#man's fighting for his life tho. i think he's doing it for his own relevance
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boinin Ā· 1 year ago
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how did I end up being such a tsundere simp?
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shoheiakagi Ā· 1 year ago
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Can you give me your thoughts of what you think of Homra alphabet boys? It could be whoā€™s your favorite and whoā€™s not, what you like and hate about them, who would you date and why. Etc etcā€¦
of course i can!
i absolutely adore all of the abc boys and wish there was sooo much more content on them - fan and official content. although im a little more biased to some of them more than the others, i dont think im capable of disliking/hating any of them. theyre a lot more interesting and attractive than a lot of the major characters to me
i would literally be content with reading more stories on them getting drunk and causing chaos, despite serving no relevance to the plot lol
im gonna share some opinion/headcanons on each of the boys, so more under the cut:
Ask me shit!
akagi shouhei:
i think anyone that scrolls through my blog for like atleast 5-10 minutes will figure out that he's my favorite character in the entire series, even though he is a minor character. he's different from a lot of the other male characters that i typically go far (i usually go far guys with darker hair who have a similar personality to yata or even a quiet, cold personality similar to fushimi), but i remember reading mor for the first time and finding him super cute?? thats when i realized that even tho i typically prefer darker hair, im a huge sucker for guys with messy hair in general, especially when its tucked under a baseball cap. especially if theyre the rebellious type šŸ¤­ think i got more interested in him when i reread mor around late 2018 and started analyzing the little details (he owned a motorcycle before joining homra, how he was all cocky and smirking when he raided that gang who kept his friend captive) that gave me this impression that hes not this generic nice guy that he likes to portray himself as. not ashamed to label this man as my fictional crush, 100% would date him irl, and 100% do think he gives chitose a run for his money when its comes to their face card (in the manga, at least). my least favorite thing about him has to be the lack of content on him. this applies to all of the boys, but i feel like the very few content we see on him, ends up relating back to bandou for the most part (i will get to that in a bit). like fuck, i want to know more about his daily routine, life before and outside of homra, his family, his friends out of homra, how hes like when hes drunk, how often does he party, whats his type, does he go to the gym, whats his views on life, etc. i also think that he can pull of the yandere stalker vibes very well cause first, he knows how hack into devices lol. second, i always see shouhei as someone who pulls this false, cheery facade to hide his true emotions. you can't really tell if hes angry or jealous unless youre closely paying attention and notice that his eyes seem darker than before, fists clenched, jaw locked, etc. and when he fights, he has this borderline psychotic grin on his face. like look at the material:
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like yes daddy, pls fuck me
bandou saburouta:
i dont remember if i ever mentioned it here but out of all the boys, i related to bandou a lot when i was younger, with the whole introverted earth sign with dark hair who is jealous of their extroverted best friend who has better luck with the opposite sex lmfao. i really adore this idiot and he has me dying with how petty he can get, and how he seems to be the punching bag for some of the members (*cough* yata *cough). its so weird tho cause physically hes more of my type, but i guess its bc hes always decked out in a hoodie and shades, its hard to remember that hes actually pretty cute. the only thing that rubs me the wrong way is how the writers made his dynamic with shouhei erase some of shouhei's individuality. like even tho mor started off from shouhei's perspective, the minute we find out about bandou and him being friends, the narrative switches to bandou's inferiority complex around him. i love bandou's plotline, it definitely gives him more depth, making him one of the more developed abc boys along with eric. but i HATE how the writers made everything about shouhei, relate back to bandou. mor started off with shouhei joining homra to save his friend, which he succeeded in, great! but i feel like we learn more about bandou as a character, and whatever we do learn about shouhei, its mostly from bandou's perspective. there was also this series of short stories for each character, and boyyyyy you dont know pissed i was to see that shouhei's story was about bandou being jealous of how popular and friendly he is with girls. but when you read bandou's story, it was cute little heartfelt conversation between him and anna. i do feel like this is a reoccurring issue with the homra abc boys (we learn more about chitose and eric than we do about dewa and fuji in their respective chapters) but fuck man, at least in dewa's short story, we learn that he runs the bar when kusanagi is not around, making him popular with women, and that he loves extremely spicy food. granted, shouhei's story does provide some details such as how well liked he is and that he would take anna out shopping if totsuka and kusanagi are busy, but then most of his story morphs into bandou being jealous of him....like we get it, can we please move on from that topic? platonic banshou? 10/10, fucking love that shit. romantic banshou?? ehh, im indifferent
chitose yo:
chitose is my third favorite abc boy!! he's hot and a super fun character. its truly a shame that hes a minor character so the anime has him just standing around with a blank expression and maybe have him making a one-liner or two. hes genuinely the type of person i cant imagine staying silent and not giving his two cents, whether its during the more serious moments or the chill, laidback moments. im currently rereading mor and some panels of chitose got me like šŸ˜³šŸ„µ cause hes fucking hot lol. but! im not a big fan of playboys/womanizers, so i never got into him the same way i did with shouhei and eric. at first, i was happy when i read one of the more recent post rok stories where it was stated that he finally found someone and got into a stable relationship! but then thinking about it, i feel like the writers should have made him seek therapy first, and then get into a relationship. cause from what we know about chitose, he was so scarred by how his first relationship ended with his late gf passing away, he avoided committed relationships bc he does not want to be emotionally vulnerable like that ever again. so clearly the guy had some psychological issues, which should have been addressed with therapy, instead of drowning himself in casual sex and alcohol. so i cant help but feel a little skeptic about him being ready to enter another relationship so soon. also hate how the writers make him say some suggestive comments about anna (getting married by 16, proposing to buy red lingerie for her as a bday gift, worry about her gaining weight for eating at night). like stop it, that shit is fucking gross and its making chitose go from a relatively harmless playboy to a creepy pedo. i never read the lost small world manga, but i remember coming across this omake (?) where chitose and dewa were talking and chitose made some comment that implied that he was willing to (or already had) have sex with a drunk girl, which is a huge no.
dewa masaomi
i would totally date dewa tbh. he fits my type irl (dark hair, introverted, can be witty/sharp, etc). it also helps that since he hangs out with chitose a lot, hes not really fazed by conventionally attractive women lol. along with fuji, he lacks a lot of depth since we don't know much about them. but hey, thats what im here for! i like to think that dewa makes all of his life choices by doing the exact opposite of what chitose does. where chitose would date and sleep any pretty girl that comes his way, dewa would be super picky and not just fall for a pretty face. chitose loves women in mini skirts and cropped tops, dewa prefers his women in suits and form-fitting long dresses that accentuates their curves without showing any skin. i think a general consensus for dewa is that he joined homra bc of chitose, which i definitely agree with. although some of the members may not be as brash and aggressive as someone like yata, i can still see them fitting in. dewa, on the otherhand, seems to be the odd one out. like the man seems like he would fit in with s4 better. but i do like the hc of dewa, despite how different he is from the other boys, dislikes authority figures trying to control his life, which is why he chose to stay with homra. cause its easier to join a gang for a friend, but its harder to stay in a gang if they dont align with your values/goals. i also like to think that dewa actually comes from a well off family, which reflects on his mannerisms and sense of dressing. but he doesnt share a close relationship with his parents. while theyre not emotionally or physically abusive, they are very emotionally absent, which is why he grows up detached from them. that doesnt stop them from trying to make his life decisions for him (i.e. have him take over the family business after college, settle down with this girl who is also from this well off family, etc), so dewa doesnt think twice before moving out once he hits 18
eric soult
my baby boy, my second fave abc boy!!! i think hes probably the only white character i like in anime lol (but then again, i dont really watch a lot of anime). i was veryy attracted to eric when i first read mor and found him so handsome (still do tbh), but now i feel so soft towards him??? like i still would tap it, but did you eat??? you look so cold, let me wrap a blanket around you!!! oh, youre telling me to back off or else you'll stab me??? aww, youre soo cute šŸ„° all jokes aside, him and bandou are the most developed out of the abc boys, which makes sense on why theyre more popular than the others. i also wish we saw more of his dynamic with yata, cause i felt like their banter was fucking hilarious and i loved how eric was not scared to show him sass despite being new to homra lol. i recently started having this headcanon that eric has this old fashion mindset where as a man, you have to provide for your girl, even if its the most ridiculous and expensive thing ever, so whenever the guys talk about buying gifts for anna or any other woman in their life, hes always suggesting expensive jewelry and clothes. this also makes him very vulnerable to the wrong women, who would probably drain his wallet and emotionally abuse him if she doesnt get what she wants. i actually got this hc from the mor movie where fuji tells him that he'd fall for the type of wrong girl when he proposes buying designer gifts for anna lol. i was soo emotional when i read that eric makes the choice to travel the world by himself and taking pictures of beautiful sights. cause not only does it seem like he's honoring one of totsuka's hobbies, he's also getting this opportunity to see the world from a different and healthier perspective!!! he's going to be able to see more color in a world that was previously in shades of black and white for him!!!!
fujishima kosuke
my fellow taurus!!!! i remember thinking that he was related to mikoto when i first read the manga cause of his hair lmaooo. idk why but i always visualize him to have a deeper voice?? hes just so manly but yet so caring and nurturing, so i cant imagine him without a deep voice. i like to think that out of all of the guys, hes the only one who has a good relationship with his family, hence why he still lives with them, despite being part of a gang and having a bad habit of taking in stray animals. i know that in the same official story where chitose ends up in a relationship, fuji ends up being a carpenter, but i like the idea of fuji deciding to go back to school and becoming a vet so that he can take care of sick/injured animals. or atleast opening up his own no-kill, animal rescue agency!
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mysticaldreamwitch Ā· 2 years ago
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Its in the Blood
This was suppose to be a fanfic, but as I am currently in no headspace to write it, any of you creative people out there can feel very welcome to make this idea your own!
Please me sure to tag me tho, I'd love to read where you take this concept!
Also TRIGGERWARNING for child murder, cannibalism, incest and murder
The Line of Atreus is really fecked up guys x.x
This is about the movie Remainder from 2015, starring our beloved Tom Sturridge in the main role as a nameless man, who looses his memory after a crash and desperately tries to reclaim it, using everything, anything and anyone at his disposal to do his bidding.
He starts off somewhat sympathetic, but in his ongoing mania, he rids himself of any moral or human notion, turning into a merciless killer in the end to get what he wants, and only realizing in a final moment of clarity, that he has been running in cirlces, and that he had just repeated everything up to the moment to which the crash occurred, making him loose him memory all again, indicating that this is an endless cycle, which the character has gone through before many times.
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When I first saw it, I admit, I was quite baffled and perplexed by it all and I couldn't really make sense of it. I appreciated the movie for the craft, the camera, the lighting, the acting, everything was great, but the story left me feeling hollow in a way, filled with dread.
Perhaps other people like movies like this, the kind that depict a downwards spiral, and usually I watch it once, and thats it, but this one lingered in my mind, as it did something similar, but just different enough: The downwards spiral NEVER ends. He will always loose his memory, try to reclaim it, turn into a horrible void doing it, just to be struck down and start from zero again. It has no beginning, no end, no meaning, besides the mental and physical suffering of this person and everyone around him. And that, for a lack of a better word, fucked me up. I do NOT like that, cause it just made me feel so helpless. Nothing is explain, nothing is clear, you just watch this human suffer, knowning the end of it will never come.
So it kind of got me thinking if there could be a reason for this, some kind of explanation. And I think there is perhaps an interesting viewpoint one could turn this into.
Maybe its not that interesting, idk, it is to me
Consider, the main character as a descent of House Atreus.
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For explaination, the bloodline of Atreus, as well as his brothers, were cursed, first by the actions of the grandfather Tantalus, who served his son Pelops to the olympian gods for food, to test their omniscience. This action got him sent to Tartarus, a part of the underworld, where he is damed to stay in water he can never drink, under a tree with rich fruit he can never reach.
His temper was passed down to his son, who, after being reassembled by the gods as good as they were able to (this will be relevant later), went on to live a normal life. However when the time came to marry, he was not the only suitor for the hand of a princess, so he convinced a servant by the name of Myrtilus to saboage his rivals chariot, which drove the man into death. However, instead of rewarding him, Pelops pushed the servant down a cliff, so his secret may die with him. In his dying fall, the servant uttered a curse on Pelops and his entire lineage, that the gods shall punish them all.
Pelops went on to have three sons: Chrysippus, Thyestes and Atreus. The ladder killed they half-brother Chrysippus in order to get the throne, but soon grew unsatisfied, resulting in another fight, which lead to Thyestes taking the throne, an act which was later resolved through devine help, as the gods helped Atreus claim the thone.
However, Atreus soon learned that his wife and brother had an affair, an affront that enraged him so much, that he invited his brother for a feast, only later to reveal the meal servend was made of his brothers own children. His brother was exiled for the crime of cannibalism and sought revenge, looking for the help of an oracle, which told him to have a child with his own daughter, which would later kill Atreus.
He did as the oracle told him, but the mother abandoned the child, ashamed of its origin, and it was discovered by shepherds and brought to Atreus palace, where the boy was raised, only later to kill his grandfather/father, after Thyestes revealed the plot to his own brother.
However, at this point, Atreus already had children of his own, the most important being Menelaus and Argamemnon. You know...the guys that went to war with Troy over Helen of Sparta, Menelauses wife. They went out to kill Thyestes to get back their kingdom and succeeded in their goal.
Coming back to the beginning of the Trojan however Argamemnon had angered Artemis goddess of the hunt by killing one of the sacred deer and boasting about being a better hunter then her, something she didn't take to too kindly, as he made the wind still and the ships unable to sail. A sacrifice had to be made: Iphigenia, his first born daughter.
But of course Iphigenia also had a mother, Clytemnestra, twin sister to Helen. Enraged by the sacrafice of her daughter, she started an affair with Aegisthus (the incest baby of Thyestes and his daughter) and started to plot her husbands murder, which she executed in the night her husband returned from the war. She let him into a bath, where she stabbed him to his death.
However, of course, Clytemnestra and Argamemnon had more then one child, however only one son Orestes, who had taken away by his sister Electra (or was exciled, depending on the version), and raised by/with her, swearing revenge on the murder of his father.
Him and his sister planned the murder, and Orestes executed it, being cursed by his mother in turn to be haunted by the Erinyes, the Three Furies. After wandering the land with guilt in his heart for many years, the gods decided, that enough penance had been done and freed the man from the curse.
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How as he have established, technically the curse should be cured, right? Well yes...and no. You see apart from the fact that most of the people mentioned before had siblings, male and female where barely their names are known, one significant person in this whole plot was not punished at all: Elektra.
Althought their is speculation, for the most part her whereabouts after the murder and during the brothers penance is unknown, and what happened to her finally is quite unclear. So let you propose this idea to you: The main character in Remainder as a descent of Electras bloodline.
This may seem like a strech, but considering how many children went barely or completely unnamed, especially if they were female (yey to that old greece, good job), there is a high chance, many descents were never cleared of the House of Atreus curse like Orestes was. Therefore, the curse is still active or simply lies dormant.
Perhaps one could entertain the idea, that it is spread throughout their children like Haemophilia, which is found primarily in men, due to the genetic defect laying in the X-Chromosome. It happens in women as well, but only rarely, when the other X has a malfunction in some capacity.
This is also the reason why I chose "In the Blood" as the title of this idea. Apart from it being an absolute banger song from the Hades videogame, I think it could be an interesting piece here as well considering its context of family and kin.
I linked it, give it a listen if you can, its amazing!
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So the characters spiral and violent tendencies could be attributed to that curse, okay, but how did he end up in this repeating nightmare you ask?
Simple: He's in hell. Well Tatarus. Actually both. Lemme explain.
As mythology got convoluted over time, so could the underworld be one giant realm which consists of many parts, including the Greek Underworld, as well the the concept known as hell in Christianity. And as seen in the show Lucifer, it is not uncommon to imagine hell to be a place where people relive their worst parts of life.
But the people in Lucifer are aware they are in hell, thats the whole point of it , you'd say, and yes, that is correct. However, what if this is not for his own mind to realize, apart from that small moment right before it all starts again, but for someone else to watch, to be amused by it. Someone that habours a resentment towards him, or maybe his entire line?
Far strech I know, but bare with me. A never-ending punishment made of agony, dispair and the very short realisation that it is indeed a punshiment, that sounds quite like Tantalus himself I think. Totured in Tartarus for all eternity for what he did.
Oh, also, to come back to the Pelops thing, ha, don't think I forgot! I mentioned before that the gods tried to put Pelops together as much as possible, because, while all the other gods immediately knew they were tricked, the goddess Demeter, still grieving the loss of the daughter Persephone, ate part of Pelops shoulder, which was deplaced by an ovory shoulder crafted by Hephaistos. So all of Pelops decendence have a white spot on the back of their shoulder. A nice little detail, you might wanna include if you like.
So yeah thats it, that was my rant about this idea, aka me trying to comprehend this movie, cause my little brain can't accept that there is suffering like this for no apparent reason.
I'd like to know y'alls views on it and feel free to use the idea in your own writing if I feel like it, see you around!
witch x.
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gleefullypolin Ā· 7 months ago
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The meltdowns we had! Ship wars and arguing and utter nonsense that never meant anything in the end, ha. I am pretty sure if I went back and looked, I would sound pretty arrogant at times mixed in with anxious, pretending everything was fine, and being vaguely annoying to everyone around me.
I stayed out of the OUAT fandom but from what I saw, that was a good choice on my part. I loved Captain Swan and I just enjoyed them as is, no fandom for me. That didn't save me from other fandoms though.šŸ˜„
I didn't actually particularly like the first season of Bridgerton, I liked it well enough and the visuals and music were fun and pretty so I stayed watching but I really only immediately loved Penelope, Eloise, and Colin. I will say that I am insanely relieved the Polin journey is almost here and I don't have to go through this or be overly invested in any more seasons. Unless Eloise grips me by the throat. Which is possible, I love her so much.
Same, after seeing pretty much every leading man getting his own "life is hard, sex can fix it" scenes, I assumed Colin would be experienced as well. And if the second scene is true within the context that it's been explained I think it might be the only one I think might actually be relevant within the show. If I can skip ten seconds 3 times on my remote and not see it, it can't possibly affect the show that much and I'll happily move along.
I have seen so many actors take the heat for the choices of the show itself, I'd hate for these ones to go through that as well. They will not and do not deserve anything if people have an issue with the writing--they didn't write it.
Oh for sure, I've seen too many screeners needing clicks and wanting attention while the solid ones get drowned out by the yelling fans. Not sure we really need them at this point.
Honestly outside of the specific episodes those scenes make it in, I don't remember any of them really being mentioned? Maybe they have and I don't remember which also just reiterates how not memorable they are in the end. And last season definitely hardened her a bit, maybe she needed it, maybe it's going to be part of her downfall (The Queen perhaps?) but I don't think she's going to fall apart over the idea of it all. I think the show has shown, with the men at least, that intimacy and the physical are very different things and that will definitely play out on screen.
It all seemed SO important in the moment, right? And every point I made was the most valid point that needed to be spoken and of course the loudest amongst the group. I know that was me. I was a loud voice amongst my shipā€™s group. I had made a large name in our ship. Had a large following in the fan fiction world and had met the actor of our ship more than once and he had read some of my stuff. There was more than arrogance and loud voices that went with our group. Looking back at all of it now, none of it mattered. In the end, the actor died, our hearts were broken, and we all fought for nothing. It was after that fandom that I swore NEVER to get involved again.
I sat back and watched some fighting in OUAT and was very quick to back away and wait for the show to finish airing before I started to talk to the Captain Swan girls. I wrote a lot of fan fiction for that ship. I love all of the ones I wrote and then quickly burned out. But I still have great love for that ship and there is something about a sexy pirate!!!
I actually have enjoyed the Polin stuff because Pen makes me so incredibly happy. Seeing the wallflower get her day in the sun makes me happy. I love that for her and I think I am drawn to that. So I was drawn to the two of them. I think Iā€™m like you tho, I canā€™t say I will stay beyond them, tho I do love Eloise and if they can compel me to enjoy some chaotic Hyacinth I could see that as fun as she got older. But right now, I need something compelling from Eloise so I am withholding my judgement to see where they take her this season before I see if I stay.
Season 1 was a great time waster during the pandemic, Season 2 I enjoyed the Polin of it allā€¦but its really the main reason I watch. Nothing against everyone else. I am just not a period piece type of person. But if the story is good, Iā€™ll stick around.
Ooh I was going to mention I read something somewhere, but I get so lost on where I see things anymore but someone maybe on twitter said something about how Colin goes to brothelā€™s for his pleasure but once his feelings for Pen are known to him he devotes all his time and attention to her pleasure and I just LOVE that because thatā€™s how book Colin is too. The brothels were all for him and giving him what he needed but once heā€™s with Pen all he cares about is devotion to her and making her feel pleasure and ensuring she is loved and loves herself! And isnā€™t that what we love them for?
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payidaresque Ā· 1 year ago
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so i was looking for a azef scene to make my icon with, and something just popped in my head
the more i analyze the show the more i just don't get dilruba? i mean really, WHAT IS HER FUCKING PROBLEM
reason why i hate dilruba #635673737365436735 (proceed with caution, not spoiler free for those who didn't watch the show, tho i guess i already spoiled it for my followers asfgsghsga sorry)
dilruba: getting engaged with adem HOPING aziz would come and stop it and tell her how much he loves her and ask her not to marry him
aziz: comes to her to say goodbye before "leaving' the town #1 presenting her a gift as a sign of devotion
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dilruba: (and despite all that aziz still covered her ass later on, without demanding anything in return)
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dilruba later on:
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(he literally CAME TO SEE YOU AND YOU TOLD HIM TO FUCK OFF???? And i know Adem was behind the door, but there was no need to be this harsh to a man who LOVES YOU? You literally just crushed him for nothing???)
aziz comes to dilruba to ask her not to marry adem #2
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Aziz literally CRUSHES her wedding, telling her EXACTLY WHAT GALIP TOLD HER HE'LL DO, saying it out loud, for everyone to hear. loud and clear (and it's aziz we're talking about, a man so full of pride that to do something like that is not an easy task at all, to say the least, i mean, he's THIS PROUD. like aziz sweetie i love u to death but at this time u really had to get over yourself. Also, clown. LOL (affectionate)
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which makes it THE THIRD time HE COMES to her, which is EXACTLY what she wanted from the very beginning
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and what is dilruba doing?
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WHAT ELSE COULD HE DO??? HE DID EVERYTHING U ASKED FOR, AND U STILL MARRIED ADEM???? And Adem asked her earlier if she wants to cancel everything, well guess what genius, YOU SAID NO
And she spent almost the whole show like
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dilruba: i made a decision x: well live with it then, as a grown up woman dilruba: wait well guess what? What if i don't want to what. the fuck. šŸ™ƒšŸ™ƒšŸ™ƒšŸ™ƒ
so i ask again, WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM???? If a man i love comes to me and says that he's ready to fight everyone for me, i wouldn't hesitate for a second
i mean yeah yeah, i know it's written this way for the plot (tho i think eda could treat dilruba better by at least giving her SOME purpose rather than just "i want aziz so i'm gonna be a bitch to everyone to get him back") but i've always looked at characters as real people cause guess what, THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE IN A CONTEXT OF A SPECIFIC STORY
and what i hate about it even more, is that later on aziz blames himself for it cause he feels like he's responsible for it, well guess what honey, IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT. Dilruba made this decision herself for various reasons, which are
she thought i could help her forget aziz (lol, yeah right)
she wanted to at least SOMEHOW punish aziz (for not chasing her enough i guess??)
her mother pushed her to it
galip pushed her to it (#3 & #4 are relevant btw cause dilruba had multiple opportunities to refuse to marry adem in the past)
she literally married adem for money and position
it was the fault of everyone else actually: galip, handan, adem, dilruba's own fucking fault cause she literally said I DONT WANT TO TAKE ANY RESPONSIBILITY FOR THIS and i will continue pinning for aziz being a married woman, completely neglecting my husband and constantly punishing him for not being aziz. WELL, YOU KNOWā€” when Aziz took YOUR blame for shooting Adem, you were almost HAPPY, without thinking how that would affect him OR his family. and then going like "oh let's leave the town" because AZIZ LOST EVERYTHING, because he's not the WEALTHY AZIZ PAYIDAR, because he HAS to start over. You treated the man YOU LOVE like dirt cause you have too much of an ego, and then blame him for "leaving you"
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(translate: get wealthy again and then maybe i'll marry you.)
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"then we'll decide what to do" ā€” wtf is that phrasing????)
i seriously don't get why she didn't leave after aziz's "death" i mean yeah, she wanted to take her own life at the time so she wasn't thinking straight obviously, but then she, divorced and pregnant (which is practically a shame for a woman in this era), left anyway?????
and she turned down EVERY OPORTUNITY at being a decent person. EVERY. SINGLE. ONE. No apology, no admitting that you fucked up and ruined people's lifes cause "WeLl WhAt AbOuT mE", nothing at all I genuinely don't think i saw a character THIS horribly written, it almost fascinates me. i mean, such lack of critical thinking is INSANE
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forgottenroderick Ā· 1 year ago
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oh, def!! i also def think roderick's probs had at least one attempt made against his life asp -- like, it was def a timeā„¢ growing up, no question, and frankly i don't see roderick tryna soften this for his children -- except possibly cassandra bc surely she'll have a strong manā„¢ at her side to protect her etc -- like??? he's more in the camp that they need to know what they're facing so they can be prepared blah blah blah than in the kids need security while they grow up camp hahaha so if anything he was probs pulling a ned stark and making all his kids (again, except possibly cassandra) watch the executions so that's fun!!!! #familybondingmoments
me: 'good for you, sebastian' roderick: 'TREASON!' no but honestly like?????? he'd be so proud????? of sebastian for thinking of himself!!!! but since the thing he's rebeling against is roderick himself tis HERESY!!!!! and so if roderick ever knew itd be this weird disconnect between, like, being proud of his kid for standing up on his own two feet and like...the need to destroy that way of thinking in him in order to cement himself once again???? but also like 'finally a worthy successor' but that also stares death in the face and NONNONONO it must always be him ialksdjfklsjdfdsf idek how to -- god, roderick is so screwed up like idek how to explain it?????
everything he wants is also the opposite of what he wants, he's gotta fight absolutely everything everything everything. if he's in control he's righteous but bored, if his hands are slipping he's finally engaged and also internally lashing himself for his failure he's??? so??? damaged????? and obv the perfect emperor bc of this <3 lsdkjflksdjfk
BUT ANYWAY!! lsdkjfkljdsf i doubt he has any idea abt any of this atm hahaha esp bc in roderick's worldview, he's given his wives evetything they could possibly want! position, immortality, wealth, power, children, like?????? honestly???? what more do they want????? sure, all of this is limited by how much he doles out but he's not god he can't give them EVERYTHING and like LITERALLY the only thing she wants is his love and he just can't even????? and like at the same time he does???? but showing these things????? lskjdfkjsdjf and the same goes for his kids but esp ot3: succession kids like????? he's had to TAKE everything he's ever gotten and they get to sit pretty and inherit everything HE'S built, how can they possibly complain abt a single thing in life????? and meanwhile he's taken these innocent children and torpedo'd them each </3
honestly picking his battles is wise bc if every interaction is a struggle, roderick would just write him off as unruly/malcontent but w him being more diplomatic about it, roderick's more likely to hear him when he does raise a matter tbqh
oh yeah no sebastian would have to straight up murder a family member or smth for his life to ever come into any peril and even then he might get a reprieve depending on the situation hahaha so like yeah he's def safe bc roderick is ultimately protective of his kids in his way but yeah!!! he would not hesitate to disinherit or threaten ANY of his kids if they threatened him tbqh except he probs wouldn't exile guinevere (tho he might banish her from court potentially) bc of her mom basically lajsdflkjdsf but yeah!! he'd be like 'well that makes the decision ill never make easier! bye!' its possible he'd later recall them or whatever but yeah its equally possible he might not! lakjdsflkjdsf
now, all that being said, however, arthur might be on the chopping block if/when he discovers his true paternity ngl -- roderick'll def waffle on that point a lot and i honestly don't know what he'll do if it ever comes to light! -- also relevant here, he'll def also waffle on whether or not he thinks sebastian and cassandra are his or not (if she cheated once, whose to say she didn't again and again????) but, while their mama and arthur he'll consider killing, the younger kids would probs be safe since they never tried to pass themselves off as an immediate heir to the throne etc, but they would def be looking at potential imprisonement/banishment/something of that kind and obv they would be attainted at least re: they can inherit maybe from their mom but def not from whoever the hell their dad might be etc, if he decides he doesn't believe that they really ~are his etc and yes this is all even knowing that the three children had no idea abt their mom's adultery etc BUT ANYWAY LKAJSDLFKJSDKJF
but yeah! in terms of roderick, he loves and mistreats all of his kids lkasjdflkjdsjkf honestly tho it ~is probs a positive for sebastian that roderick isn't putting him under the same scrutiny as he does his potential successors!!!!!! tbh i do think he lowkey forgets abt sebastian and cassandra sometimes like???? i shouldn't say forgets, he doesn't exactly do that, but he doesn't think abt anything they might want they're pieces on the board he shuffles around as he pleases and bc they were born later, their goals are immaterial...which is frankly kinda true of the others as well but in that case their dreams impact how they'll rule so he at least thinks abt them...even if his move is often to try to change them etc so!! but yeah! but at the same time he feels freer to love them like a dad rather than rule them like an emperor 24/7??????? idk its weird lajdskfjdsf
TL;DR: roderick is so fucked up lizzy i can't evEN lajsdfajksdf
ooc | Sebastian & Roderick
WHAT A FATHER <3
Okay wow, I feel like Sebastian has a lot of complicated emotions re: his dad???
First, I feel like Sebastian believes family is extremely important & I also feel like they probably had kinda an unstable childhood since their dad was constantly conquering new places and sometimes they would up and move to a new country for months at a time, only to do it all over again. And I'm sure that court has always constantly been filled w/ people who are loyal to Roderick, but also those who he has screwed over/those whose homes he's taken and I don't think that there's been a lot of people Sebastian believes he can really trust outside of his own family and so he's very protective of them and just wants them to love and respect each other and just GET ALONG! <33
I do think part of him wants to make his dad proud & sebastian is also someone who likes to do what is right/what he's supposed to do, but I think more and more recently he's realizing that maybe what he's being told to do, isn't what the right thing is? Like he's always been told to listen to his parents and to listen to his king, but he's realizing that his dad isn't always right and I think that he's going to start (silently) questioning his dad more and more. and that's also just going to shake up his world view/everything he thought he knew about life!
He also is more and more aware of just how much his dad hurts his mom/how much she loves him but how unloved she feels by him and he doesn't really like how he just goes around collecting wives/children, but doesn't seem to care enough for any of them!!
In addition, he does not appreciate what his dad is doing to his kids (especially ot3: succession kids) and as someone on the outside, he definitely sees exactly what's happening and he hates it!!!
All that being said, I don't think he's super vocal w/ his dad when he disagrees with him and sorta picks his battles. I think he tells himself that it is because he's doing what he can to do the most good w/ his position (which is true) but I think that there is definitely some fear that plays into all of it as well -- he knows his dad does NOT appreciate being crossed and while he doesn't think that anything he would do would be to put his life in danger, he can definitely see his dad disinheriting him/exiling him and Seb has no idea what he would be able to do with his life if that happened??!?
TL;DR: Seb both loves and hates his dad and thanks god everyday he's not a constant on his radar!
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padfootastic Ā· 2 years ago
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I'd love to hear your thoughts on the fight between Remus and Harry in DH. Because throughout the series we see Remus manipulating Harry by bringing up James, but for the first time, Harry brings up James in a situation that is the most relevant, and Remus goes BERSERK.
hello šŸ’œšŸ’œ iā€™m so sorry for how long this has been lying in my inbox but iā€™ve got so much to say and not enough time for it šŸ’€
i donā€™t think anything i say re this will come as a surprise to anyone who knows me lol i feel like that fight was such a good opportunity to show, in narrative, remus at fault without excusing his actions and the text still missed the mark. iā€™ve talked before about this, but remus always gets off scot free with no consequences or even reproach for any of his shitty actions and i think this comes under the same banner. iirc even hermioneā€™s like ā€˜wtf harryā€™ because of his response, right?
but here, we see him acting shitty in a manner u absolutely cannot ignore. i mean, thereā€™s a point to which ur willing to ignore a grown manā€™s agency and actions, right? and i feel like ā€˜abandoning ur wife and unborn kid in the middle of a whole warā€™ is waaaaaay past that point. we can talk all day about how he thought he was in the right, how he mightā€™ve actually brought misfortune to them by virtue of who he was, but that still doesnā€™t excuse what tonks wouldā€™ve been going through, esp considering her own dad pulled a similar stunt.
you bring up such a great point re james. remus had absolutely no problems invoking his name when he wanted to guilt trip harry (i keep saying this but their conversation in poa horrifies me every time i think about it) but the moment he gets it back? itā€™s all ā€˜oh woe is me how dare uā€™. kinda makes me think remus never had to deal w the consequences of his actions (which like,,,am i wrong tho) bc all the misfortune he has, he attributes to his condition and never his own actions. he basically operates on an external locus of control and the people around him keep enabling it. (ofc a lot of this is conjecture + influenced by what iā€™ve seen in fandom bc we (i?) donā€™t actually know that much about him & his motivations from the text) and i think when he actually is held accountable, heā€™ll go straight on the defensive bc he doesnā€™t know how to handle it.
imo remus is super, super self destructive and not that capable at maintaining healthy relationships. for all that people go on and on about james and sirius being assholes and bullies, remus is actually so much more insidious in terms of being ā€˜toxicā€™. i really think harry was so right for doing what he did, not matter how much shit he gets for it, because someone has to. his friends wonā€™t, people in authority arenā€™t, and he gets to go through life blaming everything except himself.
i feel like this is super unsympathetic to him lol but that scene in dh is actually one of my favs just because someone is finally saying something to Saint Remus and the fact that itā€™s harry, of all people? u go bby!!! it was also such a thoughtless action on remusā€™ part bc heā€™s telling this to a literal orphan who grew up abused and neglected. also!! the way it portrays him on the complete end of the spectrum as james (who we know is the ā€˜embodiment of braveryā€™ in the text bc of his actions therefore, remus is an absolute coward which, self professed but now proved further) which really makes u understand harryā€™s pov too, i think. because he idolised his dad, ykno? and heā€™s heard remus talk about their bond before, and we know harryā€™s judged people by comparing (and associating) them to his parents right? so it just makes remus come off even worse.
ultimately, i think it was just another selfish + narrow minded action in a long list that we can attribute to remus. can we explain them? sure. but does that justify it? i personally donā€™t think so, but others can obv disagree. remus wasnā€™t thinking of tonks or baby teddy or harry when he offered to accompany them, no matter how much he tried to spin it that way and i think that lying (to both others & himself) is v characteristic of his personality throughout the whole series. heā€™s a serial manipulator and no oneā€™s safe from it, not even him.
(iā€™m reading this and itā€™s so rambly gosh. i hope some of it made sense?)
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cat-crowned-8 Ā· 2 years ago
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I'm so excited to see a hispanic actor playing a prominent role in the upcoming pjo series, but I feel like it's incredibly relevant to Luke's character that he is a blonde white man.
Absolutely all the support to Charlie, he was great in Diary of a future president. I think he's going to be amazing and they obviously cast him for a reason.
I feel like Luke being objectively attractive (so is charlie tho) and white is relevant to the reason he sees the world the way he does. We all know that the longer Percy went on as the main character, the more he saw what Luke was saying during the first war.
Besides Lukes point honestly being pretty valid about the gods not paying child support, one of the reasons (in my opinion) that he reacted so strongly to not being supported by his parents is the fact that he had other privilege.
Obvs his life wasn't perfect. He was raised by a single mother and ran away when he was still a teenager, adopting two younger girls while on the run, one of which died soon after. He had some issues.
But Luke walked through life being a white, conventionally attractive man. He didn't have to fight for a lot of things in life (before the monsters). And he would never understand that, because I honestly highly doubt that Luke would see his white male privilege.
So when Luke realized that the gods weren't all they cracked up to be (after a build up of his own trauma, seeing all the unclaimed kids in his cabin, and after his quest) he had to come to the abrupt realization that some things just weren't available to him (like his father's attention and love).
So he decided that he was going to go out and change that.
I have conflicting emotions about Luke Castellan. I don't think he can be considered a hero. But I don't think he's a villain either. Luke saw an unfair and corrupt system and chose to do his best to fix it. Yes, he went about it the wrong way, but by the end, he was brainwashed and manipulated by Kronos.
(I do not support his whole 'do you love me?' thing. I personally feel like he was asking in general and that annabeth misunderstood because i don't want to think of him as a p3do. I also think that we shouldn't completely judge him based off that moment, since I feel like that was an incredibly weird turn for Rick to take and doesn't make sense.)
(haven't read the books in a hot minute so feel free to tell me if I'm wrong about stuff)
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spaceyflowers Ā· 2 years ago
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stuff about latest lookism chapters (390-398)
ok i finally caught up. originally i was just planning to read along with the webtoon but its kinda behind from the latest updates and i am.. so tired of trying to avoid spoilers šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
here are some thoughts i wanna say !
-magami is my poor little meow meow and i love him with all my heart (more thoughts on him here <3)
-doo's character development šŸ’Ŗ his bromance with ryuhei was pretty sweet too <3
-i thought yall were joking when yall said ryuhei's backstory for liking mitsuki was "my dick dont work but when youre around it does [lip bite]" but it was real. holy shit.
-his romance with mitsuki was ok btw. im glad it was somewhat expanded outside of "you make my dick not broken ā¤ļø" but i still dont think he had enough of a reason to like mitsuki so much he'd lay his life down for her. all he liked were little surface level details about her ?? šŸ˜­ ("she smiles at even little things you do for her" ok bro..)
-but idk maybe surface level attraction is all he needs to feel ready to do Anything for someone which is... just sad. either way he and mitsuki should not become a couple šŸ’€
-w.... why is cap guy obsessed with strong guys
-i hate tom lee. seriously. i dont want to see anymore of him and his creepy ass "danglers" thing.
-BIG DEAL IS HAPPY AND REUNITED EXCEPT FOR SAMUEL AAGGGRRHGHGG šŸ’”šŸ’”šŸ’”šŸ’”šŸ’”šŸ’”
-SO HAPPY FOR WARREN AND SALLY <33
-PTJ WHEN WILL CHEONGLIANG ARC COME OUT I WANT TO SEE VIN JIN AND MARY'S BACKSTORIES AND HAVE MC PESITCIDES BE RELEVANT AGAIN. ALSO FINDING OUT WHAT EXACTLY HAPPENED WITH THE MURDER VIN JIN APPARENTLY COMMITTED
-i just want more family agendas to sob over ok. cheongliang fam looks like a tragedy story i want to know what happened
-gun is such a freak <3 and i still wonder what the hell went thru his mind when he put on that hideous fit
-i pray for little and big daniel's survivals from their own personal hells
-also praying for zack and whatever the hell he's gonna go thru with that "crazy monk" šŸ˜­ ??? i also really hope this is the last act in his inferiority complex character arc thing bc i feel like it's been dragging on for too long šŸ’”
-for zack's part, too; was absolutely wild seeing characters (cho ma and daegong ji) we havent seen since lookism was actually about lookism and not gang wars lmao
-what did eugene mean by hes gonna bring xiaolung back. my mans got his legs broken by jake. whatre yall gonna do, give him some batshit leg surgery to fix him up????? (im pretty sure its implied jake broke his legs beyond repair ?? or like. are u telling me a few months have passed and xiaolung is perfectly healed and ready to fight ?)
-jinyoung is a freak but him crying over that flashback with him and gapryong arm wrestling as they had fun bantering... i guess they did have a genuine bromance? what were gapryong's goals exactly?
-wonder how the mystery (?) with gapryong's death and jake's older bro is gonna all unfold
-lua im is ...... something! (more thoughts on my post about her here)
-i still hate johan's new haircut
-ALSO I HOPE ELI AND HOSTEL/RUNAWAY FAM STAY SAFE...... cool to see manager kim again tho šŸ˜­
afterthoughts
-will crystal be relevant anytime soon. what about her two bodies.
-i still miss jay šŸ˜­ his dad is way more involved than him???? youd think maybe jay would be more involved, too, then, but nope hes just gonna stay queer bait ig... no hope for ptj but i still wish jay got to do more with the story than be devoted to daniel bc he has an interesting design/vague backstory to be expanded upon and his dad is literally someone the main character daniel is teaming up with to take down the antagonist like ????!
-sobs.... j high gang... i miss the girls and burn knuckles šŸ’”
-i dont know how to feel about daniel's current character arc. i understand his feelings but i honestly dislike seeing characters say "i dont want to depend on people anymore so im gonna get stronger on my own" šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ like sure, hun, but dont leave all your friends behind to go ask an insane person like gun for help ?!
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itonje Ā· 3 years ago
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hey sexy stranger who is not me would you like to talk about therese
hello sexy stranger who is not me i WOULD like to talk about therese aka theresa but i changed her name a little bit cause it didnt sound like. idk french enough
anyways therese florien is louis florien (oc)'s younger sister and also the last monarch of the northern empire (actually when she became queen she was the last monarch of just the north because the south and the west had broken off by that point but we'll get to that).
in the main story, 20-30 years after all these events ill be telling later take place, samira and the rest of the continent know her as 'The Coward Queen/Tea-time Queen' because she only ruled for a couple days and immediately forsook the throne when the southern and ko'bi army approached the capital. currently, she resides in the florien ancestral home (summerhead) on the northern continent, and she's converted the castle into both a prayer place and a place where travelers and vagabonds and so on can stay for safety. and she's basically become like a priestess . long long long backstory under the cut
anyways . the first we know of her is that she's louis' younger sister, she's very religious, she's very timid, and she's very close to her father gareth...there are reasons for the last two that have to do with her late mother lorete. so like. louis is a sorcerer which lorete discovered when he was just a child (northern sorcerers are believed to be willingly practicing dark magic against their religion or whatever) and the florien family is already in some deep shit with the royal family (tldr floriens used to be the royal family, were deposed and murdered and so on and also gareth pissed off his cousin back when they were in their twenties or whatever, this will all be relevant later) and so lorete knew that her son would be taken away/the family wld be punished or whatever adn devoted all her attention towards her son and towards concealing his magic from everyone, including his father.
and when she gives birth to therese, her attention is still all lazer focused on louis, and gareth, who doesn't know why she's ignoring her in the first place basically raises his daughter alone up until lorete dies of an outbreak of plague or whatever when therese is four and then he's raising the eight year old louis AND therese alone. therese's timidity comes from both the paranoia her mother exuded when she was little, lorete's death, the fact that when she was young she saw a jousting accident involving her father in which a man died. her piousness comes from the fact that the only thing she really did when she was younger was pray and read while her father was out doing knightly duties (cough cough colonizing) and it provided an outlet for her to vent her emotions ab her upbringing
also, there's a conspiracy the floriens were involved in with a couple other families set up by gareth's grandmother to restore the florien family on the throne (re: louis would become king when the time came) so like even then everyone always gave her brother attention over her because they were convinced he would be king and she was just the second child they didn't care about. in this world like women are as eligible to inherit and own land just as much as men btw louis was just the eldest
anyways because of her very like. kind of stuck up religious nature, her fear, and because the floriens are already kind of pariahs her first friends are just louis' friends, charicle elaphin (the elaphins are a family close 2 the floriens) and the strange iloro girl whos in training to be a knight (kidlat, but her 'northern name' is claire), but they get along very well, making a little sort of friend group.
as the years get on, therese really keeps herself busy just by taking care of her, who's very infirm, and reading more theological stuff (like by her hero, her ancestor aveline florien who was a priestess and religious reformer) and even writing a bit of her own stuff. to the outside world though, her interiority is looked down upon and royal family supporters (ie, against the floriens) even spread rumors about her, like that she's a secret sorcerer or something (the florien family has always had accusations of sorcery flung against them, little do they know there is a witch in her family but it's her brother who's actually the sorcerer)
we mostly either see her thru the perspective of kidlat, who likes her but feels a bit alienated to her like how kidlat feels alienated by everything northern, or louis who is like. apathetic towards her like he feels some affection for her because they're siblings of course but he's not really close to her and he thinks her piousness is self righteous and finds her deep fear and timidity unpleasant to deal with...tho, his greatest resentment towards her comes from the fact that he's always felt his father has preferred her over him (he does btw. like louis isn't wrong lol)
anyways the royal family sets up a wedding for her because louis refuses to be married, and claims this is out of love for their cousins, but this is just really a ploy to royally piss off gareth by taking his other child away from his household (something they already did to louis), and therese is um. well she's very angry and upset about this, which louis (and no one else, except for her father ofc) doesn't realize until the day of her wedding when he's getting her ready. she doesn't want to leave her father and summerhead, she wants to devote her life to the Goddess instead of some random husband, and she, like the rest of the floriens incl louis feels very humiliated and cheated by the way she's being treated when she has the right to the throne, when she and co should be in charge....this surprises louis because. he didnt know other people had feelings. also at some point therese wants to ask charicle to marry her instead because he's very religious as well and he's gay so neither of them would have pressure to feel love for the other, but louis tells her to not do that by saying oh well he's half western you're a florien almost-princess which convinces her to not do that
anyways she does get married to this guy, and has a kid (eventually), but continues to constantly visit her own family and gareth dies of like. natural causes or whatever (also stress because of louis being a cunt asshole or whatever and therese leaving him and colonizer guilt and a bad leg infection and honestly the man had a lot going on tbh) which really really bums her out, louis also yells at her because again, poorly hidden resentment over his father's preferential treatment of her which makes her even more upset
also later on when the king is dying she tries to pray for him at his bedside but the queen, who again, does not like the floriens, gets mad, calls her a witch and devil or whatever whos killing him, tries to beat her etc, and finally therese has had it she's HAD it and her big joker breaking point moment is. throwing a shoe at the queen and calling her a 'very godless lady'
anyways later later after aeetes (yeah remember him) kills prince edouard, who was about to be crowned king, and the west, galvanized by the south breaking off and the death of the Sort of King, breaks off as well and starts waging war against the northern forces, the remaining northern lords are like. well shit. whos going to be in charge. maybe the floriens again? but..... louis has already ran off chasing after the deserter kidlat (and unbeknownst to everyone, has died in a tragic mysterious Axe Murder Accident) so the crown goes to...you guessed it....therese! anyways she's crowned, only of the north, which is the only nation the crown has juristiction over at this point, but when the southern and ko'bi forces annihilate the remainder of the loyal northern knights (many northern families have tried to start their own factions to try to reconquer the continent, even fighting each other..this is not working) and move up to take the throne a couple days afterward, her deep fear that she's always carried with her leads to her immediately forfeiting the crown and running away....
i wrote a little something from her perspective on her coronation, basically she believes that the goddess has put this in her hands for a reason, she believes and knows she's truly the heir to the great florien kings and queens, she's apathetic towards the (supposed) death of her brother because um. the way he treated her for all of her life, though she does feel a great emptiness now that he's gone, she wishes her mother and father were there to see her, but there's always that. undercurrent of anxiety and uncertainty she's always had. so you can kind of see what she eventually does coming from a mile away
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dahniwitchoflight Ā· 4 years ago
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Homesquared Chapter 14 part b
Alright time for more reactions to Homesqaured- oh jeezus
the last one of these I did was from october last year, hoo boy alright brain time to get back on the time train things are happening fast
we last left off with me thinking they just fucking hilled Harry but I remembered the wrong house so Harrys fine, John not so much
Yeah, John sad but ooh Karkat shows up!
They seem to have a mutual conversation about lost youth and stuff, really makes these characters feel oold
ā€œJOHN: jeez, i'm sorry karkat.
JOHN: i had no idea how much time had passed.
JOHN: i must have gotten a bit distracted by my house being blown up.ā€œ
Oh man, John thats a whole ass MOOD
lol at sburb allocated blow job
yeah Karkats right tho, John does kind of need a kick in the pants to see how he might have been useful here, but Johns still stuck in this rut of not seeing anything around him as Real real, so hes blind to all of the consequences of inaction
John its called derealization and depersonalization, you can get help for that yknow
But I mean, cant really blame him, hes being smothered by the fires of Doom all around him
Its interesting to see that Karkat, a Blood player, is more comfortable navigating through things that constrain them and tie them down, since constraint is something Blood and Doom have in common, Chains and Barriers and Laws and etc
Whereas John the Breath player, just gets bogged down, hes totally out of his element
so it ends up being like John:Ā ā€œId like to cling to some funny moments of my youth pls and try to lighten the situation up a bit because I cant do anything when so heavyā€
versus Karkat being like:Ā ā€œBUCKLE UP FUCK TITS THIS SHIT IS YOUR LIFE NOW GETS USED TO WADING KNEE DEEP IN THE SHIT LIKE THE REST OF US GROWN ASS ADULTSā€
John: ):
Hmm, both Vriskas have been captured, but Annie basically rescued herself, knowing Vriska Prime she probably has a plan or an idea about that, see well see how that goes
ā€œKARKAT: JANE'S PLAN FOR THIS CONFLICT HAS THUS FAR CONSISTED ALMOST ENTIRELY OF KIDNAPPING VARIOUS HIGH PROFILE CHILDREN.
KARKAT: IT'S BIZARRE.
KARKAT: AS THOUGH WE ARE FIGHTING A WAR OF ATTRITION, WHERE THE MAIN RESOURCE BEING UTILIZED IS THE OFFSPRING OF THE MOST POWERFUL PEOPLE ON THE PLANET.KARKAT: IF IT WASN'T ONE OF THE CORE TENETS OF HER FASCISTIC PHILOSOPHY, I'D BE TEMPTED TO SAY THAT CURBING REPRODUCTION MIGHT HAVE BEEN A GOOD IDEA, IF ONLY TO PREVENT THIS KIND OF FUCKSHIT NONSENSE FROM HAPPENING.
Oh. Well I guess that was Dirkā€™sĀ ā€œplansā€ for Jane all along. Obviously he was using Jane as a vehicle to gatherĀ ā€œplayersā€ for his eventually next session, interesting
But who has Jane kidnapped in total thus far?
Does Tavros count? he was certainly trapped with her for some amount of his life, but I dont know if that counts as a kidnapping, John certainly tried to kidnap HIM though from the epilogues
Annie certainly counts as being kidnapped
Vrissy has JUST been captured so that counts, and Harry so far is still fine
Which bodes so well for Harryā€™s future Im sure
Yeah, Vriska should have been able to not outwit any capture attempts, but my guess is either Vrissy got capture and Vriska dove in, OR, Vriskaā€™s doing an inside job so to speak and got caught on purpose, dragging Vrissy along as well
I guess weā€™ll see when we see theirĀ ā€œprisonā€
Anyway John, donā€™t get so down on yourself, youā€™re just ignorant to everythiong around you! thats why nothing makes sense and you canā€™t connect to anything, easy fix! Just try to learn more and care more about stuff lol
Man does this feel like a strong metaphor between people who are into/care about politics and people who feel like they canā€™t get into it though
Crossing that hurdle from one side to the other is rough
ā€œKARKAT: BUT NOTICING THE PROBLEM AND MAKING MEANINGFUL PROGRESS TOWARDS SOLVING IT ARE TWO COMPLETELY DIFFERENT THINGS.ā€
yup
man, this is all feeling startlingly relevant to the current times, I should have read this sooner
ā€œ KARKAT: PLEASE DO NOT TELL ME YOU JUST HAD ANOTHER EMOTION THAT WE NEED TO DROP EVERYTHING IN ORDER TO DISSECT. ā€œ
hah, oh wow, Karkat when you phrase it like that, itā€™s almost as if youā€™ve become self aware of your tendencies to Moirail people out of their problems
Not really that out of character for a Blood player to end up being the Therapy Friend though lol
Just donā€™t burn yourself out on that though
JOHN: karkat, we still haven't spoken about *you*!
KARKAT: ABOUT ME?
JOHN: yes.
KARKAT: ABOUT *ME*?
JOHN: about you.
KARKAT: WHAT THE FUCK ABOUT ME.
JOHN: well...
JOHN: you know, how you feel!
KARKAT: HOW I FEEL.
I know Karkat has probably matured past misunderstandings like this now given heā€™s really come into a great understanding of his Blood aspect, but by golly do I wish Karkat would misunderstand this as Johnā€™s attempts to be Moirail-reciprocal sdkjfhwlijebr
What a perfect way to continue their relationship, on top of more misconstrued romance quadrants XD
Spades is old Hat, Diamonds are in now babey
Oh
this started out funny, but Karkatā€™s emotional rant just ended up being depressing not funny ):
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I have to say though, it is REALLY interesting to see Johnā€™s depression manifesting in a very breathy sort of way
Karkat in these panels was more closer together, connected, but as John gets more and more depressed over the course of Karkatā€™s rant when he realizes Karkat doesnā€™t know dave died, the panels get seperated by lines of blue, and slowly drift off away from John and from eachother
but thats basically been hows its been manifesting all along
the more John feels Disconnected and Seperate from the reality he finds himself in, the more he finds his will untethered, the more depressed and unable to act he gets
and right now its so much so that even a fuller fledged Blood player is having trouble grounding him back down
I donā€™t know, I always viewed the depression metaphor as a dark watery void to sink into and feels heavy and encapsulating (but probably thats just my Light-y interpretation of it)
so its interesting to see the depression metaphor as this floating disconnection instead, so much that it leans towards derelaization/depersonalistion/dissociation as well
I wonder if John will start dealing with bouts of actual full blown dissociation as this gets worse?
I mean, Breath aspect has given the literal ability to ghost around wherever he pleases in all other ways, why not literally and physcologically as well?
So John seems to be fully overembracing his aspect here, to a very unhealthy degree here, which I see you askingĀ ā€œaha Dahni, but hes doesnā€™t have overblown self esteem here, quite the opposite, is this not an inverted state instead? or something else because hes acting like hes inverting to Breath?ā€
and I say not so! reader, for overembracing is the idea that through your aspect, your will is overwriting the wills of others, and in someone like Vriska, this manifests in a very selfish and over self esteemed way
but is not Johnā€™s will overwriting Karkatā€™s here? Through Breath? And isnt John also being a little selfish here? Considering how he feels about things, more important than how anyone else feels? How Karkat feels?
John is too dissociated to understand that this reality is Real and has Consequences he needs to care about, and Karkat is trying to fight against that, trying to instill his belief that no, this shit is real and it Matters Why Donā€™t You Care, trying to ground him, trying to give him that dose of Blood he needs
but Johnā€™s overembracing Breath is just, blowing that all away, its becoming too strong
Roxy in the epilogues dealt with this as well, when John was really in the shits with it and started to believe Roxyā€™s whole personality was somehow fake and his own construction, because he convinced himself Roxy would never choose to do the things she did, but Roxy was able to snap him out of it and make him understand and respect it was her own choices that led down his path, not the idea that Johnā€™s choices are somehow overriding everyones
But man, John sure is riding that Breath train way too hard, and he keeps snapping back into it as well
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dabihaul666 Ā· 3 years ago
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New 'round here. You say you love all villains..even AFO? Yknow cus he's like..bad. Stinky bad man. Bad.
Love Spinner though, thoughts on him?
ON AFO:
''stinky bad man'' its ok anon we can use our big adult words here. CORRECT. I do love ALL the villains.* I appreciate afo as a villain! his fight with all might in camino ward was GREAT, very exciting to watch. afo even was taking over shigaraki's body or whatever for a bit?? who was supposed to be his like perfect heir or whatever? I can't say I love this most recent manga update though... it kind of seems like hori is changing his motivations and they don't make a whole lot of sense. idk i havent read it yet tho just the summary lolololol. but without that part he's just a good old fashion big bad evil villain!
this new thing where like, villains are ''too bad'' to be liked or appreciated is so silly to me like. ok so u want lackluster villains that never go too far or do TOO bad of things? you always want them to have a deeply traumatic childhood sob story? would that make what they do okay? re like - people compairing shigaraki and dabi and todoroki shouto and overhaul's backgrounds.
how on earth would bnha world keep spinning without afo? ''you know he's bad, right'' is so.... lol weird to me. like yea thats why he's good.
ON SPINNER:
tbh i like spinner! i just don't think he has what it takes to be a villain! i was always rooting for ''redemption arcs'' or whatever you want to call them for spinner and twice.
spinner's still really different from the rest of the league. ive said it before but he wasn't down for going against police in the chapter 160 highway chases. the anime glossed over it but spinner was demanding answers from shigaraki when they were fighting machia! when the league took over that mansion belonging to the anti-heteromorph cult!! he believed in stain's ideals the longest out of the league!! i think he should totally guide a movement for heteromorphs i love that for him, but im just not convinced he would have to stay with the league/liberation front for that, and i think they (plf +afo) know it! the plf needs his fans to stay relevant after they lost like 100k of them members, afo likes to make everyone do his bidding, i think both of them are trying to stroke spinner's ego a little bit, make sure he knows they find him a valuable asset u kno what i mean?
so i like spinner i just never talk about him bc he's not..... really evil enough. he doesn't appeal to me personally. he's kind of coming into his own but he was WELL out of his depth when he first started tbh. like also with magne, i would classify her as more dedicated to the league than spinner because she was ready to throwdown life or death instantly against some random dude. tbh idk how old spinner is but he just seems young sometimes, which yknow maybe because he was a gamer neet due to heteromorph racism and stuff in his ? smaller town? iirc. he was way in over his head and that really kind of cemented for me when i grew to love some characters more than others if this makes sense.
BUT WELCOME to around here anon!!
if i come off as hostile or talking with too much hyperbole or extremism its bc i have been here for a very long time and put up with a fair(unfair?) amount of things lol. my main goal is to mind my own business making bizarre and niche aus for myself and maybe like a few other ppl and friends with my evil little meowmeows. if they haven't killed someone they probably dont interest me too much :p
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mercuryislove Ā· 3 years ago
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Donā€™t hate me butā€¦ I kinda want you to answer all of the deep dive WIP asks šŸ„ŗ if thatā€™s unreasonable tho, just 2, 9, and 10 please!
I am SORRY for the delay!!! i answered every question for BOTH projects so you're in for like.... several thousand words of shit that makes absolutely no sense, but i hope you you enjoy it! :)
1. Who are two characters that don't like each other? What do they reveal about each other to the readers? Will they ever learn to put aside their differences?
White Crane: okay this is hard because like. so many people do not like each other. (I know I made a post once about how terrible it would be to be one of twenty-eight people that have the power of dead gods but are trapped in stupid human bodies and you're all a thousand years old and hate each other so so so so so much because you all SUCK.) But for the sake of simplicity, I will talk about Ciaran and Sihla who never got along but only played nice to keep Anwei happy. They absolutely do NOT put aside their differences lmao once everything kind of, um, blows up between the three of them, all they want to do is KILL each other. She makes it her life's goal to make him suffer, and he basically loses his sanity in the process of trying to find a way to kill her for good. The beef is unbelievable. ANYWAY, what they reveal about each other is that Ciaran is not nearly as innocent in anything as he likes to pretend and Sihla is not as guilty as everyone says she is. I mean, she is still a terrible person in many ways, but that does not excuse the things he did to her all those years ago. She hates him for many, many good reasons.
Old Blood: Andhira HATES the entire Ekion family, but specifically the oldest son (who does not have an official name yet.... oops). He doesn't much care for her either but is usually too busy trying to better his social standing to worry too much about her. Except when they're in the same room together (which happens semi-regularly because her brother is kind of in love with him lmao). They hate each other for the exact same reason and it's that they're both SO arrogant. They look down on everyone around them (which in Andhira's case is like. fair. She's the firstborn of the two most powerful people on the planet, and the only person that comes close to that level of power is her twin brother who was born a mere fourteen minutes after her) but think the other is completely unjustified in their actions. Really all it reveals to a reader is that they both kind of suck and need to get over themselves because all that behavior does is make people resent you. They only put aside their differences because she does kind of need his help once or twice, but they would gladly spit in each other's face and/or push each other down a flight of stairs in the name of pettiness.
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2. What do you hope your readers will take away from your wip? Is there an intentional theme to the story?
These can be answered together! I started writing these stories because I wanted to have fun but they've both kind of morphed into a long-winded way of saying that like. it's okay to be messed up and hate yourself and have major internal struggles because there are people who still love you. I KNOW it doesn't sound like that from uhhhhhh literally everything I've ever said about this stuff but bear with me. The BIG theme is that love is EVERYTHING. All kinds of love. It's the reason to keep on going. You are never alone, even strangers can love you in their own way, etc etc etc etc. Also gay love fucking prevails always and forever.
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3. What do you love most about your protagonist?
Yixing is funny and weird and definitely a horse girl and he kind of sucks sometimes because he's stubborn as hell and has terrible people skills and maybe also a drinking problem, but he is kind and empathetic and despite the absolute hell he's lived through, he still sees the good in people and knows that it's easy to make mistakes and that most people deserve second chances in life. Also I like him because he is without a doubt the ideal man and I made him that way on purpose. And god I wish we could drink together. I'm talking stumbling drunk, crying on the bathroom floor, please-hold-my-hair-i'm-about-to-throw-up kind of drinking. We would have a great time being stupid together I think.
Vera is resilient and mean and stubborn and cold and off-putting and hard to get to know, and she sucks for those reasons but it's also why I love her so much. She has also lived through hell and it didn't make her try to see the good in people like Yixing does. It just made her bitter and resentful. She warms up over time, but she fights tooth and nail against it. I also love her so much because she is the archetype of like. the washed up former prodigy that has to return sort of against her will to her old life, and she realizes that she misses it in some ways but also remembers exactly why she left. I would Not want to drink with her (because she doesn't drink anymore), but I would love to take one of her art classes.
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4. Is there anything in the story that is implied but not directly stated? Will this become more relevant later on? How perceptive would a reader have to be to pick up on this?
White Crane: This is hard because I'm so invested in my own shit that it feels obvious to me, but I try to lay out a little candy trail that tells the reader that Ciaran and Anwei are Not What They Seem right from the start. Itā€™s hard to explain without specific examples but itā€™s in the way they talk, they way they interact with other people, the way certain things they say donā€™t line up, etc etc etc. And there is a Big Hint of what will happen to Ciaran in the second and third installment, but idk if that counts. Also there are definitely implications that Yixing is trans but that's neither here nor there (honestly Iā€™ve gone back and forth on whether or not he should be explicitly trans or if it should be left to reader interpretation because well... I donā€™t know if I'm capable of writing the nuance of transness because I'm not trans despite my complex and confusing relationship with gender but I'm also not a thirty-something year old Asian man NOR am I a god NOR am I a former vampire hunter NOR am I like. any of the things I write about other than a mean lesbian so. who knows?)
Old Blood: TRUE FANS already know this one, but regular degular readers that haven't participated in funny question friday or read my random late night posting would not immediately know that Josef and the Sovereign were once involved. Basically the only characters in the story that know are Josef, Luka, the Sovereign himself, and Tahire. But there are definitely some hints peppered throughout conversations and perhaps some photos and trinkets that Josef has kept after all this time... It has like no weight on the events of the story but I just think it's fun. Once again I am way too invested to know if it's easy to pick up on or not but I think it takes some theorizing about maybe? Other than that there arenā€™t any significant secrets.
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5. Which character has the most intricate backstory? Is this backstory common knowledge from the start, or is it revealed later on? How does the backstory affect the narrative?
White Crane: this is unfair because some of the characters are almost a thousand years old and some of them are like. 35. I DO have a full timeline written out of the thousand years of history that Ciaran and Anwei have lived through, if that counts as an answer. Like it doesn't have every single day and year, but it has all the big events for sure. Barring that, Yixing definitely has a pretty complex backstory. The man gets around lol and I try (and maybe fail?) to make him seem not too complex initially but then things get revealed and you learn more about him and are like ā€œoh my god no wonder this man has Problems.ā€ Also if he was like. ā€œnormalā€ and perhaps ā€œwell-adjustedā€ the story would not exist at all because he is the way he is and makes some of the stupid decisions he does because of his weird little life.
Old Blood: ONCE AGAIN, this is unfair because the Sovereign is like older than god. And Vera is 37. But like. I haven't fleshed him or any of the old ass vampires out nearly as much as Vera so there's your answer I guess? And I guess the important things are known from the start (that she was a prodigy, that she retired because terrible shit happened and she couldn't handle it, that she suffers from significant ptsd because of it, etc), but there is a lot of detail that doesn't come out until much later when she has to confront her Feelings (ewww feelings). Uh... the backstory affects the narrative because it wouldn't exist at all if Vera wasn't plagued by her fucked up blood nightmares lol
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6. Which two characters have the most complicated relationship? How does their relationship develop over time?
White Crane: Ciaran and Anwei totally. They love each other because they're brother and sister and were all the other had for a VERY long time (and even when they were still uh mortal, they relied on each other constantly), but also they hate each other because they're brother and sister. You know how it is with siblings. I love my brother and sister to pieces but I can't imagine being immortal and having to put up with the both of them for all eternity (sorry guys if you are reading this somehow.... I love you but we are all so annoying god bless). They handled their newfound godhood very, very, very differently and it kind of colors their relationship for the rest of time. There were times where they were extremely codependent and other times where they didn't speak to each other for DECADES. At the start of our story, they're on much better terms and have buried all their hatchets, but it doesn't take much for that to change....
Old Blood: Probably Vera and Andhira? They're only brought together because of their shared fucked up blood nightmares, and neither of them like that thought. They both resent the other for everything they are, and Vera is pretty much completely hostile to Andhira about it for a long time (and Andhira is only just barely cordial lol), but obviously a significant part of the plot revolves around them like. falling in love so they DO get over it after a while :)
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7. What is the most heart-wrenching scene in your wip? Why?
White Crane: When Yixing fucking DIES. I feel like this one should be self-explanatory. But I mean if you would like further explanation, it's unpleasant and slow and agonizing and nobody can do anything to stop it (haha....... unless?) so Ciaran gets to hold him for a long time and feel really bad about it lol
Old Blood: idk if there are any really heart-wrenching scenes but there are definitely some miserable and uncomfortable scenes like where Vera relives in vivid detail the days that she witnessed the gruesome deaths of her young apprentice and her last lover. They're upsetting because those are the two days that basically ruined her life (and one was the final straw that sent her spiraling completely out of control) and it's painful to watch her have to live with the guilt of what happened even if it wasn't her fault.
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8. What is a song that you associate with your wip? Explain.
White Crane: not to be basic but absolutely without a doubt in my stupid mind ā€œEverybody Wants to Rule the Worldā€ by Tears for Fears lol it's because uh. well. Everybody wants to rule the world right? Basically way back in 2019 when I was crafting the ideas for the dnd campaign that became this thing instead, I was definitely having a metal gear moment (honestly Iā€™m about to have a metal gear moment NOW lol) and was listening to a lot of like. mgs adjacent music and latched onto this song (and also promises, promises by naked eyes lmao) as some like thematic element. Like my brain making amvs. You know how it is. ANYWAY the point is. The concept was originally way different and was supposed to be more about the immediate aftermath of the so-called end of the world (yes Yixing was still there and yes he was still just some guy), and it focused a lot more on power struggles between all of these insane people that were granted godhood in the wake of the dying world. Which........ is something I'd like to write about at some point because it's intriguing in its own way but at the time I was unequipped to write about that when I really just wanted to write about people who are, for all intents and purposes, quite average getting caught up in the batshit drama of higher powers. (fun fact: Ciaran was supposed to be a tyrant king that ran a death cult and Anwei and Yixing were working together to figure out a way to kill him. Which is. Kind of what my dnd campaign is like now lol BASICALLY he's like if Big Boss was unkillable and could also rip souls out of people's bodies and eat them. I absolutely do not remember what this question originally was. Something about a song?)
Old Blood: THIS is the reason it took me so long to answer this whole thing. I thought long and hard and looked through all my playlists and listened to random songs that came to mind but it turns out the song I was looking for was right in front of me the whole time. DUH. It's ā€œGolden Lightā€ by Twin Shadow :) In my humble homo interpretation, I think it's a song about being afraid to fall in love and. Well. That's the whole point. Also #spoilers but the first time Vera sees Andhira and is like ā€œoops I think I have feelingsā€ is when they've just arrived at Andhira's home and the sun is rising and she looks over at her as they stand at the top of a hill and she has her eyes closed to the sun and she's bathed in golden light and OOUGGGGHGHHH poetic cinema. (honorable mention goes to ā€œGroove is in the Heartā€ by Deee-lite because itā€™s quintessential early 90s music that Vera would be super into)
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9. What does your protagonist want most? What would they do to achieve this? What is something they wouldn't do to achieve this?
White Crane: Yixing wants to be happy for once. Like actually really happy instead of just. getting by. There's a scene where they're making wishes for the next seasons during the summer solstice and someone asks what he wants and he's like ā€œuh I guess I want to still be alive at the end of the year?ā€ and the other person is like ā€œisn't that what everyone wants? Raise the fucking bar please. What do you REALLY want?ā€ and he's stands there for a really long time and thinks about it before finally saying ā€œI think I just want to be happy for onceā€ and everyone else is like. wow. Way to kill the fucking mood dude. Anyway. He has had fleeting moments of happiness in his life but wants nothing more than to feel that way forever. It's kind of hard to say what he wouldn't do for that because like. there's not really much you CAN do in the first place, so I feel like there's even less you couldn't do. I guess he wouldn't like sell his soul to the devil or something lmao (though by being involved with Ciaran he's pretty much halfway there)
Old Blood: to be left alone. Vera just wants a normal life. She really truly does want to pretend that none of the horrible shit happened to her and that she was never a world-famous hunter. And she wants to teach art classes and live a quiet life!!! I mean, she is already mostly doing that exact thing when we first meet her, but obviously she has some hindrances (aka fucked up blood nightmares). She is begrudgingly helping Andhira because she assumes that will fix her problem and that she'll be able to get to that quiet living as soon as all is said and done. The only thing she really wouldn't do to get what she wants is like... live somewhere far away from Josef and Luka lol She likes having them close by more than she wants to be left alone.
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10. Within your story's world, were there any events that impacted every character (or most characters)? How would they be different if this event never happened? (Alternatively, erase an important even from on character's backstory and imagine where they'd be now.)
White Crane: well. If the stupid old gods didn't all kill themselves and almost end the world then I guess none of this story would exist lol But the actual answer is like. If Yixing had never run out on his girlfriend of ten years then he wouldn't have moved across the continent to Jengmi and wouldn't have made a name for himself way out there and wouldn't have been scouted and recruited and wouldn't have met Ciaran or Anwei and wouldn't have gotten in the middle of the batshit grudge between a bunch of ancient petty gay people and wouldn't have DIED and wouldn't have made one of the ancient petty gay people in particular lose his grip on his humanity via a lust for power in a desperate attempt to guarantee his safety and wouldn't have been the reason that tens of thousands of people die in his name and wouldn't have accidentally set off a chain of events that resulted in him having to hunt down and kill the Actual God that started it all in a fit of jealous rage. So like. maybe he should have just gone through with the wedding. All things considered, his life would have been way less stressful.
Old Blood: uhhh, that's tough because the stuff that happens only really has any effect on the mortal characters (I mean yeah people still try to kill the Sovereign but they're too dumb to know the ACTUAL way to kill him.... haha unless??), so it would be more like a what if Vera didn't witness the violent deaths of both her apprentice and her lover and have a full blown nervous breakdown and abandon her career? Well...... I think most things in the plot would transpire more or less the same, except she would be WAY less pissed off about it. In fact, she would probably be hyped as hell to get the chance to make the acquaintance of the Sovereign's family like Josef had before her. The thought of Vera being upbeat and not a sleep-deprived asshole that hates being dragged back to her old life..... ew. Not that I enjoy her suffering but you know what I mean. It just wouldn't be the same.
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11. What is something from your wip that you just really want to ramble about?
Are you sure you're ready for this. This is going to be so so so so long I'm sorry in advance. It's Saturday night and I'm alone and kind of sad so I'm just going to let loose.
As I hone down plot elements for next two installments in my little trilogy, I have kind of become obsessed with the passage of time and how different it must feel to someone that, well, lives forever. One of the ways I'd written (that has since been kind of changed) for Yixing to start to figure out what Ciaran really is was that he would casually be looking through his bookshelf and find an old photograph of Ciaran, Anwei, and their mom standing backstage together after one of his performances. And when he eventually asks Ciaran about it, he gets upset because how dare you touch the one thing I have left to remember my mother? To remember what my life used to be like? There are so many names and faces and places and foods and sensations that I've forgotten in the 940 years I've lived like this and I would give anything I have to see any of it just one more time because I didn't know that the last time I would ever speak to my mom we would have an argument on the phone about how I need to go to the temple and pray for good fortune on my birthday, or that the last time I would ever see my best friend would be at 6am when we both came into the studio to practice and he asked me to go out to breakfast and I said no because I thought a nap would be more important. And there are so many people that I've watched die whose names I never learned and whose faces I forgot the moment I turned away, and there are so many others that I loved so dearly that I had to leave behind because they grew old and I didn't. And I have lived lifetimes in solitude to keep myself a secret from other people and I have died more than any person should ever have to die and I have witnessed atrocities no one should ever witness and I hate everything about this life so much but I love everything about this life so much and I wouldnā€™t trade it for anything but I think I would give it all away in an instant if only to remember the scent of my mother's favorite perfume and I think I would give it all away in an instant if it meant I didn't have to watch you turn to dust in my arms.
ANYWAY. I think a lot about the agony of loving things that aren't permanent and how it really DOES drive you mad because lately I have been unbelievably nostalgic for certain things that weren't even that long ago but..... I didn't appreciate them at the time and I feel so guilty about it. (And like. I too would give up my entire life to be able to remember the scent of my grandmother's favorite perfume.) And all my pent-up sadness is for things that only happened in my childhood. I have pictures and videos and other people to share those memories with, but what does it feel like to be one of very few people that watched the entire world fall apart and rebuild itself and have nothing to hold onto from that time? What does it feel like to foster dozens of generations of children and outlive every single one of them? What does it feel like to have only fragments of memories of entire lifetimes? How lonely is it? I mean, Ciaran and Anwei have each other and that makes a difference but it still has to be the most isolating feeling. And then there's the pain that comes with memories that have faded or otherwise become hazy. I doubt either of them remember their father's face. They hadn't seen him in years even before it all happened. If it wasn't for that single photo he has, they wouldn't remember their mother's face either. Do they still remember her name? Or her birthday? Do they remember anyone else? Cousins, aunts, uncles, grandparents, friends, coworkers? If they do, do they even want to talk about it? One thing I worry about in my own life (and this is how I know I have Problems) is that I'm so afraid that talking about memories will alter them somehow. There are so many things that I don't even like to share because once the words are spoken the little vhs tape that has all my memories has been recorded over, even if it's just by a single frame. Something about it has been changed forever each time I talk about it. Do they feel the same way and keep things to themselves instead of sharing the sadness? I think maybe they used to talk about the ā€œold daysā€ or whatever much more often back in the past, but as the years went by.... they just learned to keep it to themselves.
I think maybe I have a lot of anxiety about the passage of time and of being forgotten!
Anyway again. The passage of time drives me insane. And I think it would make me even more insane if I had been chosen to carry the mantle of a dead god and would live forever. My dog died a year ago and I still cry like every single day thinking about her. If I was doomed to live forever I don't know how the sadness wouldn't swallow me whole! No wonder all the people in this book are fucking CRAZY!!
And don't even get me started on the Sovereign lol he's like ā€œoh boo-hoo you've lived for not even a thousand years? Bitch they hadn't invented fucking GLASS yet when I was born. The horse wasn't domesticated yet. Cry harder!!ā€
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halfhappyhooligan Ā· 4 years ago
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a voltron au? in 2020? itā€™s more likely than you think
look. LOOK. i know that voltron is stupid and we hate it but lets be honest: everything up until season 3 was pretty good and had lots of potential !!
today i was rewatching voltron and a thought struck me: what if, instead of shiro being cloned, he was chipped and turned to the side of the galra?
so here it is, i did not blink since i thought of this
(warning, i have not seen voltron in a while and this is just knowledge i have stored in my moss brain and stuff i know from rewatching the first season)
au where shiro goes evil bc of what happens @ end of season one instead of the clone thing bc 1) haggar rly could not have made thousands of shiros after bumping into team voltron like what twice? its hella improbable and 2) justā€¦ weird
so instead they insert a chip in him that helps them spy and control him just like kuron (the clone) did minus the unlikely storytelling
eventually after the convo with sendak when he was in the pod trying to temp shirp, he does have thoughts about helping zarkon
(ā€œim already infiltrated with the arm, i could just speed up the process by leaving now. save the team the trouble of investing in a leader thatā€™s doomed to fail from the strart.ā€)
shiro ends up leaving team voltron in season 2 after zarkon goes crazy w the black lion n stuff
^^ this adds to Keithā€™s reasoning of joining the Blade of Marmora (shiro is his main stability and one of the main reasons he even stuck around with team voltron, so with shiro gone and keith questioning his place as the leader and paladin of the black lion, he decides the BoM is just.. whatā€™s best for him)Ā 
obviously lance isnā€™t happy with this (ā€œyou just told me that iā€™m a valuable member, now you donā€™t think YOU are? what logic is that?ā€)
ofc keith goes anyways
lance becomes paladin of the black lion
allura takes on the red lion
who has blue lion? ...idk this isnā€™t that thought out (maybe matt after pidge finds her family) (which will happen earlier in the plot since we can forget about the miniplot of black no longer responding to shiro)
enter lotor only this time he has a sidekick and what omg its shiro wow
shiro has that bigger version of his arm that was once offered to him
heā€™s stronger and scary, but his eyes arenā€™t the same, he has the strength of a galra but lacks the passionĀ 
in the fight between lotor and zarkon, (and after, of course lots of self doubt and questioning) shiro comes between them and convinces lotor NOT to kill zarkon
then zarkon kills lotor
everyones like oh shit bc surely someone whoā€™s life was just spared wouldnā€™t kill the person who seems to have the most power
but he did. bc heā€™s zarkon. and heā€™s fckn crazy.
shiro doesnā€™t go back to team voltron bc its too much too easily
instead he takes the place of lotor in the group of galsĀ 
he convinces them all to rebel against the galra
eventually they teach him all about quintessence and all the shit lotor had planned that they canā€™t do anymore
(lotor wasnā€™t harvesting alteans in this universe bc what the heck even was that subplot that had little to no relevance to the main storyline?
instead he was trying to find a way to technologically bring back alteans (kinda like how allureā€™s dad was originally preserved in s1)
i know nothing about How Stuff Works and i dont remember much about quintessence n shit but the basic idea is that when tying in some of a persons artifacts with technology stuff and some quintessence then boom. a weird route from astral projection land to the team is created and ppl can come back or smth idfk
but lotor was never able to get the comet so shiro decides he and the gals will get that comet and try to bring back as many alteans as they can
^ all this while infiltrating as many galra fleets as possible + saving planets under galra empire
they personally visit every planet that lotor was in charge of and release them from galra control
they are able to bring back an altean (its romelle) and she talks abt her friend who lives on the balmera and they go to the balmera and its revealed that it was shayā€™s great grandmother so romelle asks where shay is and shayā€™s family is like with team voltron of course
so
they take her
obviously team voltron, the BoM and the Rebels r very hesitant to make contact but they decide to try it out
keith refuses to meet, instead heā€™s on the team that stands guard
reunions !!Ā 
romelle and shay hit it off and hunk makes a dinner much like roselleā€™s past (allura and coran also hang out and they all vibe)
lance talks to shiro abt everything to do with keith and shiro is like dude do u??? like him?
and lance is like what? no ofc notā€”oh shit.
and keith āœØoverhears āœØ
pidge matt and shiro catch up n shit
meanwhile keith is like Hey Lance Uhhhhhh What The Fuck
they end up being like hey since weā€™re all here and we hate zarkon what if we make a plan to end the galraā€™s reign Right Now
so they do
and yā€™all.. itā€™s hella baller plan
except something is going wrong and in the middle of an attack zarkon is able to get the upper handĀ 
due to haggarā€™s magic and lanceā€™s mental and emotional instability, zarkon is able to get in his head
everyone is trying to talk him down but theyā€™re all under a lot of pressure
allura is also conflicted bc she wanted to be black lion bc she wanted to rub it in to zarkonā€™s face that she was stronger than he and that she could beat him at his own game
but the negativity and instability feeds into zarkonā€™s power and makes him and haggar stronger as they pull in voltron to finally take over the team and regain their status as the most powerful alien race
hunk realizes this and is like okay can yā€™all stop being negative? its clearly affecting them in a good way and it makes us an easier target
and pidge is like im literally a child pls i donā€™t wanna die i just got my family back it canā€™t end like this
shiro realizes whatā€™s going on and he goes to save them
he uses all his energy, pulling in the positive memories (everything: first learning about space, becoming a teacher, meeting adam, meeting keith, first making team voltron, his friends and family--all of it) to push back zarkon and haggarā€™s powers and battle once more in the astral realmĀ 
in defeating zarkon, shiro loses his life
afterwards keith enters the ship in a hurry and is like where the fuck is shiro whereā€™s my brother what did you do what happened
and team voltron is like hey man.. we are so so sorry
and keith cries because the last thing he ever said to shiro was mean
lance feels like its all his fault since he was supposed to be a good leader
they talk about separately while hunk pidge and allura discuss
krolia is like keith we, ur family, are here for u
and axca is there and shes like um?? hey?? sry for trying to kill u bro
and heā€™s like i absolutely do not wanna talk i just lost my closest friend
they talk about it later
axca tells keith abt shiro finishing lotorā€™s work and abt bringing people back and well..Ā 
they use the methods to help keith visit shiro in the astral realm
shiro is like oh uh hey i was just having a drink w adam we r happy
and keith is like shiro u fuckhead why would u sacrifice urself
shiro sighs bc cmon keith you KNOW why ā€œremember what i always said? we canā€™t focus on what went wrong..ā€
ā€œweā€™ve got to figure out how to make it rightā€ keith finishes
keith breaks tf down crying and screams apologizing
ā€œi love u shiro. ur a like a big brother to me.ā€
and shiro is like yeah i know and ilyt but hey. everyoneā€™s safe and happy. im safe and happy. & you deserve to be too. you donā€™t need me anymore.
so the galra rule is over and everyone goes to their respected planets
romelle and the other alteans as well as some galra babes hang in earth
romelle and shay r in an apartment together and have a garden
allura realizes she may not have been the strongest leader for voltron, andĀ  couldnā€™t stop zarkon on her own but that physical strength doesnā€™t define her as a whole
her heart is strong enough to care for everyone, so thats what she does
allura starts running an inn for alteans filled with painted sceneries like altea in case anyone ever needs a reminder of home
when lance reunites with his family its a real tearjerker
rachel finally gets her jacket back and veronica is like So.. Axca šŸ‘€
the McClainā€™s host a huge party for everyone and itā€™s filled with lots of hugs and loud music and even tho lance was way too tired, he danced all night
he wouldnā€™t trade his family for the worldā€”genetic and chosen
when hunk reunites with his parents they donā€™t let him out the house for hours, he tells them all about his new best friend shay as well as hundreds of his favorites stories from space
they are so, so proud of him
hunk spends the next days playing minecraft and animal crossing with pidge, giving their brains a rest from being on hyperdrive for 3 yrs straight
when pidge gets home she finally gets grounded by her mom, only being allowed to leave the house to see her old teammates
(same for matt and her dad)
(her mother cries so hard when they opened the door to the home)
the holt family holds movie nights filled with popcorn, cuddles, and tears
keith moves in with the holt family, and finally accepts that he has a home as well as a family
he often goes on trips with the BoM but mostly just stays on earth
after a Team Voltron sleepover in the altea inn keith and lance decide to get an apartment together and live their lives in love and in peace
everyone gets together once a year in celebration of shiro and the sacrifice he made for them
they use the ship to visit Astral Shiro and once they even met adam
everyone laughs and catches up and just... live their lives
everyone is happy
pls ignore any and all errors lmao
again, just a thought !! maybe iā€™ll write a fic abt it idk for sure but yeah
feel free to add anything <3
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littlebitoffanfic Ā· 5 years ago
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The Next Chapter - part 2
Fandom: Twilight Characters: Caius, Aro, Marcus Relationship: Caius/reader Request: The Next Chapter with Caius tho šŸ„ŗšŸ„ŗ can you do a part two plsss
Part 1: https://littlebitoffanfic.tumblr.com/post/190066940994/the-next-chapter
Ā No one could doubt you had taken to the vampire life well. Even Aro had been thoroughly impressed how you could deal with having humans close to you and still control yourself. You thought it was because you had always prepared yourself for this life, it was something that you knew and you knew the challenges that face you. That and you had something to work towards. Unlike most vampires who, after they are turned, feel lost and driven by their thirst, you had something more. walking through the hall ways, you pass Demetri who winks playfully at you. You roll your eyes and shake your head but laugh nonetheless. It was only playful and meant nothing more. Especially considering you were going to find the one who held your heart. Entering the throne room, you smiled when you saw all three of the leaders were on their thrones as a trial took place. Your power would prove most useful in the matter, where a vampire was accused of planning an attack. No one seemed to truly understand your gift, but it was useful and invaluable to the Volturi. You couldā€¦ receive and transmit data. It was the easiest way to describe it. If Aro saw someone he wanted in someone thoughts, you could take that image and give it to Demetri. If Marcus saw a bond he wanted broken, you could give that to Chelsea. You could pass messages between the group, allowing them to communicate with each other without anyone else knowing. Ā The best thing was your powers were silent. If you saw Aro give you a look, you could find out what he wanted and pass on his orders to the relevant vampire in the room. The downside was you couldnā€™t communicate your own thoughts. They couldnā€™t ask your options and hear your voice in their heads, so if you agreed with something, you would have to use the someone elses words or nod. The only other issue was you had to have eye contact with the individual. As a result, you stood to the side of Caius throne on the bottom step. It allowed everyone in the room to look at you easily and know when youre trying to get their gaze while also allowing Aro, Marcus and Caius to catch your eyes if needed. You found it funny that you were so close to the spot you were changed in. Walking around the vampire who stood in the centre of the room, you took your normal spot by Caius, your hands behind your back. There was a tenseness in the room in the room which you didnā€™t need a gift to feel. Looking to Caius, he was quick to fill you in. the vampire was here for going on a hunting spread in a large area and drew attention towards the world that the Volutri fight so hard to keep secret. You raised your eyebrows a little, not out of surprise but more judgment. Caius smirked, enjoying that you still kept so much of your physical quirks and traits despite the transformation. You looked to Aro, whos voice spoke in your mind as Caiusā€™ had. ā€˜I think I have reached my decision. Please check with my brothers if they share the same guilty verdict.ā€™ Even in his mind, he was polite. You looked to Marcus. ā€˜lets be done.ā€™ He agreed, his head lolling to one side in boredom. The to Caius. ā€˜tell Felix to end this. I am bored sharing you with everyone.ā€™ His thoughts made you smile, seeing his own twitch at the side of his lips. Looking to Felix, you passed on Aros words of ā€˜guiltyā€™ which meant one thing. Aro rose from his seat and walked towards the man while Felix grabbed both the mans hands and pulled them behind his back. With a foot on the vampires back, Felix braced himself as Aro took the mans head in his hands and in unison, they pulled apart the vampire. You glanced to Jane, who seemed happy with the outcome as she walked up to you. Ever since your change, you and her had grown incredibly close and she considered you a sister now. ā€œWill you be hunting with us tomorrow?ā€ She asked you. ā€œOf course. I wouldnā€™t miss it.ā€ You smiled with a nod. You preferred the thrill of the chase right now. When you were older, you might prefer to have it brought to you like Aro did, but for now, you were content hunting with Jane, Demetri and Felix. She smiled, happy with your answer as she turned and walk out of the room with his brother on her heels. Felix picked up the pieces of vampire and went to burn them. ā€œBrother, shall we go to the east wing? I believe there is a festival on and I wish to watch it from the tower.ā€ Aro stood, descending the stairs as he headed for the door as well. You saw the smirk on Marcus lips as he stood and followed, leaving you and Caius alone. ā€œperhaps, I should join you tomorrow.ā€ Caius spoke, causing you to twist to look at him in surprise. ā€œYouā€™ll come hunting?ā€ you clarified, unable to hid the hope and joy in your voice. He had never hunted with you before. In the beginning, it had strictly been Felix and Demertri to make sure you didnā€™t go too far or get out of hand. Then Jane and her brother. You ended up preferring to hunt with them but it wasnā€™t set in stone. ā€œI have yet to see you hunt. Plus, these walls grow dull after a millennia.ā€ He glanced at the stone walls which surround you both. ā€œIā€™d like that.ā€ You smile, walking up to him as he stood from his throne. However, you were taken by surprise when he all but pounced on you. His arms wrapped around your waist, pulling you tight against his chest as his lips pressed against yours. you moaned into the kiss, loving how it seemed like he couldnā€™t deny himself any longer. You still had trouble knowing if it was right to kiss him, and you wouldnā€™t have dared in the throne room of all places. But you were alone. he lifted you up easily but before you could wrap your legs around his torso, he sat back down on his throne. Ā You were straddling him, now kneeling on the throne with a leg either side of him. You felt a rush of adrenaline, if you could call it that now. ā€œCaius?ā€ you moaned, pulling back from the kiss as he smirked and pressed hot kisses down your neck, paying special attention to his bite mark which was still visible. You instinctively sucked in a breath, even though you no longer breathed. Oh, you knew what he wanted, and what you wanted. You couldnā€™t help but smirk, wondering what the other would think of such an act taking place in this very room. Not that they would care. It kept Caius happy, which had proven to be most beneficial. The others found him easier to be around, less aggressive and angry all the time and he was more likely to listen to reason. Unless your safety is a concern. He was fiercely protective of you. You gently ground against him, feeling how he was already hard. Caius snarled against your neck, making you feel a rush of arousal. You loved it when he sounded so primal. You ran your fingers through his hair, raking your nails lightly along his scalp as you smile. You were so glad you had worn a skirt today. His fingers moved from your hips to quickly undo the buttons of your shirt, knowing better than to rip it open when you both had to walk out of this room later. You took the opportunity to reach between you both. You grazed across his cock as you undid his trousers. Once he had access, he pulled your bra down to expose your chest just as you had reached in and freed his cock. You couldnā€™t help but subconsciously lick your lips as you used your other hand to reach between your legs and pull your underwear to the side. It took less than a moment to line yourself up with him before he filled you, making you let out a breathy moan. A growl escaped Caius chest as he thrusted upwards into you. You braced yourself on his chest, your eyes closing as you focused solely on him. You loved his distinctive smell of old books and expensive cologne. Ā  You loved how passionate he got during sex. It was the only time he allowed himself to show real emotion as his face twisted with pleasure. You loved him. You had asked once about it, and he told you that you were the only thing that made him feel alive. So during sex, everything is heightened to a level hes never experienced. And you couldnā€™t disagree with him. ā€œCaius.ā€ You moaned, your hands clutching onto his black robes to anchor yourself somehow as you found a steady rhythm that seemed to satisfy you both for the time being. One of his hands was on your hips, digging his fingers into your side as you rode him with the other rose to gently cup and grope your chest, making you moan at his touch. There were times where it was more primal. Like after Caius has fed, or when you get back from a hunt. Youā€™ll find each other and all but ripe off each others clothes. But Caius could be so sweet and gentle. Like after you had first used your ability in a trial to give Demetri the accomplice that Aro had seen in a traitors thoughts. Caius had felt pride and adoration for you, and you were worshiped by him that night. ā€œ[y/n].ā€ his voice made you almost moan in delight. You loved it when he said your name in lust. But it did mean that he was probably getting close. His hips snapped up to meet your own, encouraging a faster pace when you were more than happy to oblige since you were getting close also. you let go of his robes to cap his strong jaw and kiss him deeply. He fights you for dominance and quickly gains it as his hand leaves your breast to reach up and run his fingers through your hair. Once at back of Ā your head near your neck, he hold you down and keeps you from leaving his lips. You smirk into the kiss, loving his need. Ā  You felt your whole body tenses as your orgasm approached rapidly. You moaned helplessly as you clung to him, desperate for your own release now. You moan his name against his lips as if youā€™re begging for something before you feel the knot inside you snap and your orgasm claims you. Caius growls against you lips, snapping his hips up as he cums in you. If you were still human, you would probably collapsed on his chest, panting and exhausted. But thanks to the stamina increase of a lifetime, you pull back. You lift yourself up and allow Caius to redo his trousers while you get to work non the buttons of your shirt, thankful again he hadnā€™t ripped it open. He seems to melt when he looks into your eyes. ā€˜I love you. I love you so muchā€™ you thought to yourself. You would have told him, but perhaps not here. Caiusā€™ face drops as he stares at you for a moment. ā€œWhat?ā€ you ask, feeling a sense of dread at his sudden reaction as you pause on the top few buttons. Ā  ā€œI heard you. In my mind, just like when you project thoughts of others.ā€ Caius sat up a little straighter. He sounded a little unsure of himself, as if confused. And you couldnā€™t blame. ā€œWait, like my power? But I cant project my thoughts.ā€ You shake your head as you stand from his lap. He stands and you take a step back to allow him space to sort his clothes while you did up all but your top shirts button. ā€œI heard your voice in my head. Some insane statement about loving me.ā€ He chuckled, seeing your eyes widen as you realized he must be telling the truth. Love had never been said between you both. Sure, you were mates, and there was a strong bond there that even Marcus had said was stronger than any he had seen in a while. But never words of love. Your thoughts were just that: your own thoughts. ā€œi-I am sorry. i d-didnā€™t know you would-ā€œ you frantically try to think of what to say to him. You were panicking. What if this was too much for him? But Caius chuckled, walking up to you and cupping your cheeks in his hands. ā€œCalm down. As far as those feelings go, I return them wholehearted. I would have thought you would know that.ā€ He frowns a little in concern. ā€œI know. Its just, weā€™ve never said it to each other.ā€ You confess, feeling embarrassed that he had heard your thoughts. ā€œIā€™ll fix that then. I love you, [y/n].ā€ He speaks clearly and with authority as one of his hands brushes back some stray hairs. You felt your chest swell with excitement at hearing those words from him. ā€œI love you too.ā€ You beam at him, reaching up and holding his wrists with a gentle squeeze. ā€œI know.ā€ He smirks, gently tapping the side of your head before dropping his hands and descending the stairs. You race after him. ā€œSo, does this mean I can project to anyone? Or just you?ā€ You ask, your mind racing. ā€œI honestly donā€™t know. We can practice just us for now. I donā€™t need you thinking something intimate and Heidi or Demetri finding out.ā€ He grimaces and you giggle. They were the biggest gossips of the Volturi. ā€œWhich one of us caved first?ā€ You asked, causing Caius to halt and look at you, raising a quizzical brow. ā€œWith the whole ā€˜I love youā€™ thing.ā€ ā€œYou did.ā€ He smirks at you. ā€œBut you werenā€™t meant to hear. So technically you did.ā€ You point out. ā€œWhat does it matter?ā€ He shakes his head slightly. ā€œBecause, when Jane or Heidi find out, they will want to know.ā€ You tell him, nodding to the door as if they were on the other side. ā€œyou did. Besides, who would they believe. You or I?ā€ He smirks, challenging you. ā€œMe.ā€ You giggle, and you saw from his scowl that you were right. ā€œOr, perhaps, our bonds that strong that youā€™re able to hear my thoughts and I technically started it.ā€ your offer was met with a smile from Caius, who didnā€™t mind that idea. He was still a ruthless Volturi leader, so confessions of love werenā€™t really good for his image. ā€œFine. Shall we go watch the festivities?ā€ He offers you his arm and you loop your own arm through with a smile as he guides you out the room.
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chal-lelerc Ā· 5 years ago
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ok so like. hereā€™s my harry potter house thing. iā€™m ngl i tried to do this but then i deleted it bc it was getting too long and i didnā€™t have the attention span but. it kept sticking in my brain so i decided to pick it back up and as such, iā€™ve lost the original post but it was a quarantine activity (sort drivers into houses, assign quidditch positions, explain) posted by @verstappenedā€‹. houses done first, then positions, then explanations for both. i tried to make feasible teams, i.e making sure there arent too many of a single position per house, so this really screwed some of the sorting but oh well.
i did the houses first, then positions, then explanations in that order for the most part.
5/13/20: the sorting was mostly done before i heard all the differing opinions (of which there were many!)
5/19/20: alright so this is literally like 2 months old but iā€™ve just finished it lolol
Lewis Hamilton:
Slytherin: THE GLORY MAN. the aloof kind of superiority, confidence, is top dog, heā€™s simply the pinnacle of it all. kind of lethal and doesnā€™t do the whole ā€˜looking up to othersā€™ things (outwardly, but he seems very soft on the inside tbh). very majestic and is almost a gryffindor, the kind of slytherin that Merlin is. hard-working, got here from incredibly humble beginnings, which kind of stands out from the rest, but heā€™s clearly now at the top level of society. still very protective of Others. scarily ambitious. Was originally a gryffindor but I wanted the brits to be in different houses for their quidditch positions to work. Could honestly go either way though.
Seeker: more glory. periodt. he stays winning and scoring the most points. clutch-man. Speedy boy, kind of in a different world than everyone else when competing (heā€™s always at the front lifetimes away from everyone else lmao. playing a diff game.)
Valtteri Bottas:
Hufflepuff: HE SEEMS. LIKE. A. BIG. CHILD. always relegated and brushed off but is literally God-Tier and no one can convince me otherwise. i consider him to be rather reliable (reflecting only the 2019 season at least lmao). a bit of a vindictive streak bc he knows what heā€™s Capable Of even when others underestimate him. has a very bright smile.
Beater: have u seen him. heā€™s a big boy even though heā€™s 5ā€²8 and only an inch taller than lando norris he seems bigger than he is ok
Charles Leclerc:
Slytherin: this bitch. what a snake. hiss hiss.
Chaser: he wants what lewis hamilton has but chose the wrong position. still a star in his own right. pride and joy of his house, will be at the lead of every formation play unless told otherwise by his head of house, to which he will brood and complain ab but comply in the end bc he wants Team Success and loyalty to his Family. scores the most points on the team and people act like he carries even though he literally has a partner(s).
ok but fr my gut said charles is a slytherin (do i really need to explain why? very critical, doesnā€™t accept inferiority, somehow succeeds. just a feeling his brain seems to fit motorsport politics well), but i was seriously contemplating whether heā€™d be a gryffindor to maxā€™s slytherin instead. but then i saw someone mention the whole lion schtick and i was like for all of maxā€™s brattiness he is Gryffindor so sharl is snake. sorry donā€™t make the rules just follow them.
further edit: this was written before he started streaming (this is how old this draft is) and can u believe him heā€™s the epitome of the ā€œnot all slytherins r evil wenchesā€ idea
Sebastian Vettel:
Ravenclaw: idk for all of Sebā€™s goofiness he just seems cerebral to me. Seems to know mildly irrelevant facts and is really quite smart however is hopeless in the modern age. Kind of that wise old(er heā€™s not that old) man knowledge. Iā€™d trust him to give me all the life advice I need but also to write a 10 page essay on the nuances of the effect of emotion on verbal language (which we all know he is very experienced with).
Keeper: itā€™s the protective Dad Power.
Max Verstappen:
Gryffindor: WAS REALLY GONNA PUT HIM IN SLYTHERIN BC HEā€™S A NASTY LIL SHIT. TOTAL BRAT. GIVES FUCK ALL WHAT OTHERS SAY. BUT HE IS LION AND LION IS HE SO GRYFFINDOR IT IS. also just bc he needs to oppose sharl in every way possible itā€™s called Poetic Cinema. also his driving style is clearly the bravery and confidence to the point of recklessness that is prevalent among gryffindors.
Chaser: again, he must oppose Charles. so, not a seeker although heā€™s clearly singularly the most prized competitor. just like Charles, pride and joy of house, their star chaser. the comparisons never end. the competition never ends. the fighting never ends. one of the most interesting and dynamic performers to watch, is predictable in that heā€™s not predictable except that he will always be aggro to the max. will always be in trouble for getting rough bc thatā€™s Not His Job but thatā€™s just the gryffindor disregard for rules. master point scorer.
Alex Albon:
Gryffindor: was really a toss up btwn this and Hufflepuff but the ultimate deciding factor was the fact that I wanted all the British Boys to be seekers. he really just sticks it out as maxā€™s teammate like a real one (nothing against max, everything against Helmet Merco) for the good of the team, still is sweet with max anyway. fitting that theyā€™re in the same house too.
Seeker: heā€™s not the small boy that lando and lewis are but he is (thai/)British. very special boy (big ups on the promotion even tho it was Sad Times for Pear) deserves very special job. also he has a hot girlfriend (alex albon who i only know lily heā€™s boy toy) idk how thatā€™s relevant but it seems fitting.
Carlos Sainz:
Ravenclaw: bc heā€™s a spaniard but is still better at english than Lando (i think everyone is tbh). Seems to be a quiet type of smart, sensible, but perhaps this is just the consequence of being compared to Lanno at all times LMAO (no hate all love bby Lannd). would be the type of ravenclaw to follow his friends on absolutely idiotic ventures but would step in to prevent near death or likely-legal-problem causing actions (and only then; otherwise itā€™s every man for themselves and everyone is free to make a fool of themselves and break some laws. carlos may dabble in such practices.)
Chaser: seems to be a go-getter, not going for points doesnā€™t even cross his mind. will always be the one driving up the pitch, the strategist of sorts bc he seems big(ger) brain (than lando lololol).
Edit: I wrote this part ab him long ago but this entire section of this post is now irrelevant and canceled.
Lando Norris:
Hufflepuff: you all know why. zero explanation needed. like, none.
also has a bit of an aggressive streak which tends to catch ppl off guard. is not afraid to confront u (hello pageNO) and at times defies the hufflepuff stereotype of being perpetually happy go-lucky (he has his bad days!). but when with His True Crew he is absolutely a hufflepuff ball of energy.
Seeker: small and speedy. energetic to the max. small. quirky and different from the rest, so he gets the special job. small. everyone would kill to protect him. small.
Daniel Ricciardo:
Gryffindor: AW I DIDNā€™T EVEN REALIZE THAT I PUT HIM AND MAX TOGETHER. LOOK I EVEN MADE THEM BOTH CHASERS. AH HOW BIGBRAIN MY MIND IS. everything ab dan is gold. golden skin, the colors in redbull and renault, his smile, just the vibes. heā€™s just got the enthusiasm and charisma and this intensity of a gryffindor. super aggressive, his late breaking (from his rbr at least) is legendary and maddening with how he pulls it off. is almost a hufflepuff but the gut said no.
Chaser: is Maxā€™s teammate. so yeah. was obviously the star until younger max came to the show. a bit lost in limbo bc of it but they still work well together.
literally want to make him a hufflepuff so. bad. but i couldnā€™t split up maxiel. also his vibe is just different from other ā€˜puffs like stroll so.
Esteban Ocon:
Slytherin: ask max.
Chaser: being characterized off of their relationship with max seems to be a theme here. will go head to head with max w/ absolutely zero shits given. talented, but the rivalry with max is entirely secondary to charles imho. still yet to show his full potential but is still quietly a thorn in maxā€™s side. many are interested to see what he is able to do in the immediate future.
Pierre Gasly:
Hufflepuff: GUYS HE WANTS TO OWN A PANDA
Chaser: constantly trying to prove himself and score big boy points. had a stint as seeker until lando came along. did not do as well as ppl had hoped, returned to chaser and proceeded to crush it from there. praticed a lot with charles as children (the friendship dynamic w/ their houses was definitely unforseen but is amazing).
Daniil Kvyat:
Hufflepuff: really wanted to make him a slytherin but the quidditch positions didnā€™t work out. firmly believe this works though. more of the rough and tumble type, definitely the kind that will sock u in the nose if u write off hufflepuffs as a joke. could honestly probably be a gryffindor too with how unapologetically aggressive he can be in the name of His Beliefs. gives me big dumb himbo vibes now that i think ab it tbh which is mostly the justification here. also he has a child omg.
Chaser: but the one thatā€™s always headbutting bludgers out of the air (torpedo bitches). also had a stint as seeker before but it Was Not His Thing. heā€™d much rather be chasing and throwing things than seeking things. also heā€™s pierreā€™s mate :,) wouldā€™ve been a beater but romain and valtteri will not be anything else so daniil took the boot whoops.
Sergio Perez:
Slytherin: itā€™s just the vibe. knows his weaknesses and is able to make up for it with his confidence and talent in his strengths. very ambitious, plays the right cards at the right times to get the right results. something ab him puts me on edge, but like in a good way; i feel like thereā€™s always a trump card up his sleeve, like when he gets to q3 out of fucking nowhere in a racing point.
Keeper: he gives me the same vibes as seb idk what it is. very dependable, backbone of his team.
Lance Stroll:
Hufflepuff: guys have u seen the guy. heā€™s just here to have a good time. may seem a bit airheaded at times but he means well 99% of the time. untapped potential. seems like a no thoughts head empty canadian hockey boy (and every one of these types is a hufflepuff donā€™t fight it); may or may not be the only accurate description of him.
Chaser: heā€™s just trying his best out here. i
KEEPER?: SO I DID A QUICK GOOGLE AND HE USED TO BE A HOCKEY
GOALIE?????
so scratch my initial thoughts (tbh i didnā€™t really know where to put him and i originally had romain as keeper but thatā€™s an issue to fix later on now) BECAUSE LANCE STROLL IS A keeper GOALIE AND NO ONE CAN REFUTE THIS. ABSOLUTELY NO HUMAN OF THIS EARTH. WHAT GLORIOUS INFORMATION TO STUMBLE ACROSS.
Kimi Raikkonen:
Slytherin: guys i really donā€™t have an in depth analysis of this but i donā€™t think iceman needs one.
Beater: see above^. yā€™all must get the vibe.
tbh could also be a keeper tho similar energies to seb and checo, but honestly his no fucks given attitude is ultimately what swayed me
Antonio Giovinazzi:
Gryffindor: he just has that majestic quality (that could also fit a slytherin but i only see red when i see antonio). look at that lionā€™s mane. also heā€™s one of kimiā€™s to paddock friends? seems fitting that heā€™s a gryffindor to kimiā€™s slytherin.
Chaser: plays second fiddle to the duo that is max and daniel, often regulated to vibing on the side. but heā€™s there and heā€™s important and he has potential (iā€™ve been seeing ppl talking ab a ferrari move and iā€™m positively shaken). [edit: again, this post is old.]
im sorry its glaringly obvious idk much about him asdfjasldkd
Kevin Magnussen:
Slytherin: guys lots of these are just self explanatory sorry if i seem like im taking the cheap way out but itā€™s fact. brundle and crofty call him a great white shark for crying out loud.
Beater: unapologetically chaotic. lurking around the edges making people feel hunted. spends more time playing baseball in the middle of the matches than quidditch and sometimes it backfires but itā€™s good fun and it sometimes works.
Romain Grosjean:
Hufflepuff: yā€™all heā€™s such dad energy and he likes to cook. gets written off a lot but he actually cares (heā€™s a part of the grand prix drivers assoc.!). he seems so wholesome and he spends time with his kids and their school work when he can do u feel those water drops yeah those r my tears.
Beater: i really wanted to make him a slytherin beater to make him teammates with k-mag but heā€™s just. not a slytherin. but i kept the beater part. spends the majority of the hufflepuff v. slytherin matches sending bludgers kevinā€™s way even when he doesnā€™t mean to. itā€™s always reciprocated.
George Russell:
Ravenclaw: Iā€™VE SAID IT BEFORE AND Iā€™LL SAY IT AGAIN THIS KID. is so marvelously well spoken and he just has such a simple yet effective way with words. he knows whatā€™s reasonable to expect but never fails to expect the most that he can given his circumstances. again, mentioned this before but a lot of it is his accent. the glottal stop is a historically stereotypically rural (i.e. ā€œuneducatedā€) thing but Iā€™m American and I Donā€™t Listen to the Rules, so the accent just makes him seem so sophisticated to me especially when heā€™s saying things like ā€œhorriiiiiiiificā€ and presenting his hefty powerpoints.
Seeker: my British Boys Are Seekers headcanon continues. definitely a Golden Boy of the team kind of guy (hello tragic dumpsterfire that is williams :/ ).
Nicholas Latifi:
Hufflepuff: same boat as lance. his twitch streams are so wholesome heā€™s just chilling man. twitter made me write him off as daft and unnecessary at first but like fuck twitter iā€™m all here for ninky latvia now.
Chaser: lowkey gives me keeper vibes as well? the sensible, level-headedness. but obvs thatā€™s lance so chaser it is. still the level-headedness that helps him hold down the fort btwn pierre and daniil who can tend to get a bit imaginative, and also the energies of them + lando.
5/19/20: so itā€™s quite clear to me that i grew tired of brain functions the more time i took on this and the later ones are a bit lacking and for that iā€™m very sorry. that being said iā€™m still happy to see this finished bc the idea was VERY exciting for me.
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