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when u go to write a mentally ill person in ur story you are presented two options. the first option is to write your mental illness realistically as you actually experience it with all the ups and downs and people who are like you will resonate with it and feel seen. except every person who reads instagram infographics on mental health that uses the phrase narcicisst for anyone who does anything that crosses them and unironically call themself a dark empath will call you scary and tell you that youre demonizing mentally ill people
the second option is to lie and write inspiration porn for those people to get hard to
#just kidding the third option is i drive myself insane#trying to find a way to write someone like me in a way i may be respected as a human being#without shaving away the more frightening aspects of my experience or life#challenge level . impossible. i will die. or they will make youtube 3 hour long rant videos about it someday#scratchpost#txt
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i need cute bras ୨୧
#i may die without them#this is a very serious matter#girl blogging#girlblogging#coquette#just girly things#dollette aesthetic#coquette dollete#dollette#it girl#lana del ray aesthetic#just girly thoughts#pretty girl#cinnamon girl#girlhood#hell is a teenage girl#just girly posts
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atf satoru try not to kiss wife for 24 hours challenge
“seven feet, satoru,” you tell him, moving yourself to the opposite end of the couch. “seven. feet.”
“but—“ he’s whining, obviously, and stretching his obnoxiously long body to fit the space you just left. his hands rub at the body warmth you’ve left behind longingly. “this is cruel and unusual punishment.”
you only roll your eyes, resuming your very diligent email checking.
“c’mon,” he pleads, throwing caution—and his glasses—to the wind. puppy eyes are very persuasive. “it’s been three hours.”
“oh good, only 21 more to go.”
satoru groans, pulling at his hair. “three hours.”
“three hours since what?”
you both look up, tsumiki standing at the end of the couch, smiling at you and scrunching her nose at satoru.
“morning, ‘miki, how’d you sleep?”
satoru whines again and shoves his face into the couch cushion—but not before he lifts his head so that tsumiki will give him a kiss on his forehead as she walks by, which she does, because she loves him or something.
she sits down next to you. “good. what’s wrong with him?”
you blink at satoru. “want to tell her what you did?”
“t’was a’ accident,” he mumbles, hanging his limbs in defeat.
tsumiki giggles again, but she still asks, “what did you do, dad?”
at that, satoru lifts his head. “nothing. i did nothing and your mother still refuses to touch me—i feel my limbs getting weak already,” he sits up, hand to his chest. “tsumiki i need you to call shoko.”
“shut up. you know what you did.”
he pouts.
“he pushed me out of bed in the middle of the night,” you tell tsumiki, shaking your head. “and he didn’t even wake up to check and see if i was alright.”
at that, tsumiki attempts to hold in a laugh—which she almost does, except she’s spent eight years living with the two of you so—
it’s safe to say that she coughs into her hands very subtly.
“i checked!” satoru argues, hands floating circles around his head. “i woke up from a very nice dream, which was ruined, and i tried to grab you but you weren’t there. i was all alone.”
“because you pushed me off—“
“why are you yelling,” and then your second child comes into the room and if satoru was going to win this fight—which he wasn’t—any chances have just been ruined.
“god,” satoru lays back down, turning so hes facing the couch, back to all of you. “i am a victim,” he says, very promptly and then shuts up.
tsumiki just gives megumi a little wave.
“sorry,” you say, even though you’re not sorry at all. “did we wake you up?”
megumi steps over your legs, his bed head very endearing. “no.” he sits next to tsumiki, resting a single palm on the top of her head as a hello. “where’s the coffee?”
“ask your father. he probably drank it all.”
megumi stares at satoru. white hair shakes sporadically, but the man-child makes no move to turn around.
you just shake your head, all of you waiting for satoru’s inevitable excuse.
#so short but i think i may die because ive lost my ability to be funny#so sorry to make you all suffer without my superior humor 😔 blame god or whatever#a typical family#gojo x reader#gojo satoru x reader#gojo satoru#gojo satoru x you#gojo satoru x y/n#gojo x you#satoru gojo x reader#jjk gojo#jjk x reader
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am i glamorous? tell me, am i glamorous?
#girlblogging#lana del rey#this is what makes us girls#lizzy grant#lana del ray aka lizzy grant#may jailer#elizabeth woolridge grant#born to die#lana del rey rares#ultraviolence#lana del rey without you
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i didn’t do it, i didn’t do it for love; what did i do it for?
[sequel piece to kill the sparrow]
#sleep token#sleep token art#sleep token vessel#sleep token ii#sleep token fanart#bygone art#blood#blood tw#death#death tw#ask to tag#<- idk what warnings are appropriate for this exactly#but yeah. please please please read the fic it has more context#for those who did:#at the end of the day in this timeline the cycle doesn't end. not with them#vessel ends up on the other end of the blade. he knew he would. he has known from the beginning#and it still hurts#not getting his throat slit; he has come to terms with that. it's who's holding the dagger to his neck#the one before was a stranger to him; still not easy to kill but easier when you feel nothing for them#ii is a friend. a bandmate. the closest person in vessel's whole life and he has to die by his hands#it isn't easy to let go. for either of them. but holy duty stands above any feelings they may have.#there's no vessel now; just a lifeless body that housed sleep once and never will again#there is no ii either. a new vessel now stands reborn#he is without a name but his new purpose is grander than he'll ever be#his demise laid out right in front of him#slumped at his feet#okay enough writing in the tags alex i hope you shit yourself (very affectionate)#sparrowverse#bygone lore
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Rio has twice now said 'te veo' as she walks away from Agatha.
I see you
See you
I hope no matter how bad things get in the end, when they are broken and bloody, standing across the battlefield from one another.
When they finally lance all that has been festering between them.
Faced all the heartache, the regrets, the laments, the sour ugliness of their grief, the deep and abiding love.
When they have a had a good cathartic fight to the end of all things.
Rios last words will be 'te veo'
With the explicit understanding that they will meet again. That this is never truly over. That I see all of you, all the parts you hide away. I still see you. Because it is not one way.
Agatha has always seen all of Rio as well.
They love each other because of who they are, not in spite of it.
A relationship like theirs is never truly over. They may not be lovers for now, may be opposing forces. But they will always be a part of each other.
They will always see each other as the truest of equals.
They may not have a happy ending, but then they will never truly end. So that is okay as well.
Agatha will never truly die
#agatha all along#agatha harkness#rio vidal#vidarkness#if you think for one second that rio would ever let agatha die for good#then we have been watching a different show#because rio may hate agatha#but her love is a much stronger driving force#you dont hunt down and kick in the door of your ex if you are over them#i know that agatha and rios relationship is not the point of this show#but it is integral to it#you cannot have a show about loss and grief without it being about their relationship with death#and agatha has a long and complex relatiinship with death#death is a part of who she is#as is her losses#it shaped her taught her and she is one of the few people who instead of running from death or fearing it#embraced death in a very real way#it will always be a part of her#rio will always be a part of her
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things you can't get back
aka i've been waiting so patiently to see kidd get his ass beat by shanks (affectionate)
#fun fact i am an anime only-er#because i'm watching it with someone who hasn't read the manga and i don't want to get ahead of them. we're in this together#but i was very aware of how the fight went in advance lmao#(and i may or may not be writing a fic that this is based on)#just smth about killer warning kidd they might not be so lucky as to survive this time#and kidd saying “oh well that's only if i lose!” is very interesting to me#bc kidd cares for his crew a lot but he is also very arrogant. and so he kind of fails to consider their safety bc he's so confident#he's not stupid he knows the risk to his own life. but there is an entire crew of people behind him who could also die#who he is currently disregarding a little bit. which i think was kind of killer's point in warning him#trying to get him to maybe reconsider on his own bc he's going to do what kidd says regardless#even if he thinks its an awful idea#and i just think kidd should get to go through the horrors over the outcome. just a little (a lot)#since killer tried to talk him out of it and he didn't listen and now they're all kinda fucked#i love him a lot and i want him to suffer deeply#what is a man without crushing guilt#kidkiller#eustass captain kidd#eustass kid#massacre soldier killer#killer one piece#one piece#one piece fanart#my art
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When Machete became a cardinal, did his parents ever recognize him?
Machete's home village was on the other side of Italy (and separated by the sea no less) and it was small, relatively rural and remote. It's very unlikely many news about Holy See's happenings made their way there. I don't think his parents had any reason to expect to ever hear about him again, he seemed to be somewhat of a lost cause when they dropped him off.
#to my best understanding class divide was so immense you'd be very unlikely to ever encounter a single bishop in person let alone a cardinal#and people didn't move around like they do now chances are you'd die in the same town you were born in without ever leaving it#Machete tends to stick out visually and he's an important figure so maybe he's known by word of mouth even outside of the Vatican walls#if his parents met him they might maybe recognize him but he probably wouldn't recognize them#he doesn't remember much of anything from his early childhood#he doesn't go by his original birth name he was renamed at the monastery and has essentially reinvented himself since he became a cardinal#so ties to his sicilian past are largely cut I think#social classes were very fixed and rigid I believe one of the only ways to move to a higher status was to become part of the clergy#and again you needed to be at least passably literate to do that that was the largest roadblock#Machete may be kind of pathetic but his social climbing skills are nothing short of remarkable#part of it is just dumb luck but he is exceedingly hardworking and very very good at what he's doing#it took him less than 30 years to move from a provincial foundling to pope's right hand man#answered#anonymous#Machete#Vaschete lore
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Things Are About To Get Significantly Fucking Worse
#sketchbook#artists on tumblr#illustration#acrylic painting#drawing#colour pencil#painting#my art#i imagine this as the lead up to the final boss of a video game you know the one where you die five times before you turn the difficulty#down to easy and then still die twice more#i may just be Bad At Video Games#also this sketchbook sucks to scan without the big boi scanners we had at uni it's all bent and i have to fix each one in photoshop. lame.#promise not to do any more ones with Foreign titles too guess that's a turn off#i taught myself to draw motorbikes for a project in 2013 and oh boy have i not retained that knowledge baby
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#swtor#sith warrior#eralei audroti#gonna ramble in the tags real quick hope u don’t mind#six years ago today i created one of my most beloved characters of my whole entire life#and i may not really Go Here(TM) anymore but i still love her just the same#i can’t even really put into words how much she means to me#without getting too much into it…as corny as it sounds she really did help me realize so much about myself#im no stranger to putting myself in a character... i have been doing this since i was a child#but there are such sacred precious pieces of me in eralei#pieces i never even realized i planted#and i will forever be thankful for this beautiful little creation of mine#she inspired me so much#led me to deepen some friendships even#even though i don’t play swtor anymore she will always have a special place in my heart#i will seriously cherish her until the day i die#she may just be a fictional character in a video game born from my imagination#but to me she is so so so much more than that#happy birthday eralei#i love u
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Theory: The Clone X was not Cody like some people think or even Fives (I know he's been dead for a very long time but so was Boba Fett and look where we are. Plus, Echo was supposed to be certainly dead too; making him Winter Soldier-esque storyline wouldn't be that surprising) or not even Slick.
((Also, now that we've seen his face devoid of any tattoos or scars I think first two takes are definitely not applicable anymore; they wouldn't put that much effort to make him unrecognizable))
Back to the point: In my opinion, The Clone X was none other than...
Fox.
Now let me explain.
Who else, other than X, was loyal to the law and justice dictated by it over any moral or ethic code?
Fox.
Who else was portrayed with such single-minded focus on hunting down traitors of the government he served, regardless of what it was?
Fox.
Who else could know not only Coruscant so well but also identify Rex like they knew each other?
He already was a remarkably successful tracker of traitors, why not make him more efficient by pointing them out for him?
Good soldiers follow orders, after all.
#clone assassin#commander fox#star wars tbb#i know that hes got killed really early after Order in comics but i would honestly prefer him to die this way#the bad batch spoilers#tbb#cc 2224#commander cody#arc trooper fives#ct 5555#tcw slick#cc 1010#star wars#sw tbb#sw the bad batch#the bad batch season 3#tbb theory#we dont even know for sure how fox looks like cause in one moment we see corries without helmets all of them have standard paintjob#there are 3 clones behind fox when hes shown and then the one taking off his helmet stands beside 2 others so it may actualy be it???#my point is: outside of one page incomic that can be at any point made noncanon or recontextualized theres no evidence that it cant be him#they already retconed more important things. why not this?#and as rogue said in coments X is a 10 in roman numerals so...#i think its likely that in case im right we can assume that all named corries were made into CloneX#none of them appeared yet despite how much of action happens on coruscant#and only thorn died on screen; in a way preventing him from being viable option nonetheless#three hits point blank months before Order seem unlikely but theyve done weirder things so him returning wouldnt be THAT weird so uhh idk#but yeah cx-02 is tech#winter soldiering doesnt stop#i mean THIS could be fox/other corrie but it being tech is way too cliche oportunity to waste it on them (derogatory towards disney)#pls disney let corries hunt down traitors like they used to pls
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Lana @ amoeba music in 2012💕💕💕
#without you#lana del rey#lizzy grant#amoeba music#lana del ray aka lizzy grant#lana unreleased#this is what makes us girls#coquette#just girly things#girlblogging#im just a girl#may jailer#may jailer sirens#cinnamon girl#waifspo#waif#ldr aesthetic#alana champion#americana#vintage#lana how i hate those guys#victoria secert model#cotcc#spilled ink#born to die#female manipulator#female hysteria#female rage#love you all#yungluv16
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me when someone says luke is a bad teacher and made grogu "choose" btw being a jedi and his dad:
what he did was ensure grogu could one day be a jedi AND have his dad now!!!
#bruh....#he said grogu's HEART wasnt in it#then created a child-appropriate scenario where grogu would be free to choose his dad with no ill will#realizing of course the love between grogu and din and feeling compassion as he loved and misses his own father so dearly#and he has a new Order where he will allow those attachments#only to hope one day (perhaps even after his own death) grogh would return to complete his trainjng#KNOWING he would never be able to do so if he isnt ALLOWED TO LOVE HIS DAD NOW WHILE HE HAS HIM#which was the OPPOSITE OF THE OLD ORDER AND THE OPPOSITE OF WHAT THE JEDI DID TO ANAKIN AND SHMI#luke skywalker is WISE and compassionate#he totally understood grogu#he said you may never see the mandalorian again- your training may take you elsewhere your bond may be frayed#and its true#maybe din would die on his own without grogu's help#which would have happened several times already in s1-2#LUKE GETS IT#anyway#dinluke#luke skywalker#i mean im not defending favloni bc they have no idea what theyre doing#but i dont think this was ooc as per luke's outlook on his new jedi ordee#order#din grogu#what he did was ENSURE GROGU COULD HAVE THE JEDI AND HIS DAD!!!
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IDGAF that ur a canon purist!! that's not the problem!! i care more ab the people having fun + being cringe and free!! my problem is that you keep shitting on their harmless takes!! fanon and canon are both cool!!
everyone's got different interpretations of characters!! besides, no one can ever be truly faithful to the canon!! when all ur takes that are "respecting the canon" character's traits are over exaggerated anyway!!
besides, everyone's takes/fics are technically ooc!! we are at the mercy of their creators/authors cause they have final say!! (pray for us all.)
alr RANT OVER!! i just dont think we should police others on interpretations that may or may not be "accurate/canon"?? its a silly discussion cuz no one is obligated to limit themselves like that
i just hope what i said made sense cuz its 2am and im so tired
#pingyappathon#yes this is about fnaf#yes it's specifically ab DCA#love canon DCA too just if u dont like it#just move on?? leave it be???#no hate to canon fans (i am one myself) just be nice others pls#may b a little rant but i would die for more people to be cringe and free without judgement#okay thats all gn#totally applicable to other fandoms tho tbh!#twitter just infuriates me but is that surprising to anyone#kinda important?
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friendly reminder that the ninth doctor and rose tyler literally invented love in 2005 when the doctor said “I could save the world but lose you” in s1ep5 of doctor who. not a joke btw just a statement of fact!
#you may think that love existed before then but you’d be wrong actually sorry#ninerose#ninth doctor#rose tyler#doctor who#dw#brief interruption between nonstop slutty thoughts ab that old man to go insane over dw s1#god…. it was literally so fucking GOOD#the longer I go on without watching it and like consuming different media I’m like damn. middle school sunny really knew what was up fr.#like it wasn’t just the hyperfixation talking that rlly was just an incredible season of television#it’s so fucking well written… and MR. ECCLESTON’S PERFORMANCE. GOD.#I will literally be demanding his Oscar until the day I die
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from the 100 paired prompts list - ⁶¹⁾ peach pits and a pressed shirt collar for Jo and Joe. (yes you heard me.)
The sun rises early in late July, the beginning of August. She’s too warm, lying here in bed, unable to fall back asleep. Outside, a blackbird in a backyard tree sings. A warbler too, as she watches the light on the floor barely touch the murky outlines of their furniture — the dresser, the vase, the lamp, the mirror.
A sleeping Joe lies heavily beside her, soft snores and uncombed hair, the faintest stubble he’ll be shaving away in an hour at most.
Her tongue sticks in her mouth, tastes like teeth. Craving something. None of it’s been too strange, or at least no more strange than how she normally eats. Salt with the sweet, sour with the fat. She won’t ask him, she decides. She can take care of it herself. She can’t sleep anyway.
A few scattered mornings have seen her do this, take the car. Joe doesn’t mind, of course. He doesn’t put the work into it for nothing, he says. She’s dressed loosely, throws an old jacket on over all of it. Takes her wallet, her sunglasses. She almost smiles — it feels almost like stealing a Jeep. The air outside is fresh and cool, not yet hot with the afternoon sun.
The stand she’s thinking of is indeed open, a wooden sign wet with dewy grass. Plump peaches — Sugar May, the farmer calls them — brilliant nectarines and deep purple plums, delicate apricots, a few containers of cherries, like a lipstick ad in Technicolor, come to life.
She doesn’t know him well enough to dissuade the help loading a small box of the peaches into passenger seat, and something tells her he would’ve offered anyway. Something about him reminds her of something gone, his kind and wrinkled smile, faded flannel and work trousers, a lost summer afternoon before the war. He tells her to enjoy the fruit; she tells him she will.
Joe’s up by the time she’s back; she smells coffee from the open door when he’d gotten up from the table at the sound of the car pulling in. She sees his steaming mug on the blue-checkered tablecloth, hers set out on the counter. He’s dressed in blue too, collared chambray work shirt and darker trousers.
He looks surprised, at her early-morning mission, but doesn’t say so. Doesn’t look at her like anything other than who she is — the woman he married, the girl in love, the writer who chased the story halfway around the world and came home to him. He looks like a boy in love, when he looks at her.
“These look good,” he says, taking the box from her after his greeting, the good morning, the kiss he’d pressed to her lips after she’d set hers to his cheek. “Thank you.”
“I thought I might try and bake with them,” she says. “Evie sent over a recipe.”
She pushes her hair back behind her ear, catches a glimpse of herself in the mirror. Disheveled, hair a little wild from the open car window. Pink-cheeked. She wonders when the doctors are going to try and put her on bedrest. She’s getting there. She doesn’t know how she’s going to handle it.
He’s already holding one in his hand.
“Go on,” she says, smiling. “He wouldn’t let me leave without extras.” There’s a nectarine or two nestled in there, two clusters of plump cherries.
He doesn’t argue, only leans over the sink and bites. The door’s closed, the light beaming through the curtains he didn’t open. She can do this, now. Press her fingers to his, sticky from the sweet white flesh, ignore the clock on the mantle, kiss him breathless against her heart.
#write about peaches without using the word flesh challenge failed#THE RETURN OF JOE TOYE#joe toye back for more#mercurygray#shoshi writes#jo's tag#wip: when the war came#merc i needed this thank you#i won't lie and say it doesn't feel weird to come back after all these months but. i love them very much and nothing has changed that#and thank you for reassuring me that this is not the uncanny valley i feared#no rereading we die like men etc#I Will Not Nitpick#i'm sure sugar may peaches were not around in the 1940s but i liked the way they sound so who cares
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