#make me feel better🥴

[shecallsmemama-91]

My titties are in slight pain I need them sucked on badly all day if I could…. That sensation be the best 😎🥴🤤

[shadow0-1]

The shadows aren't your friend

[toastsnaffler]

genuinely so devastating to finish my flcl rewatch and pull up the tumblr tag confident that everyone else is also down cataclysmic for haruko and posting abt it but *crickets*

[bunnihearted]

🍰🥛

[curi0us-cherry]

You guys I have some crazy news!!!

Recently some of mine and my gf's friends who have been dating for forever decide to add a 3rd to their relationship and they were telling us the other day how much it has reinvigorated their sex life and brought them closer together.

So tonight, my gf and I had a long conversation about it and we both admitted that we are curious about non-monogamy, and y'all..............

WE AGREED TO OPEN OUR RELATIONSHIP!!!!!

(We kinda agreed to a more "don't ask, don't tell" type dynamic though, rather then committing to polyamory like our friends.)

I'm very excited though, I can't wait to see how this effects our relationship/sex life...

[your-average-gay-dork]

[aceofstars16]

Me: *feels like crap and doesn’t know why and trying not to let my brain get away with thinking it’s something bad and will just blow up horribly at some point*

My parent’s vibes: oh…she didn’t go to church again…😒

Me: ….this is not helping 🫠

[trashbaget]

tell me your failed/embarrassing flirting stories to make me feel better, i’ll go first: today i said “get out of my way” forgot to say “i’m kidding” then immediately said “bye”

[elektroyu]

I guess I'm struggling with a lot of depressed thoughts currently. Maybe not very surprisingly, considering all that's happened recently, and money/art issues always do that to me, especially if they're happening together like they are currently.

But I'm not sure what to do with this 😐 should I just watch it knowing it will pass at some point? Or try to somehow work around it (but how)? It doesn't help that I'm feeling a LOT of exhaustion on the one side, but also a lot of anxiety/ the need to be doing something to make everything better on the other. It doesn't work 😅 When I was younger I used to escape into books or anime or especially my own imagination, but with my illness all of this is very exhausting, and the imagination thing kind of shut down almost completely anyway over the years. Idk how to get that back. It's very frustrating to try and fail over and over. And today I caught myself thinking why even bother, which I find (slightly) alarming. Idk, maybe it's a somewhat normal reaction if so many things go wrong for so long 😅 and it's not that I'm in any danger of giving anything up, but maybe I should try to give myself a break? Just accept that my art simply doesn't sell for whatever reason, and not grind myself raw trying to force it to work? Maybe not even try to do or think about any art for a while, or take a break from the Internet altogether (although that would be even more lonely 😅). Maybe it could help? Idk.

I just don't knooooow 🥴🥴🥴 I wish I knew what do do about this, but maybe that's a thing that doesn't require me to DO anything, but rather for me to step back for a little bit and just watch. Or something.

I'm also considering shutting down my online shop for a while, simply just because it doesn't even pay for the cookie bot every month 🙈 and money is REALLY tight currently. I'm pretty bummed it didn't work as I imagined it even after almost a whole year, but I'm still proud of the thing just by myself. But if it doesn't work better than just the website where people need to actively send me emails if they want to commission something, maybe in this situation it's smarter to go back to that for the time being and wait for better days. (Or maybe I should just stop trying to monetize my art in the first place, but I probably can't bring myself to do it anyway 😂 )

It's like the more I try the worse it gets so maybe I just should sit down for a while and stop trying so hard 😅

[todayisafridaynight]

I may just be delirious but I kind of feel like there's something there about some of the most traumatic events in Arakawa's life arguably stemming from/being made worse by being loved too much.

Like, Toshio's death, right. The death of a parent is always always going to be traumatic, particularly when your other parent is abusive, but I feel like being there, being the first to the scene, made it so much worse. Especially when it should've been a good memory.

Non-zero chance I'm just projecting because I was there for my own father's death and I was around Arakawa's age at the time, but it's like... it did have very specific life-long effects, didn't it... the way he keeps coming back to Peking duck and talks about it like he's had it before when he can't even bring himself to eat it unless he's with family (and indeed, never did, up until right before he died)...

And then there's his former patriarch. Of course, he seemed to see Arakawa as more of an object--fully under his control and something to be thrown away at the first sign of autonomy. But I feel like, before then, Arakawa must've been his "favorite," if he was willing to arrange a marriage between his daughter and Arakawa. Which I expect is what made his reaction when Arakawa told him he was (technically) having an affair with Akane and wanted out of the family that extreme in going as far as to send men after Akane and Ichiban.

The last one I can immediately think of is not exactly traumatic for him, though it is traumatic For Me so I'm counting it, but it's of course what we were talking about with Jo hesitating so much at the thought of killing Arakawa that he passed up the chance to save him.

I Dunno I Am Delirious but... there's a pattern somewhere in there... Anyway. Uh. "Happy" Father's Day am I right

happy fathers day :]]]]

[pepprs]

you will never be too old to find someone for you. society puts a lot of emphasis on dating in high school or right after but in reality the number of people who stay in those relationships untill marriage is low. real life doesnt prioritize those years! you are never done meeting people who will love you and you will love too. there is no timer ticking down. 24 is not too old, i promise.

i know you’re right 😞😞😞 idk why i have issues abt this bc most of the ppl i spend time w / follow on inst*gram (where i saw that post 🥴) / etc are at least a couple yrs older than me if not decades and also in most cases didn’t meet their person until they were around my age or older so it’s like why not enjoy the ride and just trust that it’ll all fall into place bc ur teens and 20s are definitely not as stable or happy or whatever as they’re made out to be sometimes. i think i just need to stop looking at social media that isn’t tumblr and find a different counselor and learn how to drive 😭

[hopelessromantic-ghost]

Venus being a light sleeper, so when I wake up in the middle of the night getting that funny little hitch in my breath before i start crying, he’s already stirring awake and reaching for me. and then the moment he registers i’m crying, he’s suddenly bolting straight up like a bat out of hell and pulling me suffocatingly close in his arms and trying to talk to me so he can fix what’s upset me and and and 🥺

[stardustbee]

Letting Ayane call Maul 'Meistr' constantly when she's in her vampire form and trying to be EXTRA innocent 👀👀

[bunnihearted]

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[rennisaturate]

ok i am officially catching the eepies so i’m gonna head to bed and i’ll pop on tmrw 💗

[imwritesometimes]

I wish I could just get paid to make bundt cakes :/