#maybe I should check my period schedule lol

[superbattrash]

Is there anything better than crying on your couch because you just love your blorbos so much???

[soraviie]

asking them for space.txt

━ type: bts x gn! reader  ━ masterlist

━ about: fluff, angst ━  pictures taken from Pinterest

━ a/n: so because I'm rusty af writing here's some headcanons and crack to ease into things. In my free time, I've been sitting down and writing original cosmic horror/despair/no hope story so you can imagine what mood shift it is to go from that to feel good crack about these guys lmaooo

━ note: reader asks for space for personal reasons not because of an argument. This was requested by someone and I hope you don't mind it turned out this way

NAMJOON:

...

right

ok

cool

space

no doubt, no doubt, no doubt

"This is not personal, Namjoon," he tells himself. "It's just a thing one needs to do."

but it sort of feels personal

and that feeling gnaws and festers like an infection, filling the cracks of his day to the brim

so he seeks out the medicine

maybe a bit pettily, perhaps a lot combative

but as he sits down in the studio, during those fleeting, rushing moments of silence and inaction, his fingers hover over the contact info and without much thinking he's speaking into the phone; pleasantly, gleefully surprised you answered this quick

it's all casual, oh, so casual, however, the coursing insecurity manages to break through the veil of distant politeness and he asks in that accusing, grumbling tone

"When are you coming home?"

and, yeah, he kind of hates himself for it but it needs to be said

it needs to be released from the confines of his tremoring inside

whatever answer you give, he accepts gracefully

how can he not

he needs to be a perfectly reasonable understanding boyfriend

because what if you decide to leave him if he's not

...there's that insecurity again...

but either way, he is actually understanding, he's just a bit scared...

what if...what if...what if upon and more if's

it's carving a you sized hole in his heart every time he comes to the stillness and quiet of his home, bed empty, couch - emtpy

all of it - empty

for the lack of the better word it makes him empty

but once the space is over, he welcomes you back with wide open arms

asks you 1000 questions per second and then stares adoringly as you update him on what happened since you met last and what has your thought process been

lol definitely pesters you sweetly to answer what was going through your mind during that "space" period

it's the ever present dichotomy of his to be simultaneously petty and kind about the same thing

so yes he's a bit defensive, bit offended but he still loves you and love equals respect

YOONGI:

there's a long, stretching moment of a pregnant pause and then a single question:

"Would you mind telling the reason?"

if you say it or even if you don't, it doesn't really matter

he gives a short nod, a comforting smile and says that he understands but makes you promise you don't try to move mountains all by yourself

he's okay, if he knows you're okay then you're both okay

he does keep himself busy

fills up his schedule so there's no moment to dwell on anything...untoward

he makes sure you're okay thrice a week by either actively checking your socials or sending a quick, straightforward message

if you call, he picks up in an instant

doesn't pressure you in the slightest

our gentle prince :(

he trusts you implicitly so if you say you're fine and you got this covered, all you need is to think on your lonesome, he's not the type to discern hidden meanings in the undercurrents of your tone

he just accepts what you say at face value

at times, he misses you bit more

but Yoongi is perfectly capable of handling himself

and if he happens to call and then proceed to ask nonsensical, off the topic questions just to stretch the conversation a bit longer then that's none of anyone's business >:(

once the space is over he welcomes you back with a good home cooked meal and a ready ear should you need one

he won't ever hold this against you, won't ever even pry if you're uncomfortable by it

all around he's a safe space that has no selfish desires or inhibitions to be the only space you heal in :')

JIN:

lmaoo but it's literally him

while twiddling with his thumbs, Jin asks, voice small : "is it something that I did?"

he's so wholly convinced he's at fault lmao

so you may need to dedicate an hour (or three) to convince him this is not breaking up, he's not at fault and no one has done anything wrong, it's just a thing that you feel the need to happen

you have to find briefly a different place to stay at 'cause if you're anywhere near his periphery there's no way he won't bother you

like he's not physically capable

I just have a theory that he doesn't like for arguments or any kind of conflicts to drag out so he faces them head on, occasionally cracking a joke in between to lighten up the mood

(and now I'm sad thinking about Jin)

so, yes, it sort of goes against everything he believes is logical

but he's our golden manner superstar :( so, of course, he'll do as you ask

keeps in touch though

if you don't want to talk to him at all, then negotiates that must at least send him a thumbs up every two days

if you're with your parents will swallow the risign terror and call them to know how you're doing hehe

goes out drinking with his friends more because the silence of the apartment is just too damn overwhelming

and, yes, this might just be Hoseok who now gets pestered with 103% increase to go out drinking lmao

as more time passes he begins developing this...habit

"They've got this in a purple."

"______________ likes purple."

"The notepad is in that room."

"_______________ used to like that room."

Namjoon glares at him

"Yeah, maybe because it's both of your bedroom, genius"

With glazed eyes, Jin recounts to himself as though still half suspended in a dream

"Sometimes I still hear their voice."

"Their not fucking dead, Jin" T-T

some people have definitely shit themselves when they see you again because the way Jin speaks made them think he's a young widower T-T

tries to act so cool once you come back home T-T

deadass tries to seduce you again

unsuccessfully of course because either he manages to slip, burn his finger or drop the food he made onto the floor

perhaps he does all three

either way God decides to embarass him in a very personal way

then pouts

needs a lot of affirmation afterwards so he knows both of you are okay

HOSEOK:

(why does he need to go to the military he's been serving for years (¬_¬)

has a very firm, insightful conversation about why you need space

not because he's disapproving of it, or he's personally upset, no, it more so stems from the need to know you're okay and whether or not someone has done some evil upon you

once you're both on equal footing what this "space" entails and why there is a need for it, he lets you have all the space you want with no grudges or resentments

open communication is important for him so he merely makes sure you're both perfectly clear with each other before the brief parting

keeps himself busy but still thinks about you a lot

doesn't call or text that often if he knows where you're at and that you're okay

whenever he misses you, buys a gift for you or anything that makes him think of you

amasses a lot of trinkets

probably makes you some kind of jewelry in the meantime

he trusts you so he doesn't question your thought process but he's still human and needs someone to talk to

I feel like he'd go to Namjoon for advice and perhaps just to relieve the tension rising in the background of his mind

definitely makes sure that the things back at home are in prime condition

like say you've got a winter coat that you never gave a proper wash and left hanging on the coat rack

one day he's walking past it and he thinks: "this needs some cleaning"

and then does the laundry :(

if you update your socials, he likes all of the posts

sometimes pulls out his phone and stares at a picture of two of you

that's when he misses you the most :(

he doesn't say any of this in great detail once you return, always feeling the need to be The Caregiver not the one being cared for

he just says he missed you a lot and kisses the top of your head :'(

gives you all the bought presents over a period of time with an excuse "just because"

(they can't just take Hobi away like that I swear)

JIMIN:

yeah, so...it's not ideal

Jimin's not great with...space

he doesn't like it when people bottle their feelings up, he doesn't like it when they cry alone when they lose all hope and hide themselves away

so when you say that you want space

his mind just leaps and bounds to conclusions

he's making this whole ass conspiracy board in his head, thinking that something awful happened to you, that he'd done something so wrong that now you hate him forever

so one needs to go on a long and detailed explanation with him

still being a caring partner he does as you ask, he gives you space, essentially putting your needs above his

though he might ask you to stay home

so at least he knows you're safe and sound

I feel like if his partner would be gone his anxiety would rocket to insurmountable heights

though it's not like seeing you withdrawn and quiet doesn't unnerve him in a way

probably still tries to initiate a conversation quite frequently whether in person or over text

just small domestic things

"do you want some of this pizza?" "you're going to shower?" "is that jacket...new?"

just craves interaction, it's jut a bit unnatural for him to not hug you or talk to you for hours to end considering that you're not in a fight and he's not mad at you

it's just odd to him that...this is what you want

but as much as he struggles he tries just as hard to be respectful of your wishes

offending or making you mad at him will simply not happen

he will fight anyone who dares to make you unhappy and that does absolutely include himself

talks about this space to few of his friends (I'm thinking Hoseok for emotional release and Yoongi for advice and insight)

sulks a lot

is the happiest, energized puppy prince once the space is over :')

tell you the truth he hated every second of it though he keeps this to himself

I'd still wager his face told it clear and loud enough

TAEHYUNG:

so maybe some of you be surprised but he takes the request rather well

I theorize he might be prone to getting into sulky moods and so he might understand where you're coming from in terms of wanting to be alone

so he nods, gives a polite agreement and affirms that he'll be here once you feel like returning back

though similarly to Jimin I think he would still insist you don't stay at a hotel or with a friend

but he'd go out of his way to make sure he doesn't crowd you

e.g. leaving before you wake up, coming home once you're asleep

he soaks up your company with the simple fact of seeing you resting in the bed, that's enough

be that as it may, his melancholic big heart misses you to the point his throat is choking up with emotions

he listens to love songs while on long drives

watches videos you've made before and photos taken in the past

grows a bit sullen and expresses that turmoil on late night talks, most likely, with Jimin

after drawing a prolonged, suffering sigh, he'd simply shake his head and say: "it's whatever. It's what they want and I'm not going to argue with that."

leaves small indirect gestures of affection

like fresh flowers in the vase

your favourite candy that just happens to be laying around

if he overhears you wanting to go somewhere, you'll wake up with all the laundry magically done with exactly the type of clothes you'd prefer to wear

he's fully capable of not speaking at all if you're in the same room, allowing you to fully do your own thing

he just needs you around as I've said it's enough for now

unlike Namjoon he doesn't want to pry you out of your head and examine every single line of thought running through your cranium (srry Joon)

he's often lost in his own world so he understands that if you say you're okay, it's fine to leave you there for a bit

when the space is over, he calmly and quietly accepts you back, treating this period like nothing at all had happened

and in a way nothing had

he's just in love with you as he was and he will be after you need the next space again T-T

JUNGKOOK:

he's a bit...he's a bit hard to read

he's a more than a tad confused about request

I imagine him blinking in silence for a solid minute after the phrase was uttered

probably inquires whether or not you're mad at him like million times

for some reason his first instinct when you say you'd like to stay somewhere else is to ask whether you'll visit Bam somedays lmaoo

he's honestly a bit too confused to form strong reactions be it positive or negative

but awkwardly he obliges your request

probably takes him a lot of getting used to the change

fishes out his phone to text you the most dumbest, menial thing that just happened and then he remembers "space" and just goes: "guess not..." proceeding to stand like a sim whose action has been interrupted

you know that meme of someone cutting off all of the sleeves of their shirt because they're partner left taking all of the impulse control with them?

yeah, that's JK

inexplicably some things are just changed with zero explanation

you swing by in order to, yes, see Bam and the rest of the doggies and for some reason you find there is just a leg chair in the middle of the kitchen?? like the rolling one??

drunk dials in the middle of the night

while heavily slurring the world: "oh I forgot I'm not supposed to talk to you."

"I never said that."

"Hmmmmmm yeah you did."

okay so he might be just a tiny, imperceptible bit sulky about it but it doesn't stem from a place of intended maliciousness

or even an unintended one

he's just bratty like that

treating it up a silent competition in a way whose more chill about staying away

sleep evades him as he's thinking when will this end though doesn't bother you a lot

(so whose really losing this non-existent competition ey ;))

to put it plainly he hovers awkwardly over you like a anxiety ridden helicopter waiting for this whole thing to blow over

 © soraviie, 2023

[erissdoesart]

hi, wanted to pop in as a Venom-liker who brainrots on AUs made up in my own mind and share one in my head

woe, platonic omegaverse be upon ye

and Ash boy!

SO because the novel world and modern world are different worlds we can fuck with this concept

such as the omegaverse being non-existant, at best a fictional trope in the novel's world

but Ash's world wasn't as lucky, humans and hybrids alike suffer an additional layer of instincts piled ontop of every other set of instincts they already have, oh boy!

Vibe Check!! Soot lost his wife, his kids, and has been forced into enemy territory, contact and the service of another enemy right before Ash punted his soul out the body

Ash is very fucking aware of this eventually after transmigrating, and he could manage bottling his human and elytrian instincts even with how his instincts mourn his death, old life and (not his) hatchlings that never were

That would be if brother didn't also have omega instincts to deal with which in the worst way recognize Soot's loss of a wife and kids as Ash's loss of a partner and nestlings

Oh, and piled with the fact that the few friendships Wilbur Ash had are long gone, making for the loss of the few friends he was comfortable scenting with, and scenting is a social activity nessecey for health, and you have An Even More Unhealthy Omega

Also with the lack of people with any of the three dynamics thus scents those dynamics produced, Ash is #unnerved as he can't read people like before and major social elements such as scents, pheromones, and noises unique to dynamics and seperate from hybrids and humans is completely lost to everyone but him

So now on top of being on edge 24/7, Ash is bordering shock, health complications of his dynamic and other needs being neglected, and oh yeah don't omegas have heats??

Depends on how we treat heats, like does Ash start not having heats for this period of time due to how bad his health is, or does his heats become worse than a healthy heat should be, nuking his higher thought with a lethal fever as he keens and his scent begs for anyone with a dynamic to bring him into their pack so he can feel safe

and what would be more interesting is how people react to Wilbur's dynamic without any context of Dynamics

"Like what's with the new perfume he's wearing and where did he get it, what message is he trying to convey to the Empire or others?

non-snake noises and reactions are kind of odd too"

Now imagine if depsite the lack of dynamics, the messages pheromones conveyed still reached people?

Theseus can just-- tell that Wilby's a good man and really just wants to cuddle and ruffle his hair (scenting the nestling, baby needs it) ((indignant techno and dadza noises))

Meanwhile Techno, Philza and the staff can't explain the way their shoulders locks, how they subtly still and are suddenly a wee more paranoid around Duke Soot, but Snake are devious things and it must be their gut instinct knowing such deep down

(no bitches, Ash is an omega scared of everyone and you inherently social pack animals are reacting to his scared-pheromones subconciously treating them as a warning from a fellow human/hybrid that there's danger near by)

(Techno reacts the worst to Wilbur's scared pheromones because Wilbur instinctually reacts the worst to his maybe-future-killer's presence making those meetings the times where Wilbur and those around him are the most paranoid)

brain melted lol

idk how to connect these but after the Dark SBI'ing and all that the castle would end up in a whole new schedule where whenever it's Wilbur heat time the entire place is on strict lockdown because biologically mandated fevers demanding cuddles will do that to the Royal Family's instincts

no pressure on asnweing this ask btw, especially if the omegaverse isn't your thing or you know nothing about it

Ngl idk how to respond

My main problem is, this is such a fun idea? I could see myself enjoying it, heck, enjoyed reading this!

But how in the fresh hell one would go about conflict resolution here

I'm baffled and dismayed. Good au anon, good au

And thanks for enjoying my work!

[smalife1234]

What made me smile this week?

Monday, 9/30/24 - it is the last day of September! This morning, we woke up around 6:40 Am, way earlier than we normally do. I was still very sleepy, so I slept in a little bit more, then got dressed, and then I edited the rest of the weekly vlog, and then scheduled it! We did workouts and, thankfully, enjoyed our morning after the stressful day! Last night! In the first period, I worked on the rest of the 1.2.1 makeup of muscle assignment and got that completed! I soon worked on some photos and got them off my computer. Then, shortly after, around 9:22 Am, I started working on YouTube descriptions since I've been slacking! My bad. As of 9:50 Am, I've completed 1 and am almost done with the second one! I love being productive! How at 10:01 Am I got the 2 descriptions done! I now only need to work on maybe two more then I'm done! Yay me! Then, around 10:05 Am, I ate a yummy oatmeal chocolate chip cookie 🍪! It was very good and it made me smile! During the second I got a paper done, and then I continued working on descriptions for YouTube and got them all done!! And then I worked on a thumbnail for the YouTube video coming out at 3:55 P.m. today! Get ready, it's a lot! Then Nichole and I had a yummy lunch, and then I went to the third period; today, we're working on other assignments, assessments, projects & labs. Log. It's basically a paper that tracks our assignments and grades, and we typically do those every 2 weeks! We watched some brain games it was super cool! We did a worksheet, and then In the fourth period, we did a few notes, and Mrs church kept making us laugh! Some moments made us laugh! Then we went home and enjoyed some of our snacks, and then we did a workout. And we got some yummy McDonald's cookies! They were very yummy. Our brother gave us those thank you, Jack!

Tuesday, 10/1/24 - it's the first of October! Whoo hoo, today, we started working on some assignments in the first period! I wrote a couple of things for future posts, and I have done so much work for our channel! I had worked on descriptions for our playlist and descriptions of my YouTube videos. Donny and Willam need to work on there's lol, but I was super productive! And I am very happy I got that done today! Then, in the second period, we discussed a test that was happening on Friday, but a student got overwhelmed and started crying. Since she didn't understand, the substitute checked on her, but Mrs. Mauney was able to give us an extra day of work-related things! Yay! Our mom left for her cruise a couple of days ago, and she should be coming back on Thursday. We hope she had a good time! I'm sure she did! Then we did a couple of worksheets in fourth, and we talked about sketching the scene! It was pretty cool to learn about. Sadly, the laminate wasn't working, so we couldn't do the activity we were supposed to do. But we got through some notes and some work! In the fourth period, we worked on some notes and work, and then we ended the day, but today was good, and it made me smile!

Wednesday, 10/2/24 - today I woke up and got to chill in the morning! And then I got on the bus, and in the first period, I got most of my worksheet done! And then worked on some more YouTube descriptions! And got many done! I cannot wait to continue to share our journeys with you all! Then, in the second period, I worked on my review sheet And worked on even more writing, lol! Then, in the third, we did a whole fiasco of different activities. Today, we did a forensic crime scene. It was for sketching the scene. We walk into the room, and we see a skeleton figure (fake) with a purple wig. Lol, there are over 200 laminated playing cards all around the room. The first step was we had 10 minutes to sketch the scene entirety of the scene. After sketching the scene, we had to get a reference card for a specific set, which would help us find those specific cards. Then, after a few minutes of searching, we got another person's crime scene paper, and we had to now find their card set and name what deck of cards that were in their assignment card. I believe I got my person right! Hopefully, lol then, in the fourth period, we talked about a comic strip that we need to work on and turn in on Friday! But we had a good day today and it made me smile!

Thursday, 10/3/24 - today, I woke up pretty early in the morning. In the first period, I finished the rest of my papers and turned them in. Then I worked on my review sheet for my test on Friday, and then I worked on more descriptions for YouTube. Yippee! Then, in the second period, we worked on more notes and then a worksheet! In the third period, we worked on notes independently, which is something we never did until today it was weird! But we did notes on Sketch the scene and the different patterns on searching the scene. Then, in the fourth period, we started slightly getting an idea of what to do for our comic strip! We were having a good night until the dreadful email came in saying our whole YouTube channel got deleted!! I was so panicked and started crying, but I was very relieved when YouTube only made a mistake, and we got our channel back! Don't get me wrong I'm very happy we got our channel back and didn't lose a year of progress! But it did make me mad as this whole October for our friends has been nothing but terrible! But the rest of the day made me smile!

Friday, 10/4/24 - today, we woke up, and it's Friday!! Yippee, today, in the first period, we worked on Kahoot review, and then I just worked on getting all those photos out of my computer. I got a big chunk out, but my arm suffered pretty bad nerve pain! But it was ok when Matthew stretched out my arm! Just the lovely reality of being a Quadriplegic! Then, in the second period, we had to take that test, and it was 40 Questions long, and I only got a 43% It was not the best; in fact, the whole class did badly since nobody got the proper knowledge they needed! So we'll just see how bad that brings my grade down! But hopefully not too much! Then, in the third period, we worked on Wally with many different patterns and crazy pictures. I found the last of them with my partner, but I got it done with the search pattern activity! Then we worked on some notes and talked about things! Until fourth, when we got to work 20 minutes on our comic strips, and I got most of the things drawn! And thankfully we get till next Monday to turn it in! Then we got a marshmallow test with a marshmallow and Hershey's kiss, and if we waited the whole class period, we would get two. Me and my friends waited for the whole class and got Two yummy marshmallows and Hershey kisses! Then, when we got home, we pretty much enjoyed most of the afternoon and enjoyed our day today. It definitely made me smile!

Saturday, 10/5/24 - today, we started the day fantastic. We're hanging out and laughing big. Donny did a Therapy session for his physical strength! He did pretty well with support, but without support, he needed a lot more work to be done! But that's ok then we enjoyed a very nice long mystery box opening! We enjoyed the number of keys we got until.. my phone randomly shut off, and it started doing a random blinking animation on the screen, which was not normal for my phone! It took 40 minutes to resolve! Then I thought everything was fixed so I got back on my phone a few minutes later it cut off again and did that same blinking animation again I was so over it at this point sadly I and Emmie had an autism meltdown and we kept screaming and Emmie was throwing stuff then after that I and Emmie burned our lip and then we almost choked on a taki and then all of our subway progress in keys hoverboards and score boosters and headstarts got deleted we're so done with that day. Hopefully, Tomorrow will go well! Some bits made me smile! And we're looking for a brighter day for tomorrow!

Sunday, 10/6/24 - glad to report today went really well! In the morning, I woke up around 6:26 Am, and we did a huge run in Subway Surfers to become champions! And then later into the afternoon, around two pm, we went to a birthday bash! Our cousins Alex and Ember are turning 10 years old and 3 years old! We went to Jennifer's house! Then we started the party by greeting everyone! And then listening to music and then we had some yummy Burgers and hotdogs! They're very good. I had a few diet Dr peppers, which I had never had! It was pretty yummy then we chilled and hung out with the kiddos for a while and we had a fun time my wife got punched and head-butted several times don't worry they didn't hurt and we made sure to check her skin afterward and he said he was joking Emmie was cool about it lol then we had some yummy cake before my wife's brutal beat down lol then we left around 5 pm! We had a great time and we had a blast celebrating Ember's and Alex's birthday 🎂! We had a blast! And now I'm editing and chilling but we thank you for reading this week! And now the most important question ⁉️

What made you smile this week?

Img desc #1: it shows their cousin Ember on a Hello Kitty chair, laying back as she is being silly. She is wearing a blue-sleeved shirt and black athletic shoes. Her head is tipped back as she laughs.

Img desc #2: Alex is seen sitting near a Spiderman squish mellow since the little guy loves Spiderman. He is wearing a black short-sleeved shirt and blue jeans. He is sitting up on his knees! Happy birthday little man! 🎉

Img desc #3: Alex, Ember, and Jennifer are Crowded in front of Alex and Ember's birthday cake! Alex is getting supported by Jennifer as he is wearing a black short-sleeved shirt and blue jeans. Ember is seen standing near Alex, wearing a blue short-sleeved shirt and black athletic shorts. We were singing Happy Birthday to them!

Img desc #4: our mom and Jennifer, Alex, and Ember are seen in a professionally shot photo! They are on a cruise; our mom is seen smiling beautifully while wearing a flowy white and blue dress with black glasses and her long, flowy, red-dyed hair draped over her hair. Her arm is slightly toughing embers arm, and Ember saw her smiling very pretty! Her hair is neatly done while wearing a pink and white dress; Alex is seen in Jennifer's arms, and Alex is looking very cute while slightly leaned wearing a white short-sleeved shirt, a black bowtie and suspenders, and little grey shorts. He is giving off his best smile for the camera! Jennifer looks very beautiful! She is seen wearing a sky-blue dress with her black/brown hair down. Her wrist resting on Alex's legs in this photo while they are on the cruise!

Img desc #5: Emmie is seen near a bed of cacti. She is seen smiling while being kissed. She is seen in her electric wheelchair while wearing a brown beanie, a white long-sleeved sweater, and blue jeans. She has a pair of shades! Her atrophied wrists resting on her lap it was a beautiful day out!

Img desc #6: doc is seen smiling while her head Is slightly down! Her arm is being grabbed by her friend, and she is seen in a driveway while wearing a black long-sleeved shirt and green jeans. She is in her electric wheelchair while her atrophied arms rest on the joystick of her electric wheelchair. She is seen with a pair of thin metal glasses on her face.

Img desc #7: Emmie is seen looking very disappointed. She is seen in her electric wheelchair while wearing a green short-sleeved shirt. She has a pair of sunglasses on.

Img desc #8: The doc is seen looking angry or disappointed. She is seen in her electric wheelchair while her atrophied arms are resting on her joystick. Doc's face is very red, and she has a pair of thin metal glasses on her face. She is wearing a short-sleeved grey shirt.

Img desc #9: doc is seen near a window at night looking very red faced she is seen with a face of shock! As her ear is very red, she has a pair of thin metal glasses on her face, and she has a red short-sleeved shirt.

[rosethornewrites]

Medicaid is apparently afraid I will abuse my hormonal birth control, and despite the prescription calling for skipping the placebo pills and immediately starting the next month, they won’t allow me to fill the prescription in that manner.

I am, fortunately, not using it as a contraceptive, but instead to manage several medical conditions.

Which maybe isn’t fortunate, given that my choices are limited on this shit and having an actual period could cause major problems, especially with my autoimmune disease. Anyway, it couldn’t be filled until today.

They’re also freaked out about the minuscule dose of a controlled substance I take. This morning I took the last dose and called to check on my refill (which I had sent days ago) only for the pharmacy system to claim they didn’t have it. The nurse at my doctor’s office, when I called, told me it was because I can’t get it filled til tomorrow because it’s a controlled substance.

Me: I guess I’ll spend tonight really high to cut the pain, then, because I took my last dose this morning.

It’s legal in my state and I’d still do it if it wasn’t.

She paused, then said I should call the pharmacy and explain but lol then I’d be treated with suspicion of being an addict, which I told her point blank. I thanked her for looking into it and wished her a nice day.

Apparently she got that fixed somehow because half an hour later I got the text that it was ready.

I had to drive 45 minutes to pick up the birth control because the system wouldn’t let me schedule Instacart (usually how I have them delivered) and I need it tonight, and then picked up the second at another pharmacy on the way home.

I’m going to pharmacy A to save Medicaid some money, as I got my meds there when I was uninsured for cheaper, but I’m thinking of slowly switching everything over the pharmacy B because it’s like 5 minutes from home.

The moment I got home, I crawled into bed and slept for 3 hours and the prospect of actually getting out of bed again is unpleasant because my pain is not good today so I need the weed anyway. And so my spoons have used calling doctors and going to get my meds and I have accomplished fuck all else.

Man, I just want my meds. I want to take them on time and not feel like maybe I should skip doses to make them last longer because of this sort of thing.

Yay, America.

[angelcloves]

Gravesfield High Staff Member: (Thinking to themself) "I should check in on the substitute English teacher, make sure that the kids aren't giving her a hard time."

*They arrive at the 10th Grade English classroom. There's no teacher to be seen, the kids are practically throwing a party!*

Gravesfield High Staff Member: "Stop right there! Where's your teacher?!"

Random Kid: "He's out sick today."

Gravesfield High Staff Member: "I am aware that Mr. Sandoval isn't here today, I was speaking in reference to your substitute teacher. Miss... Clawthorne, I believe?"

Random Kid: *Shrugs* "There hasn't been anybody here the whole period."

Gravesfield High Staff Member: "That's ridiculous! I saw her come in myself."

Another Kid: "My little brother had her for first period. But he told me that he saw her walk out the back entrance after his class was done."

Gravesfield High Staff Member: (Thinking to themself) "Who did I leave in charge of a room full of children?!"

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Lol lol lol! I'm still not over that Lilith fic from yesterday, the scenario it presented was just so funny. Although nightmarish from any adult used to being in-charge of children's POV.

I do hope that Luz doesn't get in trouble for Lilith just... going with the flow though. Lilith singled her out in front of her class, before Luz could've reasonably "introduce" herself to her.

So that brings up the question as to how "Miss Clawthorne" knew her name, meaning that it wouldn't be unreasonable for Gravesfield staff to question her as to how she knows Lilith. Which would put Luz in a bit of a tight spot.

TO BE FAIR AND BALANCED TM TOWARDS LILITH....

i imagined that she showed up late in the day (see mentions of 'short notice' and the class before ending) so there would have been maybe one or two classes that showed up to no teacher (well. more like the real actual substitute but yknow) and i really doubt lilith would end up catching heat anyways since there would have been an ENTIRELY different name on the temporary badge they handed her anyways since. you know. she was not the person scheduled to come in. and faculty would have figured that out eventually when the real sub showed up

[aldemuappreciationhub]

Verdict

The people have spoken!!

Ship appreciation day format it is!🎉🎉🎉🎉

I'll be announcing the date later this year, probably somewhere around December, close to the end of 2023 & close to the start of 2024. So we can all prepare our schedules for it.

I'm thinking the day should take place within April, seeing that's the transitional period from the Aries to the Taurus zodiac sign period!

Stay tuned for more!

Here are some of my personal thoughts on this format:

This format is definetely a lot easier to do, seeing that it is just one day. But, at the same time, I feel like it can be so easy to miss out on it. This sure has happened to me a few times in other fandoms LOL. So, I'm imagining we can extend on the period of receiving/accepting entries for it. Late entries will totally be accepted!

As for the Secret Santa idea...

The answers were a lot more mixed. December can be such a mixed bag for everyone, so the results don't surprise me. It's understandable! So, we'll put this one off for this year, maybe we'll have more people interested in it in the next one.

Once again! Thank you everyone for taking their time to answer the interest check, on top of spreading the word about this event!

I'll always be around to keep answering any questions people may have, as well as to keep our blog up to date with our information.

-- Mod Kiki ♈♉

[sethredia]

straight up i think period-induced anxiety is the worst. like i have gad so im already anxious constantly but it normally settles at a not-great-but-manageable background hum if that makes sense? but when im on my period that shit goes from like a casual 4/10 to a fucking 14/10 sometimes.

ill be already a lil spooked about x or y thing on a normal day but when im on my period? i cant fucking sleep because im thinking about it and my chest is getting tight and i can feel my heart rate kick up and i roll over and get on my phone to distract myself and yet i know im distracting myself so the distraction doesnt really work and on and on until its three am and i pass tf out

its more manageable when im at work, right, because theres Stuff To Do at work. there a Job Tasks and then Job Distractions which are, in their own way, a different form of job task to me. is it the same fanfic i opened the night before to read but couldnt get through because my stupid, chemical deficient, hormone-addled brain wont let me focus on it? yes. is it different now because im at work and work is an entirely different vibe so now i can get through that story (and maybe a few others depending on length)? also yes!

anxiety example: my boss texted me last night, or i guess now that its gone past midnight would it be the night before last?, and said (frankly very ominously? like even without the anxiety disorder it would be spooky methinks) “call me before you go in tomorrow” and i was like “oh shit oh fuck what did i do i dont think i did anything i mean i had a weird hiccup with counting the drawer out at the end of the shift because i was doing 18.50 in my head instead if 17.50 so i had an overhang of a dollar and so maybe me messing with the dollar while i was trying to figure out what happened showed up and looked weird on the cameras and she saw it and she wants to talk to me about it???” and so that morning i did all my get-ready things and went back into my room, grabbed one of my stuffies for emotional support in the same way i do to make dentist appoints and shit, and bravely called my boss

and then. she said she just wanted to check on if it would be safe to have us open the store because of the snow that night. she lives in the next town over where it snowed a lot (7.5 inches. she stuck a ruler in it and sent me a picture later lol) and wanted to check on road conditions and just a general vibe on it f whether people would be out and about (it snowed in my town 3 inches. if im being generous. most of it melted off before noon. according to my boss, it continued to try and snow where she was on and off all day. what a wild difference like ten miles does to the weather!).

i got so so so scared over like a dollar worth of figured out before i left the building confusion that my boss wanting to just. be a good person. was like nowhere in my thought process.

related but only slightly: i got freaked tf out over one singular dollar and had that shit figured out before i went home for the day, whereas my stupid fucking coworker who is like technically my manager (i think if i had to put a title on her it would be like assistant manager but idk she doesnt have a title on our work schedule but shes above all the team lead kids but i also am that but i know technically shes my boss and she makes ~a dollar/hour more~ than i do so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ) ALWAYS fucks up the drawers somehow. like our manager wants the end count on the drawer to be between $149.50-150.50. Why there is dont know but thats how it goes right? WRONG. every single time i come in and have to open a drawer after this lunatic has closed the night before, the drawers are over $150.50. it is not hard to stick another dollar into your bundle. drop the extra dollar. the drawer should not be at $150.75. drop the dollar. put it at $149.75 please god. this happened today on both drawers (small store; we only have two registers and only have shift overlaps on weekends and evenings so it works).

what Also happened today was that we have little paper slips that go into the drawers so you know what amount theyre supposed to be tallying out to when you count them next to know if everything is good or not. the paper said $150.65. i counted that fucker like six times, did the math on two different calculators three times to make sure it wasn’t me mis-hitting a decimal or something, and discovered it was actually at $155.65. five whole dollars. like im sure for a target thats not a big deal — still noticeable and youd absolutely get yelled at but like big picture and all — but for us thats a decent chunk! this woman simply does not double check anything she does regarding the cash drawers and it outrages me.

ALSO ALSO yesterday i counted out my drawer and it ended on like $150.30. within the boundaries. she put it in for the when the other closer came in. i left at 2:30, this other girl came in at 6:30, so somewhere in that four hours she recounted the drawer. we have a binder we write our numbers in for ~Accountability~. she wrote and initialed that it was at the $150.30 i counted it out to. this drawer, for the three or so hours its running that evening, handles no cash. written in the binder it has a big ol NO CASH written through in the Cash In and Deposited sections. the drawer closed at $150.75. where??? did that extra??? .45¢ come from??? and like what a weird amount too! thats not a two-quarter whoopsie, thats a whole mess of coins. four dimes and a nickel. a quarter and two dimes. other combinations im too tired to list. and like when i counted it that next morning it was at that $150.75. which is impressive, as the last time a NO CASH she wrote that had different starting and ending numbers, it turned out that there wasnt actually a difference, and that the original starting number was in fact still the amount in there. her ending number was also off by like .37¢ or something that time so like.

man. tell me you dont count out the registers properly without telling me you dont count them out properly.

anyway all of this is to say: periods suck and i hate them and i fucking wish i could sleep instead of worrying about what im currently worried about.

[daily-nora]

Hey baby ❤️

I think it's about time we made an update now that I'm feeling better and you're in a good routine at home!

On Saturday March 4th we began our induction to have you. Dad and I were SO excited. We just couldn't believe the day was finally here. Our nurse came into our room that day and let us know that we would be the first scheduled induction for that day, and wouldn't you know, the second she left the room you broke my water naturally. You seemed to already know it was time.

We got wheeled down from the antenatal ward to labour and delivery, where the process started. They got me all hooked up to the IV, with fluids and oxytocin, a hormone to begin the labour process. They would slowly increase the hormones every 30 minutes and I eventually began contracting. As time went on my contractions didn't seem to do any better, we either went too long with no contractions, or too long with a CONSTANT contraction. Which was really painful 😣

After several hours of the doctors fiddling with the hormones, they checked my dilation and realised I had more waters to break. The doctor went in with a long crochet type hook and broke the rest of my water, and we hoped that would speed the process up a little bit.

However it didn't...not right away. I had something happen called uterine tachysystole, which basically means my contractions were too close together. It was painful and uncomfortable, and went on like this for hours and hours.

Eventually, we tried for an epidural but unfortunately the vertebrae in my spine were too close together. We had two different doctors attempt to put it in with no success. That that point I thought I would have to deliver without one, so we decided to try other methods for pain control. I tried the gas you inhale, which worked for a while, it allowed me to rest and shut my eyes for maybe an hour. Then the pain came back, at which point we decided to try the narcotic drip in my IV, which also only worked for a short period of time. The pain was beginning to get to me and my body was hitting a wall. I needed something to help me get some relief from the pain, at which point our doctors suggested we try another epidural. And surprise! This one worked. Thank god lol. But even though it helped with the contraction pain, I had so much pressure in my pelvis that it almost didn't make any difference. Your dad held my hand the entire time and was so strong for both of us. He advocated and spoke up for me when I couldn't, he was the absolute most amazing support person and I am so blessed to have him as the father of my baby. I can't say enough amazing things about your dad. If you could have seen how compassionate and caring he was during that extremely hard time, you would be so proud of him, too.

After about 45 minutes of getting the epidural, our two amazing nurses (Trish and Sam) checked my dilation, and I had gone up from 4 cm to 10! Just like that it was time to push, and we got to work. It didn't look pretty, but I didn't care, I was getting you out by any means necessary! And in about 30 minutes boom, you arrived.

They placed you on my chest and I just couldn't believe that in that moment, I was officially a mom. It was so overwhelming. This little baby I had sang to and talked to for 9 months was now here, laying on me, breathing, crying and living beside me. The next coming days were such a blessing. Dad is a natural, he loves you so incredibly much and has really stepped up and taken amazing care of both of us.

Your blood sugars were a bit low, so we had to stay in the hospital for an extra day to monitor your levels and make sure they reached where they should, and they did! You have been so impressive both inside and tummy and out so far, and I'm just so proud to have you as my daughter.

After a day and a half stay at the hospital we got to go home for the first time as a threesome! It was a joyous day. You are now 5 days old as I write this, snuggled neatly in your velcro swaddle sack, laying in the bassinet, making little coo's. I love hearing your little sounds, watching your beautiful face and holding your tiny hands. I love you so much Nora. My heart knows no bounds when it comes to you, it's a type of love you really can't explain until you have a child. It still hasn't fully sunken in that you are mine. And everytime I look at you I am reminded of that. It's so special.

You came into the world and into my arms March 5th 2023, at 4:14 AM, weighing 7 pounds 0oz. Let the rest of our lives begin!

Love you forever and always

Mama 💗

[dine-on-nervine]

What was the year/make/model of the last car you drove? 2012 Ford Fusion Hybrid.

Have you ever been in weather below 0 Fahrenheit (-17 Celcius)? Yes, it occasionally got that cold in Yakima.

What was the last thing you used your phone for, besides calling/texting? A TV remote control.

Do you have more male or female coworkers? Male, but the ratio of women is actually higher than you might expect.

Did you enjoy high school? I liked some parts of it. >> That’s about my take, too. Lots of it was bullshit but parts of it were really fun and even occasionally useful.

What's an unusual food combination you like? I put the salsa in my ketchup at Taco Time for my tater tots.

What's the longest stretch of time you've spent completely alone? Days.

Have you ever lived in a studio apartment? Yes, in the late 1980s.

Did your parents allow you to drink soda when you were a kid? Yes, and my mother’s biggest gripe was that some of us would open a can, take a swing, and put it back in the fridge never to finish it so it’d go to waste. I can’t do that, cold flat soda is terrible so I’d rather have warm flat soda.

Do you always check the prices of things when you buy groceries? Usually.

Do you like gyoza? Yes.

Have you ever been in a situation where you needed a lawyer? Yes, and in fact that’s what settled the case -- the city wasn’t expecting me to lawyer up over their poor judgement.

Do you use Instagram? If so, what's your current profile pic? Nope.

Did you ever go through an emo or goth phase? Nope, I had a period or two where I hung out with goths (but wasn’t one myself) because they were fun.

What are your thoughts on kids being given iPads to keep them entertained? I think that’s a cheat, a shortcut. Effective perhaps and maybe when I was a kid that would have been a lifesaver for my mother, but I tend to bristle when I see some little kid in a shopping cart holding a phone or tablet, watching Peppa or Baby Shark.

Do you get regular check-ups with your doctor? LOL, no, and I realize I should.

What was the last thing you felt apprehensive about? I don’t want to elaborate, but my girlfriend and I have a sort of schedule of how things go and recently it seems she’s added something that prevents her from doing the usual nightly things once a week. Which is fine, she’s a grown-ass woman, but it’s never been discussed so I’m the last to know.

How many nights per week do you cook dinner at home vs. going out to eat? Lately it’s been once or twice (microwaving a Costco cheeseburger).

What's a trend you've seen recently that you thought was really dumb? The religious right saying and doing things that genuinely go opposite to what the Bible says. How exactly do you express hate toward women, minorities, and the LGBTQ+ when the book and beliefs you swing around say love one another, feed the hungry, clothe the naked, and welcome the immigrant?

Do you know anyone who has been evicted? Not sure. Probably.

When did you last wash your sheets and pillowcases? Pillowcase was a week ago, sheets were a week or two before that.

Have you kissed more than 10 people in the past 10 years? Most definitely, I was leading an exciting life which I don’t miss prior to Covid.

Have you ever been caught outdoors away from shelter during a thunderstorm? Definitely. I remember this sudden storm at summer camp.

Did you leave the house before 10 AM yesterday? I needed to get my glasses repaired so I showed up at their office at 7:50. Never mind that they open at 8:30.

What's your favorite macaron flavor? They have flavors?

How often do you have friends over to your house? I don’t. Mostly because I don’t have friends, but even the ones that do come to my house don’t enter. (Honestly, my girlfriend hasn’t been in my house in three years, and that was to help carry an air conditioner up the stairs.) Which is better since this place has stinky dogs, toxic mold, and a paranoid landlady.

Have you ever had a boss who acted unprofessionally? I can think of three examples, two were at the same place (with their replacement simply never doing his job) and one was at Pizza Hut. There were never any reprecussions for the first two (but the replacement did get demoted once but never learned his lesson and got promoted again), and the manager at Pizza Hut got hit with a sexual harassment complaint which resulted in him getting transferred to a different Hut and not some actual punishment.

How many times have you stayed at a hotel in the past year, and where? We usually do AirBnB but I know when we stayed at a Best Western earlier this year on our way to visit my folks.

What kind of technological advancements do you expect there to be 100 years from now? I would have to think about it. Futurism hasn’t ever been my strong suit, and so many of the things we said “one day” or “in the year 2000″ about, we have even if it was in the last 20 years. Minus the flying cars, but now we have self-driving cars and that’s also something that was on the list forever.

Have you ever done a flip on a trampoline? Believe so.

What about a flip off of a diving board? Definitely.

What was the last hot beverage you had? Probably a coffee at my girlfriend’s house since I drink it cold at home or when I buy one.

What was the year/make/model of the last car you drove? I don't drive.

Have you ever been in weather below 0 Fahrenheit (-17 Celcius)? Gah, noooo thankfully I have not.

What was the last thing you used your phone for, besides calling/texting? Ha, it's rare that I'm using my phone for actual phone things lol. Anyway, I'm pretty sure it was TikTok.

Do you have more male or female coworkers? I don't have a job.

Did you enjoy high school? I liked some parts of it. Like, I actually enjoyed the pep rallies and assemblies. Honestly, while a lot of it truly was tough and I'll still stand by that, I think as I've gotten older and looked back some of the stuff maybe wasn't so bad after all.

What's an unusual food combination you like? I haven't had it in so long, but I actually think adding mayo to ramen is good.

What's the longest stretch of time you've spent completely alone? Just like half a day.

Have you ever lived in a studio apartment? No.

Did your parents allow you to drink soda when you were a kid? Yeah.

Do you always check the prices of things when you buy groceries? Of course. I don't have money coming out my ass. However, I do sometimes randomly throw stuff in, but it's a snack or drink and I know it doesn't cost much.

Do you like gyoza? I've never had it.

Have you ever been in a situation where you needed a lawyer? No.

Do you use Instagram? If so, what's your current profile pic? Very, very, very rarely. I don't even spend much time on it scrolling through my feed or watching people's insta stories. I just posted something for the first time in a few years for my birthday.

Did you ever go through an emo or goth phase? I had my emo phase when I was 16, but let's be real it was never just a phase.

What are your thoughts on kids being given iPads to keep them entertained? I don't see an issue with it. However, I personally wouldn't use a screen as a babysitter and I'd set limits to screen time. Otherwise, I definitely see the educational benefits. It's just wild how kids literally come out the womb nowadays knowing how to use a tablet or phone like wtf.

Do you get regular check-ups with your doctor? With one of my specialists, but not my primary doctor.

What was the last thing you felt apprehensive about? I'm apprehensive about everything.

How many nights per week do you cook dinner at home vs. going out to eat? I personally don't cook, so in that regard zero. As for how many nights I eat at home vs in my case how many nights I get takeout, it's something like takeout 4-5 times a week.

What's a trend you've seen recently that you thought was really dumb? I will never understand the whole Crocs trend or the little charm things you put on them. I just can't.

Do you know anyone who has been evicted? Not to my knowledge.

When did you last wash your sheets and pillowcases? A couple weeks ago.

Have you kissed more than 10 people in the past 10 years? I've only kissed 3 people total.

Have you ever been caught outdoors away from shelter during a thunderstorm? Gah, yes. I was at an outdoor festival and it just randomly started POURING. It was crazy.

Did you leave the house before 10 AM yesterday? I didn't go anywhere yesterday.

What's your favorite macaron flavor? The Fruity Pebbles one.

How often do you have friends over to your house? --

Have you ever had a boss who acted unprofessionally?

How many times have you stayed at a hotel in the past year, and where? I last stayed at a motel in March of 2022.

What kind of technological advancements do you expect there to be 100 years from now? >> I can't fathom this

Have you ever done a flip on a trampoline? No, I can't go on a trampoline.

What about a flip off of a diving board? I can't do that either.

What was the last hot beverage you had? Coffee.

[roscgcld]

HEADCANONS + NANAMI KENTO || one year milestone

request: hi hi! I love your Nanami and pregnant reader hc! If you’re in the mood, can I request some hc of nanami as a first time sad taking care of the new baby? Maybe across the first year of life? Thank you xoxo

note: hi love! I am glad that you seem to love the hc so much! writing for nanami as a dad is my new favourite thing cx and of course! i loved exploring this idea more and more, so this is definitely a lot of fun for me! i hope you enjoy reading your request!

you can read the post mentioned here!

pronouns: she/her

nanami always wants to be prepared, no matter what the situation may be

whilst you were still recovering, he actually spent a lot of time with the nurses on the maternity ward, asking them all the questions he has when it comes to taking care of a newborn 

the nurses are delighted at the idea that a husband wants to be so involved when it comes to their child, so they answer all his questions quite excitedly 

even invite him to watch as they do things like give the babies a bath, how to swaddle a new baby, and all the basics he needs to know about taking care of your newborn

since you need to be in confinement after you are discharged, he knows he needs to take care of your son for the most part, so he wants to be prepared

you were amused since he is taking this as seriously as everything else he does, even though your son has only been on this planet for one day

with that being said though - nanami is still ever attentive to your needs; always making sure that you are okay, and that you’re recovering well leading up to your discharge date

once you’re home, nanami mostly left the confinement nanny to call the shots; getting her everything she needed to cook the right foods for you, making sure you’re going to be at home and not going out throughout the entire month 

for the most part i think he struggled to change your son’s diaper at first, like any other new parent. he has been shot at with pee and shat on because he was not fast before; but he had learnt his lesson fast lol

also - he is such a private person that his parents have to threaten to come and visit for him to send them pictures. he knew that if they came to visit, the confinement nanny will murder him for disobeying orders

and he is actually scared of the short and plump woman - no one should ever anger a short and plump asian woman if they want to die a peaceful death

when your confinement period is over and you can really start to become the parent you want to be, nanami had already gotten the basics down

he knows how to do things like give your son a shower, how to change him, burp him properly, and even how to put him to sleep if he refuses to go to bed. nanami discovered that he enjoys listening to him reading to him 

because of this, every night without fail, nanami and you will cuddle up in bed with your son against your chest; the both of you quietly narrating the story to your son as he blinked his wide blue eyes up at you

you two work on a day system when it comes to checking up on your son in the middle of the night - if you went yesterday, nanami is supposed to go 

but you two break that rule often - you’d go and take care of your son if nanami had to do overtime the day before, and nanami goes to take care of him when he realises how drained you are from everything

nanami cradles him against his chest in the morning before he goes to work; cuddling your son against his chest with one hand whilst the other is holding his coffee mug away from your slumbering son

hates to leave him in the morning; it’s so funny to see your usually really very punctual and “always following his schedule” husband breaking his routine so he can cuddle your son a little longer 

will force himself to let him go when you remind him that he is going to be late. pressing a loving kiss against his head and a parting kiss against your lips, a warm smile on his face

“i’ll be back soon, darling. keep the fort up while i am gone.”

since you had wanted to take some time off of work to care for your child, it was not abnormal to spend it taking pictures and videos to send to your husband throughout the day; pictures and videos that he saves in a separate library on his phone

you had brought your son over to the college once you’ve recovered, making sure that nanami was in for the day to surprise him 

and surprise him you did - it was the first time anyone outside the both of you had seen your son in person, so the students and gojo were staring at the baby in awe as nanami gently cradles your cutely dressed son in his arms 

it was then that people saw a more softer and relaxed side of nanami; something that even goj had never seen before. just seeing the man bounce the sleeping baby in his arms with a serene look on his face is quite jarring

he’d make sure that everyone sanitise or clean themselves before getting to carry your newborn; besides shoko, who he just naturally trusts since the woman naturally knows what to do when handling a baby 

always hovering over the others when they are carrying your son because he is genuinely worried that someone might drop him, or make him fee discomfort

gojo would tease him to try and ‘lighten up’ a little, and nanami swears that he if gojo was not holding on your son at that very moment, he would have launched his ass out of the college

nanami will return with a few handmade gifts from yaga-sensei, like clothes and his own magical stuffed doll because he just can’t say no to his formal sensei

refuses to hire a nanny if he can avoid it, since he wants to be there for all the firsts - first time he rolled onto his belly, first time crawling, first time saying a word. he wants to be there for everything 

loves getting your son toys that requires him to do some thinking to figure it out, because he wants your son to start learning how to use critical thinking skills 

you try to remind him all the time that he is barely hitting one years old, but nanami doesn’t care - and once he sets his mind to it, it’s hard to say no to him

enjoys reading to your son with those cute baby interactive books; finger puppets and soft materials your son can reach out to touch. somehow makes the story sound good with his voice lol 

always volunteers to stay up if your son is being a little rowdy and refuses to go to bed on time, since this is the time where he gets to ‘make up’ the lost time whilst he was at work

always gets him something after being away on mission - like hed’d buy you flowers or a small gift whenever he comes home, he does the same for your son

lets him play with his tie and sword, but only if he is under his supervision

sometimes you’d walk him with in on them playing with one another, nanami playfully ‘eating’ his tiny fingers as your son giggles and squeals at the sensation

you always record and take pictures of these moments when you can because you just find them so cute and endearing to look back on

will splurge on your son - does not care that he is still growing. he is going to be wearing the best of the best; even if he is going to outgrow them. nanami does not slack when it comes to your son’s wardrobe

or yours honestly - so you guys will be the most fashion-savvy family in the entire part when you guys have small family outings

nanami was quite the supportive father when your son is trying to learn how to walk; always keeping close and holding his tiny hands in his to support him as he walks 

even if your son is a ‘slow learner’, he’s a patient man. he will quietly encourage him and slow down so that he matches your son’s pace

rewards him with cuddles and kisses when he does something right, and is willing to be the bad parent whenever he does something wrong; but that’s because he just wants the best for him 

all in all, soft!dad nanami who is a good balance between good and bad cop, knowing that you struggle to find that balance sometimes. but he does not mind, because he will always go out of his way to make sure that both you and the bean is happy

because as long as you two are happy, there is nothing more than he can ever ask for. just coming home to you two makes all the things he does worth it at the end of the day

© roscgcld — all rights reserved to me, rose, the author and creator of these works. do not repost/translate/claim my work as yours on any platform.

[mrskodzuken]

Longing

pairing: Kozume Kenma x fem!reader

genre: angst to fluff (with crack bits)

wc: 2.3k

tw/cw: post-timeskip characters, some swearing, aaaaaaangst (wdym lol), alcohol + food, product ad placements /j, lovers to (one-sided fake) enemies to lovers again AU, set in the "Kenma with a f!Filo!reader as s/o" AU, mild? depression.

a/n: this is my entry for both @rosesandtoshi's "Enemies to Lovers" and @sunarent's "Because I Love You" collabs, and currently my lengthiest fic I've written in this blog alone (second overall). I hate to make the loml cry before his birthday (October 16th) but siiiiiiiigh I have no choice but to do the do (sorry Kenma). Special thanks for my ever-supportive wifey @atsuminthe, and both @melsun and @krystalgaia from The Cosmic Void server for beta-reading this *headpats* <3 //More notes below~// also please help me reblog this (if y’all want) coz Tumblr won’t show this in the tags 😭 thank you 🙇🏻‍♀️

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[15th October, 20xx.]

[Tokyo. Kozume Residence. 08:25]

The loud and shrilling sound of the digital alarm clock on the bedside table annoyed Kozume Kenma and ruined his peaceful sleep. So much that he’d slammed his hand on the button… hard, which resulted in a painful yelp and a throbbing palm.

“Fuck…,” he cursed under his breath, rubbing the pain on his hand away, and groaned, stretching his arms upward and yawning. He rolled over to the side and reached for your side of the bed you’re sharing with him, blindly feeling around for your figure with his hand... but you weren’t there. He sat up and looked over, puzzled.

“Y/N? Y/N~?” Where are you?”

He looked at his phone to check if you were online on your SNS—last activity was a few hours ago, during his game stream. No new messages, no new voice calls… “Kitten, where are you?” He started to panic.

He walked towards your shared cabinet and opened it. Your side of the cabinet was somewhat near-empty, save for a few hanging shirts and dresses.

“Y/N?” Kenma went inside his streaming room next and didn’t find you. Also in the kitchen, the backyard, your study room, bathroom—none. There were no notes left on the fridge’s door as to your whereabouts. Then he returned to your shared bedroom to retrieve his phone and try tried texting you.

This is absurd. Maybe… maybe we should just separate for now, Kenma—

Oh. His thumbs stopped just as he was going to press Send, cursing at himself. Yeah, how come Kenma forgot about it in such a small period of time? You two had a petty misunderstanding that escalated into a fight last night. And you decided to go out in the middle of the night—an overnight bag on your shoulder—and stay at a friend’s house for the meantime, leaving him all alone feeling angry and hurt. After that, he was forced to cancel a scheduled stream later that night (‘due to some technical issues’, but in reality, Kenma didn’t want to reflect his current mood on the game he was supposed to play) and slept fitfully.

Several thoughts ran through the former Nekoma setter’s mind, worry etched across his sullen features. Are you still mad at him? Kenma really didn’t mean to yell at you that night, and he was sorry about it. Are you fine all alone, walking in the almost-deserted street at night? Did you reach your friend’s house safely? Have you eaten your dinner yet? Did you cry to yourself again about what happened last night?—wWhat if you hurt yourself while your friend isn’t around you? He’d blame himself totally if that’s the case. But, do you still want him? Do you still love him—

A tear dropped and hit his phone screen. Kenma slowly sat on the floor in a fetal position and leaned his back at the edge of the bed, head hidden between his arms and knees. Soft sniffles were heard as he gripped his hands on his arms, crying his frustrations out.

“I’m so sorry, Y/N…”

[At a Starbucks cafe near the JVA HQ. 12:23.]

“Here’s your order, sir! Venti half-and-half, ten pumps vanilla, extra whip. Enjoy your coffee!”

Kuroo Tetsurou thanked the barista and grabbed his cup from the counter when he spotted his gamer best friend enter the cafe and walk towards him, dressed in his usual black hoodie and tattered skinny jeans and rubber shoes, a glum aura emitting around him. The sports promoter raised an eyebrow in confusion, observing his friend’s body language: Kenma’s shoulders hunched over, his back slouched a bit more than before, and his head hung down, with black Ray-Bans covering his eyes.

“Oi, Kenma, are you okay? You seem a little… off,” Kuroo said, stepping aside, away from the counter to let the next customer in. “And what’s with the black glasses? Take them off, please, it’s kinda distracting to look at.” He carefully sipped from his cup and a spot under his eye twitched like a tic, mumbling, “Ugh… that’s why I fucking hate whole-day corporate meetings, forcing myself to drink this ultra-sweet concoction to get through the day. I miss my black coffee with a teaspoon of sugar.”

Kuroo then fished out his phone from his coat pocket and took another long swig of the cup, before he accidentally sprayed the screen, brown eyes widening at Kenma’s face. “KYANMAAAAA!!!”

“Ew, Kuro, gross…,” the gamer winced and grumbled, his puffy eyes averting his childhood friend’s questioning gaze. He put his Ray-Bans back on and stuffed both hands inside his hoodie front pocket. “And, can you please lower your fucking voice down? It’s embarrassing…”

“Ah, sorry… But, your eyes though? Did you cry or something? Is something wrong with you and Y/N? What happene—“ Kenma interrupted him by raising his hand in front of his face in annoyance.

“Let’s talk about it somewhere else, not here,” he whispered lowly and turned to walk outside the cafe. Kuroo nodded and followed suit, dabbing the coffee off his phone screen with some tissues.

[At a nearby park. 12:47.]

“Ohoho… So that's what it is, huh?” Kuroo said coolly, his head looking up at the blue sky. “A cool off.” A few minutes prior, after settling themselves on one of the benches, a bag of snacks and some beer that Kenma bought inside a konbini store on the way there in hand, the former Nekoma setter started telling him about the previous night’s events that led to your leaving the house and Kenma’s sudden depression and crying earlier that morning.

Kenma curtly nodded, emptying another can of beer before getting up and throwing it away inside a nearby trash bin. He didn’t move and became silent for a moment, his slouching back facing Kuroo, before opening his mouth again to speak.

“I don’t know how to face her after what happened, Kuro. What if she doesn’t love me anymore because of me being jealous over such a trivial misunderstanding?” he said softly, a tone of guilt laced on each word that escaped his lips. “I really cannot forgive myself if that happens. I just can’t see myself loving another person the same way that I do with Y/N.” He removed his glasses and faced Kuroo, new tears threatening to leave from his reddened eyes.

“Kenma—“

“I… I love her, Kuro. I really love her. So, so much.” He roughly wiped his teary-eyed face with the sleeve of his hoodie, his broad shoulders trembling as he cried. “I miss her, even if it’s just for a few hours when we aren’t together. I wanna see her again, I wanna hug and kiss her again! Just like before…” Kenma let out a tiny chuckle and sniffled. “I fucking love her… I wanna spend the rest of my life loving Y/N, until the day I die…”

Kuroo stared at him and sighed helplessly. He stood up and walked towards his crying friend, bringing his hand to gently pat his head. “I’m sure she still loves you, Kenma, no matter what. Because it’s Y/N we’re talking about! Of course she’ll love you unconditionally. Okay? She’ll come back home to you, don’t worry!” He smiled sheepishly. “Now, now… I know you really love her to bits, so stop crying—Y/N would not like seeing your pretty face go ugly from crying too much! Chin up, man~ here!”

“S-shut up, Kuro,” he mumbled before grabbing the tissue that Kuroo offered and used it to wipe the snot from his reddening nose, his cheeks a bright red from both embarrassment and the alcohol.

[Outside the Kozume Residence. 23:39.]

Kenma quietly walked down the street near his house, one or two lamp posts illuminating it. He got back from playing games at an arcade the rest of the afternoon until closing time, a thing he really missed doing ever since graduating from high school and getting to uni, carrying a big paper bag full of cute cat plushies… for his kitten, Y/N, of course. He also brought two cake boxes, one chocolate cake and one chiffon cake that Kuroo bought for him, “‘cause it’s your birthday tomorrow, and you need something to cheer you up!” he told him.

“The icing probably melted, I guess,” he mumbled and sighed as he reached through the front gate of the house. “Oh, well… not that it matters anyway—?” Kenma stopped in his tracks and stared straight into the dimly lit doorway outside. He stared at your sleeping figure perched in front of the doorway, arms wrapped around your knees. Your overnight bag was placed between your chest and knees, used as a makeshift pillow for your head.

He quietly headed towards your figure and crouched beside you. “Y/N…?” How… How long did you wait for him to get home? Kenma quickly put down both the paper bag and cake boxes on the ground before he grabbed his phone out of his hoodie’s front pocket to check his notifications from you; there were none.

He suddenly jumped and accidentally fell on the ground on his butt when he felt a cold hand caressing his cheek, and saw you looking sleepy and dazed at him, your overstretched arm brought toward.

“Kenma… a-are you crying…?” you whispered softly, prompting your boyfriend to bring his fingers onto his cheeks. His golden eyes widened. Wait. Wait a fucking second. When did I start crying?

“Y/N, I—what are you doing, sleeping out in the cold in the middle of the night?!” The former Nekoma setter then scurried closer to you, flinching when he felt your hand freezing; even with the poor lighting of the bulb above them, Kenma noticed a slight redness in your cheeks due to the cold evening weather.

“Huh? I… I’m waiting for you, Kenma. Tetsu told me earlier about what happened, so I got home a few hours ago, but you were still out and…”

“I’m sure she still loves you, Kenma, no matter what. Because it’s Y/N we’re talking about! Of course she’ll love you unconditionally. Okay? She’ll come back home to you, don’t worry!”

He sighed, bringing both his hands to his face. “But, Y/N, you could’ve got inside the house using your duplicate house key—“

You sniffled quietly, mumbling, “I didn’t bring it with me last night when I left the house…”

“Then why didn’t you text or call me instead?!” he asked you, his voice getting a bit louder. Kenma froze. He did it again, yelling at you. Turning his head away from you, he mumbled a soft ‘I’m sorry’ and quickly pulled both of you up from your sitting positions. “C-come on, you’re freezing… let’s get you inside, Y/N—“

“I’m really sorry. For what happened last night,” you whispered, trying to swallow the lump in your throat. “I… we didn’t know it would come down to this, and I feel guilty about it—“

Huh? ‘We’? And Y/N feeling guilty about last night? Kenma looked at you, confused. “What do you mean—“

Achoo! You interrupted his question with a sneeze, your hands rubbing to and fro your arms to gain some warmth. “C-cold…,” you sniffled.

“Ah, sorry! Let’s continue this conversation inside, okay? Wait a second.” He hastily unlocked the front door and opened it when he felt something warm and soft touch his cheek.

[16th October 20xx.]

[Kozume Residence. 00:00.]

You pulled away, smiling sheepishly while wiping a faint kiss mark on Kenma’s cheek. “Happy birthday, kitten.”

Bonus:

[16th October 20xx.]

[Tokyo. Kozume Residence. 09:02.]

The shrill sound of the doorbell ringing annoyed the fuck out of Kozume Kenma, suddenly waking up from his peaceful sleep on the living room couch. He glanced at your sleeping figure atop him, soft snores escaping your lips and hands formed into fists on his chest, and smiled. He then gently maneuvered you to the back of the couch and slipped away, placing a small kiss on your head.

“Coming…,” the gamer hollered, stretching his arms up and grunting and cursing under his breath as he headed towards the entryway, the constant ringing of the doorbell getting on his nerves.

“Ye—“

POP! “Happy birthday, Kenma!” He jumped at the sound of party pops ringing on his ears, his face shocked as a scaredy-cat. Colorful strings and confetti covered the top of his head and shoulders. In front of him, two creepily smiling faces and two pairs of eyes—one brown and one golden-colored—were looking expectantly at him.

Kuroo and Bokuto greeted the annoyed birthday boy in unison for the second time, now-used party poppers still in their hands. “Happy birthday, Kenma!”

“Kuro, what are you doing?” Kenma asked the tall man with the black bedhead hair, his eyebrow twitching in annoyance. He spotted his manager Akaashi coming in from behind, carrying a large cream-colored cake box. He looked stressed like always. “Ah, Akaashi, good morning.”

“Kozume, good morning to you, too, and on behalf of these two grown-ass men who act like children and woke you up, I’m sorry,” Akaashi bowed to him in apology.

“It’s fine, I can still tolerate them, Kuro mostly.”

“What do you mean—“

“Tetsu! Kou-kun! Keiji-san! G’morning!” you happily greeted them as you wrapped your arms around your boyfriend’s waist from behind. “And good morning to my birthday boy~!” You leaned a bit to give Kenma a sweet kiss on the lips, which the other three men didn’t fail to notice, their cheeks red from embarrassment (Kenma also).

“O-oi, cut the PDA, will you? Respect the singles,” Bokuto said in a scolding manner.

“Sorry!”

“Anyways, since you’re both here,” Kenma started off, smiling while playing with your fingers; his icy cold stare not leaving both Kuroo and Bokuto, sending a chill down their spines.

“...mind telling me which one of you two convinced Y/N to pull a prank on me two days ago?”

Notes:

Y/N created a secret GC named "Operation: Kenma Birthday Plan?", and added Kuroo, Bokuto, Akaashi, and Hinata (since "best friend privileges" lol) into it, without Kenma knowing.

The one who initiated the plan to prank Kenma is... *drum rolls* ...Y/N.

The night after Y/N left the house, she sent a message to Akaashi saying she'll come over to his shared apartment with Bokuto for an overnight stay.

Thanks @meiansmistress for Kuroo's "weird coffee drinks" headcanon; I'm sorry if my coffee knowledge is low /gen

Kuroo kept his face straight (no wheezing) for more than an hour while being with Kenma that afternoon. But he really didn't know his friend would get depressed so suddenly after what happened that night.

Actually, Y/N really forgot to bring her duplicate house key with her before leaving quickly. Yeah smh

Kitties too tired to sleep in their shared bedroom, they ended up in the living room couch cuddling themselves to sleep.

Hinata came in two hours after AkaBoKuroo arrived at the house, and saw the two bros kneeling on a tray full of green monggo seeds as punishment (Akaashi is an exception); as for him though... Kenma's character killed Hinata's on a game they're playing a few hours later.

Likes are okay, reblogs are better, reposts and plagiarism stuff are frowned upon 🥰

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Obey Me! Brothers React: Baby?!?

This is a VERY old request that I actually found I had when scrolling through my blog lol

I liked it so much so I did the thing. It also gives some fluff between all the sin I have in my WIPs 

Enjoy~

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Lucifer:

Probably the calmest out of the bunch

“Are you okay?” “I’m prepared to take responsibility and make sure you’re happy.”

Makes sure you have your doctor appointments and goes with you

Very attentive to your needs

Over all he is pretty organized and prepared . . . on the outside

On the inside he’s a bit of a hoverer, but never too obvious. Just kinda stands to the side and observes,”just in case” you are carrying precious cargo afterall

Also he won't say it outloud but seeing your growing belly makes his pride shine the most and very territorial of you more than usual You are his and everyone will know

Kinda low-key didn’t not-not try to impregnate you but you didn’t hear that from me…

You and lucifer ended up having a Baby Boy Great another boy in the house

“Am I just destined to be surrounded by boys my whole life?” “I can always try to give you a girl. Just tell me when.” 😉

Yeah you’ll probably wait a year or two to actually plain for another baby, that is if Lucifer doesn’t “if it happens it happens”you again and BOOM baby #2 smh

Not as strict as one may think when thinking of Lucifer’s parenting style

Mammon definitely has something to say about that 

Does like to try and keep to a daily schedule of when they not just eat and sleep but also scheduled play and study time when they get to that age

Mammon:

He may need an ambulance

JK but he is a bit of a nervous wreck

Wait till he finds how birth works

But after the initial shock he is still worried about you

Maybe a bit overbearing

“Mammon, I can walk! I’m pregnant, not crippled.” “What? I can’t carry you around for no reason now?”

You end up having a Baby Girl

Cue panic mode!

Must protect baby girl at all costs Daddy mode engaged!

“My Love, you don’t have to watch her all night. She’ll be fine.” “I don’t know that!”

That dad that gets upsetty spaghetti if a “snot-nosed brat” messes with his perfect daughter on the playground

Leviathan:

Levi.exe has stopped working

Try turning off and turning on and try again later

Wasn’t ready for you to say it

I mean sure you guys do do the do, bUt hOw?!?!?

“Can we go back?” “Levi this isn’t a video game level.”

Don’t get him wrong he’s not mad just scared!

He’ll get into it after he has time to process it 

“I guess it would be nice to have another player when your busy.”

Started “practicing” with a life simulator game

You and Levi had a baby boy!

Games galore! 

When your little boy is still a baby obviously he can’t play video games with Levi but Levi has surprisingly really liked playing peek-a-boo

You do find Levi with your son on his chest as he plays video games most of the time when he’s watching him 

Satan:

Is about tied with Lucifer on the calm factor

Actually knew before you told him

“How the heck did you know, I just told you.” “Your period was late.”

Read all the books he can find on parenting and newborns in both humans and demons

You kinda wished he didn’t read so much because it went from ‘just wanting to cover all bases’ to being a bit of a worry wart and always “helping” you and “informing” you

Can you say Papa Bear!!! VERY protective!!!

Will damn near bite someone's head off if they bump into you especially w/o apologizing

Reads and/or plays music for the baby every night

“They say they can start to hear and recognize things in the womb at about 18-24 weeks. I have so many books I’d want to show them so might as well start early.”

Finds himself talking to and kississing your belly when your asleep late at night

“I promise I’m gonna make sure I’m the best Dad for you!”

Does touch your belly though everytime he kisses you

You and Satan had a Baby Girl

Truely a Daddy’s girl! She definitely has him wrapped around her little finger

He denies it but it’s true lol

Checks under the bed for “the scaries” every time she asks 

“You know Daddy will always protect you!”

Obviously the one to teach her to read and write. Making sure they get at least 30 mins of reading time together where they take turns

You’ve walking into the library many times to see Satan laying on the couch with your daughter on his chest, both asleep

At some point he finally admitted to you that he’s scared to “let her go”

He wants his baby girl to be his baby forever but he knows sadly she has to grow up but he hopes that when that happens they still have their book discussions and reading time together

It’s how he bonds with her the most.

Okay. Okay. I’ll stop cuz we should know I love Daddy Satan so I’ll stop before i get out of hand lol

Asmodeus:

OMG A NEW DOLL TO DRESS UP!!!

Ok but really he is excited

“With my charm and your cuteness, this child is gonna be the most sought after person in devildom.”

The day you told him he started preparing their room. Filling the room with bins of stuffed animals and toys

And clothes. Lots and lots of clothes.

“Asmo we don’t even know the gender yet.” “That’s ok! What ever we don’t use I guess we’ll just have to make another for those.”

He is gonna be in for a rude awakening literally when the baby comes

Say goodbye to your beauty sleep Asmo 

You and Asmo had a Baby Girl

When he found out you were having a girl, demon lord help this new doll baby

Dress up everyday 

Loves parading her around in his arms or the stroller

“Excuse me, Princess coming through!” 

Beelzebub:

Telling him you were pregnant made him really happy!!!

“I wouldn’t want to do this with anyone else.” “You’ll be the best mother.”

Of course he was nervous but he had you and you always knew how to make him feel better

And when the stress of the actual baby came up he just focused on what he did know

Snacks. Snacks. & more Snacks!!!

Your pregnancy cravings were arguably the easiest part of your pregnancy for him because he was always down to go get them for you it also gave him an excuse to get more snacks for himself too and he got to try all your favorite snacks and weird concoctions you’d want.

You and Beel had surprise, surprise. Twins!!!! Fraternal Twins to be exact, a boy and a girl

One baby was scary enough but, multiply it by two!?!? Oh nelly.

But Beel really has a way to calm you.

Divide and conquer is your modo

He’ll bathe and clothe them and you feed them Beel has helped with the feeding but somehow the food seems to disappear rather fast and the rest you share and tag in and out of

Belphegor:

Baby?!?!?

I’m sorry. He must have heard you wrong.

Maybe he is still asleep and this is a dream

But nope. It’s not! You are tellin his face that he had accidentally put a … baby… inside you…

“Are you really pregnant?” “Yup” “I’m telling you right now I’m getting rid of it if it interferes with my sleep.”

Yeah… that didn’t happen :)

He lost sleep, yes. But although annoyed he was even shocked with how attached?!? He was to the child

Oh you had a boy!

You thanked the heavens for not “gifting” you with twins

A plus is your little boy takes after his father when it comes to sleep

Altho he’s still a baby so restless nights are still very much in your future 

Belphie gifted him his very own special pillow :3 He was sick of his kid stealing/hogging his

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I kinda went into them as parents bit oops  I got too excited lol

Maybe I can do more Daddy AUs in the future if that’d interest anyone.

I hope you enjoyed reading this, I really liked writing it.  I can’t be the only one obviously that really likes Daddy AUs :3

I love the fluff and I hope you do too :D

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Chastity Tips by Candi Jane

These tips are coming from the perspective of a sissy(me😀), these things still help without the sissy element.

I have been hearing sissys keep saying that you want to do long term chastity, but are too weak. I am hearing about how you want to feel helplessly desperate and horny. But as you get too horny and before you reach helplessly desperate you grab the key, unlock your little clitty, and jerk off. Then you have to start the process all over. Ideally you would have a keyholder, someone that forces you to keep honest, but most of us are not fortunate enough to have one. So here are some things that may help. Notice how I always use the plural for keys? Chastity devices come with more than one key, so make sure you are keeping them all together😁

Mail your keys to yourself:

Pretty self explanatory, take a self-addressed envelope, put a stamp on it, seal your keys in the envelope and mail it away. This is a great one to get the keys completely out of your possession and away from you for a period of time.

Though I recommend at least using your real address so the keys get back to you 😜

Depending on how the mail runs in your area this could be a 2-5 day event, for the cost of an envelope and a forever stamp. If you mail it on Saturday night after pickup, the mail will not get picked up until as early as Monday, so that is an extra 36 hours. There are also holidays to consider in which the mail doesn’t run, so if you mailed your keys after pickup on Saturday of Labor Day weekend, the earliest the mail will pick up your keys will be Tuesday. By that point you will have already had almost 3 days of chastity, add that to how well the mail is in your area, you may end up in a week in chastity! That is not even mentioning mailing during the holiday season when the mail is at its busiest, at that point you may be hoping that the keys did not get lost in the mail 😬 Which is one downside to consider when mailing. How well do you trust your postal service? Sometimes things do get lost in the mail 🤷‍♀️

Freezing your keys:

This one does require you to have a fridge/freezer that you can use to freeze your keys. This one is a bit difficult to do if you share your fridge/freezer. Unlike mailing the keys to yourself, the keys will be with you, so there does require a little bit more restraint, but this can be a lot of fun. I had a lot of fun experimenting with this one, a proper sissy school girl doing proper sissy science 😚 So first and foremost don’t do what I did first and use a glass bottle. I first tried putting the keys in an old glass liquor bottle. That was a horrible idea

DO NOT USE A GLASS CONTAINER

As I learned, as water freezes it freezes from the outside in and expands which makes the frozen water less dense than the liquid water which is why ice floats. I also learned that it is a really strong force and will break the glass, as I learned when the bottle neck broke in my hand and crashed to the floor 😨 I was not injured😅

So next I used a plastic gallon jug, which has a couple of pluses. First and foremost it will not break into harmful pieces(at worst crack open), and second a gallon is more than twice as large of volume as the normal 1.75L that the large liquor bottle has (3.785 liters = 1 gallon) so it will take longer to defrost. Second mistake I made was dropping the keys in the bottom to freeze.

As everything melts from the outside in, this would be the first to defrost and makes the size of the container mostly obsolete. Solution: I tied the keys to a string, lowered it down until it was halfway in the container and taped the string to the jug.

Do not fill it to the top, remember water expands as it freezes so be sure to give it room. Freezing takes about 24 hours. I recommend checking in on it periodically, because ice freezes from the outside in and you will see your keys floating surrounded by its ice prison, and if needed you can add more water.

The first time I froze the keys in the gallon jug(keys at the bottom), I checked how long it took to defrost at 74F in the shade, and it took less than 8 hours. Those that are familiar with cooking meats, know that ideally you wouldn’t defrost at room temperature, but allow it to defrost in the refrigerator. After 24 hours of freezing I put the jug in the refrigerator. Following times are based on my fridge being set at the factory recommended coolness.

After a day the water on the outside has melted, so if my keys were at the bottom I would be able to pour them out at this point.

After 3 days the ice has defrosted enough in which I can now start to see the keys trapped in its frozen prison

Every day I see a bit more ice thawed, slowly and slowly seeing my keys becoming closer and closer to freedom

Finally after 7 days I see my keys floating freely in liquid water

Only one problem

The ice above is not thawed enough to let me pull the string out 😫 So I put it back in the fridge, and five hours later my keys were free!

From freezing to thawing was just over 8 days of chastity.

So the numbers I have for a gallon jug of water is: freezing - 1 day, thawing at 74F in shade ~ 8 hours, thawing in the fridge ~ 173 hours.

During this time you can start focusing on doing important things. At the longest it is 8 days, and that is plenty of time to accomplish things. Many sissys have maid fantasies, well use that time to clean your home, not just a little clean, but really deep clean your house(bonus if you have a uniform). Imagine your mistress/master will be inspecting it later. Ask yourself, “Would I want to serve someone that accepts this kind of work?” or “If I paid a couple hundred dollars for cleaning service, would I be satisfied?” whichever🙃 As you are locked up and cannot jerk off, you can start practicing on your blowjob and anal skills. Use this time to learn to deep throat, or work towards that ever elusive sissygasm. Set goals at the beginning of things that should be done by the time the keys are defrosted.

Because the keys take 8 hours to defrost at room temperature, certain tasks can equal x amount of time out of the fridge. Such as if you are practicing your deep throat skills, every time your nose touches the wall/floor equals five minutes out of the fridge. 8 hours would be roughly 100 times, or even for every second your nose to the wall/floor is five minutes. That gives over a minute and a half total of your throat being filled 😄 Cleaning your home can work in similar point systems too. Each chore is x amount of points, some may be more than others, as cleaning the bathroom takes a lot more than doing laundry(unless you are washing by hand). They don’t have to be sissy/sub tasks. You can make some of them for your better wellbeing. Such as, maybe you are someone that needs some motivation to get in shape. Have each mile jogged/walked/run can equal half an hour. Or can go simple and for the amount of time you spent working out is the amount of time spent out of the fridge. The plus side is you can work on your sissy figure and improve your regular quality of life 😁 These goals can really be for anything that you may need to work better on yourself, like reading more(yes I am talking to you), learn/practice a new language, learn/practice an instrument, even things that will help improve your career(insert your own examples lol). These are only a few examples. But make some tasks/goal(what needs to be accomplished) and rules(the rewards of completing a task and punishment for failing). Simple punishment is it goes back in the freezer. Remember to make sure your tasks/goals are realistic, and don’t try to tackle too many things at once. So often people get this huge motivation and think of all of these things they are going to do, but then when things aren’t working out the way they planned they give up. Schedules get made and when we can’t maintain them we give up. That is how those 10 dollar gyms are successful, their pay plan only works when the majority rarely/never show up. So if you set a really high goal that is unrealistic, say from never exploring anal to wanting to take Captain Ameica’s cock(see Chris Even’s cock) in that time period, maybe unrealstic. Or spending an hour a day working on your blowjob skills. Or the working out goal, you plan to run 2 miles every day, or every other day. That sounds great in theory, but if we fail to meet it we have a tendency to give up. You start out good for a day or two, then on day three you make an excuse on why you cannot and by day 5 you feel your goal is too far out of reach and give up. If that is the case, then adjust your goal and the tasks along with it, the first one may have been too ambitious. So if your goal/task is too difficult, instead of giving up on it, adjust it. Maybe I should be a Sissy Life Coach lol 🙃 Make the goals realistic, try to better yourself as either a sissy or even in your regular life. These are just some of my ideas on this.

I say this as doing this by yourself, but this is something that can be done in a keyholder relationship. And the keyholder can devise the tasks that serve them best.

Freewill:

Now freezing does take some freewill, there are plenty of ways to cheat, and get around things. It isn’t instant, but still freewill is required. Freewill doesn’t require you to freeze or mail or anything. So this last tip I have is: try to get better than the last time. I say this over and over, but remember baby steps. I did not go from buying my first chastity to 60+ 24/7 consecutive days. It took time and practice. I went an hour, then maybe two hours. If I got too horny or it got too painful, I would take it off. The next time I would try to go longer. My first attempt to sleep in chastity I gave up not even halfway through the night, it became too uncomfortable. I worked my way from there, now I prefer to sleep in chastity. So each time try to get better than the last, and if you fail, unlock and jerk off, or if you complete the time and are rewarded with unlocking yourself, well that’s a perfect time to work on becoming a cum eater 😛(again baby steps). If you always lose the urge after, then try to push yourself to at least bring some of it to your face, after that push yourself to taste just a little, and then go from there until you are eating it all 🤤 It may take some months but keep working at it😀

Have fun and drink cum ❤❤❤

[attack-on-kiwi]

For the fluff alphabet could you maybe do Erwin or Jean? Both of them are my personal favorite characters

You’ve got good taste! 

Jean alphabet can be found here

Erwin Smith:

A ctivities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?

Meals together is a huge thing for Erwin. This man’s schedule is packed to the rim, so any free time where he can catch his s/o hungry is perfect. He enjoys sharing even just a pastry or chat over a drink if that’s all they have time for.

Erwin looks forward to sleeping in the same bed as them. He considers embracing one another a completely valid pastime and ranks it as one of his top favorite activities. 

If he’s able to take his s/o out, he’ll do so at the fanciest place available (though, that’s not many considering where he is stationed at any given time).

B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

Their persistence and drive is what drew Erwin to them. He held himself to a rule about not giving into personal relationships when he became commander of the scouts since it would understandably get in the way of his goals, but his s/o never gave up on him. In the end, he was convinced to give the two a chance, and he couldn’t be more surprised by just how much they ended up meaning to him. 

Erwin finds their legs gorgeous. He’s a legs man, and there’s something about the way they’re only exposed for him that brings out an extremely possessive and blatantly mischievous side of him. He could spend all night kissing up their calves and thighs and not need a moment’s rest.

C omfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?

Erwin tries to be calm about the entire thing. He’ll immediately get them out of any noisy environment and try to coax the reason why their panicking out of them. He’s patient and lets them ride out the attack however they need to while stroking their back. He won’t say too much, rather he thinks if they want to talk to him they will. He’s not one to pressure them, but he’ll let them know he’s going to be there when they need to. 

He’s not one to get too hung up on their moods- after all, he needs to worry about other things, and unfortunately, their episode stays just another happening of the past.

D reams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?

Erwin doesn’t envision a future. Instead, he sticks to getting through days. He’s aware that his, and most likely his s/o’s, time is limited, so he’s not one to delude himself into thinking he truly has a future. Especially as the commander of the scouts, every expedition leads him just feet away from the jaws of death. That being said, Erwin is definitely an ‘in-the-moment’ type of person who does try to make the most of any time he can spend with his lover.

E qual - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?

He’s definitely dominant. He knows what he wants, and he’s quite expressive of any expectations he has. It’s important to him to be transparent and own up to being with someone. (Though, that doesn’t mean he’s completely open to them). Erwin likes to be in control and in the know of what he’s getting himself into, so he’s more than likely to take charge. He’s also a natural leader, so those tendencies can seep into his relationship more often than not.

F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

Erwin can forgive but he can’t forget. For smaller issues, he really doesn’t care, though he might think his s/o is being immature and will state as such. If the issue is more serious, such as loyalty or cheating him in some way, then he’s truly a power to be reckoned with. He’s logical when it comes to conflict, and this can be deadly as he will only face the cold hard facts. It’s uncommon for his anger to get the best of him. The most his s/o can expect is severe disappointment and long term trust issues that may never be resolved. Yes, he holds grudges, even if he seems all prim and proper.

G ratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?

He’s thankful for his s/o sticking by his side even though he can be a challenge to get along with. He knows he’s not the most approachable, and it’s even harder for someone to get him in a vulnerable state. Because of this, he’s always counting his blessings when it comes to him. He can be inconsistent in his displays of affection, and his s/o will question their place in his life at times. He doesn’t want them to, but he’s also aware that he’s not the best partner for someone who requires more tender and frequent care. He knows all too well the sacrifices his s/o makes for him, and he holds them dear to his heart always.

H onesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?

Yes, he has secrets. His true motives for his mission are never spoken of. Most of his past is a mystery as well, and it would take years or a notable traumatic experience for Erwin to even consider sharing anything with his s/o. He  believes if he’s with them in the moment, the past and topics that are irrelevant to them shouldn’t be important. 

He doesn’t go out of his to make it apparent that there are barriers. Unless his s/o is quite perceptive or has been with him for a long period of time, they may be none the wiser.

That being said, Erwin does hold a facade in public. He has to conduct himself in a specific manner as the commander of the scouts. When alone with his lover, he is more willing to relax and joke around with them. That’s his way of being honest.

I nspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?

No. Erwin’s stubborn in his ways, and he thinks he’s got this whole people thing down. His s/o brings out a more sluggish side of him--one that will indulge in staying in bed for a few minutes longer than appropriate, but there’s nothing notable. However, his s/o does grow thicker skin in their relationship and learn how to be more logical. It’s a byproduct of being around a calculated man who doesn’t feel the need to water himself down. 

Erwin is more than happy to guide his s/o with their issues. In fact, it’s one way he shows affection. To him, putting in effort to reduce pressure on his partner’s shoulders is one of the most noble deeds a lover can take part of. He’s on the practical side, after all, so putting his skills to use in such a manner is right up his alley.

J ealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?

Erwin is too secure with himself to even bother getting jealous. He knows he can handle any unwarranted passes and can get rid of people that may try to get too close to his s/o. Usually, he’ll let his s/o deal with a situation themselves-- seeing how they respond to obvious attraction is one way he gauges if they are worth the long-term. If it’s a situation they’re uncomfortable in or obviously overpowered, Erwin is more than willing to step in.

K iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

Erwin’s a phenomenal kisser. Working his way around his s/o’s lips is natural for him, and he knows just how to tease them to get them begging. He utilizes this skill more than he should, and how his s/o hasn’t slapped him for it is beyond anyone.

Their first kiss was sloppy and desperate. It was in his office after an expedition that left the scouts numbers dwindling, as always. The adrenaline and stress of another failed mission just overtook him, and his then indulgent interest was trying to relax him with a shoulder massage. Erwin simply cursed under his breath and stood up to face them. Next thing they knew, the commander wasn’t even giving them a moment to breathe with how hard he was loving their lips and neck. It surely left bruises, but no one was complaining.

L ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?

Erwin has never confessed lol

M arriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?

The thought of marriage crosses his mind only when he’s in a desperate situation, such as losing his arm on the battlefield and then when he has his fateful encounter with the beast titan. 

If he ever did propose, it would be a quiet affair, likely in his office where the two were illuminated by candlelight. Erwin has the rings already, and he’d just officiate for them, since there’s no use in getting an official one. He would consider it if his s/o requested it. Very few know the two are married, though he doesn’t make an effort to hide the face. He wears his ring when he can and will often find himself glancing at it.

Marriage with Erwin is nothing over the top. He will get his s/o gifts when he can and will love them as often as his schedule permits. For the most part, nothing about the relationship changes.

N icknames - What do they call their s/o?

“Dear”, “My other half”, “Sweetheart”, He likes using classical nicknames that can roll off his tongue and make his s/o melt. No matter how cheesy the names are, it’s impossible for his s/o to not feel giddy.

O n Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?

He’s kinder, patient, and allows himself to enjoy the little moments. He’ll take pause. He’ll smile openly. That facade of his cracks ever so slightly. Most others don’t take notice--no one knows him enough to tell a difference. His s/o can feel his love through his gentle kisses, the way he has a hand on their back in a crowd, how he always checks in with them before taking his leave, and the way his eyes look ever so slightly far off in a dream as he admires them.

P DA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?

Erwin isn’t prone to outright stating his relationship, though he will not hide it. If at an event, he is more than happy to introduce them as his s/o and even takes pride in the notion. He won’t brag, but he might allude to someone taking his s/o by example. “___ is exceptional at that, you might want to ask them”. 

Public displays of affection are limited to kisses on the cheek and linking arms. As the leader of the scouts, he’s not privy to the idea of going around and being intimate where everyone can see, but more so than that, he likes to keep his relationship to himself. It’s a personal one, so he’d rather enjoy it in his own peace.

Q uirk - Some random ability they have that’s beneficial in a relationship.

Erwin’s a scientist in the kitchen. He can make do with few ingredients and bring out the most of a meal. It’s always a treat to see what he’s coming up with, and date nights often end with him providing the fruits of his labor. Cooking is one of the few times his s/o gets to see him completely relaxed, so they try to have random ingredients lying around in case he wants to grace them with both his beauty and culinary skill. 

R omance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?

Now, I know I’ve been saying Erwin isn’t too personal, but he’s still romantic. Again, just in a traditional sense. He’ll slow dance in his office with his s/o and kiss them up and down their neck to make them laugh. He tells little off-hand jokes that most people, except his s/o, don’t catch. He’ll whisper about how grateful he is for them and how they make life seem a little less daunting. It’s hard to be completely romantic without being vulnerable… and he will be-- just for a second.

S upport - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?

It depends on the goal. Considering that his own goal, he has no right to call anyone else’s goal out of the ordinary. He does have strong opinions, and if he feels his s/o’s goal truly is out of reach he will say so. Aside from being opinionated, Erwin can help set plans and will hold his s/o to timelines. If they are serious about reaching said goal, he’s going to enforce whatever deadlines he can to make sure they are held accountable. He does this both to encourage responsibility and see his s/o thrive.

T hrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?

When he was younger, Erwin liked to go out of his way and be spontaneous. This involved riding out into the forest during ungodly hours of the night and breaking into thieves' hideouts to see if they could find anything interesting. Of course, he disguised those excursions under the flat excuse of ‘real life training’ but in fact, he just desired some sort of excitement. 

Later on in life, Erwin much prefers to stay true to a routine as much as he can. Due to his work, he can’t expect most days to go according to plan, therefore, he values having structure in his personal life. 

U nderstanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?

To even get into a relationship with Erwin, he needs to know a good amount about the person of interest. He’s suspicious and not easily swayed by others, so it gives him peace of mind to feel that he knows his s/o well, even if he doesn’t give them the same courtesy. Erwin is empathetic to a degree. He will not feel his partner’s emotions deeply, rather he will try to understand and respond appropriately, especially in sensitive times.

V alue - How important is the relationship to them? What is it’s worth in comparison to other things in their life?

His relationship with his s/o is more important than he lets on. They’re one of his reasons for living-- a fact  he will never outwardly admit. Erwin’s a loyal man, so his loyalty to his s/o is unquestionable. Sadly, his mission to ‘save humanity’ will always take precedence over them. 

W ild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.

When he’s had a notably stressful day, he wants to come home and sleep in his lover’s arms. It’s easy to convince him to sit in a bath and rub his shoulders. He’s susceptible to showing a little more affection than usual. He’ll entertain kisses down his shoulder and share tales from his childhood. If he’s tired enough, his s/o could even convince him to imagine a future (wild, I know).

X OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?

Erwin thinks he’s affectionate. He’s not opposed to his s/o wanting affection, and when he’s proud or feeling good, he will show it. As mentioned before, he’s touching his s/o in some way in public, even if it’s not conventionally intimate. When the two are alone, he likes having them in his lap as he peppers their jaw and collar with hot kisses. Oh, the mouth on this man-- hopefully his s/o enjoys being nipped, because there’s no stopping him.

Y earning - How will they cope when they’re missing their partner?

He looks at it logically. Either he dies before he sees them, or he’ll see them and they can enjoy one another’s company. There’s no point in pondering.

Z eal - Are they willing to go to great lengths for the relationship? If so, what kind of?

Yes, and no. Erwin’s already going through ‘great lengths’ for his mission. He uses this and says he is fighting for them, though the truth in the statement is debatable.

[inkofamethyst]

July 10, 2022

[yesterday]

Sometimes I wish I could be paid to sit around in pretty dresses and just exist beautifully.  Then I remember that humans are a fickle species and that our idea of beauty can change within seconds and that’s probably not the most reliable source of income.  And then I dip back into my escapist daydream again because honestly, it would still be nice, if even for a moment.

I self-drafted a Swiss Waist an Edwardian Dip Waist Belt (Swiss Waists have points that go up and down, Edwardian belts generally only point down) today and I’m literally in love.  The mockup (made from the teal poly bedsheet, baglined, with no boning or interlining) went together really quickly and it’s so striking against my black flannel circle skirt (which, one day, will be replaced by a black circle skirt made from a superior fabric, but today is not that day).  I’m going to have to do a few minor alterations and pick up a few additional notions, but I’m pretty sure I’m going to make a ton of these in all sorts of different colors and fabrics and patterns (after I do more research on what would have been worn during the period, of course, but also I don’t really care about accuracy and think it’s a fantastic use of scrap), especially since I can make them out of little off-cuts (now I’ve actually got an excuse to buy them at JoAnn instead of “oh maybe I’ll use it to line something later”).  I am ECSTATIC rn.  After this success, I might even feel brave enough to try doing some of those princess seam alterations I’d planned months ago.  And maybe I’ll draft some secret pants or another walking skirt with this whole basque waist thing goin on.

[today]

I have purchased the wares of Tailoress JoAnn and have since created a plum-colored Edwardian Belt sewn entirely by hand and I am in love with it and want many more.  It went together super quick and I could totally make even quicker versions (fusible interfacing, baglining, no boning), but this could become the type of handsewing project that I take with me to campus.  ALSO I’ve finally mastered the cute little whipstich instead of my raggedy uneven ones!!!

I am also very very very close to impulse buying a pair of Memery shoes during their summer sale/clearance event because I’ve always said that I wish I could have a pair of character shoes that I could wear off the stage and they’re basically exactly that and people say they’re super comfy and ahhhhh I mean they’re a wee expensive, sure, but I’m making a bit of extra cash this summer and they’d really really help with the whole historybounding thing (especially since I’m never ever ever buying cheap historybounding shoes again I mean the last ones I got are cute and all but they certainly don’t feel great).  It’s just a question of whether I actually want a pair of lil heels or some oxfords.  Unfortunately all the black ones are out of stock in my size :/  Brown, cream, beige, or wait?  I’m actually leaning toward waiting.

Next project: McCall’s 8177 View B with a little extra length, hopefully, from the beigey-pink I got overseas.  I’ve got my size cut out and I’m going to mockup the top to check for fit before diving in.  It’s supposedly a quick project, but we shall see.  Not historyboundy, exactly, but cute and fun and I said I wanted a sundress this summer and this might be as close as I’ll get.  Plus I should be able to wear it under skirts as a top :)

One of these days I’m going to talk about the breakup, I promise, but I’m kind of in a good mood right now and don’t want to ruin it.

Today I’m thankful that I have a decent sleep schedule lol.  It’s kinda nice to wake up refreshed at a decent time in the morning.  Hopefully I’ll keep this up for a while.