#manifesting good grades ig

[y-vna]

I dont want my blog to die, so I guess I'll be posting mbs still next week/tomorrow/over the weekend? Idk I thought my finals were next week, but it's actually 2 weeks from now. I still have to study but like..😭😭🫤

At least I have a bunch of drafts now.

[mildew-dread-mold]

my professors and tas who smile at me specifically when i come in because i show up at every class and sit near the front not knowing i am aggressively and unintentionally zoning out every week and have no idea what they said last class

[peachkkuma]

ᰍִ ۫͟ ͟ ☁️ ִ✧ 𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐅𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐌𝐘 𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐌 𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄

hello, I’m Tiffany and this is my manifestation diary! If you haven’t read my previous diary entries yet, recently I’ve come to the realization that I’ve overcome all of my obstacles and there truly is nothing in my way except for me. So I made the decision yesterday to put my foot down and take the leap of faith, in other words, stop putting off manifesting my dream life because of fear. now this account will hold not just my diary entries but also the documentation of my journey to finally and seriously manifest my dream life.

╰┄┄┄┄┄┄┄┄ ♡ ♡ ♡ 05.21.2024

let’s begin!

ㅤㅤㅤ𝐈. ⊰ ۫ 🐻‍❄️ ◌ ִ ੭ ˑ DEFINING THE OBJECTIVE

I want to make the end goal a bit more clear, the term dream life is both pretty straightforward and a bit vague. what would I like my dream life to include? how would my dream life make me feel? and ofc, I’m not just manifesting my dream life, I’m manifesting my dream self. what would my self concept be? how would I like to be?

tiffany’s dream life check list - what it means to live my dream life

attend my dream school

be 100% perfectly healthy (physically, mentally, emotionally, in every way basically)

have good eating habits and a good relationship with food

have perfect straight A pluses (revision to previous grades as well)

have the perfect friend group for me

healthy, super soft, hydrated, moisturized, smooth clear skin (and elimination of acne genes) (body + face)

perfect tangle free hair at all times, pretty, voluminous, bombshell hair

a healthy, perfect, loving relationship with everyone in my family

own a super cute and fluffy golden retriever puppy

high paying jobs for my parents <3

have a rolls royce with a pink exterior

grow taller

have every single clothing item I’ve saved on Pinterest

have my YouTube channel blow up

complete head to toe desired appearance

desired lifestyle

perfect eyesight

be super good at makeup and have all desired products

have a gorgeous bedroom

have a very active and lively social life

have the perfect, most ideal school, social, and home life

completely healed phone addiction

have a lot of desired hobbies that I’m very good at

have a fun and eventful life, always have fun plans and something going on

be on the right track career-wise

elimination of social anxiety and shyness

high self esteem and confidence

be more in touch with my culture

be a complete master at manifestation

huh, this is shorter and less serious than I thought it’d be, ig this was also a way of getting out of my own head. I thought manifesting my dream life would be a bit challenging for some reason, but ig a dream life rlly isn’t as complex as I thought it was. I mean now I feel silly, it’s just a dream life! nothing more than a lifestyle and a few personal fixes. I feel like I just got humbled.

𝐈𝐈. ʚ ⊹ ִ⏲️ 𑁯͟ ɞ THE OUTLINE

alright, I know what I want and I know how manifestation works. but just to make sure I don’t over complicate anything or things dont get confusing, I’ll create a sort of plan or outline. Little steps I can fall back on if I get a bit lost.

step number one we have covered, have a desire

step number two, put your foot down and make the firm decision that you have it. this decision is for good, nothing u do can take this decision away so don’t u dare worry about “ruining progress” or “messing up”— u’re better than that.

step number three, once you’ve decided it’s done, it’s done. the only and I mean it when I say only thing for you to do is to act like it. imagine you, the creator of your reality, making the decision that you have something only to then be like “is it coming?” “do I have it?” BE FR!! act like you have it, think like you have it, and see the world as if you have it— because you do. you decided you did, didn’t u? It’s ur reality, what u say, goes. and no, you’re not acting like u have it to get something out of the 3D, you’re doing it for your sanity. Because you deserve a break, you deserve relief, you deserve to be the you that has it all!! let yourself be in the sowf because why shouldn’t u be certain you have it? don’t entertain anything that says u don’t. getting in the sowf is easy, u deciding u have it is all the confirmation u need. there’s no reason for u to not be certain u have it.

sowf = knowing that u have it

step number four, optional not necessary but it’s really gonna help and is fun. immerse yourself in the new story. experience it!! have fun!! u finally got what u want, u finally r who u want to be, so choose to live that life!! try methods for the sake of fulfilling urself (never to make anything appear in the 3D, u know better, 3D desperation doesn’t get anybody anywhere.) try out methods to have fun and be more familiar with having what u want.

that’s it girl, that’s all u gotta do, that’s all u ever had to do. decide it, experience it, assume it. u don’t always have to feel “good” or “happy” u just have to know u have what u want, u just have to assume. the goal is to truly know that u have it, to be faced with the 3D and still know it in ur bones u have what u want. u deserve to trust urself like that, u deserve to be fulfilled like that, and u deserve those things from YOU not from the 3D. U deserve to feel secure in urself, don’t let ur security come from the 3D. loa bloggers mean it when they say the materialization is simply the cherry on top and I get that now. For me, it’s about being able to depend and trust urself, to rely on urself, and in that way everything else comes off the pedestal.

✉️ : ahhh I forgot to finish up this post yesterday but here it is!! I’m so excited!! part two to come soon ♡

[buttercupspotify]

GO GIRL 😭🤝🙌!!!

thoda toxic study motivation lele behan 😔👍

[shradsmanifestt]

I’ve been affirming and persisting for two months to get good grades on my exams and I still failed. idk did I smth wrong? I’m so frustrated rn:(

Well don't you think you're relying on your 3D a lil too much? If you know that imagination is the only reality and you already have what you want. Then why bother getting confirmation with the 3d?

Why care if the 3d isn't changing. It changes only when you change. Now don't say you've been affirming for soooo long and still it didn't change. You have been affirming all right but ig the rest of the time you were just checking to see if you affirming had worked or not. You're frustration speaks volumes. And while I understand your situation, as a manifester lemme say I have no time to sympathise with this situation cause what you need to do is simple. So quit whining and do what you need to do. You just need a lil bit of tough love alright?.

You've got this, I have faith in you stranger ❤️

[starrytowonder]

Success Stories ฅ⁠^⁠•⁠ﻌ⁠•⁠^⁠ฅ

Hello everyone! Long time no see, decided to post sum success stories that are recent for anyone who might like 'em. Ꮚ⁠˘⁠ ⁠ꈊ⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠Ꮚ

All college classes I wanted an "A" grade I ended up getting!! All i did was feel with my emotions (calm, secure) that I would get that grade and I did! One of these classes was Geography, and I was at an 85, there was like a week left of class and I was scared lol tbh. That same day when I was freaking out, my professor pulled me aside to let me know that her student helpers (that I was apart of) would be getting 5 extra credit points. Ok good, that would get my grade to an 87...I need a 95 to be an A, so now I realized that I needed a perfect score on my final in order to get an A. The final was at home and I was worried sick that Canvas (the app we take the exam on) would bug around on my 2G home network. Thankfully it didn't....I ended up getting a 25/25. For reference, for my midterm I got s 13/20 grade so getting a 100% was abnormal 💀💀 SO YEAHHHH I GOT AN "A" IN THE CLASS YESSSS!!

I went thrifting and wanted specifically to find some NEW, NOT SCRATCHED CDs for The Smashing Pumpkins and The Cure (lol) AND GUESS WHAT I found two for TSP and one for TC!! All three in brand new condition and for $2 each...I was so happy I played them both as soon as I got home lmfaooooo 💀💀

Might be a smaller one but it counts for me. I've been struggling with my appearance as of late and so I wanna start manifesting looking better ig. After crying for like the past two days I just let myself let it out because honestly I'm not a fan of repressing emotions. Anyways, last night I decided to comfort myself and try to listen to some audios overnight. I ended up having a really sweet dream where a man called me pretty and told me to not worry about my appearance as much because I was beautiful lol. Idk. It's not really a success story but it mean alot to me so. ʕ⁠·⁠ᴥ⁠·⁠ʔ Gonna try looping those audios for a week and will update lol.

[mayoshifts]

manifestation story 💪🏽

i just remembered this now but when i was about 9-11 i would always listen to get taller subliminal because i was always second tallest in my class and i was trying to beat this girl. i got really close, we were about the same height but i never managed to go past her

after i went to middle school, i didn’t want to be tall anymore (i started using tiktok and consuming toxic beauty standards) but i just kept growing. i started using get shorter subs but then covid happened and i stopped using them up until 8th grade. whenever i went to the doctor they always said the dreaded “5’7.”

in my freshman year of highschool, i realized that i really wasnt that tall compared to everyone around me so i stopped obsessing over my height. (also started getting tons of compliments on my height and appearance so i was like 🤩🤩💪🏽💪🏽🕺🏽🕺🏽)

fast forward to last year, my sophomore year. i went to a doctor and they took my height, i sat up straight and everything, expecting to hear 5’7 or higher. the nurse told me i was 5’5. lowkey i was a little annoyed bcs i’d finally started liking being 5’7. but in the end i really shouldn’t be bcs i got what i wanted for so long (3 years of my life😪)

anyways, now that i’m a junior, i guess 5’5 is a good medium between short and tall. it’s crazy how manifestations work bro. i got what i wanted TWICE. back in elementary and now in highschool. this experience and my last ones show that if i obsess less over my manifestations then they’ll come without me realizing ig

toodles🤺😈🕺🏾

[553everly]

a success story ++ how i did it.

what did i get ?

so recently i manifested a new house + a superior job to mom ++ large amounts of money coming toward all of us. THOSE WERE UNDER A WEEK.

i also started building my dream wardrobe slowly with amazing clothing items. bought bags, my desired skincare products + desired makeup items too.

Eating sushi and dumplings for the first time !! DUMPLINGS WERE FIRE !! sushi was good, and i ate avocado for the first time?? i discovered I'm not into it in any way and removed it along w sushi from my life board at Pinterest (I was planning to be eating am sushi in my life along w avocado in my salads or wtv)

basically everything is going perfectly my way lately and everything feels very amazing.

what i actually did ?

A PINTEREST BOARD trust me, it's like a vision board and your mind needs a guide to know where it's going. make a Pinterest board with everything you want, and take a look at it affirming "my life is exactly like what I'm looking at rn" or wtv affs you like, you can use a sub too. Just add wtv you desire type of beauty, desired body, your lifestyle, fashion, grades, room, house, car, items, food. Literally everything ! I literally ate the same sushi that was in my board + bought same skincare and makeup products. It's so powerful. ( You can use a sub along w it.)

I had a mindset playlist. it included everything i ever thought i needed. yk like master manifestor / manifest for others ect.

it can be at any length tbh, depends on the how much time you have at morning! you can listen to the 10 mins the only sub you'll ever need by iwantitigetit or her recent one or v1per's whatever. You can ask for my recommendations too !

anyways once the playlist is ready (can even include one sub) you go prepare your daily affirmations. just a collection of affirmations that you'll repeat ×3 times.

For me - i had two parts of affirmations. Ones with self concept + self esteem + self love + self confidence affirmations.

the other with the i am a master manifestor, everything works out in my favour, i am living my dream life +++ specific affirmations with a feeling (creds to the owner) like I feel so safe and secure now that I have moved into my desired house.... something like that, the feeling can be gratitude.

AND THAT'S IT. Literally.

ill share the affirmations i used to say (creds to the owner since I stole them from random affs posts i saw in here + ig)

the affirmations.

SELF CONCEPT : My manifesting journey has always been easy fun and beautiful.

I’ve always been a master at manifesting. I’ve already manifested everything I wanted. I accept my power to create the life of my dreams I’m beyond powerful and in control nothing can deny my desires. I live in a state of bliss pleasure stable calmness peace and wealth. I’m divinely blessed in life. my life keep changing for the better. I’m a magnet for miracles blessings and abundance. Good things keep happening to me. My life has always been perfect I am always in a good mood and state of life. everything is perfect and I worry about nothing. I’m completely healed inside and out. I have a perfect mental health. I’ve never been healthier and happier. I am enough worthy and safe. I am the girl who has it all. I am worthy of everything I want. I am worthy of everything I have. I am stable and secure. I’m always safe and protected. I’m a master at manifesting. I can have anything I want. my life is beyond perfection. I manifest what I want effortlessly. I’ve always been rich. I can afford anything I want.

AFFIRMATIONS :

I literally have all my desires in a blink of an eye. I always get what I want no matter what. It’s insane how many blessings and abundance rains down on me. I'm so blessed. I’m the chosen one, the luckiest person on earth. My life is always on the right path to true success happiness abundance and love. Everyone aspires to be me and do all the things I do. I live a life of extreme luxury and wealth. Everything I touch turns to gold.I can afford anything I want. I get pampered and spoiled every single day. Im the type of cool you can’t buy or fake. I’m ambitious driven and disciplined. Nothing can stop me.

I’m the most successful and wealthy person to ever exist. Every time I breathe I’m sent a miracle blessing and money. I have men and women all over me. I’m pursued by the hottest richest and nicest people. People always respect me. People would move mountains for me. i’m always the first choice and top priority. I’m so beyond spoiled and rich it’s insane how much I have. everyone wants to spoil me that’s why I receive the VIP treatment 24/7. I deserve the absolute best and most lavish in life and I’m getting it. My self concept and self esteem is sky high. Nothing can break my confidence. I’m one of a kind and everyone knows it.

CHALLENGE AFFIRMATIONS : i am living my dream life. I have my ideal face, I have my ideal body, I live in mom's ideal house and have my ideal room, mom has her ideal job and i study my ideal major in my ideal country and city, every wish of mine is granted. i manifest effortlessly. everything always goes my way. i deserve the best and i never settle for less. i only get princess treatment. my friend group loves and supports me. my mom and siblings are loving and supportive. i am full of love for myself. i am never ashamed to put myself first. i am at peace with myself and others. I am unbothered. I do my own thing proudly. I am so incredibly happy and grateful that I get to live such an amazing life. I get richer day by day. everytime i blink i earn money. getting money is so easy for me. i can afford everything I want. my money is always wisely spent. being rich is my destiny. i am basically an extremely powerful money magnet. i have always been rich. I always have more than enough money. I am literally a billionaire. I am worthy of being rich.

the end <3

IT IS LONG I KNOW my sub playlist was like + an hour long. i just have so many free time at morning so. you can do yours at night, whenever you're free. GOOD LUCK !!

[gloriousrunwayninja]

HOW I MANIFESTED BECOMING THE IT GIRL OF MY REALITY!

this post is not mine it belong to @pearloholic on IG

DISCLAIMER ! … What I state in this post is 100% NOT NEEDED in order to to manifest anything or anyone! At the end of the day, the best manifestation method or technique is what feel's most natural to you! I am simply posting this in hope's of it helping any of you and because this was highly requested.

Recently on my Instagram story I have told you all about how I am the it girl of my reality. I have girl's and guy's being head over heel's for me, I am the literal definition of a hallway crush, I receive marriage proposal's already from here (The U.S) and outside the US, have my grade's at an all time high, am loved by my teacher's, randomly receive money from those around me, + more! (No I am not affirming, I am stating actual fact's)

How did I do this you ask? I'll explain in this post! I will not just tell you all to affirm and persist because I am tired of hearing that 24/1 (it's not that it's not true but I think we have all heard that enough). I will tell you the actual method's I did and the mindset I gained in order to do this!

I stopped putting manifestation on a pedestal. Before, I was obsessed with manifestation content. I used to watch 100 different manifestation YouTube video's, scroll through LOA Instagram and Twitter for hour's, look for success storie's every minute, and more! … I consumed so much content and everytime I tried what the content said, I would remember what another manifestor said and start questioning the "right way" to manifest. So how did I fix this? I acknowledged that everyone's manifestation journey is different. People grow up in different environment's and therefore different Limiting belief's subconsciously affect them. Person A might have a limiting belief that nothing can be changed because that is what their family constantly engrained into their mind but person B? Person B was alway's told to never give up and that change is possible. Therefore, person A might struggle a bit more in that aspect in manifestation and think "How can I change anything and anyone with my thought's only?" but person B would think "Aha! I knew it! Of course it is possible, manifestation is real"

So what is the moral of the story? Manifestation coache's, account's, etc… have all faced different limiting belief's so how they tackled it is also different. Just because something didn't work for them didn't mean it would not work for me and vice versa!

After this realization I stopped affirming 24/7, stopped rushing to play all 100 subliminal's before the day end's, stopped Scripting till my hand hurt. All of this worked for other manifestor's which is great! I am happy for them but guess what? It didn't work for me because when I spent so much time on manifestation I was more in the mindset of "I am doing this because I don't have my desire's and I am desperate to get It now. Eventually, I only affirmed when I remembered to or wanted to, listened to subliminal's with good music so I could listen to it while getting ready and while Imagining me in edit's and making up scenario's in my head, stopped scripting because it was not my favorite, and stopped looking through excessive amount of manifestation content. Guess what? My result's started FLOWING in. Why? Because it felt so natural that my desire's felt more like "Yeah yeah yeah I have this/ them as alway's! Moving on…" so I was in the state of wish fulfilled, I was living in the end!

Q: whatd you affirm?

PEARLOHOLIC:  I did not have a set of affirmation's, I just said whatever affirmation popped into my mind that was related to the topic. If I thought about being loved I would randomly affirm "I am loved, I am wanted, I am everyone's top priority ..." and then 3 hour's later when I feel like affirming for the same topic it is usually different and more like "Everyone want's me, people can't help but choose me ..."! But it depend's on your personal preference.

love, jade

[rrxnjun]

I ACTUALLY YELLED SEEING LIEBESTRAUM WAHHHHH;-;-;;-;-;-;-;; THANK U SO MUCH FOR WRITING IT I CANT WAIT TILL JUNE;-;;-;-; i cannottttt tell u how happy u actually made me with that wahhdhfjf

OOO MAN☹️☹️I HOPE UR MENTAL HEALTH WILL GET BETTER!!!! AND U DONT SUCK!!! TAKE UR TIME WITH IT u shouldn't listen to them when ur not in the mood for them it will deff ruin the vibes so take all the time u need!!!!

i agree with that the only good noise music i listen to now is all from nct and when i hear other bgs' i'm just😟😟😟 IM SURE HE WAS AMAZING CUZ ALL OF THEM WERE🤌🤌 the song genuinely slaps so i'm not surprised if it makes it in there

well idk people said i study a lot so i just accepted the fact but i never feel prepared enough so;-; tbh the percentage is lower just to pass💀 but i need the plus point for uni and that's the limit for getting it but yeah i feel like it shows that hungary does not go for making people smarter lmao💀 I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND THE POINT LIMITS FOR GETTING INTO UNI wahhh the whole thing is dumb🫠 thank u!!!! i have three more speaking exams so i'm shitting my pants rn😃OH NO☹️ i hope u passed the second one exams suck so i hope it didn't hit u hard!!!! GOOD LUCK WITH THEM!!! IM SURE U WILL DO GOOD ON THEM!! MANIFESTING SO HARD!!!! I HOPE U ARE DOING WELL AND ARE TAKING CARE OF URSELF!!!! (liebestraum anon💓💕)

(the review reply: art sucks for that reason sm;-; but i deff learned after a few times of that happening with me as well to just sleep on it and throw it out after but it still amuses me how can art have this effect in a way (idk how to explain what i mean rip) AND THANK U FOR NOT HATING IT U JUST MADE ME THE HAPPIEST PERSON ISTG!!!)

IM REPLYING TO THIS ASK LITERALLY SO LATE THAT THE FIC IS DROPPING TOMORROW LMAO ADJSK i have to warn u tho its quite different to the original draft i had and the teaser i posted from it 😶😶 hope you still end up liking it !!!

SJSJ thank you thank you 😔😔 you are always so sweet and understanding ily mwah.

nct noise is the only good noise in kpop. there i said it. 😶 (this is a joke there are a few more good noise songs from diff groups pls dont jump me im targeting one fandom in specific w this yes) like nct could do any of your favs songs but could your favs do sticker? no. thats right.😌 AHHH im glad u liked my babies cix i was told by spotify that they are my top listened to artist of the last 4 weeks so. 😃 yeah. they also had a comeback like 2 days ago if u wanna check that out cough cough

if people tell u that, its probably true AHAHA 😭😭 me and my friend were talking the other day like i dont even study that much like i get to the 2 hour mark and i go well 🤷‍♀️ thats it for the day ig. like i dont have any more brain capacity LMAO. Oooh i do get you w the uni points stuff!! me being a straight A student was what got me into uni too bc switching from business hs to psychology was actually kind of insane coming from me LMAOOO i had no bonus points from biology or anything so my grades helped a TON since i fucked up the entrance exam too lol 😭😭😭 im rooting for you !!!! I feel like slovakia doesnt really care abt that either ?? there are definitely better and worse unis tho and i unfortunately attend the one thats one of the best so they kinda care..😔 SPEAKING EXAMS ARE THE WORST THEY SHOULD BE CANCELLED LIKE THATS 3 TIMES THE STRESS U HAVE WHEN TAKING A WRITTEN ONE. i hate those sm omg i am PRAYING for you (i have only one speaking one this semester and i am mentally preparing for it for the last few weeks) i actually passed the second try (with an E, but i still did it....) and i have another exam w the same professor this friday so..🤞

i am trying to learn how to be patient w art (and life) so it prevents me tearing everything out and throwing it out.....so you are right abt that AHAHA thats a good advice to take

as always i hope youre doing good, taking care of yourself and having a good time!! mwah

[sungbeam]

duckie 😭😭 the fact that you dedicated a comfort fic for me i’m gonna cry 😭 i promise i will reblog it soon (i’m superstitious and i’m manifesting good grades on my exams rn lol) but thank you?? i don’t deserve you at all, you helped me so much this past week and especially on tuesday :( i’ve been a little inactive bc i’ve been studying lately but imy!! how are you 🥺

ahhhh im glad u saw it !! i wanted to write something for u after that night esp cuz there's such a lack of moonbae fics here nowadays, then i had a moment the day after and i knew i had to write something comforting for sure :') and don't worry at all !! pls do get thru ur exams first, i'm like the exact same way w the superstition (´Д⊂ヽ

i miss you too and i hope ur still doing okay <3 i've been better ig :') got some exam scores back and im a little devastated and yesterday when i met my best friend irl and we caught up, i think i felt even worse hearing how well all of my former peers r doing compared to me </3 but we'll get thru (that was such a downer sorry skfnsknckd i'll prob be fine tho)

[queenofapeacefuldawn]

tbf i think these kinds of thoughts began occurring to me since last year.

tw: mentions of suicide

in eighth grade, i'd had a classmate, who i didn't know was depressed. i think nobody in our class knew, and, i remember, during the dance recital, he and his friends were sitting next to me and my friend group, and we were jokingly taking pictures of each other, and i showed him the middle finger. i didn't mean anything by it. then, on that saturday, a family member of mine died. we'd kinda expected it, he'd been in the hospital for some time, and was suffering. that saturday morning, we went to his funeral. that saturday evening, we were panicking over assignments due on monday. the next day (sunday) was a sort of music-memorial (it's a custom in hindu funerals, i think) for the family member, and we went out to dinner. during dinner, my friend texted me, "hey, you know [classmate] died? at least, that's what (somebody) told me"

i had genuinely thought she'd meant he'd figuratively died of, like, all the homework, or he'd gone offline and "died", so i said, "eh, probably."

the next day, on monday, an announcement happened: our classmate had died, and it was an accident. he'd fallen off the balcony in his building, and had died.

but it wasn't an accident. on the day he'd died, some twenty minutes before his body had been found, he'd sent a text on the class group chat, sending a picture of the balcony, saying, "i'm gonna commit suicide", and, "tell my mom i loved her". my friend and desk-mate at the time had thought it was a joke (we frequently made jokes about killing ourselves, so it was commonplace), and she said, "oh, good luck." she was devastated, and told the teachers about the texts, which was subsequently deleted. someone had taken screenshots, tho. and, by the second period, everybody was saying what had really happened. the teachers had tried to convince us it was an accident even after that, but... didn't work. the counselor talked to our class, said how we should "learn to notice the signs" or something like that.

i was a bit disoriented, bc a family member of mine had died, as had a classmate of mine: both within, like 12-14 hours of each other. i was upset that my last words to him hadn't been anything nice. i was upset that i hadn't noticed he was struggling, even though we spoke often. i went and cried to my sister, who'd been in the class opposite of mine, and she and her friend got special permission to go out of class and take care of me. and.... that was that. after, like, two periods of mourning allowed, we were expected to do bio after that.

but everyone in our class was way more sensitive to jokes about suicide after that, and every time his roll number was brought up, an awkward silence would follow (it was too late in the year for his name to be struck from the rolls).

a couple months after that, we'd had to make a poster for anti-bullying in art class. another guy i knew (we were nemeses), saw my poster (i'd written something about how bullying can drive people to suicide), and he says, "i wish that were me. [points to the suicide thing]." at the time, i'd tried to laugh it off, but when i'd reached home after school, i'd told my parents, and my mom called our teacher. it ended up with the both of us being called to the office, and explaining our stories. after that, he threatened me, saying "if i'm not allowed to go on the school trip because of this, then i swear, you're gonna have to watch yourself".

ig it was then these thoughts began manifesting themselves???? i hadn't noticed somebody in pain, and was afraid that it was gonna happen to somebody else, and then i got threatened because of that. he was super upset, and hated me after that, even though i kept maintaining my stance that i'd done the right thing, sometimes i wonder. that was when it all went downhill.

weird question, but would you all mourn me if i died?

[starlighthan]

starting over again bc i failed my programming course 🤩 love that for us! thank god it's not gonna delay my graduation aye

[sexydreamgirl]

I saw this and I have some questions. I also can't visualise much during SATS, after looping the scene for 1-3 times...my mind wanders away😭 so this lullaby method is a boon.

Can you name some lectures or a book of neville which talked about lullaby method?

Another question is, what do you mean by 3 words? Is it like lets suppose I'm manifesting good grades in physics....so I'm affirming " I got highest grade in physics" but that will exceed the 3 word thing right😭 I'm sorry I'm just dumb ig

Neville discusses the lullaby method in this lecture (scroll to the bottom)

You could simply condense it to "I passed". You don't really need to get specific with intention. Feeling is what matters.

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Oblivious

Warnings - Reader has glasses but they're mentioned like twice so feel free to gloss over it if you don't, reader is shorter than oikawa, cursing, reader has good grades & eye bags so if you don't/didn't gloss over that too, also its mentioned that reader has long eyelashes, hate-kissing? (ig that's a thing), sorta risque slightly, not proof read

Note: Uh, self indulgent af, so some of the personality traits are definitely personalized. (Just the high marks, glasses, not being over 6' 1", eyelash thing). Havent written in a while so have this ig, the end might be rushed bc i need to put more content out smh 🤕. Do you know how long this was sitting in my drafts?

FEM ALIGNED READERS (SHE/HER, SHE/THEY), DO NOT INTERACT

the dni is getting both bigger and longer

Oikawa Tooru got jealous easily.

It's not like he won't admit it. Sure he acts whiny sometimes, maybe even childish. That doesn't negate the fact that he's extremely smart though. He understands his own feelings, and he understands that he thrives off of validation from other people. (Not like he's proud of it, but he's working on crawling out of that hole).

And as selfish or narcissistic as it may seem, he doesn't know how to handle it when attention is on someone else. Or, in this case, when he can't seem to get someones attention.

Seriously! With as much shit as he's pulled, not one reaction comes out of you. And that's saying something, as he can weasel something out of anyone.

He isn't sure just where this desire actually came from. Maybe it was the day you were elected as the student council president. Before then, he hadn't even known you existed. If he did note you, it was brief and then he forgot about it. Hell, he didn't even know you ran for president until you were elected! You sat in the middle of the class, ate in the library, and went home. Literally nothing stood out about you to him.

Around that time was when other peoples attention started drifting to you too. Where you were previously some random guy, some student, now people were talking about you all the time. All of a sudden it was all 'the new council president' and 'I talked to him once!'

Now people were saying that you were handsome. That you were 'mysterious.' He hated it. Mostly because even he was starting to see the draw in you. His tunnel vision for your focus was starting to raise some questionable desires too. He won't even deny it, fuck, he wanted to know more.

He wanted to know why you didn't eat with other people. He wanted to know why you were so focused, so diligent, with your work. He wanted to know what you thought about him. For fucks sake, he saw how attractive you were. The bags under your eyes, that tired expression, it was all taking up his head space.

That frustration manifested itself in foolish antics, and, attraction. Embarrassing fucking attraction.

Oikawa was starting to lose his mind.

Only slightly, but he still felt insane.

Waking up this morning was a chore. He jolted out of bed from yet another dream about you. Well, he couldn't see your face, but he knew it was you. He could just tell, with how your skin felt underneath his hands.

It irked him how badly he wanted to cup your face in his hands in real life. He thinks, much to his own displeasure, that you'd look cute with your face all scrunched up. An unnatural growl-like noise emitted from his throat. Iwaizumi tossed him a confused look. Matsukawa and Hanamaki continued with their inane conversation about school budgets.

"If you're thinking about (l/n)-San again," Iwaizumi sighed mid-sentence, "you can stop."

Oikawa huffed dramatically. "I wasn't."

"Yes, you were," Iwaizumi said.

Tooru furrowed his brows. In truth, thinking about you was starting to become a habit. A bad habit, sure, an addicting habit, maybe. Almost like you were a drug. An addictive, pretty drug.

And by god was it hard to quit.

"Just don't do anything stupid," Matsukawa said casually. "You wouldn't want to scare him off."

Hanamaki snickered.

"I don't even talk to him," Oikawa snarled, "And I wasn't thinking about him!"

No one said anything else, arriving to the front gates of the school. Oikawa understood why morning practice was important, he works overtime almost every day, though it always left him slightly sore.

Going about his day sore wasn't fun by any means. Still though, he can deal. Especially since today he devised a plan to get your attention now. Every other plan he had failed to another degree. He went through practically girls in the school, getting a different girlfriend every week, all in the hopes that it would impress you. Make you jealous. Almost as if to say 'Ha, they like me better than you. I bet you're jealous you don't have a girlfriend!'

No surprise, it didn't work. You just continued doing what you always did. Oikawa could get girlfriend after girlfriend, maybe even a boyfriend, and you wouldn't give a shit. He even tried to make it obvious to you, standing near your locker with whoever he was dating at the time and being all lovey with them.

Still nothing.

It was honestly getting infuriating, at this point. Perhaps you were just playing some game, toying with him back because you knew it would make him mad. Because you knew he'd break first. No, today he had a plan.

That's probably how you ended up like this, with his hand by your head and a dark glare on his face. You nervously shuffled, pushing your glasses up the bridge of your nose.

"Uh, Oikawa-san?" You looked up at him, voice soft as always. "What was this about, again?" Truly, you had no clue what he was doing or why he was doing it. All you know is that he was always being weirdly loud with his newest partners near your locker and staring at you from across the room. Your words, however, didn't seem to diffuse the situation.

His other large, pretty hand slammed by the side of your head. "Sorry?" He forced a civil looking smile at you. "Are you playing dumb with me, (l/n)?"

You shook your head so hard you thought your glasses were going to crack.

Oikawa opened his mouth to finally confront you, then stopped. What exactly was he going to say? 'I've been watching you for months and you haven't given me attention?' After he didn't respond, standing there dumbly with his mouth open for a few minutes, your nervous gaze faded. "Are you playing with me?" You asked. "Because I have to get to class."

"No, no, if anything you're playing with me." Oikawa moved his face down and closer to yours, purposely letting his cool breath fan on your lips.

You shook slightly. "I don't- what are you talking about?"

He sneered at you, only slightly. "You know. Parading around being all smart, and not giving a shit when some people try to get your attention, acting like you don't know how infuriating you are!"

You bit your lip, hyper aware of how his eyes tracked the movement. "Was I- uh, was I annoying you somehow? I'm sorry if I was," you said.

Oikawa stopped. This wasn't what he had expected? You looked genuinely worried that you had offended him somehow. Not like an evil boy who knew how to get under peoples skin. Every detail from your face, from the bags under your tired looking eyes to your weirdly long eyelashes, seemed very...innocent. Like you weren't the heinous criminal he made you out to be. (Secretly, he knew you couldn't be that bad).

All at once he was flooded with his old dreams about you and his random fantasies. You were about to say something, though only a choked squeak left your throat as he leaned down to roughly push his lips to yours.

His lips were cool, like his skin. You hardly had the chance to breath with just how aggressive he was, pushing you further back into the wall and cupping your face in his hands. A couple more surprised noises left you before you relaxed into it, deciding that this wasn't all that bad. He was a good kisser, though it's not like that was a surprise. You closed your eyes and leaned into him, basking in this new, extremely odd feeling that just washed over your stomach. It was like you were taking a test, or about to speak in front of the class. It made you feel nervous, excited.

You jolted back suddenly, breaking the kiss when you feel his tongue pushing against your lips.

Shakily, you brought a hand up to wipe off any saliva left. "Sorry," you practically squeaked out, "I'm just- I don't know you like at all! This is the first time we've actually talked and I don't think I'm ready to make out with a stranger-"

Tooru shushed you. "I probably shouldn't have kissed you like that anyways," he shuddered. He was supposed to be giving you a piece of his mind, but here he is, almost shoving his tongue down your throat. Almost shoving his tongue down the throat of some boy.

His senses further returning to him, Oikawa quickly took his hands away from your face and stepped away, masking his disappointment at no longer feeling your warmth. "Just- don't tell anyone about this!" He said pathetically, turning to bolt away into the hallway.

As the classes started to let out, you wondered if anyone could tell how swollen your lips were.

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[remcycl333]

How do I focus during SATS. It's not like i have trouble falling asleep or falling asleep too quickly, I just lose focus of my visual scene and start losing focus. For example I'm manifesting good grades and seeing A+ in my visual scene but slowly as I'm falling asleep and losing consciousness my visual scene starts drifting away and I start thinking( or dreaming ig) about something else. What do I do?

i mean i think it’s fine to fall asleep during it, as long as you’ve looped it a few times? ig all u can really do is redirect your mind to your scene once you’ve noticed it wandering!