. âCute? Babe, I think youâve got the wrong person.â
â Later, sheâll definitely tease you about it, saying something like, âSo, howâs it feel dating the cutest person in Zaun?â or "Am I still cute?" with a playful grin. She'll be teasing you and making you smile with that while she's half naked and flexing her biceps (she knows you love them), or when she just got done with a fight and is still holding her gauntlets.
â She loves it, don't let that teasing fool you.
â Heimerdinger is an adorable bundle of wisdom and fluff. You often catch him rambling about science with such enthusiasm that you canât help but smile. Look at him! He's just adorable!
â One day, as heâs showing you a tiny contraption he just finished, you canât help but reach out and pet his fluffy head, saying, âYouâre the most cutest genius ever.â
â Heimerdinger chuckles, his mustache twitching with amusement. âAh, well, I suppose I do have a certain charm about me, donât I?â
â He pretends to be unaffected, but you notice the way his tail swishes slightly when you hug him. âI must say, your affection is quite... energizing! Perhaps I should study its effects further.â
â From then on, he might start subtly seeking out your affectionâlike casually leaning into your hand when you pet him or âaccidentallyâ bumping into you while working.
â Ekko is talking to you about his plans for the Firelights while sketching upgrades for their hoverboards.
â You were quietly admiring him, the way his eyes light up and the focused furrow of his brows, when you suddenly blurt out, âYouâre so cute when youâre focused.â
â He freezes for a second, then looks at you with a mixture of surprise and amusement. âCute? Me?â He grins, a soft laugh escaping. âYou sure youâre not talking about yourself there?â
â He rubs the back of his neck, trying to act nonchalant, but the smile gives him away.
â âYouâre not getting away with saying that,â he teases, leaning in to nudge you lightly with his shoulder. He goes back to doing his work before playfully adding, âBut if you keep looking at me like that, I might just start believing it.â
â It's these little things that matters. These moments, even if simple, it gives him hope and motivation to make the world a better place. The way his eyes soften when you look at him in that moment, and how he lets his guard down just enough to show you he cares â itâs clear that, while he teases, he loves the attention, and he loves you even more for it.
â Dude's got lines fr fr
â Mylo has always been the type of guy who had a sarcastic, sassy remark ready. We all know that from how he treated Powder.
â When you suddenly hug him and call him cute, he freezes for a second, unsure of how to react. âCute? Me?â He scoffs, trying to play it cool, but it's very obvious he's a bit flustered by it. âOut of all the compliments you couldâve picked, you went with cute? Iâm more like... cool, and handsome.â He throws a dramatic, exaggerated pose, trying to hide his nervousness.
â Despite his teasing, there's a small, pleased grin tugging at the corners of his mouth. He tries to act nonchalant, but the way he keeps glancing at you shows how much heâs secretly enjoying it.
â âSeriously, though. Iâm cool, alright?â he continues, trying to regain his confidence. âI donât do cute. But, uh... thanks. I guess.â He says softly as he shrugs, clearing his throat.
â Later on, when no oneâs watching, you might catch him glancing at you from the corner of his eye, a small smile on his face, clearly still flattered.
Can you guys guess which is my favorite based on how long their headcanons are
#viktor arcane#Viktor x reader#Jayce arcane#Jayce talis#Jayce talis arcane#Jayce x reader#jayce talis x reader#Jinx#jinx arcane#jinx x reader#vi arcane#Vi x reader#Heimerdinger#Heimerdinger arcane#Heimerdinger x reader#ekko arcane#ekko x reader#mylo x reader#mylo arcane#arcane x reader#league of legends x reader
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your post on harryâs handwriting was an eye-opener for me! ik his writing resembled his mother some and is decent overall, but iâve never seen pics of it!
idk where the horde of fanfic writers came up with the weird notion that harry has bad/chicken scratch handwriting, which triggers me every. time. they make out his handwriting to be messy, his eating habits sloppy, his speech behaviour bumbling, his appearance unkempt, and that heâs rather messy as a person. which boggles the mind, because heâs used to cleaning up after the dursleys and probably enjoys an orderly space, if not super spic and span??? is it only certain fandoms, cuz they make the other character(s) all elegance personified and well-mannered? like, harry already is a well-mannered boy, otherwise petunia wouldâve been tutting, clucking, and dying of shame even more before the nieghbours lmaoo. idk whether to cry or laugh, and sometimes itâs such a turn-off that i choose to rage quit fics.
please, if you have the time, i would love a thorough breakdown/meta on how harry actually comes across as a person!
Okay, I have so much to say about this. And omg, Harry's chicken scratch handwriting is one of my pet peeves in fics (here's the handwriting post, btw). Harry's characterization when done wrong in general, tbh is a huge turn-off for me. Becouse I love Harry, he's my boy.
So, what we're gonna look at is how other characters in the books perceive Harry, how he comes across in universe to people who can't read his mind (like we can, as the readers).
I'll start with a general note about how most characters in the books don't really know Harry. This is mostly because Harry, contrary to fanon interpretations, is a very private person and rarely talks about himself/his feelings/his thoughts out loud. This is a habit I believe was ingrained into him by the Dursleys.
Like, I mentioned in the past Harry doesn't talk as much as other characters. Scenes of the trio usually consist of mostly Ron and Hermione talking, for example. This is not becouse he doesn't have thoughts (he's quite judgmental inside his head, and we know he has a lot to say), but becouse he's used to not voicing a lot of them thanks to the Dursleys.
This essay turned out pretty long, but here we go:
How do others see Harry?
Harry comes off as confident. Harry is a defiant and courageous person, and this often comes off as confidence to other people. It's why Snape thinks Harry is arrogant and why most students are always sure Harry meant to do what he did. They think he has shit together because he comes off like he does:
Harry stayed silent. Snape was trying to provoke him into telling the truth. He wasnât going to do it. Snape had no proof â yet. âHow extraordinarily like your father you are, Potter,â Snape said suddenly, his eyes glinting. âHe too was exceedingly arrogant. A small amount of talent on the Quidditch field made him think he was a cut above the rest of us too. Strutting around the place with his friends and admirers . . . The resemblance between you is uncanny.â âMy dad didnât strut,â said Harry, before he could stop himself. âAnd neither do I.â
(PoA, Ch14)
Snape sees Harry as arrogant, when in fact Harry is just defiant and intelligent.
âBut youâve been too busy saving the Wizarding world,â said Ginny, half laughing. âWell ... I canât say Iâm surprised. I knew this would happen in the end. I knew you wouldnât be happy unless you were hunting Voldemort. Maybe thatâs why I like you so much.â
(HBP, Ch30)
Ginny (and other characters) believe he likes to save the wizarding world. That he is this confident hero and savior. I mean, they believe her lie about the tattoo, which says a lot:
and all Romilda Vane does is ask me if itâs true youâve got a hippogriff tattooed across your chest.â Ron and Hermione both roared with laughter. Harry ignored them. âWhat did you tell her?â âI told her itâs a Hungarian Horntail,â said Ginny, turning a page of the newspaper idly. âMuch more macho.â
(HBP, Ch25)
Harry doesn't see himself as leader material, but it's clear everyone else does:
âI think we ought to elect a leader,â said Hermione. âHarryâs leader,â said Cho at once, looking at Hermione as though she were mad, and Harryâs stomach did yet another back flip. âYes, but I think we ought to vote on it properly,â said Hermione, unperturbed. âIt makes it formal and it gives him authority. So â everyone who thinks Harry ought to be our leader?â Everybody put up their hands, even Zacharias Smith, though he did it very halfheartedly. âEr â right, thanks,â said Harry, who could feel his face burning.
(OotP, Ch18)
Neville Longbottom, who gave a roar of delight, leapt down from the mantelpiece and yelled. âI knew youâd come! I knew it, Harry!â
(DH, Ch28)
âLook who it is! Didnât I tell you?â As Harry emerged into the room beyond the passage, there were several screams and yells: âHARRY!â âItâs Potter, itâs POTTER!â âRon!â âHermione!â [...] âAre you all right, Harry?â Neville was saying. âWant to sit down? I expect youâre tired, arenâtâ?â âNo,â said Harry. He looked at Ron and Hermione, trying to tell them without words that Voldemort has just discovered the loss of one of the other Horcruxes. Time was running out fast: If Voldemort chose to visit Hogwarts next, they would miss their chance. âWe need to get going,â he said, and their expression told him that they understood. âWhat are we going to do, then, Harry?â asked Seamus. âWhatâs the plan?â âPlan?â repeated Harry. He was exercising all his willpower to prevent himself succumbing again to Voldemortâs rage: His scar was still burning. âWell, thereâs something weâRon, Hermione, and Iâneed to do, and then weâll get out of here.â Nobody was laughing or whooping anymore. Neville looked confused.
(DH, Ch29)
Everyone expected Harry in DH to have a plan of attack the moment he arrived because that's how he acts. Even in the above scene, he's in terrible pain from his scar, but the others don't see it. What they see is a Harry who looks exhausted but says no to rest because there's work to be done and they expect this of him. They see someone fearless and capable with a plan who could lead them, but this isn't what we see because we're inside his head.
How Harry doesn't speak much and acts overall quite distant, as in, he actively avoids the girls who fancy him:
Then he blinked and looked around: He was surrounded by mesmerized girls. âHi, Harry!â said a familiar voice from behind him. âNeville!â said Harry in relief, turning to see a round-faced boy struggling toward him
(HBP, Ch7)
And he only has two close friends and barley knows the other students in his year. Most students only know Harry Potter from the stories, rumors, and Dumbledore's end-of-the-year speeches about his heroism. They have no clue who the real Harry is â so they expect the hero they do hear about.
He stands his ground a lot (again, defiance):
Harry turned to McLaggen to tell him that, most unfortunately, Ron had beaten him, only to find McLaggenâs red face inches from his own. He stepped back hastily. âHis sister didnât really try,â said McLaggen menacingly. There was a vein pulsing in his temple like the one Harry had often admired in Uncle Vernonâs. âShe gave him an easy save.â âRubbish,â said Harry coldly. âThat was the one he nearly missed.â
(HBP, Ch11)
And more often than not, he does so coldly and calmly. A lot of his more fiery anger is a sign of trauma with Harry, his baseline anger reaction is cold.
All of this adds to him appearing to others as controlled, confident, and like he has everything together and could never have any issues. He comes off as this bigger than life person to most people. Snape isn't the only one who reads Harry's behavior as confident. But it's actually far from the truth.
We, as the readers, see how depressed Harry is. How lowly he thinks of himself and how much he doesn't think of himself as anything special when he very clearly is. But the fact he doesn't say any of it and has mastered the skill of acting cold and like everything is fine when he literally wants to die at the age of 5, no one knows. Even Ron and Hermione didn't truly realize the full extent of Harry's low self-worth until 5th year.
The other students are shocked to see Harry as angry as he is in book 5 because he's often way more controlled and well-mannered than that. They're used to seeing him cold and quiet, not firey. Most of his fire stays inside his head unless he's really angry or emotional in general (or traumatized):
Professor Umbridge sat down behind her desk again. Harry, however, stood up. Everyone was staring at him; Seamus looked half-scared, half-fascinated. âHarry, no!â Hermione whispered in a warning voice, tugging at his sleeve, but Harry jerked his arm out of her reach. âSo, according to you, Cedric Diggory dropped dead of his own accord, did he?â Harry asked, his voice shaking. There was a collective intake of breath from the class, for none of them, apart from Ron and Hermione, had ever heard Harry talk about what had happened on the night that Cedric had died. They stared avidly from Harry to Professor Umbridge
(OotP, Ch12)
The shock of the other students, I believe, is because of what he's saying, yes, but it's also because Harry is behaving very unlike him here. He usually doesn't shout at teachers or anyone, really. He rarely speaks in classes actually.
And regarding his confidence, everyone, Ron and Hermione included, was sure Harry is super skilled and that that's how he evaded Voldemort:
âYou donât know what itâs like! You â neither of you â youâve never had to face him, have you? You think itâs just memorizing a bunch of spells and throwing them at him, like youâre in class or something? The whole time you know thereâs nothing between you and dying except your own â your own brain or guts or whatever â like you can think straight when you know youâre about a second from being murdered, or tortured, or watching your friends die â theyâve never taught us that in their classes, what itâs like to deal with things like that â and you two sit there acting like Iâm a clever little boy to be standing here, alive, like Diggory was stupid, like he messed up â you just donât get it, that could just as easily have been me, it would have been if Voldemort hadnât needed me ââ âWe werenât saying anything like that, mate,â said Ron, looking aghast. âWe werenât having a go at Diggory, we didnât â youâve got the wrong end of the ââ He looked helplessly at Hermione, whose face was stricken.
(OotP, Ch15)
They didn't for a second think he wasn't confident in his own abilities because Harry acts in a way that comes off as confident and capable. It's why everyone so easily accepts him as a leader under various circumstances. He acts level-headed while he's terrified, so everyone thinks he knows what he's doing except Harry (and the reader). Ron and Hermione had zero doubts Harry's skill was a big part of why he survived book 4, it's only Harry who doesn't think that.
The fact Snape bothered to extract his own memories during his Occlumancy lessons goes to show how he thinks Harry is talented, contrary to his words. He feared Harry would reverse the connection and see into his mind, otherwise he wouldn't have taken these precautions.
Think of Voldemortâs resurrection even. Inside his mind, we know Harry's terrified. We know he has no idea what he's doing.
But imagine being a Death Eater in the crowd and you see this 14-year-old kid stand up after being Crucio-ed by their lord, and he stands up, resists the imperius, and shouts at your lord like he thinks of himself as equal to him â or, perhaps, better than him:
âI asked you whether you want me to do that again,â said Voldemort softly. âAnswer me! Imperio!â [...] I WONâT!â And these words burst from Harryâs mouth; they echoed through the graveyard, and the dream state was lifted as suddenly as though cold water had been thrown over him â back rushed the aches that the Cruciatus Curse had left all over his body â back rushed the realization of where he was, and what he was facing. . . . âYou wonât?â said Voldemort quietly, and the Death Eaters were not laughing now.
(GoF, Ch34)
That's pretty badass. Harry comes off like a confidant badass. And he gets more badass and confident as he matures (even if he isn't actually as confident as he appears).
Even in the DoM, Lucius Malfoy, who was in the graveyard, takes Harry seriously:
âDonât do anything,â he [Harry] muttered. âNot yet ââ The woman who had mimicked him let out a raucous scream of laughter. âYou hear him? You hear him? Giving instructions to the other children as though he thinks of fighting us!â âOh, you donât know Potter as I do, Bellatrix,â said Malfoy softly. âHe has a great weakness for heroics; the Dark Lord understands this about him. Now give me the prophecy, Potter.â
(OotP, Ch35)
Bellatrix makes fun of how Harry gives the other kids orders as if they're going to fight, but Lucius knows better, he knows Harry is going to fight, and I think, he's scared of what would happen when he does. Even Bellatrix quickly starts taking Harry more seriously:
âOh, he knows how to play, little bitty baby Potter,â she said, her mad eyes staring through the slits in her hood. âVery well, then ââ
(OotP, Ch35)
And she changes her tone completely after he casts a Crucio at her:
âNever used an Unforgivable Curse before, have you, boy?â she yelled. She had abandoned her baby voice now.
(OotP, Ch36)
His aura is one of competence and confidence even when he's frightened and has no idea what he's doing. Especially when he's frightened and has no idea what he's doing.
And for the most part, he doesn't come off nearly as judgmental as he actually is, because he doesn't say a lot of what he thinks. We only see him start to actually speak his mind and be more sassy out loud around 5th and 6th year. And even then, his highly judgmental physical descriptions stay part of his narration, they aren't spoken:
âThatâs the bell,â said Harry listlessly, because Ron and Hermione were bickering too loudly to hear it. They did not stop arguing all the way down to Snapeâs dungeon, which gave Harry plenty of time to reflect that between Neville and Ron he would be lucky ever to have two minutesâ conversation with Cho that he could look back on without wanting to leave the country.
(OotP, Ch12)
Ron and Hermione banter while Harry feels done with them, but he doesn't really say anything or complain. He keeps a lot of his thoughts inside his head.
If we look at how Ron, Hermione, and Sirius see Harry, they're the closest to who Harry actually is as these three know Harry best. (They're also more objective than Harry who looks down on himself)
After the book 5 conversation I mentioned above, Ron and Hermione are more aware of Harry's insecurities, but they find them silly. They see Harry as incredibly capable and skilled:
âDid he?â said Harry. Behind him he felt rather than heard Hermione passing his message to the others and he sought to keep talking, to distract the Death Eaters.
(OotP, Ch35)
âWhat are we going to do with them?â Ron whispered to Harry through the dark; then, even more quietly, âKill them? Theyâd kill us. They had a good go just now.â Hermione shuddered and took a step backward. Harry shook his head. âWe just need to wipe their memories,â said Harry.
(DH, Ch9)
When danger comes, everyone's instantly following Harry's lead. Harry's the planner when the situation is dangerous, he calls the shots, not Hermione. Hermione and Ron look to Harry for a plan when things get tough, and Harry always figures something out. Now, we see Harry thinking he has no idea what to do:
He could not think what to do but to keep talking. Nevilleâs arm was pressed against his, and he could feel him shaking. He could feel one of the otherâs quickened breath on the back of his head. He was hoping they were all thinking hard about ways to get out of this, because his mind was blank.
(OotP, Ch35)
But Ron and Hermione don't. No one does. They just see Harry coming up with a plan to save them. Every time. They don't see him wracking his brain for a way to keep everyone alive.
Hermione never considers Harry stupid, not even in first year:
âIâm not as good as you,â said Harry, very embarrassed, as she let go of him. âMe!â said Hermione. âBooks! And cleverness! There are more important things â friendship and bravery and â oh Harry â be careful!â
(PS, Ch16)
And Ron clearly doesn't expect stupid behavior from Harry. He's surprised and shocked when Harry does something he considers stupid:
âWhat the hell,â panted Ron, holding up the Horcrux, which swung backward and forward on its shortened chain in some parody of hypnosis, âdidnât you take this thing off before you dived?â
(DH, 19)
Both Ron and Hermione trust Harry's opinion and they trust him to know what to do when shit hits the fan. When things are dangerous, both Ron and Hermione (and everyone else) turn to Harry to know what to do becouse that's the aura he has:
âIâd tell him weâre all with him in spirit,â said Lupin, then hesitated slightly. âAnd Iâd tell him to follow his instincts, which are good and nearly always right.â Harry looked at Hermione, whose eyes were full of tears. âNearly always right,â she repeated.
(DH, Ch22)
Hermione agrees with Lupin's assessment here. Dumbledore did too, he's the one who told Kingsley and Remus to trust Harry's instincts. Harry doesn't give the impression he's messy and bumbling, quite the opposite. Yes, Harry and Hermione have their doubts, they don't agree with Harry on everything, especially when he has no evidence for his claim except his intuition. But, it's telling Harry can make claims based on gut feeling and Ron and Hermione ask him why he thinks that instead of just instantly rejecting the claims.
Like I mentioned above, he looks like he has his shit together even when he really doesn't. He's an expert in keeping a mask on and bottling up his feelings.
Sirius, also sees Harry as mature and capable for his age. It's why he's so insistent on telling him things while Molly wants to cuddle Harry:
âI donât intend to tell him more than he needs to know, Molly,â said Sirius. âBut as he was the one who saw Voldemort come backâ (again, there was a collective shudder around the table at the name), âhe has more right than most to ââ âHeâs not a member of the Order of the Phoenix!â said Mrs. Weasley. âHeâs only fifteen and ââ ââ and heâs dealt with as much as most in the Order,â said Sirius, âand more than some ââ âNo oneâs denying what heâs done!â said Mrs. Weasley, her voice rising, her fists trembling on the arms of her chair. âBut heâs stillââ âHeâs not a child!â said Sirius impatiently.
(OotP, Ch5)
Between them, Sirius sees Harry more accurately. Harry is incredibly mature and capable and wants to be in the know. He'd be better off in the know. Sirius understands Harry's curiosity which Molly seems unaware of. Lupin also remarks on how Harry is going to find out things anyway, he's aware of how curious and determined Harry is. Sirius considers Harry capable even during PoA and GoF:
I know better than anyone that you can look after yourself and while youâre around Dumbledore and Moody I donât think anyone will be able to hurt you.
(GoF, Ch18)
Molly, on the other hand, never really sees Harry's capabilities. Molly only ever sees a polite, intelligent kid. In the early years at the Weasley, Harry barely talks to Molly and Arthur because he doesn't really know how to talk to them. So they talk to him, the other Weasleys talk around him, and he's polite in turn:
âI donât blame you, dear,â she assured Harry, tipping eight or nine sausages onto his plate. âArthur and I have been worried about you, too. Just last night we were saying weâd come and get you ourselves if you hadnât written back to Ron by Friday. But reallyâ (she was now adding three fried eggs to his plate), âflying an illegal car halfway across the country â anyone could have seen you ââ
(CoS, Ch3)
Harry acts around most adults like this, especially when younger. It's clear he acted this way around his teachers too:
âYou see what you expect to see, Severus,â said Dumbledore, without raising his eyes from a copy of Transfiguration Today. âOther teachers report that the boy is modest, likable, and reasonably talented. Personally, I find him an engaging child.â
(DH, Ch33)
Snape got it a bit different. Because Harry is defiant and sassy â it's how he responds to the Dursleys, and this is how he responds to threats he can't do anything about in general. Sass. It's why we see Harry do this with Umbridge, Snape, and Scrimgeour:
Who do you imagine wants to attack children like yourselves?â inquired Professor Umbridge in a horribly honeyed voice. âHmm, letâs think . . .â said Harry in a mock thoughtful voice, âmaybe Lord Voldemort?â
(OotP, Ch12)
âDo you remember me telling you we are practicing nonverbal spells, Potter?â âYes,â said Harry stiffly. âYes, sir.â âThereâs no need to call me âsir,â Professor.â
(HBP, Ch9)
â...You may wear that scar like a crown, Potter, but it is not up to a seventeen-year-old boy to tell me how to do my job! Itâs time you learned some respect!â âItâs time you earned it.â said Harry.
(DH, Ch7)
Harry appears confidant and arrogant not only to Snape but to Scrimgeour too (I think other students at Hogwarts see Harry as arrogant too. His demeanor can come off as arrogant if you don't know what he's thinking. It's why they could believe the Daily Prophet, it fit what they got to see). It's because he is rude and sassy when speaking his mind. It's because he acts more confident when he's terrified. It's because he's cold, distant, and uncaring towards most people and actively avoids talking to most.
And even that's mostly when he's older. In 4th year, he responds to Snape by glaring at him silently and wishing he could cast a Crucio at him:
Harry sat there staring at Snape as the lesson began, picturing horrific things happening to him. . . . If only he knew how to do the Cruciatus Curse . . . heâd have Snape flat on his back like that spider, jerking and twitching. . . .
(GoF, Ch18)
Harry is overall really quiet, which does create the impression of him being put together. More than he thinks of himself, for sure. It also adds to why many students feel as comfortable talking about him as they do because he feels distant to them. His quiet makes him feel mysterious, unknown, and far away. Like a symbol rather than a person.
Something I want to note, specifically with Umbridge, is this scene:
Harry looked around at Umbridge. She was watching him, her wide, toadlike mouth stretched in a smile. âYes?â âNothing,â said Harry quietly. He looked back at the parchment, placed the quill upon it once more, wrote I must not tell lies, and felt the searing pain on the back of his hand for a second time; once again the words had been cut into his skin, once again they healed over seconds later.
(OotP, Ch13)
Part of why Harry comes off as such a put-together badass is that he doesn't let others see his pain. He doesn't show he's in pain to others, especially when it's people he doesn't like. He acts though, constantly.
He hates crying in front of others becouse Harry does everything he can to not appear weak:
Harry suddenly realized that there were tears on his face mingling with the sweat. He bent his face as low as possible, wiping them off on his robes, pretending to do up his shoelace, so that Lupin wouldnât see.
(PoA, Ch12)
And it works, people see him as confident, and capable, and heroic. Most people don't see the struggle because Harry keeps bottling it in.
Even with Hermione, he tries not to let her see how upset he actually is. We know in his head, that he is devastated by his wand breaking, that he's mourning it like it was a dead loved one, but this is what he's willing to show Hermione:
âIt was an accident,â said Harry mechanically. He felt empty, stunned. âWeâllâweâll find a way to repair it.â [...] âWell,â he said, in a falsely matter-of-fact voice, âwell, Iâll just borrow yours for now, then. While I keep watch.â
(DH, Ch17)
All this means, we, as the readers , see Harry's pain, his struggles, his vulnerability â but the other characters almost never do.
The only character who is consistently aware of Harry's struggles is Sirius who Harry confides his weaknesses to more than any other character:
âNever mind me, how are you?â said Sirius seriously. âIâm ââ For a second, Harry tried to say âfineâ â but he couldnât do it. Before he could stop himself, he was talking more than heâd talked in days
(GoF, Ch19)
Harry is so used to saying his fine and bearing his burdens in silence. It's what he does. It's what he did for years. Most characters think Harry is unshakable because that's how he acts.
Even when Harry tries to lie so Sirius won't worry, Sirius sees through it:
Nice try, Harry. Iâm back in the country and well hidden. I want you to keep me posted on everything thatâs going on at Hogwarts.
(GoF, Ch15)
As for his room and appearance, he is a little messy actually when he has the chance to be in seventh year:
Harry had spent the morning completely emptying his school trunk for the first time since he had packed it six years ago. At the start of the intervening school years, he had merely skimmed off the topmost three quarters of the contents and replaced or updated them, leaving a layer of general debris at the bottomâold quills, desiccated beetle eyes, single socks that no longer fit.
(DH, Ch2)
As in, his trunk is a bit of a mess. But this makes sense, I think. He allows himself to be messy when he doesn't have the Dursleys over his head. It's like a sort of freedom he didn't have before, so he indulges in it. I think the mess in his trunk is also a result of him actually living from it for 6 years, as he couldn't really leave everything at home with the Dursleys, could he? Still, his room and belongings are nowhere near as messy as Ron's.
As for his appearance, the only thing mentioned to be messy is his hair:
His jet-black hair, however, was just as it always had been â stubbornly untidy, whatever he did to it
(PoA, Ch1)
But from other characters (including Hermione) thinking Harry's hot:
âOh, come on, Harry,â said Hermione, suddenly impatient. âItâs not Quidditch thatâs popular, itâs you! Youâve never been more interesting, and frankly, youâve never been more fanciable.â
(HBP, Ch11)
We can conclude Harry's messy hair comes off as cool and attractive and not like a bird's nest.
We also see from Hermione and others that Harry looks scary. He is 5'11 by book 6 with an intimidating glare and that he looks like he can throw a punch, (and can definitely throw a punch when he wants to). So he has a physical intimidation factor when older:
âWell, itâs like Hagrid said, they can look after themselves,â said Hermione impatiently, âand I suppose a teacher like Grubbly-Plank wouldnât usually show them to us before N.E.W.T. level, but, well, they are very interesting, arenât they? The way some people can see them and some canât! I wish I could.â âDo you?â Harry asked her quietly. She looked horrorstruck. âOh Harry â Iâm sorry â no, of course I donât â that was a really stupid thing to say ââ
(OotP, Ch21)
Harry was not aware of releasing George, all he knew was that a second later both of them were sprinting at Malfoy. He had completely forgotten the fact that all the teachers were watching: All he wanted to do was cause Malfoy as much pain as possible. With no time to draw out his wand, he merely drew back the fist clutching the Snitch and sank it as hard as he could into Malfoyâs stomach â âHarry! HARRY! GEORGE! NO!â He could hear girlsâ voices screaming, Malfoy yelling, George swearing, a whistle blowing, and the bellowing of the crowd around him, but he did not care, not until somebody in the vicinity yelled âIMPEDIMENTA!â and only when he was knocked over backward by the force of the spell did he abandon the attempt to punch every inch of Malfoy he could reach. . . .
(OotP, Ch19)
To summarise
Harry bottles up a lot of his emotions and tends to be quiet, this creates the often wrong impression he is confident and has his shit together.
He doesn't show pain and weakness to others and doesn't cry or show he's upset to basically anyone (except Sirius). This means basically no one sees his struggles or how depressed and traumatized Harry actually is. It even surprises Ron and Hermione in book 5.
He is defiant and rude to people he doesn't like, especially when scared, the result is that he appears like a very capable and confident badass especially when under pressure.
He can be intimidating with his glare alone and once he's older he is a physical presence. He's not someone who can disappear in a crowd post-book 5.
His rudeness oftentimes stays in his head except when someone really annoys him. This makes him appear defiant, but overall polite because he keeps most of his mean comments to himself.
When younger, he is very polite and quiet, especially toward adults. When he's older, he gets a little sassier (as in, he says some of his internal monologue out loud). But he is a polite, well-mannered kid for the most part.
The character who has a messy room, is a bit of a slob, has chicken scratch handwriting, and is lazy with schoolwork, is Ronald Weasley, who I love dearly, but these descriptions have nothing to do with Harry and everything to do with Ron.
The only unkempt thing about Harry's appearance is likely his Potter hair, which is more messy hot than messy bad (if all the girls' reactions are anything to go by).
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What if... Batsis with a oral fixation âď¸
Not in a kinky way but like a stimming way, I have autism irl and I chew and bite on stuff to help get some feelings I'm not a fan of :P
Also I bite people I trust cuz Ik they won't mind or rlly judge me for it so what if batsis bites Grayson cuz she trusts him or somethin đ¤Żâď¸
A/N: So babes...i'm sorry this took a while. I was out of it for a while...I cannot stop biting my loved ones either...it's rough out here, really.
Characters: Dick, Tim, and Jason
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Dick wouldn't really mind it, I don't think?
Maybe at first he's like..."what ya got there..?" and it's just a whole chunk of his arm in your mouth.
He has a look of both concern and amusement on his face because well...this is a first.. But if he's aware of your usual oral stims and how you are constantly chewing or biting at something, I think he wouldn't question it further. It's easy to put two and two together, y'know.
But the fact that you only do it to him and maybe to the other siblings is enough for him to be okay with it. It makes Dick feel extremely special and dare I say honored to be a human chew toy. Dick adores anything that you do, especially if that thing is specifically because you trust him.
I think it'd be super cute having you hold onto his arm while ya'll are chilling on the couch. Maybe watching a scary movie, and because you're getting stressed so the entire time you are just gnawing on his bicep...poor guy. Lol but he actually doesn't even notice it after a while of you constantly doing it.
Like he's chatting with Babs and here comes your evil little teeth all ready to sink into his skin.
The only time I think he's be against it if he's super sweaty and gross or is trying to concentrate on something important....otherwise,,go ham.
But would I be crazy if I say his hair when it's long is perfectly chew-able.... like pleassseeeeee rachellll give it to meeee
I can imagine him giving you some of his bracelets to chew on. I imagine he wears these string bracelets and they are perfect chewing material.
*you have almost bit his entire finger off...*
Jason would be a bit turned off from it.
He's not particularly keen on you biting him. It doesn't feel good, it maybe even a bit irritating or stressful for him. This is not to say he thinks that your fixation needs to go but he'd rather you do it to anyone else instead.
Maybe he'll give you one of his old jackets for you to chew on. it's perfect, he got it cleaned and it has tons of tabs and buckles for you to chew. That way you can still have something of his to fixate on without necessarily bothering him. It does kind of warms his heart when you choose his items to stim with tho. It's assuring that he's still able to help ground you even if it's in a different way....
Tim..does not care. Like the most he does is just give you a strange look, then goes back to whatever he was doing prior.
You aren't hurting him, nor is he irritated so who is he to force you to stop. It's clear that you are overwhelmed and needs something that'll help you make it through soo have fun, sis.
He never directly addresses it either. It's just a thing that he accepts.
Maybe if you are chewing on the him of his shirt and your saliva is causing it to get rather wet and slightly uncomfortable, he'll just go change the shirt and give it to continue doing your stimming with.
I feel like Tim just had random chew-able trinkets around his room too, maybe even keeps tough gummies or lollipops around as an alternative for you.
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