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Recovered photo of Joey Drew. Taken December 31, 1944, during a New Year's Eve party at the Arch residence, photographed by George Parker. Photo depicts Mr. Drew shaking hands with an unknown man in a hat. Attempts to identify the man and his whereabouts have been unsuccessful. -The ArchGate Preservation Society.
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Alternatively: 'Unknown' - Return to the Studio AU.
Even though he was the one who personally invited every guest at the party, when Joey later asked him who the "strange man" was, Nathan had no idea who he was referring to, even with Drew's specifics.
After several years have passed, looking back at the photo, Nathan still has no idea who this man is or how he got into the party.
Joey described the encounter as something that "started out pleasantly, and ended on a very uncomfortable note."
#bendy and the ink machine#batim#bendy and the dark revival#batdr#the ink demonth#joey drew#bendy oc#batim oc#return to the studio au#bendy au#crookedsmileart#also ALSO alternatively: ''I put Joey in yet another uncomfortable situation because I like putting him in misery#cuz that's what he deserves <3'';#fellas; I'm not gonna lie; I'm feeling the drive to do Ink Demonth prompts dying#I think I'll do two more prompts; and after that? time to throw in the towel#I'll be able to reach/surpass the number of prompts I did last year; which was 10. which I'm fine with to be honest.#I also want to move on to drawing other things so I think this is the best decision#it was fun; and as always; it was obvious that I wasn't going to finish the event#but I did what I could and wanted to do#any other ideas I had for the event maybe I'll do another day when I feel like it#but besides the two I'm still going to do? that's it.#let's end the event in a good way (and better than last year)#and yes; one of those two prompts will be putting Joey in a bad situation. again lol.#look the ideas I have are the only ones I can do in the timeframe I've put myself in#one of them coincidentally involves putting Joey in a bad situation again; can you really blame me for that GBAWOERBGUWP
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Guardian? If you're reading this⌠ah, look, I hate goodbyes. I was never good at 'em, so this ain't that. This is me saying thanks. To you, and the others and Crow. Yeah, I'll deal him in here. I've learned to like him as a character. But, uh, thank you. For being the best friends a fella could hope for. The best community I ever stepped into, and the best leap of faith I ever made. I know folks'll miss me; I'm sorry.
Never wanted to open up any hurt, but I don't think I can just keep going on like this. I'm being held together by Blender and a dream and it feels like I was here for a good time, but not a long time, get me? So while it lastedâŚI made this time have a reason. I needed it to mean something. And if you're reading this⌠it did. I wanted make everybody proud. Nah, even betterâI wanted make ME proud. Hope I got it right. See you around, Guardian.
#this is the end of this blog.#thank you all for the time i had with you#see you starside#maybe one day I'll return. till then this is goodbye.
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making a fankid but shaking my head the entire time so people know i'm against the societal belief that everyone's goal and only purpose in life should be to have kids and form a family
#i snapped and made a rock kandi fankid#she was meant to be a one off design to cheer me up and give me something to do#but i made her too cute. now im attached#her name is lacey :) princess lacey at that#idk what im going to do to be able to fit her in my thing. rock kandi or just a kirby kid in general was Never meant to be a thing#that guy's an adult in my oc timeline. and he does fuck all all day as he always has. it's a part of his bit that he's not anyone important#outside of being the hero of popstar of course. he's not a knight or a king/prince. he's not even an adventurer. he likes his planet#and wouldn't want to be too far from it so the idea of being an explorer doesn't appeal to him.#at the end of every adventure he always returns to popstar because popstar's his home#he likes just being a normal guy who just saves the world from time to time. he likes fishing and eating and sleeping#and making friends and juggling children. it's just what he does all day. he loves it.#he's always been happy with simplicity and living in the moment no matter how boring that moment is#and i fear that this would accidentally lent itself to a like. kind of a deadbeat dad?? or take away too much of his carefree bum-ness#technically this is ribbon's and fluff's spawn since kirby can't have kids. so maybe i'll just make the world's first kirbyless rock kandi#whatever you'd call that. Fluffbon?#they all live in different places so i always figured it'd be kind of impossible for it too work out in the long run??#or it wouldn't be That serious. not serious enough for a lacey#which is why i didn't make it canon to my AU and shit and only enjoy it at a distance slash in like a vacuum#so I don't knowww i don't knowww but i'll figure it out i guess#text post
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a sketch of Danny with some blob ghosts đ
#Danny phantom#danny fenton#danny phantom fanart#blob ghosts#sketch#iygabab#technically#i gave the boy the highest honor of all: putting him in the beloved blue jean jacket + hoodie combo that only my faves get to wear#I like to imagine the blob ghosts looking like nudibranchs/sea bunnies#I keep meaning to go back and fix the wrinkles and other stuff but then it keeps not happening#so maybe one day I'll return to this and clean it up but for now I'm ready to call it done
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Oh Gamechanger finale is The Circle but Catfish but also larger than life typical person? Amazing. 10/10 concept no notes.
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#i've never had a job in my own field that i've liked as much as i've liked my current one#the semester is ending soon and today i heard my contract will not be renewed bc the person i'm substituting will return to work after all#i've been feeling so tired and a bit poorly after the nokia arena show and i probably should have called in sick today#as i was absolutely useless today#and then after my only class today my students came to me with a gift?? đ#a pink enamel moomin mug and some chocolate and a paper on which they had written nice things about me + a drawing of a dachshund đ#and i burst to tears right there in front of them because i was so touched (and also because i'm just really really tired and emotional)#i'm so tired about having to apply for new jobs and having to start all over again#i'm so tired of having to do shitty short-notice substitutions again#i feel like i deserve better than that but on the other hand i fee like life's giving me exactly what i deserve and maybe this is it#i'm dreading the summer because idk if i'll have a job to go to in the autumn#and even if i did find something it won't be like the job i have now#also. it's may day eve and the weather's lovely#and i'm hiding in my apartment with the curtains closed so i won't see all the people going out and having fun with their friends#for me may day eve has never been like that. i've always felt so very excluded from those celebrations#on top of that i got yelled at by a bus driver and i'm the worst friend that ever existed#i'm trying to quit on whining about my sad little life but it gets so lonely#please know i'm not writing this for attention or pity. i know y'all have problems of your own and i'm just being a dramatic crybaby
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Black Ops 6. I think Iâve seen tossed about is if the old crew is getting revived or mentioned or will be somehow relevant to the plot.Â
Do I think they will bring the original crew back? Not really. Like a 25% yes, 75% no. The nostalgia bait would be Huge. A ton of people would come back, even if theyâre just operator skins, I just know it. And considering corporate greed, I canât realistically say theyâre above baiting that nostalgia.
Thematically? There would be a lot going on about it thematically speaking.
A good question, and perhaps the biggest, would be âhowâ? Getting the audience on board with their revival is critical to the reception of them. If itâs an asspull, people will be pissy. If it makes sense, people will still be pissy because theyâre cod fanboys but would not be as obnoxious about it. The only really good answer would be through the dark aether. Maybe Takeo and Dempseyâs souls could have endured the destruction of everything since they were technically in the summoning key when that happened (even though it broke in the process, and Iâm not sure how one could finagle getting Nikolai back in that case). Maybe itâs some alternative version of them that was alive when the multiverse collapsed and were consumed and banished like Victis. Maybe theyâll tie in the fucking Cod Mobile lore happening over there. Maybe thereâs like some kind of freaky Homestuck-esque Ultimate Self shenanigans going on there. An ego without the persona. A mind above partition. They were sort of leaning into that in Alpha Omega, so itâs not a complete stretch. But whatever.
Maybe Richtofen missed them. Their souls were bonded, afterall. With them gone, does he feel exposed? Alone? Where he, in the most intimate way, pressed against them, his very soul mixed with theirs, there is now gaping air, something missing. Perhaps the death of his family only worsened that feeling. Perhaps thatâs why he wanted a family in the first place. Perhaps knowing that people can be ripped from him so suddenly, so violently, without any warning, makes him crave that familiarity, that guaranteed company, that there will always be someone there.
(Janus is a god of doorways and beginnings and endings.)
But whatâs in there, thematically speaking?
Iâd like to get a bit meta. (who would have thought?) Richtofen, at least in this hypothetical storyline, would be the community, or at least the old guard. Wanting that return, even if it wasnât as great as he has made it out to be. (It was bad. He hurt people and was hurt himself.) So bringing his team back would symbolize him abandoning the future, the world that Nikolai sacrificed everything for, to go back.
Those opposing him, namely the new crew, possibly Samantha, would ultimately symbolize the future. Wanting to move forwards, to leave the past. That no one living can exist in the past. Even if it's different and scary and brand new, it has to be done. You have to keep moving or you will be left behind.
I think it would be something very hard to chew, but ultimately cathartic to the community. A more âproperâ goodbye to the old crew. They were very, very, very unceremoniously killed off in a way the community perceived to be disrespectful to not only the characters themselves, but the player base,and the story itself. âRe-doingâ that, in a sense, might give the characters themselves more time to come to terms with it, as well as the community.
Now, itâs fair to criticize bringing them back just to kill them immediately afterwards. But, isnât that what happened in BO3? Perhaps, not an exact 1 to 1, but I do know a few old heads only stayed with BO3 because they would get to see Ultimis again after them being MIA in BO2 and slowly warmed up to Primis along the way.
Truthfully, I think theyâre dead as doornails. At most, they live in whatever memories Eddie has. And ours, too, I guess. Anyway poll. For science. Zombie science!!!
#codz#call of duty zombies#cod zombies#hmm yeah I'll tag the guys since they're pretty relevant to the discussion#edward richtofen#nikolai belinski#tank dempsey#takeo masaki#wow ive been on a roll#two posts in one day!#anyway a lot of this was because I saw a post on reddit talking about any of the crews returning#and I was like. hm. that could actually be compelling#if they wrote it right of course#the most likely to be brought back is 100% victis though#but like. then I thought about their souls being bonded and how fucked up that is#can you fucking imagine#being with people for so long that your very soul is used to their presence#forever fated to meet every version of you and every version of them#and you are the one single version without. the one alone.#I would also go crazy. maybe even become a heterosexual.#still mad about that btw
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part 2 | this is part two to this from Steve's perspective leading up to and including part one | cw unresolved angst [unfinished/for now not being worked on]
31 days until moving day.
Steve burst through the door to Family Video, swinging it open with way too much force.Â
Robin jumps and opens her mouth, probably to tell him off for scaring her but he speaks before she gets the chance.Â
âEddie asked me to move to Chicago with him,â he blurts out, âRobin, he asked me to go with him.âÂ
Her eyes widen, âwhat did you say?âÂ
âThat Iâd go, of course,â he huffs. Like itâs even a question? like not going was ever an option?
Robin jumps over the counter squealing and hugs him so tight breathing becomes a little bit hard.Â
âIâm moving away with Eddie,â he whispers into her hair, awed as he hugs her back. She somehow squeezes him even tighter and they stay like that for a minute until they have to actually do their jobs.Â
An hour passes and Robin keeps shooting him contemplative looks.
âWhat?â He finally snaps after getting tired of waiting for her to say what she wants to say herself.Â
She jumps again like she didnât realize how obvious she was being, which honestly, she probably didnât.
âNothing, nothing.âÂ
âRobin,â he whines.
âOkay, just,â she scrunches her face up a bit and Steve knows that face, sheâs trying to figure out how to say something to him she thinks heâll react badly to.Â
He narrows his eyes at her, bracing himself, âyes?âÂ
âI think you and Eddie are great together, and like I love you both and I am excited for you guys. You know that right?â
Steve nods, doesnât say anything though, wants her to get to the point.
âIâm just also, maybe, a little bit worried.â
Steveâs eyebrows draw together, âwhat do you mean?âÂ
Robin is looking around nervously. Something heavy starts to form in Steveâs stomach.Â
âYou havenât been together for very long and this is a big step. I just donât wanna see either of you get hurt you know? I guess Iâm just wondering if youâve talked it all through? Because both of you have a tendency to jump into things without thought.â
They havenât talked it through, not really. Eddie asked Steve to move, he said yes and that was pretty much it. It didnât feel like they needed to talk it through though? Did they? Usually, they just dealt with things as they became relevant, that had worked for them so far.Â
Robin must see something on his face because she quickly talks again, backtracking and interrupting his thoughts.Â
âNot that I donât think it will be great, you know I just worry about things a lot. This is my anxiety talking. You know what, ignore everything I just said. You two know what youâre doing.âÂ
He doesnât want her to know sheâs already put doubts in his head so even though heâs starting to freak out a little he smiles and shakes his head.Â
âItâs fine Rob, Iâm sure we will talk more with time.âÂ
22 days until moving day.
Steve meant it when he said he and Eddie would talk. Meant to ask about the logistics, meant to make sure they were on the same page, he really did. But every time the move comes up Eddie just seems so sure about it already. Steve doesnât want to make him think heâs having second thoughts. Thinks maybe itâs better to not say anything, to wait and let it come up naturally.Â
He thinks maybe theyâll talk about it tonight. The kids had joked about them all evening, about how fast they were moving.
Mike had made some snarky comment about them moving to a city where they knew no one and how awkward it would be if they crashed and burned and theyâd have to share a bedroom.Â
Eddie had laughed, said it was good they werenât gonna crash and burn then. But, heâd also added that his band was also going so actually he would know people.Â
It was just jokes, Steve knew that. That didnât make it any less true though. Steve wouldnât have anyone except Eddie, sure he liked the guys in his band but they werenât his friends. Steve would have Eddie and Eddie would have his band. It suddenly seemed like a big deal.
He expects Eddie to also feel it, to get worried and bring it up but he doesnât. If he is worried he isnât saying anything, just like Steve isnât.
8 days until moving day.
Thereâs a knock on Steve's door and when he opens Gareth is standing there. Steve is a lot confused about it but lets him in.Â
âUh,â he starts a little unsure, âdo you want anything to drink or?â He offers, mostly because he doesnât know what else to say or do.Â
Gareth shakes his head, looking about as uncomfortable as Steve feels. Shuffling around where heâs standing and fiddling with the sleeve of his shirt. âNo, Iâm gonna leave again soon. I just came here to say something.âÂ
Steve gestures for him to speak, âIâm listening.âÂ
Gareth doesnât immediately say anything, he shuffles some more and looks around the room before his eyes land on Steve again, a determined look in them.Â
âLook, I like you. I know Eddie loves you.â
Steve canât help but smile a little at that, even though heâs starting to suspect heâs in for a shovel talk.Â
âAnd like, I probably wouldnât do this if it werenât for the fact that you havenât dated for very long at all and are about to move in together in a city four hours away.âGareth pauses and waits to speak again until Steve nods, showing heâs listening.Â
âEddie does things without thinking. He doesnât think about the consequences, not anything, just does. I love that about him, itâs the reason our band has gotten anywhere at all, but it also means that he gets hurt a lot, disappointed a lot. He can handle it with most things, he wonât be able to handle it with you.â
âWhat are you saying?â Steve asks even though heâs pretty sure he already knows.Â
Gareth looks pained but continues, âIâm saying that if you arenât one hundred percent sure about moving with him, if you have any doubts at all, you canât go.â
Steve canât suppress his flinch. He expected Gareth to say he needed to be sure, that if he wasnât he needed to tell Eddie. He wasnât expecting him to say he shouldnât, no, couldnât go.Â
Gareth catches it and narrows his eyes, âI mean it Steve, it will break him more if you go, let him think itâs gonna work and then leave, then if you donât go at all.â He steps closer to Steve, getting into his space. âSo, if youâre not absolutely sure,â he pauses, steps even closer, âDo. Not. Go.â He punctuates every word and then he turns on his heel and leaves.
6 days until moving day.
Steve needs to talk with Eddie about it now, canât ignore it anymore. He isnât gonna just not go like Gareth told him to do. No, heâll talk to Eddie and it will be fine.Â
Theyâre in his bed together, laying next to each other. Skin touching skin and a comfortable silence between them. Now is as good a time as any.Â
âHey, Eddie?âÂ
âMhh?â He hums, shifting slightly next to him.Â
âWhat happens if something goes wrong when we move?âÂ
Eddie snorts, âwhat? Like if we get a flat wheel? I know how to change a wheel, sweetheart.âÂ
Steve smiles despite his nerves, tries to not imagine what Eddie would look like changing a wheel.Â
âGood to know, but no, not quite what I meant.âÂ
Next to him, Eddie props himself up on his elbow so he can properly look at Steve.Â
âWhat did you mean?â He reaches out and tucks a strand of hair behind Steveâs ear as he speaks. Steve has to focus harder than heâd like to admit to not get lost in it. Even the smallest touches have an effect on him when itâs Eddie.Â
âWhat if something happens with us?â His voice is small and he canât look at Eddie, afraid of what his reaction might be. âRemember that thing Mike said about us not really knowing anyone there? Just, what would happen?âÂ
âBaby,â Eddie gently grabs Steveâs chin with his thumb and forefinger, tilting his face towards him. Steve easily follows but closes his eyes.Â
âBaby, please look at me,â Eddieâs voice is even softer than before, and Steve has always been weak when it comes to Eddie asking him to do things so he slowly blinks his eyes open.
âThere you are,â he smiles, face open and tendrils of hair falling around it. He looks angelic and Steve almost forgets what they are talking about, too overwhelmed by the man next to him.Â
Eddie keeps them on track though.Â
âLike I told Mike, nothing will happen. We will be fine. But,â he continued before Steve can protest, âif something does, we both have jobs already, weâve done this right. We will be able to save eventually. Quicker because weâre two people, paying rent and all that stuff on two salaries. If something happens we will have that security.âÂ
Steve relaxes then and Eddie must see it because he grins and continues, ânow if you didnât have a job then Iâd be worried. Iâm not cut out for all the responsibility of being the breadwinner, princess.â
Steve groans and shoves Eddie away. Mostly to hide the blush he can feel creeping up his face just from Eddie calling him princess. Judging by the way Eddie cackles he doesnât have to see Steve blush to know the effect it has on him.Â
He reaches out and pulls Steve in against his chest. âWorst case scenario we have to move back. Wayne will probably pretend to be unhappy about it but heâll let me take over his trailer again. And, I know you have complicated feelings about this house, that your parents are the worst, but youâll be able to come back if you need to.âÂ
âOkay,â Steve says, his worries mostly calmed.Â
1 day until moving day.Â
Steve and Eddie are spending the night apart. Eddie wanting to spend his last night with Wayne and both of them needing to do some last minute packing.Â
Just as he finishes closing one of the last boxes the phone rings, heâs a bit confused about who would call him right now. His friends all having seen him earlier in the day to say goodbye. Maybe Eddie needs to double-check what time they decided to leave.Â
He picks up but itâs not Eddie, or even one of the kids, who speaks.
âSteven,â his mother's shrill voice crackles on the other end of the line.Â
âHi mom,â he tries to hide his sigh as he speaks, doesnât have the energy to get into anything with her right now, doesnât want her to ruin his excitement.Â
âI thought you were moving to Chicago alone?âÂ
His freezes, when he told his parents he was gonna move he didnât say he was going alone but he also didnât mention Eddie. He knew they wouldnât like it, knew it would be easier to let them assume he was going by himself.Â
âBut I just got off a call with Mrs. Hagan and she told me that Tommy had said you were moving there with- with that cult boy? The one whoâs wanted for murder?âÂ
Steve closes his eyes and this time he doesnât bother hiding his sigh. Fucking Tommy, heâs always had a big mouth but Steve suspects that this hadnât been him blabbering without thinking. No, Steve thinks Tommy knew exactly what he was doing telling his mom this piece of information.Â
âHis name is Eddie, and he was cleared of all charges. The âcultâ was literally just a school club.â
âSo itâs true? Youâre moving with him?â Her voice is sharp and even just hearing it over the phone makes him flinch.
âYeah, weâre friends and itâs cheaper that way. We got a better apartment because weâre two people with a job each.â Itâs such a simplification of the truth itâs almost a lie but Steve doesnât think this is the time to come out to her. He hopes the âbetter apartmentâ comment will calm her, itâs the sort of thing she cares about after all. Not for his safety and comfort though but for how it will reflect on her.
Heâs not sure she actually hears him though because she hisses a vicious, âIf you move with him you will not be welcome back Steven, this will be the last time we speak.â Before she hangs up on him.Â
Steve carefully places the phone back in its cradle, then heâs left standing alone in the living room, both too shocked to move and not really shocked at all.Â
Heâs not close to his parents. Has slowly been understanding just how much theyâve neglected him. Heâs been relieved about moving away, about being in another city where he wonât have to see them when they waltz back into town. But to never speak to them again? Thatâs a whole different thing. He still hoped that theyâd be able to fix their relationship. That him not being dependent on them anymore would allow him to stand up for himself. That everything would get better. Now instead, the thing he thought would allow their relationship to get better is gonna destroy it forever.Â
He debates calling Eddie, wants to tell him what his mom just said, wants to hear his voice, wants to let him make it better. He decides against it, he doesnât wanna ruin Eddieâs last night with Wayne and heâll see him tomorrow anyway. He can tell him in the car.Â
He doesnât call Robin either, sheâll insist on coming over and he knows sheâs on a date with Nancy right now. He doesnât wanna ruin that either, even though both of them will tell him heâs not, he knows he will be. He goes to bed instead, sleep seems like the best option right now, at least he wonât have to think if heâs asleep.
Moving day.
He ended up not really sleeping at all. Tossing and turning for hours and after finally falling asleep sometime in the early morning he wakes up just hours later from a nightmare. He doesnât remember what it was about but can feel the lingering panic. He gives up on getting any more sleep, doesnât wanna risk more nightmares when heâs alone.
He picks at his breakfast, still thrown off from the conversation with his mom the night before and not feeling like eating, so he gives up on that too. He spends the rest of the morning wandering around, touching the walls and the furniture in the house he grew up in. The house heâs been left alone in since he was nine. The house he both hates and loves. The house he will never be allowed to return to after today.Â
Then the phone rings again, itâs probably his mom calling to ask if heâs decided to stay he thinks. Itâs not, it turns out.
âHi Iâm Patricia, Iâm looking for Steve Harrington?â A chipper voice says.
âThis is him.â
âOkay well, good. Iâm calling about a barista job youâre supposed to start with us next week.âÂ
âYeah?â Steve chews on his cheek.Â
âIâm so sorry but due to our rent being raised weâre having to do cutbacks. Since you havenât signed your contract with us yet, itâs the first one to go.âÂ
âYouâre firing me?â Steve asks, itâs not entirely right since he hasnât started yet but itâs all he can think to say.Â
âEssentially,â Patricia responds, âIâm sorry for the short notice.âÂ
âOkay,â he says, his voice void of emotion, âthank you for calling.âÂ
He hangs up without waiting for a response, he doesnât have the energy to be polite.Â
He barely has time to let the information sink in before his doorbell rings. Eddie on the other side of the door with a wide grin on his face.Â
âDid you oversleep?â He jokes.Â
Steveâs confused for a second but then he realizes heâs still in his pajamas, that heâs spent the whole morning wandering around like a ghost in his house not getting any of the things he needed to do done.Â
He hasnât packed the bag of all his essentials. He hasnât gotten dressed. He hasnât even brushed his teeth. What he has done is get fired from a job he never even started.
He sees Eddieâs teasing smile, the combination of it and his sudden joblessness tugs at something in his brain, brings back the conversation they had last week.
âNow, if you didnât have a job then Iâd be worried. Iâm not cut out for all the responsibility of being the breadwinner princess.â
He doesnât have a job. Heâll have to live off Eddie and what little savings he has left. Become a responsibility Eddie doesnât want, a burden probably.
âWorst case scenario we move backâ, âyouâll be able to come back if you need to.â
If he leaves now he wonât be able to come back.Â
Gareths words play back in his mind too.
âif you have any doubts at all, you canât go.â, âit will break him more if you go, let him think itâs gonna work and then leave, then if you donât go at all.â
âIâm not going,â Steve hears himself say as he steps back from the hand Eddie reaches out to him.Â
âYouâre not-â Eddie looks so confused. âLike today? Do you need extra time? We can postpone by a couple of days but-â
Heâs not getting it. Steve interrupts him, needs to make him understand because he canât listen to him try to come up with solutions.Â
âNo, Eddie. Iâm not going it all.âÂ
The words feel wrong in his mouth but he forces them out anyways.Â
âWhat do you mean?â Eddie asks and it fucking ruins him. He feels his carefully blank expression break, despair showing through.Â
âI canât leave Hawkins, the kids,â he has to look away from Eddie as he says this. Knows itâs the only thing Eddie wonât question, knows Eddie thinks he doesnât mean as much to Steve as the kids do. âThey need me.â
âWhen did you decide you werenât going?â Eddie asks and Steve didnât know it was possible but he breaks even more from that, from Eddie not fighting him.Â
I didnât, he thinks, I donât know why Iâm saying this now. If you ask me to stop and just go with you I will.Â
âA couple of days ago,â he lies.Â
Itâs silent then, just their breathing and the distant sound of cars down the street being heard. Eventually, Eddie breaks it.
âSteve?â
His voice cracks in the middle. Steve can hear the plea for him to take it all back and he nearly does, has to swallow the words creeping up his throat before they get out.Â
âIâm sorry,â he says instead. He turns around, closing the door behind him. Destroying their future and breaking the last bit of his heart in the process.
He doesnât get more than two steps into the house before his legs give out beneath him. He stays there, sitting on the floor for what feels like forever.Â
After some time he hears a car drive away and he knows Eddie has left. He feels silent tears start streaming down his face that soon turns into sobs. Making him curl in on himself and gasp for air.Â
He doesnât know how long he stays there, crying until he canât anymore and then just sitting there. But after a while, heâs interrupted by a loud ringing. For the third time in less than twenty-four hours he picks up the god-forsaken phone.Â
âHello?â He rasps, his voice dull and raw from crying.
âSteven. You made the right decision and stayed I take it?â His mother asks.
âYes.â He says and hangs up on her.Â
#happy ending never got written but they end up happy and maybe on day i'll return to this and write it#once again i apologize for any typos mistakes in general etc I've read through it I swear#part one is like 800 words and this is over 3k idk what happened okay#actually i do i had to fit in more scenes#so uh yeah#there will still be a happy ending i promise but now you get where steve is coming from which is mainly a panic attack tbh#steve baby do not make big decisions while mid anxiety shut down#also talk to people <3#eddie you know better than to reassure someone because you both have jobs? what are you doing???#it's 5am i swear if this does not show up in the tags ill cry#steddie#steddie ficlet#steve harrington#eddie munson#stranger things#my writing#my post#steddie angst#dels steddie thoughts
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The Rescue - Chp 53 - Still Dealing With The Sting
Good morning my lovelies and lurkers <3
The newest chapter of The Rescue is now live! Christmas and the Holiday season being what it is, I haven't had a ton of time (though, mostly energy has been the problem) to write, but I should still have something to go up in two weeks for you all :)
I hope you all have a lovely day and wonderful weekend! If I can get my ass up on time I'm thinking I'll catch The Boy and The Heron today as a step in helping me wind down a little. Honestly really excited to see it.
Enjoy the reading! Thank you all, as always, so much for the comments and kudos and shares <3 I apologize I haven't been able to respond to all the comments like I want to. My brain is deep in scrambled-egg territory.
Love you all, take care of yourselves and each other as best as you can!
~ Belle
#g/t#giant/tiny#giant tiny#g/t author#g/t writing#gtauthor#gt#gentle giantess#The Rescue#Henry/Melanie#Everybody's Tired and Nobody Is Happy: Hooray!#Three people making bad decisions for maybe??? good reasons???#We bless this mess#Sorry for if my editing isn't top notch#Soup for brain will get in the way of wordsing right goodlike#it's unfortunate but such is life at this time of the year#One more week though and then I just get to be a zombie through the family stuff and then HIDE FROM PEOPLE until 2024#I don't go back to work until Jan 3rd once I finish up with family day on the 22nd#That'll be nice#and roomie is gonna be gone for at least a few days so I'll have just enough time with the house to myself to be devastated when he returns#c'est la vie
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bless u to my besties/mutuals that are personal blogs that follow me. idk how you do it. im always all over the place and i write such a weird amount of muses. u guys mean so much to me i always smile when i see y'all interacting with my posts.
#chuck posting.#maybe one day i'll return back to my personal and shitpost there#mcdennis u will always be missed
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#Not me thinking of a PruAus playlist in this year of our lord 2024#maybe I'll just start throwing songs in a playlist and then sort them out :x bc I'm not sure that everything I'm thinking makes sense#together but it could be separted into different ones hmm#I truly thought I had 'outgrown' most fandom stuff in my life (not the right word#but just that it didn't occupy as much as my brainspace as it once had) but I make one little regular return to Tumblr and suddenly#it's all over for me :xxx //has regularly been staying up late to read fanfiction#Anyway off work next couple of days and i think will have a good amount of free time one my hands bc honest to god not sure what Wolf and I#are going to do for five days in Wilmington with his mom :xxx So looking forward to having some time to art#useless post is useless#Anyway anyway I'm mostly just stuck on Eddie Vedder's version of 'Save It For Later' as a song for Gil
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Not to pressure you or anything, but do you intend on adding another chapter to The One To Blame? Absolutely no worries if not. Just curious. Have a nice day.
Hello! Sorry it took so long to answer. I had planned on adding another chapter to The One To Blame, but then some IRL stuff happened that caused my inspiration to fizzle out.
I might pick it back up one day, but no promises. Hope you have a nice day as well đ
#askbox#anon#honestly I was tempting fate by writing a little outside my comfort zone in the first place#maybe one day when I get into another extremely angsty mood I'll return to it
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"In 2025 we will introduce a new kind of event, ones that will last entire SkyBlock years. These events will be on a 12 year cycle, and would retroactively include the Year of the Pig event. While much smaller in scope compared to mayor events, these events should help make each SkyBlock year feel unique. The Year of the Seal will specifically have a focus on new Fishing content. What other mobs would you like to see get events?"
#year of the pig returning as a 5 day long event every ~2 months I'LL CRY#interesting they say ''what other MOBS'' and then the first new one is one that is not a mob#unless...? foraging spoiler maybe? kjhfg#chat#sb
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what do you think of this icon style?
#[ mephisto speaks. ] ooc#// yes i'm alive. for the most part \\#// i have a lot going on irl to really focus on being here \\#// maybe one day i'll return \\
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The towers of silence
#ahhh vultures beloved#alr this is the last fanart for the day#will return to skeletons now i think?#not sure#maybe I'll do some lamdscapes#art#traditional art#painting#gouache#gouache art#gouache paint#gouache painting#fanart#vulture#vultures#vulture art#twenty one pilots#twenty øne piløts#tøp fanart#tøp art#tøp clique#tøp#top#the skeleton clique#skeleton clique#clique art#twenty one pilots clique#trench#nico and the niners#dema
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#the idea of moving back in with my rents makes me wanna fucking die but like. . .what else am i gonna do#i tell ya. i dont take risks lightly but i sure do take them when i trust and believe and love#and what do i get in return? fucked over. every time.#maybe one of these days i'll learn . .#cant wait to humiliate myself later today lol
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