#mayastuff

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Being aromantic is tough, especially in a love-obsessed society and culture, but I feel so grateful to have lucked out with my mom.

I mean, yeah, she still says things like "You'll never know..." but she says it in a less adamant way that definitely doesn't imply that she doesn't believe me when I say it to her. I overheard her talking with my aunt saying that she was glad that I wasn't interested in relationships and both of them seem so understanding of me being aro.

She sometimes just randomly tells me stories of relatives and friends she had that lived fulfilling single lives in order to cheer me up when I lament amatonormativity and loneliness, and perks up whenever she hears real people who share my experience too!

Recently, I've noticed that she likes telling me about characters in the shows she watches that she thinks I'd relate to, and excitedly tells me when a character comes out as ace or aro or aroace.

Just- I'm so lucky to have my mom.

[mayadoesfandomstuff]

I was genuinely going through a lot lately and my friend bringing me back to the Persona series and genuinely being such a good person to talk to has helped me like loads the past few weeks. Imagine my delight when one of my favorite streamers, RTGame also started streaming Persona with his own typical RT flair. Like, I'm genuinely kinda excited to watch another playthrough of the game by him, ya know? All the while getting P5R from steam myself since I got the original P5 years ago.

I know it's stupid to be grateful for that, but I'm just glad that I'm having more fun with the franchise now than I ever had for the years I've been lurking the fanbase, especially since the games has genuinely helped me through my godforsaken time at high school and I need that comfort right now as I recover from my near-death experience.

[adhd-birb]

Hello!! My name's Maya and welcome to my ADHD/ND-focused blog! This is where I basically reblog ADHD and ND content as well as a place to post stuff about ADHD.

I'm still recovering from SJS so I won't be posting here as much.

Quick facts about me:

• Call me Maya

• Am in college

• Am Filipino living in the Philippines

[maya-chirps]

I don't really know if I should make a post about this, but I'm a bit disappointed with the whole idea of Raya and the Last Dragon being done the way it is.

Don't get me wrong, I'm glad there's more diverse Disney movies as of late and representation is always important, but I feel like how the movie is set in a fictional South East Asia kinda cheapens it for me. I feel like my country does have representation but it doesn't feel complete, like it's sorta there but it isn't?

I see arnis sticks and love her fighting since it makes me remember the arnis classes that I used to take in school, but when she travels around to fight the aesthetics of the buildings are super foreign to me since they aren't common in my culture. I see small little gold accent pieces that remind me of some of the historical series that I've watched as a kid, but their outfit feels foreign to me to bc it borrows from another country that I'm not 100% used to. I could imagine that some SEAsians feel the same way since they pretty much took the different cultures of SEA and just shoved them in a blender as I see it.

I do understand that it's more of a minority opinion compared to what other people think and it also doesn't mean I think the movie would be bad at all especially since I haven't even seen it and I think the animation is phenomenal from what we've seen so far in the trailer, but it would be hard to shake off this small disappointment.

I do hope for more movies and series set in SEA in the future whether it be fantasy or not and I hope Raya being made by Disney could start a trend on having more movies since I don't think anyone outside the SEA appreciates SEA culture enough.

[mayadoesfandomstuff]

Pinkboo?????

Edit: Lmao nvm. Wilbur is here. Rip Ranboo

Edit #2: Ranboo showed up as a fan that they had to fucking punch twice I cant

[secondyearjen-blog]

Conclusion.

During this term I have learnt how to animate, model, texture, light and render a scene. I feel that animation was my stronger point and model making/ texturing was my weaker. My strongest point of animation were my lip syncs. Next time I animate I shall polish the body movements more as in this animation some of the movements are quite jittery. I shall also pay more attention to my model clipping through the scene. For modeling I felt my strongest point was the modeling itself. Texturing was very difficult for me and I feel put off from it. Overall I have learnt a lot about animation and will pursue it more in the future.

[maya-chirps]

Doing group work with fellow neurodivergents is like, wrangling a bunch of toddlers, and you're also a toddler, and other toddlers are trying to wrangle you too, and everyone's screaming, hyperactive, and tired at the same time and we're only done with one paragraph

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I just stalled in answering an easy quiz that I can definitely look up the answers for the last three days. Turns out it was easy as fuck and I did well despite not looking things up.

Could I had done it earlier and do other work? Yep! Did I waste my time staring at my laptop dreading failure for a quiz I could just retake? Absolutely! Am I gonna learn anything from this? Probably not!

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This is cursed

Linguistics is cancelled

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Cleaning out my screenshot folder that I hadn't cleaned out in three years and I found an old thing I did that I sent to my friends

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I wanna write something related to the elections right now especially considering my family history with the Marcoses, but I can't on account of my medical condition. I'll write it one of these days though.

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I hate the fact that I couldn't vote because of my sudden illness (of which I'm still recovering from, I still very much could barely function right now I can't even eat solid food), but what I hate more is the fact that so many people were fed lies for decades that led to false narratives running amok the country. It has caused a lot of people to not even cares about what's happening to the point that they don't even know basic history about what happened to our country. I gotta say that I was more devastated that one of my best friends truly had no idea about our country's history to the point that we had to explain to him in detail why Marcos winning was bad, despite me already telling him to take the elections seriously weeks before I got hospitalized.

I don't know. I'm just tired, angry, and really out of it right now and my illness isn't helping me mentally.

[maya-chirps]

Ngl, reading the Percy Jackson books at age 14 had a lightbulb light up in my brain that maybe I need to check back into that ADHD suspicion I had when I was 12 that I long since burried after adults dismissed me since I was "doing too well to have ADHD." Took another four years to have any sort of thing close to a confirmation, but I do have to say that without hyperfocusing for two and a half days to finish those books, I would have been a wreck now and under an extreme case of denial and imposter syndrome. The books had helped me cope with the symptoms for the past few years since I've read it.

the Percy Jackson books will always be important to me because Mr. Riordan really just said “All of the good guys have ADHD and Dyslexia and it makes them STRONGER”

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These fucking elections are a fucking mess.

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Personal health update: Stevens Johnson Syndrome is a fucking bitch and I have been suffering for a month. Anyways, I'm beating this bitch.

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I just got officially diagnosed with ADHD after 8 years of begging and questioning! This is so surreal!