#maybe I’m just insane

[g1rl-int3rupted]

Sometimes I pray to the moon instead of holy deities because if it worked for the princesses in the fairytales, why can’t it work for me?

[wringoz]

I keep seeing screenshots from that new game and they’re so real for this

[creatorping]

here’s a poll idk just a thought ʕ　•ᴥ•ʔ

[crimsonkenjii-writes]

Low quality Valentine special Giyuu you are so special to me 💙

[lewmagoo]

wake up besties, a new glass animals song just dropped and it is very rhett coded (to me)

particularly these lyrics:

“you held me like my mother made me just for you; held me so close that i broke in two.”

and like….the way this sweet cowboy would fall apart the first time you held him, because he’s so touch-starved and he’s never had anyone love him this much before. anyway, yes i will associate every piece of music i consume with rhett. what about it?

[killerwithknife]

I wish I had the chess grandmaster autism instead of the “unbeatable urge to make this face when you see something you’re interested in” autism

[stump-salsa]

Am I the only one who finds elemental element swaps really weird

[lord-devere]

okay I love this man and his enthusiasm for rubber. “If I were to sort of describe rubber,” please do so. Talk to me.

“Rubber is so crazy” just like me for you rn

“the technical term is hysteresis” I like your magic words. Let me take you out to dinner.

[insane-hag]

Does anybody else get to a level of obsession with something that it makes you not be able to function or anything and you’re convinced that your life will be awful compared to said thing and nothing else will ever be good again and then you get over it after a month or something and then like a few weeks later the cycle continues or am i just insane

[yorktaylor]

i’ve always felt weirdly connected to britain despite having never been there. it’s like there’s something in my soul that still recognizes it as home

[feelingunfulfilled]

Today would have been the 19th birthday of my cousin. A few of my relatives are in Santa Cruz right now to celebrate it. This has became a tradition for the past two years, and I’ve been able to make it for the previous ones

I feel so anxious. Almost sick to my stomach. I choose to go back to school today instead of being at the celebration, because I know I’m falling behind in classes. If I took another day off I might as well drop out of school. Honestly, even in school, I have the urge to run away. I don’t want to be here. I worry I made the wrong choice. There’s too much happening right now and I don’t feel like I can be here mentally. I feel like a failure. And I feel overwhelmed again

Would I have really missed anything if I ditched school again? Sure, I’d have to make up even MORE work, but at some point the teachers would start to view my absence as a regular occurrence. Maybe then I wouldn’t feel like I’m just existing through each day. Maybe I’d start to live a little more. Although I know it’s unfair to blame all of this on school. It was my own decision after all. And school is mandatory even if I’ve grown to dislike it. It’s probably just my desire to be alone right now. So I can have time to process everything instead of being tossed into work and expected to function properly. I CAN’T function properly right now. My cat died yesterday. My cousins would-be birthday is today. I think it’s more than understandable that I don’t feel like doing anything right now

And yet I still feel like I’m a let down somehow. That I’m doing everything wrong in life. I choose the wrong option and I can’t turn back now. Or even worse, I did choose the right option (by going to school) and yet STILL failed due to my lack of attentiveness. There’s no winning. And I hate how I can’t seem to get any closure on this. Everything is so directionless with no way to tell if I’m doing the right things or if I’m still a good person when I’m becoming a terrible student. If I’m still a good cousin when I didn’t even attend her would-be birthday celebration or attempt to resolve my grief….

I don’t like overthinking this. Or making it seem like I’m making a bigger deal out of it then it is. I’m not trying to be petty and make it all about me. And I know none of this could be helped. But I also don’t want to undermine my feelings right now. I’m trying SO HARD not to guilt trip myself, because the last thing I need right now is to feel like shit. I find I often downplay how much grief I’ve gone through, and continue to go through. I don’t want to sugar coat anything anymore. I’m tired of acting like things are fine. I’m not okay

That’s the thing though, the nagging feeling I have in my stomach, being at school makes me feel like I have to pretend. Like I have to fake emotions for the benefit of others, and hide any traces of having a terrible day. Because teachers don’t have time for your crying. Friends came to have a good time. There’s little to no room for you to grieve without getting emotional whiplash. It sucks. I’m trying to be more open about this. I really am. But this school environment has me second guessing if I’m ALLOWED to grieve. If I’m ABLE to express how terrible things are right now when all school cares about is grades. I know my teachers genuinely care about me, so do my friends. But talking about such heavy stuff in THIS environment is like hell. I just can’t right now

[froegs]

me? i guess i was a shoulder to cry on

[obsessed-waffle]

Pilot Dib!

drawing this has made me realize that I don’t really draw dib all that much. Maybe I should start drawing him more.

Anyways, Pilot Dib my beloved <333

[lewmagoo]

is it just me or do the rest of y’all go on sprees of consuming disturbing content when you’re feeling depressed or pmsing? not sure why i do this to myself but i go down rabbit trails of youtube videos talking about fucked up events or disturbing horror movies and then i’m full of regret bc i feel even more depressed than before, with a twinge of paranoia sprinkled in lol

[itsajollyjester]

Couldn’t stop thinking about them accessorizing for war because silly but also because of Ekko’s quote about needing to give people what they need to live not just survive

[sameboot]

Was thinking abt that one interview and wondering why would ART be mbs energy source of choice vs just charging off of its own internal core? maybe its just more effective? Like Peri what did u do to SecUnit its got the zoomies now