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shadelorde · 6 days ago

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reaaaallly interesting how s2 of legend of korra frames korra as an angry irrational ‘bitch’ who yells at mako and snaps at her dad and ‘deserves’ to be knocked down a peg. oh you mean the girl who’s being manipulated and abused by her own uncle? you mean the girl who’s entire home has been colonized and is being encouraged to ‘stay neutral’? That girl???

#also mako was a dick to her idc lol #Guy who’s being patronizingly like ‘maybe he just wants what’s best for you’ ignoring the trauma that she has around being controlled and #managed her ENTIRE life #and then SNITCHED on her to the BITCHASS president because his duty as a fucking cop was more important #sorry I’ve read so many pro-mako posts and I’m in a circle of a lot of mako likers but. I hate him #I’m sorry 😔#i understand the analyses of him. but I hate how he was written #korra #legend of korra

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haunted-xander · 4 months ago

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Who's the "real" me?

+ some references for the Rise-related things I included <3

#im reaaaally happy with this one hehe i had fun putting the stuff from different things shes had/worn #i feel like ppl overlook the massive identity crisis & the accompanying depression & internal conflict rise is going through during the gam #like shes trying to figure out who she is seperate from her idol image (which she constantly still clings to despite her insistance that sh #s done with it bc she does still crave that recognition and attention she got from that position. she literally breaks down crying when her #manager tells her kanami has taken her acting role and is more-or-less set to take her spot now)#and then she also struggles with finding what she wants to do with herself now that she doesnt have showbiz to worry about #i think she kinda unintentionally uses the investigation as an anchor for her to hold onto #something to keep her busy in the absence of the hustling idol life #and then she also like. again she keeps clinging to the idol image and the associated bubbly-ness and bold flirtation #because thats the ''her'' ppl liked #i dont think the way she acts during the game is ENTIRELY an act theres definitely a lot of her true self in it too #but she does have a lot of moments where she leans more heavily into the bubbly & flirty cutie act #her sl shows that for all that she wanted to retire from showbiz she isnt really ready just yet #bc she did actually enjoy being an idol. she did enjoy being able to reach out to people in this way & to finally have ppl like & accept he #the problem is she doesnt know who ''she'' is at this point #im rambling but u get my point. yeah. yeah #rise..............#rise kujikawa #persona #persona 4 #p4 #art #my art #xanders art #digital art #fan art

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confusedsiewmai · 7 months ago

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Sometimes, I don't like looking at Frieren fandom things is because it feels so alienating as an aroace person sometimes.

I relate to Frieren in a lot of ways. The way she goes through life at her own speed, the way she has a certain way of doing things that is hard to change, the way she struggles to fully understand others but is still compassionate and tries, and last but not least, the way she doesn't feel romantic or sexual attraction the way most people do.

So when a fan posts something about how elves like Frieren don't really feel romantic or sexual attraction and it's wonderful that Himmel's unrequited love with her is still portrayed as something beautiful, healthy and valued, but the comments section is just filled with people being like: No!!!! That's not true!!! Frieren loves Himmel even though she doesn't realise it!!!!

Or even the more "generous" ones are like: No!!! She is just falling in love with him years later!!! The whole story is about how she regrets not pursuing it until it was too late!!!!

And like, every person has their own interpretation and ships. But it really is a bit saddening as an aroace person that sees Frieren also as an aroace who probably would never feel as much romantic love for Himmel EVER. People have almost this... need to correct people that Frieren loves Himmel romantically.

#sousou no frieren #frieren at the funeral #talking to myself #aromantic #aroace #asexual #of course. i have only watched the anime. but the source material itself has said that elves are not in touch with their romantic feelings #i think that is VERY aroace #and should therefore make frieren's feelings up for interpretation #and less of smth ppl rush to correct. like its AWFUL that frieren doesnt return himmel's feelings #and it hurts me a bit... because i see so much of myself in frieren #why r ppl ok with her living her life at mostly her own pace and struggling to understand ppl #but not so much with her aroace-ness.... u know?#and if anyone is interested abt my interpretation of frieren's feelings #frieren sees himmel as a pillar and closest friend. her entire journey is her grief over losing such an important person in her life #the only other person like that for her was flamme. and she managed to spend time with her till her death #but she miscalculated this one and ended up only staying with him for ten years #((another reason why i really connect with frieren is definitely her grief and regrets))

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throwdownyourheart · 7 months ago

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#I had a dream about the handsome chubby straight dad from work #I was working alone and he came into the store right when I was about to close #which he’s done a couple times in real life and I’m always more than happy to let him stay even though it’s after hours #but anyway in the dream he came in and I walked up and reached out to shake his hand #then he grabbed my hand and held onto it and pushed me up against a wall #his entire body was pressed up against me and he had one leg pressed between mine and I could feel his bulge on my hip #he held my hands up above my head and looked down at me and said ‘‘this is what you want right? I’ve seen how you look at me”#I barely managed to choke out a ‘‘yes sir”#he said ‘‘I used to do this all the time. had an overnight bag for any situations that might come up just in case’’#he said that his wife knew what he was doing and that the one time he’d brought her in was so she could meet me and approve of me #‘‘I’m sorry if I misread but I think you want this as much as I do”#he was so handsome and big and feeling his body against mine while he had me pushed up against the wall was just asdfghjkllkl #fuuuuuuck #I woke up so fucking hard y’all #just absolutely bricked up and throbbing #anyway I promise I’m being completely normal about this dream #me #personal as hell #lubbock texas #we've always been around

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jrueships · 3 months ago

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guess whos not going in at all this week, actually

#MY MANAGER EMAILED LIKE 2 HOURS B4 I HAD TO GO IN #she finally changed my schedule (1 day) to the night shift today #(i emailed her to be safe just kinda casually reaffirming im going in at the new time & then asking if any other shifts wanted 2 be changed #bcs that sounds great to me whstever option she goes with #she ignored that question & i get a new email from her asking if i completed a training. lets called it DOC #basically a long time ago she said 'i will send you DOC instructions soon' .. a few days pass and i get three 50 paged packets #one is called NAVIGATING DOC #im like oh ok cool that must be the DOC training shes talking abt bcs the other 2 packets were abt various trainings #NAH BRUH. APPARENTLY THE DAY IM SUPPOSED TO GO IN. SHE MESSAGES ME SOME ENTIRELY ALIEN PROGRAM #and is like 'u completed this right? cus if u didnt u cant come in today.'#LIKE?? MAYBE I WOULDA IF U SENT THE SHIT #but it's also like. dam i shouldve emailed prompting her to send what she said she would n clarifying BUT FUCK #WHY DO I GOTTA?? IM NOT THE MANAGER #she literally told me the name of the program rn thru email so i type it in and see like four hour long modules to complete #mind u i aint never even been informed a WHISPER abt this new program. nothings even labeled DOC TRAINING #but my struggle is. was i notified this?? and i just didnt see??? was i supposed to clarify with her what the DOC training was exactly??#the only thing ive heard abt doc training b4 this is 'i need to send u DOC training soon' in EMAIL. so i expected an alert #abt THE DOC TRAINING... in an EMAIL notification. WHAT THE HELL IS THIS #idk man #i dont even care bro like im busy as hell & the work is just to build clinic hours so i dont care abt the money factor #it's just like. can we get this first day jitters thing over with already?? im so over this bro #yaddayadda i emailed her an apology n ill be on that ASAP shit. but i did let her know i am basically justnnow seeing this site #n if there was any email or notif that couldve/tried to inform me of its existence 2 pls let me know / figure out how to find it #so the issue doesnt occur again & i dont have to keep botherinher which im so srry of bcs med is stress n shes just trying to get by #but still bro im a lil miffed bcs she probably thinks im stupid now and now im wondering if i AM #bcs WDYM ONLINE MODULES. AINT NOBODY SAID SH IT EVEN ABT THE EXISTENCE OF THEM!!! i wouldve pressed harder 4 clarification #if i knew it was an ONLINE MODULE i had to look out for on some randomass site i didnt even know the name of until now #instead of the EMAIL UVE BEEN 'COMMUNICATING' WITH ME ON #ARREGHHHHHHHH IM NOT STUPID. I SWEAR IM NOT STUPID FUCCK MY BAKA LIFE

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msvelawciraptor · 4 months ago

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John B, be so fucking for real. Stella is wildly out of your league. Not merely the next one over if you squint. Just be grateful and count your blessings.

#life with althaar #episode 17 #friend John is a lovely person #but the warrior goddess description of Stella I think really does put her in an entirely different league #she is very much a symptom of his luck managing to outweigh his suck thanks to his proximity to Althaar

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abirddogmoment · 10 months ago

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realized today that I'm so done being embarrassed by my puppy's normal harmless age-appropriate behaviours

#sorry i cant hear your unsolicited advice over the sound of her awroo-ing #because its the best day of her entire life #this is specifically about like wriggling and sticking her leggies out #(NOT like lunging or barking at dogs etc)#this is specifically harmless behaviour im managing thats lightly annoying #i spent so much time being embarrassed by mavs jubilant personality #i cant go that route with rory too #oh in puppy class she wants to make heart eyes at the teacher instead of practicing sit?#no problem shes four months old #oh she wants to worm around on a snuffle mat instead of use it properly?#yeah its fine shes four months old?#shes very sweet and very dumb its fine shes literally four months old #she will get there eventually #i wont be embarrassed about her age appropriate behaviours in appropriate settings #interestingly i think i internalized this before i really realized it #i havent been embarrassed about a single thing shes done so far #and i was constantly embarrassed about mav at this age so #hashtag character development

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northcountrymaid · 2 months ago

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spent an hour waiting for the manager at this cafe bc they said to come in at 10 am only to be told she's actually not coming in until 2 so then killed four whole hours then came in at 2 waited another hour then they finally found her and she was like oh i hired someone this morning sorry

#meanwhile redacted bumped into a manager at another place and got an interview despite never having worked food service in her entire life

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clerichs-xi · 11 months ago

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tender as a bruise, sharper than a razor wrap her tentacles around me like she'll never let me go

klaus' backstory arc just ended heho and it was revealed he used to be the lover of the goddess of storms and pirates... she had basically kidnapped him and imprisoned him into murder and piracy for 20 years and needless to say it greatly damaged him on every level <3 its okay he's been able to be normal for once since the start of the campaign thanks to the party aka his new found family

get urself a surrogate middle-aged father who can speedrun a forbidden romance in one minute and then immediately go to confront the darkest version/a corrupted version of himself, as well as his toxic lover as she tortures him -w-)b

details and just the lines hehe

#clerichs.png #my artwork #original character #original art #original illustration #digital art #digital painting #digital illustration #dnd character #oc #oc illustration #im so unnormal about him.#he got hurt soo badly in isolation... thats where all the scars in his ref came from </3 #this portrait is of the one scar his goddess did not give him.... </3 #tfw ur jealous sea goddess lover pits you against other pirates and sea monsters to fight for ur life and test ur devotion #and she promised to love you wholly only for u to realize she doesn't understand or know what love is #and only wanted it bc everyone else who had love seemed so happy and she wanted that too #so after she destroyed everything you loved (literally your entire world) she merely treats u as a possession for 20 years #and you don't know how to ask for love because you don't know how to love either so you resent her and everything and everyone #leading rage to build up within you and you willfully slaughtering so many things because you cant handle your emotions and pain #and after deflating and sinking into apathy a rogue priest manages to break ur exterior and touch you deeply enough to let you love again #and because of him you're able to begin breaking free of everything and you lose everything again but this time #this time you wake up in a crate of fish to outstretched hands and people who love you as family even after learning who you are/were #filling you with strength and willpower even as your goddess lover comes back swearing she loved you and loves you still #and she tortures you and threatens to take everything away again if you don't come back to her but because of your love for everyone #and their love for you youre able to hold fast long enough for them to break you out #his goddess made a copy of him by warping the body and soul of a naive young man in an attempt to replace him and fill the hole in her hear #he had to literally kill the darkest version of himself that hurt everyone and he laid him to rest... catharsis if ive ever seen it #as i said. im so normal about him <3 the guy i project onto the most ever #klaus lierstark

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concernedfriend · 1 month ago

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Fallen Down

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mcmoddity · 1 year ago

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The 10th of October marks my babygal Kari's birthday! It's been three years since her tabletop rpg campaign started, and what a journey she's gone through, both in-game and in her online iterations.

Well deserving of a whole chocolate cake to herself, honestly

#McDoodles #kari #five seconds more and she would've inhaled that entire thing in one schlorp #candle and all #anyway I can't wait until I get enough time to focus on her askblog again #life's been hectic and insanely busy these past months but we truckin' we holdin' on #one day I'll manage more than just quick doodles again

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qqqqqqqqqqq0 · 3 months ago

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i did a thing

#crocheting #it was a really shitty day and i don't want to talk about it. i just need to yap #i will probably unknowingly say some borderline deranged traumatizing things further but idk its just the way i am #my existence itself is a major trigger warning so be aware #the only highlight of the day was the (i suppose) wlw couple i saw at the subway while pulling out shit like burdock out of my dress #i won't elaborate on the last piece can i be a little mysterious and less pathetic #so the wlw couple. one girl hugged the arm of the other girl and put the head on her shoulder. i saw that and was like “damn”#if you have a person you can willingly do things like that with you should know i would kill god just to be in your shoes #please cherish it #i didnt really look at them that much but then we got off on the same station and somehow they managed to overtook me #they were right ahead of me still all over each other and then it has striked me #that the girl hugging the arm of the other one was actually disabled and she needed help to walk properly #actually they were faster than me because my legs today are a total mess lol it hurts like hell just to make a step #but this is obviously just a temporary inconvenience and its nowhere near the problem that girl has #i don't compare myself to her in this regard but ive found this parallel kinda poetic #like how i as a relatively healthy individual with no major health issues was envious as fuck of those two #how i was walking in 0.25x with a shit ton of thoughts in my head while she was limping happily with a girl in her hand and smiling #no pity just envy and pure admiration. i want what they have #but im not sure if I deserve it. or actually need it #if i actually had something like that in my hands i don't know whether or not i would crush it into pieces #and then cry over it to the day i die. do you get it. am i too dramatic or too shallow as a person #originally i planned to talk about another thing entirely but this day has crushed my head and heart like a hammer #and now its turned to mush #no i guess it was a mush since long ago. then lets say this day was just crap. or life itself #nothing really happened to me but it reminded me of how helpless i am as a person vs the world and i hate being helpless #maybe ill tell you the story of how i lost the sensation in my fingertips another time when im not that traumatised by life events #(i lost it by saving a damsel in distress after walking out of the night bar a year ago. its a clickbait)

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restinthewest · 2 years ago

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The most joyful and pure creature on the planet

#we’ve been frequenting a new brewpub and the staff have very quickly become attached to her #she somehow manages to be kind of aloof to strangers while still having this magnetism that draws people in #once she’s met someone like. twice tho she acts like she’s known them for her entire life #I cannot imagine having the charisma she naturally exudes it’s insane lol #like once a week someone will meet her and tell me ‘wow she’s really special you must feel so lucky’#and I’m like bitch I know!! and I do!!

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gorefreaklintjrwi · 2 months ago

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guhhhhh this is like. my only chance to practice the monologue. because i dont want to practice it at my grandma's house

#my grandma is okay i guess. but living with her is like hell. HOW DID MY DAD LIVE WITH HER HIS ENTIRE LIFE #LIKE HE HAS CONFIRMED THAT SHE HAS ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THIS. HOW DID HE MANAGE #whatever dude i dont need to rant about this here #ratmouse talkshow #ratmouse tire

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tea-time-terrier · 2 years ago

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Begging is a team sport in this house.

#pike has managed to cuddle maverick more times in the past two days than she has her entire life #which isn't much #but still #the fish just wants her cuddles #maverick #turnpike

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essercipertuttienonperse · 3 months ago

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spent the afternoon with my grandmother today and it will never stop sounding crazy to me that she was born BEFORE ww2 started, she lived with nazi soldiers on the floor beneath her, AND she now knows what an iPad is. even if I live to 88yo like her I will never see a fraction of the amount of history she witnessed

#its so crazy like that generation IS history #idk how she even managed to process everything lmao #and by the time she was my age she had gone through the war AND was now a mother + Italy and the entire world had changed???#its wild #also even WILDER is that with all they lacked after the war she still speaks fondly of that time #and has always said the post war years + the 60s were the best of her life #and if you ask her why? she says bc people had HOPE and they were happy.

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